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feeling really mournful over the files i lost when my computer died. all the stuff from the past year-- some of the best and coolest and most important art i've ever made-- is gone. a lot of them are on the internet but it's not the same
#theres a small chance i could save it but i dont really have my hopes up#ive tried everything i personally feel capable of and im at a point where the only way its happening is if i take the hard drive somewhere#but theres clearly something wrong with it#so idk if theyd be able to do anything for me#i keep getting really upset when i want to pull up a file i made just this summer and i fucking cant#i have to pray i can find it on discord or something and im upset about it#both of the big zines i worked on are gone too i dont have ANY of that artwork#the only surviving copy of anything from unicorn dysphoria is a pdf i just so happened to put on google drive#sigh.#woofbarkmeow
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who made the mtt. and no i dont mean like who made the CONCEPT of the murder time trio (because i know who that is. touken kamui i thank you for the fangame every day :3) but like,,,, who decided to just randomly pair these 3 together?? like whaaaat.......
part of me wants to believe it was rahafwabas with the whole bad sanses group thingy being made with those 3 in there and then like. the fangame just gave them specifically a seperate group name. but STILL,,,,, where did this trio come from
#so rain of dust got a reboot a couple of months ago and now triple the insanity did too#and my newest favorite detail in the video is that theres a section where dust and killer's sprites are#glitching out. wanna know why??? BECAUSE HORROR GOT DELETED MTT BETTA THEY ALWAYS TOGETHER#insanity is just a horror replacement i fear i dont understand at all why he's even in the trio#WHY IS IT A TRIO. IF THERE'S A SUPPOSED FOURTH. THATS A SQUAD BRO#istg he was just added there for like shock factor or smth bc horror wasn't powerful enough to keep up#it saddens me so much to have him here but also that means it saddens kist as well :3#and killer and dust's sprites are red while insanity's is purple#YOU WILL NEVER BE HIM INSANITY!!!! YOU WILL NEVER BE HORROR I FEAR#idc what anyone says idc how many people shit on the mtt fangsme concept i LOVE IT#its like one of the few mtt content i get that doesnt involve nightmare#like. ok. bad sanses cool. i however could not give two shits about the oil monstrosity and cross#please i need my own little seperate island to myself where only i get to enjoy the mtt reboot songs#cycle of endless death against a common foe. they HAVE to learn how to work together no matter what#its not like they can just give up (looking at you horror) because the human will keep on killing again and again#waaait waaaaait in an mtt fangame dynamic horror would also experience the genocides :3 awww shared truama :3#isnt it so badass that horror literally had to get DELETED because he couldnt die and therefore the human got mad#ok fine maybe im glad theres at least a reason my boy got removed from the trio but still#the human can kill dust and killer as many times as they want. the other two will keep trying to stop them bc of dt#but horror CANT die. theres no fun in that. and one day he'll just give up. that's not amusing at all#i find it nice. a cute little parallel between the 3 :3 now horror gets his own personal genocidal human experience#man the mtt fangame human is smart asf like. DAMN. i forgot bro could just erase the trio#anyways i think that it's a good concept IDC. why are they stuck in the endless loop of human kill human reset? idk lemme check#i forgot that gaster was involved in this fuckass au LMAO but at least he's not THAT involved. more like a background character#the satsujinki was created only for murder. does it have any other thoughts? any other wants and needs? i love it so much my baby#and then the phase after that just consists of my trio emptily operating off the faintest instincts they have#after all this time spent together fighting do they not instinctually long for eachother?#me imagining these empty husks to hold hands and hug. as if theyd only truly be able to coexist peacefully with their minds lost#but at least theyre together. at least theyre always together forever :3 even if they don't know anything else#tricule rant
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i just fucking hate having ptsd all of it. so many stupid fucking things send me into fucking hysterics it sucks and i hate it and i dont want itttt anymore i dont want it.
