#so who knowsssssss

[angeltism]

tempted to make a new personal ngl

[strangedisciple]

i might go back to sleep tbh

[greg-montgomery]

feeling insane about greg sorry in advance

greg would fix me. i don’t care, he would fix me. the way he loves, the way he is would. fix. me.

i just feel like if you’re loved by someone like him there’s no way you won’t feel loved. bc the truth is people can love you but you can still not feel it. that would just not be the case with him. how would you ever feel lonely if you had him in your life??

just existing in your house :( you’d be sharing your room with him :( you’d go to bed and he’d be there with his cute sleepy smile and you’d fall asleep in his arms. like i’m sorry but this would fix me. all my mental health issues would disappear i swear like not even joking lmfaoo

if you had a bad day? he’d make you some hot tea and give you a massage and hold you and tell you that he loves you and it’s all gonna be okay.

like the safety this man would make me feel????? who will ever??????

he’s just so sweet 😭 the way you would just spend time with him and do things together 🥺🥺 just having fun with him :( cuddling and watching a movie or making dinner or just talking :( and he’d look at you with his cute smile and you’d know you’re loved and you’ll never be alone because he’s got you 🥹

he’s the most comforting person in the world. like no matter how bad your day is you know by the end of it you’ll be in your bf’s arms and life will be good again :(

and he’s such a sunshine person with his giggles and his sweetness like 😭😭😭😭 being around him there’s no way he wouldn’t transfer some of that light to you :(

god he’d literally see you at your lowest and he’d still love you the same if not more. and he knowsssssss he knows you love him just as much 😣

he’s my angel my standards are insanely high and it’s all bc of him but i literally don’t want anything less. i’m just not sure if people like this exist. in a way of…will a man ever make me feel this safe? and loved? doubt

- omg i just remembered that one episode where dharma was sad bc of her yoga classes and greg was making silly faces and stuff to make her laugh i’n gonna go sob now

[olivia-anderson-fanfic]

If you like Tom Taylor's writing you're white. No I will not elaborate.

... edit: I elaborated :/

[pastelpaperplanes]

Ultra's a total babe but bro...why u gotta do dat...

for the angst bro 😔😔😔 nothin personal I swear 💅

[lgbtuan]

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[princehugo]

whats up youtube its four am and i need someone to bully me into sleeping so i can wake up at 3pm like the disgusting garbage fire i am

[zappho]

Some Meta on Murdock and mental illness

Generally speakig, The A-Team is a dumbass, light-hearted comedy with action on the same level as youtube poop videos. Obviously there isn’t alot of depth to be found here. The show had tons of different writers, all with their own take on Murdock and none of them offer any clear info or a proper backstory for the character. It’s basically up to the audience to fill in the blanks and that’s exactly what I’m gonna do by overanalyzing the mess that is the show’s canon.

The question of whether Murdock is ‘‘‘really crazy or just faking’‘’ has been around for over 30 years, but I’m gonna argue that he’s both.

When Kelly visits Murdock in the psychiatric hospital and confronts him about why he’s living there in the first place he gets instantly uncomfortable.

He really didn’t want her to ask, it’s why he’s been avoiding her. Joking about how you’re hashtag crazy™ is easy; having to admit that you’ve been institutionalized for over 10 years because you have legitimate problems is much harder. (Sure, the VA also gives him a convenient cover from the military police, but if that was the only reason for him to stay he wouldn’t react to Kelly’s question in this way). “It’s a long story”, is all he says. There are clearly some painful memories here that he’d rather not delve into.

He’d have to explain how he got committed in the first place. We know that after the gang was arrested for war crimes in ‘71, Murdock was still serving as a pilot in ‘72. They never clarified when and how Murdock was sent home, but i’m guessing without his only friends around and it being, you know...war, his mental health eventually deteriorated until he received a medical discharge straight into the VA hospital.

After Murdock gets wrongly released in season 1, instead of his friends being worried about his supposed cover getting blown they just shrug it off and go ‘Oh well!’ (This could all be due to the show’s inconsistent writing, but you know)

No longer being an inpatient would finally allow Murdock to be employed as a pilot again (his #1 passion), and yet he seems really disheartened about the situation. Even though the hospital gives him no privacy, the staff barely respects him and he spends most of his time there by himself, he still prefers to stay.

