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mascot || leah williamson x reader ||
you and leah have a talk about expanding your family after your nephew is leah's mascot.
"There's a canon on my shirt," Max, your nephew, proudly announced to the car. You felt bad about leaving Leah on her own for the morning before a game, but Max was supposed to be her mascot for the game today, and you wanted to personally deliver the boy. Your family would be down later, but you got to keep him to yourself for the morning and afternoon leading up to the game.
"It's the Arsenal canon. Pretty cool, right?" you asked him. Max nodded enthusiastically. You smiled as you turned your attention back towards traffic. It was a dreadfully long drive from your brother's place to London, but this was worth it. Besides, after the game, Max would get to spend some quality time at your parents' place for a bit.
You generally had busy days for most of Max's visits, compliments of your girlfriend. Leah loved having the boy over, and usually had a bunch of little things planned for the three of you to do together. Today, it'd be a chill day of brunch before you went to the game. Max was careful in keeping his Williamson jersey clean, which you thought was quite the feat for the boy.
"Is that my favorite bench buddy?" Alessia asked as she saw you in the parking lot. Max's face lit up as he saw the blonde. He was fond of all of the Lioness players. Since he had lived in England his entire life, he thought of himself as a proper little Englishman. You and your brother were absolutely besides yourselves trying to correct that, but it was a losing battle.
"Where's Leah at?" Max was hugging Alessia, but his focus was on your girlfriend. Alessia laughed, promising to bring Max to Leah once they were inside. You left took Max back so that Alessia could get dressed, unsurprised when Leah and Kim came out to see Max.
Leah went straight to you, giving you a big kiss while Kim had Max distracted. She handed him a little Scottish flag, something you knew that would end up as a decoration on your brother's desk. Max didn't care for Scottish stuff, but that wouldn't stop any of you from trying with him.
"Do you like my canon Leah?" Max asked. Leah nodded as she picked him up. You stepped back to let her have a moment with Max.
"Williamson, huh. I'm surprised that you didn't put your last name on there," Kim said. You shrugged at the comment, currently out from Arsenal for a bad injury. You knew that your whole career was at stake, but you had been trying not to think about it too much. You didn't want to freak yourself out too badly about things.
"Don't tell her, I want her to notice on her own. Also, Max insisted, claimed that he had enough of my stuff. I swear he loves Leah more than me," you huffed. It wasn't true annoyance, in fact, you were glad that Max loved Leah so much.
You wanted a family with her, but you didn't know if she wanted that too. Leah had been nervous at first around Max, claiming that she wasn't great with kids. You knew that was far from the truth now. She had a better maternal instinct than you did, and you had dreamed of being a mother since you were a baby yourself. A large part of your family had always been very traditional, so for a long time, you thought it was your only option. You were older and knew better now, and it was seeing how the world changed made you feel good about bringing a new life into it.
"Alright little man, we've got places to be," you told Max. He gave Kim and Leah big kisses goodbye, and made them promise to give Alessia and Beth some too. Max happily followed you over to where the other kids and their parents were waiting. He was a social butterfly, so he managed to make friends with several of the children around him.
He was lost in his own little world until Leah and the other players came. Immediately, he flocked to your girlfriend. Leah held his hand in hers, and you knew she wouldn't let go for anything. You stood back a bit, and snapped a picture of them talking to each other as both teams began to line up. You wouldn't post it, but you'd keep it for yourself and Leah to look back on later.
"Oi, Max is gonna stay on the bench, okay?" Leah shouted. You gave her a thumbs up. You found your spot in the friends and family section right by the bench just in case Max needed something. You filmed Leah walking Max out, and just how obvious it was that she cared for him. Those videos did go to your story, but it didn't seem odd for you to post Leah in the lineup. Everybody knew about your relationship, and a few dedicated fans even knew about her little adventures with Max whenever you managed to get him for an off weekend.
ā¦
"We probably could have taken him for tonight," Leah said as she watched your parents drive off with Max. She had held onto him all throughout the post-game celebrations. Leah even managed to talk your parents into going out for dinner just so that she could stay close to your nephew.
"Leah, I'd hate to burst your bubble, but we're second to my parents. That boy loves his Nanny and Papa," you told her. Leah knew that it was true. He may have asked to sit with Leah, but he had been talking your parents' ears off all night. Still, you hadn't missed the way that both Max and Leah seemed to lean into each other for comfort.
"Do you ever think that we'd make good parents?" Leah asked you. She leaned her head against your shoulder, eyes fixed on the night sky ahead of you. You could hear the apprehension in her voice, like she was afraid that you'd reject the ide of becoming a mother with Leah. Since the two of you had gotten serious about each other and your relationship, there wasn't a single person in the world that you could think to have a child with other than her.
"I don't know about myself, but you'll be a great mother. Nobody will do everything right, but I think that you'd probably come the closest," you told her. Leah lifted her head up and turned you around to face her. "I think that you could do good enough for the both of us."
"You sound fucking mental to me right now. Seriously, you're the most loving and caring woman that I know. If it's about Max, he just thinks that I'm cool. I can't even take care of myself without you, but you'd be fine without me," Leah said. She sounded so sure that you had to believe her, even if it was just a little bit. "I'd have a baby with you right now if I could."
"Well, I will be out for quite a while. There's still another whole surgery that I need and the physical therapy for it. What if we waited until the last surgery and then started trying?" you asked. Leah seemed a bit surprised, but you could tell that it wasn't a bad thing. "There's no rush to even think about it. I just thought that maybe it was something to throw out there."
"Yes," Leah answered quickly. Now, it was your turn for the shock to settle in. "I want to have a child with you, and this seems like the way to go. We don't have to tell anybody until it takes, and I mean, it's kind of perfect anyway. And if you decide that you don't want to go back at the end of your injury, you won't have to scramble around trying to find your place. I'll even step back from some things to really help out because I don't want you to feel alone for a second."
"Leah, this is a big step. Promise me that you won't get cold feet." You didn't mean to sound to scared, but Leah comforted you anyway.
"Never, I'd be an idiot to even consider it. You don't even know how lucky I feel to wake up next to you everyday. And the idea of having you and a baby? Babe, I'm over the moon already. Now, let's get home so that we can start on the process," Leah said as she grabbed your hand.
"I'm not sure that's gonna work," you laughed as Leah pulled you along.
"Simulation, it's very important!" Leah exclaimed. You continued laughing as she just scooped you into her arms and sprinted to get you into the car.
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There are a few posts about yandere!JL with a shared darling, but there arenāt enough so Iād love to hear your take on it!
How would different members act? Are there scheduled times for everyone or is it constant group activities? Do they kidnap Y/N or do they wait? Are there common arguments? Does Y/N try to defuse the arguments or do they try to start them?
