#someone take my fucking teeth out
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I don’t really vibe with who’s afraid of little old me simply because I think I’ve run out of sympathy for miss swift
But if I think about it hard enough I can make it about my late autism diagnosis and that’s why I DONT think about it hard enough anyway
#it’s also about my fictional characters but that’s a different post#someone take my fucking teeth out#taylor swift ttpd#ttpd#who’s afraid of little old me#actually autistic#late diagnosed autistic#Taylor swift
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As a show of good faith toward the remaining Decepticons at the beginning of a new, united Cybertron, newly appointed Senators Bumblebee and Soundwave allowed Shatter and Dropkick to enlist into Autobot City's Defense Team.
These two turned out to be... not the best choices.
The city may have fallen to Insurgent Decepticon occupation had it not been for young recruits Hot Rod and Arcee's accidental interception of Shatter's communication with the fugitive Starscream.
To replace the errant Defense Team members, Springer and Blurr were reassigned from Iacon to Autobot City in their stead.
#my art#tf reconstruction#transformers#bumblebee movie#tf shatter#tf dropkick#maccadam#transformers au#semi-introduction to my idea for antagonists in tf:r - specifically being movie villains slotted into my au#bc if the main crux of the main reconstruction story in autobot city is about hot rod and her rise to becoming rodimus prime#which comes from the First movie - why not loosely adapt other movies too??#ive got ideas for most of them already - kinda jumping back and forth between the modern day story and my pre-war ''downfall'' story#which gives my brain a break from thinking about one to think about another#anyway - i imagine the first ''episode'' of tf:r would be like. hot rod shows up in autobot city on her first day > meets the team#> gets assigned arcee as her partner > arcee hates it > they over hear shatter talking to someone they don't recognise because rod's nosey#> huh that's weird > they intercept it next time by accident > its a communication to starscream about the city's defenses#> they take it to ultra magnus but they break the pad on the way because they were arguing about it#> ''hot rod i know you're new here. and you're intrigued about the war and everything. but we shouldn't be suspicious of everyone wearing a#purple badge. give them a chance.'' > arcee drops it bc she doesn't wanna start trouble + ''magnus will handle it. he always does somehow.'#> rod does not drop it and makes blaster monitor shatter's messages for anything unusual > blaster indulges her bc he's endeared to her#> he does end up intercepting an encrypted message > rod immediately acts and chases after shatter and dropkick on an outside-city mission#> arcee goes after her to stop her from fucking up really bad > blaster unencrypts the message. it's a rendezvous point to start an invasio#> magnus kup blaster and perceptor all head out to help the two young'uns before they get in over their heads#> rod and arcee meet and fight starscream and barely make it out by the skin of the teeth thanks to the more experienced autobots arrival#> starscream shatter dropkick and whoever else is there are driven off#> day is saved - magnus commends rod's gut instincts but rod goes back to what magnus said about not trusting bots with purple badges#> she was right this time but its an exception not a rule and most other decepticons in the city want to live in peace#> magnus also commends that attitude and the team head back > starscream starts plotting his Next Big Plan#''post credits'' scene of magnus putting the request in for springer and blurr + robot dinosaur opening its eye in the dark👀👀#longwinded but ya thats like the Clearest idea for Specific Events so far other things are Stuff I Want To Happen
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"yeah I know you've been telling me you're in pain like every day bc of your cavity but here's a video of someone else who got their wisdom teeth removed and is panicking from the the anesthesia and ‘acting stupid’. I have greatly implied up to this point that I don't want you to get anesthesia or to not remove the teeth at all”
#they’re taking out four fucking teeth and im not even allowed to take them afterward.#do you honestly expect that they would give me the option of not being under anesthesia.#they won’t let someone I trust be in the room as it’s happening i don’t Want anesthesia.#idgaf if I say something stupid on anesthesia. im terrified of someone doing something to me that I won’t know about or remember#idk im not fucking blaming you that I Haven’t been to a dentist my whole life. were kinda Not Well Off#but you expect me to just Deal With It as my fucking tooth rots?#it could fucking kill me. the infection could spread to my brain and it could actually fucking kill me#and if they just take out all four Now I won’t have to worry abt it again Ever#it’s funny that when our cat was having teeth issues you expected me to deal wifh it pay#payment and all but when it comes to Me having teeth issues suddenly you want to have a say. fuck off#tooth trauma#words from the monarch
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If anyone remembers all the dental work I needed done uhhhhhhh three years ago and never went back and ran away forever…I’m finally going back to a dentist on Thursday to restart the process and face my deep and utter abiding terror. And I also scheduled my COVID and flu vaccines for a couple hours later. And my psych appointment to restart meds.