For a character who’s allegedly cheery comic relief, he sure gets his feelings hurt alot, mainly when dealing with other people’s ableism towards him. B.A. and Face are obviously just palling around, just guys bein’ dudes, they don’t want to hurt Murdock for real, they probably don’t realize how sensitive Murdock is about the subject. Usually he plays along or shrugs it off, but sometimes he gets genuinely upset. In the first half of In Plane Sight he’s so fed up with it he tries to ‘‘act normal’‘ until #Woke #Queen Hannibal reassures him that they love him the way he is.

PTSD was barely starting to become a diagnosis when the show first aired, but I think it’s fair to say he suffers from it. The pilot episode states that he has anxiety, paranoia and memory loss, so that checks out.

With PTSD you don’t just have to deal with flashbacks and nightmares, but also intrusive thoughts, images and memories about your trauma. Murdock copes with it by getting hyperfixated on a new activity or pretending he’s someone else. This is were alot of people will go ‘‘haha wow look how wacky and insane he is! He’s talking to his sock 😂’‘. But Murdock knows it’s all made up nonsense, he just needs his mind to focus on something else. What’s important here is that he never lets his coping mechanisms distract him when he’s flying, first of all he’s already focused and also he doesn’t wanna crash (lol). There’s a believability to his actions that’s missing in the 2010 reboot.

In the episode where the gang helps out the vietnamese cook from the POW camp where they’ve been tortured, Murdock tries to distract himself with some golfballs. He soon starts projecting his trauma on them however.

I think this is the only time in the show where Hannibal tears up, so this scene is kinda significant. As the leader, he probably blames himself for getting his team captured and tortured, and seeing that Murdock is still so strongly affected by it gotta hurt. 

Compared to the rest of the gang, Murdock’s alot more fucked up over the war. There are subtle changes in his voice whenever he talks about it. In the ep about their old war buddy Ray, Face was reminiscing about how cool of a guy Ray was for borrowing him his helmet, Murdock’s memories meanwhile are much less upbeat. ‘My bird was the only one left in the sky’ he remembers while we see an image of a field filled with shot down helicopters. His experiences are bound to be different from the other three as a huey medevac pilot. Murdock did have one off-screen breakdown in the present timeline, after collecting every newspaper article about the upcoming execution of the team in Firing Line. Apparently it was bad enough that he had to be restrained. It’s been 10 years, so he’s recovering and getting better, but he’s still not all there yet.

Everyone knows Murdock’s just messing around when he’s being interrogated by the military about his connections to the team, but like what about when the military isn’t there; or NO ONE is. He often talks to himself or just puts weird shit in his mouth for no reason while nobody’s paying attention to him (eating leaves, paint, an entire raw egg, a frozen sandwich). Sometimes he’s just unhinged like that.

Another thing that’s brought up a few times in the show is his anxiety. Murdock’s often seen being generally tense, sweaty, uncomfortable or reflective in the background of a scene. (I have no idea if this was a deliberate acting choice but Dwight does have anxiety irl so who knows if that had anything to do with it, I mean who knowsssssss, i’m just observing)

He’s got a habit of fidgeting with his hands or touching his neck when he’s stressed out. Murdock also does it when he’s telling his psychiatrist Dr. Richter about his dreams “If you were me, wouldn’t you be terrified to put your head down?” he asks him.

Richter isn’t really paying attention though, because he’s so used to Murdock’s non-stop clownery, he can’t exactly tell when his patient decides to be honest about his feelings for once. He just replies ‘Well only if it was a bad dream’. Which really irritates Murdock because what other dreams besides bad would he have? So he derails the session by rambling some made up bullshit on purpose.

Richter knows that Murdock uses humor and fantasy to cope, but he’s obviously tired of Murdock’s cringe antics, he just wants to help him. But Murdock doesn’t like to open up and be confronted with his traumas again, he just wants to avoid talking about it all together. There are still parts of reality that Murdock’s not ready to deal with, or he wouldn’t always retreat into his fantasies.

Before he can continue messing around a helicopter passes by and Murdock freezes for a second. Richter assures him that the helicopter is real; Murdock nods and starts fidgeting with his hands again, seemingly in deep thought. We know from the season 4 finale that he hears the sound of rotor blades when he dissociates. He was definitely being sincere here.

After getting drugged by some military goons he has a few brief flashbacks (feat. cheesy 80′s neon filters): seeing the chopper fly away, getting stuck in a potted plant as if he was walking through the jungle, being surrounded by heavy smoke and sparks from the burning carpet).