Love your stuff! And if I send any more asks Iāll go by šŖ¼ anon as I always do. Feel free to not answer this for any reason <3
Yandere Justice league x reader
The Justice League, each with their own possessive and obsessive tendencies, would create an environment that feels like a constant power struggle. They would argue over your time, your safety, and the best way to care for you, but all with the underlying motive of keeping you to themselves. Group activities would become the norm, as no one would want you to spend time alone with another member. While there would be scheduled "times" for each of them to have you all to themselves, it would eventually evolve into constant collective supervision. Each member has different ideas about how best to keep you close, and those differences lead to constant tension.
Superman would push for a more relaxed approach, wanting you to have a "normal" life but still under his watch. His concern for your safety would make him feel like he has to be involved in everything, even if it means tracking your every move from a distance.
He would try to maintain the idea of your autonomy while still keeping you close. Expect him to encourage group outings like picnics or public events, subtly keeping an eye on you the whole time.
He would argue with Batman about keeping you isolated. Superman would believe in a balance of freedom and protection, but Batman would push for a much tighter hold over you.
Kidnapped or waiting? Superman wouldn't kidnap you. Heād rather try to convince you of the benefits of staying close and protected without overtly controlling you.
Batman is the most calculating and controlling. He sees the world as full of threats and wants you isolated, with all roads leading back to him. The Batcave would become your "safe haven," away from the rest of the world.
He would not want to share you at all. If he had his way, heād keep you secluded, only allowing others to interact with you when absolutely necessary. Heās the one who would argue most against the "group dynamic."
Batmanās obsessive nature would lead to tension with Superman and Wonder Woman, who want you to be able to have more freedom. He would argue that total control is the only way to keep you safe, something that would frustrate the others.
Kidnapping or Waiting? Batman would kidnap you if he believed your safety was compromised. He'd want you away from the world, isolated from anyone who could hurt you.
Wonder Woman wants to empower you, believing that the best way to protect you is through strength and training. She would train you in combat and see that as part of her role, giving you the skills to defend yourself while still keeping you under close supervision.
She might be the one pushing for group activities, where she can "train" and protect you, though not as overbearing as Batman. Still, she would consider herself your protector and would take issue with the others' methods if they interfered with her training.
Diana would argue with Batman over his suffocating methods, with Superman over his idealistic ways of keeping you "safe" without truly preparing you for the dangers of the world.
Kidnapping or Waiting? Diana would wait, but if she thought you were in danger, she'd likely whisk you away to Themyscira for "training" and protection.
Barry is the most carefree and fun-loving member. His desire to "keep you happy" would make him want to entertain you constantly, making everything a game or a joke. Heād want to keep you distracted and happy, sometimes to the point of avoiding serious issues.
Barry would push for group activities that are lighthearted and fun. He would create situations where everyone has to "share" you in a way that feels like a group adventureāwhether itās a spontaneous outing or a mission that somehow involves all of you.
He would clash with Batmanās brooding, intense control and Supermanās more idealistic, distant protection. Heād want you to enjoy yourself and keep things light, frustrating the others who want you to stay in a controlled environment.
Kidnapping or Waiting? Barry would wait for the right moment to pull you into a fun situation but wouldnāt force you into anything. His tendency would be more about bringing you into his chaos than kidnapping.
Aquaman is territorial and proud, often seeing you as his. His possessiveness would manifest in wanting to keep you close, but more because he feels you should be with him, ruling alongside him in Atlantis or in the surface world.
Aquaman wouldnāt be a fan of scheduled times; heād simply take you wherever he goes, often pulling you into his royal duties in Atlantis or showing off his world.
Arthur would argue with Superman over his idealistic methods and with Batman about his isolationist tendencies. Heād feel entitled to you and see the others as threats to his claim on you.
Kidnapping or Waiting? Aquaman might wait for the right moment but would be quick to act if he felt that anyone was trying to take you away from him.
J'onnās protective nature is deeply empathic. He would want to keep you safe, but more emotionally than physically. His psychic abilities make him attuned to your thoughts and feelings, so he would know when youāre distressed and act accordingly.
He would try to keep things calm and reflective, often providing emotional support and sharing moments of quiet. J'onn would be gentle, preferring one-on-one time to "restore" you emotionally.
J'onn would argue with Batman and Superman about what kind of protection you truly needāwhether it's physical or emotional safety. Heād often remain neutral but wouldnāt hesitate to act if anyone got too controlling.
Kidnapping or Waiting? J'onn would likely wait, offering you his calming presence, but if the situation turned dangerous or emotionally overwhelming, he might take you to a quiet, secluded place to "heal."
John Stewartās protective nature would make him focused on keeping you safe. Heād see you as a responsibility and would want you to train and be prepared to defend yourself. His sense of duty would often clash with the other membersā approaches, particularly Supermanās.
John would suggest more structured, scheduled activities where you could learn to defend yourself. He would believe in the importance of responsibility, often involving you in missions and team activities.
John would argue with Batman about the need for isolation and with Superman over whether or not you should be kept safe from the world or trained to face it.
Kidnapping or Waiting? John would wait, believing that in due time, youāll come to understand that you belong under his care and protection, but if things got out of hand, he might move to take you somewhere he feels safer.
The arguments would revolve around control vs. freedom, isolation vs. integration, and training vs. protecting. Batman and Aquaman would push for isolation and control, while Superman and Wonder Woman would argue that you need more freedom to grow and learn. Barry and John would mostly act as mediators, though Barry would push for more fun and spontaneity, while John would argue that you need to be prepared for the worldās dangers.
If you want to defuse things, youād lean into their protective instincts, assuring them that you're fine and that their concerns for you are valid. You could also play up to their more nurturing sides, especially with Superman and Wonder Woman.
Though, If you wanted to stir things up, you could subtly challenge their need to control you or manipulate the tension between them. You could play one against the other, making them feel insecure about your bond with someone else.
In the end, the League would constantly hover around you, trying to outdo each other in keeping you "safe" and in their care. Your life would become an endless cycle of arguments, possessive attention, and carefully controlled freedom.
(A/n: š©āā¤ļøāšāš©)
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Patreon Commission for Elise
Request: Basically the reader is the CEO of some big/famous business and has a crush on her secretary but docent think that he likes her. So one day the Readers Sister come to the office for a visit and they are talking in the readers office and her secretary needs to drop off some important papers and over hears their conversation. So then he knocks on the door and acts like he didnāt hear the conversation. Readerās sister says high and the reader notices how they interact together. So when the Readers secretary leaves the Reader is like āhey I think that you guys would look good together. He totally likes you.ā Kinda stuff. And the sister is confused but docent really think much about it. So the Readers sister is staying in town for their friends wedding or something so the sister is always at the office. One day the Secretary decides to ask the Readers sister for help to get with the Reader. And thatās all I got.
A/N: This was so much fun to write, they are so in love with each other, totally would write more of them. This is kind of soft in a hot way, enjoy!
The CEO's minotaur
Minotaur x chubby fem!reader || semi-public sex, heavy making out, office sex
Your sister is in town after a very long time, and you had missed her so much, but right now, with her nagging at you about not acting on your feelings for your hot minotaur secretaryā¦ you arenāt so sure about missing her. (Thatās a lie, you totally missed her, but dang if it doesnāt annoy you to be told you are stupid).
