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Anxiety so bad my chest feels heavy
#crying too#wahhhh#it’s because I’m worried I got rid of my favorite plushies#which I KNOW I didn’t#but I’m having an irrational fear because I can’t check#I don’t like not making sure and I’m afraid#even tho I know my worrying is for nothing#idk I wish I could stop overthinking#I know he’s safe and I didn’t get rid of him I just need to trust my memory#I’m just so forgetful and I get anxious thinking I did something (like accidentally donate a beloved toy) when I actually didn’t#I wanna check to be sure but I can’t because my bin of toys is in a different place that I’m not near#I’ll be there soon but I don’t like sitting here worrying#I just want to know for sure and put my mind at ease :(((#for context I recently got rid of a bunch of my plush but my parents donated the give away bag before I could double check it#so now I’m scared#this was a while ago tho and I know I checked and checked again before filling the bag up#idk why it’s bothering me now#anyways sorry for the rant#getting my feelings out always helps#sfw interaction only#sfw agere#sfw age regression#age regressor#age regression#agere blog#agere positivity#quizzyrambles#Quizzyvents
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was offline and missed your bday :( happy belated !!!!! i love you so !!!! update me on everything emewee RN⁉️
BETSY !!! hello i’ve missed you so much i literally checked ur account yesterday and i was like omg a month without betsy 😰 i was having withdrawals also THANK YOU !!! it’s okay i missed ur bday too and i agreed to sacrifice my first born child to make up for it ✊ love u more
#okay so remember how i work as a lifeguard now#well now im working mostly at this summer camp and i just found out apparently we’re required to do at least one shift a week there#because people are literally AVOIDING it like the plague ??? i’m guessing the kids are really crazy or something#guess who scheduled every day for three weeks in a row?#ME BETSY#ME 😟#so now i’m scared#and my supervisor is literally ghosting me i had to email her about my uniform (which i still don’t have) and she didn’t respond …. awkward#so now i just gotta show up in a red shirt and hope for the best#that’s the most interesting thing going on rn for me#so moving on#we need to talk about this twilight drug ur on right now#i respect the grind actually#that’s exactly how pride month should be spent#also i missed you !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷#pink hearts for u#ask#betsy boop
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you're a blondie? 🥺💛
i think?? so?? i was platinum blonde for like. 5 years and went back to my natural color in january so it’s either dirty blonde or light brown LOL i’m not sure
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jrwi dump from the past few months while i slog thru school and college apps
#guys i’m going to say what everyone is too scared to….i miss riptide#also my whole twitter timeline is parkour civilization now should i draw fanart#jrwi riptide#jrwi wonderlust#jrwi#lavrose art#jrwi fanart#art#fanart#school is killing me but we ball#also don’t worry that nyap(?? myap? mnyarp?) is so small i forgor#gillion tidestrider#jay ferin#jrwi chip#troy lougferd#ava ferin#kira jrwi#also also i forgot does ava have the ferin eye thing or did i make that up???
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there are a lot of evil people in the world and a lot of darkness in the world and so it’s very important for me to stress that now more than ever is the time to spread kindness and compassion. combat the evil by not only not partaking in it, but actively refuting it. destroy the notion that being compassionate or generous or kind to someone is uncool or embarrassing or even scary. be the change you want to see. start a chain reaction. positivity only breeds more positivity. do an act of kindness for someone so that that person who is too afraid to do it themselves can see you, realize that they’re not alone, and perhaps sheepishly follow your example. and then the next person who is too afraid but sees that person can do the same. when bad news comes out about bad people or horrible atrocities in the world it’s such an easy impulse to despair, and obviously it’s important to feel what you need to feel. grieve. be angry. be sorrowful. be empathetic. but dust off your pants and get up and be a part of a chain reaction that, no matter how small the scale, and spread compassion and love and care. all the reasons why you might not—“it’s hard! it’s scary! people will make fun of me! it’s useless because there’s too much evil!” are all grade A arguments as to why you should. you have no idea how many people you could inspire to do the same. even if it doesn’t get you anyway far, you can at least say you have the nobility of trying. please choose love and please choose life. you are worth loving and you are worth inspiring others to love
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will you welcome your extinction in the morning rays?
