#so the youth pastor

[pansysworks]

Little thing I finally finished!

Warnings for vague homophobia, tranphobia, and religious trauma.

Do you remember the double doors leading into your paradise? Paradise, where you were liked and loved. Valued, even.

Do you remember the double doors, where the smiling faces met you? With a computer in hand and a name badge to match. Welcoming you to the music with the worship and the snacks

Do you remember the double doors, and the auditorium inside? With gaming systems and food, a bribery was made. Your time for their beliefs.

Do you remember the double doors? Do you remember what lied before them?Remember being shunned and being told love is a sin?

Do you remember those double doors once they no longer hid paradise? The daunting feeling of those doors could suffocate the strongest of men.

Do you remember the double doors that hid the cruelty of children? Ignorance for others that could only be taught by their elders.

Do you remember the day the double doors shut for you, when the house no longer felt like a home? When the cross no longer felt familiar?

Do you remember sinking, falling, dying, when the double doors came into view?

Do you remember the double doors, and how they had sealed shut for you?

[aaminyard]

gansey died three times and came back....you know what else is symbolised by three? the father, son, and the holy ghost chat can i get an amen???

[m4rscreek]

they r gay lol

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

I feel like my relationship with my mom is ruined now and there's no getting it back and literally nothing happened other than me going on a sleep deprived rant on the internet to people who don't even know her

[reginadraws]

seven lies, multiplied by seven multiplied by seven again seven angels with seven trumpets send them home on the morning train

[tarantula-hawk-wasp]

You know who else famously got his lashes done?

[noknowshame]

hello- on your jesus birthday post you said The Child Is The Price. What does that mean?

Okay THIS one I will answer. this is a reference to Roberte Icke's adaptation of Aeschylus' tragic play(s), The Oresteia. simplifying as much as possible, the story begins by following Agamemnon, the leader of the Greek army during the Trojan War. the winds he needs to sail his army to Troy have not been blowing, and Agamemnon receives a prophecy/instruction on what is needed in order to return the winds. the prophecy states "The Child is the Price". this phrase is repeated throughout the play, and what it is asking him to do is make a human sacrifice of his young daughter, Iphigenia. eventually, he goes through with it, and the winds do indeed return.

In the original plays by Aeschylus, the actual death of Iphigenia has already happened and is referenced as something the audience should already know all about. Icke chooses to add an act to the play that allows us to linger on that decision much longer. As a whole, the play deals heavily with themes of the nature of sacrifice, narrative inevitability, and cycles of guilt and violence.

When I was drafting my... infamous christmas post, I was trying to think of the story of the birth of jesus like a greek tragedy, involving very similar themes. factually, in a textual sense, jesus is the sacrifice. his death is the price paid for - according to christianity - absolution. and what I was attempting to point out is that we spend so much time celebrating jesus' birth as this wondrous arrival of the savior that we don't stop to meditate on exactly how bloodily that saving is going to play out. it's the exact same thing: The Child is the Price.

As a last note, many many many people have told me in the tags that me saying "Mary did you know? that your womb was also a grave?" is stupid because "all babies are born to die, Jesus isn't special" ...but there is a Very important difference I'd like to point. yes, all babies will die eventually. but NOT all babies are born to die. Jesus was. it was God's plan from the start for him to horrifically die on the cross, and it was inevitable as soon as Mary agreed to give birth to him. I feel that is an important part of the story. The Child is the Price.

(...anyway go read Robert Icke Oresteia and also watch Jesus Christ Superstar (1973) while you're at it)

[cinemaobscura]

Pastoral: To Die in the Country | 田園に死す (1974) dir. Terayama Shuji

[emostunttwink]

help, i totally forgot about the youth pastor!maruki au

transcription: If your situation ever becomes too painful to endure, remember: it's okay for you to escape your problem.

I don’t want a single one of you to think that an unfair reality you've been forced into is the only one that you have to live...

You can be reborn through Christ’s Love.

He died so that we can have an eternel, everlasting life free from pain and suffering. A perfect reality.

All He requires is your belief in Him.

[brontes]

dying

[guardian-angle22]

Hi Guardian! I hope you’re having a lovely day. If you have time, would you please consider making some gifs of Carlos while he was leaning against the wall in the interrogation room in 5x09? For science purposes, of course!

Why, thank you! I hope you had a lovely day as well.

There weren't too many shots of it, so it's a small set! but it's here.

[deadpanwalking]

tumblr(.)com/persephonethewanderer/761885654854582272/you-know this is crazy

Our kind has not been this catered to since Peter O'Toole dedicated the first half of the 1960s to getting his flesh luridly and exquisitely mortified in Lawrence of Arabia, Becket, and Lord Jim.

[essektheylyss]

One of my favorite hobbies is opening the Genius annotations of lyrics I'm checking purely to roast the absolutely ATROCIOUS "analysis" some people throw up with full confidence on that site, oh my god.

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

I get to take the dog I'm watching on an ✨Adventure✨ tomorrow!!

[fanfictrashdump]

I post @quiddie all the time because, yes, she is a goddess of TTRPG but she is also the same kind of weird as the rest of the fandom. So, even if I don't know her, I feel like she'll be cool with it.

@nickmarini and @noshirdalal have seen my posts and... look... I am just going to apologize up front for being weird. You're just good at your play pretend job and I like it a lot. Don't judge me!