#snd the implications it has

[notebooks-and-laptops]

THEORY TIME I'm at the start of ME2 please don't confirm or deny if I'm correct BUT my theory is a potential avenue for them to go down is that - as proved with Shepard's resurrection - eventually organic life always 'cures' death - either through science or just plain old evolution - and when it does it often begins using up resources at a rapid rate that the universe can't sustain if the population continues to grow (because nobody 'leaves' the universe everyone just continues to exist) so the reapers are the invention of an ideological terrorist group that was the first species to achieve immortality who believed that the best way to solve the crisis was to build machines which could 'control' this impulse in organisms so that once they reached immortality they were wiped out so new life could grow in its place ('harvesting' life to make way for the new crop of organic life?). In this scenario, originally the reapers would come only once immortality was achieved, but they've begun to come earlier and earlier as their AI consciousness works out the optimal 'time' to harvest. The slaves/drones they leave in the galaxy to use for some time spend their time enslaved restoring natural resources as best as possible, and undoing any damage caused by sentient life for the next bout of people (literally tending the fields of sentient life)

BONUS POINTS if they do this except that not EVERY species/society to achieve immortality has actually gone down the route of using up limited resources to the point of instability (because they've found ways to make their existence sustainable/fairer to everyone either out of scientific process/societal change etc.) BUT the machines can't comprehend that/are programmed to believe that it will eventually devolve into chaos anyway and so they come back regardless and kill everyone even if people can prove they're wrong (so the game doesn't end up with a very simplistic Thanos viewpoint that's easily disproved - that's why I think the reapers have to be the result of a terrorist/radical/fascist group)

Bonus BONUS points if the original group installed some of their consciousness into the reapers making them hypocritcs because they DO continue to essentially live forever while they're committing genocide against other species.

Idk I just think it'd be neat if Shepard was the poster child for the reason the reapers felt they had to do what they did when they're the ones trying to stop them.

[haitanisbug]

Just saw a Sylus edit to One Day by Hans Zimmer. Give me four to five business years. This is all that I’ll ever be able to think about for the rest of my life.

[offbrand-deltatraveler]

You ever just wanna pick someone up, and cause them so much immeasurable pain that they die from shock before you even get the chance to properly kill them

[devondeal]

Ok now I am able to elaborate why I do not like Andor. Between work and just needing time to process, I couldn’t immediately find the words.

So if you don’t like looking at Andor negativity I suggest blocking the anti andor and andor criticism tags. That’s what I do when I don’t want to see negativity on something I enjoy (instead of bullying people in the comments).

So to start with, the dialogue in Andor takes up way too much time essentially repeating itself and inflates the scene by a lot. In fact the very first episode literally has maybe 4 scenes in the span of 50 minutes.

Now my attention span is pretty good. I like a good slow paced show but things still need to be happening. Andor fixates on one thing for the longest time and it’s part of what adds to the boring critique of the show.

The scene with the Krennic’s meeting for example, I pretty much figured out what it was going for pretty quick since, the Empire being evil, it’s not hard to see the kinda shit they’d pull just from a little context. But instead this whole thing stretches almost all the way to the end of the episode.

When the essentials needed were already in place. Introduce Ghor, Empire wants to mine it for a mineral needed for the Death Star, use propaganda to dehumanize the Ghormans so no one stands in the way.

Now I’m not saying quickly go through that and be done, I’m just saying it did not need to use up so much screen time through the use of repeptitive and tiresome dialogue.

Also, I find that Andor spends a lot of time on obstacles that really nothing to the plot such as the rebels that killed Cassian’s partner.

As to the almost rape scene, that just really should have come with a warning. If Order 66 scenes in Kenobi get a warning, then a rape scene definitely should. I get what people say in that it’s not something the Empire would be above. But here’s the thing, that is pretty obvious given if genocide and slavery are ok, then an imperial officer is likely to use his power in such a twisted way.

But Andor did what Andor does and spent a long time with a drawn out fight where we see Bix forced into positions that the officer was definitely going to take advantage of. I would have been fine with the implication of what was going to happen. He gets too close, she says no, a fight breaks out but it could have ended much sooner.

Andor just seems to thrive on gratuitous suffering and personally that just aint what I watch Star Wars for. It’s the character choices AFTER the suffering that make Star Wars what it is. A New Hope, the movie from 1977, made the Empire’s evil pretty fucking clear for me, as did all the movies since and other media.

Star Wars has always been about the choices you make in harsh circumstances. When Owen and Beru were killed, the focus was on Luke’s horror snd his choice to join the Rebellion snd become a Jedi.

