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Why does everything I love have to happen in the winter (summer birthday curse)
#ghost posts#my family asks me what I want and I say the same thing every year#but it happens in winter and my bday is July so it never happens#also shout out to my friend who did try to make it happen#you the real mvp#this year if they ask I’m saying tickets to the nutcracker ballet#can’t even do the beach during the summer here it’s too dang hot#gotta go spring or autumn#the gulf during the summer is a hot tub 0 amount of refreshing#though it’s still pretty#at least school is out in summer#so I did enjoy that when I was in school#not supposed to go out in the sun anyway bc I flash fry
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releasing this from the hj discord dungeon because the public populace was in agreement also i'm chronically offline on tumblr and need to fix that for my chronically online ahh
#hand jumper#webtoon#sayeon lee#she couldn't even enjoy herself once she gets into the decent university because she got sent to the corps sayeon lee my giiirl#SHE'LL NEVER BE ABLE TO BASK IN THE GLORY OF VALEDICTORIAN BECAUSE SHE WAS CONSCRIPTED 😭#bro she's built like those kids in school who dump social interaction the moment exam season comes around#she's built like and earned that first honours fr.#but the corps said nah so she did the one thing those kids do make life even HARDER for themselves#even if in context it's no even hard it's just a matter of survival in the corps so success is the only option lest you die#hj reminds me of kaiji a lot with how they handle this but they're like two different genres but i digress#so she created TWO short term goals that forced her to hammer down her if not reinforce her previous values/beliefs#and if you read fp or wait until this tuesday lemme tell you rn it gets worse#which force her back into her shell and wall she's built#which is fucked up bc juni's wall is coming down when cell 4 didn't die as quick as she'd thought and surpassed her expectations#sayeon try not to be any characters narrative foil/parallel challenge fail 1000% speedrun#this only gets worse in fp and while this was in my drafts since the morning#i will say i literally just had a conversation abt this with my g bigbrainmanyvibes before prematurely leaving for lunch#but i set an alarm to actually post all the memes i made here so imma do this one now then the rest later#JOIN THE HJ DISCORD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT'S FUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND WAY EASIER TO USE!!!!![to me......]#PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#that's it for my obligatory plug for the hj discord you can stop reading now i you haven't already stopped because i make this thing a diar#anw GLORY TO SAYJIN NATION!!!!!!!!!
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ppl who are “charles fans” but are ashamed of comic charles are just scared of liking morally dubious characters like i promise you’ll live it’s alright❤️ your fav can suck and you can still like them whilst not defending their every action!
six decades of different stories and different writers your fave making cringe decisions will be inevitable you just gotta have fun with it
#snap chats#see i could never hate a chara just cause the writers had them do something bad that's just silly#i mean YOU could if you want i wont tell you how to enjoy fiction .. i can only speak for me ...#like you just gotta be funny with it idk ... sometimes villain shit is so absurd its funny idk ..#other times its just interesting to think of the thought process esp with a chara like charles who's propped up to be virtuous#so when he does things that go against that model its like Woah .... Curious ...#very interesting ..... i love pondering the morals ethics thoughts and actions of fictional characters ...#also the times where he does get to be The Kind School Teacher/Father Figure .. i do a lil jump and a spin and a twirl ...#but what do i know. maybe i just havent read The Worst Of Charles Xavier yet#yet....... i need a highlight reel of his worst moments#i heard Dead Genesis was one of his worst moments and i did think of buying that run#but i also heard people say it wasnt even that good from a writing standpoint overall ... maybe ill just read it online then ...#SHRUG anyways. moving on.
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read a very poetic post asking why doesn't christian imagery focus on the inherent horror of giving birth in a barn and virgin mary's hands coming away sticky with blood etc and i am focusing all my powers to not be pedantic directly at this person because i learnt about this in art history!!!!!!! i may be raised atheist in a mostly atheist culture, but it turns out western art history consists of 75% weird facts about medieval christianity. i even remember some of them!!!!
