#so it was diagnosed as bipolar ii

[devotioncrater]

me six months ago when my therapist of 2 years said a schizoaffective diagnosis would be more appropriate than a bipolar diagnosis:

me currently, as i experience gradually worsening psychotic episodes without any mood shifts:

[squeakadeeks]

rotating my OC in my head wasnt enough. I had to bring him into the physical world too. four different times.

[ottitty]

started on another mood stabilizer 🥰 screaming crying throwing up and praying it works

[moose-driving]

GUESS WHO HAS TWO MORE POSSIBLE MENTAL ILLNESSES TO ADD TO THE LIST OF "THINGS I COULD FEASIBLY HAVE"??? IT'S ME!! *I jingle two paper cutouts in front of you*

[nerdy-nook]

Favorite nuerodivergant headcannons for Voltron LD?

Ooo I like this one! I’m going to do neurodivergent headcanons as well as mental health headcanons because I don’t think all of the characters are neurodivergent. Ok let’s start!

Voltron Paladins:

Shiro: He canonically has PTSD, although the show stopped focusing on it after season 2. So I’m going to keep that. He definitely has panic attacks (as we have seen) but has a good control on his triggers. He has to, to keep himself and his team safe in battle.

Keith: BPD and autism you cannot change my mind. You can’t tell me that after all the shit that poor kid went through in his childhood that he doesn’t have BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder). He checks a lot off the boxes. The sudden mood changes, aggression, abandonment issues, and feelings of worthlessness or inadequacy. As for the autism he mainly experiences sensory issues surrounding sounds and touch. We all know about his social skills. He also has insomnia.

Hunk: I think Hunk has GAD (Generalized Anxiety Disorder). He’s had it since he was in elementary school. It mainly consists of catastrophizing and physical symptoms. His heart races, and he sweats a lot.

Lance: He has combined ADHD. A classic case as a kid: SUPER hyperactive, couldn’t sit still, and couldn’t focus. His processing speed is a lot slower making it harder for him to learn in an average school environment. This made him self conscious growing up, thinking he was stupid. It’s something he still struggles with.

Pidge: Best girl disease! Jk. She has ADHD, autism, and is also a fellow insomniac. This girl will hyperfixate and work herself for hours. The team comes to do routine checks on her when she’s researching to make sure she rests. She isn’t really hyperactive but does have a hard time staying still. Catch her rotating clockwise as she types away on her laptop.

MFE Pilots (this is self indulgent):

James: With his strong sense of justice I can see him having a little bit of the ‘tism. I used to headcanon him as having BPD as well but now I’m more leaning towards Bipolar II. This goes a long with some other headcanons I have for him, I’ll make a hc sheet for him soon.

Ina: She has autism. She was diagnosed at 3 years old. Her parents were tipped off by the fact that she was selectively mute when she was younger.

Nadia: Also has ADHD She mainly struggles with her impulsivity issues. She has a really hardy time keeping organized. Did someone say organized chaos? Her rooms always a little bit of a mess but she knows where everything is. Once she sets something down she can never find it.

Ryan: I literally can’t think of anything for him, he’s just a neurotypical guy. Nothing wrong with that.

Thanks for the ask BTW!!

[wolfrayetlaw]

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[z0mbbiegvrl]

ׂ╰┈➤ SERIES INFO

↳ an: this will explain background from the story since all the characters are in their senior year as the story progresses. Keep in mind this is an AU/SMAU, so a lot of things are added for the story or made up by me, but it is based off the south park story.

↳ reader is y/n cartman; eric cartman’s twin sister, though they don’t share too many similarities (in the sense of psychopathic stuff)

FRIENDS...

★ craig tucker - very close with y/n. has a fake rivalry with stan. y/n has a tendency to crash his and tweek’s dates because you have bad timing issues. he’s the only person that y/n completely trusts with their secrets and inner thoughts. pretty much two peas in a pod, one always with the other. both have a lot of inside jokes. sometimes you ditch Craig halfway through the hangout and go spend time with his little sister, tricia.

★ wendy testaburger - also close with y/n. the two became friends when they tried out for cheerleading. y/n tends to ask her for real advice knowing she’d get it from wendy. y/n supports wendy in her political activism and does go along to certain protests with her if asked. like to have sleepovers even though wendy doesn’t care for eric; they keep the bedroom door locked. 

