#sometimes ppl just stop tho
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tis the season !
#the charcuterie board was devoured and ppl rly loved the cookies and the dates r usually popular#and the baked brie too!!!#and then ppl brought their own assortment of treats and drinks as well#i rly enjoyed my blackberry orange drink personally#my gf’s friend does really beautiful pottery and all the food she brought was in her gorgeous homemade pieces#was so fun i love feeding ppl and making things look pretty and festive#my gf did the insane lettering on the drink menu#and decorated so cutely#and then we all went to the halloween event at the amusement park afterwards and it was fun and cold and misty#and i mostly sat outside of haunted houses while they walked thru them haha#i struggle rly rly bad to recover from being startled and sometimes it just. turns into a panic attack even if im not like Scared?? idk#it’s stupid my body just can’t distinguish real danger from fun danger very well#but they had these “’no boo”’ necklaces i could wear so actors would then just interact w me nicely and creepily instead of jumping at me#which was still fun :-)#bummer tho i hate being mentally illlllllll#and rly embarassing bc the necklaces lit up rly bright so it was like i was wearing an im-a-weenie beacon#lolll#also shoutout to my mutual who recognized me while i was waiting for my friends and stopped to say hi LMAO that was crazy#won’t name names so i don’t dox u#but i’ve never been recognized from tumblr before was a very i like your shoelaces moment😭😭😭#top 10 most embarassing things to happen to me ever but thanks for saying hi !!!#personal
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i hate when i see a good opinion on my dash and go to check op’s blog to make sure they aren’t a nazi or anything before i follow them and there’s just so much racism, antisemitism, and/or transphobia from like a week ago
#queuing this for a time in the future so ppl don’t know what post this is about#honestly tho its annoying can u guys just stop acting like arab ppl jews and trans ppl (sometimes specifically trans men or women) r#victimising u personally by *checks notes* existing in a way that offends u#cant follow anyone new these days except exclusively fandom bloggers bcz everyone on this site has an “i’m the only victim” complex#ryan shut the fuck up
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Gonna say it again, "Just stop consuming the genre" is THE WORST POSSIBLE RESPONSE to someone complaining about the lack of representation in their preferred genre!! And "Consume other stuff too" is not much better!!! I don't care how much you think varying media consumption is a Good and Holy lifestyle, not everyone wants to do that! There is no obligation to do that and there should not be! Because it's fucking entertainment. It's not a college major.
And! And and and. I would be remiss to not point out that when you tell someone, "If you want well written (minority) just get out of (genre fandom)" you are, regardless of your motivations, rhetorically aligning yourself with the exact same bigots who just want the pro-representation crowd to shut up and go away.
#I don't know how people can say “shonen is written for teen boys so obviously you're the idiot for wanting good rep from it”#as if teen boys don't also deserve stories with well-written diverse casts??#as if the poor reactions they often have to diversity are just inherent to their boyish nature and not a result of a widespread lack of rep#as if diverse casts in popular media aren't A PROVEN WAY to reduce implicit biases against groups of people on a very large scale#you people are dogs. how can you unironically say “this genre was made for teen boys so everyone else should stfu and gtfo”#and not immediately see that you've just aligned yourself with the actually bad people in the fandom#these stances also perfectly miss the point of “I love this genre and want to see a flaw in it corrected” because they are overwhelmingly..#...written by people who do not love the genre in question and are not interested in loving the genre#like yeah ultimately I understand that most of these posts don't give a true shit about helping people find rep in media#their main purpose 99% of the time is to publicly gloat about their supposedly superior media fixations#It's a real autism on autism violence (internet style) so I find it contemptible in a way that pulls all the muscles of my face downwards#“haw haw read another book (the ones I incidentally find engaging) and stop reading your dumb idiot books (the ones you find engaging)”#you can actually shut up tho that's the thing#you can just not say anything and make the world a better place Luigi Marioparty style#it's a wonderful strategy to use#if you've read through all these tags then 1. I thank you and 2. I have a little request if you're willing to give me more thought & time:#try to pay close attention the next few times you're talking about broad media fandoms which you aren't a part of#watch those little twinges in your chest and ask yourself#“is what I'm saying true? do I actually know enough to say that? what is the point of what I'm saying here? what do I want these ppl to do?#I think we all get caught up in Media Gloating sometimes#if you find that your thoughtless comments become concerning after you put thought into them#maybe it's time to not make them#or to even (as a totally random example) make a post arguing AGAINST those comments#because guess what? your bad take there was probably not yours alone; I'd wager 1000 other similar people have made similar takes#but they're not all gonna reflect on that unprompted; that's where you can come in#shonen#lgbtq representation#female representation#representation in media#queer representation