#hiii i haven’t shared art in so long. that’s bc it scares me now <3#i started this in 2022 bc i wanted to post it at the end of tour and well. That didn’t happen#got it most of the way done and then couldn’t figure out how to finish it bc illustration proper is still an unknown beast to me#but i took a couple hours late last night to finish it up and i’m actually so happy with it!!#y’all didn’t ask for a novel SORRY#mcr#my chemical romance#the foundations of decay#swarm#swarm tour#gerard way#frank iero#ray toro#mikey way#arty art#mine
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It’s been clear that the Tanizakis aren’t siblings from the very beginning
here’s some evidence now that it’s been confirmed canon…
everyone who’s read irl Tanizaki’s book knew that Junichiro & Naomi weren’t siblings as soon as they introduced themselves
BUT just because the Tanizakis aren’t siblings doesn’t mean you can’t feel uncomfortable about them. if you feel uncomfortable, GOOD. that’s exactly what they want
the Tanizakis, Mori— they all use these disturbing ruses to disarm or distract people in order to protect themselves, or to accomplish their goals. this is a writing device that asagiri commonly employs as a way to parallel the irl literature (it’s actually ingenious)
there are 4 main indicators that have always made it clear to me that Junichiro & Naomi are not siblings:
1. most obviously— their character designs. Harukawa is extremely intentional with character designs, & she very intentionally made Naomi & Junichiro look nothing alike
their eye shapes are purposely different
their color palettes are contrasting
even their differing styles of clothing have meaning
this was all done so that the audience could PLAINLY see that they’re not related— so that WE know that they’re lying when they say they ARE related
2. how the people around them respond to their act.
the general reaction is “don’t question it”— which is exactly what they want. “be distracted by how uncomfortable you feel so that you look away from what we’re hiding” (this is likely a protective measure)
3. most importantly, this is meant to parallel irl Tanizaki’s book “Naomi,” where the main character Joji picks up Naomi to raise her into his ideal woman, but since she's so young (& a minor) they call each other cousins (Joji makes no sexual advances on young Naomi btw)
however, his plan backfires because when Naomi gets older & they get married, she flips the script on him & manipulates HIM so that he's under her thumb (which is why bsd Tanizaki is at a domineering Naomi's mercy). Joji let her have her way because of his masochistic tendencies
4. lastly is the emphasis that Asagiri and the Tanizakis themselves put on calling each other siblings.
over & over, it’s “my brother this” & “my sister that”
like they’re desperately trying to convince us that it’s true (“don’t let your lying eyes deceive you”)
here are just a few of many examples from the light novels…
again, if you’ve read “Naomi” you knew that Junichiro & Naomi weren’t siblings as soon as they introduced themselves
just like if you’ve read irl Mori’s works, it’s clear that bsd Mori isn’t a pedophile
just like if you’ve read No Longer Human you know that Dazai’s an unreliable narrator. he makes you think he’s a bad person bc he believes he’s a bad person, but those around him see him differently (btw this doesn’t mean he’s never done anything “bad,” though bsd isn’t about morality— but that’s another discussion)
anyway, i’m so excited for the Tanizakis backstory to be revealed so that we can better understand why they use this defense!!
also let this be a reminder to READ THE LITERATURE if you’re able to!! even reading synopses & analyses of the coordinating books makes bsd make much more sense 🥹
reminder that this how you’re supposed to react while reading bsd:
also, if you’re interested in a post explaining how Mori isn’t a pedo, i wrote this analysis on twt. OR you can read this document that one of my moots sent me (remember: analyzing a character does NOT mean you condone any actions they may or may not commit!)
