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Hi! Wanted to ask, is there any particular breed of cat in your shelter that tends to be adopted quickly? Are there cats that seem to be more difficult to adopt out?
Yeah, sphynxes tend to be adopted out super quick. I'm surprised we still have Peach and Finn--- I knew we'd have them for a while because we were treating Finn's FIP, but I didn't expect to STILL have them. We usually have a list of people looking for sphynxes, but all of the people on the list are only looking for ONE cat, not two.
So bonded pairs are more difficult to adopt out, unless they are tiny baby kittens.
tbh, a lot of pedigreed cats get adopted out relatively quickly due to the whole 'we have a list of people looking for this exact breed' thing. Like I've already got people asking about Persephone just because they want a bengal and don't mind working with her severe fears. I'm not complaining about that, exactly. Some part of me feels some kind of way about that but I try not to let it bother me too much.
Domestic shorthairs are the hardest to adopt out (medium haired cats are the most popular of the non-pedigreed cats; longhaired cats are slightly less popular but still pretty desirable). People are well aware that they can get a moggie anywhere. I can swear up and down that my moggies are special (because they are), but so is every cat. Can't really argue with that.
Cats that are a bit 'generic' don't get adopted as quickly. Short haired tabbies and solid blacks are the slowest to get adopted. People want something that looks more 'interesting'. I teach my 'less desirable' cats little tricks to make them more adoptable and it tends to work.
Cats with visible, but not super work intensive, disabilities get adopted pretty quickly. Cats with one eye or three legs are fairly popular. People always think 'ohh no one will want this one', but they're wrong. Everyone loves a nice disabled kitty, so a short-haired tabby with three legs or one eye will be adopted pretty quick.
Fully blind or deaf cats are less popular, but there's generally still a list of people looking for that. Blindness is more 'adoptable' than deafness.
Cats with invisible disabilities or medical needs are the slowest of all to be adopted. Like diabetes or something similar. If a cat has an ongoing medical need that could be expensive, that cat is going to be with us for a while.
#i think some of this is just a sort of Your Experiences are Not Universal thing#like I work at Purebreds Cats Georg's Rescue#I MOSTLY get pedigreed cats#so people who ask me about cat adoptions#aren't looking to GET a moggie#so my numbers are going to be slightly skewed
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Sometimes I think living in the south made it almost inevitable for me to be into bigger people. Everywhere I go I see someone who was raised on heavy fattening food and their bodies reflect it. Good homestyle, country cooking that canât help but stick to you if you live down here long enough. Itâs to the point that my concept of chubby, thick and fat were skewed long before discovering the feedism community. Online I will sometimes see people say that xyz person is really big but where Iâm from theyâd be considered average size. If almost everyone you see is at minimum overweight, if not straight up obese, your baseline of whatâs normal will begin to shift.
Thatâs why whenever I see âaverageâ sized people, Iâm instinctively like âomg they are so thin!â. Cuz to my deep-south feedist brain, not having a double chin, plush upper arms, a protruding belly, back rolls, nor thunder thighs means that you arenât eating enough. Like if your thighs donât touch when you walk, is everything okay at home? If you arenât at least pleasantly plump then people would assume that youâre down on your luck, and struggling to the point that you canât even eat well. Want to quell rumors about your finances? Make sure that the number on the scale starts with at least a 2, if you want to get people off your case.
The stereotype of a slightly-pushy older woman nearly force-feeding you food isnât that far off depending on whose home youâre visiting and the women I know believe the love organ is your stomach. Just this past Fourth of July, I was asked several times is that all Iâm eating and do I want any more despite me having quite a bit of food and 2 plates of dessert. In my world there arenât 5 love languages but actually 6 with the sixth one being food.
So being raised in that sort of environment, itâs not a shocker that my eyes naturally linger on curvier, thicker individuals. Despite mainstream social media trying to convince me otherwise, how could I reject what has always naturally enthralled me? If they ainât thicker than a snicker they ainât for me. If they donât jump to pull on their jeans then they gotta leave. If the local fast food places doesnât know them by name then itâs not meant to be.
#honey rambles#black fa#fat writing#feedism writing#Iâm just talking yâall lol#Iâm being serious tho#like ofc there are skinny people down here but majority of the people I see are at minimum chubby#like Iâm overweight by the BMI scale but Iâve been called skinny so many times itâs wild#thatâs the south for you lol#and when I was actually thin years back I was told I looked sickly đđđ#curvy#wg text#soft feedism#feedism commentary
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I went to a fall festival a few weekends ago, and there was a midway with carnival games. One of them was a shooting game with an airsoft style automatic rifle and you have to shoot out the entire star on the target to get a prize.
It's horribly rigged of course. The gun doesn't shoot remotely straight, and the paper is too thick to shoot through with the number of rounds given.
All I can think of is cute carnival barker reader taunting Ghost that it's easy. Big strong man like him should have no problem. He looks like he knows his way around a firearm.
He pays his ten bucks and gives it a try. A valiant effort once he figures out the skewed trajectory, but when you pull in the target to check his work, there's just a sliver of red left in the corners.
"Oh, I'm so sorry, handsome. Just missed. Want to give it another go?" you ask cheekily. You've been working the same stall all week and no one has won yet. It's basically impossible. You heard a rumor that someone had won a few years ago, but like everything else about your job, it was all a part of the con.
You've made a killing off all the open carry patriots looking to impress their friends and their dates. If you knew anything, this biker guy in the skull printed neck gaiter wasn't going to give up until he was out of cash.
"What do I get if I win?" he asks lazily, but with a lurid challenge in his deep brown eyes. And a cocky timbre to his voice, in an accent not from anywhere you've ever been.
"Anything you see. I got the best prizes here." It's true. Other stalls have stuffed animals and fidget spinners. Yours has a playstation, a motorized bike, iphones.
"I'll hold you to it," he answers as he pulls another ten from his battered leather wallet. You swear there's a crackle of something electric as your hands graze in the transfer.
Another spark of awareness, akin to a rabbit trapped in a snare, when he lays a staying hold on your arm as you load a gun for him.
"Ah-ah, love. Same one." From the crinkle of his eyes, you think he might be smiling as he catches your slight of hand.
"Oh, right, my mistake," you drawl innocently and switch to the one he already used.
He may have a slightly better chance of winning with the rifle he practiced on, but you aren't worried. You figure you can get him for at least three more tries before he slinks off in defeat.
"Check it." He puts down the gun before he's even spent all of the allotted rounds. So fast, in fact, that you wonder if you lost track of time somehow studying his concentration.
The bulk of his shoulders and the taper of his waist in those tight jeans.
"You still have rounds left, don't you?" you laugh to cut the tension as his gaze bores holes into you eerily.
"Don't need 'em."
"Suit yourself," you shrug as you pull the rope to bring in the target.
There has to be some mistake. You examine the card front and back. No red lines of the star remain. A perfect cluster.
"Now about that prize..."
#call of duty#simon ghost riley#ghost x reader#simon ghost riley x reader#I had a dream about ghost the other night#It's now everyone's problem#Horror or meet cute#Your choice
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if god did not want me to over-analyse a two second video clip she would not have given me video editing software, so welcome back to alex's unhinged meta corner with me, alex, as your host.
we're going off the deep end with this one.
let's have a look at a. well, you cannot really call it a scene at this point. more of a collection of frames - aziraphale's face right after crowley leaves but before the bell above the door rings. this has been on my list of metas to write anyway, but someone kindly pointed it out which gave me incentive to make this post.
now, my leading theory is that much like his mouth movement before saying "i forgive you", which looked and sounded a lot like the beginning of "i love you", aziraphale is mouthing a silent "don't". presumably, the complete sentence would have been "don't leave".
first things first, why do i think he would say it? well, if you look back at their breakup in the park in season one, aziraphale calls him back when he says he will leave.
"you can't leave, crowley, there isn't anywhere to go".
then, after the fucking mess that is "nothing lasts forever", aziraphale also calls out. "come back". it is also perfectly in line with his previous behaviour to try and keep crowley from leaving again. especially because he almost tells the metatron he will stay just a few minutes later.
some other important things to keep in mind: aziraphale is shaking and about to cry, and also probably still in shock. so his face is doing a number of things and any words he may or may not mouth are slightly skewed due to that.
the first few frames are him taking a breath, so far so good.
this is the part where it looks like he is about to say something and silently begins to mouth don't. if you pay very close attention to his lips, you can see that they get pushed forward just a little bit as one does when saying "do".
you can try it yourself to confirm, i certainly did several times while rewatching the same two seconds like an absolutely sane person.
the last few frames are him closing his mouth again and breaking off whatever he was going to say, but in my opinion, you can still see the ending of that "don't".
alex, you might ask, how do you know that's what he was trying to say? i don't, although i hope once the strike ends someone will ask michael sheen some much needed questions. however, i wouldn't be a scientist if i didn't have evidence to present nevertheless.
i compared two of the frames from above, one from the "do" part and one from the "nt" part with another instance of michael/aziraphale saying "don't" - "i don't think you understand what i'm offering you".
the mouth shape and the movement of his facial muscles looks very similar even taking the whole sobbing and crying business into account.
interestingly enough, once the bell does ring, signaling that crowley has left the store, he not only closes his mouth but also physically steps back even more. he almost says "don't leave", restrains himself by physically pulling back, and then inches even farther from the door.
that is also when his face shifts from completely openly heartbroken to angry/spiteful and heartbroken.
the camera angle changes a little bit but not enough to explain the discrepancy, so yes, he steps backward before turning away and touching his lips. that pillar is honestly a very helpful point of reference. also completely unrelated but the face he makes at the end cracks me up it is LITERALLY >:(
to summarize: someone get michael sheen on the fucking phone before i lose my mind. also you can pry this meta from my dead, cold hands, he almost said "don't leave" and i will die on this hill.
lastly, said two second clip at half speed if you want to have a look for yourself.
#alex talks good omens#good omens#ineffable husbands#crowley#aziraphale#good omens season 2#go2#aziracrow#crowley x aziraphale#good omens meta#every time i write a post like this i imagine myself as the red string meme dude#i have CONNECTED THE DOTS too
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Carpe Noctem 8
Warnings:Â dark elements, noncon, age gap, gaslighting, manipulation, other dark elements. Proceed with caution. (short!reader)
Note:Please let me know what you think as it helps me a lot with ideas and I love interacting with you all.
Part of The Club AU
You leave the motel under a cloud of reluctance and relief. You have little to your name but your wallet, phone, and a few snacks. Hesitation keeps you stagnant behind the wheel, hovering over the address saved on your maps. This is it, hit start and accept your fate.
You put your phone on the passenger's seat as the automated voice directs you. You shift into gear and pull out. Disbelief fades to indifference. You don't have the energy to feel.Â
You follow along, in autopilot, until the GPS announces your destination on the right. You slow down and look up at the large house. Of course. He's rich. Dirty rich.
You pull down the long lot and stop to the right side of the double garage door. You don't get out immediately, you lean back and close your eyes. You try to sort through your thoughts. It's not that big of a deal. Sleep here, go to work, find anywhere else to be during the day.
There's a rumble on the seat beside you and you snatch up your phone. You drag your thumb across the screen to answer, too late to change your mind. It's him. Of course it's him.
"Don't say a word, sweetheart," Lloyd looks down his nose at the lens, "I just need you to see this."
He switches cameras and you squint as he points it at a familiar wooden door. No. The brass numbers confirm his location; your home. Former home.
His hand knocks on the door as he shifts the phone in his hand.
"Lloyd! Stop. No, don'tâ"
"Fair warning, sunshine, I got you on mute, so if you're tryna change my mind, it won't work." He knocks again, pounding on the door.
As the door opens, Lloyd's fist flies from the edge and snaps Johnny's jaw. You watch the other man stagger and grip his cheek, only for a moment, before swinging back at his attacker. The picture skews as Lloyd dodges and his foot hits Johnnyâs chest and sends him onto his ass.
"Think that's about even," Lloyd clucks as he enters your apartment and steps over Johnny.
He leads with the lens, giving you a glimpse of the front room as he inspects it. He finds his way into the bedroom and hums. He goes to the dresser, opening a drawer then shutting it as all he finds are Johnny's briefs. He slides out the next one and picks out a few neatly folded panties.
"You keep a nice place, sweetie pie," he remarks. "BoringâŚ" he comments as he examines a pair of your cotton panties.