āCome on, you need to tell him, see if he feels the same way,ā sheās saying. Sheās told you that at least three times before in the past couple of days, but you still refuse to believe her. What has a hot minotaur to do with his human boss? Nothing.
āStop it, you know he doesnāt like me that way,ā you try to argue for what feels like the thousandth time. āHeās too goo-ā You hear a knock on the door and shut up instantly, motioning your sister to be quiet, too. āCome in.ā Said minotaur enters the room making you sigh in pent up frustration. His big form looks extra good today, and it does nothing to make you feel any less intense about him.
āI need you to sing these papers, ma'am,ā his tone is so formal, and he keeps sending side looks to your sister as she tries to repress her laughter.
āYes, sure, come here.ā You sign the papers he puts on your desk as you tell him: āIāve told you repeatedly not to call me maāam, just use my name.ā
āOkayā¦ā He says, but you know heās going to do it again. It almost feels like he likes to call you that, like it gives him some sort of satisfaction to act so proper around you. But that canāt be, right? Thereās no way.
You exchange a few more words as he tells you about the calls and schedule for the rest of the day. You give him a list of a few things you need him to do as he smiles, a soft blush covering his cheeks and making you press your tights together. Fuck, you need to get it together.
When he leaves you look at your sister, who is covering her mouth with her hand trying to repress the giggles you bet sheās holding. āDonāt,ā you warn her, already anticipating what sheās going to say.
She shuts her mouth but smiles brightly at you, changing topics. A while later, when your lunch break is over and your sister is leaving, she says: āFor the record, he totally likes you.ā She closes the door just in time to avoid the paper-clip you throw her way, her laughter heard even across the closed door.
Your sister stays in town a few more days, dropping by your office to have lunch with you every single day, saying itās not always that she can spend time with her CEO sister in her important job. You laugh it out, but you are secretly glad she spends time with you every time she comes to the city. You miss her like crazy when sheās not there, and calls just arenāt the same.
Thatās how you are about to round the corner when you hear her voice, talking to someone who shows up in your dreams way too often. āThen how do I approach her?ā Your secretary says with a soft tone that makes goosebumps erupt on your skin.
āJust tell her you like her!ā Your sister whisper-shouts. She was never good at being subtle.
āBut- Butā¦ She doesnāt like me back. Sheās my boss, and so good. Sheās so pretty and powerful, and her aura is so sexy at the same time as kindā¦ And Iām just a minotaur.ā You hate the self-depreciation words coming out of his mouth. You want to scream at him that heās wrong. That you are head over heels for him. Then he says: āSheās just so much better than me,ā and you had enough.
You turn the corner and stare at his stunned face. āYou are wrong,ā you tell him.
Your sister is smiling so big you want to be annoyed with her, but you just canāt. Thanks to her you were able to hear him say those things about you. Fuck, sheās going to hold that over you forever, isnāt she? But at that moment you donāt even care. You just care about his sweet face all blushed in the prettiest shade of brown as he looks at you with big eyes and the hint of a smile.
āIām going to take that as my cue to leave, have fun you two. Donāt do anything I wouldnāt do!ā She tells as she almost runs to the elevator.
You two stare at each other for what feels like an eternity. You scan his form, his proper clothes and soft fur, the way his horns are so big they almost reach the ceiling, the sweet smile thatās spreading across his features as he registers your flushed face. You donāt know who moves first, but before you can process it, you two are in each other personal space, and heās looking at you intently.
āCan I kiss you?ā You donāt even respond, grabbing his horns and pulling him down to devour his mouth in the most hot kiss youāve ever given (or received).
You make out like teenagers, his hands all over your body as yours explore his. Itās intoxicating to finally be able to kiss him like that, to be able to touch him the way youāve been waiting for so fucking long. Heās driving you insane in the best way possible and, judging by his moans, heās no better.
āI need you, I need you, I need you,ā you chant against his lips, pushing him softly to your office.
He hauls you up and your legs come around his waist. He walks you to your desk and sits you over it, doing the whole wiping-everything-off-the-table thing, the most cliche move of all times. You giggle as he kisses down your neck, his horns right in front of your face as you grab them to control his movements a bit more. You pull him up and devour his mouth again.
āIāve wanted you for so long, Iām so fucking gone for you,ā he whispers against your lips, his hands cupping your boobs over the fabric of your clothes as you moan. You canāt even tell him you feel the same way, your brain is foggy with desire as you palm the huge erection inside his pants.
āTake me, then. Make me yours,ā you ask softly.
āYes, maāam,ā he tells you with a smirk. You kiss him again, your hands working on his clothes to open them. You think some of the buttons of his shirt fly away, but you canāt care less.
He moves you enough to get your pants off your legs, ripping your underwear as you gasp. His strength turning you on so much you want to scream his name, but instead, you bite his neck to avoid making too much noise. You canāt forget you arenāt alone in the office, the otherās cubicles might be a few hallways away, but if you let out all the noise you want, they will definitely hear, and that wouldnāt be too professional of the CEO of the company.
He apparently can read your mind, because he whispers against your ear: āOne of these days Iām going to hear your sweet lips screaming my name as I pound into you,ā you groan at his words.
His fingers find your needy hole, pushing one inside without preamble as he starts finger-fucking you into a mess of arousal and pent up frustration. His thumb is on your clit when the second finger enters you, making you move your hips to ride his hand. He hums in contentment, urging you to move faster, to get all your pleasure off him.
āI need you, can Iā¦ Can I fuck you?ā You take a second to process his words, your brain lost in pleasure to what his hand is doing.
āYes. Yes. Yes,ā you agree vehemently as he chuckles, taking his fingers away from your dripping cunt and spreading your juices over his dick. When you look down to see, you have to swallow a gasp at the sheer size of him. āYou are so big,ā you let out without wanting to, covering your mouth in embarrassment.
He chuckles again, caressing your cheek and kissing the tip of your nose. āDonāt worry, maāam, it will fit.ā You donāt doubt his words, seeing as you are fucking drenched with desire.
When you feel the tip of his cock against your pussy, you throw your head back, moaning like a whore as the tapered head breaches you. He breathes hard against your neck, his panting making everything hotter. He keeps pushing and pushing and pushing until heās so deep inside you can almost taste it in the back of your throat.
Your fucking is frantic and desperate. You kiss each other with such desperation that you end up panting against each other mouthās. Itās so hot and needy, is the climax of so much pent up sexual tension between you two that your orgasm catches you off guard.
āIām about toā¦ā You donāt finish the phrase before your body is convulsing and your pussy is fluttering around his girth as he curses loudly.
You bury your face in his neck to muffle your sounds as you come apart in his arms, the pleasure so high itās almost blinding. He follows you over the edge not three thrusts after, and the feel of his come painting your insides is enough to send you over a second orgasm. You bite down on his neck muscles hard, making him groan and shot another load into your tingling pussy.
āFuck,ā you breathe out when your heart slows down a bit.
āGive me a few minutes,ā he jokes, making you giggle.
