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Saria and Kristen when they were younger they were a healthy couple but sometime after Rhine Lab was established and built their relationship started to show cracks. Before all that I like to believe that Kristen wagged her tail behind close doors when Saria was around, just a slow wag. What do you think of Saria and Kristen?
oh boy, Saria and Kristen huh. rubs hands with malicious intents. I have, some THOUGHTS about them, i want to study their relationship under a microscope alright
to start with "they were a healthy couple", it's something that i can question. i mostly think about how Kristen lost her parents at the age of 10, and of her conversation with Saria about the subject in the manhwa:
Saria "always protected Kristen", and she said that since she lost her parents, "not many have been willing to defend her family's reputation". which means, Saria was pretty much the only person Kristen could rely on, and if she was able to continue and go on, it was thanks to Saria. once again, she lost her parents early, she was very likely alone all this time, and for a child, it can create a huge hole in their heart, one that Kristen probably and definitively tried to fill with Saria. she followed her, Saria was like a lighthouse for Kristen; and that's why it couldn't be healthy.
because of Saria's views, her beliefs on how emotions are a bias to scientific avancement, Kristen very likely followed these, but to an extreme. to the point of going against ethics to fullfill her ambition and continue her parent's legacy.
this is not to say Saria ever agreed with this, maybe even before Ifrit, if she knew about it, she would have stopped it. but it's to say that Kristen used this belief to feed her ambition, to see it as an open door to push the limits of what is allowed.
once rhine lab was created, once it became succesful, and Kristen was at the top of it all, she had no need to "use" Saria anymore. their relationship fell apart because Saria could not "defend" her anymore, now that Kristen was in control. she doesn't need anyone to defend her now.
so now, i'm not saying that Kristen never had any consideration for Saria. people in these situations may not even realize that what they are doing is wrong, that they may hurt someone. and i do believe that Kristen cares about Saria, and in fact, she truly does;
she doesn't want Saria to be hurt, she actually did nothing that would hurt Saria. but is it the present Saria she cares about, or the past Saria? when Saria met Ifrit and Silence, she opened her heart to emotions, she who never had a family who cared about her, she saw this child being hurt, mistreated, alone, and she wanted to protect her. the present Saria may still struggle, but she discovered what it is to feel loved, which she probably never discovered with Kristen before.
but Kristen, she wants the Saria who is ready to step on boundaries, to ignore emotions, to achieve scientific avancement. she wants the Saria who protected her, who stood by her side when she was alone and hurt.
but, she knows that this Saria doesn't exist anymore and she knows that Saria would never have agreed with her, she knows Saria would have tried to stop her. she studied Saria, her way to fight, her Arts, and she literally created a barrier in her office that cancels her Arts, she created power armors who can also neutralize Saria's calcification. that means one thing, Kristen was afraid of Saria. she knew she fucked up.
of course, Kristen would ALWAYS be ready to welcome Saria with open arms, she doesn't want Saria to go away from her, she never accepted that she left Rhine Lab. maybe Kristen is idealizing a Saria who is like her.
their relationship is MMWAH chief's kiss I LOVE psychology and character development. what i say can work even if their relationship is purely platonic, but i enjoy the little twist it gives if it was romantic, which means that Saria had experienced something toxic and it made her afraid of love above all emotions, which fullfill my evil thoughts about Saria x Silence
#so so many thoughts about them alright#not normal#kiwi crying and analyzing character's psychology again#cant wait to see how fucked up lone trail will show their relationship#arknights#askiwi
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Look what we've become.
