#so it’s on theme for me atm

[happyheidi]

she is broken because she believed

[coriander-candlesticks]

Hail Apollo and Hermes for helping me get my ass in gear to take care of a couple financial things that have been stressing me out for a while! ...and for the reminder to not impulse spend.

[difeisheng]

If you're comfortable with it will you talk more about your original characters?

hello!! flattered that you'd want to hear about these characters taking up my headspace 😅🥺💜 i will warn that the project these ocs are from is very much in the rough developmental stages and i have a LOT of research and worldbuilding to do, plus some existing stuff might change, but! here's some things about it:

this started out as an au of sorts that @qiaowanmian and i initially brainstormed for something else, before they very graciously allowed me custody and the au grew up into its own independent brainrot. it revolves around shen yue, courtesy name hui'an, a boy who grew up with one foot in the jianghu and the other tethered to the palace and its obligations. the balance got tipped when he wound up getting himself involved in an ongoing war, and his deeds caught the attention and approval of the palace. in particular, the eye of the then-crown prince, xuan xing.

nearly two decades later, hui'an has made a name for himself leading xuan xing's armies as a general under the king, and as his majesty's favourite, in every sense that that implies. they're an inseparably bonded pair, and that fact is causing problems for the rest of the court, especially for those people who don't care for xuan xing as their leader. hui'an has his own issues outside of the palace walls, too, because everywhere he goes there is one very stubborn swordsman named hua qingsen who keeps finding him over and over and who won't let hui'an's past go there are reminders of the person hui'an might have become, freely wandering the land without care for the state and holding only to his own sense of right and wrong, if he hadn't spent half a lifetime giving his loyalty to the court (to a-xing. everyone knows that ultimately hui'an serves not the kingdom, but one man whom he loves). hui'an's life is cracked in half by these two worlds. between this and the palace plotting behind his a-xing's backs, who would like to see the king gone, their relationship is only going to end in tragedy for it.

(unhappy ending, yes, and that's not going to change, but honestly if you've read my writing before i don't think that's a surprise to anyone)

beyond these main characters mentioned, there's also people such as:

lang shijun, a-xing's eventual queen of convenient marriage and unofficial apprentice to hui'an, whom she met while pretending to be her own brother so she could get into restricted libraries + eavesdrop on court meetings to learn about military tactics

ruxiong, second prince and a-xing's half-brother, who doesn't want the throne more than he wants his family alive and together, but it's that same want that will eventually doom him and the people around him

ruya, ruxiong's younger sister and princess of the kingdom, and who out of these royal siblings insisted on putting her duty and position first in a way her brothers never quite could (she'll get an ending she wanted, though, won by active choice and not obligation)

like i said, there's much that i still need to fill in and develop for this, but here's a brief glimpse into what's been occupying my waking thoughts for the last few weeks! thank you for giving me a chance to ramble a bit and let me know if you ever want to hear more <333

[mercymaker]

almost 2am here so rambling time but gah

i miss my literary analysis classes. i miss that writing group i was invited to years ago. i miss just going absolutely nuts over a text. i miss discussing writing, characters. i miss the feedback. i miss getting excited hearing an older lady's memoirs on soviet-era nuclear plants. i miss the exciting stories of an irish immigrant. i miss the beautifully written, soul-touching tales full of mythos from a hawaiian woman. i miss having someone listening to me reading my stories, patiently waiting for me to go through the motions, only to tell me things that they found exciting or enjoyable in my text.

above all, i just miss the sense of community. the connection. finding beauty in all sorts of art forms. being alone in a foreign country, with relatively niche interests is just.. a lot sometimes

[sophiethewitch1]

kinda wanna write a fic where the dog is literally the deus ex machina

[hattedhellspawn]

Not that anyone rlly cares except my husband but! I am back on Tumblr :) took a long break for health and such and because I had little interest in the web for a while. Good to be back I missed seeing my funnies and sillies (mutuals and ppl I follow) 💜

[mrsoharaa]

