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i don't think i should have to choose between burnout or barely scraping at the poverty line and yet. here we are
#this is not a new realization before anyone gets on my dick#i'm just currently moving from being a student with a side-gig to mostly being employed#so I'm more annoyed about it than usual#like yes i could work 40 hours/week and that'd give me like. maybe 300 bucks of disposable income#but also i don't hate myself that much#like. just. a 30-hour week should be livable#instead of making me consider taking on a second side-gig i can do from home#like generally for so-called 'unskilled' labour#but ESPECIALLY considering that I'm like. yk. a Social Worker/Nurse#ANYWAY#fuck capitalism etc etc#mona rambles
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it is officially the one year anniversary of hz episode 16, aka THE spinel pokemon episode, therefore!
a redraw of my very first (08/01/23) digital drawing of spinel (*'▽'*)
plus cool overlay hehe
i can't believe it's been a whole year since he got his big episode ∑(゚Д゚) i don't think i'll ever be as excited for any episode as i was for 16
here's to another year of this freak !! maybe he'll actually show up soon outside of a 5 second appearance that sets up him being suspicious just for it to be forgotten for months
og under cut! (old art alert)
#pokemon#pokeani#anipoke#pokemon horizons#pokemon hz#pokemon spinel#spinel pokemon#pokemon explorers#my art#rambling moment up ahead my bad#honestly i've been pretty demotivated when it comes to making hz stuff#i've seen complaints abt hz stuff that VAGUELY resembles the stuff i make (keyword vaguely)#and it. reallyyyy got to me despite the fact that it probably isn't about my stuff at all and that i'm overthtinking it!#but it did stump me for a while until i remembered. Who Cares#my target audience is mostly myself so!#making content for your own enjoyment is much more fun (and easy) than trying to cater to anyone else#life lessons with hershey#which means i am back on that grind! maybe (school starts Very Soon)#anyways! if you read all this i swear i am not usually this much of a loser i've had character development!!#/e wave byebye#sidenote i wanted to make smth bigger since hz16 changed who i am as a person#for the worse i just got way more annoying about spinel after it#BUT..! i had to get this done in one night since i'd be dragged away from my computer until after the ep's anniversary
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The "Dan Heng is Dan Feng" dogmatics annoy me a lot. It entirely brushes off one of the most interesting and prevalent questions posed by the game, incarnated by several characters and stories that give the question different hues with different potential answers, and a constant also in HI3, like a thread waving the two games together
#The question about what makes a person themselves is super interesting#Is it the memories? Is it personality? Is it body? Is it resemblance? What about narrative reiteration?#Bronya is not Silver Wolf but they're both HI3 Bronya but also they're not#Is March the same person she once was? What about the Trailblazer? Welt looks at Himeko and Silver Wolf and feels like drowning#but he is looking at nothing other than something eerily recognisable#Vidyadhara are reborn anew as if washed clean but Dan Heng's process was skewed. What does it mean to Dan Heng?#He has the body he has the moves he has the stern haughty air he has muddy memories he can't quite recall but something stays#Is he or is he not the same? Where does one end and the other start? Where do they overlap?#Does how others regard him influence whether he is or isn't Dan Feng?#Does the memories of others weight more than your own memories and will?#What does constitute a person? How is selfhood constructed? What are the ontological implications of all this?#If you respond to these questions one way in one context when it comes to one character‚ can you confidently reply the same thing#in a different context for a different character? If not‚ why? What does it say?