#i hope this makes sense. i’ve had this in the drafts for months but was too scared to post it#i’m hoping now that it’s confirmed canon there won’t be as much backlash ^^’ pls be kind#darcy this is for you… i hope you like it :’)#also full disclosure i haven’t been able to read all of Naomi yet. mostly synopses & analyses. so don’t take my summary of the book as law#also hopefully now people won’t ignore the Tanizakis anymore!! not only are they so interesting. they’re also just fun characters#Naomi is so underrated & intelligent. i need more of her teaming up with Dazai#rambling about bsd again#bsd#bungou stray dogs#bsd meta#bsd analysis#bsd tanizaki#bsd naomi#naomi tanizaki#tanizaki junichirou#tanizaki siblings#bsd 118
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so much happened in this whole episode but i’m still on fig infiltrating ruben’s dream, making it look like the place where his friend was murdered, and then disguising herself as kipperlilly & repeatedly saying different variants of “somebody needs to take the fall for this, and it’s not going to be me. it’s going to be you.” while adaine as the elven oracle shows up next to her. can you imagine waking up from that, the idea of a horrible truth being pinned on you by your friend to save her own skin while the personification of fate and destiny stands there, almost as a promise that this is GOING to happen to you. we don’t even know if this kid is guilty. my god.
#fantasy high#dimension 20#fhjy#fhjy spoilers#fantasy high junior year#fig faeth#ruben hopclap#lucy frostblade#the rat grinders#adaine abernant#kipperlilly copperkettle#watching fig terrorize him like girl!!! we don’t even know if he’s guilty!!!!#this might just be for me but i do not think 5 teenagers willingly brutally killed their friend idk#like there just has to be some other element to it and i am very scared to find out what that was#what if they were put in a position where they felt there was/there was no other choice… like oh my god#my comedy brain is having fun but my ‘this is a teenager’ brain is in such deep distress all the time this season#the rat grinders i trust brennan to not make u cartoonishly evil so i am holding u as gently as i can in my confused shaky hands#also with the devil’s nectar i’ve been wondering why they all seem so well-adjusted & now i’m curious if they’ve been intentionally-#changing their memories in a way so that either the trauma is lesser or they think they aren’t guilty. idk#but it seems like from how gertie was talking she was making it more recently so the well adjustedness from early jy doesn’t quite add up#they could have another source maybe??? idk i’m just low stakes 4 a.m. spitballing here#there’s also the strong possibility that they’re aware of what happened but they weren’t the ones who killed lucy. idk who knows#the way you could probably devil’s nectar yourself into believing it wasn’t your fault someone died… CRAZY IMPLICATIONS!!! CRAZY IDEA!!!#anyways the bad kids & the rat grinders don’t ever have to like each other but i do wonder if at least some of those kids deserve a chance
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Okay, I’m so gonna get hate for this. And it will probably get about 4 notes. This is, by far, the most opinionated thing I have ever posted on here. If you can’t tolerate criticism towards Rick Riordan, the books, or the TV show, please keep scrolling. My goal is NOT to change your mind or start arguments.
I also want to preface this by saying that I love and respect Rick Riordan (even if I disagree with him on things and don’t like some of his choices) and fully acknowledge that he has the right to do whatever the hell he pleases with his own series. I also want to say that I love Annabeth Chase (both the book and tv show version) with my entire being and you will never find me being an Annabeth hater. She’s my girl.
We good? Okay cool. So here’s the thing: I’ve seen a lot of people on here saying things like “If you didn’t like the books, you just don’t know how to have fun,” and “The new book haters are just mad that they aren’t the target audience anymore,” and (my personal favorite) “Nothing in the books has changed, only the readers have.”
And while I see your points, and I respect you, allow me to show you something. Because of the 10 picture limit, I am only going to focus on one specific change: Annabeth’s view of Percy.
WOTTG: Annabeth is surprised to be comforted by Percy
Past Books: Percy is constantly comforting Annabeth
WOTTG: Annabeth is shocked when Percy is smart
Past Books: Annabeth often points out that Percy is intelligent
WOTTG: Annabeth thinks Percy can’t do anything on his own, and Rick communicates that Annabeth is always saving his ass
Past Books: Percy is ALWAYS watching her back, and saving her ass just as much (and Annabeth admits that)
I could put a hundred quotes in here. I could go on and on and on. But I can’t, and I won’t.
