#sometimes i dont understand my own identity stuff

[vashievoidz]

Being a fictive is so stupid because why am I having devastating emotions over someone who doesn't exist. Insane to be feeling real genuine grief over someone that I am aware isn't real, like how does that even .. work..

I've been teary eyed all day and genuinely distressed and upset even at work. Work usually helps distract me cause I'm doing stuff, but no matter how hard I tried to focus on my tasks I still just kept thinking about how much I miss him. Like it feels just SO real to me, the feelings are real, the memories are there, but I am well aware I never truly experienced any of that and it's just so crazy how that even happens. Why do I have memories of things that never happened, even things that aren't canon to my source??

Another thing that's so wild is that I get phantom pains in the spots that I have scars and stuff in my source. My arm often aches and sometimes even legitimately HURTS, but this body has all of its limbs attached, it has almost no scars, and yet.. I still feel it all. The brain is such a strange and powerful thing. Fucked up that it can make me feel these things and I don't get it. Also fucked up that I'm the only fictive in our system that goes through this level of pain. Like the others do have their issues of course and do have memories of things too, but it doesn't affect them even close to how it is for me. Aauaghh augh

[melted-braiin]

Ramblings abt my favorite Ghost

But dudes, Danny.

I am a sucker for characters that are goofy and silly and juuuust angsty enough to break my heart and I think its hilarious when this absolute hopeless romantic grows up to be a fucking ladykiller.

Like, 12 year old Danny being nice and wholesome, talking about how pretty girls were and giving them flowers (the girls just laugh at him) and 15 year old Danny realizing hes bi and openly admitting that he finds his male classmates hot sometimes (this got him bullied) and it doesnt help that hes this dorky, snarky, kinda gloomy loser. And hes kinda unnerving so nobody really likes him.

Highschool passes by mostly uneventfully. Sure, ghosts attack and whatnot but something happened in junior year that put a massive power rift between Phantom and his rogues (rumors of Phantom overthrowing the ghost king and taking his place float around. Nobodys sure but Star claims Ember started the rumor and nothings really disproven that so-)

That specific class of Casper high leaves for college. At the time of their graduation party, Danny had grown just a bit taller, and his eyes a bit brighter, but he was still mostly a dork.

Fast forward a few years- the high school is hosting a reunion.

Old friends meet up, some after years and some after a weekend. That one jock became a famous author, and his buddy became a single dad- The weird goth girl and the prettiest girl in the grade are dating now. That one Tech geek has made a program that revolutionized computer engineering.

Its all fun and games, comparing lives and embarrassed apologies because they were all kind of asshole teenagers.

They count heads of their year and find a few people missing (as is to be expected). Danny is among them.

"That's odd," Sam Manson- resident goth- notes.

Kwan blinks, as he's the one who was counting, and asks, "Why?" because it wasn't unusual to skip highschool reunions (especially considering Fenton's experience)

Tucker snickers something incoherent, about getting lost in space. Sam sighs.

"I'll text him?" she asks, to which Tucker shakes his head.

"No I wanna see what he does," Tucker giggles. At Sam's raised eyebrow, he tacks on a hasty, "He has court today"

While Sam gets a look of understanding followed quickly by mischief, everyone else in their general vicinity is very concerned.

"Why's Fenton in court?" Kwan asks, Star nodding beside him, "Did he do something?"

Paulina makes a strangled noise, as if she wants to ask but showing worry might seem somewhat hypocritical of her all things considered. Dash raises an eyebrow and his lips thin in worry but he doesn't voice anything.

Danny does not show up. He doesn't show up during the official reunion, but Sam claims he and Valerie may show up at the spontaneous after-party (they literally all just pile up into their vehicle of choice and head to the nearest decent bar)

Valerie does, in fact show up— in her Red Huntress suit.

She complains about owning a company and being a Hero alongside it. How she's graying even though she's barely twenty seven, and it sucks. People ask why she's revealing her identity and stuff- she just shrugs and says, "Its kinda pointless now, dontcha think? I mean-" then gestures vaguely with her ecto-blaster. All the girls around her nod solemnly and the guys mutter and question if this is some kind of inside joke.

(it is. Im not gonna tell you what. Cuz idk. I wasnt in the know, sadly)

Anuways, the only other thing of note is that resident heRO THE AMITY PARK PHANTOM SHOWED UP. YO WHAT THE FU-

When asked what he was doing here, Phantom blinked real slow, looked at his hands and went, "Oh."

(it is worth noting that ghosts dont age. No matter how old they get. Phantom is no different, he's always been, is, and will be, Amity's Fourteen year old protector)

He looked over the heads of the crowd, saw his two best friends snickering to eachother like the assholes they are, and thought, "Fuck It™."

This is the story of how Danny's class found out that the same dork who rambled about space in grade school is now the Ruler of the Indefinite Multiverse.

(I should mention that Danny is like, really Pretty. And I do mean pretty.

His hair seems weightless and soft even in human form and his blue eyes too bright to be real, constantly crinkled at the edges with a sharp smirk or silly grin. He has light freckles that look like a smattering of stars on his skin and his teeth are just a little too sharp. His voice is usually bright and kind of high pitched but his real voice is like a deep tremor that isnt quite human anymore- it sounds like glaciers breaking and Space humming and the Thousand murmurings of his subjects. Hes gotten taller and more fae-like and hes just- !!!!!

I am so normal about him can you tell?)

[antiendovents]

I have no idea where else to turn but here, sorry if this isnt at all the kind of ask you want to recieve

I just recently split and I'm scared and confused and nobody is answering my messages so I dont know what to do. So. If there's any good tips for new alters to figure stuff out that you know of I'd love to have them.. I need to ground myself somehow but I cant think of any good ways.

hey, hey. Don't worry, you're allowed to vent about anything here, you're all good. I know this was sent about a day or two ago, but I'll still try list what I know. Or more like what we usually do, these may not work for everyone and that's okay, you just may need to try find other ways to calm yourself in that case. (Though a lot of this is sort of assuming you know what's happening, as we don't tend to get alters who don't and when we do we don't usually remember what happens when they front)

Usually we try do something we enjoy, this only really works when there's someone else with the new alter or when the alter knows something they enjoy doing though, but it does help to distract us and calm us down sometimes

I know you said no one is replying, so I'm assuming talking to someone is out of the question, so instead I recommend trying to write. Sometimes it helps get your thoughts out and helps process them. That way you can work through them

Sometimes if we're trying to figure out who or what we are we'll scroll through photos on Pinterest to see if something catches our attention and gives us a connection, this usually helps with fragments who may connect to specific images as an identity or for new alters trying to find faceclaims, or even new introjects who don't know their source yet, ect.

