#so incredibly late to the whole thing lol but i feel it’s something im going to really enjoy so

[kaidabakugou]

guysssss! acotar has been finally purchased!!!👀

[gffa]

Hiiii :D I was just wondering, do you have any good Marvel fic reccomendations? Your massive list of star wars fics is like the no.1 thing I go to when im in a star wars mood, and all of them have been amazing, so thanks so much for that!! I'm just curious if you have any good Marvel fic recs?? If not that's fine lol, thank you for your service 🙏

Hi! Lol, I had to sit with this post for a few days because "Marvel fic" is such a wide range of possibilities, like are we talking the comics or the live action shows? The Avengers movies? The X-Men movies? Which section of those fandoms? Avengers as a team? Captain America? Thor? Iron Man? Daredevil? X-Men: First Class? Just... anything? I don't actually have a lot of comics fic recommendations (mostly because it's too hard to wade through all the movie stuff because so many people cross-tag into the comics tags despite it not being comic fic that those tags are now useless), but my go-to for Marvel comics are always: ✦ Betrayal + Paradox Law + The Game of Empires by Valerie J It's hard to describe this series, other than that about ~15 years ago, it was an ambitious attempt at taking various elements of the X-Men comics and weaving them into a coherent whole, focusing on giving Remy an epic backstory to explain his origins and his powers. It probably wouldn't really fit with more recent comics, but if you're a fan of late '90s/early '00s X-Men comics, this was a hell of a ride with cool powers, surprising family twists, time travel, fun relationships, and incredible ramp ups to tense situations that explode in the best way. ✦ The Gestalt Arc by Lori McDonald Another old school fic centered around the Remy/Rogue relationship and taking them on an epic journey, in an alternate version of what happened after their kiss in X-Men #41. The ups and downs of how they work out their issues, the lives they try to lead with each other, finding their path forward together, it's still one of my favorites for the era. ✦ Anything by Traincat for the Young Avengers My favorite is grab a blanket, brother, but they're an author that I'd write a blanket rec for, if any of the summaries sound relevant to your interests! They also write Peter Parker/Johnny Storm, which isn't my area of comics, but I'd trust them with it! But primarily I'd route you to them for their super fun Young Avengers stories, the Teddy/Billy and Eli/Kate ones especially. ✦ Anything by silverspidertm2, X-parrot, takadainmate, or Mythtaken Identity for Journey into Mystery and Loki: Agent of Asgard-era fic. This is when I was in my prime era of reading Thor comic-centric fic, around Journey into Mystery and Loki: Agent of Asgard, when he was Kid Loki and then Teen Loki. There was a lot really fun worldbuilding or road trips or just feelings explosions fic from this era. Beyond that, my bookmarks are a bit of a mess, but you can scroll through them to see what you're looking for. My primary fandoms were: ✦ Daredevil TV, where I went in hard on Matt/Foggy (and some Matt/Foggy/Karen and Frank/Karen and a little Matt/Elektra), where I read voraciously for about a year before MCU burnout hit. Some faves are Double Blind by smilebackwards and Something Dumb to Do by poisonivory and jump, check parachute augustbird.

✦ Thor (MCU), which is actually the heart of who I was as an MCU fan, I spent a long time there reading a lot of fic and this will take you to my bookmarks with the pairings filtered out. I was a big fan of Thor & Loki's relationship so that's most of what's in there, and I always suggest starting with these three fics: ✦ Bargaining by proantagonist, thor & loki & odin & frigga & cast, time travel, 108.9k Faced with an eternity without his brother, Loki strikes a bargain to change the past. Post TDW. ✦ No Such Liberty by Xparrot, thor & loki & cast, 147.3k The first thing Loki said, after he had swiped his tongue over his lips to wet them, was, "You shouldn't trust me." ~ Following the attack on New York, Thor takes Loki back to Asgard in chains; but this does not mean that the god of mischief's schemes are ended, or that Thor has or ever will give up on his brother. But when Thanos threatens the realm to claim his lost prizes, on which side will Loki fall? [post-Avengers fix it] ✦ The Lullaby Singer by TheOtherOdinson, thor & loki & odin & frigga, 85k wip Odin hasn't left Asgard in over a thousand years. When he finds out Loki is still alive and preparing to launch an attack on Midgard, he could send Thor to stop him. Or Odin could go himself. As a bonus, I have a few more Thor genfic recs here.

✦ Captain America (MCU), where sure I liked some gen fic but lbr I was there for the Stucky. I mostly read during the height of the post-TWS fervor and then tapered off a lot after that (given how hard they swerved away from their relationship) and I haven't read almost anything in the fandom since Endgame, but if you want some fun TWS-era fic, I put together this list recently. (To be fair, I also liked a lot of Steve &/ Natasha, Bucky &/ Natasha and Sam/Natasha, so you can find that in there, too.)

✦ Iron Man (MCU), where I liked a mix of some fun gen pieces and some Tony/Pepper which put me in the minority, but I don't care because there were some banger authors for both. If you're interested in them, I always liked pretty much anything I read by roboticonography. icarus_chained wrote a wider variety of stuff, but I've always liked anything I've read from them as well.

✦ Avengers (MCU), where I read a lot of fic, but it's kind of all mixed in together, even some sprinkled in Black Panther fic, some Spideypool that was super fun for a hot minute, some Guardians of the Galaxy characters showing up, etc. Step carefully if you're not interested in pairings (I read a fair amount of Tony/Loki and Steve/Loki in amongst the other stuff), but honestly by the end I was probably reading more gen than anything.

✦ X-Men: First Class-verse, which is my exception to not reading much for the live action versions of the X-Men, because I am a long time Pietro Maximoff fan and while Peter wasn't my Pietro, I did love him and there was some absolute banger fic for the Dadneto trope, which was where my heart was at. Come Together by blarfkey is absolutely the first place to start!

Hopefully this is what you were looking for, but if you have further refinements on what you're interested in, let me know and I'll try to give some pointers! I've been out of reading Marvel for awhile, but I have a huge backlog from when I was in it, at least. 😂

[rinnsverse]

Hello hello, may I request a Stelle x m!reader (or gn!reader) oneshot please?

Stelle finding drunk Y/n while walking around in Penacony, blabbering about how their beloved raccoon is the best gal that ever appear in their life (and singing all praises imaginable)

Y/n said all of that in front of her face, not realizing that they're talking to their said beloved raccoon.

Stelle's ice cream dropped.

And they're not in a relationship. (Oof lol-)

DRUNKEN DAZE — stelle

TROPES: crack, pining, accidental confessions

PAIRINGS: stelle x male!reader

UNIVERSE: canon-ish

WARNING(S): alcohol

A/N: in all honesty, me creating this is like a shot in the dark since i have no clue wtf im doing 😭

THE DRINKS IN Penacony's were in strong hotel bar, that's for sure. A few shots in and you could feel yourself beginning to get tipsy; it was difficult to classify if you were a lightweight or not, all planets had varying strengths to their liquor as well as classifications to them.

But it wasn't hard to determine that the drinks you ordered were strong enough to render you hazy. Knowing that it was getting relatively late, you pay your tab and unsteadily leave the bar counter. 

As you were walking aimlessly, you lean against a railing trying to mentally put yourself together at the very least. Letting out a sigh, you look towards your right and spot a familiar head of grey hair also leaning on the railing; ice cream in hand.

Propping your elbows back up on the railing, you squint your eyes at the figure next to you. She meets your eyes and turns her whole body towards you, "Hey, do you need something?"

You merely hum in response, resting your head on your hand, "No, it's just that you remind me of someone."

"Oh really?" she tilted her head, taking another lick of her ice cream.

"Mhm," you nod, "She's amazing, one of the best things to ever happen to me. Her and the Express Crew. I never really had people like them in my life before the Astral Express, and I wouldn't trade it for anything."

"I'm glad you see us— uh, the Express that way," she smiled, scooting closer to you.

"Best people in my life, not that I had anything else to work with before them, but still; we gained a new crewmate — ha, crewmate — recently. Well, not really recently y'know, we've already been through a lot together."

"And what do you think about this new, 'crewmate,'" she questioned, gazing at you as you look up at the ceiling of the hotel.

"Talented, brilliant, incredible, amazing, show-stopping, spectacular, never the same," you rant on and on about your admiration for her, something she knew you would've never told her directly to her face.

"Really?"

"Really," you nod, assured in yourself, "I wonder if she thinks the same way about me."

"She does," she affirms.

"What makes you so sure?" you inquire, turning to look at her straight on.

"Just trust me," she pats your shoulder.

You close your eyes in thought for a moment, "Then, it would be safe for me to confess to her?"

Stelle lets out a noise of shock, mouth agape for a moment, "Y'know, I think it's about time to go to the dreamscape." Ushering you to the VIP elevator while you mutter disagreements and questions.

It took a moment for you to lie in the 'bed' but she managed to leave your room with a small sigh, "Hopefully you aren't drunk in the dreamscape too."

Eyes widening, she realizes her hands felt oddly empty.

Rushing out the hall and frantically looking each way of the corridor, she ushers over to the railing, looking down and seeing a familiar shade of ice cream below.

"WHO THE FUCK DROPPED ICE CREAM ON MY LUGGAGE?!"

On second thought, it might've not been her ice cream after all.

