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#do not rb#luna.personal#idk man maybe thisll be my last era being here and giffing#i just feel like im running at a wall most of the time#and its not like#idk#my content isnt unique at the end of the day ig#it doesnt feel like i offer anything that no one else does#and when i think wow this is really good by my standards its never met with that response in reality#and while my notes are on the higher end i feel like the note to follower ratio is such a mismatch#so maybe my time is just up ig#or im burnt out and overwhelmed#it doesnt help that i feel that there are many ccs who would be happy to see me gone#so why not just go on ahead
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A heart for the treasure shelf
another one in this style because it's actually pretty fun to do (once you get past the tedious process of initial blocking)
#sonic#sonic the hedgehog#sth#sonic fanart#rouge the bat#rouge the bat fanart#digital#clip studio paint#my art#i vaguely remember there being heart shaped crystals in frontiers#so im gonna go ahead and say that the jewel here is Not that. its just some generic heart jewel#drawing rouge in this style was actually rly fun idek why#maybe its bc i used a lot of pink
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Hi! i love your art! And I'm curious about something: what do you think of the staff? And which is your favorite?
thank you! ❤️❤️❤️ I LOVE the staff, I wish we got to see more of them -- every once in a while we'll get a little side bit of them interacting with each other and it's always SO good. (for that and more proof that EHN is the best event, see: the teachers trying to hold their own Halloween party without Crowley noticing because they don't want to invite him. why was this one scene and not a long-spanning subplot like it deserved to be. we were robbed.)
I have probably made it pretty obvious which of the staff is my favorite, because I love characters who are huge morons who couldn't read a room if they had industrial-strength prescription glasses:
but I'm pretty fond of all of them! it takes a certain kind of person to work at NRC for more than five minutes. though I do think Trein is probably my second favorite? he LOVES his cat! he LOVES his wife! he LOVES history even though he is fed up with these teens and their wacky misadventures! also, I really want to hear the rest of his saucy makeout story. talk about dangling plot threads. 😔
genuinely we need more staff interactions in canon, there is so much untapped hilarity there I CAN FEEL IT
#art#twisted wonderland#gif warning#gifs that probably count as a jumpscare just because of crowley's face warning#i don't know why my mind always goes to the teachers drinking together#it feels right though#(it's juice and root beer)#(vargas is just Like That)#(he's probably also planning on how he can take the students out to the wilderness and hunt them down for a third time)#(crowley: well it doesn't use any extra budget so go ahead)
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I just want to make my screen read my online text book out loud to me because my eyes hurt and I'm tired, and they have the audacity to make them all pdf images specifically so people can't "copy text" (so my computer won't recognize it as text and read it for me) and won't let me change it and I can't figure it out so I'll just have to. struggle
#not art#guys im so tired#already tried messing around in settings and nothing ughh#why are things DUE tomorrow ive been nonstop working since the quarter started#if anyone knows how to get around these things ill kiss you on the mouth#but also im not holding out hope rip#I just feel like if youre gonna make it an ebook you should go ahead and make it fully accessible#sighh#my eyes hurt typing this post#delete later
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THIS SCENE—
#DO YOU SEE THE DISDAIN ON HIS FACE—#THAT’S MY KING!!!! THAT’S MY GOAT!!!!!#the sheer aura i felt from ezran in this scene will power me through the next twenty years of life#GOD HE LOOKS SO ✨DISGUSTED✨ IN THAT SECOND FRAME THATS MY FUCKING SON#IN TRUE TDP FASHION RAYLLUM SPENDS THE SEASON BEING ALL CUTE AND LOVEY DOVEY WHILE EZRAN GOES THROUGH FUCKING 9/11#THE FUCKING RED WEDDING#my son is a VETERAN#god ezran ik you’re fundamentally a pacifist and i LOVE that for you but my boy. son. you deserve your hater era more than ANYONE#my boy needs more screen time more love more tlc and by GOD he needs to FIGHT WITH CALLUM#bc WHY is he dealing with XADIA’S BATTLE OF THE SOMME and KATOLIS 9/11 A L O N E#i mean i’m kinda kidding bc ofc ezran gave the go-ahead for rayllum to transport the pearl so callum’s like. not in the wrong here#i jUST THINK ITS FUNNY HOW—#anyway. i stan one (1) king of katolis#tdp#tdp s6#tdp season 6#tdp spoilers#spoilers#ezran tdp#tdp ezran#the dragon prince s6 spoilers#the dragon prince#the dragon prince s6#the dragon prince season 6
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"do you think my wings are pretty..?"