★ bebe stevens - another close friends of y/n; also becoming friends during the first week of cheer. bebe started the love guru business. they go shopping together a lot. the person y/n goes to for drama. bebe comes to y/n for relationship advice. y/n has sleepovers at bebe’s house and the two watch girly movies that bebe picks out. bebe is the one who pushes y/n and wendy to go to parties and not be reclusive; especially y/n. despite seeming superficial she always has a smart remark to say and gives good advice (similar to my favorite satc character, charlotte!)

★ leopold “butters” stotch- still the sweetest boy alive. y/n is the only one allowed to call him leo. often keeps y/n grounded with his positive outlooks and mindset. definitely her go to shoulder to cry on. You defend him from bullies (started when they were younger). never backing down from a fight in his honor. says howdy! to everyone every morning. academic overachiever. started cleaning up trash at parties. best hugs. 

★ kenny mccormick - lead guitarist in the band crimson dawn. best friends with y/n since kindergarden. big pothead, but not to the point where it’s a problem. pretends to be dumb on the outside, but is smart. works a job to provide mostly for his little sister. karen adores y/n. y/n and kenny have a small history but the two haven’t talked about it. smells like cigarettes, but everyone still wants to sit next to him. volunteers at local events, like community cleanup. was hired to be the mascot. 

★ stan marsh - lead singer in the band crimson dawn. short-tempered, but very sensitive. hates his family lovingly. has depression, and takes anti-depressants. has an alcohol problem, though he’s trying hard to fix it (y/n tries to help, mostly because wendy doesn’t know about it). struggles with hangovers, yet still goes to classes sometimes. keeps up with his football team religiously, way too emotional about it. argues with the tik tok interviewers on campus. gets kenny to help him bleach his hair; eric bullies the hell out of him for it. 

★ kyle broflovski - has had a crush on y/n since the 4th grade even though now he hides it by pretending to hate you to which you give the energy back. The smartest in the class. Is on the basketball team. Hates anything to do with alcohol or drugs. An awkward teenage boy. Slow BUrnnnn. whenever his mom calls him, eric takes kyle's phone and starts talking to sheila himself. terrible at small talk. falls for ragebait online; also chronically online.

★ eric cartman - y/n’s twin brother, five minutes younger, still an asshole. is trying his best. has chilled down a lot since 4th grade. was put on medication and sent to therapy after being diagnosed with Bipolar II disorder. is surprisingly a lot better after starting medication. he pretends not to tolerate anyone but actually has a soft spot for his friends. he’s still a jerk to people but has mellowed out in schemes and psychopathic tendencies. forgets to take his meds and can be insufferable when liane doesn’t remind him. tiktok famous. reddit mod on the school's subreddit. records the main four + butters at parties. works as a guide tour for the high school, so he could spread misinformation.

[mrstellmeafuckingsecret]

hi! ok so for your marauders ask post, Sirius, 5, and 13. ps your blog is gorgeous.

i love u thank yew ☹️☹️ + herep!!

5: a headcanon i have

so many, but bipolar sirius !!! it's basically canon to me, like bp II and it's genetic (his mother had it before him, her father before that). he gets diagnosed (by like lily, never by an actual doctor unless modern au) when he's fifteen and his friends get him high because it usually helps (sometimes it gets worse but he's always getting worse)

13: an image that reminds me of them.

any pictures of this taylor swift look 💔

ask game

[cloudy-em]

Okay, after reading your Lip fics (the eating pussy ones), I think we need... NEED... something similar with Carmen. That is highly needed, my friend 😂

The man would just gladly take his time and make her desperate🫠😂

hey hon! so sorry this took so long omg i was on a little unannounced break my love life was shit (it's a lot better now) and i was recently diagnosed bipolar ii but i've gotten my shit together methinks and i'm glad to be back because i genuinely love writing for my lovelies <3

MINORS DO NOT INTERACT!!

Carmen was stressed as fuck.

It had been a busy night at the restaurant and all Carmen wanted was to go home to you. So, when you got the text to be ready for him on the bed, you knew to follow his instructions.

Carmen practically raced into your shared apartment and into the bedroom, where he was pleased to see you laying completely bare with your legs spread. All for him.

He practically crawled to you, grabbing your legs and pulling you towards the edge of the bed.

" 've been so stressed, babe. Busy night," he mumbled, slowly kissing from your left knee up towards your thigh. Forever a tease.

