#sorry but it's out of self preservation
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this purple stain wont get off my couch or pay rent wtf
[dont repost my art or ill put butter in all your socks]
#my art#dreamworks trolls#trolls 2016#trolls creek#trolls 1#trolls poppy#trolls branch#trolls cloud guy#hes my favourite unfortunately#he intruiges me#lil guy that goes full swing into self preservation in the face of death#and sells out everyone hes known and loved#i want to hydraulic press him#undescribed#i needa work on the image ids cuz holy shit theres so many doodles here bro#im so sorry to screen readers this is just a nightmare to describe
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He's a lil confused about cuffing season but he's got the spirit
#stardew valley#stardew harvey#sdv harvey#by spirit i mean the big boi vaccines#and maybe big boi ceterizine#doodle#the more you pass out in the mine the higher the medical bill#'sorry your insurance doesnt cover my early greying hairs i get for worrying about you dear farmer'#give me a sassy doctor#the sass/nagging about your poor self preservation is a love language
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uhh i got carried away. @put-me-out-of-my-destiny ty for the request, it was (too) fun.
[ID: Image one: Illustration of fem V in Eva's outfit, a black longsleeve gown with slits up the legs and shouders, high heels, and red shawl bunched across her arms. Her tattooed legs are visible through the gown slits. She stands on a ruined battlefield, book open in one hand and cane used in the other. Her expression is serious as she reads from her book. At her back is a translucent Eva, face turned away with hair and clothes billowing in the wind, as she reads from her spellbook.
Image two: Greyscale portrait of fem Vergil in Eva's outfit. She has a slicked back mullet and dark eyebags, and gazes aside seriously, hand at her chest. There is a hint of cleavage. Image three: The same portrait of Vergil, now with red accents (and less eyebags). She holds a rose close. It's bright red and alive, despite the seemingly wilting edges; the thorns send blood dripping down her fingers. Her lips are red; the lipstick's been smudged. End ID]
(a couple outfit alts under the cut (and white hair V)
[ID: The illustration of fem V, with white hair instead of black. End ID]
[ID: Illustration of fem V, sans Eva, and wearing the shawl the same way Eva does; draped over her shoulders and arms, with the ends coming down just past her knees. End ID]
[ID: Illustration of fem V with white hair and no shawl. End ID]
#dmc#devil may cry#v dmc5#dmc vergil#v dmcv#. the idea of Vergil's humanity/Vergil being a lady compels me. where's the timeline where Vergil embraces being a beautiful goth woman...#this was going to be a doodle until I got very invested in making it look cool.#In the back of my head I've wanted to redo this idea for a bit#ok its just many many sleepy rambles from here on in the tags look away if you're not here for that#I fussed about what sort of tone to depict this at first. Eva's likeness. shackles or a point of pride?#was very happy about the split connection between V's book and the idea of Eva as a witch#like yeah. you're your mother's daughter.#:] also the idea of V walking in to DMC looking eerily like Eva#and then pulling out a spellbook and a similar moveset too#is fun. V trying to be 'unvergil' and then smacking Dante in the face with deja vu again and again and agai#...at first i was kinda iffy on getting rid of the sleeves so V's tattoos could be seen. :] but then I saw the gown slits and all was good#vergil.. i'm sorry i gave you a mullet. i tried to compromise between doing something new and preserving the slicked back look.#maybe in the case Vergil transitions she just experiments a lot#she has a body back after decades! she can exercise all her autonomy and growing sense of self. it would be fun#ok gnight
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I like Kuniharu as a character but not as a person
I think Kuniharu is funny because he's a pathetic loser, and I LOVE pathetic loser men. That's my thing! But genuinely, in real life he would be infuriating, and he's absolutely meant to read as a shitty parent.
He honestly reminds me of this guy:
He's so pathetic that you sort of feel sorry for him, and his shittiness comes from insecurity.
Kuniharu feels insecure because both his sons are more intelligent and/or powerful than him, and he expresses his resentment over this by projecting and constantly insisting that Kusuo is an asshole who looks down on him (which is kind of a self-fulfilling prophecy, since the way he acts due to his own insecurities only makes him seem more pathetic in Kusuo's eyes). He even talks about how much he wishes he could beat the shit out of Kusuo in front of his friends (I can't remember if that happened in the anime but it was in the manga) and when Kusuo turns small that time his first instinct is to kick him over to show that he's "the bigger man". The extreme jealousy he feels over his own sons is... really messed up, to be honest. He feels the need to be above someone because deep down, he feels inadequate.
