#so she has the same general aesthetic and everyone else

[conelluwrites]

I Can Breathe Your Nicotine

AO3 link Words: 3.1k Warnings: raw sex (ofc), blood mentions, general misogynistic terms, slight canon divergence (sorry Mr. Coin, the cuck chair is for Thanos only) Other: @sombrashe took a little longer than I wanted to get this out haha, but it's the hide and seek fucking fic. Nam-gyu kinda giving Gi-hun staring vibes idk lol. Since the rest of my Nam-gyu fics I have in mind has reader as a member of Thanos Team, I wanted to try something different for this but it made it so damn difficult. I also ended up getting too far in my head about this unfortunately, but I'm proud of it! I wanted to make the smut longer but I couldn't figure out how to do it without involving other people 💀. I used italics through the fic but when I tried to post it, it kept giving me an error until I made it normal lol

Blue.

She got a blue ball. She glances behind her, feeling his eyes on her for the tenth time since the day began. Of course he pulls his attention away from her before they can meet eyes. It sends a chill up her spine, especially as he holds a red ball. Is it better or worse if they aren’t on the same team? She turns back and nods to the guards behind the gumball machine and walks over the side of the room that houses the rest of her team.

She can’t even listen to the disgruntled blue team players when it’s revealed the red team will have knives while all they have is that fucking key. The fucking key that looks like something out of a damn magical girl anime or something. It’s obscenely childish, though the aesthetic is something she had come to expect from the games. Her ears are ringing as she pulls the key from the box. She gives a look to the end of the key itself, a triangle. She swallows hard, looking around the rest of the team that’s utterly quiet as their fates dawn on them.

That damn stare again, she tries to ignore it but it’s hard when she’s alone against the wall. She doesn’t want to be on the blue team, waiting out the timer- she already accepted the fact that she wouldn’t find an exit- seems like a death sentence. But she doesn’t think she has it in her to stab someone to death. Thinking of feeling the sharp blade cut through skin and fat at least once, but more than likely multiple times, makes her stomach churn.

The stare snaps away from her, she can feel the second it’s directed at someone else and that’s when her eyes dart up to see the man. She’s not sure of his name- she thinks she heard that one loudmouth player call him something ending in -su or something- but he seems to be accosting someone she’s seen him interact with before. When he suddenly stands and says something about Min-su, her gaze goes back down to the key she’s holding. It’s warmed from her hands and feels foreign, but she can’t bring herself to just slide it over her neck and leave it at that. A triangle lock…

When the blue team is ushered into the game room, she stands on slightly trembling legs and takes slow steps to the rest of the blue vests. His stare is obvious on her and she looks behind her for a moment, her eyes meeting his for one of the first times. He stands up straighter, giving her a nod and then holding up his knife. It’s styled similar to the keys and she blinks, turning back to look at the backs of the other players in front of her before the heavy doors close behind her. She slips the necklace around her neck and looks around. Gray walls, a starry ceiling, multiple hallways.

The room smells so fucking rancid as the small crowd of blue vests look around the painting starry scape. By this point, everyone reeks of sweat due to the lack of showers and soap- the players can only wash off so much blood and sweat with plain water from the sinks. There’s no real time to think about the lack of hygiene that ties them all together, the blue vests have a goal in mind: hide, survive, find an exit.

Hide…

Survive…

Find an exit…

She clutches her vest tightly, looking around desperately. She knows she needs to move, needs to go anywhere, hide anywhere, but it feels like her legs just won’t cooperate. She knows she’s caught his eye. She doesn’t know what the fuck she did to deserve his attention, but she could feel his eyes like on her backside, following her every movement through the dormitory before they were brought to the game rooms. The lecherous stare seemed ever present, even in the starry expanse that he can’t yet see into. She shakes her head, glancing behind her at the closed doors before focusing her sights ahead of her.

“I gotta start moving,” she says under her breath, picking one of the numerous hallways and going for it. Staying still is suffering, staying put is suffering. Her heart is racing like a damn horse as she turns corners, clutching her key tightly in her trembling hands. Everything looks the exact same, all the doors look the same, what the fuck… She pants, her hands getting so clammy that the key practically falls back to her chest from her grasp. Her main goal is to get as far away from the beginning doors as possible, but it's hard telling just how close she is to them as she goes treks through seemingly unending hallways and doors.

“Fuck, fuck, fuck.” Her heart drops when the speakers alert to the fact that the red vests can now hunt them down. She feels sweat bead on her forehead as she tries a door. It’s locked, she tries her key, but to no avail. She looks behind her, there’s no one in her immediate area so she gives herself a second to breathe before darting off in the direction she came from. It’s a stupid idea, but she doesn’t go further. She’s reached the limit of what the path she was taking led her to.

She grunts, falling to the ground. She’s slightly disoriented as she takes in the fact she ran into another blue vest. She can hear him shouting at her, but it doesn’t process in her head as she scrambles to her feet and shoves past him to go wherever she’s headed. She doesn’t have time to think, doesn’t have time to dwell on apologizing, doesn’t have time-

Fuck, she spots him. He’s with that one guy, the one who ran a youtube channel or something- she can’t remember what his name is from the first day. They both have blood splattered on them and she takes off back in the direction she came from again. She doesn’t move fast enough, she can hear him babble something incomprehensible about the fact he saw a blue vest to her as she takes off frantically.

Door, door, door- fuck she needs to find some door and enter the room and hide. She needs to. With the way she can hear their footsteps catching up with her, she doesn’t have much time. Walls all blend together, the ceiling blurs above her head, she can’t think of anything other than her own survival. When she finally finds a door that she can open with her trembling hands, she ducks into it. She sits against the door, gasping for air while looking at her hands. They’re trembling so hard, it’s driving her crazy until she clenches them into fists. The footsteps… They’re close, so close… She puts a trembling hand over her mouth to stop any noise from leaving her as she closes her eyes. She can hear the pair talking, their voices muffled by the door but as they get closer she can hear them clearer and clearer.

“Myung-gi, no! Bro, I’m telling you I know she came this way!”

“I don’t know why you’re so obsessed with this one.”

“You wouldn’t get it, just trust me on this. She’s worth it.”

“Whatever.”

She can hear the exasperation in the man’s voice, probably fed up with putting up with the pill popper’s antics.

“Look, my brother, if you don’t trust me then just wait on me, yeah? I got a good idea where this lil bitch is hiding.”

She jumps when he knocks on the door she’s sitting against, tears budding up in her eyes.

“I gotta find Jun-hee, I don’t have time for your bullshit.”

A… giggle? escapes his throat. She can practically see him twirling the knife in his fingers as he nods along with the disgraced youtuber’s words. She can practically feel the mirth radiating from him through the door.

“You find that cunt, I’ll find mine.”

She hears one one of their footsteps walk away before the door is knocked on again.

“You in there, little pig? Gonna let the big bad wolf in, hm?”

Another laugh before he kicks at the door, making her move away from it instinctively.

“I promise I won’t let you suffer much, little pig. See, I’ve taken a big ol’ liking to you. It would be such a damn shame if you made me hurt you.”

She crawls over to the corner of the room, trying to shrink herself away from his taunting words.

“I know you know it, dontcha? You know I stare at you, you know I can’t help but wanna be near you, huh? I’m not asking for anything serious, just let me in and we’ll both get somethin’ from this lil get together. Let me in, please?” When she’s quiet, she can hear him grunt before he slams the door open and closes it behind him with a slam. He doesn’t care about the noise, not when he’s a red vest and so well adept with using a knife if one of those pussy blue vests comes into the room to interrupt his alone time with his sweetest little bitch. His eyes land on her immediately and a sickeningly sweet grin overtakes his face. “Well, there you are, my little pig! Thought I was wrong for a second, but I knew I could smell you in here. Such a sweet lil thing, but why wouldn’t ya just speak up, hm? Are you scared?” He flips the knife back and forth in his hands, humming as he gets closer to her trembling form. “You should be, you know. Should be real damn scared of me.”

“Please.” She stammers out, barely able to get the singular word out. She knows it’s pathetic and the way his grin practically splits his face in half before he lets out a boisterous laugh.

“Please? Please what, hm? Please cut your suffering short and end you here?” He kneels next to her as if proposing. Her eyes dart all over his face and arms, blood coating his skin, green track jacket, and even staining the red vest darker.

She chokes out another weak please, shaking her head and holding her hands up. Her heart stops when she feels his cold hand touch hers, his fingers spreading against the palm before sliding between the gaps of her own fingers and then holding her hand. She stares at him, her lips parted in harsh breaths as she stares at his blood stained hand on her own. He seems utterly zoned out for a second, taking in every single microexpression that passes over her face.

“Huh…” He says, clearly amused as he nods to himself before trailing his knife against her leg. It gets stuck on the track pants, making him a bit aggravated but he doesn’t let it deter him. “Hold my hand, yeah? Gotta make sure I don’t lose you too.”

‘Lose you too���?

She doesn’t have much time to think over his words before he repeats himself with a harsher tone. She nods and holds his hand. Her hand is still trembling as she nods again, taking in the new sensation of her hand in his. He doesn’t say much of anything, muttering beneath his breath about something she can’t quite catch before he pulls the knife away from her leg and then taps it gently against her cheek. It’s not hard enough to cause any scratches, just enough to remind her that he could definitely hurt her if he wanted to- if he needed to. “…-gyu.”

“Huh?”

“My name’s Nam-gyu.”

“Oh.”

“Not Nam-su.”

Good to know, she supposes. She shares her own name, repeating it when he stares blankly at her. She doesn’t get a verbal response, just a little nod.

He repeats her name after a moment as if feeling it out on his lips before leaning in to brush his nose against her. She grimaces at the feeling of the sticky blood on his face against her own clean- er, as clean as it could be- nose. He pulls away shortly after, then crashes their lips together. It’s borderline painful and uncomfortable before he eases up when she doesn’t push him away or pull away.

A chance to forget it all, a chance to get away from the stress of the game, that’s what he’s offering and she knows it’s stupid as hell, but she’s almost willing to give in to it.

“What about other people?” She mumbles against his lips, her free hand on his knee as he keeps her close.

“Fuck ‘em, I’ll gut them like the rotten fish they are before they could hurt either of us.” He groans, his free hand that’s not holding onto her hand cups the back of her head. “Don’t worry about none of that bullshit, I gotcha.”

That’s good enough for her, after all with him on her side, she doesn’t have to worry about being stabbed- at least not by another red vest at least. She slowly starts to move her lips against his, her eyes clenched tight, the hand on his knee moves up to curl her fingers into his greasy hair.

The kiss quickly evolves into a heavy make out, tongue moving together and slanted mouths, hair tugging and as their hands that were intertwined separate they begin to touch each other. Clumsy, sweaty hands grope and palm each other as the sound of their breathing and kissing fills up the empty area around them.

“Just get on your back already.” He grunts, pushing her away from him. She scrambles to comply, eyes darting up to the timer to make sure they have enough time to fuck. She doesn’t think either of them will last long, not with the way he’s tugging at the waistband of her pants and not even caring to push her shirt, vest, or jacket up as he yanks her pants down. He shoves his own pants down to his knees before his rough hands separate her legs with little care. “Shit, this all for me?” He asks, looking down on her prone form.

“Yeah- yeah, fuck, it’s all for you.”

He can’t withhold a moan at that, the fact that this bitch is so needy for him that she’s willing to get fucked during a game is enough to drive him wild. “Yeah it is, all for me. All for Nam-gyu.” He pushes his boxers down, giving his hardening cock a few strokes before spitting down onto his aching dick. He hisses at the feeling as he spreads the spit up and down his shaft. His eyes are glued onto her panty clad cunt, imagining all the sweet, nasty things he wants to do to it. He looks over at the clock, groaning in exasperation. He wants to taste her, feel her gummy walls clench eagerly around his thrusting fingers, but there’s no time for all of that. No time for him to take his sweet time with her, make her squirm and beg for his cock. Oh well, there’s always next time they’re able to be alone. “Tug ‘em to the side.” He demands, nodding to her cunt.

She doesn’t need to be told twice, her fingers curling into the fabric of her panties and tugging them aside so he can see her sweet, glistening cunt. She bites her bottom lip as the cool air hits her heat, a small noise leaving her. It’s fucking music to his ears, he wants to hear it again but there’s no time for him to draw more noises from her.

“Good girl, real good girl. Just for me, you’re never gonna leave me after this. Not gonna be alone after this one.” He says , stroking himself with one hand while he spreads her folds with his other hand. The sight makes his cock jump and pulse eagerly in his hand, a sharp exhale leaving him as he notches his cock at her entrance.

A whimper.

A whimper leaves him as he sinks into her. It’s utterly endearing, but there’s no time to think about how adorable the fact that someone like him whimpered just from pushing into her heat. She can’t hold her own noises back as he slowly sinks into her until he bottoms out. He doesn’t ask if she’s good, he doesn’t need to when she is looking so prettily up at him. His hips begin to move, his thick cock moving against her g-spot deliciously with every movement.

He starts to move harder, faster. She tries to ignore the sensual noises filling the room, focusing on his face as his eyes bore into hers and his face tenses and relaxes. It doesn’t take long, she knew it wouldn’t, before he’s breathing hard. His hand snakes between their bodies to rub her clit in rhythm with his thrusts that are quickly becoming out of pace. He grunts and groans, barely able to hold himself back as he struggles to keep his eyes open to stare at her underneath him. “Say- say it. Say you want my cum. Say it, bitch.”

“Cum in me, fuck, please? Please, Nam-gyu, fuckin’ fill me up.” She manages to get out before her orgasm bursts over her, her sweet slick coating his shaft and balls and the floor beneath them. “Shit, shit, shit, goddamn, please!”

He gutturally moans, his cock pulsing and throbbing in her slick, tight heat. He’s barely able to hold himself up as his climax explodes, his cum pumping desperately into her pussy. “Take it- fuck- take it all, whore.” He grunts hard, his hips stuttering as he tries to keep thrusting into her to ride out his orgasm. His breath comes out in harsh pants as he rests his head against her, breathing in her air.

The alarm blares out, breaking the silence between the pair and making them both jump. They made it, albeit not in the way either of them thought they would. “I’ll be sure to wring out more pleasure from you later,” he says, pulling out of her and tucking himself back into his boxers and tugging up his pants as he stands up. He doesn’t offer her a hand to help her up or give her so much as another glance as he makes his way to the door. She sits up and pulls her pants back up, grimacing as his cum leaks from her gummy cunt before she follows him on unsteady legs.

[bitdemonic]

𝐖𝐇𝐀𝐓'𝐒 𝐒𝐄𝐃𝐔𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐕𝐄 𝐀𝐁𝐎𝐔𝐓 𝐘𝐎𝐔.