#It's not a straight up answer. The question is what's interesting and it's what makes Dan Heng's story interesting#Seeing it dogmatically negated mainly for the purpose of a ship annoys me a lot#It is a constant in HSR but it's even more clear after playing HI3. This problematic about what constitute identify and selfhood#and whether or not they're the same thing is a constant there too. With Kiana‚ with Otto‚ with Kevin‚ with Fu Hua‚ with the simulations#of the Flame Chasers most notably with Mobius but in general with the continuation of their goals and feelings‚ Klein as human and as ELF‚#the iteration of consciences of the Herrschers‚ the puppets of the Herrscher of Domination‚ the influence of the Herrscher of Corruption‚#the many times characters are found in different universes being slightly different yet recognisable‚ the amount of times characters seem#to reiterate existences in different eras‚ echoing past selves with past faces yet different‚...#And usually it's not easy to respond to all of them with the same answer‚ which only opens more questions. It's extremely interesting#and it's obviously a topic Honkai as a game cares about a lot. But no. Nothing matters. Dan Heng *is* Dan Feng yes or yes no questions asked#No problematic. No questioning. No doubts. All usually because of a ship. That the drive. I don't know... I'm all for shipping#but I quite dislike when shipping gets so out of hand it crushes and brushes off good writing or core motifs in a text. It's... shabby#And it saddens me haha. Why do you even care about these characters and their dynamic if you're erasing core traits of them as characters?#Abfkabdkkd anyway...#I talk too much#I should probably delete this later#But I had to vent a little. It annoys me a lot this kind of approach to analysis what can I say
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You have no idea how upset I am that Wookshys is such a good partner to Albina. This proposal is the nicest one so far!! It looks like he planned it out and everything, set up a cute little hot-tub date for just the two of them before he popped the question! Baz proposed to Zonovo in the freezer!! Why is Wookshys so darn good at what he does? This is tragic!
also, congrats to the happy couple and stuff, I guess
In brighter news, I have a quest that could give me a healer mech serum to cure Wendy's dementia! Huzzah!
We left pacifist anxiety-ridden Vu at home to look after the kids, Andy and Henry, as well as Wendy, who is still in bed with resurrection sickness.
I like to imagine lil' Hussar Henry is upset that he doesn't get to go on cool raids despite being my third-most-competent melee colonist alongside Kawoo.
Here's everyone heading back to the shuttle after finishing their "aerial assault". I did not get screenshots of the actual fight going down because I forgot about it in my panic, but basically:
Candlelight shot her T'au Rail Rifle at the wall until the Wasters came out to fight us
Albina used her bramble maze psycast to grow a patch of thorns and slow the Wasters' down as they advanced
Hazrov, the absolute legend that she is, used her long bow to take out two of four Wasters in less than a second
Brennan used her flameball psycast to kill another Waster, but not before he'd thrown a tox grenade which caused a bit of coughing for Albina, Zonovo, Debby, and Barghest
Tamarind used her skip psycast to pop Irwin and Xanxalbur next to the last Waster who was shooting at us with a bolt-action rifle, Irwin took him out quickly but got a bruise on his torso first
Irwin then destroyed the only turret and the door of the base to see if there was anything interesting inside (there wasn't)
Tamarind used her waterskip psycast to put out the fire from Brennan's flameball
Everyone piled back into the shuttle to head home while Vu and the kids gathered the rewards inside and waited for the returning heroes
So now we have a healer mech serum! Hooray! No more dementia for Wendy.