#i literally like. i didnt tell u guys bc it was embarassing#but i had to hype myself up to eat a fucking orange the other day. like i was shaking and crying and i nearly threw up.#bc it fucking reminded me of All that and also bc its one of the only foods i got to eat outside ofm my one meal a day#while i was living there. bc my coworker gave me oranges sometimes#and one time she gave me a whole bag of cuties which was wonderful of her i miss her#but i pretty much like. bc during m-f i had a meal at work#and i could get something from the vending machine if i needed to#but on the weekends i had to either order food (which would always make me insanely nauseous bc of. the money stuff. yk) or just eat#what i had in my room bc i couldnt use the kitchen bc the roommates would be mad at me#and they might kick me out and id be actually fucked. its so crazy looking back that i genuinely the entire time i fucking lived there even#b4 the breakup the entire time i was in terror that theyd evict me. bc i wouldnt have been able to do anything abt it#i mean thats why i didnt like. leave him after he . and stuff. both bc i thought i didnt deserve anything better and bc i was terrified#theyd evict me and i wouldnt have any way to get home. it was terrifying#but ya. so for a couple weeks i rationed myself One orange per day lol. and on weekends that was all i was able to eat rly#idk. i hate ptsd. basicalllyyyy is the gist of ittt. and i keep thinking abt random fucking things they did to me#me when they jokingly tell me to starve myself when i literally have a fucking eating disorder. and when i told The Only Person i knew in#that fucking house abt it he told me i was being dramatic and i was just being greedy and etc. and then later when i got off work today i#saw on their fucking whiteboard in the kitchen i wasnt supposed to use Eat more <3 as one of their goals. while i went to sit in the garage#for the weekend eating a single fucking orange a day. god#idk. ive gotten better with eating i still have the scale but i ws able to go months without using it until the medical call the other week#and i havent used it since but. everytime i think abt all that itmakes me want to go back to it. i cant tho everyone would notice#i do still eat a wholee lot less than i did b4 washington but idk. idont remember if i even ate today i probably should but i dont feel#hungry but i cant even fucking trust that bc i Starved myself for so fucking long im too good at ignoring hunger. and i never was super in#touch with my body but im constantly numb now. idk.#ed ment#a2t#i ws gonna say more but it ws tmi + tag limit anyway. its just insane that my fucking ed wouldnt have happened if it werent for him and it#graduated i wouldnt have been isolatedinever wouldve had an ed. like 50% of my ptsd would be Gone if i just hadnt joined that discord. lol
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I am sorry. I have so much work, and I am very pregnant so I just don't have time to respond to stuff on here as much (or draw, really.) Hoping I can get into a schedule soon which allows me to paint and chat more :(
#i have so little free time#i worked 12 hours today#im just tired#technically i could have been painting the last 2 hours of relaxation#but tbh i am falling asleep#i think it will calm down soon tho#ill do work work in the morning do a class then hopefully have enough left in me for cooking chores and painting/chatting#whew#idk how im going to do this with a kid#trying.... not to think about that actually#wait. no.#frustrating thing: there's no preschool around here for us#preschool in our area is only available if your family is extremely impoverished#there are for-profit daycares and they cost about $2000-$4000 a month#girl i cannot swing that lmao#sigh#i hate being in the US#everybody wants you to have kids but no one wants to do anything with them#like be fr rn no one has the fucking money for $2500/month childcare#im glad people way under the poverty line have good school opportunities but also.. why#the school mentioned many times that they can barely afford to stay open#man#so many people call them and are willing to pay#i understand why they must prioritize people that cant or theyd get pushed out#but theres obviously 1) not enough funding for that school 2) a real threat to lower income families to be able to get in if higher income#families decide to elbow them out and 3) not enough schools here#they are building another preschool which will be available to families who work at certain local businesses#but lmao.... get this... there are only 20 spots available for their preschool. 20. girl what. and it costs $2k/month.#my mom called me the other day after i texted about all this and said she could watch our kid. for $25/hour#feeling a bit cornered here. it's going to be a long 5 or 6 years until kindergarten
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god that "morning people are an oppressive class" post annoys me in some way i cant. quite. ugh