This sort of person totally exists in real life. He's the manipulative husband who won't take accountability for things even as he apologises ("You stole my coffee jelly but then I smashed all the windows in the house, so we're BOTH to blame"). Like Toritsuka, the joke with Kuniharu is usually that he's a slappable guy who gets his ass kicked.
Obviously he has his good moments as well. There are times when he gives Kusuo genuinely good advice (like in the surprise party episode) but that's the thing! Even the most violently abusive person will have their good days, and someone who's just generally a bit shitty isn't going to be shitty all the time. He's a human being with lots of different sides to him!
This is a bit of a ramble, but I just see Kuniharu getting polarised quite a lot where people will either say he's an evil abusive asshole or they'll say he's perfectly fine, so I wanted to put in my two cents.
#idk why in fandom people always have to be “one of the good guys” or “an irredeemable villain”#like what if. what if they're just a bit of a shitty person.#those exist#I actually read a fanfic of him once where he was just absolutely evil but in a really pathetic way where he was acting totally out of fear#and self-preservation#and I feel like that's actually really in character. If he did an awful thing it would be because he was afraid and selfish#kuniharu saiki#character analysis#sorry this is all over the place and not structured at all#I just wanna talk about this loser what can I say
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alignment chart based on new abbott elementary episode:
child smoker: leo
literally vapes: annabeth
smokes weed every night: piper
protein bar edibles: jason
hookah head: frank
demolishes those little bottles of chardonnay: reyna
cbd oil for joint pain: percy
bathtub blunts: hazel
#percy is relatively the most straight edge#couldn't figure out where to put nico so i left him out sorry nico#leo and annabeth become friends when she loses her vape on a quest and he builds her a new one#(PURELY an act on self preservation on his part)#leo valdez#annabeth chase#piper mclean#jason grace#frank zhang#reyna avila ramirez arellano#percy jackson#hazel levesque
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I am kind of not seeing Armand wanting to kill Louis. This would be far too out of character for me to ever beleive. I'm thinking he was doing whatever he could to live in his definition of survival, or at least doing all this to maintain his bubble of control. The whole coven was against him, and I do legitimately believe Armand was oblivious due to love. Then when push came to shove he did make his choice, he did rehearse and go along with the play despite his feelings and his wants. Not out of character for someone who's used to being needless or same that he flood with emotion the moment someone [louis] actually cares about his needs. Or maybe more believable is that this plot - some version of it - started way before his feelings were ever real and this was a choice of following through with it. Under threat likely, him still not realizing the extent of the coven's desire for bloodlust. Him, maybe being misled to believe they'd hold off long enough to let it go if Louis was proven to simply stay with him. Maybe if it was his idea to begin with, and in this scenario he'd at least have been there when this was being thrown around, perhaps he really thought his power and ruling would dissuade its reality. And then the ball drops.
He didn't want to kill Louis, is my point. If he did he'd have done it way sooner, and he wouldn't have let him exact any kind of revenge. Though Claudia, Madeleine, I could see, but I also don't think by the time they're running off together he would want the alternative either. If anyone wanted this it was the coven. So, it's not a matter of wanting to Armand but choosing to do this despite that. The real question therefore is: Why would he choose to go forward with it/go along with it? That's what I think we need to be asking.
Is it that he makes the choice that he does, because it's easier to submit than rise up? It is because the choice really wasn't a choice at all? Was it practical to him? Don’t run to one thing when this other thing is guaranteed to stick around? Was he in too deep to back out by the time he thought it mattered whether they live or die? Much can be delved into there. Trying to figure out why he wanted it isn't going to bring up anything.