Despite being the 2nd highest ranked team member, Murdock dislikes being in charge and gets severly distressed when anything goes wrong that he might even be slightly responsible for. Most notably is the episode where the owners of the diner get kidnapped after Murdock got knocked out by evil cowboys or hill billies or whatever they were. Instead of telling anyone what happened, he’s just lying on the floor, repeatedly calling himself a failure until the others show up.

Seems like Murdock gets startled more easily than the rest of the crew as well. We often see him flinch when guns go off; one time he literally wore fluffy ear muffs to a backalley shootout.

This short moment from Family Reunion always stood out to me. Face opens the van door a little too quickly and it takes Murdock so off-guard he has to take deep breaths to calm down.

Murdock sounds exhausted when he has to remind Face not to sneak up on him. Face also realizes he messed up, he just wanted to check up on Murdock and not trigger him on accident.

When it comes to portrayals of mental illness in fiction there’s obviously better representation out there than Murdock. But sometimes you just wanna see a mentally ill character have a good time instead of being miserable 24/7. And Murdock’s already got the worst behind him, he’s had therapy for years and friends who love him. I just think that’s refreshing to see, especially with a character who’s so kind and openly affectionate.

[florafey]

Thoughts on QoN

I started reading The Queen of Nothing on 19 November, 2019, and finished it about fifteen minutes ago on 23 November, 2019. Much as I did with The Wicked King, here are my thoughts while reading.

Spoilers, of course, are under the cut

- Oak is EIGHT??? I’ve been writing him like a three year old this whole time lol whoops sorry Oak

- Idk how to feel about this whole Vivi/Heather thing it smells like manipulation to me

- Lmao Jude’s a freelancer gotta love it

- I have now named my Goblin Brain Grima Mog how dope is that name fr

- Jude is an adrenaline addict and that’s a fact

- “It feels good to be fighting someone other than myself” SWEETIE CARDAN LOVES YOU

- Oooooooh I like Grima Mog I have a feeling she and Jude are going to cross paths again, maybe in Faeire

- (Also not surprised by Grima’s prediction of Cardan being dethroned soon that boy hates his job more than retail workers during the holidays)

- Oh look, three books in and Jude is finally admitting her feelings for Cardan

- I love the juxtaposition between Taryn in her pretty dress and Jude literally being two steps from death and not seeming to care lol

- Hmmmm okay I want to believe that Taryn killed Locke but couldn’t this just be a way to get Jude back into Faerie??? Idk why they would want that but I don’t trust Taryn 

- (Also I hope Locke is dead it would be Taryn’s one redeeming quality)

- ooooooohhhhhh shit Taryn’s PREGNANT AASHHSJSDKJDKSSKLDSJDJSJ HAHAHHAHAH this is too good oh no

- There’s literally zero chance of this plan of Jude pretending to be Taryn is going to go well. Or even close to well

- “Squeeze hug” awww that’s gonna be in a fic I promise

- This feels like The Parent Trap

- I’m sweating

- ITS CAAAAAAARDAAAAAAAN 

- Oh and his tail is out wow good for him

- Fuck a duck I love his tail

- And gold eyeliner, stellar cosmetic choice if I may say so

- Yep I knew it see here she goes off to his chambers he’s gonna find out eeeeekkkkk

- He knowsssssss he been knew of COURSE he been knew how could I be so stupid to think he didn’t know it was Jude this whole time I’m a clown and a fool

- Wow I’m kind of soft right now I love my babies and they clearly love each other but they’re being so ANGSTY AAAAAA

- “Wisdom is for the meek” uhh??? Madoc what are you talking about bud

- Ahhhh see now Jude is getting protective over her throne and crown, she’s blooming into a Queen....good shit for sure

- Also Jude better be the spy she was born to be now that she’s in Madoc’s camp and he thinks she’s Taryn

- Oh, she’s going foraging in the woods? By herself? Yeah, this is gonna go great, Oriana, really

- Yeah def can’t trust Grimsen although I love how Holly Black describes his work and how they’re beautiful but also deadly and cursed

- I’d like to hear more about how he tried to kill Cardan with that ruby earring and failed lol

- tHE GHOST??? What the hell is he doing here???? Am I the only one who just thought homeboy was dead?? Yikes lol

- Ugh Locke was such a Man good thing he’s rotting now

- “You’re scheming” “I’m always scheming” yeah ain’t that the truth bby

- uh oh MOMMY KNOWS heheheheheh

- Well no wonder Cardan turned out like this look at how he was raised, poor boy

- I mean, to be fair, look at Jude while you’re at it

- Oh hey it’s the Roach

- OH HEY ITS CARDAN

- Awwww Vivi went to Cardan because she thought Jude was in trouble and not only did he go to the Roach to go get Jude but he came too !! wow for people who can’t stand each other they make quite the gang 

- I love how inconvenienced Cardan seems by Locke’s death but not actually sad lol what a mood

- Breaking into Grimsen’s forge does NOT sound like a good idea no sir

- Ugh king and queen wow

- I cannot WAIT for Madoc to realize the Jude is the High Queen I cannot

- AYYYY MY GIRL GRIMA MOG what did I tell y’all, hmmm?

