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widgenstain · 2 years ago

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The fact that after five days of Covid (starting to feel better) and away from work, I finally feel... not relaxed, that would be the wrong word, nothing about this shit is relaxing, but like some of the pressure, dread and hatred is gone, pretty much tells you all you need to know about my job, doesn't it?

#this forced me to shut down and focus completely on myself for once #something I can't even do on holidays #it's so depressing #fingers crossed I learn from this #as in: get my shit together quit this soul sucking shitshow and do something I can actually get behind #it can't be that contracting a fucking deadly virus is what makes me feel like myself again for the first time since April

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didnt-hear-idsb-live-again · 19 days ago

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#my Florida shirt just got taken down from Etsy for no fucking reason #Taylor's team just CHUCKED the book at me and fucking LIED in their report to Etsy about it #said I infringed on their trademarks for Lover 1989 and Reputation in their report #and I used.... NONE OF THOSE THINGS. NOT ONE.#that shirt has (obviously) nothing to do with any of those albums even #not in the metadata not in the tags not in the SEO nothing #and since it had no tags of those things it didn't pop up in a sweep and get auto-taken down. it was targeted by them & they manually did i #that design is SO by the book legally and bc of how successful it is I've worked VERY hard to make it that way. even in the SEO #and I mean everything in my shop I go out of my way to make legal but #like that is probably the most actually black and white legal piece of fan merch I've ever seen in my fucking life #but I can't fight back because if I fight back.. if they want it down the next option is prove to Etsy that they're SUING ME #so like. yeah not trying to fuck around and find out there #and that is awful for multiple reasons.#1. I have lost like 90% of my income for the rest of the year. I've grown to rely on income from that shirt as I should bc IT'S FINE #2. it's about to be the holidays. this makes 1 worse and also - people will be searching for this shirt bc it's on ppls holiday wishlists #they now won't be able to find mine #and will therefore google it and buy one of the MILLION FUCKING STOLEN VERSIONS WHICH ARE STILL UP BY THE WAY #and 3. I can't even have these stolen versions taken down anymore because I don't have a leg to stand on since the real thing now doesn't-#exist to prove it's mine #I want to fucking throw up like idk how to do anything other than be sobbing in a fucking ball on the floor #like this is probably the 2nd worst thing that has happened to me in my life lmao #like this shirt was single-handedly paying my rent every month and I had other income but. that shirt was my cushioning #my whole Etsy shop is FUCKED without it like absolutely fucked it was carrying the whole entire thing #I'm scared to upload or DO anything else w my Etsy even because if they just made up lies to get that shirt down #then I am SURE they've got something against me or my shop #and like fucking WHY I work so hard to make everything FAIR AND RIGHT #I worked so fucking hard on that shirt that thing was like my child like my actual full pride and joy #I want to scream I don't even know what to do with myself #it feels like someone just shoved me into a room shut the lights off locked the door and threw away the key #that shirt has been like probably the proudest achievement of my life like no joke and everything I've put into it & my Etsy just got kille

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yumesei · 1 month ago

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I'm having such a shitty day and such a shitty week overall :(

#Like seriously my personal life is bad recently #And I got triggered every fucking days on selfshipping space #Which are supposed to me my safe space or whatever #I'm not even gonna talk abt last week to not trigger anyone but ffs #All im doing is crying like a baby and skipping classes #That kind of moment where u wish ur f/os were real so I could get a bit of comfort at least idk :'(#Plus my birthday is this WE so that's worse #And I wanted to do something for my loves but I can't move aaaaaah #The holidays will save me trust #Vent

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welcometogrouchland · 2 years ago

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[ID: a digital illustration of Luz and Hunter from the owl house. Luz sits on the right with her hand on hunter's shoulder. Hunter sits on the left facing Luz. They're both in their designs from the end of Thanks to Them. Hunter has his eyes closed and is crying with a pained expression, while Luz looks on with tears in her eyes. The background is dark and the scene is dimly lit. The second image is a variation on the first image where a spectral version of flapjack sits on hunter's shoulder and Manny's hand in on Luz's shoulder. End ID]

Felt like posting something devious today. Do you think they'll ever talk about what they've lost? Bond over it? Mourn??? Grieve????

