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johnslittlespoon · 3 months

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thinking about how we all talk about gale's rocky family life for obvious reasons– between him and john, he's the only one who we really hear talk about his family in the show.

what about what we can infer from john's silence about his family?

as far as we can assume, he had living family who just... didn't write him the whole year and a half he was a pow in germany?

(if we pull from real info for backstory/writing purposes, he had two sisters and a mom, and a dad who died a few years before the war. factor in the endless archived newspaper articles of the other men's families speaking about them, sharing news of their pow status, writing back and forth to the pows, sending gifts and pictures...)

radio silence for john.

it must've been such an isolating feeling, knowing he had family back home who didn't care enough to write to him, wondering whether they even asked after him, if they read the newspaper to find out how their son/brother was doing overseas. having to see the others receive packages when they wrote home asking for certain things, getting to look forward to letters from loved ones and having something to occupy them through the emptiest days.

i'm sure it made gale's chest hurt too, knowing he'd never get a letter from his parents, but he at least had marge to write to, something to get him through the endless mundanity. john had nothing. (well, he had the motivation of getting gale back home safe, but beyond that?)

was he just not close with his family in the mota–verse? or did his parents treat him unkindly the way gale's did? was he the black sheep of the family? as much as he said he enlisted because he wanted to fly and join the fight, was it also to get away from whatever was wrong back home?

so many unanswered questions, so much angst drabble potential, so many hugs needed for that poor boy. </3

#i think about this often but it's whatever! i'm normal about it #johnslittlespoon brainrot #john egan #me once again theorizing/drabbling about john egan? shocker #i'm gonna try to work this subject into the dog coded fic somehow i think #also obv this is all for fic purposes in relation to mota show canon not actual info about the real john's family lol #bc real john had a sister who also served in wwII and he was close with his mother #def not theorizing ab real people LOL i feel like this is a general consensus in this fandom but still. i gotta clarify

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skunkes · 1 month

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the thing abt the surgery is that yes I do get litle moments of being ecstatic it finally happened but also I just feel Normal now. like my base state for all my life up until last week was worry, horror, and panic when i'd occasionally remember the very unwanted thing my body was capable of, spiraling into what ifs on potential conflicts in my life and future... and now i just feel Not Stressed Out All the Time. Normal.

#talkys #and again that's still that i have not really ever been in active risk of anything happening LOL #god im so happy. im really considering the tattoo even though im not a tattoo person at all #ill see. it depends on how much my incisions/scars fade...but a small green line shouldn't be that bothersome to always be looking at...#ALSO tbf a tiny bit of the worry is still there... im gonna ask my doctor to detail everything about the photos he took of my insides #bc idk. what if they somehow grow back. what if he didn't remove all of em. ykwim. pair of noia #but that's also just due to regular health anxiety #actually you know what can i schedule a hysto. just to be super sure nothing can ever happen to me.#+ ALSO ALSO it didn't feel real every day leading up to it and it kind of still doesn't! like! who was that cheye! he wasn't scared at all!#no way i found a doctor to do it and my parents didnt fight me on it and my mom didnt scream and cry and cause a scene once there. YAY

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wesavegotham · 5 months

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"Talia can never be redeemed and her romance with Bruce can never come back because *falls for Grant Morrison's/DC's extreme racism towards asian and arab characters in the 2000s/2010s"

Yeah, sorry, but shut the hell up. It never fails to astound me when DC actually tries to fix the mistakes they made with Talia/the al Ghuls in general these last two decades and the fans manage to be even worse than DC by clinging to the blatant racist/sexist writing of the past instead of embracing the turn for the better.

"But she did this and that!"

She's a fictional character in a fictional universe that is aware that it goes through continuity changes/retcons. What Grant Morrison did to her character was a a complete retcon of her 30 year history and characterization with zero respect for her. Why am I supposed to take Morrison's bullshit as gospel and reject any attempts to fix her from writers who know better?

#talia al ghul #fuck grant morrison #I'm fine btw #Just not really keeping up with comics right now #It's just that not a lot of interesting stuff is going on #because apparently the DC comics fandom is forever stuck in the 2000s #And the things that annoy me...well its more or less always the same #I'm not sure if there is much new to say #The main Batman book somehow manages to be one of the worst Batman books #Once again the writer is a Tim fan who doesn't even try to be subtle about their favoritism #and fans will bring up crap from Morrison's run to justify their terrible takes even almost 20 years later #Seriously how the hell do people still manage to write edgy fanfictions about “Dick firing Tim as Robin and trying to sent him to Arkham”#Which isn't even what happened at all #Over 15 years later?#Is there really nothing else to write about???

