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"Oh no, someone's attracted to the aesthetics of my -punk movement but doesn't know the praxis and history behind it like I do--"
OK. Tell them. Make it a teaching moment. Everyone who's in your movement learned the background from somewhere at some point, maybe this is that point for that person. Give them a jumping off point that they can dive into later.
"Oh but I shouldn't be responsible for teaching baby -punks about the history and the how-tos and--"
OK. Then don't tell them. You don't have to be responsible for teaching people with a budding interest in your group the ins and outs and how-tos. That's fair and valid! It can be a lot of work. Someone else will handle it
"But I'm annoyed that they would try to claim to be part of/be interested in my community without knowing all the details that I know after being in it for months/years/decades, they're dumb, they're posers, they're--"
OK. Then don't engage with them, if it's that bad. Maybe someone else will come around and tell them the history, maybe they'll pick it up on their own, maybe they'll just enjoy the fashion elements for awhile.
"But they shouldn't claim to be part of the -punk community if they don't know the--"
I feel like we have a few options here. People can either talk to them, share the history, share the values, share the praxis. Or they can just chase off anyone who even thinks about dipping a toe in their community, and then wonder why it's dying off later down the line.
I dunno, maybe I'm too naive and patient or whatever. But if people are entering your -punk spaces without knowing The Rundown of what you feel they need to know, maybe being nice about it and informing people instead of immediately assuming stupidity and malicious intent could help you make a new friend. Even the loudest voices in a space had to learn from somewhere, and not everyone has the luxury of being in the space as the History was Happening--whether it's an age thing or a not being aware of the space thing. Or maybe I just don't see what the big deal is behind people hating people who like the aesthetic of something and don't know the behind the scenes history about it yet.
Because I believe in the word 'yet.' No one comes into this world knowing everything about everything, and we're all constantly learning new things. I'm not gonna degrade someone and call them a poser for not knowing what I know. Because if it were me, interested in a scene but getting chased out and called a poser? I wouldn't hit the books and study up, I'd go 'that fuckin sucks, those people sucked' and then avoid anyone and anything having to do with it.
So chase people off and call them posers if you want. But if your community starts dwindling, don't be fucking shocked.
#out of queue#ani rambles#punks and posers#i cant even call this a 4am hot take because its 7pm but like#idk i keep seeing posts about like 'how DARE people think I bought my punk clothes how DARE they not know the how-tos and DIYs'#or 'ugh people only care about the ~aesthetics~ of my movement if you don't know shit get out of here' and like#maybe I'm just a shy ass introverted nerd whos scared of social rejection! but I avoid that shit like the plague#so if someone were to reject me based on not knowing about something I'd never even heard about? something i was JUST getting into?#there's a high chance I'd just scram and never look back. i don't wanna be the one who causes that emotion in someone else#granted this is coming from someone who STILL doesn't know how to make her own patches or worked up the courage to do direct action praxis#outside of offering neighbors to my tomatoes and trying to talk to people about what I'm passionate about#but still imo unless someone's a malicious intentional bad actor i dont see the point in scaring newbies off#thats how movements die imo#i know this is my solarpunk blog but its not a solarpunk specific thing#i think the main post that inspired this was about store-bought versus self-made spiked leather jackets#which honestly just feels petty to me but who knows.#might delete later
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do you have any other blogs? are you secretly obama?
I just counted for you, and I have 30 blogs lmao. only 7 are actually public and active though.
