#so have this fictive war setting

[silken-threads-bah]

Creator's choice headmate? :O if you want of course!! :3

No one's asked us to make any star wars fictives yet so I used this as an opportunity, I hope you don't mind :) - Eden

Name: Darth maul, Maul, jagganath, tooth

Age: 36

Pronouns: he/him

Gender(s): male

Orientation: bisexual (demiromantic and demisexual)

Source(s): Star Wars (the first movie, Clone Wars, rebels, and a few of the books)

Role: anger holder, janusian

Personality: he's very quick to anger, I honestly don't think he's ever NOT angry. Anything can set him off tbh. However, when he's not blowing up at everyone, he's a very lovable grump. If you manage to get close to him, he'll be an incredibly loyal and honest friend. Honest in that he won't hold back at all when you ask him for his opinion on anything. He's the type of guy to groan and gripe about being asked to do something for you only to then go and do it. His love language is acts of service and gift giving, so you'll never really know if your his friend or not until you manage to piece together that the random shiny rocks you find laying around or the person that's been fronting so you don't have to do a task you've been dreading were actually him.

Interests: his source, fencing/sword fighting that has strict rules, any sort of strategy game, I could see him being an absolute fiend for the game Risk but not wanting to touch Monopoly with a 20 foot pole (he'd probably rage quit if he lost)

Extra info: he's kind of short (like 5'9 or 5'10) despite having an entire prosthetic lower half that could've made him taller.

Faceclaims:

[smolvenger]

Miss Narracott and The Captain Part Seven (Cpn James Nicholls x fem! Reader miniseries)

Fandom: War Horse

Word Count: 4K

Chapter Warnings: Mentions of sex, but it fades to black and no actual smut. Some fluff but LOTS of angst. Discussions of war and battles and death. Mentions of pregnancy but no pregnancy tropes.

Series Summary: It is 1914. You are Y/N Narracott, the older sister of Albert Narracott. You must do what you can so your family can keep their farm. And so your brother can keep his beloved horse. Under financial struggles, you never expect romance to come into your life...until you have a chance encounter with James Nicholls- a Captain with a knack for drawing. But the threat of war lingers in the air...

Part One//Part Two//Part Three//Part Four//Part Five//Part Six//Part Seven//Part Eight Finale coming soon!

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A/N: Hi y'all! I intend this to be the penultimate chapter-this Baby is almost complete! I hope you guys enjoy it! Comments, reblogs, asks, and dms about my works are always appreciated!

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“Can’t I at least scratch my arm! It’s beginning to itch!” you teased, though you did feel an itch on your arm.

It was a peaceful late afternoon. James had returned from work. When he announced himself, you immediately ran over to throw your arms around him and kiss him, something he enjoyed. As he changed into his everyday clothes, he asked if he could draw you. You agreed.

The sun was setting with its orange glow melting through the windows. You felt it behind you as the red curtains tickled you and the sunlight warmed your back. The inside of the sitting room looked lovely in its light. You looked down on the main sofa as James sat on a chair opposite. He was working on a sketch of you as you sat there, your hands folded on your lap. James looked at you from behind his sketchbook and smiled.

“Right now, I am focused on the details of your face- of course you can scratch your arm!” he answered.

You put a hand to move your sleeve up to scratch on it. Then you put your sleeve back. You heard his drawing more. His eyes dated from you to his page. The clock began to tick.

“How is it going- I only hope I am a decent model for you!” you said.

You heard him make a flourish. Then he lifted his pencil, checking between you and him.

“Y/N with the light pouring out behind you, you seem to glow like an angel, Mrs. Nicholls.” He rolled the last two words with the enthusiasm for a foreign language understood and learned.

You looked down briefly, feeling tingly from the compliment.

“Such high praise….” You murmured in your giddy joy.

“It’s only the truth-you’re a natural model…come look…” he urged.

You got up from your seat and walked over to where he sat to see the sketch. He had gotten your face and sitting position on the couch.  You worried it would be unflattering. You were human after all, you didn’t like what you saw in the mirror some days. But it was James’s view of you- and you were glowing with a smile that spoke of love, joy, and life.

“James-it’s wonderful! I love it!” you said.

He set it down and took your hand.

“I must tell you-have I shown you the painting, yet?”

“Painting? I never knew you painted-what is it?” you asked.

He took your hand and walked over to a cabinet. He unlocked it and opened it up, showing an almost complete painting sitting in it. You gasped as you took in the sight. It portrayed a beautiful brown horse looking wistfully into the distance. His ears perked as if hearing someone approaching. But his gentle, dark eyes and the white diamond on his face could mean it was only one horse you knew of.

“You’re making a painting of Joey!?” you cried.

He shrugged with a low smile.

“I’m no Stubbs, but I’m doing my best. He’s too beautiful a fellow not to- and it’s been too long since I painted. I hope to give it to the town hall as a gift. I should be able to finish it before I leave.”

You clasped your hands to admire it.

“Oh-James, that’s wonderful! It’s going to be beautiful! Albert will be beside himself!” you cheered.

You went over and gave him a kiss on the cheek. You began to work on dinner-working on what you knew of cooking and from the few groceries you got today. James offered to help. You chatted as you ate your meal.

“How was recruitment today?” you asked.

He nodded.

“It went astonishingly well. It seems almost every able man is signing up. To think riding school begins so soon. I hope they are ready for it.”

His tone darkened. He set his fork and knife down, his food half-done. He folded his hands together and sighed.

“Y/N…I do my best to be brace, but…I am scared. I have never seen a battle before. I’ve never even listened to a gun being shot. I’m a leader for them…but I’m no better than any of them…” he confessed.

You blinked, leaning forward. He perked up to look at you.

“You are good. Do you see your own hands, James?” you asked.

It was a small table. You reached over and took his hands.

“They’re kind hands…gentle hands…You act because you care. That is what leaders do! Do you remember when Joey first plowed the field? You gave me orders right there!” you recalled.

He laughed and nodded at the sight.

“And when you’re with Albert, you see my brother shying himself. He knows your station. But the way you speak to him…you speak with reason and wisdom, and do you know what Albie does? He listens! And Albert never listened to Mother tell him to eat his peas when he was seven! It was why I loved you. Why I married you and not Lyons…”

Both of you broke into a small laugh at that notion. A flood of gratitude that this was your picture now. Not an unhappy wife to a rich man but a loved companion of a good one.

“James- you will know what to do. And people already listen to you.”

He went over and gave you another kiss. You then stopped him from another by putting a hand on his chest.

“Please let Albert see Joey this week before riding school begins! Do this for me, at least!”

He smiled.

“I will, my dear.”

The days were quiet. Peaceful. Your friends and family would stop by and visit when they could. Your mother gave you a recipe book to enjoy meals of your own in your new home. New meals to make with new memories of your new marriage. All of you got to go to see Joey in his new stables and Albert petted and caressed him. Never wanting to leave the stables. James put a bucket down to sit and drew you petting Joey. It did not take long for him to finish the painting. It was given to the town hall with much joy. It would be opened there with a bronze plaque around it.

Things were quiet as a wife-other than visitors and looking after things, you couldn’t wait for your husbands’ return. Call it the honeymoon phase, but you always wrapped your arms around him. Enjoying every minute, every ticking of the clock that gave him to you. After he finished his painting, he would help you with dinner. You would eat and talk for a long time. He sometimes even set the gramophone music so you both could dance slowly to it. Some nights, you made love beneath the quilts as the grandfather clock ticked by and the owls hooted in the night sky. Then you would hold each other close and sleep as the coals in the fire faded. Or you would read to each other or hold each other and chat until you both fell asleep.

They waned slowly. You wanted them to be slow. To savor every minute of James before he had to go.

Your last day in that cottage and with it your last dinner before his conscription.

“There’s a parade for us. To celebrate the boys going over to fight-they’ll drive me in my motorcar. And they’ll show the horses-Joey among them as we all go off to riding school. Poor chaps. They’ll have to learn how to take orders soon.”

You cut your pork chops into bits. But James had not touched his dinner.

“May I confide something in you, Y/N?” he asked.

“Yes.”

He looked into your eyes with a hardened face. His jaw was tight and as he folded his hands, you saw the knuckles turn white from how hard they clasped together.

“This is going to be a nasty war. They say the Germans are armed with machinery. The English- not all of us, but my calvary have silver swords and horses,” he confided.

You set down your knife and fork.

“Then…why can’t you fight with machinery?” you questioned.

He nodded.

“I agree. If two men go to a fight and one has a sword and the other a gun…you know how it’s going to end,” he said.

“Then shouldn’t they be armed with guns and not swords? How do you hope to even win the war? You might as well bring a toothpick!” you argued.

“We do not lack for guns in our army’s division. I will have to teach them to shoot straight. But the riders, the calvary-they must do what they did during the Boer war. Point straight and keep charging.”

“But with an army full of guns, how is that going to work out? Why do this- why agree to this?” you asked. You felt your voice begin to rise.

It was anger, in a way. That so many men, your husband included, were sent to fight guns with swords. It was worry, fear, dread.

James shook his head.

“This is how we will fight. We will follow our orders- if we play our cards right. If we surprise them, we have a good chance. We will do what we must around it. The times the idea of the calvary having weapons other than guns, the superiors called it ‘rubbish’ and ‘defeatist.’”

“Why is this defeatist? This is how to win-you shouldn’t be the one at the Calvary. You need to adapt! You need to play the same game the Germans are, James!” you cried.

He folded his arms, but his voice never raised a decibel. His eyes looked sad.

“I must follow the tradition. It is how it is done, Y/N,” he said.

“You are a captain-a leader. The men will look to you to make decisions! Tell them otherwise!” you suggested.

“Others shall mock me. My superiors-the majors and generals-will criticize me. Or call me a traitor. And that would be risking my neck.”

You paused. You leaned closer to him.

“My mother once told me that women tend to silence our own thoughts to please others. I see now it’s no different with men too…Do you think it is possible you could…talk to your superiors? Change their minds, James!?” you asked.

“I married you so you would have protection as a widow.”

You bit back the urge to cry.

“I do not want to be a widow, James? How hard is it to understand?”

“Must I demean the military’s glory and question it?”

“There will be no military alive left if they keep it at and adapt…”

“It could be fruitless.”

You retreated to your seat. You found your own voice softening. You had never argued with him before. To think it would be one of your last conversations. So, you made your tone match his in gentleness, quietness…but never losing strength.

“You could try! This is your life and the lives of your men.  And I would like to see you come home in once piece and not in a casket. I’m sure their own wives and families will say the same.”

You went over to the chair next to James and took both of his hands. You kissed them, and you found yourself tearing up. You felt him relax at your touch.

“Promise me James- you will talk to them. You will convince them a mounted calvary won’t be successful. You could ask for a change. Arm them with guns, not swords. Please…Jaimie’s your friend and he’s a senior officer. He’ll listen to you. Talk to him-you don’t have to be honorable, you only must be alive, James… talk to him! Tell him you know it’s useless to fight guns with swords!”

He wiped a tear from your face with his finger, cupping a cheek of yours. He then looked at you, his eyes shining and sad. But he gave you a small, trembling smile.

“I promise…I will go to Stewart. See if we can adapt in our weaponry,” he replied.

You kept clutching his hands.

“And promise me…you will survive…you will survive for me…James-for us. For both of us…I don’t want to spend my life mourning you. I want us to live together and grow old and bicker like any other couple!”

You both laughed a little. You began to speak despite the mixture of laughter and tears.

“Promise me, James,” you begged.

“I…I promise…”

· · ─────── ·𖥸· ─────── · ·

Who knew how long the war would last? Every man would brag about how they would kill every German in sight and be home in time for dinner. But you knew they were only bragging about their prowess. You knew the truth of the matter. Everyone knew. No one wanted to say what the truth was. That it would be months, perhaps years if you ever saw your dear husband again.

