#so i don't have to stress about sharing it hahahaha

[lunapwrites]

OMH teaser, because I can.

Brief content warning: extreme inebriation that is somewhat masked because it's Remus' POV and he thinks he's talking just fine (he is not) but also very obvious because this entire conversation takes place with him being slung over Owen's shoulder like a sack of potatoes.

(Also I really cannot stress enough how pathetic he is in this. Like wet cat bemoaning his wet state while doing absolutely nothing to rectify the situation or even remove himself from the sink levels of pathetic. Truly I weep for him. However I also can and will make him worse.)

Owen caught him around the midsection, scooping him up again like a stray kitten, and began marching off determinedly in the correct direction. “You think you’re real clever, eh?” “No,” Remus put out petulantly, glaring down Owen’s back once more. “If I was clever, we wouldn’t be in this mess to begin with.” “You gonna solve world hunger while you’re at it?” “If I was clever, yes.” “Jesus, Mary and— you’re something else, Lupin, you know that? You really are.” Something in Owen’s tone was sharper than he was accustomed to hearing from the old bear. “You’re angry at me.” “I am.” “I’m sorry.” “Shut up, you don’t even know what you’re apologising for.” “For making you angry.” “Right, see, that’s what I mean,” Owen huffed. “You act like you’re the only person in the whole world who’s ever known suffering, and it’s getting really bloody tiresome.” “I don’t—” “I said shut up,” Owen snapped. “You’ve been doing a lot of talking these last few weeks, and now you’re going to fucking listen.” Remus fell silent.

Like YES KING, TELL HIM THE FUCK OFF. SHAKE HIM LIKE A HALF-EMPTY KETCHUP BOTTLE UNTIL COMMON SENSE COMES OUT.

[charlie-lec-stories]

A lovely mess // CL16

Pairing: Charles Leclerc / Original Female Character

Summary: Four times Charles overreacted to becoming a father and one he actually failed to react. Or Charles being a mess through the best and most scary adventure of his life.

Warnings: None, this is pure wholesomeness.

Author’s Note: This one was inspired by some stories my own dad and uncle told me about the times they had their first children. Yes, some of those stories are based on things my father did when him and my mom were expecting me hahahaha. Rate: PG

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Every man reacts differently to pregnancy, but the most common response is just simply becoming a mess of a human being. And because of that, Charles, for once in his life, could be considerer an average man. He had been exceptional his whole life: excellent student at school, talented in arts, languages and sports, remarkable people skills and loved by everyone. People assumed that he was going to be an exceptional father too, and he knew he was committed to the role since day one, but none of that made the experience less scary. The monegasque had always want kids, he had always pictured himself growing old with a woman he loved and raising a bunch of little humans. When he knocked up his girlfriend he was definitely not planning on becoming a father so soon in his life, but he was happy nonetheless. His history with his girlfriend was kind of complicated too, her family didn't like him much, or more precisely the fact that Charles' job made her travel around the globe, away from her family all the time. He knew that he loved her more than he had ever loved anyone in his life, he knew that every time he pictured himself in the future, that future was shared with her, but it would be a lie if he'd say that the pregnancy didn't complicate things. His in-laws weren't too happy when they found out and Charles' mother was kind of worried about the whole situation. But Charles and his girl loved that little "accident" more than life itself and they actually never cared too much about anyone else's opinions. He convinced his girlfriend to move in with him and she also agreed on keep traveling with him until she ultimately had to stay home for the baby's safety.

"Is six weeks really that bad, Amour? I mean, maybe you're jet lagged or something". Charles nervously wondered from sitting at the bottom of the bed, his girl anxiously pacing around the room.

"That's not how periods work, Charlie". She was trying to stay calm and not bark at him, but that was a difficult task.

"Then let's buy a test and find out". He got up and started walking to the door when she grabbed his arm.

"Wait! You can't just go to a pharmacy and buy a test!". She looked at him like he was insane.

"Why not?". If there was someone humble enough to always forget he's rich and famous, that was Charles.

"Because you're Charles fucking Leclerc, that's why!". She let go of his arm and ran her hand down her face, exasperated. "The press is going to have a field day if you do that".

"Shit, you're right". He sighed and his shoulders sunk. He could see her shaking, scared and stressed and all he wanted to do was give her answers so she could get some peace of mind. "I'm sorry, Amour, I just don't know what to do".

"Let's call Lorenzo, maybe Charlotte can buy it for us".

He watched her take care of everything: call his brother, open the door for him and Charlotte, explain the situation, decide over test brands with his sister in law, drink loads of water, all while he sat on the couch, his mind running faster than he had ever drove his Ferrari. How could she think so clearly even with how scared she was? What would he do if the test was positive? What if she didn't want to keep the baby? Why was he feeling so sad with the mere idea of the test turning up negative? Was he really ready to be a father? There were so many questions and so little answers. He could hear Charlotte walk out the door and his girlfriend go their room, he clearly felt his older brother sit by his side on the couch, but he just couldn't move. Lorenzo said something Charles never caught, too drown inside his own head.

"I really want this baby, Enzo". Was all he let out and his brother just squeezed his shoulder.

Charlotte came back pretty fast, a paper bag with at least five different tests for his girl to do. The older woman explained the younger which ones were more effective so they could compare the results later. The possible future mother lock herself into the bathroom while the other three waited outside. Charles felt like he waited for an eternity before she came out with the five little white sticks. She placed them over a napkin on the coffee table and Lorenzo set the timer. Now, they had to wait again. She was sitting on the same couch he was before, looking at everything but the tests in front of her, so he sat down and took her hand in his, hoping for the contact to be enough to ease her thoughts. He wasn't exactly the epitome of calmness and the sweat that covered his hand made it hard to grip at. She looked at him and smiled, she knew that he was going to be there for them, no matter what, but she was still scared of what he would think, she still needed to know if he really wanted this. Still, she refrained from asking and simply rested her head on his shoulder, searching for comfort on his scent. She had her eyes closed when she suddenly flew to the other side of the couch while Charles' loud yelp filled her ears.

"What the fuck was that?". She looked around, trying to find what could have startled him so much to trow her like that, but all she could see was Charles clumsily trying to grab one of the tests while his feet barely kept him up. She had never seen him so uncoordinated in the two years they had been together. His fingers had a mind of their own and his legs were trembling.

"Two lines, this one has two lines". Charles, who had been quiet and petrified for the past hour, was mumbling like a madman as he showed his brother one of the tests. In the background, the alarm set by Lorenzo started ringing and they all looked down at the coffee table, searching for the lines of truth. Charles grabbed the the tests smiling wide as he showed them to the others. "THEY ALL HAVE TWO LINES". He was hyperventilating, his whole body shaking and Lorenzo couldn't help but let out his loudest laugh as he watched his younger brother loose the little bits of sanity he had. "CAN YOU SEE IT, BABY?!". He shoved the sticks into his girlfriend's face. "It's a baby! We made a baby! Putain de merde! I'm going to be a Papa!".

"Yes, Charlie! I see it!". She said sharing his enthusiasm. But then she saw him go pale really fast. He walked backwards a few steps and Lorenzo caught him from behind before he could fall butt first on the ground.

"Okay, I think you need to process this rollercoaster of emotions while sitting on the couch, Cha". The older Leclerc helped his bother to sit down next to the now confirmed future mama. There, Charles took her hand and smiled, a high-like expression covering his eyes. He may be scared, but he had never been happier.

If Charles' reaction to the pregnancy was that chaotic, it was a sure thing that the following nine months would be as well. Before the first trimester was up, he had already brought another house to move to, where the baby could have their own room and a playroom. He brought every piece of Ferrari merchandizing he could find on the internet, he didn't even care if it was original or not. Was it pretty? Yes. Was it Ferrari? Yes. Then he was buying it. His girlfriend even went to the extent of taking away his cards and threatened with getting rid of wifi to make him stop. He didn't, took her extension in the middle of the night and kept binge-shopping for his baby at 4 am. He brought furniture for the bedroom and the playroom, and then he found his biggest rival till the day. A rival he wanted to beat more than Max Verstappen: a crib. She wasn't even showing and he was already putting a crib together, or let's rephrase it, fighting with the crib and losing pathetically.

"Cela n'a aucun sens". (This makes no sense). He complained while he tried to attach what was supposed to be 'Part B' to 'Part 3.1'. Why there was a part 3.1, he didn't know and was too stress out to try and figure it out. He growled, he literally growled when the whole crib came crushing down in front of him. "Je déteste cette merde". (I hate this shit).

"Charlie? What's wrong? I heard a loud noise". He looked at the mother of his child and all he could feel was embarrassment. "Are you alright?".

"Yes. I'm fine". He answered from the floor, looking at his lap. He wanted to cry, but he also didn't want to upset her.

"Hey, you know you can tell me anything, right?". She sat next to him on the floor and searched for his eyes, but he kept looking away from her. "What is it, Charles?".

"I-". He tried to start talking, but he was cut off by his own sob. She quickly made him turn towards her, looking for injuries, but he seemed to be physically fine. She saw the tears running down his face and did the best she could to wipe the away. Moving to sit on his lap, she threw her arms around his neck and pressed herself flat against him, trying to get as close as she could. He cried on her shoulder, soaking her his hoodie and crushing her with his arms around her waist. They stayed like that for a while, until Charles stopped crying. She scratched his head to calm him down and after some time, he did. In a painfully soft whisper, he admitted his fear to her. "I'm going to be a terrible Papa".

"Don't say that. We both know that's not true". Shushing him, she pulled away and grabbed his face, forcing him to look at her. "Is this about the crib?".

"I've been fighting this crib for four days. Our baby is going to sleep on the floor and it's all my fault". She laughed and for a moment, she regretted it, seeing the hurt in his eyes. She calmed down and pecked his lips.

"Charlie, our baby has barely formed their ears yet, you have more than enough time to figure this out". He didn't look convinced at all.

"But what if I don't?". She smiled at him.

"I know you will. Do you want to know why?". He nodded and she ran her fingers through his hair to move it away from his face, so they could look into each others eyes and make him believe her. "Because you already are the best Papa in the world, Charles".