and you absolutely never know… that’s all i’ll say
#unfortunately I am not obama#but still#you never know#ask#anonymous#I went and deleted some stuff#and made it harder to find my main blog so good luck lmao#hellsite hall of fame curator’s bullshit
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#back in my piarles feels thinking about how for some reason i just... never managed to really get into the tumblr end of things#and follow the big piarles blogs. like i have my gewis mutuals i have my lolex mutuals loscar mutuals pierresteban mutuals#geoscar norrussell galex even chalex here and there. no piarles for how big of a ship it is and for how many people its their main ship#anyway the answer is that i will never interact with most of them cause a lot of them hate esteban and i obviously do not#its also not the fact that they dislike esteban. its the fact that several post untagged hate is what really gets me#would not be surprised if several of them had me blocked. fair game and all yk but still... idk. i think its cause ive been rereading#the comments on cycling au again. so many writers whose stuff i adore and some of them even wrote the fics that got me into f1 rpf#but i will never meaningfully interact with because of drivers that i enjoy#idk... sorta stupid but i really feel like an outsider to that end of teh community for how much i care about piarles :///#((the fact that it also feels very clique-y probably does not help. cc et all#anyway i need to get my shit together. should stop caring but when have i ever won the idgaf war#delete later
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i don't know how to be merely acquaintances when we used to be friends. or i think we used to be. i don't know how to yearn for a simple hello when you've been heaping your affection on me months ago, and i don't know how to talk to you when you won't say anything. when suddenly it's all about me. you know i have nothing to say, you know my brain is void of everything but horribleness and i cannot tell you about my day because i don't even know about my day. i cannot tell you about my day when i know you won't listen, when i know you'll apply your philosophy to my world and don't believe me when i say that everything is terrible. i don't know how to be the person you seem to think i am, or the person you want in your life. i don't know if you want anyone else in your life now that you're in love and sappy, found another recipient for your affections, leaving me empty and wounded and yearning.
you said you missed me. said it many times, while i was gone. now i'm back, have been back, and i wonder how you missed me, why you missed me, when you won't talk to me. i think you mistook missing for worrying. i think you mistook caring for a feeling of obligation. i think you like missing me more than talking to me.
and i think i can't breathe with how much that hurts
#how do you miss me when you won't talk to me? how do you like me so much and then go to just. not?#how did i let you in when i try so hard not to let people do that because i know that once they get past the walls all i'll be left with#is the idea of them rotting and withering inside me. polluting the space i create to keep myself safe.#why does everyone leave? leave in silence too. leaving behind so many questions and so many words engraved in my brain#i am so tired of *grieving* when those i grieve are still alive and well and thriving and i'm reminded that it's versions of myself#that i'm grieving instead. how do you grieve yourself? how do you not fucking fall apart over it?#just. fucking talk to me. don't make it be true that all i'll ever be is nothingness and the memory of someone you liked once#but never never never liked enough#i'm so so cold already. i'm a shell. i want to be warm again but it always leaves me so hollow and hurting#i grieve the dio who was warm. i grieve them i miss them i am so so angry that he had to leave. to hide. with no way out#i'm happy for you. i'm happy you're happy. but you're no better than anyone else and it makes me want to run away again#but i have nowhere else to run and no one else to be. and it's so fucked that it doesn't matter who i am i'll never be enough#for someone to just. stay. to see me and to stay. to hear me and to sit and listen and just. just fucking stay.#maybe i'm not worth staying for. maybe there's nothing to know nothing to hear nothing to see nothing to listen to nothing to find#maybe all i'll ever get is one/two good months paid for with a lifetime of grief. and i'm at the point where i don't want the good months#anymore with you or anyone else who tears down these walls with affection that is so endlessly addictive and leaves me yearning.#on the off chance that it will keep the grief away too. but that's the thing about grief isn't it? it's here to stay. unlike you#god this is so fucked up and i'll delete this later but for now i just need to. let it out. poe said i should make a side blog for the grie#but poe's not there anymore. poe has stopped starting fires. so this goes on main until shame makes me take it down#blah#personal#not st
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hey I know you've retired now (yay!) from here but on the off-chance you see this: I just had the mother of all double-take moments after earlier this month re-discovering a fic from the early, early days of my dsmp fandomhood that I had been searching for for years. I saved it in my browser to read when I needed a moment of comfort, anyway today was the day I finally cracked out staying with the traitor again and the absolute FACE I pulled when I got to the end and it said "follow me on tumblr (hermits-that-craft)" like WAIT HOLD ON this entire time it was you!! anyway I know it was like 3 chapters long but that fic is legendary to me. thank you for writing it all that time ago and thank you for leaving it on ao3 even after you left our sphere behind :)
jkbhjd im so glad you refound it! there is actually a fourth chapter, and there was plans for a longer fic, but i was writing this during some of my final exams for that year, so i never ended up finishing it!
honestly its very heartwarming that you still enjoy it! im glad you found that fic, i hope it continues to bring comfort for as long as you need it!
#asks#painless-innit-colourful#I haven't retired from tumblr (im still active on my main and a different fandom sideblog)#but WOW is this a blast from the past#i completely forgot just how many dsmp fics i ended up writing#in the past few months i have on and off regretted orphaning the works on ao3 (even tho i have copies on copies of back ups#but im so glad that you still like them!#id never delete a work from ao3 tho! everything i wrote is still up there#and should still be on this blog actually#i hope you have a lovely day!