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#jiang cheng#Initially I wanted to do a 'Mutiny' quote to follow the 'Luck runs out' quote.#But the musical earworms demanded a different blood to be drawn. And I think it works just as well.#Alright. It's time to confess something. I really struggled with this comic. I didn't want to draw it. Then I didn't want to upload it.#Because I knew I would be here in the tags writing and backspacing for hours trying to articulate my thoughts.#I'm going to talk about death and grief in the tags today so this is your WARNING to look away if you aren't in a headspace for it.#Sometimes in media there are scenes and characters which land on topics so specific to your wounds that it reopens them all over again.#Because here's the truth. When you've known someone like this for nearly your whole life...it doesn't matter how bad the fight is.#You always think 'We'll always have time. One day this dust will settle and we'll rebuild the bridge.'#And then the fucker dies!!! He dies and suddenly there will never ever be time to repair the rift.#Someone you loved died thinking you hated them. And part of you did just a bit. But love and hate aren't mutually exclusive.#He's fucking dead and you are left with so many broken and unfinished pieces between the two of you.#Jiang Cheng loses Wei Wuxian thinking that WWX thought they hated each other.#He's a younger brother who will one day be older than the person he lost.#Who has no one else in the world who understands those feelings of love and hate and grief.#I can't be normal about this character. I don't think he even heals me. Zero catharsis to be gained here.#I just look at his sour grape ass and think 'shit that's a little too close to home.' JC is my discomfort character.#I'm probably going to regret being this vulnerable in the tags in like. An hour. So. sorry if you see this once and never again.#EDIT: Yeah sorry this took 4 hours to muster the courage to post. Surprise update!#EDIT 2: You guys were being too nice to me on my sad comic to point out the spelling error. I have fixed it now B'*)
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Talked about Mycroft reading to Sherlock when they were younger and had to draw something for them.
[ID: a digital drawing of a young Mycroft and Sherlock Holmes. They're sitting together with Mycroft's left arm around Sherlock, he's holding a book and reading out to him. /End ID]
#mycroft Holmes#Sherlock Holmes#drawing kids is difficult!!!!!!#but it turned out alright :)#having so many thoughts about them
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Agrippa, Antony, Actium
I cleaned up an old sketch I did of Antony and Agrippa when I was doing some reading about Actium: it was one of those ideas that I thought would make a cool painting until I realized Iād have to render the ocean and blood diffusing through the water š«
something something rival dogs of war. Antony and Agrippa actually ended up being the least interesting thing about Actium imo, when you realize the ocean became a tomb of the unburied. imperialist violence and and dynastic rivalries infecting the water. etc and so forth.
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#so so so many bodies in the water. christ. and for what#Roman Empire tag#alright! thatās it. sometimes I have thoughts for the tags but what else is there to say#(inhales) actually I have a lot to say. SO ABOUT THE FAILURE OF LEADERSHIPā#(Iām forcibly removed from the venue because I stop talking about Antony half way through and start yelling about Tirad Pass)#thatās 80% of why I wonāt do a dynast rivals comic I got so mad thinking about other stuff while writing it last year that I binned the#whole thing like (screams for three hours straight and immediately begins to summon up ghosts to yell at them directly)#marcus vipsanius agrippa#mark antony
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how do you clone a fey? that's trick question; and fey love those!
@the-navistar-carol (<333) brought up a good point while I was talking about my changeling danny au with her -- Dani! How would she exist in this au? Danny's a changeling - a fae. How would Dani, a clone of him, be created? How do you make a fey? Not through any means that Vlad is doing; you can't make a fey through unnatural means, considering the Fair Folk are nature. And Vlad's not a fey himself -- he's a halfa, even if he could make a fey, it's not in his best interest too. He's a powerful ghost, but even the weakest fae can overpower the strongest ghost. He won't want a clone of Daniel to be more powerful than him.
(In a three tier hierarchy it goes Ancients -> Fae/Mythos -> Ghosts. They all live in the Infinite Realms, but on different Planes. The fae live above the Ghost Zone in the Fey Wild, while the Mythos live beside the Wilds or down in the ghost zone depending on where they are. Places like the Frozone, the Athens Acropolis, and other such large islands climb throughout all three Planes.)
(While Ghosts can travel into the Fey Wild, its generally advised against as the ectoplasm tends to manifest differently there due to close contact magic. It can make it rather disorientating for a ghost, and as human spirits, the Fae living there would jump them faster than they could blink. So unless you're willing to play mind games with 'steal thy name eat thy face' fae, most ghosts keep out of the way of the Wilds. Fey can travel down into the Ghost Zone, they just don't bother.)
That's of course, not taking into account if Vlad even knows Danny's a fae himself. Vlad doesn't ring me as someone who really cares much about ghost culture or the going ons of the GZ. He might be aware that fae exist, but the moment he realizes he can't use them for personal gain he just doesn't bother with them. The risk is greater than the reward, and he'd rather not get eaten. But lets assume he's aware by now that Danny is fey, and has to take that into account while cloning him.