You want to cry. You want to just wilt away to nothing. Why is he doing this?
The camera blurs in a smear of colours suddenly and Lloyd grunts. You hear Johnny and a struggle. Banging, clattering, and clamoring. You hear them locked in contention, helpless as you're stuck staring at a wall.
Another growl and an unsettling thump. The phone lifts and Lloyd snorts as you get a glimpse of him, his nose slightly bloody. He puts the phone down and you hear the drawer snap shut.
"See ya soon, baby cakes," he says, slightly breathless, "make yourself cozy⌠don't miss me too much."
He taps the screen and the call ends. You gape at your phone and whimper as you slump forward. Shit. You're totally fucked and you have a feeling Lloyd knows exactly that.
You lock your phone and sigh. Well, no going back now.
You get out of the car and look around. It's a nice neigbourhood, a bit far from work but not terrible. God, you're really going to do this.
'High five, fuck, go on our way.'
His words reverberate. Does he really want that? From you? Surely you could just pay rent.
You head up the walk and pull up the passcode. You punch it into the keypad on the door and it beeps, a green light granting you access.
Inside, the entry is airy and bright. You pause to take it all in. You check your phone again. Maybe you should go to the apartment and make sure they're not killing each other. Or maybe you should let them. You might avoid a lot of trouble if you just stop trying so hard.
There's a table against the curved rail of the staircase. You near as you give a curious look to the basket on top. White with a bright pink ribbon snaked around the handle. Inside, you find various boxes, taking the first to cringe at the small bullet vibe through the plastic window of the packaging.Â
The rest of the contents are similar; bottles of lube, stimulating salve, toys, clamps, and even a few panties without much fabric. Jesus. You leave the array of erotic aids but take the small envelope from in front of it. He knew. He knows you have no other option and he's entirely prepared.
Inside the card, ignoring the exterior image of a dildo and butt plug beneath a pun, you find script typed in Arial. 'Welcome to the sex shack. Make yourself at home. Yours is the room with the tie on the handle. Leave it on for when I get there.'
Gross. Not just him, you. There can be no doubt that his intent is just as shallow and sick as he is as a person. But you, you're not going to walk out and sleep in your car. Just like with Johnny, you will roll over and take it.
#lloyd hansen#dark lloyd hansen#dark!lloyd hansen#lloyd hansen x reader#The gray man#Au#Drabble#Series#carpe noctem
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Moon Garden
Summary: She mustâve sensed how agitated he was because he felt her hand slowly grasp his. Interlocking their fingers she brought his hand to her lips for a kiss and then held it against her chest, not letting go of him.
This is Part 2. Please read Part 1 here. WC: 2,807 âPronouns: She/Her â SWF âModern AU âSuggestiveâFluffâ Relationship ProgressionâSuggestive Dividers: @/natimiles
She felt the sandy earth shift beneath her feet as Jude roughly guided her by hand from the car, the fabric of the blindfold started feeling itchy because she wanted to know where they were, but she was obedient and left it on. Using her other senses she tried to discern clues from the surrounding environment, but there were no other scents or sounds to provide the details she sought besides the fresh desert air at dusk time. Thinking back to their road trip into the city a few days ago and what led up to this moment, she was perplexed as to what Jude was up toâŚâŚ
After arriving to the hotel Jude had booked in order to freshen up for the business meeting, he had left her behind to sleep in the large suite since her body was still clearly exhausted from relentlessly pushing herself to stay awake. When she woke up she found that Jude had confiscated all of her electronic devicesâŚ..
âDonât bother lookinâ for your shit âcuz itâs with me. Call concierge if ya need somethin ân drink up. Be back by two. Be ready.â
Sitting down on the bed she felt dejected because she made him worry about her again instead of helping him, and now she couldnât even be of use to him at the meeting. Letting out a sigh she takes a sip of the water he left her, and almost spewed it out of her mouth the moment she realized it was already 1:30 pm. Jumping to her feet she ran to take a quick shower, and after a few moments she returned to the main room to dress, unaware that he had already returned. Looking at the large clock on the wall she sighed in relief that she still had about 10 minutes before he returned.
âThought I told ya to be ready by two?â
âAhh!â she screamed. Whipping around she found him in the recliner that was situated in the corner of the room with a black glossy bag sitting next to his feet.
âJude?! Donât do that! And I still have a few minutesâŚâ
He walked over to her leaving the bag behind, staring at the water droplets gliding down her skin like glistening jewels on her body. She was so beautiful that he wanted to devour her then and there, but due to time constraints he refrained. Still, he wasnât satisfied with just leaving her alone, so he decided to tease her a little. Backing her up against the wall with no where to turn, he propped one arm above her head and slowly dragged a single fingertip with his free hand against her exposed leg, provocatively slipping it just beneath the edge of her towel.
Staring into his eyes her body quivered as his finger slowly made itâs way up her outer thigh, and as he closed the distance between them, she caught a glimpse of his slightly exposed collar bone which tempted her to kiss it.
ââŚ..â
His nose touched hers as he taunted her with the expectation of ravished by a kiss.
âMy, my what a naughty princess. Look at ya, ready to be eaten. But I told ya to be ready by -â
Ding. âNot tonight.â
Jude was cut off by an alert from his watch and after he read the notification banner from the unknown number his face skewed into a scowl.
âTch. DammitâŚ..waste of time.â
Jude withdrew from her now in a soured mood, and gathering the black glossy bag from the floor he left the suite.
âHey, Jude! What the hell? Whatâs wrong?â She called after him. but he didnât respond, so she quickly changed and ran downstairs to meet him at check out. What did he mean by that? Did the meeting go wrong because I wasnât there to assist? Did the deal fall through?
However, those questions were soon replaced with another one as Jude hopped into the driverâs seat of the polished, black convertible theyâd been driving around while overseas.
âWhereâs Ellis?â
âHad him take a rental to run some errands. Get in.â
Jude wasnât in the mood to answer questions and she didnât want to add to his burden more than she already had, so she slid into the passengerâs seat and they sped out of the valet area to return to the desert house he was adamant they stayed at. Smoking cigarette after cigarette in disappointed silence, he clicked his tongue every now and then when he felt like he was reaching his wits end. She mustâve sensed how agitated he was because he felt her hand slowly grasp his. Interlocking their fingers she brought his hand to her lips for a kiss and then held it against her chest, not letting go of him.
Knowing itâs difficult for him to express himself or that he can find it troublesome to explain things, this was her way of telling him not to forget that she was there for him no matter what. Watching her look at the rocky landscape zooming past them, he rubbed her hand with his thumb to let her know that he got her message. Seeing her smile in response settled his nerves a bit, and they enjoyed the rest of the drive talking about the success of the business deal, and playing a ridiculous word game that he now hated with a passion.
However, even after they returned to the rental house, Jude refused to return her phone, watch and tablet as an extension of her punishment for overworking herself. In addition, she was not allowed to go for a drive or leave the immediate property, which only frustrated her when she noticed Ellis come and go several times a day at Judeâs orders.
âEllis, do you need any help? I can go with-â
âNo, thanks. Best stay here like Jude said.â
âWhatâs going on with him anyway?â Ellisâ face became dejected and she discerned that Jude had most likely forbade him to say anything. Knowing this was a bit below the belt, she told Ellis that itâd make her very happy if he told her what was going on. Ellis hesitated deeply before the desire of making her happy won out.
âWell, it wasnât the right-â
âELLIS!â Jude walked into the room and interrupted him before he could spill the truth.
âShuddup ân send out the memo about our trade deal.â
âRight.â Ellis quickly left the two of them alone. Jude turned his attention to her and it was clear that he was still mood was on edge again. He tossed the black glossy bag he had with himself the other day in the hotel over to her.
âWeâre leavinâ. Ya got five minutes, princess.â
Turning his back on her he left to start the car. When she peered into the bag her pupils widened when she saw it contained an identical outfit to the one he was currently wearing - a black, loose-fitting, boyfriend-style shirt, and stone-colored shorts. She didnât understand why he was so on edge or why she was to wear a matching outfit, but she quickly dressed and ran out to meet him in the car.
Once inside the car he tossed out a cigarette butt and pulled a long black sash out from his shirt pocket, âTurn âround.â
ââŚâŚWhat?!â
Getting annoyed he spun her around tied the sash around her eyes without explanation.
âWh- hey! I canât see Jude.â He snickered at her as he started pulling out of the garage, âThatâs the point, idiot.â
âIâm not an idiot! Where are we going?â
âFind out soon ânuff, wonât ya? What, âfraid Iâm takinâ ya out to the desert to hack ya up and leave ya to the birds?â
âThatâs- No, of course not!â
He could tell that he took his joke too far, so he stroked her cheek with the back of his hand and chuckled at her indignant cute face, âThen shuddup ân behave for me princess.â
His gentle touch put her at ease and a short time later they had reached their destination. She felt the sandy earth shift beneath her feet as Jude roughly guided her by hand from the car, the fabric of the blindfold started feeling itchy because she wanted to know where they were, but she was obedient and left it on. Using her other senses she tried to discern clues from the surrounding environment, but there were no other scents or sounds to provide the details she sought besides the fresh desert air at dusk time.
After a few minutes they stopped walking and Jude hesitated before he walked behind her and removed the blindfold revealing the most unexpected scene - it was a large open-aired glamping site. There was a huge bell tent that was fully furnished, a wooden outside shower, a hot tub and many other amenities. It was incredibly chic, and to find a place like this out in the middle of no where, she was stunned to silence. Jude watched her reaction closely for a moment before he grabbed her wrist and pulled her after him as they started walking towards the tent.
âThat nutcase almost ruined months of planninâ. â
âEllis? But, why did you have to -â
Jude whipped around the back of the tent and quickly released her with a swing. She stumbled forward and was met with the most beautiful sight. There was a large bed in the middle of a patio that was surrounded by all manner of night-time botanical blooms, but the most unique of these were these plants she saw with elongated leaves and bulbous pods on them. There were dozens of them, some potted, some growing naturally from the surrounding ground, others towering high upon trellises.
âQueen of the Night.â
âWhat?â she turned to him and waited for further explanation. Jude took a breath while shoving his hands in his pocket to grab his cigarettes, his nerves were finally coming to the fore.
âTheyâre called âQueen of the Nightâ.â
âOh, these?â She walked up to them and upon looking closer she noticed that some of them were starting to bloom.
âThey only bloom once at night in the summer usually for only a few hours. All the flowers here are night bloomsâŚ..itâs aâŚ.moon garden.â
He watched her gentle touch the leaves of each plant like she was thanking it for itâs beauty, but she was the beautiful one. She was the heart the filled the rotted cavity in his chest.
âThe business deal just so happened to coincide with the season they bloom, ân while I took brought ya on the trip for businessâŚI wanted to show ya how IâŚ.â
He ruffled his hair as he took a few steps closer to her, he knew that she was listening, but didnât face him because it would be easier for him to expel his feelings. Still, it was difficult.
âThatâs why you wanted to stay out here? Because itâs closer to the moon garden?â she asked to help him explain more easily. As usual, she was quick to pick up on things.
âOwner of the house weâve been crashinâ at owns this place ân they can only give us a window of a few hours when they bloom. If we stayed in the city, itâd be too big of a drive to make it out here in time, wouldnât it?â
âSo, thatâs why you wanted me to be ready to leave at the hotel the other day��.then that message you got on your phone was to let you know that they werenât blooming that night?â
âThatâs right, ân I kept ya on the property so ya didnât drive around ân find this place.â
Little by little, the pieces fell into place, and she guessed he probably kept her phone and things so she would look up local tourist attractions. The pods slowly opened more and more gradually revealing white petals, the scent from the other flowering plants filled the air as she continued to look around.
âWhy did you want me to see these so badly, Jude?â
Why? How can I even begin to answer that?
âYa werenât meant to live in the festerinâ shadows of Crown or in the darkness of my lifeâŚ.but ya willingly chose to live in âem. Youâre not wicked, cruel or merciless, and yet under the claws of night, ya bloom like this flowerâŚ.and still remain clean ân unblemishedâŚ.I wanted to show ya what ya reminded me ofâŚ.thatâs the real reasonâŚâ
A full glowing moon shed itâs silvery blessing over the two of them and the rare blossoms of these flowers called Queen of the Night, finally graced them with their beauty. The light of the moon pranced among them and the ethereal garden seemed to glow just for him and her. Jude had gone silent, and so she turned around to find him in the middle of an awkward position that sort of looked like squatting. She stifled a chuckle and, âWhat are you doing?â
Scowling at her he straightened himself up, walked over to her and then smirked.