#iwtv spoilers#disclaimer: I'm not defending his choice and he got what was coming for him it was an awful thing to do#this is messy sorry#I don't think Armand was planning to fall in love I think he did and then he ends up regretting it because there's no way out that he can c#Wanting in part to preserve his coven somehow managing them while also wanting only louis and#There is an aspect about how the trial does sort of enact a kind of resentment fantasy for Armand onto Lestat though But I think STILL by#the time the trial is happening and it's been planned for a long time Armand's feelings drastically are NOT about his slight against#Lestat at all which would be a main motivation BUT it just cycles back to that when#Ending up with Louis does have to build back more resentment for Lestat so I almost see ep 5 as yet another resentment fantasy#Mostly cause he's a bit self interested in this#I also theorize armand and lestat had worked out privately that Louis would live Or Armand planned for Lestats hurricane to intervene
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so I impulsively entered an online secret santa earlier this month, because I wanted to maximize the amount of gifts I'd get (I already get a ton IRL) and knew that flattering both My gifter and giftee would almost definitely result in praise for Myself (or at least a quietly maintained reputation of kindness), but SURPRISE SURPRISE I've spent years on crip time and that didn't suddenly change. so I had until christmas to submit it and I JUST finished it on christmas eve.
but who cares. like I said, I don't care about being "productive" or "upstanding" or the like, so submitting work last minute isn't inherently a problem for Me (glances at the pile of months-old, willfully ignored schoolwork in My room).
the problem, however, is that I spent all of this time--thus building up the public expectation that it'd be great--and the final product basically looks like this:
#personal#I swear I believe everything I do is great (which I'm sure I'm right about because everyone else agrees with Me)#but visual art is the one thing I'm self-conscious about#imagine waiting all month for a gift and the person keeps going 'I'm working on it!! I'm working hard!! I'm almost done!!'#and it comes out as an off-model drawing of your second-favorite character with no background and unrealistic shading#TBF My own secret santa's work was sorta wonky too but I actually really appreciated it for the heart and effort#so maybe I'm just being too self-critical. if an entitled bitch of a narc can appreciate subpar work a 'normal' person can too#REGARDLESS I need to find some way to lessen the blow. preserve My reputation just in case#I don't want to go too far into pity-farming like 'oh I'm sorry for sucking I'm malnourished'#so perhaps just citing some vague difficulties or a generic 'sorryyy I've never drawn him before' (which is true) would do the trick#I just need to find a way to make sure I'm not seen as totally fucking incompetent here
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These days I only post when I'm drunk. You're all in luck today
#tbf I am slowly replacing bad with good habits. I just need a social life outside of Tumblr#but my CPTSD exacerbated over the last few years has left me angry and picky when I'm not drunk#anyone I stayed in touch with from CT is my favorite. My friend groups here either moved or I isolated myself from them#out of misplaced self-preservation#I want to go back to those good people and play a song I wrote for them. At least to say I'm sorry it's me. I might not change my mind#but you're good and I respect you. Just one group could never fit all my needs and never has. And I think that's normal#I just used to have like 4 groups
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re: lin lie death post -- kind of hard to have a normal relationship with death once you've died I feel like? but yeah even before then he was very weird about it. kind of ties into his whole extreme loyalty thing a little I think. he's not about to let something silly like a healthy fear of death stop him from his quest.
YES I'm so glad you brought up his extreme loyalty too i think about it every day... there comes a point in his story where his loyalty outweighs his cowardice and eventually it kind of just. consumes him. like his wellbeing doesn't matter anymore because he knows he's the only one who can carry out his duty. he has no relatives, no one who his ancestors accept, so he takes that as a sign to give it his all (and maybe being resurrected once did a few things to his head that made him believe that his ancestors won't let him die either until he finishes the job)
#the summaries and articles can say he got close to death all they want#but he passed out likely from the impact of hitting the water and ended up in kun lun i dont think you can just survive that#i like that you can see him slowly losing his self preservation throughout each book until it culminates in him dying#he's a lot... also that bit where he fears his friends dont want to see him after he literally died for them#and his lack of fully addressing things in his life and instead going 'guess that's happening to me now'#idk where i was going again sorry for hijacking this WAH#lieblogging#asks#marvelblogging
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pov: your baby brother is a Weird Little Guy™️