𝟓 𝐏𝐈𝐋𝐄 𝐂𝐇𝐎𝐈𝐂𝐄𝐒. 𝐈𝐍𝐓𝐔𝐈𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍 𝐈𝐒 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐆𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐓𝐄𝐒𝐓 𝐓𝐎𝐎𝐋, 𝐃𝐎𝐍'𝐓 𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐆𝐄𝐓 𝐓𝐎 𝐔𝐒𝐄 𝐈𝐓. 𝐄𝐀𝐂𝐇 𝐂𝐇𝐎𝐈𝐂𝐄 𝐈𝐒 𝐖𝐑𝐈𝐓𝐓𝐄𝐍 𝐈𝐍 𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐆𝐍𝐌𝐄𝐍𝐓 𝐖𝐈𝐓𝐇 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐂𝐀𝐑𝐃 𝐒𝐏𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐃, 𝐂𝐇𝐎𝐎𝐒𝐄 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐏𝐈𝐋𝐄 𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐒𝐂𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐌𝐒 𝐌𝐄. ⚠︎ 𝟏𝟖+ 𝐂𝐎𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐓, 𝐌𝐈𝐍𝐎𝐑𝐒 𝐃𝐍𝐈. 𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐒 𝐏𝐎𝐒𝐓 𝐈𝐒 𝐅𝐎𝐑 𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐓𝐀𝐈𝐍𝐌𝐄𝐍𝐓 𝐂𝐎𝐍𝐒𝐔𝐌𝐏𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍, 𝐍𝐎𝐓 𝐅𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐔𝐀𝐋 𝐔𝐍𝐓𝐈𝐋 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐍 𝐎𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐖𝐈𝐒𝐄—𝐓𝐀𝐊𝐄 𝐀 𝐆𝐑𝐀𝐈𝐍 𝐎𝐅 𝐒𝐀𝐋𝐓. 𝐈𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐃 𝐅𝐎𝐑 𝐀𝐋𝐋 𝐀𝐔𝐃𝐈𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄𝐒; 𝐃𝐎𝐍'𝐓 𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐀𝐋 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐄𝐍𝐉𝐎𝐘.

𝐏𝐑𝐄𝐕𝐈𝐎𝐔𝐒 𓆩ψ𓆪 𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓 [𝐊𝐎𝐅𝐈]

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𝐏𝐈𝐋𝐄 𝐈 𓆩❦︎𓆪

WHAT’S SEDUCTIVE IN GENERAL ⟶ 🎴 Magic. 8oS. 10oP↺. Faith↺. Page of Pentacles↺. the Chariot. 8oW↺ [bod].

THE TEMPTATION, OTHERWISE A TEMPTRESS TO SUITORS THAT “DARE” TO INDULGE; TO MEET A FATE THAT’S FORBID. Attributes include the ability to lure their 'prey' in with just a glance, emanating tenacious sensuality, and exhibiting divinity [energetically]. Poison with legs, seeping into the thoughts of anyone's minds. Heightened emotional intelligence assists them in hypnotizing others. Seduction is an accessory, a mask of sex they can put on [“and off”] at anytime.

♰♰♰ An innate power of transformation is what this pile has. Able to demand ("command") a room with just their presence, let alone a word, they're perceived as the Magician; resourceful, magical, and opulent. Something of them is practical, as in they're adept to the metaphysical and what it may offer. LOA, glamour (or "sex") magick, visualization and scripting are familiar concepts. Witchcraft is a part of them, as it could've been passed down or learned ["through lineage"]. Genetic gifts that assist their "urges", or more importantly their fantasies. Non-conforming, unconventional ways and ideal (as they are the same). At most, this pile's aura feels mystical, untouchable and otherworldly. This kind of force can be turned off and on; felt by everyone, seen by none. Will attract "watchers" i.e. stalkers online or in real life. ♰♰♰ "Too hot to touch”; very tempting group here, even more so when they're done up to "play the part". Sensing that red, ginger (or “orange”) hair can emphasize their burn (fire). Hot! An edgier aesthetic suits them better than most, as if their mystique abruptly magnified. Deeper colors (maroon, black, and “dark blue”), smokey eyes, and smudged glitter are enhancers. Channeling woodsier scents? A scent including this note could melt into Pile One’s pheromones; they’re sensible and protective. Confidence within them is grounded, gives off older and mature. Faces contradict the assertiveness tho, some people of Pile Two have cherubic features (e.g. button nose, fat cheeks) which offers up an illusion of innocence.

LONGTERM CONNECTIONS ARE PRONE TO COME ABOUT, DUE TO CAPTURING LOVERS IN THEIR WEB. It's more of being bound than being "in love", and that's because Pile One doesn't leave them alone until Pile One says so; a pulley system only they control. At worst, this is a manipulation tactic in the hands of a former ["serial"] cheater, unless Pile One has evolved and grown out those ways. Trapped in a trance, pulled along a thin string, kept in an unopened box; partners don't conceptualize self-value when Pile One's not there. This as a scenario would be the equivalent of man pleading on his knees and to the world for his girl, like the music videos. Someone that’ll die for querent, feeling nothing but raging love. How Ari professes while admitting she’s been an anxious mess, “completely disheveled” and still wanting to appease “you” is how Pile One’s partners are.

♰♰♰ Samantha Jones in SATC is who they remind me of. Similar to her, Pile One prioritizes self-maintenance [and self-pleasure] before anyone else. Discarding dinner date plans for a night alone instead, opting out of fling appointments to mingle with friends, etc. "I gotta put myself first," "hasta la vista," and "me time" sum them up to a tee. Hesitating between shoe selection versus before asking someone to get out of bed and leave; to them partners are disposable, replaceable. Not #1 [because that's reserved for themselves], but the very bottom of the list instead. Mindset of an Earth sign, Virgo (Moon or 1H) in particular—"mother knows best". It's attractive that someone won't accept less than what they've done for themselves [already], they impress themselves. The shiniest trophy, but nobody possesses them. ♰♰♰ Querents of this pile are equipped to handle the world (plus obstacles) with a step in the right direction. I always reference "the phoenix rising from the ashes" when there's strength of a warrior present, which applies now. Pain, challenges, disruptions—there's nothing that can keep Pile One from achieving. Seduction for them stems from a "broken" place, where they shaped a future out of dust. It's possible no one gets them, but that's due to their truth being concealed. These are people that can't be read (especially at face value), they're meant to be discovered. Learned.

WHAT’S SEDUCTIVE IN BED ⟶ 🎴 7oW. King of Wands. 8oP. 6oC↺. Knight of Cups. 4oS [bod].

BECOMING THE MINX, “JUST LIKE MAGIC” IS A NOD ANOTHER SIDE OF THE SAME COIN; TWO HALVES OF ONE PERSON. The act of illusion is apparent, and it's potent within sexual circumstance. Skills, body, "sexuality" are magic, enough to arouse fascination in others. Ariana Grande's music portrays this visage perfectly, because Ariana is the embodiment of dual personalities. Innocent and unsuspecting until she's slipping a sexual innuendo beside her harmonies; a natural tease, because this is who she already is.

♰♰♰ In terms of sex, this pile is more prone to leading the encounter; the HBIC. How the momentum's pace is on your timing, how nothing ends or begins until Pile One's call. The demand of their instruction is seductive, it keeps "everyone" in line. Control may lessen, although it'll never fully leave. Granted, a limited amount of time to "disobey" is earned; to switch roles and have Pile One as a sub, get a taste of their authority. Seconds of pride that count towards a rush, a high that they'll only get with her, up until time's over and it's Pile One's turn once more. ♰♰♰ Not so much BDSM, but punishment is seductive; being spanked, "bit" (otherwise marked), and reprimanded. It's plausible that mama's boys or daddy's girls are prone to being on the other end—"under their hand"—because discipline isn't common. Getting told no, following directions and staying "put" keep their attitude together, something they're not used to. Pile One has bitches [or "pets"] lol. Degradation, using a condescending tone, edging and orgasm denial is a favorite.

PILE ONE’S PHYSIQUE, OR “CURVATURE” IS A HIGHLIGHT FOR THEIR PARTNERS. Their shape can resemble a peach, plump at the top and luscious at the bottom (otherwise supple breast and a soft ass). "Freakum" dresses can be a closet staple, especially when it's for a special night out—whenever they're ready to get (or "have") their way. Dipping in dark, brooding colors will heighten the allure, turn up the effect. Norma Jean's tactic to become Marilyn Monroe comes to mind, how she was able to shift: "I don’t know how to explain what she did because it was so very subtle, but she turned something on within herself that was almost like magic." "They were recognizing that this was Marilyn Monroe...even though a second ago nobody noticed her.”

♰♰♰ Clothing is a specialty and particularly when it's "coming off " (or "coming down"). Stripping out of them, dropping each piece to expose another stretch of skin; strip teases or showing off the birthday suit. This pile's lingerie should consist of lacy, sheer material such as wearing fishnets or leg garters (any form of tights tbh). The price of what they wear is attractive. It brings about this air of expensiveness, as in their aura is wealthy—abundant, self-assured and reliable. It traces back into the bedroom for sure, people can feel their income rise in just one night. Querents have the universal cheat code of being gifted ("being spoiled") in romantic connections (e.g. shopping trips and cash deposits). It's a favor for one, exchanging "secret" treasures. ♰♰♰ Pretty distinct, but tone of voice is being [heavily] highlighted; “vocal cords” are on the smoother side? Soothing almost, channeling that they’ve spoken people to sleep. Reminiscent of rum, in both taste and “singe” (wincing at the burn). Rugged (another Joel Miller reference, some querents are Southern); can hold weighted conversations with a voice full of conviction. Lol at the number of people that pine after this pile from their charm alone. “Just like magic, I’m attractive” and getting everything you want cus’ you attract it is about Pile One’s social interactions. Grounding a room with just a few sentences then flirting with everyone standing in it, golden gift for duality. Networking is quintessential considering it's one of this pile's skills; cue the stack of business cards they'd have gotten from exchanging contact information (huge).

𝐒𝐘𝐍𝐂𝐇𝐒.

♡⃕ A kink for teeth and biting, both them and their partners. Into biting, getting bit on the lip and skin ["until it's tender"]. Sun, Mars, or Pluto could be in mutable signs [Gemini, Virgo, Sagittarius, Pisces] or houses [3H, 7H, 9H, 12H]. Scorpio/8H placements included.

♡⃕ Radiant". Beaming from the inside out, immersing the world in a glorious shine. Querents are on the friendlier side or possess the traits of "everyone's best friend". Big ole gummy smiles; a toothy grin. Friend of the world, can communicate with babies (children) and animals. Bunnies as a favorite animal [or "nickname"].

♡⃕ Find joy in mischief or getting a rise out of people; the jester of their friends or family (especially cousins). Pulling stunts to scare others, harmless pranks, and cracking jokes to lighten the mood at all times. Father could have the prankster gene hence why it's recognized. Def some home celebrities, family oriented querents for sure. Thanksgiving or New Years as a favorite holiday, too.

♡⃕ "Taut" RBF's, lips could form into a thin line on many occasions. Furrowing brows whenever they're driving home a point, prone to getting into "spats" or disputes (i.e. argumentative). Could hate banter, but revel in conflict; adrenaline rushes during confrontation(s). Intelligence is golden during debate conversations if tense. Bilingual/trilingual; native language from places of birth. Anais from Gumball in terms of frustration or attitude. Could have Virgo or Aries in personal (or outer) planets.

♡⃕ Really fiery, like it's all in this reading. "Quick", not doing things before or *after* thinking (i.e. regretting impulsive decisions). Cussing; swearing a lot or while chewing someone out. "Off the rails." Although full throttle, anxiety ("anxiousness") or bad nerves get in their way often. Bass boosted, loud volume, headbanging music as it compliments their vigor. 'TYG' from Megan thee Stallion & Spiritbox.

♡⃕ "Cupid bow lips". Bottom lip being plumper than the top; "fuller". Beauty mole(s) on the face or chin, above the mouth too. Using white lip liner or concealer for a signature makeup look ("added touch"). Distinct characteristics pertaining the face; statement piece [earrings, eye makeup, hair accessories].

𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓

𝐏𝐈𝐋𝐄 𝐈𝐈 𓆩❦︎𓆪

WHAT’S SEDUCTIVE IN GENERAL ⟶ 🎴 Reflection. King of Cups. Knight of Wands↺. Happiness. Queen of Cups. 9oP↺. 4oS [bod].

THE LOVER GIRL IS A HOPELESS ROMANTIC, A PERSON THAT’S ENCOMPASSED TO THE BELIEF OF HAVING [THEIR] TRUE LOVE. "Hopelessly devoted to you," comes to mind, a song that expresses the inner monologue this pile has ["everyday"]. Relationships can become a lifeline, a means of preservation in time of need; love is taken quite seriously, even more so if it's reciprocated. It's attractive to feel appreciated, yearned and cared for by Pile Two's energy; willing to share however many pieces of their heart if it’s necessary.

♰♰♰ Bubbly personality keeps this pile from being detected, the wide smiles and "softly glazed" eyes adds onto innocence. People can sense there's something more, carnal energy that's held from unleashing. I feel that there's Cancerian-Libran placements because the perception of them reminds me of pink bows and sugarplums. Cute, but only because their deviance is hidden ["in plain sight"]. "Naughty Girl" by Beyonce. There's more to them than meets the eye, as it's tempting others to come taste or try (lots of probing one's sexual identity can occur). ♰♰♰ Alchemy is a curated, learned skill and it's Pile Two's way to the Universe. Tumultuous rebirths are recurring, made to "force" them into shape; changing course throughout their journey is attractive. Learning and applying hard lessons in order to receive whatever they wish for. An enigma is how they're perceived, someone that's checked out when they're not immersed in another world. Going through—or "experiencing"—transformations will affect their overall appearance. Erasing an identity from the past, embracing change for a clean slate, shedding skin with hair and clothing. Their presence leaves people's blood rushing.

HIGHLY EMOTIONALLY INTELLIGENT, THEY CAN FIND THEMSELVES LONGING FOR HEIGHTENED SENSE OF AFFECTION IN OTHERS. An emptiness can rest inside them, but it's just because they're familiar with vulnerability; an "open book" if it pertains their feelings, being the only person who gets them. Honesty is a fault, because it allows the truth to be set "free". Human embodiment of the Justice card, their Judgement can sever or repair the lives ("energies") of those around. 222 and 333 are angel numbers that indicate progression in life or to urge use of discernment. "Put themselves first."

♰♰♰ Euphoric essence around their beauty, how it's a gift for their highest form. It's special—a beautiful blessing in physical features. Plush lips, "rosy" undertone(s), pleasant figure and "fleshy" areas (hips, thighs, love handles). Someone that's mesmerizing, the embodiment of Aphrodite's pearl; the birth of beauty. Shapeshifting is likely, as they've earned it with the help from above ("the ethers"). Staying true to what's on the inside and having it bloom on the outside. Dreams in human form. Being noticed [and "adorned"] for their innocence, in personality or facial features. Big, sparkly, animated eyes and "sooty" lashes; resembling Betty Boop; the fattest chipmunk cheeks (can insinuate someone's ass) and so on. ♰♰♰ Intention on Pile Two's end shows up in an authoritative sense, when they insert themselves it's because they're tired of the bullshit. Eerily similar to that of a "headmaster", otherwise strictness is a part of their love language. Coddling will only get someone so far, lol this pile's upfront; blunt, but respectful [simultaneously]. This pile won't allow people to run and duck from their problems, only "showing" the option to face them. Those same people are awakened to their fears, abilities, and unnatural desires; they've been found, truly seen. Making people sit up straight and pay attention; "IDGAF if I was late" ie. no one but Pile Two can check them like this. That spunkiness is a treasure alone, but especially cherished for stemming from "unaltered" independence. Praise and worshipping kinks could be prevalent during encounters.