He won against the crib just in time to catch up with the worst part of the cravings period. They were into the fourth month of pregnancy and the little bump was proudly starting to show. Charles couldn't keep his hands away from it. He was constantly touching the bump, kissing the bump, talking to the bump, even scolding the bump whenever he saw some discomfort tinting his girlfriend's face. In the paddock he practically forced her to go everywhere with him and on interviews he answered every question while looking at her. He insisted on people staying at least ten centimeters away from her and he even took upon himself the task of preparing every meal she ate, just to make sure that it was safe and she didn't get food poisoned. He checked places' and foods' temperatures, chairs' and couches' safety, if her shoes were properly tied (at least 20 times a day), the only thing missing was him wrapping her on bobble wrapping. He safety proofed the every hotel room they stayed in so she wouldn't 'accidentally hit the bump against unknown furniture in the dark'. At some point, she had to put a stop to the madness, specially when Charles' newly-daddy paranoia messed with her cravings.

"Amour, what are you eating?". He asked when he caught her hiding with Lando and Max behind the Red Bull garage, a massive greasy half eaten hot dog on her hands. Lando was opening a mayonnaise sachet with his teeth and Max was feeding her french fries with his bare hands, all three of them sitting on the floor. It wasn't exactly the most sanitary situation, but the fuzzy feeling she felt inside her chest thanks to that hot dog made it all worth it. Charles could swear he had an aneurysm just by the sight of it all. "Where did you get that?".

"Uhm...". Her and Lando looked at Max, waiting for him to answer, since he was the one who brought it.

"Well... It's from a professional, I can assure you that, Charles". The monegasque frowned and Max swallowed, scared, just to find out his mouth was completely dry. He wasn't an easily scared guy, but something about Charles' over-protective-dad mood just terrified him.

"And where's the professional's place? Can you show me?". Max, still sitting on the floor, looked at everything but Charles.

"Oh, you see-".

"It's from the stand outside of the paddock". Lando blurted out, followed by him covering his mouth with both his hands and the three of them heard Charles growl.

"Max did you just feed my pregnant girlfriend a hot dog from a dirty street-stand? YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW IF THE PERSON WASHES THEIR HANDS-"

"They definitely don't, I mean, they don't have where to".

"Lando, you're not helping me, mate". Max advised, not moving his eyes from the fuming Charles above him. Then the pregnant girl decided to intervene.

"Charlie, babe, it's okay. I asked him to buy it for me". Charles then looked at her, his gaze softening a little, but still angry.

"Amour, you know that's not good for you". He walked to her and hooked his arms under hers to help her off the floor.

"But the baby wanted it". Max still followed Charles, afraid of what the future father could do to him for messing with his unborn baby's diet. Lando stayed very still, hoping to make himself invisible. "I was just craving this so bad! And you never let me have this type of food. The baby is fine, I promise".

"Don't do that face, it's not fair". He complained when she gave him her best puppy eyes. She didn't stop, and he finally dropped the attitude. "Okay, maybe we can make some room for a hot dog once in a while. But you have to keep eating healthy, we don't want the little Tifosi to come out malnourished".

"Yay!". She squealed and hugged him tight, the hot dog almost falling from her hand. Charles hugged her back and then directed his gaze towards the other two drivers.

"And you two". Max and Lando looked at him wide-eyed. "This better be the last time you pull off something like this. Did I make myself clear?".

"Yes, sir". Both said at the same time and got up from the floor.

"Okay, go on. And think about what you did". They nodded their heads, Max handing the girl the fries and then walking away with Lando.

"I like you daddy-voice". Charles shrugged at her comment.

"Amour, don't call it that or I won't be able to use it without laughing".

Charles' paranoia got better. He calmed down a little, but then the fear of being a bad father came back. Around the seventh month, already knowing they were having a boy, Charles found himself with insomniac. At the beginning of the pregnancy he was scared of not knowing what to do to take care of a baby's basic needs: bottle feed, change diapers, help him to sleep, and things like that. But as the date of the delivery got closer, Charles' fears shifted to the more existential type. What if he was unable to guide his son through life? What if he failed on teaching him good values and a strong sense of ethics? What if he ended up raising a spoiled kid, arrogant and narcissistic? What if he couldn't make his boy happy? What if his kid hated him? Those questions kept him up at night, turning over and over on the bed, and cold sweat covering his body. He would walk to the baby's room and look at the painting his girlfriend did on the walls, the name 'Jules' written on lilac on a clear sky, over the race track so carefully crafted. What if his son didn't want to race cars? What if he was forcing him to do so when he wasn't even born? Sitting on the rocking chair, he would look out the window, the yachts at the bay clearly visible from there. What if his son didn't like Monaco? What if his son would rather adopt his mother's nationality and culture over his? The dark sky adorned with shinny little dots would look back at him without answers.

"Charlie? Why are you up, love?". He heard his girl's sleepy voice call out to him from the doorway. He smiled at her, his eyes glossy as he fought the tears that wanted to escape.

"Just thinking, Amour. Don't worry". He gave her his best smile, but she could read his real feelings underneath it. "Go back to bed, I'll join you in a minute".

"I think we love each other enough to cut the bullshit, babe". She walked further into the room and stopped in front of him, her big belly at his face's height, and he couldn't help but reach forward and kiss it. "What is it?"

"It's... it's just a lot and it's late. Don't worry, really-"

"Charles, I'm not sleeping until I'm convinced that you're alright". He sighed, and pulled her to his lap. The weight was a little bit more than what he was used to, but he loved that, it made it impossible for him to overlook the fact that his baby was there, with them. He made her rest her back against his chest and rocked he chair, hugging her tight against him and resting his chin over her shoulder. They both looked out of the window and she patiently waited for him to tell her what was going on inside his mind.

"I'm scared. I feel this huge responsibility over Jules". She smiled, loving whenever they talked about their baby using the name they choose for him. "I just want to be a good Papa, but I'm so scared of messing up, of making the wrong choices, of using the wrong words, of leading him in the wrong direction. What if I don't raise him right? If I'm not a good role model?"

"Well, you're not alone in this, Charlie, I'm with you till the end of the line. Like Bucky and Steve. I know that we'll be alright. I just know it". She sounded so sure of herself. He wished he could be that sure about everything.

"How do you do it? How do you manage to always be so sure and composed?". She laughed and he felt the baby kick under his palm, he always kicked when she laughed.

"I've been the least composed person and you know it, Charlie! I break down crying at least five times a day. You've seen that! You're the one who comforts me every time". He laughed softly, that was true, those had been some pretty crazy seven months. A true rollercoaster of emotions. And they still had two more months to go. "I know that we'll be alright because we're already asking ourselves these questions. Because we care about Jules so much that we truly take time to think things through. We are going to be alright because we love our baby and we both know we will always do the best we can for him. We won't let the bad choices from our parents be repeated and we'll make sure to copy the best from them to give to Jules. That's why I'm so sure". She turned to look at him for a moment. "I trust you to be the dad of my baby because I know how great of a human being you are, Charles".

"I love you". He said, feeling a lot better. He kissed her tenderly, and then another kick was felt under his hand. "Thanks for being here for me, Amour".

"Always, just as you had always been for me". She nuzzled her nose against his. Another kick and they both laughed. "Let's go back to bed, Papa".

The two months passed by in a blink. Charles asked Ferrari to give him a leave of absence for the first two races of the season. He wanted to be world champion, but he would rather be there when his son was born. Ferrari let him take his time, but Jules decided to be born at eight and a half months. It seemed like he couldn't wait to meet his parents, because everything happened so fast that Charles had barely had any time to react. They were having lunch at his mother's house, and he was having the best time. His girl looked amazing, all radiant and happy, her belly covered by a cute but comfortable dress, his sisters in law both touching the belly and fighting for godmother duties. Lorenzo and Charlotte were definitely the chosen ones, but they hadn't tell anyone yet, after all both Lorenzo and Charlotte were there for them when they needed them. His mother was showing him little clothes that she had crocheted for Jules and his brothers discussing which one was going to be the 'responsible uncle' and who the 'funcle'. Arthur was definitely unable to be the responsible one, so he was already chosen to be the 'funcle'. Every conversation was cut short when the faint voice of the future mama rang through the air.

"Charlie". Her shaken voice called out, and he turned around to see what she needed. There was a wet patch under her and she was grabbing her belly, a painful expression on her face. "I think my water broke".

"The baby is coming!". Arthur shouted excitedly, but Charles' brain just stopped functioning. He saw everyone running around to grab things, Charlotte and Carla helping his girl out of the house and towards his car, Lorenzo grabbing the baby bag the carried around just in case since the beginning of the last trimester, Arthur pushing him outside and his mother speaking, but he just couldn't move. H was petrified. He felt like his blood pressure had dropped in a second and if it wasn't for Arthur behind him, he would have certainly fallen to the ground. His mother took his car keys out of his pocket and then they pushed him on the back seat, next to his girlfriend. Her hand crushing his brought him back from his outer-body state and he was able to react, turning to face her and running his other hand down her arm, doing his best to sooth her.

"It's okay, mon amour. Breath, breath with me". He instructed her and he started to exaggerate his breathing so she could copy her. She did and that calmed her down enough to count the seconds between one contraction and the next. "That's it, Amour, you're doing so good". He praised her and she smiled a little, her happy expression cut short by another waive of pain. She screamed and cried, sweat covering her forehead and running down her face, mixing with her tears. It was probably the most messy she had ever looked, but he had never seen her as beautiful as in that moment. "I love you so much". He whispered it, but by the squeeze she gave to his hand, he knew for sure she was saying it back. "We're almost there, hung on a little longer".

He almost carried her out of the car and into the hospital the second Arthur parked the car. Then, they found out that she was ready to deliver in that second. Jules didn't want them to keep him waiting, she was brought to the delivery room and Charles was given surgical gown so he could join her. Inside, the whole process was quick, in 30 minutes, Jules was crying on the doctors arms and Charles could feel his heart skip a beat. Wrapped on towel and with the small hat they had for him on, Jules was passed on to his mother, who took him instantly while she cried her eyes out. Charles, still on delay with reality, was trying to process the information. That was his baby, he was finally there, he could finally touch him. The doctor walked to him, placing a hand on his shoulder, Charles couldn't stop looking at his girl and little Jules. He heard a softly "go ahead, meet your boy", and that was enough for him to place a shaking and gentle hand on Jules' head. He ran his thumb over the soft little cheek and the tears started to fall. He felt his girl's hand wipe away his tears and heard her laugh softly. She just found funny that after overreacting about every little thing for the past eight months, Charles was barely able to react that day. He was a mess in that moment, but he was the perfect mess in her eyes. The most extraordinary mess. He finally smiled and reached down to kiss her head, then he looked at Jules.

"I am your Papa, Jules. I love you. I'm so happy to finally meet you".

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I hope you guys liked this one!