from what i can remember literally every single detail of any event in christian canon has been up for thorough debates, especially stuff like "how DID jesus get conceived?" "how DID mary give birth??" and usually there was some person receiving a vision from god who goes to tell the pope about it and becomes a saint as thanks. jesus got conceived like light shining through a window. he was born by simply appearing when mary raised her arms. thus mary remains a virgin three times over (she was a virgin before, during, and after the birth). what does this have to do with art history?? The Symbolisms. there's paintings of a single ray of light shining through a window and onto mary. baby jesus is always perfectly clean despite having just been born in a barn. holy mary wears her blue robes with three star pins, symbolizing her triple virginity. at least that was the symbolism for this particular strain of christianity at a particular time, i'm sure the agreement on what happened changed or split over time and place - it's not like there's a zillion different types of christianities out there with different takes hahaha
#in high school my class did a christmas play which was a very old traditional one#and i remember we all laughed at the birth of jesus just being mary raising her arms and BAM there's a baby#later when we learnt about this at uni i was like HEY WAIT A MINUTE. THAT WAS CANON??????#other things we learnt is that at some point to make sure jesus was extra extra special and pure#virgin mary was also the result of a virgin birth#and sometimes even her mother was born from a virgin. for EXTRA PURITY#also virgins were always depicted as very youthful which is why she always looks so very young in paintings#and sculptures like the pieta.#80% of what i know about christianity is from art history class oops.#you can probably see why i enjoy pentiment so much#i remember my first big art history exam i was asked what the stabbing of the bread symbolizes. i wish i remembered.#i remember a bread getting stabbed. symbolism gets so weird and fun
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(The sizes are based on common international dimensions, but some vary a lot between locations)
After you vote, the answer is below:
An exy court is the exact same dimensions as a field hockey court (it even uses the same dividing lines)!
100 yds x 60 yds (91m x 55x), and is 10 yds (9m) tall.
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#completely useless hint: I played this growing up!#I really enjoyed it#but it conflicted w another xtra curricular so I only did it for elementary school#(however I recognize that it's not like the most common sport)#(in that its size is not as easy to intuite as like a basketball court)#anyway#I thought it was like smaller than an ice hockey rink when reading#between ice hockey and basketball size#woulda been fun to add an ultimate frizbee field here too#aftg#tfc#all for the game#exy#my polls#tsc#the sunshine court
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25 Days of Sleighpairs: Paige Krasikeva x Violet (Teen Wolf) + “Chocolate”
Requested by @mariedemedicis
"I have a surprise for you."
Paige lit up as soon as she laid eyes on Violet, slipping into the empty music room and closing the door behind her. She kept her hand behind her back for dramatic effect.
"I like the sound of that."
Putting her cello aside, Paige raised her eyebrows and waited - impatiently - as Violet dropped into the seat beside her, their knees touching. Finally, she produced the gift, wrapped up in brown paper with a deep purple satin ribbon tied around it. Paige's favourite colour, of course.
"You know Christmas isn't for another week, right?" she teased, but she eagerly took the present.
"It's nothing big," Violet said quickly, watching her delicately untie the ribbon, making sure to keep it intact. The paper was a different story.
As soon as she got into them, Paige lit up like the Christmas tree that she always complained her family put up too early. Violet liked it; it was definitely better than her foster parents' attempts to "make her feel included" in their traditions. She forced the smile to stay on her face, but as soon as Paige started squealing in delight, it didn't take much effort.
"I love these," she said, already opening the box of chocolates. "They're my favourite kind."
"I know," Violet said softly.
Paige lifted her gaze to her, and her smile stretched. She leaned over and kissed her cheek, startling her. But Paige didn't seem to notice as she pulled back, saying, "This is the best gift ever. I'm totally going to eat these before Christmas, you know that?"
Violet laughed, trying to ignore the warm flush beneath her skin. Paige popped one in her mouth then insisted that she eat one, too. And she could never say no to her.
They stayed in the music room, messing around with the instruments. Paige didn't do a whole lot of proper practicing, but she didn't seem to mind Violet's distraction. As they were mid-laughter, there was a knock on the door and a head popped around it. A boy. His beaming smile fell a little when he saw them both sitting there.
Violet was about to ask if he wanted something, but Paige spoke first with a roll of her eyes. "Derek, what are you doing here?"
"I was just coming to see if you were in here," he said with a shrug, trying and failing to be totally smooth. "Wanted to say hi. And see you."
