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[kiirodora]

Hello everyone! I am opening commissions for profile icons of any character and also Object Show character drawings to help raise funds for Palestinian evacuation fundraisers.

SLOTS: 0/10 Commission details:

I will draw either your own Object Show character or a character you like from any Object Show in exchange for your donations!

For a 5€ donation, a cleaned sketch

For 10€, a cleaned sketch with flat colors (so no shading)

For 15€, an inked and rendered drawing.

How Does This Work?:

Donate the required amount to the fundraisers in the list below. You can pick one fundraiser or split your donations between multiple.

Take a screenshot of your proof of donation with the date of donation visible and send it to the e-mail address or the Discord account also found below. Take care not to reveal any personal information!

If you want your original character drawn, please provide a reference picture for said character! If they have never been drawn before, a picture of the exact real life object you want drawn and/or a basic sketch you made will suffice.

Terms of Service: (make sure you read this before contacting!)

Nothing promoting hate

No NSFW

Non-commercial only (the resulting art cannot be used in a commercial project)

I may share the finished image with a watermark covering on social media, but the clean version won't be posted online.

The commission work will take at most 20 days to finish. I will keep in contact with the client with frequent updates.

For the Flat Color and Lineart + Render options, no changes will be done on the artwork after the initial sketch is approved by the client since the coloring will have started by then.

I retain the right to ask you to change your request if it doesn't fit in my ToS or otherwise is not possible for me to draw.

(Since this a donation based commission and as such is paid in advance, I will of course draw something regardless! But if the request does not align with the ToS I will kindly ask the client to think of another idea for the drawing.)

Contact:

kiiro4789 (Discord) Or by mail: kiirodoradora@gmail.com

List of fundraisers:

All of these fundraisers have been vetted by Palestinian accounts.

https://www.gofundme.com/f/help-monis-and-family-escape-gaza-for-urgent-treatment

https://www.gofundme.com/f/donate-to-ahmeds-journey-to-safety-and-education

https://www.gofundme.com/f/support-safaas-quest-to-get-her-family-to-safety

https://www.gofundme.com/f/help-palestine-and-family-survive-the-gaza-crisis

https://www.gofundme.com/f/support-nabilas-fight-for-health-and-dignity

https://www.gofundme.com/f/support-aseels-fight-for-life-and-family-in-gaza

https://www.gofundme.com/f/bww5x-help-us-build-new-hope-for-me-and-my-family

https://www.gofundme.com/f/help-abboud-from-the-war

https://www.gofundme.com/f/please-help-muhammad-musa-fundraiser

https://www.gofundme.com/f/help-doaas-family-escape-to-safety

https://www.gofundme.com/f/help-me-evacuate-my-family-from-gaza-and-rebuild-our-life

https://www.gofundme.com/f/help-sara-and-her-family-to-evacuate-gaza

https://www.gofundme.com/f/help-ahmed-rebuild-hope-and-stability

https://www.gofundme.com/f/reconstruction-of-a-destroyed-house

https://www.gofundme.com/f/love-in-the-time-of-war

https://www.gofundme.com/f/support-wafas-fight-for-safety-and-health

https://www.gofundme.com/f/help-abeds-family-survive-and-escape-war

https://www.gofundme.com/f/help-us-build-new-hope-for-me-and-my-family

https://www.gofundme.com/f/help-hashems-family-escape-gaza

https://www.gofundme.com/f/evacuate-yousef-and-his-family-from-gaza

https://www.gofundme.com/f/save-kareman-dohans-family-from-despair

https://www.gofundme.com/f/helping-the-helles-family-achieve-a-better-future

https://www.gofundme.com/f/pm8th-help-me-and-my-family-please

https://www.gofundme.com/f/save-the-life-of-an-innocent-child

https://www.gofundme.com/f/empower-olas-pursuit-of-education-amid-crisis

https://www.gofundme.com/f/4qzqg-help-a-family-from-gaza

https://www.gofundme.com/f/gor-en-skillnad-for-gaza-varje-krona-raknas (IMPORTANT: 5€ is 57 SEK as of now, so please donate accordingly)

https://www.gofundme.com/f/Stand-With-AlBalawi-Family

https://www.gofundme.com/f/help-my-family-to-live-and-go-to-a-safe-place

https://www.gofundme.com/f/save-my-daughter-to-leave-gaza

https://www.gofundme.com/f/support-mohis-fight-for-survival-in-gaza

https://www.gofundme.com/f/be-the-reason-to-save-a-family-in-gaza

https://www.gofundme.com/f/help-doaa-rebuild-her-sewing-business

[swanshapedheart]

Poorlittlekoi’s statement

Disclaimer. I, the poster, am not Koi

I am someone putting her thoughts and response to her situation into the public as I was encouraged to do so. I feel it is also necessary to bring this up as well.

I do not want to be affiliated with controversy any further.

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“this whole situation has messed with my head to the point where i cant even send a text to most people without worrying they are gonna leak it or use it against me in the future,, svlvnsore was just bored and found me really annoying shown in screenshot one…. not only that they also called me out for heavily referencing or tracing when they reposted an artpiece thats doing the same thing. Svlvn said they are on my ass because i didnt credit who i referenced, when the person they reposted didnt do the same either proof in screenshot two three and four. Another thing i caught on to is that they SPECIFICALLY said they didnt care that i self harmed or did horrible things to myself when they posted about me. i have anxiety, i overthink! of course im going to do bad things to myself, im mentally unwell. proof in screenshot 5… and for screenshot 6, this is only an assumption, but saying that svlvn "didnt know" is something that really throws me off. when someone makes a callout post on someone else, there will OBVIOUSLY be harassment. thats just my thought, i feel like they knew what they were doing since him and his bf arent very good people either. especially holding onto old dms and gathering them up to use it against me, when they could have handled the situation privately with me, rather than hide it behind my back.

all of this could have been prevented if they handled it differently, and that goes for me as well.

im fully aware im in the wrong, but these people are wrong in some places too. and i want people to realize that.

many artists in tcc trace, reference, all the time. i dont understand why im slandered for heavily referencing something, not tracing. theres proof of an artist doing this FROM THE ORIGINAL ARTIST BTW in my dms right now but i dont get them involved

am i handling this situation immaturely? maybe, but arent they doing the same by harassing me? absolutely.

when it comes to someone being racist/homophobic, people feel the need to harass this person to make them feel worse about what they did. this isnt how you handle a situation. harassing someone to the point they attempt suicide is just as bad as what i did, possibly even worse.

now i have recover slowly until i have the chance to even feel comfortable with myself again. i understand what i said and did was wrong, and im sitting here attempting to change and apologize to the people ive offended and hurt, but throwing that apology under the rug and making it seem like im guilt tripping is ridiculous.

so they cant say i didnt try to apologize, but nobody is guaranteed to accept my apology and thats okay. but putting it out there as if im guilt tripping when im giving reasons why i said it is not even giving me a chance to change

when it comes to growing up with a HUGE racist family, these words and beliefs become apart of my vocabulary and thoughts. its very hard to change that especially when i was always told "its just a word" and i hear it daily! growing up with these slurs has become so normal for me to say it just slips out with no worry, but ofc im seen as guilt tripping when i say this.

its different for each person, i saw a comment saying they grew up in a southern family and they dont say it, but thats them, not me.

people at school and during family events would peer pressure me into saying this slurs multiple times because they found it "funny." i slowly believed that as well.

i was a young teen being taught the wrong things, and seeing other people in tcc say it made me feel like i should say it as well to fit in and be edgy, since thats what the community is like

this situation is another lesson for me to learn, but other people in it need to learn that harassing someone isnt okay, either. especially when im trying to change, it doesnt make it any easier.”

[sanjisboyfie]

one piece smau: dating vivi edition

— IM AWARE SOME OF THESE HAVE RLLY BAD BLUE EDITTED HAIR BUT I WANTED TO TRY IT OUT AND SEE HOW IT WAS 😭

— a little different because its still modern au but i wanted to go with teh idea that vivi was still royalty and reader is her rlly hot bf that the public likes, but tabloids hot bc they dont think hes good enough for her ... whatever that trope is im a sucker for so thats why i made it this way

— male reader B)

liked by king[name], igaram, ttchopper, and 530k others

queenvivi: visited drum island <3

tagged: king[name]

dni_nami: popcrave is gonna love this onneee cuz u look so good here vivi !!

-> queenvivi: thank u nami, i miss u sm !