#toy txt post#it doesnt feel quite right to me...........#maybe im just a Morning Person. lol. lmao even#idk how much that is true vs in high school i felt very much like a morning person bc#i was taking my adderall with coffee and then it would all wear off right at the end of the day and id crash soooo hard and have like.#anxiety attacks every night and just be generally overstimulated and irritable as hell#which is mostly managed now by me trying to be smarter about caffeine consumption (amount + when) and on a lower dose of adderall#but it does feel like a lot of that shit mentioned would be adequately covered by like. being able to take time off work to go to the#doctor etc. idk#im half joking these days when i ID as a morning person but legally none of you are allowed to get up my ass about it🔪#bc of the nocturnal bullshit i pulled on second shift for like 3yrs after everything around me decided to start closing early after the#pandemic hit even tho theyve re lifted every other miniscule precaution they ever enforced#probably bc no one wants to work night shift at the grocery store for like 12$ an hour. fucking offer better pay idiots#god even when i was a package handler working the super inconvenient hours of 3am-like. 9. 10am(inconvenient my ass that was ideal hours.)#the main reasons ppl left for other jobs: hours suck and they got offered better pay. they cant adjust the hours. so they shouldve#increased the pay to retain. and maybe have more structured start and end times that were less up in the air#like all the drivers leave at 9am so if theres anything left on the truck thatll be for tomorrow. since that fuckin happened anyway. idk.#honestly wouldve been more important to me to have consistent start times cos thats one of the things that pissed me off about that job was#like youd go in and before you left youd have to ask what the start time would be tomorrow cos they kept jumping all over the place by like#15min increments and like its once thing to do it on occasion to try to deal with like Bad Weather but it was like fucking Daily#and sometimes theyd write it on the little whiteboard. but sometimes they wouldnt. and sometimes theyd write it on the little whiteboard#and leave it up there forget to erase it and it would still be there but they told you as you walked out actually its not 4:30 tmrrw its 3#idk. i know the main real reason i miss it is cause it was part time and the day ended at like 9am usually
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#pidge speaks#so dec is a 3 paycheck month for me#and bc of that i already have my rent for next month put aside#which means IN THEORY most of my next paycheck can be tucked into savings#and depending on what my christmas bonus looks like this year?#i might#MIGHT#be able to try and get a pc#and if i do that i might be able to get bg3 sometime after the new year#my coworker has even said theyd help me build it#i dont need anything too fancy#i am basically judt in it for a bg3/sims machine#i dont rly play a lot of big deal triple a games#and i dont need like crazy good reaction time stuff bc i dont like FPS and have shit reflexes anyway lmao#but idk#im afraid to get my hopes up#but i am legit getting so fucking sad the longer i got without being able to play#ive been waiting for three years#ive had my character ready for three years#idk i just have had a kind if shitty year and i want something nice for once#so fingers crossed
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losing something you once had feels so much worse iv learned then realising youll never get something you never had
#this isnt true im just not in the middle of the second one anymore but its just. such a new sudden pain#what do you do when you lose a close connection with someone that used to tell you you made every day of their life better#and that theyd do anything to keep you in their life just a few months ago?#how you deal with the pain of the person youd go to to laugh with and cry to being gone?#i dont know. i dont other than to just. try to make sure im still here tomorrow and do the same the day after#its jsut so sudden. three years gone in less than a week i cant bear it. and i can still talk to them and i want it that way#and like. just just just i hope so deeply that one day we will be able to rebuild a relationship again#but thats dependant on them not on me. and i know if that day does come its at the several least months away#its not even their fault i know what theyre going through has to be awful too. i just dont know what it is and it feels so sudden for me#idk. what do you do when you lose the person you wanted to learn how to drive you could drive to meet them irl one day#before youve even started lessons? other than cry to olivia rodrigo ig but i was listening to olivia rodrgo without crying on friday#can i go back to that please? can i go back to before this fell apart becuase it did so quickly and i dont know how#vent#flappy rambles
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that good luck post from this morning does NOT work. i just got rejected from the grad program that would have given me a decent job and health insurance. fml
#im actually super fucking upset abt it!#i applied TWO MONTHS ago. i did their stupid test i waited the whole time i kept my schedule clear just in case#they left me on the hook for two goddamn months with almost no communication in between beyond 'do this test and wait'#and now its 'oops we actually dont want you after all sorryyyy. try again next time!!' 🫠#so now im going back to the grocery store again tomorrow. bc thats literally the only thing thats worked out#and even they can only take me part time. and it has to be all evenings and weekends covering vacation time#so i can say goodbye to doing anything fun this summer. canada day pride the ren faire its probably all gone#levi.txt#vent tw#idk man. shouldnt have fucking gotten my hopes up anyway#i just wanted this to work out so bad. idec what theyd pay me or what id be stuck doing but just having insurance would be so great#i was fucking praying id get this bc it might have meant being able to finally get a diagnosis and any kind of help#or even just going back to therapy. thats all gone now too i guess#i finished university and i did a good fucking job at it. i did honours so id have a better shot too#my entire life people have been telling me thats all i gotta do to get out of working these shitty jobs and have A Career and a life#just pick a degree youre good at nobody really cares what your major is just finish any degree and itll help you#and it feels like its been for absolutely no fucking reason bc here i am anyway. it changed nothing