So, how does Dani exist? Good question! Honestly; i'm not sure. She might not exist at all, or if she does, she's more halfa than fey. Vlad would need a lot of human dna and ectoplasm to balance out all that fae magic. He manages to steal DNA from Jack and Maddie to do it, and since Jack's fey ancestry is very dormant its much easier to use alongside Danny's DNA.
In turn, it results in a little girl whose more human-ghost hybrid than clone. With that little extra boost in fey magic making her not a fey, but still relatively powerful. Dani is less of a clone and more of a lab-grown little sister. It's a rather tedious, complex process that has Vlad tearing his hair out trying to figure out. But he does eventually figure it out.
#dpxdc#danny fenton is not the ghost king#dpxdc crossover#changeling danny au#danielle fenton#danny phantom#still no mention of DPXDC yet so i'm adding the DP tags if thats alright lmao#how do you clone a fey? trick question! you can't. you can only make something that's not-quite fey but has ties to them.#dani's fey ancestry is an ounce of water compared to the bucket of everything else. which is more than the drop in the pond compared to jac#but not quite as powerful as changeling daniel. whose more fey than human at this rate. which is very fun to think about in terms of#his rogues haha. imagine going into the human realm about to cause chaos only to come face to face with a baby fey. a changeling.#i'd simply pass away a second time. where is your parent. human raised or otherwise?? are they nearby??? shit i thought fey hated urban#cities. what are YOU doing here baby man. im going to get eaten holy fuck. that's so many teeth.#. oh. oh you think you're a ghost. hm. hmhm. i can work with that. lets just. make sure you keep thinking that okay :) great :))#like jumpscare dude. i just saw my afterlife flash before my eyes. hello unsupervised fey child. holy fuck are you teeny tiny.#vlad probably uses some of his own dna to get the halfa effect so really dani's more of a lab grown *half* sister. Danny's gonna end up#stealing her anyways in the end. his sister now :). non-human danny my beloved#catch me using fey and fae interchangeably. my bad#some food for thought sorry if its hard to understand.#steal thy name. eat thy face fey
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some of the less nice thoughts about being aroace
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#doodles#kingdom hearts#roxas#axel#olette#aromantic#asexual#aroace#do i tag pence. hes in the background of one panel#ehhhh sorry pence no tag for you#also not tagging soriku and namixi#i mean by the logic of 'theyre in one panel so i wont tag them' i also shouldnt tag axel but. he has dialogue so#anyways i have a very irrational love of olette whenever i need a random side character in a kh comic? olette#i think she uses webmd. anyways im done talking about olette#so let me clarify about this comic#im aroace. this is all just things ive thought before#im not saying in any way these thoughts are real. theyre just thoughts#thats why it ends with 'but there isnt. its just me.' there IS nothing wrong with being aroace. even if it feels like it sometimes#im not trying to send a message im just trying to express a feeling ive had for a while#anyways. the aroace community is super positive and i like that. but not everything i feel about it is that positive#sometimes it feels like im missing something yknow#this comic seems like its about roxas. but its about me. congrats youve been fooled#drafted something similar to this for aro week but didnt finish it in time so this is spiritually part of asaw 2024#btw sorry im not posting as many drawings lately#schools kinda stressful im pretty tired and busy most the time#i am throwing this drawing to you like a slab of meat to a pack of hungry dogs. take this meager ration in these trying times#alright i think thats it bye now
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They're off to go play!
Consider reblogging and not just liking ty ^-^
#isnt it nice how everything is alright and okay and everyone is alive and well :)#doodle based from charlie's stream where he kept gifting the kids with bombs#also u will never be able to pry the headcanon of these 3 being bffs from me. NEVER#i literally have so many thoughts about these three please ask me about them i promise i wont bite ejwjjskssn#paimon!makes art!#tagging their parents!#jaiden animations#jaiden animations fanart#roier#roier fanart#slimecicle#slimecicle fanart#elmariana#elmariana fanart#quackity#quackity fanart#qsmp#qsmp fanart#bobby qsmp#juanaflippa qsmp#tilin qsmp
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what do you think mitziās type in men is?