[wheeboo]

new ask from : dizzy anon ! xe says...

good evening, america. i,, have come with not a fictional story but something very much real! (also, i love your reviews sm. i actually am writing the first 'episode' of the compilation stories! but not patience and grace yet. i like to finish something for the most part even if i'll release it in parts, so it'll be a while,,, i can tag you in it in the future hehe ^^)

do you get that feeling when you feel really smart when you get something? i don't know about you, but i seriously love it- like i figured out equations for shit like voltage, current, and resistance in my robotics exam (that i didn't study for and didn't take the first time). even with a calculator, it was noon and i was exhausted beyond belief, like- ?????? HOW the fuck did i do that.

feeling smart is everything to me, even tho i'm a silly little dude who likes to partake in silly little activities. this is why i like making my lore make sense by working on every nook and cranny, it makes me feel intelligent /j as if di ako bobo (affectionate) LMFAOOOO

another thing btw, nag-choir kami ng gregorian chant para sa music, at tangina napasigaw lahat ng mga boys nung natapos HAHAHAHA 😭😭 ako din naman. like sumakit paa ako amputa, napa-omsim sa inisip na 'deserve ko kumain'. imagine dalawang PT exam tas nag dalawang written kasi nag-absent buong week last week. then i had like six or five exams the day before 💪💪

hopefully your week's been good!! in my timezone, we're abt to head into the weekend and i hope to finish a powerpoint before 12am ^^ reemmber to drink water and/or treat yrself in any way.

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FKSLJFSD im glad u love my review lovely <33 just know i'm always willing to share my input on anything!! and omg i'd love to be tagged pls tag me !!

bro OMG ALL THE TIME. me in my college math class fr right now i literally feel like a fuckin einstein whenever a problem finally *gets* to my head. but im glad u were able to figure out ur stuff ur absolutely slaying fr bestie!! u deserve it sm <3

mahabang rehearsal ba ito? sobrang maingay ng mga boys 😭😭 anong kumain mo afterwards? i ask because i'm eating pancit rn sobrang sakit ng ulo ko djflkdsjf </3 but i hope u were able to eat something delicious n treat yourself!! those exams sounded so stressful omg but just be proud u were able to endure it and get it done !!

my weekend has been fun so far :) ako ng oras kasama ang mga kaibigan kagabi and went sa isang haunted house SJLKFSD. hope u were able to get ppt down before 12am!! and don't forget to also stay hydrated and treat urself as well <3

[just-a-carrot]

Hi Carrot! I saw the enthusiastic QUAMAII asked "what Orlam's Tumblr blog would look like" last night (for the East Eighth District, the last wave of tumblr replies was in the early morning🤣), I would like to ask

(1) if each Char in OW has Twitter or Tumblr? Will any of them register for these social platforms? 🧐

(2)If someone had these social platforms, what kind of content would they record on it, and how often? Including Hunar, Bucks, Cecil and Jerry.😌

Although in my opinion, Cecil and Jerry, as characters in OW, may not have social platforms?😂 Iggy is relatively insular, but he is developing a game and may occasionally update the progress of the game on Twitter (just like some Garden vegetable😇)? But I'm not so sure about the others,, and that's when I realize I don't know them well enough, which makes me a little guilty...

Seeing the enthusiastic QUAMAII reminds me of myself a month ago. Basically, I prepare one or two ask every day and put it in your question box lol. I think this is because Carrot's OW and other side games are so good, let us feel very immersed in the content shown in the game, and it is not enough, there is a strong desire to drive us to think about the background of these characters and some features of them, and then ask you questions to learn more about the broader content. I think this is what a good piece of work should do, and you did it!🥰

oh gosh this is quite the extensive question HAHAHA hmmm...

Iggy: would be too stressed out by most social media. he probably does have a linkedin though and also a website, since he uses those to get clients. he's not actually actively developing a game -- genzou's just trying to get him to LOL; he has an account on resetera and is more active there than on any social media

Genzou: uses twitter, facebook, and linkedin to advertise his shop. that's already more than enough for him so he doesn't use anything on a personal level

Orlam: has both tumblr and twitter; tumblr would be how i already described in the other ask LOL for twitter, i imagine him being one of those people that mostly lurks but also likes to reply to hit or controversial tweets in such a way that it will make him look "cool" and "smart"...

Gidget: uses twitter, instagram, and linkedin, and also has their own website, using all of them to promote their modeling stuff

Bucks: uses twitter and only uses it to reblog shit posts and post really weird and random tweets that make no sense in context

Hunar: uses twitter and linkedin very professionally, mostly twitter in the writing community, trying to connect with other writers and commiserate with people on their writing and agent woes

CECIL AND JERRY CAN'T HAVE SOCIAL MEDIA ACCOUNTS??? there's no social media in wonderland...

i guess if they did jerry's would be all about promoting rebellion HAHAHAHA. cecil's would be like... sharing classical music playlists and fine dining tips LOL

[queenofbaws]

Hey! Can I ask request 6, 11 & 14 for Wringing Blood from A Stone? ^^

well hey yourself!!! oooh, you know i'm always more than happy to rant and rave about those crazy ol' hacketts... ;)c hehehe

6. Does this chapter/fic have any twists that you’re proud of?

this upcoming chapter, no; the fic itself, yesss. i won't get into them specifically, obviously, but one of the things i'm really trying to capture the most in this fic is just...the nature of the hacketts being a family. like an actual-factual (obviously exaggerated) family, complete with all the tangles and snares any real family has. you guys already know what supernatural stuff is on its way, and the extra supernatural stuff i'm throwing in there, i think you can probably draw some conclusions about too, but there are for sure a few family-based twists i'm very, very, very excited to reveal in due time.

twists that - i very much hope - won't end up coming out of left field, but will make horrible, horrible sense in retrospect ;)c

11. What scene are you most hyped for this chapter/fic?

for the upcoming chapter, i'm super hyped for one caleb & kaylee interaction in particular. there's so much dysfunction in the family, and lord knows the interactions with the hackett brothers themselves can sometimes feel a little less than friendly, so i really relish in writing caleb and kaylee sort of being besties first and siblings second. plus, we might just get a peek at caleb's wolf story............

in terms of scenes i'm most hype for across the whole fic, GOD HELP ME. there are. a lot coming up. so here are some out of context spoilers for scenes i'm very excited to get to: a big ol' family brunch gone wrong; old men fighting, parts 1 and 2; jack eats the world's sloppiest sloppy joe; the worst damn church service you've ever seen; and they're all gonna laugh at you. genuinely, there are........so many pieces of this story i just cannot wait to share, and i wish i could just pop my head open and shake the words out like loose change aslkdjfalskdjf

14. What have you been finding frustrating with writing this chapter/fic?

alas, as happened when i was writing the (almost)s, and what i think is probably the case with most longfics in general, like wringing blood has become a very personal project that's sort of reflective of some family stuff i'm going through currently. on the one hand, that's super therapeutic, because it's a place where i can channel a lot of my emotions and frustrations and hopes and disappointments about my own family in a way i can control...but on the other hand, the reason i've suddenly gotten so slow with updating is because my family stuff does suck currently, it is sucking up a lot of my energy and sanity, and when i have a break from them, the idea of jumping into sharing my brain with the hacketts isn't, uh, immediately welcoming, let's say XD

which leads to a SECONDARY frustration, of course: i'm so, so, so, so, SO excited for this story, there's nothing i want more than to get it all to paper and SHARE, but i'm in a spot right now where things are slowed and sort of gunked-up. i can't stress enough how i have. every. major. beat. of this story plotted out, i have about 90% of it outlined in VIVID detail, i know EXACTLY what's going to happen in every chapter until the end, i have an embarrassing amount of it already written, but man. ya gurl is tired. so wanting to get everything out into the world but knowing i don't have the brainspace for it atm is also incredibly frustrating, but i'm very much hoping once the holidays have passed, maybe - MAYBE!!!!!!!!! - things over here will chill out and i can spend a little less time with my bonkers appalachian family and a little more time with theirs hahahaha!

wips, wips, wips, ask me about some wips!!!

[hannshines]

Hunger Games x FlintWood Au

Welcome back to telling my ideas I had for this fic so I don't keep them bottled up and if anyone wants to play with this I'm more than happy.

To recap we are in part 2 of all this and part 1 can be found below by clicking on part 1.

Part.1: Marcus (his first games and how he met Oliver as well as their development while participating in the games for his sister)

Part 2: Daphne (On her attempt to get out as a district escort in the ministry) — here

Part 3: Adrian (In his development in the last games that i had planned for the story, before the fall of the ministry)

Part 2.

Actually for part 2 I have several ideas but maybe not as well formulated as part 1 since it's the middle of the fic but I'll try not to go in circles.

Well in FlintWood terms for the second part it was mostly their development, and initial life in the ministry, Marcus and Oliver after the games are over they hate each other to no end, most of their development is around when they finally share a place again which is on the victory tour, because they both don't even want to see each other in a picture.

A plus for the whole thing that happened in they games and thanks for Oliver's show there were two winners, Oliver's parents are killed in an "accidental" fire in his house about two days after he returns to his district.

There's not much to tell my ideas of the victory tour other than being from different districts, they both had to make it very clear that none of it was propaganda for the districts to unite against the Ministry, not in that literal way but you get the point.

Obviously in the opposite districts of each one they don't let the other one Marcus goes to district 4 to make the speech (which being alone he says that he doesn't regret anything of what he did against Demelza) while Oliver gives his speech in district 7 (which the sentimentality wins him because he didn't want to do anything against Amelia and he apologizes to Marcus' mother).

It's a show because now Katie and Daphne work together, Daphne gets stressed because they don't know where to have the last celebration if in district 6 or 4, fights between everyone and extra stuff, ahhh there's only one bed trop hahahaha and more.

And moving on to the ministry stuff going back to the end of the first part, after it was announced that both Marcus and Oliver had won Daphne was upset, she goes to tell her truths to Percy and Katie thinking that it was something they had planned and that if so they had all just got themselves into big trouble as there have never been two winners in the games, obviously everyone looks worried but the most desperate in this matter is Daphne and Katie.

Both are called in by Tom Ryddle in which he is given the opportunity to tell them if they both had a plan in mind to make them both winners and they both deny everything, and while he believes Daphne by not doing anything to her, he does not believe Katie by torturing her right there and then.

Katie has a necklace similar to the Muggles (who are literally the slaves and servants of the place, who have no word) and that is beacuse the truth is that she is not part of the ministry, her parents and herself were from district six (she know's Leanne and Leanne know her) she will be about four years old when her parents did something and were captured to work as muggles in the Ministry.

The plan was to let Katie as an orphan but they saw potential in her being pretty enough and maybe she could serve, so when she was old enough about two years after Daphne start to work i'm they Ministry they put her to work as an escort but of course without pay and she actually lives day to day.