I'd recommend looking around to see if your system has a journal of some kind or anything that keeps information about it, as it may help you understand yourself and the others a little easier.

Even just doing things like breathing exercises, listening to calm music or cuddling up to a teddy/relaxing in bed could help. (The last part generally is more to feel safe and protected, but again this is more of our own comfort)

Also for trying to find names for yourself, if you need that, we usually just search up "NPTs" or "name lists" and scroll through, if you have specific themes in mind for the name you want you can search that up too. We usually do it on Tumblr but you can do it just on Google itself

I can't really think of much else to suggest, as we don't usually do all too much to calm ourselves, we just try to get as distracted as possible, so theres not much we can recommend, but we do hope you manage to ground yourself somehow and that you feel better soon 🫂

[basilpaste]

Do you have any miscellaneous bizzyboy headcanons... share with tha class

a small handful i think :} ill start with post canon Nouns because theyre easy.

p - she/her. maybe an occasional he is thrown back in there for spice. she plays around with some nounself stuff at some point for funzies, but all in all she/her suits her needs best. vib - he/she. purely your influence but i believe it in my heart. boy in a dyke way girl in a fag way. you understand. capochin - he/him. but in that way that if he thought about it twenty years ago hed probably be using they/them exclusively today. and maybe someone used they/them for him on accident once and he still thinks about it sometimes. but no. he/him. al - he/him. but in the most stoner ass transmasculine way you can imagine. you ask him what pronouns he uses and he gives you a thumbs up. ban - he/???. he says he. he just also says hes got secret pronouns no one gets to know about. the truth is that the ??? means any. gr - he/it. has a weird relationship with personhood and identity in general. he because hes perceived as a man. it because it doesnt perceive itself as much of anything.

nouns aside: i dont think a single bizzyboy can cook. but they all have one thing they can cook decently enough. these six foods make up a good Most of what they eat in a week. its rough out here.

gr can kinda bake though.

i think vib is really good at drawing bodies and clothing on bodies. but she cant draw faces to save her life. or animals really, hes bad at animals.

bans kinda bookish? not really, but they do pick up a lot of useless information from various sources that he tends to use for conversation starters. xir affinity for fun facts also means knowing a lot of stuff about flowers? which it imparts to p.

gr objectum. thumps up.

i also like to think about which gods theyd all gravitate towards after inspekta.

p - miss mitternaucht (comforting, close to home) capo - cobigail (earnest. something he needs) vib - thespius (creative, affectionate) ban - click clack (creative, a critical eye) al - huzzle mug (energetic, the no-nonsense in nonsense) gr - king (courageous, a voice her own)

... and hes not one of the boys, but i think hector would benefit from speaking with bauhauzzo.

i think p is the most physically affectionate of them but vib is not far behind. hes a big fan of casual touch.

okay thats all for now wau.

[freakasaurus-rex]

FINALLY making an info post since so many of my mutuals have them

bright flashing lights be ahead! avast, ye sinners! this blog is not easy to look at if you are bothered by eyestrain!

Hello, welcome to my blog! I hope you have a fun time here :D

My name is Freak!

I am currently 17 years old, and my birthday is on September 5th

I am both other- and fictionkin. Talk to me about it if you want! I would lvoe to tell you about how I'm literally an ouppy

I regress sometimes. Interaction will be low at those times

I'm/we are plural! I don't talk about it often but I'm open to discussion.

I am aromantic and uhhh bisexual maybe. I'm also HECKA TRANS!!!!!!! GRAHHHHH I LOVE BEING TRANSGENDER

I use neopronouns almost exclusively. You can learn more about my pronouns here and here

I regularly post bugs! I am looking to become an entomologist so they are very fascinating to me. Any posts including them will be tagged with #bugs, #insects, and the specific type of bug they are. I also consider arachnids and some shellfish to be bugs so those will be included in the #bugs tag, but they will not be tagged with #insects, obviously. Bugs and insects are different things

I post art sometimes. #art

Most fandoms are tagged but a few aren't [like pokemon and mario]

I have multiple little guys living in my askbox. Currently, we have Sneepsnorp, Jingle [and his plushie Bell], Mipmi, Brring, the computer kitty, Smrrp [and its narrator!], Peggy, Wawa, and im pretty sure we have another but i cant remember. All of them have their own tags. You will see them often

my vent tag is #freak's issues

if u dont want to see me talking abt depressing stuff, block it. this will also kepe you from seeing me post about my physical illnesses

Things I enjoy!

Games: Splatoon ♡♡♡, Minecraft ♡, Oxenfree, Spiritfarer, Roblox, The Sims ♡, The Legend of Zelda ♡, Pokemon, Ace Attorney ♡

Shows/Movies: Brooklyn 99, Arcane ♡, Dungeon Meshi ☆, Dandadan, Attack on Titan ♡, The Rocky Horror Picture Show, Howl's Moving Castle ♡, most other Ghibli movies, Tank Girl, Chicago, Priscilla: Queen of The Desert

Books: The Agony of Bun O'Keefe, 5 Worlds [graphic novels], Scott Pilgrim [only the comics] ♡

Other media: Sanrio, Nevermore [webcomic], The Glass Scientists [webcomic], Blindsprings [webcomic]

General: VSynth ♡, post-apocalyptic stories/themes ♡, character design, story writing ♡, bugs of all kinds ♡, roleplay ☆

♡ = special interest | ☆ = hyperfixation

I have autism and ADHD. I may not understand the tone of posts or messages, but I usually do! If I don't, do not feel bad. Just lmk what you meant and we can both be on our merry way

I also have OCD lol i am very not normal

I frequently reblog political posts, and I do not tag them. I rarely reblog discourse, but this is 100% a space supporting of all good-faith identities. To me, this includes m-spec gays and lesbians. The split attraction model is for everyone

I support endogenic and other non-traumagenic systems. I will not argue about this. I will just block you

I occasionally reblog posts with queer slurs in them. I tag these with #f slur or similar. Whichever letter the word starts with and then "slur"

I will block you if I don't like you and I request that you do the same. It's easier to not get upset online if you just don't interact with people who piss you off. I understand it's important to see issues from all angles and to hear out varying opinions but a lot of people online are just insane

I do roleplaying. I love roleplay it's so fun. If you try to initiate ERP I will kill u