-> uso_pp: popcrave jus posted on twitter "queen vivi slays in recent photo, shocking the entire country"

king[name]: WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU'RE MY GIRLFRIEND ???I FEEL SICK TO MY STOMACH YOU'RE SO BEAUTIFUL

freeluffy: vivi when r u going to visit us :////

[liked by princesanji, dni_nami, and 70 others]

king[name]: DO YOU NEED A PET? DO YOU NEED A DOG? I'LL BE A GOOD PET FOR U MY QUEEN

-> queenvivi: ??? babe i'm gonna change your password very soon

-> king[name]: WOOF WOOF WOOOOF

-> dni_nami: this why the media hates u [name]

liked by pell, queenvivi, and 70k others

king[name]: will go to as many boring royalty events if it means im by her side <3

tagged: queenvivi

randomroyallyobsessedfan: UGH THEY'RE SO CUTE I LOVE THEM I CANT WAIT FOR THEM TO GET MARRIED

queenvivi: you're so handsome in all of these, im the luckiest woman in the world

roro.zoro: can't you get into a lot of trouble with literally every country for complaining abt this???

-> king[name]: proof?

-> roro.zoro: mf wtf do u mean proof??? THE PROOF IS RIGHT IN THIS POST

igaram: i'm going to murder this dumbass boy.

-> king[name]: oooh im telling on you to miss terracota

[liked queenvivi, dni_nami, and 100 others]

princesanji: i can't believe they make queen vivi cover her blue hair for these events, they are suffocating her natural beauty </333

liked by dni_nami, freeluffy, and 103k others

deuxmoi: do you guys remember when vivi and [name] started dating? the royal couple are everyone's favorite pair !! happy four years to the two of them, to many more in the future to the cutest couple in the worllddd!!! p.s. honestly thank god for [name] because we got to see vivi in his iconic leather jacket, hello?! she looks so good!!

tagged: king[name] and queenvivi

randomroyallyobsessedfan: atp if he doesnt propose to her i will

-> anotherrandom: if she doesnt marry him atp i will

uso_pp: its crazy we r literally friends with the queen of a whole country

-> freeluffy: no we are BEST friends with vivi, usopp :DDD

[liked by queenvivi, king[name], and 200 others]

ttchopper: i remember when they first met, vivi was a blushing mess the entire time

-> queenvivi: please do not remind me. its so embarassing chopper.

-> king[name]: my own girlfriend is embarassed of me </3

princesanji: it should have been ME

-> king[name]: you're a fraud dni w me thanks xoxo

liked by robinkills, king[name], and 450k others

queenvivi: what lana said that one time

tagged: king[name]

dni_nami: i pyo to that song where is my credit

king[name]: stop i am NOT a serial killer the tabloids r gonna have a field day w this reference pls

-> uso_pp: if hes a serial killer then whats the worst that could happen to a girl thats already hurt. im alreayd huurutttt

[liked by queenvivi, king[name], and 200 others]

igaram: QUEEN VIVI BLINK TWICE IF U NEED HELP

-> pell: i'm going to confiscate your phone, she is fine. please relax igaram.

liked by queenvivi, princesanji, and 200k others

king[name]: alexa play seven by jungkook EXPLICITY VERSION. EXPLICIT VERSION. EXPLICITY VERSION.

tagged: queenvivi

robinkills: it's like [name] wants to get banned from seeing vivi again

-> king[name]: the entire country trying to keep me out will not stop me from seeing my beautiful girlfriend

dni_nami: seriously??? of all songs???

-> king[name]: its the way that you can ride its the way that you can ride

-> dni_nami: PLEASE SHUT TH EFUCK UP

-> queenvivi: babe please stop i can't keep explaining these references to my father he might kill you

-> king[name]: LEAVE YOU WITH THAT AFTERGLOOOWWWW

roro.zoro: 3d a better song but alright

-> uso_pp: the way you couldn't be more wrong???

king[name]'s story

i would lay down my life to protect this woman form any harm to come her way, some of you simply will NEVER understand

queenvivi replied to your story: i love you so much, let's stay in tmrw to relax

[evaskjew]

I'm trying something for fandom artists/writers

Well, as I don't have anyone to tag (I'm really the least sociable person in the world and I'm too scared to talk to people in the fandom 😂), it's up to those who see this post to participate or not (if it turns out that it's not going to take at all, but never mind!)

Well, as my thing is drawing, I'll go with that (but you can adapt it to writing for those who write, or anything else for that matter!)

Last drawing:

Favourite drawing:

Well, I'm cheating, I'm putting two in because I can't choose 😖 On the one hand it's my best pastel drawing (to say it's also my second realistic portrait in colour) and on the other the painting I did with my grandmother and it's also the first time I've done anything other than a portrait in realistic drawing with a background and so on.

Hated drawing:

Right, then. Here again it's hard to put just one. I'm VERY hard on myself and I hate almost all my drawings 🥲 But really, if I have to choose, there are three that I really can't see any more because I find them so horrible.

Future project(s):

Following the poll, I'm going to start working on a new portrait of Garreth.

Next up, why not draw Ominis again (I've taken several in-game screenshots of him that I'd like to do to work on the backgrounds) and I'd also like to draw characters I haven't drawn yet, like Natsai or Amit.

And maybe one day, when I'm bored because I can't find any more images to use as models, I might draw some MCs from in-game screenshots.

And apart from drawing, I'd like to finish writing my OS by the end of the year 😂

Favourite artist:

There are far too many talented people in fandom ❤️

But without hesitation I'd say @tamayula-hl! Long before I dared to post my drawings online, I admired her work so much and even today I jump on every notification as soon as she posts! I know I'll never reach her level but her work is a source of inspiration and motivation (even more so now that I've switched to watercolour and I'm still trying to figure out how to work with colours, the way she works with colour is so incredible 🥰)

And I can't thank her enough for her post showing all the possible angles for Ominis' and Sebastian's hairs, it was so helpful 🙏🏻

And I admire @choccy-milky too! These are the two fandom artists I've been following since I started on Tumblr a little over a year ago 😄

One or few points on which I would like to improve:

First of all, I've managed to stop transferring the outlines of my drawings. Yes, it's a bit cheating to transfer, I know. But if I don't do it, the proportions are going to be catastrophic and that's going to piss me off (long live my perfectionism) and I'm going to stop and stubborn as I am coupled with my lack of self-confidence, I'm never going to want to draw again. So for the time being, we're going to keep tracing 😅 We'll see what happens in time.

But most of all, I'd like to stop depending on images I find on Pinterest or Tumblr and just reproduce them as drawings. I'm incapable of doing anything other than faithfully reproducing an image 😢 It annoys me, because I'd also like to post lots of drawings of my MC Evangeline interacting with other characters 😞 And the worst thing is the difference in my drawing level when I do something that doesn't depend on a reference image! (the proof: my drawings of Evangeline and this drawing of Ominis)

I took it upon myself while writing this post and forced myself to do a drawing of Evangeline in 20 minutes without a model (I just traced a neutral pose from a drawing dummy to have my base and improvised from my watercolour of Evangeline for her outfit).

You be the judge:

The end of her leg and her shoe is a disaster 😭

Well, that's that. I don't know how it's going to turn out and whether any artists/writers are going to take part, but it was a fun post to make!

[bumpscosity]

Here’s the blank background bc I rly like it:

And here’s some more insight to my choices:

In addition to the challenges I listed above I also tried my best to cast everyone as actors who were the same race as the character which I had some trouble with in some cases Geeta but it was really fun to go down voice actor rabbit holes looking for people who fit the bill :O another thing I was keen on was not looking for EXACT character matches, but looking for SUPER close voices who had VAs that I think would be perfect fits. Also tried not to cast everyone based on performances from one piece of media (no shade to ppl who’s entire voice claims lists are just ppl from danganrompa or whatever I just wanted to challenge myself) but I kinda failed step 1 bc I have so many ppl who were in avatar LMAO

Arven - I spent DAYS trying to find someone who worked for him and in the end I’d say this is maybe 90% correct, I think his voice is a little deeper but tbh I think Taylor Gray could do it.

Nemona - i havent seen anything with Aimee Carrero in it in literal YEARS but the SECOND I saw nemona in game my first thought was adora’s voice, I always try to avoid type-casting but in this case it isn’t just “the characters have similar personalities” the voice truly fits imo.

Penny - i feel like everyone else thinks Penny’s voice is WAY higher pitched than I think it is, Like yeah voices like dendy from okko’s work on a little frog girl but Penny’s like. 16. I think she’s a lot more monotone and sarcastic than people give her credit for. Bex Taylor-Klaus (Pidge from Voltron) was also in the running but I think Rae Gray fits just a tad better.

Clavell - when looking for Clavell’s voice I realized there aren’t NEARLY enough weird old guys in media where are they. Pretty happy with my choice, I think he could pull off his weirdness (I haven’t decided if it would be funnier if Clive has some weird horrible fake accent or if he just sounds exactly like Clavell so take your pick on that one)

Sada - I played violet so I was a little nervous casting for a character I know literally nothing about but I DO know she’s a hot lady and you know who else is a hot lady? Kya tlok.

