#something to unpack in therapy baby!!!

[darkblue-tennesseee]

turning 24 next month and very very tempted to just book an airbnb by myself and just sit alone in a cabin by the seaside like an ailing victorian woman and cry

[br1ghtestlight]

im allowed to infantalize my own characters btw thats how it works. but you aren't allowed to do that

[tartt9]

thinking about how jamie would probably blame himself if james ever hurt any of his childhood friends/teammates/loved ones whether that be physically or verbally

[luulapants]

Existential despair is so common in a person's twenties, I think, because up until that point, we've had a pretty clear road map for what's expected of us and we haven't had much reason to question that map. There are still a few milestones outlined for us (start a career, get married, make babies) but more and more young people are entering the post-school world and realizing:

A) that career thing just isn't happening like they said it would

B) I'm not ready to get married/I don't want to get married/marriage isn't the sort of life-altering event that it used to be

C) I'm not ready to make babies/I don't want a baby/I can't afford to raise children right now (see point A)

And in the absence of these milestones to shoot for (which one could argue weren't the promise of fulfillment they claimed to be in the first place), what we're left with is this aimless abyss of "the rest of our lives" sprawling out ahead of us with no indication of how it will go or what we should be doing to shape it. Young people start their first jobs, find they hate them, and think to themselves, "Is this it? Am I just supposed to do this job until I'm too old to do it or die first?"

Which is, yeah, really fucking depressing!! So here's my best attempt at an alternate roadmap for young people that don't vibe with the old model. Please feel free to add in your own suggestions!

Learn how you work and what you want out of a job. Unless you've been in a job-specific training program that gives you hands-on experience, your first jobs should be experiments. Learn how a full-time job feels for you, what elements are more or less difficult. Different workplaces have different cultures and expectations - what do you need out of a job environment? Do you need to find fulfillment in your job or is it enough for it to pay the bills and leave you time to find outside fulfillment? Do you want to climb a corporate ladder or are you content to hunker down as long as your bills get paid? This period of experimentation is exhausting and may feel like it's consuming your whole life.

Learn how to make time for things outside of work. Adapting to a full-time work environment often leaves you feeling so drained that you can't do anything but go home and collapse on the couch every day. That's fine - for a little while. But it can also become a habit. You need to learn how to do things after work or you'll go crazy. Go to a trivia night. Start an exercise schedule. Take a class in your community. Find volunteer work. Join a band. You will find that putting more things into your day makes you feel like you have more time, not less.

Find a community. Making friends as an adult can feel impossible. Where do you find these mysterious friends everyone seems to have?? This goes along with #2, though. As you start regularly attending the same activities, you will find that repeat interactions with the same people turn into friendships or at least friendly acquaintances. Say yes to invitations. Get involved in your local community. Strive to be connected enough to bump into people at the grocery store.

Unlearn bad lessons. We all internalize some messed up things when we're growing up. As you start off your adult life, that's the time to actively work at unpacking the things you've brought with you from childhood and deciding which things are helping you and which things are harming you. This might mean therapy or joining a spiritual group or reading new things or just making special time to be in your own head.

Learn the lessons you missed. In this, I mostly mean practical things. "Adulting." Areas of your day-to-day practical life that are causing you extreme stress are probably related to a knowledge or experience gap. Do you hate cooking and cleaning or were you not taught how to do it properly? Are you afraid of making medical appointments or is it just something new you're not used to? Does money make you queasy or do you need to learn how to make a budget?

Find something fulfilling. This can be your job. It can be volunteer work. It can be faith. It can be a hobby. It can be creating things. It can be challenging yourself physically. It can be activism. It can be going for walks in nature. Everyone finds fulfillment in different places. If you're not finding it where you are, look somewhere else.

[achromaticegoist]

THE BOOK OF BILL TINY RANT (SPOILERS)

STOP. I CAN'T DO THIS TUMBLR. okay okay, I GOT IT DELIVERED LIKE 3 HOURS AGO AND I COMPLETELY FINISHED IT 😭😭😭🙏

I ACTUALLY CAN'T DO THIS ANYYYMOREEE. I SWEAR TO GOD I WAS GIGGLING, KICKING, SCREAMING MY HEAD OFF THE ENTIRE TIME READING THIS STUPID THING.

Did ALEX LIKE, *SCROLL* through FANDOM while making this entire thing BECAUSE WHY DID SO MANY PEOPLE LOWKEY EAT WITH THEIR OLD HEADCANONS? SUPPOSED TO BE THE DEATH OF ALL OUR HEADCANONS RIGHT??? EVERYONE PREDICTED AT LEADT SOMETHING LMFAOOOOO.

AND IF ANY OF YALL FOLLOW GRAVITY FALLS : AMBER SKIES BY JOZLYN MOON, THE POST WEIRDMAGGEDON SCAR THING BEING A PREDICTION IS FUCKING *CRAAAZY*

AND THE FACT THAT THEY KEPT COMPATING HIM TO THE DEVIL AND SHIT, LUCIFER REFERENCES AND "FALLEN ANGLE?" MY GUYYYYY the actual BALLS it takes to write this because I GASPED SO LOUDLY AT SO MUCH SHIT.