#the owl house #toh #hunter toh #luz noceda #hunter noceda #flapjack toh #(BARELY i did not put the effort into that bird that i should've)#manny noceda #(also barely but I feel like it's more obvious here)#i sketched this out months ago when TTT first aired but the lines were giving me trouble and i shelved it #until now when i really just wanted to finish something but wasn't happy with any of my sketches #it was inspired by the interview dana did where she said grief would be a major theme of season 3 #both bc it scared me and also bc it made me start thinking ''hm okay. which characters are grieving rn and how might they interact?''#my money's still on darius if hunter does get to talk through some of his grief in the next few eps #(just to tie a nice bow on their relationship and maybe dicuss the previous gg a bit more and flesh darius' motives out)#but like. luz is his sister. grief is sooo central to her arc as well it's like. even if they don't get time in canon #(which is understandable. they do not have a lot of time rn for extended fanfic-esque character exploration conversations)#but that doesn't mean i can't rotate the idea in my mind at terminal velocity until i get sick #i would apologize for not posting festive art at this time of year rn BUT YKNOW WHAT. I'VE HAD A ROUGH COUPLE OF HOLIDAY SEASONS #THIS COUNTS AS FESTIVE FOR ME!#it's getting better this year though. slowly #anyway this piece isn't perfect and there's a few bits I'm not happy w/ that i could've spent more time on #but to my own credit i pushed myself to use reference and do a (albeit simple) pose I don't normally do!#so props to me in that sense #anyway happy holidays! think abt these devastatingly sad children with me please!

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aromantyczno-liryczna · 8 months ago

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Buy me a coffee

THIS HAS BEEN SITTING IN MY DRAFTS FOR LIKE TWO HOURS ASKING FOR THINGS IS LITERALLY MY WORST FEAR BUT FUCK IT WE BALL

my mum could really use £30-40 for groceries. We've spent a lot of money fixing stuff this month like replacement pipes and central heating (that really should be our landlord's responsibility..). She only has £150 left but we've still got bills to pay later this month so not much to spend on food and other necessities. Universal credit + her wage doesn't get paid until the end of the month (something is coming next week too but idr) 🥲

Usually we ask family and close friends for borrowing money but no one has been able to lend any aaa

No pressure to donate whatsoever — but if you have some extra money, any support would be greatly appreciated mwah <3

#minimum wage paired with her being a single parent and all that isn't really the best combination but eh #If it weren't for everything breaking at once I wouldn't have to ask #Anyway I need to shit on my landlord for a sec because I'm so pissed off #He doesn't fix anything (or at least takes a long time — he's been “fixing” our fence for thr past 4 years because its soo expensive and #otherwise he can't go on his quarterly holiday 🥺)#And he still has the audacity to raise rent every year when we've been renting for 10+ years now and never missed a payment #How do you go from £900 to £1500 a month for 2 bedrooms #We even pay a day in advance just in case something doesn't work or we can't pay later #But the one time she payed at 10 in the morning on the day he automatically started asking if its been transferred bc he can't see it #Even though its any time during the 24h and then the grace period #Its in the contract that YOU WROTE erm #Maybe stuff wouldn't be breaking all the time if you actually invested in high quality pieces #When we signed the first contract he literally bought the house 2 days prior and didn't renovate anything lmao #lasar being incoherent

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iftitah · 1 year ago

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everyone prioritizes their family and that means even extended chacha ke chacha fufa ke tau etc and i can't even prioritize my sagi one i hate myself

#and its not that they're bad or anything #but im such a people pleaser i feel validation from strangers is more important than family #its because maybe ive watched them too closely and nothing about them fascinates me anymore i know the pattern #and my fun is meeting new people cracking the code #but still #i hate that people will cut your calls leave your message unread kyunki aaj poora din bua mausi aaye the #wish i was that focused on my relatives #ill literally text call anyone even in a middle of a fucking apocalypse #idk yall should tell me if im doing something wrong do yall keep your phones away and forget to text your friends #but i can't focus one thing for too long i cannot physically see messages decking up and not reply #i hate this #do people simply not check. there phone as often or am i an addict #or have i still not learnt to be in the moment #and tomorrow night i leave for home and my friends have planned a meet up #now frn 1 comes to home for one month in her holidays so giving one day or even two days to friends doesn't matter #frn 2 lives in hometown so there's no problem but mind you if she comes she has to leave in 2 minutes because her mom calls every five #minutes just to get her back to home for nothing #frn 3 comes home same as me aka 4-5 days so giving 1 day to friends is parents saying tumhe hamse matlab nahi hai tyohaar mei bhi har baar #milne jaana hota hai #etc #but im home past 4 days ivd literally done nothing papa bhai se utni hi baat hui jitni phone par ho jaati hai #haan for mummy i spent time with her #but most of the time i was on tumblr or scrolling insta to kya hi matlab hua mere ghar aane ka #that means unhe bas meri physical presence chahiye #na ghar par bua aayi na mama na koi #lekin ab kal mujhe jaana hai to kal mama aa jaayenge #why are things this way