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aeb-art · 9 months

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most normal interaction on a subway (another earth bot has invaded my sketchbook)

cat belongs to @8um8le

#2024 #stellar city #sc cataclysm #sc ash #self insert #late evening scribbles once again just for fun #okay so it is so interesting to think about how really tall bots are normal so public transit is probably larger to accomodate #so then lil ol me looks more like a kid than i normally do in the subway car built for giants #anyway i'm thinking about how jarring it must be to only know geo and then see cat lmao #unknowingly meeting your coworker (crush)'s prototype on your evening commute home :x #…wait hang on it would be really funny to confide in cat about having a crush on geo #gives me the most batshit advice that somehow works #i really just keep doodlin ballad's guys huh? i wanna draw the rest of the cast tbh they're all fun

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the-eclectic-wonderer · 28 days

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Congratulations to OMITB on boldly going where no one else has gone before. It's about time we got a rude, creepy, money-crazy, sexist, vulgar, full of shit, ethically questionable Hollywood exec who is a woman. A woman named Bev Melon. God I love this show

#THEY HAVE DONE IT AGAIN FOLKS #this premiere had everything. suspense. humour. character work. exceptional acting. eva longoria being gorgeous in her orange dress.#meryl streep wearing an EVEN MORE GORGEOUS black off-the-shoulder dress #philosophical questions about what one's identity really is and what the future means and what it means to know one's self #all seen through the lens of cinema and the camera. that opening quote is going to live in my mind RENT-FREE FOREVER #and the ending that parallels once upon a time in the west??? when i tell you i was ON THE EDGE OF MY SEAT #the way i GASPED. REPEATEDLY. HOLY SHIT. the whistle (which i figured out) and then the DOG and then the INCINERATOR and then the TEXT!!!!!#i somehow lost the line about the incinerator at the beginning so let me tell you. my WIG was SNATCHED #I!!!!! HAVE SO MANY QUESTIONS!!!!#my money is on miss hollywood exec atm but we don't know enough about everyone yet to actually draw conclusions #it might have been eva longoria for all i know #BUT STILL!!!! OH MY GOD WHAT A PREMIERE!!!!!!#i cannot WAIT for next week i am so seated!!!!!!!!!!!#omitb #omitb s4 #omitb spoilers

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yo-yo-yoshiko · 1 year

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Messed up they’re making me watch this show week-to-week…

#kingohger #racules hastie #yosh #90 percent of all my kingoh theories tie into racules somehow waaahaha #cant wait to see him next episode(called shot)#my friends listening to me rave about what i refer to as ‘the racules string board’#‘its expanding again’ i say every week aaahaha!#by chance rewatched ep 17 for reference for my gerojim doodles today and it sent me off again lol!#i don't have time to form elaborate mental stringboards with the other series i've watched cause I WATCH THEM ALL AT ONCE!!#the rest of toku tumbr turning to me with a jaded smile: 'first time?'#yeah toku tumblr... it is...

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mas-que-loucura-menina · 1 year

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Obsessed with when fanfictions go like:

Jason: "your son died!! I'm not that kid anymore! You can never have him back!! >:("

Bruce: "I mean, yeah? You had new experiences, made new friends, learned new things and went through a lot of difficult situations. You're human, people grow up, but there are still things about you that will never change, one of them is the fact that you're my son and I will love you regardless of what you choose to be."

#i miss those types of fanfic #there should be more of those #because once i read one i was like "holly shit i'm not the same person i was as a kid and neither is anyone #jason dying and coming back just makes it more metaphorical somehow and bruce not being there to see him growing up makes it sad #so now there's this new person who still have little things about his child self but definitely isn't the same kid anymore #but that's okay because bruce can just meet his son all over again and use those little things to slowly conect with him again #i just really love fanfics like this they tend to make me cry a lot #jason todd #red hood #batman #bruce wayne #batfamily #dc

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necramoreux · 2 months

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hiddencarpet · 1 year

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[ID: Earthsea fanart. A digital artwork depicting Sparrowhawk and Vetch under starry sky. They are both sitting under a warm brown blanket. Exhausted Sparrowhawk sleeps leaning on Vetch and Vetch sings softly as he holds his hand. End ID]

Vetch singing for Sparrowhawk

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moeblob · 6 months

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Deacon loves two things: Ymber and digging himself a grave.