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Just had to have the weirdest talk ever with my friend YIKES
#why am i always stuck in middle brah i just wanna live my life#its just one side being kinda unhappy with what my bestie did and i do see where theyre coming from but i know how she meant it cause#i know and love her and understand she literally always means well#but i also cannot invalidate the feelings of the other side cause theyre entitled to their views too and should be able to talk it out if#theres something weighing on them#this is vague and weird af i know i just need to vent somewhere cause i evidently have no other place shdjdkd#so i decided to give her a heads up abt the conversation theyre going to have but it didnt feel good AT ALL#to be the one to say that stuff it just made me feel so bad 😭😭#but i also wouldve felt bad if i had let her go into that without knowing anything while i knew what the issue was idk it just felt#dishonest#either way i was put into an uncomfortable position i just wish theyd left me out of it from the start#man this sucks
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tbh i can totally see loop having their own Act 5 Moment. like i kind of just assumed they did. you're telling me they DIDN'T spiral after that argument??? i cannot believe that coming from a doomed timeline siffrin. loop was calling themself a dumb bitch screw-up that can't do anything right until the party showed up at the tree.
wait a minute now.... You may be onto something.....
the idea of loop (who gets their whole little speech out first) almost winning but then cda saying something wack and giving siffrin a chance to turn the tables at the last second.... but then instead of just giving in like they normally do they go haywire and gather enough energy to very specifically push siffrin off of them so they can try and attack themself to just make cda Stop.... and the party comes to check up on siffrin and theyre like Hey Huh What? and siffrins like Guys i know you literally just went thru this with me but. Um. Help.
idk what would get through to them... i do think ultimately hugs would finally get cda to calm down enough to let loop not feel like they have to try and cut whatevers making them feel this way out of them though. maybe siffrin is able to start the hug and then everyone else piles in.... hmmmmm. Much to think about
i do think loop would still be very tight lipped about what exactly happened though. they wouldnt fade away in this but i do think theyd probably refuse to go to the clocktower to sleep with everybody. theyd wallow in the favor tree about everything until it was journey time and everyone came to collect them for it
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man so i think about the draenei i guess a lot more than most people do since i cant find as much discussion about them as i Want To so anyway something thats been frustrating me for months is
WHAT THE FUCK IS THE DEAL WITH THE TENDRIL TENTACLE THINGIES ON THEIR NECKS/CHINS
i keep trying to figure it out and nothing sounds right
AND NO im not making it a weird thing because i never even liked that trope of something extra about a non-human characters body being ~sensitive~ and its always something stupid too. ive literally seen people do that with tails and horns. like. no.
im trying to think of a real reason theyd have those
it also bothers me because as far as i personally know, they dont even move in canon, like, theyre not something that can move like a limb or something
but even when i was trying to reference real nature, even something like a starnosed moles nose thingies are able to move, they help them sense things (mostly prey) underneath the dirt for example
and a sea anemones tentacle thingies also move and help them basically latch onto things or push things around or whatever
so one of my conclusions is that somehow the ones on the draenei have to move even though ive never seen or heard of them doing that
and even then its like. okay but what do they do. are they some strange form of temperature regulation? do they help them sense something that they otherwise arent able to?
they cant be something that helps sense vibrations because theyre not in a good position for that, they cant help with balance because theyre not in a position for that either
the worst part is I KNOW that in canon theyre just an added feature to future emphasize how alien the draenei are compared to every other playable species. BUT COME ON. they have this whole universe made of rabbit hole after rabbit hole, theres probably several million words written about this franchise on the wiki alone for all i fucking know, and they cant just have One that says what the hell those tentacle thingies do? on both the page about the race as a whole and the page for the playable race they just mention them in a sentence or two and dont elaborate on really anything
plus theres the fact that they decorate them with jewelry, and the men can have them in their beards, so like, they cover them up as if they dont need to be uncovered and its just
WHAT. WHY. WHAT IS THIS. WHAT ARE THOSE. WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!