AND I WAS SUPER DAMN EXCITED ABOUT THE HENCHMANIACS ONE

GUYS THEYRE SO FUCKING STUPID 😭😭😭😭😭😭🙏 WHY ARE THEY ALL SO STUPID 😭😭😭😭 IM DYING OF LAUGHTER

SO MANY PEOPLE LOWKEY GOT SOME KIND OF BEEF WITH PYRONICA?? WHY ARE THEY SO INVOLVED WITH HER??? THEY HAVE A GROUPCHAT OH MY GOD THEYRE SO BESTIE CODED

Again I'm STILL FREAKING OUT ABOUT JHESELBRAUM THANK YOU VERY MUCH. I WILL SURVIVE ON THESE CRUMBS SO DAMN MUCH

TIME BABY IS A FUCKING COCOMELON ENJOYER 😭 HELPPPPPPPPP

GGGGGUYYYYS? WHAT? OH MY GOD?? WHAT THE FUCK?? IM SCREAMIGN. NO NONONO YOU CANT DO THIS TO ME THE ANGST.

AND NO. THE WAY BILL AND FORD HERE WERE FUCKKKK THATS SOME GOOD FUCKING TOXIC BILLFORD. DUDE NAH IM LIKE GASPING FOR AIR RIGHT NOW BECAUSE HOLY SHIT SOME OF THE STUFF HERE IS SICK BUT I CAN'T HELP BUT LIKE

AND THE

IM FREAKING

AAAA

FORD DESERVED SO MUCH BETTER THOSE PAGES MADE ME TEAR UP A LITTLE 😭😭😭🙏 NOOOOO

AND THOSE *SCRAPS* OF BILL'S BACKSTORY. GUYS CHAT NO I AM SCREAMING. SILLY STRAW CHILDHOOD TRAUMA LOWKEY WENT HARD AND HIS FAMILY AND THE *FUCKING SPECK OF HIS HOME DIMENSION*.

THAT ONE LITTLE TV SCREEN WITH THE EDWIN A ABBOT FLATLAND DIAGRAM IN THE BOOK THOUGH NAH CUZ FANDOM ATE WITH THAT ONE.

AA. AAAAAAAA. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

AND WHAT THE FUCK 😭🙏🙏 DIPPERS HISTORY WAS SO FUNNY I COULDNT STOP LAUGHING BRO ALSO WENT THROUGH THE GREEN MNM STAGE

AND IM NOT EVEN GOING TO TALK ABOUT THE COLLEEN BALLINGER***** APOLOGY REFERENCE THAT SHIT WAS SO DAMN FUNNY.

ALSO THE ENDING??? WHAT THE--THERAPY? NO BRCUASE THIS IS ACTUALLY SOME MESSED UP THERAPY SHIT. That is NOT how you try and heal someone holy fucking hell. Guy is getting more and more broken

CHAT I AM SOBBING AND SHAKING AND CRYING AND READY TO IMMERSE MYSELF FULLY IN THE GRAVITY FALLS FANDOM RN, STILL VERY MUCH ACTIVE IN HAZBIN HOTEL BUT GOD MOTHERFUCKIN DAMMMMMMMMNNNN THIS IS SOMETHING TO UNPACK.

[iflakepod]

Therapeutic.

“Fuck, im late!” She rushes out of the house, trippin over shit. She’s around 10 minutes late to her therapy session.

Again.

She gets in her car and speeds to the office, attempting to avoid any late fees and charges. “Good afternoon, you can sign in right here” The young lady says behind the desk. She quickly fills out the paper and sits down in the waiting room, waiting for her name to be called.

“Hey, you can come on back.” The woman says, holding the door for her. She walks her to her therapist office. “Hello!” The therapist says as he sits up in his chair. “Hey, I’m so sorry that I’m late again.” She says as she slowly sits down on the couch. “Oh no, everything’s fine.” He says. She stares at the floor and starts bouncing her leg.

“How are you feeling…I can tell that something’s been bothering you” He says in a soft tone. She takes a deep breath, preparing herself to unpack the bullshit that’s been happening for the past 2 weeks. “It’s just like… I don’t even know where to start.” She says, looking around the room to calm herself down. “Start with whatever you feel comfortable talking about.” He says.

“Wednesday, I walked in on Shaquan with another girl.” She states. Then she sits there, staring at the wall. She tries her hardest not to process the situation.

“I’m… so sorry that happened to you.” He says sincerely, tilting his head slightly to the right. He comes from behind his desk to sit in front of her. “What did he say when he saw you standing there?”

“He didn’t.”

“He didn’t see you?”

“Nope”

“Wow, so he doesn’t even know that you know…” He says in a state of realization. “No he doesn’t. It’s so hard to act like I don’t know what’s going on.” She says. “I understand.”