Katie is given an ultimatum and just gets the hell out of the place, shady stuff between Tom Riddle and Daphne and the reason why i have in the fic THAT tags

A life that Daphne doesn't get used to and really doesn't want, but thanks to Theo who in fact many people are forbidden to get too close to Daphne and one of them is Theo for a few circumstances, she soport that treat.

Obviously they both love each other but can't show it because of the position Daphne is in and that literally looking for a steady partner would surely be branded a betrayal of the ministry itself (Tom Ryddle) and the games.

Back to the districts.

After what is that Marcus recovers because he was badly injured in the games, he returns to the district with his mother which begins to have a little closer contact as they are both the only ones who have each other, the victory tour in which Marcus' own mother tells him that at least Oliver is cute and Marcus may be having a good time faking a romance that is not going at all well.

There starts to be family closeness and a bond between what is Daphne and Marcus, Daphne worries about him and decides again not to change district, that is also because she has always been right there for Adrian but now for Marcus and the problems start because between Marcus and Oliver they start to divide the dealings towards each of them by the ministry.

Both are winners, so Oliver is being treated as what he is, a winner and whom the ministry wants to turn into a hallow doing dirty little jobs ignoring the fact of the romance he has with Marcus because he is pretty (Come on Marcus shared) but strangely enough Marcus does not start to be treated like that, he starts to be included as someone important in the ministry, almost like what Lucius Malfoy had a hard time doing and of course implemented with his son now.

Right, more character introductions in all this journey

Terence Higgs: My pretty pretty boy Terence, habitant of district seven and Adrian's partner, as well as Adrian's emotional counselor, Marcus holds him in high esteem and so does Daphne.

Graham Montague: Marcus's friend, a year older than Adrian and whose turn it is to participate in the 96th games.

Alicia Spinnet: Mentor of District 11, too overbearing for Marcus' liking but seems to get along very well with Oliver as he goes into his first year as a mentor.

Angelina Johnson: Stylist of district 10, has a love hate relationship with Lucian Bole and hates Marcus but loves Katie and Oliver together, hates Percy the same way and calls him a bore.

Lucius Malfoy: Winner of District 1, clearly Death Eater Marcus hates him because somehow he always ends up talking to him.

Draco Malfoy: Winner of district 1 like his father, Marcus tolerates him, he seems to have a great friendship with Blaise and of the Malfoy's he is the only one that Astoria and Daphne like, Marcus makes fun of the little looks he has with Harry.

Harry Potter: The lucky boy who survived from district 9, literally that's his nickname since he was supposed to be left for dead in the games but in the end he appeared as alive, being the first mistake presented in the games, in the end he won but the ministry went against him and killed his parents.

Pansy Parkinson: A distant cousin of Marcus, Marcus never really cared enough about his mother having a sister who left for District 1 after she won the games to marry another winner there.

Tracey Davis: Stylist of district 2, very close friend of Theodore Nott, she doesn't get along very well with Daphne but yes with Astoria.

Joanne Selwyn: A rather quiet girl whom Adrian has known for years, she ends up being a tribute at the 77th games.

Clearly for Daphne and Marcus it is something strange because although they think they treat him like hallow they do not make Marcus do jobs as Oliver who truly by his appearance becomes one of the new favorites of the ministry.

It stops working for them the lovers joke because they try to make everyone take a position and Marcus doesn't like the position they are putting him in and much less his mother who obviously knows why they are doing all that.

In all this plot we know about Marcus dad who is actually not someone from the districts but someone from the ministry.

A backstory to Marcus's mother.

In Marcus's district there have been several winners but most have been older and many years ago, the last winner before Marcus's mother participated in the games died leaving district 7 without a mentor, when something like that happens and the Ministry trying to be fair, is assigned someone from the ministry as a mentor for the tribute who will participate, if it lasts a while the mentor is not repeated and each year is someone different.

When Eleanore Shafiq (Marcus's mother) participates clearly her mentor ends up being Thaddeus Flint (Marcus' father) one of Tom Ryddle's closest friends, both fall in love or more than anything Thaddeus falls in love with her and does everything he can to make Eleanore survive.

He succeeds and it clearly does not happen instantly but what Thaddeus seeks is to leave the ministry to go with Eleanore to the districts and live a "quiet" life at that time if a winner had children, the kid could also skip the reaping, a rule that was discarded two years before Marcus reached the minimum age to participate in his first reaping.

Thaddeus actually did manage to leave the ministry but not entirely, he still had to return to settle certain family "matters" more than anything else and that is why he always returned to the ministry whenever Eleanore go to be a mentor.

Here the Death Eaters do exist and clearly they are the people closest to Tom Ryddle and in this case they may even be winners but it is very rare to see it, so thee problem of Thaddeus being gone is that he left incomplete a personal circle that Tom Ryddle had and in short he was left without one more servant, that's why Marcus being a winner and having access to the ministry fit like a glove to Tom Ryddle to fill that space he was missing and in short to have one more asshole working for him.

All this is discovered long after Marcus gets his first turn to be a mentor (surprise Montague gets his turn to be a tribute and wins).

Obviously as all these problems begin start to create a closer intra-personal bond between Daphne, Marcus and Adrian.

When Daphne learn that Thaddeus Flint managed to leave the ministry for someone he loves, is armed with heat to ask leave from working for the games to be with Theo so that both can live a relatively "quiet" life because she's not leaving the ministry completely but would go step by step.

She asks Tom Ryddle with the faith of a thousand gods after planning very well for a resolution to any roadblock that gets in her way and asks for his resignation from Tom Ryddle himself saying that she will take care of finding someone just as competent for the job and won't even notice his lack once she finds her, even telling him that she will explain everything and no one will have to bother with that problem but her.

Odd as it sounds for Daphne this one agrees and my little girl is very happy to see at least an open window of getting away from things.

But clearly it would not be so easy.

Marcus and Oliver's games were the 95th games, Gramham wins the 96th games (in which here the rule was changed that it is a man and a woman and they start to combine the genders and they can be anyone, one man and one woman, two men or two women) and thanks to the fact that the 100th games are near it is announced that there will be some slight changes and surprises in some details before the so expected 100th games.

In the end Daphne doesn't have to choose who will replace her, but she is told that she will be assigned to someone and her job will be to train her, she finds it strange but accepts thinking that maybe after the games she will have to train someone, but in the reaping her surprise is when she finds her father in the district and more than anything with Astoria in the place.

Astoria tells her that she doesn't know why she is there and her father (who is also close to Tom Ryddle) tells Daphne about the slight changes there will be for the harvest because of the countdown to the 100th games.

The surprise for that game is that apart from the urn of the districts, there is going to be a special urn with other names of people specifically chosen for some characteristic (pure redheads, pure blondes, only people who live in a detailed area of the district, only people who live in a specific area of the district, etc), In this case in this second ballot box only the people from the same district will know who they are, but those from the ministry and the other districts will not know who they are, making them a surprise tribute for the TV, they will not show their face, their name will not be shown, but their voice will be shown and they will be called by a nickname.

For Daphne it's kind of weird because it's nothing like what she knows they had been planning for the 97th games and because it's sound silly and very complicated to do for some simple games but she decides not to fight about it and pay attention to the explanation.

The problem comes when it seems that Astoria's presence is to draw the names of the reaping, leaving Daphne on the side and and obviously the surprise is that Daphne's name comes out.

Which is not his name for confidentiality, but a nickname that Daphne knows that only Tom Ryddle says to her.

Daphne laughs nervously believing that it is a joke and she has to cross in the middle to read the paper on her own and desperate to see that its true she throws away the paper and looks for another name several times realizing that all the names of the special urn are hers.

Daphen's fight is no longer televised and at that very moment she starts to tell her father that how could he do this, that they could not do it because she is a citizen of the ministry and not of the districts and he coldly, rudely and without caring about his daughter tells her that she brought it on herself for trying to leave and that she does not know how angry Tom Ryddle is for that.

Marcus and Adrian are obviously surprised, Marcus promises Daphne that he will not let her die but obviously Daphne understands the plan of why they put her in and for her it would be better to die, because if she survives now she would be completely turned into a hallow and would never be able to escape from the ministry but Marcus tells her that this is something that will be arranged later but what Daphne must think now is to survive, literally worth her other tribute which is a girl named Joanne Selwyn, and she is also surprised that someone from the ministry is a tribute but she doesn't comment anything about it.

On the way to the ministry Marcus realizes that one of the tributes from Oliver's district is Ginny Weasley and Marcus realizes that Oliver is also going to do everything he can to keep his best friend's sister from dying.

Obviously Theo finds out what is going on and leaves his place in district 1 to change to district 7 saying that he will be in charge of dressing Daphne, nobody important but the mentors know that Daphne is participating in the games, comments that she won it and things like that are irrelevant.

Passive aggressive interviews between Daphne and Rita Skeeter beacuse Daphne has hated her for a long time and she finally dropped her mouth in the interview.

Marcus trains Daphne, a small friendship between Joanne and Daphne where clearly Joanne is not bothered by all the attention being given to the blonde some very beautiful moments and emotional conversations between Theo and Daphne in which Theo tells her that there shouldn't have been all that for him but for herself, which leaves Daphne thinking a lot.

Daphne scared by the fact that Astoria is now being used as an escort for the tributes and not as a stylist which is why her little sister had gotten into the games.

And my recommendation was to not get attached to anyone hahaha

Daphne who clearly cannot be accompanied by her mentors to the games is accompanied by Theo and yes, Theo is killed in front of Daphne in which she is sent to the arena leaving Daphne devastated and shocked because literally the person she loved the most and why she is in the games right now just died as a message that she will never really get what she wants.

I've already gone on too long, but let's go quickly.

When Daphne comes out she realizes that the arena of those games ends up being a lake, almost without any land except the cornocopia which is a small island in the middle with a tree, but everything else seems to be just water (jiji the black lake reference).

Marcus is confused because they decided to make the arena that way since they are not supposed to put something similar anymore because not all tributes know how to swim and die fast and Adrian tells him that for sure Tom Ryddle's plan is that these games don't last long thinking about Daphne.

There is not much to tell from the ministry's side only that Marcus has a hard time finding sponsors because apparently no one despite being with more fans after the interviews no one wants to sponsor Daphne (actually everyone was warned not to sponsor her) Blaise ends up being her anonymous sponsor most of the time.

Oh and that Oliver looks a lot more nervous in Marcus's view and Marcus doesn't know why.

