#so many thoughts about him

[thesummerestsolstice]

Underrated Eldritch Peredhel: Earendil. Specifically, I love Earendil because he kind of starts out "normal," just being the child of an elf and a man. But then he marries the part-Maiarin Elwing, who's great-grandmother Melian affected her husband so much that he's described as being like a Maia lord afterwards. He steps foot on Aman, which in some of Tolkien's texts also physically changes him. He murders a giant dragon and doesn't die afterwards. He's nearly constantly exposed to the Silmaril. Like you know how Aman's light is supposed to be too much for mortals. And the SIlmarils have the remnants of Aman's light. And Earendil has mortal blood.

This is more headcanon but I also believe that no incarnate would naturally be able to do what Earendil does, sailing through the sky and void, possibly fighting the unknowable creatures in it. Varda had to give Earendil some power for him to be able to be Gil-Estel. I've also seen something about him being gifted wings but I forget where.

Just, imagine Earendil, the young sailor just setting out from Sirion, a man with elvish grace, or an elf with mannish features. And then imagine Gil-Estel, the warrior clad in dragon-scale armor, who's lived with the Silmaril for so long that the light shines from within him now. Who burns with Varda's hallowed radiance, so much that the creatures of the void can't even bear to look upon him. Who trails stardust and smiles with teeth that are just a bit too sharp. Who looks more in place aside Tilion and Arien than he does among elves or men.

I also firmly believe that Elrond was able to visit Earendil on the Vingelot– visiting a flying ship is much easier when you can turn into a bird, after all– and that the magic there also affected him, but that's a different post...

[slowcatsisland]

Love your thoughts on Zoro 💯😍. How about dating & sexuality of Sanji? Is this pervert maybe still a virgin? 😅 I love this boy. 🐻

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Black Leg Sanji; Ability to Date, Sexuality, & Trauma Responses (ft. Kamabakka Kingdom & Germa 66)

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Oooh I was waiting for this one!!

As always, this is my interpretation of Sanji’s character so take my opinion with a grain of salt lol

We’ll discuss Sanji’s trauma and how this makes him view men and women, my take on his sexuality, if him having a partner is plausible within the canon right now, and his most popular ships.

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I’ve always thought about how his interactions with women and men in the show almost always have the same tone

Ykwim? He is always treating the ladies kindly, offering them warmth, food, protection, and a smile.

He always treats the men harshly, always being curt with them, acting disinterested and annoyed at what they say with his teeth bared.

And I don’t really know how aware Sanji is to his initial behavior and how much they vary between man and woman.

Do you ever just instinctively get annoyed when that one person tries to talk to you? No matter what they say bitterness seeps out of your tone when you respond to them and you can’t help but ridicule whatever they said regardless if it needs any scrutinizing or not?

And it’s not like you’re doing on purpose, it just flows through your body like rain.

That’s what I think Sanji feels towards men whenever he interacts with them.

He only ever doesn’t really act standoff ish to Usopp and sometimes Luffy.

This all stems from his childhood. From the beatings he took from his brothers, from the snare in their smiles as they spoke the most hurtful things to him when he couldn’t do anything to defend himself. From the way Judge- from the way adults(adult men/the soldiers of germa 66) never tried to help him.

It all stems from his childhood. From the soft tones that the maids would use with him when he would visit his mother, from the gentleness of the lady cooks who let him stay in the kitchen when he asked (even though they technically couldn’t refuse). From the way his sister was always the one to patch him up and how she never laid a hand on him. From the way his mother would praise him just for being kind and would stroke his hair so lightly.

This bias that Sanji developed is so deeply ingrained in him.

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This bias leads me to my next section, what’s Sanji’s sexuality?

I really think he’s bi. But it’s complicated.

He rejects key parts of himself all the time.

He rejects his natural femininity - always wearing a traditional masculine suit, always smoking a cigarette, having a rumbly, more manly voice (TRUST i believe his voice is actually a lot higher pitched but the cigarettes and his own training to get rid of his French accent dulls it down- IN FRENCH HE SPEAKS HIGH PITCHED AHHHH)

He rejects his need for outside help to cope with his trauma - he has not once that I truly remember outside of Onigashima against his ‘battle’ with Black Maria has ever asked for help. He tries to handle things on his own not to burden those he’s around no matter how much he’s hurting and needs someone.