- Wow Madoc really just stabbed Jude like that and is going to leave her ??? the disrespect

- Ohh my god oh wow her blood is making flowers grow she’s a QUEEN wow look at that, you go bby

- Ah fuck Jude, you got set up by the bumb ass father you have

- ABAHAHAHAHHHAH this isn’t funny but Jude falling from the rafters onto the banquet table is on par with the beauty of Kaz and Wylan falling through the ceiling onto Van Eck’s dining room table heheheh

- @hollyblack can I breathe??? Shit girl

- Cardan said THATS MY WIFE 

- Wow Cardan washing Jude’s hands herself??? This boy is in loooove

- Oak and Jude’s maid playing Uno ????? Iconic

- “You’re generally terrifying” oh same Cardan

- So Jude really could have pardoned herself this whole time!!!!!! Come ON sis how didn’t you pick up on that WE picked up on it (don’t worry tho we know you’ve been stressed it’s okay you’re here now)

- And Cardan really expected her to pardon herself I have no words for this boy 

- Jude and Cardan’s relationship is so strange but at least it’s healthy now, you know?

- Look at Cardan being vulnerable and Jude not being mean to him for it 

- He’s being KIIIIIND WHAATTT

- “This is my room, and that’s my wife” AAHAHAHHAHH

- Cardan touches her hair oh my gooooooood i’m dying send help

- Can y’all tell I’ve been deprived lol

- Hahahahah Jude trashed Lady Asha, as she should 

- So I think I like QoN Cardan the most, although I did find Cardan in the first two books terribly entertaining to read about (Srry Jude)

- So Taryn seems to be behaving better than she did in the first two books, kind of being a badass, knowing the Ghost’s true name and all

Cardan likes hearing about slushy machines are you kiDDING ME????

- “Our marriage is an alliance” okay but you sleeping in his shirts isn’t, now, is it? Or how about him petting your hair? Or you thinking he looks cute in gold eyeliner?? lol Jude get real

- Aw I like this Fand/Jude freindship us girls gotta look out for each other

- Grima Mog more like Grima MOM lol

- “Big horns, little dude” LMAO HEATHER STOPP

- I’m enjoying Heather, I have to say

- Finally they kiss it only took TWO HUNDRED PAGES 

- oh guys they really like each other im soft

- Casual hand holding? yes 

- I can’t believe these are the same idiots who were trying to drown each other in the first book 

- look they’re trying to be vulnerable and without armor I’m gonna cry

- I feel quite uneasy about this Queen Suren girl who’s parents have her leashed somehow

- Oh wow fuck Grimsen am I right

- Oh SHIT Cardan really broke the crown like it didn’t mean shit to him...the development...the wisdom

- Cardan really said I want my WIFE and my PEOPLE 

- Oh wait fuck fuck fuck oh no stop wait

- Lmao Jude collapsing on the floor is literally me whenever I have to be in charge

- Okay there’s gotta be a way out of this, I didn’t mean it literally when I said Cardan was a snake

- Hey, Jude’s like, smart as shit, no?

- Hahahaha she basically said “Cardan is like, 90% of my impulse control”

- I love how Taryn is hyping Jude up throughout this while shitshow, I love how the two of them have developed past their book one probems

- The Bomb teasing Jude about the dust on her skirts made my day

- Look at Jude really having healthy realtionships with the women around her, I’m so proud of my little murder gir

- Nicassia better come in clutch here, I don’t trust Jarel or Nore not one bit

- Uhhh that story Heather told about the snake that wanted to marry the princess made me howl with laughter and I don’t think it was supposed to

- Vivi got Cardan a snowglobe that says “Congratulations on your promotion” for his coronation gift and he kept did DID EVERYONE HEAR ME I SAID VIVI-

- Oh damn Kaye alright no need for all that

- Ohhhh I had totally forgot about the dress in book one that Jude ordered but received a different one instead... Cardan sent it?? wild 

