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Maxâs little lip freckle and Charlesâ little mole under his eye are a match made in heaven
#idk man something about soulmates and all that#btw I mean the one under his right eye like the small tiny little one#formula 1#f1#formula one#max verstappen#charles leclerc#Lestappen#had to put the pictures in black and white cause the original colors of the filter in Charlesâ photo was so ugly and it didnât match Maxâs đ#some would call me an artist
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â¨đ Winner gets desirâââ
#kamen rider#kamen rider geats#kr geats#hyperbattle dvd#azuma michinaga#keiwa sakurai#ace ukiyo#azuace#keimichi#michikei#keiazuace#or something? sdfghjk#fanart#12th night#artists on tumblr#meanwhile neon is the one who took the photo - i like the idea that she too ships them asdfghj#I was this đ close from making an alt version of the poster but as riders#i just didn't do it bc this one went too far already so maybe in the future if i'm convinced#what do you mean there's a whole special focused on my fav char dreaming about his peers giving him praises and call him pet namesâ#âand they expect me to do NOTHING about it???#me??? the 'give me a thread and i'll knit a whole sweater' shipper???#that expression sounds better in portuguese since thread/line can be the same word#and alt alt version would be him in the jyamato garden since this special makes refs to the revice movie that is after ep14â#âwhich means its after he 'dies' and is taken to the garden BUT AGAIN I WAS LAZY so I reused his sleeping panel#anyway back to focus on my work and some rider pieces đ
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Artblock hit me like a truck and in honor of defeating it here's a shitpost
#pushing my solosim agenda onto u guys#i would've made solomon a parasite alongside mc but the voices in my head said âmake em gayerâ#and i cant say no to em đđđ#anyways some backstories for the pfps:#simeon's pfp is the one time he had to go on a trip alone and was able to snap an okay picture (not lore accurate. still think its awesome)#solomon's is literally just his cooking but i also drew this when i had no wifi sooo i forgot what it looked like so its kinda half assed#can you tell i lost motivation for luke.#anyways he didnt like the basic profile he was given so he doodled a little drawing and made it his pfp. my son is an artist be nice#and mc is for shits and giggles. mc was high in the making of their pfp okay#obey me simeon#obey me solomon#obey me luke#obey me sheep mc#obey me mc#simeon#solomon#luke#sheep mc#mc#i think i should probably tagged solosim?? i mean i dont think in any way simeon would call ANYONE boyfriend platonically#or girlfriend... or... partner for u nonbinary folksâźď¸âźď¸âźď¸#yea i'll definitely tag solosim#solosim#solomeon#solomon x simeon#simeon x solomon#its BARELY there but i wanna be able to find em okay đđđ#obey me#simsolo#purg hall fam đ
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do you ever think about how all you used to draw when you were 10 was ponies and that you should still know how to do that, then get an idea and proceed to draw something like these in nearly one sitting and it turns out better than any drawing you've done in the entire past month
sooo anyway does anyone have cutie mark or pony name ideas for them?? lol
#(the b girl lineups are older than a month because i procrastinated a lot on doing minor fixes. nothing i drew in the month of june 2024#is really worth showing it's all shitty doodles lmao)#bnha#class 1b#mlp#?#yui kodai#setsuna tokage#itsuka kendo#ibara shiozaki#(i love how she came out in particular! creature :3)#reiko yanagi#tikto's art#you may be wondering why pony of all people isn't here.#i did draw her! but i kind of ran out of steam so i ended up not really liking the result lol same for kinoko#anyway shoutout to elementary school me i was SO obsessed with mlp. brony stuff was one of the first things i used the internet for#and you know what. i wouldn't say it ruined me it was a pleasant experience#i just read what was basically a polish version of equestria daily and constantly checked the deviantart profile of one (1) specific artist#that i liked a lot#i did watch some weird speedpaints (yknow the horror ones) but i honestly dont remember being very bothered by them i just liked the art#i was just chilling there lurking and never actively participating due to being 10 and afraid of online strangers (good for me tbh)#i remember having an identity crisis though because can i really call myself a brony if i'm a little girl? the target audience of the show?#lmao anyway i would also draw ponies constantly and write oc fanfics (and the ocs were actually my irl friends ponified)#and i even had my own little g5 concept. good times good times#tag story time over god bless enjoy your day
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y'all have gotta learn to act normal about other people's characters
just bc you think they're hot doesn't mean the person who made them wants to know if, or how, you'd fuck them. i feel like that's common sense. it doesn't make it OK now just because it's not a real person you're sexualizing. you don't know what they mean to the person who made them, and if you do, well what the fuck, then.