He rejects the fondness he could potentially have for a man - the only way I could explain this is like, internalized homophobia??

I will expand more on this when I get to his Zosan ship with Zoro. But it’s also from the way he is scared of men. Because men have only ever hurt him. It’s this wall that he’s built so high he can’t grasp the concept of outwardly loving another male.

His conditions in Germa 66 changed his perception of how acceptable it would be to love a guy. Guys scare him, no guy would be accepted by Germa 66 as well. They would think that’s a joke, that one of the princes could love his own gender. It isn’t a welcoming environment for queer tendencies nor people (cough cough Sanji)

- Sanji was made from his mother’s love, and he was the only one out of his siblings made to love. He was meant to love the world, to love others, that’s who Sanji is deep down.

Sanji doesn’t really seem to like that idea, he rejects it. It’s so much easier for him to love women.

Sanji himself would probably tell you that he’s straight and only likes girls. It’s easier, it’s traditional, it’s safer. And he does like girls. He likes them sexually, he likes them physically and emotionally (ish on emotional lowkey lowkey). He also likes the idea of loving a woman. It’s ‘right’- for him to love a woman.

Yk?? He could imagine himself fighting for and protecting a woman, baking her food, snuggling with her at night, worshipping her hips in the lust filled hours of dusk.

I don’t think he could imagine all that with a man.

And that’s okay, in a way. He’s a tormented babe.

THIS IS WHY KAMABAKKA KINGDOM WAS SO IMPORTANT FOR SANJI IN MY OPINION. (GUYSSSS)

It probably wasn’t Kuma’s intention. But Sanji being exposed and exiled to a queer island for two whole years had to have healed his inner troubles in some capacity.

There aren’t social norms, no traditional role to play in Kamabakka Kingdom. It’s just..people. Unapologetic, true natured people.

It’s what a healthy society looks like- at least to me. It’s crazy how I feel like I perceive queer communities in media to be the perfect place of self acceptance because all normal social roles/gender roles/and modest constrictions are just not there? (Example: I could kiss a girl I’ve been wanting to without having that itching voice in the back of my head go ‘your friends would make fun of you for that, you’ll be looked at differently if you do that’ or ‘this doesn’t look right, it would look better if you were a guy or she were a guy’ LIKE?! There’s a line that is crossed in traditional communities that just aren’t in queer communities when it comes to expressing yourself I feel like 🧍‍♀️)

It’s so freeing to be yourself the way that you define it and I so hope that is what Sanji experienced during his time there.

He was surrounded by drag queens who fully embraced themselves. They knew they liked men, they were okay with it. They knew they liked to dress feminine, they were okay with it. They knew they were strong and could fight, they were okay with it.

Hmm I don’t think I’m really articulating how it was important to him in a -accepting yourself is healthy and you’re not disappointing anybody- way and not a -go kiss this guy that dresses as a gal you’ll love it here wear this dress so you fit in with us you secret freak- kind way

Yk??

Anyway -

I feel like he’s bisexual with a heavy lean towards women. This comes from his upbringing in Germa 66 because it changed his view on men but deep down I feel like he still has the capability of loving a man- just in different way he would love a woman.

It’ll always be a different way.

Sanji himself would tell you he’s straight.

If this were an au untraumatized Sanji, he would be regular bi without a preference imo.

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I headcanon him as still being a virgin in the One Piece story right now. There’s not much logic behind it. More of a feeling.

His trauma almost prohibits him from getting to close to a woman imo, I think he would freak out and have to back out of such an intimate act.

It would also probably have to be someone that Sanji knows well, I don’t see him hooking up with someone that is more a stranger or acquaintance than friend or loved one.

I do think that he has successfully wooed women during his time at the Baratie, but he never ended up sharing more than a few kisses with one or two of them and maybe a rare blowjob or fingering session before something happened.