Violet's stomach turned. Violently. She glanced from him to Paige, trying to gauge her reaction - annoyance, right? She hated Derek Hale, they both did. He was loud and annoying and was always disrupting the class.
But Paige was smiling. "Well, now you have. So, you can go."
"Right. See you later."
He left, but Paige was still smiling. Violet coudn't muster one. Her heart was almost beating too fast to hear her as she said, "I forgot to tell you" and launched into a recollection of how he had talked to her and what they had said the other day. The chocolate aftertaste turned sour in her mouth as Paige's cheeks turned pink and her smile grew wider with every word.
Finally, when there was a pause, Violet asked, "Do you like him?"
"What?" Paige rolled her eyes again and scoffed. "No, definitely not. I mean, he's kind of cute. In an annoying way. But I don't like him."
She avoided looking at her. The bell went, perfectly in sync with Violet's heart as she watched Paige get up, suddenly worried about being late for their next class. She waited for her, holding the door open, but Violet knew, deep down, that she had already lost her.
#teen wolf#paige krasikeva#violet teen wolf#paige x violet#violet x paige#25 days of sleighpairs#rowing the rarepair rowboats#rarepair rowboats#maridemedicis#OKAY SO#I love the concept of this pairing??#I have absolutely no idea if this was the kind of thing you had in mind when you requested them (probably not)#but I decided to go a little au with it and age violet up#so she went to school with paige and derek#and she and paige were like best friends at school and had known each other for quite a while#and violet was a little in love with her#and then derek. derek came along and got paige's attention and suddenly violet had lost her best friend in more ways than one#because then she was dead#and violet knew what had happened (I haven't decided how she knew but she just did. maybe werewolves killed her parents as well idk)#but she knew and then suddenly she had this pure hatred and rage for the supernatural because they took the one person she had left#thus her becoming an assassin and everything#I was torn between aging violet up and ressurecting paige (because that's fun too) but decided this had more angst purposes#I genuinely could write a whole fic about this au lmao#my point is: this is a great ship. I love it. hope you enjoy!! <3
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college … wasted on the youth (me)
#didnt help that 2/4 yrs was covid telezoom but man.. MANNN#forgetting how impossible it is to pursue rhe degree plan u actually want (advising hell) i feel like . theres just#so many diff things i want to learn now Knowing that im more solidified in my interests and who i am and what i would be interested in doing#and like.😭RGAAAAAQH TEARING MYHAIR OUTTT every other week i have a night where im sititng there like damn i couldve been sm1 completely dif#dgmw i still rly enjoy some of the upper div classes i Did take but what if i took x and liked it more or minored in y and it led me to z#bc i do feel rly set in where i am rn which . i DO ! like it but im never gna be in that environment where u have the flexibility to explore#ykwim . i wish i had taken physics and calc srsly . i always thought i hated that shit but i like it. i like it quite a lot actually😟#or more geology .. urrghh.. sprinkle in sme extra art history . no bc thats what actu pissed me off ab school#i rmbr wanting to dual major and they straight up told me no i cant . but then i was like maybe an arts major bio minor when i wanted to do#science illustration but sry we dont offer bio minor . ok bio major arh or studio art minor . no sry not enough open spots we rly only#reserve it for when we have extra openings post admission❤️#and then even late into sophomore year u would still be last in registration so all the cool classes would be closed#and then bc of covid half that shit was cancelled bc they couldnt transfer labs online (rip comparative vertebrate anatomy)#and then by senior yr an additional collection of classes were unavailable bc u dont have the prereqs bc the prereqs were cancelled during#covid and u dont have enough semesters left to actually take it . like it was gen such an awful experience so ik why i couldnt ever do what#i wanted but .😭 AND LIKE the classes i DID enjoy like genomics or molecular genetics were closed by registration and i had to email and beg#for access . thts crazy .literally crazy .#anyways . i think i want 2 start reading textbooks bc i think thats the closest ill get LMAOO#i remember seeing my coworker read a textbook for fun one time and idk why i just didnt understand why bc it seemed so dry but i Get it now#like yeah .. u knew what was up ..#sad too that like . i could theoretically audit a course but i Work..during the day .. so sad . so sad#guys wht if i just said yes to grad school (<the devil talking.dont agree)
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if you're not reading the last book of SVSSS right now do you mind me asking what you are reading? I'm just curious!