You awoke to the birdsong as he kissed your face.

“I’d like to see the countryside…. Could we walk there. Before the parade?” he asked.

You both walked to the fields, seeing the beautiful country in his clothes like an ordinary man, not a soldier. He wasn't in uniform yet. It would be your last walk for a while. Mountains stood proud in the distance like giants. You both walked to where the grass was as tall as your waist. James then embraced you. He kissed you with ferocity, and he held you tight. Needing you, clutching onto you, keeping you to him. He looked around. He began to hike up your skirts, feeling your legs.

“No one is around….” He assured you.

You said yes. There, among the tall grass, you led him down. You lifted your skirt, and he undid his pants. You both made love one final time there, hidden in nature. A wedding bed from God himself. Only the birds heard you cry your husband's name when oblivion broke you. They flew up in the commotion- the only stirring that signaled you were there. He did turn red with blushing, but he held you tight. Panting as it ended, holding each other tight.

“Thank you…thank you, Y/N. It was beautiful…you are beautiful…a beautiful last moment…at least for now…” he said, kissing the top of your head.

 You both got up over the flattened area of grass. As you helped him up, you brushed off grass from his clothes as you both laughed.

You returned home. He changed into his uniform for the parade and went to the town square. The other soldiers Before the parade Jaimie began to chat with him about parade particulars, then James took off his cap. He looked at you, a small smile on his face. Your own family let you, keeping a few steps away.

"I would like to kiss my wife before I must go...."

You were far from the only couple doing so. But he went to you. He wrapped his hands over your cheeks. He then kissed you deeply and you widened your arms around him, joining other couples in the last literal seconds of physical intimacy. You tasted the sweetness of his breath and felt its heat. You felt him breathe right into you.  You didn't know how long it lasted. But he let his lips go.

"It's time. Y/N,” he said.

      You handed him the sketchbook, a small picture of the both of you at your wedding, and the glove as well.

"You will always have a piece of me with you, James." Your own family came up, each wishing the new son and brother-in-law goodbye. His parents hugged him goodbye. Mrs. Nicholls brought up a handkerchief and was wringing it in her hands.

"I may be fighting the war, but all of you are soldiers of your own. You will face your own battles- but all of you will be brave and fight them,” he guided.

He turned to Albert.

"Joey is only being leased to me. I will pour all of the love and care you have given that horse on him and return him when this is done- I swear it."

Albert nodded. The horses were behind, and Albert then turned to run up to Joey's place. 

He got into the motorcar. Someone else would drive as people would cheer for their marching boys for the parade. One could feel the heat of the sun and the murmur of the crowds. Stewart then ran up.

"It's time, Jim. Say your last words."

He gave an embrace to you, good and tight. You made sure you memorized each small touch and the smell of him. He cupped your face and spoke directly. Words for you alone. He was tearing up himself.

"Goodbye, Y/N. I will fight bravely. For you and our families. I’ll write to you as often as I can. I love you-I love you with everything I am. I will never regret marrying you.”

You smiled, leaning into his hands. Smiling and crying as you heard the words.

 “No matter what happens-know I love you more than I love life. And if I must give my life for you to be safe and happy, I will give it without question.”

He gave you a last kiss and then let go.

You walked slowly behind the car- he kept an eye on you. You held onto James’s hand in the car until it began to speed up. If you kept on, you would have been dragged in the dirt. Finally, fighting hesitancy, you let go.

   Always dashing in his uniform, he turned around and began to relax in the chair.

The parade began.

The people flooded Devon today. And it struck you. They were celebrating James, in addition to the other men. They threw confetti from their windows. They cheered and waved even more flags. The soldiers were marching to the tune of "The Jolly Plowboy." Some were even humming and singing along, and it moved the young soldiers- an entire generation of young men- off to the battle. It kept their speed. It was an anthem in everyone's heart. 

To think it was a little over two years ago you worked at that shop and were tasked with returning a missing sketchbook. That he gave you a handkerchief when you were crying over the unstable future of your farm. There was the town hall you danced in once. There was the church you were married in just over a week ago. The town was so full of him as it was of you. The parade continued. You did your best to show support and cheer. You cried plenty of tears and they ran down your face like a cold river. Your parents hugged you and comforted you.

But you remembered- you were a grown woman. You had another family to see. And a new life in a new place. You enjoyed the last comfort but now...without James...without your family...who were you?

You would find out. You would go to Somerset and find out. And there wasn’t time to lose- his parents were driving you there today.

You indulged in a last look around the cottage. Around each room that was the start of your new life. You let yourself feel the dent of his body on the mattress.   You missed the sound of James' pencil scratching the paper. You missed hearing his footsteps throughout the house. Seeing the way he bent under the doorframe. How he would caress you at night as you discussed what happened today.  

 You put on a traveling dress. Blue with a hat and gloves. You packed your bags and recounted your things. Then You hugged your mother, your father, and your brother. You told them to say goodbye to the animals and give Harold extra nice seeds to munch on. For you would miss that goose and his antics.  As you got into the car, you took around to notice all sorts of things- like the greenery and how pretty it looked against the houses. The white birds fly above the smoking chimneys. How truly hilly and sloped the place was as the car began to drive through the town.

You wished it a last goodbye as the car broke into the roads of the countryside.

The hour slew by, surprisingly. The countryside was not too different over there. Somerset was only a little bigger in size.

“You’ll be delighted! We’re going to serve you a dinner in your honor-My wife is going to bake a cake herself for your arrival-most delicious thing you’ll ever eat!” Mr. Nicholls said.

He helped you out and into that house. A far bigger house and far nicer than your farm. Already there was one maid who took your coat and a servant who carried your suitcase in.  Mrs. Nicholls went up to you.

“I’ll show you to your room, dear…oh- what’s the matter! You look frightened!” she said.

You looked around the ornate wallpaper and mahogany furniture.

“This house is so nice…And I’m just…just a farm girl who chases geese.”

“Y/N, you are our daughter in law. You’re family now. It’s your house as much as ours. We aren’t lords, but…we’re comfortable…” she explained.

That evening they did serve you an incredible dinner. And the cake was delicious- rich and topped with buttercream and walnuts. Then that evening, the Nicholls showed you how they would entertain their children. Mr. Nicholls read a story dramatically, Mrs. Nicholls would play music fitting the mood for the story. When it became scary, the chords were dissonant and jumpy. When happy, they were light. You laughed and clapped your hands.

It was a quiet life. Three servants to do the chores and cook. Meeting visitors, including family and friends who wanted to meet James new wife. You did your best to smile and greet them. No one was terribly rude. If they objected him marrying a lower-class woman, they didn’t say it to your face.  It was nice. They liked to speak of James. What a shy little boy he was and what he would do growing up. This house. So filled with reminders of him.

 But they left. And your worries screamed inside you.

It was the third day it got to you. You ran up to your room to cry again. You let yourself sob and mourn the man you loved. Let yourself sob and miss him. Mrs. Nicholls would return to embrace and comfort you.

As the month passed your courses arrived. Announcing that despite your passionate nights and the last morning in the tall grass, you would not have James’s child. Part of you lamented that there wouldn’t be one last reminder of him left.

But the other part of you knew the practical truth- a baby would make things even more complicated than they already were. It would be worse to be left a single mother to fend for herself and her child. It would be worse to have a baby who would never really see what the man their father was. To have a little child who would never know what Papa’s voice sounded like. To never meet their father- their actual wonderful, kind, genuine, father.

It was only one less thing to deal with. With those thoughts, relief flooded you as you fetched rags.

 A letter arrived from James at last announcing that by the time you got it, he would be in France fighting the first battles. That the painting was done and sent to the town hall. Inside was a small sketch of Joey. You smiled and kissed it. Then you sat and realized…there was only so much you could do. You couldn’t run to France and save him. You couldn’t be a soldier. But what could you do…

That morning, you joined them for breakfast. Your father-in-law poured over a newspaper and greeted you warmly. Your mother-in-law was putting jam on her toast.

“Mrs. Nicholls…are there any groups where women can…can do something for the soldiers?” you asked.

“Hmmm…I know there is a group that is planning to gather to knit socks and scarves for them. I’d like to join it-would you?” she said.

“Oh-yes! Yes, I can do that!” you said. Even if it was small, it was a start.

Mr. Nicholls then turned to a page in his newspaper.

“Oh! Have you seen the papers, dear Y/N?”

He showed you an advertisement. It featured a picture of women in aprons and caps. It had blue letters on the bottom reading “URGENTLY NEEDED.”

“Here…there is an advertisement for something called The Voluntary Aid Detachment. They’re with the Red Cross. Setting up in a big manor house nearby. They’re assistants for nurses and doctors for the war, should soldiers arrive and need help…no need for years of studying.”

You looked at the advertisement and then nodded. Feeling the pull over to you. Even if you couldn’t save James…you could help someone else’s loved ones survive.  And who knows? Maybe one day, he would be the one pulled up there and you would save him. He saw his call. And you saw yours.

“I’ll answer it,” you replied.

[jellyfish-perspective]

The hill I will die on is that not every story that is set in the future/contains robots/aliens is science fiction. They are just stories with a futuristic setting! Novels or romances or even space operas, sure, but not sci fi. I know that the definition of science fiction depends on who you ask but for me it will always mean a speculative examination of how people or societies react to a distinct change or advance in science or technology which has been imagined to a point beyond current reality, to a fictive extreme of execution. Frankenstein is science fiction and so is The Time Machine and so is The Left Hand of Darkness and so is Jurassic Park and so is Ex Machina. But Star Wars for example has nothing at all to do with exploring how a specific, distinct scientific or technological advance might affect society: It's a story about the adventures of one kid in bringing down an autocratic regime. Neither is my beloved Dune, it's about religion and drugs and Frank Herbert's breeding kink. And neither are Back to the Future or Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy or Avengers or Hunger Games or Independence Day - even though I have seen all of them listed as science fiction, they are not and I will die on this hill

[fictionkinfessions]

I would love it if the ghost that keeps screaming in my ear about how I am dar’vod’e and a horrible man would sound less like my older brother. But I guess that’s… the point. To remind me of how shit a vod I was. I killed one of Captain Rex’s men because of an order I could not refuse, and was branded a traitor to our brothers along with my men.

But let me put it this way: It was Fives’ life, or the lives of my Guard. The life of an assumed traitor to save the lives of your men. I am not proud of it- was not proud of it, could never be proud of it. The blood of a brother stains my hands. But… wouldn’t you have pulled the trigger too?

We were dropping like flies on Coruscant. It was just as much an active warzone as any the GAR fought in, just… a different kind of battle. Not with clankers, but with living breathing beings. Sent to break up riots and anti-war protests, making the anti-clone sentiment worse. Patrolling the senate, where they saw us as nothing more than meatdroids and livestock. Guarding the prisons, when CSF decided it was no longer their duty.

There was no help for us from our brothers. Our batchers and squadmates who just made things worse when they arrived on leave, with their drunken messes that we’d have to clean up. Vode An was a myth, a sentiment that faded as soon as you were no longer part of the “frontline”. We had it so ‘easy’ compared to them, didn’t we. Cushy placement on Triple-Zero, natborn food… schmoozing with the senate.

There was no need for the inhibitor chip for me to do what I did to Fives. The blaster wasn’t set to stun.

I may have loved all of our brothers, but I loved my men more.

I’m sorry. I wish that could make up for it.

