#so glad im NOT THEREE ANYMORE

[burningeyeslikestars]

i keep having reoccurring dreams where im back at the house i grew up in in the PNW...... sometimes its like we bought the house back and still have our house in new england.... like a west coast home and an east coast home..... sometimes im just stuck there .......

[thebirdandhersong]

???? something something deep discomfort with body image is it generational?????????

[copepods]

if (when) beyond the spiderverse is delayed i dont wanna see ANYONE complaining btw. if it takes 2, 3 years for the workers to create a good product and not crunch and overwork themselves that’s what it takes!!!!

[artttho]

i think hes pretty neat ヽ(´▽`)/

[skitskatdacat63]

Happy 5/14!!!!

Aaaaahh not sure if this is my best work 😭 I just really wanted to draw smth for vettonso day but my brain hasn't really been functioning well LOL so I kept dreading working on this, especially bcs its so important to me, y'know? I hope it's good????? I'm happy with the concept, but I was just so unsure on so many of the angles and it was killing me. I did the color thing bcs I thought it'd add something interesting to it :) since I didn't paint it as I usually would

Anyways! Process!

Now I will explain all of them:

Boy king au is where it all starts of course. I think their relationship is the most developed in this compared to the others, but at the same point, they just start from such a different point, especially affection-wise. All of these kinda have a power dynamic, except the last one, and this is the most imbalanced. Fernando is being subservient, the only part of Seb he may kiss(in public lol) is his hand.

Matador au next. They hurt themselves when they try to be affectionate, because they live in the culture of a sport of violence and death. The sword separates them, their love for the sport keeps them apart, in fear that they hurt each other. Seb, yet again, looks down upon Fernando. Seb haunts Fernando's whole career, the constant overhanging presence. Also aside from that, shame that you can't see his three musketeers look bcs of the black background 😔

2012 core!!! I think this one is pretty easy to understand. Both of them often kiss their trophies, more so than any driver. So they're both trying to claim the wdc trophy by kissing it. Maybe you guys should just get rid of the trophy altogether and claim each other! But yes, just like the sword in the matador au one, the trophy and their ambitions divides, keeps them from ever bridging the vast gap between them, at least at that point in time.

The conclusion! Aka what I wish we will get at Imola 2024- kidding kidding. But it is 2024. Finally there is no conflict between them, there's no big thing keeping them in conflict, they can finally come together. Finally they can touch, there is no gap to bridge, they can appreciate each other, and appreciate what they failed to in years past.

The thesis is basically that they always have their aspirations between them, and their aspirations happen to be basically the same thing. Until those are resolved, the gap between them is too vast for them to recognize and/or find any commonality. How do you get along with someone when you're both fighting for the same thing? How do you get along when it feels like one of you is winning more? How do you get along when there's such a vast gap?

In boy king au, it's going to take a while before they both feel settled about the issue of the throne. That's what makes that au interesting, they're trapped in this state of non-closure and they have to actually solve their issues without the matter of one of them simply removing themselves from the equation. They have to find a way to get over themselves and their aspirations, because like it or not they're stuck with each other. I think with the hand kissing, it represents how Fernando, at that point, is only willing to play along with the game if it's tradition, and he often won't budge in other ways. Yes, I will show subservience, but only in this detached, formal way that I don't connect personally to. He's still holding his own bitterness over meaningfully appreciating Seb. Though it's not like Seb isn't at fault. It takes a while for him to not hold things over Fernando, and constantly humiliate him. One day they will meaningfully show affection, and it won't be some sort of power play.

I think matador au is pretty similar to real life, and the 2010s era(it's basically just their actual plot line but in the context of bullfighting.) They're forever going to have this big elephant in the room, and it only really gets resolved when one of them leaves the sport. Once they're not fighting directly against each other, they realize what they've been missing out on and what they were not appreciating for so many years beforehand. They finally come together because they can't just rely anymore on the sport keeping them together. They actually have to make that step to be in each other's lives, rather than just taking their presence for granted.

Also the text on the comic. "We keep missing, and missing, and missing, and finally kissing." It's basically: we keep missing the point of it all, we keep failing to appreciate each other presence in our lives and in our own individual grand stories. But when we're not forced together anymore, we have to make the choice to come together again ourselves. We keep missing what we actually need to do. Missing each other in favor of our aspirations. Etc etc. One day we will finally embrace and there will be nothing keeping us apart.