#please excuse me i've just noticed really often lately#the way people will comment nasty nasty stuff on art and i have to wonder like#are you sure that the artist is cool w/ that? are you sure already that the person who owns or made that character is cool with that?#idk i had to watch a couple people oversexualize the characters from a friend's very personal & emotional game they made about trauma#i posted a turnaround of a model i did for a friend in a discord server and someone called it âthe boykisserâ just bc it was a cat?#like. do you know who the character is? do you know who owns the character? do you understand the context they're from?#if not. why would you say that to/about them.#ik those instances occured on their own and don't really warrant a whole post#but I've been seeing some REALLY uncomfy comments thrown at people's art every here and there#and i think some of y'all are forgetting how to behave for real.#this post & tags are a little half-baked i'm just kinda sick of seeing it. be normal. leave a nice comment or something
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is it late enough at night that i can share my /hj headcanon that edwin is a secret chappell roan enjoyer?
bet he first hears chappell on one of crystalâs playlists and makes a big point of scoffing, but HOT TO GO! actually kind of gets him in his feelings. crystal catches him one day humming it and swaying along in his own elegant and dancerly way, sort of lost in his own world while reorganizing his bookshelves. only because charles happens to be out, of course
she startles him and he whirls around with his hand on his heart even though ghosts canât actually have a heart attack
they share this staredown that worldlessly communicates âyou are never living this downâ âif you ever use this as blackmail material against me i will enchant all of your socks to never have a pair for the rest of timeâ
(a few days later edwin finds a copy of the rise and fall of a midwest princess vinyl leaning up against the victrola waiting for him. âcause crystal gets it, okay. she gets it)
#wait til charles catches him crying listening to âcoffeeâ#dbda#dead boy detectives#dead boy detective agency#edwin payne#itâs all in my head but i want nonfiction#who can blame a girl? call me hot not pretty#well i woke up alone staring at my ceiling. i try not to care but it hurts my feelings#iâd suggest the jazz bar on maryann street but youâd buy me a drink and we know where that leads#iâll meet you for coffee cause if we have wine#youâll say that you want me i know thatâs a lie#if i didnât love you it would be fine#nowhere else is safe every place leads back to your place#i donât think chappell is like the Reinvention of Queer Artists the way some people say but i think she is fun and edwin should get to have#fun and be a bit of a hot mess#as a treat
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the chappell roan stuff just shows people's real colors. i unfollowed an account on instagram that said that chappell gives horrendous vibes and that she seems catty and mean because of the video she posted telling people to not stalk her or harass her in the street. if you think that a celebrity setting boundaries for fans for their comfort and for the fan's comfort is "horrendous vibes," that says all it needs about you as a person. send tweet
#chappell roan#like this woman has skyrocketed to a huge amount of fame#and has to endure the hate and stalking and speculation in a super short period of time because of that#and when she says hey respect me as a person first and you say âdont be a bitchâ thats just so fucking telling#especially when the account was already a big swiftie.... hate to drag the swifties in here but its an unfortunate pattern#just because taylor swift is ok being an object of commodity and giving up artistic intergrity to make a shitload of money off of young fan#doesnt mean that all celebrities are. some artists would actually like to express themselves!#calling chappell catty is also so rude considering that a stage persona is not indicative of her real personality. we don't know her#sorry this got me so incensed but my god. some people have the social analytical skills of a dead dog#when im in a treating celebrities with human decency competition and my opponent is a chappell roan hater
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Hi Bel,
I keep seeing comments about people complaining about the quality of destinyâs writing and story in the last few weeks. I havenât really engaged with destiny since season of defiance, whatâs currently gotten everyone so riled up? I thought that people were enjoying Season of the Deep/Witch in terms of narrative, why is Season of the Wish causing people to deride the destiny writing staff again?
I don't know!
Deep and Witch have been absolute bangers in every aspect to me. I've been enjoying all interactions and lore tabs we've received. A lot of them are stuff that we've never had before, a lot of reunions and closures, a lot of development and interactions between characters who you wouldn't really think would have much in common.