I figured get it all done in one day, have my miserable immune reaction on Friday that I seem to always get with Moderna COVID shots, and then flee directly into the weekend and never be a person again except when I’m on and off crying. It’s going to be so kind to future me to get these things done and I can do it no matter how much I feel like I am constantly about to Actually Physically Die.
#you can see why I’m restarting meds#my brain is constantly convincing me that my teeth are about to actually finish rotting out of my mouth and I probably have an abscess#already that is going to give me a jaw or heart infection#which is VERY unlikely#and that my dog is deeply sick and I should rehome her and give her to someone who’ll take proper care of her and isn’t me#yadda yadda#it’s been fucking miserable#the only good part is 1) I’m going to get the worst part over with (starting the process) and#2) even if I completely flee and refuse to go back I’ll have one dental cleaning at least helping with plaque buildup and stuff#this is so fucking EMBARRASSING it’s all so EMBARASSING#it shouldn’t be this hard for me and I know it’s irrational#I’m just so scared because it’s so triggering for me for NO REASON and#I KNOW that this time when we get to the multiple fillings and at least one root canal and also my impacted wisdom teeth that it’ll be#different and I won’t go un-numb or if I do again they’ll have better checks in place for when I panic lie to their faces#but it doesn’t help#and I’m so sure they’re gonna tell me I need three or more root canals because I’ve waited way way too long#and I STILL can’t consistently keep up with brushing and flossing#which is the most embarassing and shameful thing in the world and I KNOW#but I’m scared shitless of all of it and it’s all a sensory nightmare!!!!!!!!!!!!#anyway I’m not going to be okay later this week and I’m not particularly okay now#so if I’m not around online much#that’s why#but I’m happy news Aoife and I are having some lovely walks this week and she’s very cute and snuggly and we played tug a lot of times yest#*yesterday and she also stayed sniffing a bush while a bike went past two feet away#instead of getting startled and needing to hop or bark at it and then calm down#I’m so proud of her#and I wouldn’t be able to do this at all without my very kind partner who spearheaded scheduling the dentist (and researching places)#after my jaw pain nervous breakdown last week#health#personal
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long vent abt my gross body i dont recommend reading
i wish there was more u could do for dental health at home . like i dont have access to a dentist but i know exactly what i need !!! i dont even want the numbing i would do anything to just. be Fixed. be Clean. my teeth r one of my biggest insecurities and also something i have struggled with since i was a literal child. when i was a little kid like, 6ish? i used to despise brushing my teeth because of how "spicy" the toothpaste was n how it hurt my nose n eyes i remember it so vividly and i also remember how my dad beat me until i had burning red welts for it so bad that even my mom got upset at him when she did the same thing all the time. and just over n over that same anger every day and so i learned to just lie,, i literally only brushed my teeth when we were going somewhere, and that was . like. never. until i was , 11-12sh? but by then the depression had hit full swing n i was so disgusted w myself and dejected i didnt even want to bother. the more i thought about it the worse i felt so i stayed barely doing it except for tiny bursts when i managed 2 gather the energy n hope 2 be better. but still my anxiety was too bad i couldnt go in the bathroom n brush my teeth there i had to do it in my room. and i tried so many things i googled endlessly on how to fix it i tried every bullshit homeopathic thing i could find i just wanted to be normal i just wanted to be clean and human and deserving of care. i did secret oilpulling and chewed cloves n even avoided all grains and dug around in the bathroom cupboard until i found years old expired whitening gel n used that every single night. but it never worked. its like im destined 2 be the grossest beast in the world. even when i finally was allowed to go to the dentist when i was 13 it was so humiliating and they did such a shoddy job the filling immediately fell out and ive just had 2 live with a hole ever since that i have to poke toothpaste into and try and keep clean. the last couple years ive been better w it esp recently i got an electric toothbrush that works way better n even started being able to do in the bathroom since we moved n i floss n i use mouthwash and scrape my tongue n everything i can but still. it isnt enough. im still fucking gross n i still have days i cant get out of bed or push myself to do it n i have cavities im helpless against and gum issues and everything i just feel . like the most disgusting monster in the world and i dont think anyone will ever be able to see me as anything but that
