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lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)
if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.
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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.
I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.
I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.
If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.
#cw: suicidal ideation#cw: suicide#cw: self harm#cw: mental health#cw: depression#i made the balloon the main representation of my self destructive urges for a reason but im not going to explain it#i tried to keep a lot of the details in this vague#it would be my worst nightmare if this comic encouraged someone to hurt themselves#so. please dont#for a long time even the thought of making this comic felt so insipid and narcissistic#with the state of the world as it is#having the only threat to your life be yourself felt so privileged and trite and shameful#but doing this comic made me sit down and process things in full#and im just. very grateful i didn't give in to my thoughts back when i sincerely felt i'd be more useful to the world dead#i also feel the need to say that this wont represent everyone's battle with mental illness. its unfortunately different for all of us#there is no fix-all#and im afraid this might be one of those comics that either resonates a lot or misses the target by a mile#i made it for myself foremost. and now that its done im glad i did it#thank you for reading#and please stay alive#stillindigo art#stillindigo comics
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post-graduation trip airport looks
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk fanart#yuji itadori#megumi fushiguro#fushiguro megumi#nobara kugisaki#itafushikugi#jjk spoilers#jjk manga spoilers#jujutsu kaisen fanart#these took ages but fr once i am choosing to forgive myself given th fact tht i was coming out of A State when i drew them#im normal now dw drawing the first years wearing merch of my comfort content fixed me#when in doubt play dress up. life hack#i am holding fast 2 my hc tht megumi is a fiend @ indie platformers and is a household name on the celeste speedrun leaderboards#argue with a wall this is my jujutsu kaisen#megumi designated Drink Runner also#alr in line at a cafe texts their gc 'what do you guys want' n gets mad @ nobara fr making him go to a Second shop 2 get her bubble tea#anyway theres not much 2 say abt these just bc i needed sth Light n Easy 2 get me out of my head#no lore to fashion pieces which is both a blessing and a curse but it Is what i needed#nobara serving looks fr a flight i love u so much. it's probably 8 in the morning n she is in a fully coordinated fit#its so criminal tht we don't have more alt hairstyle official art fr her???? iirc it's Just the lost in paradise mv with her in buns no????#robbed. i am fixing it immediately.#wonder where the 3 of them wld go on a trip
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yeehaw, baby!
#if u know me u knew this was inevitable#kon el#conner kent#tim drake#timkon#im gonna ramble after the boring tags ok#dc comics#fanart#western au#superboy#OK !!!! ITS TIME#so kon. obvs is a cowboy here#definitely a bit of a magnet for trouble but not an outlaw#still not the sort of person the son of the drake family's supposed to be talking to but yk kon's gonna try anyway#on tims end it pretty much follows the same events as the comics bc if it aint broke dont fix it#<- in terms of the whole sneaking out at night to do his own secret detective work thing at least#i have a whole silly story for the rest of it but im not gonna get into it all here lmao#but yeah i love cowboys and actual cowboy history vv much so this probably wont be the last u see of this au ദ്ദി ˉ꒳ˉ )✧#for now this post's rlly just for goofing around with design ideas#my art
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deaf!bakugou likes to feel the vibrations of your body.
to paint a clear picture, he doesn’t have his hearing aids in, and you two are in resting in bed after a few rounds of making love (and consoling your fiancée when he started tearing up and signing about how he was fucking pissed he couldn’t hear you moaning his name)
the sun’s orange glow as it sets just outside your window beams a gorgeous light onto you both, glistening with sweat. it’s a comfortable few minutes before you remember a juicy story you’d overheard earlier that day, and you gently tap the space next to your lover (you didn’t have to though cuz he was already staring at you with cheesy adoration).
you slightly pull yourself away from his beefy chest to begin expressively signing your daily piece of gossip. you always speak out loud when you sign, even though you know he can’t hear you. and as you’re signing with speedily, facial expressions big and enthusiastic, katsuki’s eyes dart to your lips every two seconds, nostalgically remembering the sound of your gorgeous voice before the war.
he huffs, signing wait. you pause with confusion before he shuffles forward so two of his fingers could rest on your throat. he feels you swallow and a little grin writes itself upon his face. he gives you a tiny nod to continue. and he smiles at the heavy buzzing against his digits.
#katsuki bakugou thoughts <3#wrote this so quick lol i’ll fix it later#anyways i’m having a meltdown thinking abt deaf bakugou rn stop#also im literally at my friend’s bday party hiding in the bathroom > <#loser girl core#katsuki bakugou#bakugou katsuki#bakugou x reader#katsuki bakugo x reader#bakugou fluff#bakugo fluff#bakugo x reader#katsuki bakugo#bakugo#bakugo katsuki#katsuki x reader#bakugou katsuki fluff#bakugou katsuki x reader#bakugou katsuki x you#mha#bakugou katuski x reader#bakugo katsuki x reader#katsuki x you#bakugo x you
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#fanart#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#art#sketch#ryomen sukuna#i gotta die bc the colors look so bad on my phone#and theres like a black blob there idk why. but im too lazy to fix it#my csp was freezing every second
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jolene gets a two page ref sheet fuck it
#there are so many choices ive made for this woman and i need to document them all#also the colors are a little washed out on the second on but uhhhhhhhhhhhh#im not fixing it#the outfits are fine her scales are just too light
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something holy possessed me last night and I drew the most banger piece of ship art I've ever made. rlly proud of this !