âGotta good laugh, yeah?â
Falling onto the ground her jerked her down with him onto his lap like a demon dragging the angel he fell in love with into hell with him.
âHey, thereâs a perfectly good bed right th-â
âShuddup.â He shifted her on his lap to face him and he pulled her head to his and rested against it. She walked into his life and messed him up, leaving behind pieces of her light in the dank mire that he was sinking into, something heâd been envious of other people having for a long while now. Many times she extended her hand to him and he rejected it, but finally he threw in the towel and grabbed hold of the tip of her angelic wings, welcoming her into his madness.
âTill your bone ân dust, youâre mine. So -â
He stared into her eyes an gently gripped her neck, running his thumb down the mid-line of her throat.
ââŚâŚâŚ.ARGHâŚ.shit!â
She pecked his lips and smiled, âI love you, too.â
âThatâs not what Iâm tryna say.â
Not one to be defeated he yanked her even closer to him and glared, âIâm askinâ ya to marry me, dammit!â
The entire world was silent. She made no reply and just stared at him dumbfounded. He knew it was crazy, binding himself to her in a promise heâd never be able to keep, but heâs never going to give her up, not unless heâs dead. Still, her pause was making his anxiety spike. Thereâs no reason to refuse. She canât. He wouldnât allow it, but he still wanted her to accept him willingly. She was his relief and peace, and the only who could keep up with him. He didnât want to live in a world that existed with out her now.
A single tear fell down her cheek and he immediately wiped it away, the same hands that shed so much blood was able to caress and comfort her gently.
âHey, princessâŚ-â
âYes.â
âWhat?â Not sure he heard her correctly he stared in search for those words again. She licked her lips and swallowed before she replied again, this time more clearly than the first time.
âJudeâŚ.yes, Iâll marry you.â
Her tears didnât stop, but they didnât need to. These tears were exactly the kind he wanted to see pour from her. Relief and satisfaction cascaded over him. He'd been so tense while planning this, wasn't sure he'd get to show her this rare sight, nor even properly say what he wanted, but regardless he was going to ask her to marry him anyway. He pulled her into a tight hug, and after a few moments he placed a gorgeous ring on her finger.
A large, pear-shaped amethyst nestled between briar thorns and roses decorated her finger, it was the same shade as his eyes, and out of sheer joy, she wrapped her arms around his neck and kissed him. Now she understood everything and just how much he loved her. Their tongues teased and tickled each other as their hunger for each other could no longer be abated. Crawling atop the bed with out detaching from each other, they stripped themselves bare of their matching outfits and poured into each other underneath clusters of stars that witnessed their love bloom in the darkness like the Queen of the Night.
Donât worry lilâ bird. Iâll show you heaven before I plunge to hell.
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How would you define how Yoohyun feels about Yerim? Since obviously his opinion of her has improved since they first met, but I don't know if he actually likes her
HMMM i don't know that Yoohyun is actually like physically capable of liking anyone besides Yoojin! i'm kidding but also only slightly. like if you remember what Irin says in chapter 287, it goes "AN INSANE PROPORTION OF YOOHYUN'S THOUGHTS ARE ABOUT YOU [YOOJIN] COMPARED TO THOUGHTS ABOUT ANYONE ELSE I PROMISE", so if you're including his feelings towards Yoojin as a comparison point, it's going to skew the chart to unreasonable levels, and it'd look like the answer is No, Yoohyun doesn't care about Yerim at all
HOWEVER. if you EXCLUDE Yoojin from the chart then Yerim actually ends up being one of the two people Yoohyun likes most! with the other being Peace. from 287, in Irin's words, 80% of Yoohyun's thoughts that aren't about Yoojin are instead about Yerim and Peace. of course, that's exclusively based on the fact that Yerim and Peace both also like Yoojin the most. Yoohyun cares about other people in proportion to how much they care about his hyung, single-minded little idiot that he is /affectionate.
BUT THAT ASIDE! i think he does care about Yerim in a couple different respects. one is that he trusts her in a way that's different from people like Seok Simyeong or Kim Sunghanâyou'll notice that in chapter 239, he explicitly designates her (and Peace) as the first two people he actually recognizes as part of "his world", which is a position not even his closest guild members have enjoyed, despite him clearly trusting them to do their jobs well and look after Yoohyun himself to some degree. he trusts her to look after Yoojin, which is probably the deepest level of belief he can hold in someone other than his hyung. and for the same reasonâthat she cares above all for Yoojin and his happiness and his safety, and can back up that care with the ability to protect himâi do think he likes her!
Yoohyun also cares about Yerim's wellbeing (again, in relation to Yoojin! in that he knows Yoojin will be sad if Yerim isn't okay. this is something a lot of people who care about Yoojin are aware of and account for: that they can take care of him indirectly by looking after the other people he loves. you see it with Sung Hyunjae lending Yerim his flame-resistant coat in chapter 126, and Yoo Myeongwoo making sure Yoohyun has the best equipment in chapter 240, both for Yoojin's sake). she's not only important to Yoojin himself, from which Yoohyun derives some level of actual care, but also one of Yoohyun's guild members and technically part of his family, which adds a sense of duty and responsibility for her into the mix. remember when he blew Gakuto through a pillar because he called Yerim a bitch in chapter 215 with the whole That's My Guild Member You Motherfucker attitude... i thought that was pretty funny of him. and like. when Yoojin was straight up dead for a while there in 240, the only thing stopping Yoohyun from following him into death on the spot was the thought that he had to make sure Yerim (and Peace and the others) knew. so that they could actually grieve him instead of just never knowing what had happened to him. he cares about them!!! he does!!! it's like trying to find a needle in a haystack compared to his love for Yoojin but he does!!!!!
of course i do also think that Yoohyun finds her incredibly annoying. they're constantly squabbling, this isn't a far-fetched guess, they fight to the point that chopsticks somehow end up embedded in the dining room wall and yoojin has to scold them to quit it in chapter 171. yerim's constantly on the verge of calling him ugly. that one time early on in chapter 48 when she was like WHY ARE YOU SO MEAN TO ME and he trotted out a whole bullet point numbered list without missing a beat. i bet he still has a list now, just with different reasons on it. but like. that's just normal siblings innit. you care about each other a whole fucking lot but you would also sell them to satan for one corn chip or however that goes.
TL;DR: yoohyun likes her but he'd probably die before he said that in as many words. not out of unwillingness or anything, just because it wouldn't occur to him to. yerim knows without him needing to say it, after all.
(where's my evidence for that, you ask. well! spoiler excerpt from chapter 331 from Yerim's POV about how Yoohyun has acknowledged and accepted her below the cut)
However, she couldnât help the presence of anxiety in her relationship with Han Yoojin. It was love that all but dropped out of the sky one day. The claim that it was because she was an S-rank Awakened person wasnât enough. What was more, Han Yoojin was crowded with exceptional people at his side. Han Yoojin clearly cared for Bak Yerim, but it was difficult for Bak Yerim to think she was special to him. Couldnât it be that what sheâd suddenly gained might suddenly disappear? The one who quelled that anxiety she tried to ignore was none other than Han Yoohyun. Han Yoohyun had hated Bak Yerim. Because his hyung liked her. Han Yoohyun had accepted Bak Yerim. Because she liked his hyung. Han Yoohyun had acknowledged Bak Yerim. Because she had the ability to protect his hyung. It was a relationship entirely based on Han Yoojin, but if anything, Bak Yerim was relieved and happy because of that. This was Han Yoohyun, who Han Yoojin was everything to, who was beyond difficult when it came to things relating to him. That harsh guy had accepted Bak Yerim standing by his hyungâs side.
points at them. Yerim feels accepted and cared for by Yoohyun
#star.txt#answered#anonymous#one day i will learn how to be concise. not today though#my sranks#han yoohyun#bak yerim#hope this helps đ
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Mushy May Day 3
(Bonus Prompt 6) Coffee Shop Au
Pairing; SwissAlps
I've never worked as a barista so this is all based on my very general knowledge
Swiss was running incredibly late that day, it was nearly off brand for him. He can already hear the scoffs and complaints from his coworkers, but damn him he needed his coffee.Â
Barging into the small shop, he sighed when he took note of the lack of people. He thanked whatever being and took large strides to the counter. He needed his coffee.
âGood morning, what can I-â the barista from behind the counter looked up from whatever he was doing, and the monotone look on his face swiftly changed into a soft smile and even softer eyes. âHey, Swiss.â
âHey, Mount man.â Swiss grinned up at the giant. He had his hair up in a low ponytail, glasses slightly skewed on his face. He looked angelic. âSlow morning?â
âWeirdly, yeah.â Mountain began moving at a practiced pace, twisting the portafilter off the machine and reaching for the ground coffee. âThe usual?â
âYes, sir.â Swiss leaned against the counter to watch him work, his elegant fingers always of interest to him. Once Mountain got the coffee situated in the small basket, he twisted it back onto the machine and set a small cup underneath it as it began to brew.Â
âHowâs the new project going?â Mountain asked, eyes still set into his working area. Swiss always found it so entrancing.Â
âUh,â he cleared his throat and frowned to himself, âyeah, good. Iâm running late, though, so my clientâs going to be mad.â
Mountain, not pausing his work, looked at Swiss over creased brows. âAnd⌠you thought stopping for coffee was the solution?â
Swiss laughed and shrugged. âI need my coffee.â
Mountain huffed out a laugh himself and poured the now done shot into a paper cup. âRight, coffee.â
Swiss clicked his tongue and folded his arms across his chest. âWhat do you mean by that, dirt boy?â
Mountain laughed again and put the lid onto the now finished coffee. âYou know what I mean.â
Swiss gawked up at Mountain, taken aback just a bit. Just as quickly, he shut his mouth and tried to ignore the blush setting on his face. He sputtered his words and reached for his wallet.
Mountainâs smile grew into something devious and waved Swiss off. âHey, on the house.â
Swiss looked up from his wallet, card already out, and frowned. âAre you sure?âÂ
âYeah. But also,â Mountain looked around and reached for a pen and napkin, hunching over to carefully begin writing on it. Quickly, he handed it to Swiss, face ever so lightly tinted in red. âYouâre so obvious. Just text me.â
Swiss looked down at the napkin and sure enough, a phone number. Mountainâs phone number. He took in a deep breath and stuffed it into his front pocket and reached for his coffee, his face getting hotter by the second. Mountain seemed amused at this point.
âUh, yeah, sure man.â Swiss nodded towards the giant and grinned, âIâll, umâŚâ
Mountain raised an eyebrow as Swiss mulled over his thoughts. âYouâll⌠text me?â He asked, a hopeful lilt in his voice.
Swiss pointed towards him as he began backing out of the shop. âThat. Iâll text you.âÂ
Before he could embarrass himself any further, he raced out of the shop, an amused and hopeful Mountain left behind.Â
He got into his car and sighed, coffee warm in his hand. He took a sip and smiled against the rim of the cup. He definitely needed his coffee this morning.
#lou writes#mushy may 2024#the band ghost#nameless ghouls#swiss ghoul#mountain ghoul#swiss alps#mountain x swiss
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I absolutely agree with you on all points regarding the ask about Dan and Phil building an audience back, what's holding them back, etc. When they both started posting a little more regularly again after their coming out videos, and seemed to be hinting at trying to post content again, I was excited. However, I can't say I wasn't disappointed in Dystopia Daily. It's like Dan mentally cannot break free of 2016 internet humor, right down to even his snarking, depreciating humor about his audience being outdated. Phil has gotten much better about being himself on-camera, but you can tell he's still keeping it at arms-lengths. Which is fine, he's certainly entitled to create a healthy barrier, but watching the two of them in 2023 is like trying to straighten a slightly crooked picture but just not quite being able to get it right. Just...off. I think the tours were supposed to be their "grand finale" and now they just want to settle back into how things were before, but don't know how to do that without drawing from what they're comfortable with. Which they haven't done regularly since 2016, so that's their comfort zone. They want things to work within their comfort zone, but that might not happen.