hmm, this is a fun little ask! especially since her love interests, on a surface level, couldnāt be more different. we have :
zib : former long term boyfriend but not quite ā¦ they were very loose with labels, as we know from outside information and the way zib lives life in general. but despite this, whatever feelings fostered between them were intense ; enough so for him to stick around years later, resigned to a chained down lifestyle simply because he doesnāt want to leave mitzi. heās very loyal in that sense! even if itās not a conventional type of loyalty. we know that before bitterness seeped inbetween their bond that zib took good care of her, while also being a complete mess of a person ; someone perpetually scared whenever physical conflict is concerned and being a musically inclined man who very much treats himself as a free spirit, with a morbid philosophy and feel towards life. heās got a major tortured artist aesthetic!! is a little gripped by melancholy and nostalgia ā¦ zib is a lot of things, and ambitious is surprisingly one of the many puzzle pieces that make up dorian zibowski.
atlas : ruthless gangster, has an eerie presence that frightens even the people closest to him. he is prone to a more quiet disposition ; never speaking and always a blot of unremarkable grey. but he is an opportunist! someone who can manage a business and take advantage of shortcuts and loopholes to become even more successful ā¦ basically he is wealthy and uses his assets well. but all of this is done with a manner of distance, leaving even those closest to him never having the full picture of who he was. itās also worth noting that mitzi and him had eventual problems, which caused her to seperate. also perhaps has a heart of some kind, but whatever love he possesses is hidden under layers of blood and mystery.
wick : well-to-do bore, and i say this with all the love in the world for wick! but compared to previous paramours heās rather clean and talkative ā¦ there is a constant earnestness to him that bleeds out, an honesty and a more conventional sort of kindness. he doesnāt hide behind smoke and mirrors and thereās never really a front he puts up around mitzi -- or his investors for that matter, hence why heās treated as an āoutsiderā so to speak. he is an alcoholic who loathes the details of his job but is more than passionate about the job itself and makes this everyoneās problem ā¦ he is a little helpless, in the sense heād die without someone there to make sure he functions ā¦ and is, like zib, perpetually afraid of conflict. can be a little wishywashy and can come across as uncaring due to his cheeky tone ā¦ but heās loyal and caring, with a hobby for the unusual ( bugs and rocks lol ) as well as being able to look past the gossip mill and see the actual mitzi may as he knows her, someone whoās going through a rough time and is either too kind or classy to be a brutal killer. he is hypocritical, a little snobby, and rather forward with mitzi too. kind of a flirt when he wants to be!
something that immediately stands out to me when looking at this lineup is that mitzi doesnāt enjoy a violent man. i donāt think she loathes someone who can so brutally or clinically remove others from this earth, but if she were to go for someone theyād usually be sweeter in a sense. it meshes well with her old personality and kinder heart, perhaps brings it out in her, and that sort of levity and breeziness is more enjoyable than, say, being fully aware of the dangers that lurk around every corner because the man youāre beside is prone to bringing it. she also enjoys more talkative types, someone whoās less quiet and demure and serious, and is keen on her men having a hobby they care deeply for ; some sort of long term goal to work towards doesnāt hurt either. and because of some scenes in the comic, iām a firm believer that mitzi wants someone who can make her smile or laugh with ease, whether because theyāre ridiculous by nature or genuinely funny! she has a sort of funny bone herself, enamored with gallowās humor and darker jokes, so having someone who either a.) reacts hilariously in the face of her jokes or b.) who can return that energy with teasing or their own brand of silly is desirable. everyone could use a good laugh or two, a sense of joy injected into the bustling life they all live, and this all ties back to mitzi being more drawn towards the less stuffy types of men.
so atlas seems to be an outlier when it comes to her type in many ways, hence the later problems they apparently had in their relationship even if she did love him dearly. but, of course, atlas did have something very appealing to her that zib had failed to give, which she rather fondly recalls in the comic page vestige. whether zib likes acknowledging it or not, mitzi wasnāt as gungho about their normad life as he was ā¦ or, at the very least, when she lived another life besides that one, she realized she had a preference! and atlas gave her that path, that knowledge that she wanted something else, and seemingly for the very first time in her life ā¦ she felt like a proper lady, a feeling that clearly meant a lot to her. it wasnāt just the dresses or the wealth, it was the constant eye of atlas who could have any dame he wanted, but fancied her his wife regardless. it was having someone so respectable looking, dressed well and groomed well, being able to see her as something other than a sweating, exposed girl in a bawdy dress. atlasās seemingly polite treatment towards mitzi was enough to garner her affections in spite of everything else, so i think she enjoys that now in others, ; folks who treat her as though sheās a woman in high society, men who donāt gawk at her or make lewd remarks immediately ā¦ she probably prefers the courting process now and the quaint dates ( that she doesnāt pay for, mind you ) that come along with it. she just -- likes mutual respect, i think. and who doesnāt? sheās been through a lot to get to where she is now, even if itās a bad predicament, and sheād like for that to amount to something. some sort of acknowledgment, some kind of recognition.