I'm soo ready for fall! my self ship fall moodboard of me x Suguru! 🥰🍂🍁🎃🤎🧡❤️

🍂🤎 fall dates include; pumpkin patch wondering, crispy fall rainy kisses / dancing, cozy home baking (cookies, pies etc!) / movie marathons, enjoying the beautiful foliage of the bright colors of the trees, backyard bonfire with yummy tea/coffee while snuggled under a warm throw blanket, cute autumn pics / selfies, a nice peaceful walk around town to enjoy the beautiful fall weather, cute little picnic dates, bookstore stops, pumpkin picking + carving, attending to an autumn festival, hay rides / mazes, apple picking. 🤎🍂

[suffarustuffaru]

i just. remembered again that i have a fembaru fic but also the premise is. Very Messed Up hah and also it was written before the canon genderbent au with its official genderbend names for everyone so its also outdated on top of that T^T i had like. Genderqueer subtext going on too. but i also wrote this fic like almost two years ago and havent touched it in forever so im unsure if i should go back to it…. o.o but i would love to finish it one day if only for my own satisfaction hah… i had a very detailed outline for ch 2 (its a twoshot) and several scenes written already anyway!! (and also i would probably update those names, make minor edits, etc etc hmm…)

[therevengeoffrankenstein]

chicago is so two years ago, fall out boy (1, 6) / heaven, iowa, fall out boy (2, 4) / save rock and roll, fall out boy (3, 5)

[lovethatlaiduslow]

I get to kiss my girlfriend in ONE WEEK!!!!!

[mossflower]

ok while i’m ignoring the fact that i have a 9am lecture in six hours does anyone want to listen to me rant about nanowrimo

[vaguely-annoyed]

as i played a little chrono cross the game booted me out after a boss fight (boo) so in order to not rage play i switched to stardew and. lemme tell u about my silly farmer. she's. hope of faith farm whose favorite thing is charity and has a dog named adam. she always attends church on sundays with the others and i regret only a little that i'm too commited to the bit now. keeping her ass standing on the middle back pew from 11 to 2 to the best of my abilities. it's as time consuming as it sounds (affectionate)

[crimeronan]

thinking about how Unbelievably funny and also tragic it is if this is the first human lifetime that greywaren’s been, like, So So So Sick And Suicidal. like some of it is inevitable wrt industrialization drowning the ley lines and stuff, bryde was never completely full of shit wrt that, but i just. niall and mór truly TRULY gave this kid just. the WORST of their own personal qualities (rampant unchecked bipolar and rampant unchecked chronic pain/anger), along with absolutely NONE of the strengths, and then were like. you’re a toddler now. you’ll grow up a real boy! you’ll figure it out <3 we will not be helping or guiding you at all tho btw <3

like oh my god. oh my god. head in hands. fist in mouth. screm. sometimes people with generational curses will be like “okay.... any kid i carry has like an 80% chance of killing itself before it’s 40.... so i’m not sure that would be a good plan..... but also is that a eugenicist approach encouraging a world that’s super inhospitable to neurodivergence....???” meanwhile niall and mór are out here Fully no thoughts head empty both like “hell YEAH let’s have a kid we’ll be AMAZING parents we’re SO NORMAL AND ADJUSTED AND GOOD AT EVERYTHING. in fact let’s have two! gotta make sure they’re both super human though gotta preserve the humanity and all that. what’s the most defining trait of being human???? hmm..... i guess.... if we narrow it down.... maybe..... 

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................AGONY”

like.

you GUYS,,

[ichorblossoms]

ougughhgg i wanna draw my ocs so bad but...the Obligations....

[djarinova]

what if I started working on a new theme for my birthday??👉👈 (even though that's at the end of march tehe) that would be crazy.... right?? right??

[piierrote]

okay poll cancelled I have made the executive decision to move a majority of my normal blogging to @cowboysmp3 ! I will still post regularly here, but with more of an art focus with occasional txt posts/rbs abt current interests!

i’ll reblog this a few times over the next few days before i make the full shift :)