My problem with this new book is NOT that it is more goofy than serious. My problem is NOT that little things have changed. My problem is NOT that it’s just for fun. My problem is NOT that it’s much more childish. (And by the way, I’ve read PJO and HOO as an adult, so it’s not like I was a child when I read everything else and am now an adult reading the new ones.) I really did like and enjoy many parts of this book.
My problem is that the characters (especially Annabeth) have flat out changed—in bad ways—and we have no choice but to accept it as canon. My problem is that Rick, while trying to merge his books with his new TV show project, is changing the entire personalities and past behaviors/ tendencies of the characters.
I loved Chalice of the Gods. You know why? It was fun, goofy, and showed the characters that we know and love being happy and adorable. I strongly dislike Wrath of the Triple Godess because the characters—no matter how adorable and happy they might be—are no longer the ones we know and love.
My problem is that Rick Riordan fully admitted that he no longer considers the old book characters when he writes the new books. He is now purposefully incorporating his own personal mixture of the book characters and tv characters and writing those versions instead. Because of his desire to change and transform the series, I doubt he’s even read the original PJO or HOO books in years, which is why everything is so inconsistent. The old book characters—the ones who made the series what it was—are gone. And that is not my opinion. Rick fully admits that he doesn’t imagine them when he writes anymore. Don’t get me wrong, I LOVE the tv show actors. I adore Walker and Leah and Aryan with my whole heart, and I wouldn’t trade them for anything. But the fact is: they will never be exactly like the book characters. It’s impossible for actors to become the words on a page. They’re their own unique version! And likewise, you cannot turn actors into print. It doesn’t work! And why would you try? The books versions were perfect as they were. And the disney kids need to make the characters their own. The two versions can exist side by side, equally as wonderful, and still be gloriously different. We should celebrate the uniqueness of both. But instead, Rick is attempting to merge them into one. And in my opinion, it’s just hurting them both. And I’m gonna get real brave by saying this, but do you want my honest prediction? If he keeps doing what he’s doing now, the TV show is going to get cancelled and the books are going to turn into a joke. I so, so badly hope that this doesn’t happen! I have loved Rick and PJO for many, many years. I badly want both to thrive. But what is going on right now… it is not working, no matter how much we all want it to. And speaking as someone who knows people in the TV/Film industry, I am sadly not the only one who thinks the show is gonna flop. Which is devastating, because Rick Riordan deserves a redemption on the big screen, and the incredible actors deserve to bring this series to life in a new way.
I am not trying to force my opinions onto anybody. You are welcome to disagree with me and move on. I am not saying that I’m right and you’re wrong. If you disagree, that’s okay. If you agree but you don’t have a problem with it, that’s okay. In fact if other people have literally no issues, that makes me somewhat happy. And if you loved the book, I’m honestly so stoked for you. Feel free to just keep on scrolling, my friend.
But me? I’m sad. I’m really, really freaking sad. And I’m a little angry too, even if I don’t have a right to be. I can’t help it because I’m only human. But this is how I—and a lot of other people—feel. And you know what? That’s okay too. Because the fact of the matter is:
Annabeth isn’t the same Annabeth anymore. And Percy isn’t the same Percy anymore. And it’s not because they went through trauma, or because time has passed. It’s because Rick Riordan doesn’t have any interest in writing those versions of them anymore. And I think the comparisons between the old and the new show that fact pretty clearly.