#i genuinely dont know how ive managed 2 keep all my teeth in one piece#literally all i want is 2 go to the dentist i just want to be . fixed#i just want to be normal#but i dont have dental insurance or money and my mom still is my only way out of the house n she doesnt believe in them#and even if i did im too fucking scared#im too afraid of the humiliation#i wish someone could just knock me out n do it#take me hostage n give it 2 me#i dont care if it hurts it could be the worst torture in the world and it still would be better than this#i just want to be a real actual person#i want to be worthy of love
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🌈 Free the gays from weird heteronormative top/bottom discourse 2k24!!! 🖤 (And by extension, the dom/sub associations that go with it!! Which are also a completely separate though sometimes overlapping concept!!!)
Write your violent angry murder blorbo getting railed!! Make that sweet shy angel baby a top! Make them both verse and throw the concept out altogether because it’s inherently a bit silly to start with!! ✨ And your personality in the rest of your life often has nothing to do with your bedroom preferences anyway! ✨
Or don’t! Do whatever you want because it’s fanfiction! 🥰✨ Write them with whatever dynamics or lack thereof that you want—that’s the point! And no one can tell you what is and isn’t okay to write in your own fics!! 🎊 They're fictional characters, have fun!!!!!
Happy new year fellow fandom gays!!! Go wild!
#sincerely#a real life gay who has been repeatedly mislabeled#by people who will never be in the bedroom with me to find out anyway 😌#and who enjoys representing these kinds of internal dichotomies in my own writing#maybe my violent anger blorbo just wants someone to take care of HIM for once#maybe he wants nothing more than to be fragile and soft and never could be before now#maybe he wants someone to pin him down and fuck him silly and fuzz out his constantly over-vigilant brain#MAYBE HE JUST LIKES TAKING IT UP THE ASS#there are any number of wonderful and fun and awesome reasons#to explore unexpected dynamics in smut fics#and i encourage everyone who wants to to pursue those desires without shame!!#and without fear!!#maybe my sweet soft baby boy blorbo just wants to make his partner feel good and relax for once#maybe he loves so deeply that he can only express it through teeth and ropes#maybe he just finds the fantasy of control super sexy in a world where he otherwise has none#embrace your wildest most “ooc” smut dreams!!!!#because your fanfics are first and foremost for YOU#and don't let anyone else's opinions influence you otherwise 🖤
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I'M FREE
#ramblings#there was no comment abt me needing to brush/ floss more ??? i was really anticipating one ???????#the hygienist DID suggest i spend more time brushing my front teeth but thats not like. a blunt `brush more`. LOL#my mom ended up coming back with me (didnt expect her to offer i just wanted someone to be there for the check-in b4 going back)#so that was nice :) didnt feel as awkward since shed join in on conversation with the hygienist#also yet another appt where they tell me i should consider getting my wisdom teeth pulled bc they might present issues in the future#`if/when your bottom ones come in they might start pinching your cheeks` i already have a problem where if i chew without thinking#i will fucking gash the insides of my cheeks on accident. this is not a new issue for me /silly#theres trouble with the insurance LOL so if we do decide to get them pulled itll be a while longer#idek if my bottom wisdom teeth r gonna come in atp im gonna be so real. i mean theres still the chance they could but like#theyve been so slow. these fuckers started coming in when i was 17 surely they arent gonna take like. 3 years to erupt fully.#like this has to be it. ig i might be proven wrong idfk. i dont rlly wanna get them removed LOL#i like to think im good at being able to brsh them. i keep on top of the two crooked teeth i have pretty well in spite of the. forgetting#to brush my teeth at all sometimes#ok sorry for the notes ramble i just want this all out in one go. the rambling abt going to the dentist ends here
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clawing at the walls. shredding the sheets. would bite the wooden doorframes if I could.