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PJO Future AU head-cannon stuff (some ARE taken from other peoples head-cannons bc theyāre awesome):
- Will Solace would not be a medic/be in the medical fieldā I feel like just because heās good at it doesnāt mean he likes it. Maybe heād be a teacher because of his leadership skills.
- I feel like from working in the infirmary and having people close to him pass, Nico would choose a medical field job. I feel like heād be an RN (registered nurse) or doctor and work at like an urgent care (er is too crazy for himā or maybe it wouldnāt and heād like the chaos)
- I also feel like thereād be a not so great injury and Nico would be like āOh let me seeā then see it and be like āoh thatās really coolā not much would phase himā or it would but heād find it fascinating
- I feel like the fact that they didnāt have these new kinds of tech when Nico was growing up also adds to his fascination. Like what do you mean x-Ray machines exist?
- I feel like Percy would do well with water jobsā like maybe heād be a marine biologist and heād find it fun to just communicate with the ocean life.
- Frank and Hazel would take a lot of dual credit classes or graduate early from highschool so they could focus on the campā like theyād take online stuff so they could spend more time focusing on camp. (hope that makes sense) Iām not sure what I think their careers would be.
- Leo would own his own mechanic shop after going to trade school (saw on tiktok)
- Jason (revived) would be a professor of historyā probably mythology.
- As a Valgrace shipper (dont judge pls) I think that theyād get together shortly after Jason is revived (not too shortā six months after?) because theyāve been through a lot already and donāt want to risk anything again.
Now, onto kids because I donāt see these often but I find it fun to imagine:
- Frank would be a girl dad. Heās got two daughters and is just so happy with them and Hazel.
- Percy and Annabeth would have three kids, two girls and a son, in that order. I feel like Percy and Annabeth would work hard to have good relationships with their kids and finally relax. I feel like theyād be sorta protective but also be very relaxed with them- educate them about being mature and making good choices.
- I feel like Annabeth would realize how important names were and try to name her kids after popular figures in history who had good stories
- Will and Nico would probably have two kids, both adopted, but one would be one of Willās half-siblings/half-nephews. The kid was really little, like four or five, when he got to camp and Will just kinda adopted him so he didnāt have to be full-time at camp. They also have a daughter but not until the son is like 12. Sheās also adopted and is also a half-blood but I feel like they wouldnāt know who her godly parent is until sheās 12 and then be shocked because sheās like a child of Zeus.
- Leo and Jason would wait a while and focus on their relationship and careers. Then theyād adopt two daughters (not at the same time) and raise them where they donāt know about half-bloods until theyāre older. Theyād probably be half-bloods so that way they could raise them the way they wished they were raised. Leo and Jason donāt want them to have to see and experience the stuff they had to at such a young age.
- I donāt think any of them would name their kids after any of their late friends. I saw someone, a while ago, bring up that it could result in bad memories or just not be an okay time yet to do so. Soā I donāt think that Annabeth would name her kid Silena and I donāt think Nico would name his kid Bianca.
- However, I do feel like Annabeth and Percy would name their eldest Sally after Percyās mom (it would work well with the headcannon that Annabeth would name her kids after people with good stories) and have her middle name be a positive powerful historical figure.
(I realize I left Piper outā Iāve been forgetting a lot about characters recently and need to go back and reread HOO in order to grasp what I think sheād do in the future)
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This question would be answered differently depending on when it would be asked so! I will have some characters answer from three distinct time periods of the AU.
Pre Shadow 05 Arc
āOh! Question for us huh?ā Sonic taped his chin. Nearby Shadow tilted his head curiously as his brows scrunched up in a confused expression. āWell that sort of depends. Barring any sort of surprise attack from Eggman or someone else, which has been getting less frequent, Iāve just been trying to get Shadow used to things. Sometimes heās not up for that though, so Iāll maybe go out for a run or bother Tails or my other friends. I have to admit, Iāve really started to enjoy the time Iāve got to spend with Shadow. Showing him all this new stuff. Watching him open up and show me who he really is.ā He rubbed the back of his head. āPlus Iāve been trying to teach Shadow more sign. Heās a pretty quick learner if I do say so myself.ā
After a moment of silence Shadow raised his hands. āIā¦ often am shown things by Sonic. More recently he has started bringing me out to the nearby city. It isā¦ā He paused, thinking. ā...uncomfortable but I find it easier to deal with when Sonic is there. We have also been visiting a Chao Garden recently. Even on days Sonic does not go with me I find myself going there. It is peaceful.ā He turned a bit so that Sonic couldn't see his hands. āI am doing my best to live my life for Maria. She always wanted me to be happy, and I will try. For her.ā
āHold on, let me go grab Tails and get him to answer this too.ā Sonic sped off and came back a moment later with the fox in question. āSo Tails, the people are dying to know. Whatās your day to day life like?ā
Tails blinked in confusion. āUhhh.ā He cleared his throat. āI guess I spend a lot of time working on stuff in my workshop. Iāve also been doing someā¦ recreational hacking on the side letās say.ā He put a hand on his chin, his voice dropped lower so the others in the room wouldnāt hear him. āTrying to figure out whatās going on with Shadow has been as interesting as it is infuriating. I donāt want to force him to talk about things but I have so many questions.ā
āThatās us I guess!ā Sonic shrugged. āOf course thereās more interesting things going on but thatās not the normal day to day stuff!ā
Post Shadow 05 Arc
Eclipse perked up. āOh a question. Well of course I can humor you.ā He put a hand on his chest. āMy day to day is a lot of helping the Black Arms get established. Making sure me and Shadowās rule goes unchallenged.ā He crossed his arms. āBiggest thing has been getting used to earth I guess. Shadow is insistent that we work with the other inferior species on the planet. Itās beenā¦ fine I guess. Shadowās trying to teach me stuff, and in turn Iām helping educate him about the Black Arms.ā He puffed out his chest proudly before he slumped. āThe people Shadow has met areā¦ tolerable I guess. I respect Sonic for saving Shadow. Plus I can see how important the hedgehog is to him.ā
Shadow walks into the room and blinks in surprise. āAgain?ā He clears his throat. āWell I suppose a lot has changed since I first answered this questionā¦ā
āWait.ā Eclipse held up a hand. āYouāve done this before?ā
Shadow simply shrugged. āMy days are often split between my duties with the Black Arms and spending time with those I care about. Eclipse has admittedly been very helpful in allowing me to manage my time more effectively. Heās been handling more of the physical transition while Iāve been trying to handle theā¦ logistics and diplomatic side of things.ā He pinned his ears down. āIām very thankful for both Sonic and Tailsā help with that. Sonic is on good terms with more or less every nation on the planet and Tails has proved to be quite the debater. It isā¦ amusing to watch him run circles around the much older world leaders. I do hope weāll reach the end of this sooner rather than later though. Itāsā¦ uncomfortable knowing how widespread my existence is now.ā He waved.Ā
Future Arc
āHow and why are random strangers asking questions..?ā Mephiles squinted.
Silver shrugged. āNo idea, but whatās the harm in answering?ā
āI could give you a list if you gave me a few minutes.ā Mephiles huffed.
