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one of my reasons to keep going and thrive is to see international shipping again, so I can send a huge ass package with a fun things to a random mutual overseas
maybe i was spoiled with this earlier, but i just fkin love people and I love sharing. If to think, even in the age of globalization it still feels like a little miracle to send something to the far place of the Earth where a real person will recieve it.
had this thought today at work and felt my eyes wet
#sdei spam#if you don't know and curious why i can't: i live in russia#yep i can send a huge ass package within my country#and it will be great and cool too#it's just my inner child who is always curious about the places unknown#this year is also gonna be a mess in terms of job for me#so i'm better to save money#so i will try to live the dream again
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I hate the sewers . jpg
#baldur's gate 3#bg3#larian studios#astarion#astarion ancunin#halsin#bg3 halsin#comic#comics#fanart#me browsing my saved clips like 'wait why did i record this one—'#cuts the scene im laughin for solid 5 mins#i feel so bad for astarion it almost looks like he isn't my fav w this treatment kcvvnxovx#'the bank money can wait - we need to pamper astarion now'#hey past me why did u try to switch places w halsin instead of- yknow- tHE GUY YOU PAIRED HIM WITH#prob was bc halsin had more hp to let him step on fire - and also forgetting the water pipe does that#ngl i still don't really understand how to do this part the proper way#like- yeah i know what to do but it's never perfect and always someone will get burned or pushed#plot twist im making better numbers here than twt w bg3 so i'm posting here first while i do a twt detox#my mental health this month is hanging there by two strings and these strings are baldurs gate 3 and hades 2#currently doing my honor run with my rebooted tav'chyon the dracomonk pls wish me luck
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"not all men" but not in a men's rights way, in a "it's important to remember that men aren't the only perpetrators of cruelty, abuse, and evil and that subconsciously or consciously training yourself to view men as inherently evil and everyone else as inherently safe inadvertently puts you in a position where you're both vulnerable to attack or harm from people you otherwise wouldn't suspect, AND causes you to limit the number of allies you might have in a time of need" kind of way.
#This is why I worry a lot about young women (teens and twenties) who seek comfort and validation in r//adf//em circles. Many of them have#been hurt through rape or abuse—commonly at the hands of fathers/brothers/uncles or otherwise trusted adults—and have decided that men must#be cruel because both they and their female/female + queer friends have similar stories of abuse. So they seek out others who share this#belief but in doing so they make themselves vulnerable to further abuse and manipulation. I haven't really observed r//adf//em circles long#enough to be able to say what I'm about to say with certainty but I would put money on the idea that being a RF on social media shares the#same hallmarks as being in a cult because the behavior of the adherents is far too similar than that of tradwives or any other modern cult.#Other RF's use the hurt and abuse these young women have experienced and twist and manipulate their truth to foster a sense of#us-against-them cruelty against a population that could in actuality be their fiercest allies. It's such a vicious and relentless cycle.#That's why when I see RF's on here all I feel is pity — both for the cruelty and abuse they've witnessed and suffered but ALSO for the way#they've allowed that abuse to be weaponized against them... many before they were too young to realize it was even happening. We as a#society have got to get better at protecting our young girls and women from r//adf//em ideology. I don't even mean that in a#“destroy the patriarchy” kind of way because that's such a lofty and disorganized goal. I mean it in a “we have to go into uncomfortable#spaces and show these girls love and empathy because right now the only people validating them are people who use their hate and mistrust#against them and if we want to save our young girls and Queer sisters from this pipeline we have to do the dirty work“ kind of way.#But anyway.#jack.txt
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There are two wolves inside me. One wants to embrace a new hobby in dance so I can be active and feel elegant and graceful and strong. This wolf wants to try something new and exciting, finally indulging in something I've always had an interest in.
The other experiences such frustrating emotions on a near daily basis that I want to go back to boxing, which is arguably easier to break into since I've already done it before. This wolf doesn't think of elegance, she just wants to fuck shit up until her body's so overworked and warm it fogs up car windows without having to do anything but sit inside.
Which one do I fucking feed??