"Yeah?" you questioned, propping yourself up on your elbows to watch him.

"Mhm," Carmen hummed before pressing a kiss on the center of your pussy.

You threw your head back in response, not moaning yet, but satisfied to finally be getting some action.

Carmen slowly licked your pussy lips with a flat, wet tongue moving from your hole to your clit, which he flicked once before placing a kiss on your right pelvic bone.

"Carmy," you whispered.

"Shh," he responded. "I wanna take my time."

He slowly swirled his tongue around your clit, taking his time just like he said he would. He then turned his attention to the lips again, pressing wet kisses against them.

You were growing frustrated, desperate for him to just eat your cunt like a man starved. You laid back and tangled your hands in his curls, tugging gently, trying to encourage him to go faster.

He hummed against your hole, sending vibrations through your core. He licked another fat stripe up your cunt, moving towards your clit again.

Finally, he sped up a bit, flicking your clit with his tongue, moving the hood back slightly and making you shiver in pleasure.

"You like that baby?" he asked.

"Yes," you moaned, tugging his hair again and pulling him into your pussy.

Carmen didn't stop. He could feel the waves of desperation coming off of you. He gave in to you, eating you out and putting all of his stress into his mouth, using it to please you.

He began sucking your clit, pulling the bud into his mouth. He didn't stop when he heard you moan, nor when he felt your legs shaking next to his head. You came, a string of curses falling from your lips.

"That's it baby," he whispered. "That's a good toy."

[thisbarbiereallylikesbirds]

bipolar & autistic splinter? elaborate plz :3

So for starters as a neurodivergent person myself not ONE of the Hamatos is neurotypical. I landed on him having autism just because in my interpretation he fits the diagnostic criteria. I think that the Lou Jitsu movies and art history are special interests of his!

As for him having bipolar disorder, I think most people agree that he's depressed. He struggles with self-loathing and and feeling of failure and also has difficulties getting himself to do much more than eating, sleeping, and watching TV. As for why I think he has bipolar disorder specifically, we see several instances where he will suddenly insist that the boys start training, or get a big push of motivation to do something. Since he struggles more with depressive episodes than manic ones, he likely has bipolar type II.

I don't think he ever got formally diagnosed with either (not until post-canon family and individual therapy at Mikey's insistence). However there was probably some speculation.

[nthspecialll]

Cracks open an oyster shell to reveal a slimy half baked fetus esque Dutch van def linde inside

Do you think this sick little freak of nature is neurodivergent… or has any other disorders.. npd… bpd… etc… (no pressure to like. Actually diagnose or anything I’m assuming you aren’t a licensed psychologist, more for character analysis. Thank you so much, love your work!)

Oh he definately has something but yes I am not a psychologist and my experience with ND is limited to autism, ADHD, OCD and dyslexia because those are my family heirlooms, thus I would not feel comfortable diagnosing him but what I can do is present what fits and what does not fit about the most common diagnosises that people put on him as well as pointing out things others with more experience with these diagnosises says.

NPD- Narcissism

Dutch believes himself to be superior to others, which is very visible in many different ways, like his tent being the most luxurious to not allowing Molly, his girl to work. Which is also a big part of his entitlement, he expects others to look up to him, he expects people to treat him well, to cater his every need, and he gets angry when people doesn't.

He lives on admiration, which can be why he leans so heavily over to Micah late game when everyone else pulls their attention away from him, causing him to get angry. This time he is also very unable to handle any critisism thrown his way, reacting aggressively to it rather than listening.

One of the most obvious signs that makes people think narcissism is his willingness to exploit other, from the gang memebers to the native americans, using everything to his own advandage. He even says it himself, he is helping the natives because it helps him.

He created that friendship with Eagle Flies beacuse it boosted his confidence and his image, he lived in Micah's friendship because it fed his confidence and his image.

Narcissists tend to lack empathy and he does state in a camp event with Susan and Arthur "did you hear that Arthur? I am meant to consider feelings now!" and he is also quite arrogant, talking down to Arthur when he tries to come up with a plan in chapter 6.

Now, that said, narcissists cannot form meaning bonds which Dutch has done several times, for example with Hosea and with The Count. They are actually known for being terrible animal owners and are known for being able to fake friendships for a short amount of time while using others, not for thirty years.