Definitely! (though I warn you, I'm fundamentally incapable of reading only one thing at a time)
For physical books, I'm currently reading The Warden by Daniel M. Ford, the novelization of My Neighbour Totoro, and trying to keep up on Dracula Daily (i am failing this)
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#i bounce between things a lot :P it all depends on *`~Vibes~`*#once i'm done The Warden i'll probably get started on SVSSS v4#this census-taker and ogres were both strange little novellas i was trying to wrap up so i spent a lot of time this weekend#working on a puzzle and just finishing them#completely bizarre but both gave me a lot to think about they both had some very cool writing and themes#as for a series of unfortunate events i'm officially the farthest i've ever been in the series!#i reread the first 3 books a ton - whenever i was at my friends house and she was doing homework when i wasn't since she was collecting the#but i kinda fell off them after the carnivorous carnival#waiting a whole year for the next book is hard when you're in elementary school!#anyway i'm enjoying them a lot as an adult i'm picking up way more nuance than i did as a kid (obviously)#and snicket's writing it always fun no matter the age#thanks for asking! i love an excuse to ramble about books >:3
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anyone else feel like they have no idea what they’re doing in life and that they have no place in this world and have felt this way since being a young child and are scared they’ll feel this way forever orrrr
#‘what did you pretend to be when you was a child!!’ i don’t remember . ‘well what do you enjoy !!’ i don’t know#i literally remember being in school and being asked those questions all the time and like man i don’t know#so then my teachers just looked at what i got the best grades in and said i should do that so i did .. ough#’what do you wanna be when you grow up’ no idea. not a fucking clue. my dad said when he asked me this i would just answer ‘a mouse’ like..#a
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See the thing is. I know I'm good at writing. Like I have my weak areas or things I need to improve in, but it's not a skill I otherwise spend a lot of time feeling insecure about because a) if I don't believe in my writing literally who will b) if I want to publish my writing I ought to at least feel a resting level of good about it because editors and agents likely will not be cradling my face like a prize cat and telling me how talented I am while asking for their edits c) I've always had an audience for my writing even at its worst– I started sharing my original works online when I was around 16 & that really helped sell to me the idea of 'there will always be someone out there who likes what you do' d) untalented men never think this hard about the quality of their works and they always end up published anyway and e) I don't have many other thoroughly developed skills so why not have one I feel good about. Having said this. Awkward feeling to realize you're one of the authorial weak links in your postgraduate creative writing degree's social circle
#part of the issue is definitely also like. i am good at what i do! its just that im the only one doing it#40 people in my fuckass degree and im the only one who writes fantasy fiction. we had one more girl but she did romance & dropped out#(to be an agent) (this isnt a sad story)#but yeah no im mostly surrounded by very talented poets and screenwriters. which makes my works seem a little. frivolous. in comparison#and my friends especially are so fucking talented it makes me ill. and they engage politely with me about my writing but its also#superficial and i cant blame them because its simply not what they write/what theyre interested in! i feel the same about poetry#but my friend actually seemed surprised a while ago when i mentioned a thing id been writing and i joked that it looked like she was#surprised i could have good ideas and she didnt answer. and like. man.#i am a good writer! i fucking know im a good writer but im a good FANTASY writer and these people are. different writers and theyre good an#im floundering in this environment next to them and theres something not as like.. artistic in what i do its so fucking embarrassing#and they also display just such a lack of curiosity as to others' writing like.. they wont check the moodle forum to read what the others i#our module have uploaded for each assignment?? like arent you even just CURIOUS? but now im also just wondering if theyre like 🤞 this#with each other in a way that excludes me and my stupid flop ass fiction. i dont know. its just so silly. everyone always talks about#finding community in writing groups & degrees & such and that is exactly the last and most isolating place ive ever been insofar as my#writing goes. like at least way back in high school no one cared in general. here people do care. just not about what i can bring to the#table. although again i really dont know if this is a larger scale lack of curiosity/involvement in others works so i digress.#notnow#tbd#sorry this is a very priveleged complaint to have i AM deeply enjoying my degree and ik im so lucky to get to go where i attend. i just#occasionally feel sad. and knowing i failed my last assignment (which WAS fiction) (one chance to prove myself! cute) isnt helping much#if the poetrypeople are better at me even in the thing im meant to be good at. baby we're about to enter the mental health meat grinder.#but we stay silly. i think i just need to find people online etc to talk to about writing again like i did at 17.#just full insanity paragraph analysis. that was fun. i enjoyed that.