I do think that sex is something he wants. I think Sanji is a character that wants to devote himself to something real that he can touch. Like a person. Though again with the whole perception thing- he couldn’t see himself being sexual with another man. And that’s okay- love comes in other forms of intimacy, we’ll talk abt this in his Zosan part soon too.

OMG a creator on this app - onlymurphy- has really good Sanji fanfics that cover his need for intimacy, how his trauma causes him to crave physical closeness, how he always strives to please/pleasure his partner, and they do a really good job at conveying the depth of his character so def check them out too if you haven’t before

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Would Sanji have a partner in the story anytime soon? Nah. But- I do think he is someone that needs or would benefit greatly from a partner.

A partner would help him through his issues. He could heal so well if he had someone there for him that loved him in a way no one else could. A way that no one else has.

He’s a hopeless romantic imo, he puts relationships on a pedestal. For him to have that for his own is something so special yk?

However I still do think that he needs to change his bias towards both men and women before he gets a partner.

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This leads me to my next point, my preferences in Sanji’s partner.

I want him to have someone that doesn’t suit his biases so badly!! Someone that challenges him to face the fact not all people fit into his preconceived notions about them.

Ugh

Like. Have him with a masculine woman, someone who isn’t dainty, someone who doesn’t want all his sugar coated assertions of affection, praise, and admiration. Someone who doesn’t want his snacks that he made for her just because he thought she might be hungry even though everyone else on the crew I’d probably just as hungry yk?

Have him with a woman that’s a genuine fighter. Not someone who learned to fight to survive in the sense that Robin is a fighter. Someone more like Vi from Arcane that settles things with her fists. A woman that’s up front and center during the battles with the other members of the monster trio. Yk??

Have him with a woman with rough, ugly scars. Better yet, facial scars. A woman that would be unattractive by normal social standards. We both know he’ll still find her beautiful, but it’s about the fact that others won’t. That’s she’s different.

Have him with a woman that’s a little morally grey. Maybe she’s closed off and rough around the edges to everyone, even him. She kills people, she hurts people, but she’s still good. Ish. People aren’t one thing, everyone is a little bit of everything. (Idk if this one is as big of a deal as the others listed above imo he’s the type of guy to go ‘I support women’s wrongs/women do no wrongs/what murdahh?? Ykwim?)

Men

Have Sanji with a man that’s more feminine coded. Something that almost gives him flashbacks to Kamabakka Kingdom. A guy that’s just pretty, there’s no other word to describe him. He’s handsome ish yeah, but he’s not really hot or sexy even if he is-he’s mostly pretty. This guy could have feminine coded hobbies too. He doesn’t have to be a fighter, he could be more of a lover. He could be a painter- someone who sculpts and makes creations out of color and draws emotion out of a blank canvas.

Have him with a guy that’s very emotional too. Maybe more emotionally aware? He would sit Sanji down for a discussion about their relationship because he knows damn well Sanji won’t.

Maybe a guy that is deadly and masculine and all the other things that scare Sanji. But to Sanji, around Sanji, with Sanji, he’s soft. Sanji could never provoke such violence and cruelty because he can’t eve imagine doing things like that to someone like Sanji. (Zosan lowkey lowkey lowkey)

Regardless of my wish for him to fall in love with someone outside of his normal biased preference, Sanji’s partner needs to be someone gentle and kind to him. He needs someone to give him grace, give him a safe spot.

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Okay, last bit of this post- Sanji’s popular ships. (Zoro, Usopp, Luffy, Nami, Pudding, Viola)

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Sanji x Zoro: yes, but in a specific way.

I mentioned this in my Zoro post with Zoro’s ability to date, but Zosan is something more spiritual you could say.

I don’t see it begin sexual, I don’t think they would ever have feelings for each other like that. Sorry, no Zosan kisses from over here ☝️

They have a companionship that is deep and neither of them dare think about it because they don’t know what the other thinks about it nor how it could affect the Straw Hats. They’re like two sides of the same coin. They belong to each other but in the same breath they can’t stand to let the other know that they are dependent on them.

They’re complicated but that’s how they’re supposed to be.

They’re not supposed to be traditional in any sense of the word, at least not to me.

Maybe their relationship could be something deeper if Sanji ever talked to Zoro about it, but it’s highly unlikely.