- CC-1010, “Fox”/“Tens”

[fictive, clone wars]

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[xkaminarix]

⚡Hiya, Charge Bolt here! ⚡

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[moved-accounts-btw]

Oof I’m very sorry someone was mean to you about you’re rewrite, as a Bright fan myself who doesn’t support his author people need to realize the discomfort goes both ways just as some people are uncomfortable with Shaw and rewrites others can also be uncomfortable with character Bright but it’s important to show respect to everyone regardless and simply block and move on if you feel uncomfortable. This whole situation has been very stressful on everyone and it sucks it had to reach so far.

Even if we do that,

Most of the fans have painted some of us in a bad light just for making rewrites. I have been attacked because I was 'following the herd' or because I want to kill off 'Dr. Bright'.

I have a list of people who support this claim and preach how rewrites are bad, or even here to ruin Tumblr. As you said, you can either block us or not interact with most of us (which a lot of people disrespect our wishes by still interacting. One of my friends keeps telling people not to tag their rewrite as "Dr. Bright" because of fictive or traumatizing (victim) reasoning.)

I don't know what the rewrites or the anti-bright people have done, circling around the death threats. I'm purely sorry about that. No one deserves to be in that situation or have their life threatened over a matter that can be avoided. I just think people just need to calm down if this is pushing them to have a full-on war.

In fact, I think people need to get off of Tumblr for a week or until they're mentally stable enough to think about the situation. Also, don't try to add fuel to the flame just because you want one side to be better or worse than the other. Because at the end of the day, no one is going to fucking win. It's a dead character that the site and victims want to push to the side, as many people were harmed by it, and keep the ball rolling. It's not to hide the past; it's not to simply ruin the stories; it's to keep the ball rolling and rewrite a character that was based on someone's kink and lack of common knowledge.

If you want to write bright and give him this arc of 'hey, I'm a good guy who won't do this.', I can't stop you. I'm just a person who is trying to focus on my own mental health and my anomalies, along with my arc. Just respect the victims list and make changes like 'Don't let him possess children' or 'don't let him do this'. Limit the character and basically remove the parts that have become fetishized. Not saying, like, remove anything about him, just you know? Make him better for the sake of not glorifying his possession kink and allowing him to become a minor. A rewrite doesn't even need to be extreme or anything to change; a rewrite can be minor and have the bare minimum of changes.

But in the end, respect doesn't only fall under this; mental health also falls under it. If you're depressed, stressed, or even suicidal about the whole situation, or even attacking someone, you need to get off of Tumblr. You don't have to make a post about leaving; just get off of Tumblr and focus on something else that's much better. School, life, work, writing—everything is better. Don't keep writing if you're not in the best mental state; you're adding fuel to the fire in both situations and setting yourself on fire.

[memwazz]

MASTERPOST - Short summaries of all my Original Stories and links to their own dedicated Masterposts

SEVEN : DIVISION UNITED

This story is the one I currently focus on.

It follows the Seventh Division, a dysfunctional superheroes team protecting a fictive, slightly futuristic version of the USA ruled by a martial law. Most of the plot revolves around them and the teenage MC Erwan fighting different antagonists with or without special abilities, while trying to handle their chaotic daily life together.

Created circa 2019.

B-CLASS

B-Class is the only project I've completed so far, taking the form of two French novels and their spin-off.

The setting is a contemporary dystopia with a cast system discriminating and exploiting a group of people called the "B-Class". The main character Icare is a privileged journalist from the A who will change its viewpoint on oppression after falling in love with his own domestic slave Riùn. Then comes Abys the ACAB Boy and they all start a revolution 🔥

Very very queer and politic.

Created circa 2017 and completed in March 2018.

[B-CLASS Related] POUR UN RAYON DE SOLEIL

The spin-off I mentioned above focuses on Icare's past relationship with Ryse, a major antagonist in B-Class.

They used to date 5 years before the story and PURS explains how Icare became depressed and suic!d@l after a whole year of abuse.

Created and completed between November and July 2018.

AN EYE FOR AN EYE

This one has a special place in my heart since it's the first story I've ever created back in middle-school. Many things changed in 10 years but it still tells the journey of Daniil who rebels against and has to run away from his former boss.

At the beginning, Daniil works as a bodyguard for an important member of a criminal organization; but he loses his temper and tries to unalive him when he discovers Akito murd€red his late girlfriend 3 years before. And then they both chase and try to k!ll each other 🤷

May include shit like war flashbacks and Japanese mafia idk

Created circa 2012.

DE A à Z

Zephyr and Adriel are two angels who've lived as a couple in Heaven for thousands of years.

But when Babel, an artificial angel, is created by humans and sent to Heaven to communicate with God, everything collapses. Babel manages to kill God and takes Their place to impose his vision of right and wrong, influenced by the humans' misinterpretation of the Bible. From then on, all romantic and sexual relationships are forbidden, forcing the couple to hide.

When Babel discovers Adriel's love letters, he is kicked out of Heaven and has to find allies on Earth to overthrow Babel and get his lover back.

Created circa 2019.

42

42 tells the story of Mat, a young woman searching for Sara, her little sister who disappeared years ago. Her investigations lead her to "Number 42", a man who just escaped from a lab experimenting on humans. Since Mat's sister seems to be prisoner from the lab as well, the two of them helped by the amoral Director's oldest son, will try to save Sara and 42 himself.

Created circa 2015.

MINIUM Part. 1

This one is pure heroic fantasy; its universe and lore are my most extended so far.

Gailin, the adoptive son of Kel'Daran's king, passed a deal with him and has to save Kel'Daran from the Selv, an humanoid species invading the Kingdom. A mystic prophecy tells the war can't be won without a half-blooded Selv with mysterious powers.

Due to coincidences and quiproquos, Gailin is manipulated by Aldanys, a teenage thief who pretends she's the Chosen One.

Created circa 2015.

MINIUM Part. 2

According to my writing plan, Minium is supposed to have a second part taking place 5 years after the first one.

After Gailin killed his father/king at the end of Minium 1, he is exiled and his mentor Edelia takes Kel'Daran's throne. When a new war is suddenly started against the kingdom, Edelia realises someone she thought had died wants her dead too.

On the other side of the plot, another protagonist named Lavaan predicts a major antagonist's return through weird prophetic dreams.

Created circa 2017.

[Minium Related] ST-ANRIEL

In Minium, Gailin and elves his kind believe in an entity named Altea and the Gods they gave birth to.

The Anriel is the equivalence of their Holy Bible and tells the story of the Gods and how the world was built from the beginning to the end. It takes the form of an anthology of poems and prayers.

Created circa 2017.

[MINIUM Related] JADE ET MOI

Another Minium spin-off, focusing this time on Osvald's coming out and transition as a trans man. The story takes place on sea as "Jade"/Osvald starts his journey as a pirate after running away from home.

Created circa 2018.

[MINIUM Related] GOLDEN-EYED BEAST

GEB is a Minium spin-off telling the backstory of Lavaan, a 12 years old protagonist. Born with a golden eye in a village who fears this feature after a terrible incident with a cruel golden-eyed enemy, he is treated as an outcast since his childhood.

His life changes when Kalras, a mysterious elf with black magic, destroys his village and murders everyone. Being the only survivor, Lavaan is made prisoner and tortured by Kalras but develops a Stockholm Syndrom and falls in love with him.

From then on, Kalras who turns out to be a cult leader, uses him as a slave a pet in a toxic relationship.

Created circa 2017.

[MINIUM Related] LA SAISON DES BOURGEONS

In Minium, Edelia has a little brother named Veidin who cursed himself to save her as a child. The curse caused him chronic pain, blood, heart and bones fragility and he's doomed to a very short life expectancy.

LSDB tells his love story with Jyëlven, another young man who was cursed and has flowers and thorns growing out of his skin.

Created circa 2017.

[MINIUM Related] THE WARMTH OF OUR COLD LANDS

Just like for the Anriel, Genkhìs will have their own religious texts written.

Inspired by vikings, the people of Genkhàr honour Gods similar to Scandinavians. Each one represents a value, the most worshipped one being Ero, God of Bravery.

Created circa 2017.

ODE TO ODD

My first and only story ever to look like a shonen anime lol--

One of the main characters Naemi is a highschooler with anxiety who just wants to live an ordinary and peaceful life.

But her goth and spiritism-obsessed best friend Sayaka accidentally summons Evelgard, a young necromancer in her living-room. Evelgard decides to befriend her and live in her closet, while trying to open a portal to the World of the Dead to save his late sister's soul. The two girls discover a whole new world after meeting necromancers, exorcists, witches and demons.

Created circa 2016.

SACRED DUST

Another heroic fantasy setting, but this universe is different from Minium's !

In this story, each kingdom worships a God-dess supposed to grant it their protection. When Lidala, the Goddess of Telaman, is murdered by a rival God, she turns to dust and leaves a devastated kingdom behind.

Fortunately, one of her ashes gives birth to a child, Saljän, who soon has to become the priest of Telaman. Aged 16, Saljän hates his responsibilities so much he finally runaways and travels around the world with a little demon named Orgos. Their goal is to gather all the Sacred Dusts to resurrect Lidala before it's too late.

Created circa 2016.

BAD ROMANCE

How to define Bad Romance without telling it's my most fucked-up story ? You can't. The two main characters are such assholes I can't name a protagonist, they're both antagonists.

Derek, a criminal, gangster and drug abuser, kidnaps Jay who sent him to jail 8 years before the story. He aims at mistreating him enough for Jay to kill himself, but he soon discovers that this guy who seems to live an ordinary and boring life is as much of a sociopath as him.

They start making each other's life hell then become addicted to each other, fuck, engage in a toxic relationship and even create a gang together at the end of the plot.

Created circa 2017.

LE ROYAUME DE GAHS

My first attempt to deal with astronomy eventhough I don't understand anything about it-

The story takes place in the sky and is about two stars and their father trying to discover why the Cosmic God decided to kill/destroy all the stars. Meanwhile, there seems to be a perturbation in the cosmos and some shooting stars start turning evil for no apparent reason...

Created circa 2024.

WE ARE THE WILD

The Lion King but with wolves, mixed with Prince of Persia and the COVID-19 pandemic before it existed--

The plot follows Sôkah, a 15 years old werewolf and the son of the Alpha, who's accused of murdering his big brother. The responsible is actually Akbar, his father's counselor who evicted the two sons to take his place when he dies.

Sôkah is banished from the pack and wandering in the forest, discovers the human world. Most humans are dying from a deadly virus nicknamed "white plague", and Sôkah gets rescued by the cousins Ludwig and Weiss. Weiss is a scientist who tries to find a cure to save Ludwig who caught the white plague, and soon discovers werewolves are immune to the disease...

Created circa 2018.

STAR-716

This story's plot is not very developed and I don't know much what will happen through it. But it's once again about someone looking for a missing family member, a mother this time.

Sacha is 13 and grew up in a circus, his mother being a dancer there. But she disappeared a year before (probably after a kidnapping) and Sacha doesn't know where to start his researches. He will be helped by Novak, an irresponsible sex-worker and hopeless romantic who fell in desperate love with the mother after sleeping with her once.

Created circa 2016.

DIMENSION OF DESPAIR

Are you surprised if I tell you this one is about another dimension ? No ?

Well, the MC Megane is a single mother who works hard to raise her 4 years old alone. One day, she wakes up in an unknown dimension ruled by Master, a mysterious person with psychic powers who created the dimension with their own mind.

Turns out it's actually a "harem" where Master gathers people and things he loves or wants. Megane will look for a way to escape and save a little girl named Kadd as well as Zoé, Master's "favorite".

Created circa 2018.

UNTIL SEPTEMBER

A more simple and less fucked-up story, I swear !!

Some sort of teenage literature, Until September focused around Nero, who's having hard times as a bullied 9th grader and discovers he has water powers. From then on, he befriends the other elementaries and has to deal with Hilda, the air elementary who wants to sacrifice all the children to create a Philosopher's Stone.