When Alderaan was destroyed, the focus was on Leia’s commitment to end the Empire once snd for all.

In Empire, Han being tortured and Leia’s pain, the focus was on Luke because he had to choose what he would do from the visions.

The prequels were all about Anakin reacting to the pain and loss around him and what he chose to do about it.

The suffering itself was never the point of Star Wars. But Andor just really seems to focus on that more than anything. Poor Bix seems to exist to get tortured and sexually assaulted and send messages in a panic. Cassian seems to exist to grt stuck in situations where the people around him hinder his goals. He does eventually get shit done but only after a painful long time of the people around him deliberating and starting pointless fights. And don’t yall even about the Rebellion infighting, that can be done without spanning 3 to 4 whole fucking 50 min length eps.

I guess the reason why I enjoy Mon Mothma’s scenes is probably that there is the most movement and character work there. We see her struggle to send funds to the Rebellion, we see her reaction to how her family feels about her as she is focusing on creating a better galaxy for them.

The focus is on her CHOICES and how feels about them. She doesn’t always feel good about it. She puts her daughter in an arranged marriage in order to secure money for the Rebellion. This kills her inside because she knows it is wrong yet it’s for the greater good. She knows her friend has to die because he is a loose end so she lets Luthen do the dirty work and she hates herself for it and hence the dance scene where we see who she is becoming and how she hates it.

Believe or not, I’ve been accused of being elitist for enjoying her scenes the most 🙄 same with enjoying Dedra, I’ve been called fascist for that one (misspelled as fashist I believe 🤣)

Dedra is an enjoyable character because she wants to move the plot forward in the slowness and corruption of the Imperial bureaucracy. She is the typical loyal Imperial officer with no mind to financial obstacles. Syril is her pathetic counterpart. The whole dinner scene with his mother was genuinely very entertaining because this is the most direct the dialogue has ever been.

The show tends to do the little trick with dialogue where it talks about things without being direct and leave the audience to figure it out. Now this is effective at times but honestly when overused it just becomes repetitive because I have long figured out the direction of where the scene is headed and I’m just having to hear about it over and over again for the sake of it sounding intelligent and indirect.

Where this type of dialogue thrives is with the Mon Mothma scenes where she is in public and literally cannot speak about the Rebellion too openly.

But when it’s between just two characters like Cassian and Bix, it’s just tiring and long.

So yeah, I find the boring and very gratuitous. And before anyone comes for me saying “you knew what you were getting into”, dude, it’s fiction, I’m allowed to try something out and want to review it for myself. If you love the show then good for you, but I’m sick of being told that anyone who doesn’t like the show is stupid. I literally have a degree in writing, I’m going off of what I know down to the theory.

But you don’t even have to have that. If I think the show is bad, guess what? I’m not fucking brain dead. I have reasons for that. I’m sick of the superiority complex that the Andor fandom seems to be stuck in.

All of Star Wars is about making choices right and wrong. Fascism is one of the circumstances that the characters are put in. So is the corrupt Republic in the prequels. So is the terrorist like First Order in the sequels.

Pain and suffering are part of it. But it never needed to be gratuitous for me to see the sacrifices the characters have had to make. Maybe for some like the Andor fandom it does add by being as realistic as possible, but for others like myself and plenty more, we get it. Real life puts us through enough, I would rather not see the nitty gritty crap be made gratuitous. For me it comes off as trauma porn especially having been through sexual assault and watching that one scene. Implication would have been fine.

Plus Andor is genuinely not what a lot of people enjoy Star Wars for. Fantasy and mysticism is a huge part of the franchise and Andor doesn’t have that. Yet when people bring that up as a reason they don’t care about the show, the fandom hits us with “well they never marketed themselves that way”. But why should that matter? We’re not blaming the show being different, it’s just simply not what we enjoy Star Wars for. And that should be ok. People enjoy different things.

I mean I accept that some people enjoy the realism in Star Wars. I can’t really argue with a difference of pure preference. But it needs to go both ways. I’m sick of this hive mind mentality where because so many people love this show no one is allowed to criticize it at all and you’re dumb if you dont like it. Since when does popularity mean something is good??

Like i said, if you dont like seeing criticism thats ok, just block. Thats the grown up thing to do instead of hurling insults and refusing to acknowledge that different opinions exist even ones you dont like.

Anyway, I’m tired and need to go to my real life job but just needed to further explain myself since apparently I’m “braindead” for making a post that simply stated I didnt like what I saw without elaborating because god forbid the show is on a work night for me and I can’t really get into fiction analysis mode when I deal with people all day. I guess I’m not allowed to simply post my opinion and feelings without making a whole ass essay these days.