Sloane's return and healing from what she's been through has been fantastic, Drifter opening up with her to help her because he also got help from others was fantastic, Sloane reuniting with Aisha and Shayura brought me to tears (Shayura's descent into madness was triggered by immense trauma of Sloane staying on Titan and Titan disappearing), everything with Sloane and Zavala...
Witch was just incredible in every single way; the focus on Eris, the amount of Eris and Ikora content!!!!! Everything about Xivu and Savathun and their interactions together!! Eris finally fulfilling her goal she promised Savathun YEARS ago, getting that closure.
Wish so far has been equally great to me. All the new stuff about Ahamkara is amazing, finally giving us proof for long-standing speculation about Ahamkara and how they aren't universally evil creatures and expanding on them as a species. I love all interactions we've had so far; finally we have Petra back, Mara's singleminded focus on figuring out how to defeat the Witness and her continuous work to improve as a person, ALL SJUR MENTIONS!!!!! I won't talk about the "leak" because we have no context for it so I will wait for the full story to be revealed before I can pass judgment; something that I think should be a lesson to learn from this entire year. Maybe wait for the story to finish before judging the story.
Literally everything this past year that involves Osiris, but especially this season now that he's back in his element with the Vex. And of course every little detail we get of him and Saint. Osiris honestly shaped this year for me with everything that he's done to uncover the biggest mysteries. I think a big reason is that a lot of people just don't like Osiris, which I consider a massive skill issue.
Other than that, I don't know what are the issues people have besides just not being interested in any of these storylines and attributing it to a nebulous "bad writing" claim. I also genuinely believe that way too many people get wrapped up too much in fandom, imagine storylines they want to see and then get disappointed when the actual story doesn't go there. Almost like people forget that this isn't their story and these aren't their characters. A lot of it is also fandom completely warping characters into not what they actually are and then feeling like the canon story is the one that's wrong.
Whatever is the reason, I guess everyone is entitled to their perspective of the story and everyone is free to explore the story in different ways through fanfics and AUs and whatever. I do that too!
But I would definitely ask people to be normal with how they engage in criticism, especially in the current state of affairs. Writers are developers; they experience a ton of harassment and negativity from the community and also from inside the company. And they are online: they can see what we're saying. It's been documented that community commentary has been used to harass writers:
Imprint this into your brain and never forget what these people had to go through. Let's not forget also the way people treated Seth Dickinson on social media when he was active with Destiny fans. "Fans" were actively arguing with him about his own work (telling him that HE is wrong) and were utterly disgusting towards him when he tried explaining what he wrote. His works are now hailed as the best writing in Destiny and people want him back. If I were him, I wouldn't want to come back ngl, not with how he was treated and not with how fans are still treating writers (and hey, Seth wrote LF Collector's Edition! So he was back, technically, this year!). Let's not forget that a lot of writers are members of various marginalised groups. And I'd definitely not want to go back with zero support from leadership.
Which is also an important aspect for all developers, including writers: sometimes they have orders they may not like, but can't argue against. They do the best they can with what they're given, the time they have and directions they receive. And with that in mind, I am enjoying everything we've gotten this year, obviously with some specific complaints about things I didn't particularly enjoy (like the universally mid reception of Defiance; I've spoken about my gripes with it before, a big one being the shafting of Suraya who should've at least been mentioned in a lore tab).
I can tell that there is passion in their work, even if maybe they would prefer to do more with it, but can't. Maybe even if they want to take different routes, but can't. But from what we got, I can feel that they care about this world and these characters. I can tell that someone lovingly wrote about Sloane and her friendships with two grieving women. I can tell that they deeply cared about Sloane's friendship with Zavala and that they loved showing us Saint and Drifter caring about a fellow trauma survivor.
I can tell that the writers are immensely careful and loving towards Eris; everything she went through was crafted with love and passion from both writers and her VA. Eris' story is such a fundamental aspect of Destiny and I can tell that this was important to the writing team and that they gave her everything they could to do justice to her character and her arc and her healing and her release from the cycle she was trapped in for so long.
I can tell that there are writers who care a lot about Osiris and Saint and their relationship. I can tell that someone cared a lot about expanding on Ahamkara and giving them more personalities. I can tell that someone cared DEEPLY about Sjur and Mara and that her repeated mentions are the passionate work of writers who want us to remember her.