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tagged by @thejonderettegirl to share six books I want to read in 2025 (and Gigi, your six books are all EXCELLENT choices 👏🏻)
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tagging @eddis-not-eeddis, @rubyintheskywithdiamonds, @stormsouls, and anyone else who wants to join (yes, that means you!)
#tag games#2025 reading list#I don't know how many of my tumblr folks have set reading lists so not sure who to tag#and did I try to tag Jules by typing '@jules'? yes. yes I did.#re Gigi's book choices: I don't see a lot of people mention Darlene Deibler Rose#I haven't gotten to Evidence Not Seen yet but PLEASE let me know what you think of it!#I'm 90% positive that when I was in high school we listened to a recording of her telling her story#it ran an hour or so#(I THINK it was her but the moment I said that I wasn't sure any more)#re my choices:#I don't know the translator for the copy of Brothers Karamazov that I have at home#if anyone has a recommended translation let me know!#as for the rest:#1. medieval Norse historical epic? yes please#2. John Adams is my favorite president#4. this book will destroy me. send help.#5. I'm long overdue for finally reading this one#6. Backman is one of the few contemporary lit-fic authors I enjoy and I LOVE him
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I sent an email to the admissions dept for the school with the radiography program I'm interested in (despite it maybe not being feasible for me as the most competitive program in the state outside of MD programs) and they replied sooner than I expected to set up a call talking abt transcripts and I am so crazy nervous
#oughh bro i have to send over my lackluster transcripts with a whole lot of Ws and Cs and an F#and go like okay so i know it LOOKS bad but... hear me out.....#i know the worst that could happen is the guy tells me theres just no way im getting in without an associates first#which sucks because i already have a bachelors i dont wanna have to redo gen eds ffs#they only admit like 20 people into this program a year so i feel like i cant mess up talking to the transfer admissions guy#he might actually remember 😵💫 even if my embarrassing transcripts wont be memorable enough#like i did end with a 3.5 gpa but also i was in school for like 8 years and i did exceptionally bad#for a variety of reasons including but not limited to: family deaths. (toxic family stuff). poverty. coming out. twice.#my grades shot up once i was eligible financial aid finally and not paying out of pocket while working 1-2 jobs#it still looks terrible#idk how to have the confidence of the average cis white man who walks in with a 2.1 gpa to an interview for med school#personal stuff#im so nervous#like#if this maybe works out and things maybe go to plan i might have like. an actual career? that i enjoy? that feels fulfilling?#a career that can actually go places? so many modalities to choose from. i can help people. and i can go home at the end of my day#and make art and not think about whether what im making is furthering my career or not#also xrays and radiology are just. soooo cool. i love bones. and organs. i looove getting imaging done at my appts because then i get#to ask them questions about what theyre doing n how it works.#i wish id felt more confident when i was younger that maybe i could succeed in sciences
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the difference that offering a child kindness and compassion can make... one of the kiddos was crying the other morning missing her mom. Sobbing crying. and i talked to her and she wasn't able to say very much from crying so hard but confirmed that she knew her mom was going to be back and it was going to be a good day and it was going to be alright but she was just inconsolable. and we did some good breaths together but she just couldn't get her breathing under control. so for like ten minutes i just had her drink some water and gave her a hug and sat with her while she cried until we were going off to the next activity and she had to go with different counselors. and by then she'd calmed down a little but was still sniffling and obviously upset but the important part is that even though i didn't even get her to stop crying anytime i saw that little girl the rest of that day and now throughout the rest of the Week after just sitting with her and offering some compassion i see her notice me as she goes by and she always looks right at me and smiles and gives me a little wave when i say hi. like we haven't had any other conversations since then but i can see the way that she recognizes me now. i'm not her favorite counselor i haven't spent more than twenty minutes with her tops but that little girl takes the time to seek out my acknowledgement cause i showed that i care about her.... y'know... cause i was gentle with her and that meant something to her... all to say. it doesn't matter if you have extended interactions with kids. it really doesn't. small things can make such a huge impact on children and i really sincerely think it's so important to show them kindness... help them up when they fall. give them a hug. sit with them while they cry. cause even if it doesn't Fix things even if you don't solve the problem or do anything really materially Helpful you will have shown that child that people care about them. and they notice... they remember... they do...