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#rimworld#gracie plays#The Animist Alliance#art#my art#traditional art#rimworld art#unpolished art#slightly more polished art than usual#Part of me wishes that Wookshys was a worse boyfriend (fiance now)#But I think Albina deserves someone nice#So I'm glad she has that at least#Even if Wookshys annoys me#I genuinely thought that the quest was going to be an elaborate trap#Seventeen soldiers against four people??#Talk about overkill but whatever#Hazrov and Irwin could have done it all by themselves#going to try the 'regrow limbs' psycast before I use the healer mech serum#Just because I'm curious haha#And I'll never know if it works until I try#Have a lovely day everyone!! <3
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4 Dean Martins of varying ages and 1 Jerry Lewis
I drew all of these within the span of an hour and was unable to keep a consistent artstyle
(References for 1, 3, & 4 under the keep reading)
#dean martin#jerry lewis#I'm so‚ so close to making my sideblog's pfp the Dean with a rose#I love doodling with crayons#I struggled so much with Jerry's hands that I just decided to cut one out of the drawing#The 3rd drawing looks a bit strange because I purposefully made my lines less flowy-#-because I knew I couldn't capture Jerry's expression realistically#I have like 4 photos of Dean in that redish vest thing and I need more. I love that outfit so much#Not to happy with his expression in my last drawing but the thing is I didn't use the reference when I drew his face-#-so it shouldn't be exactly like the picture anyway#I noticed i got a few new followers recently (thank you all so‚ so much for joining me) and I'm not sure if all of you know about these-#-essays i write in the tags. It's 100% not necessary to read all this since this is usually self-critique and info for me to look back on#But yeah‚ I very rarely have less than 5 tags. My sincerest apologies if this is annoying
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trying to finish reading dungeon meshi now that it's done and just seeing everyone in the comments talking about ships. gun to my head
#ofc anytime someone says they ship smth straight someone has to be like 'ermmmm labru and farcille are better' like. not to me.... sorry#i actually do like farcille but people are so annoying about it acting like it's 'essentially canon' that it puts me off.#tbf that why i dislike a lottttt of ships LMAO not that i'm in the habit of caring abt it too much in most media#but sometimes it just really annoys me liiike laios and marcille have just as much ship tease as farcille (if not more)#but they couldn't get naked and go in the bath together so it doesn't count ig#tbf i'm not even huge on any ships except maybe fleki and lycion. i love when two equally weird ppl love each other#also like. they already had someone in the story who was head over heels for falin and i'm pretty sure shuro and marcille act nothing alike#when it comes to her. so. eh. i mean yadda yadda subtext or whatever i guess lol but if it can just as easily read as not romantic then#i kinda find it hard to care honestly. which is why i don't really ship anything from it. which brings me back to my original point#why is that basically all people talk about when it comes to anything... it should be a garnish not the whole god damn dish#and there's soooooo much in dungeon meshi that's more interesting than romance which is basically never once a priority#anyways. i'm just being an asshole and a hater as usual so go about your business and do what you want. i'll just be mad about it alone#labru is so nothing burger though i will never understand...
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hope this isn't going to cause shit but i think tumblr users have a warped idea of what being "pretentious" means
#rambles#i see so many posts like ''i love being pretentious we need pretentious people keeping art and intellectualism alive''#it confuses me#''pretentious'' means putting on an unlikable exaggerated bravado and putting down other people#because you think you're more intelligent and your taste is inherently better than theirs#being pretentious is just obnoxious. it doesn't help people appreciate deeper art it just makes you annoying#99% of the time pretentious people aren't driven by the desire to make more people appreciate deeper/non mainstream art#they are driven by the desire to feel better than other people which is a very different thing#also that word is usually used in the sense that the person doesn't actually know what they're talking about#like a person who uses big words to sound smart without knowing what they mean or say they like classic literature w/o reading it#i'm not sure what the point is. if you want to say ''more people should appreciate deeper/non mainstream art'' just say that
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I thought that it was stupid that Brandon Sanderson had the narrator of Tress of the Emerald Sea call all the unnamed sailors "Dougs" when he could have just called them, you know, sailors. But then I started using the term. Turns out having a word for "yes, we know that realistically all these individuals have unique identities and personalities, but they're not the focus of this story so we're going to treat them as faceless background characters" is surprisingly useful.