I could go on. And I know that not everyone sees it this way, which is fine; we all have different ways of perceiving stories. I enjoy discussing things we in the fandom disagree on and I enjoy hearing different perspectives! Unfortunately, this has recently become rarer and rarer. And for the love of god, please try and treat writers with some respect, especially now, especially those who are still working and doing their best with the shitty situation they're in. None of the cries of "poor devs" ring true to me unless the same is given to writers, instead of treating them like punching bags.
#destiny 2#long post#for the record: yeah i also have some gripes with some writing decisions. it's normal#but i feel like those are things that i can learn to accept or let go or even have my mind changed with a different perspective#or by just accepting that the writing team was limited in some way and that this was the best they could do#it happens to every story at some point#and yeah capitalism is the death of art. destiny's story would be better from start to finish if it weren't a shooter mmo#but that ship has sailed a long time ago. like. in 2014.#it's honestly a miracle that we got even a fraction of the stuff we got considering the target audience of fps mmos#and it's fine if this just isn't good enough to some. happens#but i think we can move on without being shitty about devs yeah?#in all likelihood writers may even agree that some of the stuff they had to write isn't the best or isn't what they wanted#calling them bad writers over circumstances we don't understand is just shitty#just like it's shitty to do it to any other dev over bugs in the game or badly implemented features or whatever#none of these people are sitting at their desks maliciously laughing while deliberately creating 'bad' things#and this is especially bothering me for writers because of how atrocious people are to artists of all kinds#almost like writers had to strike this year to be respected and treated as people that matter
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Mumbo/Etho/Joel would be so cute!!!
Think about it, Etho and Joel are walking around the shopping district holding hands and teasing each other, pretending theyâre not holding hands because that would be silly and in comes Mumbo from stocking his shop. Now, Joel has just recently learned Mumbo has been a fan of his work for a long time. He also knows of course that Mumbo is a redstoner and every player ever knows who Etho is, redstoners especially. Etho and Joel arenât blind, any person with eyes can tell Mumbo is attractive. Tall, dark, and anxious, to nice for his own good, and also so easy to fluster as Joel learned when he was a mounder. So they walk up to Mumbo and start talking to him and after a while, they start teasing and flirting. Mumbo is caught off guard, face bright red as he just⌠stands there and takes it making small noises of embarrassment. Eventually Mumbo lifts his hands to cover his face because he canât take it anymore. Joel, sly and flirty as he is letâs go of Ethoâs hand to take Mumboâs off his face. Joel kisses one of the hands heâs holding and tells Mumbo to contact them sometime. Joel and Etho say their goodbyes. See, Hermitcraft is a huge web of polyamorous mess which works out in moments like these when Mumbo is a mess and one of his longest term partners has a new penchant for fishing. Mumbo flies to Grianâs base in an absolute gay panic and as soon as they lock eyes, Grian knows something is up. It doesnât take Mumbo long to splutter out what happened and⌠in true Grian fashion he laughs in Mumboâs face. He does console his poor boyfriend though. They eventually come to a plan and itâs not many weeks later that Joel, Etho, and Mumbo are together.
#hermitcraft#mcyt#mumbo jumbo#ethoslab#joel smallishbeans#hermitshipping#I will write this one day#that day will not be today#briarâs future fics#love me some rare pairs#I think I wanna call them Dapper Boats#or maybe BoatStache?#Something to workshop#if any artist wants to draw Mumbo being flustered by these two I would- I would love that
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Here, some Ryley sketches ft. Cuddlefish skritches, Peeper, Bladderfish, and This Is Ozzy From The Cafeteria What The Hell Guys!