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gideonisms · 11 months ago

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Should I buzz my hair off

#i can't go out to celebrate new year which is one of my favorite holidays :/ (sick)(flu)#i can't stay up for it even (work at 7 am tomorrow.)#i just feel like i want to do something to celebrate surviving 2023 like i just want one thing to be different

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epicfirestormer · 2 years ago

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Me: I'm fine

Also me: Six getting his memory erased in "Six Minus Six" and Rex trying to make him remember is meant to parallel just how terrifying it must've been for Six and Holiday when Rex would sometime lose his memories before canon started. We know from what Tuck told Rex that he had lost his memories so many times, he would keep a notebook on him to make sure he would remember. How many times had this happen, for it to be a habit. How many memories did Rex lose when he was in Providence. How much of his own life does Rex actually remember during those years. Did Rex and Six bonded and got close before Rex inevitably blacks out and forgets everything again. How absolutely horrifying is it for Rex, a child in everything but title, to wake up with no idea who he is at a goddamn government facility and treated nothing more than a weapon. How heartbreaking had it been for Holiday, a mother figure who treats Rex like a child- how he should be treated- to see him not recall anything about her. How absolutely soul-crushing had it be for Six, who had taught this kid to survive and how to stay strong, to see that same kid act in fear. Did Providence did something similar to what Rex did, keeping a log of everything about him so he could know right away. How awful is that. How absolutely batshit, fucking insanely immoral it is that a child have to go through. To lose memories and be conditioned about waking up a military base. But in the eyes of Providence, he isn't a child. He's a weapon, an asset at best, and a monster at worst.

#generator rex #i have. so much emotions about generator rex #once again I need to talk about how genuinely fucked up the world of genrex is #like. rex is a fuckin kid. he's 16 #he can't even fucking drink #at yet here he is. forced to fight and be a child soldier because that's what he is.#no one views him as human because technically speaking. he isn't human anymore #he's a *thing*#can you imagine that. no wonder holiday always sounds pissed when everyone expects him to act like an adult #because he isn't. he's a teenager who got thrown in here because of factors out of his control and he has no choice but to fight #of course he's gonna rebel. that's just what kids do #honestly those episodes where rex is just. being a teenager and having fun? those are great. he deserves a break #i need to rewatch genrex cause holy shit i have a lot to say about it #something something ''providence is immoral'' something something ''rex is a child soldier''#what else is new #rex salazar #the fire burns #generator rex spoilers #spoilers #im only tagging this as spoilers so that anyone new to this show don't get spoiled #also my mutuals who im gonna force to watch generator rex with me #hi silver. if you're reading this; thanks for getting this far #but also. let's watch genrex sometimes. it's really good

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ailithnight · 11 months ago

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Can anyone tell me, in extremely layman's terms, how to downgrade to a previous ASUS BIOS version?

My computer issues started after I was forced to update the BIOS and, after running every test I can think of through 3 different programs (including the BIOS screen itself) and finding no errors, all I can think to do is revert the BIOS update and see if that fixes it.

But every tutorial I can find greatly overestimates my knowledge of computers.

The one video I did find to try to follow, I got most of the way through and the program (winflash) spat out a message (file size invalid) that I can't even find anywhere else what the hell that means.

#ailith talks to the void #computer help #I don't know what I'm doing and I'm scared to break something but I cannot keep dealing with these random reboots #If all else fails as long as I don't break the warranty #I can call in a service request after the holidays #Computer was brand new in fuckin July #Can't even play certain games because they don't autosave and I can't predict when a reboot will happen #There have been 3 in the process of typing up this post

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twistitch · 27 days ago

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Very excited for next summer. Got some tickets to go see Ghost. Gonna be looking forward to that, so it'll help me get through the incoming seasonal depression/work frustrations.

Only thing is not looking forward to potentially having to be the one to drive into the city. We'll see what happens, lots of time until then.

Just gonna focus on the excitement and anticipation. 😌