Turo - Reddit Incel who’s voice claim is The Tumblr Sexyman was too funny for me to pass up, one of the most unrealistic claim here for sure but I don’t care that’s what he sounds like to me <3

Dendra - i don’t even remember the rabbit hole I went down to find cass from tangled, I’ve literally never watched the show but the second I heard her voice I was like “THERES DENDRA WAHOO”. While looking for dendra voice claim I found Eri’s too so that was fun :O

Hassel - all I knew going into this voice search was that he needed to sound like he could burst into dramatic tears at any moment and Sidon checked that box. I don’t really know why I feel like he has a german accent but it just works.

Jacq - he already has a canon voice, I couldn’t find his VA (I could only find the VA of the other character from the ad) but apparently others don’t like this voice, I think it’s perfect tho <3

Miriam - source: trust me Miriam’s my wife /j for reals I almost added that I think she has a light australian accent but in my head it’s so light it’s barely noticeable so I left it out.

Raifort - I STILL need to watch toh but I watched a lot of clips looking for voices for all these characters, I’m not really sure why I feel like Elizabeth Grullon’s voice fits but imo it fits like a glove.

Saguro - going back to Clavell’s notes WHERE ARE ALL THE WEIRD OLD MEN IN MEDIA??? Anyways I’ve seen exactly 2 episodes of jjba but after looking around for a voice for a while with no luck joseph popped into my head and I BOLTED to get voice examples bc he’s EXACTLY the voice I was picturing

Salvatore - I think I spent the most time out of everyone looking for his voice, I think it was about 3 days? (Granted I wasn’t spending every hour of every day looking for his voice but it was still a long time) I ended up going down a HUGE rabbit hole of media ive never heard of and people who I’ve never seen and ended up at Conrad Haynes. It goes to show that it’s worth it to put the time into searching bc his voice is near PERFECT (needs that feench accent tho…)

Tyme - originally I was gonna have tyme and ryme both voiced by Uzo Aduba until I found out that they weren’t twins??? I LOVE the movie meet the robinsons so originally Mildred from that film was gonna be my voice of choice, until I looked at what else she was in and realized Dorthea Williams was EVEN MORE perfect. Love you Amelia Bassett <3

Atticus - Atticus was a PAIN to cast bc I’m STILL not sure how old he is. Is he 16? Is he 56? Who knows. Eclair Cookie works but I’m only like 70% happy with it? I haven’t been able to find someone who fits better tho. Fun fact Zeno Robinson (Eclair’s VA) has already been in pokemon a TON of times so I broke my own rule a little here.

Eri - I feel like a lot of people think eri’s voice is WAY deeper than I think it is, I see a lot of grenda (gravity falls) voice claims going around and I just think that’s TOO deep. Like I said in the dendra portion I actually thought of Eva first for her before realizing her voice fit eri WAY better.

Giacomo - all i knew looking for a voice for him was that he had a new york or boston accent (if I could picture the voice saying “AYE IM WALKIN HERE” than i knew it wasn’t right /hj) so ofc my first thought was scout. This was one of my shortest searches for a voice for a character who I didn’t immediately have a solid idea for when reading their dialouge, it took like less than a half hour LMAO

Mela - hearing a specific voice in my head paid off for this one, it took me a while to figure out where the voice was from but once I figured out it was suki I had a category 5 eureka moment.

Ortega - I didn’t even have to read his dialogue to pinpoint his voice literally the second I saw him for the first time in a cutscene I KNEW he was gonna be Alexander James Rodriguez. fun fact this actually made me get around to watching lazy in space, pretty good show 8/10

Brassius - i sat there going down voice rabbit holes looking for his voice and then randomly the Shamboozle clip came up in my YouTube recommended and it’s like Brassius’s design was made around mega knight voice.

Grusha - before anyone gets on me I KNOW grusha is a guy and Avi Roque is nb but when I was listening to toh clips to find other characters voices Raine’s stuck out to me as EXACTLY how grusha sounds in my head (minus the russian accent). I think grusha can be little a nb. as a treat.

Iono - I really thought when I went looking for sv voice claims that tiny tina iono would be like. The norm. It apparently isn’t and I’m an outlier here but tina SOUNDS like she has sharp teeth Ashly Burch could make iono everyone’s fav in the anime

Katy - after I cast her (which was a funny casting because I’ve never seen fim I just stumbled upon her because the only character with a southern accent I could think of was applejack so I assumed her family probably had it too LMAO) I went and looked at other casting and I’ve seen her katy voice claims of like. 4 different mlp characters why did we all decide she’s a pony

Larry - THE ENTIRE REASON I DID THIS. Why do you all think he sounds like some sexy emo anime twink???? Before I even knew he was a GYM LEADER and he was just sitting there at the bar I pictured him sounding like the pixies. That spiraled me into thinking “If that’s uncommon than will people get how I think the rest of them sound without examples??” So I did This. Seriously where are you guys getting emo boy from he’s like 50 LMAO

Kofu - my immediate thought seeing him for the first time was mr krabs. It never changed the entire time I played. Looked around and it turns out most ppl don’t even think he has a pirate voice. vaultin veluza.

Ryme - I’m still not sure why Udo Aduba was my first thought but it’s not changing any time soon she has such RANGE she could def pull off Rymes intensity.

Tulip - tulips voice was so specific in my head only to realize it was bc i heard the voice thru my entire childhood. Cleo and tulip are both the “posh popular girl who I think is really annoying and unlikable even tho the entire rest of the fanbase likes them” type of people so this is very much a type cast but also I think her voice fits UNGODLY well.

Geeta - Geeta was a PAIN to cast bc I essentially ran out of voice rabbit holes to go down. I think Jen Cohn is pretty accurate though, authoritative but not angry yknow.

Poppy - another near instant casting the second I saw her. I grew up with tawog so I think little girl who’s incredibly smart for being like 4 and I think anais.

Rika - a VERY tough casting to wrap things up, I can usually pinpoint a voice that I know that’s a little close to how I think they sound but for Rika I had nothing, I know Wendy (gravity falls) is a popular take but it was a Close But No Cigar situation. I still need to watch chainsaw man but i heard this character and saw their intro scene and was like. Yeah that’s about right.

my pokemon sv voice claims!

Challenged myself to only cast ppl who have done voice work before and to mostly cast ppl who haven’t been in Pokémon before and for the most part they’re SUPER close to how they sound in my head

[punemy-spotted]

Iris - Chapter 1

Chapter 1: The Devil Wears a Suit and Tie

Pairing: SoftDark!Devil!Helmut Zemo x Sky-Captain!Reader

Warnings: Cosmic Horror; Dubious Consent; Dubious Morality; Estranged Relationship; Zemo and Reader are not in the Good Place; THIS IS A HORROR FIC; Soul Stealing; Incredibly Loose Relationship with Physics; This is a Fallen London x Marvel Crossover Moment; There are Space Bees; And Giant Lovestruck Space Crabs; Violence; Murder; Death; Poison; At Least One Reference to a Garrote; Estranged Relationship; Dead Dove: Do Not Eat

PLEASE REMEMBER THAT YOUR CONSUMPTION OF MEDIA IS YOUR OWN RESPONSIBILITY AND IF YOU ARE UNCOMFORTABLE WITH THE CONTENT THAT IS BEING PRESENTED, PLEASE DO NOT READ

Chapter Summary: Sokovia rose, then fell, and then rose again. And now the stars will never be the same.

Notes: Hi, welcome, I really wanted to write an MCU crossover with the Fallen London 'verse so here we are. Imagine House of M except Wanda Maximoff became an actual factual God and it actually wasn't that bad after all. And now imagine all of that is background noise in favor of one unhinged Devil and one overly hinged Epistolarian. An Intrepid Epistolarian.

Oh also Wanda's waging war against Queen Victoria. It's fine.

For those of you who have read my other Zemo fics, finished and unfinished, if you notice similarities between this fic and the other ones... yes. I am Frankenstein trying to raise this fanfiction monster and put scenes, passages, and themes to better use than languishing in my Ao3/Tumblr cupboard. (Also if you've read my other fics, hi, hello, I love you.)

I crave feedback, so tell me what you think!

All of my work is 18+ Only, Minors DO NOT INTERACT. I do not consent to my work being posted anywhere besides Tumblr or Ao3 and I post my work there myself. Do not copy, translate, or repost any of my content.