Created circa 2021.

SCARECREW

Another under-developed lore !

It's a basic apocalyptic/zombie novel with a disease turning all the adults into monsters. A bunch of pre-teens who survived and don't even know each other decide to fight together against the threat and to rebuild their own world.

Created circa 2020.

VIC'TEAM

Mostly shitpost, I don't want to turn it into a novel but more like a bunch of comic strips.

It follows the daily life adventures of highschoolers with teenagers problems like love, exams and family with a comedic tone. The MC's main problem is to be named Volvic (nicknamed Vic) and there are a lot of jokes about it, as well as absurd humor.

Created circa 2016-17.

Undeveloped shit with OCs waiting for their twisted up plot

Yeah, I love creating OCs and some of them have a background and design but no story for the moment. I'll just put them here and share random facts about them.

[PERSONAL DAILY LIFE SHITPOST] The ABSOLUTELY UNCHILLING Adventures of a Smol Angry Emo Birb

The parenthesis speaks for itself, I'll gather a few billets or illustrated jokes about funny things happening in my life.

[lilo-snm]

🍄- “The Autumn System” was Equinox’s idea from back when he was still around. It was mainly based off of the overall color scheme of everyone we knew in headspace at that time, plus the body’s favorite season.

👾- “CHEESE KNIFE, MOTHERFUCKERS!” -Gary, who then proceeds to yeet a butter knife with cheese on it into front in the innerworld

🎉- Don’t have any in-system holidays, but we really enjoy Halloween. Some of our peeps like to help make costumes for the littles so that they can dress up as whatever they want heh

🌙- We do have a handful of subsystems

☕️- It depends. Sometimes it’ll be like a slow gradient of one person into the other, other times it happens in a blink. And then sometimes, it takes several minutes of staring into the fucking abyss waiting for our brain to stop buffering worse than an old Windows desktop with 30 tabs open and reloading-

💫- Most of us all enjoy art or music to any extent; whether that be taking in either of them or producing either.

💾- Upwards of 170 at this rate.

👻- They do. A handful have accents, and then some have different speaking patterns. We all have pretty distinct voices though. Some sound similar to one another though, generally because they took on aspects of the body’s voice.

🎨- Abbbbsolutely yes. It’s incredibly inconsistent, but we do have several peeps in here that enjoy it.

🥀- Decently easily. It’s slowed a bit recently, but we do tend to split easily in response to stress.

🦖- Incredibly fictive-heavy.

🎵- Uhhhh a couple do, come to think of it. Numb Little Bug by Em Beihold, and then Time Passing Through by Kaden Mackay are the most prominent two though.

❓- A decent amount. It ranges from partial, to emotional, to total, and with no indication as to what it’s gonna be until we find that we can’t remember something clearly when we need to.

🎮- Varies depending on who’s doing stuff, and whether it’s in innerworld or externally. People have managed to set up an entire-ass paintball arena in-headspace though; they host matches whenever enough people want to play.

🪐- It’s nice. The areas are easily-enough navigatable. It’s sometimes difficult to get information from one point of headspace to the other, but it’s nice. It’s not overwhelming by itself, and it never feels empty.

🍐- Yes(written by someone who is in fact a non-human alter themselves lol)

🪫- Either spend time with people we’re close with, or hole up and sleep for as long as we can within ability or reason. .. Or, yknow, some of us have interests that they enjoy that aren’t draining, and then they do that-

🌧️- Varies. We’re still getting better at finding coping mechanisms that don’t result in ‘pk;m new’

🔦- Started out with a newer alter starting to chime in with his frustrations on things that were happening in life, paired with another who just wanted to get through the situations without strife or having anyone hurt in any way. … Yeahhh, that caused some inner warring of opinion, which raised several questions for the host at the time haha—

🌟- Yep! Aster’s really good at essays, and Kris is good at just scribbling down notes—which we have a tendency to overthink doing since half of us try to factor in whether or not anyone else insys will be able to understand the notes. Kris just.. does not care phf

🌊- Sort of shifts around in groups! Currently it’s me, the Yaelokre peeps we have, and then Vesper and a few others from CoD.

🎁- Me personally, no, but Val and Graves stumbled across a dog shirt in the store one day and decided that Alex would freaking love it(he did. He adopted it into headspace the same day they showed it to him)

☘️- Usually any current interest that we’re having.

💬- Recently found out there’s another void UNDERNEATH the main void level in headspace. It has henceforth been dubbed “the basement”

-Ceres 4.11.2024

system ask meme

🍄 - how did you get your system name?

👾 - funniest out of context system quote?

🎉 - favorite system holiday?

🌙 - do you have subsystems?

☕ - what is switching like for you?

💫 - are there any hobbies you all have?

💾 - what's your headcount?

👻 - do your alters/headmates have different voices or speech patterns?

🎨 - does anyone in your system like art?

🥀 - how easily does the system split?

🦖 - is your system fictive-heavy? factive-heavy? neutral?

🎵 - what songs remind you of your alters/headmates?

❓ - how much amnesia do you experience?

🎮 - what do your alters/headmates do in their free time?

🪐 - what is headspace like for you?

🍐 - are there any non-human alters/headmates?

🪫 - what do you all do to recharge?

🌧️ - how does the system cope with stress?

🔦 - how did you discover your system?

🌟 - do any alters help out with school/work?

🌊 - who are your frequent fronters?

🎁 - have you ever bought your alters/headmates things?

☘️ - what are your introjects/fictives usually sourced from?

💬 - free space!! tell me about something!

[perpetual-peace]

Black September (September Hitam)

I finished the reading challenge #BacaBukuSejarahBareng on September with 4 books: 1984 by George Orwell, Bumi Manusia by Pramoedya Ananta Toer, Berita Kehilangan from KontraS, and TEMPO's Investigation Report titled Pengakuan Algojo 1965.

Keep reading to find the review of each books.

1. 1984 by George Orwell — 5 stars

I wasn't a fan of George Orwell until this year, so I haven't had time to delve deep into his political ideology. My very first introduction to his work was when I read Animal Farm. That book's genius enchanted me so badly that the next day I immediately ordered "Homage to Catalonia" and "1984". Despite having both of them since April, only 1984 screamed loudly to me when September came. As an Indonesian who loves history, September was an important month. Although in 1984, Indonesia was mentioned only once, the political satire from this book is actually relatable to what happened in Indonesia in 1965.

If my ego as a politics student speaks, then this book is a good satire toward totalitarianism and not only that, but also to my country's current political situation (as of 10/10/2024).

There is one thing that we as humans do almost all the time, and it is incorrect: separating politics and culture. I wasn't going to talk much about Newspeak and how its grammar can help people to become dull and unintelligent, but I'm going to highlight the brilliance of Big Brother (if he is even real and not a fictive figure made by The Party) and The Party in using politics to redefine cultures, and by saying cultures, it also means the change from Oldspeak (Standard English) to Newspeak. The culture reset The Party was trying to do can determine every aspect of everyone's life.

The Party knows tremendously well the importance of controlling and remaking the culture as they like with their political power. And this narrative that Orwell brought is so genius as to even touch the surface of the most fundamental thing in everyone's life: language. Changing the language can change habits and perspectives. And The Party wasn't even finished with language as the main tool of control. It also uses psychological manipulation and brainwashing. I mean, how many times did we see that Oceania (the country where The Party resides) changed its war enemy from Eurasia to Eastasia? And how fast can the news be changed so that no one can trace that there was an error made by The Party?

I was foolish to think that Orwell would go easy on this book, by giving the reader a slight romance and sweet forbidden love. I was also naïve to think that Winston and Julia would go hand in hand, meeting the Brotherhood and- Jesus, I really was naïve. But of course, it is really Orwell's book when he won't give the wonderful and happy ending closure to the reader.

2. Bumi Manusia (This Earth of Mankind) by Pramoedya Ananta Toer — 5 stars

In these times, it is an enviable privilege when someone possesses the Buru Quartet series by Pramoedya Ananta Toer. Those who have read 'This Earth of Mankind,' the first book of the aforementioned series, should rejoice for being able to enjoy this magnificent novel in its original language. We should also be proud that our nation's dark history was still willingly written with such skill by Pramoedya Ananta Toer, who was continually oppressed by the state through imprisonment and marginalization.

'This Earth of Mankind' is an excellent opening book for the Buru Quartet, providing a solid foundation for understanding Indonesia's journey through this historical fiction. Set in the late 19th century, this book tells the story of Minke, a native Javanese youth (inlander) born into the aristocratic class (priyayi). From the beginning, Minke's character is left mysterious and unclear in origin, though said to come from a priyayi family background. Thus, readers are made curious about Minke, and this curiosity grows along with Minke's journey as a student at HBS or Hogere Burger School.

A spotlight often shone on Minke is how he, as a native, was able to attend HBS and achieve excellent rankings at the school. This was an extraordinary achievement for a native because HBS was mostly filled with totok or pure Dutch and Indo or mixed Dutch. Not only that, Minke was also praised by many for his fluency in Dutch, like a native speaker. This fluency even made his own mother doubt his Javanese-ness.

The main conflict of the novel begins when Minke meets Nyai Ontosoroh, a concubine who, according to Minke, is unlike typical concubines. Nyai Ontosoroh has a very strong character, supported by her proficiency in Dutch and her ability to read Dutch magazines. Minke had never known a Nyai or concubine capable of speaking and (seemingly) being as educated as Nyai Ontosoroh. Minke's heart is also stirred by the beauty of Nyai Ontosoroh's daughter, Annelies Mellema. The meeting of these three is an unusual one, causing all mouths in their town to gossip about them.

'This Earth of Mankind' itself was inspired by Tirto Adhi Soerjo, the Father of Indonesian Press. He was a journalist, writer, and nationalist who lived from 1880 to 1918. Tirto Adhi Soerjo also founded several newspapers such as Medan Prijaji, which in its time became the first newspaper operated by natives in the Dutch East Indies.

This novel writes a scathing critique of Dutch colonialism that occurred in Indonesia, as well as the complexities of racism and classism during Dutch colonialism. Not only that, Javanese traditionalism is also challenged by the modernity brought by Dutch knowledge, making this book not simply place one party in the black camp and the other in the white. In fact, some argue that the Dutch East Indies Government and the Javanese Priyayi who held positions in the Dutch East Indies government were two giant pillars that suppressed the lives of people without positions and noble blood.

Minke's own morality can be questioned. On one hand, he is greatly advantaged by the noble blood flowing within him, allowing him to attend a good school, but on the other hand, he is also disgusted by and curses Javanese aristocracy which he feels greatly demeans other humans. From Dutch school, he learns about individual rights and freedom of thought and opinion, but at the same school, he realizes that no matter how free a person is, they cannot be freer than the colonizers who come to colonize.

Buru Quartet, series which Pramoedya Ananta Toer narrated during his exile on Buru Island, has been praised for many years yet the availability of these books remain limited. It is why I am hoping that may the rumors regarding of Pramoedya’s works’ reprinting in 2025, truly happen. Because it is such a shame for everyone in Indonesia to not knowing this great roman.

3. Berita Kehilangan from various writers compiled by KontraS and Ultimus — 4.5 Stars

Inside of the reading communities spread across X (formerly Twitter), many have agreed to give September a moniker: Black September. This is done to commemorate the enforced disappearances and killings that occurred in September-October 1965 and many that followed during Orde Baru (New Order) Regime. There's also hashtag going online titled #BacaBukuSejarahBareng which then motivated me to pick up history-themed books available on the bookshelf in my room.

I've owned "Berita Kehilangan" since 2021, but as per my usual habit, I waited for this book to "call out" to me to be read. At the right moment, last September, I finally decided to break the seal of this book to enjoy its contents.