however, itās worth mentioning that her views on romance and all that it entails have been warped since the death of her husband. such a loss would change how anyone approaches their dating life, if they were to even have one afterwards ā¦ after all, mitziās whole problem is that she doesnāt want to move on from atlas and has thus completely romanticized him in her head, to the point that she earnestly believes sheāll be miserable forever without his presence. any problems she had with atlas have long since been erased by her tortured mind, leaving her with a profound misery sheās wallowing in. i think she believes herself as incapble of romantic or sexual inclinations nowdays, leading her to view the advances made towards wick as a necessary āevilā for the sake of atlas may and little else -- when she genuinely does like sedgewick to a degree, and wouldnāt go on dates or kiss a man unless some part of her honestly wanted to do so. ( i also think she was attracted to wick somewhat even while married to atlas, but thatās besides the point ) so this is all a rather complicated affair! she is vulnerable and weak, is too aware of herself and the criminal underbelly squeezing in closer ā¦ add this on top of her still heavily grieving and having no one she feels she can talk to, you have someone who is rather changed. mitzi is so far removed from herself and who she truly is, or was, that thereās no doubt itās affected her type ; now sheāll settle for anyone if theyāll just help her, and even then sheād be dispassionate if romantic entanglement of any kind was involved in that relationship. itās not something she wants right now, and honestly, it all seems scary and daunting ā¦ besides atlas, zib was the only other man sheās ever loved enough to stay around for, so sheās never faced a loss like this before. has kept zib throughout all the turmoil and changes -- so this is, as far as we know, her first major loss where it concerns matters of the heart. itās not shocking sheās so messed up after it, especially given how fresh it all still is. all of this rambling is to say that mitziās a little more stingy and cagey then she used to be about love or sex, and she has a lot of inner battles to face before she can fall for someone and be sure about it. needs to thaw, i think, and she would require patience and understanding from anyone who actually wanted to be with her. mitzi could move on with time ( i do not think sheās the type of widow whoād never date again! ) but it would take quite some time to do so. well, in a world where sheās allowed / is able to heal anyway!
while her type would probably remain the same, i could see her wanting a serious relationship more than she did prior to the death of her husband. has no energy for the loopholes, or the rationalizations, or the fickle nature that can grip someoneās heart. she has matured in a lot of ways since her band days and would take comfort in frivolous things like labels and promises of a future, together, as lovers. while what she had with zib was nice and is cherished alongside the freedom to do as she pleased while on the road with the band, i donāt think she misses it. having the stability and assurance of an actual relationship, with all the hardships that come with it, would be better suited for her. as long as sheās treated like an equal of course! i donāt think sheād be keen on her partner hiding anything from her, even if itās meant to protect her, due to where that put mitzi when atlas was killed. sheād rather know and be disgusted, or worried, or scared than to not know about something at all until itās too late ā¦ again. naturally patience and compassion would also be of importance, as would the usual things she loves like loyalty and a passion for something in life. and while never required, sheād be happy if the person possessed even a singular musical bone in their body! she still thinks artists, particularly musicans, are sexy after all ā¦ likes the angst and brooding that comes with it, the slight flare towards the dramatics ā¦ as long as they can handle mitzi in her pitiful entirety and do, to some degree, care deeply for her and will compromise ā¦ i think she could find some happiness wherever. bonus points if she can live comfortably for the rest of her days too, lord knows sheās tired of the constant battle of hucking and bargaining.