#YES I KNOW IM NOT USING POV CORRECTLY HUSH AKSJAKDJJE#i got his permission to post this with the caveat that I explain that it went a little differently#i just didn’t want to draw it cause perspective is not my strong suit (obviously)#anyway. i was rounding the corner calling out for him#couldn’t find him anywhere#and all of a sudden this idiot (affectionate) jumps out of a doorway brandishing like. 5 steak knives#so like any reasonable individual I shrieked and tried to bat him away. forgetting that he had knives. and they were facing upwards#anyway I almost slashed my hands with my own stupidity#and then afterwards this bisexual disaster turns to me and goes. ‘yeah I knew u we’re gonna try to attack me’#‘so I turned the knives down as soon as u came close. u have zero self-preservation instinct’#and yknow what. he’s right. unfortunately.#i Drew this rly quickly — sorry it kinda is all over the place lmao#not good omens#shitpost#my art
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i have been home alone all day so I drew a lot of shit and I'm gonna post it all at once
#i have no self preservation skills#and i have adhd#i could space it out#casue ✨algorithm✨#but i'm not gonna#so deal with it how you wish#i guess#sorry
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god. one thing i LOVE about amir that he has no self preservation. i was thinking abt the episode GIRLS. specifically the moment where the 2 girls at the bar say amir looks better but amir is like - “um no its obviously jake ur wrong” and jake agrees…
it got me thinking…. Thinking about how much amir is willing to take for himself vs how much hes willing to go for jake, yknow? like amir gets mad sometimes when he perceives an “insult” but its not bc hes defending himself as much as he is acting out. but amir actively DEFENDS jake when it comes to some traits he doesnt even TRY to defend in himself - his looks(girls as mentioned, and subtle comments like Swag where hes like “i only hang out with the hottest guys”)… how people address jake (like in Ice Breakers, Bitcoin, jake’s sick). there are exceptions to defending jake but to me those arent really about something like jake’s personality/looks that he cant change, and more a reaction about how he treats amir (trust fall 2) or jake acting like J-Witz for other ppl (some insecure jake eps, esp the recent ones)
And for the most part he plays along with Jake being the better one of the two. Ace and Jocelyn… hes the SIDEKICK. “You consider me dumb!” In normal conversation. Going along with being the Troll Named Rod in Tiny Wings. APOLOGIZING TO JAKE IN CORDUROY PANT. In Table Read where ALL his main characters ARE JAKE…!! Small things like that. He KNOWS and WILLINGLY ACCEPTS his role as being the guy who gets beat up and looks like shit to everyone else because who CARES about their opinions when ONLY jake’s matters??
in a weird way, he’s entirely selfless. amir doesnt do things for the benefit of himself. like yeah. he has murderous tendencies. he hurts people. but all of it is either for attention (mainly to be able to tell a story to Jake), random insane urges(<3), or a form of like??? overdoing stuff which self sabotages him????? Which he’s aware of vaguely????
its just… amir holds such little value on his own appearance, life, and wellbeing to the point where he just doesn’t consider he matters. him being hurt and betrayed is another tuesday. But he would defend jake no matter what. because jake doesnt DESERVE that. and whys that? its because amir LOVES him. because amir loves jake and that CLEARLY means he deserves everything. all his self love goes to jake. even if it hurts him in the long run or makes him look dumb. yknow. because whatever. who cares. EVERYTHING hurts anyways and whats another day hurting himself??? And that fucking makes me INSANE.
#mirmir#jamir#thoughts within thoughts#long post#HE MAKES ME FEEL THINGS .#god. i love amir so much as a character. hes so WERIDLY romantic and sweet even tho hes the#WUOTE UNQUOTE worst ever man ro ever man#HES SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO#UGH#hes just so good i love character w no self preservation#sorry for writing an essay on mirmir i will do it again<3#you know im insane about a characrter when i start posting 2AM essays#i havent done this since grif and stan#this is a category 7 blorbo event.#laying awake at noght staring at the ceiling just thinking about how raw and unfiltered amirs love for jake is#its genuinely an unstoppable force of nature#like he CANNOT help it.#thats why i LOVE breakfast date. He just cannot contain himself st even the PROSPECT of eating next to jake#GOD. HES SOOOOO. FUCKKKKKJ )rips my hair out)#HES FOR ALL THE PEOPLE THAT WERE ‘TOO MUCH’ BECAUSE THEIR EMOTIONS
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Controversial but maybe not every Jancy moment is actually about *gunshots*
#I'm sorry#really I am#but I'm just so over it#iykyk#fandom snark#i'm not tagging this further out of a sense of self preservation
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"found you." it was a low whisper that pierced through the dead of night. stood amidst the living room, within shadows that not even the moon could illuminate, was he. the man whose name gaia never wanted to utter in front of chiyo. but he was faster in making himself known . . . invading private spaces with ease, staring at the other with eyes born of hellfire. "you reek of her. have you two gotten that close?" his voice was mocking, a sick chuckle falling from his lips before he phases in & out of smoke to invade personal space. "now, don't scream. we don't want this to get messy, do we?" & he grins before tilting his head to the side. "keep away from her, you understand? if you don't . . . i might just have to get really mean. and we wouldn't want that, right? you have such a peaceful life . . . don't want it ruined, hm?" ( from caspian, for chiyo )
unprompted | @vonerde attempts to coerce chiyo!