WHAT’S SEDUCTIVE IN BED ⟶ 🎴 3oS. Ace of Cups↺. 6oS. King of Pentacles. Death. 7oC [bod].

DISARMING PEOPLE WITH CHARM—ALOOFNESS—REMAINS KEY, A COMPONENT THAT OFFERS THE BEST SURPRISE. Playing coy, twiddling thumbs or tucking hair ("biting it" too), it's a game that this pile wins easily. Nobody expects this from Pile Two, not in the slightest because they're too kind. Gentle and 'maternal', nimble like a baby mouse. On the surface, that is. I'm envisioning the slow drip of a faucet, or the articulation of a cat's paw steps—steady [and deliberate]. This energy reminds me of honey while it drizzles, erotic and warm. This pile's *so* sensual, and it drives a lottttttttt of people insane ("up the walls"). Feline, otherwise 'tactful', energies are present; acquiring or possessing skills in seduction. Mastery in peep shows, teases, and dances for sure. Mastery in peep shows, teases, and dances for sure. "We can't just keep talking about it, I want you to come inside it...I want to get wild" insinuates romantic partners don't want to wait, that they're in the mood anytime they see querent.

♰♰♰ Provocative is the best word for this group, they're able to control a room with little to no motion (unless it's on top <3). Can move mountains, crush stone, with nothing but a toe point; very powerful people. Pheromones alone are even enough, it's the sheer nature of it all, this pile's addictive. They may find that their sexual encounters will include overstimulation or force (i.e. domination) because lovers aren't capable of holding it in. Losing coherency, spiraling in Pile Two's "abyss" ("going the extra mile"). Essentially, lovers that'll believe in the red string theory after just one time together. It shocks anyone that's graced a chance to get in bed, the sexual influence is mind warping. ♰♰♰ Orgasms come super easily ("almost naturally") when given from them. Their technique(s) to have someone cumming are "sensational", soul touching and tear producing (I smell Scorpio and 12H placements lol). Definitely bestowed with the "magic touch"; skills that beckon one's climax forth. The Enchantress. People reach different heights with them, a "new peak"—reborn for existence ["again"]. People have revelations and awakenings in bed with Pile Two, in which can come about in a matter of minutes or after one orgasm (in other words, tread this force of a skill lightly). Obsessive behavior is prone to arise, 99.8% that it will, because people won't get enough. Querents knowledge on ecstasy is beyond teaching, so much that I sense it's spiritual; an "antidote" for those who aren't "well" (i.e. in heat and addicted).

BEING COINED AS 'THE BEST' SOMEONE'S EVER HAD IS TIED DIRECTLY TO BEING WORTH THE CHASE. Not that this group's only good or made for sex, more so being an expert in that department adds to their prestige. It's giving public reputation, one that's good or possibly envied; 10H prominence. King of Pentacles is the emblem of high social standing, respect and utmost value; the spread itself clarifies the admiration of Pile Two from different POVs. May mirror the 'WAG effect', but with them as the celebrity and their partner the wife. Double confirmation for emulating a cat, this is their ownership and haughtiness lmao. Wouldn't be surprised if it was obvious that querents wears ["and buys"] the pants in romantic connections, I even sense being worshipped by choice—love's in a glass case for the public to see. May mirror the "WAG effect", but Pile Two isn't the wife (they're the "breadwinner").

♰♰♰ Physique is coming in similar to Pile One (check it out if called), more pronunciation on the upper half tho. The breasts (chest) are "opulent", so possibly on the fuller cup side or give off an illusion (i.e. being big). "Full moon" is what I'm channeling which gives off that their breasts hold the emphasis on moon; Cancer placements (Sun, Moon, Mars), weightier feel, stretch marks or birthmarks across (or around) them. "Pushup bra", meaning that area is noticeable. Anatomy aside, breasts equate to maternal characteristics. Being domestic, caring for those around them, owning an apartment and a dog—signs that potential partners associate to good parenting. "With child". Breeding and having babies/getting this pile pregnant are major fantasies because they carry the imagery of how a "mother" should be. ♰♰♰ The softest people are in this pile and not just referring to vibes; skin, hair, lips, and legs are reminiscent of warm butter (which can point to glowing). I see the definition of radiance within their regime. Wearing whipped scents and perfumes of dreams, they kiss every room with succulence. A mango of a person, each part of them quenching people's thirst. Softness also indicates being a safe haven, or "stress relief", [a peace of mind] for close connections in their lives. Lol I'm even imagining a stress ball ("magenta"), like querent is a few people's security blanket. Giving out the best hugs and sweetest smile. Nothing overtly sexual, seduction is their aura. Comforting, dependable [with reason], and trustworthy; characteristics that whisper "this is a good person".

𝐒𝐘𝐍𝐂𝐇𝐒.

♡⃕ Humorous people, like will make an entire room fold under pressure and BOL. "Practical jokester" and "professional yapper". Dragging people along; "jittery" or full of enthusiasm. Big kid as an adult, could even giggle a "ton". Dimples, smile lines, “eye crinkles” are present. Sun could be in cardinal houses [1H, 4H, 7H, 10H].

♡⃕ Oral, both giving and receiving, is a favorite. Mouths are "heated", almost like steamy hot tub water. Head that's slow and deliberate; "toe curling", "sheet gripping". Keeping a lover in place, holding their legs apart or keeping them pinned [for max pleasure]. Learning new techniques, tricks and "treats" for a five star experience. Pluto could be in cardinal houses [1H, 4H, 7H, 10H].

♡⃕ Feeling the same as “bubblegum” pink, having an aura that’s saturated in sugariness. Pinkalicious (brat); getting their way in love and not having to do much in return. Pink skin after getting spanked, undertones that show "flush". "Sweetest Pie" by Megan thee Stallion & Dua Lipa (similar vibes). Skill in baking or treats ("top notch"), confectionary sugar. Using their goods as [or "for"] a temporary love spell.

♡⃕ Goodhearted with a 'girl/boy next door' quality, would be a TV show's comfort character [otherwise most popular]. Happiness evokes the distinction of the ✨ emoji; "higher frequencies." Eloquence of Disney princesses or princes; "ain't no sunshine when she's gone." Transmuting pain, turning it into better days [or "Good Days" by SZA]. Positive influence, specifically on elders. Singing can be therapeutic and a skill.

♡⃕ Masturbation and alternative self-pleasure tactics can be chronic. Satisfying their needs, practicing affirmative moaning (e.g. moaning out loud and looking in a mirror). Instills confidence with sexuality—revealing clothing, "fiercely" looking makeup (winged liner, "blood" red lips), sexual discipline [on their time]. Can't be tied down, like ever. Has options for different days of the week ("separate occasions"); a playa. Could be Martian (Mars dom).

♡⃕ Maternal instincts and having a knack for domesticity, "family oriented". Dreams of birthing [or raising] children; adopting pets (i.e. owning multiple). Children "flock" to them, feel seen and understood from an adult POV ("trustful"). Dependable to friends. Proficient in babysitting or caretaking the youth; babies and toddlers "favorite person."

𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓

𝐏𝐈𝐋𝐄 𝐈𝐈𝐈 𓆩❦︎𓆪

WHAT’S SEDUCTIVE IN GENERAL ⟶ 🎴 Sadness. the Hermit. Page of Swords. Creativity↺. 7oS↺. Strength. 2oW. 8oS [bod].

BRIGHT DIAMONDS FEEL REVELANT IN COMPARISON TO PILE THREE'S RARITY. On the surface it seems they're forlorn and stoic or repressed and grim. Misunderstood and judged until an opportunity to see all of them arrives; "guarded" but authentic ("100%"). Querents may emulate the solemness in renaissance oil paintings. Given the chance to drop their guard, they'll ease into vulnerability. Not entirely, just enough to witness them relax. It's public knowledge that they're forced to be on [the] edge, and that it's near impossible to get off alone. This pulls people in, as if they're rushing to get closer; want to be querents knight in shining armor. "If I'm worthy enough?" People dream to sought out after this pile's approval, and coming to the realization is sexy.

♰♰♰ Querents of this pile are made of stone. Their energy is immovable, it's not made to crack ["shatter, or break"]. Willow trees make up their intelligence, these are teachers of power (strength and discipline). I see them as "silent, but deadly", as silence ("Hermit mode") is the shield. Saying nothing and knowing it all. Intelligence comes to mind, alluding to mental influence on others. Potential partners could find themselves having an urge to do better; heighten their knowledge, sharpen their skills, complete a craft. Lmao however, Pile Three wouldn't have even told them to go do it, those partners would've done it all by themselves for Pile Three ("just because"). Power is definitely a thriving source here. ♰♰♰ Determinative and empowered, querents are forthcoming regarding goals, ambitions, and accomplishments; success seems to "follow" them, but that's due to it being a source of comfort. Channeling the drive to "succeed" is found in creative or musical pursuits [if not about career]. It's not unheard of that this pile fights to the end of Earth to conquer a triumph (spirit of a warrior). This is perceived seductively as it displays to the world how perseverant they will be; "nothing that can be taken away" because it's what they know how to easily obtain.

THE LYNX WITH A SOLUTION IS HOW THIS PILE IS REPRESENTED TO OTHERS, PLUS ROMANTIC PARTNERS. Unpredictable, braggadocious, reactive, and relentless; characteristics in common as they're shaped from a similar mold. Intuition is a prevalent factor as well, because like a lynx, Pile Three can interpret anyone's energy (i.e. "read the room") and quickly adjust. Watchful gaze and all. Analyzing sceneries has led them into assessment, coined the role of lieutenant. It's prominent for sure, I'm hearing "dictator" as in this is how querents come off. It's "unsettling", but in the way that rolls tingles up your spine. Commanding and directing is attached to them as a personality trait, it's born from their urge to take initiative. Doing things, learning things, attempting things at the drop of a dime and asserting their authority by getting it finished.

♰♰♰ Querents are able to play hot and cold (like the song), inevitably putting people in a box labeled "undetermined"; people don't know where they stand, might not even know how to, just because Pile Three never tells. Like a magician pulling a trick and walking offstage even with the audience unbeknownst to how it worked. "Let me in" is what people scream internally, while jumping through hoops and hell to prove that they're worth the risk. Maximum effort to impress querents, or at the very least get them to "reconsider" dropping their defense. "Lower their expectations", so partners can dream of a real chance. Safe to say that querents are more likely to give "tests" with no thought about reviewing them. ♰♰♰ It's highly plausible that assertion on Pile Three's end is a coverup over their ["raging"] insecurities. Internal, external, mental or physical doubts hide under their reign ("rule"), it's easier for querents to take charge in all areas because they can't control their mind. Before spiraling, before "shutdown" (mass destruction); breathing techniques ("practice") helps level them out when in the midst of breakdowns. Personal lives can be on the brink of crumbling to querents, this is a result of 'unhealthy' home environment(s) as they grew older—interpersonal relationships were likely affected most. Codependency is a result from this unhealed wound ("wounds"), as it feels like something physical will heal the void rather than actual treatment (e.g. therapy). Addiction to sex, substance, work, or gambling is rather prevalent, so seductiveness comes in the form of sinful vices. ♰♰♰ Pile Three was the only group to receive an extra card, which happens to be about making decisions and stepping outside comfort zones [2 of Wands]. I found this interesting considering this pile has trouble taking [and making] leaps of faith, they live by the rule of a schedule (anything outside of that doesn't see light of day fr); someone [according to the number two] could change that. Show them a whole new world outside of expectations, routine, and boredom lmao. What gets querents to open up and breathe for once, that this someone gives them space to register, download, and process; they feel like being alone with the lights off, something Pile Three wouldn't mind sharing with them in real life; "let them in".

WHAT'S SEDUCTIVE IN BED ⟶ 🎴4oC. the Hanged Woman. 10oP. the Devil. 8oW. Death↺ [bod].

CHAMELEONS MARK QUERENTS ALTERNATE IDENTITY ("SPLIT PERSONALITY"), A SIDE OF THEMSELVES THAT ISN'T COMPOSED AND HIDDEN. It feels like the confines of a private party; hair messy, lips smudged, phone lost but the music keeps jumping. They're spinning round and round, pulling whoever's nearby into their circle. This shows in moments of comfort; setting a mood outside of their walls and head. Enjoying themselves to the max and inviting others to unwind also. It is sexy to loosen up and let your hair down, it's a "birthright" to bask in the moment. An outlook on free will that serene is destined for greatness, others can see it. In the bedroom, Pile Three turns the encounter into hotel service; five star rating from all the guests.

♰♰♰ Dominatrix/Dominant is the intensity I'm feeling, querent has the presence of a god. Everything's gone cold, lights are low and silence is near. "Secretary", E. Edward Gray vibes times ten (I even picture them cracking back an extra long whip). Definitely, definitely, definitelyyyy making people become their little sluts—overworking their existence with their own pleasure (woah :P). Indicates incessant teasing ("edging"), praise or punishment, and submission (mentally, physically). "Silence?" coming in could represent the use of rules, or it can be the calm after their partner's orgasm. Shutting down and regenerating all from Pile Three's conditions [e.g. sensory deprivation and multiple rounds]. It’s sexual Fear Factor, and many would love to play. ♰♰♰ Vanilla lovers are common and likely easily influenced; Pile Three gains the upper hand over others, but it's used to explore their fantasies. "How many licks to turn you out?" hence the overall dynamic of bedroom activity. Degradation when inflicted could dance on the harsher end (e.g. face smacking), but this also says meanness is a raging turn on (both querent and partner).

IT'S PLAUSIBLE THAT PEOPLE ARE SEDUCED DURING SEX, BECAUSE THROUGHOUT THE ENCOUNTER THEY'RE LOSING THEMSELVES JUST TO BE FOUND. Pile Three inhibits the role of a teacher, borderline disciplinarian, but all in the language of tough "love". Essentially, the dominance from them helps their partners with self discovery; helps them develop a newfound confidence in their identity. "Secretary" is coming in again, which isn't surprising since this pile resonates with the movie's theme. The main character, Lee, is a representation of querents spouse throughout their transformation; "on the path to redemption" with their own bodies. Butterflies floating from their cocoons to venture somewhere that's not home—these partners are butterflies once Pile Three travels along their bliss and ecstasy [as in life changing sex ;)].

♰♰♰ Oh, this the pile into wrapping their bedroom partners in rope or fluffy black cuffs; into withholding sweet relief when they have to cum. I'm hearing "soft", which alludes to a gentler side emerging whenever it's time to tie someone up [or implement use of bondage]. Fondness develops once Pile Three leans into this dynamic of rewards for submission; partners light up at the dualism because it reminds them that they're "loved" (i.e. cared for). ♰♰♰ Pile One had significant messages revolving around querents voice, and it's the same for Pile Three. Going off the downloads about demand and control, what's specifically seductive is hearing them speak; giving "instructions", whispering little nothings, essentially melting people's eardrums with word salad. Lol, it reminds me of how certain celebrities are urged to read audiobooks. It's erotic, but it's even better when it's meant for one person ("partner") to hear. I'm also channeling the use of querents voice, in the sense that they're vocalists in bed: "do it like that", "stay there", "i'm so close", "you feel that", etc. They're in [no way] afraid to praise or chide how their experience feels, dissatisfaction isn't an answer.

𝐒𝐘𝐍𝐂𝐇𝐒.