“Yeah, it’s even harder trying to act like I don’t want to fucking kill him” She says, still staring at the wall. “Now you know we can’t say things like that.” The therapist says in a calming tone. “Well, how are you feeling in this exact moment?” He asks her.

“I feel like I want to hurt him. I want him to feel the same way I felt. I want to do it back to him” She says angrily. He slowly stands up and walks over to her. He sits down on the large couch beside her. “Would you like me to help you with that?”

He starts to slowly inch closer and closer to her face. She inches closer and closer to his. They kiss, slowly. Immediately, her insides start to get warm. Her intimate places start to tingle. While they kiss, he slides his hand down to her pretty pussy. As he rubs her swollen clit, he sticks his tongue in her mouth. She moans into his mouth as she’s being pleased. He slips his fingers inside of her. She starts whimpering as he moves his lips down to her neck. “You want it?” He asks her.

“Mhmm” She moans as his fingers are still inside her. He lays her back on the couch and slides her skirt up. She lifts her legs up to her face. He drops his pants and lines his dick up with her pussy. He leans down to her face. “You ready?”

“Yes”

He collapses on her, then slowly starts stretching her pussy. He’s grinding into her. She’s creaming everywhere. Her jaw drops as he lifts up and starts going faster. “Baby…” she says softly, attempting to stay quiet. “Hm?” He questions, staring her in the face. “It feels so fuckin’ good” She whispers. He drops his face down to her neck and starts sucking. “That’s my spot..” she whimpers. “I can tell, you gettin so fuckin wet” he groans in her ear. “I want to taste you” He says softly in her ear as he pulls out of her. He drops down to her womanhood. She’s soaked. He holds her legs up and starts sucking her clit, slowly. “Baby im ‘bout to cum all in your mouthhh” She wines as her orgasm approaches. “Please cum baby” he pleads as he licks her pussy.

Her mouth falls open as her pussy starts to pulsate. “What the fuck..” she says softly as she cums. Her body tenses up and she starts squirting. “You taste so fucking good” He says as he sits up. “Turn over baby”

She turns over and arches her back. He grabs her hips and slowly enters her pussy. “Fuck i feel so full” she moans. He starts going faster, drilling her in. “You like that feeling baby?” He questions, wanting to hear her loud response. “Yes babyyy” she whimpers, trying to stay as quiet as possible. “Let it the fuck out.” He says while smacking her ass.

Her whimpers grow louder and louder. “I know baby, i know” He says softly as his climax grows near. “Nut in me baby..” she says as she starts to throw her ass back. “Fuck im cum-“ His orgasm rips through him. “Oh fuckkk” He groans as he empties his thick cum inside her pussy.

They both take deep breaths, staying in their position.

“How are you feeling now?” The therapist questions.

“Better” She answers.

Tags: @henneseyhoe @miyuhpapayuh @nahimjustfeelingit-writes @nayaxwrites @hearteyes-for-killmonger @henneseyhoe @wide-nose-and-wonderful

Idk, this one is alrightttt 🤸🏾‍♀️

[bangchansgirlsblog]

Ouchie

**

It happened so quickly. Hyunjin found himself facing an unexpected challenge. He had sustained an injury during a particularly intense rehearsal for the VMA’s. It left not just physical pain but also emotional ripples that extended to the closest person in his life—the ninth member, his girlfriend, Y/n.

He was trying to do a flip off of I.N’s back about once Y/n had walked in he lost concentration and lost his balance causing him to fall on his ankle badly.

As the news of Hyunjin's injury spread within the group, concern and support poured in. The boys, bound by a deep sense of camaraderie, rallied around their injured member. However, within this sea of well-wishing voices, Y/n found herself grappling with an overwhelming sense of guilt.

In the quiet moments that followed the accident, Y/n, her heart heavy with a sense of responsibility, hesitated to approach him. Fear clung to her like a shadow, whispering irrational thoughts that she was somehow the cause of his injury. The once effortless connection between them now felt fragile, and the fear of unintentionally causing him harm loomed large in her mind.

One day, as Hyunjin, determined to bounce back from the injury, navigated through physical therapy, he noticed the subtle distance that had crept into his interactions with her. Her hesitance to touch him, the cautious glances, and the unspoken anxiety were impossible to ignore.

"Baby, can we talk?" Hyunjin implored, his voice a mix of vulnerability and frustration, as he gently grabbed her hand.

Y/n on the other hand, her gaze averted, pulled away. "I... I don't want to hurt you accidentally. I'm scared, Hyunjin."

Hyunjin, sensing the magnitude of her apprehension, furrowed his brows. "Scared? You've been avoiding me, and I don't understand why. I need you with me during this, not distant."

Tears welled up in her eyes as she struggled to articulate her fears. "What if I was the reason you got hurt? What if I distract you, and something worse happens?"

Hyunjin, taken aback by her words, held her gaze with a mixture of confusion and concern. "What are you talking about? You didn't cause my injury. Accidents happen, and it's not your fault."