Fast forward back to the games, not much interesting to see why they go fast as planned, Daphne traumas, dehydration does its job, hallucinations with Theo and my girl just needs a break.

The important thing that happens in the games is that aside from Joanne dying and Daphne suffering her death as well, Daphne ends up in an alliance with Ginny for most of the games.

Relatively all goes well with that alliance (my favorite wlw) Daphne doesn't really trust Ginny but you can tell she's good at fighting and possibly her only chance to survive, they both become kind of weird "friends" but the most striking thing that happens is when they're both left in the end.

Haha here if there is no drama and starts a fight to the death between Daphne and Ginny in a curiously well positioned place where you can't see Daphne's face very well (because let's remember that the ministry doesn't know who she is) and at the end Ginny ends up drowning Daphne in the lake making Ginny Weasley the winner of the 97th games

And that's they end of Daphne Greengrass🥰

No, it's not true she is still alive but I'll save it for part three because I'm already too long here.

[softhairedhotch]

HAHAHAHA NO WORRIES PLS TAKE UR TIME TO ANSWER MY ASKS!!!! hope u are had a good sleep n are taking care of urself 🫶🫶 and AWWW THANK U pleaseeeee i wish i really did actually Write Write 😪 i just have a very active imagination n too many thoughts...

BUTTT i have to admit.. i did come up with a male oc last time.. may have dumped many thoughts about him n aaron... the premise is that oc joined the BAU and somewhere along the line, aaron and him became FWBs 🤭🤭 n they text A LOT which forms the basis of their friendship n closeness.

i think some of these scenarios r SOOO FUNNY EMBARRASSING bc there's so many ways where i picture them getting close calls and ALMOST getting caught. like they're both super intelligent n responsible men but the moment they're insanely horny... their brains fly out the window 😭😭... but i'd say it'll be AGES before i ever publish something concrete bc i need to brush up my Descriptive writing skills first LMFAOOO (bc i'm more of an academic writer which just focuses on getting to the point so my vocabulary is like. Horrible.) but lmk if u ever wna hear any of them bc i'll be more than happy to share HEHEHE .

maybe one day i'd just come off anon n create an account to actually talk Talk to u but I'm Shy 😪👉👈 LMFAOOOOOO SORRY this is SOOOO funny thinking abt how i literally said the most god awful filthiest things abt aaron n im yapping abt being embarrassed

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I WANNA ANSWER YOUR ASKS IMMEDIATELY OUGH THEY'RE JUST SO GOOOOOD!! curse stupid silly tumblr app formatting asks so that i can't read it when i'm tryna answer </3 and GOD I GETCHA, that's how i used to be and sometimes get with some characters/fandoms but with aaron i just gotta WRITE !! i have way too many ideas though so i only get the short one-shots out and not the stuff i really wanna write, like the multi-chapter fics n angst and stuff with my ocs </3 i'm praying i can sometime soon

YESYESYEYESYESYESYSEY I LOOOOOOOOVE MALE OC'S HOLY FUCK PLEAE PLEASE PLESAEEEE LEMME KNOW ANYTJHING AND EVERYTHING ABOUT YOUR OCS!! like i live off of oc's, ESPECIALLY MALE OC'S oh my god i have SO MANY and so many plans for aaron x male oc fics. i have some mostly written but ending them is HARD.

i looove the idea of FWBs hehe that's sooo good. like they get stressed on a case and end up fuckin somehow (even better if it's the classic one bed trope) and oop it just becomes a habit hehe :') LMAOOO I LOVE THAT THO, THEM CONSTANTLY ALMOST GETTING CAUGHT BC THE MOMENT THEY'RE HORNY THEY BECOME DUMB NEEDY MEN LMFAOOO. i can imagine them just being silly n super casually walking to each others rooms at the hotel and like dave sees aaron walking toward's oc's room one night and is just like "you sure that's your room, aaron? 🤨" and aaron is just like "oh... right... yeah... wrong room" and walks back to his own room in embarrassment LMFAOOOO. dave cockblocked him fr BUT YES PLEASE TELL ME ALL OF YOUR THOUGHTS I WANNA HEAR THEM FOREVER AHHH ANYTHING ABOUT AARON N OC'S WOULD MAKE ME SO HAPPY

omgomgomg if you did that i would DIE i'd be SOOOOO EXCITED SDKHFKSDFJ but don't feel pressured to !!!! like i understand that you're shy hehe (me too!!!) but just know i would LOVE LOVE LOVEEEE to talk to you!! but i do love talking to you over anon too, so do whatever you feel comfortable with <3 feel free to carry on sending the filthiest asks, it makes my day lol (and feel free to talk about literally anything you want as well, i'd love to get to know you!!)

[covenofwives]

Eeeeeeeee ik my questions tend to be very detailed so im so glad you like them like that. I'm a world building fanatic and also make aus so i get wayyy too into all the small things hahaha

The languages!!! Omg I freaking LOVE THAT?! That's so freaking interesting and makes so much sense aaaaaa! It's so freaking cooool all the different languages unique to this au, I am specifically looking so hard at the fea language I'm geeking out over it ahfkdbksn. Are there languages in this au that are the same in our world? ie: Spanish, French Japanese, ect.?

Rn I'm slowly catching up on all the lore I've missed while being on hiatus so if I make comments or ask stuff that's already been answered sorryyyy

Each of the gods clearly have their own set of powers (in which i am still trying to catch up on and figure out what's been revealed so far ahfknsjs) so what would you say is each is their favorite? Either to show off, convenience, entertainment, ect. Question 2: are there any powers that the gods share? Or are they all unique?

(bonus question would you consider XD babygirl? I believe they are babygirl 😤)

I sent a whole novel I'm so sorry I should really spread these out more hahahaha

-emmadoodlewrites

Please don't apologise for how long these are. I truly love them!

Definitely there are other languages in the AU since we have characters like Quackity who is very open about his Spanish language. I would say that where the SMP is on the world map would be more english speaking but there are more languages out the world. It is quite hard to grasp though because so many times I've wanted to write c!George being described with his british accent but then remembering that britain wouldn't really exist on the SMP and having to scrap it. Things are still being ironed out, but absolutely there are other languages.

Don't worry about asking questions that might have been answered before or not, I don't mind answering the same questions again and again especially since I don't really have a spot to keep all of the info so it can get confusing. ^^

As for God powers, there are definitely powers shared between Gods and some unique to each one. For instants all Gods have the ability to spawn in items from their realm when they need and most of the Gods can shapeshift to alter their form, either to their "human" form, true form or taking on a new form entirely for one reason or another. While all Gods have the ability for it, it does depend on their skill for it. Some Gods might not shapeshift at all and lose the ability how to, having to relearn. And certain powers can be taught between the Gods. Take for example XD, they are the God of the End but came to the Overworld to live. While they can spawn in what they need from the End Realm, their time living in the Overworld and learning has adapted them to spawn in items from the Overworld too, and can manipulate and terraform the Overworld. These powers obviously got much better after he was blessed by HD (which I did a little comic showing) but they learned the power on their own at first and developed it because it was the environment they were in.

For FAVOURITE powers I think 4K's is definitely his lava manipulation. It can help in combat situations of keeping enemies away and blocking areas as well as him using it for his little harmless lava blob to be a stress reliever (mostly to give out tickles). HD's would definitely be his helper hands powers since it's so convenient for him to use and he can be pampered without moving, but he used to have a power of connecting with everything in the Overworld. Literally EVERYTHING. Every tree, blade of grass, mountain, cave, he could connect and see it all and it was his favourite to use to check up on the Overworld and see everything going on. However the power drained him of energy so much that it's lead to his almost narcolepsy sleep states and since cutting himself off from the Overworld he no longer uses it. XD's favourite power is probably creation/spawning. XD's a very creative soul who loves making things for show off to mortals and Gods and he uses his powers to help enhance that. One of his favourite creations is the tickle dolls which he just loves to show off to mortals and make them play games and bets to get them. Really any power that can be used to play games or make games for mortals is his favourite.

[wellthatwasaletdown]

LOL what a day! First, I found this real time gem from one of clown’s fans. TW: buttlicker behavior.

“you can see him working his heart out to make it as a vocalist. Then as a songwriter. A dancer. An artist.”

Hahahaha a dancer - Harry stole Mick Jagger and Mr. Bean’s moves! I wonder why they left out actor. I guess someone’s been reading this blog loools.

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Then this other bit from a different blog about Harries digging up old tweets from 10 years ago. Sorry idk how to ss. So many good points:

His fans are grasping at straws to defend him these days. It must be getting harder tho because they’re having to go back 10 years to find stuff on his former bandmates to criticize.

I just saw reblogs of harries doing ‘research’ and posting tweets from 2012 - they’re of course maligning his former bandmates because there is no defense to the shit Harrys been doing. When will they get it that gaslighting, distracting and lying isn’t going to make the shitty things he does disappear?

Like he broke up a family and harries be like Louis and Liam poured water onstage in 2013. Harrys not bald, its Liam who doesn’t have a career. Harrys tickets are so expensive and tee hee they’re in debt, don’t blame Harry, he sold the most records, besides Niall is fat (wtf)

I’m trying to find a nice way of saying they are fucking stupid and blind but I think it’s impossible. When will they get a clue? Do they share one brain cell and they take turns using it?

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sorry but this made me lmao

the stress they gotta be feeling to dig through like louis or liam's tweets from like 2013 trying to find some dirt or something controversial to hate on them for. why don't we do the same for harry? revisit his maggie thatcher tweet? that racist appropriation of indigenous headgear he never apologized for? that time he celebrated the bombing of palestine by waving an israeli war hammer? the way he would treat his girlfriends back then, the way he'd treat his supposed friends? that time they got pranked with a pregnant lady giving birth and harry revealed the only reason he'd acted so sympathetic and concerned was because they were filming him?

they think that harry getting rich off them is a good thing, but want to also pretend he's a socialist who cares about the little guy. he doesn't even care about his own fans.

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[benefits1986]

generational curse

Health = Wealth

I came across a reel saying that the new generational wealth is anchored on the intangibles more than ever.

Wealth is always about convenience rooted on maintaining your overall health stats. This perspective boils down to my trauma response which is what I'm trying to recover from, finally.

However, it is also true that when money is the main character, chances are greed and a certain level of uncertainty tend to be more complicated to say the least.

However, let's talk about the generational curse. I chanced upon this years ago and it has nothing to do with the KULAM era which is highly debatable and infamous.