I've been roleplaying online since I was literally like 10 years old. I did take like a 5-year long break but still. yk. Or maybe you don't idk I just work here

Yes I always use the square brackets. No I don't know why I started. Yes it's muscle memory at this point

Thank you for reading! It was probably tough. My cringe. My cringeeee

[protectingtulpas]

hiii sso i tried making a tulpa based of sn old oc as like a base but i couldnt keep a routine and i couldnt focus. {ive got adhd so i get it but still cmon brain} i probably wont try again but i dont feel right as the only one iny body. just doesnt feel right. j mean most of my moots are p lural so i understand it msy just be like. i unno. but like also sometimes when doing other things and with other people i feel like slightly different. i mean thats probably just like autistic masking or something but. i slso have bad memory??? but i unno. im probably gonna form someone else at some point i unno i can just kinda feel it lol,,,

-⭐ {hi ya im here again lol}

Heyo! So people with ADHD actually have an inherently harder time setting up and following routines, we have it too so we had that problem also. Basically you're just starting so don't give up!! Trying "once" and it not sticking isn't exactly how tulpamancy works, anyways. You've gotta be putting energy into them for a good while before they start returning it- a lot of tulpamancers start feeling their first possible signs of their tulpa around a month or two in. My host took six months before they had 100% certainty on my responses being completely my own lol, but I was talking to them about four months in.

You said that sometimes you feel a slight separation doing certain things, so focus on that and push forward with it specifically! Encourage that separation. You might have better luck with mostly passive forcing, i.e. doing stuff with your tulpa while forcing them so they get more active experiences of the world around em. This can help a new tulpa find things they like and a sense of identity!

Basically anon I can tell how passionate u are and how much you want to be plural and that's AWESOME to me, it's the reason people like me exist! But you're getting a bit too ahead of yourself, even if you didn't have ADHD you'd be goin a bit too fast. Expecting full responses super early is a recipe for failed expectations. You're looking more for those tiny sparks of separate feeling, along with head pressures, separate emotions, all those things. Be patient with your new tulpa

If you wanna active force, I really recommend finding some kinda physical activity to do in headspace so you're not getting distracted as much. (put on background music too!!) I was rock climbing/mountain climbing with Host way early and it really helped train my beginning decision-making skills.

good luck as always 🌟

[dailyfigures]

(not the same anon) i only saw the anime (not the full thing cause i hated it), ill try to keep the points neutral/factual & not let my opinion/bias shine through too much. heres some of the stuff that happens (spoilers obviously): 1. main character, adult man, works as a doctor. one of his patients is 16 year old idol Ai. she is pregnant. mc is obsessed with her throughout the show. when asked by a colleague if he'd hook up with her if given a chance he says yes. 2. a patient of his (i dont know her age, early/mid teens) is in love with him. she dies. 3. the doctor mc is killed. he is 'reincarnated' as Ai's child, while keeping his past memories, along with the teen girl patient i mentioned in (2.), now named ruby. mc is now named aqua. they are twins now. they don't know each others former identities 4. Ai is killed, which further fuels aquas obsession with her (it seems to be romantic since i believe he mentions being in love with her, her being his 'ideal woman' etc) 5. several teenage girls are also in love with him (while his 'reincarnation' is their age, he has the full scope of his past memories, making him at least 30yo in lived experience), while he doesn't seem to reciprocate their feelings (up to the point i watched the show at least), it's not treated as something he's against due to them being teenagers, moreso that he's too preoccupied with searching for Ai's killer. that's about it, im sure theres more in the manga & bits i havent seen, i personally really dislike the show but i'd understand if you were to keep up the figurines as despite those themes no actual incest happens to my knowledge (correct me if wrong or forgot stuff!), some of the designs are pretty i guess

thank you for taking the time to explain it to me anon! i'm sure there's good parts to it since it's so popular but yeah it doesn't sound like it'd be for me personally either.

i do find it hard to judge media like this without having seen it. i'm a big horror fan so i watch a lot of media that features things you should very much Not do irl but that doesn't mean all horror is inherently problematic. sometimes media is just an exploration of something fucked up without explicitly stating "this is Bad!!! Do Not Do!!!!" because they trust the consumer to realise that on their own.

having said that, oshi no ko doesn't sound like a psychological piece that explores the morals of incest and adult-minor relationships to me (from what i understand without having seen/read it! do please correct me if i'm wrong!). it sounds like it's just kinda very weird without challenging those themes much.

again, it's hard to judge that without having consumed it. i think i'll just leave up the oshi no ko posts i have and not add any more. i might have some in the queue so i'll remove those if i remember to. hope everyone is somewhat okay with that decision!

[roguesnezblog]

Trigger warning - Vent stuff (Suicide, bullying etc.) I am not feeling great. And I'm going to censor everything below if you don't want to read. But this post I wanted to make, one, for my own benefit. mentally, but I also feel like people who are in the same position as me could use an understanding ear. So...

Feeling real horrible. Like I shouldn't exist. To put it bluntly. Making the rounds of depression again. I want to type this out here and will most likely delete this later because being vunerable on the internet is not exactly, sometimes, met with anything good.

I won't go into detail on as to why either, since opening up about things you've done is usually weaponized online too. But lets say this: I have been made to feel, in some online spaces, that, My existance and presense should be eradicated.

I have been treated this way by these people for years. Over 5 years now. I had been bullied, and called horrible things, been witch hunted all the works that online crap can bring. And most people are in agreement, I should get over it by now. Who scares if a few people don't like you, don't want you around them? They have a right to believe that, and it's not like I didn't deserve it.

And I suppose in truth a part of me agrees. I dont expect approval, nor do I expect to be liked, a part of me rationally knows this. Not everyone online is going to be on a sympathetic understanding side of things.

But another part of me creeps back. You see, during this time, when people turned on me violently, for mistakes I've made and regret, I got low. Real low. Suicide low. I figured I was diplorable. Unforgivable. Disgusting. I felt like I should be punished. I did. Yanno. Self harm. A lot.

I figured the world would be better. Easier, if I wasn't in it. They made me believe this.

But I was always in conflict with reality. You see online isn't really half of my life. I have good parents, not perfect, but good. And a family who cares about me, and deep down, I knew if I was gone, if anyone, they would suffer for it.

So ...Suicide wasn't really an option. Not properly.

I had no choice but to endure lots of inflammatory comments, being excluded, distanced, the community (not this one) I wanted to feel a part of, and enjoy a love of drawing was...cruel.