but yeah! mitziās love life is vast and complex and i definitely see her as someone who is more flexible in type than other people are. though there are similarities between her suitors if you really look! anyway, i hope i was able to briefly touch upon this subject because my shipping brain loved your question and kinda went into overdrive, alas. tldr ; her ideal type is wick sable. sorry. once wick learns an instrument the wedding is back on!! ā¦ iām kidding lol. well, mostly <3
#my asks.#lackadaisy analysis.#lackadaisy#mitzi may#iām a person who believes the dixie drifters were one big polyam mess!! just on the record haha#and while that polyam and open relationship lifestyle was nice i do not think mitzi enjoyed all of it ā¦#which isnāt to say sheās PURELY monogamous now! but she leans more towards it than not i think#she enjoys having one partner solely focused on her ā¦ someone entirely her own ā¦#but she could ( potentially ) be alright with or encourage them to take on a third#or a forth ā¦ it all depends really! but she is still flexible in a lot of ways romantically#anyway!! i hope this makes some semblance of sense!!#i have many thoughts about mitziās love life and her romantic relationships and grief#so i tried to put a sprinkle of all that in here since itās relevant to the topic#while also avoiding tangents!!!#in the end i think iām a little confusing but get the points across regardless so <3 iāll stop messing with this and just post it already#thank you for wanting me to go crazy and talk about mitzi may AND her shipping scene#( also forgot to add this but mitzi loves a person who will take photos with her or be photographed BY her#sheās big on photos ā¦ and a man whoās depressed. but thatās kinda obvious given her love interests lmao )
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Iād just like to say thank you for drawing Gavin and Chris being friends. Definitely an underrated pair and Iām so happy that art of them exists. Makes my day to see them honestly.
Also, please make more because this fandom definitely needs it š
OH HELL YEAH that's some of my favorite stuff to draw for DBH tbh! There is something so charming about unhinged coworker dynamics... I say this as someone who has been the unhinged coworker and someone who has heard unhinged coworkers.
Thank you so much though! I'm glad you've enjoyed what I have so far! I will say that while I didn't have the energy to draw it yesterday for Halloween, the idea that I had was them just alternating who got to wear the Ghostface mask. (I have never seen any of the Scream movies but I do know that there's not a Singular Ghostface, but multiple people)
Like someone would walk past Gavin's desk and he's just on his phone not looking up while Chris is making a work call - wearing the mask. Then five minutes later Chris tosses it over saying he needs some air and Gavin wears it. But the fact it was Halloween nobody really clocks the swap at first just "wow I am REALLY tired I thought it was the other one wearing it. I must really need coffee" and then half an hour passes and they've swapped who's wearing it again.
#moe talks a lot#not art#detroit become human#sorry im drawing an oc today but i definitely absolutely have more ideas for them in the future!#i feel like they deserve the attention too bc side characters...#bro isnt even the primary antagonist to connor like imagine being disliked by fans and youre a secondary antagonist#also i think about them a lot bc of their scenes together and how casual they are around each other like when in the interrogation#gavin pushes chris forward like you handle that guy dude you got this#and how even after gavin is rude to hank it falls to chris saying alright have a nice night .... truly the balance the world needs#also chris is just flat out one of my favorite characters so 100% looking forward to learning how to draw him better#there are so many fun dynamics to explore in dbh but i may have a chris miller bias#i feel like i might have lots of incorrect opinions due to biases and the fact they were born in 2002 and 2008 but like.... i have to shove#SOME of the current trends onto them as a past thing like the capri sun comic with chris#i have lots of thoughts about the game and the characters but since i figure most people dont really want those essays#i stick to my fun lil doodle comics bc i enjoy drawing them and it keeps my blog art oriented#while slowly pushing my headcanons and agendas
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I just fell down a rabbit hole about (legal) body disposal and part of me is so anxious wishing I could tell the FBI agent monitoring my internet searches that Iām just morbidly curious and Iām not planning on dying anytime soon (or planning anything ELSE, for that matter)
#I swear Iām innocent#I just didnāt know there were multiple types of cremation#and then I got curious about other legal burial/body disposal methods#and then I learned that you can have your ashes basically made into a starter reef in the ocean????#THERE HAVE BEEN SO MANY ADVANCEMENTS IN BODY DISPOSAL AND PREP GUYS ITS KINDA INSANE#YOU CAN MAKE YOUR BODY INTO SOIL!! which seems like it would be easy but apparently itās a rather new advancement!!#and I mean like proper soil not just like. decomposed and mushed up remains I mean like Actual Human Compost#hi Iāve always been interested in morbid topics I swear#Iām not insane I just love the art of the funeral and the way we honor the dead#I always thought I wanted to donate my body to the army to have them drop my remains out of a plane#but uhā¦ becoming part of the coral reef and helping sustain the reefs is definitely a more appealing option now#and like I always knew you could do the become a tree thing but thereās more options for that too!!#also thereās multiple ways to cremate and two of the three that Iāve researched donāt use an incinerator!!#they use a mix of water and highly alkaline chemicals?? which is so cool?? I thought the only way to get ashes from a body was to burn it#but apparently not!!#dude. science is so fucking cool#mortuary science is so fucking cool specifically#alright to the FBI agent assigned to me: sorry if Iām flagging shit with these searches Iām trying to keep the wording respectful#and non-incriminating lmaoooo#MelloMoans#mortuary science#morbid curiosity#funeral services#I guess??