#t. lee woes#like. do you know how hard it is trying to start something new that you've never done at all ever before??#and you've got no mode of transport until december - and ONLY if things go well#and now you're contemplating ways to mkre regularly earn a bit of money to afford the classes since paying weekly means my income#would wind up like $9 a fortnight since $40 would be spent by the end of each fortnight#it wouldn't necessarily be stagnant but it's not a desirable position to be in#I still have stuff saved up in a jar but I'm always hesitant to dip into that stuff#originally it was going toward a violin and lessons for that but I'm putting it off in favour of something a bit easier to dedicate time to#boxing is easy. in fact I could get support from my fam for that cause they like it#they don't see the point in dancing but I really want to at least try it and I'm worried about affording each term if I do end up liking it#also I already have boxing gear from before#but I'm hesitant about boxing at the moment for a lot of reasons I can't quite articulate but weirdly might have something to do with#internalised misogyny and biases... which is WILD cause my dad supports women learning martial arts#I can't do karate though I tried that and the class drove me a little insane#and it doesn't push you the same way boxing does and I really like to be pushed#if I don't leave sweating and hot and lungs and muscles aching then what's the point?? I can do mediocre exercise at home#and find more intense martial arts classes that also teach other kinds of self-defense#it's like... ehhhh#anyway but also I want to do something that's for fun that isn't so Serious Fight Mode#hence dancing#but I can only afford one not both and basically I'm grumpy today cause I was gonna trial a dance class - got ready and everything - but#my ride was suddenly unavailable. and I still can't stomach public transport. nor am I good at navigating it#it feels so different here compared to where I used to live - and I knew trains better not buses
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John Seed is a comfort character for some people. Folks like to ship him with their deputies or craft redemption arcs for him.
There's nothing wrong with that, obviously.
But I just can't wrap my head around it.
There's nothing comforting about the way John Seed treated Joey Hudson. I don't understand why the ordeal she went through doesn't seem to matter to fans of his.
She was bait for the rookie deputy and nothing more, because she wasn't going to give in and join the cult.
He terrorized Joey and the rest of Fall's End, stooping to the lowest, most inhumane levels to get his way. Some even theorize that he hurt the "sinners" in his care just because he wanted to, for malicious, sadistic reasons that didn't have anything to do with the cult. At worst, some people go as far as to speculate that he raped Joey.
It's easy to see why someone might come to that conclusion. The way he acts is deplorable and he makes everything feel extremely personal, sometimes in ways that can be interpreted as sexually charged. He'll do anything in order to get his way because "no" is antithetical to him. He regularly flies off the handle, so much so that Joseph is threatening to cast him out. All the touching and getting right up in the player's face is so uncomfortable and obsessive (which is the point, but I digress).
So why does he get to be redeemed and venerated by fans? Don't his actions warrant consequences?
Are people willing to let him off the hook because he's attractive? Because he had a horrible, abusive childhood? Obviously he's got a lot more lore than most of the cast. Is that something people are interested in exploring for him over other characters?
I'm not trying to come after anyone personally. There's nothing wrong with liking villains and Jacob, Faith, and Joseph have also done terrible things to innocent people.
Which is like, fine. It's a video game.
And I know that John, like Joey, is a victim of Ubisoft's choppy, inconsistent writing and storytelling. Things got changed and swapped and cut during development that got us to where we are, with the story we have. Flaws and all, not like it was ever going to be perfect.
But in my opinion, I feel like the adoration for John does a huge disservice to Joey. People make thirsty edits of him while she's literally tied up behind him. It's tasteless and makes the optics of her situation look even creepier.
Her pain has largely been ignored for as long as the game has existed. I can't for the life of me figure out why.
#i'm gonna save my extra personal interpretations for the notes#genuinely I'm not trying to come after anyone#I just can't wrap my head around it#same goes for Jacob but I feel like he at least has the capacity for some change#cause he has doubts about the cult and stuff#the jury is out on Faith and how much autonomy she really has#though I believe it's more than some people think#and Joseph well... some medication is in order at least#but John had all that money and not a single cent went to a therapist so he could sort out his issues#John never got proper help and he has some very fucked up interpretations of the events that happened to him#he is so stuck in his ways and regularly acts extremely selfishly#in canon that's even considered to be part of why he dies#he's too stubborn and selfish to change#would rather everyone experience the pain that he felt than accept what happened to him#he absolutely had the means to better himself and never did#and Joey and all the other innocent people in his bunker were hurt no matter how you slice it#which if we're talking about John#I guess that's no pun intended#far cry 5#john seed#joey hudson#deputy hudson#fandom opinions#rape mention
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The Seunghan (RIIZE) situation is one of the most confusing and embarrassing things to happen to KPOP fandom in recent memory. I wonder what it's like to be a member of the group and do fansigns where you tell your fans how grateful you are for their support. Like, how do you do that with a straight face and your soul intact. When you have no idea if one of them sent a funeral wreath celebrating an awful event in your groups history. But I guess it's a job like any other, where you sometimes have to leave your values and ethics at the door. Maybe they can get past this but quite frankly, it's just bad vibes at this point. SM continues to be the pits of Hell.
