#so to see EVERYONE just supporting them so STRONGLY is incredible!!!!
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not to australiapost on main but FUCK YEAH THE MATILDAS!!!! they may not have won that game but my god have they won the heart of the nation đđđđ
#australia#never in my life have I known a womenâs sport to be so celebrated in Australia#so to see EVERYONE just supporting them so STRONGLY is incredible!!!!#drive past primary schools and they all have go Matildas banners up#itâs on the transport nsw boards#itâs EVERYWHERE and I LOVE IT#anyway they won in my heart#fwwc 2023#fwwc
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The Next Dragon Age Has a New Title
by Author - BioWare - Posted on June 6, 2024
"Join us on Tuesday, June 11 for the Official Gameplay Reveal Hi everyone, Summer is nearly upon us, and as promised, weâre ready to provide an update on our big reveal. Weâd like to invite the world to join us on Tuesday, June 11, for the official first look at gameplay for the next Dragon Age! After Dragon Age: Inquisition launched, the studio was given an incredible opportunity to explore, test, and validate a variety of gameplay concepts as we worked to determine what the next Dragon Age could look like. We brought everything to the table which, yes, even included a multiplayer concept. The time we spent experimenting and iterating gradually taught us a lot. This work, and the amazing support from EA, helped us re-focus on creating an incredible single player game, with all the choices, characters and world building youâd expect from us. At BioWare, we create worlds of adventure, conflict and companionship, where youâre at the center of it all. As fans of our franchise know, every Dragon Age game has delivered a new standalone story. Set in the world of Thedas, these tales explore epic locales and threats, always thrusting you into a new conflict. Each game also introduces a new lead hero â The Warden, Hawke, The Inquisitor â that you can call your own. You can expect all that, and more, with the new game. And of course, much like your unique hero, it wouldnât be a Dragon Age game without an amazing cast of companions â right? Each of the seven unique characters that make up your companions will have deep and compelling storylines where the decisions you make will impact your relationships with them â as well as their lives. Youâll unite this team of unforgettable heroes as you take on a terrifying new threat unleashed on the world. Naturally, the Dread Wolf still has an important part in this tale, but you and your companions â not your enemies â are the heart of this new experience. So, to capture what this game is all about, we changed the name as the original title didnât show just how strongly we feel about our new heroes, their stories and how youâll need to bring them together to save all of Thedas. We proudly introduce to you Dragon Ageâą: The Veilguard.
We know youâve been waiting a long time for this reveal and weâre so ready to show you what weâve been up to. Weâll see you on Tuesday, June 11th at 8:00am PT at the Dragon Age YouTube channel with over 15 minutes of gameplay from the opening moments of the game that has you jumping back into Thedas on your new adventure. This moment means so much to everyone at BioWare, and we wouldnât be here without you. Weâre ready to have some fun, so join the chat earlyâŠweâve got a few special surprises for you. Thank you for all your support. See you soon, Gary McKay Executive Producer, Dragon Age, and General Manager, BioWare"
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#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age: dreadwolf#dragon age 4#the dread wolf rises#da4#dragon age#bioware#video games#long post#longpost#mj best of
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Hey Mod, I don't know what's going on that hurt you, I feel like I missed something that's happened, but I can tell from what I did see that it didn't just hurt you, but scared you and made you feel a Lot of doubt. I've also seen a lot of messages pouring in with support, and I want to share mine.
I have hypermobile type EDS, fibromyalgia, and a whole bucket's worth of faulty wiring in my brain. And I've always had stories to tell but I never felt I was good enough to share them. If it's because I can't focus enough to get through nanowrimo, or because I can't manage the focus and time towards drawing as a hobby, or the fact that an excessive amount of either for me leads to my hands wanting to shut down. But you? You *inspire* me. Your stories, all the ones I've seen, read, experienced in some way or another, they're so good. And you're open and honest with your fans about your own health, and of course, we support you and always would rather you rest and feel as best you can, instead of pushing out something and working yourself too hard. But all of this is to say that. I think I would have given up on my own stories if I hadn't found you and yours.
I hope whatever is going on sorts itself out, I hope you're able to keep telling your stories. At your own pace, in your own way. I think you deserve to be happy. If there's anything we (your fans, especially those of us too awkward to come off anon, whoops,) can do, to help in some way? Even if it's silly videos or cute cat pictures or whatever it is that could just help you smile. We're here. We love you.
woof. I woke up to so many messages I can't even read them all in one go I'm getting too emotional- I do feel I owe an explanation so I'll explain what happened under the cut but all you guys need to know is I'm okay, I got through it, I love you, and you're so important to me and I'm so grateful for all the messages that have asked me to stay.
tw for suicidal thoughts and all that
yeah so I have the bad morning of all mornings: was introduced to the fact there's this one character (Mr Puzzles) on a very popular youtube that. resembles RGB. incredibly strongly. like. I don't want to link to it just look if you want to. Anyway at the time I thought it had just dropped (seems to have been around for 6 months actually), and having commented on it I immediately got an inbox full of hate mail.
My website, meanwhile, had locked both me and my web designer out of it, and- already in a bad state of mind- I went into full on panic/paranoid spiral of 'they have hacked it, and they are going to delete any proof that I was here before them.' This of course wasn't true, and we have since recalimed control of the site (don't know what happened there but hey. it's fine???? haha. ha.)
On top of this my father has terminal cancer of the pancreas, which is horrible for everyone already but it means that- at some point this year- I am going to be the only person with an active income in my house. I am disabled, do not make a lot of money, and the cost of living is skyrocketing. Combine that with months of Despair at the world right now, with the multiple wars, genocide, corruption and AI and the loss of control any of us have over our IP or lives and I just decided it was time to end it all.
I somehow remembered this was a bad idea to act on immediately (hard during a period of entirely irrational thought) and instead went for a very long walk, crossed the bridge I could have jumped off and during that I came out of the worst of it. I then came back home to so much love online I felt deeply ashamed for ever contemplating it, and I cried a lot. My nose is still puffy and now my feet hurt! lmao
Anyway. Yeah. There's your context. I am not going to stop hoping, making, or living. I am prone to moments of weakness and this was one of the worst of them and I am still here, thanks in a large part to all of you. I might need you in the future to defend me against this, or people who take our ideas, but I hope you know that I will do the same for you. We need each other, and to be there for you I need to be here at all.
also fuck Mr Puzzles
#context for mod's little (massive) mental breakdown yesterday#you don't need to read it but I felt folks are due an explanation#tw suicide#ask to tag#mental health is wow!!!! a thing
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Gettogether
Chris Hartley x reader!
An idea that came to mind. The day before the disappearance of Hannah and Beth. You and Chris have a thing for one another, and it escalates. The original idea was putting eyeliner on him, and I had so much fun writing it!!