Fulj hates one thing: Deacon.

#my characters #waiting on some info on the next commission so i indulged in ocs today bc i doubt i will have as much time for lil comics for a bit #deacon is so devoted hes like yeah i would kill for a deity that could easily kill anything himself but yknow teehee #and fulj just did you tell him you needed therapy also does he even know youd murder in his name #deacon caught red handed haha no of course i havent told him it should be obvious enough haha.... and its in his defense not his name :c #man really does have some issues but i love him so much and hes so devoted but like. unhealthily after a while #he does in fact need a chill pill and therapy but to be fair #ymber has needed therapy for centuries and yet he just bottles it all up and suffers so #its pretty unhealthy until they yell at each other one (1) time bc they are so insecure about things and get mad over very valid reasons #but then theyre like you know what that was necessary and i still want to stay by your side if you let me #and then fulj is like dude hey sorry you seem really happy did you fu- and ymber is like no please stop there we have not #fulj just squinting cause have not is very different than will not but whatever she doesnt wanna think about that with deacon involved ew #and eventually fulj is like hey ymber im sorry to say but i really do hate deacon and i dont even know why but he makes me uncomfortable #while deacon is just. in the room. hearing this and thinking how he knows she thinks hes weird but wow that wording hurts #and ymber doesnt wanna fill in memories better forgotten by fulj which she had forcefully removed #so he just says oh well his hair and clothing are black and you had someone in the past that you might see in him and its not a pleasant en #so you know maybe its that idk #and fulj is then WHATST i was rude to him for someone i cant even remember? lame im gonna try SO HARD to be nice to him now #and deacon just still sitting there with some food like this is v awkward and i wish i could not be here for it #and later he asks ymber about who he resembled and as ymber is descibing her it clicks in deacons head and he gets really sad #that he might somehow remind fulj of the woman she loved before she was punished for loving a mortal #and he feels kinda bad pestering her so much with his curiosities about deities and he kinda gets it #the fact hes close to ymber might remind her at the core that she was once that close with a mortal if not closer #anyway story time in the tags again #im so obsessed with these peeps and i have made them suffer so much but they do all end on a happy note #its still funny and nice to me that while fulj is creeped out by deacon and doesnt like talking to him #he still expresses the most emotions to her - he tries hard to remain serious around ymber and collected and obedient at all times #and when out and about with ymber he has to be intimidating and refuses smiling but fulj?? all sunshine and smiles and emotions easy to rea #and she is just that is so weird go away i hate you

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bookshelfdreams · 1 year

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#just saw that tweet abt pink days on the set of the barbie movie & i think it made me realize why it - the marketing etc - annoys me so #'margot robbie went around collecting fines and donated them to charity haha' okay. look.#that's just the perfect metaphor for how it worked for us - me - anyone who wants to align themselves with me - when we were girls #isn't it #because you grow up and you desperately want to fit in with the other girls but you don't & you don't know why #but you're surrounded by things and people telling you what a normal girl is like & little-to-none of it is things you find appealing or #interesting. makeup and fashion and skin care. gymnastics and romance. you're told that you are obligated to be pretty #but prettiness has never been part of your perception of yourself. femininity is an arcane concept #an exclusive club that will never grant you entrance #& the only comfort you can give yourself is deciding that it's dumb anyway. shallow. vain. who cares about looks and boys and all of that #idiots that's who #but this is Doing It Wrong too isn't it? because now everyone who has taught you that you will forever fail at femininity turns around #& tells you that's patriarchal oppression and YOU'RE the bad one by distancing yourself from something that always made you feel defective #'YOU may have never lived up to this impossible standard of perfection but some ppl do and actually it's fine to be like that!#hyperfeminine traditionally beautiful women are the most oppressed group of all & finally we will stand up for our rights!'#'girls can be pretty AND conpetent' but that's not what they're actually saying. isn't it.#because performing femininity correctly is the prerequisite. a threshold you can never cross and you know that. & that's fine #but somehow that's wrong too because you're not supposed to make peace w that are you. you're SUPPOSED to want to do it right #even if you don't and never have and never will #and once again everyone is yelling at you that this club isn't meant for you. if you criticize the barbie movie you're antifeminist #if you refuse to wear pink I'll make you pay a fine #hashtag girlpower #(well im not a girl. not a guy either. and not a secret third thing. just bad at femininity.#bad at being a person. and y'all don't need to tell me you don't want me in your club #I've always known that. i just wish you'd stop expecting me to beg for entrance.)