#I thought getting those damn wisdom teeth out would mean no more or that very specific brand of pain every month#but instead I now get over a week of it nonstop (unless for a few hours every time I take more ibu)#I am going to literally go insane if this continues. it feels like someone is trying to tear out my jaw#toddlers are so valid. teething pain fucking sucks
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... My parents really for real are leaving the uncleaned, rotten potato juice and other misc unknown juice infested, LITERALLY FRUIT FLY LARVAE INFESTED, cupboards, in the bathroom,
For like the 4th day starting today if I am counting right
Sure just don't let me shower sure just let me get paranoid over the larvae sure make me not trust the bathtub for like a week sure let the place get more infested sure let it stink up the whole place SURE LEAVE THE FUCKING BATHROOM UNUSABLE
#I was the one who found the cupboard btw#They fr left shit there for months#Never checked it#Bc I don't cook or stay in the kitchen a long time unless I'm actively seeking Being Alone and Not Food#I never checked#Whole place infested with fruit flies#Thousands so many#'haha guess it's summer gotta be the trash' mom says#Then I try finding the source myself on an already extremely low appetite#....... Yea let's just say I just had to comfort food it out again after my discovery. So bad.#I know they've had work but. Uhm. Today home all day. Are they seriously not gonna clean it unless I say#I'M NOT DOING IT I'LL THROW UP + IDK HOW TO DO IT DO I LOOK LIKE I'VE BEEN TAUGHT#TO CLEAN ANYTHING#We don't even have basic cleaning supplies.#They always leave gross buckets of gross?? UNKNOWN LIQUIDS#In there for DAYS#And I CANT TAKE A BATH JNLESS I ASK SOMEONE#FOR#DAYS#LEAST HYGIENIC FUCKING HOUSE JESUS CHRIST I GET TOLD MY ROOM IS GROSS AND DIRTY#BUT ITS THE CLEANEST PLACE IN THE HOUSEEEEEE#Would be better if WE DIDNT LOSE THE WHOLE VACUUM SOMEHOW#Where IS IT.#I can't with this house#Vent#Sorry I'm talking abt this situation a lot (@my friends)#Like Uhm I wanna shower. I haven't since my Transgender Werewolf Period began#No since BEFORE IT. I'm DISGUSTING. PLEASE. GET THE LARVAE INFESTED THING OUT OF HERE#AAHHHHHHHH#I'M WRITING THIS BC KM AVOIDING BRUSHING MY TEETH NEAR THIS THING.