PS! Involves drinking and sexual themes (18++)
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Everyone is laughing while sitting in the uneven circle. Emily and Jess went to the kitchen a while ago and are still gone. Jess was the first to stand up, a mischievous look plastered on her face. Her excuse was mixing a new drink, and she forcibly dragged Emily with her while laughing. I donât know what theyâre planning, but it must be good since I occasionally hear loud snickers coming from them.Â
While the others talk I glance over at Chris. Heâs sitting at the other side. Not on the sofa, but below it, using it only as back support. In his hand is his fifth beer. At least not less than that. Heâs wearing a dark green sweater, which suits him perfectly, curving at the best angles. Suddenly he brings his eyes up, meeting mine. A bit of blush covers him, but Iâm probably just seeing things. Shit. I look away quickly, not feeling the heat on my cheeks. I do know it's there though. Luckily, the dim light and alcohol makes it almost impossible to see, I hope. In the corner of my eyes I see Josh whisper something to him, and they both look at me. I need some air, or at least a reason to get out a little. The storm outside is not slowing down, and is said to be even stronger tomorrow, so I wouldnât dare to actually go outside. For now, Iâm keeping calm. I should just try to join the conversation.Â
Mike is talking about his latest occurrence at the gym. He was apparently hit on by a girl, and it was quite an ordeal. While heâs talking I notice long stares shifting between Sam and Josh. I automatically smile and signal to Ashley and Beth to look. They notice and then both look at each other. We have to do something. Before I get an idea, Hannah turns beside me, looking strongly at my face. I stiffen, and give her a look.Â
âEverything okay Hannah?â
She loosens up, laughs a little.Â
âYeah yeah, sorryâ.
She shifts before moving her hand up to her own face.Â
âYour mascara is a bit smudged, want me to fix it for you?âÂ
Oh. I havenât touched up my makeup since I put it on in the morning. I thank her, but tell her how it probably all needs to be fixed, so I would do it quickly in the bathroom.Â
âLet me know if you need anythingâ.
âThanks Han!â I shout while walking up the stairs.Â
I hear whispers behind me, but canât make out what theyâre saying. Instead of trying, I quickly get my make-up bag from my room and go to the bathroom. My mascara is not a bit smudged. Itâs very smudged. How didnât I notice before? I clean it up before deciding to redo both my eyeliner and mascara. The highlighter is still going strong and I have a hint of the eyeshadow present. I will only take three minutes max.Â
Right before completion, Chris burst into the room. I give a screech before covering my mouth.Â
âGosh Iâm incredibly sorryâ he says with hands covering his eyes. My heart rate slows and I give a giggle before walking over to him and pulling his hands down.Â
âI was just wondering if you wanted some company?âÂ
âNo other reason for coming here?â I ask while walking back to the mirror.Â
âWell, I donât know, maybeâ he mumbles. I canât make out the rest as he sits down on the chair beside me. I complete the last part of my makeup before looking down at him.Â
âYouâre really good at thatâ he says while pointing up at the mascara wand.Â
âDo you know what this is?â
A long silence falls, and before I can tease him, he says itâs for the eyes. I smile at him while heâs sitting there, very proud.Â
âDo you want some?â I ask, taking out my eyeliner pencil from the bag.Â
âMe? Absolutely not, Iâm not putting that junk on my faceâ
My eyes narrow a bit, and he quickly follows up.Â
âBut you look great though, beautiful, hot, sexy everything you know, justâŠâÂ
As I get closer, he gets up from the stool and backs away.Â
âHey hey, I told you I didnât want any of thatâ
I get in front of the door, locking it.Â
âYou didnât just do thatâ
âI believe I didâ
âYouâre gonna pay if you put that thing on meâ
âOh pleaseâ I plead. âJust a little on the undereye, you would look dazzlingâ.Â
âNope, not a chanceâ. I think about the rest of the night, trying to remember something that I can use. I know.Â
âThink of it as a form of payback for scaring the shit out of me when you walked in.â
He smirks. âPayback?âÂ
âAnd you thought I was naked for a second as wellâ I hurriedly add.Â
âDamn you, fine. But only this timeâ.Â
Chris is a funny and smart man, but thank goodness he also has integrity. I take his arm and lead him down to the floor. I have to release him as soon as he gets where heâs meant to be. I canât help thinking about whatâs under his clothing. Heâs strong, I know he is.Â
With his back against the bathtub, I carefully sit down on his lap. His breath stops for a moment, and I quickly lift myself up from him again. My own breath holds, and I look away. Boundaries, I seem to forget sometimes that weâre just friends.Â
âSorry, itâs just easier this way, we can do it some other way if you want.â As I turn around I feel his hand grabbing mine, dragging me down on him again. Both his hands are placed on either side of my hips.Â
âNo itâs fine, really. I was just surprised.â His grip is firm, and I can feel my face heat up once again. He takes my expression as a sign to drag me closer to him. Chest to chest. My breath is uneven, and I notice a faint blush on his cheeks.Â
âSo, are we gonna do it?â he asks. Iâm stumped.Â
âWait what?â
âWith that scary sharp thing youâre going to put in my eyeâ. His comment takes me out of my trance, and I give a genuine smile.Â
âItâs not going inside your eye, just under itâ I laugh, and he looks down. He shares my laugh before quickly taking hold of my waist, getting my face closer to his. His breath is on my chin. Iâve never felt as hot as I do now, like Iâm steaming. He looks down at my lips before returning to my eyes. Then, in a swift motion, I meet his lips. My arms automatically go over his shoulders and in his hair, whilst his take all over my back, pressing me even closer if thatâs possible. The kiss is warm and wet, and it doesnât stop. I barely get any small breaks for breathing, making my head go a bit dizzy. I feel euphoric, and I canât believe itâs actually happening. In the small breaks, he manages to make out a few words.Â
âYou have no idea how long Iâve waited for thisâ. I mumble a little âme tooâ back, as I feel his fingers on my skin, under my shirt.Â
âFuckâ I mumble, getting even hotter. How am I suppose to take this? And on the bathroom floor?Â
âChris?â
âMhmm?â
âWhere is all this confidence coming from?â
âPent up energyâ
He starts kissing my neck, moving down to my collarbone.Â
âAnd some drinks of braveryâ
âGot itâ
He finds my spot, making me moan out his name. As weâre going on, I suddenly hear faint voices.Â
âI told you it would workâ
âIâm the perfect matchmakerâ
I pull away. Chris looks confused, breathless, and needy, looking up at me with pleading eyes.Â
âWha-â I stop him with my hand. I know who it is. Tucking down my shirt, I quickly open the door and catch Josh and Hannah with their ears against the wall. I cough. Loudly. They both turn at the same time with completely different reactions. Hannah slowly backs away before running down the stairs, while Josh faces me with a smirk.Â
âI told you he liked you, but you didnât believe me,â he says. I give him a confused glare in return.Â
âYou know, Iâm the reason this happened, Iâm the perfect matchmaker.â he looks through the door, winking at Chris, who rolls his eyes.Â
âI just had to make sure something happened, and knowing how skittish you are made it a perfect bonding momentâ
âJosh, what the h-â
He interrupts, âBut at the same time, if something were to happen, it canât happen in there. We got people who want to use the bathroom tonightâ.Â
I canât do anything but nod. The mood is ruined anyway. Chris appears behind me, one hand used for leaning against the door.Â
âDude, we had like, a momentâ
âYeah bro, and Iâm sorry about that, but just do it somewhere elseâ he winks before walking away, joining the others. I then feel a hand going up my side, turning me around. I look up at him, and his perfect sweet face.Â
âWe should probably talk about this before we do anything.â he whispers. I nod in agreement.Â
âThough, weâve both been drinking, so this isnât the timeâ I add. He smiles down at me, taking my face in his palms before lifting my chin.Â
âWhat about tomorrow?â
âThat sounds goodâ I turn around to join the others while taking his hand with me. Iâm stopped by him and dragged into his embrace.Â
âBut, we could also just go to my roomâ he whispers against my ear. I think about it. I truly want to, but Josh kind of ruined it.Â
âIsnât the mood kinda low right now?âÂ
âLet me show you how good I am at picking up the mood thenâ he says, tracing a finger down my neck. Fuck heâs good. I grab ahold of his hand, dragging him with me.Â
âWait wait, thatâs all it took?â he asks, clearly confused.Â
âYepâ I reply. âEspecially when you look like that and talk in such a mannerâ
âI had a whole thing planned, like, you know, stuff and things like thatâ.Â
âUse them next timeâÂ
âWill that be later tonight?â
âOf courseâ. As weâve agreed he locks the door and turns around. Before I know it, Iâm slammed against the bed, him immediately going on top and kissing me.