- Okay I hope Jude knows what she’s doing but when has she ever not

- The UNDERSEA HEEEEEELLL YEAH

- Oh look and Cardan!!!!!!! Yeah Jude knew what she was doing that’s my girl

- Awwww look at that hug wow the development these two have been through is unreal I’ll keep saying it 

- “I knew little else, but I always knew you” KILL ME

- Oh wow mortals and mingling more with the folk this is good

- Robert of Jersey lmaoooo

- So the Ghost and Taryn ??? Kind of funny but I’m kind of here for it

- I’m literally so close to tears and I’m not kidding they’re having a fucking WEDDING CELEBRATION in the MORTAL WORLD with a banner that says “Congrats Newlyweds” yeah I’m crying now thanks a lot Holly

- Cardan adjusts his paper crown in the microwave reflection so it’s skewed......I don’t think I can react any more I really afjsflsdk

-Wow that was better than anything I could have imagined, hoped for, dreamed of

- The character development, the plot, the resolution, EVERTHING was astounding I’m blown away

This was long as shit If you made it this far, I appreciate you lol. Now go read all three Folk of the Air books again. Go now

[hyannah]

Anon Archives vol. 4 (right?)

full res: x I miss him too. He was the first of the cast I ever designed and without him, there would simply be no TBoA. Rest assured there will be no shortage of him in the comic :) I understand that the concept of Wolfe with facial hair will be like marmite for most of you, but it’s probably something that you should prepare for regardless! Wolfe no longer has use of his hands due to extensive nerve damage and he has to get imaginative with ways to keep his grip on things - but some tools, like razors - are simply impossible for him to use anymore due to his tremors. Before the gang comes together he will be looking quite worse for wear. 

full res: x She calls him “Marty” :) Her mother called him that so it makes him happy. He’s not her father but he loves her as one would. He was the one who delivered her as a baby, though during the process there were complications. She broke her leg on the way out and though Martin was able to treat her, it caused her to walk with a slight limp growing up. Teaching her to dance wasn't just Martin's idea of physiotherapy but his way of showing her how dearly he cared for her. Music and dance are our good doctor's love languages, you see. He will have Twinkletoes refer to him as “Sir” when he reprimands her, but due to some of Martin’s own issues growing up, he hates disciplining children. If he absolutely must, it’s firm but merciful, and under no circumstances would he ever raise his hand to them.

full res: x Michael Graves is one of three of Ashwick’s Senior Wardens, the other being Hunter Gerhardt and an as of now unannounced third. Wardens are the town’s law enforcers who work directly under the church’s orders. Neither entirely police nor militia, they’re a bit of both. Wardens patrol the streets at night and make sure no one is out after Curfew. Wardens are simultaneously feared and revered amongst the deeply religious townsfolk who view them as God-sent, but no one strikes pure terror into their hearts quite like Graves. While Hunter is known for being terrifying but sometimes merciful, Graves holds no such reputation. If gunshots are heard in the night or blood stains the cobblestones in the morning, townfolk know to keep their mouths shut and heads down.

Thank you so much! I still have some demons to battle but I want to get better, and your support means the world.

Thank you! I kinda wanna die when I look at that piece. Damian deserved better than my art in that funky phase and I will capture his true beauty one day.

LOL Bloodborne has been a huuuuge visual influence on me over the last few years. Expect to see some similarities I'm sure.

Thank you ;.; I used Paint Tool Sai religiously but I've unfortunately fallen out of love with it in the last year in favour of Clip Studio Paint. I would highly recommend CSP and since it comes with a one-month free trial you'd be missing out not to give it a go. I occasionally use Photoshop for some final touches but not enough to say it's worth paying that silly subscription fee for. Lately, I've been using Procreate on my iPad. It was one hell of an investment (😔💸) but it was worth it - the iPad feels great to draw on.

Thank you! Yes, definitely expect that. There are a few timeskips in canon and I have outfit changes planned.

Wolfe can sometimes be seen circling a bed or chair a few times before sitting/lying down not unlike a dog would. Rose cannot - and I truly mean this - fathom numbers. To say she is bad at math would be a terrible understatement. Martin needs a few shots of whiskey a day to keep him going but he never seems inebriated so it’s impossible to tell (unless you’re Hunter). Hunter is so tall that churches are the only buildings he doesn’t have to duck to get in to and he Riker Sits everywhere. Gloria is a little superstitious, and Graves is a cigarette smoker. Twinkletoes likes pigeons.