āWell our days can vary depending on when and where we are.ā Silver grinned and Mephiles gave him an unimpressed look. āWhen weāre in my present I personally spend at least a couple hours a day tending to the garden Iāve started up. Sometimes Iāll go out and scavenge the nearby ruins for anything useful, but I donāt do that too often. A lot of itās been picked clean by now anyway. I also try and spend time with my family! Especially when both my dads are here. Sonic goes out a lot so heās not here all the time. He wonāt tell me exactly why heās out all the time, only that heās looking for somethingā¦ā He trailed off.
āNot suspicious at all.ā Mephiles crossed his arms.
āA-anyway. When weāre in the past itās a lot of research. At first it was mostly about different plants and things to help improve our situation here. More recently though weāve been trying to figure out what happened. What caused things to end up like this in the first place. Thatās beenā¦ a lot less productive. But! Weāre not giving up.ā
āYesā¦ā Mephiles sighed. āResearch into the topic has become one of our top priorities while in the past. Though it is hard to figure out what caused something when you donāt know what event youāre looking for the cause of. Silver suspects that hisā¦ parents may know something but have refused to say anything substantial about it. As such weāve kept our pivot in priorities a secret from them.ā
Silver looked down. āI hate lying to them, but I get the feeling that if we tell them what weāre doing they may try and stop us. I donāt know why, butā¦ Better safe than sorry.ā
āNow off you go youā¦ odd interdimensional beings. We have work to do.ā Mephiles waved a hand dismissively.
for the characters!! how would u describe ur day to day life??
First question for the characters!!
#collision questions#sonic the hedgehog#sonic au#sonic fandom#lost and found au#shadow the hedgehog#miles tails prower#eclipse the darkling#mephiles the dark#silver the hedgehog#sonic au collision
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Just some complaining at 3 am š«
My sister making like twice as much money as me yet owing me thousands of dollars then constantly buying shit she doesn't need n being like "it was on sale so i figured why not? šāāļø" like BITCH I'LL TELL U WHY NOT because while u spend $130 on (another??) air fryer u won't use im trying to punch my grocery bill down to $20/week so i can fucking eat. Fuck.
#im extremely tired of this#she also owes my parents money but they're being nice about it n telling her to pay me first#which she is doing extraordinarily slowly#she's on my Amazon account so i get notifications eject she buys stuff n it's like every day there's something else#some shit she doesn't need#she also gives me her physical receipts so i can scan them on my fetch app (yknow to try and scrape together pennies)#so i see how much she spends on other stuff#she lives alone n buys her groceries from COSTCO who tf does that#personal
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saw alot of comments on prev pages; saying 'i HATE that mean teacher! im gonna FIGHT HIM!!' & i LOVE the energy!! it WOULD be nice. to have that catharsis. but the story of young tidestrider is Not one of catharsis. it is a story of being so small and so special and sucking so bad.
#jrwi fanart#jrwi show#jrwi riptide#gillion tidestrider#GONNA START FORMATTING MY COMICS BETTER. W THE PROPER 'PREV' 'NEXT' LINKS#REALLY DIDNT EXPECT TO CONTINUE THIS SERIES BUT AAAUUUHH MY BRRAAAIN MY BRAIN IS SO IDEASSS. I HAVE 3 OTHER PAGES SKETCHED OUT#NO PROMISES ILL FINISH EM ANY TIME SOON OR EVER. MY WHIMS ARE THEIR OWN BEAST AND I ONLY DRAW ON MY WHIMS#THAT BEING SAID IF U COMMISSIONED ME ILL GEEETT TO YOUUU IM SORRYYYY. ART IS AN EMOTIONAL RELEASE FOR ME N BABY I HAVE EMOTIONS.#ESPECIALLY ABOUT GILLION TIDESTRIDER CHAMPION OF THE UNDERSEA HERO OF THE DEEP.for the desc here i put smth that i typed up in the tags of#another thing i made. i gotta make a proper Baby Gillion tag or smth. eventually.. eventually...I LOVE DRAWIN THIS LIL BABY GUY..#i also LOVE depicting the teachers as just being so fuckin mean. ofc theres variation in that. just like in all things.like the teacher her#idk if itll be mentioned but the octo lady is named Ms Octburn.an octopus pun based off the name of an actual councilor i had#when i was in elementary school i got bullied alot but teachers never did anything. i hated adults and didnt trust them.#but this councilor o mine was so genuinely sweet. i remember spending alot of time w her. she doesnt work there anymore.#but that one school adult that actually earns ur trust and is there for you when they can be.its SO important for a child i think#i hope she knows how much she helped me.youll see in the next page that ms octburn isnt perfect either.but she tries. they all try.somehow.#ALL these comics are gonna be inspired by somesorta experience o mine in the school system. school is so fucked up u ever thing abt that#AND GILLIOOOOONNN IN THE MOST FUCKED UP LITTLE SCHOOL OF ALL. MAINTAINED BY A CULT. CENTERED AROUND HIM. OUR CHOSEN ONE#I IMAGINE ALOT BANKS ON HIS SUCCESS. THIS IS THE WORLD. THE WHOLE WORLD. THE PROPHECY IS GOING TO COME TRUE N UR TELLIN ME#THAT ITS THIS LITTLE IDIOT THATS GONNA BE SAVING US? WHAT IF HE FAILS. IF HE CANT GET THIS RIGHT THEN HE WILL FAIL AND WE WILL DIE#WE NEED TO TRAIN HIM. WE NEED HIM TO LEARN. AND TO SUCCEED. OR ELSE WE'RE DEAD. WE'RE ALL FUCKING DEAD. I IMAGINE THAT MUST BE STRESSFUL#in other news i hope ppl actually giggle when they read these. they ARE intended to be comical. dark humor or whatever. like its also sad#this is intended to be a sad comic series. but a funny one too. does that make sense? god i hope so.saw some1 say they had flashbacks-#-reading this. like YES!! THE INTENDED EFFECT!! YOU GET ME!! i love seeing ppl get upset on this lil baby boys behalf. i LOVE seeing ppl-#-wail n weep n cry in the comments. i LOOOVE seeing ppl RELATE to baby gillion. and i love letting u all know that this wont be a happycomi#gillion gets his happiness arc in the actual show. this series is one of unfortunate events. teehehehe. do u guys remember that show#i keep listening to the lil songs from A Series of Unfortunate Events for inspiration. GOOD STUFF!!#anyway uuhh uhh thats all i got in my brain. for now. feed me ur comments give me ur input i NNEEEEEDD THHEEEMMMM
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do you have any Rosaria headcanons?