âI could do this all nightâ I say between kisses.Â
âGood, cause weâre gonnaâ
#chris hartley x reader#until dawn chris x reader#josh washington#until dawn chris#chris hartley#until dawn#chris until dawn#joshua washington#hannah washington#ashley brown#jess riley#until dawn remake#until dawn smut#until dawn fanfics#christopher hartley until dawn#christopher hartley#samantha giddings#chris x reader#chris hartley x reader smut#mike munroe#jessica riley#emily davis#chris hartley smut#pining and yearning#please let this be true
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i'm still following first soldier's plot just from these posts but how is young sephiroth portrayed? is he evil or like he was in crisis core or what
Young Sephiroth is depicted as being confused, insecure, and kind of brainwashed from years of conditioning under Shinra. First Soldier provided some interesting aspects and moments for his character, which I'll bullet for you here real quick.
Sephiroth has never been on a real mission before this one. Most of his "accomplishments" so far have been fabricated lies under Shinra for propaganda purposes. Despite him simultaneously being freakishly strong and overpowered thanks to the Jenova cells.
Sephiroth is also apparently incredibly sheltered as he comes across as very socially awkward and kind of shy when he isn't sticking to Shinra's script. It's implied he's barely ever interacted with actual people outside of a controlled setting.
Sephiroth carries a locket of his mother Lucrecia (who he refers to as Jenova) and at this point still believes her to be alive and is looking for her. He apparently asks everyone he meets to see if they know anything about her. He loses this locket offscreen btw and it's bullshit.
Sephiroth is a brainwashed child soldier and often spouts fucked up logic/Shinra propaganda in order to justify his more violent actions. He conveys an extremely paranoid world view that if he doesn't fight, he'll be killed or hurt. This obv speaks to the conditions Shinra put him under during training.
That said, Sephiroth actively dislikes his status as a "hero" and just wants to find his mom and live a normal life. He breaks down crying after killing a bunch of child soldiers his own age and says that he never wanted to be what he is.
Sephiroth occasionally has moments where he acts like an actual little kid, giggling over Glenn's jokes, wanting the group's approval, and often coming off as being kind of timid and overly respectful. He has two modes--hardass leader sticking to a schedule and a literal child trying to push himself too hard because that's all he was ever taught.
Most of the time he's pretty supportive and courteous, if not overly polite. He clearly really wants to impress his team and often apologizes whenever he makes a mistake. He's leader, but he's figuring things out.
Lastly, and strangely most importantly, the stupid Halloween Event of all things confirmed that Hojo has been abusing/torturing Sephiroth for most of his life and is likely the reason why Sephiroth pushes himself so hard.
Currently, Sephiroth's story is still unfinished. The game makes it clear that he's grown very attached to his new team and feels responsible for protecting them from danger. He and main character Glenn have formed a brotherly bond of sorts and Sephiroth willingly goes against Shinra's orders in order to follow his team to rescue another boy his age from danger (Rosen). Rosen and Sephiroth are expected to have an encounter next chapter and it's very strongly implied that Sephiroth will end up killing Rosen as a means of trying to protect his group/some other reason. It's gonna be fucked up and emotional either way.
#asks#ff7#ffvii#final fantasy 7#sephcanons#sephiroth#first soldier#ever crisis#glenn lodbrok#ffvii ever crisis#ffvii first soldier#young sephiroth
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Favorite handhold of mine is undoubtedly the wedding shot. First of all, I'm just thrilled that Polin is paid homage with a classic hand shot like the other seasons.
And just like the other seasons, this hand shot perfectly encapsulates their journey. They kiss for the first time as man and wife, and they turn to face the wedding guests. They mutually reach for each other and meet in the middle. There is some awkward fumbling which is a cute little portrayal of their will they/won't they dynamic. They're also not as in sync with each other as they'd like to be, so it takes them a little more work to get there.
But the important part is that they're still choosing to be together, despite everything else. They face their loved ones, not to mention the entire ton, holding hands. To me, that's Colin and Penelope against the world. They have not yet fully resolved their very serious, very complex issues. And it might be frustrating to watch Colin process Lady Whistledown as he does.
But from the very first moment he finds out, he confronts Penelope, and he confronts Eloise who he's certain already knows. That's it. He even suggests he accompany his mother for wedding breakfast planning to ensure her that the wedding is on. He lowers his voice when he reminds Penelope that she's compromised, well aware of the mamas within earshot, in order to protect her honor.
His friends and Benedict question his mood at his stag do, and he provides them with nothing. Anthony straight up asks what happened, and he refuses to share. He offers his name to her as freely as he did when they were newly engaged.
Penelope only confides in Eloise and Genevieve and is incredibly understanding about Colin's irate reaction when she seeks counsel from them. She's very tightlipped with her mother about his attitude, even as she acknowledges that something's off. She never once disparages Colin to anyone.