#random thought of the day#because i was thinking way too deep into the portrayal of the nurses in artful dodger#and getting a bit worked up at how they're shoved aside (as usual for medical dramas) and not treated as real people#and then i was like 'calm down they're just dougs in this story it's okay'#(and then the next ep had one of the nurses call the girl a witch and i was like 'oh they remembered they have feelings. good work')#(and i felt even better)#incidentally despite my one and only post about that show being an angry nursing rant i am enjoying it#the girl's stupidly modern face and extreme entitlement are annoying#and i did skip part of ep ii because i'd just prefer not to watch relics be the butt of the joke#(even though they looked to be heading a slightly-less-offensive route than expected)#and ep 3 is going more soapy and melodramatic and less fun#but i do like that they have a 'young idealist versus experienced fatalist' dynamic going#soundtrack is fun#anachronism stays mostly on the fun side of the scale#fagin is shockingly amusing (i had expected more of a 'creepy blackmailer holding the past over his head' instead of 'chaotic criminal dad'#and i like that they're showing some restraint#(the deciding factor in watching it was my extreme surprise that a historical original was tv-14 instead of ma)#so we'll see how long it lasts but for now i'm not regretting the decision to watch
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aesthetic as fuck
#this is less contrived than it looks-- I only pulled the pencil bag out and re-adjusted the sketchbooks slightly#throwing the old (brown) sketchbook down on top of the new one next to my bag just made me go 'oohhhohooh!!!' lmao#IT'S ALL COMING TOGETHER#anyway I'm at the end of the current sketchbook so I'm gonna give an old favorite a go#handbook travelogue used to be my go-to but then we moved away from the local store that sold them#and they were a little more expensive to order online so I haven't had one in like... five years?#NOW I'm curious to see how I'm gonna feel because I KNOW I like this sketchbook obviously#but also I've gotten really used to the soft cover and cheap paper (gluing misc stuff in there; taking pages out if I need to make space)#and the wrap-around cover (not the tie which is tbh annoying but the flap which I usually have a pen clipped to...)#WE'LL SEE. I've definitely missed having better paper#and I'm hoping something a little easier to quickly deploy without flaps and cords just kind of in the way will make me use it more#of course if I could find LOOSE!! paper that I actually LIKED maybe I could make my own that covers ALL my desires BUT ALAS#about me
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Star Wars oc time,, the most pathetic looking bounty hunter you'll ever hire
#hm i should make an original art tag#star wars oc#zabrak#latros omiss#maul is just there for reference#and because i like drawing him#anyways back to my guy#his markings make him look like he's always doing a pathetic little meow meow face. like 🥺 but crying#but he's actually pretty competent#if a bit of a loser#no one who tries so hard to look cool is actually that cool#the long earring has no meaning i just think it's fun and cool#idk why he keeps all his horns at the same tip height. he's just a freak like that#the horns get him to 5'7'' (1.70 m). the boots get him to any height he wants. but usually 6' at most#(for reference maul is canonically 1.75m (5'9''))#i'm not one to enjoy making ocs interact with canon but i think he would get along with savage better than with maul#they can talk about missing their villages. and not wanting to meet a nightsister ever again in their lives <3#he Would flirt with maul more tho. just to annoy him. and to see how far he can get before maul kills him#my ocs
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I am not immune to the July - Hozier propaganda and made a tiktok using that audio but instead of nature pics I used my sunset pics 🥰
#i don't have enough nature photos okayyy#but i had more than enough sunsets to make that tiktok which i shall only share if anybody cares to see#otherwise i feel like I'm just Being Annoying About Hozier (as per usual) so
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I actually have a crazy amount of respect for Nabsgan, I think Nabsgan shippers are so powerful and I'm not even into ships that much most of the time.
I think what makes me back down and write an OC and kind of get her in a Nabsgan-adjacent dynamic in my own fanwork (sort of, there are notable differences between classic Nabsgan and Saeruk) is that I kind of always felt like Nabooru was one generation younger (it's the "little girl" comment from the Twinrova + the physical differences --but then again OoT is working with 3 polygons and a bad case of Woman Sexification, and also I suppose that anyone would be a little girl to 400 year old witches), and I guess I didn't feel strong enough to dive into the fucking mess that is the "seven years under mind control" situation if there is a romantic undercurrent involved. I'm all for absolute bubbling toxicity if Ganondorf is to be shipped with anyone (I mean, also an extreme AroAce!Ganon appreciator obvs so he doesn't have to be), but I'm kind of hesitant to dive in that sort of territory given the baggage surrounding Ganondorf and his perception in fandom regarding possessiveness and the such. I have a hard time picturing him showing any interest in someone who is incapable of resisting him or biting back when he fucks up, or even agreeing to putting someone he genuinely respects and loves/appreciates in a way that may approximate love in such a mindless state (possessing their body to do weird magic stuff? yes, that's just convenient. actually breaking their resolve until they are a mindless doll he can shape in any way he likes? I think he'd hate the result and wouldn't want anything to do with it --but that's just me!)
