#so much therapy

[locked-tomb-shenanigans]

Listen I’m sure someone has already talked about this scene, and way better than I ever could, but it makes me so feral and I need to talk about it too

This is hands down the most depressing scene in the entirety of NtN in my opinion.

Surface level it’s Gideon yelling at Crux, but the significance here comes from the exact word choice. “You could have lived for her. But you didn’t know how.”

She uses past tense.

It’s not about Crux (who arguably did live for Harrow, considering his purpose was raising and protecting her, and could by all means still do this if he changed his mind about dying for Harrow.) It’s not about the congregation who worshipped her.

It’s about Gideon, who can’t live for Harrow anymore, because she’s dead. It’s about the promise she broke at the end of the first book. She’s talking about herself.

Harrow made her promise that when it comes down to it, Gideon needs to save herself. If only one of them can survive, it has to be Gideon.

At the end of the first book, Harrow is actively planning to sacrifice herself so Gideon can live, bringing up the promise and then diving into what this is actually about. Namely, how she owes Gideon her life back.

And Gideon breaks that promise, instead deciding to sacrifice herself for Harrow.

“I can’t keep my promise because the entire point of me is you. There is no me without you.”

Gideon doesn’t know how to live for Harrow, how to exist without her, even though it’s the most important thing Harrow ever asked of her—and so she dies for her instead.

“You could have lived for her. But you didn’t know how.”

And the sacrifice ended up being rejected by Harrow, because it’s not what Harrow wanted. It never was. So Gideon ended up feeling rejected and like her life and giving it up wasn’t worth anything. And she still immediately offers herself up again without hesitation. She’s ready to die for Harrow all over again, even now that she’s already dead.

“Die. Die for her. It’s the only goddamn good you’ll ever do her.”

Gideon is fucking furious—so much that Nona can’t even place her voice anymore—but not at any of the people who would rightfully deserve her fury. Not at Crux. She’s furious at herself. This whole scene is so damn heartbreaking to me.

And out of all the cruel things Crux has done to Gideon throughout her life, this might be the worst one: telling the girl who died for the Reverend Daughter once and was ready to die for her a second time that she couldn’t even get that right. That she managed to screw up the one purpose she was actually supposed to serve, the only good she’s ever done for Harrow.

Gideon is dead. She can’t do what Harrow asked and live for her anymore. What the hell is she supposed to do if she can’t die for her, either?

[varpusvaras]

So, according to the background lore, while growing up on Kamino, if the clones had any bouts of anger or frustration, they were put into the "retraining tank" which was essentially isolation. And at some point, this just kinda manifests in the clones in not being able to express their negative feelings properly, and either pushing them down or dealing with them by isolating themselves, because those two things are the only things they know how to do that somewhat work.

The Jedi help with this, of course. They teach their men how to meditate, how to express themselves, how to deal with their negative feelings and also let them go and not let them fester, and how the clones adopt this part of their conduct as well. Meditation becomes almost mandatory. It's not strictly enforced by the Jedi, but it is enforced by the Commanders and the rest of the men, especially when Shinies come from Kamino.

(Bail and Breha have such a good and healthy way of communicating with each other that by now, when they have disagreements, they are able to work through them by talking about it and expressing their feelings to each other.

And then they have a first bigger disagreement with Fox, and Fox just. Up and leaves. And he goes to sit somewhere by himself and then comes back like it's fine let's carry on whatever else we were doing before this. And he just does this. Every time he is angry or frustrated or otherwise upset he just gets up and leaves because he doesn't know what else to do. He doesn't know what to say. He has to leave because otherwise he doesn't know what he is going to do and that scares him)

[menace-behaviour]

*Trying to log on for an Online Therapy Session*

Zoom Connection Page: “Your internet connection is unstable.”

Buck: Pfft, you should see my life. My internet connection is as good as Graphene, compared to whatever shit I got going on.