#man. mira won't even speak to me really but i can Tell it's significant to her when i say hi and call her by name#crazy... you have such power as a grownup to make an impression in a kid's life....#and in such small ways too. she's probably not going to remember me after a month or two.#but also one of my kiddos who i've known for a couple years now#his first week of summer camp he was just distraught every time he got dropped off. sobbing crying.#little incoming kindergartener and he was in water games camp and did not want to get wet. poor thing.#and i was the person there when he got dropped off that week and i sat with him and comforted him and got him calmer#and that kiddo is like My child at this point haha i adore him and he says all the time that i'm his favorite counselor#but huge point of it... two full years later... he will still tell Other people that i am his favorite counselor 'because i helped him'#when he was first starting camps. makes a specific point to say it. multiple other counselors have told me that he's said that to them.#so like... man... kids remember.... they really do...#ten thousand little reasons for my little guy to enjoy hanging out with me during summer camps/after school programs#but he specifically remembers that i was someone who took the time to care about him... heartwrenching. every time#anyway#valentine notes
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It's always interesting to hear about people's weird/unexpected "alternate life paths". Like, something that you could have done with your life, a job you almost took, a school you almost went to, etc - that was still actually realistic enough that it could have happened, but NOW it seems to not suit your current personality.
Like for example, I currently hate advertising (how manipulative it is, brands trying to be 'relatable', social media amplifying it to an obnoxious extreme, etc.) so much that even seeing a little ad before a youtube video is grating to even witness, but there was a point in time where I was genuinely seriously considering going into marketing/making commercials as a career lol. Or like, I have a relative who was very inclined to be a pastor when they were younger, even though today they're a super strong atheist, etc. etc.
#BECAUSE I knew I really liked filming and editing things and doing set design and costume design (from having done little bits of that#here and there in media classes and my own stuff - i used to be a lot more into making videos than I am now). BUT I was always thinking#that a movie is WAAY to big and long. even a short film. So I was trying to think of ways I could still like#have the fun of scouting locations to film and dressing up actors and etc. etc. without it having to be a Huge Million Dollar Production#on tv show or movie level. SO then I was thinking about like... just doing commercials. Or music videos. Like shorter things where I still#get the fun of the filming and everything but it's less of an intensive long term project.#So there is an alternate version of me (I suppose if i somehow did not end up having physical and mental health issues#as badly somehow.. or like.. randomly came into wealth and was able to pay my way through a nice college despite missing#days constantly being out because I'm sick or something lol) that works in some corporate advertising office coming up with commercials#and directing or filming them or doing the sets for them or something in that general vicinity.#I also was considering being a corporate psychologist. or whatever its called.. oh from google:#''Industrial and organizational (I/O) psychologists study and assess individual group and organization dynamics in the workplace''#I don't think I even knew what the job entailed. I was at the time just thinking like.. the type of person that comes into a business offic#and gives everyone personality assessments or does MBTI or big-5 testing crap for whatever reason that some businesses get that#done for people. Really i just wanted to be in a Corporate Big Office setting yet still do psychology. Because I used to be really fixated#on living in a big city. Like the ideas of everything being walkable. picking up a coffee in the morning. walking to my job in a Big#Skyscraper Building. people watching in a huge hotel lobby for lunch. flying frequently (I love airplanes and airports aesthetically).#living in an apartment with a giant window overlooking the city. etc. etc. BUT that was before i had really BEEN to a city. Then I actually#hung around a city a few times and went places and I was like... AUGh... The Sensory Overwhelm.. cars people lights loudness noise scary#everything happening all at once. etc. etc. (though even when I wanted to live in a city i NEVER strove for the Night Life. when i say I#enjoy city imagery I mean like... in the day time. Many people who like cities talk about The Night Life and post pictures of cities all#lit up at night and clubs and dancing and restaurants. none of that EVER appealed to me. perhaps a sign I am not a real city person. Like#I am NOT standing in a crowded bar full of loud people in the middle of the night lol.. get AWAY from me!!) but I do adore the#architecture of like bright white clean sterile modern spaces like huge airport lobbies or malls or etc. I think thats what reminded me of#city and what I liked about the idea of that life. Like I always LOVED the layout of schools and hospitals and trainstations and public#transport in general. Though even then I knew enough that I would not be a good architect/city planner. so I guess my adoration for those#spaces was merely to be channeled into LIVING there. but then I realized I didn't even really want to do that that much. I mean I still#definitely aim to live NEAR a city. like the little areas outside of it. I would never live in a rural place 4 hours from anything. I liter#ally just COULDNT since I need close access to hospitals sometimes lol. But I used to want to live in the CENTER of citites like high rise#condo. and now I'm like.... eh....... perhaps a smaller quieter walkable space nearby lol.. ANYWAY.. alternate me in my Business Suit eheh
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Honestly your tags are so fun to read every time, i'm almost more excited for them than the actual post (but not entirely because your art is SO GOOD!!!! i adore it). If you don't mind me asking, what are you studying?