Of course, there's always the "he didn't know/he didn't care anymore/he didn't show up when that happened and that's between the Twinrova and Nabooru, he just did not really bother to get involved", but it's still generally loaded territory!!!!
But again, enormous kudos to people willing to work that complicated line, because the dynamic is explosive and inherently interesting.
#thoughts#ganondorf#nabooru#saeruk#nabsgan#ganondorf x oc#I don't really get how people are invested in ships normally#I'm not into ships I'm into trainwrecks#just as like. watching from afar and being like “ooo aoutch oof wouldn't have liked that”#but I can get invested if they reveal character depth#and given how ganondorf is usually portrayed in canon#I think pairing ganondorf with one (or several) gerudos has tons of potential to actually reveal something more vulnerable about him#that hylians wouldn't get to see#nabooru has tons of built-in conflict too so yaay what it reveals about both of their shortcomings can be!! cool!!!#my take on nabooru is more#the voice of a younger generation who annoys him so fucking much#but he can't deny she's extraordinarily skilled even if she obviously Hate Him and killing her would be a very unpopular move#(also. Baggage. with Nabooru's mother. he's not the father he just. got her mom executed when she was a child. over bullshit. anyway.)#also she radicalizes the younger generation (against him) (rude)#if I ever get the stamina to go that far in thralls she's a MUCH bigger character than in descant and she's very fun#and philosophically/strategically very lucid about the very down-to-earth limits to his boundless ambition#even if she has her own shortcomings of course#so here's hoping!!#they grate each other's nerves so much!!! <3
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I think that it's really sad how lesbians really have no role models in Hollywood or in the music industry to look up to, it's even worse because like I said before every since the entire gay community was labeled as queer straight people have starting opting into our community. I think that the reason why everything is so fucked up is because straight women started calling themselves bi, and bi women realized this and started calling themselves lesbians to overcompensate for the attraction that straight women in their communities had erased. Which is why so many famous "lesbians" are actually bi (chapel ranch, renee rapp, kehlani) and it doesn't help that they're spreading this harmful rhetoric of being lesbian "now" as if they decided to dedicate the first half of their career to men they dated for years or get pregnant by a man and *then* decide to become a lesbian, and parading these facts about publically only further making it seem like lesbians have to fight our non-existant attraction to men or are only lesbians because we don't want to date men. Pretty much all the famous out gay women are bi. If you had told middle school me that so many women were publically talking about their attraction to other women, I would've been overjoyed, but as I said earlier, not only are most of them bi but they spread harm to lesbians. The last popular lesbian celebrity I know is Haley Kiyoko and people always made fun of her when at the time, and even now she's basically the only out lesbian in the industry. And it's clear that the only reason why she gets made fun of is because she is kind of a GNC lesbian.