"watching the two of them in 2023 is like trying to straighten a slightly crooked picture but just not quite being able to get it right"
this is the best description of them i've seen in recent history.
it's also something you can compare to other content creators that are still going; most have shifted content away from sit down stare at the camera videos into something softer and more blurred into their life. zoe and alfie vlog, louise vlogs, tyler streams on twitch. they're all still content creation but they've understood that the time for persona heavy youtube creating has come and gone.
i don't think dan and phil could, would, or should vlog. they wouldn't enjoy that. i don't even want phil to stop making sit down videos if he's that attached to the format! but they need to find what is their own middle ground between the rigid division of their pre-coming out selves and finding comfort with an audience. i think youtube for phil feels safe right now but i do not think it is on any level creative or challenging for him. i said something similar before, but watch even his 'questions i wouldn't normally answer' video and tell me he's pushing even a single boundary in it.
and if he is honestly happy with them having made their bank and likely being able to live on the interest from investments and residuals for the rest of their lives, more power to them. i'm here because i love them as people. i will never stop following them with passion and interest.
"I think the tours were supposed to be their "grand finale" and now they just want to settle back into how things were before"
i think this is correct and also where it gets even stickier because they are out of touch. with younger audiences and the content they want. with no video platforms and what does well there. i think they understand the audience they cultivated years ago very well, for better or worse, but that's not going to get them forward momentum.
i think a podcast would be a great way for them to safely do that. but i think their perception of how the audience would react to joint content is skewed too. phil gets numbers on meme tweets but nothing short of dan dropping an hour and a half 'here's a timeline of my relationship with phil' is going to pull ten million views so they've surpassed the era where they need to fear about making major headlines anywhere. they whethered that storm and i'm happy for them, i'm just not convinced they realize that. since obviously to a singular person any amount of direct attention is going to feel like a Lot.
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For the fandom asks - 1, 14, 15? Xx
Woo, hello! I didn't know which list you wanted, so you get a TRIPLE ATTACK! >:3
end of the year asks
1. favorite fic you wrote this year. I'll go by what I've posted, and I did post a lot! I'm so proud of myself :3 One fic I keep going back to and re-reading because it just gives me giddy giggles is "Better Without the Poison" which is a DS9 fics and a little on the darker side hehe.
14. a fic you didnât expect to write. I had no idea that I would get sucked so completely into Dead Boy Detectives and end up with my most popular fic to date, "Like Knives Clattering to the Ground", which is also up there for my favorite fic.
15. something you learned this year. I got well-acquainted with the delicate balance of writing/finishing fics and doing my coursework for uni. I'm not sure why, but this term it was much harder for me to stop writing fic and work on my graded stuff đ
author asks
1. How long have you been writing fanfic? I have been writing fic since 2016! I've been posting on AO3 since 2017. Almost a decade :D It's been such an amazing time and it has helped fuel my creative endeavors in all modalities and in original works as well.
14. What's the average word count of all of your published fics? I went and did the math with my stats page just now! My average count is 5,737 words. That's a pretty interesting number, because I often think of myself as a longer fic writer. I suppose the number is skewed though, because I have some illustrations that have 0 words.
15. Do you prefer writing one-shots or multi-chapter fics? This is a difficult question. I feel like the answer should be multi-chapter but statistically I think I have more one-shots? I feel like I prefer one- or two-shots but sometimes I have trouble keeping my ideas short and I end up with longer fics than I intend. It really depends on the story, though. I bend to the whims of the story and format accordingly.
more fic writer asks
1. the last sentence you wrote. A sketchbook, three different models of comms, a loose diamond credit card, a tangle of multicolored wires, and a wide black box fell out.
14. where do you get your inspiration? The world! It's a cheesy answer, but it is the truth! Often I get inspired by moments in a respective fandom's canon but I do a lot of AU work and divergence so much of that will come from experience or some random strike of "Oh! That's what I want to say!" I'm fascinated by what characters will do if I put them in situations that they've never been in, be it physically, emotionally, or mentally. So if I'm reading something or I see something in life that clicks, it goes in the ideas bin. I also enjoy exploring disabilities, disorders, and variations on the human condition. Much of my recent work has included some facet of that which ties into my love for research. I also have a myriad of playlists for different fandoms/pairings/AUs that I can set to play if I need a jumpstart.
15. favorite weather for writing. Ideally, I love an overcast or rainy day because it's a perfect excuse to sit inside and write. I also love a day that's far too cold to be outside in but has that crisp, bright sunlight. I sit next to a window and get the slightly warmer sunlight on me while I type away! But let's be real, any weather is my favorite weather for writing if the inspiration is there!
ask me stuff!
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Generic Gatekeeping Rant About The Enneagram Community
I really wanted that to alliterate. Anyway, this is a rant about the overtyping of 6 and 9 in the community. Yes, overtyping. Iâll present some arguments on why I believe 6 and 9 are overtyped. Whether you agree or not is a different story. I think civil discourse is more important than âwinningâ an argument, so to speak. So, Iâll hear anyone out who disagrees with any of my points. But, yes, I do believe that 6 and 9 are overtyped.
First of all, how did this 6/9 dilemma begin? Well, a lot of people mistype as 4/5/8 due to shallow descriptions. People read that 4âs are the artistic, deep, emotional type, and settle on that. People read that 5âs are knowledgable, isolated and logical, and settle on that. People read that 8âs are confident, assertive and strong-willed, and settle on that. These, of course, are shallow understandings of the types. However, an issue Iâve noticed in this community is overcompensating for one extreme with another. What do I believe this overcompensating to be? I believe that people are trying to âbalance outâ the overtyping of 4/5/8 by typing people as 6 or 9, when they clearly are not, to maintain the rarity status of those. But where did this idea that 6 and 9 are âthe most common typeâ begin?
Apparently this idea began from a survey from the website enneagram-personality. Here is the description of the survey. âHere is our first table representing the distribution of the enneagram types from 189957 results, which displays an idea of the distribution within the population. Note that type 4 is potentially the type that tends to be most naturally interested in introspection. 4s would therefore be more likely to take this kind of test. So, their population might be slightly fewer in terms of percentage on a real scale.â
The first thing that popped out to me was the specific wording, that these are TEST results. So, I took the test myself to check its accuracy. They made me put my email in (thanks :) oh, that was sarcasm.)
Iâm actually really shocked. I got 86% for 4w5 and 14% for enneagram 8, along with a small amount for 6/5/7. âResults analysis : The test seems to have correctly found your type.â For the record, I didnât go out of my way to skew the questions that way. If anything, I thought it would be balanced for 4 and 6. I didnât expect EIGHT to be that high up. Plus, while I donât believe in wings, I wouldâve expected the wing to be 3 over 4. Oh, and I got 1% for enneagram 2. Something about that result feels wrong. Not the fact I scored 4, but the fact that I scored 14% on 8. Methinks this test may be a bit shallow, considering Iâve been torn between 4 and 6. Iâve never considered 8. The only type I relate to less than 8 is 5. I think aside from 4 and 6 (the types I have been torn between historically) my ârelationâ order would be: 9317285. Am I taking this test as confirmation that Iâm a 4? Absolutely not.
I donât believe a test can type people completely accurately, including me. Even if the stat that 9 and 6 are the most common types, the fact itâs followed by 4 is strange, because people claim 4 is one of the rarer types. If 3rd place is rare, then sure. 5 was also the lowest scored, which confirms my theory that this is the study people reference, as people also make that claim a lot. And, of course, 8 is right above 5 in rarity.
The test also claims âNote that type 4 is potentially the type that tends to be most naturally interested in introspection. 4s would therefore be more likely to take this kind of test. So, their population might be slightly fewer in terms of percentage on a real scaleâ which actually makes sense. Still, the way people treat 4 would make you think theyâre the rarest thing ever.
So, letâs say that the 4 scores are off by 2%. That would make four just as common as 7âs are. I do find these test results interesting. But still, 4 was only 2000 results lower than 6 or 9. Again, even if that number was closer to 4000, that would make 4 as common as 7 is. I donât see a lot of people gatekeeping 7, though.
I donât trust statistics. There are too many variables that can skew it, and this one feels like selection bias. (People predisposed to liking the enneagram so not represent the general population) A test cannot accurately type everyone. I do not find it impossible that 9 and 6 are very common types. However, the enneagram community isnât the world. The general population might not be interested in the enneagram, and certain types might be more interested than others. Iâm just saying, a so4 or sp5 has a higher chance of being interested in the enneagram than a so6 or sp9. And Iâm not saying that 6âs or 9âs are shallow, Iâm just saying that being self-introspective is heavily tied to 4/5, just for different reasons.
So, this study isnât proof of anything. How is a test with like, 30 questions, more reliable than reading shallow RHETI descriptions? It wonât be more or less reliable. Self-introspection should be more important. Actually studying how the types work. But Iâve noticed an interesting trend in the enneagram community⌠changing how types operate to gatekeep them more.
Letâs go a specific claim. â4âs know who they are strongly. If you donât know who you are, youâre a 9.â (False) (Commonly said)
Letâs look at what Naranjo actually wrote about 4âs.
Naranjo describes the E4 as someone who takes on the identity of a chronic sufferer, with a bad self-image who obtain love through suffering. âalso, they convey the attempt on the part of the person to be something different from what he or she is, perhaps connected to class envy. The lack of originality entailed by such imitativeness in turn; perpetuates an envy of originalityâjust as the attempt to imitate original individuals and the wish to emulate spontaneity are doomed to fail.â Wow, what a strong self-identity we have there!
The E4 is described as someone who was only validated through their suffering in childhood. Being happy wasnât allowed, crying, attention-seeking and pain got them love and affection.
The E4 is described as someone who uses their suffering to get love, who has a negative self image and identifies as a victim/sufferer. No where does that description mention strong sense of self. Read it for yourself; here. https://www.personalitycafe.com/threads/naranjos-character-and-neurosis-ennea-type-4.148114/
Itâs directly from character and neurosis. I also noticed a staunch lack of the word âindividuality.â Itâs not about presenting authenticity or individually, but presenting the image of brokenness, mystique and uniqueness for the sake of attracting others. So, I find the idea that 4âs canât struggle to know who they are very strange. Heart types are about presenting a certain image, after all. 2âs present the image of being helpful and selfless (except sp2âs. I love sp2âs theyâre so based and kinda relatable. Just a little.) 3âs present the image of success and 4âs present the image of unique suffering.
Why would a heart type struggling to know who they are be such an unusual thing? Yes, 4âs overidentify with their negative traits, but that actually indicates a skewing of the true self.
What about type 9? Naranjo describes the type 9 as grounded, empathetic, and self-numbing. They numb themselves to avoid chaos. They identify with others to avoid exploring uncomfortable inner turmoil. They over-simplify, follow routines and immerse themselves in physical activities to remain in a comfortable state of mind. The 9 lives vicariously through things or people instead of through themselves.
So, hereâs my hypothesis. Wouldnât a type 9 be less interested in delving deep into typology, because they might have to deal with uncomfortable levels of self-reflection? Iâm not saying 9âs are stupid NPCâs incapable of self-reflection, Iâm saying that 9âs coping mechanism is literally avoiding themselves. For the record, I could be misinterpreting things. I have a hard time understanding complex words and shit, so this is just my interpretation.
This actually sounds like the polar opposite of a 4, so saying a lot of 4âs are mistyped 9âs is⌠strange. Donât get me wrong, going by shallow descriptions, itâs possible. But now Iâm wondering how many 6âs and 9âs actually ARE 4âs or another type.
Another thing about 4âs is that people will type obvious sx4âs as sx6âs or even sx8âs. I donât even understand why people mistake sx6 for sx8. Theyâre not even remotely similar types. Yes, 8âs are described as cynical and distrusting, but theyâre also reckless. Sx6âs LARP as reckless, bur fear consequences. Sx6âs go against fear by confronting it. 8âs tend to do what they want with little regard for consequences. And if you think THATâS mean, write what Naranjo actually wrote about 8âs. The dude really didnât like certain types lol. Though itâs more understandable why sx4 and sx8 would be mixed up.
Anyway, I know Iâve been focusing on 4 gatekeeping a lot. Thatâs because itâs the type I see gatekept the most. And to rip the band aid off, I am biased, because Iâm 80% sure Iâm a core 4, but Iâve only been typed as a four (sx4) by one person on the internet. 50% said sx6, the other 50% said sx9, and someone said 1. Now, hereâs the funny part, the strange part, the weird part⌠how the fuck do you get sx6 and sx9 typings in the same post? Unless⌠mayhaps⌠people are predisposed to slap the label onto people who show any level of nuance beyond an easily identifiable type. Then weâre suddenly 6âs or 9âs, and âunhealthyâ at that.
