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Things I did today #41 March 11 2024
Found bag and (re)packed for upcoming trip (Sweden on Friday)
Painted a sign for concerts in Sweden
Drew some fanart
Practiced memorizing a song ("Bluza")
Went to support group meeting
Received a package
Cooked dinner
Washed dishes
Booked train ticket for May
#ngl it is only almost nine but I am exhausted#and looking at this list I can see why#it looks like a lot#and it feels like a bit#so my spoons are spend#good thing I could use the sleep given I'll wake up earlier tomorrow anyways :'D#tidt#things i did today#findingmicah
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Cross has trouble getting to sleep alone in his room and goes looking for a distraction, but ends up finding a solution for both of them
#UTDR#UTMV#Cross Sans#Killer Sans#Kross ship#(Kinda. It's up to interpretation)#Long post#I'm so sorry I didn't mean for it to be THIS much#I started this like a week ago -A-#Lies down and lets out a long howl it's finisheeeeeed#I could have just drawn them spooning and written the rest but noooo I love to do things the hard way#Anyway I think they should be bed buddies#The company helps Cross relax enough to sleep and the touch helps knock Killer out#Cross has to be big spoon because otherwise Killer's soul gets squished and it's too uncomfortable to sleep#Also I realised Cross and Nightmare are the only two in the castle who didn't have knock knock jokes in their backstory#I like to imagine Nightmare has had similar confusing interactions with at least one of them#Cross probably spends the rest of the day panicked that he overstepped a boundary or the others will make fun of him#Not realising that Dust and Horror have fallen asleep together many times#Or that Killer hasn't slept properly in weeks and he's in heaven#I'm NOT drawing a follow up so just imagine Killer coming to Cross's room the next night and finding every excuse to stay#Because he wants it to happen again but he has no idea how to ask (and also Cross seems kinda awkward about it)#Absolutely terrified that I spent my whole week off working on this and it might be not that great so I hope at least one person likes this
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OMORITOBER DAY 14: LIBRARY
i like to imagine spirit mari tossing down her favorite memories for omori to read while peeking around to see omori's reaction :3
i was thinkin of drawing her too, but honestly i wasnt very sure what pose to do and i was a bit tired !!
thanks to @/ntrogensolar for the omoritober prompt list!
extra rant in the tags ab why this isnt a full piece!
#artists on tumblr#omori#omori fanart#omoritober#inktober#ez_draws#ez_rants#so heres the deal#i get very tired easily with the whole onyl certain amount of 'spoons' per day thing#i spend most of my time doing my homework#and after that i feel like ive gotta finish the drawing for the day#this means i subconsiously sacrifice time doing things that i truly wanna do including spending time with my friends and doing other things#if i prioritize doing the things that i want to do a little more than this challenge#it ends with me kiiinnddaaa staying up pretty late trying to finish the art#and also lower quality art in general!#however i dont wanna quit the challenge just yet; we'll see how things go but for now i was thinking just doing a sketch! it allows me to-#still do a daily drawing which is great for someone who sometimes goes months without drawing and still not burning myself out on the dail#for example - this drawing took about an hour even though i took my time! and i was also able to spend time with friends and family and-#still be productive! i know i dont have to explain myself; its my art after all but yk i like to explain stuff especially when in relation#to my art! i wanna make sure the art i make is something i truly enjoy and not a plaguing responsibility- so i'll be adapting this-#challenge to my own needs! anyway thats all- sorry for the long rant! and congrats to the people who have enough time and motivation to do#the full challenge!!!#ok byebyeee! and i might be posting more silly sketches in my free time!#rant over <3
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I don't know if it was the audio quality or not but it's so hilarious that Eddie just goes BUCK in such a loud voice. It's giving me 'I'm so cool with my queer best friend I'm so supportive' 😭✋🏽. "You look great together" and he sounds strangled, still talking in a high pitch voice. "Have fun, stay safe!", he probably says as he grins too wide while clutching his forgotten girlfriend's hand tightly.