I could rant more about what they did. How much they alienated and hurted me, broke down my character and warped me into this...percieved monster. But theres no point. And yanno I don't want to get into details like I said.

But a part of me still thinks that Im not a victim here. That I deserve it.

It's the rest that feels inconsolable. I don't want to die. I don't want to feel like thats the only option for me. To be erased. And think how much easier it would be for everyone else that I didn't exist.

But I want to be a kind person. I don't want to make people uncomfortable with my presense, or existance.

I shouldn't spare mercy to people who don't care. I know...But it's hard not to think when for your entire life you've been messed up.

Im pretty sure being some kinda autistic or at least neurodivergant doesn't help...(I haven't got diagnosed yet. Being a part of british NHS sucks. It would take me 5 years to get someone to see me. So they told me, and I'm considering private, but that costs 2,000 pounds and...Im scared honestly)

Anyway.

This feeling is often met with apathy, or "just don't think about it" by friends and family, who know somewhat about all this.

But it's hard.

It's heavy.

I just wish forgiveness could be an option. The mistakes I made, I learned from, and have never done again. But it's not enough.

It feels like this unending maw, gaping and cavernous. Swallowing me whole until it leaves nothing but that mistake left. They make it me. It's all I am. My identity. I am a literal monster to them. Something to fear like a boogeyman.

Not a dumb young adult who had no idea what they were doing.

I am nearly 30 now. I regret being stupid. Not knowing things, being ignorant and not just....being more calm at the time, but when people jump on you, you panic.

I have dug this hole. I know that... but it feels like I was forced to.

And the prolonged suffering, it's just....

I was happy for a time. You know? The fear and guilt lifted about a year ago for a while. When I found people who appriecate me, who care and want me around in that community, My confidence for a while was up. And I felt like I COULD exist. Live again, and be in spaces without feeling like I was a leech. I was happy and even talked to people in calls. I didn't have nightmares and I didn't feel like I needed to quit my freelance work.

There was...a couple of incidents, where I let my confidence blind me, approached people who haven't forgiven me, and told me to fuck off.

Which I did, to be fair...like I say: I don't have to be friends with everyone.

But...recently, the community pool has gotten thin. Drama happened (not to do with me, thank fuck, I couldn't deal with that stress I feel terrible for the people who have to endure it.) and spaces that were safe have been deleted. And the people who scorn me are now making a new space for them to pool into.

I've been excluded from that space.

That doesn't bother me, I have friends who will remain by my side. And this kinda happens everyone 6 months or so that people move spaces. But-

It's gut wrenching, to feel safe and forgiven. And then to be reminded that no, infact; You can't escape.

My friends will stay in spaces I feel safe in. And I know really- I'm not gonna loose much. But to be reminded that your existance would rather be purged? It's...not a fun feeling. Not to feel especially due to the struggles I've been facing and facing hard these past few months.

I suppose by writing all this, and saying all this, I just can't help but wonder in this mind space...Is it me? My fault? My brain is the one doing this...I am jumping from: Oh people I don't even like don't want me around? Better go die.

I made the mistake in the end....And this is my punishment. My torment for making a mistake.

It's ridiculous really...I shouldn't be feeling this way. But yet I am....I feel hopeless, empty. Sullen. Like theres no point, like all I feel and have been doing to grow, and move on....it doesn't matter. Because nothing changes.

I'm not sure exactly why Im writing this, or why Im even sharing these feelings, perhaps I just want people to talk to. Much as I love my friends, they get uncomfy talking like this... They can be dismissive and they don't really want to find a solution or confront it. I am just told to "forget it" and such. As I said before. But it doesn't help you know?

Putting this out there, it may make it worse...Which honestly; I fear. People online can look at something like this and use it to try make you worse, or kill yourself. Like....some people really just...get a kick out of making you feel like crap.

Im sure this is a sentiment that a lot of people, a lot of you, understand. It's cruel. Bullying and....I wish it would go away, not just for me, but for all of us....But I also hope a part of this can....maybe help someone?

That...something like this, isn't unusual....(unfortunately) and that some of you out there have been through the same thing...or are currently going through the same thing. And if thats the case...As someone who is feeling it at the current moment I want to say this to you:

You matter. You deserve to exist. You CAN live. And ...so long as you learn from your mistakes...That doesn't make you an evil, or even just a bad, person. You're a good person. You're a good person if you want to be better.

And....for you. I will keep this in mind for myself too. I fucked up. Maybe you did too...But we can be fuck ups together.

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I am not ok, but I think I will be. Admittedly, I could just not post this, but I think theres some value somewhere in this rant. I think it should be heard by some.

[nonbinarychaoticstupid]

hai,,, what r ur sulemio headcanons

OHH I AM SO GLAD YOU ASKED!!!

they are autism4autism this is Very important to understand. suletta stims by swinging herself around miorine stims by being swung around and the distinction is small but IMPORTANT. this also because literally every time i try to write suletta being happy i always imagine her straight up wiggling around with it and i Fully imagine that when they're lying around some nights and cuddling she will just swing miorine around with her while she joyously rolls entirely from one side of the bed to the other on her back giggling and kicking her feet etc etc. miorine is like This is perfect for me I am winning

this also relates to this one tweet that changed me as a person lmao i am of the very firm belief that miorine needs to sometimes be Crushed into a Hug. compressed into a file even. flattened like in a tom and jerry cartoon. and suletta needs to be Holding something all the time. autistic girls who stim by hugging (they are in love). you understand. miorine discovers weighted blankets and her life is changed.

adding onto this they need to be touching All the Time they cannot go anywhere without grabbing onto each other. miorine consistently is like no you dont understand i have to be holding onto her every second of every day or i'll die and for suletta this is just normal behaviour that everyone expects

personally i do Not see miorine as butch (i see the vision though.... i see the vision) but i feel like she would get to earth and start looking into earth history and discover butches and her mind would be BLOWN