he preened his wings..... theres no dirt or dye or anything.... so they're back to their original colour
#gonna go ahead and post this one late#my art#grian#it was originally going to be him trying to bait compliments. yknow? being a little smug but still embarrassed#not sure when in the sketch he ended up laying back#he was originally talking to mumbo#hes fidgeting with his hands#i think it comes across as suggestive but hes just looking for attention hahah#hes an angel not a bird but.... he still wants people to find his wings pretty#i think scar would catch on and go along with him like oh ! why yes of course ! they're always so pretty <3#im rly tired if the wings are drawn ugly im sry i tried dont embarrass me pls
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."Are you even listening to me, McCullum?".
#jonathan reid#geoffrey mccullum#mcreid#vampyr#vampyr 2018#mccreid#vampyr game#mxm#geoffrey x jonathan#jonathan x geoffrey#sketch#.you can basically make any HIM song fit these two jsyk.#.idk why i thought of geoffrey reading vampire fanfiction but here we are anyway.#.probably bc of that hc about dorian reading qunari pirate fanfics and being all 👀👀👀👀 hello!#.AGAIN sorry still obsessed but if yall got any stupid things u wanna share w me go ahead.#.idk if its better if theyre already a thing in this or not lmao but THATS UP TO YOUUUUUU byebye.#.meant to say seathrun is the Irish version of Geoffrey.#.like irl I know brothers called Vladimir and George so Geoffrey should totally have a proper Irish name that was anglicised.#. Just for the English or something ykno.
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HL MC ASK GAME! Reblog and send two or three asks to a friend who doesn't normally get any!
🎂- When is your MCs birthday and why did you pick it?
🌈- What’s your MCs favorite color and why would they love it so much?
🕰️- What’s your MCs backstory?
👨- What’s your MCs relationship with their father (if applicable)?
👩- What’s your MCs relationship with their mother (if applicable)?
👫- Does your MC have siblings and how do they get along?
🧓- What’s your MCs relationship with their grandparents (if applicable)?
🥰- Does your MC have a partner and if so what are they like together?
🫣- What is your MCs biggest regret?
👨⚖️- What is your MCs opinion on the Ministry?
🐉- Is your MC good with beasts?
🌾- Is your MC good at Herbology?
📚- What is your MCs favorite subject?
🧑💼- What is your MCs adult job?
👁️- What does your MC value on life?
👯- In their group of friends, what role do they play in their lives? If not applicable, in general what role do they play around others?
😈- What would you say your MCs morality is like?
🧑🏫- Who is your MCs favorite teacher?
😎- Who inspires your MC to be better?
🙌- What accomplishments is your MC most proud of?
👀- What is your MC like behind closed doors?
😵💫- What is your MC like drunk?
😵- If your MC suddenly died, how would their loved ones and friends react?
📖- Do you have any non-MC characters, and if so, tell me about them!
👜- What is your MCs most prized possession?
🦇- How does your MCs powers- be that Ancient Magic or otherwise- affect their day to day life?
🦋- Does Ancient Magic work differently for your MC then in the game?
🍴- What is your MCs favorite foods?
👑- Is your MC an enjoyer of fancier, finer things, or do they enjoy simpler things?
🎅- What is your MCs favorite holiday?
👰♀️- (if applicable) what was your MCs wedding like?