i am not a biologist idk what the fuck they could possibly do im just a guy who likes fictional creatures a lot 😔😔😔😔
#my post#world of warcraft#draenei#world of warcraft draenei#draenei world of warcraft#MY MAIN ON WOW IS A DRAENEI AND I THINK ABOUT HER ALL THE TIME AND IVE WRITTEN SO MANY THINGS ABOUT HER AND WHO SHE IS#AND THE ONE THING I CANT FIGURE OUT. IS WHAT THOSE FUCKING THINGS ARE 🗣🗣🗣🗣#i was trying to make up a little story where she. for plot reasons. gets turned into a tauren. and shes dealing with the differences of tha#and im just like. what would she *lose* by losing the tendril tentacle thingies? aside from obviously just the fact they exist at all#im gonna explode
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I know the reason why Branch never mentioned having brothers before was because the creators only thought them up for the third movie and then they had to find a storyline that would fit into the movie’s canon.
But I’m curious to know what’s your opinion on Branch’s brothers?
I mean, I know how you portray them in your AU, but I curious 👀 about your honest opinion of them based on what we learned from the movie.
I don’t know if anyone has asked this before and apologize if have and I couldn’t find it.
i like brozone! jd has been... soured for me after seeing how the fandom treats him but hes still funny when you dont have a bitch in your ear telling you he did nothing wrong
jd: i think jd was abusive. people get mad at me for saying this, but i dont care; he was in charge of his younger brothers and he worked them to the bone, he forced clay to wear underwear he hated and take photoshoots in them for gods sakes! thats freak behaviour! i think a lot about how he treated them, either directly stated by canon (the underwear thing) or inferred by canon + how theyd be treated irl (on top of the super strict workout routine bruce was probably kept on a super strict diet too, dehydrated to make his abs POP, he was MISERABLE). plus the fact he feels absolutely zero sympathy, he just says he "had a lot of responsibility", implying that his brothers should feel grateful for how he "took care of them" 🤮 ELECTRIC CHAIR! i do like how hes so full of himself though, i like how eric andre says he thinks hes the "alpha male" and thats something i feel like a lot of people are missing wrt his characterisation. hes not some cool, rugged, charming guy out in the forest; hes the guy who says he could TOTALLY survive a zombie apocalypse, guys!
bruce and clay: people have literally no reason to get mad at them for leaving the pod, im sorry. they were teenagers who moved out of the house, best case scenario because they hated their big brother, WORST case bc they were escaping ABUSE! yeah, they could have said bye to branch, yeah, they MIGHT have been able to keep in touch (for clay we dont know how long he was bumming around the tree before the last trollstice happened, i do think it was a few years though), but why are we acting like them MOVING OUT is some big crime? they werent gonna stay in the nest forever! BRANCH can be upset, he missed his brothers! we can sympathise with branch! that doesnt mean we need to DEMONISE them for not lying down and letting jd control their lives! bruce was a bit of a dick to branch though but its okay bc they made up. clay however did NOTHING wrong, put some respect on his name 😤
floyd: idk why both the fandom and the movie act like floyd is the only brother who didnt hurt branch, when hes the one who should have hurt him the MOST! he PROMISED hed come back, likely knowing he wouldnt, while the other three just said "sayonara, dont get your hopes up, see you never". floyd gave branch hope that theyd see each other again, and then fucked off for 20 years, not even TRYING to find branch! obviously floyd is my favourite, but most of that i freely admit is like... conjecture, and headcanon, and in the movie itself we really dont know anything about him other than "is gay" and "got branchs hopes up, only to let them get crushed". hes kinda an asshole! which could be fun, but everyone, including the writers ignore it! i kinda hope in the cartoon theres an episode that addresses how floyd never visited. i mean, even the movie says that jd TRIED to visit but found the empty troll tree and assumed everyone was dead! did the same happen to floyd? or did he just not care? without clarification you kinda gotta assume the latter, but im really excited to find out what secondary canon has to say about it!