I'd like to see this from families who experienced traumas that they didn't process because survival is primordial. Some say that these pains travel from generation to generation. There have been studies where children who are suffering from health-related conditions came from families who have undergone major stressors. When E was still inside A's womb, T, his hubby and my cousin made sure that all A did was to be at her best as a soon-to-be mom. Ending: E is my legit Gen Alpha Babe 01. Hihihihihi. Sorry na lang kay McQueen, #2 siya kasi nauna maborn si E. 'Yun lang 'yun. And it's E who showed me that through it all, there's that thing called TL. EMYYY. Kadire.

One thing that stands out for me in as far as generational curse is concerned is that it needs to be processed. This means families must face it to own it and conquer it. Our generation, the new and aging breed seems to be caught in the middle, always.

How can you actually process pain that is handed down to you? How can you deal with the suffering that you feel but not entirely know about?

Easier said than done, however, as I explore this as a black sheep of our crazy clan, I can somehow share my shit farts about this. I guess it's about talking about it and have active listening on the table. It's not easy to engage with boomers like my dad, but, I feel lighter and a bit better, surprisingly. Maybe it's called reparenting. Maybe it's called circling back to the inner child, or in my case, to the inner children with crazy voices. Maybe, just maybe, it's all about naming things out loud instead of just shutting them down.

Funny how my dad teased me yet again. Lakas ko raw sa clan namin. Me: Jusko. Ako na naman e wala nga akong ginagawa except 'pag may kailangan talagang gawin. I don't reply in our big GCs kasi. I usually see messages later as well unless may need talaga and important. I came to ina's house last weekend, day trip lang because I really can't stay overnight. One, the house is super hollow. Two, I need to be back in Manila talaga. Three, ayokong mag-spiral kasi alam ko naman na trigger ko.

And, poof! My cousin who was already on the way back to Manila went back. Then we had updates regarding The B event I'm helping with. Ending: Almost perfect attendance na for each family na rep because we the mid class. Hahahaha. Shemayyyymhieee.

The mom of my cousin thanked me kasi nag-yes anak niya so matic free na expenses niya for this B event. LELS. Anyhow, I really hope that the weather will be sooooo good since kasado na this one. Hihihihihi. We got ALL the venues/locations that we want and need. HAHAHAHAHAHA. I was trying to appease kasi na previously, we're given basic options. However, as an overthinker na naman, sabi ko shemayyyy. Kelangan sobrang safe flights lahat kasi if not, lagas lahi namin. Hahahahaha. OPA-Q. Ang aga-aga, 'yun nasa isip ko 'di ba?

It's not about flying because I like flying naman. Stress lang din siguro ako kasi first time na may palipad emyyyy ang clan namin tapos dream destination ko pa at may event pa. FUCKKKKK. Ang hirap kasi may benchmark na tapos happy lang ako kasi bitbit ko si MatchaME with cameo appearance pa siya ihhhh. LELS.

Again, akala mo naman kung saang lupalop na shala ano? I guess eto rin kasi 'yung pang-new chapter era ng buong angkan because losing my dear ina is fuckkkinngg fucked up.

Wala ng uuwian 'pag Pasko. Wala ng birthday lapag agad after New Year. Even when I'm not a fan of traditions and gatherings, iba talaga. The pain stabs you like a thief. 'Yung oks ka naman na talaga, alam mong mas okay 'tong reality na 'to kesa andito siya but she's in deep pain. Pero, at the same time, you long for her presence.

HUY. Kaya naman, I say, this pain is not gonna be put to waste. Not anymore. HUY. LUH. Goal is for the simple yet sapul life kahit ang hirap talaga mhieeee. Let's go! G.

Side Note: Still over the moon sa answered prayer na 2018 ko pa nilapag. Again, not my story to tell kasi 'di naman akin 'tong prayer request na malala na 'to. Andami kong iyak at gigil at warla mode dito na maraming beses kong tinago para mukha akong strong na strong. LUL. Pero, ayun na nga. All in the perfect timing talaga.

Prayer #2 ano na? CHAZZZZ. Hahahaha. Sumasakit dibdib ko sa prayer na 'to kasi naman 'di na 'to biro. Seryoso na 'to. SHEMYYYY.

[aybanafterlight]

life in medicine

I didn't know studying medicine makes you lonely even more. Have my family forgotten about me already? huuhuhuhuhuh Might as well add the broke part here. By the way, class started already rawr. What a ride? 2 weeks felt like 3 months worth of stress due to hectic sched and whatnots. But let us not all be negative, I think I found my people in med. Those people that will be there and makes you laugh even if you're stressed. Those people that made sure you didn't spend a time alone in school. no reviews just talk and bardagulan. I hope we can graduate at the same time cause I also want them to be my colleagues soon after.

I also think I'll be active here now. Cause I have no one to talk to. How ironic that I'm surrounded with amazing people yet I still felt so lonely. Especially when I'm already back in my room. :// OA chenesm na sad ta. Bitaw I hope I can share my deep thoughts to someone I trust. different jud bitaw ang college ug graduate school. In college I have someone man to rant with but now na MIA naman ang igat and now, I also don't want to be a burden anymore. Gosh I'm already 26 and I still have my black dog with me HAHAHAH

Anyways this is the only thing I can share now hahahaha

Good luck to me in the coming days "winter is coming"

byeeee :??

[1d1195]

Your writing IS worthy all the lovely feedback and interactions! But yeah I know what you mean lol

I honestly do think we share at LEAST one cell bc it's WILD the amount of similarities but ngl i love that for us lol And honesty writing it out is very therapeutic and Im glad your blog is a safe outlet for you!❤️Mine is just my notes app and it's really SOMETHING. So if you ever need inspiration just ask for a screenshot of my notes bestie 🤪

Omg no it's not lazy writing! It's like your signature and it's so sweet and it truly would not be a Sam story without it! I love it! The names were so cute and honestly idk Italian but Im sure those words aren't to hard to mess up! I wish I could help but sadly I am a spanish speaking girlie so I am no help lol

With or without makeup bestie I am sure you were GLOWING!!! Also what book were you reading, did you like it?! An no pressure on part 2, you deserve some rest!

And studying is HELL rn but it will be okay hopefully lol Thank you for constantly being so nice, I really do always love talking to you!- 💜

OMG SHOW ME THE NOTES. I always need inspo.

Oh stop lol I have a really bad skin routine (soap and water HAHAHAHA) so I feel like my skin is pale and gray all the time. Not much glow around here 🤣

That's cool you speak Spanish! I am lame af and my only language is English (and I'm still pretty bad at speaking it). I have a student who speaks only Spanish and god BLESS I teach math because I am already driving the struggle bus and sitting with Google Translate out only for me to find out that "multiply" is just "multiplicar" like how embarrassing 🙃

The book was fine but I was STRESSED. I read it in two days because I was all stressed out about how the author was going to fix the mess she made. It's called "Lesson Learned." I saw it on TikTok because it's about teachers so I had to. (It was actually a little like my Made to Be series and crossed with Love and Dryer Sheets. But I wanted it to be more like Made to Be but ended up being more like Love and Dryer Sheets--hence the STRESS). But it's the first book I've read since September after doing a record of like...idk 15 books over the summer (that's when I actually have time to read). So it was good but I'm hoping the next book I read is a little more on the lovey-dovey side of things and less stressful.

If you don't mind me asking, how old are you? What are you studying? Have you always lived on the West Coast or are you just going to school out there? Just want to get to know you more! 💕

xoxo

[ggthydrangea]

XDH!!!! i've actually been listening to their songs on repeat lately and all 12 of their songs are such bangers!!! i think i might have to learn their names now 😂

also same, i am a HUGE sucker for a button down shirt. like any variation of it - normal button down shirt; with a suit; with the loose tie; with the sleeves rolled up.....i am just wrecked lol (i am very normal about this)

wait tabi i literally have the first video you linked here saved in my watch later on youtube LOL, the 3racha colorful pants one 🤣 i have to watch it soon!! i love 3racha (i love all the boys 💖)

CHAN DANCING TO MY HOUSE??? i have not seen this video thank you for enlightening me as a baby stay 🥺 also this caused me to go search on youtube for a link to skz's stage where they performed my house with the 8 of them and i found this video instead HAHAH THE TITLE MADE ME LAUGH BUT ALSO?? SO TRUE??? also lee know with the sheer back let's not talk about that i'm still not over it also chan's neckline on his shirt in that stage should be illegal

the kkulchong edm song LOL i actually watched a video about this the other day as well hahaha we must be on the same wavelength. i haven't watched the chan's room part though so i shall watch it now <3 i remember seeing a clip of changbin telling him that he was wasting his talent on making this song for lino 😂

THE PUPPY INTERVIEW i loved the way chan basically forgot there was an interview because of the puppies 🥺 also yes chan as MC at kcon LA 2022.....honestly made me be like "woah who's that?? hes so adorable" when i saw him HAHAHA. and HERE I AM NOW!!

i forget if i mentioned this to you already but charmer is one of my favs for real (especially the lino fancams ugh).......also i just love the song in general and the choreo!!! i would die if saw that live oh man. on the ground crying hahah

chan's smile is the cutesttttt, and yes i love the vampire thunderous stage too, you are so right for all these fancams especially the all in ones, I LOVE ALL IN. the 2 all in fancams you linked are also two of my favs bc theyre some of my fav lino looks as well 😂😂 the way that chan's shirt keeps coming up though because of the length of his shirt in these stages hahaha 👀

your three fav colors you mentioned are also my favs, with blue being my most fav color hahahaha <3 i hope work is not too stressful the next two weeks :(( and boba!! what is your go-to boba order haha? as for me, work is busy this week but i'm looking forward to going home next week and i also don't have to work the week between xmas and new years so im very much looking forward to that :D i also just like the holiday season vibes in general, end of the year and all that lol (plus, end of the year stages hehe). and i took myself out to a movie this wkd so that was fun :)

Sorry it took me so long to reply!!! 😭 I don't know if you saw my post but I got sick so I've just been really tired and bluh. But I'm better now!!! How are you doing?

Yes!!! XH is so good!!! What are your favorite songs from them?

Haha I love that we share that weakness, button down shirts are just where it's at. 😔

Yes you have to watch it!!! It's one of my favorite 3racha Chan's Room episodes it's so funny!!! 😂

I'm still kind of a baby stay myself but I'm glad I can introduce you to some new videos! Haha that's a great video! Watching those fancams is so dangerous that stage shouldn't be allowed!!! 😭

Changbin's reaction to the song was so funny, and the way Chan was just like Minho asked me to so here I am. XD

It was so cute! He was so entranced by the puppies he had nothing left for the questions... But then he told a dad joke and I was like... How is it possible for me to love him even more??? I love a good dad joke.

