#so we’re back to posting on tumblr.

[enthusiastofeverything]

I haven’t truly posted on this tumblr in years and at this point I think everyone who used to know about this account has unfollowed it or deactivated theirs. So I can speak freely.

Tonight is another night at a bachelor party in Las Vegas. It is exactly what the quintessential bachelor party consists of. Drugs, drinking, gambling, and strippers. The other guys (of whom I only really know my brother, brother in law, and my brother’s oldest friend) are all sharing stories of their past debaucheries.

Right now I’m obviously not with them. They’re at the strip club. I, like last night, slipped out as quietly as possible. Because strip clubs make me feel awkward and uncomfortable.

I don’t know if it’s social anxiety or if I’m just a loser, but I don’t do well in unstructured environments with people. I can make friends extremely easily in class, in clubs, and at work. When there’s a primary objective everyone is participating in, I can contribute to that, and communicate what I’m doing there while also making friends. All of my friends have been made in classrooms or in school clubs. The two exceptions were on my dorm floor and were my roommates who were forced to spend time with me.

I don’t know what that says about me. But I know that when I’m in situations like these, such as parties or at bars, I get depressed. I can tell I don’t belong. That feeling- like I’m the only one in the room that can’t figure it out- forms a pit in my throat. It makes me want to escape. But I don’t want to be alone. I would like to be with someone else. Normally, I have someone I love who I can’t talk to. But it’s approaching 3 AM at home and she’s tired from watching our child, so I won’t wake her. (That’s why I’m posting this; to vent.)

I don’t know what’s wrong with me. It’s been so long since I felt this way that I thought I’ve been fixed. I’m not, though.

I don’t know if it is fixable.

[angelfrogs]

Been thinking about jjk again and dude it drives me so banana bonkers that gojo and geto almost exclusively have the same ideas but are always on different pages from each other BECAUSE of each other. Kinda fucked up ngl. Doing what they’re doing for the other even though it’s not what they want. Gojo learned empathy (most specifically for nonsorcerers but empathy in general) through geto and geto’s empathy for gojo and other sorcerers causes him to lose all empathy for nonsorcerers. They’re the same but also not. I know it’s been said a million times but damn.

[torchickentacos]

[nomazee]

it always sends a little shock thru me when i find fic writers who write for fem readers but say they won’t write for fem reader x fem character for one reason or another i cant tell if it bothers me or makes me giggle

[steddieas-shegoes]

in the nicest way possible, i’m begging you to use “read more”s for your longer, writing posts. i adore your writing and would love to reblog it (and also to continue to see it on my dash!) but tbh i’ve considered unfollowing and even blocking you simply because your posts are SO long and not put under a read more

Hi! Thank you!

I do usually put one when I’m posting from my computer, but I have no clue how to do so on the app which is how I post a lot of my stuff. If you know how to, please let me know! I just know they show up with a “view post” on my dash, which to me, feels like the same thing, though I do all of my scrolling on the app, too, and things are probably way different here in this particular hell.

I will certainly try to remember to do so in the future, and will try to go back through some of the longer ones to add one.

That being said, I totally get unfollowing or blocking to make your experience better. I’m sorry if that means not being here anymore, and I hope that doesn’t happen, but sometimes that’s just how it is.

[easypeasylindyvesey]

one goal. just one. fucking. goal.

[regret-breathing]

ive started calling the femme ive been growing closer to over the last nine or ten months my sweetheart. im truly not beating the old man allegations on this one.

[peachieprompts]

Dialogue Prompt #267

“I have to be honest, I really like you two together.”

[green-day-dad]

i miss my friend but how do i tell them i miss them without bothering/messaging them :’((

[toxicrevolver]

My brain feels like soup, and my skin feels like bees.

[whump-queen]

HELLO!!! I love ur whumps can you add me to the general whump tag list?

aaaahh tysm!!!! highkey seeing you in my notes got me opening the Kane & Raiza masterdoc again,,, 👀👀

[likedbyuarmyhope]

i’ve really been an army for over six years huh. i’ve been an army for almost a third of my life

[redtailfins]

trying to work out how i’m going to take an air mattress, pillow, alcohol, and my actual bag on a 2 hr public transport trip tomorrow. it’s going bad

[random-jot]

@ my urls - why are you running?

Why are you running?

[twistedappletree]

!!!!!!!

[ilostyou]

i admire the dedication of people who have active sideblogs for different things bc that was literally my intention for this blog when i started it but now it’s just become more of a main than my main ever was