[radioroxx]

hi pluto i’m here to ask if u have any isat headcanons. about anybody! hope u have a good sunday :))

HAPPY SUNDAY VIA can i call you via. hello

ive mentioned my tattoo hcs before but im gonna expand on them as best i can rn because i think about it occasionally (i am making a lot of this up. right now! for you!)

ok so odile has a lower back tattoo she got in her 20s and i feel very strongly about this one 1. because i think its funny 2. because it makes her 10x cooler. the other day in my moots disc we talked about the idea of odile having a past polycule that she broke off from and so ive adopted that idea and decided the tattoo is a matching one. she does not regret it at all and is still (somewhat) in touch with her ex’s. siffrin was the first person she told about this, drunkenly btw, and for months afterwards he couldnt remember if it was Actually Real or just something his brain made up (and they were too scared to ask lol)

siffrin has star tattoos on his back and shoulders! i was considering giving him sleeves but i changed my mind,, he got them while he was still travelling on his own. possibly theres a region that is more well known for tattooing (havent decided what this would be though)! he was interested from a ‘learning about new culture’ perspective, also just because Why Not. he chose to get stars because it felt right. he somewhat regrets it. (maybe, post canon and later on their journey, he would try out something else. different designs. things inspired by his family! or things he wants to remember)

isabeau has no tattoos. not from not wanting them, but from just never really having the interest. UNTIL travelling with the party. until staying up late with sif in their shared tent and finding out that, on his travels, he learned how to (very basically) give people tattoos. and begs him for one. its like 2am and neither of them are thinking clearly so they agree. they ‘borrow’ odiles ink pot she uses for writing, a sewing needle that isa happens to have on hand, aaaand it. goes very poorly. as youd imagine. he is lucky to have the long sleeves to cover it up. whatever design theyd been going for was absolutely not achieved. but! he cherishes the memories regardless. (incredibly, they would try this twice. the second time would be after bonnie joined the crew, who would catch them awake, beg siffrin for a tattoo of their own, be told ‘no’, but would still be allowed to watch as long as they PROMISE not to tattle to madame and mira in the morning. bonnie absolutely tattles).

mira! does not seem like a tattoo person to me. i think she would be intimidated by the idea- partially in relation to the change belief, partially because she wouldnt know what to get. i like to think tattoos are probably pretty controversial to the religion… some people think they are a very powerful form of change! something you cant take back. others disagree for the same reason, that its permanent. so pre canon no tattoos for her. but!! but! as i mentioned before with siffrin getting tattoos for his family, i think mira might consider something as well (confidence boosted by the fact that the others will be matching). other than that though, it just doesnt appeal to her much.

bonnie has no tattoos also aaand it will stay that way for. a little bit. this is something that upsets them greatly because i also like to believe that nille has PLENTY of tattoos! possibly some she even got when she was much much younger! irresponsibly, of course, and many of them are regrettable. so she steers bonnie away from making that same mistake too young (tries to encourage them to wait until they are 18 at least). maybe bambouche as a whole is a very tattoo-supportive town, which is where bonnie got their interest. this does not stop them from making little paintings up their arms and having the others help out as well, to make up for it, in a non-permanent way.

i havent actually designed what any of their tattoos would look like… thats gotta be something i sit down to think about,,, one day maybe ehe

[x-stephanie-sinnz-x]

Stephanie Love, or Stephanie Sinnz ?

As some of you may know , my husband and I gave up the hotwife lifestyle for more of a traditional christian lifestyle, and I/we have kept from any type of outside indulgence........

That is up until last week.

I'm not sure exactly how long it's been since we/I have done  anything outside of our marriage. The best I can guess is several months.

During that time I have been incredibly horny, to the point I'm soaking through my panties, and have been soaking wet during sex with my husband.

Last week I had off work, and with no money and no place to go, hubby and I just stayed home. During that week hubby and I engaged in sex as we normal do, but one particular night was different.

Lately when he cums, if he doesn't cum inside me, he'd pull out and cum on me.

The thing is his orgasms have just been kinda flowing out, not the usual lengthy shots I/we are accustomed to.

This one particular night I was in the missionary position and he pulled out and blasted his cum on my face and up over my head, hitting the headboard.

Oh wow! I said.

Both of us being pretty surprised, I asked him what that was all about.

He admitted to me, that he was imagining my soaking wet pussy was leftover cum from other men. 

 

After a long talk that night, we agreed to start back up into our old lifestyle, but we should probably take it slower this time, and maybe practice a bit more attentiveness and prudence.

The next day we talked about a cum and dump, a gangbang, a train, etc , due to the fact we had a full free week.

The only problem was that it's been many months and I wasn't sure I was in shape for all that. Not to mention, we had just agreed on starting off slow. Lol

I have many many phone numbers blocked on my phone, so that night I unblocked but only one, that one was Quincy. I made the call , and he sent me to voice mail.

Before I could even process what the fuck! He messaged and it read 'I'll call you back'.

Roughly 30 min later he called.

We talked for a bit and got the long time no sees and he missed me etc, out of the way.

He said he had a new girlfriend but he still definitely wanted to do something with me.

I explained to him the whole hotwife lifestyle I was living and the change my husband and I took, and he agreed to help out in anyway possible, including meeting my husband, coming to our house, letting my husband watch, etc .

We planned for the following night, and so hubby and I controlled our urge to have sex in anticipation for the following night.

The night of I/we where ready. I made the phone call, no answer, I messaged, no response.

It was at that point hubby and I gave up.

We sat around talking. My husband was trying to boost my damaged spirit by saying what a fool Quincy was, and what a great wife I am, etc.

Hubby suggested we watch a feel good movie naked in bed, then he was going to make sweet love to me.

Halfway through the movie,  I get a text from Quincy, 'sorry, im here now, is it okay?' it read.

Still naked I spang from the bed, opened the door and he told me that we had to be quick cause he told his girlfriend he was just runningto the store. He told me that he had just fucked her, and that she had just cum all over his cock.   Hearing him say that got me instantly horny and I knew I wanted to taste her cum. Entering the bedroom where my husband still layed, i introduced them quickly, and they made a quick "Hi" .

I pulled out his cock and started taking it down my throat as best I could (he is big, very big). He was right that he must have cum recently and I could taste that he had just been inside of a pussy. 

I licked him clean before hopping on top of him and riding him hard until the thought of him fucking me right after he fucked his girlfriend made me cum hard. After I came he lifted me up and down until he filled me up with his cum. He made me lick him clean before he rushed out of the car and back home so his girlfriend wouldn't know. 

The whole thing prob took only a few minutes but it was enough time to stretch me out and fill me full.

My husband waisted no time in ravishing my used body, and cumming super hard inside me.

Ps. The next day I made a doctors appointment because I was have pain and cramping down there.

I got a clean bill of health, but apparently I was hurting because his big dick stretch me out so fast, and the cramping was because his big dick was slamming my uterus.

Basically,  I'm just out of practice. Lol

[misc-obeyme]

Ok sorry super late but it's me the solobarb anon and yeah i was mostly talking about the art but i also find the story so silly

but anywyas about the art REOAOASFGFDSHQWHHSS first of all BARBATOS'S SHOULDERS?.$.@"!(1!$+1+"!$ i started to go insane im sure i transformed into a whole another being when i first saw that card i literally spammed my friend with it until she had to BLCOK ME for whole 5 minutes and only unblocked me when i promised to not spam her anymore 💔

AND SOLOMON'S FACE 😭😭😭 HE LOOKS SO CUTE THE LITTLE SCARY HAND POSE TOWARDS BARBATOS ONLY FOR BARBS TO LOOK BACK AG HIM LIKE HE WANTS HIM DEAD 😭😭😭 IM CRYING PLEASE

and yes i agree solobarb is way cuter when they're getting along but also JFDJWDSS angry Barbatos is so funny to me 😭 i was caught so off guard when i started to play nightbringer by the way he talks to solomon, i already shipped them before but nightbringer just made them jump to one of my biggest canon x canon ships in om

i see a lot of ppl theorizing Barbatos was mad at Solomon for another reason and just lied to mc because he doesn't trust them and tbh considering how long it took for him to open up to mc in the og game it's a very believable theory but also Barbatos getting mad at Solomon because he wasn't the first demon Solomon thought to make a pact with is very silly to me i love that part so much

also in the part of the story where mc says they'd like to do both of their ideas and Solomon just says they're greedy 😭😭😭 i hate that man so mMUCH /pos

(also is it just me or Solomon looks like he belongs in evangelion in that card like the art style looks so similar to me....)

Anon, you are not super late lol. If anything, I am the one who is late in responding... alas, I'm still always a day behind on asks...

Anyway, yes, Barb's shoulders which we so rarely get to see~ I am sayin' he looks like a freakin' bride!!

Solomon is always adorable but that funny lil rawr face is incredibly cute lol!!

I suppose you could say Nightbringer allows for them to have an enemies to lovers sort of story... and you could also rewrite the list thing to be a story about Barb feeling jealous in a boyfriend sort of way...

But dearest anon, I'm afraid I am one of those people who has theorized that Barb is lying to MC about his real reason for being mad at Solomon. I think the reason would have been funny if they hadn't made such a huge deal out of it. But Barbatos rarely displays that kind of emotion and to me it just didn't make sense for it to be something so minuscule, even if it is funny. It seems a little more plausible if you look at it through a shipping lens, though. Like if Barbatos really loves Solomon only to find that he only made it eighth on the list? That feels a little more likely to me. But even then, I feel like Barb's just not that dramatic about stuff lol. I could get into this further, but I digress!

Of course, I know a lot of people enjoyed that particular piece of the story and I'm not at all going to say that they shouldn't, so it's all good lol!

Solomon saying MC is greedy made me laugh, too! I was like exCUSE me, but you two can't agree on anything at the moment, what do you want me to do, choose a side!?!? I don't think so! If saying yes to my two faves makes me greedy, then just call me Mammon. >:(

I wish I could tell you if it was just you, but I'm not familiar enough with Evangelion to give you an opinion, I'm afraid. I'm just gonna say that you are probably right and should trust your instincts!!

[irrealisms]

jun wu or bwx for character asks? 👁️

starting off: hi yen if you're reading this it's got spoilers so pls skip this post ty <3 u can come back to it when u finish tgcf which at your current rate will be in like. a couple days lol

How I feel about this character

Im Normal About Him.

the ending is. perfect. the bamboo hat. it's never too late. when he's defeated he looks relieved. quoting myself from discord:

he cannot face being proven wrong, because it means he’s done terrible things and hurt people when he didn’t have to. he wants so badly to be proven wrong, because it means that maybe there’s good in the world and not just endless crushing pain and evil.

i have a lot of thoughts abt him & the tragedy of him & his entire ideology!!! i am sort of failing at condensing them but i have a lot of thoughts about him .

