#social media and messages and all

[highfiveheroes]

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the mental health spiral got so bad last night that i considered looking into therapy and medication again

and then today went so fucking wrong so maybe i was right lol

i just think that maybe i should. give up everything and go live in the woods i don’t want to talk to people anymore

[kevinsdsy]

the trojans social media au (pt. 30): the first message are inspired by an anon inbox i got which i really liked as an aftermath to last part so thank you anon :))

[yesokayiknow]

human au. some of these guys spend too much time on here and it shows

[courfee]

James who is a successful author and Regulus who is an expert in some very niche field and James' newest book happens to make references to said niche field. Only James got it wrong and Regulus absolutely drags him on social media for it, founds some kind of James Potter hate club and insists the entire book is bad because what kind of author doesn't even do proper research

[neorukixart]

DO NOT INTERACT IF YOU SEXUALIZE RENAMON AND/OR SHIP RENAMON WITH RUKI. THANK YOU

Took a break and decided to give a try to drawing my adult Ruki once again but end up being a redraw from Best Tamers chara songs :D

I stand firm in my curse of my inability to draw child/rookie level Digis OTL

If you can read what the Digimoji says, you get a cookie~

Below the original~

I... forgot where I got this "clean" scan, sorry OTL and even so, I still have no idea in what position are Ruki's legs.

Also, bet you now know what the Digimoji says uwu

[coollyinterferes]

The unmistakable sound of footsteps approaching begins to fill the air. Whoever is coming seems to have brought some company along…

They are getting closer… and closer… and closer…

…and closer…

……until..................

"Goooooood evenin'!!" Comes the loud greeting from a certain blond man. A big smile on his face and all.

"We beg your pardon for our prolonged absence. It was completely beyond our control..." Then adds the gentleman standing by his side, apologizing on behalf of both, offering a genuine smile along with the apology.

"...BUT! We're back!" And hopefully for good this time…

[evil-mcytblrconfessions]

tumblr kww fandom was formed seperately from most other social media corners of the fandom. and that leads to silly things like the commonly used name "kww collab" and kenfies vs kenifies. and probably more. cedar if theres any more im forgetting that u know of say them pls

(in response to this confession)

[batsplat]

welcome back casey stoner !

https://www.tumblr.com/verdemint/761549873456775168/same-interview-they-asked-him-how-does-he-deal

(link)

asjddkh SEE this is what I'm talking about!! something about those incredibly neurotic ducati champions, eh. in the post linked above, pecco's talking about how he deals with media pressure... which, yeah, pecco and casey really do share a fair bit of competitive dna there - from the insistence that it doesn't affect them whatsoever to how they do in fact get extremely pissy whenever they feel misrepresented by the media. very sensitive to that kind of thing, those two are... but at the same time they're also both their own harshest critics. from casey's autobiography (all quickly nabbed from this post, which ofc expands on casey's perfectionism):

I got a lot of criticism over the years for being honest because I always felt I could do better. Even if I won the race, if I had made mistakes it was important for me to admit them and address them for next time instead of congratulating myself for being the best on that particular day.

and:

Whatever challenges I take on now I am still driven by the same quest to improve - I can’t change who I am. As a personality trait this is both a good thing and a bad thing. I like that part of me but it would be nice to not be like that sometimes, to enjoy something without being obsessed with getting better at it. I am sure you can go through life a lot happier if you don’t analyse everything.

versus pecco:

The strength that I've proved in various situations comes from the fact that I am extremely critical of myself, and so it only takes a little bit for me to put myself down even more.

like yeah I suppose that's one way of looking at it - nobody else can get to you if you're already tearing into yourself. it's a motivational process that's very much built on negativity, right, on the need to live up to their own exacting standards. both pride themselves for their ability to put failures behind them quickly - to be able to immediately bounce back because they tell themselves they only care about doing better in the next race. plus, there's that interesting dynamic where both are like... pretty big on this idea they're not making excuses for themselves, committed to honestly assessing themselves and all that,, BUT also have reputations for being whiny to the press... because people for whatever reason end up thinking they're constantly blaming everything but themselves for their shortcomings. again, very prone to feeling misunderstood!! neither of them are necessarily terrible communicators - but there's a certain reluctance there (obviously more so from casey) to even play that game at all. mix in a learned wariness because they feel like they've been burned before.... that whole pecco episode last year where he said one reason for the increased injury rate is probably because the field is tighter now (which, yes! seems logical!) ,,, and then some unholy combination of clumsy phrasing, media framing and an ungenerous fan response ended up translating that to pecco saying he wanted satellite bikes to be slower again... gave me real casey vibes lol. casey had a fair few of those episodes himself - though at least the news cycle and social media fandom weren't quite as bad back then. in a lot of ways he'd struggle even more nowadays

also,, you do have to mention - they both end up defining themselves against valentino specifically when it comes to their public personas. casey might be the rival and pecco the mentee, but both of them have been clear that they do not desire to be the next valentino rossi. kinda what I said here, right

idk, obviously pecco had a heads-up a little earlier than casey did that sensibly communicating to the media WAS going to be a big part of the job. but there's still a wariness there, an unwillingness to be something they're not, knowing that they'd be miserable trying to match valentino's particular brand of flamboyance... it is key that it is a choice they're making. they just don't want that for themselves, never have. there's only ever so much outreach they're willing to do

also this

“Stoner and Bagnaia are two different riders, but they have the same mental attitude,” Tardozzi told AS. “I think Pecco is still growing. He already took a big leap by winning the championship, but the biggest jump in his head has been done this year, after the two falls in Argentina and Austin. “He is an intelligent boy and has spoken a lot with the team, and what happened has made him take another step to make him even more of a champion. Now he has the right mentality. Pecco will become one of the greats. Right now it is showing that he is growing, as I told you before."