I have sporadic headcannons for like. everyone in this game I think abt it maybe a little. think abt it occasionally. just gonna do generalized hcs here since you didn't specify if you wanted smth like yan/sagau or anything š§
cryo characters are my fave to write about bc. looks at tsaritsa. no reason in particular :]
kind of wish hoyo went more in depth with visions. stolen authority of the dragon sovereigns given to the common people and there's no side effects it's just a buff? nah. delusions kind of fill that role but I like to think having a vision still changes you in some manner (kind of like how I imagine the archons still retain certain inhuman characteristics even after losing their gnosis. you don't get that kind of power for free)
for cryo users the obvious thing is very cold body temp. which, to me, is why rosaria is so pale. she's practically bordering on getting frostbite and since she doesn't really interact with people, well, it can be a boon when she "works" at night.
if things had been different, she probably wouldn't have been so frigid. someone like Kaeya, even though he got his vision during his fight with Diluc, still had his brother to even him out alongside the rest of the knights (Jean, Lisa, Amber etc). For me, at least, his vision less affected body temp anyway and just generally numbed some of his senses. namely touch & taste. he's been trying to get Rosaria out more but their both cryo so, well..he can't help much. their absolutely besties though. even outside of drinking and needling Diluc.
she smokes a lot because it's as close to warmth as she can get without burning. she's sensitive to heat, even more so then other cryo users. you'd think her being so cold would offer protection against it, but..nah. absolutely dreads hot summers. it's a nightmare for her.
she's generally just very standoffish but she is practical. not aimed at a specific au here but if you manage to get close to her despite her prickly and relatively cold attitude shes actually very protective. she doesn't get close to a lot of people so the few people she is close to she goes out of her way to make sure no one tries anything with them. though most of her help is behind the scenes - you won't really know it's her unless you somehow figure it out. she's sneaky and works at night, which gives her ample opportunity to sort things out. someone giving you trouble? they apologize the next morning seemingly out of nowhere. forgot or lost something? suddenly find it somewhere in plain view in your house.
shes not exactly thrilled about direct praise and thanks. it makes her feel out of place and awkward. if you do realize what she's doing, it's best not to openly bring it up. just taking her out for drinks or something is enough, but she doesn't care if you do nothing either way.
it's like befriending a feral cat.
she's not exactly fond about touching, either. for both of your sakes. shes COLD as I mentioned earlier and I do mean very cold. she'll stick to admiring from a distance. your too good for her anyway. practically the sun in comparison - she'd melt before she even got close.
she'll protect you and you'll be happy and that's all she would ever need. she's fine watching from a distance because she's gotten accustomed to the dark and cold.
#asks#anonymous#rosaria#rosaria x reader#rosaria imagines#oh cryo users my beloved.#most mentally unwell characters ive ever seen. emotionally unavailable bastards (affectionate)#i love adding 2 genshin world building i need vision users 2 be a little fucked up..the more u use ur vision#the worse it gets. which is why rosarias condition is so bad. Kaeya has others to lean on but she doesn't.#she spends so much time ensuring the safety of mondstadt from the shadows she doesnt get a chance.#Kaeya tries but there's only so much he can do since hes also cryo š#could maybe see this ss a yan/sagau thing but i left it vague on purpose sooooo#scratches head. n e way.#yeah this is super late lol i dont check my tumblr often erm#anyway how can i mske this sbt the tsaritsaā [gunshot]#i need 2 go before i spam my tags w stuff again erm. n e way.
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with my phantom hourglass replay, there are two things i noticed;
a possible theme you could glean from the game is action vs inaction, and i think it's especially prevalent before you even leave mercay the first time, with oshus frequently urging link to not go after the ghost ship, then to just wait until the broken bridge is fixed, and seems reluctant at every turn while link and ciela are more than eager to go and do something about this problem, and the people of mercay in general talking about things and their problems but never seeming to act on their fears or desires, as well as the mention that due to the ghost ship, very very few people are still sailing around, while linebeck is one of the only people we see in the game actively going after the ghost ship and still sailing around. i might make a longer post just talking more about the action vs inaction in phantom hourglass but i just noticed it a bit and thought it was a bit of an interesting sort of theme you could find in the game.
linebeck moves so fucking much. i think he moves more than any npc in the rest of the game. not just in his intro cutscene where he is very animated, just in how much he moves when just standing in his little idle post, it's damn near distracting when the camera is focused on him, he moves a lot. i don't think i've really acknowledged how much he moves, and it really gives the impression that he's antsy or eager to get going, both of which fit him pretty well with how he acts.
#phantom hourglass#linebeck#loz#legend of zelda#salty talks#imo the action vs inaction thing feels esp interesting to me when looking at oshus specifically. he and his world are in grave danger#and he knows it and he actively does nothing and even seems reluctant to let ciela and link go ahead and do something.#of course he comes around on it but it's very interesting. has he given up at that point? thats what it suggests to me#that hes like. joined the people of mercay in just lying down and waiting for other people to fix their problems or just. not do anything#otherwise on mercay you have that old guy in the bar who spends the whole game not leaving bc he doesnt want to face his wife#and she never goes to the bar to actually look for him and just talks about it if anything#the guy with the blue tunic talks a lot about linebeck and his ship and almost gives the impression that he really wants to talk to him#but yknow. doesnt. theres the women that tells you about docks being shut down and how linebeck is the only person who's showed up#the woman you see at the broken bridge who's just like oh well! time to wait til someone fixes it.#even the guy fixing the bridge iirc is like well fuck i gotta do it or else oshus is going to bitch at me abt it#everyone seems reluctant to act which makes for an interesting way in how our main crew stands out#it is less so oh theyve been chosen specifically for this its moreso they're the ones who are fucking doing something about this#for their own various reasons some of which are more selfish but theyre still doing something#will likely have more stuff to say when im done but ofc we have other characters in the game who have to do with this#anyways. linebeck is so animated all of the fucking time it's great i dont think theres any other character that moves as much as him#when he's just standing around to talking to link it's great. he's so ready to get going.#it works with him being an anxious mess and also with like. oh he's probably understimulated. you know he's got a nasty case of wanderlust#i can put it with the idea that he's understimulated and afraid to stim in public so he's just constantly moving#he probably drums his fingers on tables bounces his leg when sitting paces around switches the way he sits or lays down often#tbh this kinda fits in with him being one of the main characters who takes action moreso than a lot of other characters#his arc culminates in him taking action he's going after the ghost ship he's moving around the world the only issue is that one of the#actions he takes is running away from his problems literally n metaphorically (tho idk if facing the jolene problem is a good idea for him)
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I've seen people be like downpour ruined how people see five pebbles and im gonna be honest if you were here for any number of years pre-downpour the fandom was always god-awful with the nuance in his character. thats not a downpour thing thats a fandom thing
#niche comparison but if any of you know angela from lobotomy corporation/library of ruina#in the years prior to LOR angela was probably one of the most demonized characters ive ever seen in my goddamn LIFE#NO ONE was going to bat for this girl as anything other than a absolute villain and bitch#i was and im sure some others were too but the vast vast majority fucking hated her#because she spends most of the game being mean to you and then betrays you at the end#and you had to read between the lines to get to āwait a minute whats happening to her is kinda immensely fucked upā#and this is someone betraying you at the end of a very /very/ hard game to 100% and beat proper#then LOR came out and fully explored the depths of her trauma and anger at the situation she was put into#how desperate she was too take something for herself and how little she cared about how the effected others because she was not given that#and suddenly it clicked for everyone!#suddenly she wasnt a heartless bitch anymore! but of course now you had the#'literal infant' crowd because it also explored some ideas of parental trauma/lack of experience with the world#but god it was way more refreshing to see people actually move on from 'theyre an evil bitch' even if it came with 'so shes like a kid?'#and i feel that way about pebbles tbh#i dont get super super into the iterator lore so i cant speak much for the quality across downpour#and its higher focus on them and their stuff#im sure it carries plenty of issues as many things will#but god people sucking at reading the room on the iterators is not new lmao#actually five pebbles and angela are shockingly similar....#huh?