i am studying psychology because i refuse to see a therapist so ill figure out whats wrong with me myself !!!!!!!
#snap chats#WITH. a minor in human resources ☝️ because im evil or something#and whatever character/s i decide to fixate on for the next three years i will also psychoanalyze them I Guess. //loud coughing//#tbh i only saw a therapist to get medicine but since bloodwork is expensive without insurance i dont even do that anymore. sad !#but yeah im a certified rambler if i dont share every thought i have so people understand me as much as i want them to ill die#which is why charles xavier if youre out there you have full rights to my brain .......... //gross wink sound//#why cant telepaths be real itd make my life so much easier. i woudnt have to talk a mile a minute anymore#because i do talk very fast because growing up my mom would cut me off a lot#so now i talk fast in fear of being cut off without all my thoughts being heard. anyways.#thank you for also enjoying my art :] a sideshow to the glory that is my tags i KNOWWW but im glad my efforts are not unnoticed 😌#back to My Major tho when i was in middle school i thought i wanted to go into comic books#but then i thought id lose my love for drawing if i did it professionally so now i do it. semi professionally#on my own terms babyyyy thats right. and if im lucky i get paid to draw my faves im living the dream babes#thats why my text posts take nine years for me to type im legitimately sitting here thinking if i said everything i wanted#and if i worded it right but even then after it's up im like 'but did i word it right tho' but its like 'bro just fucking POST IT'#'ITS NOT THAT DEEP' its as my favorite professor once told me 'youre very paranoid' and he's right !!!! im very paranoid 🥰#ok im done now. see thats why i say Ok Im Done Now its a sign im forcing myself to shut UP#wait not done Almost but not quite i was rewatching 97 to Try to get caps of charles in his combat uniform#and i fear i still cackle at erik telling charles to shut up like PLEAAASSE...... i need that bit CLIPPED#it makes me giggle ... someone remind me to clip all of erik's cameos in the squirrelgirl podcast btw#ive been meaning to do that for weeks but. oops <3 i need all my grandpa's moments CATALOGUED and AT THE READY..#ok i done fr now i have class with my you're-paranoid professor in like an hour and i wanna get some work done before then#BYYYYYEEEE. FOR LIKE TWENTY MINUTES PROBABLY IDK
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there's cliche's and then there's intentionally leaving a piece vague but it still having meaning and assuming your audience isn't stupid so they can come to their own conclusions about how the piece makes them feel based on visual language
#that's what we did in art school#when you actually have to do shows and tell people in person your artist's statement#I like seeing how people feel and react to my work rather than care about the style or aesthetic or tropes used#it's the /meaning/ of the piece and I love how even though my experience is specific#it still feels relatable to others#in that moment where people go wow or that's so cool like#i had a guy run up to me once just because he bloboed a work of art I made#i love that shit#i miss shows but eugh pandemic :(#jackal's journal#my art historian would have a fit rn#her whole thing is Pompeii and she showed us how much enjoying and relating to things you love or find neat helps inspire you more#than worrying about how other people feel about you#like damn
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