#so im accurate to my sona again

[moonstruckdraws]

Drifting

Haven't really drawn in a while, so I did a full render

I also made this as a thank you for 1k followers (edit: redundant)! That's so cool! And I really couldn't have done it without the support of those around me and ones I've met on here (mainly @hellishgayliath, @nexlasart, & @tamblerdraws; y'all are the best & I appreciate you to infinite levels)

I know I primarily draw turtles on here, but I have been leaving my hyperfixation on them (despite me wanting to make a rottmnt au and have but some genuine thought into it) but I know I can always come back to them if I want to.

I still love my rottmnt ocs & Helli's, so they ain't going anywhere lmao, but it does mean that I'll probably be posting personal art or art for other fandoms. (And I'm too lazy & uncaring to make an alt, but I might!)

[nem0-nee]

[ CIRCUS MUSIC BLARING IN THE DISTANCE ]

Doodles of the incoming clown- Coming soon to a dumpster near you!!

[kn11ves]

Do you have any sonas I would love to see n draw :>

YOU WANT TO DRAW ME???1//?!/!?????!111!!!!!!!

heres a stupidthing i did quickly...

alternatively

me^

[quinngefail]

i fear im too lazy to put this on my alt i made specifically for being anon but OH WELL!!!!!!!! i wonder what they're talking about...

(hint: critters and chainshipping)

ANYWAY i hope this looks okay i rlly enjoyed drawing ur sona so ill prolly return again >:D

~ 🍬 ... Or I guess I should say Dew now huh... :,L ANYWAYS YEAH

AAAAHH THANK YOU THIS IS SO CUTEEE 😭

Lore accurate yapping here HSKGKGKSK

I LOVE IT THANK YOUU 😭💙

[toxycodone]

this is like my third ask saying something of this nature but like. you're literally my fave blog ever it happened so quick. for one the way u bring laios to life like your characterization is EXACTLY how I imagine him and ur ability to put him in diff settings and come up accurately w how he'd act... you're like a conduit bringing him to life with your writing fr. even outside of ur writing ur so entertaining and fun and nice.... and I love ur sona and encouragement of other people's ones... the first thing I do when I wake up sometimes is check your blog like ur the best actually

the way this ask actually made me cry (legit cry btw I had. Actual tears DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD IT IS TO MAKE ME CRY BRO IM ON LEXAPRO!!!). hold on I have to go for a run rq bc I need to feel MANLY AGAIN

but JFC thank you so much. literally it is always so reassuring to know that hey. Like. I’m doing good! And like! You like me more than what I can provide writing wise!

Laios is SO important to me (as if that isn’t obvious) so my characterization of him is like: another big factor I prioritize ahhh

[reptil-enjoyer]

Had this funny idea where Merasmus cursed a random Scout to become a beast and thst turns onto your dragon/scout(?? Sona. Pretty sure that's not what happened

Anyways, likeee your character fits the tf2 universe in wone way? Or it's just wacky silly fun?

:3

Close enough with the Merasmus idea!

The general idea of it is that my guy was at first just another guy that Merasmus dragged along during Halloween, using him as just a mini boss compared agaisnt HHH, Monoculus or Merasmus himself; in a way closer to the skeleton king in terms of health and functionality (bothering you lol)

But due to not being very useful compared to the others, and the fact that the guy (Draco) was getting tired from getting killed over again and again, he was kinda 'fired'

This part mostly depends on how im feeling on what type of tf2 thing im inserting him in but, generally speaking he gets picked up for study and capture by either the red or blu team.

Not sure what happens but, something bad enough to break the chains he has during an event, on where he risks his life (due to not being on respawn like the rest) to protect scout someone on the team

He loses one horn during this, but proves his loyalty to the team enough to give him free reign around the base

Draco isnt present during combat due to the fact that it would be unfair, so he mostly keeps to the base and surroundings

Also, i do have my other guy, Jesse (kinsona) than in his tf2 accurate appearance he pretty much looks like a cursed Scout! His sillyness

[deepdarkconsumption]

★BE A BOSS: OBJECTIVE COMPLETED

General Content Warning for: Violence, blood, guns, knives, smoking, drugs, alcohol, wounds, fire, possible body horror, etc.