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series iām gatekeeping from my family vs series iām āØokāØ with my family knowing iām into:
#āwhy do you gatekeep hw from your irls?ā well. the thing is. i just āØdonāt want toāØ#and. like. iāve already led my family to believe that i bought bl manga when i was buying idol sengen at animate#so i think im already past the point of no return in that regard. so. um. yeah.#thank you village vanguard for the unexpected Ī¼ās content in 2k24 you truly are yappa saikyou#i s w e a r falling back into my ll phase almost 10 whole years after i first got into it is unexpected tbh#compounded with the fact that i can now actually afford whatever im looking for. so. like. my wallet is in crisis lol#i had just reached my savings goal last month but now iāve overspent bc i saw great deals on resold honoka-chan hoodies and i couldnāt helpā#so now i have 2 identical hoodies lol. but iāll keep one of them safe in its packaging bc im unwell like that ig#my merch whaling is out of control i s w e a r but my oshis are just too cute aaaaaaaaa#i probably should open another savings account insteadā¦ maybe thatād keep my spending under controlā¦#b u t for now honoka-chan jersey im looking for you#tfw ur oshi is decently unpopular amongst the fans so hardly anyone resells her merch lmao#so ig the relatively fewer fellow fans she has are more dedicated to her than fans of other more popular characters lol#but at least her stuff (when resold) isnāt as overpriced as the actually popular members (birb and tomato)#so my wallet isnāt crying as hard as it couldāve been? ig? hunting for almost 10 year old merch is a pain fr though#either way. the grip idol series have on my wallet is truly insane#i wonder how many bags of chips i couldāve bought with the amount iāve spent on hw and ll merch to dateā¦#at least a thousandā¦ i think. maybe even 2 thousand if my past gacha game whaling is taken into considerationā¦#ā¦this is probably why itās important to have a decent paying job ig.#oh well. at least i may be making b a n k this month with how much ot iāve had to do this week so farā¦#i hope i wonāt have to work till 5am again over the next 2 daysā¦ that had been a horrible experience.#help what am i even talking about anymore why am i having a life crisis right here and now u m.#anyways. dni if you dislike honoka-chan. thanks for coming to my crisis rant. see you when the last stage mv drops ig ok byeeeee
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WHY DID NOBODY TELL ME BURROWS END WASNT FREE
#I DIDNT TALK TO ANYONE ABOUT IT BUT STILL. SOMEONE SHOULDVE WARNED ME BEFORE I GOT COMPLETELY INVESTED#I know next to nothing abt dimension 20 Iām pretty sure I just saw a post abt burrows end specifically MONTHS ago and was like ššš#opened a tab with the first episode to watch later and promptly forgot about it#until last night! having a bad night and was like hrm what if I just watch smth#and Iāve been reading watership down recently!! finally got my own copy bc it was my favourite book when I was like NINE#so I am fully primed to fall in love with a story abt little animals rn and man#I am OBSESSED with this and also realising yeah Iām at a point where I could get very into tabletop rpgs now#what if. what if I just get dropout. what if I just do that. would that not be fun. I would like to see the stoats do stuff#i am so in love with Ava and her player and I understand so much more about brennan lee mulligan now. and VIOLA#viola may be my favourite character Iām obsessed with how she interacts with other characters.m#i NEED to know whatās up with thornās cult thing. and also thorn. what is going on there#hrrgrhehh the thing thatās holding me back is Iām allergic to subscriptions#impermanence. even though I know itās fairly unlikely Iāll wanna watch it again any time soon I donāt like the idea that Iād have to like#in a couple years pay for it again or not be able to bc I canāt afford it even though I already paid for it once#Iām a books + cartridge games guy and it shows.#okay. I will chew on this. the price is not unreasonable and I have coincidentally also been looking at make some noise clips#it does not help that I basically never watch things but my favourite podcast is also ending within the next month (2 episodes left)#and this IS primarily audio so I could cook + watch mayhaps. and Iāve heard good things abt all other d20.#they have a 20% off first year deal on. annual would make me less stressed long term if I end up liking this bc cheaper + choice premade#and would also mean I can do it now and not feel bad abt wasting the first month bc I wonāt be able to watch much for a few weeks#fuck it Iām allowed to make frivolous purchases sometimes I will simply swallow the subscription distaste#more stoats >:)#that aside all the players are incredible Iām pretty sure when this is done Iāll wanna watch other seasons just to see what else they do#okay go do the thing I believe in you you can spend money sometimes#luke.txt#update I downloaded the app. I am putting off the decision for another day now bc itās 1:21am and I have not been thinking clearly <3
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aaaaaaa okey I ordered the speaker and the star projector. (and a beauty blender and a neck support and the new volume of yona and the garbage disposal cleaner matt wanted.) it was still only $35 actually out of pocket and I get my allowance in the morning which will completely replace that amount. I will definitely like the speaker and if I don't like the star projector arin will.
#yes this did take me an entire week#I don't like spending money. I like having money and I like having things.#but I must spend money to get things.#but I have had a very draining weekend and I deserve nice things and that's what gift cards are supposed to be for.#(frankly even if nice things do need to be earned which is a notion that deserves to be critically examined)#(depending on how one defines 'nice things')#(I have more than earned all the nice things I could ever want between keeping other people alive and keeping myself alive.)#(we glamorize Big Actions way too fuckin much btw but that's tangential off the 'keeping other people alive' thing)#(Big Actions often have the smallest fuckin impact tbh. they mean nothing without thousands of small actions.)#I very nearly didn't order the projector but it's late and I'm in my room alone and I turned the lamp off early#so that no one can tell I'm still up since my brother is still here#and it's just a tiny bit too dark for being awake purposes#only a tiny bit though#there's good light through the window because of the courtyard#and the projector has an auto-off#idk I think it's worth trying. if I like it they can give me extra discs for it for christmas#and if I don't I can give it to arin#the notion that I can try stuff without 100% Committing Forever is. not one I grew up with.#like. mom started me on piano lessons for my 9th birthday cuz I'd mentioned it at some point#and I faithfully attended every week (barring schedule conflicts or illness) until I moved away for college at 19.#you had to promise you really wanted something for real if you were gonna get it and god help you if you were wrong.#even though neither of us were prone to tantrums or greed even without those tight boundaries.#(and even though she did not hold herself to that standard at all from what I can see.)