😭- Most traumatic thing for your MC?
😍- Does your MC have “rizz”?
😶🌫️- Is your MC secretive, and if so, what is their biggest secret?
🤡- What is your MCs boggart or biggest fear?
👾- In modern day, what would your MC be like?
💫- What is your MCs zodiac signs?
♟️- Is your MC calculated?
🗡️- What would it take for your MC to betray their closest loved one or allies- if at all?
🪁- What hobbies does your MC practice?
🏆- What is your MCs biggest goal?
🧸- What was your MCs childhood like?
🩸- What is your MCs opinion on blood status?
🥀- What is your MCs biggest heartbreak?
💀- What is your MCs opinion on the Dark Arts?
💅- How fashionable is your MC?
👳- Is your MC accident prone?
🗣️- Is your MC charismatic?
🫦- Is your MC attractive to other characters?
🚬- Does your MC have bad habits, or how is their mental health?
#this entire thing is copy pasted from a discord server#dw I'm not stealing I wrote it for said server looool#so if the formatting is janky that's why#I cant be bothered to make it look nice when the target audience is just my friends#if you wanna use it go right ahead I don't mind#in fact I'd be honored#rofl#ask game#hogwarts legacy#hogwarts legacy mc#the mcverse
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ppl folding bcs mcdonalds is collaborating with jjk is so funny (in a dumbfounded way) yet sad to see 😭 yall so weak ..
#sttoru chats.#‘the boycott isnt working! why does it matter!’ yeah so go ahead and just say that u dont care abt ppl dying as long as it doesnt affect u#yikes fr#that is just a diff way to say ‘yeah idc rlly them ppl can die ima still get my food’#ok biggie#big back !!
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Me watching people pretend Wally west (and sometimes Roy)’s children don’t exist so that they can be Dick/Jason’s boyfriend
#in case you haven’t noticed I’ve been getting into Wally west recently#I’m so angered about this#the only Wally content I can find that is sometimes unrelated to dick is young justice#and he’s DEAD there 😭😭😭😭#the fact that there was a whole comic arc of Wally almost destroying the universe just for the chance that he would save his children#AND PEOPLE GO AHEAD AND PRETEND THEY DONT EXIST#im gonna lose it#and same with Roy#like why would he go and save Jason an be his personal therapist he has a child to take care of#I have a deep hatred for what jayroy did to Roy’s character#justice for Roy#and everyone always makes them seem weak or stupid to make dick and Jason look better#actually that goes for all friends of the batfamily#Roy’s smart and a good fighter#he’s been a hero longer then Jason#and Wally is ridiculously powerful and smart#I lowkey blame young justice and the outlaws for this#actually not lowkey#HIGHKEY#please send me some good comic Wally and Roy content#thank you for coming to my rant#dc comics#wally west#roy harper#dick grayson#jason todd
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HI MY BELOVED ANGEL!!! i am sending u mattsun + campfire as well as kisses n hugs <33
SAINTTT hello 🥺 thank you for sending a prompty!! 🥹 idt i've ever written mattsun fully before so this is something new!
help me get back into the writing groove! send me a character + any word and i'll write a short blurb about it!
contains: exes, stranded-y situation, feelings are complicated, some expletives
mattsun + campfire
"i told you we should've brought the spare—"
"yeah, let me go back in time for a sec and do just that."
"asshole."
lesson #1: nothing good ever happens when you're stuck in a car with your ex on the way to somewhere remote.
you blame iwaizumi for this one. who the fuck chooses to spend their birthday weekend in the fucking wilderness?
(okay, you don't actually think it's so bad. to be fair, he did plan this a year ago. and it did sound like a good idea. then. at the time. anywhere with the boys was always guaranteed fun―at least, until you and matsukawa broke up.)