Granted, the post I made was a mess, because I wrote it while extremely anxious and caffeinated. Iâll probably write a new one soon. Then we can judge if Iâm a âreal 4.â As if I have any fucking emotional attachment to a number in a system. Who WANTS to be a 4? I was in denial in 2019 because I was repulsed by the idea of being a 4. Iâm not repulsed by the idea of being a sx6. Sx6âs seem cool. Iâm not repulsed by the idea of being a 9. I just donât feel like either. Also, my other typology? EII INFP ELVF RLUEN NPBV SEFA. Yeah, that really screams 9.
You know, another reason I didnât want to identify as 4 was because of how overtyped it was and still is. Not only that, but the amount of gatekeeping makes it exhausting. Sure, if saying Iâm a sx9 will make you happy, biggest nine ever. Yâall get way too defensive over a set of numbers. Iâm actually tempted to make my own website with enneagram descriptions that donât suck. Donât test me. I might do it, because I no longer trust anyone in this community to have accurate information.
Another problem I have with this community is watering down what 6 and 9 means. â9âs can look like any type.â That is ridiculous, Iâm sorry, but that kind of logic leads to the Barnum Effect. Sure, 9âs can technically look like âanyâ type, maybe on the surface, but if you dig even slightly into the structure of a 9, there are specific patterns of behaviour that make a 9 a 9. Iâm just saying that if the 9 in question is a person who represses their anger, has strong moral values that they are forceful about, is perfectionistic, has an inner critic, constantly self denying⌠maybe thatâs not a 9, maybe thatâs a 1. If the 6 in question struggles with envy, is concerned with the self and withdraw from others on a frequent basis, maybe thatâs not a 6, maybe thatâs a four. Get it? This logic of over complicating and adding specific barriers of entry for hexad types while downplaying what it means to be a 6 or 9 only serves to validate the elitist gatekeeping of certain types and is barely based on logic. Sorry if thatâs mean, but itâs what I believe to be correct here, so.
Also, I think thereâs a lot of a domino effect of one person making a claim about a type, another person thinking âthatâs believable,â and parroting it, and then it just becomes seen as fact; mob mentality, kind of.
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A question for Uneiverse (to give you an excuse to talk about it, only if you wanna. Since I also just really hearing about it). What's a detail about it that you really enjoy but haven't gotten a chance to use anywhere story related or otherwise just don't get to play with much (silly or serious)
This ask has been sitting in my inbox for over 5 months.
It's time.
And so, we begin with a question of my own.
What IS time?
We're off the map now. Come with me. Take my hand as we walk through the valley of the shadow of time. We're going to uncharted waters, and I'm going to put the fear of god into you. I'm going to make you ask yourself (and me) Amy, how the fuck does you brain WORK like that?
Let me tell you about time and fate, and about what it means to "predict" the future.
And you will begin to understand the scale of what lives within me, eternally gnawing at the inside of my skull, begging for release.
If I asked you to conceptualize time, what would you say? Is it the neat and rigid tick-tick-ticking of regular intervals on the clock? Is is the fluid, indivisible space between?
Is is all just an illusion conceived by the animal brain to account for the changing shape of the universe as one dimension passes through another, which our three-dimensional eyes are too flat to see all at once, and our souls have concocted for us a comforting lie, that we may pretend to know the universe in its whole, by knowing it piece by infinitesimal, grinding piece, seeing the pan-dimensional amalgam of existence as an endless, continuous sequence of cross-sections in a number of dimensions our meat-circuitry can pretend to process?
Time is shadows.
Imagine, if you will, a sphere.
You hold it up against the light. Suspend it in the air, perhaps, for simplicity's sake. And the sphere casts a shadow.
Is the shadow still a sphere?
Far more importantly, is it even a circle?
At even the tiniest fraction of an angle, the sphere casts a shadow that no longer perfectly represents a cross section of the sphere. It has ceased to perfectly capture the nature of the object that cast the shadow, even accounting for the wrong number of dimensions. It's skewed. You can never unskew it. The distortion is irreversible.
And the floor isn't flat.
The sphere casts a shadow at an angle at a surface that ranges in distance and direction from the object casting the shadow. Is the shadow still an oval? Has it become a shape you can't name?
But the shadow isn't cast upon a floor, even an uneven one.
What shape is the shadow of a sphere cast at an angle upon a field of grass blowing in the wind? By now there's no pretending you know the answer. And even if you could snapshot a single instant of a single shape, the very next instant that shape would change in the breeze as the grass shifts.
The world is not a field of grass upon the ground. The world is endless variation of leaves upon trees, forests upon mountains, birds in the sky, hunting for the bugs that crawl on the branches of the trees. Massive floating pools of water churning in the low atmosphere as humans decide whether that one looks like a mouse or a sheep. So many humans walking, their clothes flowing behind them as they talk, eat, buy goods, shed tiny particles of skin and hair into the wind, their breath adding chaos to that same wind and a hundred miles away a leaf turns slightly more to the left than if that human had said nothing.
What is the shadow of a sphere cast upon that world? Twisted by its unfathomable complexity of shapes and movement?
And now, to make things worse, imagine if that shadow were a tangible thing that you could pick up. That could cast its own shadow not on the floor but up against the wall.
And all of that is if the shadow is cast by a perfect sphere.
Imagine you are a being that can see the shape of time. Could you look at the echo of a shadow of a shadow of a reflection in a fun house mirror, and recreate what it once was?
Could you look at a crooked set of lines upon the wall and know the meaning of cause and consequence? Could you predict what consequences of which actions would lead to favorable outcomes when realization dawns on you that
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Time is an ocean of possibility. Each possibility has consequences. Each consequence a sea of new possibilities. How can you hope to understand the shadow of a shadow of a shadow, and not only know what's coming, but how to stop it?
Nothing is fated. But I said something important that bears repeating. Time is an OCEAN. We'll come back to that.
Time MOVES, at least the way we perceive it. I don't like the phrase "everything happens for a reason." I prefer something of my own creation: for every effect, a cause. To achieve a desired effect - a desired outcome - you must change the circumstances of cause that lead to that effect. But there are limits to your influence.
The time to change the course of a river is when the river is still small. The longer that river runs its course, the deeper it shapes and erodes the ground around it. The larger and faster a river the harder it is to redirect it. It will go where it's going, and there's nothing you can do about it. There is an element of momentum that must be accounted for. An element of inevitability.
The path of one person's life, one set of choices available to them in one specific context, may feel perhaps like the current of a river, when you look back on it. But if different changes were made during its formation, it could have taken a completely different path. Ended in a completely different place. And influenced the formation of completely different paths in the future as a result.
But I'll say it again, and you'll know its significance now: time is an OCEAN. It is not a river, but an IMMENSE network of currents with no clearly defined borders, flowing with or against or around each other in an unimaginably complex churning of possibility and consequence and cause and effect. A shift in one current may brush up against another. The second current may shift with it, or crash violently into it, or ignore it entirely.
For every effect, a cause. But for every CAUSE, many POSSIBLE effects.
So time becomes a series of choices beyond number. Each choice leading to fathomless changes in the flow. As the earth turns, some currents flow inevitably in certain directions. If not here, then somewhere else. SOME CHANGES ARE INESCAPABLE.
The universe must be dynamic. If nothing changed, the universe would not need to exist at all. Change is the point. Variance is the point. Choice is the point. The universe exists to know itself, and it knows itself through change.
There is an endless sea of currents flowing in various ways with, beside, against, around each other. Some directions of flow are strongly influenced by the shape of the seafloor and the rotation of the earth. There are changes in the world that are virtually guaranteed to exist, whether because the nature of the universe has made them inevitable, or because changes long past have created the currents that are now too old and too deep to change.
Picture a river again. What happens when you throw a stick into it? The stick is swept up in the current and carried along the river.
Throw in more sticks. Same thing, right? You can make small changes without affecting the overall outcome. Within one large shadow of a sphere, the details of a hundred blades of grass whose shadows are lost within the larger shape.
Anchor a large stick to the riverbed so it can't get swept away. Now, it's just one stick. The water will flow around it. There are small ripples. Tiny changes in the river, micro-currents that will affect a localized area. But on the whole? The river still flows. You changed something. But you didn't change the course of the river.
Add stick after stick after stick until the river is obstructed completely, and the current is forced to change shape.
Which stick built the dam?
Which straw should the camel's back blame?
Back to the ocean. Can you dam the sea? Can you build that dam one stick at a time, by throwing sticks into separate currents, hoping the currents bring them where they need to be in time?
There are patterns borne out from the endless flow of possibility as the ocean of time churns. With all those ancient currents running together, what difference does the wake of a boat make on the shape of the waves? How many breaches from how many whales would it take to turn a current south instead of north?
What if you could make a bigger change? What if an avalanche altered the shape of the seafloor, so the rotation of the earth forces new waters to resist the old currents? So the inevitability of the dynamic universe drags forth a new set of possibilities?
There are a LOT of currents. They've been turning for a long, long time, ebbing and flowing with a billion tides and ten thousand quintillion waves. Choices can make new currents. BIG choices, with a lot of consequences, may even change existing ones.
But the ocean still has a geography to it. There are places where water is forced through the gaps between landmasses, or forced into the shallows, or freed to dive into the black beyond a continental shelf. There are places where, no matter how many changes you make, many currents are still guaranteed to meet.
There are fixed points in time.
What if one of those points is a whirlpool, threatening to swallow everything drawn into the place those currents meet?
What about a whirlpool on the scale of worlds and gods?
How do you keep from drowning?
How do you give yourself the best chance, not of AVOIDING the whirlpool of inevitability, but of entering it at the farthest possible edge, where the right momentum, the right decisions made in the moment you are caught in its gravity, may carry you through to the other side, so you still remain when time marches on?
Is it better to see things coming at all? Or is the ability to see time, to speak a language of the universe that no one else can speak, one of the greatest cosmic horrors you can imagine?
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Imagine the burden of time on those who can see it.
Imagine the WEIGHT of being able to see those currents. Of knowing which threads of fate to pull. Of knowing which ripples to make, which waves to break, which currents to shift. Of knowing.
Imagine the complexity of figuring out WHICH changes to make. And the great leviathan of guilt left on your shoulders when the decisions you made - even in pursuit of the best possible outcome - bring harm to the ones you love most, the ones you're most desperate to protect.
Even if you're right.
Even if you played 17-dimensional chess with the wizard-addled corpse of god and knew, with certainty, that if a single problem you had a hand in creating had been resolved more neatly by even minutes, the sticks would not have fallen into place within the dam, and the entirety of creation could have been swallowed piece by piece by the horror you were trying to stop.
Imagine the horror. Imagine the responsibility. Imagine the unending, agonizing pain of the burden of Knowing.
Because what time is, most of all, is a nightmare.
And there's no waking up.
#Uneiverse#worldbuilding#a sufficiently clever person who has meticulously read all of my Uneiverse posts#MIGHT be able to make some pretty reasonable guesses about the plot of the first book by now#is it likely? nah#is it possible to get a CLEAR idea of how any part of this will go? oh not a chance in hell#no matter what shape of shadow you can see .... remember there are blades of grass#is this the most horrifying answer I've ever given?#please scream your incoherent cosmically garbled thoughts into my inbox so I can enjoy your mental breakdowns#I feed on the knowledge that I have changed you on a neurological level#and yes this is the shit I have to live with inside my brain at all times#I mean is that fucked up or what#I haven't even scratched the surface of what god is
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The outsiders obc album: a review that is totally not biased or skewed due to the face that iâve been listening to it nonstop since it came out two weeks ago
âTulsa â67â
Goes insane over the first line of the song because itâs the same as the opening of the book
Since this song/story is being written after everything happens, ponyboy recognizing how hard his brothers work in the opening verse makes SO much sense
âThat right there is my best friend in the whole world, johnny cadeâ idk what it is about this line but it just makes me so happy
But ponyboy pointing out that part of what makes a soc a soc is graduation parties actually makes me so sad because so many members of the gang ended up dropping out of school in order to work so of course theyâd view graduating as a privilege they donât have, and that plays so well into darry and ponyâs last fight at the end of the show
âCAUSE WEâRE GREASERSâ the silliest gang ever <3
Itâs just such a good opening number, the beat and music is so entertaining
âGrease got a Holdâ
JOSHUA BOONE YOU ARE THE DALLY EVER
Him constantly calling pony âlittle brotherâ is everything
The spelling section of the song is SO fun
âE is for effortless swaggerâ and soda uses ponyboy and johnny to hold himself up theyâre his little brothers!!!