Narcissits are also prone to bragging, which we do not hear Dutch nor does he belittle other people's achievements, and while he can seem like he doesn't show feelings and empathy, he does. He is genuiently sorry when Arthur gets kidnapped by O'Driscolls, he is sad when Hosea dies, he listens to John when Jack is kidnapped.

I also would not say he is fishing for compliments, which they are known for, there are also requirements for narcisissm which we don't have enough information on, such as fragile ego and requent self-doubt.

Bipolar

Dutch in the beginning of rdr2 is a very regular dude, he has signs but he seems okay, but as time goes on, especially in chapter 4-6 we see him go up into something that can look like mania.

He does not sleep, he can work without rest. He is easily irritated, his self-esteem is through the roof and he is impulsive. He constantly obesses, he leans over to people who feeds his ego, he is paranoid and he has a lot of grandiosity.

In the first couple of chapters it does also seem like we have some episodes. After settling in Horseshoe Dutch says sorry to Hosea about Blackwater, that he made a fool of himself and doesn't know what happened, similarly with after Arthurs kidnapping.

But then we come to chapter 5-6. What does not fit here however is the fact we don't see a crash, mania cannot go on forever and yet through the months of chap 5-6 there is no crash, he does not return to his regular state. We also see the same things in rdr1, again, no crash and it has been years.

"That said, I've yet to see his crash. The mania, which separates bipolar from major depression, can't just go on forever." which was wisely said by a player diagnosed with bipolar.

Borderline personality disorder

Dutch has a very strong fear of being abanonded, he does not like others leaving him, thus he is willing to leave them first, such as leaving John in jail before allowing him to get out and leave him.

He has a lot of paranoia and looses touch with reality, such as the situation in which he is standing, but also randomly yelling out or talking to himself in chapter 6, similarly he is prone to impulsiveness, doing things that aren't exactly thought through which ends people being harmed.

While he doesn't make threats of self-harm, he did die by suicide, though I would say it was more a powerplay than a fear of abandonment.

He is quickly angered, especially in the later chapters and acts out violently throughout the story

Now we have some other "critiria" like wide moodwings and "Quick changes in how you see yourself," I saw a redditor say this: "Although Dutch sees himself as an anarchistic Robin Hood-type hero during RDR2, he's clearly conflicted by RDR1, presenting himself as both a freedom fighter and a savage who can't fight his own violent nature." And while that is true, it does not fit the critira. It is not a quick change going back and forth but rather a steady but stable decline to that. A lot of people forget that it isn't just a change, but a back and forth we need for this diagnosis, and to me it is more that he is, as said, steadily moving, when he has reached one level of "madness" he doesn't go back.

Then we have a few critera I don't think fits, like unstable relationships, he has a lot of longer, fairly stable relationships such as with Hosea and Arthur and John, those were stable for 30 years before falling apart at the end. Again we are missing the movement back and forth.

End Note

As said, I am not a psycologist and if anything is worded wrongly in a way that may seem offensive, I appologice and please let me know.

[silenthillmutual]

do you know if there's any analysis post of daniil's bipolar coding pre-quarantine (like your autistic daniil post)? it always made sense to me but i wanted to see if there's any comprehensive breakdown of all the symptoms you could argue he has

i don't know if there's a pre-existing one, but i can give you a quick rundown of what i have on hand at the moment.

from the dsm-5:

bipolar i criteria is that the patient must have experienced one manic (or mixed) episode. this episode my follow or be followed by an episode of hypomania or major depression, but these are not necessary for a diagnosis. only the mania is.

the mania must be severe (causes significant impairment to social, occupational, or other areas of functioning)

the manic episode cannot be explained away by another mental health condition (delusional or psychotic disorders including schizophrenia and related disorders) or substance use

here, mania refers to:

abnormal and persistent elevated mood (can be either a 'good' thing or a 'bad' thing; people w/o bipolar tend to associate mania with euphoria, but it can also be a period of profound irritability)

mood disturbance must be accompanied by three or more of the following symptoms: - inflated self-esteem or grandiosity - decreased need for sleep - more talkative (may feel pressure to keep talking, feels uncontrollable) - flight of ideas / racing thoughts - distractability - increased goal-directed activity (social, work, sexual, etc) or psychomotor agitation - excessive involvement in risky behaviors (spending money you don't have, 'sexual indiscretions', etc etc)

i'm not going to get into the criteria for bipolar ii at the moment, although i think you could argue daniil goes from bipolar ii in classic to bipolar i in patho 3 (this does happen; if are diagnosed with bipolar ii and experience even one manic episode, your diagnosis will change to bipolar i) if for no other reason than because his psychological issues have clearly grown more severe.