"can you pass me the flashlight?" he points at the backpack behind you. when you hand it over, your fingers brush over his as he takes it away from you.
and you hate it, because―
lesson #2: you should never be alone with your ex when you still have feelings for them.
you'd agreed to take two cars to the camping spot: iwaizumi's with oikawa and hanamaki and matsukawa's with you. there was no way you'd fit in one, and hanamaki ultimately decided to ride with iwaizumi because, "you and mattsun have shit to sort out," he'd said.
with night setting and the two-hour headstart they managed to get ahead of you, the best thing you and matsukawa can do is to set up camp temporarily and wait for them to come back for you come sunrise.
you sigh.
leaves crack underneath your feet as you maneuver around your camping space. the light from matsukawa's flashlight tells you where he is, just a bit deeper in the forestry as he looks for wood to help set up the fire.
you unload the car in the meantime, bringing out some snacks and sleeping bags while waiting.
matsukawa eventually comes back with arms full of wood, and you help in whatever way you can, clearing the space and fetching more twigs when needed.
the entire car ride here had been quiet, so it's not surprising that this entire process has been equally as silent. until―
"did you already pull out your tent?" he asks, half of his body disappearing into the trunk of the car.
"huh?" you go closer, "i only brought out the sleeping bags."
then he sighs, ducking out from the trunk with a hand on his hip, "we only have one tent."
"what?"
"makki must have gotten yours with his when he decided to move cars."
his hand runs through his hair, a habit you know well. it lights up all sorts of weird feelings in your tummy
you don't know how to feel―
"i can sleep in the car."
―but you know that you definitely don't want him to do that. all things considered, you were friends first. and you've both been trying to be friends again since the breakup. you wouldn't want to cause him discomfort like that.
so, with a deep breath, you say, "it's okay, we can just share."
"are you sure?" he stares at you.
you nod.
after setting up the tent, you eat a few energy bars and clean up from the day's events. the campfire provides ample enough heat, but with how fast the flames are burning, you're doubtful it'll last the two of you the entire night.
it’s much later on, past midnight, that your doubts are proven right when you and matsukawa are cramped together in a tent made for one. it started to get cold a few minutes ago, and you've found yourself inching closer and closer to the warmth you’ve gotten used to laying against for the past two years.
he's only pretending to be asleep, you know that much, too. the rise and fall of his chest is hardly there; you can see it, how he's holding his breath being this close to you.
"issei," you whisper.
he opens his eyes, eyelids lifting lazily as he meets your stare. the vibration of his hum reverberates to you.
"it's cold."
for a moment, your stomach drops at the thought that he could ignore you; how it would make perfect sense for him to. you broke up with him after all, and he doesn't owe you anything, much less favors as intimate as this one.
but he closes the already dwindling gap between you, wrapping an arm around your waist as he pulls you closer. it's near, far too near for exes to be―noses touching and all.
"warmer?" his voice comes out hoarser through the whisper.
you nod, your head shifting up and down—which, truly, is where you ultimately fuck up. you feel it, a little chapped but still pliant against your lips.
in your carelessness, you accidentally brush your lips against his, the sensation alone surprising you enough to inch your head back as you mutter your apologies.
"sorry? really?" he asks, eyes half-lidded still as he chuckles.
his question settles into the small space you're in.
your vision trails from his eyes, down to the slope of his nose, until it lands on his lips again. a little split like you've always known, but still your favorite. still the only lips you want against yours.
when you lean in again, you know you're fucked, because―
lesson #3: the number one rule is that exes shouldn't kiss each other anymore.