But how could I enjoy what I read, if it contains an anthology of heart-wrenching short stories inspired by enforced disappearances to cruel murders? Throughout all the short stories, the main perpetrator consistently points to the government. The government through its racist policies, through its brutal and cruel military apparatus, and through the cultures of enforced disappearances deliberately perpetuated to create an atmosphere of terror, so that society remains submissive and obedient to the government.

This anthology of short stories originated from the "Berita Kehilangan" short story writing competition held during the Week of Enforced Disappearances 2021 (held by KontraS) and participated by 280 writers. There are 15 selected short stories from 15 writers through the competition and 5 short stories from 5 guest writers, that fill this book. All of them stem from real events and experiences of people who witnessed or became victims or were affected or also those who studied the dark history of this nation.

One of the short stories in this book that made me pause for quite a while is the fact that there were forced relocations/abductions of underage children from East Timor during the conflict with Indonesia from 1975-1999. These children were taken by military personnel to Indonesia. Many children then lived in neglect and grew up in poverty, and not a few experienced sexual abuse and forced religious conversion.

There's also a story inspired by the true story of a young Chinese activist, who was found murdered in her home. Ita Martadinata Haryono was a key witness who was to testify at a UN hearing in New York in October 1998. Ita was about to testify about the mass rape of Chinese Women after the 1998 reformation.

4. Pengakuan Algojo 1965 — 4.5 stars

"That ideology (Communism, Marxism, and Leninism) has long been bankrupt. The Soviet Union is in shambles, China is now as capitalist as America. The idea of a classless society is an outdated and futile utopia... In other words, face communism with relaxation. Because that ideology is actually quite ordinary."

This book contains 10 pages dedicated to a "disclaimer" stating that Tempo's investigative report is intended for a higher purpose and not merely to "corner" certain groups or perpetrators of violence. This report is published and compiled to inspire national reconciliation for the victims and families of the 1965 Incident. The book also provides historical facts that many Indonesians have almost forgotten about how military personnel, religious organizations, and thuggish actions could unite to kill hundreds or even millions of people.

This institution was called the Operational Command for the Restoration of Security and Order (Kopkamtib), established on October 2, 1965, to crush the PKI and restore state order that had just been hit by the September 30th Movement. The National Commission on Human Rights, through its investigation, found that Kopkamtib was the main perpetrator of gross human rights violations in the 1965-1966 events.

The format of this book is quite interesting, as it provides a series of interview results and investigations of people who were once involved in the killing of party members and PKI sympathizers, and also highlights the experiences of people who directly witnessed these events. Not only that, several articles from historians and researchers are also included to add insight into the events that occurred 59 years ago.

Nevertheless, this book does not focus too much on cases that befell women at that time. Most of those interviewed as victims were only men (there is only one article with a female source).

[the-pastel-wolf-sys]

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ㆍ🌸 Name﹕ Jesper Dean Brekker

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Miss Narracott and The Captain, Part Two (Captain James Nicholls x fem! Reader Miniseries)

Summary: It is 1912. You are Y/N Narracott, the older sister of Albert Narracott. You must do what you can so your family can keep their farm. And so your brother can keep his beloved horse. Under financial struggles, you never expect romance to come into your life...until you have a chance encounter with James Nicholls- a Captain with a knack for drawing. But the threat of war lingers in the air...

Link to Part One

Fandom: War Horse

Chapter Word Count: 6K

Chapter Warnings: Some angst and some fluff. Light Slow Burn. Mrs. Narracott being badass. I turn Lyons from Neutral Jerk to Mustache twirling villain. Because it's my fic and I can do what I want. References to lines and scenes from the movie. Nicholls is an angel. Some references to violence.

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Spring, 1912

This whole past week you did not see Captain Nicholls back at the shop. He likely had business. You wished to enquire what soldiers were doing here…but it was peacetime. And that was being quite nosy.

A farm never really had a weekend. But Saturday was the only day you could sleep in just a little. Dad insisted that for you.

“Come on, Y/N! I need help with the laundry!” mum called out from the yard.

“Coming in a bit!” you called back from the chair.

You had been repairing clothes that had tears. So far, it looked like Dad’s working pants were decent. Setting down your needle and thread in the basket by your feet, you walked out. As you entered the laundry area, you heard Joey mimicking an owl’s hoot. Both of you jumped and looked around.

“Oh, for goodness' sake!” Mum yelped as she checked around her.

Albert had trained Joey to trot up to him at the sound of it and the horse would bolt from wherever he was. Heaven help whoever was walking about at the same time Joey pranced in the yards! Everyone had to jump out of the way as Joey would hurry to Albert’s call.

But no, you did not worry about getting run over by a horse this time. Both Albert and Joey were standing in the field. They were in the circled off ground before the stable.

Mum lifted a white shirt from the basket of washed clothes. She put it on the line. You found another and did the same.

“Y/N, I want to have a little chat with you…it’s easier to chat when you’re doing laundry, …” Mum announced.

Nervousness soured your bowels. She glanced out at your brother. He went to the stable and retrieved the plow. Then she turned to you.

“You do know I love both of you,” she said.

“Of course, we do!”

“Your father and I tried our best to teach you some good lessons. And there’s one lesson I see Albert applying all the time, but I’ve yet to see it from you…”

You tilted your head as you found a wet apron that needed to dry.

“What do you mean?” you asked as you pinned it up.

Mum went over and cupped your cheek, looking into your eyes.

“Y/N, you cannot keep sacrificin’ yourself for others. Getting a job for all of us is very noble, and yes it has helped…but you cannot keep silencin’ yourself or what you think…I don’t think you really wanted to give all your wages to us…”

“I don’t mind the work, mama, I don’t! And that’s why I got it- to support everyone!” you replied.

She glanced at a dry bedsheet that was pinned up.

“Of course, you don’t. But, let me tell you something…”

She gestured for you to get to the other end. Freeing it from pins, both of you walked forward to fold it up.

“If there’s one thing, I teach you and Albert, it’s this! Everyone all your life will try to tell you what you should think, what you should do!” she guided.

“Why aren’t you telling both of us, then?” you questioned.

“As I said- I see Albert doing it and you not! I know why- I know you’re a woman in this world! I know what they teach us. I’ve been through it when I was your age too, don’t think I did not!” she explained.

She folded the bedsheet sideways and up, placing it in an empty basket.

“But what if it’s a situation where it's not polite to?” you asked.

“I love that you’re a polite girl, Y/N. No shame in good manners or treatin’ others good. There are plenty of times for politeness. Then there are the other times… if someone’s threatenin' or hurtin' you-politeness ain’t always gonna work! You got to fight back!” she said.

“Fight back…” you repeated as you hung up one of your blouses to dry.

“You cannot let others tell you what should or shouldn’t make you happy. And you shouldn’t sacrifice your own self for others all the time. Soon there won’t be anything of you left to sacrifice! You must stand up for yourself, Y/N! Speak your own mind! And tell others what it is you want, especially if they don’t agree with you!”

She got down another dry shirt and pinned it up.

“They tell us to do this or that. I’m sure even the King of England has to do what he’s told sometimes! But as a woman, they’ll try and pressure you to do what pleases them and not yourself! All the time! Y/N…you got to insist on what you want, what you think!”

Albert put the reins on Joey and led him out to the bottom field, vanishing from vision.

“They always tell us women to cut ourselves into bits to make others happy. And I’m telling you, Y/N- don’t! Don’t let them!” mum ordered.

The chickens clucked in the next yard over. The goose crawled under the fence and explored the horse-free circle of grass. You took down a dry sock to fold it.

“Their opinion, what if it…”

“You don’t have an opinion too? Why should anyone else’s matter but theirs? Unless you realize yours is downright stupid!” mum cried.

You chuckled.

“I guess you’re right…”

She put an arm on your shoulder.

“Whatever you think will make you happy…we’ll support you. Albie, Dad, and I…” she promised.

You pressed the sock into your chest. Letting out a deep sigh, you confided to her.

“I haven’t figured out what, I guess…haven’t found my place. I wondered if I could work at the shop for the rest of my life. I...I confess I even wondered about marrying rich! It would help everyone. But that won’t happen, not in Devon. I think I might spend my spinster days here…”

“You don’t have to marry if you don’t want to. I’d rather see you a happy spinster than a miserable wife, Y/N!”

The goose wandered in to nibble at your mother’s petticoat. Mum shooed him away.

“I think I’d like to fall in love. Fall in genuine, real love, have it work out, and marry someday…” you confessed.

“You always were the romantic, girl! If you do marry, it better be for love. I’d want a good man who’ll love you over a rich man any day!” mum responded.

“But I…I don’t know if I want to leave…not yet…” you continued.

The goose went over to the basket and sniffed at it with his orange beak. She opened her arms and let you hug her.

“Then stay here, my dear girl, and figure it out…but don’t let some people order you about just ‘cause you’re a woman! Ain’t nothin’ that makes foolish men quiver like seeing a woman happy on her own terms!”

You smiled as you looked up at her. She pressed a kiss to your forehead before you continued your laundry. You noticed the goose walking under the fence. He began waddling about the yard. He found dad going about his chores and nipped at the ends of his pants. · · ─────── ·𖥸· ─────── · · That Sunday, you did see Captain Nicholls at church. Many of the new soldiers had come in, filling up the pews with young men. He was not in uniform but in his three-piece suit and tie. And beside him was another gentleman with a mustache. You wished to speak to him, but your family scuttled in when the service began. As everyone gathered hymnals and sang, you eyed him. He let out a smile and a nod of acknowledgment. You did so back. Once the service ended with the final amen, the crowd broke. As you went up to chat with your friends, you noticed Nicholls went up to you between the pews.

“Oh! Y/N…there you are!” he greeted.

“You remember my name?” you asked.

“Oh, of course!” Nicholls said.

“Is this your first church service here? Do you like it?” you asked.

“Yes, indeed! It’s excellent! The choir sounded lovely- never heard one like it! I’ve shaken two dozen hands already. Complete with tea invitations. I’m sure my colleagues can say the same,” he said.

Yes, dozens of families and couples were welcoming the new soldiers in town. The young men were nodding next to the bright eyes and wide smiles of old people who were thrilled at newcomers.

“Nothing like a first church visit to make you feel famous!” you commented.

“Though I confess I would like it more if they had a picnic. I’m quite hungry,” Nicholls said.

“Oh, we have our share of picnics!” you assured him.

“Mrs. Collins promised me a welcome basket next week with her own famous bread, even!” he said, pointing her out.

The very old lady, next to her equally old husband, was shaking the hand of the mustachioed soldier.

“We could spare a few of the crops and eggs. It’s not much of a welcoming basket, but it’s something,” you offered.

“Crops? Are you from a farming family?” he asked.

Mouth frowning a little, you nodded.

“I’m a farmer’s daughter,” you confirmed.

You knew Nicholls was several stations above you. He had a genteel occupation versus the lowly farming Narracotts. Some of the upper-class people you met in the past were polite, but arrogant in their knowledge of who held the upper hand.

Nicholls was neither. His face remained soft and smiling. If he had any bad opinions about you, it was hidden.

“I think any welcoming basket is better than none! Especially with some grown, natural produce fresh from the ground! I would enjoy it…and the horse. If I recall correctly, there are horses with your family?”

“On our-our farm? The horse-oh-we call him Joey! I barely mentioned him!” you remembered.

“You said your brother had a horse, Miss Narracott! I am dearly fond of the creatures myself if you haven’t guessed from the sketchbook,” he added.

“I should hate to be repetitive, but perhaps you should come over for tea and see Joey- a beautiful, beautiful horse! He’s gentle for the most part unless he hears a commotion, or the mood fancies him!”