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We’ll Be Okay - Kintsugi
Keigo Takami/Reader
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Depression is hard. And yet, just a little bit easier with someone else. Especially when that someone else knows exactly what you're going through.
In this one-shot, you follow your day as both you and Keigo help each other with your latest episodes. The two of you determined to see each other through the night, loved and intact.
Word Count: 8,759
Read it here!
#keigo takami#takami keigo#mha hawks#hawks mha#keigo x reader#bnha hawks#hawks bnha#bnha keigo#keigo bnha#ao3#my writing#okay remade the post#CANNOT believe i deleted it by accident whoops#i do have some other ones floating around in my head for the same like#relationship i wanna get out#but i'm really busy so we'll see#if i do it would be kinda cool to set up a collection#i've never done that before i think it would be neat#also really weird posting this to my side blog when my main blog/handle is different#don't know why it's not like i'm hiding main on here#hell i actively have it up#i am rambling i should leave lol
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okay i can FINALLY post abt this without it seeming like I’m vague posting bc i AM NOT!! but still. controversial take incoming. i don’t give a shit
my biggest tumblr pet peeve. i know there was a post abt this but i cannot find it for the life of me so i’ll just make my own
when people reblog ask games without sending an ask to the person they reblogged it from 🫠 especially since for most ask games you just have to send a number or emoji or smth. it is SIMPLE
and it wouldn’t be that deep if this wasn’t EXACTLY what happened EVERY SINGLE TIME i do an ask game. like a thousand ppl reblogging it and nobody actually bothers to do it. why even have ask games then???
i’m sorry if this seems rude but i’m also not sorry at all bc this gets me so pissed
#would it be crazy to admit that this is the main reason why i deleted my old blog. bc tumblr pissed me off so much#like. how tf do you expect ppl to send you asks for the games you’ve reblogged if you NEVER even bother to send one to the person you rb it#from. if you don’t have time to send an ask okay fine. put the rb in your drafts for now. rb it from the op.#anything to not make the person you rb the game from feel like utter shit because EVERYONE reblogs their ask game but NOBODY actually#sends them an ask for it.#harvey’s babbling#tumblr#pet peeve#tumblr pet peeve#tumblr etiquette
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One of my big compulsions is taking a fuck ton of screenshots Just In Case a piece of information is important in like 4 years and I can't remember it (sometimes the information is an instagram post that I might not remember later and of course needs to be recorded everywhere (I will Not be looking at that again)) so today is my transfer 16000 images off my phone admin day (woo)
Like yeah I never looked at any of them and they were completely irrelevant to my daily life, But what if I need them ✨️ later ✨️ (you'll see that the idea of Later is doing a lot of heavy lifting here) OR what if there's a vital piece of information in the mix somewhere that I'll lose forever if I delete them? So: onto the external hard drive they go
This is one of those cases where. Yeah. Ideally I wouldn't take 16000 screenshots in half a year. And YEAH ideally I'd just delete them and not transfer them somewhere else to never look at again. BUT at least I get a clean slate and I can maybe not mindlessly save everything for 2 seconds. It's like. Small wins? Progress. Yknow.