Zosan is also where Sanji’s internalized homophobia comes in to play imo. Sanji would never admit to anyone, especially not Zoro, that he might feel some type of way about him that’s not negative. It doesn’t seem right to Sanji, and he probably despises the tightness in his chest he gets around Zoro. He also probably can’t discern whether it’s from a threat or from fond feelings.

Sanji would also imo always try to take how he feels when he looks at Zoro and how he looks at a woman and tell himself that the ladder is appropriate and is actual ‘love’ (ish)

Zosan is baked in layers of angst for me too, I don’t ever see Zosan as something cutesy. It just can’t be, not with how the way they are. It can be funny, duh, but not all happy and cute. There’s always gonna be complicated and abrupt and dangerous feelings with them.

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Sanji x Usopp: I didn’t know this was a genuine ship until recently. I think they’re better as close friends.

Sanji and Usopp understand each other really well.

Sanji was always the one to back Usopp up first and it showed a lot in pretimeskip when they had more shown interactions.

Usopp knows that feeling of being weak, not enough, unworthy, of being a burden. Just like Sanji does.

So I do understand why some people shop them together, but they work better as a duo.

I might actually prefer them as a duo over Zoro and Sanji as a duo.

Usopp and Sanji is what Zosan shippers sometimes make Zosan out to be. Something cutesy and fluffy- something it’s not.

(Aka pls make fluffy Sanuso content I need-)

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Sanji x Luffy: I think they work something like Zolu works but to a lesser degree.

Luffy is Sanji’s savior in a way. He gave him the road to the All Blue. He showed him not all men will hurt you. He let Sanji be his cook and put so much love and trust into Sanji on behalf of the crew.

Which is why their fight on Whole Cake Island is so, so sad. It was their own breakup. Sanji never wanted to leave, he never wanted to hurt Luffy nor the crew, he wanted to keep them save at the expense of his own life, hands, and freedom.

Sanji’s loyalty to Luffy is tragic because it comes from a place of Sanji feeling unworthy of Luffy’s generosity too.

Ugh

I don’t see them sexually, I don’t see them romantically, all though I could see Sanji potentially like loving Luffy in a romantic way. But that specific form of love wouldn’t be reciprocated by Luffy yk? Idk it’s hard to explain.

They’re precious and they’re a true bond, but not in a traditional way.

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Sanji x Ace: hmm. I never knew this was a genuine ship either.

I mean, nothings like wrong with it

I just don’t see it yk?

They had limited interaction, even if it was good interactions.

Ace is dead..

Idk how they would feel given their relationship with Luffy, like Sanji with his captain’s older brother and Ace with his little brother’s cook.

It feels like an overstep for them to do that to Luffy?

I don’t see Sanji developing feelings, and I think Ace was being his charming usual self. lol they’re both charming guys with suave personas I just realized

So yeah, it’s a no for me. I don’t see this in a shop in any way but if they had more time maybe a duo? But their affiliations to delegate pirate crews also is a big deal so

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Sanji x Nami: quick disclaimer, I don’t ship Sanji with any women in One Piece. I don’t think Sanami works and this is mainly on Nami’s part.

Nami imo, is what Sanji’s like perfect woman is. She’s beautiful, she’s funny, she’s smart, she’s a little flirty at times, she’s independent but still kinda relies on others, she’s seen the horrors of the world but didn’t let that change her, she is someone who would rather have someone else fight her battles for her.

I’m not saying Sanji doesn’t like Nami for who she is, but I think he likes the idea of her more than her and the idea of being with her more than she would actually like being with her.

But Nami just can’t reciprocate his feelings. I don’t really ship her with anyone, which does play a part in me saying this fyi. I feel like she might be asexual, or at the very least she doesn’t prioritize romance over her duties yk?

Given her childhood I think this makes sense. She’s constipated. In a way. Ykwim??

So, they don’t work for me. They’re a gag. They need to stop being a gag too especially since Oda’s rewritten Sanji’s behavior towards women as something more lustful and predatory. Sigh

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Sanji x Pudding: NO. guys. No.