#okay i’m deleting tumblr now#i’m too scared for the hate so i will be absent lol#I PROMISE IM NOT TRYING TO DESTROY RICK I LOVE HIM#but i think he needs to be more loyal to the old fanbase that has been so loyal to him#or not that’s fine too#i could give you guys more book quotes#i could make a whole other post on how percy has changed#but i’m not sure anyone wants that#so for now i will try and shut up#wottg#wrath of the triple goddess#and run very very quickly#pjo#heroes of olympus#percy jackson#annabeth chase#percabeth#percy jackson and the olympians#rick riordan#riordanverse
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4/19 Moodboard for the average Watcher/Yuri On Ice fan
#I’m gonna scream#IM SO MAD ARE YOU SCARED IS MY FSVE WATCHER SERIES AND NOW ITS GOING TO BE GONE#PUPPET HISTORY!!!!!#AND YURI ON ICE ENDING TOO IM HAVING. A DAY#yuri on ice#watcher
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the fact that kevin day also witnessed a man being chopped up in the tower at evermore after neil’s audition is mad, and it’s something that is very much not addressed ever. like, maybe part of kevin was so accepting of how things were in the nest because he knew that this is the second branch, and if he were to leave, he’d become the main branch’s problem because he knows too much, and the main branch casually chops men up as a warning to literal children. and then he’s still called a coward for leaving ?? but also a coward for wanting to go back to make the inevitable less painful for him ??? and that’s not even considering what riko and tetusji did to him specifically, before even jean arrived at the nest. and his mother’s death would’ve been quite recent at that point. just insane.
#like i’m pretty sure the man being chopped up was the final straw for mary to take neil and run#and kevin saw that and wasn’t allowed to leave#so he accepted that maybe where he is is the better of two options and decided it’s okay because at least he gets to play exy#so exy became his only escape because if he was so scared that if he were to leave the nest he’d be the next one given to the butcher#it’s not until he doesn’t have exy anymore cause riko took it from him that he leaves#god i have so many thoughts but i am going to stop now#aftg#all for the game#kevin day#neil josten#so you’ll believe that neil was scared of nathan for a good reason but won’t believe kevin was scared of riko for good reason#(i said i’d stop but i did not)#and tetsuji#like even in tsc kevin is still calling tetsuji the master without hesitation
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Saw somebody on TikTok point out that Caitlyn knows the location of the firelights base and it’s all I’ve been able to think about
Caitlyn I swear, if you touch that fucking tree—
#I’m gonna crash out bro#just imagine how devastated Ekko would be#I’m so scared she’s actually gonna do smth now#Arcane#arcane season 2#firelights#Ekko#caitlyn kiramman#TikTok
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president max where are you when america needs you most….
#sam and max#sam and max freelance police#OKY…. i came up with this idea and started drawing this during july when i heard biden wasn’t gonna run in the election 😭#SO THIS IS KIND OF OLDL…… yikes! ummmm i just tweaked it a lot#what malicious things will this beast say….#i just thoight this was relevant now and thoight it’d be a silly time to bring this thing to the light of day#nonetheless i’m scared!!!!!!#pukafsh art
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more nephews and niece content bc it makes me happy
#digital art#fanart#art#resident evil#carlos oliveira#resident evil 3 remake#prob the last but I’m glad to have drawn lighthearted fun stuff#need to see this man happy#I wanted to draw some of his brothers but brain can’t come up with unique designs#just want him to be happy with his siblings#for now he gotta stay happy w these rascals I made up in my head#ppl adding their own hc’s and thoughts was so inspiring so I made these doodles LOL#as a kid I scared the adults with facts and bugs without realising it and didn’t understand why they didn’t like me#but ik carlitos would try be supportive of everyone’s interests
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i’m giving in……
if this post can get 1k notes by new year’s day i’ll give writing my own lyrics another shot….
i might regret this-
#i wrote some music a while ago#but it was so bad#but now w my poetry i wanna try again but i’m scared#lmao#eden needs helpppp
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Going to get into the habit of carrying my journal everywhere w me bc I truly want to soak up every snapshot of this transitional period where I’m just a 22 year old girl finding my footing and the only thing I’m tied to are the decisions I make and the path I carve for myself
#No friends no family no bf no professor no nobody pressuring me to make choices#Just me and my whims for this short period of time before I matriculate and everything becomes regimented and I’m following someone else’s#Plan again#I don’t plan to be aimless bc a lot of plans are set in place for this in between time period and I only intend to iron them out w time#But this truly is the freest I think I’ll ever be and to be scared of that is insane#Accepting advice and acknowledging expertise are important but ultimately I will make the decisions at the end of the day#And that is so exciting and truly the most freedom I’ve had#Like not answering to anyone but myself now is a dream come true
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