#riize#this sets a dangerous precedence#i feel bad for them as a group#kpop idol-ing continues to sound so utterly miserable#every day there's another example of: nothing is more important than image and money and saving face#that's kpop in a nutshell#unless he committed a crime#they are putting money and image above humanity and supposed/perceived human error. They truly dgaf about him.#and then SK wonders why their youths are so sick#i'm kind of glad he is gone and can just carry on with his life#he'll probably be better off for it#i just saw the funeral wreaths and i'm embarrassed for the people who paid for them and for the florists who made them#it's so damm dystopian
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Okay Here Is The Problem: everything costs money and yet money is something that i just literally never have. solution? kill the idea of money so that nothing costs anything Please. i'm so tired
#despite making more money w/ my commissions than ever before this year#i am still. not able to save up literally even one (1) single penny of it bc of bills#i have to make like 600 every month just to break even at like 5 dollars in my acct#please i am so fucking tired#i want to get myself things and do shit#i want to buy things for archie and jack's dog and for the house so that things are better for all of us#i want to be able to afford snacks more than once every three months like if i maybe want a bag of chips#instead of saving up for three months and going 'yeah okay 5 dollars for a normal sized bag of chips is finally worth it' ?????????????????#why the fuck are chips so expensive that is potatoes and spices and like all of it is automated hello?? what are we fucking paying for?????#ANYWAYS.#i am just fucking. Tired#due to recent events I was like#'okay how much are dog treadmills.... oh. i see. i will never be able to afford that even after three years saving. got it'#there are five hundred fundraisers on my dash (BARELY hyperbole) every single day and everybody needs help#so i COMPLETELY get people not having a ton of disposable funds this isn't me complaining about that i'm just.#i wish that i sometimes had money so that i could MAYBE save anything up or y'know. have ANYTHING to show for it#bc right now i am working full time at this job (commission/freelance artist and adopt maker etc) and making like maybe 4 dollars an hour#which is great bc when i started i was only getting about $0.11 an hour but like. that's still not. Good. For all the time i put into it#but due to circumstances and situations this is about all i'm physically and mentally able to do here and i LIKE doing commission but it's#not really. getting me anywhere and i just want to afford things finally.#i'm 27 and everything i own fits in one room and almost all of it was gifted to me for free bc i couldn't afford to get it on my own#delete later i'm just so tired man
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My #1 advice for people moving out is to NOT buy nonstick cookware... not only is the lifespan of nonstick a MAXIMUM of 7 years (usually more like 2-5 years) but teflon, aka Polytetrafluoroethylene-- the plastic coating that makes the cookware nonstick, infuses microplastics into your food.
New cookware sets can cost hundreds of dollars so my advice is to look for 100% stainless steel cookware in thrift stores. Safer, cheaper, & instead of needing to replace every 2-7 years they can potentially last you the entire rest of your life AND they won't start shedding plastic into your food
#x#PS plastic food storage containers are also not ideal... I'm going to replace all mine with glass containers when i can afford it#i bought everything nonstick thinking it would be easier to deal with. i wanted to be cost-effective & save time so buying cheap nonstick#seemed like a good idea but every single nonstick thing I bought either already needed to be tossed in the trash or the teflon is flaking#aka they have become unsafe to use. but i dont have the money to replace all my fucking kitchenware!!!!!#today the casserole dishes that i bought 2.5 years ago are going in the trash. fucking waste of money and awful for the planet#boiling water to get rid of microplastics in a flaking nonstick pot... my life is a joke LMFAOOO#i was going to put a brand suggestion for nonstick here based on what lasted the longest for anyone who absolutely NEEDS nonstick#but when i search for who owns that brand and then searched with israel in quotes... first result was them being voted brand of the year#in israel... so never mind... dude fuck all these big companies i fucking hate this shit#oh btw ceramic is a good nonstick alternative but all my ceramics lasted less than 3 years... their lifespan is about 2 years apparently#theres way too many tags on this already but for anyone who reads them all HIIII and also you can literally find better furniture#on the side of the road than you will ever find on amazon or from ikea or where the fuck ever
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Studio Series 86 Constructicons...