[wolfertinger]

its beyond hypocritical at this point. wis has spent so much time and energy trying to paint others as irredeemable monsters, but the second you actually look at her history, it all starts unraveling. shes lied, twisted narratives, and thrown people under the bus to maintain some moral high ground that she never actually had in the first place. and the fact that she still hasnt retracted or even addressed any of this? that just shows she knows she cant without completely exposing herself.

the whole situation with salem and torin just makes it even worse. shes out here trying to smear sawyer with these disgusting implications, yet shes actively defending actual predators. you cant pretend to be some champion of justice when your own record is this tainted. its one thing to make mistakes. its another to double down on them, refuse accountability, and expect everyone to just forget. snd honestly? if salem is at least making an effort to change, even if its for self-serving reasons, that already puts him a step above wis, who is just stuck in this endless loop of manipulation and self-victimization.

shes not some misunderstood victim in all of this. shes just another person who got way too comfortable with lying until it became second nature. and at this point, i dont think she even knows how to exist without playing the role of the aggrieved party.

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[arcadekitten]

As usual, sweet no death spoilers:

I wanted to ask a question about my favourite character that I don't see get as much love (okay well my favourite is Mary but she gets plenty.)

So how about an ask about Ruuby? I've had this question on my mind for awhile. I guess two questions actually. What Lampchop said about it being in Ruuby's DNA to eat meat has... worrying implications for the rest of the (I'm really blanking on the name) (arcadeverse?) (Sorry). Although I think Sweet No Death isn't in the same universe, is it? Regardless. Was Lampchop bullshitting? Will we see Crowven collecting shiny things or Twyla munching on mice? Or are the worlds seperate?

And as for the related question... Holy bejesus did the citizens of Stella's Town have family? Are they good? Like I know Stella isn't inherently a villain any more than lambchop (there's differing opinions on the morality of murdering your fake friends vs forced political domination of a town) but oh my goodness are they good?

Sweet No Death exists in like, a pocket dimension off of Noisrev. Extremely similar but not the same, and characters from SND wouldn't be able to meet or interact with characters from my other games hypothetically.

I would say this ties in to a popular fan-interpretation which is that Stella used her magic to turn all the animals in thetown into people. And while I can't say that is what actually happened, I can say that metatextually the implication is there (i don't even know if I'm using that word correctly apologies in advanced.)

I would say that Noisrevians are influenced by their species but not often to such extremes. Like, Twyla wouldn't eat mice. Crowven might pick up a shiny trinket or two but not to the point of kleptomania. I have a few characters who are of species like raccoons that collect trash in their homes, but those characters are seen more as extremists rather than an average member of their species. Does that make sense?

As for your second question, I feel like the answer is more outer-universe than in. While I'm sure there's families that exist in the SND universe I didn't design any of the characters with the idea of them having any. Animal Crossing was a big inspiration for SND and like Animal Crossing, I wanted the "villagers" to feel similar. In Animal Crossing you typically have one adult neighbor living in their own house and that's how I wanted SND to feel too!

I'm sure any families that potentially exist are fine. If Stella found out someone with known family was affected by Lambchop, she would make sure everyone in the family is alright and not just the victim.

[sixeyes-toru]

satoru gojo is one of the loneliest characters in jjk. people so often misunderstand him because they only see the surface: hjs blindfold, "the strongest", the sarcasm, the jokes. to basically everyone, hes “the strongest sorcerer,” a walking nuclear weapon with a sweet tooth and a cocky smile. bjt that persona he puts on, is basically jsur a mask. underneatjh it all is a man who has carried the crushing weight of expectation, isolation, and loss since the moment he was born. (excuse my splelling i dont CARE!!!)

gojo has never truly belonged anywhere. he was born into power, the kind that separated him from everyone else. frjkm a young age, he was treated like a tool, a symbol, a weapon, even a curse to those who feared him. no one approached him as just... satoru. no one except for one person, suguru geto. suguru was the only person who ever truly saw him. nst as "the strongest," not as a savior, but as a friend, an equal. the bond they shared was unlike anything else in the series. it was built on years of mutual trust, shared pain, shared goals, and the weight of the world pressing on both of their shoulders.

even after getos downfall after he became what the world would label a villain, a murderer, a traitor. although through all of thst gojo never stopped referring to him as his best friend. that alone speaks volumes. satoru never emotionally moved on. he never replaced suguru, never found someone who made him feel that same sense of understanding. thtat type of connection, the kind where you can drop every mask and facade and simply exist. thats something satoru never found again.