She is strongly advised to keep her blackmail situation a secret, and she can't do it. No matter what she fears he may think of her, she values him too much as her partner to keep him in the dark ever again.
And Colin even adjusts his tone when he sees Portia behind Penelope the day after the wedding so as not to reveal his frustration with her. He confronts Cressida, begging for her to understand Penelope as he does. He is all in on lying to Benedict for Penelope's sake.
Penelope fills Colin in on her potentially ruinous plan, and he's there for his mother, readily available to answer her questions as Penelope's ambassador.
He asks Penelope to dance with him five minutes after she exposes her identity, publicly revealing his support and admiration of Lady Whistledown to the ton.
The wedding handhold is a beautiful reflection of their partnership. As the audience, we were privy to a lot of the tension and internal conflict that kept the two privately apart. But to everyone else, it was incredibly important for both of them to present a united front. They have far too much love and respect for one another to behave any other way.
#polin#colin bridgerton#penelope featherington#bridgerton#polinweek#polin meta#bridgerton meta#tick tock#joining of hands#into the light#penelope bridgerton
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Headcanon, since itâs Motherâs Day, that Motherâs Day is a huge event in the mansion.
Slenderâs brothers always come over and help out, as do the rest of the creeps. Slenderâs mother and Tobyâs mother will both come over, and everyone else always tries to make the day special for them.
Both of those moms do a lot of cooking for everyone, so in return everyone does a bunch of cooking for them, and itâs all of their favorite foods. The girls take them out to go to the spa and get manicures and pedicures, and they go out for lunch while the guys are back at the mansion cooking and decorating. When they return, theyâre presented with the gifts that everyone has gotten for them, and then they have a nice Motherâs Day dinner.
Toby is practically glued to his momâs side whenever he can be, trying to do whatever he can for her because sheâs all he has left and she wants today to be as special for her as it can be. The Slender brothers are extra attentive with their mom as well, especially considering they donât often get to see her because of their conflicting schedules.
I think it makes both of the moms incredibly happy that everyone in the mansion does their best for them because of the fact that to everyone in the mansion they are their mother figures.
They all sit around the table talking and laughing while they eat, with the moms sharing a few stories about their children growing up, some of which are embarrassing much to the chagrin of said children. By the end of the night Slenderâs mom takes her leave so she can go celebrate Motherâs Day with their father, but I think Tobyâs mom probably spends the night before heading back to Earth from the Underworld the following day.
However, as night sets in, a few of the creeps also sneak out of the mansion to pay some visits. BEN/Jane/Nina always goes to visit their respective momâs gravestones on Motherâs Day, staying there for hours at a time, because itâs days like today that they miss their moms the most.
The other creeps that had good, loving parents that are still living also sneak out, enviously looking through windows, checking on them to make sure theyâre doing okay. Creeps like Tim/Brian/Kate/Puppeteer that (in my canon) had loving parents and loving homes long so strongly to be able to just pay them a visit, tell them that theyâre okay, theyâre still here after all these years, but they canât. Despite their longing, they settle for watching from a distance, and leaving anonymous gifts like flowers on doorsteps.
Creeps that didnât have good mothers spend the night together, having done their best to make the day special for the two invited moms. Jeff/Liu/Natalie/Helen comfort each other, bittersweet about the fact that they wish they had a mom of their own to celebrate, a mom that was much kinder than the ones they were born to. However, they canât do anything about that fact, so they turn to each other and the incredible mother figures they now have to fill that void.
Motherâs Day is always a big event, and itâs also one of the more emotional days of the year for the creeps. However, all of them are in agreement that no matter what theyâll always appreciate the two women that now care for all of them and do their best to support them.
#I definitely didnt write this and forget to tag and post it for five hours#I would never do that#creepypasta#creepypasta headcanon#creepypasta headcanons#creepypasta x reader#slender mansion mayhem#slenderman headcanons#ticci toby headcanons#offenderman headcanons#splendorman headcanons#trenderman headcanons#ben drowned headcanons#clockwork headcanons#jane the killer headcanons#nina the killer headcanons#jeff the killer headcanons#homicidal liu headcanons#bloody painter headcanons#tim wright headcanons#brian thomas headcanons#kate the chaser headcanons#puppeteer headcanons
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Dad!Levi x Mom!Reader. The Ackerman Family celebrates Pride Month with friends and family that are part of the LGBTQ+ Community. SFW @2moth-anon2
@ladycheesington <3
Love and friends.
Levi x fem!reader
Modern AU, Dad Levi, Mum reader, being a couple, married life, friends, supporting friends.
Levi gets word that your married friends Historia and Ymir will be at the front of a pride parade float as Queens. You decide to make time out of your busy fun-filled family life to support your wonderful friends.
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Lilly giggled as you painted her face to make her look like a bunny. "Mummyyy."
You smiled at her. "I know, but I'm almost done." You pulled back from her. "All done."
Your four-year-old ran to the mirror and gazed at herself. "Bunny!"
You giggled. "That's right." You stood up and offered your hand. "Shall we show Daddy?"
She grabbed your hand tightly. "Yes!"
You walked over to Levi dressing up your baby girl, Daisy, in a sweet little onesie. "Honey?"
Levi glanced over. "Almost ready." He lifted Daisy up and walked over. "Here we are, one little bunny done!"
You giggled at seeing your baby dressed as a bunny. "She looks perfect and matches her sister!"
Lilly jumped out. "Ta-dah!"
Levi leaned down and kissed her forehead. "You look perfect. You ready to go support your aunties?"
She nodded. "Uh-huh!"
He hummed a laugh. "Come on, my little bunnies. Time to go."
Daisy ran ahead. "Go, go, go!"
"She's full of beans, huh?"
You rubbed his back as you worked. "She is. She gets that from me."
"She does." He smiled. "Makes me happy."
As a family, you made your way to Levi's car and put the kids in. Levi drove through the town and towards the city as Lilly talked to her baby sister. Daisy just babbled back to her causing a sweet moment between the two sisters.
Levi managed to park up at where he worked. He was CEO of a tea and coffee company that also made biscuits and cookies. Levi was an incredible boss and his products were so addictive, just like him.
When he parked, he strapped Daisy to him while you carried Lilly. You walked out of the parking area to a nice spot on the parade route that was reserved for his company. Levi and Erwin also paid for a float and donated to charities that were at the front of this year's parade.
Levi and Erwin had big hearts. They were strong allies and strongly believed that love is love. As long as it is legal and you're not hurting anyone, you can love who you love. Levi wouldn't know what he'd do if someone said he couldn't love you. Plus, his friends meant a lot to him.
While waiting you were slowly joined by your friends. It was lovely to see everyone together. The younger ones were part of the parade, but the vets hung out together sharing drinks and snacks. Hange was with her lovely husband Moblit. Mike was with his girlfriend and Erwin had brought his wife along. It was nice to gather together and celebrate your friends.