#mattsun x reader#matsukawa x reader#hq x reader#shotorus.workbook#WAAAAAH i hope u like this saint !!!#ive never rlly written mattsun in length before so i hope i captured him enough ?????#i feel like he's such a tough balance to write (bc i am not witty at all and i feel like he would be HAHAHA)#anyway !!! some stuff abt the fic: the split was amicable for the most part#but the reason why makki says reader and mattsun have stuff to sort out is because there's like a weird tension~~ that he feels around them#and its kind of like. they bicker? and snap at each other like exes do but also it's just like. why do u care abt what the other does so mu#if you arent together anymore ?? typa thing. its like. they argue but in a way couples normally do if that makes sense#HONESTLY MAKKI WOULDNT HAVE ALSO MINDED STAYING WITH THEM cos he likes to watch HAHA but i think#he joined iwaoi more as a 'ill give u guys time together to fuck it out or wtvr just dont be weird on iwa's bday' typa thing#they were also together for a while! friends first and everything hmmm the reason why reader broke up with him#can be up to you! but my intention was for it to be something fixable and just more fitting for a 'break' typa thing#not necessarily a breakup#also the iwa car went ahead and they have the spare tire so they can go back and help but better in the daylight#i think thats all !!!#i hope you like it !!#ask#rep#saint.🩸#honestly these just keep getting longer hAHAH i should follow my 20 minute cap more#ask rep answered#heartsyougave
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Ride 774: Kiji, coming!!
Pag 1
1: Welcome, to the Emperor's throne!!
My aim is the double crown!!
Pag 2
4: Ahhh... you're fast, the two of you
I thought I could catch you for sure at 2km left
Pag 3
1: But it took me until “1km left”, yon!!
Pag 4
3: Ah!?
He
4: caught up!? Who....
Pag 5
1: who the hell are you!?
2: The two people in the lead are taking the curve and passing the sign that says that there's 1km left until the sprint line.....
Pag 6
1: No, it's three people!!
Three people passed the “1km left” sign!!
2: There's more people!? Since when!?
Wasn't it two people!?
What happened!? Who's that? That jersey-
At the last curve, suddenly-
3: It's not “who are you”....!!
Dammit!! I know!! This guy!!
Pag 7
1: There's one more person who we need to pay special attention to
2: Gunma Ryousei's third year, Kiji Kyuui
3: Ohh, Kiji? Who's that
Oi, I already told you about this in advance, Manami!! Come on, at the sea
Is that so?
4: What's your data about him?
5: There's basically no record of him in road racing
6: He's an..... “assassin” from the MTB world, huh
7: Is he aiming for the goal?
8: Yeah.... the goal...
That's right....
We should be glad
Pag 8
1: That he's only aiming for the goal
2: Hayaaaa!!
3: Dammit!! The first result.... so you're aiming for the sprint too!?
4: Since they said you were aiming for the goal I thought you were a climber like Manami!!
Pag 9
1: Let's speed up, Orange!! He'll catch up!!
2: I've seen it before!! This guy's jersey
3: That day.... he appeared suddenly on that bike with the thick tires
Pag 10
1: It's the guy who chased Onoda-san and the Hakogaku guy with the bouncy hair!!
2: Before that, Onoda-san said they were friends and that he's “strong”!!
3: He's coming to catch up to
4: mine and San-na's battle
Pag 11
1: He really is strong!!
Let's switch, I'll pull!!
Pag 12
1: Orange!!
3: They're in tune
You have amazing judgment and explosive power!!
4: When I caught up at the last curve
5: Even though they could have also accepted me and made me join them
Without making eye contact or calling out to each other, in an instant at the same time they made the decision
6: that they would “cooperate” to leave me behind!! Yon!!
You're really....
Pag 13
4: What's that
He's lowering his stance and pushing on the handles like he's about to dance....!!
5: Hayaaaa
Pag 14
1: You're really close friends!!
Pag 15
4: He lined up to us in one go!?
Pag 16
1: This guy!! Was it an optical illusion? Just now, I saw something like a cloud of dust behind me
2: Takadajou told us this
Be careful
3: I've been told that the power that a MTB rider can produce in a short time
4: is 1.5 times that of a road racing cyclist
5: This guy can match this top speed!?
8: Ah!?
9: Huh!?
Pag 17
2: In between!?
He came in between!?
Ah!?
3: You bastard, usually when one catches up he joins in the back
Pag 18
1: It's road racing theory!!