have some screenshots below the cut:

I've made up my mind. If I am not to go back victorious, then I'd rather blow my brains out with this very revolver. I'm cornered. I'll never be able to look the people I've failed to protect in the eye. My allies will end up in prison or exile, my research... in fire.

daniil stating he's going to kill himself in pathologic classic (he does this more than once, this is just the screenshot i have on hand)

Has he ever told you of the similarities the two of you bear? That you could end up in a position similar to his - and vice versa? That being an inevitable victim of circumstance is the only fate available to a genius? I ask you to be precise. A lot of things hinge on your answer.

aglaya comparing daniil to peter, who she's just described as being mentally unwell (and doomed) [it is my personal theory that peter represents the 'depression' and andrey the 'mania' while daniil is the 'mixed state']

I can barely understand it myself. Could death only seem inevitable to us, but in reality be nothing more than a whim of the will that had shaped this world? That is the question. So where is the key to my victory?

i'm sure you could say this is just daniil being pompous and this connection is a bit loose but i personally think this is what i talk like when i'm hypo/manic so i'm including it under 'grandiosity'

Murderers! Stop right now, or I'll shoot you!

did you know daniil can threaten to kill the people who burned the woman in the bone stake lot?

i could share every screenshot i have that i think points to something, but i shan't. that would be too long.

daniil's grandiosity in general is really easy to find because of his generally inflated self-esteem. in classic & patho 2 i think it's a little harder to make a case about whether or not he's 'just like that'; by my interpretation he's having a mixed episode, which starts out with inflated sense of self-importance and morphs into the other symptoms.

also i want to point out that daniil's actions do get more reckless as the game goes on. for instance, he mouths off to people more often despite that being a very dangerous thing to do in this town (calling saburov an idiot to his face, yelling at townspeople for being stuipd, generally getting more irritable in his dialogue options as the game goes on), he enters the abattoir despite being warned not to, he takes a bunch of pills and locks himself in plagued building to see if they work, he finds his way into fights - including against arsonists and soldiers.

for pathologic 2: there's daniil's breakdown in yulia's house about the inquisitor being like a divine pillar of light, where artemy assumes he's drunk because of how he's behaving; there's him killing the messenger on the last day, and telling artemy that he felt compelled to act because of how people have been spreading rumors about him for the past eleven days, the ending where he walks off into the steppe with everyone else to essentially commit mass suicide, he mentions killing himself a couple of times in marble nest as well... there's more but this post is already pretty long as it is and i have other writing to do. might come back to this later - and if you find what you're looking for, please let me know!

[yumiis]

haiii i was wondering if u could do yumi with bipolar reader. im bipolar and saw u r too 🐞🐞

of course. here you go ml <3

｡ﾟﾟ･｡･ﾟﾟ｡ ﾟ。 six months ; blake

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genre; hurt/comfort

type; imagine

tw + a/n // crying, reader has bipolar 2, medication mentions. this is all solely based on what i have gone through since my diagnosis of bipolar 2. i hope this can help comfort some of you.

read below.

Six long, tiresome months of taking those three stupid, little white pills every night at 9pm sharp. Not to calm your nerves. They were for your bipolar disorder, y'know, your lovely personality disorder. The thing you've lived with for years, but only just recently got a name for.

The day you were diagnosed was the day the puzzle pieces finally snapped into place. You finally knew the reason you'd get these bursts of happiness for a day or so, and then quickly spiral back into your depression hole for another two weeks. Bipolar II causes manic depression, manic episodes, or depressive episodes. You've experienced all three of them. None of them were fun.

Sure, when you were manic, you seemed fun. You were easily excitable, ready to do impulsive things, ready to conquer the world, it seemed. It was your brain searching for any strand of happiness. Searching for anything, searching for any kind of adrenaline. You were not happy, you were not ready to take over the world. You were struggling.

Your boyfriend could notice when you were having a manic episode.

"You okay?"

"Nope!" You'd say, in the happiest voice you could muster.

You got up, shaking your hands, stomping around his bedroom and pacing in circles.

Hey, it's okay. Calm down," He spoke in a more stern voice, trying to get your attention. You stared at him, "Calm down? Calm down?! No! I can't!"