Despite Hyunjin's reassurances, she couldn't shake off the irrational guilt that clung to her. In a desperate attempt to protect him, she distanced herself, inadvertently creating a barrier between them.

Recognizing the complexity of the situation, Chan, the wise leader of Stray Kids, observed the dynamics between Hyunjin and her. Sensing an underlying issue, he decided to intervene, understanding that communication was key to resolving their emotional tangle.

One evening, as they all gathered in the shared space of their dorm, Chan approached her with a gentle smile. "Mind if we talk for a bit?"

She nodded, a mix of apprehension and curiosity in her eyes. Chan guided her to a quieter corner, away from the watchful eyes of the group.

"Something seems off between you and Hyunjin," Chan began, his voice a soothing melody. "Mind sharing what's going on?"

The ninth member, her emotions bubbling beneath the surface, hesitated before speaking. "I'm scared, Chan. I'm scared that I caused Hyunjin's injury, that my presence might distract him, and he'll get hurt again."

Chan, his gaze warm and understanding, took a moment to absorb her words. "Hyunjin cares about you deeply. He wouldn't want you to carry this burden. Let me help you understand that you're not to blame."

Tears welled up in her eyes as she tried to articulate the irrational fears that had taken root in her mind. Chan, with a calm presence, patiently listened, allowing her to unpack the emotional baggage that had been weighing her down.

"Sometimes accidents happen, and they're beyond anyone's control," Chan reassured her. "Hyunjin needs your support, not your distance. It's important to communicate and navigate through these emotions together."

Encouraged by Chan's words, she found herself opening up about the irrational fears that had fueled her distancing from Hyunjin. Chan, with empathy and wisdom, gently guided her toward a more balanced perspective.

"You care about Hyunjin, and that's evident in your concern. But you need to understand that accidents aren't caused by love or distraction. They're unfortunate events that happen in the course of our lives," Chan explained. "Hyunjin doesn't blame you, and he needs you by his side, not pushed away."

Feeling a sense of clarity and comfort, the ninth member nodded. "I just... I don't want to be the reason for his pain. It scares me."

Chan, with a reassuring smile, placed a comforting hand on her shoulder. "Fear is natural, but don't let it control you. Talk to Hyunjin. Share your feelings with him. He loves you, and he wants to face these challenges together."

Armed with Chan's words of wisdom, Y/n approached the impending conversation with a newfound sense of courage. Later that evening, as Stray Kids gathered for a meal, she found herself seeking a quiet moment with Hyunjin.

"Hyunjin, we need to talk," she began, her voice a mix of vulnerability and determination.

Hyunjin, sensing the seriousness of her tone, nodded and guided her to a more secluded corner. "What's going on?"

Taking a deep breath, she looked into his eyes. "I've been scared. Scared that I might have caused your injury, that my presence might distract you and lead to something worse."

Hyunjin, his expression softening, gently cupped her face. "Listen to me, it's not your fault. Accidents happen, and I don't blame you. I need you with me during this, not pushing me away."

Her eyes filling with tears, finally allowed herself to be vulnerable. She shared the irrational fears that had haunted her, the weight of guilt that had driven a wedge between them.

Hyunjin, listening with compassion, wiped away her tears. "I understand your fears, but we face challenges together. You're not a distraction; you're my strength. Don't carry this burden alone. We're a team, okay?"

Embraced by Hyunjin's understanding and reassurance, she felt a sense of relief. The emotional barricade that had separated them began to crumble, making way for a renewed connection.

Later that night, as they all gathered for a practice session, the dynamics within the group had shifted. Their relationship , once tested by emotional tension, now resonated with a shared understanding of vulnerability and support.

Chan, observing the positive change, smiled as he watched Hyunjin and Y/n interact. The unspoken fears had given way to open communication, reinforcing the bond that defined Stray Kids not just as a musical group but as a family of friends navigating the complexities of life together.

The injury that had initially cast a shadow over Hyunjin and his girlfriend's relationship became a testament to the strength that emerged when love, understanding, and open communication prevailed. The stage, once a battleground.

[shentheauthor]

Fuck it, I’m bored. Nine sols gender/sexuality headcanons.

Kuafu: Gay cis man. I adore him. Look at him. He’s not subtle. He says jiequan, who literally walks around half naked, is “stylish.” I know what you are.