Just another kin bastard out here.

Don't mind me. Dont worry about it lol

fyi for u 3edgy5me kids - Im an adult. fuckin. stay in ur lane and be safe bc ur only a kid once. dont make my mistakes. seriously.

➥ Myth / Wraith / some kin names work (namely Zeitgeist or Infinity) ➥ it/its or he/his ➥ 1997. so. adult. ➥ Got a memory span like a goldfish on a bad drug trip ➥ just a fuckin weird bastard tbh

other blog tags + list under the cut of who/what I was lol

Other Blog Tags

#Shit I Sent In Yo - #DeepDarkConsumption.txt

#Aes - #Art of me - #Decor - #Fashion - #Food - #Haunts - #Info - #Kinfession - #Positivity - #Self Care - #Shit to buy - #Shitposting - #Stim - #Stimboard - #vid

My Theriotypes + Otherkin (alphabetical)

➥ Black-Billed Magpie - #magpie

Having multiple 'types that had wings is a pain bc getting the feeling of astral wings doesn't HELP especially when 3 of the 4 were all feathered wings. heck-

➥ Deep Sea Monster - #dsm

A bio-luminescent catfish-gator-serpent creature. Very large/long. Rarely came up to or near the surface. If I did it was at night and usually to sink passing ships or submarines. I lurked in cave deep underwater. I used to hoard stuff from sunken ships and subs.

➥ Demon - #idt

Super unconventional demon here. Like not in the hellfire and brimstone sense - like the inter-dimensional traveler who liked fucking shit up and messing with others, to the point where it often resulted in disaster and death.

➥ Miniature Goat - #goat

➥ Yellow Mongoose - #mongoose

I do feel a strong connection to any mongoose, however.

➥ Void - #void

ohman how to explain- I was some kind of void-dweller. I can feel wings of some kind, nothing really like birds or bats or bugs, just wings? When I get anxious in a shift, I get a glitchy, staticy, spaced out feeling, in my body, in my brain, moreso than normal. It also feels very militaristic which doesn’t make sense like ??? maybe its b/c another kintype? Maybe not?

My Fictiotypes (alphabetical)

➥ Claudia Donovan - #Donovan

Warehouse 13, mostly canon compliant? I think?

Do NOT follow if shared.

Still working out if I was in an AU or not but so far, the events of the show seem fairly accurate?? IDK man memories are a bitch tbh. Should probably rewatch it again-

➥ Cut-Out - #roughnecks

Starship Troopers: Invasion, noncanon fictiotype.

Do NOT follow if this exact fictiotype is shared.

Mobile Infantry Soldier. Rico’s Roughneck’s platoon. Nick-name was Cut-Out. I remember I had screwed up somehow & getting my unit killed. I was the only one who survived. The war lasted about another decade afterwards. I was forced into training new recruits, despite my protests.

➥ Flametrooper - #Flametrooper

Star Wars sequels, noncanon/background.

Just another background flametrooper, really. All I remember is the heat of the fire, and the harsh smell of chemicals. Mostly sensory memories, nothing visual of note.

➥ Flint - #Necro

Dragonfable, noncanon fictiotype

Unsure on doubles, please ask.

I mostly used Necromancy with some Pyromancy at times. I remember a mostly dark blue and black colour scheme and I know that damn dragon was black with deep blues. Fucked if I know anything else about it.

➥ Point Blank Member - #gm

Saints Row, noncanon fictiotype.

Do NOT follow if this exact fictiotype is shared.