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went to milan last week and brought back some italian little guys :D
#and a little birb bc i've never seen a swan plush before so i had to take it home as well š#(normal things to buy when abroad hsjks)#alright but manga in italy is so RIDICULOUSLY inexpensive#i mean. yeah they're in italian and i'll have to rely on the power of the mutually understandable latin languages family#but still. wow?? great place. pretty buildings. amazing food. so many people. extreme heat. is that a bookstore? wonder where the manga is.#oh upstairs? oh there's an ENTIRE floor with endless manga?? RARE manga appears to be mainstream here???#IS THAT THE LEGENDARY NON-EXISTENT KAITO KID PHYSICAL MANGA HOLD ON#<- next thing i know i'm out of the store in a daze#checking to see how much it cost bc who on earth checks the price first when it's THE KID MANGA IN THE FLESH (paper?)#and i gasp out loud bc i got THREE volumes - that i frankly never even thought i'd ever see - at a price that here would buy 1 (one)#though interestingly enough i didn't spot a trace of bsd in any of the stores š¤#also mystery boxes seem to be a thing? of course i had to try my luck as well - first sxf merch in the bag :D#and my melo even though i know next to nothing about the sanrio characters-#but well. in the spirit of jochum i think of them as the honorary internationally-available cousins#last but not least thank you kyotag for the travel tips and tricks! much appreciated. beautiful country. my camera roll is screaming
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I've got an appointment with my psychiatrist tomorrow, and I'm getting my conch piercing swapped out for a shorter one. that's gonna be stressful š
#annnd I will absolutely take my lorazepam for the second one... yeah it's unnecessary yeah it's dumb but. I'm SO scared#and I haven't even thought about taking any in ages. so it's alright and I don't mind#I will do things to make things I want to do but am scared of easier for myself so that I can do them at all#and that's fine#I'm so hoping she'll say the piercing is healing well... it doesn't hurt at all and I've been careful with it and I've cleaned it#(almost) every day like she said#but there's a bump and it still gets pretty gross and. well I'm just hoping it's fine š¬#I kinda keep going from 'I still want as many ear piercings as possible' to 'I don't want to get a piercing ever again in my life' and back#though at this point.... I'm thinking I definitely should not get any more in my left ear since it keeps being difficult (the slight hearing#loss and the tube and then I got a middle ear infection... maybe it'll eventually be fine again but right now it's not looking like it š¤#but whatever maybe I'll get more in the right one. I could. if I wanted to. we will see š¤·)#also it suuucks that I now have to drive 30 minutes to get to my psychiatrist's office but I like him a lot so I will not look for a#different one#personal
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no because i'm over here trying to maintain a steady course and trying to not jump to conclusions and trying not to panic over out of context articles/questions/pieces of texts where i can't properly read the tone
and then rhys rolls up with-
#LIKE????#HELLO???????#i'm so#like i was kicking my legs and giggling all the way through that entire article#because it was so nice to see him so excited about getting to be a mermaid#and so so nice to finally hear him talk#AND THEN THAT JUST#WAS A SUCKER PUNCH STRAIGHT TO THE JUGULAR RIGHT THERE AT THE END?????#but like#i feel like david wouldn't........right?#RIGHT???????#*stede voice* jodi you're panicking!#*Ed voice* I'M NOT PANICKING ALRIGHT#y'all know that one spongebob gif where he's just looking forlorn at a table#that's me right now PFFFFF#like many thoughts head full but none of them are Forming Into A Fully Coherent Piece#something something piracy did end up getting killed off by the british indeed#and something something that violence is realistically going to be a threat for them#but also something something these pirates wear crocs and say 'for the lols' and bowl with british soldiers like it's nothing#so i would be SHOCKED if they did indeed get an unhappier more historically accurate fate#idk what's everyone thinking lol HOW ARE WE FEELING#BESTIES/ANONS PSSSPSPSPSPSP#OFMD#OFMD Season 3#Rhys Darby#Gentlebeard#Blackbonnet
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jill and terence sweetest most life affirming smiles club