Goumang: She gives trans lesbian vibes. I also adore her. Free my girl, I could fix her

Yanlao: Homophobic /j. Nah fr tho, I think he’s a cis het man, but like, he isn’t gonna be homophobic or transphobic. I don’t think Penglai has that kind of thing. Grandpa is an ally, yay

Jiequan: That is a GAY MAN. Trans maybe? I haven’t decided, but what I do know is he is GAY. Look at how he talks to Yi. He’s gay and down horrendous and needs some therapy PRONTO. “Gay people who cannot be in a healthy relationship because they suck so bad” representation

Lady Ethereal: Bisexual demigirl, she/they! Also I hate that they didn’t let her keep her original name in the EN version. Fu Die is pretty!!! Dammit!!! But yea Lady E gives me strong bisexual vibes. She also had a thing for Yi. EDIT: SHE CANONICALLY HAD A RELATIONSHIP WITH A WOMAN LETS GOOOOO THE BISEXUALS ARE WINNING

Fuxi: Listen. Listen. He and Nuwa are identical twins. ONE of them bitches is trans. To me, it’s Fuxi. Trans man Fuxi is real to me. No clue what’s going on with his sexuality, and frankly, I don’t wanna know

Nuwa: I think she’d fw neopronouns. Her gender is a mess, and she wouldn’t really care to define it. Rotating her around in my brain. As for sexuality, same as Fuxi

Ji: Agender, he/they, and bisexual. The devs wanted him to be agender/nonbinary and I am CLINGING to that. They’re real to me. Also I think they and Jietong had a thing. I won’t elaborate.

Eigong: cis lesbian with every mental illness, banned from all public spaces. She gives old, wise queer energy until you dig deeper into her personality and see oh, she needs to be on some kind of list. Kind of iconic, ngl.

Yi: arospec/aspec, probably agender, but he has a job so he doesn’t care about that shit rn. He/him because that’s generally what people default to. Would not touch jiequan with a ten foot pole. Could have potentially had a thing with Lady Ethereal had everything not gone to absolute shit.

Heng: same as Yi lmao. Genuinely. They’re the AAA siblings

Shennong: Pansexual. Considers himself cis, but there’s definitely something else going on there. He doesn’t want to unpack that. Frankly, he is valid.

Bonus:

Chien: Trans girl

Shanhai 9000: gender is a solarian concept it doesn’t give a flying fuck about (it/its pronouns). Same with sexuality.

Abacus: also doesn’t care about gender or sexuality, but he will accept whatever pronouns. It’s whatever to him.

Shuanshuan: Intersex! Might grow up to be queer, but honestly, he’s just a baby rn. I’m not about to go in depth there

Chiyou: finds the concept of gender fascinating, chose he/him pronouns because he liked how they sounded. So what I’m getting at is: trans Chiyou

[majosullivan]

Recently had a re-read of episode one and I am having so many thoughts about Kappa’s birth cause like…there is just so much to unpack there given what we know so far, plus, there is just something to breaking down plot points in a somewhat comedic manner.

Like think about it: the God of the Surface sent down this golden magical fish egg on what would otherwise be considered a random Tuesday in the ocean. Magical egg popped out this toddler sized baby. God of the Surface made sure that said baby’s cognitive development was sped far enough along so he could talk and would have the capability to start completing prophecies as soon as he popped out. This however did not include them making sure the baby had the ability to read. They then tell this baby what his job will be for his entire life and then just, fucks off. To where? For what reason? Are they possibly unable to speak any further with him for some reason? Are they dead? Did they get lost looking for the milk? Who knows! We certainly don’t right now. All we know is that they sent out, what by all means, is their newborn son to complete these unbreakable pacts that they made with different castles, with there being no proper guardian to look after and teach this baby in sight (the closest thing Kappa had to this being creatures in the sea keeping an eye on him so he didn’t die).

As one can likely expect from the previous facts, one day into being alive, this baby has already started the pathway towards developing an anxiety disorder and hating his assigned life role since the very first prophecy he completed did not go the way people expected and he has no way of finding out why, with his only source of information seemingly ignoring him. This isn’t even going into all the other traumatic shit Kappa goes through later in life (you know, like that time he skinned himself alive to save a dying castle but in the end, he couldn’t because of forces out of his control), and more relavently to this topic, how there is supposed to be OTHER BEACONS to help take care of prophecies from each castle.

Kappa is in clear need of therapy, but all things considered, the fact he turned out to be as much as a functioning adult as he has is impressive

[doulayogimama]

I know I’m a dramatic baby, but I’m so sad that I’m not in BCN / don’t know when I’m going back.

The moment we left MIA airport, Kevin and I were both kind of culture shocked already 😂 The drivers were so aggressive, there was tons of honking when there was clearly nothing to be done except wait. Barcelona had traffic too, but damn.

I miss it with every fiber of my being. I feel crazy that I miss a city / country this much. Like my soul is upset that we found the perfect place and then just left it.

I told Kevin I would try for a 3rd baby if we move to Barcelona sometime after baby 2 is born. He was like “whoa, that’s a big incentive for me” - he knows how much I hate being pregnant but he would have 4-6 if I agreed to it 😬

I know this sounds terrible and I’m sure I can unpack a lot in therapy about it — but being free from both families and their very strong cultures was amazing. I love my family, but the very passionate, ingrained eating disorder, constantly criticizing everyone is something I would not want to be a part of regularly. Kevin’s family are very religious people. I’m tired — I’m 30 years old and feel like a whore for wearing yoga pants around my in laws (women only wear dresses or skirts) or like a teenager when I’m sneaking out for food during pesach (it’s a real bitch to find good to eat as a vegetarian in an ashkenazi Jewish family — the Sephardim are lucky, they get rice/hummus/beans/tofu).