[daily-linkclick]

thank you everyone for following this blog for the daily doodles! i think i'll officially stop the daily doodles (for now) but i'll still be uploading doodles from time to time! i'm so happy to see a lot more link click fans on tumblr, and to see a lot more people appreciate the trio and the stories they touch :]

[jils-things]

oh my goodness

i think ill cry happy /gen

[mukuberry]

ive selfshipped pretty much all my life... when i was an early teen i selfshipped with one character and was extremely dependent on them. selfshipping is a good coping mechanism but it was very unhealthy back then;; they were all i talked about, which was very annoying to my hs friends, so they were v harsh about them + my attachment to them, which just made me more dependent on them because it felt like they were the only one who understood me and supported me. what im trying to say is im really glad i get to talk about selfshipping on here and not only don't have to deal with people being rude but also know that alot of people on here get it, being selfshippers themselves. its nice :)

[ozziesjester]

sorry not sorry for systemposting but. knowing im not the original host is so so weird. i found an old facebook account our OG host made that i did not remember at all. looking through it isn't nostalgic because that's not me, but it is me. trying to remember anything from back then is like watching things happen to her through a camera

she was such a sad and lonely little girl and i want to go back and tell her everything's okay for us now. i hope she's proud of who we are today, wherever she is

[zephyrfuse]

been seeing a lot more foos bring up the problem with splat players using black skins now with the whole Jackpot scandal and reminded me of you bringin it up since I first heard about it from you. So I thought it's nice that this shit is being brought up and addressed now

I looked it up and although i dont know too much about it, um. yeah!!!!!!!! literally racism and casual racism is so prevalent in gaming spaces and splatoon is no different. Ive been looking away from splat recently, but after seeing whats going on in the community and the competitive scene is what it is, im just glad theres a lot of awareness being spread about what ever the hell is going on. I def knew that competitive players were using basically splatoon black face for really bullshit racist reasons in the japanese community, and it seems to be the same pretty much everywhere. I'm glad people are bringing it up more because the racism in this community is terrible and its one of the reasons why I wanted to distance myself from it. (im the fool because casual colorism racism anti blackness and orientalism exists in nearly every damn fandom everywhere I go I end up throwing hands)

Oh boy i cannot wait for a bunch of pale people to start guilt talking that theyre so damn scared of interacting, making, or engaging with anything that isnt white after this, good god im not ready.

[kaguya-muneuji]

HI IM HERE ABOUT THE. ENSTARS HQ AU.…….. this au feeds into my insanities too can i ask to hear about the rest of the cast’s positions 👁️👁️

hELLO yes hi im absolutely obsessed with this au lets see if i can copy/paste from my document aksjdjksdf i have starpro and cospro done so !! under the cut bc it gets a bit long :')

i have notes for all the characters but im just gonna put in their positions and anything thats immediately important also i havent assigned them numbers but ill get to that eventually

STARPRO: (theres 16 players btw. starpro does not need this many) fine eichi - manager wataru - wing spiker (ace) yuzuru - libero tori - right back (bench-warmer)

trickstar subaru - wing spiker makoto - middle blocker mao - setter hokuto - middle back

alkaloid hiiro - wing spiker (jump serve) aira - middle back tatsumi - left back mayoi - right wing * notes: all of alkaloid are bench-warmers / pinch players . sorry

ryusetai chiaki - setter kanata - middle back midori - middle blocker tetora - right wing shinobu - right back

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COSPRO: (only 10 players this time) eden nagisa - middle blocker (ace) hiyori - wing spiker jun - setter ibara - libero * notes: nagi and ibara are defense duo, hiyo and jun are attack duo

crazy:b rinne - middle blocker (jump serve) HiMERU - middle back niki - right back kohaku - wing spiker (will beat your ass btw)

valkyrie shu - setter mika - wing spiker * notes: early season kage.hina (hq) parallels here, with shu setting "perfect" but difficult balls to mika who can barely hit them properly

2wink hinata - manager 1 yuta - manager 2

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in an alternate universe, ibara is the manager and 2wink are a power-duo on the court!

as a manager, ibara is very set on making strategies for every single play the opposing team could make. he spends hours watching past games and analyzing them in order to help the players know what they’re up against.

due to ibara not being on the court, nagisa is not in a defense duo. instead, he focuses on his attack power as an ace. much like bokuto, though, he can get a bit moody, and the rest of the team has to work around that.

on the court, hinata and yuta are an attack/defense duo! they’re quite unpredictable, as they have no pattern to their attacks and blocks. they seem to almost have a telepathic connection when together on the court. usually they’re in the starting team to throw off the opposing team’s morale and strengthen their own.

hinata is a wing spiker, and yuta is a setter. both can set and spike if yuta gets first touch. much like the miya twins, actually (from what i remember at least)

uhh anyway thats all i have so far, still working on rhythlin and newdi! i have no ideas what to do for undead or akatsuki or mama but. its fine :D

[the-kipsabian]

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[bowtiestash]

one of the things i find funny now with my past shitty dnd experience is the fact that the problem player only seemed to really care about their own character, and whenever they drew dnd art it would look like this:

[todayisafridaynight]

i just want to know if i’m the only one but does anyone else get like really disinterested in a thing if the majority of people interpret it differently from you? like it makes me so annoyed and makes me lose interest in the thing 💀

i sat through the Strangest minedai interpretations over on twitter alone for a while but i still really enjoy minedai so between us i think it is only you. which is fine !

[rosykims]

they make me so fucking insane. absolutely bananas mode

[phagodyke]

anyway yeah relevant to that post abt being deaf/hoh and ppl excluding u from conversation bc of it (even unintentionally), that's smth that's been really deeply bothering me lately bc there are a few ppl I routinely have to deal with who do it a lot and it Pisses Me The Fuck Off I've lost all patience w them. giving up and calling it ableism and walking out idc anymore 🚶‍♂️