Lilly waved and accepted pretty stickers from people in the parade. You laughed when a drag queen kissed Levi on the cheek. A lot of people were making a fuss about Levi and Erwin because they were so handsome. You couldn't blame them because you fussed over Levi and Erwin's wife fussed over him.
Eventually, Historia was in view with her Queen outfit with Ymir at her side. You all waved and cheered for them. You were all happy for them and couldn't believe how stunning they looked. You danced with Lilly as you enjoyed the music on the float. Even Levi started dancing with Daisy. He lifted her arms and waved gently at Historia.
The parade slowly died down and a few of you were going to a diner later that you'd hired out. You all gathered together and waited for your friends in the parade to join you. As soon as your friends entered you cheered for them and waved rainbow flags.
Historia hurried to you and Levi. "Thank you so much! The float was even better than last year. Levi, you're wonderful."
He played with Daisy's feet. "Don't mention it. You're wonderful friends of ours. You deserve happiness and to be proud of who you are."
Lilly gasped. "Are you a Queen?"
Historia giggled. "Only for a day."
"You are so pretty!"
"Thank you." She squeezed Lilly's hand. "You are an adorable little bunny."
"Thank you!" Lilly pointed. "Daisy is one too!"
Ymir walked over and leaned to look at Daisy. "Ha, that's so damn cute." She looked over at Historia. "We should do that with our kids."
Historia blushed. "Mm, yes."
Levi smiled. "You two will be amazing parents. If you need help at all with adoption or funding IVF, let me know."
You rubbed Levi's back. "We're here for you."
Ymir yanked Historia close. "We appreciate it. I think this one would say it, but she's now emotional."
"Talk to us anytime."
Levi smiled at you. "Let's sit for a moment. I think our two bunnies need food."
You nodded. "Yes. I'm starving too."
You huddled together in a booth and were soon joined by Erwin and his pregnant wife. You all talked as a family and laughed together. The diner was full of love, and no one was judged. Everyone was welcome.
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Only Friends: What Led to Ray's Explosive Tirade (Playing 'The Bad Guy')
I have to admit that this was not how I expected this scene to play out. I was just as flabbergasted as everyone else at first. However I think there's one clear thing that Ray's outburst reminded me off: no matter whether you reveal the truth or keep it to yourself - either way, you are the bad guy.
I'm NOT the Villain
As Boston very derisively claims, if Ray reveals the truth of the affair, he'll be the one unleashing the damage. A similar parallel to what Boston did last episode (with very different intentions may I add, but damage is damage nonetheless).
Mew is incredibly important to Ray. If we talk simply outside of Ray's love for him, Ray wants to treat him well, repay him for his kindness and support over the years. Therefore, once Ray was in possession of this information, he felt very strongly that Mew needed to know. He knew telling Mew was the right thing to do. He does genuinely care about Mew as a person.
Does he warn Mew and ruin his present happiness (which is based on a lie)? Or does he hold his tongue and potentially watch his friend get hurt from other mistreatments by Top further down the line?
Ray doesn't want to hurt Mew in any way. He doesn't want to be the bringer of bad news. Why should it have to fall to him to reveal this awful act of betrayal to someone he cares for so much? And when Mew supposedly doesn't react in the way he expects to this information, Ray goes ballistic with frustration, concern and anger. Why is he the bad guy for trying to help his friend, when Top can seemingly get away with it, and be in everyone's good graces even when he's completely undeserving? Why can no one else see Top's true colours?
I'm NOT the Worst
Something else that occurred to me throughout this episode, is how often Ray's friends belittle and overlook him. And it's so routine they hardly even notice.
Boston has never tried to hide his snide little back-handed comments at Ray. Since their fight at Sand's, he's become even more callous when throwing quips in plain sight. Namcheum makes an observation about all of them being partnered up, and it's only after a few beats that April points out Ray is still single. It's as if they forgot he was even there. Namcheum doesn't tend to pick up on any of the animosity or tension within this group. She's generally not the most tactful or best at reading people.
Then when Ray speaks to Mew in the bathroom, Mew immediately assumes Ray's been taking drugs. Ray looks clearly stunned by this. Yes, he's always coined as the 'drunk' but that's not his one and only personality trait. That's not all he does and is as a person.
It dawns on Ray that even his closest friends seem to always assume the very worst of him. He had a bad feeling about Top from the offset but no one cared or listened. Rather, Ray never gets given the benefit of the doubt, when he's not committed anything as problematic as the heinous crimes amongst their group. Particularly when compared to Top, someone who gets all the praise and adoration when Ray knows he's a certified piece of shit, is desperately unfair. And most of all Top gets the respect of the best friend he loves.
I think what really sent the situation hurtling south was Ray watching everyone play happy families, when he knows there is a web of dishonesty and resentment lurking beneath. It's all a farce. And Ray couldn't stomach it for another moment longer. He had enough.
Become the Very Thing You Loathe
In Episode 4, Ray displays a classic example of self-loathing and self punishment when he goads Sand to scold him. In doing so, it's as if he's deriving some warped form of satisfaction in owning these criticisms. Because he's told these things so often, he starts to believe it, so why not own it too? I actually mentioned this in my Episode 1 meta (regarding Ray's self-actualisation of becoming a burden). Sometimes embracing the very thing you hate being know for, at least validates the presence of that criticism. 'If people keep calling me an asshole, then fine, I'll become an asshole. At least then being called an asshole makes sense.'
So Ray brought it on himself to air out everyone's dirty laundry. 'Fuck it, if you really all think I'm the worst, then fine, I'll do what needs to be done, I'll be the worst. You all happy now?'
Even though Ray adopts the persona forced onto him, he's not happy about it at all. He wants to be identified with more substance, with more credit, as more than just what everyone claims him to be.
#only friends#only friends the series#ofts#only friends meta#ray x sand#sand x ray#ray pakorn#firstkhao#khaofirst#khaotung thanawat#first kanaphan#poor ray breaking my heart#this boy's characterisation has so many layers im quaking#me during episode: (shrieking) NOOO RAY DON'T PLEASE#can sand please whisk ray away so they can be happy away from this toxic wasteland of drama and clownery?
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First Impressions: Doug Eiffel
for this ask game
First impression
Oh my god I canât stand this fuckin guy. He is SO annoying. Minkowski is a far better woman than I am because if he treated ME like that I would have just left him to drown in space. Little bit disappointed that she didnât.
Impression now
Favorite podcast protag Basically Ever. I love him and I want him to be happy and heâ not but I want him to be!!! The heart of the team, the social glue who holds everyone together. Character development leaves me in awe. He went through Some Shit and the way he is makes a lot of sense, in retrospect, but also, him getting hit over the head with You Need To Try To Do Better and him truly trying to do better was so well done and I am So impressed.