4: This guy doesn't know the theory?
5: 800m left until the sprint line!!
6: 1
Pag 19
1: 2
What's this- San-na, did this guy suddenly started counting
2: What's this
The sign for an attack?
3: 3
Pag 20
2: Alright, I recovered
5: Well then, I'll go
Pag 21
1: Ahead, yon
2: So it really was a sign for attacking!!
Who's that guy!!
#yowamushi pedal#yowapeda#yowamushi pedal translations#yowapeda manga#yowamushi pedal manga#yowamushi pedal spoilers#ride 774#and we're back finallyyyy#i hope watanabe is alright and last week's break wasnt because of health problems :/#anyway!! of i loved this chapter SO MUCH#Kiji Kyuui you cheeky bastard i love you#he arrives he crushes kabu and bashi's race-date he boasts and brags#and then he's like okay bye now you losers keep doing what you were doing imma go ahead#ANNOYING AF I LOVE HIM#hes annoying without even realizing it lmao i bet he doesnt realize it#'you must be so close!!" oh please they were having a moment and you interrupted them!!#btw it's so fckn funny to me that kabu and bashi simply decided to pair up against kiji lmao they got one look at him and were like#'nope we dont like this guy' afsgdasfd#im so sorry for them but also that was funny af#also i love bashi thinking 'this is basic road racing theory!! ah wait this guy probably doesnt know shit about theory ;A;'#kiji has no idea how road racing works and thats why hes so strong#he just does whatever he wants
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it was just going to be a few warmup doodles but then she infected the rest of the page like the ever eternal and spreading spores. hod!!! hod. hod :)
#lobotomy corporation#lobcorp#hod#hod lobcorp#lobotomy corp spoilers#I GUESS i almost forgot i drew her box form#lobcorp spoilers#and michelle actually. ..#both very tiny. itty bitty. microscopic#other sephirah there too as normal. i cant have her alone. and Angelina as well on the top patting her#i have a hard time fully capturing her for some reason. in my mind. maybe its because is the disconnected period!!! mentally#she genuinely wishes to care and be kind yet theres a dissonance with what she does..? or how it ends up being taken or what she does to en#up bringing those actions into reality. she can be forceful? wanting to have employees attend therapy sessions and meetings for suppression#tactics. which i think is also something the safety team is incharge of iirc. so that means shes doing way more that what she needs to on#her job as a sephirah. just for the sake of employees#she really does care as shes one of the only to Directly attempt to change their circumstances and quality of life and health#sure chesed doesnt punish employees when they dont do their work assigned or stress them out with work#but he doesnt actively push to attempt to make changes to aid employees besides the research perks which is to the manager#yesod IS right next to her and does also genuinely care but when it comes to employees hes distant at best when it comes to them and the#way he tries to protect them is by enforcing rules but he doesnt really create or attempt to help them like hod does#yesod is sort of a passive? way of doing it. yes he doesn make a push to enforce said rules but he doesnt make new ones. just follows what#is already there in place. hod tries to make new ways and not just for the safety of people like how yesod's has them physically fine and#not letting them over a certain threshold of mental corruption but she tries to have a program to Directly Address such a thing#its born out of care but the genuine worry of being a good person and her naivety ends up having it do more harm than good#sure there may be some employees that actually like and find it useful but so many are just accepting to their fate of Dying to where#her care seems pointless. shes a sephirah and to them a literal metal box why would they go ahead and feel bad for what an 'ai' is feeling#as she is interrupting their free time in the company#which is rude. and shit. iirc the counseling is compulsory but people go because shes a sephirah and their superior. the thought was there#but again it comes off wrong and ends up not working because shes their superior in the end#EEK!!! yeah... hod. the hod. there is WAY more but i can't fit it all here and i already typed enough
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So I was going through your blog (again) and found some of your stuff mentions fsau Raz having ADHD, as somebody with adhd I’m intrigued, may I have some of those headcanons (canons??) related to that? Also, I would give “a penny for your thoughts” but I’m out of pennies, so here’s various images of a drawing of ur blorbo I put next to my animals, note that a rock had to be added in one picture to keep him from flying away (BONUS: his now permanent place with the wifi guardian frog)
NOTHING brings me more joy than seeing physical drawings of these guys, like, out and about. in situations. thank you for this gift, and ALSO for the great ask because it's a perfect chance to ramble
so first of all, canon Raz having ADHD is very real to me. he's constantly fidgeting and moving around, getting distracted by sidequests and scavenger hunt objectives, always talking to himself out loud, gotta write everything down so he remembers it because there's so much to DO!, running away from home because his dad yelled at him one time and now Raz assumes he must hate him forever... i could go on, but i think there's a lot of room for interpretation there!