All the people I ship romantically with this character

hehe. xie lian (i am a sicko). i can also justify this to some extent--jun wu/bai wuxiang (i think mostly bai wuxiang, actually?) remarks positively on xie lian's appearance a notable amount, there's the "makes one ache, makes one excited" bit which i cannot read as anything other than Kind Of Weird And Horny, there's the thing where jun wu tests xie lian's virginity by making him bleed on jun wu's sword (i have another whole meta in my heart about swords as blatantly phallic in tgcf but i assume you do not need to be convinced of this lol)--but honestly i don't fully stand by it. this is a ship i have at least 80-90% because i am a sicko. i hope you can all understand

My non-romantic OTP for this character

ALSO xie lian. im complex. i contain multiple guys. the thing is that i have a beautiful google doc that consists of every time jun wu/bwx is analogized to a parent/teacher and xie lian is analogized to a child and it has . like. 30 quotes? somewhere around there? it's a lot! it's a lot. "i have decided that we are the same guy due to The Parallels but also i am going to enforce this and Make us the same guy by Molding You into Becoming Me" is an incredibly good dynamic whether it is slash or gen, and i do think the "weird forced adult-child relationship going on" reading is in fact more supported by the text than a shippy one. also when i'm not being a sicko about it there's also something deeply beautiful to me about their ending, about xie lian defeating jun wu but also showing him this moment of grace. and of course the Parallels which apply equally when it's slash vs gen. also you may have noticed that neither this question nor the last one do i bring up guoshi. this is bc idgaf about him. sorry mei nianqing . he exists i just Do Not Care

My unpopular opinion about this character

im gonna be so real i have no idea what is and is not popular wrt jun wu. what are the popular jun wu opinions.

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon.

once again im kind of at the same place i am wrt mu qing of, like.... nothing, honestly? i am incredibly happy with what we got, i think it's beautifully written and the resolution is perfect, mxtx is a good writer and tgcf is a good book, no complaints

having a bit more of his backstory with mnq might be cool, i guess? we get the huge infodump but it's kind of just an infodump, it is just Pure Exposition, going into that a bit more / more naturally than "guoshi helpfully exposits for us" could be neat even tho i dont think its necessary. as mentioned i'm p much happy with what we got

(ask game, give me a character)

[storiesofsvu]

Omg thank god im not the only one who hated ‘mistakes were made’ by meryl wilsner 😭 it was so hard to get through..

two stars for ‘something to talk about’ should be illegal tho .. (i rlly enjoy grumpy mc’s tho)

I’ve read over 200 lesbian books, so i can give so many good recs depending on what you like reading! 🩷

omg okay, mistakes were made was sent to me by a friend and i did read it like, 2 years ago. I might reread it since i own it lol. reading the first chapter was almost like pulling teeth, i was constantly nitpicking ways to make it better like i was editing it in my brain as i was reading. It wasn't that hard to get through once i got past the first chapter or so, but it still wasn't good. and the entire time i was sitting there going "i could write shit better than this. I *have* written shit better than this" and that was when i realized that getting published probably wasn't some far fetched dream LOL. overall it had a milf, age gap, and secret relationship so i didn't mind it. I DID hate the ending, i thought the daughter finding out and being totally chill with it didn't....feel real enough?? i dunno how to describe it and i just woke up so my brain probably isn't on yet LOL. but it didn't flow that much for me.

Bruh, Something to Talk About was WORSE (not so much surprising when i found out it was their debut novel). it almost got 1 star from me! lol. the slow burn was WAY too slow, having most of the action start in the last 1/3 of the book was so boring, they strung us out for so long just listening to them work. there were some good ideas there, and i get what the author was trying to do, but there was TOO much going on and then all the little subplots ended up getting dropped out of nowhere. it felt completely one sided emotion wise, then late in the book it's revealed that Jo's been thinking it since the dress fitting. if we'd gotten some kind of internal monologue at that point i wouldve been more invested. I hated the conflict being the whole soccer games/being friends with the sister, it came off incredibly immature how hurt she was by it, didn't make sense to me.

there's probably a billion other little things that annoyed the hell out of me. The intent to write a good book was there, it just wasn't executed great. (in my opinion!)

i've got the third book by the author on hold rn, here's hoping i like it better LOL.

omg, please feel free to send them my way! i've got like, 80 or something on my "tbr" shelf on my library website but i've just been slowly trucking through them. (slowly is not correct i've been doing 2-3 a week lol) but i seem to be in a straight romance binge rn. lol

[alexandriteobscuraarchive]

((I'm going to keep this succinct because if I say everything I want to say I know I'll just end up feeling frustrated (to put it both kindly and lightly) and I, ultimately, want to go forward on a positive, healthy note. That deserves to be the focus and drive rather than any deep seated frustration or upset.

With the exception of one thread (and the applicable tcol threads that are being moved over to my other blog or have been moved already) I'm going to be dropping all interactions here and permanently archiving this blog.

This probably disappoints some of you but I've dealt with all of this long enough. This blog isn't a safe, healthy or good place for me to be in; in all honesty it hasn't been for over a year now, and no matter what I do to express myself, no matter how I try to accommodate others either ic or ooc, no matter what I offer or suggest, no matter who I speak to or how I reach out it just..... doesn't matter. Despite all efforts on my part I've either been ignored or, worse, sent hate message after hate message for reasons I cannot even begin to comprehend. And that's not fair. That's not fair and it never has been fair and I'm tired. I've put up with all of this for far too long when I could be somewhere better instead, like my new blog, or just..... anywhere else besides here. I hate to say that, I really do, but it's true and I should've realized that sooner and maybe I shouldn't of fought so hard, I don't know.

I'm tired of not being listened to and that includes listening to myself and so I'm going to leave and do what's best for me even if it feels a little 'too late' for comfort.

I will continue to rp on this platform (and maybe that's stupid of me; who knows) but I don't know when I'll be making a new variety blog. Creating a new blog from scratch is an incredibly stressful thing for me and I've already had to do exactly that incredibly recently as everyone here knows but..somehow I'll do it. Somehow. I know I'm going to and I know that I'll be musing pretty much all of the characters featured here (like Danny, my eternal beloved bias, he'll undoubtedly still be the face of the blog lol) and I know that I'd like to see some of you there and that I still want to write with you it just..... can't be here. Not anymore. I don't know when I'll make a new blog but... hopefully it'll be soon. It'll be a completely different url and such, I can tell you that much. I'll also be even more severe about who I follow and who I don't for reasons I..... shouldn't need to go into if anyone has been paying attention.

My inbox is completely disabled and my IMs are disabled as much as they can be so please don't attempt to contact me here. If you want to interact/write with me in the meantime you can find me on my other rp blog @constellationcrowned and if you want to chat ooc, potentially get a link to the new blog whenever I make it, etc, that's what discord is for. If you already have my info that's great and if you don't (and so long as we're mutuals) you can ask me for it privately on the appropriate blog. If I'm slow to respond to people regardless of connection please don't be offended and understand that this is incredibly hard for me to do, process, etc, but it's necessary if I want to not only continue writing but to continue enjoying writing on the whole. I have my tcol blog to help with that, thank fuck, but I still love the muses here and want to write them too.

It was fun while it lasted and I hope to see some of you on my new blog (and if not that's okay too, I understand if there are hard feelings or things you can't reconcile and I won't hold that against anyone) and you know where to find me in the meantime. I'll update this pinned to something more general/concise whenever I have things set up. I hope things go better next time.))

[nanjokei]

hopefully we get more info about mutei, yeah. any thoughts/'meta' on reiji isoi? or any character you'd like, really, he was just the first that came to mind

im not good at making choices so you will have to ask me if there's anyone specific youre curious about!

for reiji ill just talk about both LOL. S+ and DLC spoilers untagged.

i think our reiji is an absolute genius character. the fact that the entire real climax of the game hinges on whether or not you like reiji, its honestly a great burden that i usually see flop or gets overemphasized without really giving reasons to care (or really, giving too many reasons and having it feel forced). but, if you think about it, there isn't much in the plot itself that makes caring necessary— the base game is way more sympathetic to minoru than utsugi, but it is still very late on before the moment most will finally throw their hands up and go "oh this guy has it bad" so reiji's unwavering desire to do something for him is the strongest part of his character in the latter half of the game... to the point where he sort of played the heel to get his mission over with. even at his most antagonistic, coming back from a long absence from the plot which casts more doubt to the "why" of his actions— you do kind of wanna root for reiji, even if his actions are sus at best. im almost certain the initial reaction to the woof scene is usually always "no, wait, shinano, it's not like that, fuck. why now." even though it is INCREDIBLY suspect. subsequently, reiji and atou opening up to each other a bit and placing trust in each other with shinano eventually joining in feels like a ticket home to a good ending. a good ending which doesn't come if you don't put in the work for it.

it is precisely why S route is so genius. without reiji being such a good character, being so convincing really, the setup would warrant nothing more than an eyeroll. i LOVE it. and i LOVE the usage of ave maria there. and the domino effect that ending has on the survivors. pure definition of having to earn your happy ending. it is a stunt that by all means SHOULD NOT WORK. but it DOES. i'd clock it as cheap if it was a hair out of place in the execution.

as for reiji himself as a character, i absolutely adore him, he's so cute. his personality hits all the good points of "this guy was definitely raised by a bunch of weirdos and knows nothing else". i think the purity in his motivations and overall self philosophy is *chefs kiss*. his respect for LDL both as his family and his superiors is balanced incredibly well. in the dlc, the feeling of "you're a part of the team, but adult things are adult things after all" jumps out to me. especially the way reiji's actions seem to respond "but i want to repay you, i want to be acknowledged, i want to be useful." even before 2015 he was kept in the dark about things. now, i don't know if this is on purpose on fukao's part (obviously the date is on purpose but lol) but i do choose to see reiji going off on a suicide mission to save the son of the man who raised him, who he doesn't know, as a sort of coming of age. if you only reach S route, reiji dies at 20 years old, but if you get to S+, the very next day, he turns 21. i want to think it's intentional!! seriously god-like!! its enough he dies right before his birthday to begin with, but the fact that it's like that!!! AHHHH!!! i do feel like it may be on purpose given reiji's age is obscured as "early 20s" until the very end of S+ (the note that there's a 5 year difference between shinano and reiji). after S+, reiji has become an adult, who pulled off the impossible. his graduation from just being just a very highly attuned kid, a capable adult. also the fact that he's only hung out with a bunch of weirdo adults in his whole life means the gap between him and his peers is incredibly endearing

i love reiji. he's so good!

as for reiji numero uno, it's spoilers all around, so ill put it under the cut

honestly this is less about reiji himself and more about the circumstances around him... intensely tragic character. but it really is funny. i think its funny hatsutori basically used his existence, the potential of him being useful to misumi, as a way to mobilize misumi against empyrean and theodore. now i don't think misumi is some kind of misunderstood saint (though i have a feeling by com is out we're gonna find out he's probably one of the less demonic fragments) but the fact that he clears the very low bar of telling hatsutori off for being a homicidal psycho... well it's telling i think. even then apparently reiji wasn't experimented on immediately, and was taken care of before misumi split his fragment. but still. it is a state to be in. when atou and sanemitsu find out he's not only alive but sharing a body with a man who's probably well within retirement age the fallout is gonna be BAD

his existence as a device to further the motivations of at least like 10 other characters, is fun. it's fun. i like izu. i like misumi. i'd love to see the reiji part of the body izu is occupying to come out. is he still a 10 year old boy in there or what. definitely getting the short end of the stick here

[eldritchsurveys]

1232.