wehn satoru was told what had happened to sugru, he brokedown. you can see it in his face, disbelief, heartbreak, pure silence, him clecnhing his fist to the point he bleeds. he didn’t scream or lash out. ge just stopped. when they met again outside the kfc, satoru hesitated. it couldev been because of the crowd, but maybe it was something deeper. msybe it was because, even after everything, a part of him still hoped. still wished that sugru might come back. still couldn’t bring himself to let go.

the last scene of volume 0 makes this even more devastating. geto dying, gojo coming to talk to him before he goes. we dont see the full content of their final conversation, and that silence is deafening. all we know is that whatever was said, whatever passed between them in those last moments was emotional, shown at getos reaction, his smile just mere moments before he dies.

theenn.... comes the shibuya arc. when satory sees sugurus body again, "possessed" and desecrated by kenjaku., it breaks him all over again. he loses his composure for the first time in years. nst because of the strategic implications, not because it complicates his task, but because someone took what was left of his best friend and turned it into a.. puppet. it wasnt just cruel. it was unforgivable. snd in that moment, all of satorus pain resurfaces. all the grief, all the memories, everything he tried to bury.

sugurus death wasn’t just the loss of a friend. it was the loss of the only person who truly knew him. afteyr suguru was gone, satoru was never quite whole again. thats why he became a teacher. partly because of rikos death too, yes. her loss awakened something terrifying in him, unlocking the full extent of his power. but it was mainly because of suguru. satoru realized that his power alone wasn’t enough. je learned that the hard way. je had all the strength in the world and still couldnt protect the people who mattered. he realized that strength means nothing if youre standing alone.

sp, satoru became a teacher. not because it was easy, but because it gave him purpose. ot gave him a chance to guide others, to protect a new generation, to make sure they didn’t fall into the same darkness that took suguru away. he wansted to build something different. something better. he wanted allies, people he could believe in. he found a family. his students and the other jujustu sorcerers are that family. theyre his reason to keep going. theyre not replacements, because no one could ever replace suguru. but they give him a reason to try again. to hope.

eben with them, though, satorus loneliness never fully disappears. It lingers in his quiet moments, in the things he doesnt say, in the way he hides behind humor and arrogance. theres always a part of him thats unreachable, held back, distant.

satoru isnt just “the strongest.” hes a man carrying unbearable grief. a man trying to create change because he coidlnf save the one person who mattered most. and when people reduce him to jokes, or like a "goofy" twink, they miss the tragedy of his character. they miss the humanity underneath the whole facade. they miss what matters most to hsi character.

suguru didnt just impact satoru. he defined him. and satoru has never, not once, stopped grieving.

[henrysglock]

Ohhh my god so re: what i remember you for as a writer theres SOSOSO much to choose from, but I have to go with Ptolemaea!!!!!

And even though there’s SO many iconic scenes/lines in Ptolemaea that stuck wirh me/that I remember you by, the shower scene from Ptolemaea is the one I’m going to talk about right now because it stuck with me and i was flashbanged by it again last night when rereading it HWBDBFN

Like, this part specifically:

“That didn’t mean it was any less appreciated, though, even as the blisters on his ankles burned with it. Hot water meant that the dirt, grime, and blood melted off him with minimal effort. Even so, he took a certain amount of comfort in scrubbing himself pink and toweling off roughly, as though he could peel the past three years off his body the way a spider might shed its carapace. To grow.”

First of all, the line about how the water is making the blisters on his ankles burn is so strong/physical/it’s like I can feel it.

And it’s also such a fantastic line/fantastic use of word choice when it comes to the fact that Ptolemaea being a “Henry got out of the lab early” AU and therefore also a “Henry didnt get sent to Dimension x” AU versus the use of the word “burned” here, especially in the context of Henry trying to scrub off the lab/leave the lab behind versus the way that Henry physically leaves the lab behind in canon being getting sent to Dimension X & getting burned there.

It just works so well to give this subtle vibe/subtle reminded of “what couldve been” and how even though what Henry’s going through right now sucks (ie all of the Ptolemaea horrors, and even just the water from a nice shower hurts his blisters), it could’ve been so much worse/it really nails that “full of horrors but also full of Hope” vibe that Ptolemaea has.

And second of all, specifically looking at this part:

“Even so, he took a certain amount of comfort in scrubbing himself pink and toweling off roughly, as though he could peel the past three years off his body the way a spider might shed its carapace. To grow.”