The First taught Restraint, and the Second Betrayed. The Third taught us Hunger and the Fourth we Remade. The Fifth will live on in the Heart of the Sun but the Sixth did quickly Fade. The Seventh City will never Fall, never ending the Deal we made.

She kept some of the old names when she took this place, you know. Built onto it, even when her Renewed Empress had to bend the knee to the Scarlet One, sealed away in her undying mausoleum.

The Proclaimers of the Cult of the Sanctified, still seated at the Avid Horizon’s High Gate and whispering Truths to their counterparts on the other side, were right — the Seventh City would never fall; the Bazaar would never be compelled to deliver that fatal missive to that Beacon of Bright Betrayal it loved so much; there would be no opportunity to argue that Seven Cities worth of love is proof enough of Her Worthy Love.

If there is one thing you know about opportunities, it is that they are also opportunities to fail.

The long tradition of the Duchy of Sokovia — that Bulwark which once stood the test of time against even the Tsars of Russia — is not what it once was. There is, in fact, no such thing as Sokovia now, not the way you would think. There are Sokovian people, clinging to an identity lest it be lost in the abyss below, but all that remains of the Earthly land which remembered the Duchy’s history with the joint Empires of Austria and Hungary is now nothing more than a chasm of stone and steel.

A monument to violent delights in want of violent ends.

Cast your eyes not to the ruins of her past but to the gleaming future written in the stars ab—

The sound of a train whistle drowns out what remains of the tinned announcement, an earsplitting shriek you endure for what feels like forever, but is in fact — if the clock before you is accurate — no more than two minutes. Which — as it turns out — is plenty of time to interrupt the announcement’s conclusion and leave ringing silence in its wake.

Good. You were rather tired of hearing your own voice drone on any longer.

You turn your head away from the train schedule you had previously been pretending to occupy your mind with, watching the rails with mild impatience and fidgeting with your gloves.

He is late.

It’s not abnormal, really, for the more independent locomotives — those not on the Scarlet Empress’s own payroll, that is — to run on their own definition of time, but you’ve never known your contact to be anything more than a man of his word.

When you’ve properly interpreted his words, that is.

No matter. You have the luxury of time. Collecting your luggage takes little effort — a rather bulging handbag and a briefcase is not so terrible compared to the crates of fuel, souls, and hours you see being carted around you — as you step briskly towards the more busting central parts of port. The station itself has seen better days, almost empty save for a handful of dock-workers and the occasional Employee making sure the schedule runs on time, but as you pass through an open archway into the city proper, they seem eager to resume whatever activity they might otherwise have abandoned for your intrusive presence.

NORTH.

How did it happen? Was it prophecy — or maybe some mad interpretation of the scream-whispers of Distant Polythreme, a vision of the Garden — that led the Proclaimers to make their rhyme, completing the riddle and speaking for the Masters themselves?

Something must have rung true to the Masters, for them to solve the riddle.

Novi Grad rose, then fell. Fell until it could fall no further, until there was nothing left of decades of history but ash and blood for the ghosts of her denizens to wander through. Until there was nothing for the Masters and their bats to drag to cavernous depths.

So she, in her infinite tragedy and infinite pain, became the solution.

Your tea, madame. You look up from your scribbling absently, glancing briefly up at the server and then feeling your polite smile immediately fade off your face.

Must you always play games?

Helmut Zemo stands before you with a perfectly placid smile on his cruelly handsome face, So lovely to see you again, sweetling, and you’re quite welcome for the tea.

You narrowly avoid the temptation to roll your eyes, closing your journal and placing the cap on your pen, its nib glimmering venomously in the candlelight, You are late. A casual accusation, one he dismisses with an easy wave of his hand, just before seating himself before you and stealing a biscuit from your place.

And you are impatient. Surely this must mean you have missed me, little bird. If he notices the way you flinch at the sweetname, struggling to compose yourself before you manage to settle on sternness, he does not say.

You have faced worse things than Helmut Zemo, you know. Worse than the ache that slices through your heart when you look at him and his easy smile, the one you might have fallen in love with once again, if you forgot yourself.

You will not.

Instead, you breathe, letting the heavy air in your lungs out slowly as you tug the fingers of your glove until the whole thing is loose enough to be removed entirely.

You always hated getting biscuit crumbs on your whisper-satin fineries.

You asked me to meet you here, Helmut, a fact which he seems to dismiss with another too-sharp smile, eyes flickering over you.

It burns. Licking over the neckline of your dress before moving down to the delicate pearl buttons that hold shut your bodice, heat rising over the thin lace collar wrapped around your throat, and you wonder idly how often he fines pleasure in watching people struggle to breathe and die.

I’m told you have been busy, he tells you flatly, practiced hand snapping his biscuit in half before dipping one perfect semi-circle into the cup of tea he’d placed in front of you, Too busy, it seems, to inform your husband of your whereabouts.

The knifeblade edge of his voice is enough, slipping past the plates of armor you always try to wrap around yourself every time you agree to meet him, his joyless smile the barbs he leaves in your heart, ensuring it will bleed for him for a few months more after your eventual parting.

The first time he’d touched your cheek in the shadow of a clockwork sun while you wept, his lips ghosting  your skin, you nearly fell to your knees at his feet.

That should have been the last time you would ever see him, as he whispered sweet nothings and sweeter promises in a language you did not speak, burning intention into your skin and leaving you forever bound, words falling from his lips like a waterfall.

The third time you met Helmut Zemo, you cried. And the fourth. And the fifth.

You refuse to meet his eyes, smoothing out the wrinkles in your gown with trembling hands, Is this what you came to remind me?

He does not stop smiling, even as you make note of the uneasy tension sitting on his shoulders, the vicious gleam in his eyes as he continues his visual examination of your countenance, tea soaked biscuit melting idly on his tongue.

Yes, it is.

You should be grateful for his honesty — Devils rarely are, after all.

He continues before you have a chance to consider it, How much farther do you plan to run from this place, sweetling, before time returns you back to me?

You wish he wouldn’t call you sweetling.

You haven’t been sweet in a thousand years.

But that’s beside the point, isn’t it? He already knows that, anyway.

Though you suppose that maybe you ought to tell him about something he doesn’t know.

Why did you call me here, Helmut?

Why does any man call his wife back to the port where they parted last? I missed you.

You swallow thickly, avoiding the unyielding blade of his sharp-eyed gaze and even sharper smile, refusing to let your heart leap out to him as it aches to do, You are lying, Helmut, you accuse, pretending to busy yourself with the biscuits he brought to your table.

As always, as you should have expected, he only grins at you — a cruel, twisted grimace that makes your stomach twist not-wholly-unpleasantly — before reaching out and brushing his knuckles over your cheek, Would you let me lie, little bird?

I certainly hope you don’t expect an honest answer to that question.

His laugh is as sharp as his smile, a huff of bemusement you recall bringing you happiness before, a long time ago.

Now it reminds you of the taste of poison, of bile curling in the back of your throat, of blood and metal and the screaming agony of time stretched to its very limit.

The silence too, stretches between you, taut as the wires you would wrap around your palms to cut through cheese and impertinent throats, waiting for you to finally surrender and rise to your feet, gather your things and bid him as formal a goodbye as you’ll allow yourself — always just out of reach, I have no intention of playing games, Helmut, you challenge with the same tone of voice you might use to scold the Empress’s misbehaving sons, If you refuse to do me the courtesy of your honest, then do me the gift of your absence.

He watches you, eyes glimmering amber with insult, but does not dishonor you enough to reach out, There was a time, little bird, when you loved me without such reservation.

The words burn across your skin like living fire, your vows and his molded together in a single remembered sigil, a bond forced with the very language of Judgment, unbidden agony scorching your composure as you make a desperate, futile attempt to push away the memory; his voice soft, the low timbre of his accent sliding over your ears like honey in your mouth, gentle lips on yours as he sealed your fate with a kiss, I have memorized you like a prayer.

You could almost have forgotten he was a liar, standing lost in your memories as you are, forgotten the price of promise and the weight of truth.

Almost.

The tears burn at the backs of your eyes, but you blink them back, let bone grind against bone before, More fool I, then, for thinking you did the same.

You turn to walk towards the door, four sovereigns in hand to pay for your meal — interrupted though it has been — making a concentrated effort to not look back, even as you hear his voice cutting through the otherwise silent room, When everything goes wrong, it is a terrible burden to bear alone, don’t you think?

You cannot help yourself, can you? Shoulders slumping as you declare a reluctant defeat and turn to face him, swearing your heart has lit aflame.

You cannot ignore His Law forever, little bird.

You know nothing of responsibility, Helmut, your voice is cold as the icy expanse beyond the warm walls of Novi Grad station, still aching to leave and frustrated by your uncooperative feet.