#clive and dion meme guys in sand abt it#both J and T significantly crysmile too. Due To Circumstances. im gonna frow up#thinking about how so many of the big relationships are mirrors and you can use them for insight into the others#bc of the foiling.#so I feeeeel like I can reasonably argue that dion jumping to take that blow at age 18#involved him laid out thinking he's gonna die#and reaching out to terence who's startled into a teary but sincere smile#and dion is hit by the clue bus like. š„ŗ yes this is smth precious. smth worth protecting at all costs#I never thought a smile could bring me so much joy etc etc#me every two days like alright how can I make ran'dellah worse
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SCREAMING CRYING SOBBING
she feels so betrayed that she's looking at him with the most devastating and heartbroken expression. there are literal tears in her eyes. she has just walked in on the most emotionally devastating situation because its just proof that no matter what alfred will always trust uhtred and never trust her in the same way and I am sobbing and dying and SCREAM
#I'm having a moment alright#I'm having a time#I just#god god god god#look I know everyone's always like hahaha aelswith acts like she just walked in on them fucking why is she so dramatic BUT LISTEN#its ABOUT THE TRUST#its about the fact that she has never felt that she has the same level of trust and insight that uhtred has#its about the fact that alfred is constantly agreeing with her and then walking back on that and never telling her#its about the fact that she feels second no matter what#its about the fact that she is willing to sacrifice everything her children her life her dreams her hopes for him and she never gets#any acknowledgement in return#uhtred can commit the gravest of crimes and be forgiven and trusted and allowed to hear all of alfreds rawest thoughts but she isnt#she acts like she walked in on them fucking because a large part of cheating is the break in trust and thats what shes seeing#not the physical aspect but the emotional#she can deal with the physical and has her entire life#its the emotional aspect that kills her because its somethings shes worked so hard to earn and its proven to her in this most she never can#i have so many thoughts#so many feelings#I could go on#I need to stop#SCREAMING#aelswith my beloved#tlk aelswith
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*COUGH*
The Resistance has PTSD of AFO using Cynthia's piano theme
*COUGH*
#the resistance (kudo and bruce) would be around our year so. they definitely know about cynthia#many a men: [PTSD]#thought of this cuz i was reminded of volo forcing me to actually use my brain#running around so easily and BAM heres a theme warning you that āit's time to die!ā#i stalled that battle so hard for over half an hour#anyway i think that cynthias theme should play whenever the resistance encountered afo#bruce (the only one with common sense): *in the sewers* Why do I hear piano#AFO: *right behind them*#i think cynthias theme matches. i still have a bundled knot of feelings over fighting volo and hes not even as bad as cynthia apparently#*a century later* *kudo sleeping in the void* *Midoriya plays cynthias theme* *kudo's eyes snap open*#AFO absolutely wouldve used the natural terror of cynthias theme for his own Demon Lord aesthetic#the ingrained terror of begging for mercy against cynthia? yeah AFO is just gonna snatch that to make everyone cower before him#can u imagine being in the resistance and AFO frickin. plays cynthias theme throughout a barren wasteland. you dont know why.#all you know is that your nerves are rising. and All For One [The Demon Lord] floats down to ruin your last few seconds of life#kudo: (terrified) THIS IS NOT APPROPRIATE.#some resistance member with a record of trolling people with sound effects and background music: Leader I swear it's not me this time-#afo#all for one#kudo#bruce#spoilers#bnha#mha#boku no hero academia#my hero academia#AFO to cynthias theme already being ingrained as a terror response to everyone: It's Free Real Estate!#whos gonna stop him the government? there IS no government. /HE/ is the god of Japan at this point#alright everyone i think this is something that can absolutely be used in resistance fics or resistance-recollections of AFO#the darn terror.#i didnt elaborate but i mean cynthia as in PKMN champion cynthia (tag limit)
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