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ok so this might be a sensitive topic but who in skz would likely pull a taeil or something else thats just as bad and have everyone be shook up because we wouldnt expect it? cause ive thought about it for awhile and given that we dont know them even through readings i do wonder how skz seem to avoid being in such huge scandals or even crimes because i think if a big group was going to do such a thing i dont think itd be bts theyve grown up quite a bit and if anything does ever come about its hardly surprising imho. so then i was thinking skz would be the sort of group whod really surprise me if anything of the sorts came about them.
how about you? i really dont view any idol as being incapable of doing such a thing. i mean theyre always surrounded by staffs and coddled or catered for / babysat to no end but theyd still be able to do whatever it is without anyone knowing cause nct case really shocked me tbh but when i thought about it i was like yeah that makes sense because members can be sly and stingy off camera and we wouldnt ever know nor suspect them. so who would be your pick out of the group? honestly, han, maybe hyunjin if someone really pushed his buttons and or he just snapped from what hes had to deal with hmm maybe chan? i dont really get his act sometimes i just feel that he is puttiing it on cause stay really do baby them and play into chan is five years old type joke
Ok so yeah this indeed is a sensitive topic and im not sure if ur asking for a reading or just for my opinion but from what I've gathered until now i don't really get the vibe from anyone pulling a taeil. I do feel a potential for crime or scandals in all of them tho, idk if its just my prejudice cuz they're men and i expect anything from men especially korean ones👀 but i tbh i believe anyone has the potential to be evil or violent. We're humans at the end of the day. But is it as bad/strong for it to be with taeils case? Idk.
Also i think sexual crimes wouldn't really be their thing as much, unless they're pulled into it or associated with it in any way like being friends with a predator or something. Cuz for half the group im not seeing that much interest in sex and women overall😂 and the other half in which i see it, there is a level of respect and admiration there as well, and actually predators dont even do it for the sex they just enjoy the power they have in that moment, they enjoy hurting. I haven't picked up on such energy with the guys - they have better things to do.
If anything crime related happened i would rather guess it would be either something with substances or reckless behvaiour for example drunk driving or something or eventually physical violence. But as i said those are my guesses for POTENTIAL things that could happen if the guys would slip onto a darker road. They don't have to tho, and i dont think they would. At least i hope they dont.
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ill be like I can totally make a lighthearted post mentioning a kink i have and i wont even freak abt it. and then i freak abt it
#its not even one of the ones i normally freak abt. fml. fml. its spreading. eventually i wont even be able to say Strals exist without going#into system shutdown or something. this sucks#this is also why i have so much trouble posting on my nsft is ill go over there and be like. Id love to **** some ***** and then i get#terrified. so i dont#my pfp over there is literally. **** ******* ** * *** but i go over there to post abt how i want to **** * *** and im like that is deviant#i cannot be saying that in front of my followers. who dollowed my nsft blog. where i list the things im into . and my pfo is * **** *******#** * *** so its not like theyd be HORRIFIED if that came up#but idk... i worry ppl dont read my dni over there. bc usually they just follow me after seeing that one post which doesnt rly mention any#of the ones im weird abt. except for like kind of it does but whatever its fine i cannottt freak out abt that post its existed for like.#months now. sigh. its all just a bit embarassing which sucks#“mdni”#IN A MASSIVE WAY. idr if any minors still r here if im still muts with any....#its just like. IDK i either feel a bit silly posting on it and its just mildly embarass Or i send myself into hysterics over how im an evil#person bc i like. well i cant say. obviously. but yk. stufffff. that i am into. I HATE TALKING ABT IT BC IT MAKES ME SOUND LIKE AN EVIL#PERSON AND LIKE. its not anything like. UGH. im not into kids or animals 👍👍👍 obviously. and idt its that bad the things im into some of#them r like basically baby shit like ohhh woww youre into *********** and yet even that i cant talk abt it bc im like um im going to be#smited by god and sent to hell or soemthing and actually i only thing its normal bc im a disgusting weird freak and everybody would kill me#immediately if they knew also im an evil person? its like. UGHHHH.#and the other stuff is. less 'mainstream' which is even scarier but ig in a way ive been More open abt it which is kind of funny. looks at.