i haven't drawn in quite some time but yknow its exam phase so :/ ofc my motivation comes back when I really should be doing something else like idk study? or somethin
#subnautica#ryley robinson#ozzy from the cafeteria#subnautica ozzy#digital art#subnautica fanart#artists on tumblr#yeah some parts are kinda fucked up but eh i still like this#this is actually my first time drawing ozzy and i hadn't really thought of a design for them so this is probably gonna be subject to change#haven't really gotten a grasp on them as a whole either like i used to think i knew but i've changed since then and also replayed the game#kinda thinking ozzy maybe would use neopronouns? like im headcanoning and projecting onto both of them#you could say ive hit them with the enby beam#also the aspec beam ngl#but yeah my characterisation isnt finalised yet#where was i going with this#anyway i AM really proud of that cuddlefish#cutest crusty ass motherfucker ever#sorry but trivalves or whatever theyre called just kinda dont compare? like for me#oh right! also kharaa pustules ryley! i wanted to make them glow green but i really wasn't feeling like colouring#and also it looked ass when i tried#ive written a bloody novel in the notes again#eh :P at this point this is just a proof its really me asdjakdnjlkaslafaiwdajdawijdlafnjgdn#RIGHT ozzy and ryley are in a qpr CHANGE MY FUCKING MIND WAIT U CANT#jk ur interpretation of these fictional chars with minimal information on them is valid! to each their own and all that
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Huh. If my life was a quote, it'd be "one of those sad ones with a deceptively happy tune"
#quote from MLP:FIW#sorryyyy been kinda angry about my step family all day#sorry but im so tired of my Stepmom acting like she raised decent kids#my step brother is like 25 and living in my dads home. hes unironically an andrew tate fan and treats his very disabled girlfriend like shit#step sister always got compred to my sister who's the same age and put step sis in the light every time EVEN THO MY SIS WAS LITERALLY BETTER#<- like grades n shit#also both step sibs are gross. never cleans up ever. step brother and his gf are banned from the basement#step bro went to juvy when he was 16 and step sis had a trial last year and almost went to jail#also step sis has mono and would rather die than cover her mouth#i feel bad for SB's girlfriend because she has no other support system and sometimes it feels like SB or SS is trying to kill her?????#my dad threatened to kick out the adults if the house is dirty (adults being SB. SBG. SS. My sister. Aunt.)#My sister does SO MUCH HOUSEWORK and nobody cares and im mad#also bullshit rules recently have made my potential eating disorder worse#i don't think its healthy to rather starve than wash a dish but i actually have cried several times over this#not to mention how much i accidentally starve myself#also our food has been less and less because I don't know what I'm allowed to eat anymore because of my step family#also i have to share the smallest room with my sister. its okay tho ilh and i wouldn't want to get rid of her#sometimes it feels like my stepmom doesn't like me or my sisters because we're âweirdâ. childish interests and artistic#she lectured me about having missing assignments and I started crying#i said i just forgot to turn in some before the deadline and she called me lazy#<- Oops! so close. its actually THE MENTAL ILLNESS#my sisters and i feel like shit#i feel like my safe space is with my oldest sister.#and you all too! i love you guys#i just feel trapped. trapped by my step family. trapped by my own mind.#i was just starting to feel free from the burden of school and she just made me feel more stressed.#i didn't want to study because she killed the little motivation I had#Spanish exam is now âFuck it we ballâ#sorry for the personal post
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i do wish i was better at communicating with people online and through technology. i wander into conversations and make new ones all the time irl with random people and its fun but im like hyping myself to type out a single response to a Post. and to say nothing of how difficult it is to get me to say something in a discord server
#or even video or audio calls are becoming hard for me rn. i used to be better at this#i used to be sooo good at talking to people online. maybe. or maybe not actually#now that i think about it ive always been a little outside of everything in both irl and online communities ive been in#you know i was part of the mods for a deviantart species a long time ago. i was pretty bad at my job i was always too slow to actually mod#and one day i came home from school and like the entire modbase imploded because of drama on a discord or smth they had that i wasnt in LOL#tbh i was a bit older than all of them and busy with final year of highschool stuff so i wasnt super present. i think they just had me on#because while i wasnt particularly popular as an artist i did have some eyecatching polish on my art. but it was wild i was like#whats going on. who are you people. where am i. i have to apply to ouac rn i dont know whats happening#wait random ass deviantart drama i was vaguely adjacent to but still dont really know what happened aside. i would like to chat more#i think the easiest way to converse with me is commenting on my posts like theyre forum threads. or dming me. sometimes#im so bad with group chats. especially if they have multiple channels. the only group chat ive stuck with is a tiny one with like#two other friends and we just write thoughts and about our day and pictures of animals and whatever#i get confused and scared in discords. i get so confused and scared#i used to be okay with discord calls but even with that ive been struggling. am i scared of the computer#am i scared of the computer. the machine. whats happening
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if i manage to pump out enough art before the year ends i could make one of those art vs the artist post...