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everytime i actually open up sdv to play i get flashbanged with sebastian's white ass sprites because i always forget not everyone sees him as wasian💔 my current hc for him is half chinese (liable to change... but ik for sure he's half asian) but he is Not bilingual he can't rly speak or write the other language he can only understand it when listening but even then he's not very fluent LOL this is just turning into a sebastian hc post might as well go full out. to me sebastian Does have relationship experience but has been thru shitty ones in the past which is part of the reason why he's so pessimistic & brooding </3 and he'd hook up with ppl in zuzu city for a night for a while but it just made him feel shittier so he's stopped since ☝️ also people make him out to be way cooler than he actually is like yea sure he's kinda cool but he's also a Massive Loser especially when he tells you how he hates "seasonal fads" like pumpkin spice and that one line about the potluck soup where he's like "Why ruin the potluck? Hmm... I guess some people feel liberated when the rigid structures of society break down a little. Maybe I'm weird.” WHO ASKED😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 his ass also can NOT cook he can make spaghetti but it's mid. he probably has low ass stamina and yeah he's tall and lanky (rn i see him as around 5'9-5'10) but you could snap him in half over your knee. when he's in an actually healthy relationship he gets really flustered over certain romantic gestures cuz he's not used to feeling valued or being considered someone's #1. he picks up on little things and does acts of service but i also think he can be really callous and insensitive at times because while he can be pretty perceptive he is also Very Emotionally Stunted. he unlearns lots of unhealthy behaviors & mindsets with the help of his partner & family & friends ^__^
#i almost popped a vein trying not to mention rowan in all of this so this post is more. consumable i guess#but rowan to me is soooooo perfect for him to me because rowan's whole thing is empathy and warmth#where it's a strength but also a weakness for him because he's also a chronic people pleaser and a doormat#out of the need he feels to make people feel valued which is a good thing but not when its to the point of self negligence#rowan gives rly good advice but overburdens himself cuz he feels responsible for ppl&doesnt give himself the same treatment he gives others#when he's with sebastian he helps him feel valued and sebastian learns to trust people more and not to immediately assume the worst of ppl#and seb is sooooooo perfect for rowan bc seb is vocal about what he dislikes and when hes not happy w something/one#and is good at setting boundaries whereas rowan is Not. he helps rowan learn how to say no to ppl and be more assertive#& think abt his own feelings more! they both help e/o vocalize their feelings#for rowan its vocalizing his opinions more and valuing himself more & for seb its vocalizing more for the sake of better communication#w other ppl so he can establish better trust & relations w ppl. and stop being so closed off/unapproachable LOL#their differences match up well but it also leads to arguments/tension cuz seb doesnt communicate and resorts to avoidance#and rowan is too pliant sometimes to the point where it hurts not just himself but the ppl around him including seb#also fun fact rowan is the type to cry when he gets really angry/upset & when seb resorts to avoidance instead of reassurance#(which is what rowan wants) rowan sometimes ends up catastrophizing & also bottles up his emotions similarly to seb#they always reconcile in the end tho even if it takes a while </3 they r both learning ok!!!!!!!!#not perfect to the point where they dont argue bc thats Impossible but they suit each other well. they r good for each other qwq#eon babbles#stardew valley#farmer rowan#<- i talk about him in tags. hehehe
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We need to start treating bad writing like bad art and im not kidding