I didn’t really work with pimping and drug dealing, though I would escort others at times. I worked more in enforcement and similar. I wasn’t a gang boss, but I was sorta high up in the ranks. Rival gangs did not like me lol I was a vicious bastard :p

➥ Project M6, Codename: Infinity - #asset

Marvel Cinematic Universe, noncanon fictiotype.

Do NOT follow if this exact fictiotype is shared.

Originally I thought M6 was just a sona but NOPE I was wrong about a kintype oops. I absolutely did not volunteer for experiments. I was kidnapped by Hydra and they ended up experimenting on me a lot, and brainwashed to the point the only identity I had was what they gave to me. I ended up being captured by SHIELD prior to CA:TWS. This whole life was a shitshow lol

Usually at least in some form of a partial kinshift for this one. Def would say this is my strongest one. Welp.

➥ Zeitgeist - #Acid boy

Deadpool 2, mostly canon compliant?

Do NOT follow if shared

I don't recall how I died but I also don't recall much of the canon shown? So I think the outcome of X-Force was different than shown in the film. I was a bit of a jerk, and I know I didn't consider myself to be a nice person despite having a mostly chill yet chaotic vibe. I also remember smoking a lot, because it was the only thing that got the taste of that acid vomit out of my mouth.

[keefwho]

July 25 - 2023 Tuesday

10:47 AM

My friend just needed someone to talk to and I’m always happy to help in any way I can but I did a bad job trying to comfort her, even if she only needed someone to listen. I’m also a little scatterbrained today or just vacant so I wish I could have been more help. I literally couldn’t think of anything good to say. I guess I’m most worried about coming off as indifferent or uncaring because I care a LOT. She probably knows that though. 

2:53 PM

I feel things and think things but I don’t want to write about things or think about them. Mostly because I feel mentally tired right now. Im not in the best shape to be making progress but I have learned that progress must still be made regardless. I can’t always wait for the right moment. I guess there also isn’t anything pressing me right now so I can take a smol break. 

In general I know I’m having a hard time feeling like myself right now and instead am following what I’d describe as a sort of natural code. Im doing things without thinking about them. There is little exploration and creativity going on in my head right now, I’m just existing. My capacity for true deep empathy is lowered because of this. I’m not really here in a sense, or not at the capacity I want to be. I know this must be normal though, I can’t be on top of this kind of thing all the time. I’m sure this kind of thing happens to everyone. I’m just trying to get to know it better so I can accurately appraise myself whenever I get like this. 

I also had a very small incident with an onion. Its the kind of thing that harks back to the peak of my anxiety surrounding food and my stomach. I chopped an onion in half so I could use one half in my lunch and the other half went in the fridge. I still have some iffyness about eating anything “raw” even if it’s safe to do so. I hinged a lot of my sense of food security on making sure everything I ate was fully cooked no matter what it was (except for some obvious exceptions like chips, crackers, canned stuff, etc.). So I still found it to be a little exercise to take a slice of that onion and use it on my chicken burger uncooked. It’s an important little exercise though and I’m proud I did it, even if it wasn’t a very big deal. 

10:56 PM

I want to get on bed this time so this has to be brief hopefully.

For breakfast I had left over rice a roni from yesterday. I watched one of the newer episodes of Craig of the Creek before streaming. 

Stream went okay, I only did half commission work again since I’m doing it for the paying double guy. I had to stop the stream halfway through to call and listen to my friend but I started it back up for a little bit afterwards. I completed a little colored sketch in a way that I liked so hopefully I can keep doing that to get more of my ideas out. 

I cleaned up some and did my mini workout for the first time. Im really starting to feel it in my legs again so it must be working. During my shower I watched a new video from Lemino about the JFK assassination, it was interesting. Im surprised and also not surprised at how stupid people can be when giving testimony. 

Lunch was a chicken burger and a granola bar, very good. 

