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[cyrusthemagician]

HERE IS THE INFO DUMP ABT MY TMA OC ALEX LUKAS!!! warning up ahead for decomposition//rot//self neglect//generally the lonely LOVE LOSES!!! when it comes to the art of him warning for non sexual nudity

OKAY SOclears my throat

I'm not sure much where to start unless I went in order from beginning to "end" of his life so I think I'll do that!! Of course, he was born and did live his childhood and most of his life in the Lukas's Estate where he stayed in his room but often managed to get out and wander the halls. The only interest he found in leaving his room was to draw things for his family and slip the papers under their doors which ended up more often than not getting sent back to him by one of the nannies/maids. He did start his what i'd call final portrait while at the Estate (when he was 17) but I'd say it was around 2-4 years later when he actually left. He hopped around quite a bit, not really knowing what to do since he had left with little to nothing and was actively trying to avoid being alone despite, well, being an avatar of the lonely.

MORE UNDER THE CUT

He spent a lot of this time un settled staying with others he met at random party's he slipped his way into or people he met at the Cafe he frequently visited across the institute. he was dragged around a lot and painted even less during this burst of trying to be normal. It lasted around 4-5 years before his body couldn't keep up with him and it was getting worse and worse. The time that play and mess with him the most in is the years after all of this where he found his studio and moved in permanently and got settled. These years weren't as isolated or alone as the time he spent in the Lukas's Estate due to a 'friend', James, who he had met during his burst of attempted normalcy and who later moved away after discovering and making a statement to the magnus institute on his portraits and the rot that manifested in his chest due to the one of them. It was a few years after James had left that he first met Michael Shelly.

There were still a few things and mannerisms left in him from the few years he spent not following his nature. For awhile while he was 'healing' physically and mentally from the tress and trauma that it brought he would still kind of act relatively human. He would go out sometimes, mostly to get food or medicine which were ultimately useless to him and really just prolonged his discomfort before nesting back as much as he knew and remembered how to in the lonely. On going to the store this was how and when I'd say he first met Michael shelly.

Most of the art I've made of him and when I've roleplayed him takes place in this time frame where he's isolated and away from the world for the most part to heal and properly continue working on his portraits. It take a long time to actually finish the portrait that expands his rot and ends up being his last (at least 10 years as he spaces out the times he works on it and it's not up to him when he is finished).

To ramble on the rot I see it as an exaggerated but quite litteral manifestation or whatever of self neglect (emotional, physical, mental). The good old things like forgetting to take care of yourself or not having enough energy to or just not giving a shit at all, maybe even purposefully worsening it, its all of that. In working on the portrait more and more the rot spreads and he neglects himself and the things around him more, his supplies, clothes, michael, and studio. When the portrait is finished it's like the end result of self neglect caving in and ruining you or even killing you, in this case he does die in a way, his body does, becoming completely rotten and unable to keep going or supporting itself no matter what is done to keep it together but not improve it. But before this at the last moment where he could he purposefully ruins the portrait with paint thinner before the collapse. Instead of what's left of him rotting away further it replaces the ruined paint on the canvas by itself and leaves nothing left until he is gone and the portrait remains. Showing that even in his last moments of trying to destroy what's hurting him so bad it ends up being futile as it finishes itself with what it's done to him anyways.

Then comes the finale stage or period of his new existence as the portrait. Anytime, anywhere in the world his portrait can replace another painting. Any painting at all, anywhere, at random. He doesn't have control over where it goes but he is in a way aware, not alive or really able to freely think but he is aware. He can't leave his portrait or move in it and it can't be changed or destroyed as when an attempt at this is made it will simply leave to somewhere else. During this time it stays in one location until it lures someone in. It makes the person who's attention it got caught on feel disassociated and almost reliant on the feelings they get from the portrait until they try and get close and touch it, this can take forever at times but it eventually works. When the person touches it they get sucked in like a sponge absorbing water and they cease to exist. It isn't like a notthem, nothing replaces them and they aren't completely erased, they are just merely gone.