Could you be friends with someone who was exactly like you? >> It would be incredibly difficult because the thing about me is that I'm very self-protective and avoidant-leaning and if both of us are that way, then the relationship can't really progress. It's people with opposite but complementary traits (like being garrulous, emotionally frank, demonstrative, a bit nosy, hard to discourage, etc) that have the best chance with me, even if they also drive me batty sometimes, lol.

Is something expensive better than something made with love? >> Ultimately, if someone's giving me a gift, what I care about the most is whether I can use that gift or not. Sure, I would be over the moon to get a thoughtful, personalised gift from someone I care about, but I also am not going to turn down Sparrow's mother (whom I do not like) buying me things off my wishlist for Christmas that I wouldn't be able to afford otherwise. Like the really good earbuds that have been saving my sanity since this last Christmas.

When was the last time you lied? >> I don’t remember. I really don't lie all that much, if at all. There's just never any need to.

What do you think of stealing? >> I don't do it anymore mostly because I can't afford the repercussions for being caught, but I'm pro-shoplifting.

If you could be told when you were going to die, would you want to know? >> I’d rather not. I have enough problems.

What would you do in case of the zombie apocalypse? >> I don't have a zombie contingency plan.

If you died right now, what would be your biggest regret? >> I am always afraid of dying because the idea of dying without ever getting a chance to know what it's like to not suffer all the time is... really, really depressing. Like, what was the point of it all, then.

Are you happy with the way this last week has gone? >> It's been fine. What do you believe was your greatest achievement? >> Killed Korvaak the Eldritch Sun (aka he who hath stolen my epithet, the knave) on Ultimate difficulty in Grim Dawn without even being properly kitted out.

What have you learned from pain? >> That it hurts. A fucking lot. And there's a lot of it to be had. Like... let's be real here

Do you believe in freedom? >> Uh. Would you ever take a job you hated just to get money? >> I think trying to do this would break me. I am just not built like that.

Lately, have you felt rushed or bored with things? >> I have not.

What was the last text or IM you sent? >> I sent Sparrow a link from the city subreddit about an ADHDer meetup at Horrock's on Wednesday. How much TV do you watch in a week? >> I watch maybe like 7-10 hours of my shows a week, total. When you help someone, do you ever think, “What’s in it for me?” >> Not in so many words. I have an Accountant in my mind that is profoundly convinced that we don't have enough spare energy to be giving to anyone else, and if we give energy to other people, we will be drained and never refilled. We are afraid to extend ourselves to a world that we feel has never extended itself to us. Are you joyful right now? >> Not especially. But I acknowledge the capacity for such, which is a start.

Do you know the difference between living and simply existing? >> I know it acutely.

If your life was a novel, what would the title be? >> I'm not sure.

Could you picture any celebrity playing you in a movie? >> I cannot. There are a couple of actors that could possibly look enough like me if you squinted really hard, but I don't know if they could pull off conveying the way I am as a person. I mean, maybe they could. Who am I to limit a character actor's potential. How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are? >> What?

What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world? .

If a human life span was 20 years, would you live differently? >> Obviously. So would everyone. Society as a whole would be vastly different.

Do you think you have a lot of control over your life? >> I don't think that.

Are you more worried about doing things right or doing the right thing? >> I am vastly uninterested in "the right thing", because that's an ever-moving goalpost that largely depends on the morality of whoever is constructing said goalpost. "Doing things right" is more compelling, especially if it's a thing like "installing game mods without breaking said game". Would you rather have the cookie or the cream of an Oreo? >> Eugh.

What’s something you know you do differently than most people? >> I don't know, man.

What is the simplest way to make you happy? .

Right now, what’s holding you back? >> From what? Need some specifics here.

Would you rather lose all of your memories or never be able to have more? .

Is there someone you could just smile at and be content with? >> I... what?

When was the last time you had deja vu? >> I don't think I've ever experienced it.

Who would you like to visit more than anyone? .

What would you do differently if no one would judge you? >> *shrug* When was the last time you noticed the sound of your own breathing? >> I notice that all the time. Not because I breathe particularly loudly. I just notice too much shit.

Would you ever adopt a child? >> I would not. I also would never be eligible, anyway.

Could you change to suit someone else’s needs? >> It depends???

If you could be in a Disney movie, what would it be? >> I don’t want to be in a Disney movie.

If you could view the Earth from above, would you be disappointed? >> I can't imagine what would be disappointing about this.

Is there something you just cannot get out of your head? >> Songs, usually. Also whatever weird phrase has decided to become my internal echolalia for the hour.

Do you get jealous of people with fancy things? >> Sure. I can be envious of anything, honestly. It's less about the actual thing and more about feeling an overall sense of lack.

When was the last time you ate? >> A couple of hours ago. Have you ever felt like you just weren’t good enough? >> Sure.

Would you rather wear really girly or really masculine clothing? .

Is there someone you find incredibly attractive? >> Sure.

Do you ever get entertained by the simplest things? >> I can be, yes.

When was the last time you just stared into space? >> I don’t remember. It happens fairly often.

Could you pick one outfit to wear for the rest of your life? >> I would not want to do this.

What is the most amount of money you could possibly spend in a day? .

Do you really give a fuck about what people say? >> Sure, I'm bound to give a fuck about what some people say. Just not every people. Not even most people.

Do you tend to be curious or share your own opinion? >> Both? They’re not mutually exclusive traits.

Ever remembered a nightmare? >> Sure.

Is there a song from a genre you hate that you can actually stand? >> I think if I were to hate a genre, it'd be because there are no songs I've heard from it that I can stand. If there's even one, then I don't think I hate that genre. I just hate, like, the popular bands in it or whatever. Like country -- I really don't care for a lot of country music, but the songs I do like, I really like. You know? I just have specific tastes. What do you feel like doing right now? >> I don’t feel like doing anything different from what I’m doing now.

If you could make anything glow in the dark, what would it be? .

Do you really like the food at fast food places? >> Occasionally. Chicken sandwiches have gotten better thanks to the fact that Popeye's sandwiches were so popular for a little while.

Don’t you hate those people that can just eat as much as they want? >> The unspoken part is "and not get fat", and this whole concept is based in a really fucked-up paradigm about fatness that I refuse to entertain. I can eat just as much as I want, period. If I get fat in the process, that is a neutral correlative-but-not-necessarily-causative event.

Have you bothered to think of the future lately? >> Interesting phrasing in this question. I do think about the future, but usually in a despairing, catastrophising way. Would you rather have stars in the sky or the moon? .

If you could choose your phone number, what would it be? .

Would you rather be somewhere familiar or get lost? >> That would depend on if I was feeling adventurous or not. Are you afraid of what you do not know? >> Sometimes.

Is there something you are always interested in? >> My special interests tend to endure across the decades, yeah.

What are people always saying to you? . What did you last hear that made your jaw drop? >> I don’t remember.

Do you have a question for anyone right now? >> I do not.

Do you like buffet restaurants? >> No more or less than I like any other kind of restaurant.

Is there something you always order when you go out to eat somewhere? >> I don't think so. I do have things I generally prefer over other things, but I'm a rather adventurous eater, all told.

Do you mainly live by the moon or the sun? >> The Sun.

When was the last time you felt like you were starving? >> A few weeks ago. I wasn't, not really, but food insecurity is a bitch.

Would you ever dye your hair all the colors of the rainbow? >> I would not.

Do you miss childhood at all? >> Absolutely not.

What has made you laugh lately? >> Oh, stuff.

What drives you absolutely crazy? >> Oh, other stuff. If a Miley Cyrus song was playing in a store, would you leave? >> No?? I can't think of any artist so offensive to my ears that I would leave a store just because they were playing. Most pop songs are like 3 minutes tops anyway, it'd probably be over by the time I got to the exit :V

Do you like listening to music on speakers? >> I rarely do it, I prefer headphones.

Ever feel paranoid? >> Rarely.

Have you ever actually discovered someone watching you? >> Sure.

What would you do if you found an inappropriate picture of yourself online? >> I have no idea. This isn't a situation I'm ever likely to find myself in, so I don't have any thoughts about it.

What do you think of Facebook? >> I don't care for it.

Do you like extra butter on your popcorn? .

Would you rather have Junior Mints or Reese’s? .

Do you still use CDs? >> Not at all.

Have you ever taken a polaroid? >> I have. Do you wish you could live in the past just to see what it was like? >> I do not. Ever felt like you just didn’t belong in this place? >> Always. What was the last thing you learned? >> I don’t remember.

Have you ever avoided going to the bathroom because you were busy? >> Constantly. Also because I hate going to the bathroom.