#rangnar rambles#i also use my tumblr drafts this way which is how i have probably 2000 drafts for this blog that are just? like me saving a post for 'later#and then theres too many in my drafts for me to even find *MY* drafts#i need to just hard reset the draft function bc its literally unusable for me#'matt this is all irrational and weird' by god. my irrational thoughts disorder makes me do weird shit? are you fr rn??? 😨😨#i get so stupidly in my own head and then i dont make progress towards Anything#even like a fun sideblog where i can actually yknow. post that 2k nightmare? i just cringe myself out like a dumbass 😔#i feel like ocd thoughts always sound lame out loud (and in my head to myself too)#like the Urgency doesnt come across#like in the moment i am Completely convinced that my national insurance number and bank deets are in there somewhere#and theres suddenly no way on earth i could ever find them again if i delete the picture. so to the hard drive they go#i Would go through that whole thing if i suddenly needed a screenshot from 2019 btw. like the crazy isnt theoretical#ive hallucinated gas leak smells before and woken up my flatmates bc i couldnt convince myself i was over reacting#its just cus the seasons have changed that everythings ramping up but omg its hard to do anything but spiral nowadays#thats a little dramatic but i am losing like. a quarter of the day to my ocd#its like. not great 😬#im not back to convincing myself i gave my dad cancer but i am not letting myself use half the kitchen again#but eh soo la voo we ball#HAH i checked my drafts after this and i was lowballing so hard#5.7k on this blog. 12k on my main 💀. its not funny but it kind of is#this is why youll never catch me running a queue#this is such a miserable post but i do feel the need to not let it sit in the drafts pile. to prove the point i guess 💀💀💀#'no one gives a shit this is your blog' 'oh my GOD WHAT IF PEOPLE GIVE A SHIT' <- omg shut upppp youre so embarassing 🙄#one more time for the gallery: i am like. aware that these feelings are irrational. like i am fine it just takes time for reality to kick in#ANYWAYS what was that who said that that was so weird im gonna go look at old romantic era paintings now#if tam is a screenshot fiend in the next fic u know what happened
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i think the funniest ocs ive ever had were it was like a next gen crossover au where all webseries (of the 2000s-2010s for reference) exist in the same world but its like the kids of the characters and the main character (and couple) were an eddsworld fankid and a dick figures fankid
#i dont think i Ever got around to making any other characters i doodled tf out of it in a journal that. idk where it is#lost forever or thrown out which is sort of sad i feel like theres gotta be smth in there....#anyways i think that would be a funny idea for an au still actually but i rewrote the ew kid into a different story#and the mild inspiration for the au gives me the ick i never even read it just thought ''oh big xover cool''#though i think. the ew kid when i first rewrote him i think i gave him a crossover fankid s/o again but idk what the fandom was#cuz i had mentioned it on the blog i was using him on and was vague about it#from context clues in my mind from that time. first year or so of highschool. fucked up it mightve been a tmnt fankid#ALSOOOOO so everyone can rest well. the ew fankid was the kid of one of the main guys BUT!!! the mom is never specified#and i dont think i had a mom in mind the kid looks like 99% like his dad#the dick figures girl was blue x pink obviously. was her name pink. the fankid was called magenta#i swear there was at least 1 other character i mightve had when i first made it. but that would be in Lost Journal#i bet if i kept it going i wouldve had a htf kid or a charlie the unicorn kid cuz i was sick in the heeeaaaaddd#i never posted like anything about it. 1 pic on dA long deleted and talked abt them to The RP Girl#i still love the ew kid dearly but its bc i saved him from That#ACTUALLY THE EXTRA FUNNIEST FCKING THING WAS IN CHATS for some reason despite how eddsworld is#i accidentally implied the fankid was. born in canada. cuz im canadian and it leaked into the writing#DUNNO WHAT THE EW GUY WOULD BE DOING IN CANADA but that detail which i only realized NOW is rlly funny to me i want it canon
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the urge to make a new blog
#i’ve never wanted to leave kuroosdarling and it’s not for a bad reason or anything#but i’m also forever annoyed that i can’t change this to my main blog#i have a cute new url that would b perfect for a rebrand too#(shoutout to the precious mootie who gave me the idea)#but !!!#it seems so scary to start over#bc i really do love this blog a lot#and it doesn’t feel right to change the url here#this is so dumb to even be thinking sm about but !!!!#forever doomed to overthink about everything#anyways if u read all this i love u and i smooch u#might delete this bc >_< !#ANYWAY#done rambling (for now )#⁺. ʚ aims lore ɞ ⋆˙
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the autism urge to create a blog archiving and sorting the entirety of something nobody wants not even me