#it would stay up for like 2 minutes before i get paranoid that some psycho will screenshot my face and use it as meme reaction somewhere#<- i had a crazy ''friend'' that did that :( EEK!!!!!!!#that's literally the only reason i've never shown my face here before LMFAOOO#i know. i'm some rando online like who would do that to me. but still. eeeek!#also. honestly i don't call myself an artist i am some guy that happens to draw đ§
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so... exciting announcement... i was hired to work on Reality Resort as a storyboard artist!
for those of you who haven't heard, Reality Resort is a Total Drama-inspired show on YouTube, produced by Cove and animated by Odd Nation Cartoons. its pilot episode just dropped a few hours ago!
to be clear, i didn't contribute at all to the first episode-- i was only hired about a week ago to contribute on episode 2 and beyond. speaking of, it'll be a lot easier for us to make episode 2 and beyond with more support for the show, so please consider checking out the pilot if the show sounds up your ally. the team is super cool and welcoming, and i've had a ton of fun with what i've worked on so far.
as for this blog, given that i'm now part of the show's staff, i won't be making any sorts of speculative content about Reality Resort or any of the other planned shows in the Reality Gauntlet. this is obviously because i know things the average viewer doesn't, and because i wouldn't want anything i was genuinely blindly speculating on to be interpreted as fact/a hint. however, Disventure Camp content (as well as all of the usual stuff) will continue as normal! (other than that i now have a bit less free time :,) )
anyways, i hope any of you who do decide to check it out will enjoy! as Cove has said in the comments, the first episode isn't perfect, and there are still plenty of quirks to iron out in the future. but, i think that the future of the show is looking bright, and i and the rest of the team appreciate any support you're willing to give. :)
#not going to main tag this since i'll probably post the art separately later for anyone who wants to rb without all my personal stuff#also to be entirely transparent i do want to note that i am now (in a sense) coworkers with multiple members of the disventure camp staff#because there are several cross over voice actors as well as some writers and artists#(i have talked to some of them over a discord call and they are all super cool!)#i don't want to let knowing these people irl stop me from giving my honest thoughts on the show#because i believe that honest constructive criticism helps both creatives in fandom and the creators of the show grow#and because i don't want anyone to think that the only reason why i would praise the show is because i don't want my peers mad at me#HOWEVER i'm sure i will be inherently biased by getting to know some crew members on a more personal level#which may soften my critiques. but also it was never my goal to be outright mean to anyone in the first place#and i sincerely hope i haven't ever done that in any of my posts about anything (if so i apologize)#okay ramble over. yay premiere!
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Quarkâs Dreamlike Defibrillation Drabble
Youâre sleeping.
Nothing else makes sense.
âClear.â
Yeah, why else would you feel your heartbeat so clearly? So strong that itâs a little bit painful, beating so heavily that it leaves achey little aftershocks in your chest after every pulse. Thundering and powerful, like youâve received a shock of lightning from the king of gods himself.
But you only just learned of gods, of Zeus, of Olympus. It was a brand new story from a brand new bookânot a super old book from Before, but something totally new. Something made just for you.
It was better than that one book that con artist tried to trick you withâthat thing was super old and super thick, yeah, and normally you like that kinda stuff, but only âcause you like stories, and people have only barely started writing good stories again, just like people have only started having kids again.
The guy said that it was like a thousand stories in one book, that the book was only falling apart since it was so long and so old, and obviously it was worth a whole bunch just because it was a⌠it was⌠an ant-fall-chief���?
âAnthology?â
It was a stupid word, you just started calling it a book-book, âcause it was a book full of books, Grandpa said it had full stories instead of chapters!
Grandpa is dead.
âŚNo, he isnâtâŚ
ââŚâ
Yeah⌠he just got you the best Christmas present ever, just last month. That con artist jerk wanted to sell you the book-book for half of that dayâs scavenge, and it was a really really good day of scavenging too! He didnât even do any work himself, and there wasnât anything wrong with him either, âcause he had to run to catch up with you, and he wasnât even puffing afterwards, and he had to carry that stupid book with both arms âcause thatâs how bad it was falling apart.
He just wanted a bunch of your stuff for nothing, nothing but a stupid book that maybe you were a little bit interested in, sure, but youâre not stupid like he musta been, and you told him so and you walked away, pulling your smaller part of the haul while Grandpa pushed his heavier cart behind you.
Grandpa is dead.
It jolts you like a second thunderbolt, it must have gone from your chest up to your brain, because your lungs catch and your nose hurts and your face feels wet. It feels like youâre crying, which reinforces the idea that youâre dreaming, because you were crying on that day too, after you told that con artist off, because you really really did want that book, but you needed supplies more, and your scavenge was so big that Grandpa had to make three trips to trade it all.