Do you have anything underneath your bed? >> Just dust. Lots and lots of dust.

Would you want a walk-in closet? >> Maybe. I like having storage options even if I don't have a whole lot of stuff.

Do you like coffee at all? >> Occasionally. I had some this morning, in fact.

When was the last time you felt pressured? >> I don’t usually feel that way.

Would you rather have your hair straight or really curly? .

Do you use any products on your hair? >> I use scalp oils.

What is the longest shower or bath you have ever taken? >> I have no idea. I'm known for my short, efficient showers.

Still play with any childhood toys? >> I do play with toys, but not from my own childhood. Would you rather sleep with a sheet or a blanket? >> I love a weighted blanket and/or a nice, fluffy duvet. But weather is not always permitting.

When was the last time you were in physical pain? >> Monday, when I had to break into my own house through the aircon window because Sparrow had been back and locked the door behind them while I was gone (and I'd left it unlocked when I left and didn't have my key on me).

How many times have you broken a bone? >> Zero.

Do you have a preference of chocolate? >> My favourite kind is dark with sea salt and... uhh. something else. I haven't bought chocolate in months and I've already forgotten what my go-to variety is x_x

Have you ever thought anything was evil? >> Not really.

Could you make a statement about anything political? >> I would really rather not.

What is something useless that you love to do? >> I've actually decided that I only love to do useless stuff. Everything I do is useless. That's my thing. Useless shit. It sounds like I'm being mean to myself but actually it's been ironically stress-relieving. I think we're really tired of feeling like we have to be of use in order to validate our existence, and it's nice to go "actually, I'm going to do the opposite on purpose".

Do you have a favorite author? >> Not right now. I think Adrian Tchaikovsky and Mary Doria Russell are contenders, though.

Know anything about your family history? .

Have you ever been scared of something foolish? . What do you think of bejeweled things? .

Do you own anything “designer?” >> I do not.

Do you ever stop and appreciate little things? >> Sure.

If you had to draw your life, what would it mainly include? . Is there something that just draws you in like a moth to a flame? >> Sure. I actively seek out stuff that draws me in like that. Is there anyone you’d like to hug right now? >> Just Can Calah, as always. Could you ever picture someone writing a biography about you? >> I could not picture this.

If you had a few wishes, would you give one to someone who needed it? . Have a lucky clothing item? >> I do not.

What makes you feel more carefree than anything else? >> Good question.

And finally, who do you just adore right now, regardless of anything else? >> Again: Can Calah, as always.

[zak-shit]

waking up at 1 pm

never easy for me to wake up anytime past 10 am, i needed the sleep today. immediately in a mood because my father is home early from work. that is part of the reason why I decided to sleep in. I heard him get home around 9 am, so honestly sleeping may have been the best way to use my time. i already got pissy with him though. mainly because he got butt hurt with me for not wanting a big bite of cornbread right after brushing my teeth. "you cant brush your teeth again?" ur right, so i put the whole thing in my mouth. walked to my room and spit it into yesterdays cup. then brushed my teeth again.

anyways thats all thats happened for today. i came her for more than that. I've been needing to get on here and get some stuff done for a while now. and of course now, my mind is blank.

I realized the main thing im looking for in therapy is a diagnosis. It would really help to know more about myself, and truly feel like im not alone in this.. my flare ups of wanting to run away, being incredibly overwhelmed have been often lately.

i need coffee

i desperately want to be alone for a while. my house does not allow me enough personal space. i want to walk to the bathroom without being seen, or use the restroom without someone trying to get in.

I've also become more aware of my irrational thoughts, and just how silly they are. like the fear last night when i smelled something stinky that maybe theres something wrong with my house, or and end of the world omen and all the poop/ septic is going to rise from the ground and completely cover our house. the something terrible like that will happen just as the house is payed off.

in the past i would put all those thoughts to the side, as a means to make sure they dont get accidently manifested. bc yes i think i put out every single action in the world. i am a direct cause to every affect. but i want to understand myself. i want those thoughts to go away. they have always been here, and i need to figure out what exactly that is..

right now actually calling a therapist office and making a first appointment is paralyzing. and thats after i work through how paralyzing it is to choose one to call from the 100 available list.

theres still more.. i feel empty lol nothing is pleasing or satisfying lately. ive had good days, but i still just feel like im coasting overall.

[reidsnose]

Nose Taps (spencer reid x reader)

overview: the newest member of the bau develops a cute secret language with the resident genius

genre: fluff

a/n: this is my first fic so my apologies if its bad lol i tried. also its very short sorry ! but yeah lmk if u like it :)

masterlist

From the first day you walked through the doors of the BAU, you were incredibly charming in a unique way. You knew exactly how to talk to everyone, an amazing intuition letting you know just what to do. Spencer's curiosity had fallen on you; he was absolutely enthralled by your entire being.

the first thing that caught his attention was when you hand had accidentally grazed his.

it was a small meaningless gesture as you slipped past him, but he thought about it for weeks afterwards, in a good way. he thought about your smile as you apologized for "bumping into him". he missed the tingles that shot up his arm where your skin met his.

the second thing was much larger, he began to notice your kindness.

on only your second day in the office you stayed late to help hotch with paperwork so he could get home to jack faster. it was not a selfish act to get on his good side, rather an act of complete and utter kindness.

you brought JJ cheetos when she was feeling down because you saw her munching on them on the jet once.

you even got morgan to talk about his feelings for 4 hours one night after something was clearly bothering him. and morgan never talks about his feelings.

though you had just recently met them, you showed them how sweet you were without even trying. and Spencer Reid was no exception.

you stayed attentive to everyone who spoke to you, and when you noticed that people would often interrupt him or brush him off, it didn't sit right with you. after talking to him about it, the two of you developed a system. every time he didn't get to finish his thought, you would tap your nose to show him you noticed and wanted to hear about it later. then, at the end of the day, either in the hotel or on the jet, you would tally up the number of nose taps and he would get to ramble about all of it to you. it wasnt intentionally a secret but it was kept between you two, your little thing.

spencer thought it was the most endearing and kind thing anyone had done for him.

and you ate up every second of it, watching his eyes grow wide and then crinkle at the corners when he grew giddy about a certain statistic or historical story. you didn't understand how anyone could not want to listen to him.

soon, however, the nose taps evolved into something more. a whole little language grew between the two of you.

one nose tap from either party meant "im listening".

two nose taps meant "i have to tell you something".

three meant "i have to tell you asap".

an eyebrow tap meant "this reminded me of you" or "im thinking about you".

so on and so forth.

the team picked up on this little code between the two of you, but couldn't for the life of them understand what it all meant or when it had started. to be fair, they didn't have much time to decode while on cases.

to Spencer, this secret language was his most treasured peice of knowledge. And to you, it was your most treasured secret. and to both, unforgettable.

though Spencer had noticed your striking beauty when he first laid eyes on you, spending tome with you only intensified it. he found himself often marveling at the little details, especially on the jet.

the way your hair fell on your shoulders, the angle of your eyelashes, the blush that graced your cheeks when you laughed, the way you chew on your lip when you're thinking, even the barely noticeable wrinkles you have in your forehead from raising your eyebrows all the time. he was falling helplessly in love with every bit of you.

you did that same to him. admiring the itty bitty bump on the bridge of his nose right above the perfect little button tip, the curls in his hair, the way he puckered up a little as he talked, the way his whole face would crinkle up when he laughed really hard, his eyes squinting so hard they were barely visible. you were falling helplessly in love with every bit of him.

the team had OBVIOUSLY picked up on this, and though they would tease the both of you in private, they didn't dare embarrass you in front of each other. they weren't that sadistic. or so you thought.

one evening at rossis the team decided to have a powerpoint night. everyone chose a funny topic to make a power point and present about.

jj went first, presenting the slideshow titled "ways my clashing aesthetics present themselves through my sons"

next went morgan: "reasons i should be allowed to not wear a shirt under my bullet proof vest".

followed by Rossi who did "list of the fakest Italians weve ever encountered (they cant even pronounce gnocchi)"

after him was prentiss with "things i did while pretending to be dead"

and then hotch who made "ranking the bau from most to least childish"

then you went with "animals i think all of you resemble"

followed by reid who did "top 5 worst hospitals based on jello rating"

and last but not least, garcia. she went with "agents i think should just get married already we are literally not getting any younger"

you all laughed until the slide moved and there was a picture of Spencer and you, asleep on each other on the jet. his arm was wrapped around you protectively as you were cuddled up to his chest. you looked over at spencer who was matching your bright red face.

"y/n and spencer." garcia spoke before clicking to the next slide.

"wow she just cut right to the chase huh," prentiss laughed.

more images that the team had sneakily taken of the two of you riddled the screen.

one of you braiding his hair. one of him wiping frosting on your face from your birthday. on of the two of you mid laugh, mirroring each other exactly. a few more of you two on the jet, on cases, or even out at bars or at rossis with the rest of the team. so many of them and as much as you were embarrassed, you really loved all of those pictures.

"i really dont think i need to explain much, these speak for themselves," garcia chirped.

"i like that one," reid spoke up, pointing to the braiding one. ok so were going about that like this.

"i was just about to say that, but this ones also a close contender," you replied pointing to the frosting one.

"and that my friends, concludes my slide show!" garcia laughed.

"wait seriously? just us?" you laughed.

"yea.." she started, a giddy smile decorating her face. you looked over at Spencer and tapped your nose twice. he did it back but three times, cracking a cheesy grin. "see! and they have their little secret nose code thing! is that not relationship material?"

"you guys noticed?" spencer asked, clearly oblivious.

"duh." rossi joked.

[doomsdayradio]

Hello might be late on the TOSD stuff but the reason it’s even a “theory” is because… theory is a scientific term for something that is tested repeatedly with accurate results by many people. A scientific law is different mainly because it says “what happens” rather than for theories which explain the “why it happens”. I hate when people misinterpret a scientific theory to be on the same level of theory that the flat earth is.