Charmer is lethal. 😔 I think you might have mentioned that, which makes sense it's incredible!

Sometimes Chan has real good fancams 👌👌👌 Yes the suffering of his shirt length... They need to give that man a full shirt more often, Chan stans can only take so much. 😂

Ooo I love that we have the same favorite colors!

I have like 3 top boba orders, at least from ShareTea which is the boba place in my area. There's Wintermelon with Fresh Milk, Mango Green Milk Tea, and Thai Tea! All with regular pearls, I love the tapioca pearls!

I'm glad you have some time off, it's nice to have time to just chill! Holiday vibes can be fun, I love seeing all the houses and trees decorated with lights it's so pretty to see!

[sonsband]

Hi!! It's your Atiny Secret Santa <3

I just realized I never asked your name!! (or alias, of course you don't have to share your actual name haha) I was almost calling you Alexander cause of your url hahaha

"talented but also a little cringe" is such a mood hahaha I listen to a lot of artists, but the ones I end up stanning and keeping up with are 100% because of their personality. I watch the non music related content and then fall for them The whole "I cannot engli-shi" bit in Treasure Film is how I fell for Mingi, no lie hahahaha

Little cousin's age huh... so you are on the older side; I just turned 27, they are my little sister's age, but at this point I don't feel the age difference that much (she's literally my best friend 🫶)

Watching Kingdom without being a stan of any of the groups yet was such a great experience! I didn't have any sort of stress over who won this or that, nor was I aware of the stress behind cameras; I was just blissfully enjoying amazing stages and the interactions between different groups (I LOVE whenever we get some of those!!). I rewatch it from time to time, if you still have your reviews I would love to check some of your favorites hahaha

Are you the theater designer or semi-serous singer? And acting too?? You are honestly so cool hahaha And I absolutely agree... Honjoong is AMAZING, he has such a control of his facial expressions... but I feel like he will never admit even to himself how good he is

and yikes, I hope the atinyblr of now is treating you well... I had a great time since joining, but since I interact more with the gif makers than the writers side maybe that's why

THE ICONIC WOOSAN SNUGGLE!! I'm that person that looks for what's happening beyond the person in focus to get glimpses of their "real self" you know? And that was some quality shit!!! You will never convince me the relationships between the teezers are faked for the cameras... those boys are family and they love each other

Since you are not as engrossed in the atinyblr I don't think I'll be exposing myself: My biases are Hwa, Yunho and Mingi and Wooyoung is also there because... Is impossible not to have him there... I tried

And one thing I can think of right now is Yunho helping Mingi along, he always has an eye on his friend. Like that interview in a photoshoot where Yunho hand signaled "Wave" to Mingi and later said "he can't live without me" and I think is during the Ode To Youth photoshoot he is also shown watching Mingi be interviewed and helping along... I love their bond so much

sorry this got so long hahaha Hope you are having an amazing week <3

No worries about it being long, I’m a rambler too, haha. I appreciate the time taken out of your birthday week (month)! And I got stupid long, too...

My name’s Hanya! The URL is… an unfunny joke that literally four other people get.

I collect boy groups, it’s my right as a lesbian to have as many as I want, and all of the idols I latch onto have Annoying Step Brother Vibes and I mean that as a compliment even though my actual step brother is annoying. Or have some vague vibe of lesbianism (Wonho idk what you’re doing but keep it up).

Oh thank god, I’m 29, and I was so nervous I was going to be paired with like an 18 year old and it would be weird for everyone. And you get it, siblings are built in best friends. My cousin’s also basically my second sister at this point, she moved here for college and announced that she would be, but when she met my dad’s partner’s kids, she switched it up to I don’t speak English do not even look at me I am not YOUR sibling. So even though we’re scattered now we’re still best friends and they can’t get rid of me.

Kingdom was so fun when you ignored the drama and just watched it as ten weeks of large-scale stages. Although the true winner (Queen Kraken) was robbed when she really deserved everything. I didn’t pay attention to anything off stage, and just let my friends tell me what happened. But when it was cute? Oh I loved that. This is really the only post that’s relevant with their comeback next month. (Do they ever sleep?) I know everyone's mostly over it, but will I ever be over "Rhythm Ta" or "Back Door" or "Monster"? Probably not.

I used to sing! Then my sister’s opera singing took off and she was ~the musical one~ so I kind of stepped back, and now we just sing "Africa" in the car in harmony lmao. And honestly my acting is slow, I just finished an intensive in Meisner that was amazing, but I don’t have anything booked until spring/summer. I’m excited for that project, tho -- I won’t nerd out too much, but it’s a “horror music film” and I’m playing the final girl. Even if I wasn’t excited about the music (Phrygian skate punk!), getting to kill a monster with a skateboard in my crop top and boy shorts got me on board.

Hongjoong is amazing at it, if we spoke the same language I’d love to pick his brain for his tricks, he really embodies his characters. He insists he isn’t good but I hate him for that because the idols who actually act on stage are so few and far between, just embrace it beloved! AND he produces on top of singing, dancing, and rapping, and now I guess he’s also a photographer smh the platonic ideal of a short king.

What about you? Do you do any art? Or any other hobbies? Clearly you like music and performance if you’re on kpop tumblr haha. You said you interact with gif makers, do you make gifs?

And yes, it’s better, because now you’re here! And I try my best to not interact with rpf writers, believe me, but they interacted with me, and I pulled a “fine then I don’t want to play here!” and took my ball home and convinced my kpoppie friends to watch the Fireworks comeback with me. But now it’s infinitely better because you seem infinitely cooler, although I promise my bar is higher than “doesn’t call me slurs”.

I know idol personas are performative (“even Doyoung!”) but I don’t care, I like their idol personas and that’s all that matters as a fan. I don’t watch much extra content, but thankfully the group chat keeps me updated and sends me highlight clips, and they’re always Just So Much (complimentary). That one got me, but literally any time that Wooyoung gets to cuddle his besties… when he trended on Twitter for crashing San and Mingi’s live and being the cutest on the planet snuggled up to Mingi… there’s really no point in trying to keep him out, he WILL become a favorite, whether you want him to or not. And EXCELLENT choice on Yunho and Mingi. The boys who are a normal height over these shorties. When they get on stage and open up their chests I’m like why have you ever hidden that from us. Ngl when Yunho started singing the chorus in “Leave the Door Open” I had to stop and pause and breathe because oh my GOD why do they ever have him do anything other than that chest voice. I know it’s not ~trendy~ or whatever but I’ve had enough throat call voice, let them use that insane power. I know San does, too, and he gets v chesty, and Yeosang and Seonghwa killed in "The Ring", but those extra few inches of height… And then they’re such dorks with each other while also being so caring, “he can’t live without me”, truly a superior duo.

Okay, now I was the one to ramble. My week's going great, upped my 1RM yesterday and got my helix piercings today, and I'm going to see my dad next week. If the suppliers at work can get it together, and if I can get a straight answer on if I'm actually going on this trip next month, then it will be an excellent week. I hope your week is going amazingly and full of wonderful birthday celebrations! I want to hear all about it~

[chelleztjs18]

Hello you mrs. adventurer but doesn't wear tacky clothes lefty eyebag. 😌

I'm just at work now, actually playing on my switch because it is so slow, no calls or emails at all. But I am okay, woke up with a headache and really hungry 😅 It could be stress and dehydration combined.. but bleh it is what it is.

You are like my niece's mom. She would let her pick her clothes, but if it doesn't match or it looks crazy together, she will shake her head no, but will still let her wear it haha.

That's a lot of pillows! I guess I am weird though, I have a pillow but I don't use it at all. It's just on the bed for decoration.

Was it fun to ride the snow mobile? It always looks fun in the movies or shows. That and skiing. I want to try either one of them but I don't want to be in the cold that much.

Have you ever tried jetski? Or canoeing? Kayaking?

I think next year I will try to be more adventurous. I'll try doing the wall climbing and axe throwing 🤔

That picture with the trees is really pretty. I like seeing snow on trees and houses. The snow in Nebraska is nice but then after the day, when it gets plowed and all that, it is ugly to look at hahahaha.

You have parts ready and you're not sharing?? Oy vey.

Hm, if you could do anything without getting caught, what would you do?

-CuriousGeorge

Hello hello you!

Sorry i fell asleep while putting em to nap, then woke up cleaning, n went to the stores to get stuff for dinner then cook dinner, n clean the kitchen n now waiting next to bathtub while em taking a bath. 😁

Hows work? Is it done yet?

U need to drink a lot of water.. or maybe stretch, i assume u probably sit a lot in a day? While working.

Haha i love that statement.. i say it often too "it is what it is." 😅

Haha yeah sometimes my way works, by giving her choices that i set up for her but sometimes she is just one stubborn princess so i just let her wear what she wants.

Haha the pillows r sleeping pillows, not just decorations pillow. So we use it.😆😅 it's mainly for him because he moves a lot when sleeping. He tossed n turn a lot, blanket or pillows can be on the floor by morning sometimes.lol.

When i sleep, i always sleep in one spot n i dont move a lot. I either sleep on my back or on my right side n always close to the edge. 😅🤣 how bout u? How do u sleep?

Oh yeah, snow mobile is fun! I love it. If u gonna try it someday, dont try the one thats only go on thr flat ground n ride it in circle.. pick the choice that let u go up on the mountain by urself because it's scarier.hahhaha.n more dangers.lol.

I hv tried both because one time when my sister came here n i wanted her to try, the company that i used to pick closed for good. So the only one thats open was.the one on the flat ground n just go around n around. It's not fun, they even told u to slow down if u go to fast. The one that goes to the mountain, u can go as fast as u can.haha.

I never tried skiing or snowboarding.

I never tried jetski nor kyaking nor canoeing. But i tried a sea doo. It was fun n scary because it goes sooooo fast n if there is a ripple or a little wave it will jump over it.hahaha. i tried it on the lake tahoe lake though. What scared me is the water is so clear u can see the bottom of it n u know it's deep. What makes me less scared is i know there is no shark or any weird sea creature. 😅

I also tried wake boarding on the lake, thats the one that u stand on a board n got pulled by a boat, that shit is hard 😅🤣 im not gonna do it anymore.. i also tried thing thats called flow rider when i was in a cruise. It's like a machine that blows fast water like u r surfing. It's fun but hard n it's not my thing.hahhaa. im not gonna do it anymore. U can google flowrider. My body got all sore the next day it wasnt even funny 😅

Oh i always wanna try wall climbing but i bet it's hard. Axe throwing, i forgot i was gonna respond to what u said about it. I think u told me there is a bar that has axe throwing n it reminds u of me? Im wondering why it remind u of me? Hahahaha. I never tried it. I hv seen a few video that sometimes the axe ricochet back to u n it kinda scares me. 😅

Haha i got what u meant, snow after get plowed look dirty 🤣🤣🤣

Haha yeah i have two parts ready i just need to proof read the whole thing n wait until everything done then post it. 😅

Hmm i dont know what i would do if i can do anything without getting caught. I guess maybe rob the bad rich people n give the money to the people who need it i guess. Or go to illegal puppy mills or the restaurant that serve dog as their food n take all the dogs n save them n destroy the place 🤣

What about u? I hope i dont sound crazy or psycho.lol.