“Then I shall be glad to, Miss,” he replied.

He then said his goodbyes and left. But where on earth was your family? It was far too crowded today. You already made your rounds to greet your friends who went here. You began to head outside the doors.

Though as you left for the entrance, who did you run into, but the Landlord. His red, walrus mustache looked combed today. Overdressed in his black and white plaid coat and waistcoat, not a surprising fashion choice for him. He held his bowler hat in one hand. You saw attached to his waistcoat an ornate, golden pocket watch dangling. He picked it up and examined the time and then turned his head to you. Steps skidding out of bumping into where he stood.

“Oh- I’m sorry, Mr. Lyons!” you excused.

Feet shuffling backward, you bowed your head. He turned to see you.

“None taken! Only glad the service ended on time for once! But you did nothing at all wrong,” he said. He spoke with warmth. Not like when he discussed matters of rent with your father.

“Mr. Lyons how are you today?” you asked.

“I am well. And may I say, you do look radiant today, Miss Narracott. Is that a new dress you have on today?” he asked.

Something about the way he was smiling at you felt wrong. It was too wide. Too friendly. Too...nice. You glanced down at your dress. Attempting some form of modesty though you were entirely covered with hat, dress, and gloves.

“Just a hand-me-down from mum’s family,” you responded.

“Lovely on you all the same.”

It struck you that though he did have a wife, she died long ago. And the mourning period was long since over, which meant…

Slight panic gripped your turning stomach. Dear Sweet Jesus- the man was actually flirting with you! You held your gloved hands. But, considering that he had money and a higher station…was he using his position to do what he wanted? How crude! What would your family think?

For now, you only smiled, gripping your hands tighter.

“Mr. Lyons, I thank you for your generous compliment. And I hope your son is well too. Though I am afraid I must leave- there are still chores to finish back home,” you excused.

“Ah, so Sunday is no day of rest?”

“No, it is not,” you confirmed.

You wished you could have added “thanks to your prices!” at the end of that. But you bit your tongue instead.

You dipped your head and left. Despite the familiar faces you passed, your mind spiraled elsewhere. Questioning if this was reality or some odd dream you had. You caught mum gossiping with some friends. Dad and Albert were behind her. Dad turned to you.

“Hey- there you were! Was bout wonderin’ if you vanished, Y/N! Ah- let’s head home, girl,” he greeted.

As the four of you began walking, you kept your head down. Replaying the moment with Mr. Lyons a dozen times.

“You got a troubled look about you. What is it?” Albert asked in your ear. He slowed his pace to meet yours.

“I’ll tell you when we’re alone…” you said. · · ─────── ·𖥸· ─────── · · “Flirting!” cried Albert.

After some chores, you two would go for a walk outside. Especially on a sunny day like today. It was the hour you and Albert could discuss anything. Especially without snooping, overhearing parents.

It was a day that had gentle sunlight as it glided across the sky. The breeze was cool, but slight. The green grass swept through eternity like a green ocean. Tall blue mountains rose from the ground a distance away, kissing the blue sky above you. In the distance from the hill, the town looked so small. One could crush the church bell tower with their thumb and forefinger. You could even see the blue line of the river stretch out from your view. The forest skittered away, keeping the town and hills snug like it was a wall. They went on forever until they vanished to the horizon. Across the green fields, hundreds of white sheep grazed about for their Sunday lunch of fresh spring grass. Ignoring the whistles of their shepherds to feast and bleat about each other. The church bells pealed the hour from far away, but it echoed up here.

This time your company had a third party. Albert held Joey by the reigns as he walked. But the horse’s ears did perk towards you as if this interested him as well.

“I could have sworn it, yes…” you answered.

“Well, what do you think of him?” Albert asked.

“Mr. Lyons is…prosperous. He…you see how he runs things. It’s not fair dad doesn’t pay his rent. It’s not fair he wants to take our Joey too. But it’s what Lyons has to live on. That’s how his occupation works," you replied. It could be worse.

Joey brushed his lips as if in dismissal of his potential owner.

“But, Y/N, do you like him?” Albert asked.

You paused.

“Not really.”

You looked down at the town below. Birds sang their carefree songs over your head. You noted a few blue wildflowers.

“Lyons has a son, doesn’t he?” you asked.

“Yes- David’s his name!” Albert responded.

You bent down and began picking a few. You put them in your apron pocket and then went up and looked at Albert.

“Every meeting that boy stands there. Doesn’t even do anything! He just sneers at everyone all the time!” you commented.

“Andrew calls him air-nose! Cause his nose is always in the air, the big snob!” Albert teased.

He mimicked the gesture with a perfect sneer. You smiled. But then your original idea caught you. You put a hand in your pocket to touch the flowers as your smile faded with your words.

“How old’s David?”

“Fifteen-Same as me,” Albert replied.

So that meant Lyons was old enough to be your father. You let out a sigh.

“Maybe it was just flirting and he'll move on and forget it. Maybe it’s my imagination…” you dismissed.

Joey flicked his tail behind him. Albert kept one hand to pat his long snout.

“If it ain’t, don’t worry, Y/N. If he or any old goat ever tries something funny with you, tell me. I don’t care if he owns the place or not. I’ll box his ear off!”

“Thank you!” you wished.

You stopped to pet Joey, gently touching his long, copper neck. Grateful the horse was now used to you and softened at your touch.

“And please train Joey to kick him. Hard,” you added.

“You bet!” Albert laughed.

Your brother stopped petting his horse to give you a half-hug. Then you both continued walking your path. Your skirt grazed past some long grass and floated in the breeze with it. Noticing another bunch of pretty wildflowers, you both paused to gather some up and put them in your apron pocket.

“So, Y/N I finally got a name for Goose- Harold! What do you think? Fits him, doesn’t it!” Albert announced.

“He definitely looks like a Harold to me!” you agreed.

· · ─────── ·𖥸· ─────── · · Summer, 1912.

It was a hot July day. Still hot as your shift ended and you left. Grateful for the breeze as you left town and walked up the hill to home. Much to your surprise, you saw two horses before the stone fence you did not recognize. One was a speckled one that chewed on dandelions. The other was an intimidating black stallion that shook its mane and kicked the grass.

As you opened the gate, Albert came running up.

“Y/N! Y/N! We have guests! Guests for tea!” he cried.

“Who?”

“These fellows- soldiers! They were watchin' the lands on duty! Then they found our farm and stopped by! One says he knows you!”

“What!?” you cried.

You immediately walked inside. There was your mother just putting the kettle on.

But there he was, Captain Nicholls, still in uniform. Sitting right at your table! And next to him was the gentleman with a mustache. As you walked closer, you saw the mustachioed man take off his hat. He was only barely shorter than Captain Nicholls. You took note more of his appearance- he had dark hair, as opposed to Nicholl’s auburn hair. But both had high cheekbones.

“Oh- more company!” replied the mustachioed man.

But Nicholls himself stood up, as did his companion.

“Miss Narracott! We’re glad you’re here in time!” Nicholls greeted.

“We’re glad to have you- both of you!” you replied.

Your head turned to the gentleman.

“And may I have an introduction, please?” the gentleman asked.

He smiled and then reached for a handshake.

“Stewart. Major Jaimie Stewart,” he introduced himself.

“Miss Y/N Narracott, pleased to meet you.”

The kettle boiled, the leaves brewed, and tea was served. Father even came in to talk. Everyone sipped as everyone began to question the two soldiers. They didn’t brag about their triumphs in battle. They spoke of their daily lives.

“Fell off him! Then the horse only galloped away! I fell right on my bum in front of our general- there!” Steward finished.

Even Dad laughed. He got out a pipe and lit it.

“So, tell us, where do you fellows both come from? Your families?” he asked.

“Parents both fell ill and died when I was a child,” Stewart explained.

You set down your white and blue porcelain cup.

“Oh, I’m so sorry!” you commented.

“I was raised by my aunt and uncle in London. I had a small family. But that’s not the case for Jim, here!” Stewart said.

He patted Nicholl’s back. He smiled, his eyes bright as he explained.

“I was born in Somerset. My mother was once a pianist and would still give lessons in the town and play at church. Father is a lawyer, but he had a soft spot for books and plays. They met at a little theatre club- she would play piano, and he would act. I’m the oldest of five brothers and sisters.”

“Five!” you cried. It was a lot to have just one, headstrong brother!

“You get quite used to it! We still write to each other all the time!” he replied with a small laugh.

You then smiled.

“I bet it was quite busy!” Mum said. She went to the kitchen and pulled out biscuits on a plate.

“Yes, indeed it was!” He replied.

Nicholls then accepted a biscuit and put it on his saucer. It was the plainer kind. The cheaper kind. He bit into it but showed no grimace. Stewart helped himself to two.

“Sorry it’s not much, we weren’t expecting company…” mum apologized.

“Oh, not at all! These are very good!” said Nicholls.

“You do make an excellent tea as well, Mrs. Narracott,” Major Stewart complimented.

She beamed at them as she finished her drink. Then mum began to return everyone’s cups to the kitchen.

“Now that we’ve had tea, may I see the horse, please?” Nicholls asked.

The soldiers, your brother, and you all walked out to the field. Albert opened the stable door and out trotted the horse.

“Joeys got a brushin’ today! Shiny as a smile on a weddin’, he is!” Albert bragged.

“Leave him to Jim, here. He’s the expert!” Stewart said.

“Yes, I’d love to look at him!” Nicholls added.

Out to the small field, guarded by the stone fence. There Joey stood, eating grass and brushing his tail.

“Ah-here he is!” Albert pointed out.

He put his hands to his mouth and let out the owl call.

“Gentlemen-watch out!” you warned the soldiers. You put out an arm to keep them back.

Joey’s ears picked up. Thankfully he didn’t break into an overexcited gallop. Only a cheerful prance. Nicholls walked forward to the horse. He offered out a hand. You wondered if Joey’s head would buck or make a sudden reaction. He did none. He allowed Nicholls to pet his muzzle. He smiled as he studied the horse- his eyes and his shape.

“He’s an excellent fellow. Very fine!” Nicholls praised.

“Nowhere near Topthorn,” muttered Stewart.

He looked down at the horses’ feet and then the teeth. How touching to see such an excitable being would be calm in the presence of this man. Allowing for gentle pats without resistance.

“Does he ride?” Nicholls asked.

“Not yet- almost there. Got to teach him to plow, is all!” Albert explained.

Not is all. He had to. All bets were on this animal. If he failed, there would be no more of the home you knew for so long. You and your family would have to beg relatives to squeeze you in. Or beg on the streets…

“He’s going to make a fine plow horse we…we hope…” you finished.

The two men turned to you.

“Hope?” repeated Stewart.

You nodded. Tears welled in your eyelids.

“The Landlord says he’ll take the farm and horse too if Joey’s unable to plow the crops for our rent…excuse me…” you said, feeling the sadness overwhelm you.

You turned around, taking three steps away. You began wiping tears with your hand and sleeve. Then you looked up and saw Nicholls offering a handkerchief from his pocket.

“Here, Miss Narracott,” he said.

You accepted it and began to wipe it off. You turned back around. Albert let go of the reins to let Joey trot around.

“My sister was always the worrier-but she’ll be grinnin' and laughin' in no time! Why? Because Joey is perfectly able to! He’s almost there!” Albert declared.

Stewart folded his arms and looked up and down the horse.

“He definitely has the strength to. how is he doing?” he asked.

“Just won’t move, sir- just trots around the bottom field. Or stands. He doesn’t like the plow on ‘im, sir. But I noticed somethin’- he likes it when I imitate things! He ate oats after I’d pretend to eat ‘em!” Albert explained.

Both Nicholls and Stewart returned to the horse. Joey stopped to snack on some grass.