Obviously this doesn’t mean it’s perfect and should be accepted uncritically (all fields of science are constantly changing and improving), but it does mean that no testing so far has disproved it. Not to mention some of the exact testing that would be needed as proof for either side is incredibly unethical, because I don’t think it should be controversial that forcefully traumatizing anyone, especially kids, in the name of science is wrong.

Im also personally a fan of parts language for myself, and just wanted to give my perspective on that too. I definitely think it’s an individual choice and neither option should be forced on anyone, even I use both. To us it’s the same way someone is a part of a company if that makes sense, we’re all part of the body/system. We’re all working to keep the collective functioning. We also have very low communication and don’t always have a clear idea of who is fronting because they mask as the host until after they leave and we go “that wasn’t the host”, so choices or when someone’s confronting often feels like “one half of me wants to do this, but the other half of me wants to do this” when really the “me” is multiple different parts or alters.

^^^ yeye this

i genuinely hate when people are like "well the TOSD is just a theory" like tell me you have a fundamental misunderstanding of scientific language without telling me 😭 also the part about being the exact testing needed to prove it would be unethical Literally Yeah Exactly That Thats The Thing Thats The Whole Thing

sorry i dont have much more to say i just woke up lol

[windupaidoneus]

i return. office jobs time. BUT AGAIN!

so emet isn't one to get attached as easily as hilde is. hilde has a big heart & big emotions, a tendency to think he can befriend Anybody if he tries hard enough, even the most antisocial of coworkers! or well. that IS the reputation he has & he is a bit. well. unpleasant. not a friendly resting face, doesnt go out of his way to chat up anybody at the workplace, more likely to make biting remarks under his breath than show someone even a drop more generosity & gratefulness than they "deserve" for a task well done - a curt 'thank you' usually is all one can get out of him. which tbf he is constantly drowning in work so spending too much time on socialising would!! ruin his workflow! is he incredibly stressed? Well Yes Of Course

but the thing is hilde is like. very problem solvy brain. he sees a problem someone else has & is struggling to solve & hes like >:[ i can protect you (from the unsolvable problem). & while initially emet would perceive it as meddling from a tolerable & efficient but ultimately A Coworker coworker it does give him pause when hilde actually solves his problem. [ said problem is, in all likelihood, something in the vein of "Something has come up that is going to make me need to reorganise everything in an entirely different manner & it's too much to process at once for me to work out when i'm already swimming in caffeine, ibuprofen, two hours of sleep & five impending deadlines (he's not a slacker he just takes on more responsibilities than is reasonable)". hildegarde's not good at organising his own affairs but let it be for someone else's sake & all of a sudden he's a master at working things out in a timely manner too! ]

so. he comes to hold hildegarde in higher respect through that. not that he disliked him before that but he was mostly neutral. sort of positive? definitely found Some amusement in seeing hilde fumble the act of walking & there might've been some endearment in it but like. he doesn't form connections that easily. not without prompt

after that i feel like they kind of. rely on each other's insight more. well moreso emet, bc he's the one who's been helped (& hilde. well. imagine feeling comfortable asking for help 😂😂😂 he'll get there though) so he's like. there's this reliable guy. i can get his opinion or assistance on things if they give me too much trouble. not a fan of asking but he does it so naturally & without really paying much mind to it that it doesn't feel like i'm asking for help that much so it's fine. <- also bad at asking for help but it's a pride ( 🏳️‍🌈? 🤨) thing for him

the like, trigger for hilde asking for help pretty much, is uhh... well. perhaps it is a little cliché (idk i don't read fic or anything. im gleaming the aura of these fic tags & websites from afar) but who DOESNT WANT CLICHE! right? it's fun! anyway hilde (points) is horrible at taking care of himself this remains true in any universe. is he staying way too late at his desk? of course. does he have my mental illness soup? obviously. let's embark upon a journey of "here he is, it's past midnight, he's exhausted & desperately trying to finish something BEFORE the deadline day but the executive is dysfunctioning + it's late so his brain is being not so kind & he's getting really overwhelmed just sitting with his own thoughts. in walks the only other guy who'd stay at work this late for similar reasons except hes actually got it handled a little better. he is now being (very delicately bc it's more implied than "you should do that") encouraged to drop it & just go home". isn't it fucked up when you start caring about someone who was kinda just there for the longest time & now you're walking them home at one in the morning? lol

during the whole time post hilde helping emet there was like. more communication between them ofc. not at all to the point of texting each other outside of Work Stuff but at Job they didnt exclusively talk about job stuff. ykw i even imagine hilde would on occasion come to gossip about a coworker they both have some beef with (hello thancred this is you) which hilde knows bc of emet's snippy remarks, & well emet did the same. & they would end up trying to sync their breaks so they could chat over their respective hot beverages & preferably with no one else taking their break at the same time. that was bonding lmao. at that point they would refer to each other as pleasant acquaintances but they are kind of already friends. it's just that neither of them will outright call the other that without being given indication that Is the case. emet doesn't really think about it that much unless asked & hilde doesn't want to be presumptuous. in all likelihood a third party is gonna have to ask emet about it so they can be Officially Friends. but they are friends at that time.

do i think they fucked on the Late Work Night? well. maybe. who am i to know really. (no. however likely emet had to stay over bc sleepy & upset hilde is clingy hilde. he literally could not leave. emet had the next day off it's Fine hilde even made breakfast & went out to the bakery to get him some pastries as an apology)

something that makes emet realise he's come to really care for hilde is probably learning hilde's beef w thancred is bc they like, were kinda together kinda not for a time? but thancred's nature TM makes it that it was impossible for it to work & also he has a competitive nature that hilde cannot stand. & suddenly emet feels a looot more comfortable getting annoyed at him for the smallest, most unimportant shit LMAO. i imagine elidibus is also one of the famed coworkers in that beautiful au (& someone emet would be more familiar with overall) & he's like. i did not expect you to have such strong feelings on someone you're never actually having to interact with directly. & emet's just shrugging. because it's actually the exact amount of beef he should have thank you very much

meanwhile on hilde's side of things shtola is praising his ingenuity in using his history with some other guy to get closer to guy who dislikes said some other guy. & hilde has to defend himself & assure her that is NOT his intent (she is just fucking with him. of course she is. she just also finds it funny when thancred has beef w ppl) (thancred & hilde are still friends hilde is just the gossipper & the bitcher. once again we shan't forget he is me in a lot of regards)

thancred voice oh so you're courting that prick over there by talking shit about me?? hilde voice i am NOT courting him. however i am talking shit about you yea sorry i remembered that time we played mario kart & you sat on me to make me lose & got mad. thancred voice if you were trying to get with anyone else i would probably forgive you considering the circumstances. but not HIM! hilde voice i am NOT TRYING TO GET WITH HIM!!

but he is. admitting it would make him feel shallow though. he did not befriend beautiful emet for the sake of kissing him of course. but well. impostor syndrome & the whole... yknow... thing where queer- is prince next to me??? hold on. (tabs into the game) (tabs out) yup hes joined me on the bench awesome. where was i. yea thing where queer ppl feel like their attraction is inherently predatory bc of Socieeetyyy. if you think i dont include societal issues in my writing WRONG! a world without homophobia sounds ideal but i would not write about an ideal world. i'd have nothing to write about if the world was ideal. so one of the many issues hilde has to deal with is insecurities regarding the legitimacy of his ✨ blossoming feelings ✨ for the handsome coworker who smells good & is very tall & has been really kind to him & they share opinions on important stuff & have decent banter on other stuff that never feels like an actual Fight is gonna happen about it just friendly bickering & did i mention he smells good & oh god his wings could wrap him up in a hug like a blanket NOOOO don't think about it it's Bad you're a CREEP! <- is this relatable to me? well maybe. SIGH

emet... ack. he's probably not really thinking about romance as a baseline. married to his work kinda guy. his work has started involving this one weird deerguy whom he's more or less befriended [as npc i shan't yet name would tease him about] more & more though. maybe it's time to think about settling down. <- shan't be named npc teases him saying shit like that for SURE it's the kind of thing where. ok these paragraphs are not chronological they go TOGETHER okay it's IMPORTANT to note that. these two would have smth similar going to like. what i've said about... other versions of them let's say. where they get like really close but don't Talk about it. they spend more time together outside of work & work functions ("ah, so it's a date then!" teases the npc. emet rolls his eyes), hang out at each other's place, maybe even go to a concert together if anything catches either of them's fancy & they don't want to go somewhere alone, they probably share a bed more often than not when spending the night together. why do they spend the night together? could've gone out for drinks & gone home together for Safety (or they're both piss drunk & walked home leaning against each other to try & keep themselves standing LMAO no chance for either of them to THEN go home to their own place without just collapsing somewhere on the street), emet's decided to clean up hildes place because mr depression over there has trouble doing it himself but he had to come over after work so it got late, or Just Because. plenty of reasons for them to spend time together. & they do share a bed yeah. cuddle even. maybe more even. what's a little making out between friends? no big deal

it'd be during all that that hilde becomes aware of his own feelings rather than before entirely. & he fully thinks it's all him & there's no chance at all of reciprocation. It Haunts Him that he feels so predatory & evil for still going along with all this after realising his feelings (& in the UNLIKELY event they may be reciprocated what if his own feelings aren't real? what if he's being MANIPULATIVE for ATTENTION & AFFECTION? i mean. you know how it is with. mental illness). he probably has some pretty bad mental crises about it. & one of them is probably the catalyst for them getting together proper lmao. i would go Into It more but i am. once again getting tired. & also sharing info about my characters at their Worst makes me feel so vulnerable HFJKHGDJSG plus i mean... i do retain some self consciousness abt the #marysueish nature of things. ill get over it i promise. & there will be more furry modern au words. after i sleep. i still have not gotten to the date activities. fuck. WELL! sad

final message to the world (in this specific reblog) though is that emet is aware of his own feelings probably around the same time hilde becomes aware of his own & he just. keeps going along to see how long it'll take for hilde to Say something. if he says something at all. otherwise he is perfectly fine continuing like this forever <- lying to himself he is finding himself to be yearning for it & for it to be Official so he can also (rarely) express affection more overtly with words too but he pushes it at the back of his mind to pretend that yeah hes totally cool with things being implied & unsaid he is SO lying. he is SO fucking lying things being unclear stress him the fuck out too. also being able to introduce this guy he really likes & respects as his Partner would make him feel like a god & he wants that so bad. there. the final

first you're not horrible and in fact I care about you deeply and dearly, second!! Tell me about that furry modern AU i've seen you post a bit about I think? the one where they work office jobs. If you have anything you wanna say about that :] or um. Tell me hilde and emet's favourite date activities !

green. sneef. i hold ur kind words so close to my heart. always. even when i feel bad!! which is saying!! u know how it is with brain bad...