#idk#it's just funny to think about Eddie being extra enthusiastic to show that he supportive and is A-okay with Buck being bi#but he just makes everything awkward lol#and buck's like what are you doing#and Eddie's like supporting you!#and also I'm a huge fan of Eddie spending his entire date talking about Buck#because he actually so would#mr i learned maths from my gf#also low-key jealous eddie#he'd be like: personally i wouldn't have chosen this place for my first date#and: oh! oh no i would NOT have chose THAT wine buck doesn't even like that one much#and marisol is there like be for real right now#and he's clutching the spoon so hard his fingers are turning white as he cheerily says: tommy's a-he's a nice guy he'd be good for buck#buddie#911 abc#911 spoilers#PLS i NEED unhinged eddie trying to be supportive but also low-key jealous#and keeps doing this until someone points out what he's doing#and he's like WHY AM I LIKE THIS#and someone shakes him like: because you're in love with him!#eddie diaz#evan buckley#evan buck buckley
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my classmates will go thru 6 hours of class the day after a long excursion through the countryside and then just get up and go run around in town for hours going to movies and shopping and whatever and I'm just sitting here like Aren't you all exhausted . Aren't you all sore and pained. Where are you getting this energy. Can we calm down
#if nothing else this trip has really opened my eyes to how much chronic pain/fatigue does impact my life compared to others#i dunno I guess I just never really noticed. but I just don't have the energy other people do. Not even close. Not even a little bit#I go through a day of class and relish in the thought of spending the rest of my day resting because the agony in my legs#and the unbearable tiredness I feel just beckons me to collapse into bed#but everyone else is just so . energized. and ready to explore. and wanting to run all over the place and do 1 million things all the time#and this is normal? this is how normal people are? Because I'm the only one out of my entire class who seems to be the opposite#everyone just has so much energy. and I Do Not have that energy. I had to stand for most of the past three hours and it's taken me out#for the day i'll be honest. but everyone else just seems so undaunted#and it sucks because i'd love to hang out with these people and join them and whatever but when I do force myself along i'm just so tired#and so pained that all my responses are either dry or i don't say anything at all. i'm just completely out of spoons but I hang on because#i Hate the feeling of being left behind#oh well. eye-opening experience I guess#vent#<- it became that so yeah I'm tagging it#clamtalk#and also? my bee sting? IT ITCHES. Who was going to tell me it'd do that. What the Fuck Man
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#[ hellooo guys! ;O;/ ]#[ been spending time with my family so i've been too busy to be on here ]#[ now i have some days to relax and hopefully be on here ]#[ i'm so tiredddd and my health is kicking my ass fjfjfjfj ]#[ WILL RECOVER !! ]#[ also trying to get my artfight attacks done >-< so much to do ]#[ my creative energy has been suffering recently ahaha ]#[ AND I BET IT'S BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN KEPT AWAY FROM NNOI ]#[ A CRIME ]#[ LET ME SPEND TIME WITH MY SPOON ]#[ -knife emojis- ]#[ hope you're all doing good guys!! thank you very much for your patience IT'S SUPER APPRECIATED !! ]#toby post. ╱ out of character.
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I have brought the two halves of Spacehead back together. I now await my significant other to join me with glitter glue.
#I thought glitter glue would be fitting. Glitter is just tangible interactive stars after all is it not?#For now though I sit in the void and wait.#This is fine. I spend most of my time in the void anyway.#The broken half of the House froze over but everyone in it should be fine. Freeze overs aren't uncommon here.#We will have to step it up a bit though. I only wish we could do so more often but alas. We two take up too many spoons to front normally.#Yes the idea IS to literally glue the house back together. Don't worry Dark if you ever read this‚ it'll fade with time.#pk;m Mischief⚘#I do not expect this to hold for the record. What we're doing is forcing and speeding up recovery.#Whatever happened is a result of stress and it'll truly fix itself when the stress dies down.#While I'm here I'll try to remove the starmates from the broken half of the House into the other half and see if they defrost.#If so‚ good! If not‚ I tried. they'll defrost in due time.#... I can also possibly fix Bill's injuries with glitter glue too I think that'd look cute. Like a hell.o K.itty bandaid but not.#Anyways. tl;dr: forcing things right now and it won't hold but once life Stops being horrid things will fix itself.#I just need to gather everyone in one spot for the time being.#Anyways! With that said I shall put the body to sleep and update in the morning. Goodnight!