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If you’re curious what is smth that legitimately pisses me off, this music situation is it
#random post#I’m trying every fucking device I own to see if I can somehow get the url of these fucking videos so I can put it in the way back machine or#some shit. cus yes I’m taking it that seriously I can’t fucking handle this I’m so pissed off rn and now my COMPUTER is being the most#IDIOTIC piece of machinery. what’s gonna happen is I’m going to kill someone’s#entire ass over this I’m going to rip out my eyes and teeth
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#been really struggling lately because idk I guess now that I’m in therapy#I’m thinking extra about all the things that have made me this specific fucked up#and it really just boils down to feeling unwanted#I wasn’t supposed to be born my grandma told my mom to abort me#I spent my entire childhood hearing my mom say that she’s not parent material but I insisted on being born#like putting the responsibility on me even tho it was her choice???#and then they idk just didn’t take care of me good#like I had to have my teeth taken out at 17 because they were literally rotting out of my head and like coming out in chunks into#my food while I was eating#and when I finally got to the emergency dentist I had to pay for it#and I’m broke but I don’t want this job I just started I’m so scared#but we need money#I just feel like I can’t do it anymore I just want someone to take care of me#I want my life to mean something to someone#I can’t type what she said somewhat recently because I alresdy cried about it yesterday#but idk I just feel like dog shit and I can’t reach out to any of my friends because they’re all busy rn#but it’s been really really bad lately I won’t lie I don’t feel like I can keep going anymore
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tooth update. I can’t bite down without it hurting. idk what happened overnight but I quite literally can’t bite because those teeth hit each other before the rest of my mouth does and idk how I’m gonna eat. 👍🏻
#I have to wait until the 30th btw. and even then it’s not guaranteed#bc I have to sit in the waiting room. all day. and wait. to see if someone. is late or doesn’t show up#what happens if I don’t get in? I don’t fucking know#I think…… this tooth…… is probably gonna get ripped out#anyways if it does I’ll try and see if I can take a photo of it this time lol#the roots of my teeth are fucking huge based on X-rays and the first tooth we pulled out so#ooc
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I feel like my crown just shifted up oh my god
#i have a cleaning thursday before work so like i can tell someone#but also why did i do that i schedualed it super early like im already regreting it#considering itll be the day after valentines which means my shift ends at 9/9:30#and ill have to be there at my dentist by 7:30am#its whatever i just need to finish my dental work at the office then get my wisdom tooh pulled and ill be done w my teeth health wise#and then its onto the allergy shots which reminds me i have to reschedual my appt w my ent hoepfully its not anything too crazy far out#but i wanna talk w him and be like hey these shits are expensive what are my options or do u wanna be a homie and update my diagnosis#so they can get covered by my insurance cause i think if i can breath at like even 80% capacity my life would immensly change#and i was reading abt how like major chronic allergies lead to inflamation and my drs were concered abt that n i know i need to lose weight#but not being able to breath thru my nose hinders that to a degree#but like severe allergies are horrible for inflamation and like fucks up ur body and its like no wonder i feel horrible all the time#and itll prolly massively improve my sleep which also helps you#and i gotta go see my thyroid dr whos on the opposite end of town and wont answer the fucking phone to schedule and appt#cause i have to do that to renew my prescription and frankly i wish my primary dr could take care of that or get a new thyroid dr in general#but shes on maternity leave so ill have to wait for that#my dentist is also on maternity leave so ill have to see a diff one#i also ghosted my cardiologist but he literally called and was like ur fine the tests we ran showed ur in good health#but u should be more in shape and i didnt want another lecure abt being fat so i didnt go but i prolly should tho my results#prolly arent relavent anymore#and ive attemped ive done my bike workout a bit but its also been winter and i cannot bring myself to do anything besides rot in bed#most of the time and if i am going out its like to the movies or events where i just stand around and talk to people very low effort#i also have to email that lady abt my cetificate i still havent gotten abd the haircut place who charved me twice and write that damn review#that ive forgotten so many times
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ginger, cracking an eyelid and thinking about opening requests for a little bit? its more likely than you think 👀👀