& of course i can tell u about my Epic Furry Modern AU where they work office jobs!!!!! it's one i haven't actually pondered TOO much yet but the beautiful thing abt thinking is that it's something u can do & then u have thoughts. isnt it beautiful

it would be separate from my Regular Modern AU which has its own lore. in this one they are really. coworkers. to start with. this one actually started off bc i was designing a fursona for hilde & the image came to me of him.. well hold on. this

^ this is him looking up over his shoulders while Handsome Kind of standoffish Smells good fuckkkk he smells GOOD coworker (though the way i see it it's more similar to like, when two companies work together? & they're from diff. companies basically. yeah) reaches over his head to grab something from the shelf he was sorting. & well emet is an Owl so he has Big Feathery Arms kind of like a cape... so in that scenario hilde is kind offf getting enveloped in that. not really bc emet isnt touching him but. yeah. if this hapepend to me id just die homosexual style i can promise you this

i think magic exists in this universe however we still need desk workers yk. magic doesnt, err, magically erase bureaucracy. Sad! theyre both full of magical potential but yknow when ppl either have a lot of skill but cant get hired for anything relevant to them so they settle for some nothing job OR the thing theyre really good at doesnt pay well so they go for smth that doesnt align w their preferences for the sake of living comfortably financially even if it means work is hell on their mind? them. hilde is the one who cant get hired for smth he likes & emet is the one going for a job that pays good rather than a job that suits what he likes doing. though of course he does get really really into the managing & organising aspect of Office Worker due to le autism. no way he isnt a manager of some sort he is NOT at the bottom of the ladder in any universe. i wouldnt say hilde is at the bottom of the ladder either bc he DOES have good skills & is generally a very applied worker (also idk im really not gunning for them having an unbalanced dynamic as coworkers, same company or not) but he definitely brushes his job off as not that important if asked what he does

emet probably has a sort of Reputation that makes him sound unapproachable but in the few interactions theyve had hes been a very reliable person to work with so hilde isnt particularly deterred from maybe trying to make friends for that reason. hes just.. socially awkward & anxious to start with. the moment their other coworkers (who hilde is actually like, decently friends with, likely one of the scions who mightve even been his friend before he started working there too. hell, could be a zero! or two even) catch that hes trying to befriend the guy with the Reputation theyyy try to orchestrate ways for them to work alongside each other more lmao. or like ohhh shucks i left xyz in the office over there can you go get it for me since youre nearby </3 which is entertaining for everyone in the know to watch.

they do get to work more as time goes on bc i feel like hilde would be doing like... communications stuff. great for the social anxiety lmao. & so relaying info & working out how the companies can better work w each other would be at least partly on him. he'd be involved in that i thinks. & ofc that would also involve the ppl in higher positions. fuck iahve so amny more ideas but im actually falling asleep in my seat remind me to rb with more tomorrow + the date activities ahhh

[yutaholic]

THIS IS SOO GOOD OMFG I LOVED THIS SERIES! IT'S WELL-WRITTEN AND SUPER INTERESTING, I NEVER GOT BORED ONCE WHILE READING THIS WHOLE STORY SAUR GEWD... STANDING OVATION.

Thank you so much! This means the world to me! Okay so I’ve got a lot of asks that have spoilers in them (totally understandable given the ending lol) and I am going to respond to them beneath the cut here. If you have not read the final part of Smashing the Six, do NOT read the rest of this post! 😅

anonymous asked: SO FAWKING GOOODDDDDDDD WHAT WAS THAT LAST LINE WHAT DOES IT MEAN

It means the dragon aint dead, it’s just sleeping.��😈

@mangomotif asked: omg i knew it had something to do w the members of blackpink

I knew I wanted the admins to be at least 2 that you could suspect and then 1 that had never been encountered during the whole story because that just showed how well she had everyone fooled. And I’ve been listening to lots of Blackpink and aespa lately so lol

anonymous asked: i was on ur page an hr ago and was excited for the last chapter and came back not long after and yay it’s up!!!!! omg the ending!!!! What a wild ride, I looked forward to each chapter so much. thanks for writing such a captivating series!!!!

Thank you for joining me on this ride! 😊

anonymous asked: im the anon from the other day that guessed rosé was apart of neonet because of how she handed the reader yuta and… I KNEW IT! but that ending? WHAT DOES THAT MEAN WAS I RIGHT ABOUT DOYOUNG TOO? honestly I feel like it was too good to be true like was it really that easy? all that aside, this series has been a rollercoaster and i’m forever grateful you took the time to make it. like it will seriously always have a place in my heart. i was anxiously reading the whole time

You were right about Doyoung. He’s the real leader. It’s been such a fun rollercoaster!

anonymous asked: WHAT DOES THE END MEAN. DID HE SEND THAT TO MC??? WTF OMG IM SCREAMING

Did he send it to her? Or Jisoo? Or maybe even Ten? 🙃

anonymous asked: Please tell me there’s gonna be another part you can’t just leave it there!!! GIVE US A SEASON 2 !!!!!!!

There will not be a season 2 sadly lol neonet will go underground for a few years and come back maybe in a different form and with all knew admins for a whole new generation of students. Who knows? 😉

@specialagentchoso asked: Please, why does the last part of smashing the six have me tearing up!!! I swear I've never been so emotionally invested in a story before! You did the damn thing with this series, I can't wait to see what you do next!!

Thank you for being invested in it! It was so bittersweet finally finishing it I’ve had a blast with you guys. It’s the end of an era. Now on to Euphoria era 🤧

@cnvs-defs asked: Tha last chapter was so freaking good, it had me on the edge of my seat the entire time!!!! Wtf Thank you for writing such amazing story, you're an incredible writer!! I voted for Winter in the pole and I'm happy I was (partially) right lol. She gave me weird vibes throughout the whole series.

I love suspense lol I hope I made her redeemable as well. She was a complex character in this story. Thank you for reading! 😘

anonymous asked: just finished reading the final chapter of smashing the six i just. i cant even begin to explain how incredible of a series this was. you are so amazingly talented, i wish i could express it better but wow. you have left me speechless, thank you for this, i loved it so much. it was truly incredible, every singe one of them and the whole series/story itself. you're amazing wow

I want to cry thank you so much! I was really nervous yall wouldn’t be happy with the ending and I’m honestly so relieved 😭

anonymous asked: AHHHHH i just read the final part, now that i was stalking or anything 🤭 but the final (and the series in fact) was sooooo good!!! the final final reveal was soooo perfect! A+ writing mwah 😽

You can stalk my stories anytime 😁

anonymous asked: LUNA YOU HAVE DONE IT AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!! I accidentally stayed up til 4am and realised final chapter must be posted by now so naturally I read it as slow as possible for the suspense and the REVEAL!!! I’m so pleased that I was kind of right on at least one person haha. That ending?? I reread it like five times just whispering wtf wtf wtf oh and that yuta scene was so heartwarming 🥺 alternate ending with yuta x mc WHEN? That was so good I’ve rlly loved being a part of this from first chap to now

I feel so bad about time zones! I was really happy with her final scene with Yuta. It was a good and happy moment. In an alternate universe they ride off into the sunset together lol

anonymous asked: HUHHH THE ENDING OH MY GOD

hehehehe my beta reader called me and didn’t even say hello she just said BITCH WHAT lol

anonymous asked: Ran out of space in my last ask but - it has been SUCH an experience reading this alongside everyone from the first chapter, seeing everyone’s theories and creating my own, changing them after every chapter, becoming a part of yuta hive (love you mark but lonely boy yuta 🥺💖), the suspense from the uploads and everything has been SO fun. I seriously pity the people who read it later bc whilst they get to read it in one go, they won’t have the same STRESS we went through lol

Seriously half the fun of this story was reading yalls theories because I think I already mentioned this I wrote the first chapter and the ending on the same day. It was so hard not to spoil everything along the way because I was so excited for the big reveal! 😂

anonymous asked: I tried to keep spoilers out of my last 2asks so that they’re publishable so I’ll put here. I LOVED the part where mc went to hand the boys back the photos, they were so close to danger and they didn’t even know, but that’s such a good thing of her. And the thing with HC ab doing better was so sweet bc she got so consumed it was nice to see her out of it. And when the pieces added up I was SHOCKED but it all fell into place, now to reread for clues! ALSO WTF DOYOUNG WDYM ITS BEEN FUN? JAWDROP

Her giving them back the photos was my favorite and also something I wrote at the very beginning. I love character development and when things fall into place 😭

anonymous asked: DOYOUNG????????????