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skunkes · 4 months

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if life is categorized by Before Loss and After Loss then I exist in the before but with a countdown to the after. and the countdown is always always present and debilitating. the loss will be debilitating too but i cant help myself. i will always suffer twice.

#i cant let go of it. i cant even enjoy good moments without thinking about how they'll just be memories one day #how they're already memories since moments pass so fast #everything is I'll Miss This and i already miss it and i cant believe once you're gone you're gone forever #and ill never ever see you again. and your shell is in the ground but where did the rest of you go?#should i look at your body one last time? on one hand itll be the last time i see you.#on the other hand it will be the last time i see you.#and the memory of you will die with me too. as if neither ever existed #it impacts me so much too bc i dont feel close to anybody really...and i dont make friends easily #so whats going to happen when the people who have always been there arent there anymore?#im going to be alone for so much of my life.#i will record your voice so im ready for when i cant hear it from the source while also knowing it wont be enough and one day #ill be wishing it lasted longer. it could be 12 hours long and ill want more.#how do you surpass this? it hasn't even happened. when it happens i don't know what ill do. considering my whole life has been #the timer. the countdown. hours and hours of anticipatory grief #and then ill be next. me. some of all thats left of you. it cant be true.#sorry. this gets worse every single year and its been going insane lately #id surprisingly been managing it well for months somehow ! it wouldnt cross my mind...and now its there again #like it accumulated and its all coming out right now. ive been crying for hrs tonight and last night #one day his things will just be things. things ive made and given him will be in my hands again.#talkys #i want to go hug my dad but then ill just cry over how one day i wont be able to....! how do i store it? how do i save it?#how do i preserve it forever....even as i take my own last breath....#i cant believe im the only one of me. and my dad is the only one of him.#i wouldnt want to be reborn as anyone else. i cant believe one day i wont get to draw or eat or be comfy in bed anymore.#i cant take it !! im so scared. ill be scared until the end. and you wont be there to hold my hand. im going to be alone.#and none of those years of grief and joy and memories will matter.#i wonder if it would help to tell him about this. i need something to hold onto for when it happens. anything. but i also know it'll make i #hurt more; obviously. just another piece of him that'll be gone one day

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atopvisenyashill · 9 months

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arya: if there’s so much i must be can i still just be me the way i am?

sansa: can i trust in my own heart or am i just one part of some big plan?

#once again i say. i’m cooking here.#fuck you seasons 7 and 8 for being so fucjing dark. fuck.#affc is sad i gotta cheer myself up somehow.#i’m about to add so many tags to this and be so annoying get ready #sansa stark #arya stark #the sun and moon in endless chase #ned stark #twow speculation #catelyn stark #ados speculation #brienne of tarth #i like to post at all hours so u never know my schedule but this is clearly something i made when i should have been sleeping #LISTEN THAT ARYA CHAPTER WAS ROUGH! I WAS SAD MY GIRL WAS STRESSED!!!! SHE IS 8 SHE SHOULD BE WATCHING BLUEY AND DRINKING FROM A JUICE BOX.#also i say…..this is book verse this is me Predicting by Showing You The Path.#They Will Reconcile.#I Will Get Happy Stark Sisters.#getting on my soap box #rani graphics

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discjude · 4 months

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Yeah this is about right (as always my thoughts are in the tags so there's actually kei content there lmao)