There’s a twitch at the corner of his lips, amusement sparking in his own eyes, And what of you, little bird, what have you learned of responsibility since your escape from Perdurance?

You visibly flinch, the name sparking an endless array of horror and memories within you, just as his expression falls into uncharacteristic regret.

Nothing, clearly, you reply hollowly, words bitter on the back of your teeth, Much to your pleasure, I think.

That wounds him, to your surprise, hurt painting his face before he controls his features and buries both regret and rage beneath a placid mask, Infinite freedom is as tight a prison as an opulent cage, on occasion.

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[maybetomoko]

little analysis on chapter 236

There are so many things to say that I honestly wouldn't know where to start. I've always said and pointed out that Gojo, for reasons I've never actually specified, is my favourite character. So it's reductive to say that this chapter was rather… shocking. Yes, I said shocking. I could go on forever about how dissatisfied I am but this sadness of mine will focus on another post I may write in the future. However, I don't think I am the only person who has a reasonable suspicion that this is not the real end of Gojo. It should be pointed out that there are still too many questions without any answers and it is a little too strange that a character like him dies in such a sudden way that leaves me quite doubtful. There are many, many theories circulating on the internet explaining a probable 'resurrection' and to my amazement, for once the theories circulating are consistent because they are based on the facts of the original manga. So for the time being, I can hold out hope that there will be a better ending for Gojo.

Now I don't want to go on talking about hypotheses and subjective opinions because I wrote this post to talk about something else. But what exactly do I want to talk about? The truth. I'm going to analyse and make the facts obvious, so what the original manga shows us.

From now on, there will be no more room for "in my opinion" or "I think that…"

I'll start right away with the sentence that made me want to write this post.

“After all you never cared about keeping sorcery going, or protecting people”. There is no more false sentence.

First of all, Gojo has always cared about sorcery and he cares so much that he wants to change the sorcerer world from within (he states this several times). But what leaves me most confused is the continuation: 'or protecting people'. I honestly don't know why a character who normally embraces the truth like Nanami would say this, but I know for sure that it doesn't correspond to reality. The reality is that Gojo has indeed saved several people, he has saved people who were difficult to save. Yes, he wants to help and save. Yuji, Yuta are the living examples. If you've read Jjk 0 and are well into the manga there's no need to explain anything and there's also no need to mention when Gojo in a way saved Megumi too. Megumi himself claims that he is his benefactor. First of all he rescued him from the Zen’in clan (it is easy not to get along with the Zen'in) but even if he had not been sold to the Zen'in clan, Gojo saved him and his sister from an unknown fate. Let's remember that it was Megumi and Tsumiki who had to live for a time without parents and with money left over. Should I continue or stop?

No, I'm not stopping, not yet. "That he has saved many a sorcerer." That's a sentence that needs no further explanation, right? What is the problem with being selfish when you can save someone's life with your selfishness?

Also 'I will nurture them… strong and clever allies. Nobody will ever need to be alone again' is interesting, because it is yet more proof that Nanami is wrong. Here Gojo's intention (he does not only refer to Geto) is always and same: to help and or save all those who will be there in the future and need help -> thus Gojo-sensei.

Gojo perhaps with his character and his way of acting and doing never gave a good impression to Nanami and consequently I can understand why Nanami and also Haibara have a somewhat inaccurate opinion. But opinions are opinions and there are situations where opinions do not correspond with reality. This is one of those situations, no doubt.

[snowdust64]

『 No Reason. 』 English translation

Artist: VΔLZ Original lyrics: Sekimen Translation by Snowdust64 ______________________

Attention readers - This post contains only the verse-by-verse translation; I posted the romanized lyrics separately so they could be available sooner.

Words typed in all-caps were originally in English and have been preserved. Additional notes at the bottom. ______________________

Oi, still trembling are you? A cut-out SOUL LIKE A huge blaze Sharpening gaze  This isn’t a charity From here on it’s a paid PLAN, IT’S OK

Don’t make me laugh   Humor Everything conveyed  Revelation I hear it coming, MAYDAY WIPE OUT already TIME UP The one who intercepts it quickly ascends skyward

Move outta the way  How you feeling?  WHAT’S UP? Genius shut-in, I’m idle Well hey, won’t you yield to me? What a pain, I don’t want to talk anymore

With piercing stares, a three-way deadlock  [1] The triad of flowers gathers here now Gathers to aim for the throne ruling this frenzied world

WANNA KNOW WHY. NO REASON. There’s something I have to convey The shattered pieces are the only proof WANNA KNOW WHY. NO REASON. To the point of my voice drying up, for a far, far distance I’ve kept on running

Struggling to aim high, looks like it’s even HIGHer Raising my hopes, still in my unstoppable era Seems I haven’t forgotten those painful feelings The showdown continues

KEEEEEEP! Vision’s good FLOW,  surrender, escape Now, let’s go, partner The greatest circumvention Be careful of your surroundings

It’s not a ONE SIDE GAME is it? Faceless mob? That can’t be right WAKE UP, RISE UP COME ON, to the greatest STAGE

PLEASE TELL ME Can you see it? Can you hear the cheering voices? DON’T BE AFRAID TO LOSE

Gathering once more, a three-way deadlock Now begins the battle of blue mayhem  [2] Aim for glory and for the future Know the reason why you sit atop the throne

WANNA KNOW WHY. NO REASON. There are things I’ve lost as well The shattered pieces are Miracles of tears WANNA KNOW WHY. NO REASON. To the point of my voice drying up, from a far, far distance I kept on running

WANNA KNOW WHY. NO REASON. There’s something I have to convey The shattered pieces are the only proof WANNA KNOW WHY. NO REASON. To the point of my voice drying up, for a far, far distance I’ve kept on running

Struggling to aim high, looks like it’s even higher Raising my hopes, still in my unstoppable era Seems I haven’t forgotten those painful feelings After all, I’m still running on Right now, there are things that cannot be fulfilled And there are moments when I can’t breathe But I can’t rest my feet This is the showdown to that end

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Translation notes.

[1] ‘sansukumi’ is an idiom referring to a three-way stalemate where each party has one stronger opponent and one weaker opponent, and therefore no one can win overall. An easy example is if you play rock-paper-scissor in a group of three, and all three options are thrown.

[2] I couldn’t find any other example of the phrase ‘aoki souran’ which directly translated to “blue mayhem,” so I assume this is a poetic metaphor for VΔLZ as a group.

Disclaimer: I am not a native Japanese speaker, and this song has a ton of word play... If you notice any misinterpretations, please let me know so I can fix it!!!

[acourtofthought]

listen you have no idea how much I appreciate you!! How you always have an answer to everything those bitches (I'm sorry I'm at my limits) have to say that makes absolutely zero sense. And how they always want to stir some shit to get a rise out of us so they can say "hey look they're rude to us :(" but you always answer with certainty and respect unlike some ppl (even tho we have so many SS from them telling us to k*ll ourselves)

But I hope you're looking out for yourself. Bc me personally can't handle them. I can't deal with stupidity and argue with a grown ass person who feels like arguing with a wall, incapable of changing for an ounce and act all childish. I know how tiring and harmful it can be.

I and so many others have read enough sjm books to know who will be the next couples of the series and I really think the only thing that will make the shut the fuck up is waiting for the next book confirmation. Time will tell.

Thank you for the check in ❤️

Honestly, I have it easy compared to some of the other peoples experiences on here so it's not fair for me to complain. And it's on me for engaging with some of the stuff they put up because I am capable of turning my head and leaving it be.

Which I usually do because I don't go searching for their posts. However I do occasionally check my "Your Tags" section and the Elucien / Lucien tags were used in a clearly Anti Elucien post. This isn't the first time this week I've seen it happen across the fandom so the repeated behavior tends to spike my argumentative side and that in of itself is childish to a degree but at times it feels like you want the other side to be heard too, you know? They go around shouting the loudest thinking it means they have something on us, more proof of something, and I guess something about that feels unfair to me.

It's always canon this and canon that for them while ignoring all the other canon that exists. Being selective with canon is going to be the thing to bite them in the ass in the end because these books are not just what happens when Elain and Az are on page together. They definitely don't like "canon" when it tells us Az hasn't thought of a future with Elain. They don't like canon when the thought of Gwyn's happiness sparked something in his chest.