I just feel like I can’t be my true self in either family. I’m too hippie/minimalist/democrat for my Miami family and I’m too goyim for my in laws (as loving and accepting as they have been, it will always be the elephant in the room that I didn’t convert).

I love both of our families. We are both so lucky to have them. But … I feel better about my self and my life when I see them seldomly.

[aliasrocket]

༊﹒ROCKET GOES TO THERAPY.

self explanatory. 1.6k words.

inspired by this post by @elegant-fleuret . Probably gonna make more ‘sessions’ in the form of chapters, but I’m not sure yet.

“Do you know why you’re here, Mr …”

She trails off. The ‘r’ goes on for a while and Rocket tapped his foot to a nonexistent rhythm. He grinned.

“You’re really not gonna help me out here?”

“Nope,” Rocket replied, popping the ‘p’ before his lips returned to the same curled position.

“Alright.” She nodded. “Do you know why you’re here, Mr Raccoon?”

“Gah, now that just sounds like somethin’ off of a kid’s book, scratch that,” Rocket protested, his face scrunching up to form a grimace.

Since he’d first entered the blinding white room, Rocket’s back was completely slumped against the couch, his legs falling wherever was most natural—and that had apparently been fairly wide apart. To him, that is. One arm dangled behind the cream couch and the other rested on his thigh.

“You chose the name yourself, didn’t you?” The woman smiled with a lower of her head. She pushed up her rectangular glasses on its bridge with a knuckle on her finger.

Rocket’s eyes narrowed. “Yes.”

“I suppose the quote on quote ‘kid’s book’ aspect didn’t cross your mind when you were deciding on it?”

She had a clipboard in her hand and a pen in the other. Though, currently, the hand with the pen held her knee with the pen intertwined in her fingers whereas she kept the clipboard snug on her forearm, holding it by its metal clip at the top.

Rocket sighed, looking away. Even the floors were a bright white.

“What exactly are you writing on there?” Rocket asked, crossing his arms when his eyes made their way back to the woman.

“It’s not anything you’re going to tell me, if that’s your concern.” She readjusted in her seat, leaning a little closer this time. “It’s only so I can remember the things we can work with.”

The smile that seemed to leave a permanent mark on her face was gentle; there was a glint where the light met it, like she had been wearing baby pink lipgloss.

Rocket pressed his lips together every time he was on the brink of spilling just a little bit of his bile onto the glass coffee table between them. Years and years of torment, self loathing, disgust and vomiting all kinds of colors wasn’t really something Rocket had planned on unpacking. He’d had it in the bag for probably two decades, maybe a few more years—unpacking it would make putting it all back so much harder.

It’s not an item he’s unpacking, they’re not even items—they’re pieces. The way they’re deep within his guts was meticulously placed there to fit, nevermind they’re jutting out in every direction and tearing him from the inside out—it fit. That’s all that mattered.

“Okay, maybe we should start somewhere else … Groot tells me you’re a mechanic. A pretty good one at that,” she spoke up, Rocket’s eyes darting back to her own. She was digging into him, he could see it in her gaze—it never left his. But then again, Rocket had been looking away for some time now.

“A little bit of an understatement, but sure,” Rocket remarked in a pitchy voice. He shrugged.

“How so?” She quizzed once more.

Rocket frowned.

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[cancerian-woman]

If not Klaus what other characters could you see Bonnie having children with ?

I’m a multi-shipper so I could see it with anyone but her canon love interests tbh. I believe that Bonnie would have more daughters than sons no matter what the pairing is. Just because powerful women are the face of the Bennett-line. Mother to daughter is crucial for those witches. It’s badass even though it’s neglected.

It’s still crazy all these baby witches were introduced and Bonnie got nothing. When her bloodline has the most richest lore of them all. In another light the writers couldn’t ruin more family dynamics if they weren’t created. Off topic, I don’t think Caroline would be so absentee in her daughter’s lives as LGCS made it out to be. Which is something I wouldn’t have wanted to see in Bonnie’s life. Bonnie would honestly lean on helicopter parenting style that she’d have to break before her daughter(s) get older in age. Simply because no one protected Bonnie as a child, Bonnie’s motives would be rooted in protecting her daughter. We seen Bonnie go to therapy sessions, so I can see her taking the time to unpack those issues while her daughter aged.