#thats a lie. i do want. but not that much#you see.#i was thinking.#um.#theres a lot of gacha life mini movies in this world right?#and they all follow a lot of tropes.#and youtubes search isnt very great for when youre trying to find a specific kind of video and dont have the title memorized#a tumblr blog with a very thorough tagging system...would fix that...#im not going to do it. im NOT going to do it.#its so much work and would be an impulsive decision and those NEVER go well for me. im NOT GONNA DO IT.#but i want to. i fucking want to#i more want this blog to already exist to be honest because of one specific glmm that i saw as a kid that fundamentally changed me#i dont even watch glmms. i didnt when i was a kid either idk why i clicked on that video.#i dont remember anything about it besides some basic facts like...#it. um. there was hell. im pretty sure hell was in it. ithink the main character was an angel that got turned into a demon#which is like 30% of all glmms im aware.#also there was a dream sequence that i thought was really inspiring because it actually felt like a dream with dreamlike continuity#if i were making a gacha life mini movie archive blog then i would probably find that video. because id have to watch all the videos id pos#unless of course the video was deleted.#which um.#hm.#well id have made something useful to like 3 people either way so itd likely be worth it anyway#me tag🍭#<-almost forgot to add that bastard#and UHGHFJVNB it would be SO autismpleasing to sort all those things into their own little tags.#GRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH im not going to.#fighting with ymself to not make a bad decision
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I'm literally Rebecca in that one scene where she doesn't know if she should be with Josh or Greg so she's walking down the street looking for signs like "oh a bottle that's a sign for Greg" "oh karate that's a sign for Josh" etc etc I'm literally like that
#personal#sorry for inflicting this on you. i don't get personal on this blog but if i posted this on my main ''josh'' and ''greg'' might see it lol#i've been getting a ridiculous amount of signs for [redacted] today. and yesterday. hmm#but our relationship will never be the same again so i can't go back. oh well 😭#i will delete later. probably. just getting it off my chest 👍
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sorry for changing url again (it's vi again) but im trying to have two different names for ao3 and tumblr in case [person x] decides to be fun about this
#as i said idk how much they're actually checking on my blog and how much they care and i havent noticed anything weird#these days on my main but you never know. im so annoyed about this you have NO idea#two months max and im deleting this blog and start completely anew
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So this is super weird but I am the blog @funnypagesthat you recommended (and maybe followed?)
I accidentally deleted my account and had to create a new one, and I found you by searching my name in the search bar
Can you share around that im not dead
Oh no! Sorry to hear that happened!
Heads up to everyone who was following @funnypages , give their renewed account a follow :)
#asks#yeah ... I have a few inactive sideblogs I never ended up using that I want to delete#but I'm afraid to because it appears tumblr has a habit of eradicating the main blog/everything in the process#I've witnessed so many people start over from scratch because of this kind of thing :/#funnypages
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Have you ever drawn kink fanart at any point?
i used to but i dont anymore bc ive had issues in the past with it turning up in searches despite attempts to censor it, & lately i havent really had anything i feel a strong desire to make kink fanart for anyway
#message#trying to remember what the hell i even used to make fanart of#i mean it was never my Main thing ive always mostly posted ocs so i guess i probably didnt have any specific regular things id always do#just random different things#& then one day i got called out & some like 16 year old went through my blog#& posted a bunch of my art in their callout post to Expose me or whatever & it was extremely traumatic & humiliating#i had like a whole Mental State over it i still have a big scar from it#& it was one of the big factors that led to me deleting my old blog bc i was so paranoid about it happening again#anyways that was all on my old blog so none of it is still around on this one#the only fanart i have here is like 2 tiny doodles of ant*n ch*gurh#because hes my babygirl .#those were months ago tho
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Spn blogs in my recs and they WILL NOT LEAVE.
#they’re even on my main blog now#at least for me#and like yeah I get it blood and rot and family and whatever#I think I’m getting my period soon because it usually doesn’t annoy me like this but GOD#I don’t WANT these here.#but tbh I just don’t like the fandom. it’s all very clique-y and I am so so lonely#like genuinely I haven’t felt good about a single thing I posted for that in way too long#I like WRITING but posting?? in that fandom? it’s terrible. I hate it#& I’ve taken to writing out all my frustration and anger and grief in a separate doc to be deleted before posting the main work#which is fucking. just. it’s bad. I’ve never had to do that for ANY fandom I wrote for.#and I geeeeeet that it’s because it’s such a big fandom so people know each other and it’s not like my small communities where you#parallel play in peace. but I don’t like it. it’s deeply uncomfortable and isolating and I’m so sick of it#but I also like the writing I do so I try to just stay in my niche and not look at anyone else#I think I unfollowed every fandom blog save for two? three? so I could be alone instead of lonely#but it still washes over me whenever I post something.#oh an! sometimes I’m tempted to just do something super mass appealing so they’ll like me but that just makes me feel worse#I’ve been tempted to delete my blog so many times because I lost my friends from the old fandoms and this one is the poorest substitute#but I also feel like that won’t make me happier either. I wish I’d just never started engaging w that show tbh#okay done. just. I’m going through it
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