#but even then i dont rly go in detail bc yk. Stuff. im just like lol they r the way they r bc of how i am. and then i walk away forever#idk. ive been feeling so guilty over that specifically like. UGH. its not like. ugh. i rly cant talk abt it without it being obvious and im#scared byt im also like Compelled to talk abt it so ppl dont think its worse but im also compelled not to bc thats like oversharing i guess#as if thta isnt All i do on this fuckass blog. no matter what i do i lose. i hate my brain so badly i wish i could judt get over it and jus#be like yep these r the things and not have to like over clarify and explain and disclaimer everything and stuff . idk. it suck#mdni#the quotes didnt take it to the top like they used to. kms
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Hey regarding the question thing can I get your answers to 9 and 31
YAYAAYY I LOVE ANSWERING THESE TYY
Ok so
9. idk if ive ever had a true accomplishment tbh but probably passing an exam i knew i was gonna fail? ( im so sorry i cant think of anything)
10. i am allergic to mango
11. highs- when i bought a game i really wanted and was able to lore dump for hours, lows was when i had a breakdown ( rlly bad one ) to some music i dont remember the reason but i was 100℅ sure i wasnt gonna make it to today ( sorry about the personal vent,, tldr i had a breakdown with music playing thats it)
12. definitely spain. no clue why but definitely spain or france
13. i listen to ambience / save room music and rant to myself . or just music in general and rant to myself
14. pinterest and last fm ( or any app that lets u track what music/ movies uve watch i love stats and numbers sm)
15. lore nerd with bad taste in movies
16. i like my eyes the most so probably those
17. im somewhat good at writing but only about my interests
18. i am terrible at math and science
19. im ngl probably anytime i went to the doctor and they asked me about how im doing mentally
20. radiohead was named after the talking heads song and they were originally called on a friday because theyd practice on fridays hence the name
21. probably myself? i dont like revealing much about me to anybody tbh
22. my keyboard and guitar definitely i love them sm esp the key board
23. one that ive had since 5th grade iirc,, idk how long its been tho but its defo been a long time since we've been friends
24. when i realized i had to get a job eventually snd pay taxes and move out someday
25. ive never played any :(
26. bad
27. night owl, i wish i were an early bird though 😭
28. i kinda do but i kinda dont its hard to explain. more on the not at all side though
29. these r very weird answers ik i sound like an edgelord rn 😭
" i want to be someone else or ill explode " ( talk show host by radiohead)
" we were good as married in my mind, but married in my mind's no good" ( pink triangle by weezer)
" a heart that's full up like a landfill, a job that slowly kills you, bruises that wont heal " ( no surprises by radiohead)
" you'll go to hell for what your dirty mind is thinking " ( nude by radiohead)
30. probably just basic self care like showering i dont do anything past that tbh
31. thom yorke, thomas edward yorke, the radiohead singer ( i cant think of anyone else 😭)
Im actually so sorry if any of these were too personal or the answers were too long 😭 i just really like answering these but in so sorry if they seem weird or like im venting
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which of your ocs do you think you'd get along with irl? which do you think you absolutely would not be able to get along with, or who wouldn't like you?
GHBFSGBDFJH hiiiii whoever this is. i love u...................................................................................<3
im gonna do this list in order from MOST LIKELY to get along with to LEAST LIKELY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! theyll be ranked on if i were to meet them in a relaxed environment which means NO killing game and NO dnd plot making their lives hell YAY!
sae: removed from a killing game scenario its reaaaaalllyyy hard to get her to not like you and also shes chill as fuck. she isnt my age but she'd give awesome advice and also i would definitely be texting her just to get back the most random bullshit from her brick phone. no notes here i have GOT to sit on a dock at night and talk shit with him
ryobe: so despite being the antagonist of his season outside of killing game stuff he is genuinely a very very fun person to be around!!!! also VERY easy to make laugh i think i could get along with this guy. now he is the greatest person to like idk Be Emotional to? not really but id have a great time taking him to go bowling. killing game scenario he'd be a lottttt lower
erin: you'll notice im splitting erin and pippy here because the answer is going to be very different LMFAO but erin and i would get alonggg :] she's real goofy and i need to introduce her to dnd i think she'd thrive there. also she's australian so if these people were real she'd have the best shot of being nearby. BONUS!