EVEN MORE AUTISM!!! miorine has sensory issues regarding clothes and is very specific about the work outfits she wears because otherwise she will have the literal worst day in the world and come home and just Not talk for a 24 hours straight. suletta of course is like. why do you own this blazer anyway it's Evil

they are always talking to each other all the time every moment of every day when they are separated for work reasons LMAO i keep seeing art thats like. work mio vs talking to suletta mio and i think that idea is SO funny. she goes from being your very serious boss to 'affgdhfjdsfggfsgjfgsdh hiii ♥♥♥♥♥♥' the MOMENT her wife is on call and she is So insufferable about it. suletta is equally annoying she will literally get a call and be like 'excuse me MY WIFE is ringing :)' and be on the phone for the next hour telling miorine about her day in excruciating detail (they are going to call again when miorine's meetings end in less than 2 hours). earth house is very divided on whether it's absurdly cute or not (chuchu vs Everyone Else)

miorine and elnora very specifically only get along for the purpose of making suletta happy LMAO they don't hate each other but they are absolutely not at any level of friendship and will likely not be for a very very long time. elnora does help with her work stuff a lot because she's used to the insane machinations of loser capitalists though

speaking of relationships with elnora i think it takes suletta a long time to work through the whole repli-child stuff and it's very important to her that she starts on that separately to spending more time with elnora. she tells miorine about the whole thing (she's been trying to work up the courage for months) and miorine is immediately like. do you want me to punch her for you. i will punch your mother for you. this is great for suletta because she fully thought miorine was going to break off the engagement and everything (there is no basis for this) + she continues to have a lot of identity issues about it as regular life progresses because it turns out that pretending that everything is fine does not in fact make it fine!!

i choose to believe that there is enough space in the cockpit of chuchus mobile suit for them to squish in behind her seat when miorine comes and finds her after quiet zero. suletta is barely conscious but miorine (who is terrified she will just die there and then) keeps talking to her (mostly sobbing hysterically and telling her off for making her think she was dead) and its at this point that suletta asks her if she loves her. (chuchu is very pointedly pretending not to notice and doing her best to tune them out)

miorine, still sobbing hysterically: oh my g-d. are you insane. of course im in love with you. what do you think all of this was about suletta: oh sweet! :3

i have written this scene out and will post it one day i think it's the catradora in me thats like. they HAVE to have a love confession and kiss NOW. i just think itd be so neat if it paralleled their first meeting even more.... miorine helps suletta take off her helmet and kisses her.... do you see my vision

suletta plays the guitar and miorine sings. you agree. reblog.

genuinely though i think suletta would pick up guitar to help with her hands and miorine, who is also getting back into playing piano around this time, gets into the habit of singing along while she's doing things around the house

suletta calls her wheelchair aerial 2.0 and nuno and ojelo help her paint it in aerial's colours. when she moves to crutches they get the holder colours

technically they still have a year of school to go but for most of it suletta isn't able to go to lessons + focusing mainly on her physical therapy and miorine is too busy dealing with the benerit group's funds that for all intents and purposes they're no longer enrolled. miorine's rooms aren't wheelchair-accessible and so they stay in earth house instead until they turn 18 and can legally buy a home on earth. all of earth house subsequently has to third wheel

they don't get married for a little while. mostly because suletta is in recovery but miorine also needs to work up the courage to actually ask. (eri bullies her into taking her with her when she goes ring shopping) eventually she gets around to it after suletta's health starts improving and when she pulls out the ring box suletta is like Oh! and reveals that she literally cut up and made paper rings one day for this specific purpose

their wedding is on earth, to sort of start the official move. miorine pulls some strings to get nika to at least be able to See whats going on + they have the ceremony in a big field not far from their new house. suletta's chair (aerial 2.0) is decorated with So many flowers as per the instructions of the kids in the neighbouring town (who love her + want to be her first students) and miorine absolutely did not get away without getting Flowered too. they both are crying the whole day and neither of them are subtle about it

miorine's hair gets shorter and suletta's gets longer. miorine just wakes up one day and is like I HAVE TO GET RID OF IT

mio fell basically immediately but i think that its only when suletta is in space with el4n that she realises + it clicks for suletta when miorine literally starts a company for her lmao

[pienpup]

really long vent under the cut. kinda "issue compare"-y i guess. self harm / not depth shaming but people with no reading comprehension may interpret it as such lol.

i am gonna be completely upfront and say that it really bothers me when some people on jiraiblr treat self harm like a personality trait or like a hobby or something. theres a couple blogs on here that orient their entire identity around cutting and like i get that theyre struggling too but its.. really fucking uncomfortable for me.

ive been struggling with cutting for like 10+ years now. itll be 11 years when i turn 20, i started when i was 9, and ive been self harming my entire life because i have headhitting issues and stuff due to my autism.

i just really dont see it as a thing thats "cute" and yeah some people romanticize their own problems to cope but ... those things have an impact on others as well. you have to manage what youre posting and make sure youre twing properly or just not tagging those things publicly.

my self harm has escalated to a point where i know someday if i dont get better im going to die from it. its just going to keep getting worse until i kill myself on accident. and i just ... i dont see whats "cute" about an addiction that started because 9 y/o me was so desperate to feel some sort of release that they started cutting themself. a kid with horrible amounts of sexual trauma in an abusive household cutting themself is not cute.

i mean i romanticize it too, sometimes, in the sense of wanting a partner who would cut me and stuff but like.

its just hard being on jiraiblr and seeing stuff like "would i be cuter if i went deeper >w<!" because it feels so fucking insensitive. if you are not already cutting at that depth you dont have the right to say that. youre romanticizing someone else's issues, not even your own. if you haven't hit beans you don't understand how scary it is to not feel in control of yourself and just going deeper and deeper and deeper because its the only solace you have. you might feel that way about styros or just wanting to go deeper, but its fucking different. its different. i even dont have it as bad as other people because i only ever go to shallow beans.

a lot of people who only do surface level cuts are really insensitive towards people like me who are risking our life every time we pull out the blade. like yes, your issues deserve compassion too, but you have GOT to stop being so gross and insensitive towards people who cut to beans or deeper. ive seen people outright say its "gross" and that they cant stand looking at it / we shouldnt psot our issues or whatever.

don't romanticize us if you dont have the experience. dont shame us for having issues. you are really no better than the people who shame all cutters if you do this kind of thing imo.

im so sick of it.

i just needed to get it off my chest bc im so tired.

[stitchwraith-stingers]

3, 10, and 22 if you don’t mind :3 it can be any fandom, whichever you think will be easier when answering it !!