Favorite moment
Choosing one is hard but I looove âMaydayâ when we see Eiffel cast off in space and he shows how clever he actually is to survive!
(Also: âGODDAMN IT RENĂE DONâT DO THISâ)
Idea for a story
Itâs extremely spoilery postcanon stuff but I would love to write him developing a friendship with [REDACTED] that absolutely no one else is happy with. The Tension. They get each other now in a way no one else does.
Also SOMEDAY I will finish the Box 953 story where Eiffel comes in clutch to save the day by completely misunderstanding the assignment. A Hero
Unpopular opinion
Eiffelâs relationship with Hera is an extension of the theme of parenthoodâthe parallels between Eiffelâs relationship with his daughter Anne and Pryceâs relationship Hera are extremely strong in âLimboâ and âMemoria.â The parent who feels a sense of ownership over their child, and in the process gives them a traumatic brain injury because they canât let go of that sense of control. Eiffelâs relationship with Hera is affirming and healing for both of themâEiffel canât undo what he did to Anne, but he can do better this time by treating Hera like a whole person and an equal who gets to have her own choices and have her opinions heard; and Hera getting to have a relationship with someone who has that respect for her. They've mutually adopted each other, but there are timesâespecially in âBoleroâ at the funeralâwhere Eiffel is taking that parental role and trying to do it better than he previously did, or she previously got.
The father-daughter aspects of Eiffel and Heraâs relationship are pretty thematically relevant to both of their character arcs. And it doesnât have to be infantilizing or childish because uh adults have parents too, and the relationship between Cutter and Pryce is a third parallel there for a man and his adult daughter when he canât let go of that feeling of control over her either.
Favorite relationship
Minkowski and Eiffelâs incredibly slowburn friendship to becoming so incredibly important to each other⊠itâs everything to me
Favorite headcanon
This man is aromantic and I have textual support of this. He has never heard this word before in his life tho.
Also this man went to Catholic school and that strongly informs very much of his general demeanor regarding authority.
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Do you happen to have any head canons for characters sexualities?
Indeed I do have a few personal thoughts on each characters sexuality. Some of them a bit divisive
Laios - Pansexual I feel like laios wouldn't care about his partner's gender It's definitely more a personality thing for him.
Marcille - Bisexual but has a HEAVY preference for woman. Here's my first bit of difference from popular fanon. I believe marcille is bisexual due to the succubus arc. No shame for the lesbian marcille people, just not for me personally.
Chilchuck - Bisexual but doesn't realize it. One of those "what? Everyone's had a same sex attraction before" or "what? Some guys are just incredibly hot" situation. The one that doesn't realize they are bisexual and just think that is normal.
Senshi - I personally view him as asexual, though not sex repulsed. He doesn't have negative views or feelings towards sex. Simply that it's more of a whatever situation and doesn't feel strongly about it. Would rather be cooking.
Izutsumi - Demisexual. This one is my biggest disagreement with fanon as while I fully respect and support people that view her as aro ace. I just personally view her as Demisexual and that she can have sexual feelings for a person if she is deeply connected to them romantically.
Falin - pansexual like her brother, but has a preference for woman (blushes heavily seeing marcille naked in the shower, and also called shuro attractive). Again it's more personality than anything.
Some Bonuses
kabru - Gay, I can't see kabru as being anything besides being gay. Especially with how he interacted with laios but most importantly how he interacted with Mithrun. (I personally like them together)
Mithrun - bisexual, but the demons influence fucked with his desires so it's hard to fully pin down what I would consider him.
Shuro - Demisexual, with how he fell for falin after knowing her for awhile and relating to her in such a way when she was admiring the caterpillar. I feel like he is like izutsumi in that he would be into a person sexually only after knowing them for awhile.
Namari - lesbian, look at her. The woman longingly stares at the Kikis legs. She is incredibly lesbian.
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đ©”Chex week is officially over!!đ€
if you have any last minute submissions you are still welcome to post them and tag the blog! Iâll still reblog them!
Thank you all who participated and all who shared and supported the event and its participants! It was a blast to host and see everyoneâs creations! Thank you! Youâre all incredible!
If you didnât get to participate this time donât worry! I fully intend to host this event again in the future, maybe next summer when my schedule isnât as crazy (I didnât even get to participate in my own event thatâs how busy Iâve been đ« ) but weâll see how it all plays out and what works out in the long run.
Iâm also considering hosting some other appreciation weeks until then but Iâll have to think about that some more before saying anything with any certainty!
In the meantime Iâd like to encourage everyone to participate in and support @rvbrarepairweekdos the host of the event was a big supporter and participant in Chex week and was a pleasure to work with for scheduling our two events so I just wanted to give them a shoutout! If you like any rare pairs then I strongly encourage you to check out the event!
Again, one last thank you for all the support! Hope to see you the next time around đ©”đ€
#thank you so much!#chex appreciation week#chex appreciation week 2024#red vs blue#agent texas#leonard church#rvb chex#rvb#rvb church#rvb tex#allison church
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The other day, I had a random thought about VTubers and OnK.
In Japan, VTubers are often considered a variation or splinter of idol culture. Hololive fans recognize that as a custom more honored in the breach than the observance, but the cultural connection is still there. (Look at the drama preceding Uruha Rushia's termination for a well-known example.)
VTubers also have a pretty obvious element of false persona, both in the typical "this performer is performing a marketable version of themself if not outright pretending to be someone else" sense and the "this performer is not literally an AI with a pink bow" sense.
The point I'm meandering towards is that VTubers have significant overlap with the substance and themes of Oshi no Ko, particularly since both B-Komachis are at least moderately familiar with streaming. (The new more than the old, but I'm sure we've all read 45510.) So it seems like a lot of the OnK cast would develop strong opinions about VTubers once they learned about them.
Do you have any thoughts about that? Whether Ai would envy their ability to cleanly separate their persona from their actual flaws, or Ruby would get snobbish about them being fake idols, or something?
So like the ask about streamers in general, this comes with the caveat that I don't really know shit about VTubers in general apart from things I pick up from being adjacent to VTuber enjoyer friends and also that I have HimeHina songs on my Spotify playlist lol. But I think in terms of least to most Opinionated:
Akane and Kana are probably equally Offline about it in that they know VTubers Exist but that's about it. Kana has like 2 seconds where she considers giving it a try now she has that fat ass gaming PC but the idea just slides right out of her brain because she doesn't really care that much.Â
Aqua is also in the "sure, that exists" category but he's probably done editing and clipping work here and there just for some extra cash (since he says he was doing extra work online) and if clips or shorts come up on his feed he might watch one or two in a row but the rest of the time he literally forgets VTubers exist until reminded of them.Â
Ai thinks VTubers are pretty cool but in a slightly befuddled 'gosh what will they think of next!' sort of way LMAO. I think it takes her a while to really understand what's going on with them because she gets a bit confused by the avatars and all the wild-ass lore, but when she eventually gets her head around it, she thinks it's a pretty effective way to split your public and private selves.