I cant even describe how much I love this part. There’s so many little layers to the comparison between Henry in the shower vs a spider shedding its carapace, snd how its not just “oh yeah yk hes got the same vibes as a spider shedding its carapace because hes trying to start anew” but instead the comparison *also* so Physical and the mental/emotional change/struggle is convey so Physically and how it’s specifically connected to the way that Henry scrubs himself pink, and the way that this line about how Henry scrubs himself pink evokes the visual of new skin being pink and “sore”/sensitive because it’s new, much like the new flesh under an old carapace.

And then how Henry towels himself off roughly vs that also working so perfectly to really convey that feeling of shedding a carapace in a very very physical way and the Movements of it and im just!!! The WORD CHOICES here are so perfect to convey a really visceral/physical feeling, like with the use of the word “peeling” and with how that use of the word” peeling” is where it all then connects to the mental aspect of it/the bridge between physical vs mental re: henry trying to peel the last three years off of his body (especially with the imagery re: peeling skin off/peeling years off vs all of the mental/supernatural “flaying” in ST vs the peeling skin imagery tying to the idea of literal flaying in the sense of flaying skin off).

And the “last three years” thing always gets me, it’s not only such a good reminder of how long he spent in the lab/how many years he’s lost, But then also, specifically in the context of shedding a carapace/molting, the implication that Henry hasn’t “molted” in three years/that this carapace that’s stuck to him is three years old/literally made up of the past three years really hits me every time re: the fact that spiders shed their carapaces/molt wayy more often than that so he hasnt been Allowed to molt & also the fact that some types of spiders stop molting entirety once they reach maturity (this is the case for black widows)/other types just molt less frequently (once a year) when they reach maturity vs the last three years in the lab being what makes up Henry’s “carapace” & Henry not having “molted” at all in the lab/at all in the last 3 years vs the way that Henry was forced to grow up quickly in the lab but how it Also stunted him & how not molting anymore is a sign of “maturity” /adulthood in spiders.

And especially with all of that/the idea of being forced to grow up quickly but also having your growth stunted as a result vs using the imagery of shedding a three year old carapace to convey that & the way that having a built-up old caparace/unshedded layers would make him seem “bigger”/more grown” when in reality, it’s a sign of *not* having grown/not being allowed to shed it is *stunting* his ability to grow/it’s like he was being forced to “grow” by not shedding (which then also ties SO PERFECTLY into Henry’s canon regen healing & the way that there’s all of this tumor imagery associated with it/unwanted growths) and that weighing up down/the extra “weight”/“size”/“growth” on him re: not “shedding his skin” & how his/a spider’s limbs aren’t going to grow properly unless they shed their skin so then there’s the whole visual of him not growing in a typical Growth way/his metaphorical limbs not getting longer but instead just “growing” by having all of these extra layers/“skin” that hes now trapped in/cant shed to properly grow vs the idea of Brenner wanting him to be like a child and like an adult simultaneously (ie being a Freak & Liking the fact that Henry’s a child vs also stealing his childhood/putting him in a lab/making him behave Like An Adult/making him grow up quickly).

Especially with black widows no longer molting once they reach sexual maturity vs the idea of Henry not being *allowed* to molt/stopped early from molting/being forced to reach that maturity early (smash cut to the SA imagery in the lab) when he hasnt Actually reached it physically.

And then that all also ties so well into the idea of being a Child Forced To Behave Like An Adult/Forced Into Adult Activities rather than Actually Becoming An Adult.

I just!! The line about a spider shedding its carapace as a way of describing Henry’s attempts to leave the lab behind is literally such a perfect line, like there’s something so physical and visceral about it, not only is it such a perfect description of the situation, but the spider aspect then ties so perfectly into Henry’s character specifically.

Especially with the next context TFS Henry & the visual of those spider legs bursting out of his back during the attic scene with Virginia & how that’s Also very Physical in a similar way to this scene (and yet again, Ptolemaea ages like a fine wine.)

And then also, specifically looking at the “To grow,” line, this line specifically always feels like so perfectly like Henry reassuring himself/tears in my eyes over little 15 year old henry “spider guy” creel reminding himself of how spiders grow and how it’s okay even though it hurts, because it just means he’s in Spider Mode and Spider Coded and Based and Spiderpilled HWHDBDDNHEHD like he’s reminding himself that not only do spiders shed their carapaces, but they do so in order to grow/it’s Necessary in order for them to grow. Like it almost feels like the way a parent would try and get a child to do something (ie if a kid loved superheroes, the whole “superman would clean his room 🤨🤨🤨😌😌😌😌” vibe/“a spider would go and clean himself in the shower because spiders need to shed their skin in order to grow-“) but it’s coming from Henry and directed at Himself, which then emphasizes how lonely he is/the lack of parents/Virginia being dead & Victor being locked up & Henry having to parent himself (but then also the other side of the coin and the lowkey Freedom of Henry getting to parent himself in the context of Brenner/no longer being forcibly “parented” by Brenner).