3 - screenshot or description of the worst take you've seen on tumblr

"anemone is so dogshit because she became mean for some reason" ohh so close, thats a kid who was kept close by her mom all her life and got manipulated by an old guy and was scared of her own powers, honorable mention to "hazels mom is a therapist she shouldve talked to him in the finale"

10 - worst part of fanon

i cant explain it, like, how bizzare it is?? like looking at fanon discussions is so fascinting because half of the time its like being smashed in the face by a bookshelf

the rampant misogyny is one thing i talk abt often, but theres stuff like how people will bend over backwards and you look at the canon and its just so drastically different from whatever the media is, also how suddenly people just cant some up with bullshit for some characters but then others who are cardboard boxes theres 5 billion pages of yaoi in fanworks of them, like what the hell is stopping is my question

(i understand ppl who want peri to be this badass who adopts dev and everything is great and i get the appeal i also love me some found family dynamics, however to me it just sometimes feels kinda forced? not saying you cant do that its just i dont think that peri would snap at dale and hate him directly, theres probably other stuff similar to this that ive seen in works but i cant recall, this was more common during 2014-2019 though)

also just how ship focused it is, now idk if im one to say this i love me some pairs i had a huge deviantart stamp collection that was half my page of ones i liked and i still do, however theyre so wildly out of character or its so obvious to see which ones people ONLY like for a ship and not outside their own character (stares directly at hazel)

theres probably more im missing but its 4 am rn, just the way they handle characters speicifcally and how wrong they can be even if something directly happened into the camara is soooo ????/

22 - your favorite part of canon that everyone else ignores

i cant rlly think of anythin new so ill repeat the answer i gave to the same question like acouple of months ago

i think the fop fandom can benefit from like, paying attention to the random worldbuilding????

theres atleast 4 different ways faries power the source to their magic and if 1 is dimished so are the rest like christmas lights, theres a substitute teacher whos a pretty gnarly fairy hunter (with a published book series), theres an entire country that appeared in the middle of america the contitnent that will dissapear, theres probably afew people timmy wished up that were on the run up untill he lost his fae which ment those people dissapeared, the grim reaper works in a fairy pet shop, crocker and the princible apparently had a thing going on??? betty and gray which im still mad they dropped after 4 episodes, chloe is all almost most of the time and even when her parnts come by theyre still jackasses enough to tell her to stop having fun, KEVIN CROCKER?? WHO I LOVE BUT IS SUCH A BIZZARE INCLUSION, anti cosmo and head pixie have (implied) raised a baby themselves?, the (not rlly) alien princess mark was supposed to marry who hunted him for sport for what i assume is months, veronicas whole identity crisis spheal, a fairy actress died on stage with such an ugly outfit that not even one person watched the damn movie after that, walking dino electrician, I CANNOT STRESS THIS ENOUGH A ANIMATRONIC AND A GUY ON THE STREET ARE BUDDYS AND THEYRE LIKE A BUTCH NONBINARY LESBIAN PUNK FURRY AND A CISHET GUY IN HIS MID 50S, aliens that exist on earth plotline for the 2nd time, theres two mother natures and while yeah they couldve retconned one of them ive decided are wives, THE WELLS' LANDLORDS ARE WERIDO END OF THE EARTH DUDES AND THE PARENTS GET ALONG BUT THEIR KIDS DONT WHY HAVENT I SEEN ANYTHING ABT THIS

[etherealspacejelly]

ERM

ok so

anonymous bc no way am i showing my url on this Jhshsheheh

so like all my friends at school. they seem. so much more mature than i am???

like even the ones who are younger than me. they're already thinking about partners. and dating n stuff. like some of my friends already have partners

but i. just am not interested in that rn??? and sometimes i feel like there's. something Wrong with me. yk

like im year 9 but. i feel like i should be thinking about this and it feels like im not mature enough that i don't want to worry abt that now

- 🐉

there is nothing wrong with you. listen to me. there is absolutely Nothing wrong with you.

it is perfectly normal to not be interested in romantic relationships, i wasnt at your age and im still not. i am in a platonic relationship with my best friend, mostly because it comforts us both to know that no matter what happens we will not be alone. even if all of our other friends get into romantic relationships and prioritise them over friendships

desiring a romantic partner does not make you more mature than anyone else. having a romantic partner or a partner of any kind is not a requirement for happiness, fulfilment, or maturity.

focus on what You actually want. ask yourself what would make You happy, what would make you feel fulfilled and satisfied with your life. set aside these notions of what we are Supposed to want, of what it is ""Normal"" to want, and focus your attention on yourself. this is your life, and you owe it to yourself to follow your own path.

i think it would help you to research aspec identities, especially aromantic ones, and talk to aromantic people about their experiences. you might not be aromantic! alloromantic people can still have no desire to be in romantic relationships, and that is perfectly fine and normal. and likewise aromantic and arospec people can want to be in romantic relationships despite their lack of romantic attraction. what i think researching this community will do for you is show you that romance is not the be all and end all of human beings. it is not a requirement for existing and being happy.

i think even progressive parents can fall into this trap of telling their kids "when you grow up and get a girlfriend or a boyfriend" or "when you get married to your spouse", and like, yea its great that they arent assuming you will be straight, but they are still placing the expectation on you to Want a romantic relationship and that you will have one no matter what. and that doesnt have to be the case!

your "happily ever after" does Not have to involve riding off into the sunset with your One True Love, it can in fact be a freezeframe of you and your best friends jumping into the air together and pulling silly faces!

idk this is. a long and rambling answer to what was a fairly simple question but. this ask hit me very close to home. i know how you feel. i felt Exactly the same way when i was your age. i felt wrong and broken and different and i didnt understand Why everyone was so excited about dating and kissing and relationships. so. im telling you what i wish someone would have told me.

take a deep breath. and let go. you dont need to have it all figured out Right Now. you can in fact just enjoy life as it happens! you dont have to know exactly what you want at this age. you can figure it out as you go. you have So Much Life ahead of you to learn and grow make mistakes and change your mind and figure things out and just. live.

the world wont end if you never want a romantic relationship. life will go on. you will find out what Really matters to you. and thats the beauty of being alive! please do not force yourself to do anything you dont Really want to do, just because thats what it feels like you're Supposed to do.

you are unique and beautiful and so so alive. you are doing just fine, and im so proud of you. you belong here.

you are loved.

[idzinski]

TW for body horror!

Hi, its been a bit. During the holiday break I made some art about general discomfort I feel about my own body sometimes, esp as a genderqueer person. The art and more of my thoughts below!

I've been very much struggling with my own gender identity for almost 4 years now - and i feel incredibly envious of all the people who have it figured out: cis people who just dont think about that stuff at all, binary trans people who always knew who they were and what they needed to feel comfortable, nonbinary people who are confident in themselves and/or just dont care how they are perceived.

I feel like I dont really understand myself, and I'm afraid to make any changes to my life bc what if I regret it? What if my wobbly self-confidence and this whole identity crisis is just an effect of trauma/mental struggle and not at all queerness-related? This uncertainty of who I even am and where I fit into society drives me insane. And that's kinda what I wanted to convey in this art piece - how messy my identity is and the discomfort it causes me.