♡⃕ Victimization, "prone to experiencing projection." People pushing ideas onto their persona, not accepting querents for who they actually are. Black sheep ["of friends"]. Edgelord (traits). Pluto in 1H, 2H, or 3H. Sun could be in a water sign [Cancer, Scorpio, Pisces] and in 6H.

♡⃕ High profile, appearance is that of a model. "Diamond face"; head shape is acute, sharpened and definitive (e.g. strong jawline). Cheekbones accentuated with contour and highlighter "blush". Straight or "queen" shaped brows. Scorpio in Moon, Venus, or Mars.

♡⃕ Talking and letting it "all out" during sexual encounters. Directing people how they want—need* to be pleased. Definitely talks someone through it; softly whispering the filthiest shit ever lol. Stern and direct. Influence is in their "reasonings", natural convos imitate public speeches ("PSAs"). Presence that'd do wonders in a governmental field (the Pentagon, CIA, secret service). Mercury in 8H, 12H, conjunct IC (4H).

♡⃕ Rolling Stone' by the Weeknd reflects their inner thoughts ("monologue"). Missing people [or a person] that doesn't exist; lonely by ["a"] fault. Stoners, "being stoned" from troubles, using escapism as defense. Caged bird, but an escape isn't near (false). Father Time [Saturn] gifts them wisdom with maturity; development is their "greatest" friend. Meditative yoga, journaling, or music ground them tremendously.

♡⃕ 333; individuals that're lucky, "blessed by Jupiter." Purple aura, royal like mindset. Abundance in material possessions, large amounts that fall through when least expected. "Lumpsums" and it's a new car. Good karma surrounding finances, regime, and knowledge [seemingly 6H]. Could know friends who know "friends" [business opportunities, success]. "Hustlers."

♡⃕ Major Aquarian traits; innovative, intelligent, "indescribable." Could "LOL" a lot, they're likely to be cackling. Incorporates "spectacles" in everyday fashion (sunglasses, reading glasses, fun patterned glasses). Accessories that stand out like their music; multi-genre playlists that's all their taste. Into fruit smoothies or Greek yogurt. "Unconventional" (lifestyle).

𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓

𝐏𝐈𝐋𝐄 𝐈𝐕 𓆩❦︎𓆪

WHAT'S SEDUCTIVE IN GENERAL⟶ 🎴 Creativity. 4oP. 5oP. Rest. 2oW↺. Ace of Pentacles↺. 6oP [bod].

THE CONNECTION TO THIS PILE WAS INSTANTANEOUS, MEANING QUERENTS ARE "TRANQUIL" IN SPIRIT, FLUID IN ENERGY. Pile Four's essence reminds me of coconut trees in Hawaii, leaves fluttering from the warmest of breezes; "tropical island" but in the form of their inner self. Child of the seas. Water nymph in her prime, having a beautiful voice is within this comparison; lessons will develop the clarity of their singing, "choir like" vocals. Aromatherapies could soothe disruptions querents face, scent itself is a huge part of their presence period. "Musk", "gourmand"; smelling delectable, but with an added hint of spice (e.g. cinnamon base). I'm downloading wafts of vanilla, caramel, cotton candy, and chocolate. A guilty pleasure, otherwise delightful to those that can't get a taste ["even tho they want to so bad"].

♰♰♰ Eyes are the most seductive feature of this pile, like the amount of pressure ("pleasure") people get after locking eyes is immense as hell. Naturally intense, resembling that of a tiger's—narrowed and penetrating. "Big ego". Sexiness can be found within their pupils, a tenacious gleam once it's turned on. Transformations are recurring here and partly because Pile Four chooses who they want to "be", slipping on a mask as if they're dressing for the part. "Which era am I stepping into today?" I'm channeling the planet Pluto, so there could dominant or prominent influence in the chart; querents have much passion hidden behind those irises and it hooks people. ♰♰♰ Charitable, generous beings reside within; attention is focused on Pile Four's desires to donate or give back. Not only partners, but people will generally find that level of empathy to be attractive. Humble and rich, whether that's in material assets or spiritual abundance, querents aren't hesitant to share. Pentacles are associated to wealth, so income is especially prominent; "big bank", accumulating revenue through their purposefulness. Humanitarianism is beloved from Pile Four because it's seen as genuine ("from the heart"). Forewarning to repress any sign of bragging, boasting, or full out greed since these are funds tied to karma; Saturn is the driving force because it's all hard earned and deserved, but he won't allow them to forget where they came from. Good behavior equals no testing trials or lessons, we want to keep it that way lol.

ENDEARMENT FROM THE COLLECTIVE WILL BE APPARENT; PEOPLE FIND IT QUITE DIFFICULT TO NOT FALL IN LOVE WITH PILE FOUR. I believe it's their truth and honesty, because they're undoubtedly the peacemaker for a *lot* of people's situations ("shortcomings"). "You've got a friend in me", meaning querents don't bash, they just expect better. Respect blooms once bathed in that light, it's "justified" (i.e. deserved). Honoring an opinion or perspective from this pile, because it's "essential for growth". Sun conjunct [or "trine"] Mercury or MC only emphasizes this air of importance. Utilizing communication and publicly speaking will be a part of this pile's rite of passage lol, definitely meant to be heard out loud (e.g. fighting for rights as a career). Also, raising awareness for a specific subject ("sensitive", controversial) will be a focal point regarding their presence in society—trailblazers.

♰♰♰ Personally, I'd be wary of the people this pile's around because some people are attracted to their sadness. With ill intention this is obviously weird, but harmless attraction would just be someone wanting to "save" Pile Four. Since they're one with inner power, it seems that nothing can shake their stability until it does. It's arousing when querents are in need because they usually never are; never asking for help, won't accept it neither [at least to anyone around that knows firsthand]. It's giving "the damsel's *finally* in distress", like people would leap in front of traffic if it meant they'd get to Pile Four first. Ngl, the other end of this spectrum is very loud—witch hunt vibes, as in "enemies" are literally praying to see querents suffer. Could be prominent later in life, but regardless I felt called to insert a message. Oddly, it's higher ups (bosses, managers) harboring this level of resentment; threatened by Pile Four's strength and potential [to succeed]. Be extremely cautious when at work (or in a workspace), I sense sabotage and framing ("accidents") when we know the real. ♰♰♰ While listening to music, I found myself coming across two separate versions of the same song; one was better than the other, which led me to believe that Pile Four experiences (or "will experience") copycatting and comparison from others. Specifically, partners or suitors who're in committed relationships and fail to keep querents out their fantasies. "Do it better" is being channeled, which also reminds me of being validated for something special ["that no one else has"]. Not to promote infidelity or being someone's sidepiece, but the favoritism isn't really being hidden lmao. This pile must be invested in spirituality or at the very least into the law of "what goes around comes around", because they're not tempted by any bait. They remember who karma is and how she operates, I don't picture them dipping into people's relationships for harmful doing at all. Using someone to their advantage, yes, but allowing themselves to come second place when someone's already first, hard pass.

WHAT'S SEDUCTIVE IN BED ⟶ 🎴Knight of Wands. 8oC. the Emperor. 6oP. King of Swords. the Fool [bod].

DISCOVERING THAT THERE'S ANOTHER SIDE TO SOMEONE SECLUDED IS SUCH A HOT LITTLE SECRET, AND PILE FIVE'S IN ON IT ("DEVIANCY"). Seduction is their strip tease, a dance where each turn and grind is another piece of clothing on the floor. It's as if the quiet island essence drowned beneath heavy passion and eroticism. "Drenched." For some, private encounters ["at night"] could be a habitual pastime, a "hobby". Stress reliever it is, and partners will find joy in being the outlet. Enamor is found at the base of sexual encounters, as in partners find themselves "sinking" into querents love [let alone fall].

♰♰♰ The card spread is a telltale significator of being a freak, definitely needing someone who can "match it" all the same. Like the signs are signing, from the Fool (openness in sexual ideas) at the bottom of the deck to the eroticism that surrounds (encloses) me. I feel that loyalty and trust are the keys to Pile Five's sexual shop. Think those 18+ Instagram posts that're like, "I look innocent, but for that one person I'm the opposite." Querents are a personification of that energy, they're hard to read [sexually] unless someone's intentions say differently. Roleplaying could be a kink that's enjoyable, especially in a maid's outfit or "teacher student" attire; the effects of role reversal instill stability and confidence in their romantic relationships. ♰♰♰ King of Swords came through and despite not having an actual place in the spread, the card came with a download about Pile Four's ability to "take it". Be it longer length of a dick/dildo, nonstop orgasms, or multiple rounds—they're handling everything like a pro ;). "Extremely commendable." People's mouths are going to drop and hang open just from witnessing the durability in person, "making it disappear" isn't common. I'll even insert anal, just because it fits the bill in this context (taboo doesn't exist).

SCENTS HAVE WAFTED TO THE SEXUAL SIDE, PUTTING EMPHASIS ON THE "SMELL" OF DESIRE. Smelling lovely, carrying an ambience of rose petals and candlelight. I've compared another pile to being an aphrodisiac and it also applies to querents; pheromones cloud and permeate the senses of partners, keeps them strung ["on what they're going to have"]. It's telling how drawn in they are, I see them hanging around Pile Four like flies to fresh fruit. Nobody likes to let go, in turn encouraging themselves to stay; "know I gotta leave, but I want to stay." Hearts growing fonder no matter the distance. Selena Quintanilla's presence and aura to the collective, and how that light is missed everyday—Pile Four.

♰♰♰ Naturalness is liberation to querents, their body hair isn't shunned or shamed. "Carefree". Bushes are attractive to not only them, but their lovers as well. It's the normalcy of two people bonding in bed, I think it's a ["stress"] relief to turn off being perfect just to be human. Feels bohemian in the sense of living by the choice; inspiring body positivity. Innocent, but it's attractive enough that partners want to "go down" more frequently ;P. It just adds more uumph to an encounter. ♰♰♰ There's a specific person that came in, someone who devotes ("dotes") their happiness on Pile Four's satisfaction (*for some*). Regardless, I'm channeling messages about foot massages and bathtubs ["together"]; "extreme" TLC after passionate sessions; chocolates fed to them, etc. Romcom acts of service, sweet nothings and dates as long as they're treating querents (i.e. together). Whoever this energy belongs to, they're practically marriage material [and a munch].

𝐒𝐘𝐍𝐂𝐇𝐒.

♡⃕ Tons of fame indicators, querents could find themselves in the public eye once this lifetime. Skepticism around their authenticity, and if they're "cut out" for the scrutiny (otherwise backlash). Nitpicking about appearance being "too hot" and "sexy". Wild and famous. Sun (“conjunct Mercury”) or Lilith could be in 10H. Could have personal planets or placements in Capricorn or Libra [i.e. Saturn ruled].

♡⃕ "Eye catching" type of beauty. Attractivity resembles that of a model, influencer, or "guru"; gorgeous ass people. Androgynous features (well balanced between masc and fem energies). Exhibits the cut and value ("grace") of pink white diamonds. Could be Venusian [Rising, Moon, and Venus in Libra].

♡⃕ Virgin, practicing celibacy, or abstinence; haven't had penetrative sex "yet". Staying to themselves, rejecting new partners (flings), respect around the body. "Not letting anyone touch." Body isn't a joking matter, taken very seriously. Potential health scares [or "hospital visits"]. Prone to sending, posting, or saving nude pics.

♡⃕ Expensive jewels in their favorite pieces of jewelry; never seen without it [necklace, bracelet, “pendant”]. Red rubies or emeralds could have significance (e.g. birth stone, parent’s name etc.). People see them as “luxurious”. Debbie Jellinksy in ‘Addams Family Values’. Spoiled babies, but not without reason. Bargainers [“and deals”]. Jealous themes regarding fashion, beauty, and influence (themselves included).

♡⃕ Going into hiding, "Hermit mode" for a soul cleanse (refresher). Transformative as hell. Disappearing for months at a time just to reappear a "new" person; even more beautiful, "collected", and better than before. Unrecognizable (in a good way). "Money Longer" by Lil Uzi Vert. Pluto dominant, their ability to shed skin and birth anew is apparent ("respected"). Noticed in *every* room they've ever stepped in ("blessing and a curse").

♡⃕ Free the oppressed (“Palestine” and more); boycotting message, either to start or continue. Stop drinking coffee from Starbucks, it’s being frowned upon [“spiritual guidance”], people's lives are at stake. They’re important—they matter.

𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓

𝐏𝐈𝐋𝐄 𝐕 𓆩❦︎𓆪

WHAT'S SEDUCTIVE IN GENERAL ⟶ 🎴 Abundance↺. Knight of Wands↺. the Magician. Rejection↺. Ace of Swords. the Star. Knight of Cups↺ [bod].

PILE FIVE'S PRESENCE IS ILLUMINATED BY THEIR OUTER PROMINENCE, THEIR "STAR" SHINE (HENCE THE STAR CARD). I've noticed that all five piles have this certain glow to their energies, their personalities can revive a dark room. In this instance, Pile Five's personality is what's alluringly magnetic, it's "seduction" at its truest form. Envision if a person wanted to build their lover, they'd pick characteristics from querents admirabilities. "Sensuous" and amicable, somehow much more than expected (alongside individual uniqueness). Adept with an artistic approach, querents bestow fine talents—performing onstage (i.e. singing, dancing), creative writing, interior or fashion design, etc. Makes them exceptionally special, more so in the public eye; "starstruck". "Nice & Slow" can allude to querents steadiness in attaining their goals, taking the long route for lasting (rewarding) results.

♰♰♰ Embodying traits of people's ideal person (i.e. "perfection") is one of the main factors of being seduced; reminding them that humans aren't one dimensional, that we're made up of universal qualities. Humor would be the best example, because it's not a requirement to be with someone funny, until you realize that you love to laugh. Pile Five has this natural likeliness, they're able to be relatable without coming off as a flake ("try hard"); they're a breath of fresh air, a "relief". Youthfulness is a key factor as well, subtle mannerisms and expressions that thump through people's hearts; "twinkling eyes" and sweet smiles. The wonder in querents eyes is especially prominent, everyone notices at first glance. Literally the Star card, lighting up the nighttime. ♰♰♰ I envision this pile having many friends, being the favorite person in a lot of people's lives. A bestfriend, even to passing strangers. I'm hearing "polly pocket", which says people don't ["ever"] want to outgrow playing with Pile Five. (i.e. spend time with them). Spilling secrets, getting/giving advice, and trusting forever comes with this pile's care package lol; they're the sun for someone else's rainy day ("a confidant"). All above is the answer to "what's so beautiful about them?" Inner beauty is perceived to be felt "by all". Beautiful generosity is what I'm hearing, so querents hospitality is noteworthy. Getting-people-awestruck energy.

QUERENTS DEMEANOR DANCES ALONG THE LINES OF BEING RESERVED AND STRICT. BEING DEFINITIVE IS THE BETTER WORD, THEY'RE APT TO EARNESTY. If Virgo placements are present then this level of poise comes effortlessly, it's a part of them. Primitive and prestigious, people find these attributes to be "fascinating". Miranda Priestly from "the Devil Wears Prada" is who I visualize Pile Five to be; attentiveness to detail, pristine image from successes, a name upheld by its holder. Her character struts with diligence and strives for the greatest opportunities (it's in querents presence). Not letting up on a goal and seeing it to the end draws everyone in; "making shit happen" with devotion catches everyone's attention (enamoring).