Mem and the StrawberryPro crew have a healthy respect for them as fellow creators! The agency probably manages a bunch since Miyako mentions them mostly pivoting to net talents and Mem's always on that grind and actually has had IRL collabs with VTubers on the official OnK youtube channel. LMAO
Ruby's last because I think she feels the most strongly and the most positively about them! For all the issues there are with the corpo structure, VTubing at its core (at least in the circles most adjacent to idol culture) is a space that afford opportunities to people who have what it takes but whose barrier to entry is that they don't fit into strictly defined 'mold' of idolhood - but most specific to Ruby, there are lots of 'idols' so to speak in the VTuber space who have disabilities that stand in the way of their taking more traditional roots to idolhood - IronMouse is one of the most famous, but there are plenty of others. I think this would be an incredible thing to see for Ruby who herself was cut off and robbed of her own dreams as Sarina and had absolutely no outlet for her passions or ambitions. I think she'd wholeheartedly support everyone and want to see them succeed! OnK AU where she wants to audition for Hololive or some shit WHEN
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Fjord's perfect mechanical build? I admit I've never really dug deep into their character sheets, could you elaborate on this?
This is going to be a high-level view of my philosophical thoughts on this, rather than a precise mechanical unpacking, because I've written a lot on Fjord's mechanics while the campaign was running (see the end of the post for a small selection) and Fjord's actually has a lot of mechanics that will take a long time to go through; though, I'm always happy to talk in detail if asked about specific aspects of his build. Also of note, @utilitycaster recently answered a question about her favorite build among CritRole PCs that discussed Fjord, and I agree with everything in that postâso that also gives further insight to my belief in Fjord being mechanically flawless. (Fjlawless?)
I hold Fjord to be mechanically perfect because his build achieves something that requires a lot of technical skill to execute, has incredible versatility allowing him flexibility and viability in pretty much every situation, strongly coheres with the overall tapestry of the party's mechanics, is informed by and develops his characterization, and has deep relationship to his narrative.
His build is thoughtful, both as a mechanical exercise but also as a means through which he is characterized. His flexibility is so extreme that it is difficult to create a scenario where Fjord cannot do anything, short of preventing him from taking actions altogether. He works very self-sufficiently as an individual and equally as well cooperatively within the context of the party. Fjord's build is also an intentional challenge for Travis as a player, who was exploring outside of his comfort zone by taking on spellcasting, which intimidated him at the time after Grog.
I also generally commend Travis on focusing so heavily on mobility. Mobility Is King, and it was rather unusual to spend as many options on a Hexadin into movement and mobility to the degree that Travis did. The almost comical number of teleportation abilities is actually very crucial to Fjord's effectiveness as a build, and, frankly, the fact that Travis has picked up so many of them shows a lot of precise understanding of variations in spell use cases.
Fjord has a strongly defined niche of his own, but his build is so flexible and robust that he is able to adapt and pivot into various roles as needed. He shares a small amount of overlap with everyone else in the party so that he can "double up" on a particular aspect (tanking, spell damage, physical damage, support casting, healing) as needed, but he never feels like he's encroaching on other people's niches. He isn't the BEST at these things, but he can play all these roles in a secondary but manner that helps the Nein respond to the changing tides of combat swiftly and often allows other individuals to do what it is they do best by alleviating pressure and giving them space to work (If you're familiar with Overwatch terminology, he often acts as the off-role, i.e. off-tank, in a flex capacity.) This level of flexibility and adaptability is incredibly difficult to do without gutting your efficiency and efficacy, but Fjord's build is able to do it.
It's especially impressive when his build is strongly influenced by and speaks to his character and narrative, as we've all done a lot of discussion on as a fandom. I do want to call out that, in addition to the narrative as a warlock and paladin, Fjord as a character is someone who devotes himself fully to supporting the group as a whole and each member individually to operate at their best, and his paladin levels as narrative have been well-discussed. It's just really difficult to built that level of precision while also maintaining a sense that all of these choices are tied to character, but Fjord feels that wayâand that contributes strongly to my belief that he is mechanically perfect.
Fjord is one of the highest examples of âcharacterization in mechanicsâ in this campaign, in my opinion. - after 140, updated to incorporate some two-shot information
I really want to appreciate the way Travis played during that final combat. - after 140
Can Fjord knock out any given member of the Nein in a single turnâwithout critting? Level 14 Edition! - I don't think burst damage is be-all end-all, but people like to look at it. There's always calculations for maximum possible damage if given infinite prep time, but I prefer to look at what's possible in a single round bc it's truer to actual combat.
Why does Fjord need so many teleports? Or, a comparison of teleportation abilities. - To give context on this, because I mention the myriad teleports.
Small discussion on Fjord, Yasha, and Beau as having slightly different niches as melee attackers
Star Razor and how it facilitates and encourages Fjordâs range flexibilityÂ
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If One Alter Believes It... Adult Edition(TM)
Way back in the day, I made a post about system accountability. Here's a link to that post, in all it's clickbaity glory, for those curious. I still believe this post holds true for myself (though, obviously, not every system works like mine, and not everyone will find this framework helpful; I just find it incredibly helpful for myself, as I hope others will too).
But I want to talk about the 18+ side of things now, particularly as I see more discussions about paraphilias and problematic alters in system spaces. Consider this a continuation of that post, but with more severe triggers and discussion of mature topics.
The TL;DR: If one part (or whatever you call yourselves, headmates/alters/people/brainmates/buddies/pals, etc) believes it, then as a collective whole, you need to work together to overcome it -- if one part believes it, you all do. And yes, this applies to the harmful things as well.
Let's dive in.
If one of your parts is a pedophile, then to some degree, you have a part of you (collectively) that is a pedophile. Part of YOU would have that paraphilia.
If one of your parts is torturing other system members, then to some degree, you have a part of you (collectively) that is torturing yourself. Part of YOU believes you deserve to be tortured.
If one of your parts is an abuser, then to some degree, you have a part of you (collectively) that is abusive. Part of YOU is abusive.
I want to say, out of the gate, the most important part: this does not and will never mean that you are evil. You are not somehow tarnished for hurting yourself or others. You are a person worthy of love, respect, and care, regardless of the things that you feel make you unworthy in some way. There is nothing wrong with abusive, hurtful, "problematic" parts, and anyone who says otherwise is not supportive of recovery, in my opinion.