#Hester I adore you they could never make me hate you. Seriously the first chapter in 6 (bad candy) is like my favourite opener #Kei they could NEVER EVER make me hate you. did nothing wrong ever. rhian when I CATCH you #its so funny how my two favourite characters just like. hate each other. like japeth literally kills him #sad cause they're so SIMILAR. theyre both victims of Dog Metaphor its so sad that kei does Not like japeth in the slightest #personally if they had a good long discussion about their emotions at like 3am they could've probably stopped TCY from happening #but alas. Aric. somehow its all his fault again. why do I have an aricposting tag but not a keiposting one.#Hester easily has the best overall characterisation arc I love love love the way soman writes her #I remember when I read 6 for the first time #before japeth insanity happened #I used to anticipate her chapters over like everyone else's. Hester the 1 lesbian in the series you are deeply loved #I could write whole essays about japeth and kei's characterisation it is so sad that soman forgets kei exists #like he's meant to be rhian's eagle. that's his job. that's what he's spent a Long Time anticipating becoming #but rhian refuses to acknowledge it. instead he calls Japeth his eagle in book 4's ending #He eventually falls in love with Sophie #he only ever cares about the crown #how he GETS to the crown #and bringing his mother back. he lies more than japeth #and never once does he get to be the eagle. There's only three spaces - lion/eagle/snake - and he doesn't get to be any of them #dont even get me started on how he dies. surrounded by white swans. being purely good #god rhian II try not to fuck EVERYTHING over challenge. and also Aric. its all arics fault as well #keiposting #japethposting #actually not really jposting. didn't do it that much #sge #tsfgae #school for good and evil #the school for good and evil #sfgae #the school of good and evil #as much as I adore Hester I dont think I will talk about her much in detail ever so no hesterposting yet

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cuteniarose · 1 month

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The consequences of my poor financial decisions are here!!

#blame Kat for this lmao. she got the Yangchen novels first and I very easily give in to peer pressure (that wasn't exerted. but whatever)#three days earlier than scheduled too. which worked out perfectly bc I picked them up on the way home from grandma's #and carried them for 2 km. 2 hardcover books + the thick cardboard boxset they're in #+ the backpack full of food my grandma gave me #in the rain #I nearly fucking died #I'm not made for this level of physical exercise 😅#okay moving on #nia stop calling things like this poor financial decisions challenge #it cost like. the equivalent of 40 bucks #I have 30 times as much hidden away in my sock drawer #and I am usually responsible with my spending. I'm allowed a slightly more expensive treat every once in a while #also my dad doesn't know but I'm sure if I would him 'hey I spent 3.8k on a pair of books is that okay'#he'd be like 'why tf are you asking when have I ever said no to you spending money'#but again. I do try to be mindful #which is why as much as I want the lok art books and could probably ask for money for them. I won't #bc they cost an arm and a leg and I cannot morally allow myself to spend that kind of money #anyway. getting distracted again #do you know how hard it was to get these? I checked like 3 marketplaces before I did #and I was fully ready to get them in russian because non-classical english books are impossible to come by here #sanctions and all that. but somehow I did. and it only cost half the money in my bank account #I don't even know if Russian editions exist. these books were written before the war and before the gay propaganda ban but still #I didn't find them when I looked. maybe they don't sell them now that the law is in place or smth #I don't really care enough to look it up #the point is. I now own the books and can happily read about best girl kyoshi whenever I want #if the stress for an upcoming event doesn't kill me. that is #also I have read rok before but it was 3 years ago so my memory is vague. and I just realised how much thinner sok is?#I'll have to check the page count later

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inkbagel · 1 month

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This collab I joined like eight months ago that I didn’t really enjoy being in finally got posted today but for some reason only on twitter and I don’t go there so I can’t even see the whole thing :/

#I had. so many quarrels with it.#first of all instead of staying in mutual groups like it was supposed to the collab somehow blew up and got eighty people participating #and THEN you’d think since so many people were there everyone would have like one part right? like what we originally agreed to do with #seven people?#WRONG!!!! I got three parts plus a background without getting consulted about it #and then when I tried to make friends in the discord with all the other artists #at least seven people online at the time were raging mysoginists #telling me no women in this series can be anything except perfect dainty little princesses #except for one woman who was allowed to do a little evil bc she was associated with a MAN #who ACTUALLY wouldn’t be evil #and when I said that’s not accurate to the actual story everyone started crying and saying I offended them #bc ‘they thought really hard about this!!’ stfu you piece of shit #and then everyone in the discord sexualised the fuck out of my fave character who. also happened to be the one I was drawing.#so I got too grossed out to finish my part and ignored the disc for several months #and the host never thought once to tag everyone for check in until a week before the deadline #so I dropped all but one of my parts (the one I had mostly finished when I got grossed out)#and finished that and didn’t touch the disc again for the sake of my own mental health #but it finally got posted and I can’t even see it I only have my groups picture #but whatever. I didn’t like anyone there anyway at least I can leave the disc without feeling guilty now #inkbagel speaks

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