in my headcanon, he never got diagnosed as a kid. maybe there were some notes about it in his reports each year, sure - but a little hyperactivity and distractability never seemed to slow him down. he excelled in lessons and on missions, and when he was with his family their performances gave him something to focus that energy into. it was only really when he turned 18 and graduated to a full agent that the cracks started to show.
because there's a big difference between the responsibilities you have as a minor, and the responsibilities you have as an 18-year-old living away from home! one who's expected to cook and clean for themselves, and take care of adult life stuff, and also work the 9-to-5 office job he's just graduated into that involves sitting in front of a computer and write reports all day.
short-term, he found he could get himself to power through a deadline with energy drinks and psi-pops (a lot of psi-pops...)
long-term, something had to give. he was working himself to exhaustion, constantly stressed, swinging between days spent staring at his computer screen doing nothing and all-nighters desperately trying to finish his paperwork before the deadline. it just didn't make any sense to him. he'd finally started his job as a Psychonaut, he was living independently like he'd always dreamed, he'd gotten top surgery after planning it for so long. he should have everything he ever wanted. why wasn't he happy?
following a deep post-surgical depression, about a month before his 19th birthday Raz was living out of his car, couch-surfing or sleeping in his office. he got kicked out of his apartment after falling behind on bills and rent. it wasn't that he didn't have the money, it was all just too much for him to stay on top of.
he'd probably have stayed in that misery hole for a lot longer if Frazie hadn't marched into his life and demanded he let her help him move into a new place, or she was telling mom that he was homeless. together, they sorted through all of his possessions from the last place - everything that had been hastily shoved in his car, or tossed in a box in his office, piled in a heap that was giving him anxiety even looking at it.
things do get better for him from there.
when he eventually explains things to Hollis, she gently suggests that he should get a roommate. he ends up moving in with Phoebe, and they become pretty good friends after a couple months! something about having another person around to help do the chores and wash the dishes and share the space helps, even if it takes him a while to admit it.
he gets his ADHD diagnosis, and finding the exact right medication and dose is a journey he's still on years later - but they're a huge help in getting him to actually knuckle down and finish his work on time. and the whole thing ends up being a chance for him to take a step back and really think about what he wants to do with his life. he'd always assumed that being a Psychonaut was his dream, but he'd never really reckoned with what that dream would look like before.
in the end, he sticks with it, but also decides to follow Lili's example in branching out. he applies to study a part-time Bachelor's in Psychology on a remote course, and gets accepted. juggling missions and paperwork and study and relationships (because the whole thing made him realise he also wasn't setting aside any time for himself, and wow, dating is a thing) is a lot - but he manages to figure it out, day by day.
(Lili comes back to the Psychonauts after graduating. she and Raz have both changed a lot over those four years, but on their first mission together they hit it off like a house on fire - and the rest is history!)