During today’s drawing request I edited one of my coloring brushes to be easier to blend with and I really liked the result. It offered more flexibility per stroke. After that I worked on this cute drawing of mine and my friend’s sonas again, it’s REALLY coming out well. When work was done I spent some time working on my horse avatar again, it’s also looking good and I’m so excited to be horsies with my bestie.

I hung out with her while I worked on it and we chilled for a bit while she showed some things. I didn’t know what to do with myself, I just wanted to chill so I wasn’t very lively. My eyes also hurt all evening. After she moved upstairs we played Zelda for a bit, it was nice. 

I wish I could have been less out of it, I’ve definitely been in a funk today and yesterday. I could probably figure out some straightforward exercises to turn to that could help me realize that I’m a living, thinking person when I’m struggling to perceive myself. 

[artnerd1123]

Disconnect and Mild Discomfort.

[ulysses-but-somehow-more-transer]

I’m using y’all’s toki pona posts in the fmns tag to practice translating, and I wanted to see how accurate I was w my translations

“I want to say this in toki pona: “I love the Forgetmenauts.” But I don’t know how to say it? I can say “mi olin e ona (I love the Forgetmenauts)” that’s true. But that feels too small, almost nothing. Does anyone who speaks Toki Pona know them? Listen to them, they’re so good! I need someone else to talk to.”

(Some I couldn’t quite figure out but tried to fill in the gaps)

“It was to short. I listened to the song Charlatan in Red. I like it a normal amount. I’m not weird. I can breathe. I’m not okay. I need to sing the round. I’m so normal. I’m not broken or anything”

(“Tenpo pini lili la” could also be “it ended too soon” and “mi nasa ala” could also be “I’m sooo normal.” I also feel like I mistranslated the last line but I’m not sure how to make it sound less clunky. Still, I think it’s a pretty good early attempt)

okay so first of all im in love with you now, we are getting married in january and you should start looking for the formal attire of your choice (might i suggest top hats, potato sacks, wedding gowns?)

second of all youre really close or completely correct on almost everything!!! also remember im not an expert either and have used clunky, experimental and probably plain wrong phrasing at times, so youre fine.

im going to provide a literal translation, toki pona oddness in sentence structure included, as well as my original intended meaning:

toki pona:

tenpo pini lili la, mi kute e kalama musi Charlatan In Red. mi pilin meso. mi nasa ala. mi ken kon pona. mi pilin pona. mi wile ala uta e sijelo mi. mi pilin meso. mi wile ala pakala e ale

literal:

in little finished time, i listened to the song Charlatan in Red. i feel average. i dont feel weird. i can breathe. i feel good. i dont want to eat my body. i feel normal. i dont want to break everything.

intended:

i just listened to charlatan red. i feel normal. im not going insane. i can breathe. im good. i dont want to BITE myself. im so normal. i dont feel the urge to fucking hack everything to pieces.

toki pona:

mi wile toki e ni kepeken toki pona; pilin mi tawa kulupu pi kalama musi Forgetmenauts. taso mi sona ala e ni, mi o toki e seme? mi ken toki "mi olin e ona". ni li lon. taso ni li ike lili, li sin ala. kin la, mi sona ala e ni: jan mute pi toki pona li sona ala sona e kalama musi ona? ala la, o kute e ona, ona li pona a! mi wile toki tawa jan ante sona

literal:

i want to say this using toki pona: my feelings towards the music group Forgetmenauts. but i dont know, what should i say? i can say "i love them". that is true. but thats a little bad and not new. also, i dont know this: do many toki pona people know their music? if not, listen to them, theyre very good! i want to talk to other knowing people.

intended:

i want to talk about my opinions about the fmns in toki pona, but i dont know what to say. could say "i love them" but thats boring and ive already said that enough. and i dont know how many people who speak toki pona know them. if you dont, go listen to them, theyre amazing!! i wanna talk to more other people who know them.