I would certainly recommend it! If drawing inspires you, give it a shot! Though whether or not I recommend going to school for it is a more complicated question. The good thing about pursuing a career in art is that at the end of the day your work ethic and portfolio are your best friends. Having degrees and connections will help in the industry for sure (and why I DO recommend art courses for people who have the money and want to experience student life), but if you're a poor kid that can't shell out the dough for art school or if you studied a different field, or if college didn't/isn't working out for you, it's not the end of the road. You can build your career on your own terms if you're driven enough.

Hm, let's see. I think Wolfe and Gloria would appreciate some sweet treats! Hunter rarely eats anything that isn't meat, and Rose has lived on the road most of her life so campfire food is what she's used to. She's the kind of person you'd see eat something horrifying like uncooked beans straight from the tin. Gloria appreciates her guilty pleasures and Wolfe recalls her sharing taffy with him as a little boy. But those memories are hazy now, and he's long since forgotten the taste.

Oh jeez, that would mean the world to me! As for the dialogue, it’s probably a bit of both honestly haha.

Hunter: 43, Wolfe: 23, Gloria: 41, Martin: 45, Rose: 19, Graves: 38. Some of you may recall Hunter being younger but I had to make a few timeline adjustments. Otherwise, everyone has remained the same.

Oh, well, it just might be! Wolfe is used to carrying the frail and sickly through the Charnels, but human touch in that regard is alien to him.

You're right about one thing, Ashwick is certainly in the title! I'm pretty close to revealing it so hopefully you won't be stumped for too long. I can reveal however, if I haven't already (and I think I may have, I haven't read the previous Anon Archives in years), that TBoA was going to be called Memento Mori.

He raises an amused brow at your sentiment but if you're under 35 you're all toddlers and babies to him. Plus he can't go 5 minutes without thinking about his wife so it's safe to say he’s settled down.

Haha, yeah! All of the above. Though it goes both ways. Hunter’s antics drive the poor man up the wall for sure but Hunter will be the first to tell you that doc is a force of nature too when he’s got to be. They’ve known each other for decades. They’ve taken bullets and bruises and stabs wounds for one another. Martin makes sure Hunter doesn’t get himself killed (at least he did before Malignancy took that off the table) and Hunter makes sure Martin doesn’t work himself to death. Gloria just wonders why they both have to be so damn dramatic.

1. Rose's candles simulate artificial sunlight and can temporarily vanquish Spectres from the area at night until the wick runs out. These are especially useful to the common folk who may be suffering from seeing their dead loved ones night after night. Her special coloured candles are different, though. They block a Malignant from being able to possess their Host's body and thus allow the Host to keep control of themselves when night falls. You'll learn more about the ins-and-outs of this mechanic in the comic.

2. I can't share that! You'll just have to wait and find out. Though it is a wonder how someone as formidable and self-disciplined as Hunter could fall prey to a Malignant's manipulation … I suppose even men like Father Gerhardt have been vulnerable at one point in their lives, huh?

It’s private, sorry :( It was a kind gesture from a fan who wanted to show their appreciation but it quickly got a little out of hand and very inappropriate. I’m good friends now with the few who did join so it’s not so bad and we have a good laugh, but it’s given me a small taste of “Fandom” on a grander scale and it was enough for me to realise it makes me pretty uncomfortable to be in the middle of it. I love being able to communicate with you all but I don’t love being in awkward situations so much. I might try again in the future, we’ll see.

Malignancy is unpredictable and what happens to one Host won't necessarily happen to the other!

ohohohoh who knowsssssss ;D

Nope, she’s Hunter’s danger noodle gal.

Yes, I love them!!!! I recall checking them out after you sent this message quite some time ago. I had heard a few of their songs before but I've been listening to them regularly ever since. I appreciate the recommendation since music is a really big thing for me.

Oh thank you very much! They're my own characters yes :) I first created them when I was 16 for a college project. One day I would like to share that with you all because it's come a long way. The comic is in development. Thank you all for your questions, I think that’s most of them. If you don’t see your ask in here it’s because it was asked already, I got a similar question and took a screenshot of that instead, it was too inappropriate, I can’t reveal the information yet, or I simply didn’t see it. As always if you’re looking for more prompt responses please message me off anon so I can reply privately since I respond to most anons in bulk!