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me: so i've somehow become the de facto leader of my raid group and there's all this drama and i think i'm bad at dealing with it my therapist: it's interesting that you're the leader of things...that's good right? me: oh no this happens a lot and it's terrible. you know how in skyrim you show up at mage college like "hello yes, i'd like to learn magic" and they're like "that's great, we're having this problem, can you help us?" and you're like "okay sure i guess" and they're like "great, thank you, also you're the leader now b/c you did the stuff" and this happens with every single organization in that game?? This is my life. like i just wander into groups wanting to participate/do stuff and then since i'm the only one who is willing to organize anything i somehow become in charge. my therapist: fascinating! ngl i'm so proud of you for making communities! reaching out! nature is healing! me: i feel like you are not understanding the problem tho :3
#text post#personal#i guess it's a good sign that it's happened again#but also ugh#i don't want to be the leader i want to be the general#like 2nd in command is ideal#you have all the power to organize things but you don't have to deal with people so much lol#also i dont have the spoons to spend a day on discord with someone who can't be on time and just spits vitriol and excuses at me#like that's not fun#gamer drama#we are all too old for this shit fam#my colead just wants to kick this person and i'm like oh no but that's mean but after their shit all day i'm also like idk now#like there's only so much abuse a person can take#all i asked is that they were on time and they like exploded i was like this is not serious but if you want to play you show up#also they accused me of being power hungry and i'm like do you think i want to herd all you cats and beg you to be on time b/c i do not#i just want to do endgame content with some semblance of prog
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i think i'm starting to really like writing again :D this will have consequences
#just me hi#oho so my beloved is back from the war huh [<- had locked the doors and windows to keep its 'beloved' out and forgot about it]#that old itch to just start slapping sounds i know on a doc and hoping in 3 days it still makes sense is back lol :3#/can't read the last thing i wrote yet cuz it hasn't been three days </3#rule is i have to spend the same amount of time away from it as i spent working on it. including editing. sad!#it Does help my brain reset though. and forget about literally everything bfhvsjgh#and i know it's possible for me to finish this kinda stuff now so like. Woho !!#the power. the Powerrrr#/also tryna get more comfortable with sharing my writing so i'm starting by sending small finished stuff to like 2 people i trust kfvshg#i can handle unwarranted critiques of my art but i am not at a stage for my writing where it won't cause like international#devastation and that's goofy so Pfvhsh 👍#we're working on it :)#and i think people's reactions are amusing so ehehehghehghgehg :3 a bonus :33#//yea though i'm gonna go put some more obleas in the freezer#obleeeeeeeeaaaa can't wait to seeeee yaaaaaa. on. my. Plaaaaate#btw shoutout to eating a spoonful of cajeta at like 1 in the morning thinking everyone's asleep and then you look up and younger#sibling no. 4 is there staring dead into your eyeballs like. is there anymore#and you go uhhh yea. and then as he's walking around to get some younger sibling no. 3 rises up from seemingly nowhere like I Want Some Too#lmfshvhf#and then you're all just sitting up for about 2 more hours just talking about very dumb things and having cajeta. illegally but still hfbvh#//anyway i'm gonna depart now :) ciao toodles lol :3
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#4 shots of expresso in 2 minutes#is today the day that i gather my spoons and re bleach my hair 😂#also yes i bleach my own hair. i was taught by a hairdresser friend and theres no fucking way im spending between 200-500.#living in london is so expensive z ndjxgndh
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yet another beautiful three hour long forty minute episode in the July Nineteenthclub household yeahhhhh babey this is what lifes all about
#every show i start is because i had seen like a clip or a gif or a recap of ONE (one) part of it that was made for me personally#to eat up with a spoon#and the most rewarding part OF the show is getting all the way there so i can spend three times its run length watching it#thanks to my impeccable taste not only does this show have a good one in the middle right here#but it has another couple i'm staring down toward the end#and one of them's feature length yee haw
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doop doop here's my thoughts and things and translation weirdness I find as I re-read ch 3 of Trigun Maximum vol 3
(NOTE: I'm reading the Dark Horse [physical] and the Overhaul [online] translations side-by-side)
(Dark Horse on left, Overhaul on right)
...I mean, I guess???
(Dark Horse on top, Overhaul on bottom)
okay, to me this looks like another case of Dark Horse watering down the language so they could market the manga to a wider and younger audience
also...is it just me, or does Dark Horse tend to make Wolfwood markedly more poetic...?