Thats it, thats the rant - if you read it all the way, thank you! And if you relate, I hope it helps to know you're not alone in this. Hang in there 🖤

[aroanthy]

Besides Anthy what other characters do you are aro- or any kind of a-spec?

All Of Them.

on a more serious note, im very partial to the following aspec readings of characters:

aroace/aroace lesbian nanami; one thing to know about me is that i realised i was aromantic because of two things. the first is that i wrote a 55k word fanfiction about two side characters from the 2005 bbc political satire 'the thick of it' that was basically just me airing my fundamental discomfort with romantic relationships, and the second is watching her tragedy and the romance of the dancing girls for the first time. Yeag.

aromantic nanami is profoundly important to me and i really just resonate with her character on a personal level. like shes so me. i dont get it. i too have convinced myself of all kinds of taboo and 'weird' affections and feelings because i Dont Understand Romance (just as a side note: i understand why some people take the cold turkey 'nanami never considered romantic feelings for her brother!!' reading, but for me personally. i think it's important to consider nanami considering those feelings, specifically because they make her feel uncomfortable, alienated, etc. there's also lots of interesting things to be said about how incest can affirm heteronormativity (and how it can't!! but that's more of a kaoru twins can of worms)).

and there's other stuff but we needn't get into that. i love when other people feel able to talk in-depth about how their personal expereinces shape their responses to rgu, but im not quite at that point with certain things. i do also just really like reading nanami as an aroace lesbian bc i find her connection with utena specifically to be soooooo. gah. delicious. fascinating. devastating. and also i love aroace lesbains they are the best

asexual utena; i just think he's neat :} sometimes i feel hesitant to read characters as asexual if theyre teenagers or if they have sexual trauma and funnily (not) enough, utena is both! having said that, i recently decided 'fuck it' and have been thinking about this interpretation of his character more and more. like, my aromantic identity is partially political, partially trauma-informed, and i feel quite strongly about queerness in part being one's choice to define (or not define) themselves on their own terms, be they 'contradictory' or 'inaccurate' or whatever the hell else.

i also have a fondness for asexual masculine characters. me personally i read utena as butch and transmasc and i think it's really interesting to think about how that queer masculinity can be expressed outside of allosexuality, especially considering what rgu as a show tries to do wrt that matter. dont ask me about my feelings on ikuhara and false dichotomies of love and lust in his works or i WILL explode ok sarazanami is The aroallo show and im soooo normal about it all tbh

i have this kind of vague arospec touga reading that im always knocking about in my head but kind of scared to talk about online because like. it's quite a lot to get into and, as an aroallo person, i dont want to get into discourse about if it's problematic to read a character like touga in that way. bc like. i dont think it is. but that's because i'm basing this reading off of my own lived experience and understanding of what aromantic allosexuality can look like. to be honest, if i really had to stick labels on them (bc labels are a shorthand to me that never fully express the complexity of identity that i want to personally (writer disease)) i read anthy as an aromantic lesbian and touga as aromantic and gay. but normally you would have to waterboard that out of me because im terrified of how people who aren't aroallo respond to aroallo conceptions of like... Anything. lol.

i think the tldr of Why im compelled by those similar readings of their characters is. something about how terrifying and constraining and rigid and incomprehensible and inaccessible romance feels to me as a concept. and something else about how important sex is to me as a concept, and kind of. this radical sex positivity that is so essential, imho, to beginning to unpack the issues baked into our hetero- and amatonormative conceptions of romance and sex, and thus reclaim human connection as we please. blah blah blah wah wah wah body as a bargaining chip or whatever (guy who is mildly terrified of talking about these things for Reasons).

that's it for specific readings i have of specific characters, but i will say that i do find it hard to put myself in the shoes of certain characters if im thinking of them as alloromantic. like i think juri probably is but i dont not understand her conflict with shiori and why it agonises her so much. but tbf, most of my focus on juri as a character is her struggle for self-acceptance and her fascinating gender troubles. funnily enough, that's also kind of how i feel about saionji. they are just both so genderfuck self-hating gay plagued by the power dynamics and i love that for them.

anway yeag :} rejoice, aromanticism be upon ye

[kanohivolitakk]

Yesterday I was listening to music while on a car-ride when Cryoshells Room came up on my playlist and relistening to it again made me realize how great it is. The chord progression and melody are beautiful, the instrumentation is great, Christines singing is geniunely amazing here and the lyrics are really good portrayal of how complex emotions towards someone. I'd argue Room is one of the objectively best tracks Cryoshell has done, if not the best.

Yet in spite of Rooms quality it is extremely underrated when it comes to Cryoshells discography. I rarely see it being discussed when it comes to their best songs, in spite of arguing it easily being one of them. And while that saddens me, its not like I dont understand the reason why this is the case.

Room is one of the few Cryoshell songs that aren't Bionicle related in the slightest.

As being a band created to promote it, Cryoshell by its very nature is tied to Bionicle. Even if the band has continued on after the franchises end, the two are still interlinked with one another.

And there definitely is a lot good in this. Because of Cryoshells connection with a popular nostalgic IP, it has been allowed to live and not fade into obscurity. Many Bionicle fans fondly reminsce of Cryoshell and even become fans of the band.

However for all the good the correlation brings, theres a dark side to it. And thats that Cryoshell is essentially pidgeonholed to be "the Bionicle band". Its identity is so tied to Bionicle that fans often treat Cryoshell as an extension of Bionicle rather than its own separate thing. And this shows in the way people talk about Cryoshells post Bionicle tracks.

Think about it. Whenever you get to the comment section of a Cryoshell track, you see people comparing the track to Bionicle even if it wasnt made for it. Murky, Falling, Come to My Heaven, even their more recent Next to Machines stuff like Don't look down or Dive often gets associated with Bionicle by the fanbase. Because Cryoshell is the Bionicle band, and thus it must come back to Bionicle. Always.

So, when it comes to the songs that dont fit Bionicle at all, they often get overlooied and ignored. Theres a few exceptions (Feed has the most views of any non Bionicle track on their 2010 album while Slipping has most views on their Next To Machines era stuff) but this mostly is true. Songs like Trigger, No More Words, Nature Girl or Faux get either forcefully associated with Bionicle or outright ignored by the fanbase.