“If he won’t move, try a bit of the horsewhip. Just a light touch. It will keep him moving,” Nicholls advised Albert.

Stewart looked around.

“Where does he have to plow?” he asked.

“The bottom field,” you replied, pointing that way.

The four of you walked there. It was a long, large field with dead grass and filled with rocks. How pitiful and impossible it seemed to you. Stewart leaned down to the ground, inspecting the dirt.

“Don’t you think if there’s water, it’ll be better? Make mud, make the blade move!” Stewart suggested.

“Well-did you hear that, Albie! Those are good ideas!” you said.

Albert nodded.

“Will keep them in, sir!” he vowed.

“Well, we’ve overstayed our time! Should we start going back, Jim?” Stewart asked.

“Of course, we should!” Nicholls replied.

Stewart went back inside with Albert to say his goodbyes. But still outside, gazing at the rocky field, Nicholls turned to you.

“Don’t fret about it, Miss Narracott,” he said.

You returned his handkerchief, which he placed in his breast pocket.

“I’m so sorry for crying in front of you officers,” you mumbled.

“There is no need for shame, Miss. You’re in a frightening position,” he comforted.

“I’m afraid…we’ll lose our home, our life…” you added on.

“Joey is more than capable of plowing. He has the ability- Albert just has to train him in the right way. He must figure out what works.”

“I just think sometimes my life’s slipping away from me and I can’t do anything about it,” you confessed.

The chickens passed the front yard, clucking away. The wind whistled in your ears, cooling you from the sun.

“Do you know of any way you can help Albert?” Nicholls asked.

You blinked.

“I could…I could pick up on some of the chores Albie does. I can feed the chickens more and check on Joey’s stable for water and food. To buy him time to train. It isn’t much…” you sighed.

Nicholls smiled at you.

“It will make a difference. That will make you feel better. And in control.”

“Thank you, Captain…for the handkerchief, your words, everything,” you said.

Both of you began to walk back inside. The gentlemen put their caps back on their heads.

“When are Albert and Joey going to continue to try plowing?” Stewart asked.

“Tomorrow morning. Starting at dawn,” you answered.

“Then…by all means, if we can be there to help, we shall!” Nicholls promised. · · ─────── ·𖥸· ─────── · · You hurried from work back home. You had to see how plowing was going- you had to. But to your great surprise when there was a crowd of people already at your property. And normally you weren’t used to massive company on your lands! Men and women, rich and poor and between, old people and little children, all gathered to see the field. They leaned against the fence that protected the bottom field. They were watching the attempted plowing like a circus!

Albert was right there with Joey. He put on a mock plow like the one around his horse. Albert’s shirt was drenched with sweat. If they began at dawn, they must have been at it for hours by now. Joey was not motivated to run. The horse stopped. The crowd all began to gossip, stare, jeer, and cheer. Some were even taking bets among them, swapping prices for if the field got plowed or not.

“Come on…come on- the whip!” you urged.

Albert used a whip and that made Joey move. He trotted forward. The blade moved across the field. But it only dug a few inches. Not deep.

Then Joey stopped.

In the back, you saw dad and Lyons sitting on a rock, watching. Lyons turned to your father.

“I’ll give you a day to gather everything even, make the arrangements…” the landlord reasoned.

You scowled, but only gripped the fence tighter than say anything. Then you ran forward to the shed and retrieved a water can, still heavy with water.

Walking out to the field, you watered the ground before the blade. Then you turned to Albert and Joey.

“Here…it should help…Albie, cup your hand, you need it!” You offered.

You already smelt the stench of labor from your brother. He cupped his hand and drank. Cupping your own palm, you offered the water to Joey. You noticed the sweat on the horse’s coat too. He lapped his large tongue on your mouth. You couldn’t help but smile at the tickling sensation.

“I can keep pumping from the spout- just holler!” you offered.

You dumped the rest of the water in a path before the plow blade.

Looking around the crowd. You heard that most were cheering the two of them on.

“Go on, Albert! You can do it! Come on- you can do it!” they shouted.

When you looked in the group, sure enough, you saw Stewart. Nicholls was right beside him. Still in uniform from being on duty. Nicholls then turned to you.

“Miss! How are you- how was work?” he asked.

“Very boring compared to this! But look!” You pointed.

The blade sunk better into the ground you managed to water. It was a little, but better than nothing. You heard a couple of claps and whistles.

“Your ideas- they’re working!” you thanked Stewart.

As Albert brought on the whip. He cracked it a little harder. It made Joey trot forward for a minute. But he was still struggling- it was difficult, rocky land. You noticed this time the horse was struggling- he was using his strength to the weight of the plow. Perhaps it was too heavy for him in the first place!

“Oh, dear god, I cannot stand it!” you cried.

Your house, your future, everything was on this! Nicholls then looked at you.

“Then you know what to do- keep watering the ground, Miss Narracott!” he reasoned.

“But…”

“Consider this an order from a captain,” he added.

You nodded.

“Then yes, Captain Nicholls, I will…”

You then ran to the pump in the front yard. You put the can under the spout and began to pump out water. Your movements were quick and desperate. Your family’s life depended on it. Nearby was a bucket empty of chicken feed. You added it below and pumped water into it for good measure. You were grunting from the effort. You were sweating and the bottom of your work skirt was dirty- but did that matter at that moment? Dirt could wash off later.

“It’s heavy- here- would you like help?” Nicholls offered, walking up.

“Yes…I would- carry it out to the field and back, that’s all!” you pleaded.

“It’s my pleasure, Miss Narracott!"

He followed you out and both of you watered the ground near the blade of the plow. As you backed off, sure enough, Joey moved under Albert’s whip and the blade dug. Some dark clouds gathered above you. Many stopped squinting from the shade.

Then once it got to dryer ground, it was harder to go through. Joey struggled to move the plow, neighing with the effort. The crowd was beginning to disperse. There was a smirk on Lyons's face. How you wished you could strike him and wipe it off! You grabbed your skirts and frowned.

But as a few people walked away- some stayed. There was Si Easton and his son, Andrew- your closest neighbor and Albert’s oldest friend. A few optimistic locals. Lyons, David, their servant, and the motorcar. Stewart and Nicholls remained, their faces both white. Your feet screamed for you to sit after work, but you were frozen in place. Dad slumped as he sat on his rock. Mum ran out, her knitting still gripped in her hand. It felt as if your fate was sealed when…

There was a boom of thunder. You looked up. The dark clouds covered the sky. There was a first putter of drops. Lyons and his son fled to their motorcar for shelter. You looked at the two soldiers.

“I’ll fetch some umbrellas- we have two!” you suggested.

You ran and got them out, already your legs were tired from all the dashing about. You handed the umbrellas to them.

“Here, stand with us- where it’s dry,” Nicholls offered.

“Thank you,” you replied.

He held the umbrella and opened it. You were grateful for the shelter. Rain pelted from above against the umbrellas. You stood next to Nicholls as Stewart began to cup his hands to cheer.

It then hit you how close you both were to Nicholls. Too close for just a brushing of clothes. He could touch you with his bare hands. You felt warm and shaky and nervous. Your stomach burst into a hundred butterflies dallying about in your guts. You glanced at him as he looked at the field. How handsome his profile was- a triangular nose, thick lashes, pink lips. You could smell the sun from his uniform. Then you forced your eyes forward. You remained standing.

Stewart then shouted.

“COME ON, ALBERT! JOEY! NOW! Now while it’s wet! Look!”

Albert looked around. The ground was moistened by the rain. And movable.

With a determined shout, Albert gave the whip another crack. Joey broke into a gallop. You gasped-the blade cut through the ground like a knife cutting chocolate cake.

It was getting plowed properly. Joey kept running. Some shouted at him to avoid the bigger rocks. But they shouted in vain. The blade cut clean through the biggest rocks on the field!

The leaving crowd then returned. They whistled and broke into applause that rivaled the thunder. Men tossed their caps into the air and caught them. Joey kept running, Albert behind, cheering along. Dad was smiling- the biggest smile you had seen in ages. No one seemed to care about the rainstorm drenching them. Lyons pursed his lips beneath his red mustache. His servant held his umbrella once he left his motorcar, jaw hung low. Mum clutched her knitting to her heart and grinned.

You broke from the umbrella and ran to give her a hug. She hugged you back.

‘He…he did it…the bottom fields going to have crops! It’s getting plowed!” you cried.

“Oh, you helped them- that’s my girl and my boy- that’s both of you!”

“I’m so relieved, mum!”

“So am I!”

You ran to the rock, taking dad’s hands.

“It’s plowed! It’s plowed!” you cheered.

“It’s plowed! And I’ll need help seedin’ it! Might as well start after the storm!” he said, blinking as rain pelted him.

With a laugh, you hugged your father and kissed his cheek.

“I’ll help you dad- be glad to!”

Glancing back, you saw the soldiers smiling. They walked forward, offering shelter from the umbrellas.

“As I said- he’s a fine, strong horse,” Nicholls said.

“You were right Captain, thank you.” You replied.

“Then we’ll see you about. Give Albert our congrats,” Stewart said.

They returned the umbrellas, which you held with both hands. Nicholls smiled at you as he tipped his cap and left with the Major. Your mother returned to the fence to watch, clutching her knitting in one hand. She did not care for the wet strands of hair blowing in her face.

Lyons, his servant holding his umbrellas at his heels, approached her.

“I’d not let a child of mine slip in the mud alongside a plow blade. He could lose a foot!”

Mum turned to him. With the fury of an ancient goddess, she aimed the sharp knitting needles at Lyons. Both Lyons and the servant backed off. You couldn’t help but keep smiling.

“You’ll likelier lose an eye, Mr. Lyons, if you carry on prating at me how to manage my son! Or my family Or my plow or my horse or my field or my farm!”

She ran back to the gate. You opened one umbrella for both of you. But she kept, running out of the way of the shelter. Cheering on boy and horse.

“Come on Albie! Push on through!” she yelled.

You glanced back at Lyons from beneath the umbrellas.

“You will listen to her. She’ll do it.” You added on.

“I’ll say this- the Narracott men are stubborn fools, but at least the women have some sense in them- both of them,” Lyons replied.

He tipped his hat and smiled, still watching from his window as the motorcar drove off. You tried to keep your eyes on the field finally getting plowed at last. Though to how much he was looking at the field or looking at you, you’d rather not think about.

[wordtowords]

The Gospel Truth in "Barbie"

gospel truth - noun - something that is absolutely true (Google).

It's a challenge to find truth these days, especially gospel truth, since so many prefer to live inside of lies. Let's face it. It tends to be safer to deceive the self. However, every once in a while, there comes a social phenomenon that speaks veracity albeit in a roundabout way, and audiences take notice. Take the recent billion-dollar-grossing, movie-hit "Barbie," which uses innocence to underscore guilt in our society. As good satire purports to do, it quietly exposes human flaws between the breaths viewers take to recover from bouts of laughter. 

What "Barbie" does well is return to the war between the sexes. In brilliant, pastel, technicolor "Barbie Land," the film's first setting, viewers see hordes of Barbies of all shapes, sizes, colors, etc. as happy, healthy, successful, prosperous, intelligent, whereas they see the Kens existing as obscure objects who have little identity and virtually nothing to do but "beach," or stand around and look pretty on sand. Of course, the depiction is a magnification of a world in which women rule. Yet once Ken gets a taste of the real world of L.A., thanks to Barbie who needs to return there to save herself and the other Barbies, he joyfully uncovers the opposite of Barbie Land in that the patriarchy or his male people rule. Soon, he returns to "Barbie Land" intent on making a change for what he feels is the better. The transformation he poses amounts to "Kendom," a land wherein men can be their stereotypical, self-possessed selves and Barbies are reduced to "long term, long distance, low commitment, casual girlfriends." Ugh! (Did this phrase ring true, especially for me as my relationship with my own long-term, long-distant L.A. guy is perhaps a living example of Ken's false ideal.)