♰♰♰ Getting feisty and excessive cussing is a part of querents likability; "randomness" in their words or expressionism. Lol "loudmouthing" is coming in, so they're bound to going off in the heat of moment ["or any time of day"]. The wheel generator (unexpectedness) of their speech is their bat signal, but especially when they're feeling mean. People may project weakness onto this pile—not taking them seriously—until it's their turn to get told off ("caught in the crossfire"). Harmless until they detonate :P, people are reminded that Pile Five has two separate sides. ♰♰♰ Their facial features are accentuated for luring (attracting) attention "wherever they are"; recognition for how irresistible they look to other people. Characteristics of an "angel", plump (cherubic) cheeks or apple like cheekbones. Highlighter serves them well, makes their appearance "radiant", can resemble the Sun. Broad shoulders, toned calves, or a built figure; seduction in their flex, or in moments where they're on display (e.g. in a swimsuit). I see them invoking the spirit of a Taurus [bull] and arousing tenaciousness in lovers. If it was possible to do, someone would paint Pile Five's face to hang in the Louvre.

WHAT'S SEDUCTIVE IN BED ⟶ 🎴8oC↺. 10oP↺. Ace of Swords. the Lovers. Page of Pentacles. Queen of Cups [bod].

HAVING AN EFFECTS OF HEAVY DRUGS WOULD BE AN IDEAL REFERENCE TO PILE FIVE’S SEDUCTIVENESS. All it takes is just one dose, because right after that is when the addiction begins (i.e. obsessive lovers). It's not uncommon for this group to attract internet watchers or stalkers, otherwise past partners that don't want to leave them alone; "can't get enough" of their love, aimlessly wondering if Pile Five's wondering too. "Made for everyone", as in "one taste and you're whipped". Don't be afraid to indulge, especially if it's the best you'll ever get. The pile that got away for a lot of past lovers [111, 1111 is significant].

♰♰♰ Wetness and fluids are big with querents, the first thing I channeled was "water fountain" (cream). It's making me giggle, because private areas can be seen as a "problem" from producing so much liquid. This can indicate "magic" genitals, private parts sprinkled in glitter. Orgasms from this pile are the "gift that keeps on giving", like people's self-worth (value) end up skyrocketing lol. "Heaven sent" plus the gift of pleasure leaves the impression of God's angel on others. Breeding or ["multiple"] creampies as a kink, because lovers find themselves absorbing the excess ("wanting it all", if you catch my drift..). Water is heavy [throughout the spread] which confirms many messy situations ;). ♰♰♰ Lips, lips, lips: kissing and feeling them is an experience, a solidified moment in anyone's lives if they're granted the chance. Pile Five's kisses (mouth in general) is an escape, a getaway the promised land ["of ecstasy"]. Kisses are delectable, tasting dessert-esque (sugary, savory). Flavors of peppermint or "candy" is prominent, otherwise satiating the desire. Also, the red lips on Sabrina's cover art gives me the idea of being kissed all over; the body, face, and "soul". A level of expertise this high means Pile Five is [or will be] a lot of people's "first"; love, orgasm, or fulfilling relationship. I don't believe there's anything about them that won't get someone turned on and yearning.

AS IT'S BEEN SO POTENT, PILE FIVE'S ACCESS TO A HIGHER SOURCE OF POWER IS GRATIFYING; DIVINITY LIES WITHIN BED, IT'S AN AWAKENING OUTSIDE OF THE BODY. Sex is inherently spiritual, because to partners the encounter isn't "of this Earth". To me, I envision it as beams of light poking (pouring) through the mind and spirit of whoever's with this pile, essentially aligning physical pleasure to mental (i.e. their psyche) bliss. That's to say, any form of sex is tantric and transcendental. People will be taken aback (at first), but that's due to the encounter being as sacred as it is; the intention (or "practice") is too important to interrupt before it begins.

♰♰♰ It's hard to not claim this pile as being perfect, but omg the downloads just validate the sentiment. There's not one hair on querents body that isn't adorned and appreciated, this reigns even more true if they're in a committed connection (i.e. special person). No matter how they envision themselves, to the collective their existence is "exalted" and favored. Skin could even glow during and after sex, because they're so cherished; "everything they think they aren't" is debunked at their most vulnerable (nakedness). Laving on their sensitive spots (legs, thighs, feet) is a token of gratitude from lovers, it'll happen frequently considering how devoted to Pile Five they'll be. ♰♰♰ This is coming in so intensely, querents have the mouth of an oral [sex] god. Nothing short of a munch, they leave marks with their tongue or throat; pulling people into their utopia (i.e. ecstasy). Ecstasy is recurring word for this pile, hence being compared to a drug, an indicator for sex that's "numbing". During head, partners are bound to throw their heads ["and hands"] upwards. The pressure of being sucked into the void is "stilling", the calm before a ravage storm. Lmao, they get people stuck with their mouths on 'o'. Minds on cloud nine, limbs so light from relaxation they "could float"—blown. This pile is made up of lovers that give and give, until they can't give anymore. It's as if oral is a "souvenir", an experience meant to be collected forever more.

𝐒𝐘𝐍𝐂𝐇𝐒.

♡⃕ "Ironheart"; has the courage of the [cowardly] lion, bravery is learned (earned). Lightning strike(s) of a person, turns heads and charges surroundings with their intensity; energy is incomparable. Uranus could be a part of big three [Sun, Moon, Rising], Uranus dominant or in 1H/2H. Authors (writing can "revitalize" people, give them a wakeup call).

♡⃕ Connected to their highest form ("truest self"), receives messages through [or "from"] the Universe. Alienlike; "not of this Earth." What's on the inside (soul) reflects what's on their "face" (e.g. feeling good internally so they're extra smiley in person). Balanced. "Sacral chakra" alignment is a godsend for sex [can top or ride well]. Stomach is people's favorite part; birthmark, belly piercing, tattoo(s) above the waist.

♡⃕Insecurities are a part of them; "stories" about overcoming disappointment. Secretive to a fault ("can hold water" forever). Believes in trust and exposing what's on the inside—"bareface" (might also be more present at their "rawest"). Holds the key to the world (i.e. everyone's secrets). Consciousness. Lmao, fucking with them is a spiritual ass whooping full of drawbacks [and lessons]. Powerful ancestors (spirit team).

♡⃕ "Thank you" is their passage to life. Grateful for the smallest and largest things; "tearing up" over sentiments. Type to thank their lover for giving them orgasms ["submissive"]. "Soothing" voices; can converse or "rock" anyone to sleep (comforting). Cancer placements could be prominent [Sun, Moon, Venus][Lunarian].

♡⃕ "Bed Chem" by Sabrina Carpenter, might be "short and sweet". Emulates the energy of a little person ("smol"). Hair can be long, full and thick too [great for tugging, wrapping, or "pulling" in bed]. Cocoon, people don't want [them] to leave. Rich and "domestic" (motherly) singing voice. People like (love) to hear them whisper [Mercurial].

♡⃕ Artistic (artists at heart); creativity is all they know, all they breathe. Life path number 3/4, 5m [artistry]. Would do well onstage, might've experienced Broadway, could dream of visiting ("talent"). Pleasers (they're really submissive); lovers give them "everything" (i.e. drowning in ecstasy). Devotion is a personality trait. Pisces could be a part of their big six [Sun, Moon, Rising, Mercury, Venus, Mars][Neptunian].

𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓

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[gold-rhine]

like i dont think mavuika having no personality is the main natlan aq problem, but i think it contributes a lot bc shes often focus of the story and she's just so bland. like a lot of ppl say, she feels like a mary sue oc, like oh shes so brave and cool and hot, she has tragic backstory but it doesnt affect her at all except that she makes sad face sometimes, shes so well adjusted and always knows whats the right thing to do and everyone loves her. like its just boring bc it gets rid of any tension or conflict, you know everything is going to go fine and its not even interesting to watch. its insane how even in her own story quest she got ZERO characterization and instead xbalanque somehow got all the focus and personality. and in the end we had to listen to him just say out loud how she's so great and brighter sun blah blah while shes standing there the whole time like 😐

like one personality trait i can actually think was mentioned for her is that she likes learning to do new stuff and getting better at it to relax. but like she says shes not good at painting, but then draws perfect picture of her family. like??? give it some energy! what if this means she has like 100 hobbies at the same time and she's shit at all of them and shes juggling 35 projects at the same time. shes doing shitty drawing of her family and baking a shitty cake at the same time and then switches to doing like ice sculptures bc its a challenge bc it keeps melting and she's also trying photography and bonsai bc she met someone from inazuma last week. give her crazy high GOGOGO energy with insane drive that pyro archon should have instead of just calmly and serenely standing there, painting a perfect picture

also like she had to abandon her entire life and family and go to completely different time and it didnt fuck her up even a lil bit?? and she has no trouble adjusting???? like??? what if she was retro-styled, like harley instead of just generic modern bike, and it first its just a cool aesthetic, but with time u realise its bc she's from the past, shes a bit out of sync, she doesnt get all modern shit and she still likes thinks she liked in her prev life. and shes pyro, not cryo or hydro, so shes not mopping and brooding about it, shes making it everyone elses problem. shes fighting xilonen for ausx cord to play metallica instead of EDM, shes making "correct" versions of dishes that no one else knows how to make, etc. it can be a fun gimmick or an actual internal conflict of her having to eventually let or. or not! or choosing what of it is clinging to the past and what are just things she loves and wants to have this way. there is a lot to explore!

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Duke Thomas headcannons becuase please just write him as a black boy:

the first time there’s a summer rain at night after he moves into Wayne Manor Duke sets up the speakers and the floodlights and lives out his 00’s rnb music video dreams

after that Alfred will sometimes drive him around in the back of one of the cars when it rains at night because he doesn’t want his latest grandson to get hypothermia but understands that it is very important to live out 00’s rnb music video dreams

Duke teaches Cass the Usher watch this thing and originally they only use it to tell each other that they’re gonna do some dumb shit but then Cass decides she really likes it and uses it more than the actual sign [ref]

Duke and Cass have a theme song because they are besties and that theme song is black and yellow by Wiz Khalifa whenever it plays they drop everything to rap to each other and if anyone turns it off before it finishes they start it again even louder it becomes a great distraction technique for other batfamily members. they chose the song because of their uniforms but the first time a civilian sees how enthusiastic they are about the song they draw a different conclusion and they find it so funny that they definitely have to keep it as their theme song from now on

Duke lives a no shoes in the house life no matter who’s house it is or what everyone else is doing

He also keeps his Signal uniform exclusively in the batcave because no uniforms in the Manor seems like the natural extension for no outside clothes in bed

Duke sneaks scotch bonnets into the Manor kitchen generally timed with the occasions that Jason is around and in the mood to cook. Dinner those nights feature running eyes and noses from Bruce Tim and Steph along with all the milk in the Manor finishing. It’s great entertainment for Duke Cass Damian Jason and Dick

Duke has locs he lowkey thinks about bleaching the ends to match the aesthetic of his uniform but he’s unsure of if it will make him to conspicuous

When he first moved to the Manor he got pooled into the schedule to pick up hair shop (beauty supply store) supplies with the Fox’s because they’re all way too busy of people to be driving out of the way individually so it only made sense to add Duke to that. He and Tam also timetable his retwist appointments with her hair appointments for the same time

Duke is an instigator Jason and Tim will be having a petty squabble that is about to fizzle out but then Duke walks past them and just whispers a quick “if I were you I wouldn’t have that” and then an hour later a priceless vase is broken there’s holes in the wall and Tim and Jason have matching black eyes. Duke considers it a public service to provide Babs with entertainment for when Oracle hours a slow she agrees and doesn’t snitch on just how much shit Duke starts so he can get away with even more

Duke joins Jason and Alfred’s book club and the first book he picks is Beloved because like they’re in this big old gothic manor respect the aesthetic

One time Bruce walks passed Duke on ft to his friends and he’s performing “Wisdom” and Bruce thinks it’s something Duke came up with himself and is trying to be a supportive dad and is like “that’s great son” with a really strained smile and Duke just sticks to the bit like “you really think so?” bruce even more pained “yeah it’s amazing” [ref]

He also has exclusively satin pillowcases and gives everyone in the Manor a set because it’s good for the hair and therefore a good use of Bruce’s rich people money

Duke upon realising that he was gonna be adopted by a bunch of crime fighting pseudofurries and was going to join them in the crime fighting said this some white people shit and that’s why he chose Signal rather than some bioluminescent bird

[bettsfic]

How did you feel about anora? 👀 I absolutely loved it but there's so many haters, especially on Tumblr, to where I felt like I watched a completely different film from them. I'm really glad I watched it before the majority got to it because I feel like seeing all those takes first would have really ruined it for me.

i loved it. as soon as i've sent this next revision of my novel off for feedback i'm going to finish my first kiss fic, which will be CUTE and FLUFFY and not EMOTIONALLY HARROWING i swear.

when i first watched anora, i noticed a lot of comparisons between it and my own writing (in terms of character, plot, aesthetic), so i can kind of get a sense why people don't like it based on the same reasons people don't vibe with my writing. namely, the extremely wide tonal range. many people are made uncomfortable by stories that bounce around between comedy and tragedy and realism and surrealism and absurdism. not to mention that the sex scenes are not heightened into eroticism, they're just like any other scene, except the characters are naked. people generally like for sex scenes to be bookmarked by a tonal shift into "this is a special and important scene." that is, if they can handle sex scenes at all. not to mention ani doesn't feel any shame about her profession. that's just not a conflict she has. a lot of people want sex work stories to have an element of shame in them. thankfully sean baker was like, nah.

to me, anora is a very asexual movie. i have an entire short story collection about asexual sex stories, and that collection didn't sell i think because a lot of people aren't ready for asexual sex, and don't even know that's what they're looking at. anora is a movie where sex is ultimately meaningless as sex -- it's only a vehicle for character and conflict. for ani, sex and money and self-worth are all tangled up together, and that's what creates the conflict. not to mention, it's a funny movie but the sex and sex work isn't what we're laughing at.

i would argue she's not physically attracted to vanya; she, like many women who probably never got to be kids, romanticizes boyishness, playfulness and whimsy and freedom from consequences. i feel like she's not driven to be with vanya as much as she is to live his life, to become like him. their sex isn't intimate or intense; it's playful and even fairly innocent. at one point she even says to him, if you go slow it feels better/you'll last longer (i forget the exact line), because vanya is only ever chasing the most intense pleasure, even if it's extremely short-lived, because he knows he has an infinite supply of it.

meanwhile in the back half of the movie, we get to witness ani from igor's perspective. we're not watching ani watching vanya; we're watching igor watching ani and becoming enamored with her the same way she became enamored with vanya. the only difference is that i think igor admires and even adores ani for who she is. unlike everyone else, ani isn't putting on a show for him, in fact she pushes him away repeatedly. he's seeing her real colors.

and that last scene is what elevated the film for me from "wow i really loved this" to "holy SHIT." the whole movie, ani is so tough and strong. and that's a front but it's also carefully measured. she never gives any of her emotions off to other people. or rather, her battles. she fights all of them on her own all the time and doesn't trust anyone else to fight with her.

so when she sees igor's interest, she refuses to take the offer as its presented, with earnestness and respect. instead of giving in, she fights it by going, yeah yeah i see you think you like me but i promise you only want to fuck me, so to push him away even further she goes to have sex with him. but she won't kiss him, because that's what'll give her away. and then she breaks down and lets him comfort her, and we see this whole movie isn't about how strong ani is, but how lonely and lost she is. she's a woman who's never known love without concession, who's never known freedom or girlhood, who's never trusted anyone to have her best interests at heart.

anora is a story that's about sex but not about attraction. it's a story about a woman but it's not about the strength of womanhood. it's a story that's laugh-out-loud funny in equal measure to its profound tragedy.

i don't know all the discourse and i'm not really interested to see the reasons for hating it, but my bet is that some viewers were made very uncomfortable by this film and can't fully articulate why, but instead of sitting with that discomfort they reject it and label it a bad movie for whatever reasons they manage to rationalize.

i get it, there are some people who just dislike this movie. i get why someone would watch it and go "this isn't for me" because i get why people read my writing and go "this isn't for me." but i also think any criticism based on lofty ideals of "should" and "should not" might just be rejecting something they don't really understand.