Sorry this took so long to reply too! Thank you for this as always 💜

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TCOAAL UPDATE 6 LETS GOOO You know the drill don't give yourself hives

I have been rolling this around for a few days now and again, absolute blind shot in the dark is to say that this is probably him about to confess to Ashley that he and Julie are dating. I cannot WAIT to get more context, if Andy is worried about her reaction to him dating, if he's feeling conflicted internally and unsure as to why that feeling is there. There is so little available to know what this could fully mean but I am thrilled to learn more AND THEN THE GOT DAMN VID 1) nice to know we have confirmation that his biting his knuckle is a nervous tick 2) MOM NAME! That'll make fic writing easier lmao 3) God there is SO much to unpack here We kinda always knew that Renee suspected Andrew of having some sort of inappropriate attachment to Ashley. This is something she hints at a few times in chapter 2 and more so when you reject the olive branch. Renee keeps dropping points in parent of the year it's almost comical. I am genuinely interested to see what the game has in store for her and if we do get a little more empathetic to her situation as playing her, given that we clearly have a round to do so. Also the fact she was looking for condoms is.. Good lord this lady will die before she gets therapy for her kids... I LOVE seeing the fact that we get confirmation that Andrew is able to lie on the fly. It's again implied but the fact he was able to make up, some bullshit about a show she's never seen. That's some fascinating skill knowing A) It's a show she doesn't watch B) Because of which he CAN just make up whatever because she can't confirm he's lying C) Creativity to weave a fib about a show he's probably also never seen. We know he can do poetry on the fly so making up a plot about a show must be as easy as breathing. The sheer fact Renee has Andrew labeled as Disappointment and Ashley as Embarrassment is incredible too. Fantastic work. A fun little showcase of her relation to them both honestly.

All of this is just causing me to vibrate in place in anticipation. I'll admit TCOAAL is fun in terms of it's world, but rotating each character around and really picking them apart? That's why I can't shut the fuck up about this game. Everyone is so INTERESTING even if they are the worst people alive. I am THRILLED about the idea of getting to know their mother better as a means to understand the foundation they come from. Like the idea Andrew is labeled Disappointment is so telling. She clearly had higher hopes for him, clearly was content to pin those to him and when he fell short of, lets be honest, of those probably unrealistic expectations. > She did basically ask him to raise an entire human as a child himself. > I hate that I have to say this but in the 90s having a college degree meant you eared the good money. Andrew going to college would imply that he would make enough cash to at least be a source of pride in the family given that the implied economic situation of Renee and her husband is that neither of them are college educated.

Andrew still being at home, still clinging to Ashley (literally), still ruined his life with whatever happened to Nina, it's easy to see how she feels like he's the biggest letdown. A bright spot in the family squandered. Ashley being labeled Embarrassment is no surprise. She already clearly harbored some ill will towards her even as a baby, and with how much of a fucking handful Leyley is, it seems like that trend continued well on past infancy. Then her being out of school, I can only assume without a job (or at the very least one that can't pay for her own apartment) and worse now, potentially in an fucking relationship with her brother is... Yeah I can see the tagline pretty easily got applied. Now again, that's because it seems like this woman is critically allergic to Getting Her Kids Help, but what ifs and what coulds need not apply, we're lookin at what we got :D ANYWAYS OK IM DONE NOW BYE I HOPE YOU ALL HAVE A GOOD ONE!

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I’ll always love the whole daemon discourse regarding his love/loyalty towards viserys & rhaenyra. There’s no doubt that he doesn’t want the throne for himself…maybe initially at first but not anymore but it’s just that he’s so brazen, relentless, merciless & ruthless (also idiotic bc my dude, you hired the most laziest & idiotic people to do your bidding like what?? How can you be shocked that it didn’t go your way…when has anything go your way, my love but anyways..) and because he goes about anything that way, it causes a mistrust from viserys & rhaenyra (within good reason imo like I can’t say that their mistrust in daemon is irrational & unfair bc damn, that mf is not greatest at executing his plans). He is such a wild card that you never know what to expect of him and his reasonings but he is valid for feeling casted aside from Viserys and ofc his fear of being casted aside increases now that rhaenyra has grown up and is more aware of daemon’s erratic & chaotic nature but daemon, my love, I’m going to hold your hand when I say this…..THERES A WAY TO GO ABOUT IT, DUMDUM. there’s a right way and your way, my dude, is not the right way like damn. Ofc, rhaenyra is going to look at you different bc your “mistake” consisted a poor innocent baby being struck down in HER name but Rhaenyra, you also should’ve know that everything he does from that point on (even though it’s stupid as fuck) is all for you, he loves you. He wants you..not the throne. All of the mfs needs therapy like I get a headache just watching this as viewer. Imagine actually having to deal with the fuck shit mess of a family…take me out now like 😂 but anyway, what do you think?

Yeah, it’s so very interesting to unpack the character! Daemon is not someone who desires the throne, and that’s pretty well-articulated by basically everyone involved in the show’s production process. He desires to be IMPORTANT, to be VALUED, and that’s just something that he doesn’t get from Viserys (and is starting to see the same in with Rhaenyra). One could argue that the distance rulership creates between the monarch and their subjects is in itself a major factor in this, but I do truly believe that they just don’t provide Daemon with the esteem he craves. There’s also whether or not he actually deserves it—he’s made terrible decisions time and time again, and who would want to trust him after that?? A real self-defeating cycle with this one. It’s so deliciously tragic!