[strayswolf]

Bruce absolutely breaking down over the loss of Jason and taking it out on Dick, the most available and easy target in this moment. Blaming anyone else because he can’t bear the weight nor admit the guilt he feels—that his statements should be directed at himself. Bruce feels resentment at himself that he never adopted Dick like he did Jason.

Full Pages:

Also, I appreciate the slowly distancing fade out of the last several panels as a visual display of the emotional reflection Dick’s living in this moment with the batcave as an allegory of the tumultuous upheaval the bat mantel has wrought on the family in the here and now.

Comic: New Teen Titans #55

Writer: Marv Wolfman

Artist: George Perez

[f4llingstrr]

currently watching supernatural for the first time, im in season 7 and bro... bobby's episode... "they are my boys. they grew up great. they're heroes" "saved the best for last" what the fuck man. literally what. they. they have no one left. NO ONE. campbell, cass, now bobby WHAT THE HELL

[ourtubahero-blog]

This therapy isn’t working…

[ye-olde-trojan-horse]

me: awwww I love this character.

also me: how else can I traumatise them?

[iamumbra195]

I was watching the movie that expands on the first episode called the Great detective turned small like the case at the very beginning and why Gin and Vodka were there. We even have scenes for Amuro, Chianti and Korn and Kir gets a little cameo as a reporter who talks about Shinichi in the beginning of the first episode

But anyways back to my point. I love this movie because for a second, idk if I'm just overanalyzing, it looked like Shinichi actually teared up, overwhelmed by all the shit that happened to him all at once and that has to be my favourite thing ever cause he rarely ever cries or shows emotion beyond anger, desperation or just being a snarky bitch. Obviously he's happy and stuff but I mean emotion as in him genuinely being overwhelmed because I promise you I would've been having a whole breakdown after all the shit he went through in like a few hours.

Like he saw someone get decapitated (Idc what he said, he might have been desensitized to murders but that's sure as hell gonna stick in his head, the blood literally squirted all over him and Ran) then he solved the case, comforted Ran, ran after the suspicious dude he saw before, saw do a whole blackmail deal while talking about some shady organization, got hit on the head hard enough that it effected his memory and he was barely aware of what was going on, got fed a drug, felt like he was burning alive, thought he was going to die, woke up as a little kid and no one is believing a single thing he's saying, almost got sent to a child care center which is a little disaster in Japan search it up, got chased by the police like a criminal with huge as dogs as well, couldn't call Ran because he knew she wouldn't believe him as well, ran home in the rain, and then almost got run over by a truck.

Like. Dude needs so much therapy for that single night, not to mention all the other shit that happens and the truck load of trauma he's going to be faced with for next year or however long canon has been. Yeah, that's crazy.

My guy deserves more than a little tear up, I need to see him cry for once

[blackberriebrambles]

"GREAT ALASTOR, AlTrUiSt, DIED for his FRIENDS-"

you need a snickers bar there, buddy?

[hoperays-song]

Buster Moon + Incorrect Quotes = Chaos

Buster: My life isn’t as glamorous as my wanted poster makes it look like.

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Buster: You’ll have a hard time believing this because it literally never happens, but I made a mistake.

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Buster: You think I really give a fuck? I can’t even read.

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Buster: You can de-escalate any situation by simply saying, 'Are we about to kiss?'

Buster: Doesn't work for getting out of speeding tickets, by the way.

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Buster: I was born for politics. I have great hair and I love lying.

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Buster: So... apparently the 'bad vibes' I’ve been feeling are actually severe psychological distress.

[whenthewallfell]

🔥 Happy Birthday Katniss Everdeen 🔥

What's your first impression of Katniss after reading or watching The Hunger Games?

Do you find Katniss likable? Do you think her characterization is realistic?

What do you think the strengths and weaknesses of Katniss?

If today, you can make new movie/series adaptation, who would be suitable as Katniss? Based on visual description and acting talents.