[ober-affen-geil]

My Roswell Rewatch liveblog

Episode 2x05 AKA Max’s MY HEART

UGH THE BABIES MY FEELINGS RIGHT FROM THE GET GO

gross sobbing

SANDERSSSSSS

i love rosa painting the wall, i’m a fan

“i deserve my own room liz” HFKDLSFJKSDLFS THE SIBLING ENERGY

liz knowsssssss

.....it’s not. a good thing.

about TIME someone remembered the pod was BROKEN for FUCK’S SAKE

AHHHHHHDJSLGHSDLGSDL ALEX AND MARIA BFFS

maria fluttering her eyelashes FUCK I LOVE THEM

“they don’t” queen

“we can’t outsmart our own humanity” kyle the surgeon coming through here i love you boo

also love isobel calling michael out on trying to back out of this

though, isobel, maybe telling michael you imagined max instead of asking him to physically be there was not the best response in this situation just saying

do love this sibling moment tho

and i love this, that rosa says “nightmares” and liz says “dream”. important distinction

LISTEN I LOVE THIS TALK SO MUCH

“falling for michael guerin is the easiest thing in the world” FHDJSGHDSLGHSLG

this is a really soft flashback but boy does it shed a lot of light on how and why they really, really have to start over

do like how they emphasized how much michael and max and isobel hung out

“it’s more than that and it’s less than that” BOY WHEN I GET MY META BRAIN BACK IMMA GO TF OFF ABOUT THIS

“busted for stealing hubcaps” ALEX DO YOU EVEN REALIZE IT WAS K Y L E’S HUBCAPS DID YOU PUT THAT TOGETHER AT A L L PLEASE

maria i love you

FORSHADOWING

isobel you could not have tried that when she was consious i’m just saying

i also love this scene like it’s really sad but i love seeing max and michael’s relationship i am a fan

ugh science bros feelings

love how maria just sits on him i’m such a fan i love them

also much respect for how maria handles this about her mother

“doing this for liz” ok i’m a fan yes but maybe please then show more of alex and liz’s friendship and less of alex and kyle’s if you want to emphasize this 

would have loved expansion on this “broken shell” concept too

OK BUT THINK ABOUT THIS FROM MICHAEL’S POV BECAUSE HE DOESN’T KNOW WHAT SHE MEANS AND HE KNOWS SHE’S ALREADY KILLED 3 PEOPLE HOLY SHIT CAN YOU IMAGINE

it’s also michael’s birthday isobel fuck off

i love drunk max so much

he did not get that because max is awesome

“regardless of where my fingers are” OH REALLY

SANDERS I LOVE YOU

michael i love you and i know you’re a genius but when did you have the time to do a detailed drawing like that

BIG FAN OF ALL THE FLASHBACKS EMPHASIZING MAX AND MICHAEL’S RELATIONSHIP YOU KNOW WHAT WOULD HAVE BEEN GREAT IS IF MAX HAD MENTIONED HIM AT A L L TO ISOBEL I’M

“bitchass aliens” rosa i love you you’re iconic

also a fan of how it’s liz who asked about michael SCIENCE BROS FOR LIFE

poor kyle

where did alex go, btw

michael and isobel hugs are the best hugs

“i’m a little sick of his heroic martyr crap” YAASSSS

would love to see more michael and rosa actually, just saying

“i’m not gonna let you go alone ok” FUCK

kyle i love you so much

and i love rosa here deciding for her sister because fuck max it’s her sister oh my god my feelings

THAT CUT TO BLACK WAS THE SINGLE MOST DRAMATIC THING EVER I WILL NOT CHANGE MY MIND

SCIENCE. BROS.

oh my god fucking murder me i can’t fuck jesus christ this is a VOICE OVER i should not be in THIS MUCH PAIN

i wonder if they actually had him do the whole monologue in the room as well as voice over? would like to know

i know it was necessity but holy shit imagine just waking up in what looks like a mad science lab ahahaha

also would not have put it past isobel to dress him all in black just for the dramatic effect

wonder if isobel was practicing her powers on michael. or with michael. MORE OF THE POD SQUAD IS WHAT I’M SAYING

[lizardkingeliot]

Needful Things is hell to the Y E S! Incredible start!

Thank you so much nonny!

[damnit-samnit]

Wnjsmsmwsmkanwnam I JUST NOTICED SOMETHING!!!!!!!!!!! 😫😫😫😫 okay so nobody knowsssssss smite is yagi so he coulddddddddd have went to the hospital to get his wound stitched up but he chose!!!!!! He 👏🏾 CHOSE 👏🏾 to go to Art instead. *takes notes.* “How to get your crush to bang you 101. Get wounded and go to them to stitch you up”📝🧐

listen, I don’t write smite as this suave, cool villain. I stan smite as a villainous all might. Okay sure, he’s more cognizant of his cool guy/scary guy public persona, way more savage when dealing with and handling people, is not nice, wants to put fingers up your butt and vice versa, and is mega impulsive, but he’s still kind of a dork under all his prickly bits. I mean, look at his costume. Dark and brooding? Nah, he digs that apocalyptic biker gang look.

