#sobbing into this notebook

[bunnyunderthebed]

mental exercises; the process through which i slowly remodel my mind. i enjoy the training, the effort expent to knock down walls and understand emotions, the sparring feels good on my knuckles. as a boy i was labeled argumentative, oppositional, contrarian, but as a man i am called upon to challenge the norms established in my head. reorient, redesign, resurface.

a little wooden toy can be such a stark reminder of how little gestures, often unconsidered, can lead to unwanted results. i can get so absorbed in my own narrative while boxing that i forget there is someone across the ring from me, feeling the impact of every strike. sure, after enough hands thrown, a wall might come down, but what good is that if the bricks fall onto someone who wasn't wearing a hardhat?

"Normally I'd find you pacing after a conversation like that."

i look away from my kendama, meeting your gaze from across my office. your shadow pours in from the doorframe, reminding me of how much more you've become since i met you.

pacing is a stress response. i'm not stressed.

"You're upset."

i'm a bit disappointed in myself. upset is sort of a stretch.

"Her reactions are not your responsibility."

that doesn't mean i don't feel bad about it. i didn't want to hurt her, to make her feel like she needed to hurt herself.

"You can't force someone to see the value in themselves, and you can't expect to undo the pain she's already suffering."

but i can do better about not adding to it.

"Only as far as remembering you're in a minefield, but amount of this will dig up the mines."

easy for you to say, you're not stepping on them.

"Well, not in a strict sense, but that's sort of a given nowadays."

need you remind me constantly that i gave up the game?

"No, you do it yourself. You've sort of been doing it the whole time, remember?"

i suppose. how then am i meant to sharpen iron if not with more iron?

"She's not iron, Bunny. Not everyone is."

she can be, when she wants to.

"When her environment allows, more like."

i fell silent. i didn't have a response, mostly because i knew you were right. her crucible had been much harsher than mine, and her blacksmith more careless.

you understand why i care, right? nobody else wants to play fair with her, they write her off as a basket case, as some sort of lost cause.

"They don't see what you see. You should show them sometime."

i nodded softly, looking down at my kendama again.

"Among a million examples, why did you pick that one? You could've asked for a brand name, for a special edition, for a prettier color even."

it's a beautiful color, when held in the right light.

i looked back up. you were gone, and i was enlightened.

[kurthummeldeservesbetter]

hey so whenever we reference their final scene don't forget Jayce says "us" in "I thought I wanted us to give magic to the world" so from the moment Viktor first showed up and helped him in his broken apartment it was always his and Viktor's dream

[figofswords]

i know ive made myself the #1 izutsumi stan in the eyes of all of my friends and probably some of you online people but what if i became a mithrun stan. there is something about him that compels me. i just want to *clenches fist* put him on the drying rack. lovingly stick him into a tupperware for later. make him into. a broth of some sort. do you understand

[made-my-peace-with-all-the-bad]

A sick thought just popped into my brain.

Marcia and Two Bit are Younger Allie and Younger Noah. Darrel and Paul are Middle Noah and Middle Allie.

[averagetmntfan]

UR MAKING A PINE POINT OC!!? Lemme see when you’re done! Tag me! :D

(I’ve been working on a Pine Point OC named Finn all year. I may post him one day, if I find a design I’m happy with)

I’ve been trying to create one but I don’t rlly like her design jdjsjd but he’s her beta design ig kmao

I have no idea what I am doing.

[m0onberry222]

just watched the notebook for the first time…do not touch me i am ILL.

(i need the book IMMEDIATELY.)

[ef-1]

girlhood

[dying-suffering-french-stalkers]

Every time I look at the Tengwar table I feel like

screaming a little bit

apologizing to Tolkien that I only had time to take Linguistics 101

(but in my defense, that was because I was too busy taking 800 other language classes)

[emohorseboy]

“Measure the hate you feel now, and the shame. That quantity is your capacity also to love and to feel joy and to have compassion.”

I Never Promised You a Rose Garden, Joanne Greenberg

[f4y3w00d5]

Chattt

i wanna settle smth ^^

So. my sisters are currently fighting over this random notebook- it had a few pages of guitar chords (only one of them plays and can read guitar). Well It Does Not Have Guitar Chords Any More Cos Father Ripped Them Out And Threw Them Out (like wtf the 11 yr old one needed that??? thats where her guitar chords are??? now she has to dig thru the trash???)

Anyways - younger one is insisting this notebook/journal is hers from last years christmas. Younger one has abt 5 other journals she never uses, while the 11 yr old has 5 other completely full journals.

Mother has decided best course of action was to scream at both for 30 minutes - primarily the 11 yr old, and act like it means nothing - which when youre 49, MAYBE it doesnt??? But it does to them??? so stop being a bitch??

and also she took the notebook.

[mcshizzle-the-fire-boy]

person: can u cry o on damand?

me: yeah, watch

me: *thinks of the ending of the notebook*

me: *instantly starts sobbing, tears and snot pouring down my spine, shivering* s-see? what'd I- what'd I tell you?

[casdeans-pie]

I had some time off work around my birthday and went back today - to find that while I'd been off my colleagues had made me a card and got me some presents !

Theyre so sweet I'm gonna cry

[milf-harrington]

thinking about jellicoe road again. yeah its gonna be an all night thing, yeah it's literally keeping me awake.

[azrantimes]

Bro I forgot how much Home destroyed me

[enfinizatics]

replaying shadow of the tomb raider bc i need some comfort after taking two bigass exams in a week and i still can’t get over the intro scene where lara just wants to take her pics in peace while jonah is fighting for their lives in that tomb LMFAO

[miareadsstuff]

guys i just rewatched the notebook pls do not speak to me for abt 3-5 business days