THANK YOU, OVERHAUL. this part always struck me as like...unnecessarily weird and out-of-place. in your translation, it is not. as always, everything flows better and makes more sense - both in terms of wording and context =u=
and then after this, fucking. "We will be back after a brief intermission." Leonov is easily the most fun GHG for me rn - so messed up and such a lil shit... 😆
OH HEY, SPEAKING OF WHICH :DDD
subtle differences here - but for me, the Overhaul's translation does a better job at conveying the horror of this scene/realization...
(also, the expression Wolfwood makes next...and considering who else's immortality he's been struggling to come to grips with...really, Gray is nothing compared to the real deal, no?)
...meanwhile, the art alone - the silence and stillness of it - is what does it for Vash's ordeal.
...idk how to put how I feel about the translation discrepancies here into words beyond how the Overhaul's has more punch to it for me, like...it affects me more than Dark Horse's, which is a good thing.
and across these panels (across 2 pages), notice how Vash still aims low when fighting the puppets - he still goes the "non-lethal" route on non-living opponents. it's still just about disarming/disabling, not destroying.
it strikes me here with the Overhaul's translation how Leonov's stage performance-based language like...separates him from the reality of what he's doing? or something? idk, words hard.
fun fact: that name is what got me started on figuring out my preferred name - many, MANY years before I knew I was trans!
(...the further I get in this re-reading, the more I'm realizing just how important the story of Trigun is to my sense of self today...)
#trigunbookclub#text postan 2k23#prolly not gonna use my usual purple highlighter much anymore#I think I'm spending too many spoons editing the pics so. imma try to save them for the analysis from now on.#I don't want reading the manga and making these posts to become things I start to avoid due to executive dysfunction;;;;;
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"I am going to do some Gpose today" I have said to myself for a week or two since my health issues have been lessening... and then I think about how much energy and time it takes, and I just... don't.
#trapped in an ugly cycle of being disinterested in my own characters bc others are disinterested#but also over the last few years the RP focus has massively shifted to Elezen and Ishgard in the tumblr XIV community#I'll eventually find a way to meet people in other RP spheres...maybe#and I live in a place that's as cold and snowy as Ishgard most of the year... so I don't enjoy the zone at all#plus the themes in Ishgard are meh for me - I just don't care about the catholic guilt stuff#plus the church was overthrown so that's not even really a relevant zone theme anymore?#and the class warfare is more interesting in Ul'dah for me...bc it's warm and doesn't remind me that I'm *also* stuck in a frozen hellscape#anyways it's so cold that my bones hurt#going to reserve my spoons for a day I have the energy to spend like 8 hours taking pictures and video
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my litter robot, which i spent Many Dollars on to save me from myself, is broken :)
#i have tried all the recommended things to fix it & nada#it's way past its warrantee so i can't send it to get fixed w/o spending more money#& i can't just replace it bc the new model is $700 & my model is $550#i rely on this thing bc i don't have the executive function? spoons? memory? whatever to scoop regularly#anyway i'm rly frustrated almost to the point of crying lol
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super great when you learn you’ve been trying your best and it just isn’t even remotely good enough.
#ooc. mikkelsen vc: this week on kat valentine's hannibal.#[I am trying to be there for everyone I’m trying to be a good friend but I am also in the process of doing literally everything for my aunt.#I am just trying not to be literally swallowed entirely by my depression. I am trying not to become continuously overwhelmed by spending#more than a collective 10 hours a week in a doctors office. it is almost my fucking birthday and I have tried my best to not think about it#as the worst day. even with the fact that my aunt has a treatment.#I haven’t tutored hs in so long I had two panic attacks three hours beforehand. I’m trying so hard to just….. stay together as a person and#the fact that someone’s upset with me is just…. I’m trying my best????#I am trying so hard I don’t have the spoons on a good day to even remember to eat half the time/]#negative /#[ not about any of you guys I’m just venting honestly. it’s just. I feel like shit about it but I’m trying so. hard.]
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ohhhhh my god as if it wasnt hard enough to relax to go to sleep with a sooty owl outside constantly startling me!! just had a silverfish running across my sheets toward my face!! where the fuck did you come from!!! why are you here!!! i didnt even know you could CLIMB!!!
#p#it panicked me so badly i had to go wake up my dad to deal with it TT_TT#i guess im spending all my spoons tomorrow tidying and figuring out where the bastard came from
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