Thank you :)

(Answering this fashionably late bc I'm a terrible person) Hey anon!

First up, how does everyone know her birthday? Was it in the books and I just completely blanked it? It's cute that it's in spring, since that's also when she goes through her 'rebirth' from a scared starving child to Katniss Everdeen, District Hunter.

She's an extremely well written character. The way her grief and the following trauma impacts her and haunts her throughout the series is horribly accurate. It was almost too much when I first read it (self reflection is rarely pleasant) but what makes her so inspiring is how even at her worst she still finds ways to keep going.

For all she's described as the Girl on Fire, to me she seems more like the embodiment of nature. Forests can be burned, rivers can be dammed, and the meadows paved over. But new shoots grow from soil enriched by ashes. The rivers burst their banks in the spring melts and carve new paths in the stone. Roots break the pavement and grass reclaims the earth. It's only a matter of time.

People's strengths and weaknesses aren't really something you can separate; eg. she's very impulsive and tends to leap without looking, which makes for an excellent protagonist and both kickstarts a revolution and puts her and everyone she loves in danger. She's also extremely stubborn - this lends itself to her persistence and refusal to give in, but also prevents her asking for help when she needs it.

Re: casting, the neat thing about her is that she's written to be purposefully racially ambiguous beyond 'mixed race' due to how far ahead in the future Panem is and everyone kinda blending together (as a halfsies, I'm a big fan of it). That said there's a lot that points to her being Native American and that's how I choose to draw her, so someone in line with that would be awesome.

[whatshouldwecallchronicillness]

When I had to relearn how to human after the stroke...

[alchemocha]

Y’all aren’t ready for the in-depth and terribly sad childhood kidbotnik has in the stuff I’m making 😭

[crymiiera]

Me: We’re gonna do a quick little doodle to show how much this story has taken over our life, yes?

Brain: yes

Me: And it’s not gonna turn into a full-blown drawing, right?

Brain: …

Me: Right?????

Had to get this done quickly, so it’s a bit rushed :’) I also found out while doing this that zinnias symbolise “a reminder to never forget absent friends and lasting affection” and oh my gosh I almost cried how did I not realise-

[ourtubahero-blog]

Neil bamboozled us, and he bamboozled us good with the last episode.

[lithiumcreepblog]

One thing about the Lenora shootout I can’t stop thinking about and haven’t seen people discussing much (or maybe they have, idk, I’m new here) is how that experience will affect the characters. They were EXTREMELY lucky to get out of that house unscathed. (Of course they’re just fictional characters who have plot armour but let’s pretend for a moment that they’re in the real world.) One wrong move & they would probably all be dead. That is terrifying to think about to me.

And even though the whole thing lasted what, three minutes (?), that shit traumatises you. You don’t feel particularly terrified in the moments directly after because of the adrenaline but it follows you. I can attest to that as someone who has been around military gun violence and has had guns pointed at me. I’m so lucky and grateful to be out of that situation now, but man, did that fuck me up. I still get debilitating nightmares even years later, and I still flinch at the slightest loud noises that resemble a gunshot. Even watching that scene last year was extremely difficult for me. So I can’t imagine what the characters must be feeling after being in such a traumatic shootout.

Not to mention, that is probably (?) the most “human” threat the characters have faced yet. Not an inter-dimensional monster, not flayed people, but just pure human violence, which makes the danger so much more real. Gun violence is such a commonplace thing in media, and while some of it affects me more than others, this instance is probably the most scared I’ve been because of how much I care about these characters.

I know they probably won’t, but I hope they explore Jonathan, Will, Mike and Argyle’s PTSD following the incident in S5 in some way. Because I do think that it would definitely affect them. I would love to see how it affects Jonathan, who immediately tried to protect Will & Mike. How he probably has nightmares where he failed to protect them. How scared for their lives Will & Mike must have felt and the conversations they would have about it. And poor Argyle getting wrapped up in it all and having a man die in his van.

Rant over.