And Room has the worst of it all. With most Cryoshell songs you can loosely tie them to Bionicle even if its a stretch (No More Words being read as a song about Makutas defeat anyone?) But with Room you cannot just do that. The songs identity is deeply tied to it being about codependency and toxic emotions towards someone, seeing someone as both a savior and a monster, that you can't divorce it from it. And since that type of story the song tells isnt really present in Bionicle, the song cant be tied to it. Which makes it just left out in the dust.

I love Cryoshell, I love Bionicle and I love their connection to each other. But can we sometimes just treat Cryoshell as a band of its own right rather than always try to tie it to the funny Lego robot brand? Thank you.

[alias-mike]

i let the autism win

(i am going to tell you about compelling cytus 2 straight relationships) (my headcanons might get mixed in because its been 2 years since i read the lore and i dont feel like reading the 1000+ page transcription rn)

ALSO SPOILER WARNING FOR THE CYTUS 2 STORY

OK STARTING OFF WITH MY FAVOURITE ONE. CONNER X SASHA

incredibly egotistical guy (conner) who thinks hes better than everyone else meets his match in an academic setting but cant talk to her (sasha) because she graduates early and leaves. therefore he does the perfectly normal thing of stealing identity information of a bunch of random citizens from the government to sell on the black market bc sasha is also there as a mole for the police. he acts super incompetent to make her feel bad and help him sell the information for the best price and they end up forming a partnership for a while. their final job goes wrong as the police busts in and doesnt believe sasha when she says shes also part of the police bc her captain deleted her civilian identity file as part of the mission and that guy died in the raid so shes cooked. conner saves her at the last second and, dropping the act, tells her that he saved a copy of her civilian file and will be driving her to the nearest city and she can choose what she wants to do from there. shes super mad at him for decieving her but is grateful for the out that hes given her and leaves for the city with no internet to start fresh, assuming they would never see each other again. fast forward to the Plot and conner seeks her out again for help on some stuff and their modern dynamic is conner going "youre so cool and awesome haha...... we were such a good team back in the day....... you should run away with me" and sasha is like "no." its completely played for comedy (in my understanding) since the writing makes it clear that sasha has put her old life behind and only humours conner because hes an old friend (its been several years since the deception thing so i would assume she made peace with it and came to the conclusion that overall conner is chill) but she has a life of her own now. meanwhile shes the closest thing conner has ever had to a friend because shes the only (alive) person he sees as an equal so even though he knows its futile, he tries to convince her to come with him anyway. they were never really together and will never be together, and thats what makes their relationship interesting.

next up........ cherry x xenon !

this one is fun bc they start the story as exes. they dated when they were younger but broke up for reasons i can only describe as "her dad killed his dad and that really puts a strain on a relationship yk". basically cherrys dad got involved with organized crime after her mom died and he lost his job and xenons dad is a cop who was investigating said organized crime so they got into a Conflict and cherrys dad ended up killing xenons dad and severely injuring his sister. cherry also never told xenon abt this during their relationship bc its a bit difficult to bring up the whole "my dad does crime and sometimes i do it too" to the guy whos dad is a cop. the way they find out what happened is a bit. well funny isnt the right word but basically xenon is like "MY DAD AND SISTER GOT SHOT" and cherry was like "OH NO THATS HORRIBLE" so they rush to the hospital to visit them and see a news report about the incident and the perpetrator getting arrested and cherrys like "oh..............." they got in a huge fight after that and justifiably break up but deep down they still love each other and just. havent talked about it for several years after that. later some Plot stuff happens, they kinda reconcile a little bit, and cherry ends up injured in a fight. they were chilling at a base with really good medical facilities tho so the boss was like "here stay in this Healing Tube for a while and youll be fine" but uh oh! the evil bad guys attack and turn off all of the power in the base, including cherrys life support, and they turn the power back on too late so she dies and xenon is completely devastated over it because they never properly reconciled (i think there was something like he never said "i love you"? but i will have to reread lore to confirm. huge angst moment if true tho). i think they have an interesting arc in its tragedy. is it kinda contrived? yeah. but i think its thematically appropriate for the relationship where the whole thing is that something always went unsaid (first the crime thing, then how they actually still liked each other) ended with something unsaid, yk.

side note: theres even more tragedy to the situation considering the way they turned the power back on. ok basically theres a 12 year old girl named nora (shes the aforementioned boss) (shes a mafia boss) (its a long story) and she was experimented on as a baby and left to die to The Virus when the experiment failed but she survived and the scientists were like "holy crap can she be the key to a cure!?" so they took her back to the lab and raised her. shes disabled due to the initial experiments requiring her legs to be amputated and also happens to be mute but shes a genius so she built a robot to talk for her since she was stuck in her room all day (no one figured it was a good idea to give her mobility aids until several years down the line) (their idea of parenting was also like. playing chess with her once in a while). she also got into making edm songs for a while. later, she makes a robot known to the players as robo_head to be her bodyguard since they figure out that the virus gave her powers to see/hear through any camera or microphone connected to the internet and decide to use it for profit by touting her as an "oracle". now is a good time to mention that cytus 2 is a science.... fantasy? story where everyone has a brain chip to connect to the internet. anyways the more nora uses her powers the worse her eyesight gets and its also generally harmful to her health. robo_head is basically her only friend and she ends up having to send him off for reasons i wont get into rn and somewhere down the line he gains sentience and makes his way back to her. nora is enraged that he came back at first but after some persistence she lets him in and finds out about these developments, and is ultimately happy to have her friend back. when the power gets cut, robo_head knows that cherry needs help and volunteers to use himself as the power source which would essentially fry his circuits. nora refuses at first since she just got him back, but understands the importance of saving cherry so she ends up agreeing. unfortunately, its too late, so basically two people had to die for no reason ! (luckily nora ends up being able to fix robo_head after the end of the game but he was Gone for a while)

OK TANGENT OVER. BACK TO SHIPS. UHH sagar and rin are a thing

there was lore im pretty sure but i forgot so all i remember is that sagar is a pretty confident guy except when he has to talk to rin, in which cases he loses all of his skills ever and his dialogue mainly consists of "ummm uhm uhhh" and rin is also too nervous to notice how unskilled sagar is being. this is the only couple who gets a happy ending btw

honourable mention: whatever ilka(?) and rald had going on. classic nonhuman who is fascinated with humanity via one specific guy x guy who is unintentionally being very attractive. idk. i would tell you more about it but my dlcs are LOCKED and TAKEN AWAY from me 👎

there are also many gay ships but one of them is literally the plot of the game so it would make this post even longer if i started talking about them lmao

^said plot summarized in one image btw

OK THATS IT THANKS FOR READING!!!!