They’re not for me, they never will be. Lemme explain

Pudding is a minor, Sanji is an adult.

It was a pressured situation- arranged marriage in the first place. Nothing except the last moments from when Sanji saw her third eye up until he left Whole Cake Island was organic- and all the organicness was on Pudding’s side.

Pudding is a victim of her mother and she needs to heal from that before she has a partner imo.

Pudding said awful things about Sanji in the scene when she captured Rejiu too. That broke him for a good while. And Pudding can’t change what she said despite her change in feelings.

I also think her change in feelings towards Sanji is more of a trauma response to. Because he accepts her. And no one else really does nor has. It isn’t real imo. It’s kinda like Boa’s love for Luffy, it’s just not totally right imo.

Pudding isn’t a member of the Strawhats, and I don’t see any of the Strawhats, especially not Sanji that would want to be with his lover 25/8 being in a relationship with someone that isn’t a Strawhat. Yk? It’s a breach in loyalty to the crew as well.

I actually really like Pudding’s character but I don’t think she should have a love interest. I understand her catching feelings for Sanji but I respected her a lot when she shoved them down to put her priority of stopping Big Mom’s hunger pains, her duty as the minister of chocolate, and her responsibility as one of Big Mom’s children first. Yk?

They just don’t work in my opinion, I don’t want them to work either. But they’re good character foils and they represent some of the same stuff which is really interesting to me.

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Sanji x Viola: I also didn’t realize this was a genuine ship either lol.

Idk, I just don’t feel anything about it.

I don’t think they are a serious ship or pair because of a couple things.

Sanji fell in love with her body and faux behavior first. Which is something I don’t like seeing in Sanji’s potential love interests.

Viola was using him for the majority of their time together. And no hate to her, she just didn’t have any genuine feelings and I don’t think she ever gained them either.

Viola also has a duty to her people of Dressrosa, something she fought to regain for 13 years. She wouldn’t give that up for a man, a pirate.

They have different loyalties and paths in life

I don’t think Sanji’s feelings for Viola were ever real either. He just ‘saw the good’ in her.

I also don’t think I realized how close he was to like. Running off with her? Which weirded me out when he had to make himself reflect on his actions before deciding to help his crew.

So like.

They’re mid imo. They never had a chance, nor any solid footing as a ship at all.

Not saying they weren’t a little cute for like the half day they spent together but then again, they had different wants out of that.

Sanji also was more into the idea of her imo.

Yeah.. anyway

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Sanji has more minor female love interests like sprinkled around but none of them are serious yk? They’re more to show how his perception of women is challenged throughout the One Piece world

(Cosette, Ossan mainly speaking)

I’d write a little piece for Sanji x Robin but guys, don’t be silly there’s nothing for that ship and if u ship it live ur life brother don’t let me stop you

Mwah 😽

[confusion-est]

he remembered something

[kelcair]

do we have a winner?

[twinksintrees]

So insane about Fabian Aramaris Seacaster. He puts on a cocky overconfident persona as a show of his strength. He will never live up to his father’s expectations. He loves his father so much. His mother has been drunk as far back as he can remember. She’s an expert swordswoman and took out his father’s eye. He lost his own eye. He has his father’s eyepatch, he stabbed his dad in the heart to give him a quick death. His mother is now dating Gilear Faeth. He despises Gilear Faeth.

[angeart]

THE WAY I AM POSITIVELY SCREAMING ABT SLEEP DEMON GRIAN!!!! He's such a vessel for trauma I adore him-

would you be ok with me drawing him sometime? :D

HE HAS SO MUCH TRAUMA!!! i love him so much.

here's a fun little fact i don't think i shared here yet: once he's in the real/waking world, grian gets to be scared of the dark! because in the dreamscape, he had control. he put the darkness there, he shaped what belonged to it. he was aware of everything.

but when he's in the waking world? the darkness is a thick veil, anything could lurk in it (and he's constructed plenty of nightmares to have his imagination in overdrive). for the first time, he's blind in the face of it, and it's unexpectedly, destabilisingly scary.

AND YES YOU ABSOLUTELY CAN DRAW HIM PLEASE !!!