âShow us how itâs done, then, einstein!â soda and two-bit are best friends!!!!
Also daryl tofa absolutely killing it on the run of âyou better run for your lifeâ
You only really get this from seeing the song live, but darry keeps ponyboy away from the rest of the gang during his section of the song until he makes sure that ponyboy knows what being a greaser truly means, he is such a big brother
âI love you supermanâ ace ily ily ily kissing your cheeks
Again, not part of the soundtrack but the performance, but the moment where ponyboy gets the upper hand in his little play-fight with two-bit, and dally gets so excited and starts jumping up and down with the rest of the gang like they are siblings!!!
âRuns in the Familyâ
Darry loml i know youâre having an identity crisis but this song is such a vibe
âSo i dropped out of school cause i had to earn a dollarâ the little dance i do every time i hear this line
vibes to the song so i donât have to deal with the emotions i get as a parentified older sibling identifying with this song far too closely
âNow iâm stuck between the role of a brother and a fatherâ someone get this man a hug and some therapy PLEASE IâM BEGGING YOU
I always love a little bit of an unreliable narrator, so the audience hearing this song and knowing how much darry is struggling, meanwhile ponyboy is SO sure and SO positive that darry truly doesnât care about him is absolute perfection
âGreat Expectationsâ
This song literally made me cry my eyes out the first time i listened to it, and then seeing the staging for it during the show???Â
But also ponyboy acknowledging that darry had a future, and how he had to sacrifice that after their parents died, and understanding his struggle
Honestly there arenât words to describe my love for this song, itâs so beautiful and well-written, and brodyâs voice is just so fantastic
âFriday at the Drive-Inâ
Again, the beat of this song is SO good!!!
emma pittmanâs voice is everything to me
The instrumental for this song is âgrease got a holdâ iâm losing my mind!!!
This song is also just such a fun, easy-going song, that it works at feeling slightly out of place with how fun and lighthearted it is, especially knowing whatâs going to happen soon
"I Could Talk to You All Night"
CUTIE PATOOTIE ALERT
I never have viewed cherry and ponyboy as having romantic interest in each other (maybe ponyboy with a little crush on her, but they become friends post-book events), and this song is just so perfect with showing why they connect with each other, because they understand each other
Have i mentioned how much i adore musical!cherry???Â
âAnd we talked so dang much i didnât even catch the endâ i love how perfect the accents are in this show, itâs really satisfying lmaoÂ
Cherry being the first one whoâs ever truly listened to ponyboy my heart hurts
âRuns in the Family (Reprise)â
AHHHH THIS SONG
Thereâs just so much tension, and soda trying to be the middle man like always while darry is singing??? Painful
But also this song does such a good job at showing that itâs not even been a full year since the curtis parents died, so the boys are still grieving and processing, so it makes sense that this is a fight thatâs happening
But ugh the way that the song ends with the slap???? Curled up sobbing
âFar Away from Tulsaâ
I LOVE THIS SONG SO MUCH
I also really love how johnny joins in a little hesitantly, like heâs not sure if ponyboy wants him contributing, but then as soon as he starts he talks about having a little garden and reading stories
Now iâm thinking about post-book, the remaining outsiders gang turns the empty lot into a type of community garden in johnny and dallyâs honor oh iâm going to be ill
âWeâd be each otherâs family, Pony, start this life anewâ SOBBING MY EYES OUT JOHNNY KNOWING EXACTLY WHAT PONYBOY WANTS AND PONYBOY KNOWING WHAT JOHNNY WANTS THEYâRE THE PLATONIC SOULMATES EVER
God and then the song going into âgreat expectationsâ literal chills
âRun Run Brotherâ
Brody does Ponyboyâs panic SO perfectly you can feel his fear when he just keeps repeating âhe stuck him in the back!â
Like heâs not freaking out about bob dying, heâs freaking out about the fact that johnny could get arrested
Mother hen Dally my beloved
âI hate to make you goâ and âeven though it kills me to sayâ those lines are everything, i love Dally just wanting to keep his little brothers close but knowing he needs to get them somewhere safe immediately
And the line âyouâre a greaser nowâ getting repeated at the end???? Iâm going insane, it doesnât sound fun or happy anymore, it just sounds like a warning and almost like johnny and ponyboy are being taunted
âJustice for Tulsaâ
Dally immediately calling out the cops for always going after the greasers and calling them his boys???? Obsessed with protective dally
Again, musical!cherry is everything to me, she doesnât try to make excuses for what Bob did, she calls him and Randy out for drinking and ganging up on Ponyboy and Johnny, and calls Randy out for jumping Johnny the week before
Like in the book and movie she makes excuses and puts all the blame on johnny, but in the musical, even though sheâs sad that bobâs dead, she understands why johnny did what he did, and doesnât blame him for what happened
âDeathâs at my Doorâ
Emotional damage
Jesus CHRIST the absolute slap in the face this song was during the show
Ponyboy blaming himself for everything??? Thinking heâs cursed because everyone he loves keeps dying or getting hurt??? Ouch???
But then johnny immediately jumping into reassure him and making sure ponyboy knows that heâs not alone??? They are the best friends ever???
I havenât talked about how beautiful Skyâs voice is, if he doesnât win a tony award i will riot
âThe reason iâm living is youâ SOBBING VIOLENTLY ON THE GROUND HEAVING AND HYPERVENTILATING
Johnny saying âiâll never leave you aloneâ and itâs true even after he dies because he knows ponyboy will see him in the sunset that they always talked about and iâm going to go curl up in a corner for a little bit
âThrowing in the Towelâ
Emotional damage part 2
Parentified older siblings how are we feeling about this song
Darry finally talking to his brother about how heâs feeling, and getting validation from Sodapop that what heâs been doing is being noticed and making a difference!!
But darry recognizing what Ponyboy can do and his potential and blaming himself for what happened and, like ponyboy, telling soda that heâd be better off without him
âI lost our brother and i lost my wayâ SOBBING VIOLENTLY ON THE GROUND PART 2
Darry is TWENTY in the books and never got a chance to truly mourn his parents it makes sense how much he struggles
Ponyboy joining in the song from the back of the set like it actually makes me want to bite something
Brent Comer how does it feel to understand darry like no one else <3333333
âBrother thatâs what love is all aboutâ JASON SCHHMIDT THE FACT THAT YOU WERENâT NOMINATED FOR A TONY IS A CRIME
(they should have just nominated the entire cast for supporting or featured actor at this point tbh)
âSodaâs Letterâ
Jason making me sob!!!!!Â
âPonyboy this house ainât a home without youâ this song just starts out punching you in the gut
Idk why but soda including âsay hi to johnny for usâ makes me emotional, like the curtis brothers love johnny as much as they love pony he is also their little brother!!!
Brent comer i will fight you for the end of this song
âHoods turned Heroesâ
DARYL AND JASON KILL THIS SONG ACTUALLY THEYâRE THE UNDERRATED DUO OF THIS SHOW
New hc because of this song is that Soda and Two-Bit are as close to each other as Pony and Johnny are
i love love love the "owe it all to Pony and Johnny" line, because they recognize what the two have been through, and also acknowledge that yeah, it's because of them that they're getting a little bit better of a reputation!
Also again, not part of the album, but the song is so hyped and excited and happy and then immediately gets cut by Dally walking onto the stage with Johnny wrapped in bandages and my heart BROKE
âHopeless Warâ
Favorite change is cherry going to visit johnny in the hospital and that being where she and pony have their conversation
What i love about this song is that it isnât cherry going âthis is silly, you shouldnât do thisâ itâs cherry realizing that what happened to johnny was never deserved, why the rumble is important, and knowing that itâs going to happen, but her also acknowledging, like ponyboy does, that itâs not going to change anything.Â
Iâm just so obsessed with emmaâs voice and how she portrays cherry in the show
âTroubleâ
I absolutely LOVE how aggressive and intense this song is, especially compared to âHopeless Warâ coming right before it
I love âtonightâ from West Side, and this song gives me those vibes, i love a good pre-rumble song
DARRY STILL LOOKING OUT FOR PONYBOY AND WANTING TO FIGHT FOR HIMÂ
PONYBOY TAKING THE âLETâS DO IT FOR JOHNNYâ LINE
âLittle BrotherâÂ
Emotional damage part 3
The way the song starts out so soft and slow, and it building up and up as Dally becomes more and more worked up and looses it
âIf anything were fair you would still be hereâ AND THATâS THE POINT OF THE SHOW AND OF THE BOOK IT ISNâT FAIR THAT JOHNNY DIES ITâS FAIR THAT BOB DIES BUT JOHNNY DIDNâT DESERVE TO DIE AND ITâS THE REALIZATION THAT EVEN THOUGH JOHNNY COULD DO SO MUCH MORE HE STILL DIES AND LEAVES THE PEOPLE WHO LOVE HIM BEHIND
âDo it for Ponyboy, do it for Johnny Cadeâ THOSE ARE HIS BROTHERS YOUR HONOR
The way Joshua just screams the last âJohnny can you hear me now?â absolutely destroys me, the song itself is all over the place, and it makes sense because itâs Dallyâs breakdown
âStay Goldâ
Emotional damage part 4
When i saw the show the instruments were really quiet while Sky was singing so all you could hear was him and then the sounds of people quietly sobbing and sniffling (it was me)
Going from âi have seen a pool of blood run crimson redâ to âi have stared into a thankful fatherâs eyesâ johnny going from taking a life to saving lives iâm losing my mind actually
Not to be annoying about them again but Brody and Skyâs voices literally melt together and their emotions are so beautifully portrayed as they sing, going from melancholy to joyful as Ponyboy starts to accept Johnnyâs death
And âI have known a love that many never know, and our love lives on no matter where I goâ ITâS ABOUT THE PLATONIC LOVE OF THIS GROUP AND THE LOVE PONY AND JOHNNY HAVE FOR EACH OTHER AND HOW FRIENDSHIPS ARE STRONGER THAN ANYTHING ELSE AND IâM JUST GOING TO CRAWL IN A HOLE AND DIE THEYâRE PLATONIC SOULMATES
Ponyboy having the last âStay Goldâ lineÂ
âFinale (Tulsa â67)â
Darry reading the starting lines like Ponyboy did at the beginning of the showÂ
Ponyboy going from idolizing fictional heroes to looking at his brothers as his heroes because theyâre the reason heâs going to be able to make it out of Tulsa????
Just the way he sings about how Darry is the toughest guy he knows, and how Soda is the heart and soul of the family, how earnest and loving he is when singing it
âTrying to look tough so they're not beaten down againâ in connection to Dally makes me sob, him using the grease and toughness as a cover so he doesnât get hurt again
And this reprise of the song just feeling so much lighter and happier, compared to the opening, when ponyboy was talking about how everything was unbalanced and the differences between the Greasers and the Socs, how he and his brothers were struggling, to the finale being so hopeful and encouraging, because Ponyboyâs had his realizations, heâs reconnected with his brothers, heâs accepted Johnny and Dallyâs deaths, but heâs making a choice to keep going
And also at the end, where âWeâre greasersâ was repeated in the opening song, itâs now been changed to âStay Goldâ being repeatedÂ
And the entire show ENDING with âStay goldâ???????
yeah i'm so so normal about this show i promise
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Trials of Apollo tournament !!!!! [studio audience claps]
[David Attenborough voice] Trials of Apollo is a very diverse series, with a plethora of characters who play both small and large roles, but have made an impact in the hearts of the readers- So we're gonna make them FIGHT to the DEATH to see who reigns supreme as the ultimate toa character. yayyyyyyyyy!!!! ^-^ [slightly more apprehensive studio audience clapping]
Anyways, below is the tournament bracket, which i made on kapwing instead of literally any other program (the number of times it broke down on me is INSANE) if any of u want the plain template bc u also somehow end up conducting a 40 character poll, shoot me an ask on @sierice âď¸love and peace
FAQ
1. Why is so-and-so character not there?
Mostly bc I felt they weren't that major of a character, even if they were toa-only characters. for example, the campers in THO. Paolo, Damian, Chiara, all of em are great characters, but they dont rlly play a super major role. some exceptions i can think to this would be Connor Stoll, who i didnt include bc he's just not thought about as much with regards to toa, but rather more to pjo instead. I didn't include percy bc if i did everyone would just vote for him regardless, which would skew things up quite a bit. another exception is agamethus, who should've definitely been here, except for the fact that i completely forgot to add him đ sorry king, you're the winner in my heart
2. Why is there going to be a poll against three different characters instead of just two in the bracket?
Bc im bad at math and didnt take into consideration that 40 characters wouldnt make a perfect even poll </3 also idk how to make a functional bracket
3. Why is this character against this one? It feels too skewed/too random
well. i tried to seed this tournament, bc i didnt want to randomize it and end up w zeus vs georgie or smthg. but i dont know how to seed polls exactly, so...................... yeah (i am SO sorry to jo and emmie đi did not think u two would be pitted against each other in the end)
Regardless, this is not a very serious/formal poll, so we're just here to have some fun! vote for ur favorites, not who u think would win in a fight. idk what im doing here either, so i'll be mostly winging it as we go. LET'S GO!