the late hour and lack of sleep make the experience all the more jarring. her mind races to make sense of the stranger standing amidst unnatural shadows and how he's able to get so close so quickly. of course she's scared -- who wouldn't be frightened when a stranger invades their home? but a colder sliver of fear wedges itself within chiyo's chest as it sinks in that this is clearly one of the people after gaia ( surprisingly, it's all for the goddess, that fear -- what will happen to her? what does he want with her? chiyo doesn't want to see her hurt or worse ).
for some reason, a person is much scarier than some monster.
yet chiyo glares up at the man as he threatens her. as stupid as it is to reply with obstinate defiance, she does it anyway, pushing down her fear. she thinks of that day she discovered the truth, the way her heart stuttered as she watched gaia fight, the words she spoke to goddess in her cottage. chiyo thinks of how she feels when she's with gaia, of the desire to protect her that flares bright like the sun as this man grins down at the mangaka. he must think she'll shrink before him, abandon the goddess if it means living another day. humans are fickle like that, no?
if she weren't sure it'd land her in more trouble than her mouth, she'd punch him ( see if he's still smiling then; like hell she's being pushed around by someone, magical entity or not ).
" does that little speech usually work? " chiyo asks. thankfully her voice doesn't waver, sounds unimpressed as she crosses her arms. " you started out strong, but you lost me at the end. my life hasn't been peaceful for a while, and however mean you can get, i'm sure gaia can match it. " she mockingly tilts her head just as caspian had earlier, returning his grin with a sharp smile. " is that why you wanted to scare me into cutting ties with her? so you can hurt her without angering her? "
the implication of cowardice hangs heavily in the air. chiyo holds her breath but doesn't back down. if she dies tonight ( her stomach drops but this possibility is nothing new -- it just has a face now ), she hopes to make the experience as unpleasant for this man as possible. chiyo might not have powers, but she has teeth; she cannot fight like a god, but she can bite like a dog.
#vonerde#ASDFGHJHGFDS I'M LOSING IT VEEEEEE#caspian said: wouldn't it be terrible if i ruined your life : )#and chiyo said: lmao pls try if you wanna evoke a goddess' wrath <3 be my guest and get wreckt <3 i'll die before i leave gaia <3#honestly i'm clapping my hands so loudly -- wincing at what caspian's reaction might be -- but AHHHHHHH you know???#the anger and utter defiance he managed to bring out of chiyo is absolutely delicious and so entertaining like buddy pal#you're going at this the wrong way!! chiyo's too loyal to be scared away!! you gotta threaten her loved ones or something my guy!!#self preservation?? chiyo's never heard of that sorry ASDFGH#truly your ask grabbed me by the throat so thank you so much vee!! <3#interactions | chiyoko#a chain reaction in your heart | adulthood | chiyoko
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actually if i'm going to be misinterpreted when i say a villain whom i still consider fucked up and evil has some redeeming qualities that he CHOSES not to act on and therefore it showcases even more his own agency in his own villainy because he made himself this way, misinterpreted into getting read as "so you think he's a good guy?", might as well embrace it. why do i bother writing long posts trying to showcase specific scenes or connections i've made.
actually yeah i think villains who bring the apocalypses and are evil and kill people for fun did nothing wrong in their entire life and we're just too mean with them. why bother making an effort.
#ichasalty#ichatalks#SORRY ILL TONE DOWN THE SALT EVENTUALLY BUT GAAAAAAAAAAAA#if i don't let the rage out now i'll have a terrible night trying to sleep#it's self preservation
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#sorry friends but the facts are that floppery notwithstanding redbull racing have absolutely no impetus to replace checo midseason#they'd probably have to pay him out and mr max verstappen has already proven he can lead the constructors himself#and no self-preserving dr3 girlie should wish that omegatauri upon their guy#i do tho! it'd be funny
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