And SJM doesn't talk about all the little hints and crumbs she laid out for Elain's journey only for some in the fandom to think that the things that are wide out in the open (like Az and Elain wanting to kiss) are the full picture. Feyre saying, "why not make them mates?" wouldn't be a crumb or a hint, that would be SJM leaving nothing to the imagination. A crumb is something like "what can I get you Elain?" "Sunshine", then later revealing that her mate is the heir to Day. Or "Spring had been made for someone like her" in reference to Elain and later being told Lucien is permanently being stationed there. Crumbs are SJMs way of laying out the mystery of what's going to happen and she wants the reader to be clever enough to spot them. Thinking Elain has no interest in Lucien and it's clear she wants Az because she was willing to hook up with him and currently ignores Lucien doesn't take any sort of genius to figure out. But a clever reader who look a little deeper to see if maybe the "obvious" isn't really so obvious at all, that there is more going on beyond what we're seeing.

But you're right, there's no point in arguing. It doesn't matter how logical your response is, it doesn't matter how much proof you can provide based on past endgame couples and how that means Elucien (while not a guarantee) is not a lost cause, they don't want to hear it. They want to only fixate on the moments that support E/riel and nothing that possibly throws a wrench in that ship and that's like trying to talk to someone about a movie where they only stepped into the room every 20 - 30 minutes, catching 5 minutes at a time.

[personthattoleratesme]

So, you want to study new phannies?

well, same, i don't know what happened to me either but let me try to explain, you might find it amusing

you see, I'm 19 now, so back when they first were active i wasn't enough chronically online to be obsessed with any internet personality. (for reference, i was five when dan posted his first video.)

then covid and lockdowns happened and through some twists and turns i was catapulted deep into the 1D fandom, more specifically the larry portion of it. it was incredibly toxic and unhealthy, but it was also so much fun and taught me a lot about fandom and shipping culture. i eventually moved on into much healthier fandom spaces and honestly thought (and hoped) i was over being a fan of Real Living Human Beings.

now, i had obviously heard of dan and phil before but never watched any of their videos. so when they announced the return of dapg and everyone here freaked out about it i thought, eh, might as well take a look.

i don't know what it was about them, their dynamic, the casual happy queerness, the way they love and care for each other, their little stupid quirks, dan's way with words, but it pulled me in so damn quickly. so far i have no regrets, watching them is so nice and comforting.

however it also felt so intoxicatingly familiar to when i first got into larry, which scared me at first because i did not want to go back to anything like that time of my life. by now i have realised that this is different. it feels like a better version of whatever i had going on back then, because this time there is no need for wild speculations and intrusive theorising. them being themselves and sharing what they want to share is more than enough. maybe it's just hopeful thinking but i feel like it is actually possible to have a healthy parasocial relationship with them.

i might have missed it just a teeny tiny bit.

also!!! i feel like i picked the exact right time for this new obsession because there's so much going on, it's so fun and i amm excited for the future!

dunno if the tumblr phandom is the right place for me, right now i am pretty content with just lurking and watching you guys do your thing

with love,

a new phannie

first of all i want to say welcome new phannie! i hope you enjoy and benefit from the enrichment of our little corner of the internet.

i really enjoyed reading your story. as soon as i read larry i had a visceral full-body reaction ngl, i'm so sorry you went through that.

you have really chosen an excellent time to become a phannie. the toxicity is mostly out of the fandom, dnp are in control of the narrative now, and we don't have to deal with all the phan proof shit anymore.

it gives me so much joy that nowadays their queer happiness can be a factor in becoming a fan of theirs. there's just something so special about how after everything they've been through - and everything we've been through as phandom - that there is now this wonderfully queer and happy space that can feel safe and inviting for young queer people.

i really hope that this parasocial relationship with them will turn out to be what you're looking for. when i was a teenager they helped me through so much, and now that we're all older and have been able to grow as people i think we genuinely have a very good and healthy parasocial relationship with them as a fandom.

thank you so much for your sharing your story, i genuinely find it so fascinating to learn about 2023 phannies.

you're totally welcome to lurk here for as long as you want. i was a lurker for a long time cause phannie tumblr kind of scared me. i used to only exist in the anon asks of other users and feel free to do the same.

now i want to know: what was your first dnp video?

[rhpsdys]

Hey, just so you know - the way you worded that post about seeing Raine in a dress was actually kind of...not good. Transmasc ppl can wear dresses...that doesn't make them fem-presenting or take away the fact they're transmasc. I realize you're transmasc too, so maybe you're projecting onto the character (nothing wrong with that), and it's perfectly fine if your Raine doesn't wear dresses and you personally don't like to see them in dresses. But the way you worded that post implied that 'Raine has to present masculinely by wearing 'masculine' clothes all the time or else they're suddenly fem', implied that Raine wearing 'feminine' clothes is wrong as well as implied that wearing a dress automatically makes someone fem-presenting, all of which are not the case. Besides, clothing is canonly not really 'gendered' in the show - Eda wears a suit for instance, Luz's grom outfit was incredibly gnc, and that's just two examples. I don't think you meant it in that way, but I thought it important to let you know that it did make some people uncomfortable, other enbies and transmascs included, with how you worded it.

hey anon — thanks for reaching out about this. i worried that that might be the case, and i really do appreciate you coming to me about it. that post is a few days old, so i'm not sure if you follow me or if you just saw it in the tags somehow (and it doesn't matter which, the impact was the same, also i know my inbox was closed so if that's why you're just telling me now, that's cool too.) i'm also not sure if you're speaking hyperbolically when you said it made "some people" uncomfortable, implying you've talked about it with other people, or if you're just referring to yourself. again, it doesn't matter either way, but please know that if you are one of my followers, this is absolutely something you could have come to me personally and privately about, because it's not a conversation i mind having. but no matter.

to actually address your point, i absolutely did not intend to imply that a person wearing dresses automatically means that they're fem or that a transmasc person has to wear more typically masculine clothes. your points are all correct about the gnc nature of clothing in the show, too. i never ever would want to suggest otherwise. that being said, you're right. it did end up being commentary on something broader, and i made a statement that made someone uncomfortable, so it doesn't really matter what the intention was. damage done or not, i'll delete the post, so no one else comes across it and feels the same discomfort, and will be more careful about how i word any further commentary about this in the future.

for the record, 100% i am projecting onto my interpretation of raine, and that post was a vent post about something i saw on tiktok. i know that some of my takes on raine's gender and gender presentation are significantly different from the wider fandom takes so there's going to be moments of contention, which is why i would never comment something like that on someone's work directly, or combat someone for how they draw or otherwise interpret a character. so please don't take a rant in the tags of a throwaway ooc post as the definitive proof of how i see other nonbinary people. we all have incredibly different lived experiences and i recognize that.

anyway, thank you again for coming to me about this. i appreciate the open dialogue.

[bigsoftmarshmallow]

It's fine! Really!

And, honestly, it was actually a bit rude of me to ask in the first place, so how about we call it even?

I guess it just gets a bit frustrating sometimes, is all. And I understand. I used to not tag my more risqué stuff with "nsft" as diligently as I do now. Like, I just wouldn't even think. Then, I got an anon ask saying they were underage & were uncomfortable with that sort of content.

And I was horrified, so now I tag anything I post or reblog that has that sort of content with the right tag & try to encourage others to do so as well.

... Sorry, rambling. That tends to happen.

And, to be fair... I hate that we have so many Judge Frolos, too... but one thing we have to remember is to not generalize. People are just people. And that means that there are gonna be some rotten eggs in every carton, unfortunately.

Like, I could certainly name some really bad agnostics, but that'd be petty & rude, so I'm not going to. Especially considering how nice you'd been.

Also, if you happen to encounter Christians who act in such a way again? My suggestion is to point out how un-Christian their behavior is, possibly with scripture as proof that they aren't behaving how God expects us to. If they actually love Him & legitimately want to do right by him, then if nothing else, it'll at least plant a seed. And if they don't change their behavior, then they might not be as Christian as they pretend to be.

I don't know about anyone else, but that would give me pause & cause me to reexamine my behavior.

Well, whatever. Bless! And thanks for understanding.

Oml I adore you!!! You are absolutely right. I do my best not to generalize and remind myself that not all of one demographic is assholes (I live in a 99.9% Christian area, and its hard to not lump them together as they all really behave the same.)

You were perfectly fine calling me out on my posts if you truly did not enjoy it, especially if you are a follower and enjoy the 99% of my posts that are not religion related! Even if you are a fellow random who stumbled onto my domain, you are very brave for speaking up. I appreciate it.

Judge Frolos, lol. I appreciate the reference. You neat. I have been going that route when I come across folks of that nature, just... The folks of my town don't care, sadly. They continue with their false righteousness of hatred and bigotry and sadly, there is not enough people of the correct righteousness here to help fight back. It's a damn shame, and I admit it has clouded my judgement of many Christians in general. I am sorry for that, and I will do better in the future.

I will certainly try to do better about specific tags. Many may fall through the cracks, but I will definitely put more effort into taking notice of reposts of that nature at the very least.