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kind of annoys me sometimes how I can happily listen to my roommate explain the entire plot of whatever she's currently into but when it comes to my interests she can only listen for a few mins before wordlessly walking out of the room
#ive only slept 4 hours and its a sunday so im probably just cranky and getting irrationally annoyed idk.#but i wanted to talk abt revenant gun bc im enjoying it and havent gotten to discuss it w anyone :-(#i dont wanna post on here bc i dont wanna see spoilers and i dont have anything to say that other fans would find particularly interesting#ik half the arcs of the veilguard characters despite the fact ill never play it bc i like listening to her + hearing her opinions#but damn i guess she doesnt gaf shes got better things to do. im not being fair i get we jusr socialise differently n thats fine.#and ik its not true but sometimes i feel like she doesnt like being around me very much bc shes always halfway out the door#and she doesnt suggest we watch shit together anymore n has turned me down the last few times ive suggested it#but ik shes doing shit w other ppl shes always calling n playing games n stuff w other friends so well maybe its a little true#and she acts so strange around me sometimes like she'll move to the other side of the room if i go open the fridge or whatever#like damn girl im not gonna fucking bite u. whats up with the constant 5ft distance. bc u dont ever do that with other friends just me.#and then it pisses me off when it sort of comes up as a side thing to smth else bc it ONLY ever comes up around other ppl she'll never#bring it up directly with me and she'll blame it on me as if we havent had this conversation multiple times where ive explained exactly#why im weird abt shit sometimes and where my boundaries are and what i would like and then nothing at all changes#like last time she brought it up around another friend she was like oh well we can hug more if u want like no we fucking cant bc u act#like we're magnetically repulsed u hate me being in ur space and only tolerate it when we're around other ppl which is why it makes ME#uncomfortable when she does try to be physically affectionate or whatever bc she 100% exclusively does it in front of others#like man u dont have to put on a fucking performance??? or even worse do it just bc u feel guilty abt leaving me out i hate being pitied#even if ik i very obviously do get hurt at being left out. but thats my problem man i would never fuck w someone elses boundaries#i hate hate hate when ppl have inconsistent conditional boundaries and never communicate what the fucking conditions are so theyre#constantly moving the benchposts around and acting unpredictably like how am i supposed to know where they are!!!!!! please#snd then so embarrassing to pointedly say its bc of MY behaviour in front of someone else like oh ok. u couldnt have told me this before.#in private so we could actually communicatr. sorry this has gotten so off track im feeling so gross this morning and everything is#frustrating me im so tired i feel nauseous ughhhh#okay well anyway. got my list of tasks lets just focus on this shit instead before i spend yet another sunday miserably ruminating#.vent#im not actually mad at her or anything like i said we just socialise differently we have different incompatible flavours of autism#and thats not her fault but its just so frustrating that we cant seem to communicate very well. i think im allowed to be frustrated#anyway yeah sorry im leaving it im leaving it. i should go polish my boots before i shower
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they should make a life where you don't have appointments, work, school and scheduled events every single day for months on end
#i just wanna spend like 2 full days rotting in bed is that too much to ask#december i'm going on a vacation with family + gf and we're trying to schedule a lunch/dinner so that we can go over the itinerery#and other stuff like my gf is diabetic so she's going to tell everyone the procedures in case of an emergency etc#and the soonest i'm available for that is oct 20th like bruh#every week day i've got classes 7:30-11:50 work 13:00-17:00 and then gym therapy or futsal practice at night#oh and sometimes the professor that i'm the student assistant (? monitor in pt) for wants me to go to her night classes#and then on weekends i've got futsal practice sat morning usually a match either saturday or sunday legal advice clinic 4x a semester#and then birthdays friend group meetups (with ppl i haven't properly seen in a WHILE so i don't wanna bail) family stuff or gf's family stu#oh and i take care of the finances of our futsal team so there's that as well#and then when i'm free i spend my time with my love (who i mostly see on either day of the weekend and sometimes for dinner on weekdays)#those are my favorite āappointmentsā i love spending time with her so much but even though we have quite a few staying in dates we also#pretty frequently go out to cafes restaurants parks meet up with mutual friends etc#so like... no bed rotting ever adfdsal#honestly i am not THAT busy compared to some ppl that i know#like i work from home most days of the week commute only 20 min to college am not a part of any study group etc etc#but man... that vyvense sure is working cause i do not think i would be able to do what i do now when my adhd was unmedicated#also i'm thinking of maybe getting a new internship next year cause even though i love my current one it's in public law which atm#is the field i'm thinking of getting into after school but getting into private law in brazil with only public law uni experience is#incredibly difficult. so i wanna be 100% sure i actually want public law. which means experiencing private law.#which means a private law internship#so i'm wondering how the fuck imma be able to pull that off next year#at least it pays much more than my current one! like probably double!#but honestly even with all the shit that i do and wishing i had more time for myself i've actually been so happy lately#i'm learning more at uni than i used to be able to i do pretty well at my internship i've got wonderful friends both old and new#my family is well and we get along like always i switched positions in futsal and am doing suprisingly good as a goalkeeper#and i'm in my first ever relationship. it's been almost 8 months till we made it official and it blows me away how good it's been#like we haven't faught once. disagreed on a couple things sure. but not a single fight and tbh even disagreements are very rare#idk we communicate and give each other grace and i just feel so loved. she knows me so well. i love her so so so so much.#like man just this saturday we were having an early dinner at a bakery. she stopped what she was saying and just stared at me smiling#and like i couldn't hold eye contact. cause she's so so fucking beautiful and she was looking at me with so much love and i had to look awa
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it's weird. when I initially stopped shaving and cut my hair off I was pressured about both. I was explicitly told to go back to shaving and long hair. It sucked, but eventually I got over it and enjoyed it and was living my best life. And now, all the sudden, without anyone actually saying anything, I am feeling that pressure again. I am genuinely considering both, even though I don't want either.
#I have one? friend who I see semi-regularly who also has short hair and doesn't shave#literally everyone else I am friends with/know/everyone in my family/etc does#I'm going to six flags with friends this weekend and they all talked about spending hours in the shower doing full body shaves#every single woman I work with shaves and has at shortest a bob#I just want to feel not out of place#I don't like feeling like I stick out like a sore thumb#in pictures of me with other people it's almost jarring how different I look from everyone else#don't look like any of the women and have too much tit to look like a man#and no one I mention it to seems to get it. I've tried talking about it with my sister#and she's like 'I feel the same way :( cause I like a different kind of fashion and I'm not small and skinny enough'#and I don't want to downplay that or say that isn't happening and doesn't suck#but she has hair to her ass!!! she wears makeup! she shaves regularly!! she likes shopping and dresses and being pretty!!#she is gorgeous! and it's so obvious and like yeah maybe she feels out of place but visually she is not#I very very much am. I exclusively wear like 80% men's clothes at this point#I'm not sure I know anyone else who does that???? and it's very obvious that's what I'm wearing!!!!!#I can get along with other people and have similar interests and stuff#but I still feel out of place cause I don't visually fit in and it sucks
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