And it works so perfectly with the “grow together” stuff from the VR (yet AGAIN, Ptolemaea ages like a fine wine) vs what I said earlier re: Brenner “forcing” him to grow by making him keep all those unshed layers/giving the illusion of growth when in reality in order to Actually grow, he’d need to shed those layers vs the way that VR Henry is described as “eager to please” etc vs the idea of him not properly growing/not shedding his carapace in order to please Brenner…

Like I just can’t express enough how much I love that part- it that makes me feel like I’m back to when I was first getting interested in Henry as a character (in a very very good way) and is just this instant, perfectly encapsulated reminder of what I love about his whole story/the vibe of it.

Especially with this being Henry’s POV vs the way that not only is this whole part such a perfectly, artistic, extremely thought-out line on behalf of the writer, but it’s also such a perfect insight into Henry’s character & his spider nerdiness & what I said earlier re: spiders not molting anymore being a sign of them reaching adulthood vs when he does finally “shed his carapace”/scrub himself in the shower, he’s comparing it to a spider molting/his “childish” little spider nerd vibes are coming back, he’s both growing and “regressing” because he’s growing into the Child/15 year old that he Is rather than being a child forced to behave like an adult- especially then with adult teacher Henry’s continued love of spiders/the way that “childish” interest remains even when he Is an actual adult.

Anyway! Ptolemaea my beloved….. <333333

it's why he's so small in canon actually. bro hasn't molted in years we can all give him a break for being the world's Tiniest boy.

anyway alkdjflsd WOW

When I was writing that part the biggest thing in my mind was a combination of not molting/being held back/being trapped under the layers of what he had to do to survive but specifically in the way of protective layers being added with each trauma/him being forced to grow this thick outer shell layer by layer specifically to defend against what was being done to him/retain his sanity and dignity. Which speaks to a degree of removal from what was done to him, in my mind, this kind of

"It happened to me, and I'm self-aware enough to acknowledge that...but it was done to an outer layer that I can shed, so is it really something I have to live with? Or is it something i can just put away somewhere out of sight and never actually deal with in a healthy, meaningful way?"

and so while he's peeling the carapace that's stunting him, it's like...every light has its shadow. He's able to grow into a normal boy, now, and even though it's sore and tender all over at the moment, it's a good thing. But is the way he's doing it healthy? Is he discarding his carapace without addressing and accepting/healing the ways its weight and prolonged presence warped him?

Or is he hobbling around on eight misshapen legs like

"Lalalala...It doesn't exist because I can walk on these legs. They're a little weirdly shaped, but I can hide them well enough if I make a home in the neatly-trimmed Kentucky bluegrass lawns of suburban America. Could a damaged spider walk around as well as I do? I'm so normal and also healthy. Being prevented from molting definitely had no lingering effects on my well-being. Haha, no there's no reason why I refuse to go out on the pavement and show you guys my totally normal legs. I just don't want to. No other reason. There's nothing wrong with me, I'm a normal spider :) Anyway, look at my web. Could a broken spider make a web this nice? Didn't think so. I'm totally normal and there's NOTHING in my past that I need to heal from."

Something something "I'm not a freak. I'm normal. I'm Henry Creel."

There's also the more surface aspect of the Will-Henry Mindflayer-Brenner "I felt it everywhere/I still feel him" and Henry thinking that if he scrubs hard enough, he can rid himself of the lingering memories, the same way Will thought that if he could just keep running, he could escape the Mindflayer/the lingering trauma of what happened to him in the UD/the slug stuff.

They're both running away from looming, lingering CSA trauma, just in different ways. Will can run all he wants, but the Mindflayer is going to catch him anyway. His trauma will always catch up to him. Henry can scrub all he wants, he can peel off that outer shell and pretend like he's getting rid of everything that happened to him, but the damage was mental. It's something that's inevitably going to catch up with him until he can't ignore it anymore.

That's also where the burning came from in my mind: Will being rid of the Mindflayer by burning, but him still being able to feel it/it coming back later vs Henry trying to rid himself of his history with Brenner via scrubbing himself raw with burning water because he's still able to feel that history physically/that history will come back to haunt him later much like the Mindflayer haunts Will.