#now theres a lot more nuance to this#because “bad writing” is SUPER general#so i have to add a disclaimer#i dont mean propoganda. i dont mean biased and biggoted#i mean writing decisions u dont like!#ppl are very quick to just sit there and shit on writers#its okay to not like an ending. its okay to not like how a character was treated#and its okay to be mad about it if u like them very dearly#but at the same time sometimes we're a little too mean.#and sometimes they deserve it#but sometimes it's a little mean#this is. in truth. because of the lumine ending#on webtoon#its pissing me off how ppl are getting super upset and being rude to kabu#even tho so many ppl are explaining its because she grew out of the story. she didnt have passion for it anymore#she gave us an ending! you dont have to like it but stop acting like just because she COULD write more that she HAS to write more#art is tiring. sometimes you lose passion for it. sometimes you dont do it perfectly#sometimes your idea of good isnt the same as someone else's#i dont like romance for example. several tropes will turn me off it#but some ppl do#sometimes you make a pretty shitty plot or make plot holes#and yeah those arent super great to read!!! but a story is an art. its all different#its not all good and its not all bad#its made from a persons head therefore it'll reflect a person in a way#i just think its important to remember that writers are not machines#artists and writers aren't actually as different as everyone treats them#we're all making art. we're all making mistakes. i just think we should be a little nicer about it#its okay to criticize. but can we be nice about it#also i dont like the “professional author” argument#picasso was a famous artist his paintings are in meuseums and there's still people who don't like his art. i dont think its fair to go
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Jilly gets in staring moods when shes happy and likes someone. like she'll just be LOOKING at you. for like. 6 minutes at a time. just be looking. shes usually not aware shes doing it/thinks shes sneaky/actually is sneaky. Mostly if u ask her wtf shes doing shell be like *panicked* OH just spacing out hahahaha ha. ha. anyway. But if u already know shes a weirdo and she feels comfortable being weird she'll be like "looking at u :)" no further explanation. real "i just think youre neat" energy.
#like u know how sometimes animals will just stare at u when they love u a lot. she gets that way#could also be the staring at you for a long time bcs she percieves u as a threat or wants to attack u. u can tell by her face tho#jilly#shes rly gotta stop staring at ppl tho. jilly youre being weird again. stop it#if u feel ferret eyes boring into ur head its either that she rly likes u or she rly hates u. one of the other
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Art challenge: color a characters hair without making the parts that should be in shadow / shaded / darker than the rest of the hair a lighter color instead.
Difficulty level: IMPOSSIBLE
#idk. when I started doing this. but once I started I never stopped. I can’t stop#I cannot shade hair normally I CANNOT make the behind the neck under ear area a darker color I CANT#I USED TO BE ABLE TO BUT NOW I CANT#even acknowledging it as a thing I do I still.. can’t#it’s always gotta be lighter#there is always some mysterious bounce light or spotlight shining upwards on the character or thru there hair iDK#there is no physical sense behind it I think I just saw other ppl do it thought it looked pretty and started doing it myself#and. I still think it looks pretty ! but also! I think it’s probably holding me back!#like surely there is a time and a place for this pretty thing and maybe that time isn’t ALWAYS#at myself… ghghg my refusal to think hard about lighting is one of the things I get disappointed about w my art a bit#like… I can sit there like. wow.. almost all my pictures have nebulous unclear lighting. maybe I should work on that#and then I do not ever work on that#I used to do lighting pretty well when I was younger but know a days I typically dont…#le sigh. it’s whatever tho#either I’ll eventually buckle down and get out of my comfort zone and try doing good clear lighting that makes sense#or I won’t! I’m not a professional artist me not being the best lighting doesn’t actually matter lol#pepper words#I mean. I think sometimes I have managed to color hair with the underside shaded recently. but it rlly is not the norm for my art#typically it mostly only happens if the character has a light base hair color. if they have a darker base hair color.#9 times out of 10 that shit is getting under lighting / nebulous highlights from nowhere lol
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i hate sriv so much it’s unreal
#sorry sometimes i need to be a hater for a minute#i love my friends who love it and i understand why so many people love it but this game makes me see red#i’ve never in my life ever shut off a game mid-mission bc the dialogue/writing was so unbelievably bad i just had to stop playing#again even tho the reboot’s writing was bad it had the advantage of new characters—#—and not characters i’ve gotten to watch develop and care for over several games#it makes a world of difference if i’m watching new characters i don’t know be badly written VS returning faves be badly written#i’ve very purposefully held myself back when talking about it bc i know a lot of ppl love it#but do not underestimate my ability to tear this game apart
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fic writer ask game: 20 and 23?