[osiiiris]

Amsterdam ritual - final report

Pop up store

The pop-up stores are not at the concert location*. In my case it was at the opposite side of the city from the concert venue, and it opened a little late (about 20 mins delay). Prices are affordable for small gadgets and exaggerated (to me) for t-shirts and sweaters, going from 50 to 85���. I bought for myself a big back patch for 20€ and the exclusive Amsterdam t-shirt for 60€ (there is only one exclusive item, the location t-shirt. The rest is general merch). Yet they lost the chance to do a design with V smoking a “Mary on a Cross”, in my opinion.

My advice: get in line at least 1 hour before the opening. I don’t know if the quantity of items they have is limited or they have loads, but I have seen people coming out with A LOT of products. A LOT. So better if you make sure to be there early enough to find something left. Bring a bag, they don’t have any. Only the 25€ tote one.

*I don’t know if they sell the same stuff at the merch shop in the venue but I doubt it. Why making a separate shop so far away if the same stuff is at the regular merch stand.

Pre show

I met Vanessa. She wasn’t taking interviews when I arrived so we just chatted a little and gave me a sticker, saying that Tobias designed it himself and he is generally very involved in the project. (I think he is in everything that regards Ghost’s aesthetic)

Someone proposed to his partner during the queue, my queue, right in front of me. Thank you for reminding me how single I stil am after being so close to a marriage myself. It was cute tho.

The gates opened a little late and the queueing and check in (and check out) process was a little confusing and slow. The concert itself also started later than usual, which is surprising because Ghost are an extremely precise band and always start in perfect time. I can’t say how much was the delay but some guys next to me started the countdown when the concert was due to start, and it usually works perfectly, but now… nothing happened for several minutes after the end of the countdown. 

The whole upper ring (seated spots) right in front of the stage was completely empty (all the other rings were full). I think it was intentional but I don’t know the reason for it.

To my surprise, I was the closest I have ever been to their front row, and I queued later than usual. I saw everything perfectly.

Show

This is the third time and still I can’t understand what is announced right before Peacefield. There is a brief introduction between the Peacefield chorus and the start of the actual song; what I grasped till now is that the narrator presents Ghost (the concert I guess) in a very energetic way, like a football match. I think I only understood “…Ghost, the best band in the world!” But don’t trust me.

Swiss still missing, mic stand still there. During the concert I tried to check if the mic is still there because other ghouls use it during the songs, but no… nobody’s using it. It’s just there alone.

Faith instead of From The Pinnacle to the Pit, Call me Little Sunshine instead of Majesty. Let’s talk about it a moment. I witnessed the FTPTTP > Faith swap in London, then finally heard FTPTTP in Milan, and I must say, the songs are easily interchangeable. They have the same energy and impact on the audience, so I’m fine with both, but Call Me Little Sunshine instead of Majesty… it just doesn’t work for me. At all. V is still raised above the stage, but the song lacks the pathos and impact Majesty has… also the subject of the song in Majesty works perfectly with the imaginary of him standing tall above everyone else. It’s a no for me and I’m glad I experienced Majesty twice.

Another thing I have noticed during CMLS is that V’s robes are…rigid. If he moves too much, the whole vestments tremble as if it was a still structure, and that’s what I think it actually is: he just “enters” in the robe, like a shell, sill wearing his clothes, as the papal robe is very large and there is room for it. Only the arms can be moved. Thats why it’s so fast for him to change into that outfit: he just doesn’t change, probably. Plus, his image projected on screen isn’t pre-recorded, it’s live.

During Cirice there is a return of the mic stand touching and fingers “tickle”. V sniffed his fingers after the tickling.

Mummy Dust was a complete flop (not the song). I was extremely close to the stage (4 people from the front row) and the confetti barely reached the first row. There were only a few bills in the cannons, it was all confetti and I saw only one persons actually grabbing one, at my side. I think mistakes were made with the cannons charging. Mummy thrusts were very slow and timid. I think V isn’t that interested in sex.

After Mummy Dust, he made us call for Jesus (Kevin) to clean up, commenting that he wasn’t sure he would hear us there.

V repeated the joint-Mummy Dust (of course, where if not here) implying that was what people was going to do after the concert.

Rain is very hot and intimidating with his veil. Sometimes it moves too much and he has to fix it with his hands.

Dew moved a lot and was often on the left side with Rain and Phantom.

Phantom 🖤

V pouts a lot. He was in sweet mode. Very soft speeches, but he always seems like it’s hard for him to act like a normal person and it’s secretly planning some kind of crime while he speaks.

“If there was time I’d line you up… and give you a hug. But maybe a little kiss will do” before Kiss the go-goat.

During Satanized, the Latin part is sang by monk-Tobias from the videoclip, projected on the side screens. V stays bent on the mic stand, with his clasped hands over his head the whole time during the Latin part, as if praying.

In Rats he was particularly dramatic with his “no!” (After “never to return” before the solo). It wasn’t only a Copia thing.

At the end of Darkness At The Heart Of My Love, Dew adds “something” with the guitar, in a tune that isn’t in the original song. I don’t remember hearing it before. V didn’t ask the crowd to do that “pfff” sound as he used to do at the first concerts and started the song straight away. He gave up.

During Monstrance Clock I keep getting distracted by the red orgy images on the big screen. They are really well animated and hypnotizing, and I honestly think Monstrance is the best live song. Dark, a melody that sounds like a lullaby, easy to sing along, good to dance to, very good projections on screen in line with the song (animated lyrics in the end aside). I just loved it so much. It really sets the atmosphere… Infestissumam is such a great album in this.

During Year Zero, towards the end, the chorus are more audible. I think I heard a “Christis” but again don’t trust me.

I don’t know if it was already said by someone but during the He Is refrain, the central beam of the Grucifix produces a light shot similar to a shooting star. It’s a very beautiful effect and I think it recalls the shooting star we see in the He Is videoclip.

V pointed out that Dew broke his foot twice, not just once. Dew proudly showed his cast, placing it on the ampli before him. V and Dew hugged briefly before Square Hammer.

Generally, in all concerts I have seen, V does the same kind of speeches, changing some details depending on the city. Here a recap:

First speech: comments on the temperature and “Are you in heat/moist/cool?” kind of teasing.

Before Future is a Foreign Land: “[…] Times are dark now, but remember that the future is always a foreign land.”

After Mummy Dust: comments on what people is doing after the concert. Rolls a mummy dust and throws it at someone.

Before Kiss the Go-Goat: “If I had time I’d line you all up (with some variations. Sometimes he quotes Copia’s parking lot joke) and give you a *something* (in Amsterdam was a hug, other times he just let the joke incomplete), but maybe I can give you a little kiss.”

Before Monstance Clock: some memories of the times the band played in the city. He may or may not mention past papas (“the other guys”) and the relationship with them (“uncles” for the first 3 brothers and “dad” for Nihil). He finishes with “Conclusively, I give you…”

Before the Encores: “Someone told you that if you stay here and ask for it, we’d come out and give you more songs. And do you think it works…? …Well, it does. Just one song for you to pack your shit and go.” 

Before Square Hammer: I have absolutely no idea, the screams are usually too loud during that song. He usually praises Dew.

My job here is done. I’m a bit sad that my Skeletour is over… I was starting warming up to V. “Conclusively”:

The new songs are very well received by the audience, very rhythmic and easy to sing along to. 

My personal favorite moment of the show is the stained glass reveal during Cirice.

Monstrance Clock is the best live song in set list, to me. Just let it pervade you.

I hope the “floating papa” moment stays majestic and never gets replaced by CMLS again. 

I have noticed that the only concert he asked the audience to bark was Milan (of the ones I have been at least). He knew we were the only crazy enough to get along with that.

Past reports here: London, Milan.

Ps for my fellow Terzo’s widows: his supremacy is intact. His image is everywhere. I personally made that clear too 😉

[multidimensionalguidance]

Astrology Beauty Observations #3

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Hello everyone! I've been observing closely all the winners of the Miss Universe beauty pageant from this year and will soon be releasing an analysis of the most common Sun, Moon, Venus, Mars, and Nakshatra placements of as many contestants as possible, but not all unfortunately, since not all of them have their birthday information within easy access.

Miss Universe Ukraine 2024 - Alina Ponomarenko

There are some countries that are still pending on revealing their winners, but I will be giving a preview of one of the contestants whose entire birth chart and timing is available (provided by her through her social media account), and will be going over her specific type of beauty.

First thing I noticed was Ketu conjunct her ASC in Scorpio, specifically Anuradha nakshatra. Along with Pluto being placed in here as well.

Women with Ketu influence in their chart often have a very mysterious and alluring type of beauty that makes you feel very far away from the native. As if you're always staring from afar, but can't ever get close enough. Ketu is a co-ruler of Scorpio, so the description mentioned earlier is almost maximized with her due to the comfort of Ketu in this sign. Usually, one of the most appealing features in on their bodies, and not necessarily their faces or heads, since Ketu is headless.

Pluto being here adds on to her natural sex appeal by making her seem "dangerous" or "naughty" in some way. As if she's hiding secrets that no one else will ever uncover, and even her smile conveys the same as well.

In general, Anuradha ASC natives tend to show a small portion of their teeth in pictures or leave their mouths slightly open which gives them the "bunny" effect that Claire Nakti has observed before. They have a mix of girl next door with a mysterious edge. She also seems to have some beauty enhancements, such as lip filler which only emphasizes even more the "bunny teeth" characteristic.

The next thing that caught my eye was her Moon conjunct Neptune in Shravana Nakshatra. This aspect between planets is very commonly seen in celebrities or individuals who have public fame in some way. Neptune enhances the beauty of the Moon by throwing a veil of mystic and illusions, and Neptune ruling photography makes it so that one way or another they are photogenic or able to look good in front of cameras.

They almost look like chameleons, morphing and changing with every snap of a picture and able to mold themselves into almost any aesthetic. They look dreamy or sleepy at times, which is often seen in Pisces placements as well. "Bed eyes" is a term often used when trying to describe someone whose gaze invites you to lay down with them somewhere.

Per Claire Nakti's obvservations on Shravana, these women being Saturn ruled tend to have sharp and well defined face bone structures. They often go from keeping a lot of baby fat around their cheeks when young to losing it completely and showing chiseled jaws that could cut like a knife.

Aside from these placements, she also has an 8th house stellium which emphasizes and enhances the alluring and mysterious energy that she already has as a Scorpio ASC. Venus being in this house makes it so that her beauty, relationship, and finances are maintained hidden in some way or obscured.

Her 10th house in Leo gives her a bright and shiny public appearance. She’s well known for what she does creatively and is seen as very confident as well. Most Scorpios tend to have something that they are known for publicly. The ruler of this house goes to her 8th house, so her profession, reputation, fame, and exposure frequently undergo big changes or transformations. It may be hard for others to keep up with it.

She might also be known for the way she behaves sexually or in bed. Others perceive that her career is directly tied to her sex appeal or other people’s money. They might think the ways in which she manages her social status is a bit shady or purposely hidden.

Finally, her Arudha Lagna falls in the 7th house of Taurus. People perceive her beauty to be natural, low effort, and the type that needs little to look beautiful. They think she’s just naturally beautiful and with a tad of innocent or naivety. She looks best to the public when she uses flowery patterns and sticks to the soft girl aesthetic.

Thanks for reading! And stay tuned for the upcoming beauty analysis on Miss Universe 2024 that I’ll be doing 💫

Xox

Mary from multidimensionalguidance

[katshuya]

Rhaegar and Lyanna Did Not Challenge the System or rebell against it as their fans claim.

This fan projection, “Rhaegar and Lyanna were victims of the patriarchal system. They just wanted love and freedom. If they had lived, they would have changed everything.” is built on romanticism, aesthetics, and modern values retrofitted onto two highborn characters who never actually rebelled against the structure they just benefited from it and escaped its responsibility then thought they could go back once things settle to enjoy its privilages.

And this is not to say Lyanna should have not escaped Robert. But the way she did it and with whom. It's about accountability.

Also, standing against injust and bullying (TKOTLT) doesn't equal or indicate she wanted to challenge patriarchy.

Rhaegar told Jaime he plans to make changes and doesn't equal giving women rights as men or chllanging a system that gives his authority and comfort. In fact, he had a firstborn daughter, but he named his son his heir. He wasn't a pro women's rights. And don't you blame Aerys being alive for it. Rhaegar clearly wanted his son as his heir as we were told in Dany's vision and being tpwwp doesn't mean you have to be king.

Do you think Rhaegar seriously would have spoken up to his nobles against arranged marriages and he wouldn't have arranged ones for his children? Like it or not they needed arranged marriages. And after the mess he pulled? Definitely.

Vague promises after starting a war ≠ desire to reform system and especially for women.

Rhaegar and Lyanna may have had personal senses of right and wrong and thought women were important too, but they were never willing to sacrifice their own privilege to bring structural change. In fact, when they wanted something, freedom, love, prophecy they used the same system they supposedly hated and still kept its privillages.

Justice in some context ≠ desire to change the system.

Good Deeds ≠ Systemic Rebellion

And it's not judge them for not being these modernized feminist people but:

-Their hypocrisy and the huge mess and hurt they caused along with the accountability that they dropped on other are absolutely fair to judge.

People try to excuse them as “just in love” or “didn’t mean harm.” “They were victims of patriarchy.”

They stopped being victims when they hurt others for their own benefits and still wanted its privilages. And again a man in political marriage is nothing compared to the woman.

And the outcome was not small collateral. It was:

The death of two innocent children. The murder of Elia, a woman abandoned without real protection. The civil war killed thousands and destabilized the entire realm.

They didn’t just “fall in love” they disappeared and expected to go back one day and still have the privilages of system they supposedly fough against and let everyone else carry their mess.

Duncan Targaryen gave up his claim. Jeneye had no known influence in court. And yet Rhaelle still paid the price. But what did Rhaegar and Lyanna give up for their perfect love? Nothing. They still wanted it all.

Lyanna's fans say she didn't desire to be queen. I agree. Yet they still want her to become queen along with Elia or by making Rhaegar "generously and very feminist-like send Elia back to her happiness in Dorne after using her to the end of the limits she could" or there are those who say she would be mistress and still have influence and freedom to ride horse and wave sword at enemies. They think even the queen version would have this freedom. And of course Jon has to be legetimized. And if he isn't he has very good influence like his mother.