And just like all might, smite lies to himself a lot and kind of twists reality to suit his needs. Not to mention, he’s a lonely old guy with a couple of complexes brewing beneath the surface who doesn’t have a very positive outlook on his future, so he’s at a place in his life where he’s more prone to following after some deep-seeded desires and latching onto things that make him... ‘happy’?

this wouldn’t even be a conversation with a young smite. Art would have been pumped and dumped almost immediately, end of no story.

but yeah, logically speaking he could have just gone to the hospital in his small form. he could have stayed in his hospital room and waited for naomasa without interacting with anyone, he could have called an ambulance and ditched art once it arrived. He could have, you know, not stalked her. he’s cooking up these harebrained schemes and motivations to convince himself that he has good reason to stick around and bother art.

And I leave you with this picture

Come on. Look at this fool. Look at his disguise. Sure this is All Might and he’s perfect and sweet and kind and beautiful and good but you don’t think smite is the same fucking fool underneath it all? He’s the kind of dumbass that would wear a baseball cap and sunglasses and be like, ‘alright, got my disguise. i’m hidden, pay no mind to the 7-foot fucking Adonis standing beside you, I’m just another face in the crowd’

[v3nacava]

Not gonna lie

I'm secretly in love 😍

[pastelpaperplanes]

So in order, who from team prime started popping kiddos first? In what order?

Lemme just make a list!

first off:

Cozen (Prowl/Lockdown) the only other member of team prime who knows he exists is Ratchet , he made a promise to Prowl he wouldn’t let anyone find out

Envoy (Op/Rodi) darling bby boy who was the first kiddo everyone got to dote on

Reiki (Drift/Ratchet) precious and darling, Op thought his little sis looked just like Ratchet :D

Katydid (Blitzwing/Bumblebee) absolute hellion of a sparkling but she was by far the cutest of them all with her floppy hat, until she started screaming ofc

Mayfly (Blitzwing/Bumblebee) angle baby who never cried like ever, Bulkhead loved having her over for play dates with his own sparkling

Romper (Bulkhead/Hotshot) no, she doesn’t have a design yet! She’s the same age as Mayfly, they’re basically polar opposites in the personalities but they’re the best of friends somehow

I’m considering adding more down the line who knowsssssss the this is the line up so far!!!

[aelaer]

For the fic reading ask: 8, 13 and 19 (I think you haven't done these yet). Thank you :)

8. Describe your perfect story. What fic would you love to read that you don’t think exists yet?

igdifyicjgxtuaicjbk ohhhhh my goodness how do I even answer this.

I'm really lucky with the LOTR and Sherlock fandoms in that they have a ton of writers who enjoy writing long, sprawling epics to fill in all the gaps and have plenty of both platonic and romance based stories. I have stories for all the gaps canon left behind in those two fandoms.

Stephen Strange? Not so much. No one seems interested in him outside of his love life within fanfiction :P I really want more long stories starring Stephen (others are fine too) without the shipping aspect. I can do romance in short stories (which I count as probably under 30k for me) and short bursts but in long stories, I'll often skip it to get back to the much more interesting plot points. It's very difficult to draw me into a long story where romance is a major point and only a few authors have achieved it. So just more epics that don't have romance as an endgame.

I think the story I would really like to see is actually an AU of Infinity War (and thus Endgame). Instead of Loki dying right at the beginning, I think it'd be interesting if instead, using his experience with Loki earlier (back in 2012), Ebony Maw uses his comic book power to basically take over his mind (like he did Stephen in the comics). There would be big focus on Loki and Stephen, but many of the Avengers would probably play a role. I've seen this story in my head up to the donut, but no idea of where it'd go from there. But yeah it'd basically be a full rewrite of IW and Endgame. Also they'd turn back clocks to 2018 if any time travel happened. Cuz seriously.

13. How late is the latest you’ve ever stayed up reading fic?

Until dawn lmao. I have pulled all-nighters back in high school and college, especially since summer and winter breaks were a thing. I miss those. I have to be responsible now. Boooooooo.

19. Post a meme describing how you usually look while reading fic.

Ahhhhhhh this because no one knowsssssss.