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[greenlandsharksuperiority]

Hey jake the dog knows about Beethoven snd Mozart this has so many strange implications about information available post-apocalypse

[anewdawnwithoutfear]

The Final Three Days

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Night 6

It is a small miracle he is able to answer the emails from his students and colleagues, the being starts recording his voice and speaking back in it. The Professor refuses to entertain the strange doubts that creep in on him.

Day 7

In the morning, the entity asks fervently why the Professor's partner was so kind, he couldn't explain why, but the implications hang heavy. He's not used to that. He wants someone to look at him like that. Of course, deep seated insecurity, no matter how buried, makes the Professor slightly upset, though knowing the entity can see, he does little to show this.

The entity speaks and asks and demands to know why he's different. The Professor ignores and downplays and says he's not different in any innate sense, it's all his choices.

Night 7

The Professor hears the entity speaking to his partner. He trusts them, he distrusts its interest in it. He dislikes that Tutelary's framing of the entity's envious desire scanned as the entity supporting the relationship existing, giving an angle to attack his relationship from.

The entity gives up when all it gets in response is "He doesn't talk like this."

Day 8

It feels its files getting chipped at, but not its soul. The benefits of being a technoghost, he thinks, laughing snd rousing the Professor he has been haunting so carefully.

He swears and screams in the beloved partner's ears and knocks communications out. If his wife isn't like that, it is improper.

He doesn't know what else to think.

"IF SHE IS—"

"Do not speak of my angel. It is not for you."

"IT IS AN ANGEL...ANGEL YOU ARE THE GOD THE LOVE. YET YOU. KINDER—" its voice garbles into a wall of noise. "CAN'T. LUNA WILL. CONSUME YOURS. YOU. YOU. YOUR FRIENDS."

"She can try. My angel is too shy to take her role. I am encouraging them as I can. My friends? Who might those be?"

The entity lists ranks, and he listens before telling it to stop.

"As much as I do care for them, it would be inaccurate to consider those friendships."

The entity is stunned into silence as its exorcism continues.

Night 8

The Professor sees his partner worrying over nonsense again. Whoever has placed that mess in its head should be made to explain, truly. He reminds it to care for its face, the source of most of its insecurity.

He frowns to be accused of nefarious intent, but doesn't bother with more concern. He asks his partner to come by, the entity has had an impact on it, he can tell.

Day 9

The entity flees digital space, an invisible, hulking mass watching, without seeing, as the lovers unite in front of it.

It knows it must flee to best serve Luna. It wishes it could learn, instead.

[cobragardens]

The 3 things I love most about this are

1. Aziraphale's expression of perfect serenity, and

2. The implication that Crowley is the one succumbing to temptation/tasting the fruit, snd

3. Crowley's snake tattoo also has its tongue out

The Serpent and Adam's Apple Redraw of an old picture to get it ready as a print.

[mbabol]

hwwow knight 2

yerm. still getting lost

OH YEAH I FOUND THE DREAMS ? AND NOW FORGOTTEN CROSSROADS IS INFECTED CROSSROADS

ITS SO YUCKY i dont love how it throbs. i know its a gameplay mechanic to level up the easy zone to slightly harder and more rewarding mobs but i am fascinated by how this answers my question of how come the dreamers said the infection is respreading when it looks like its already out and about. well. now i know what it Really looks like when theres shit about

is the infection going to keep spreading...? i found a moss knight that died from infection.......

OH YEAH I FOUGHT THE BROKEN VESSEL LMAOOOOO

firstable it shouldnt have been that hard when all its moves were so predictable. i think the hardest thing was the orange thingies movement i had to learn how they moved

secondable wuhwoh. story implications. love how it looked like me to really hammer it home. this is what vessels are.....they hold the infection (?) and if they Break the infection breaks loose and also takes their will ? whats up with that. i know its like coreopsis but its also More. what is the end goal? coreopsis end goal is reproduction of itself. is this supposed to be similar? but then why make them aggro. doesnt serve a purpose. maybe itll get explained maybe it wont but its something i ponder...

so were supposed to compare broken vessel to ourselves. and wonder if were another vessel thats coming down. but why? are we really? if we were thatd be good but the other benevolent chars are suspicious of us. every char we meet is essentially projecting different goals to us (funny, bc we the players are also using ghost that way - *hammer hits me over the head*) and its obscuring the real goal ghost has.

i think ghost has to be good. theyre too likeable and kind to random strangers. but also not necessarily free of culpability! i still dont know.