Sigh...
*opens wallet*
#constructicons#I'm very proud of my concious money management skills#but damn these robots are about to make me go broke#they look so much like the CW ones#but like... way better#and tiiiiny lol#Also LH and Hook are going to be my first “big purchase” for my collection#preparing my mind for that 😑#maybe I should open a savings account
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i'm a very don't tolerate bullshit kind of person and I respect and expect it so much when other people are real and straight up with me anyways whatever I say stems from my own thoughts and I cannot lie to you and tell you to do something I think is stupid if you ask for advice. anyways an acquaintance of mine who majored in English unless you want to work in primary school for a pay of barely 700 dollars complained how her parents want her to get a masters degree and she's thinking about getting one in marketing or something similar and then later on spreading into tech saying how she can work as a data analyst and I literally almost laughed out loud like it's absolutely insane how little university life prepares us for the future and how absolutely useless it is that you have university graduates here thinking they can work a job that requires a degree in either IT or economy as someone who read and talked about books for grades like please be so serious right now. I'm not upset with her for thinking this is possible just the general society for letting these young people down by telling them every career option is valid and it doesn't really matter what you study in university because it does
#in a general scheme of things it doesn't matter what you study in university when u study useless shit and never get a chance to work#a job related to that#but people who majored in medicine#mathematics engineering biology physics etc like you dont hear them talk about how studies don't actually matter bc they're working jobs#they studied for#adding law onto it as well#like we really need less people in humanities I'm not saying we need no people in humanities#humanities are really important but we need LESS people in them#and we also need less people in universities in general#go learn a skill you can actually use to make money off of in the real word we need electricians and people fixing shit around the house#we need people making ceramic or wooden floors we need carpenters#we dont need more people majoring in English abeg#the society and the school system is failing the younger generations so much by affirming their ideas of what the world looks like#because a highschooler cannot know whats best for them in the long run and we need to aid them#and i wish someone told me this before I went to university I would've saved myself so much trouble and time#and im not complaining bc i genuinely have it so much better than at least like 50% of my ex classmates#i have an appartment#a job that pays me okay#a side hustle#a car even though its old#savings#a future plan#idea of what im going to do and where I'm going to end up#but if i had someone advise me from the beginning I would've saved so much time and effort
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I started my first real job this week! I returned to the company where I did my internship last year (mandatory for my university programme), but I'm a proper employee now. Since I was already familiar with the environment, settling in went fairly smooth, and although a few things are different now (ie as an intern I was never required to join meetings), I quickly got back into the loop. I do web development stuff :)
I remember now how time consuming and exhausting a full time job is though🫠🫠🫠 I still need to adjust to the new routine so if I'm being more absent that's probably why. I'm really glad it's finally weekend and I can rest a bit now😭
#I'm planning to switch to part time in september since I want to keep studying but full time helps to get back in the routine#plus I can save up more money :)#I also have my own desk at the office now and already stocked it up with snacks lol#like of course I had a place to sit before when I was an intern there but the one now is my 'own' space#and I like it much better since it's more at the back of the office so it's quieter#now I don't constantly have people running around behind my back because they need to go and talk to someone😭#it's not their fault but I just find it super distracting and irritating😭#so yeah the new space is definitely an upgrade#selnia talks
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answer within the next like 2 hours bc I'm making a decision before I go to bed