I wish upon you love, luck, and happiness, my dear Relig Anon. May you be blessed in your endeavors, and may Jesus be with you. Feel free to drop by my asks in the future should you ever wanna chat about religion in a more open discussion or for any other random matter!

[starciynova]

Here are my TOS about adoptables and commissions!

Adoptables, by my definition, are characters you design that other people buy to claim it as theirs! It’s fun!

And commissions are when you pay someone to create/make and/or give to you!

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Adoptables

— The Design

Sometimes, my adoptables won’t have images of what their front or back pattern looks like, it depends on the angle I draw them in. They range from many species, and even inspired based off color palettes that other artists have created!

If you want to see their back, you can either A, draw the back once you buy it, or B, pay me to draw the back design! I can draw a reference sheet for your adopt! If you want to know more about the prices, please check my price info post, thank you!

ALSO PLEASE CHECK ABOUT “ON-HOLD” ADOPTS, THANK YOU!——————————————————————Commissions

Commissions, for an average price, can range up to $3-50 USD. Remember that complexity of a character can change the price making it higher, because it would take me more time to create that character.

~Rules~

When commissioning me your oc, please have a somewhat clear image and have them in color if you want me to color them for you. I won’t decide the colors or designs unless I am doing a “custom art trade” or a “custom oc” for you.

—Angles & Specifics

The angle of your character is very important. I can only draw so much based on what you give me, so that’s why I need at least a bust. I cannot provide full body unless you are VERY specific. I prefer to have specific commissioners. If something bothers you, please do not be afraid to tell me!

—I Will & Won’t Draw These;

As an artist, I have the right to refuse commissions and turn suggestions down, especially if there are things that make me uncomfortable.

I WON’T draw

— Beastiality, necrophilia, lolis, shotas, inflation, political stuff, religious stuff (depends, angels & demons are okay), hurtful/hateful art, racist art, NO BIRDS I CAN’T DO BEAKS, and more.

I WILL draw

— Literally anything that isn’t wrong according to my morals and what won’t make me uncomfortable. And yes, I do draw NSFW content, whether it be explicit or gory! (Gore to a certain extent).

— NSFW

I need proof that you are 18, legal proof. You can say that you are 18, but I won’t draw for you unless you show me some sort of Identification.

For identification, I need your DOB (Date of Birth). Blur everything else out, I don’t need personal info other than that. However, if your ID is fake, it will not be my fault, it will be yours for lying and I will decline any future commissions from you and make a beware to other artists.

PARENTS/GUARDIANS; IF YOUR CHILD HAS PURCHASED NSFW, PLEASE SHOW ME PROOF OF BANK STATEMENT THAT INVOLVES THAT PURCHASE AND THEIR DOB (Date of Birth) ON THEIR SSC (Social Security Card) OR STATE ID CARD, THANK YOU. I will refund you.

[platonickit]

hello, yes, i've gone down a pinterest rabbit hole i hadn't walked down in a few years

and i can't find what i want to talk about so i have no actual proof of this but it's like - surely i'm not the only one who used to see these posts

i was a lonely teen (don't worry, i'm fine), but i also used to have a lot of crushes (better not look into my old diary, it's embarassing), so i used to search up love quotes and such on pinterest mainly (sometimes on tumblr, but this partially pre-dates my tumblr days). anyway, one of the "facts" that i saw over and over again was that most people meet their future partner in school and i. i'd say it fucked me up a little, but who actually knows.

anyway, remembered it randomly whilst making dinner a few days ago and my head started screaming that it was, for one, surely a wrong statistic, and also probably "used" to manipulate teens? apparently, although probably not the best statistics to underline my point, but i'm tired and don't want to research more, according to yougov.co.uk and one statista statistic, my hunch was right about the numbers (keep in mind that those posts i saw where mostly in reference to heterosexual couples, as is at least the statista statistic).

i can't prove the other thing. hell, i couldn't even tell you why the said manipulation would be beneficial in any way (then again, i am reminded of the mountain of fanfiction i read around the same time speaking about xyz celebrity or character transferring to one's school), so i don't know. my thoughts tend to overreact sometimes when it comes to children and the internet or adults (negatively) influencing them (i am not exempt from influencing others, i know that, i have several younger siblings and used to work at a school, i just don't think negative influence is a nice thing)

anyways, enough yelling into the void, i'm heading to bed

[madchild-dennis]

I think people have TWO big problems. They don't think before they do or not do something. They don't think beyond the NOW, if they do think.

What am I talking about?

I'm going to start with a story:

So I reset my phone for MANY reasons (including hopes to remove a hack that was done on it) and I felt for a different background picture. Then chose this:

I scrolled in my pictures or it was a Google photos recommendation. But I liked it.

So when I wanted a break from the videos & Reels on my Instagram. I thought why not that picture. But when I post it, I wanted to share a story. I knew it was taken in the hospital. But I wanted to see when. That's when I noticed it was one of my last set of photos I took there, on Dec. 24, 2021. And the next set of pictures after was on the day I left the hospital, Jan. 8, 2021.

Hence making this post:

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With this caption:

Fun fact: This was taken on Dec 24, 2021: Christmas Eve.

I also did NOT know which day it was and it was the last time I had my devices (laptop, phone, and more.) This was because the Doctors took them and gave them to my parents who went for a week-long hotel stay. As I was left in the Hospital where they manipulated the Doctors, twisted and lied to paint me as mentally ill.

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I don't remember Christmas Day. I remember other patients family coming and spending time with them. I also was heavily medicated because of my parents lies, despite having proof when in a much dire, crazier and weird situation related to the same journey. They said that I'm NOT mentally ill. That's Canadians Psychiatric Trained Physicians while under intense observation.

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PS: My hair was way longer. Damn.

Looking at the pictures on that day, I saw a 9pm picture. So they may have taken my stuff the next morning or something. I HONESTLY DON'T REMEMBER.

But I think that's irrelevant. I posted that post as a reference and hope that this year's Christmas would be different AND BETTER. As a reference to hope or appeal for better from, I guess the attackers, liars and/or the assholes. But if not them, it will be my mission. NO ONE will fuck it up for me this year!!! #peroidt.

That's when someone comment triggered the thought of not just my parents but ALL. Especially the liars, asshole and those who KNOW I'm right and refuse to obey God. I mean when they make their decision each day, moment or more do they think before the do it. Or even think beyond now. I mean do you THINK ABOUT THE FUTURE and what History WILL say about you?

I KNEW from the start I would be viewed as crazy. I even wondered if I was mentally sound MANY time (especially, before the hospital stay in Canada) but I KNEW it was GOD. So ultimately it will not end with me deemed crazy.

So what about those who don't have that certainty. Or WORST, those who KNOWS I'm not lying.

This post is literally focused on my parents, Pastor Micheal Todd, Raheem motherfucking Fowler, The MJW/MW organizers (less on them for some reason), King Charles, Elon Musk and more. I mean do they even think: "what if she's right..." Then continue. I know these aren't people who like to be viewed as villains. I mean they HATE it. They want status, honour, praises, and viewed as good things by the masses.

But SERIOUSLY DO Y'ALL THINK????

Ok let me start with myself:

I know when I call Mr. Fucking Fowler a no balls, bitch-ass motherfucking asshole; a whole chicken ass mama's boy. I know it makes me look MEAN. I know it makes me look disgusting. I thought about it and chose to say those things so it will not just hurt him but he'll continue his fuckery. Well it wouldn't actually make a difference. Because he IS those things. I just could have been nicer. By saying he's weak, no guts, not brave, etc. Which is the other part of why I did it, I do not care, like nor love him anymore. So I have no desire to approach him with love or care nor patience. I WANT TO BE DONE WITH HIM, and moving ACCORDINGLY.

Now if God NEVER makes a replacement for him (Raheem) and for some freak-accident-type-of-thing/miracle happens and we're together. Either he prove himself none of the above or not. But it's just the MEAN truth. And I look like someone who can be VERY mean but AFTER a year plus of FUCKERY!!!

Now what about everyone else? Did they think about their actions and what history, their legacy and more will say about them. What would LITERALLY affect their children, how they live, who they become or how they're viewed. So I'll start in reverse:

Elon Musk:

Well, I think with him. It's a matter of NOT KNOWING GOD. I mean he heard about some God/gods. May have a dislike for religion especially from observation, experience or lack thereof. So he just see it all as a FairyTale. But Tech, science, logic and money is him religion or what makes sense to him. So I & God is just a joke to him. Well, I think this will not just be a punishment, but if he wants it will be a cleansing for him. But God is definitely introducing himself to Elon Musk. That NO MATTER who he thinks he is, God is GOD. One that's NOT to be messed with or trifled. God is GOD. Then he will eventually, see and surrender to the GREATEST; God. Then humble himself and do as God asks. So history will show that, which he's lucky his lack of knowledge results in that. But if he chooses NOT to humble and surrender, God doesn't care and will do what he gotta.