#the pyre#I find myself being less attracted to feminine women bc usually they carry with them some sort of insecurity that hard to put up with#not even just bi women some rly fem lesbians act like this too like the other day I saw this vid on tiktok of the lesbian complaining bc sh#dresses rly fem and men think that she's doing that for them instead of reading her mind like all these#“I hate how strangers can't immedietly guess my identity!1!” dumbasses on tiktok complain about and realizing that she's actually a lesbian#and I found her video dubious and annoying I think that GNC and butch lesbians don't rly carry this type of insecurity#bc they know that being a GNC woman in public ppls minds are automatically going to go to lesbian#and have learned to not care about ppls perception of them which is sm fem lesbians have not#I don't rly align with the butch or femme labels bc I'm just doing me but I think that I def dress more femme than butch#but like a lot of radfems I don't wear makeup or shave or perform as overly feminine so I feel like I relate to GNC lesbians more anyway#in the future I want a wife who can go outside without spending hours on end doing her hair or makeup to feel presentable
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“Traveler in Space”, Cyrano de Bergerac (1950)
#De Guiche#Cyrano#Cyrano de Bergerac#Voyage dans la Lune#About books#I talk too much#José Ferrer is hilarious in this. It's still one of my favourite versions of the scene if not my favourite#His anxious little jumps are so funny so adorable and so real xD#I think this version manages well the different aspects of the scene. Cyrano's anxiety. His charm and wit#I think it sells the idea of Cyrano entertaining de Guiche and convincing him to stay in a way I think most other adaptations don't#Here in my opinion the evolution from de Guiche being annoyed first diverted later and invested at last feels natural#Cyrano all the while checking the time and whether the wedding is finished from time to time really is what makes the scene for me#Besides making it funnier and making Cyrano stay more in character I think it helps integrate the scene better in the play itself#Ferrer's powerful beautiful voice works wonders in this scene as well. How it's small playful and silly and then he regains his usual voice#It really brings home how his voice is at the end of the day even more Cyrano's main trait than the nose is#Anyway... I'm talking a lot just as usual. But I really love this scene
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so idk how to explain when I think someone is good looking
because it's a rare occurrence and like I just agree that they look good, that have some charm but that's that
I don't actually want to pursue anything with them or be sad if they have a partner or think about them after that or smth, idk what people actually do or think when they see someone attractive ??? (I've seen people try to give them their contact info and I'm like what but you don't know them ???)
that being said, I had never seen Bruno Mars before but that man is (was?) good looking
pretty wild because when i notice it's about women not men
but I was watching some videos and I'm like ??? how ??????
#Regina Spektor is beautiful too and i want to print the cover of the single Fidelity#but idk just that haha#ive seen girls that are so cute and their attitude#but just that#i don't actually understand when people are like oh my god look at the person and I'm like ok i guess#but like with men is way harder#a lot of times i just think i gueeeess they're good looking? idk man I'm just vibing#this is funny because I only know locked out of heaven hahaha no other song bt i love it i don't care if it talks about sex#it's not annoying and i love the the bridge? idk about music terminology#who else id attractive? idk a sweet girl i met years ago she was playful and cute (and later i learned she was a lesbian lol) but eh#*is#and some random women I've seen that I'm like oh she looks cool#wait fuck is this a “i want to be with her or i want to be her?”? lol#it's too complicated so ehh#also it's not relevant because i prefer a really close friend bestest friend like soul mate as partner but like#the *implications* fuck#how that one post said#i don't want a relationship like that but also more than friendship like the one friendship advanced but that's romance but#but not too much please but also don't leave but i don't want sex things but ok intimacy ok but not too much but but but#fuck it#why is everything so hard#hi people reading my notes usually they compose more than the actual post lol i like to ramble haha#*tags not notes
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odd thing we've noticed. the less okay we are the smaller our active system gets
#like logically you'd think we'd get more members while stressed but we don't usually#we actually split way more often when we're feeling okay and alive#i think it has something to do with mental bandwidth#like when mental health bad we don't have enough mental energy to put towards the system#so we just. reduce a lot in size. to make the workload easier#like a few months ago we had about 100+ people active at once all rotating out frequently and cofronting a TON#and now we're down to like. three or four active the rest really only able to be active for a few minutes at a time#we're just too exhausted to deal with the chaos of so many people so it kinda. slows down a ton#it's hard to get used to when everything was So Loud before. its kinda scary sometimes#like damn. i cant just call Incredibly Specific Task Guy to deal with this task i really cannot do right now. that kinda sucks#but knowing that this is like. more bc of the fact that we Can't Deal With Much More Than This makes it a little easier#we're a bit like my current computer. shit ass RAM bc its got like 50 malware (illnesses) on it#and once i get a new computer (get a little better and more functional) i can get back to multitasking#side note my god my RAM on this computer is shit running tumblr and minecraft at the same time totally breaks it#like it makes the Entire Computer run at 10 fps it's Great#i'm getting a new one at the end of this month hopefully#and hopefully Actually Nice Thing Accomplished will also help brain a lot#also not having to stress about how annoying to use our computer is should help lmao
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