anyway, hope this helps and again, prepare for the wedding!! <3

[irkenheretic]

yall wanted it so here it is

theres two main Points to why they dont work very well, and of course some disclaimers b4 we start: i dont hate sonas! i dont hate selfinserts! in fact i observed this while working on my own sona 

and speaking of sonas: for the purposes of this post, a sona is a character directly based off the author. its not just a general character meant to represent an author (like a sona that is markedly different from the author) or to represent a reader (like “Y/N” or a self-insert character in a reader insert fic). the sonas im talking about are as close to a 1:1 recreation of the author as you can possibly get

and because of that, the first point is the author just doesn’t fit in the world, so the sona doesn’t fit. fictional settings are created with a certain atmosphere in mind, and characters are created to fit in that certain atmosphere. if you as the author are into pastel lolita fashion and you want an invader zim sona, your sona’s fashion choices are immediately going to stick out as abnormal. if you dress in a very “””basic”” sense, your sona will also stick out. this also extends to things that cant be changed as easily. are you disabled? do you want an invader zim sona? then your sona will immediately feel like theyre not a part of that world, since we dont really see any disabled characters just chilling in the background of the show. a twentysomething with crutches will stick out and be immidiatley apparent that theyre Not Of This World just because you accurately portrayed a trait of yourself in a setting that was not designed to accommodate it

and this does extend to personality. a bright peppy person wouldnt fit in invader zim since there really arent any bright peppy characters that are played straight, except for... gir i guess? chammy wamboo from the comics doesnt count since shes an obvious parody. if youre generally nice and forgiving, again, the world is not built to accommodate you. all the characters in invader zim, especially the major ones, are largely self-interested little shitheads, so if you’re not like that, and dont see being like that fun (so you wont write your sona like that as a sort of wish fulfillment), youll instantly be clocked as being A Sona or at least An OC since fundamentally, you dont have the same personality as the show denizens, and your sona won’t too.

the second point is more complex. 

what makes a character arc? actually, lets go back- what makes a compelling character? 

flaws. real, deep, human flaws. complexity. a lot of “”mary sues”” (i dont like that term lol) do have flaws, but they’re very surface level. they’re clumsy, they’re insecure, et cetera... its all minor things that are easily understood and easily forgiven. 

what makes a character arc? a character either breaking free from or falling deeper into said flaws, depending if its positive or negative character development. and those flaws are deep, intrinsic things about a character’s personality. things that- especially in invader zim- are ugly and hard to look at. but theyre there. 

and people? are bad at recognizing their own flaws. 

sure if you asked someone theyd be like “yeah im really insecure” or “i can be super envious” but they wouldnt get into the REAL meat of it. most people are blind to their major flaws and, if they know its there, tend to downplay it. yes, the flaw is there.... but i’m working on it, okay? yes, the flaw is there... but its not that big a deal! honest! yes, the flaw is there... but does it REALLY “count” as that flaw? yes, the flaw is there... but its ok when i do it, so it’s not really a flaw, is it?

if you’re blind to your major flaws, you won’t put them into your sona. if you don’t put them into your sona, they’re you without the flaws. they’re you without the personality that makes you who you are- and yes this does include the bad stuff. and without that stuff, your sona becomes bland as bread

this is espechally a problem in This fandom where people are like. allergic to character flaws?? you cant like a shitty asshole cunt character, you gotta invent reasons why theyre Actually In The Right, tell people “oh yeah i like them as a bastard baby!! its not an excuse!!,” then proceed to use it as an excuse anyway. because fuck if i know. 

so yeah. thats why i think sonas dont work a lot of the times, at least not the ones that are 1:1 recreations of the author. some people just dont fit into a fictionalized world with a specific aesthetic invoked with its settings and characters. and the people who do fit, especially in this setting, are either blind to or refuse to acknowledge their major character flaws that are supposed to drive a character arc, so the arc is either underwhelming and bland, or they’re a major character with no arc, which again.... makes them bland

one day i might do a writeup on why a lot of sona characters dont work well and yes its deeper than "MARY SUE BAD!!111!1!"