Shortly after that, you'd break down in his arms. You didn't know what was wrong with you. You couldn't keep doing this.

That was the night that he suggested maybe looking into seeing a psychiatrist who could prescribe you some medicine to help with your issues. Once you were in a better state of mind, you warmed up to the idea.

That was six months ago. This is now. These medicines have made you numb. Anyone who spoke to you felt like they were speaking to a stack of bricks. Barely any vocal responses, only nods of the head and occasional "mhm"s.

These days, you mostly stayed in bed, aside the days you had to go to work. The days you had to go to work, your boyfriend drove you. The car rides were quiet aside from the music. Some days you'd be nonverbal before work. You couldn't form words. Couldn't find the strength to talk. Couldn't open your mouth. Sometimes the reason was all three. Blake understood that.

One day though, he tried to start a conversation in the car. "Babe?"

"Mmm?"

"Well uh, first, are you verbal?"

You sighed, "Kinda."

"Okay. Is the medicine even helping you? You seem kinda like a.. a fuckin' husk."

"Don't know. All I know is that I can handle a job now."

Blake sighed. "You really don't even need this job.. I make enough for us both, really, if you need anything you can just ask," You stopped him. You hated the thought of him supplying for you. "No, Blake. I'm not making you buy everything for me. That makes me feel all pitiful and useless."

You pulled up to your shitty retail job.

"I get off at 5," You grabbed your bag, "Love you." He nodded, sighing. "Love you too."

You put on your fake smile for every customer that walked through the front doors, checking them all out with a smile. The words "Have a good day!" were ingrained in your head by five in the afternoon.

You had to stay a few minutes late because of a small rush you had, but it wasn't anything too bad. You clocked out, saying bye to your manager, then walking out the front doors. You spotted your boyfriend's Honda, walking over to it and sitting in the passenger side.

"Hey," He spoke softly, "How was your day?"

You shrugged, "Another day."

He sat up a little, this was progress. You normally just groan in response, he was actually getting an answer.

"... Are you hungry? We could go get dinner or somethin'." He suggested. You tilted your head, thinking. You didn't pack a lunch today, but you really weren't hungry, and you didn't get paid til next week. "No, I'm okay. I brought a kinda big lunch." He smiled, you never bring lunch. "Oh! Okay. That's good then."

That's another thing. One of the medicines demolishes your appetite. You're never hungry, even if your body tells you that you are. You haven't eaten a proper meal in days.

You two make it back home. You go to Blake's room, setting your bag down, and lying in his bed. Blake goes up to Tanner, "Dude, they packed lunch today. That's huge for them, they never eat anymore." Tanner laughed, "What the hell are you on about? They didn't pack shit. They were down here all morning before they had to leave," He paused, taking a bite of his burger. "Never packed shit."

His face dropped. So you hadn't eaten, and you lied. "Oh. Uh, never mind. Ignore my dumbass." Blake went up to his room, seeing you on his bed, scrolling through your phone. "Hey.. What'd you pack for lunch? I'm curious." He asked you, picking your brain.

You panicked for a second. "Oh, uh.. I fixed two sandwiches before I got you to bring me." Blake nodded, "Uh huh," He sat down in his desk chair, "That's kinda funny you say that, 'cause we're out of sandwich meat, and Tanner also said you didn't pack anything this morning."

It was days like those where you felt like your boyfriend would leave you, but he never did. He stuck by your side, always. Even if you told white lies, even if you didn't eat, even if you're on medication, even if you cried in his arms, and even if you god damn hated yourself.

You were lying in his arms, crying into his chest. "Hey, breathe.. Breathe.." He softly spoke, cradling your head in his hands. He stroked your hair, pressing a kiss to your cheek. "I'm always gonna help you out, and I'm always fucking here for you. Always."

[manic-aliferous]

Intro (AGAIN)

BLOCK DONT REPORT.

my name is rosie

im 15

i use this as my space to vent so seriously block dont report.

mostly $h but some 3d stuff as well

diagnosed social anxiety disorder and in the process of getting diagnosed with bipolar II

my old account was up for two years before getting t’d (💔)

[fatass-adam]

Also I'M INSPIRED so-

Name: Jamesin (pronounced like the whiskey) Dionysus Kult but you can call me Jimmy (usually stylized as J!MMY because I'm an edge lord lol)

Age: 34, about to be 35 in Feb lol

Sex: AFAB

Gender: Male (I don't like specifying trans male because I shouldn't have to...I'm just a guy lol)

Pronouns: He/him/his! Please only use "they/them/theirs" if you get confused and can't remember, but never use "she/her/hers" or anything else! I've worked very hard to "earn" my masculine pronouns and I take them very seriously!