On what grounds does Elia have to give up her position or share it with Lyanna? Elevating Lyanna for them always requires Elia to give up everything for her or share it. That is disgusting and misogynistic from them and from Rhaegar and Lyanna.

Like even if Elia was so fine with them (as if), why would she share this with Lyanna?

Your favorite couple isn't so just now, are they?

“They couldn’t have predicted the war.” “They were just in love.” “They were victims of their time.”

No they knew even if not detailed:

Rebellion had already happened in Westeros over a broken betrothal.

Aerys was a paranoid tyrant who burned people alive and already believed Rhaegar wanted to replace him running off with Lyanna looked like sedition.

Lyanna was engaged to Robert Baratheon, a man who would absolutely take offense.

The Starks wouldn't just sit still because Aerys is mad. If anything it looked like Rhaegar was using his father's madness against them. You are doomed if you try to look for your "kidnapped" girl. Brandon was a fool but his reaction was expected.

They didn’t just act recklessly. They acted like the rules wouldn’t apply to them. They gave up nothing and wanted everything.

Rhaegar and Lyanna were not rebels. They were privileged youths who believed their story mattered more than the realm.

They didn’t dismantle the system. They simply tried to bend it for themselves. They wanted the benefits of patriarchy and monarchy without the consequences of duty, alliance, and loyalty. And when the consequences came anyway, they left others to bleed for their dreams.

Their fans still excuse them by saying “they meant well.” But intentions don’t erase corpses. They were not punished by the system. They weaponized it and got caught in the blast.

Even though I don’t believe age excuses someone from accountability, I do think Lyanna’s youth played a role in her failure to critically examine the system or her own hypocrisy within it. But age doesn’t explain away the pain and humiliation she helped inflict on Elia. Rhaegar bears the brunt of the blame, but Lyanna was old enough to know better. And by Ned’s own memories, we were told she was aware enough to understand the weight of what she inflicting upon Elia.

[lets-try-some-writing]

Question. How do you think the TFP bots each find the squishies that are humans look. Like aesthetically. Which ones find them cute or gross or funny looking? Cause in the Scraplet episode, Ratchet said “Typically I find your fleshiness your least engaging qualities.” Meaning that Ratchet find the humans gross to some extent, meaning that the Autobots does have aesthetic opinions about the humans. And it seems like everyone got different opinions. So what’s your head canon for each of their opinions?

Ooooooh now this is a question I will happily answer!

Ratchet: His views on humans and squishies in general is summed up to GROSS. He sees humans as essentially a bunch of organs in a poorly made plastic bag walking around on stilts. They are worse than hairless cats in his optics. They may be nice enough, but he would prefer to poke them with sticks or handle them with a hazmat suit if given a choice. He's warmed up to them, but will never find them particularly appealing. Interesting? Yes. Appealing? Primus no.

Bumblebee: Bumblebee thinks humans are a little unsettling, but he appreciates them in the way one would a pet tarantula. He can find something to see as appealing in them, although as a general rule he is not particularly enthralled with them. He is fond of human eyes, largely because their pupils dilate a great deal like how his optics cycle. He also finds it fascinating how many colors humans can have their eyes up being.

Arcee: She sits in the same boat as Ratchet for the most part. However she has one aspect of humanity that she is surprisingly fond of. She thinks human hair is quite "cute" in a sense. It reminds her somewhat of stories of Solus and she has always found it fun how humans can style their hair in so many unique ways. She has even gone so far as to ask June to teach her how to braid hair simply because Arcee also finds the texture of hair to be facinating.

Bulkhead: His thoughts on humanity can be summed up simply with: Smol Beans. He thinks they are adorable in the way one would look at a mouse and think it cute. Sure humans can do gross things like execrate and create strange internal liquids and sounds, but they are just so small. He can't help but find that fact appealing.

Wheeljack: He is neither grossed out or really invested in humans. He could care less what they look like. He's been everywhere and seen everything, so very little bothers him anymore when meeting new races. He does think that human teeth are interesting though. Cybertronians have their own version of the mouth bones, but humans growing the mouth bones and then having a few sets of them is something he just thinks is rather inspiring.

Smokescreen: He... doesn't like humans. He's in Ratchet's boat, but he's a lot less tactful in his outward reactions. His first few weeks on Earth involved a lot of gagging at humans as a whole. Squishies are not his cup of tea, but he's learned to handle it for the most part. So long as the squishes are clothed reasonably, he can pretend they are armored and ignore the fact that they are walking bags of bits and bone.

Optimus: He doesn't mind humanity. He doesn't think they are physically appealing in any real regard, but he admires their minds. Such small creatures holding hope and intellect on par with the more technological races is something he finds impressive. He also holds an appreciation for their voices simply because they are clear and without complication. It is new, and for that reason he finds it beautiful in a sense.

Ultra Magnus: He doesn't like humans. Period. He tolerates them for the sake of the team and negotiations, and he may be appreciative of human comrades and friends. But the species as a whole? He is not fond of them. He is largely more confused than anything else. He has no idea how such a fleshy and delicate species lasted so long. But he has largely shrugged it off and moved on with life.

[igetthedisneybox]

Addams Family/ Wednesday OC's for Halloween

When I was a kid, I always just kind of...assumed that Wednesday had cousins named after the other days of the week.

So here are some OC's based on the poem that Wednesday's name is from. (I gave them different names than the days)

Belladonna Carmilla Angelo Addams

She is based on the first line, "Monday's Child is Fair of Face"

Her face claim is TajFaerie (linked to her instagram)

Her name means "beautiful woman" and is the name of a toxic plant

Her aesthetic is Victorian Goth

Her favorite color is blood red

She is a year older than Wednesday

She loves fashion, and expressing herself through said fashion

She is a hopeless romantic, especially for tragic love stories

She's very over dramatic, and treats personal matters with great importance

She'll sometimes speak in French of Italian, just so nobody else can understand her

She can be jaded at times, especially when it comes to holding grudges

She likes classical music, love ballads, alternative pop, and pop punk

One of her mothers is a vampire, so while she isn't one, she participates in vampire culture, such as drinking animal blood, avoiding sunlight and garlic, etc etc

She fell in love with Bianca Barclay at first sight

She's related to Wednesday on Gomez's side.

Odile Lilith Frump

She is based on the second line, "Tuesday's Child is Full of Grace"

Her face claim is Elle Fanning

Her name means "heritage" and is the name of the black swan in Swan Lake

Her aesthetic is a mix of Circus Freak and Dark Ballerina

Her favorite color is vomit yellow

She is the same age as Wednesday

She's run away to join the circus twelve times, and they send her back every time

She has joint hypermobility, which means she can move like a horror movie ghost. Which she does. To freak people out

She's a prankster, and just loves to fuck with people

She's very family-oriented. You fuck with one Addams, you fuck with them all

She likes alternative music, music box covers, circus music, and classical ballet pieces

Her passion is dancing, but she also enjoys knife throwing, tightrope walking, and other acrobatics

She's a fan of revenge and punishment, just like her cousin

She's related to Wednesday on Morticia's side.

Victoria "Ick" Elvira Addams

She is based on the fourth line, "Thursday's Child Has Far to Go"

Her face claim is Mackenzie Foy

Her full name means "victory," but the shortened form (her preferred name) is a sound of disgust

Her aesthetic is Punk Rock

Her favorite color is ooze green

She is the same age as Wednesday

She has a band with her brothers and sister, where she's the lead guitarist and singer

She's very level-headed, calm, and just generally chill to be around

She takes matters of social justice very seriously, and has a police record (she has it framed in her dorm)

She likes punk music (duh) but also dabbles in rock, heavy metal, 80's, 90's, and alternative

She's aromantic, but not asexual

She was adopted by the Addams when she was six. She wandered into their house one day and just...never left

She butts heads with Wednesday the most out of all the cousins

She's related to Wednesday on Gomez's side.

Briar Winter Addams

She is based on the fifth line, "Friday's Child is Loving and Giving"

Her face claim is Isabela Merced

Her name means "thorn," and is a reference to the Sleeping Beauty fairytale

Her aesthetic is Dark Fairytale

Her favorite color is dusk purple

She is a year younger than Wednesday

She has narcolepsy, and suffers from excessive sleepiness, fainting spells, and muscle weakness

She likes to brew antidotes for venom and poisonous plants, just in case

She likes to see the best in almost everyone, and those she can't, she poisons (mostly non-fatally. Mostly)

Like Bella, she's a hopeless romantic, and dreams of a knight in shining armor who will sweep her off of her feet

She likes creepy lullabies and alternative pop

She gives dried and dead flowers to people when they're sad

She loves moths

She's asexual, but not aromantic

She has a crush on Xavier Thorpe

She's related to Wednesday on Gomez's side.

Shelly Frump

She is based on the sixth line, "Saturday's Child Works Hard for a Living."

Her face claim is Yasmin Finney

Her name means "clearing," and is a reference to Mary Shelley, the author of Frankenstein

Her aesthetic is Dark Academia

Her favorite color is midnight blue

She is a year younger than Wednesday

She's part giant, and is almost six feet tall

She takes her schooling very seriously, and refuses to miss a day of class

She's a living factoid machine, and knows a little bit about everything

She feels like her parents prefer her older sister, Mary, and so is very insecure

She likes lo-fi beats to study too, classical music, and 80's and 90's alternative

She's very shy, and doesn't like talking or interacting with people much

She is very good at mind games. She can fuck you up mentally

She and Eugene Ottinger are a little too close to be regular friends

She's related to Wednesday on Morticia's side.

Zander Adams

He is based on the seventh line, "But the Child Born on the Sabbath Day, Is Blithe and Bonny and Good and Gay."

His face claim is Omar Rudberg

Her name means "defender," and is the name of an actual Addams Family member, mentioned in the animated movie

His aesthetic is Grunge

His favorite color is fire orange

He is a year younger than Wednesday

His mother changed their last name from 'Addams' to 'Adams' to differentiate themselves from the family

He was raised as a normie, and any outcast (or autistic) traits he showed were punished

He and Briar were very close as small children, as their fathers were blood brothers

He starts off disliking his cousins and the other outcasts, but realizes that they are more welcoming and understanding than his mother

He likes alternative, 80's, 90's, and punk

He ends up having a thing for Tyler Galpin

He's related to Wednesday on Gomez's side.

[seramilla]

May I propose that for a fun twist, that when Vaggie goes dress shopping with her mamá and hermanas she tries every single thing but the white just gives her the ick reminding her of Heaven a bit too much. So Carmilla picks out something unconventional for her. A red and black wedding dress…one that has a slit going up to her thigh that shows off the black lacey wedding garter.

Before meeting Charlie, the thought of "marriage" and "Vaggie" in the same sentence had never computed in Vaggie's mind. Even when she and Charlie had started dating, she hadn't been sure marriage was in the stars for her. It seemed like something other people did, but not her. But then Charlie had proposed to her, and Vaggie's entire outlook had been turned on its head. Vaggie had of course said yes, and now it's up to her to figure out what that means for herself.

The only problem is, Vaggie has no idea how to plan for a wedding, or what to even wear, for that matter. She's never been to one, and has no idea what the ceremony even entails. Thankfully, she now has a mother who had been married at one point when she was alive, and two older sisters more than willing to provide an...age-appropriate opinion, so that Carmilla doesn't get carried away, as mothers are often wont to do.

Don't get her wrong, Vaggie values Carmilla's opinion...she just thinks Odette and Clara might provide some much-needed...perspective. Carmilla was married a long time ago...and times have changed since then.

Case in point: Carmilla is old-school, and drags Vaggie, who is very nearly on the verge of puking, through a boutique stacked floor to ceiling with the most gaudy white and white-adjacent wedding gowns Vaggie thinks she's ever seen. Carmilla says it's tradition, and just the way things are usually done. White has been the color of choice for brides for generations of women -- mostly for reasons like tradition, symbolism, personal preference, and just carrying down the same outfits from generation to generation.

The only problem is, Vaggie hates white. Hates it. It reminds her of Heaven and empty platitudes and purity culture and asshole nobles who had called her and the other Exorcists "ruffians" for not embracing the typical snow-white and pastel attire adorned by almost everyone else up there.

Vaggie tries on a few white and lighter-colored dresses, because she loves Carmilla, and a part of her really wants Carmilla's approval in this. But after about the fourth or fifth one, she can feel the bile creeping up the back of her throat at the thought of trying on another. When Carmilla tries to shove the next dress into her arms, Vaggie puts her foot down.

"Mama!" Vaggie huffs, pushing the next dress away. "Look...I really appreciate you wanting to help me, but I just don't like any of this stuff. Isn't there something that doesn't make me look so...angelic?"

"Give it up, Mama," Clara says, doing her best not to laugh at Carmilla's "How-Dare-You!" expression. Odette covers her mouth in amusement, also trying not to laugh. The overlord is simply doing her best...but Carmilla can be a little overbearing when it comes to shopping with her daughters. She has very strong opinions. Odette and Clara had tried to warn Vaggie beforehand, but the fallen angel is clearly discovering it now.

Carmilla sighs heavily. "All right. What colors do you want?"

Vaggie twiddles her fingers. It's a little embarrassing...but ever since meeting Charlie, the red aesthetic just does it for her. They both wear it so often at the hotel, that it's just become a part of her outfit rotation. She mentions to Carmilla, "Something red?"

Carmilla, "Hmmms" under her breath, looking around the store until something catches her eye. She then drags Clara and Odette along with her, as if to gauge their opinion on whatever she's found. A few minutes later, her mother and sisters return with a few different pieces. Carmilla likes one in particular more than the others...but again, Odette and Clara override her, saying there's way too many sequins and lace, and it's not flattering on Vaggie at all. They make their own suggestions, taking Vaggie's preferences into consideration.

Ultimately, Vaggie settles on a gorgeous red wedding dress, with black around the bust and inner lining, and a slit going up the side to expose a black lace garter underneath. Vaggie blushes to herself, just knowing instinctively Charlie will love it. Charlie loves red on her. She makes a mental note to help Charlie find a sexy red suit to match.

Odette and Clara go on the hunt for some matching accessories, and Vaggie honestly just wants to hug the two of them. Carmilla means well...and she did manage to find a pair of banger shoes to go along with the dress...but her sisters had really stepped up for her, in more ways than one. All in all, the family works together to make this process as enjoyable as possible, and come away with something that Vaggie, and Charlie, will appreciate for the rest of their lives.

Vaggie decides that even though she isn't much of a shopper, it's nice to be able to spend time together as a family like this. Even with all the little quirks and annoyances that go along with it. She will take the good and the bad. Because it's all part and parcel of finally having what she's always wanted most -- people who love her.

[honeytabbies]

OKAY. HERE WE GO. my black bulls doggies!!!! :D

there's definitely a noticeable difference in style/quality of some of these just due to time between each design and/or how i was feeling at the time of drawing them (these hot and rainy summer months have been super rough on me)

ALSO they were all done symmetrically so that i wouldn't burn out and could actually finish them LOL . OK EVERYBODY BELOW

starting off with asta, a husky/coyote mutt!! :D in my au, devil users end up becoming hybrids of whatever their devil is. so since liebe is a coyote, that's what asta is too!! (also, i haven't drawn him yet, but yuno is a malamute :D similar looking breeds but different since they're not actually related!)