Thanks for sending in an ask, bardic! (This one is for this ask game)
20. What’s a favorite title for a fic you’ve written?
A lot of my titles are either super generic (i.e. "Deployment Center," my first fic on ao3, which is just a pre-canon missing scene which takes place in the deployment center) or they're a thematically relevant phrase or word from the fic itself that i thought summed it up well enough to be used as a title. The latter ones are more interesting, although I think often people don't notice (or at least don't comment on it) when the phrase comes up in the story.
Acceptable Mission Cost is probably other people's favorite of my titles! In fact i think i chose that as the title because when i shared the first chapter on discord, that was the phrase people picked out and had Emotions about. The title gets called out in comments pretty often, which i think is a sign that it's working well with the fic. I'm happy with that.
I think my secret favorite, underdog answer for this is what happens to rogue secunits. It's a really short snip that i archived from a discord conversation, and i didn't have a title so i just pulled a line from the fic, but i think I picked a good one. I think it's clever the impression the title gives you vs. the impact when that phrase actually appears in the fic. No one has ever commented on this, so i don't know if it's actually clever, but i like it XD
23. How do you choose where to end a chapter (if you have multi-chapter works)?
I really like dramatic chapter endings! Cliffhangers, twists, or just a cool sounding line of dialogue right at the end. (This is probably apparent for anyone who's read the most recent few chapters of Old Unit, Young Unit, where i just kept doing dramatic twist ending after dramatic twist ending lol.) I've mentioned before that I'm not great at dramatic beginnings, and most of my first lines are pretty boring, but I like to stick the landing, so to speak.
Idk, I think i just have a chapter length that generally feels good to me (somewhere in the ballpark of 1-5k words, often around 2-3k). When I hit that wordcount I'm usually ready for either a natural end to a scene (when i'll try to end it on some kind of engaging emotion or tense moment of reflection from the narrator or something) or a dramatic moment that makes for a good cliffhanger. (My chapters do tend to get longer and longer as multi-chap works go on, lol. I haven't figured out a way to keep them more consistent.)
#bardic it was sweet of you to send this in even tho i wasn't actively looking for asks! i had fun with it :)#ask game answers#stars fic#sometimes i wonder if it comes across as weird that i always link to the fics i mention in ask games#i will admit it's a bit of shameless (but hopefully unobtrusive) self-promo#i forget to link my fics on here when i post them half the time and i don't really talk about them that much#but when i do i'm gonna make it super easy to click over and check them out if anyone wants to! just in case!#hopefully im striking a good balance between 'stopping to explain the plot of every fic i mention to the ppl i know have already read them'#and 'constantly mentioning mysterious code words with no explanation so no one else can tell what i'm talking about'#(and hopefully it doesn't have intense Product Placement vibes or anything)
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honestly actually ik the "ride or die, you can have complex feelings about these people who harmed you but i HATE them, you're never wrong" type of friendship is super common n praised n i even can understand why that form of unconditional "love" is appealing, but i genuinely think its the most suffocating form of friendship ive ever experienced
#bunny rambles#mostly bc the only way i can cope with what ive experienced is knowing i am flawed too#knowing many of these ppl who did terrible things to me are. ppl. not random monsters but ppl like me. who fucked up severely#i hold a lot of nuance and rarely talk to ppl ab my feelings bc anyone doing hard line like This Is A Bad Person activates me#even my therapist tried doing that and i had to stop our session right then cause i started sobbing ab the fact ik they arent bad ppl#and her doing that derails from my feelings and pain to them Being Bad and I don't need them to Be Bad to feel my hurt#if anything focusing on morality scares me away n makes me hide but thats also bc ive been experiencing shit since i was [prepubescent age]#so I've been having to live with this shit way longer than i was even in therapy and idk. i think if this stuff only happened starting past#the age of 15 i would be more capable of the b&w morality judgements required for this type of friendship#but I'm really honestly glad to know ppl who like. Dont wanna engage in that b&w morality for every single topic so i can actually talk ab#my feelings w/o feeling suffocated. and btw the suffocating prt to me is the pity and victimization as well. i hte experiencing that part#i had a few session with my therapist (b4 the other anecdote) talking ab how i feel suffocated when pitied and treated As a Victim[tm] even#tho that is language that can be applied to me bc everyone tries to apply that same morality but where i COULDNT have done anything wrong#(n then i feel suffocated n pressure to only say the ways they harmed me or never speak on that so they arent made into a Monster)#(i genuinely do wish the best even for ppl who have done the worst to me. dont be rude)#ANYWAYYYYYYYYYYY rambles and grumbles#(also i bring up the age of trauma in relevance to this not as a comparison but as a note on Why i am the way i am bc ik tht hving to like.#beocme a person w/ my childhood selves all basically being various gaping wounds made me a lot more tender when i started actually being#involved in my life and its been a struggle still w myself sometimes but genuinely remembering i and everyone whos harmed me are all just.#ppl Really helped me be able to like. live with this. idk. im rambling)