Sexual Orientation: Pansexual! I'm mostly attracted to cis dudes by sight (unfortunately tbh lol...no offense to cis dude followers because you all seem amazing!) but I can fall in love with a personality for the most part (that and I'm kinda scared to date a cis dude because I'm afraid he'll treat me like a girlfriend...but that's another story for a different post XD)

Romantic Orientation: Aro! Though I guess I show "romance" in my own twisted little ways?? I'm kinda demi at this point (and mostly just for @dreamerlucifer and @fel-rush lol) tbh but I like identifying as aro better XD It feels more fitting since traditional romance actually kinda grosses me out-

Mental Disabilities: ADHD, OCD, bipolar II disorder, anxiety, and depression! A few other things have been thrown around like paranoia and I'm 90% sure I have discalculia but those aren't fully diagnosed yet!

Physical Disabilities: Scoliosis, arthritis in several areas, and carpal tunnel syndrome...basically everything hurts lol. I'm somewhere between "too disabled to work" and "not disabled enough for disability checks" so I'm currently kind of a burden (though I make up for it by being a househusband XD) and I feel bad about that but that's a story for another post too I think lmao

Special Interests Include: Theme parks (mainly Disney parks and Universal parks...yes this includes the overseas ones and the cruise ships and such), rides (especially cheesy dark rides), and well...pretty much anything in the touristy type area and in the entertainment industry like animatronics, gaming, technology, and shit like that lol. I have a LOT of YouTube channels about this stuff saved and will gladly share them with you!!

Hyper Fixations: Mostly the band Ghost tbh lol, I can (and I cannot stress this word enough) literally infodump on them for HOURS-

Anything else: My hobbies include drawing, writing, cosplaying, and role playing. My fav things are sex, drinking, cats, and food! I'M SUPER SELF INDULGENT and believe firmly on living life to the fullest and having a good time! I'm actually in the works for starting a religion based on it and will be ordained once my name is legally changed BUT ANYWAY...I'm also a very social person and love going out, especially to our local gay club! I'm an amateur sex worker on the side but don't get to talk about that much due to social medias censoring me. My dream is to finally finish my original comic and get it out there into the world! YES YOU CAN ASK ABOUT IT AND MY OCS BECAUSE I WILL LOSE MY SHIT AND TALK TO YOU ABOUT IT FOR HOURS XD I don't get to just casually talk about my boys much lmao

AND...it's 12:12 AM and officially Munday so feel free to ask about anything else ya wanna know about me XD Adam can take back seat for just a day right?? Wrong tbh but I'll go back and forth between me and him to make it fair lol

Anyways, I think @dreamerlucifer should do this too! >:} Would tell @fel-rush to do it but he's more private lol...though he's obviously welcome to if he wants! ANYONE IS!

EDIT: I dunno where to put this so I'll just note that I'm also polyam! Well...for lack of a better word. XD I'm engaged to @dreamerlucifer and in a polycule with him and @fel-rush! I'm also open and allowed to have casual sex as long as I inform my partners and get the okay so there's that XD Which is cool because sex is my love language and I do it very casually on an almost platonic level lmao...but we'll talk about that some other time!

[vadersaber]

also to the people bullying Chappell Roan continuously, saying she's not cut out for fame & that she should push through and commit no matter what:

you know who did push through the pain and performed regardless of the aftermath and the pain? Amy Winehouse, Britney spears, Janis Joplin, Kurt Cobain and many others, most of whom are dead. they all got up on that stage & performed, even if they were feeling ill or depressed or in active addiction, and now, years later, we still mourn them; we remember them yearly and we keep asking ourselves what could we have done to prevent what had happened.

a break is what we could've given them. grace and empathy. mental health is just as important as physical health, and while it is upsetting to have your favorite artist cancel the day before, let's not forget this woman is diagnosed with bipolar II, and let's give her the same grace & empathy we offered when Lewis Capaldi & Stromae canceled their shows due to mental health concerns.

we are not entitled to celebs' lives or their sanity. they are human. so let them be human.