I do tend to believe that Daemon’s idiocy was deliberate; he KNEW that Blood and Cheese was going to end in someone important’s death, whether that be who he said to go for (Aemond) or collateral (Jaehaerys). His aim was to provoke war, to lure them out of King’s Landing and onto the field so he could cut them down in battle. He does succeed in this, however unfortunate the ultimate outcome is.

Thank you so much for this ask! I love taking about these messed-up idiots.

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Who wants a sad Aggie thought

I’m doing a few verses now where Stan and Aggie get to be together, MUCH sooner than canon. And I’ve definitely pondered them having kids together bc I’m TRASH and I love the idea of them having a family and I think they’d be great parents (they’d have their struggles I think but all in all they’d be much better parents than either of them had) but the more I think about it (especially thinking more about Jesse and trying effect he has on her and also unpacking my own trauma +trauma responses in therapy) I’ve come to a conclusion

Initially, finding out she’s having another baby is terrifying to Aggie. The first time around she was very brave and told Jesse about it bc she’s a good person and she figured he had the right to know and he absolutely blew up at her and reacted pretty uhhh violently it lead to a physical fight between them

That’s. That’s traumatic. It was immensely traumatic for her. As if the circumstances of falling pregnant didn’t suck enough, the reaction of the father of her child made it a million times scarier and hard.

So imagine down the line you’re with someone else someone you DO love and you would have a family with but there’s this??? Muscle memory. This buried trauma that rears up at finding out you’re having an unplanned child, when the last time it happened it put your life in actual danger. No matter the good outcome of having a kid like Bobby or even knowing deep down that this circumstance isn’t the same, there’s this reactive fear.

So she’d keep it a secret. She’d be too afraid to tell, even if there’s NO danger. Rationally she knows that Stan wouldn’t get MAD, not like Jesse. Sure he might freak out a little but he’d never get mad and threaten to hurt her. She KNOWS this but she can’t risk the .00000001% chance that It’d go horribly wrong

(Not to mention in the verse where she helps Stan with the portal she’s out here Doing shit she probably shouldn’t do while pregnant)

And she’d hide it pretty well, she’s a good liar and a good hider. But it would have to come out eventually and she’d be so emotional and freaked out and she’d need a lot of comfort and reassurance. I’ve never even really considered just how scared she would be??? And how guilty she would feel about FEELING so afraid of something that she literally WANTS like

Trauma is so weird, it makes you react so weird to things. Sometimes you have multiple reactions at once!!!

Anywayyyyy I wanted to let y’all in on my angst

ALSO honestly she’d be afraid of having a daughter. Passing on the magic is kinda scary. Ngl.

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S/O happy rant!

Here's a list of all of the things Billy has worked through in our relationship (with his enthusiastic consent of me posting this) because I learned to channel and keep in close contact with him for the last 2 years 🥰 (Side note, I did NOT "fix him". He didn't need to be fixed. There were just some things he needed to learn and unpack and I support him through it.)

Internalized homophobia; I'm gender fluid and pansexual, which means being in a relationship with me is automatically a queer relationship. This was surprisingly one of the easiest things to work through.

Avoidant Attachment; This was one of the hardest things to work through with him. There were a lot of coping mechanisms that hurt along the way, but he did it, and I'm so proud 🥰

(Internalized) Racism; This came with unpacking a lot of his trauma as well as growing up in California in the late 70's/early 80's with the rise in conservative views. Not super hard to work through. He did see POC people as humans/people, he just associated a lot of the toxic stereotypes with them and viewed them as dangerous.

Childhood Trauma; I feel like this one is self explanatory. There are still a few touchy subjects, but he's actively in therapy working through the rest which will take time.

Fears surrounding Parenting; Poor baby was *terrified* he would turn out like his father, but after a butt load of therapy, he's now comfortable with the idea and currently parents 2 of our 4 kiddos at home.

Toxic masculinity and misogyny; I'm queer and AFAB, so he had to get over that *QUICK*. The toxic masculinity and fear of having real friends has softened over time and is pretty much gone (unless it's a joke) now.

Fear of intimacy; This one took a while. But he's doing great and communicates clearly when those fears come up.

Communication; This kind of encompasses all of these, but he's learning beautifully and we can communicate about anything and everything like adults without any blowout fights anymore 🥰

Internalized ableism: I have several physical disabilities as well as AuDHD, so this was also something he had to learn fast, luckily he really is just a big teddy bear with a bigger heart and he was more than willing to learn and continues to learn about this with me.

Consent: Consent was NOT taught properly in the 80's and it shows with everyone of the era. He actually brought this one up to learn and fix because of the assault I went through with my ex.

All in all, he's doing wonderfully and is still actively in therapy. I'm beyond proud of him for being ready and willing to address any, much less all of these. Long story short, I absolutely love and adore this man beyond anything I thought I could have ever experienced 🥰