yoshito: he's just a nice guy :) but he's genuine about it like youre gonna notice a few of these ocs are nice but they tend to be rather surface level..... yoshito is for real a compassionate guy LMFAO. probably wouldnt share the EXACTTT same sense of humor as him and he's definitely one to pry a little into your personal business if he catches anything off about your behavior. which yknow sometimes is uncool but ultimately he's a good person so i cant imagine not liking him
naomi: heavy emphasis on this being a RELAXED scenario but i think we would be chill :) she's very awkward at first but i would think all her jokes are funny on account of being very easy to make laugh . we'd go play video games together. the dream. i do think our combined lack of ability to text people back will eventually kill us though GHFDHG
ruth: again not exactly my age and clearly busy being a mom but she's the type of woman who would have just absolutely fascinating stories to tell you at a family gathering before she slips away into oblivion again LMAO. but shes still pretty reserved and while i dont think i have any traits thats gonna make her hate my ass she also isnt gonna be super open with me so i cant see a super close relationship or anything LMAO. in my dream blunt rotation however. gotta get her on that dock with saeunn
mika: we're both average so she won't have a complex about anything, i can't imagine we'd be reaaallyyyyy close friends just because she doesnt have a very good sense of humour and she can be a bit blunt lmao. but we'd manage to get along if we were put in a group project or something
olli: MY FIRST DND OC TO MAKE IT HERE LMFAO i lovveeee making dnd/bg3 characters that would be terrible to hang out with in real life. olli is cool though id think they were funny. ill be very honest in saying that we arent gonna be lifelong pals or anything on account of how completely different our personalities are but they would be fascinating to spend a few days with. cant imagine theyd find anything about me they deem deplorable if anything they see my weak ass and vow to "shield me from thy wicked enemies" or something
billie: we'd be fine??? don't think we'd actively be making plans together on account of her being fifteen years old and really awkward
rie: we'd also get along but it's very surface level. she doesn't have much of a sense of humor unfortunately and we share very little interests!!! she's very lovely and all but there isn't much to connect over
andi: this is like. the true neutral point here because she truly is just siri
pippy: this is a character that is SUPPOSED to be really annoying to anybody that isn't an actual child and i do think i'd find that high energy difficult to keep up with lmaooo, also pippy wouldnt be making a huge effort to get to know me or anything! she's lots of fun though and definitely sweet
null: this one was hard ghfjgsdfkg. null is objectively very well-spoken, but this is often through blunt, unexpressive speech. not to mention they are very unnerving like i can not lie to you i would find them really off-putting at first. but the thing is they are up this high because i think they have longevity yknow.................. if im kind to it and give it a nice wave they will eventually mimic that wave back at me. i cant even explain it but i think we could get along. or maybe i am severely overestimating my abilities to talk to a cleric of a murder god but its whatever
sadie: okay so sadie is extremely charming. unfortunately she is extremely charming it's part of her character she is good at talking to people and i am not immune to this. i think sadie would be a lovely person to talk to a few times but hanging out with her for too long is eventually going to get me involved in some ungodly drama LMFAO. without a killing game level scenario to humble her she is going to get very annoying very quickly, and she VERYYY likely sees me as somebody easily manipulated
finnea: similar to sadie she is extremely charming, only put a knob lower due to how quick she is to disappear. would make little effort to truly get to know me and wouldn't make an effort to reveal anything about herself either, would kinda just make playful flirty comments that leave me going "oh yeah she seemed nice i guess"
nowhere: there's a bit of a jump here between finnea and nowhere i reckon because now we're getting into "i would probably dislike them initially" territory........ nowhere at the beginning of her story is like. an asshole LMFAO or at least she's just really loud and kinda abrasive and really doesn't make any effort to get to know people or help them. honestly most likely scenario is we both just say a blunt hi and then go our separate ways
elese: sigghhhhh it makes me so sad to say this it really does. but elese and i would not get along HGFKGSDJHJFKD shes dead last because i can say without a doubt we would both not like each other at first glance....... she would think she's of a much higher rank than me and i would find her very pretentious and cocky............... and if i was to be a little kind and say that this is POST character development elese we still dont have a whole ton in common unfortunately!! besides maybe music but even then she is very very classically trained... love her to death but it would not be fun meeting her in real life and that is why shes awesome <3
#KISSES YOU KISSES YOU#ask lee#anonymous#on account of this being A Lot of ocs i wont tag them GHFDKG
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