(pls tag me if you do <3)

[beigetiger]

Been having thoughts about Jenan (from phase 2) relating to toxic masculinity and how boys are treated when taken advantage of.

Because like…he was written from the very start as one of those guys you knew in high school who was super macho and a bully and who was raised by his parents to be that way, to the point where he’d be considered a failure if he couldn’t act that certain way. This becomes even more apparent when we finally meet his father, who…isn’t great and somehow seems even more of a stereotype of toxic masculinity than his son. His dad kicked all necromancers out of his country for their religion and then bragged about it afterwards, that’s how great his dad is.

Now, everyone is welcome to their own thoughts on this, but in my eyes Jenan got legitimately groomed by Abyssinia, and was made to do some really awful things while he was with her because it would “make him strong” and “make him a REAL man”, such as pushing his friends off cliffs. Yeah.

And then everyone finds out about it, and his life falls apart. His dad rejects him and views him as weak. He’s sent to a fucking prison, where he’s brutalized and mistreated before being sent back to school. It sucks so badly for him. In fact, it sucks so badly that he keeps latching on to the idea of Abyssinia and refuses to acknowledge the fact that she took advantage of him and was going to kill him.

And he hates Omen. Because Omen is the image of positive masculinity, which Jenan was taught to view as weak. Because Omen actually cared that Jenan was being mistreated and went to the prison to see if he could help, even after Jenan bullied him and tried to kill him repeatedly, and Jenan was taught to view things like that as weak. But despite Omen being weak, he still won. He still ended up on top, and to Jenan, that’s against the rules. And he thought that Omen was visiting him in prison to taunt him for being the loser because he couldn’t imagine a world where you wouldn’t go to a prison to taunt the people inside.

And so when he gets back to school, his mental health is awful. He killed his friends, was betrayed by Abyssinia, and has no family to support him now. And he takes that rage out on Omen, who still refuses to mistreat him for all that Jenan did to him, which only causes Jenan to spiral more.

And it ends with Filament, Omen, and Jenan standing in a room together, Filament holding a weapon. Jenan tells him to kill Omen but Filament is too scared, and it becomes a sort of therapy session with the two of them angrily shouting their negative feelings and emotions at each other while Omen quietly watches.

Because I don’t think that Jenan of all people was taught to be in tune with his emotions. No way. So actually yelling at Filament and threatening to kill Omen finally gave him the space to realize that yes, his life sucks and Abyssinia took advantage of and betrayed him. And that’s not necessarily his fault. But it sure isn’t Omen’s fault either, and the best Jenan can hope to do now is leave. Leave and try and make a new life for himself without the support of his dad. Because he wants to kill Omen, yes. But killing Omen won’t actually fix his issues because Omen is not the source of all his problems. And so he leaves, and Omen gets to keep his life.

And for a background character, that’s a really impressive arc to have. I think it did a good job reflecting positive versus toxic masculinity and how much the place he was raised in impacted his actions and his eventual fate. Fellas, I do not like Jenan but he is a criminally underrated character. Thank you all for coming to my TedTalk, this is the best I can do in twenty crazed minutes with my phone.

[origami-butterfly]

Oscar Malevolent, for your consideration

I am never not considering that man...

[fandomtrash-16]

im being normal about my hyperfixation i swear-

[nyasogii]

valant’s twirling staff sprite makes my brain smooth i hope someone gets me on this

[valkoinenlintu]

he's so sad...

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[d-amore]

he has so much depth to his character he seems silly by most of the other characters and the fandom itself but deep down he's just a teenager that wants validation and since not knowing other forms of getting it he resorts to get that validation from playing baseball and impressing girls. danganronpa leon kuwata they could never make me hate you and i'm so glad you chose me as your girlfriend bc i understand you on a personal level. i'm your biggest defender and we're making out sloppy style rn

[brucie-baby]

the fact that alfred was the one to put up jason's memorial is so important to me

[jeanivere]

arthur morgan tiddies and tummy thats all im gonna say

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HE WAS SEVENTEEN. AGHHH ULDER WHEN I GET MY HANDS ON YOU

[clarisse-doodles]

inspired by this post, in which Damian does not know what Vine is