Yall were right all along but nobody told me what it was that made yall so suspicious of him. What gave him away from the very beginning?? 🤣

anonymous asked: holy fuckballs. the end of smashing the six was elite. it’s great how you started a series and the series did SO GOOD. you bagged the title as my favorite writer on tumblr. the final chapter was a rollercoaster. my heart was beating out of my chest as yn and haechan connected all the dots. i felt victorious as yn was in the library with jisoo (yes! blackpink *is* the villain here). lastly, i felt sappy as yn approached the six, even more when it came mark’s turn. AND THEN. oh god i love open endings. I KNEW DOYOUNG WAS IN ON THIS. the school paper has no place for exposes and HE. HE TOLERATED THAT SHIT SO IT MADE SENSE THAT HE WAS CONMECTED. he was shaping yn into *perfect* shape for her future position in neonet. the series was wonderful and i’m so very proud of you. i simply cannot put into words how pleased i am with how well you wrote Smashing the Six. i wish you well in your future writing endeavors. — guia (an anon who posts every other day on your page but today i’ve given myself a name) 

I’m cracking up at ‘holy fuckballs’ lol but also ‘you bagged the title as my favorite writer on tumblr’ like excuse me I need to do my happy dance real quick! It’s ironic Doyoung is one of the people most suspected of being neonet but there isn’t a shred of evidence against him. Thank you for interacting with me often it means a lot! ❤️

@yutiddies asked: I unconditionally support the 6 and Doyoung in smashing the six. I especially unconditionally support Yuta and want to be the one he makes happy some day 😭

You and me need to talk about our attraction to villains because the next series after Euphoria will be Beast Mode and I’ve decided it’s going to be a villain au with a domestic twist. (Like the boys are villains trying to live everyday lives. I’ve already started working on Jeno’s chapter and whew I may have to start handing out holy water) 🔥

anonymous asked: No. Honestly, I'm just soooo glad I came across your blog. You are an amazing writer, and it has been an immense pleasure reading your work. It's gotten me through tough days. What a treat to be able to escape to the worlds you create. I hope you continue to write for as long as it brings you joy. Thank you for taking the time to share with us! That last chapter of Smashing the Six was just great. Amazing series!!! Looking forward to your next work! Thank you again 💚

I’m so glad you found me too! My writing getting someone through a tough time is the only reason I keep posting tbh that is everything to me. Take care dear ❤️

anonymous asked: WHEN SHE WENT AND GAVE THE PICTURES TO THW BOYS?!?? I M SO HAPPY

One of my fave parts 😍

anonymous asked: THOSE LAST FEW LINES OF DOYOUNG TEXTING NEONET??  FUCK OFFFFFF WHAT DIRT DOES THAT MAN HAVEEEE

He’s neonet. He has all the dirt. 😈

anonymous asked: Literally in tears right now huhu I am so happy with how everything ended up for everyone in Smashing The Six 😭😭😭 YUTA PLS 😭😭😭 Also, THAT LAST LINE THO I STILL THINK DOYOUNG SUS hahaha jk. I would've commented on every part of the story that I like but then that would take me forever to finish because I ATE UP EVERY PIECE OF THAT STORY IT'S SO GOOD IT IS JUST WHAT I NEEDED TO GET MY WEEK STARTED. Thank you so much for this amazing series. Wonderful stories from you as always 🥺 I will always look forward to your works, you are my favorite writer here in Tumblr and probably the only reason I am not yet deleting this sht of an app 🤭 I am excited for your new Johnny and Doyoung one shots and the Euphoria and Dreamies series!! I hope you're sleeping well right now and when you wake up you'll be greeted with all the comments on how smashing your story is (see what I did there *wink wink*)- Dyochi Anon

And yall are the reason I haven’t deleted this obnoxious app either lol and with all their constant ads to buy their ugly ass t-shirts and chasing off gif makers with their stupid changes I keep coming REAL close. Hopping online after work and reading all these comments has made my entire month. I hope you know your kind and supportive words always go a long way. There have been times I’ve wanted to quit writing because I just don’t feel good enough but knowing there are sweet people like you reading and enjoying my stuff keeps me writing. Thank you 😊

anonymous asked: DOYOUNG???? HELLO!!?

Doyoung can’t come to the phone right now. He’s gotta find someone else to take over neonet. 😜

anonymous asked: Every time I read something you write I'm in awe!! What an amazing writer you are, truly!! I don't even realize how long some fics are because I'm so immersed in the story, you really know how to keep us hooked! Thank you so much for this series, the twists, the friendships, betrayals, and omg!! that ending! I knew it! fucking Doyoung dude, being the leader from the shadows and sending the girls to do the nasty job.... but who was he texting?.... once again, amazing work, thank you!

Thank you so much!! Yep. The three girls answered to him. They are busted (as they should be) but he gets away clean. At the end, it is open to interpretation who he was texting (which I did on purpose).

@natattack1997 asked: wait so if y/n had accepted the editor in chief position she would’ve been the ACTUAL head of neonet?!?! 🤯 that was absolutely wild.

Yes. In the very first chapter you get a tiny glimpse into Doyoung’s thoughts and he already decided to name her the next editor in chief, but he was really on the hunt for who would replace him as the head of neonet.

anoymous asked: wait... so Doyoung was sending mc the anonymous texts? what about Ten - who sent him? also,, do the girls know doyoung is the real leader?

The texts were from Jisoo (notice she kept texting during their meeting.) Ten has been hooking up with Lisa (confirmed in chapter 5) and Lisa is close with Jisoo and Rose for obvious reasons and that’s how Ten knew about them. Lisa said reader exposed her for hooking up with a teacher. Not neonet. That kinda gave away that they were lenient with her. Ten does their bidding because they have dirt on him.

Doyoung is the spider weaving the web. The girls are the admins and run the site. Doyoung is the boss (which is why Jisoo was panicking when reader didn’t fall in line because she knew she failed to recruit her and Doyoung will not be pleased.) The girls were in charge of blackmail and Doyoung was in charge of the girls and manipulating everyone from a distance.

They do NOT know that it’s Doyoung. He does everything anonymously that way no one can ever roll on him. The real alpha of neonet has to survive or the site dies. He will have to find a replacement, but he said NCTU deserves some peace so he’s not mad about the site going underground for a while. They’ll come back with a vengeance with a new ruler and admins, but reader and her boys will be long gone by then.

anonymous asked: rosè breaking major cybercrime laws by filming LMFAOOOOO why are you proud? anyways, i know how you introduced a new character instead of making you-know-who neonet (even if he is technically) you should have added jinyoung so it’s a jinjido reunion - guia

Blackmail is also very illegal. But they’ve got rich daddies. They’ll get a slap on the wrist because that’s how our criminal justice system works. The more money you have, the less punishment you get. But they will be effectively ostracized from NCTU. They will take the fall for now. 😅

anonymous asked: OH MY GOD WHAT THE FUCK THE LAST BIT WITH DOYOUNG ISTG I GOT GOOSEBUMPS LIKE HE REALLY IS NEONET RIGHT… OR DID I UNDERSTAND IT WRONG guess i have to confess to my crush now 🫠 wish me luckkk

Yes, he is the true head of neonet. OMG when I got your first message about confessing to your crush I was with my bff and read it to her because I was DYING! I was like oh no this anon is right and will have to confess to their crush!! 🤣

anonymous asked: THE ENDING PARRTTTT IDK WHY I WAS SHOCKED BC I LITERALLY VOTED DOYOUNG😭😭 this series was definitely a ride but i’m glad and definitely satisfied with the ending u did amazing

I’m so glad you’re satisfied with the ending. That was my main goal. 😘

anonymous asked: HAECHAN’S CHARACTER IN SMASHING THE SIX😭😭😭😭 so precious i want to smash my head into a wall

I love him so much!  😍

anonymous asked: WAIT I'M FREAKING OUT DID DOYOUNG DO THAT TO TEST EITHER SHE COULD BE THE EDITOR CHIEF OR NOT?  MAN IS ONE OF THEM ALL THESE TIMES HUHH WHAT

Yep. In chapter one he had already picked her to be editor in chief (but didn’t tell her yet) so everything after that was a test to see if she could run neonet. Someone asked me if neonet was run by a person or a group and I said both. The 3 girls were the admins, but Doyoung was running it. Neonet survives because they will take all the heat but no one caught him.

anonymous asked: Hiiii I just wanted to say that I finished reading smashing the six and every step along the way was incredible!! The ending was so mind blowing and I had GOOSEBUMPS from your writing…. It’s been long since I felt that way from a great story & I’m so excited for your new fics to come! Thank you for blessing us with such a well thought out masterpiece 🥺

Thank you so much for this message! I’m glad you enjoyed it! 🙏

anonymous asked: THE PLOT TWIST?! i was smiling the whole entire time (when she discovered neonet and making peace) that rly caught me off guard. oh my god now idk what to do😭😭 i rly have no words I NEED THIS TO BE A MOVIE better a series😩 omg now i cant wait for euphoria

Thank you! I need a movie too for science and for the Yuta shower scene lol jk 😂

anonymous asked: the layers to this story and how human reader was I am in awe I rly was skeptical how she would be able to beat neonet but you nailed it

Thank you! She won because neonet underestimated her. She was never hungry for power, she was trying to mend a broken heart. The boys inadvertently helped her do that and with her finally allowing herself to heal and move on, lust for power had no more sway over her. She was never ruthless enough to rule neonet. 😁

anonymous asked: how in the fuck did you pull this off? you gave me closure but also suspense with that ending? you cant do that its not possible!!

I worked very hard to do exactly that! 😂

@the-borahae-jj asked: OKOKOK SO FIRST OF ALL I LOVE YOU LAMO SECOND OF ALL THAT WAS SUCH A GREAT RIDE THANK YOU SO MUCH I was looking forward to every single chapter and I absolutly loved the plot and your writing and I could go on and on. I MUST SAY THO I HAD sooo many THEORIES AND I WORKED IT OUTTTTT EVEN Doyoung. Girl I knew, like I knew, and it made it so much more fun for me. Also give me Haechan; you were right about us loving him. I need him now. And YOU KNOW I FIGURED OUT WINTER YOUR RESPONSE GAVE IT AWAY LMAOOO, I hope you enjoyed yourself as much as I did and I’m ready to figure out anything else/more you create cuz let's be real. it's amazing. Loved interacting with you like this too. Seriously. You brought so much joy. As always have a great day/night <3 (2/2) NO BUT REALLY I FIGURED IT OUT HAHA <3 I really want to hug you now haha fr you did such amazing job and I'm so glad I could look forward to your writing  ok imma dip now MWAH

Thank you so much! I love that some of you figured it out but I was still able to surprise you. I left hints for yall to find and I always smiled so hard when you found them! Bring it in for a long distance digital hug! 🤗

anonymous asked: i love that she walked away. i love that she won. i love that she protected the boys. i love who she ended up with. i love the ending. I LOVE YOU.

I love you too and I love this story. I just saw that the story masterpost got 3k+ notes holy shit! Thank you all for reading and enjoying this fic! ❤️