Cheerio!

[benefits1986]

Purple People: Prep Joey

Let's go beyond the usual people: red, green and beige, shall we?

I've always been a fan of red and blue. This goes beyond my latest Hogwarts House test result which was supposedly an ice breaker for my Potions-inspired brown bag sesh in time for the annual performance check. 38% Gryffindor. 31% Ravenclaw.

I've always wanted to be a red or blue Mask Man or Power Ranger. LOL. I've said this previously, but, now, it's funny that I don't feel ugh about the divide between XY and XX. It's just how pop cult tried boxing gender and at Prep, it's something that's not part of a kiddie playground back in the 90's.

In fact, even when I didn't get to be a Red or Blue Mask Man, I've been kind of spoiled by my XY-infested first classroom buddies. There's this big and bully guy who always teases me and tells me that if there'd be someone who'd mess with me, he'd show them who the boss is. I remember laughing at and with him, because he's the #1 bully. There's also a "meet cute" XY who joined the class late. We were seat mates and he's so sedated that I often catch him staring into nothingness. When I talk, he just listens and smiles. I told him if gets niya ba ako and he said yes. He would rarely share his thoughts, but mom told me that this XY waits for me to go home. LOL. E maaga naman ako laging umuuwi, noh?

Later, mom told me to switch seats and be beside bully XY, mom's BFF in my class. LOL. She actually talked to the "meet cute" XY and his parents. Later that day, mom sat in front of me and told me that she was so stressed because the parents of this kiddo liked me a lot. Hahahaha. TACCA. 'Di ako batang landi. Madaldal lang talaga ako. Tapos. Mom told me that she did not like how this XY looked at me lalo when he was waiting for me to go home everyday 'di umano. I told mom what was wrong and if I did something wrong. She told me that I have to stop daldal ng walang bukas. Hahahahaha. In fairness, this spaced out XY is easily the cutest in the class or baka sa paningin ko lang 'yun. Para siyang laking air con pero that's not what caught my goldfish attention span. He actually listened to me even when as in parang pagod na siya sa life e ang bata pa namin nun. His sedation is kind of calming, too. I would egg him to share his thoughts about random stuff, but, he kind of skirts around a lot. Baka may childhood trauma or innately shy and reserved. Damn. Ang bata ko pa lang talaga, I try peering into people because curiosity is my milk of choice (milk pa lang noon kasi talaga).

Mom shot the question I was not prepared for. Crush mo ba 'tong classmate mo na 'to? Sagot. Me: I don't know what you mean, mom. Of course mom probed and told me to friggin' stop talking to him. Hahahaha. Sabi ko naman, e hindi nga masyadong nagsasalita 'yun except for some times na tawang-tawa siya sa akin or 'pag sad ako 'di ako perfect sa test. LOL. Mom then went more matang-lawin and was so early that even before the bell rang, kung puwede lang umuwi na kami, uuwi na niya ako. She told me that I can no longer play kahit dati 5 minutes puwede akong mag-swing or slide or cross the hanging bridge noon. SIGH. Need daw ako ng kapatid ko at ang bata ko pa raw para magka-crush at ma-crushan. LUL. At tigil-tigil daw ng parents nitong si XY ang mga hirit nila sa aming bagay kami. HAHAHAHAHA. Honestly, that "meet cute" is nothing like may pagnanasa. Tuwa lang akong may bago akong kausap and that when I saw him getting in his element, parang may sense 'yung innate daldal ko. Saka when I told him several times to join the XY kiddo kagulo, sabi niya ayaw niya, pero nag-join din siya at times. Siguro, bored lang din siya or bagong salta, kaya still getting the hang of it.

There'd be times that I'd think na baka tulad siya nung flamboyant XY buddy ko and that he's not just in his right space and right light pa. HAHAHAHAHA. Ganun talaga ako mag-isip e. Open-minded ako. When he commented on my girly dresses, I asked him if gusto niya ba suot 'yun. Syempre, tameme. Nagtatanong lang naman ako e. Sabi niya, no daw. LOL. Pero, looking back, 'di ako sure. LOL. Hahaha. Kawawa talaga 'to sa akin. Medyo parang iba kasi vibe niya. Hindi siya slow learner pero parang may something atypical. I even joked him that when Bully #1 XY bulldozed him, ako bahala sa kanya. LOL. Tawa kami and the rest is history. Hohohoho. Ohhh. It just hit me. Whenever there'd be days that I'm so annoyed and down the drain because of anything crappy about me being an ugh ate to my brother, this "meet cute" XY would not leave my side. As in. Weirdo niya that way because when I'm not okay, 'di ako madaldal. Hahahahaha. He'd tell me random stuff kahit may stutter siya. He'd ask me why I'm not in my usual vibe. Syempre, sungit mode since birth ako so, kawawa siya. HAHAHAHAHA. He'd stay close but not too close and still check on me until mom fetched me.

Mom reported that this "meet cute" XY cried when he didn't pass the entrance exam sa school ko. I asked how she knew this very graphic piece on info. Nag-reach out daw parents. Kinabahan siguro siya or sadyang kapos lang ang oras at kaalaman. CHOZ. HAHAHAHA. Tawang-tagumpay nanay ko. Damn. Sabi ko, malapit lang naman din school niya and why ba mali ako sa math problem na dapat alam ko. LUH. I think that one of the last times we saw each other before Grade One, I joked him na, paano ba 'yan? 'Di na tayo seat mates? LOL. Parang iiyak siya nun e. I actually tried searching him on FB and IG years ago, but, 'di na rin ako nagulat that I can't find him. Google search, zero results, too. Looking back, iba rin takbo utak netong "meet cute" shit head na 'to. UGH. Ako rin naman, baliw since birth. So, ayun na nga... that's my first ever meet cute.

I actually had an above average interaction with all boys and the two other boyish girls in my class. As in. Para kaming nasa PBB House, Batang 90's Edition.

I have another girly XY buddy who'd be so flamboyant and we'd huddle when it's time to do monkey bars. We're both pudgy so, we just try to hang onto the first bar and let go na agad. Hahahaha. I loved how he'd dress up better than the sweaty XY kiddos. His eyes are so girly and I wonder how he'd be like if he was a girl, to be honest. LOL. There'd be times we'd whisper about how he can be Pink Mask Man and I'd be Red or Blue. LOLLOLLL. Syempre, this didn't fly.

Our class name is JOEY as in kangaroo na baby. So Prep Joey nickname namin. So progressive, right? I said that I love my first hero, my Teacher Rosa. And later, I discovered that she had been schooled in no less than Leon Guinto. I loved her angas, her gentleness, her strictness, her jokes, her wit and her tender care. As in! Iba ang diction niya and damn, sana all na lang talaga. Ang galing sa Filipino at English, mhiemah. Hahahaha.

And so, these people are my first PURPLE PEOPLE. While I was coping with all my might as a dutiful big sister to my brother recovering from meningitis, these people made me feel I was in a safe space. And that, while I am obviously unapologetic and talkative, they saw me and were patient with me. They valued our connection as we learned writing, reading, counting and of course, social interactions.

I was on top of the class except for fucking math which was dominated by Bully #1 and flamboyant BFF. Though I had to have Bb and Dd on my left and right lower thumb area to read faster, I could already read four-letter words and those with silent letters pa. HAHAHAHA. My penmanship stood out since Day One. However, as I was seeing really good grades, I was so happy that these purple people made me see that mistakes are not demerits even when mom scolded and lambasted me to the core when I get home. I remember so many times when my purple people ask me what my grade was. I show them my score and slump. They tell me that they'd more likely to be grounded because their scores are fair and barely hanging on. I remember how I also tried to slow down during group readings especially when I see "meet cute" XY stuttering. Funny how this core memory resurfaced at this hour, noh? Bully #1 actually comforted me when I got a bad shit math score and told me that okay lang naman daw para maging Top 1 siya for sure. LOL. TACCA. Though bad trip ako sa kanya during those nasty dog show times, looking back, it's probably his signature way of comforting me.

Puro yata atypical mga Prep Joey, noh? Hahahahaha. So, what exactly are PURPLE PEOPLE? These are people who are a mix of the red and the blue. Wala naman kasing 100% red lang and 100% blue lang, tbh. Walang ganun. Let's not go there because it's delulu levels 100%. These are people who have shit shows and shit faces but face the world with their vulnerabilities. I guess, 'pag bata ka lalo first dibs mo sa classroom set up, mas bukas ka e. Mas may willingness ka to learn and unlearn. Mas 'di ka takot. Mas honest ka rin. So, what are the quals of PURPLE PEOPLE, then?

1 Safe space advocates; hindi 'yung about gender or social class or school or whatever shit na 'di naman dapat issue (LOL) 2 Unapologetic and know when to actually say sorry when shit hits the pan 3 Don't breathe and vibe with chizmiz, instead, story-showers or story-builders 4 Seek truth and value opinion 5 Have wide biases 6 Fun loving and hustling 7 Serious when it comes to core values 8 Knows how to play and work and value what lies between the two 9 Sees grades as social constructs but does what they can anyway 10 Celebrates wins, losses and "walang panalo, walang talo" days 11 Nangangamusta sincerely at nakikipamuhay at nakikisuyo 12 While ask the source straight up and look people in the eye while at it 13 Ask questions especially the tough ones and help figure out the answer

So what, now? May the coming days and nights be filled with PURPLE PEOPLE especially when hyperinflation, walking pneumonia, adulting, aging parentals, frail millennial era, aging pets and more are getting more and more serious. May this purple people find me as I find them, too. Most importantly, may the universe give purple people a chance to showcase what they truly are even when it's easier to not give a shit, because hassle naman talaga to be vulnerable e.

Bouncing for a South encounter in a few hours. UGH. And since I maxxed out naproxen + spicy shit food today, ayan. Ang lala ng tummy tuliro natin. HAY. :p Baka hindi ako makainom ng malala mamaya nito, however, abangan.