(here's liebe too hehe, scrappy lil coyote!!)

then of course, noelle, who's a saluki!! a very regal breed for a very royal gal!! i thought making her pigtails into her ears was a fun idea HEHEHE

(+ an alternate design version!)

here's finral, he's a shetland sheepdog!! gentle and sweet and always trying to herd his people together :) you might notice that with some of my designs, i end up doing extra scarring; that's usually just personal headcanons, as i think some injuries would be too grievous to fully heal. though some (for instance, gauche) don't have a canon story behind them, i just think they're fitting

vanessa, who's a cavalier king charles spaniel!! her ears sorta blend into her hair lol, i had an alternate version where they were the same darker brown as her fur but i decided that them blending in looked better and fit the breed standard as well.

gauche, the ever wary american akita!! being a fiercely loyal and protective breed, but aloof and suspicious of strangers.

then there's grey, who's a long-haired chihuahua!! sweet and skittish HEHE, also i haven't drawn it yet but i've always imagined her big transformation disguise that she's first introduced as to be a rottweiler LOL

next up is luck, a jack russell terrier!! i've always thought this was a very fitting breed pick, intelligent but highly energetic and a little mischievous !!!

and of course, magna is never far behind luck; he's a dobermann pinscher!! similar to luck in energy and intelligence, but even more fiercely protective of his loved ones.

GORDON!!! actually one of my favourite black clover characters, he's a dalmatian not only because of the fitting aesthetic, but also because of his kind and sensitive personality!

the masked supermage zora, a german shepherd! watchful and sometimes stubborn but loyal nonetheless made this pick fairly easy to come to. though, before getting to see more of him, my initial pick was actually a kai ken!

charmy's design is one that i'm the most proud of for sure; i mentioned in an earlier post that the different peoples are different species of animals. well charmy is a half toy poodle, half american badger!! i thought a badger was a VERY fitting pick, as they are generally unbothered by much unless their food is threatened LOL

and finally, lastly (for now) is nero!! she's a bull terrier, but i really wanted to keep her twin tails from her anti-bird form! her outfit is definitely the one i edited the most, i just wanted to give her something more practical out of personal preference.

additionally, henry is an old english sheepdog, nacht is a black norwegian elkhound/fox, and yami is a wolfdog!

I HAVE SOME OTHER CHARACTERS DOODLED HERE AND THERE but nothing else really finished yet. if there's a specific character anyone would like to see i would be SO happy to draw/doodle them to show off!! i honestly have a huge list of dog/cat breeds picked out for every character i could think of; i just am hellishly indecisive and can never pick who to start on next AHDSJAGDJSDK

THE POSITIVE RECEPTION TO MY ART SO FAR HAS MADE ME SO HAPPY BTW AUAGGHHH i have no idea how/if im able to reply to people directly but just know that i keep reading over everyone's reblog tags and stimming like crazy IM SO HAPPY THANK YOU GUYS SO MUCH AUHGHFEHGGRH

[twig-tea]

2024 Tumblr Top 10

tagged by @lurkingshan here and @neuroticbookworm here, thank you both! This really reminds me that I need to do a real pinned post at some point.

If you want to generate your own, you can use this link! I used the link to find the posts but wrote this below because I thought reflecting on the posts would be fun.

My GL rec list (covering everything through to Feb 2024), which I'm very happy about taking first place. If you want GL recs, check that out first, and then feel free to browse my #GL recs tag.

The admittedly shady post from October calling out the director of the Addicted Heroin Thailand adaptation for (a)making weird choices and (b)defending them as artistic. But I stand by my anger about this. Censorship is not an aesthetic!

The non-novel-spoilery reaction post to episodes 1 & 2 of Love In The Big City which was also from October, but which honestly stands up for my reaction to the whole series. What a gift of a show.

A quick pitch for Akaya is in Love with Hiroko from July. This one hurts! I was so ready to cheerlead for this show and did several times, but the penultimate episode made me wary and the finale really upset me, to the point where I didn't end up writing about the finale, so I'll take the chance here: Don't make a show about two self-aware lesbians, one who has been comfortably sexually active for years and one who is super horny for her, and have them get together as adults and yet be celibate for a year out of "respect". Is the message that sex between consenting and enthusiastic adults is not respectful?! GTFO. For the record I can be respected with orgasms, thank you.

The episode celebrating the messaging in the finale of Let Free the Curse of Taekwondo from November. Glad that this is here between the previous entry and the next two, because this is a good balm for the pain. LFtCoT landed the ending and gave us all a giant hug while doing it!

The list of things I was thinking about at the end of Wandee Goodday ep3 from May. Another disappointment for me. The things this post shouts out are still things I like about this show, and reading it again is a reminder of where the back half let the first half down (not taking seriously some of the things we were told to take seriously in the first few episodes).

An early post about Love Is Better the Second Time Around from March. Another show that did not land everything, in this case because it felt like it tried to shove in a complicated conflict in the last two episodes that they didn't have time to handle. But I still love those early episodes and all of the interplay between Miyata, Iwanaga, and Shiraishi.

My clown theory for Every You, Every Me also from October, which ended up being correct! I've never been more happy to be right, I liked this reveal for the show so much.

In February I wrote this thesis about the state of Thai BL looking at data from 2022 and 2023, which I have been meaning to go back and update since I think Shan as usual was feeling the start of the wave and we needed more data to see the change actually play out in 2024. I now no longer feel (as I did in this post) that things haven't changed, I do think they have this year. But I need to crunch the numbers again to prove it to myself (and everyone else) though. Stay tuned!

In July I did a round-up post about the various theories surrounding Century of Love, and whether Vee and Vad were the same person. Turns out San did wrestle with this as I'd hoped but the show itself felt like it lost steam and copped out around this, unfortunately. At least we'll always have fox demon Offroad and grumpy old man Daou's collarbones thanks to this show.

Special shout-out to @lurkingshan because two of the posts above are answers to asks she put in my inbox that spawned project posts. Shan knows what the people want to hear!

Tagging @italianpersonwithashippersheart @benkaben @ellsieee @colourme-feral @pigglepiephi @impala124 no pressure tags and apologies if you've been tagged already!

[retro-friki]

Commenced my 5th (??) Utena rewatch, so here’s some comments of episode 1 with vague spoilers:

*My blue ray disc seems to be damaged :( the episode froze at certain scenes, I hope it’s only dirty or something.

*First few minutes of ep 1 is gender, gender, gender. “The little girl wanted to be a prince” “I’m waiting for my boyfriend” “She left”, “Why are you wearing a boys uniform?”. Utena beats all the guys and has fangirls, yet she refuses to join the basketball team with the dudes, however she wants to be a prince… She keeps breaking with everyone’s expectations of her. (Personally I think that Utena is either a gnc woman, non-binary or even genderfluid, but everyone can have whatever headcanon they want).

*I have always wondered how long has Utena been at Ohtori. The teacher says that Utena will ridicule her again this term, but most of the time she acts like a newcomer. There are many things about the students that she seems to ignore. I think that she transferred just at the middle or the end of the previous term, so she has been there for enough time to be popular among peers her age, but not enough for her to know everything.

*Touga is so popular that even Utena knows him. That says a lot about Touga.

*I like how the animators use black silhouettes to economize. It’s a cool trick and it contributes to the show’s general aesthetic.

*I’m not in the mood of being cynical right now so I’m just going to say that I love how Utena jumps in to help whoever she thinks is in trouble. Of course that’s also one of her flaws and it becomes a problem because she doesn’t think before acting, but her intentions are sincere, and that’s what makes her different from everyone else.

*In the same vein, it probably doesn’t matter whether Anthy was the one who put Wakaba’s letter on the wall or not. She may have done some manipulation, but the thing is that Saionji was such a huge asshole already that sooner or later Utena would’ve had a bone to pick with him. He was the one who threw the letter away in the first place and it was his choice to hit Anthy when she wished Utena luck. There was very little manipulation to be done here. He caused his own downfall.

*It’s always hard to read the lyrics of the duel songs and the dialogue at the same time, but there’s some juxtapositions that I liked, namely how the lyrics equated Utena and Saionji as actors on a stage. There’s a lot to say about that, but that’s something I’ll have to dig more into some other day.

[alpaca-clouds]

Stone Circles in France

Something I have wanted to talk about more ever since the first trailer dropped about a month ago, is the stone circle near Machecoul, that seems to play somewhat a big role in Maria's life.

We first meet Richter and Maria at the stone circle, and in season 2 we learn that she learned magic there. This is why Tera takes her there to try to control her magic once more.

So, obviously you might ask: "Why are there old stones in a circle somewhere in France?"

As a European of course, I have grown up with the Asterix comics, and hence my mind just went: "Oh, yeah, they are there because of the Galls. Duh." Though then I did some google-fu and found out that it is not quite that easy.

So, let's talk about Celts and stones.

As I spoke about yesterday: We have sadly super little information about the celts and their precursors, because the colonialization within Europe (partly through the Romans, partly through other groups) has mostly just erased most what was once known of this mostly oral culture. We know a bit about the Gaels in Ireland and Scotland (mind you: We also know that the Gaels in Ireland were not exactly the same as those in Scotland), but for everyone else we know a couple of legends that survived as oral history for long enough that someone who thought it important to record it. Part of the reason in fact that the Gaels managed to hold onto more than anyone else is that they had secret Bard Colleges until into the 18th century, where they literally taught people their oral traditions, despite it being forbidden.

Back to the stone circles.

Celts definitely loved to build structures that are made up of aesthetically aranged stones. Think Stonehenge, which is probably one of those structures everyone kinda knows. But Stonehenge is by far not the only of these sides. And in fact they are scattered all over the former celtic areas.

These two are both from Ireland, where we have the best preserved of those stone circles. But there are also several of them in France.

The best known stones in France are actually not in a circle formation, though. Those are the Carnac stones in Western France.

Those are located about 160km northwest of Machecoul. So a good bit, but still in the same general area. Another fairly well known stone formation - in this case once more a circle - is the Kergonan Cromlech. Which is again about 160km away from Machecoul.

And here is the thing: We actually do not know what is actually up with those stone formations. We know that some of them were created to commemorade the grave of a king or another important burial. We also know that some of them are aligned with certain celestial events (like the solstices). So the general idea is that those stone structures, that are mainly between neolithic and mesolithic. Which is one of the biggest problems.

See, the celts existed with their own culture throughout these areas (mainy the British Islands, France, the Iberian Peninsula and at times also in the area of todays Belgium) at times until about 1000CE. However, those stone structures were build generally speaking between 4500BC and 1500BC. So even those Celts that later were around might not even have known why those structures have been build.

The general consensus between archeologists and anthropologists is, that they were ritual sites related to religious practice. But you should also know that generally speaking archeologists and anthropologists will usually just go "ritual!" whenever we find something and are not certain what it was for. (See also the many things that might have well been dildos, which makes archeologists go: "Eh, probably some ritual practice about worshipping male fertility?!")

Though to be fair: The fact that we know some of those structures are definitely used in terms of graves - and to celebrate certain celestial events - makes it quite likely that there was a ritual component to it.

This is a map of the stone structures we know to be located in France. You might note that none of them is really close to Machecoul. Though given that Machecoul is still fairly close to the Southwestern cluster, it would not to be too off to say: "Oh, yeah, actually there was one but that got destroyed before we found it."

My big question is, what this means about Maria's powers - especially as I was informed that the fact that this is a stone circle of this kind was made very clear in the scripts from the very beginning on.

Especially given that it is called out twice that she might draw the creatures from the Otherworld...

[karmathehalflander]

Self care is finally bringing the Dear Evan Hansen merpeople AU you were obsessed with in middle school into a reality

And here’s the finished pieces for the main five! I absolutely adore them. Sea life is my special interest so I love mermaid AUs

My reasoning behind why they are each animal varys wildly. Some I thought about in depth some are for one stupid reason. If you’d like my full in depth design notes and character details and some lore ideas they’re bellow the cut. Feel free to scroll if you don’t want an in depth hyperfixation induced info-dump.

So starting out with Evan: when I first conceptualized this AU back when I was in middle school all I really had a concept for was Evan who I knew I wanted to be a dumbo octopus. Shy, camouflage to hide from predators, generally just silly little guys it felt right to me. I also thought Heidi should be an octopus for no particular reason and them both being in the same animal family would make sense. (I’ll get around to drawing the parents eventually Heidi will be a blue ringed octopus)

-he can change color and camouflage

- because Evan is only part Dumbo Octopus he’s actually taller than you would expect leaving Jared the shortest (because Evan is on the taller side I’ll die on that hill also Jared needs to be a short king I don’t make the rules)

Conner: so originally he was going to be a stingray like Zoe honestly for no reason other than aesthetic but I didn’t want them to be based on the same animal and I had a strong concept for Zoe already so I decided to change Conner. I originally didn’t want to do shark because it felt to obvious at first but sometimes obvious is the way to go. And now I’m so glad I changed it to great white because I liked the overlap of how sharks are viewed by society and how Conner is viewed by his peers. Violent, evil, dangerous but in reality just doing their best to survive and, yes, they do sometimes hurt people but it’s never done out of malice but out of confusion and a need to survive. (I live morally grey characters) I chose great white in particular because they’re the stereotypical “big scary shark” everyone would think of. I also think the color palette suited him.

- Conner is half stingray but you don’t see it in his appearance at all. He takes after his dad (Larry is a great white and Cynthia is a stingray. I’ll make drawings for them at some point promise)

Zoe: She was the one I had the clearest idea for and I was very excited (I love her) I knew I wanted her to be a spotted eagle ray so I could give her spots that look like stars. There was no consideration of her personality when making her a ray at first but it honestly makes sense. They’re graceful, but ultimately don’t like conflict. I see them as artsy creatures like if a sea creature was to go to play guitar it would be a stingray. Idk it just feels right to me.

-obviously Zoe is half great white but you can’t really tell. She is slightly taller than her mom and has extra spikes on her arms but that’s it.

Alana: I knew I wanted her to be a dolphin immediately. Smart, energetic, playful it just makes sense. Now what species I wasn’t sure of at first but then I thought a pink river dolphin and it was perfect. I associate her with pink for whatever reason. I think she looks nice with it. Her drawing is my favorite of the bunch. I’m most happy with her design too.

- I need a reason for a river dwelling species to be in the ocean with everyone else so idk just imagine she transfered for some reason

- in this AU we’ll assume that fresh and salt water doesn’t effect merpeople

Jared: I drew Jared last because I had no clue what I wanted him to be. I considered a turtle for a bit I think it would suit him looks wise but I also considered otter, clownfish, a crustacean of some kind (the list goes on) then I considered seal and had the thought of a selkie Jared butt naked running through the local village causing mayhem, stealing from convenience stores, dumpster diving outside a fish market, and generally being a menace and I couldn’t resist. This was actually what made me warm up to him as a character because it was so funny to me and I ended up really liking his design.

-seals don’t have paw pads by the way but I couldn’t help myself suspend your disbelief for me

I don’t have a lot of lore or story ideas as of yet for now they just kind of exist in a void. Idk this is so self indulgent I’m just having fun with it.

(As a side note I have not researched which ocean this AU takes place in and I don’t want to right now I’ll do it eventually though I promise)