You have to be dreaming because he canât be dead like your brain is trying to tell you, because he wouldnât leave you alone. Even when you thought you were alone and you it was safe to cry because you really wanted the book full of books, he must have still been there because he knew, and the very next month on Christmas Day he gave you your own story book.
Your book was brand new, made just for you. Every chapter was for a different group of gods from different religions that didnât worship Brother and Radical-6, and every page had a different god, with their own description and summary and a few fun facts and a list of âMythsâ, which were all super awesome stories that could be told verbally, so they didnât take up space and make the book super huge so it would never fall apart.
Every night before bed, you could pick out a new Myth, like how Zeus saved the Olympians and became the King of the Gods, and Grandpa would tell you the story, and it would be the last thing you heard before you fell asleep, which was way better than just reading them.
Grandpa is dead.
The thought thunders through your head, another shock to your system, another bolt from the divide⌠No� The defied? Delight? Dim light�
âDivine...â
Divine. Dih v-eye nn. Godly, or of godlike quality. A new word that you just learned from your new book that you just got for Christmas just last week. Why would you use a new word you only just heard, or think about a king you only just read about, or feel your heart beat way too strong in the wrong part of your chest, direct center of your chest, the middle of your body, perfectly aligned to receive and deliver blood everywhere evenly, except every diagram ever says that it should be somewhere off to the left, between your lung and your ribs.
Painful heartbeat, impossibly centered, painful thoughts, impossibly overpowering.
But anything is possible in a dream.
So you let the distressing thought wash away, dream that it gets pushed down your bloodstream with every beat of your thundering heart, and watch it get smaller and smaller as it slowly disappears, along with the last of your divine tingles.
âŚYou wonder if there are any gods of sleep.
Probably, right?
After you wake up, youâll look in your book and ask grandpaâ
Grandpa is dead.
âwhen the nightmare is finally gone.
#anyway if i write nothing but sigma i will scream so have some quark#zero escape#virtue's last reward#vlr spoilers#quark vlr#this can be any timeline that Tenmyouji dies in#every timeline even#an adult-sized dosage of an engineered sedative in a world where the number 1 cause of death is suicide?#itâs way too strong for quark and his heart slows to unbearably slow levels#there was supposed to be a part about hibernating frogs but then i went on a tangent about the anthology#the âcon artistâ has a chronic illness and nothing of value to trade but their dead parentsâ book collection#but they came off too strong and quark is seven#junpei split that dayâs haul into three and gave them one in exchange for their help making the new anthology#as well as a promise that they would be quarkâs new storyteller âif anything were to happen to meâ#(and then akane called and we all know how that turns out.)#hereâs a new theory for you: upon seeing akane dead Tenmyoujiâs Radical-6 hits him hard and he thinks that thereâs nothing else in the world#thatâs worth living for. especially after quark gets infected. so in 4/6 timelines he dies depressed and in the other 2 he sorta just limps#along for the rest of his life even after quark gets treatment. maybe he gives quark off to K in tenmyouji end and quietly dies in quark end#and lets the rest of the survivors take care of him
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Are you still doing disabled art? because I would love to see Soldier with strabismus (it makes your eyes go in different directions).
Nope, unfortunately not as much these days! I sort of gradually fell out of the tf2 fandom, so I haven't drawn anything for it for a while, disabled art included. Which is a shame, since I have SO MANY asks in my inbox requesting more of the mercs with disability aids to this day (I'm so sorry for never answering those btw!).
#Also- I didn't want to overstep my boundaries too much#because some asks I got were asking for MY experience and opinion on disabilities I don't have!#I can't do that!#I can't speak for ALL disabled people- or ALL deaf or blind people- as some asks were asking me about. Because I'm neither of those!#I don't think it's right for me to call myself THE spokesperson for disabilities in a fandom when there are so many people out there who#Are already trying hard to get their voices heard- and would probably be willing to tell you about their experiences#If you asked them instead of me!#Ofc- it's totally cool to want to see your fav characters to have the same disabilities as yourself#But as the artist that has to draw those requests- I don't feel like any amount of research I do would be enough for me to speak to you#About what people with certain disabilities feel about their disabilities- much less what they experience on a daily basis#Anyways sorry for rambling!!#asks#sput chatters#disabilitymercs#tf2
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