#psychonauts#future superstar agents au#i really want to go more into this period of their lives for all three of them honestly#Raz and Phoebe's friendship is really sweet to me and i'd like to explore it more#and Lili's adventures at college! finding herself in an environment where for the first time in her life people /don't/ know her family nam#and Dogen finally realising he /has/ a life to live ahead of him. that it's not just isolation and tests and pills that don't work#young adulthood is a weird time! lots of ups and downs#but they all make it through okay#fsau raz#fsau frazie#babyfaced 18-yo raz is so funny to me. why are you making him experience the horrors he's literally just a little guy#ask#ALSO your pets are all wonderful. please give them kisses from me
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what i love about the Famous Actor Natori Shuuichi of it all is that...it's not just that he's famous and therefore widely recognizable wherever he goes. like yes that is very funny because he was an exorcist before he became a famous actor, which means he CHOSE, on purpose, a day job that would make it harder to hide his double life/secret identity from the hordes of his adoring public, but it's more than that. it's not just that he's famous, it's that he's famous specifically for being an ACTOR, aka a person whose job it is to dissimulate, to make believe, to inhabit roles and emotions other than his own. like he decided he was going to become as visible as possible (which again was literally not necessary! he could have gone into any other career for his day job!!) but in such a way that everyone would see him but no one would see him - they would just see his various made-up personas, including the Famous Actor Natori Shuuichi persona. i can't decide if he's a genius or if he just made so many absurd decisions that they canceled each other out and circled back around to working out. he's either playing 9-dimensional chess or he's eating the pieces. too soon to say.
#the other thing i love about it is that in a very real sense it's his actor day job that is his alter ego#being an exorcist is his normie job. he's just a famous celebrity on the side#which isn't that uncommon in secret identity setups but it's still very funny#natsume's book of friends#natsume yuujinchou#natori shuuichi#natsuyuu meta#my posts#f#i think probably the actual answer is that acting was a very natural career choice because he already masks so extensively#both to hide that he can see things other people can't (and that youkai exist and that he exorcises them)#and to hide what he's really feeling so that no one can use it against him#so if it's already something he has to do & he's good at it...why not have someone tell him exactly how to do it & get paid for it?#and the other part of the answer is that most ppl don't go into acting assuming they'll get famous. the fame was a side effect#so each decision as it was being made probably made perfect sense. but put them all together#and you have this hilarious assortment of elements that seem to directly contradict each other#okay also i would be remiss if i didn't mention the other possible answer which is that the attention came first and was unavoidable#and the acting developed from the need to protect himself from the attention that he was going to be attracting no matter what he did#because he's so beautiful. and (in the exorcist world specifically) because he's the last of the natori#the more i talk about it the more i'm like no becoming a famous actor was the only path that made any sense for him lol#1) he's gonna be watched no matter what bc he's him -> gotta figure out how to hide his secrets -> learn to act as self-defense#or 2) he's got secrets -> he's gotten a lot of practice hiding them -> hey you could make a career out of this!#all roads lead to actor natori shuuichi. and since he's beautiful...all roads lead to FAMOUS actor natori shuuichi#i love it when i ramble so much in the tags that i end up contradicting my own post lol#he's neither thinking ten steps ahead nor is he irrational. he's simply making sensible individual decisions#that follow logically from what is available to him and what his priorities are
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I am begging gay people to realize that Disco Elysium lacking a canon relationship between Kim and Harry is not a bad thing or something the fandom needs to "make up for". The game would be much worse thematically if the flirting and longing actually went anywhere, the whooleee point is that everyone in Martinaise is sick with nostalgia or half beaten to death by their need to keep hoping for something better.
I find their relationship interesting too but it's infuriating watching people who can't enjoy media without shipping the characters in it try to bring up not having a romance option with Kim as a criticism.
#DO NOT RB THIS WITHOUT THE ADDITION IT MAKES THE POST SO MUCH BETTER CHECK THE NOTES#this is on the marketing department too though the instant i saw that 'in another universe kim and harry kiss' tweet i died a little inside#rannbles#not main tagging this i just needed to rant about it but if u want to rb go ahead#also they deserve to be miserable because they're cops 👍 why do so many people ignore that part you're on the acab website
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