'resilience' is I think a word I associate quite strongly with both of them. they take their fair share of punches, do tend to get called mentally fragile a lot - but in truth there's a steel there that serves them well. did talk a little bit about the similarities of their motivational processes here too:

and

and one other thing I've been thinking about is that this... y'know, use of spite, of self-criticism, of how annoyed they get at others' criticisms - for both of them, it is also paired with a determined refusal to countenance they could be mentally affected by anything. with casey in particular, it's a bit of an overcorrection in response to how often he was described as mentally weak; it's understandable you might get extremely sensitive about the whole thing, if you weren't already. a lot of it is also stubbornness... a bone-deep contrarianism that immediately makes them push back if somebody suggests they might struggle for any reason related to psychology. where this really jumps out is how they talk about their rivals. obviously, nobody is going to say that their opponent's mind games work on them because that'd be deeply stupid to admit - but there is something about pecco's firm insistence marc's mind games don't have a hope of working on him that is really reminiscent of how casey has talked about valentino. it's that dynamic of ,, well, they're not wrong in that they're stronger than people give them credit for, but obviously they are also. like. extremely defensive, past the point of necessarily being reasonable. sometimes, what your rival does will affect you. that's kinda how rivalries work lol. but both of them are very committed to this narrative that their working process is super self-directed. casey's whole thing about how he's never gotten obsessed with rivals, pecco's 'we work in silence' schtick... it comes back round to the relationship with the media, right, where they have a natural inclination towards framing that as an oppositional dynamic - and automatically chafe against any narratives that might be externally imposed on them. actually, you see, rivals don't affect their performance at all, they don't need to constantly slobber to the press to hype up their performances, they'll do their talking on-track... but the unspoken truth there is that all of those things do matter, they are paying a lot of attention - and in the end, 'proving a point' to someone becomes a central part of the motivational process. they hear all the criticisms, they seethe in 'silence' (often involves a fair bit of public complaining but let's allow it), and then they determinedly show how all their critics were fools and losers. rinse and repeat

anyway yeah apparently that's part of the ducati magic - a dash of neuroticism, a heavy dose of self-flagellation, inject a desire for authenticity that might at times read as whiny, stir in the makings of a persecution complex and top it off with a sprinkling of spite. probably not the easiest type of guy to handle, but clearly there's something to the formula. a compelling approach to be sure

[ominousvibez]

get off tiktok get off twitter get off instagram make bad art write shitty poems make mediocre food and fall in love with life again

[fluffypinkposts]

Visual representation of how my week went

I also begging for my neighbors you hurry up with the reno bc I can't take it anymore 😔

[goldkirk]

okay I do have to say that the number of people who are in my messages or my post notes saying some variation on “this is fake you rebloggers are dumb it’s just for attention/a joke” about me sharing that I was in a high control group is really wild.

1) I mean. I’ve got years of post history on here and linked to other public accounts. I show my face. I’ve posted photos of old high control group material. I share my own journal entries and therapy process on and off. there’s plenty of first hand source corroborating evidence if you bother to look for a couple minutes. and 2) like. do you think i wouldn’t have chosen an easier or simpler lie/thing to troll about? and finally 3) what do you think I gain. clout? you think I get clout from this? mostly all I get is people doubting it or thinking the whole thing is weird.

It is weird! That’s the point! It was all completely normal everyday life but it was also all weird! It was insane! I was neurotic! I functioned like a normal human being! I learned and believed insane things and was prepared to die for my beliefs at any moment as a nine year old! I liked Star Trek! I didn’t know I owned my own body! these things are not mutually exclusive

believe me. I’d love if you could prove I was a liar making this up for clout. my life would be way easier if that were true

[senditothemoonn]

I love the way you draw scotfra! especially scotland! I will shout from the rooftops how beautiful the scot is. I wish to give him a smooch, to bad Francis has him wrapped round his finger.

MEOWW MEOW MEOW MEOW (thank you 🥺 thank you thank you 🥺 thank you)

I haven't drawn them in so long oopsies teehee BUTT scotfra week starts tomorrow and I've got at least 2 1/2 days lined up 👀 if by some miracle I get some spare time and can finish off all the days in the next week then woohoo but if not I think I will slowly drip feed more scotfra onto my feed.

[didnt-hear-cold-as-you-live]

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[demonic-shadowlucifer]

If there's one thing the internet has taught me this week, it's that it's apparently perfectly okay to trash talk an athlete underneath news posts of them suffering a season ending injury... but god FUCKING forbid that someone criticizes their favorite celebrity who can do no wrong 🥺🥺🥺🥺

[seedlessmuffins]

vini deserves so much better. nobody deserves racial abuse at all, and it is disappointing to continually see this same story playing out across club football time and time again. it is so disappointing that not only was he the recipient of racist words but he was carded and felt the need to apologize on social media. the fact that he got consequences for enduring abuse is such a joke.

additionally important, though, is every single black man in laliga (including vini) who have, will have, or are going through the same or similar racist violence from fans, players, staff, and referees. the entire league needs to do better at protecting players from this abuse, because nobody deserves this.

my heart goes out to vini, truly, i hope he is doing ok. he deserves so so much better. they all do.

[dullanyan]

get off social media right now btw. if u are just doomscrolling and making urself upset you gotta go. do something that makes u happy. make some art. watch a show/movie. make or go order a tasty meal. go for a stroll in nature if u can or just look at some plants irl. let yourself have at least a decent day :}