#murder drones#fanart#md uzi doorman#uzi doorman#md n#serial designation n#nuzi#md nuzi#biscuitbites#md biscuitbites#my art#theyre so gross uugh someone kill them bot h#pls ignore any stray or misplaced pixels. im too lazy to fix the lineart#enjoy my very messy pixelart that is barely even classified as pixelart
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It all starts with this...
#reuploaded bc i fixed something#if you saw the original post no you didnt#sonic the hedgehog#sonic#sonic art#shadow the hedgehog#sonic movie#sonic movie 3#sonic 3#im so excited for this movie#sonic adventure 2
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my beautiful wife kori and her guy
#just look at their faces the rest doesnt matter#i finished this pretty fast im knockin out now#kori's hair ended up looking like half of a heart so i wanted to emulate it in the background#dick grayson#nightwing#robin#koriand'r#kory anders#starfire#teen titans#new teen titans#batman#dickkory#dc fanart#dc comics#ash's doodlings#if u see something wrong with this no u dont im not fixing it
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need any fixing?🧰
#kaveh#genshin kaveh#genshin impact#genshin fanart#mechanic kaveh#fanart#art#my art#he can fix me#im so down bad omfg#mechanic kaveh can fix us all🙏
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Elliott!! :3
#the colors r pissing me off so im just gonna post it otherwise ill keep fiddling with the overlay layers#and i mSICK im SICK of it i dont know what i need to do to fix the colors so im calling it DONE#anways#elliott again :3c#art#elliott#stardew valley elliott#sdv elliott#stardew elliott#elliott stardew valley#stardew valley#sdv#sdv fanart#fanart#artists on tumblr#illustration#also his face is still pissing me off but alas#idk my painting skills aren't where i want them to be but oh whale#stardew
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infinitely funnier visuals in my head, likely because they werent subject to my actual skill level in art
#he read space facts book and found out the sun is a star and nearly got them all killed#dont ask how they didnt notice sooner i ignored that for comedic value#i dont know how to communicate that the sun is supposed to be out in the second panel#well i do but i didnt feel like coloring#i had this awesome visual earlier i was like “im gonna like color and shade in a painting style and its gonna look awesome”#and then i realized i dont know how to do any of that#so here we are#i read requiem and made like a mental plan in my head of what their home looks like and have not been able to fix it since#im too tired to tag more and i want this out of my sight before i start despising it for realsies#art#murder drones#murder drones uzi#uzi doorman#murder drones n#serial designation n#murder drones v#serial designation v#nuvi#violentbitingbiscuits#i love me some nuvi. favorite ship right now#second place is jessa but like i dont know how to draw humans so itll be a while before ya see that#oh i forgot#murder drones cyn#if im being totally honest this entire thing was just an excuse to draw uzi in that second panel
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unconditionally
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#yuji itadori#megumi fushiguro#itafushi#fushiita#fanart#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#megumi#yuuji#im shaky and numb the way this took years off my life#genuinely cannot believe i thought it was smart to make it a comic i could have stuck at a painting and it would have been fine#but nooooooo in my hubris i thought Surely im an expert at this longform stuff now Surely i can do it :)#and then it killed me it killed me dead this is like over twice as long as the train comic and 4 times as detailed#backgrounds . angles. i yearn fr death.#AND I HAD 2 WRITE THEM ACTUALLY TALKING GGSDH i am actually so insecure abt the way the dialogue flows gomen....#i wanted to add more to it to fix how clipped and rushed i think it reads#but that would mean drawing more expressions would mean drawing more panels would mean more gd hyDRANGEAS#so ultimately i decided 2 have the conversation take the hit because let me tell u.#if i have to draw. one more blue petal i will snap i will lose it#i knew tht would happen n wanted to alleviate some of the pain so i found a few brushes that helped speed up the process#but the thing w a lot of premade flower brushes is they also come preshaded n look uniform in a way that stands out badly against my style#so i had 2 render over them anyway........#yuuji's domain rly putting me through the wringer first the train station now death by a bajillion petals smh#all that to say tho . my labour of love . i am going to take a nap#hina.comic
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TRASH trash woman..Trash woman
#iasip#dee reynolds#The backstory to this is my laptop broke so i watched like 10 straight seasons of sunny on my phone. day and night#its been fixed for a week now but i jsut kept watching and lying in bed until i finished so im done now and...um#iasip fanart
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i'd heard about the new minecart mechanics and people launching themselves off ramps, but i wanted to see how practical it was for travel. used buttons so that the rails would go back to their off positions after i used them... but hitting the button is really hard once you get going kjhfkg
behold: the multidirectional centrifuge
#this has FOR SURE been done before but idc i wanted to do it myself. i havent been keeping up with new updates#welp i know where all my iron is going in my next world kjhfg#video#mine#btw the speed section with two different lines attached is weirdly shaped for a reason#for some reason if it faced the other directions then the button wouldnt work right???#if i hit the button the rails would disconnect and would be connected by default. opposite of what i wanted#no idea why that is happening. tried a lot of things to fix it. anyone know??#this is the most complicated redstone i've ever done btw literally ALL i use redstone for is occasionally pushing a block 😭#so if the solution is very obvious sorry. if there is a more practical build here sorry. i am not a redstoner im sober 😔#flashing
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Doodles of the boy(s) cause I adore them so 🩷💙
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#x men 97#gambit#nightcrawler#remy lebeau#kurt wagner#x men the animated series#x men fanart#Gambit in a crop top makes me salivate#his hair is fucking HORRID#but i can fix it nw#a small price#for those hips#also#i cant be the only one who imagines kurt with fur right?#for some reason im like- convinced#so i did it#cause he give cat vibes#and i do what i WANT#theyre besties#in religious truama#i said so#my art
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