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having to smoke weed to get any ability to eat is kind of fucked up. i have to smoke my food weed that makes me able to eat food or else i will have 0 appetite. whatever
#having long term effects of not being properly fed as a child suuuuucks. can i just be normal instead#at least weed is fun and i make posts that ppl really like on my tumblr when i smoke weed#genuinely so annoying sometimes tho#like wdym i need to take DRUGS to be able to do a BASIC HUMAN NECESSITY of FEEDING MYSELF. fuck off?#and a lot of ppl are uncomfortable with me being high around them which is absolutely understandable but also like. i do need it to live#i cannot stop smoking weed for your comfort. if i do i will stop being able to eat and probably die#oh well#imma get high now wheeee
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#feel fucking crazy sometimes ugh ik rn it’s partially bc im kinda tired and i haven’t eaten#but like i do kinda wanna cry bc my friends be planning smth without me LMFAOOOOOOOOOO#it sounds so dumb :| ik it’s not tho lmfaobscbdbdndndkkdksjdhekws#i honestly just need to stop thinking and eat smth or just go to sleep bc i rly don’t feel like#making food rn lmao but#idk i like writing out my thoughts here sometimes so i think imma do that ;-;#bc like my two friends who i’ve been seeing nonstop lately mentioned getting pho w a group#and i def think i said i wanted to join#but they all like were talking abt it today and i think they started a gc to plan it and they do actually have plans#but idk shit abt it#and ik if i asked they would say i can join#but goddammit i could not bring myself to ask today#and honestly even thinking abt needing to ask makes me kinda want to cry#BRUH i wish i was over friendship exclusion bullshit#it’s this one fucking friend in middle school who made me sob a million fucking times#bc she straight up ignored me when we were w other friends#and my friends rn don’t do that#but idk being left out of this gc has made me insane ig 😀😀😀#they can’t even all fit in her car……..#idk like they also never said anything directly to me abt it even tho they were talking abt it in my vicinity#they asked someone else if she wanted to go ;-; like kinda absently but still#i hate that im complaining abt this i hate that i feel fucking crazy complaining abt this#like i can totally see a world where i just fucking ASK and my roommates like oh shit ur not in the group i didn’t realize#but also i could be deluding myself#its literally. not that deep im seeing the two of them tmrw and i can ask when im not out of my mind#ugh fucking fuck sometimes i hate relationships#but ik to some extent that these ppl like spending time w me even if its hard to believe sometimes like rn ig#but to think i have to start all over in a few months and find those ppl again#💀💀💀💀💀🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠#anyway i’m fine i need to chill and do something productive 😭😭😭😭😭
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Every time I see a new post in the Sonic the werehog tag that doesn't actually have the werehog in it I feel immeasurable disappointment
#ramblings#like. if it doesn't have werehog don't tag him... don't get my hopes up...#a lot of the time i feel like it's just a mistake which is fine#but sometimes i see ppl add the tag solely for visibility even tho it's not relevant#and then it's kinda just annoying#not to mention bots who decide to take over the tags i frequent once in a while#but those aren't real ppl so i can't tell them to stop lol
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wondering whether i shld just jump back into my cryptic castle fic now that i've left it for almost a good couple weeks
#bee blabs#sure i have to catch up on all my fics still#among other things i gotta do#but i rly wanna get back to writing again#it hasn't even been that long#but i feel like it's been long enough that i no longer hate myself for creating stuff#and i have no time crunch now so that pressure is off me#like- i just started act 2 (or 3 technically ??)#why the hell would i stop there when i have so much more to do ?#cryptic castle is my beloved and walking amy thru this has made it so much more compelling for me as an artist#god i might die if this fic falls flat#like this isn't quite what i normally write and it's set in the canon#and if this isn't what ppl are looking for then-#so help me i've done all i can#(i also kinda hate that i'd rather write/read my own shit than other ppl's)#(aside from my buds/moots bc i always try and prioritise reading their works above all else if i can)#(is that narcissistic ? idk it rly feels that way sometimes tho)
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aouuugh my uterus......