But, inherently, being a system means you are part of a team. Regardless of what language you use, you are working together -- and since you are all part of one body, you have got to mitigate those problems together, regardless of if you fully agree. Simply put, their beliefs must be taken on as part of YOUR beliefs. And treating them as entirely separate beliefs can often lead to lack of communication, compromise, or structure, and can lead to a rise of conflict. By thinking of specific part's problematic "issues" as collective beliefs instead, we better understood how to work together to solve them.
This is how we combated our grief about murdering a part of ours. This is how we mitigated our distress over our own paraphilic thoughts and how they impacted us. It's how we came to accept that, yes, we are abusive in many ways, even when we try not to be, and that does not make us evil.
These traits are inherent to who we are. They were baked into our parts. For instance, Debra was split specifically to abuse us. And she did! She tortured us relentlessly because she believed, wholeheartedly, that she was stronger than us; that we deserved to be abused, because it would teach us our place. This was a belief inherent to her formation.
And we formed her, collectively, due to our trauma. Part of us believed so strongly that we deserved to be abused that she then appeared in order to abuse us. She's even a part of ours that we understand to be willfully created, rather than split solely from trauma; we remember thinking of her, talking to her, and purposefully telling ourselves that we deserved to be hurt. And she was there to torture us, to the extent that we split more parts due to what she did to us.
But that does not make her unworthy of love, or evil, or forever scorned and abandoned. In fact, the idea that she was evil and could never change -- that something inherent could not also be changed -- was what led to us murdering her. The fear that we were evil, horrible people for what she did to us led to us killing her, thus setting off further guilt, fear, shame, etc. It led to further breakdowns, pain, suffering... and when she came back, she doubled down, because we were not working together.
Regardless of your feelings, as a part, on matters of 18+ material, you must work together to solve problems. You must work together to find compromises. (And, well, that goes for everything -- not just problematic stuff.)
Viewing Debra's beliefs as collective instead of just her own... that's what led us to understanding why she was there. It made us realize the connections she had to us: how Wade believed so firmly that she was teaching him a lesson, or how Numb believed someone needed to be hurting us for him to protect us. Her beliefs were part of our beliefs, as a whole. And only once we started understanding that did we begin to dismantle the beliefs entirely.
Because it was far harder to say, in isolation, "Debra, you are wrong, and YOU are hurting us" than it was to say, collectively, "This line of thinking we share is hurting us all."
And those beliefs are still inherent for her, even if she has changed! She still deals with those thoughts that she is better than the rest of us, that we deserve to be punished, and that she is the one who has to do that. But, now that we are working together -- now that we take on her beliefs as ALL of our beliefs -- we can help her when it is distressing to have those thoughts. And, through that support, she has those thoughts less, and less, and less.
Everything in this post is a personal example. We have to deal with all of these things. But it applies to others as well. If one of your alters, or headmates, or brain buddies, or pals, or chums, or whatever have you, has a problematic belief -- then it may be helpful to view that belief as a collective, team belief. Collective, system-wide, whatever phrasing you want.
This may not help you. But I really, really hope it does. It helped me greatly.
Good luck out there, y'all.
#minors dni#nsft#diamonds are a boy's best friend#blurry tag#potentially:#pop pop bubblegum bop#paraphilias#abuse#side note#I would very much like discussion with other systems about their structure and frameworks on this topic#And what has worked for them#But I'm a bit too scared to tag this with sysconvo#because... aaah?#Plus I don't know about putting nsft in a public sysconversation tag#bluh
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In Defense of Pharma
Guys I'm really tired of seeing ppl shit on Pharma solely for the incident with Ambulon. Seeing people defend Ratchet against him. Tired of people being awful to him because of things he couldn't control. People will really support the toxic ones because of the simple fact they are a popular character that everyone loves. I'm tired of pretending I like Ratchet (I adored TFA and G1 only). I don't. He's an awful guy when you look at the case with Pharma. And personally I just don't find him interesting like other characters. Ratchet fucking ruined Pharma pre-Delphi. He was this sweet guy who did his best and I strongly believe Pharma may have BPD, so that only makes what Ratchet did so much WORSE. The way Pharma attached to Ratchet reminds me of one with their FP (Favorite Person). He believed so much in Ratchet, looked up to him, considered him one of his closest friends, his FP if you will. He cared deeply about Ratchet, and it deeply affected him when he just up and fucking left without a proper goodbye. And so began a long fucking chain of him getting fucked over. Another point that gets used against him was the virus he unleashed, that wasn't his fucking fault. Tarn was pressuring him. He was stuck in an incredibly hard point. The DJD would after him if he didn't feed Tarn's addiction, he'd still be fucked even witht he fact he did it. Pharma gets stuck in the middle of nowhere with two people he doesnât care for, and one of them is a direct target of the group blackmailing him into killing patients. There was nothing he could have done to make the situation better. And I fucking find it such BULLSHIT that First AId went to Ambulons side rather than Pharmas DESPITE THE FUCKING FACT Amublon is a ex-con, he could very well have been conspiring with Sonic and Boom. The fact Pharma got immediately blamed pisses me off. He was just doing his job, trying to keep his job, and juggle his issues with Ratchet appearing. His FP that fucking abandoned him. This is a STRONG example of how mental illness can fuck oneself over. As someone with BPD, I heavily relate to Pharma, so I am very defensive over this (no shit I'm writing a whole thing defending him). I understand his panic. His stress. The need to prove himself. A case too is with the incident of Ambulon. Yes, the way he handled the situation was awful, but think about it. He wanted to prove himself, to prove he was better than the asshole who left him behind. So how does he do it? Give a prompt to Ratchet that he KNOWS he can't fix, prove that Ratchet is not as good as he thinks he is. And as for Tryest, it's another situation of lose/lose. I didn't pay much attention to that bit of the story but I can say that Pharma was dealing with that whole 'I need to prove im better than these jerks so everyone will like me and need me' BPD mess he has going on. A person with BPD often seeks validation from others, needing FPs to love them and respect only them, which is why he usually claims himself as the best medic. He needs the validation, that boost to his fragile ego that is crumbling with every second. Plus Tyrest promised him a place in the forged only world he was planning. It made him feel valid and needed. He chased that feeling. And then Ratchet came along and started to derail his mind. Leading him to do something that ultimately painted him in a bad light. And he proved he was stronger within the Lost Light comics. Issue 4 showed him hurtingTyrest in such a fashion that not even the best medic, not even his "beloved Ratchet" (his words, not mine), could figure out how he caused so much damage. He was pissed off. He was having a split. He was damaged. I believe we should focus more on the goods of a character, the compexity of their issues, rather than honing on one specific thing that was not that big of a fucking deal. This fandom is awful with painting certain characters as awful awful people for simple issues that can be explained very easily. NOW IF YOU'LL EXCUUUUSE ME. I'm going to take a moment to nap because I am so frustrated and overstimulated and angry rn.
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