#also !!!!!! just a disclaimer that all the gods mentioned in the bracket above are pjoverse ONLY. not the acutal gods themselves#<3 hope u understand#trials of apollo#toa#apollogists#btw i'll be editing this post as i go so dont be confused if it changes up
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Thoughts I had while reading TCF/LCF chapter 16
Quick note before I begin â the reason I call it TCF and not LCF is because thatâs technically what Iâm reading. Iâm currently reading it on EAP. If thereâs an official English version I can read feel free to point me in the direction of it but, since TCF is what itâs called on the site Iâm reading it on, thatâs probably what Iâll refer to it as. If this is a problem, please feel free to unfollow or block my posts but I donât really refer to the bookâs name at all in the actual posts though I do use names like Beacrox and stuff. Iâm hoping this isnât a huge problem for anyone, but I just thought Iâd put that out there. This applies to all posts I make about TCF so I wonât repeat myself. As far as I know, there is no official translation, and it feels slightly wrong to use LCF because thatâs not what the version Iâm reading is called. This probably wonât change unless thereâs an official English version. Just wanted to put this out there for those who care about this. Without further ado, I present to you, my thoughts
That right there, Caleâs âwho will go if I donâtâ perfectly sums up this character and why he does the things he does. Why does he mess with the white star so much? Who will if he doesnât? why does he loot so many places? Who will if he doesnât? why does he save so many people? Who will if he doesnât? that might actually be one of the most consistent parts of his character. He does these things because, if he doesnât, who will? No one else is gonna save the Black Dragon, or Paseton. They might try, if they knew but they donât. so who will if he doesnât? no one. And thatâs not acceptable to him. This isnât to say heâs the only one who would or could help people, just that, in most situations, heâs the only one who can.
And Venion is officially present. Wish he wasnât but he is.
The fact that this utter waste of oxygen is considered a typical, authoritative noble is really sad. No wonder their world is doomed if this is a typical noble.
I feel like most villains are at least slightly smarter than Venion, honestly. Maybe not necessarily in this novel, idk about that, but villains in general. Most of them would know not to try and tame a dragon. I feel like thatâs pretty basic common sense. You know what, yes, even the villains in this novel are probably slightly smarter at least. Even the bandits I was making fun of last chapter were smarter, though not by much. They had no way of knowing this carriage belonged to a noble travelling with a Choi Han and an assassin and a torture expert. Usually having the numbers game is an advantage. But my point is they didnât know these things. Marquis Stan and Venion know this is a dragon, thatâs the whole point. That makes them a lot dumber than the poor bandits who just chose the wrong carriage on the wrong day, imo.
One thing I do admire about Cale is his patience and ability to keep a calm ead even in front of something like Venion. I canât call whatever he is a human, but calling him garbage or even human garbage is an insult to garbage and, considering OG Cale is supposed to be considered trash, that just feels more wrong. So Venion is a lot worse than living garbage, but calling him a monster feels like giving him more credit than he deserves and also is offensive to monsters so idk what he is. Also can we just think for a second about the fact that, in this novel, in this world, someone who drinks a lot and trashes places, has a worse reputation than the people torturing a baby dragon and watching it for amusement. Now, I know theyâre not exactly adverting that fact but most people know he crippled (am I allowed to say that? Is there a better term? Idk, sorry) his older brother, and yet somehow more people hate or look down on OG Cale than Venion. Again showing that the typical nobles have some serious issue and skewed perspectives and priorities. You can do a horrible thing and everyone know you were responsible but, as long as you have status, power and appear like a normal noble, well, thatâs just how it is. All this to say fuck Venion Stan, Marquis Stan and anyone who allies with him. Taylor is the only good person in that family and idc what anyone says about that.
Also I know the man was tortured but I donât remember Choi Han punching him, and if Choi Han didnât punch him, I think he should have, as a treat. He deserves it. Both of them do.
And nobles are supposed to have class and care for their people. I guess weâve both been disappointed today. If someone has clearly fallen and you can see that, you stop. Get your head out of Venionâs ass. You can kiss it all you want, heâs still not going to respect you. sorry, I know heâs like a servant or something but that doesnât make what heâs saying less asshole-ish. This is why we donât associate with Venion. We become assholes if we do.
Also I know this isnât the time but can we just take a second, before Venion or his lackey piss me off again, to admire this relationship, dare I say friendship, between Hans and Choi Han. The way he cares for him and doesnât want him to get in trouble. I feel like Hans is definitely cheering him on on the inside and agrees with him but canât say anything due to being a servant for the Henituse family. Hans and Choi Han friendship. I wish we saw more of this. I hope we do as the novel goes on, even if it's just a little. I want them to be besties. Idek why.
You know, I feel like it would be so easy for people to look at Hans and just see him as dumb or something but heâs not. Itâs not his fault no one tells him anything. He actually has a decent amount of knowledge on things, like the noble families and what he says about the rock towers and stuff. Heâs not dumb, heâs just working with the information he has.
So they were trying to get Choi Han in trouble, right? And it probably wouldâve worked, except Cale saw everything and is a generally good person so agrees with Choi Hanâs actions⌠except doesnât this look worse for Venion? Like, another noble, and someone travelling with that noble, who is known for being trash, shows more care and compassion for this guy than Venion. It definitely reflects badly on the Tolz family, or at least it should, that a noble from another territory, who is known for being trash, is kinder and less intimidating and cares more about your people than you do. Like, I know this is unlikely but I feel like, if ever this bar/inn owner heard someone talk trash about Cale heâd be like idk he isnât that bad. You know he actually stayed here once, one of his guards saved my life, and would kinda defend him a little, but he wouldnât do that for Tolz. If a good way to tell what nobles are like is to look at how people in their territory act, then the fact this guy wouldnât defend Venion or Tolz from criticism but arguably would defend Cale says more about Venion and Tolz than anything really. Especially after Cale becomes Young Master Silver Shield.
I may be wrong but this is the first time we see Cale actually mad/genuinely annoyed by someone right? For all he says Hans annoys him, heâs actually never seemed particularly annoyed at Hans. And everyone/everything else heâs been more surprised or scared than mad. He wasnât even annoyed when he was brought to this world. On one hand I get it, Iâm angry at Venion too. I just think itâs interesting to note.
Cale really thinks about everyone, even this old man.
Idk why but Something about Cale right now, the way he tells Choi Han to calm doen is so attractive to me. Maybe itâs how calm and level headed he is, maybe itâs how in control he seems. Idk. Also not important but in my head I donât see red haired Cale Henituse, I see black haired KRS and idk why.
You know who I think of when I remember Venion? Years ago, when I first got Facebook Iâd stumble across photos of like hunters posing with animals theyâd just killed and looking so proud of themselves, and it always just filled me with anger and confusion. Like, Iâm not a vegetarian or vegan but something about that just seemed so wrong to me. Venion reminds me of a worse version of those people. So pleased to see an innocent animal hurt and proud of themselves for having something to do with it.
When I tell you that reading this manâs torture/punishment scene will be so satisfying to me. He deserves so much worse than he got.
No he stole the carriage. Heâs never even heard of Count Henituse. And those knights are paid actors. Why do people insist on asking obvious questions? To start conversation? There must be a better conversation starter than that. Honesetly how Cale hasnât rolled his eyes at this amazes me. He doesnât even think the sarcastic thing. I simply couldnât do that.
I think Venion has bigger problems than being rude.
It makes sense that most people would just naturally be disgusted by him actually. Humans in general typically have fairly good instincts. We can kind of sense when others are terrible human beings. Obviously it isnât perfect but it is there. The people who follow him probably either fear him or are just as terrible but if most people hate him, itâs probably not just because heâs rude. Venion would probably be too arrogant to pretend to be someone heâs not, so his bad traits would be fairly obvious and I think, when someone is this horrible, they canât fully hide it anyway. He may not be advertising the Black Dragon thing but there is so much wrong with him and he has so many bad traits it would be impossible to hide them fully, if he even bothered to in the first place.
I donât get how heâs convinced himself any version of Cale is somehow worse than him. The worst thing OG Cale did was probably what he said to Choi Han, that didnât happen this time, so the worst heâs done is get drunk and trash some bars and shops. Meanwhile Venion has permanently injured and plans to murder his older brother, and is regularly entertained by a child, no, a toddler getting tortured. He needs to be smacked back down to, well, not earth, whatever their world is called.
Again, still donât get how Venion would ever look like the better or superior one in this situation. His carriage nearly ran someone over, his lackey berated the person who saved the guy they nearly hit, and then he randomly tried to start shit with another noble and insulting him in public, when the other noble hadnât actually said or done anything to anyone. No matter how you put it, Venion is the asshole in this situation, and everyone would see that so idk what superiority he thinks heâs showing here.
See Cale gets it. Why ask something you already know about? Oh so he can point out Cale is trash. pOk the trash is still like the least problematic person in this situation so really it just makes you look worse. Btw not saying Choi Han is problematic or anything, hopefully you get my point, itâs a rare occasion of Cale being the best behaved from the outside. Is behaved a word? If it wasnât it is now.
Idk I think Caleâs doing pretty well at being a noble and this type of talk. If that was me Iâd just be rolling my eyes every time Venion spoke.
Also fuck Marquis Stan. Heâs just as responsible for Taylor and The Black Dragon and is a shit father and noble. He shouldâve been tortured just as much as Venion. Idc.
Is the three other children including Taylor? Because if not 3 siblings and either none of them know or none of them care about the dragon being tortured. Iâd like to give them the benefit of the doubt but idk if I can.
Ok so it doesnât include Taylor.
And none of them care that the oldest brother was crippled by their other brother? Not one? Man, what is up with this family? Why do they all suck so much? Taylor deserves batter.
Imagine if KRS was transmigrated in the Stan family instead. Heâd hate them so much but I feel like their downfall would come even quicker, and heâd still help Taylor and Cage because he doesnât want to be the Marquis. He could even tell them about the black dragon to help Taylor take down his family. And heâd still be in the capital so be able to help with the plot. Canât decide how heâd get the Shield, but idk, could be fun.
Kinda love how he refers to it as our family already. Thatâs cute.
Tbf I donât think nobles not wanting to Take / associate with Deruthâs territory has much to do with it being greedy, because even if it would be greedy, what are the chances the other nobles would all care. Itâs probably more to do with the Forest of darkness. Whoeverâs responsible for Henituse territory is responsible for watching the Forest of Darkness and, letâs face it, most nobles wonât want that responsibility. Like looking greedy might be some noblesâ concern, but at least one noble family wouldnât care about that.
This bitch really had the audacity to try and compare himself to Basen? Please those are two completely different relationships. Basen isnât a complete psychopath/narcissist. And for that matter Cale isnât Taylor. And did he really just try to call Taylor the trash eldest son and himself the pretty smart younger brother? God heâs delusional. Itâs so much worse than I remembered. Delusional, arrogant, dumb, pathetic, horrible. Thereâs not a single good quality about this guy. Also claims heâs smart but doesnât realise that Cale dislikes him, dare I say hate him, more than he hates Cale, but that could also be arrogance so idk.
If Venion didnât like me and compared me to Taylor Iâd take that as a huge compliment actually.