#long long day at work codeine wasnt helping with cramps and my meds are less effective on my period :(#ive been doing okay most of the day tho just starting feeling kind of miserable omw home bc such a long wait at the bus stop in pain#and im kind of lonely at the moment but wont be able to climb tomorrow bc of cramps so thats my main social source gone :(#and it always feels worse at home bc if im having a hard time like in physical pain or feeling down my roommate cant rly handle it#like she cant rly be in the room with me the headphones go straight on. which is ok im realising its just how her type of autism works#so im trying not to get as upset at her abt it. with varying degrees of success but it just takes time#i mean i dont get upset AT her like ik its not her fault and i dont want her feeling like it is. I keep it internal + cry once im alone#just different social needs n boundaries innit. we're a bit incompatible is all#but its still hard. I'd like support from other ppl when I'm struggling i mean i think thats a fairly normal thing to want#but of the friends I would be comfortable talking to abt how i feel none of them have that kind of emotional availability#which again is ok like its not on them. and im very capable of dealing w my shit myself one way or another so its not a Need#but idk. it would just be nice. I feel like I've had to be so independent most of my teenage and adult life and I wish I could take a#break from that sometimes. even just a hug would be nice man#sorry i always come on here and talk abt the same problems... well youll see me do it again no doubt abt that 🫠#ughh and i feel so guilty for wanting things ppl cant give even though i know its not really my fault either and im allowed to want things#and i dont cross boundaries or make them feel bad abt it. i really hope i dont anyway. but still ahhh...#its so hard for me to feel connected to anyone if they cant rly engage w me emotionally at all like its a non negotiable#factor into closeness and trust for me and i get so frustrated bc i feel so distant and alienated from the ppl i care abt most#and ik i overreact bc of my rsd so maybe its just that its probably not even a real issue. but its real to me bc im the one who gets upset#man. anyway its okay just a really really long day. im gonna wash my dishes and then shower#and finish my book. maybe i should play some dead cells i miss it. i dont really want to think abt how i feel anymore#maybe ill see if anyones free to hang out tmr evening so i dont have to feel as lonely even if i cant leave the house after work#all good nice to have a plan anyway. done sniffling. my hot water bottle is helping thr cramps a littlr i think#.diaries#oh i dont think its helping actually ow. i took more codeine an hour ago why doesnt it do anything. not fairrr 😭
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❛ ... ❜ straightening up an already perfect posture in attempt to boost her 160 centimeters of height.
#&&. dash comm#h.akuno's height is average methinks but sometimes i just think abt most the ppl she interact with are like . Tall and im like omg...#itty bitty lil moon lady.......#but like#WDYM SHES THE SAME HEIGHT AS THIS 14/15 Y.O. HAMPY BOY !!!!!! 😭😭😭#(<- said affectionately ily d.aisuke🫶🫶)#BUT ALSO PLSSSSS#PRAYING SO HARD THAT HE STOPS FACKING GROWING RN BC LIEK#if he has to tilt her head to look up at him someday she'll facking pass out#/i feel she alr has to do that with most of the muses here tho VGSKFJW
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