King Charles:

What's sad, is the need to kill me is what keeps validating me and making the inevitable as such. Making sure I am what God says. I mean, if he humbled and acknowledge that damn if it's God, try get someone of that validation to justify their Monarch. One that existed for over a millennium. They literally CLAIM to be chosen and anointed by God but NEVER anything that's God-like proof seen all over the Bible. Like burning-bush, split seas, great God guided battles. Like that of Moses. Or Special God-chosen prophets anointing Kings like Saul, David, etc. Just self-appointed "special men" that claim to be special and say God chose that family. Actually they are just those people are like Pastors. Not prophets. Theres a difference. While if they had thought of another way to stay RELEVANT. As they've been trying to do for decades. They could have tried to gain it from me.

Sadly, he will lose it. His son, Harry, is already on the right track. William, I'm not too sure about. But it's either Charles will surrender what God asks. Or (based on the June-wedding list) William will be the one who will do so. Which would keep him relevant. NOT the existence of the Monarch remaining, BUT their lives not just preserved but still relevant and useful as celebrated symbols & physical representation for Britain; Special Celebrities. But NEVER as King or monarchs. (I'd request all children and grandchildren of this King, Charges, keep/granted the Prince & Princess titles. But that's where it ends with Regal titles of that familial ENDS as their monarchial time ENDS. Just Duke, Duchess etc. Thereafter)

MJW/MW:

I NEVER had too much bad to say about them. Nor do God, insist there's anything amiss. Other than there's a LOT of excuses and FEAR of backlash. So like Monday, I was inspired to put on my pink Infinity Dress. That may have been a fear or excuse. That I wouldn't be able to keep the integrity of the organisation's image. That's just the visual aesthetic. Basically, would I even have a dress. I believe my TikToks answered that question. Which may have left them slightly saddened at letting something they thought as problem, hinder them from doing as they wanted. I honestly DON'T know but God is letting me believe ALL that. As in they are trying, the humanly best they can. So their history and future WILL be good and as such. As they continue to try and find a way to obey.

R🙄😒ler (the fucker):

Well what's sad is, once he chose to lie about the past and his feeling. He didn't try to stop or apologize. Then to be gaslighted about it:

It wasn't just him, but his mother. Acting like they didn't do shit. Asking what's my worth. Claiming to want to charge me for sexual harassment. The clip above explains how this wasn't just lying but gaslighting at its highest. I mean at no point did they come around and say, "I lied because the girl's father threatened me. I'm sorry." Or "I lied because, I couldn't face myself and what I've done or keep doing especially if it makes me look like who I NEVER and try hard not to be. So admitting it means I failed myself. I'm sorry." Or some shit like that. Which now means admitting to lying, then bringing me to understand why but NOT dismiss what pain it caused. BUT NOOOOOOOOO.

What they've done for MONTHS was to double down on their fuckery. Well HIM especially. At least the mother tried within her limited capacity. But he NEVER TRIED. Not even via text. Not even a missed call.

History will say that my mean words are TRUE. Worst if I have to be with him. In fact, people may start a rally or some shit (as they already are doing) to convince me to leave him. OR even just completely hate, ignore or detest him. Especially if he is King. They might literally boo him in his FACE. For a VERY LONG TIME. Then with time they just have a constant hate with no reason because they forgot the original reason until reminded. Because he was a abusive, uncaring and disgusting asshole to their awesome amazing QUEEN who done so much good. Especially the things she been through for her country, people, him and all. They'd say he's an ungrateful, undeserving asshole (I mean just continuing the words I said). No matter how nice he seem. Because why then, when so much money and power is accessible, is he being nice. Which means he doesn't and didn't love her. Just an opportunist who wants money and power which would make the marriage VERY contradictory (I doubt God will allow all that. Hence why I am hopeful God will soon regrets his decision and provide a replacement. God doesn't contradict himself). And all the displayed affection or whatever seen would be deemed a performance to save face.

I mean did he even REALLY sit and think about his actions. Or ALL HE HAS DONE!!! DAMN. Then think about if he loses me. Which he CANNOT fathom. So then had he even THOUGHT about what that means when that happens, after ALL he has done, allowed, ignored or neglected. NOPE. NOT AT ALL. Not many people do that; THINK!

Pastor Michael Todd:

I think he has be SOOO focused on what he think I should or should not be doing that God has being using that as my Queen training. So I don't take bullshit from NO ONE. Sadly, while he's SO focus on what I should or shouldn't be doing, he forgot to look in the mirror and self evaluate. Or when he does, get to focus on my actions the self-eval becomes useless.

The thing is. He may think what he see is someone who lacks discipline, misguided or reading God wrong. And seem to be getting WORST with each week from the inception of the journey. So he does NOT want to do what Gods asks in his self-righteousness that he'd be giving audience to someone who needs TOO MUCH work. Especially someone calling God's name. Or what it would signify. Too much validation. Which would mean agreeing to the uncouth behaviour. Sadly, while he judges. God is building the Queen he NEEDS. However, that also MEANS it's going to ultimately hurt him.

If he refuses to do as God ask. Then there will be a replacement. When the replacement GLADLY does what God as unjudgingly. The truth of who was originally chosen for the task will remain KNOWN. All that notoriety and elevation he loves, craves and feels proud of as humbly he tries to be will rapidly be removed. It is what he loves and craves to the core. People will now question him as he preaches about principles, discipline, obedient and faith...CRAZY FAITH. To then see that someone with such GREAT principles, so disciplined, almost too obedient (cause the guy-part is MESSY) and obviously on one of the CRAZIEST faith journey. Then he chooses NOT to honour nor do his part in it. They'd say, "he must not be the pastor we thought he was. Worst he obviously choosing to go against his own preaching in EVERY WAY. Where's the principle, discipline, the faith or the OBEDIENCE. Ok NOT my pastor."

It's interesting because God asked me to put their church in one of my future plans to honour their obedience, future obedience and their vow to let the Holy Spirit LEAD. But I wonder, if God will make a replacement on that too because if the Lead Pastor cannot do all that, then he would not be leading by example. Nor would that be doing as they said they would work hard in doing.

My Parents:

Let's start with, God already said that, "they'll redeem themselves through my children." Which means that they were going to keep going until it's TOO late. That they'd have absolutely NO relation with me. That is because I'd have no interest in having one. Not out of hate but out of distrust, boundaries and all the fuckery. God already knew.

Plus I'm sure they thought about the future. I'm pretty sure they look at scriptures like Matt. 10:37 that basically says do not love your parents or child more than God as justification. So much so, that IF they believe, they have to kill me or I die from whatever, to "help God" or "protect the ministry". I'm pretty sure they'd do it. As much as I saw that passage as justification to DISTANCE myself. Because they've asked me to disobey God's direct instructions. Which mean I have to choose who I prioritize. Which is obviously GOD. I am CERTAIN their view which is like the extreme/majority of adventists who's mission is to focus on heaven and remove anything fighting the ministry. Worst false preaching; ANYTHING NOT ADVENTIST. Needs to know the truth or quieted/discredited, if necessary or too loud. Hence calling me the Antichrist &/or Bipolar/mentally ill.

I'm pretty sure they believe the bible is complete and have EVERYTHING necessary to know. So anything new from anyone or even from the Holy Spirit is discredited. Plus they have their E.G. White; their modern day prophet. No need for more or any other information.

They do it ALL for the reward they'd get in the Heaven & New Earth. Maybe a new star on their crown. A special commendation from God or just knowing they did their part in the MiNiStRy of Preaching and sharing the TRUTH. So I'd say they're the ONLY ones thinking. But VERY misguided. Not thinking from love, care or such...

Meh, God allowed it, so that I receive what God said and had planned: ULTIMATE AUTHORITY. So NOT EVEN my parents have my ear or authority over me. It's ONLY GOD who has my ear!!!

At the end of the day, is NOT the NOW that matters. It's the looking back on the now that matters We can see a small sample. Just a year ago. What happened or how did you participate or how do you feel about it. So if God looks back, do you like what He'd see or say about your past. The past that you ONLY thought of yourself or what you wanted or preferred or wanted to gain. Focusing on that very MOMENT. All that will ultimately determine what he'll say.

Whether it's "come my child" or "depart from me..."

Hence why you should think forward. Not just about others opinions, but THE ULTIMATE opinion; God's. You can't live in the NOW to gain favour in God's eyes. Not even thinking about tomorrow is enough. Think about your actions (or lack thereof) through the eyes of God; think forward then look back at it.