Some just like things that done go really in any order and I don't have too much to say on

in making his final portrait he made his own brushes from his own hair off his head

whenever done with a painting he often drinks his paint water and it has no negative affect on him

He almost always wears his apron, even when going out, he doesn't have a reason, just does (he also almost always bare foot)

Most of his body fluids are replaced by paint or mixed with paint

Had a silent 'crush' on Michael shelly and regrets isolating from him horribly after learning what happened to him, he also painted Michael often and depicted him almost always like he was glowing or an angel of sorts

for lack of better words his type of lonely was separation of the mind from body and the neglect that comes with it, a lot of depersonalization stuff

AND FOR FUNS HERES MY ART OF HIM

plus extras, he in roblox

[pepsiboyy]

APOLLO DO U WANT ME TO SOB IN MY PILLOW CUZ ITS GONNA HAPPEN!!!! I’m so weak bro… Soldier Down…. Now I can’t stop thinking ojmygodhd the visualization of him beside me is soclear

yes and his hair a lil disheveled and messy from sleep, his lips slightly parted as he breathes softly and steadily ohmygofff

[the-firebird69]

The Longest Yard- Turley alias Dalip Singh

and it is a sensative piece. but it is about our son. and he is suppsoed to be out to lunch  and work for macs sorta.  and have africans nose out of joint his fault. and they say they do it now and no  premature ok.  and this uns frist and they dont say it but ok it is prempting. this  is too but ok.  and the analogy not soclear to our son and or daughter she says she got it good

Thor Freya

and i am ahead. ok. im an astronaut. your not ok. not big and a baby lol grow up but ok al are small still lol.

and it is like this talkiing abou the cushy tushy by mac and lily and they used it in norway and Thor Freya loved  it. lol.  and the fly scycle and designs and he said it have to keep the wheels.  and solid al and low profile.  shocksand all.  and fast.  wing somwhere they looked yes here and maeks the most sense. 

but this means him and an analogy not real football no that too and action too.  and he says no way. and yes not so big no bigger than them. all.  and he does not show it. no does but is not bigger.  but they say it w the chin.  and then he is not a giant.  and i read it.  he is in fear of bein big a bit.  needs doiugh the use it and we see.and torment him wand we hit and teyi dont care.  and we take advantage must.  but it means he shall be big then.  a certiain time.  in cali they say.  and we say this.  hmmm.  and ok mb when they arrive a bit.  and see they are others no.  but ok.  similar teams.  and theysay this he will be big and lok it sound it but do menial stuf f deliver our code and more. and we say ok sure. and they wont but as the great Kali a demon.  a female wiht a ton of swords and broken up as in angelina movies.  so i say this no way. not my look nope. and it does but heck we fight them and it lost.  well they say it did.  and that is one episode.  and macs whant it and try and we fight them but ok.  

and has to buy a battery. and he laughs they work. and donations stopped and by a mix no. macs iin the end.  tons of money. and spent on charities. and not macs.  and they see it.  got them in.  a few more ok. and they say it to me a lot ok.  and it is his height not too tall. nor big. and see it but strong and they display it like a mule amazing strength. and he doesnt but ok. and they show it and then this.  no no it isnt me.  and he syas it wow it is bent and urt his leg. and did.  theyi saw it no. shows on xray. annd sais wow i did that but ouch.  and said i id not meant o that hard. and more.  are heavy scary to russia. and start out wiht the wrong dainty game he  is not good at. and to po him or what. and it is tough always tough and we are young. worn number or what nope theyo are ful of themeseles have tortured children for ages and  want this opportunity to do it to us as they try to take it all forever. we see why. and it is wrong. we re not used to it respond wiht force.  and hefty amounts. unseen apparently. and we are isolated. but hear it all day. upset angry and p issy lose stuff. shines thourgh all day long and no act no bhobby or duty nothing.  only food sop and basic stuff and heinous attittudes.

today they saidthey would do this that and aso on. and code is thiers. it is.  and they plan to use his dads money and his only oney to have him drive round and it is a waste and the song no black cars will get you money.  and we see. it they say that.  but he needs transportation yes.  they want it we do too to forcecontrols and they say that. ok.

now this is a fun movie but about prison we dont like prison.  and it is liek it here but they get breaks. good.  need it.  

and on to the next show no.  this is hearbreking stuff he cant hear it yeh he can iti is sick stuff he says and it is.

Hera

very sick e hate it now and ue it we see him jc and his brother said he was over  did soemthing and we saw it evil kenivel. you can do it. jump over the shco buses and did

dan a bit too far nope now w e are chckin leaning good he says and he didit saturn ok the light

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[emphatic-nomadic]

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[youfitinmypoem]

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[fortisofficial]

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