#redacted asmr#i never say it in as many words but my askbox is almost always open 🥳🥳#to be honest i am rubbish at actually filling reqs so its probably not a good idea#im so fucking picky about what to write and the kinds of things that appeal to me#plus like....... most reqs that come in tend to be for things that im either not great at and/or dont particularly vibe with yk#its nobodys fault that writing david feels like pulling teeth its just the way it is you get me#hence why in my pinned it makes it clear that i take Suggestions rather than Requests#thing is i could do reqs or we could do like another ask game or smth#yeah another issue w me and reqs is that my little goblin brain just CANNOT stay on track and it fucks me up Every Time 😭😭#the prompt will be like 'uhhhh elliott sunshine beach day fluff uwu' and i will get 100 words in and#think 'wait what if they were actually dead/imprisoned/doomed the whole time that would be so fun' and then thats all i can write#i mean i started what was SUPPOSED to be DAMN crew cute halloween fluffy stuff and all of a sudden they're all dead so#not a great track record on my part#i cant stand a close plan there has to be room for improvisation#which is awkward when someone has asked for smth specific 🫣🫣#ginger rambles#oh also anon is off bc i am not putting up with any more ridiculous horseplay in my inbox no sir#fuck around in my askbox and..... actually don't find out bc surprise! i deleted it already sorry who are you again
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*puts a photo of me in between two random photos i took of the sky today, not because they go together whatsoever but simply so any poor soul that happens to scroll across this post won’t be jumpscared by one giant image of me taking up their entire dash* :)
also yes those are the Everything Stays shoes that i wear far too often and i thought about Moon and flustered my damn self when i was putting them on today and if you want to know why i thought of him specifically… well, you’re just gonna have to read Ch. 4 of ES when i post it on Thursday and you’ll find out 😊
#Seven.txt#my face#i love how i use the my face tag as my catch-all selfie tag and then. you can hardly even see my face in the pics#anyways. *wears my daycare fit to my root canal appointment bc i am a fucking clown for letting my tooth get this bad* 🙃#also it’s just very comfortable and i like it. but yeah! 4th dentist appt. out of 7 is done and dusted!!!#yes it’s 7 now instead of 6 because of course it is. of course it is.#it’s fine tho. i think today was the worst of it and it was overall a very fine time! i once again had no need for the sickening amounts#of anxiety that kicked my ass for the last two days prior to the appointment. as soon as i got settled in the chair that weird haze#of Calm washed over me and everything went well! but does my anxiety care about that? does it learn? no! never!#so i’m sure i’ll be sick with fear again the next three times as well but oh well. what can i do but suffer thru it#anyways if u wanna know what burning trees smell like and hear a disconcerting sizzling noise coming from ur mouth just get a root canal#it’s fun it’s a really great sensory experience (/i am Lying it is Not a fun sensory experience. take care of ur teeth and avoid the pain)#it’s lighthearted though it’s really not That bad. like i could tolerate it totally fine but it’s also not. fun. it’s just. Unplesant#anyways on another note i think i’m developing a crush on my dentist’s assistant lmao#like not Really but like also that’s not a complete joke. like. do u ever meet someone and just feel like you’d be friends#like it’s not something you’ll ever act on but you can’t ignore the feeling regardless?#it’s wild bc they look So fucking similar to someone i used to have a brief weird thing going with#like they both have such distinct eyes/facial features that i’ve never really seen on a lot of other people#and they compliment my hair and i compliment their tattoos and they tell me about the latest movies they’ve watched while i’m laying there#in the dentist chair for 50 minutes waiting for the dentist to finish with an unexpected drop-in patient#and they open the blinds to see what the deal is with the screaming old people outside the windows and they crack jokes and ramble about#their travel plans and they struggle to mix the temporary filling paste into the right consistency and they apologize for their handwriting#on the appointment cards they give me and i tell them it’s good handwriting and i mean it and Oh No i’m romanticizing my dentist visits.#aren’t i. lmao ANYWAYS i’m that dumbass that falls for every single person that is ever nice to me at all ever it’s fine i’m normal#the dentist delay was nbd btw i’m one of those freaks that actually enjoys waiting and also it was a bit of an emergency#for this mennonite mom and her son with an abscessed tooth so like who could be mad abt that#i’m never making another afternoon appt. again tho cause holy shit they get busy. i was in the waiting room for 30mins alone#1hr appt. turned into a 2.5hr appt. :) but it’s fine i just read fanfic on my phone to pass the time. and you’d think it was a dca fic#based on my clothes but no it was BG3 Astarion x Reader Hurt/Comfort bc i’ve latched onto a new blorbo this week and can’t get enough#so i’m obsessed with this traumatized vampire elf now but that’s a story for a different post’s tags
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i’m being very normal in this chili’s tonight
#my thoughts#(lie)#i have been thinking about max and his fucking thighs since i woke up this morning#and his dumb teeth and his stupid laugh and his FUCKING cheekbones#and the fact that i’m literally branded with his number#someone should take me out behind the shed and shoot me old yeller style
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