If "Barbie" does shine a flashlight on the gospel truth about relationships between women and men, we are in trouble. Lurking beneath the skin of this heavily made-up satire is the realization that we need to look closely at how we treat each other and what our priorities actually are. In both Barbie Land and Kendom, the self (or just which sex is more deserving to reign) seems to take precedence over other selves (humans sans labels), so much so that there isn't enough time to give to worthwhile pursuits, such as unselfish, loving relationships. In real life, our undying quest for identifying labels, meaningful work, and effective technology consumes us, eventually making us anxious and/or depressed, another truth that the movie exposes in one scene via the innocuous play of human eight-year-old girls. As we watch and listen to "Barbie," we guffaw at the exaggeration of the fictive aspects, but when we leave the theater, we realize the themes that the film presents really aren't anything to laugh about. As they say, "The truth hurts."

On the other hand, the positive takeaway is that there is hope. Hope that the millions of audience members who have seen the movie at least once, if not more, won't accept the movie at face value. "Barbie" is eons away from a kids' movie. So if you haven't seen it, please do. It might change something about your own life. 

[the-unified-programs]

Sooo, first off, we decided that since it might not be immediately apparent from us, our blog welcomes anyone who:

Is on the spectrum

Is a system in any way (hello fellow systems!)

LGBTQ+ or an ally

Is trans

Is nonbinary

Use neopronouns

Use xenogenders

And many more!

We want this to be seen as a safe space for anyone that any of the above applies to, and welcome you all with open arms!

You may notice a button that says "Yeet the Questions". Feel free to use it to either ask us something or just talk to us in general! We don't mind! You can do so anonymously or not, we don't mind!

Anyways, let's actually introduce ourselves so you can get an idea of who we are.We are The Unified Programs, but you can just call us Unity! We are a plural system of going on 200 and we have a ton of fictives! Like, seriously, almost everyone in our system is a fictive.

We tend to reblog stuff we really like or find funny! Feel free to check our tags in posts too; sometimes we ramble on a bit and you might find a hidden gem of funny in there if our humor actually allowed for it.

Many of our programs are a part of the LGBTQ+ community, and those who aren't entirely in it are strong allies and support everyone within it!

Oh, what's that? "What's a program," You ask, "and what's operating mean?" Ah, we kinda forgot that some may not know, but that's what we call our headmates! We ask that you call our headmates either programs or headmates, not alters. We never really connected with the term alters.

As for more terminology we use in our system, here's some you may see us use and what we mean by them:

Programs: as mentioned above, what we call our headmates!

Byte: whenever we refer to a byte as if we are talking about someone, we are talking about a little (child) in our system!

Operating: the term we use in place of fronting! So whoever is operating is the one currently speaking!

Operator: our term for anyone fronting. So at the time of writing this, Sakra is the operator!

Co-operator/co-operating: terms we use for someone fronting with someone else and what we call co-fronting! For those who don't know, co-fronting is where two or more headmates front at one time! It's a really common occurrence for us!

Admins: what we call the hosts of our system! We have seven admins, who we will introduce by name below!

The Simulation: not really a term, but just what we call our headspace as a whole. There are many different parts of the Simulation that have their own names and uses, but we won't entirely get into them here to save space and make this shorter.

Those are all of the terms we use (or at least, all we can think of. Some new ones may be added)!

As for the names of our admins, they are:

Sakra Kaine, the one who usually operates but sometimes doesn't when something goes on either in the real world or in the Simulation.

Saerin, the one who provides a lot of emotional support for Sakra especially, but the other admins as well. Also Very Gay™.

Averaine, the small child of chaos that we still don't understand why she was trusted with being an admin, but she totally hasn't committed some form of war crimes, we swear.

Severin, has three brain cells at most, and is also a bit shy, but he does have a tendency to go on about things he likes.

Pastfinder, the one who usually deals with trying to find information from the past. Think of her like someone who sees the future, but instead, she sees the past!

Sky, the very angry one. It's quite easy to set him off, but he tends to have a lot of self-control especially out in public, so no need to worry about him too much!

Snow, also quite easily annoyed, but not on the same scale as Sky. He's just incredibly annoyed that people make fun of him for being on regal and acting like royalty and stuff. He really isn't royalty, or at least, we don't think he is, but he tends to get upset if you don't refer to him as at least a prince, so yeah.

Those are our seven admins, but we do have a very common program who operates quite often!

Swift, the true emotional support of the entire system, despite her personality pointing towards otherwise. Usually upset and wanting to be alone, if Swift sees something wrong with anyone in the system, she'll take the time to go comfort them. Sakra tends to be her number one priority, but she travels all throughout the Simulation to give comfort to anyone who needs it.

As for pronouns, feel free to use any pronouns! Like, literally any. Neopronouns included. Plural they/them is really good if you don't know who specifically is operating, since we all use different pronouns individually!

As for what you'll see around here, you'll see a combination of many things! Pokemon, Sonic the Hedgehog, Flight Rising, and just dragons in general! We'll also occasionally post our own art here when we finish it!

And we believe that's it! Quite long, but we tend to go on a lot when it comes to this sort of stuff. If we think we missed something, we'll add it in, but until then, see you around!

[fireandspiceland]

Nation America discovering hes gay in a war scenario? (Doesnt have to be with another nation bit if so Russia)

okay so it took me a while to find a good way to approach this because due to my lack in interest while I was in school and very boring teachers I have like zero knowledge about american and russian history. but uhm. heres a fictional little war setting :)

-> mentions of war (duh), feelings, this is kinda sad tbh, first kiss, absolutely no historical accuracy or relations to any real life events

"Fuck!" America cried out, but immediately gritted his teeth when the sharp pain eased slightly. He took a few deep breaths through his nose, trying to relax his body and calm down. By now he should be used to this, but the thick girth of Ivan's cock spreading him open still always came as a surprise.

It’d been nearly a year since he had left home, about 9 months that he knew Ivan, and precisely 147 days since they had come up with this arrangement. It had been winter, the freezing cold gnawing at their clothes, their skin, their bones. It had been the biggest cliche Alfred could imagine to happen, but if they hadn’t wanted to freeze to death they had had to share the little warmth that still was radiating from their sore bodies. Getting out of the layers of clothes and wrapped up in each other’s limbs, a pile of dirty uniforms, and worn out sleeping bags had been a fight on its own. But it had saved their lives that night, which was more than some of their comrades could claim.

When morning had approached, the storm had already subsided and Alfred had woken up to the sound of Ivan’s uneven breath and squirming. Only when the sounds coming from Ivan had started to become a little louder, Alfred had identified them as moans rather than whines. He remembered how he had suddenly felt a cold shiver run down his spine when Ivan’s rather prominent erection had been rubbing against his thigh. Maybe it was the lack of sleep, the exhaustion, the constant fear of dying or just overall insanity taking over, but Alfred wasn’t grossed out then. And he wasn’t grossed out now.

Now that he was clawing to the edge of the sink he was bent over in the small tent that served as a bathroom, while his comrade repeatedly thrust into him.

Alfred tried not to focus on the act itself, as he always did. Thinking about how they were two men who fucked each other for the sake of it, for the lack of better options, and to forget about the world outside for a moment.. it wasn't something he wanted to put too much thought into.

A quick look back confirmed that Ivan's eyes were pressed shut, tongue darting out to wetten his lips that were dried out from panting. Alfred wondered who Ivan had on his mind while he fucked him. They never talked much about their private life. Was there someone waiting for him back home? A girlfriend? A fiancé? Maybe even a wife? Did he have childre-

"Ah! That's.. god.."

Alfred's entire body had jerked forward when Ivan grazed his prostate, hitting the edge of the sink into his lower stomach, but the pain was immediately overridden by pleasure. Strong hands gripped Alfred's hips and pulled him back, thumbs caressing his spread cheeks as Ivan's thrust became faster and deeper.

With a muffled groan Ivan spilled into the condom, his grip bruising Alfred's pale hips. When Ivan's cock had stopped twitching inside him, Alfred cleared his throat, pulling Ivan from his orgasmic bliss.

"S-sorry.."

Ivan shakily removed his hands from Alfred's body and slowly pulled out before getting rid of the condom. Alfred took a moment to catch his breath before straightening up from his crouched position and pulling the bottoms of his uniform and underwear back up.

"Wait, Fredka.. You're.."

With a vague gesture Ivan referred to the obvious bulge straining Alfred's pants. He tried to dismiss the comment with a gesture of his own and a forced smile, but when Ivan approached him and freed his erection again, his throat went dry.

"What are you..? It's really not.."

"No, Fredka. We are comrades. We have each other's back, no? I shall return what you did for me. I don't like being indebted when I don't know how long I'm alive to return the favour."

For a moment Alfred studied the look in Ivan's eyes, but he couldn't find anything else than genuineness. He gave a curt nod before Ivan sank to his knees and took a hold of his hard cock, stroking it slowly.

The ground was cold and uninviting, but Ivan's pride and sense of duty didn't allow him to leave Alfred behind without taking care of the other man's needs as well. It didn't matter if it was out there on the battlefield or in here in the small tent, Ivan wouldn't leave his comrade behind. He wrapped his lips around the tip of Alfred's length, sucking gently while he kept stroking the shaft. His eyes were closed, but he looked up when he felt fingers gently carding through his hair.

Alfred's eyes were pressed shut, his mouth covered by one hand to avoid letting the entire company partake in their activities, when he felt Ivan's hand on his own at the side of his head. His eyes flew open at the gentle touch, but Ivan kept sucking and stroking unperturbed, only showing Alfred that he can use his mouth just like he had used him a few minutes ago.

Gradually, Alfred tightened the hold he had on Ivan's head, fisting his hair as he guided his mouth up and down his cock. He wanted to close his eyes again and think of.. what did he want to think of again? Watching his length disappear between Ivan's lips was almost hypnotic, strands of fair hair whipping back and forth, his nose close to touching the curly pubes.

Ivan opened his eyes when Alfred forced himself deeper down his throat, making him choke and tear up. The way Ivan's mouth and throat constricted around Alfred's cock sent a hot wave of pleasure through his body. He kept watching Ivan as he quickened his pace and couldn't stop looking at the man at his feet. He was beautiful. The glassy eyes, flawless skin, soft hair, plush lips.. Oh, those lips. He wondered how they would feel. How it would feel to kiss the man who had saved his life a few times since he met him. The man who was always at his side, who he trusted with his life.

"Ivan.. Please.."

Alfred yanked him off his cock at the collar of Ivan's jacket and up into standing position, before pulling him into a heated kiss. Ivan stiffened for a moment, too shocked to do anything but let Alfred kiss his wet lips. When the initial surprise had worn off and Alfred was about to pull back, Ivan grabbed the back of his head to kiss him again. His other hand was still stroking Alfred's cock, movements now getting faster as Alfred thrust into his hand.

"Fuck, I'm gon-"

The sentence ended with a moan that Ivan swallowed. He kept his focus on the sensitive head of Alfred's cock, rubbing it with his thumb until he had to bite Alfred's lip so he wouldn't let the entire company know about his climax.

Alfred had quickly cupped one hand over the tip of his cock so as to not stain their uniforms. He fell back against the sink, making it the one thing that kept him on his legs once again. Only when Ivan was sure Alfred had ridden out his orgasm, he let go of his lips and stepped away.

He gave Alfred a lopsided smile and straightened out his uniform, while the other man could only watch him in shock and awe. Awe about Ivan's effortless beauty, and shock about the realisation that he was about to fall head over heels for a man who he might spend the rest of his life with.