Hate to point this out again but he failed to appear as a proper noble when his carriage nearly ran someone over and his lackey blamed that person. Doesnât seem very proper to me but what do I know? Maybe that is proper behaviour.
Also all these people just heard you call this man a waste of time and an obstacle. I know that some rich people do see poorer people like this but surely this is one of those things that, as a noble, youâre supposed to think but not say out loud? I know theyâre not your people but it still seems wrong. Also wouldnât it appear to most outsiders that he only told his lackey to stop because he realise another noble was there and he wanted to look good in front of him. Again, thereâs no way Venion actually realistically comes out of this looking morally better or superior in any way to Cale.
You can practically hear the disgust in Caleâs thoughts. Thatâs truly impressive.
Donât worry Venion. Cale did a very good job of teaching his people that distinction. Although his idea of people who have a right to walk this earth may differ from yours. Also again he just very publicly stated that this man, who hasnât actually done anything wrong, doesnât have the right to walk the earth or whatever⌠because heâs not a noble I guess?  Honestly, can you imagine a noble in our world saying this shit like in present time? I mean not much would happen lbr but everyone would at least be like we hate you, thatâs a disgusting thing to say.
Also is now a good time to admit I have no idea how nobility actually works and therefore have no clue of the hierarchy? Â Ok so google has informed me that Marquis is higher than Count and now Iâm sad that a dragon torturer has a higher rank than Count Henitus, and say what you want about him, but at least he actually cares about his people to the best of his ability with the knowledge he has.
Thatâs offensive to dogs. At least sometimes when they yap itâs for a good reason, usually not but sometimes. (Iâm not hating on dogs, I love dogs, I have two dogs, but they do tend to bark for no reason)
I donât think thereâs actually a word for how much I hate this man. Hate and despise come close but feel too weak a word. loathe maybe but every time I think of the word loathe or loathing I think of the song from Wicked, and that song could so easily go the complete opposite direction. Maybe abhor but again these words feel too weak. They donât fully capture the anger, the disgust, the complete inability to find even one good thing about him.
What Iâd give to see Choi Han punch him, just once.
The Tolz family also seem like idiots but they also seem too pathetic to actually hate? Like they just go along with keeping a dragon on their territory and letting the Marquis torture it there? Dumb, dumb as hell. Iâd feel sorry for them but they brought it on themselves and so instead I look about them in about the same way I imagine most people look when they see Florida Man in the news, just a why would you do that? Confusion but still more angry than I probably would be at most Florida men or similarly stupid people in the news. A more confused version of the anger I feel when thereâs a child abuse story in the news and one of them is like oh but I didnât abuse them, when there is proof they knew it was happening and were fine with it/amused by it/encouraging it or just didnât care. You know what I change my mind I do hate the Tolz family, just less than Marquis Stan and Venion. But yeah fuck the Tolz family too. Being pathetic and dumb is no excuse honestly.
Cale needs a reward  or something purely for not punching this man.
Also can we tak a second to discuss the difference in anger and how itâs expressed by Choi Han and Cale. The best way I can put it is Choi Hanâs anger is like fire, right? Itâs heated, passionate, comes on and spreads quickly and suddenly, is very destructive, hard to stop and contain, though it can be, and is harder to hide. Caleâs anger is like water, like the ocean. Itâs cold, he looks very calm on the outside, so you donât realise heâs angry, but under the surface heâs raging. Iâve always thought the ocean was beautiful and at the same time thought it was one of the most terrifying things there is, and not just because I canât swim. With fire, the danger is there, itâs obvious, you know itâs dangerous, you know if you touch it youâre gonna get hurt, youâre gonna get burned, and that leaves a permanent mark. But the ocean isnât like that, the danger isnât as obvious, at least if you can swim, you could go in the ocean a million times and be just fine, and then one day you get stuck in the wrong tide, and you try to fight against it but you canât. and thereâs so much we donât know about the ocean, so much mystery surrounding it, a lot of stories, some true, some not true. And the most dangerous thing about the ocean is how peaceful it looks, how calm, how it lures you in. even though I know I canât swim, I still feel the urge, when I see the ocean, to just jump in, even though I know that would be a very bad idea. A lot of this applies to Cale, there are a lot of stories and rumours about him, he looks more calm than he is, he draws people in, a lot of those people survive and are just fine, but some get dragged away by the tide. The thing is fire and water, with all these differences, still have similarities: they both can hurt/kill you, and they can both be suffocating, and theyâre both pretty to look at but can hurt you if youâre not careful. And that just feels so similar to Choi Han and Cale to me. Plus Cale managed to calm Choi Han down, a bit like water can douse a fire and put it out. Cale is water, Choi Han is fire, theyâre both forces to be reckoned with and Venion pissed both of them off. He played with fire multiple times but he also earned the oceanâs fury, and an angry ocean⌠well, we all know how terrifying, how dangerous, that can be. This turned out more poetic than I intended so Iâm gonna go ahead and move on.
Again heâs awfully judgy for someone who gets his kicks from torturing a 4 year old.
Cale subtly messing with Venion by purposefully using the hand he helped the old man with to shake Venionâs hand. Also the fact Cale is more disgusted to touch Venion and Venion doesnât realise it.
also is the lackey a servant? I thought they were but idk. Oh well, not important
Caleâs ability to say these things without giving away that heâs lying is truly impressive.
Oh good, Venionâs gone. I apologise that this one is more angry/less positive. I just canât stand Venion or people like him.
Cale: lowkey rants about everything wrong with the interaction with Venion
 also Cale: Iâm not that angry though
maybe not angry necessarily but he is very much disgusted. Even then he is a little angry, which is fair
again donât get how exactly Cale would look bad in this situation, especially when compared with Venion
honestly Choi Han and Caleâs conversation here is actually great. Cale almost comforts Choi Han, and shows that he understands how Choi Han feels and where heâs coming from, and he agrees with him. He validates Choi Han so much but his plan to destroy Venion is different. Choi Han could and would beat Venion up, maybe even kill him, but Cale, Cale takes the things he and the Marquis care about the most, their status, their power, their image, their money. For people like Venion and the Marquis thatâs much more devastating than a beatdown they could recover from and use as ammunition. And then he doesnât even really ask or demand Choi Han helps him, he offers, gives him the chance to decide or agree to help on his own, and itâs such a subtle difference, but an important one nonetheless. Also donât think either of them realise but theyâre already besties at this point.
Choi Han is such a delight
Hereâs the thing, Cale was already pissed at Venion before they even met and now heâs made him even angrier. i donât think anyone can help him now. Like he was already beyond help but, now, itâs not just Iâm going to punish you for what you did to Raon. Itâs Iâm going to do that and Iâll enjoy every second of tearing you apart and watching you be clueless Iâm responsible until itâs too late. God I love that version of KRS Cale. Kinda want a dark Cale fic now. Not necessarily a villain but also kinda. Same Cale, just wants his people safe, but if anyone regardless of the side their on messes with his people they get the same treatment as his enemies, whether theyâre a hero, villain, neutral. And where he enjoys bringing them down as well. Idk the idea of dark KRS Cale is so interesting to me. And slowly the characters around him become just as dark. Like he simply canât lose anyone else so if anyone poses even the slightest threat to his people, theyâre very quickly dealt with. Anyway not important
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hello my babies im so late but heres hope chapter 3! as i announced there would a time jump so now our baby is 4, this bookâs drama is only starting i swear. but đ đđđđ đđđ enjoy <33
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Jack had been coming home later & later every night because of his management and label, he'd been missing doctorâs appointments which was unusual for him so Sevyn was alone every night. She needed help, her stomach was only getting bigger, and every task became ten times harder. Midnight came & the front door opened Sevyn sat at the kitchen counter eating a bowl of ice cream she watched Jack quickly walk past her, âWhere are you going? You even didn't say anything.â Sevyn walked toward Jack who had his weight on the bathroom sink opening the mirror cabinet âAre you ok?â Jack didn't even bother to face her. Sevyn noticed an odd smell coming from his sweatshirt âAre you high?â She questioned skewing her face he faced her his eyes low & slightly red âNââ she shook her head dismissing him and stormed up the stairs before he could see her tears. She buried her head in the sheets after locking the bedroom door tears flowed down her cheeks like a river she heard Jack knock on the bedroom door repeating her name âJust open the door.â He pleaded in a raspy voice âYou go out leave me by myself for hours lie to me about where you're at, get high drunk things you never do. I understand the pressure Jack, or maybe I don't but why do you treat me this way after I constantly support you, why me?â Her voice was shaky & tears ran down her cheeks. Jack slid down the door his head on his knees âSevyn, I'm sorry.â He inhaled, âThat gets old Jack.â
Tears streamed down Sevynâs face her eyes burned, she prayed things would change because she loved him & being the mother of his child was all sheâd ever wished for. Jack was the love of her life she knew that since laid eyes on him.
Sevyn woke up at around 3:00 pm & walked to the living room expecting to see Jack but he was nowhere to be found the car wasn't in the driveway either & his shoes werenât there. She began packing her things getting ready to leave. She sat in her Cadillac watching him on Instagram at the club drinking bottles of vodka while random women rubbed his lap, She was embarrassed but she kept her composure. She blocked all of his social media accounts and his phone number, She wasn't one to up & leave but this was too much he had disrespected her time & time again she was exhausted. He showed no respect for her as the mother of his child and his girlfriend, now she was over it.
Sevyn sat at her desk humming a gentle tune, melodic & mellow. She tapped her pen against her hardwood desk âSevyn it's perfect I don't think you should change it.â Sayori smiled as Jordyn nodded in agreement âSheâs right Sev I love it so will the world.â Sevyn shook her head âYall it doesn't sound right something just so wrong about it!â She spoke her voice raising slightly causing Jordyn to throw her hands up. Everyone in the studio turned their attention to the studio door hearing small footsteps approaching the room and seeing Jack, Urban & Hope outside the frosted glass door. Urban lifted Hope helping her twist the knob, the door popped open and a smile spread across Sevynâs face âHey pumpkin!â Sevyn smiled as Hope ran into her motherâs arms causing the rolling chair to slide back on the engineering table âHi Mommy, what are you doing?â Hope smiled resting her head on Sevynâs chest âWorking babe, you wanna hear my song?â Sevyn smiled watching her daughter's eyes light up with excitement âYeah Mommy, let's hear the song!â Urban & Jack said in sync. Sevyn pressed the resume button on her laptop & started the song from the beginning playing a song called âTake You Thereâ Everyone in the studio seemed to be entranced in the music. Sevyn sang the lyrics to Hope tickling her a bit.
The song in the studio went silent, Jack let out a deep sigh âSevyn, I think this is the best song on the album.â Urban spoke looking over at Jack who uncomfortably shifted in his seat he got up and shot a look at Urban who was still comfortably seated âAlright, I got her lunch so she's not hungry right now. Everything she brought is getting washed, I'll text you later.â Jack said his mouth in a line, Sevyn nodded as Urban shot up high-fiving Hope, Jack held out his arms signaling a hug Hope quickly got up and fell into his arms âBye, Papa.â She smiled as he placed a gentle kiss on her head âLater, kiddo I love you.â He smiled setting her down as âI love you too.â She smiled as Urban & Jack walked out the door. âNo one else was confused as to why he left after you played the song?â Sayori questioned squinting before looking around âI don't know he's been acting strange lately super strange, he just drops her off & doesn't say anything.â Sevyn shrugged thinking a bit more about it âWe always have a conversation & if we don't he has somewhere to be.â Sevyn continued âI'm not mad or anything he's not obligated to have a conversation with me it's just not like him which is what concerns me.â Sevyn added starting to ramble âMommy can we go home?â Hope asked tapping Sevyn on the chest âYes baby.â Sevyn smiled.
After a long studio session, Sevyn & Hope were outside the house. They got inside & Sevyn began getting herself and Hope ready for bed, Bathtime ended now The two were lying on the bed watching Proud Family. Sevyn felt her phone vibrate underneath her so she looked at her screen and saw a message from Jack âWe need to talk.â He texted âYeah, what's up?â She responded âWas the song about me? Yes or no, no extra shit Sevyn.â He said, âYes, I wrote it because I saw a picture of us in high school it inspired me.â She responded, âIs that a problem?â She double-texted âNo it's not I mean I'll figure it out.â He texted back, âOkay, also what's up with you? You're avoiding me now?â She sent getting left on read.
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