#basically my dad has a pair of these banger shoes#and my dad has actual literal podiatry issues and he is harder on shoes than anyone I've ever mey#met*#like. buying a new set of sneakers and/or hiking boots nearly annually bc he's worn through them and stuff. he's that hard on shoes#and he has had THE SAME PAIR of these sandals LITERALLY since before my sister was born. so like. OVER 14 years at this point#so like... seems like a worthy investment to me#better than buying a new set of cheap $20 sandals every year yknow??#I told myself that once I saved up a certain amount of money following my Florida trip I could buy a good set of shoes#I just need backup lol bc I'm gonna have to justify myself to my parents who hate it when I spend ANY money sksksksks#Lu rambles#adulthood woes
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#hhhhh I'll probably delete this later but if i don't physically put these thoughts somewhere I'll maybe explode.#but fuck man. shit sucks fr! I highkey think I can't go to work tomorrow but yknow how it goes!!!!#I'm caught somewhere between finally being taken seriously about my health issues#and having the most wretched mental health crisis#like on one hand fantastic! I'm being taken seriously now its gotten to the point where I cant fucking walk normally#but on the other hand oh my god holy shit. i had to get this bad???? and I'm worried. i know theres shit so much bigger than me rn going on#but I'm worried about my health. especially when I've been trying to deal with it for the better part of like.... 5 years#since i was 19!!!!#I'm 24 and worrying about whether or not I'll actually walk about with 0 pain ever again isn't that fucked.#so that's bittersweet. ive got physio tomorrow. blood tests next week#an ultrasound coming up#its ultimately a good thing im being taken seriously. if not a terrifying acceptance that everything ive been feeling has been real and#well. bad.#and like with this right is the crash of my mental health. just a fuckin nosedive man.#i have a relatively stressful job i felt out of my depth about and thus guilty for but now its a role that I've approached in constant pain#for the last few months.#i can't deal with that actually! lots of stress! lots of pain! lots of mental pain over my physical condition! my job grinding my soul!#aaaaa!!!!!!!#like i dont WANT to be unemployed either#I'd much rather be uhhhh employed! and able to save money towards actually getting Help™#but I've got to admit that i hurt too much. and its consuming my whole fucking brain.#but I'll go on#ive got my first trip out the country solo next week!! im heading to san Fransisco!!! im excited.#but I'm worried for the inevitable moment where my pains catch up with me#ill surpress it while I'm out there. try and remind myself to have a good time. return to the uk and feel a weeks worth of pain#and even THAT sucks to consider#but i should stop#rambles
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Now running up against the problem that putting items into the same bins every day for 7-9 hours is so boring it makes me wanna kms and I still have to figure out what facial expressions to make or coworkers will think I am lazy and uncooperative
#look i'm not having anxiety attacks weekly. so it is better#no one has ever directly called me lazy or sexually harassed me. i am making enough money to live#i'm even saving a couple hundred each month for the next burnout#which there will be one. probably in about 6 months to a year as usual#my regularly scheduled breakdown#well. is still is better than before. but i am realizing that before i was doing very badly and now i am doing badly
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sometimes i simply like to draw pretty women
(i will draw pretty women for you if you pay me :]c)
#not limited to just women btw i will draw pretty anyone for you if you pay me#i'm saving up for plane tickets i need money#i also should mention: i completely half-assed the rendering on this#i promise it will be so much better if you order from me KJHFDGJKLSHDLFKGH#lightly salted art#aesthetic#cloudcore#cloud aesthetic#ibispaint
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if this garrus figure does not ship soon i may have to cancel it i'm sad man
#q1 2024 my DICK its MID MAY i wont be here forever man..!!#cancelled duckarian because fig was pushed back to q2 and i was nearing the due date to ship duckarian. and i wouldnt ship em separate#due to customs/shipping CA pain. i wanted to save. but the delay! so i picked the other. but still not ready. i have a month still here top#graaaah. RAAAAH. I CAN CHANGE ADDRESS BC ITS NOT SHIPPED BUT NOW IM ALL. PLS DONT SHIP HIM WRONG PLACE WAHH#I dont know where I'm goin still!! Not till we're sold here and have money to look. So its cutting awful close i have to stay on top of.#All very high-priority in the grand scheme of legal and family health things being endured but. ;;;;;;;;;;;;; let me bitch a bit#Im impatient and nervous only bc hes technically a gift from someone and was meant to help me feel better over this. Feel like a mama hen#DO U PROMISE GARRUS IS OK IN THE WAREHOUSE.. THAT HE KNOWS HIS WAY HERE... NEW ROUTE CHANGE..PLEASE AND THANK YOU#armour clanking
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