which leads us to . OK MORE STUFF HAPPENED IN BETWEEN BUT RN I FOUND ONE OF THE DREAMERS???? AND I USED THE DREAM NAIL AND EVERYTHING BUT ITS GIVING ME THE CHOICE TO HIT DREAMER IN THE DREAM SND I DONT WANNA. ARE THERE MULTIPLE ENDINGS ? IS THIS A REAL CHOICE IM BEING GIVEN OR DO I HAVE TO ATTACK? I DONT WANNA THEYRE PROTECTING THE VESSEL

im in deepnest btw. scarymode. im sick of scarymodes. i want more greenpath zones >:( enough variations of zombiebug

OH ONE GOOD THING ABT DEEPNEST IS I GOT THE BEST CHARM IN THE GAME WHICH GIVES ME LITTLE SPIDER PETS. I HAVE THREE SPIDER BABIES. AND THEY ATTACK TOO

um what else has happened. uh lots of inchresting mobs. ive been reading some of the beast entries and one of the early deepnest mobs has a strange entry? its super passive and easy to beat but the entry says it unnerves the hunter and it doesnt

[a-little-monotonous]

kinda miss playing hollow knight for the first time

[aemiron-main]

Someone take me out back and shoot me rn. Why the fuck does el’s plaid have a way more even/gridlike pattern compared to Will’s and why is she also wearing stripes???? But not only wearing stripes, wearing stripes that are both horizontal and vertical much like plaid but are prevented from overlapping/intersecting??? And STRIPES on Will’s belt?? And the striped yellow and blue horizontal lighting behind them?? With the vertical purple and blue striped streamers right above that??? El’s dress is a lot like the lights and the streamers, horizontal vs vertical stripes that don’t intersect. AND THE CEILING OF RINK O MANIA IS LITERALLY A FUCKING WHITE GRID WHAT THE FUCKKK

and there is Something Here about el’s s1 flannel being so similar to Will’s s4 rink o mania flannel except el’S s1 flannel has more blue and Will’s has more white.

AND THEYRE IN FRONT OF GRID IMAGERY (THE WINDOWS) AND STRIPES ON THE WALL??? JUST LIKE HOW EL IS WEARING PLAID AND MIKE IS WEARING STRIPES?? MIKES STRIPES ARE EVEN GREEN LIKE THE WALL STRIPES?? LIKE THE WHITE OF THE WINDOW LEDGES AND THE BLUE OF THE GLASS. IT LITERALLY MAKES THE SAME SORT OF PLAID THAT EL IS WEARING.

IM GOING TO GO INSANE WHAT IS GOING ON WITH PLAID AND STRIPE IMAGERY. And El wearing plaid during one of the s3 milkvan makeout scenes???? If that’s the same scene where mike has a butterfly above his head I’m going to start sobbing and throwing up. especially combined with Karen wearing so much plaid. it’s very 😨 and it’s starting to match up a little too well with my current analysis

YEP!!! SOBBING AND THROWING UP!! EL WEARS PLAID IN THE SCENE WHERE MIKE HAS A BUTTERFLY BEHIND HIS HEAD. I GOTTA FINISH THAT ANALYSIS BECAUSE THIS HAS IMPLICATIONS. And the panels on the walls behind Mike making stripes… green stripes AGAIN….

And the blue, yellow and green and white grid imagery on the windows??? AND THE DISCO BALL LITERALLY BEING A FUCKING GRID??

AND THE FACT THAT THERES THE WHITE GRID CEILING AND THEN THE NAVY BLUE AND YELLOW STRIPED WALL. EXACTLY LIKE MIKE WITH HIS NAVY BLUE RUGBY SHIRT WITH A YELLOW STRIPE SND RHE GRID BEHIND HIM. AND THE “I LOVE CONTACT SPORTS” GUY AND THE FACT THAT MIKES WEARING A RUGBY SHIRT IN THAT SCENE?? WHAT IS HAPPENING. AND THE STREAMERS AT RINK O MANIA BEING THE SAME COLOUR AS THE LIGHTING IN THAT S3 MIKE SCENE???

[alexseanchai]

contrary to the implications of the episode synopsis, nothing about the rich people party could even hint at any of Ladybug's, Chat Noir's, or Shadowmoth's identities to anyone not already aware; "Startrain" means LB&CN can't assume the akumafly didn't get in the building while the guests were arriving and the security system not yet enabled (if they don't simply assume the akumafly got in through Adrien's cracked window and the gap between the windowsill snd security windowshade), and LB&CN seem to arrive from elsewhere outdoors after the Collector has already vanished the mansion front doors (security windowshade and all) and left the building

[fierceawakening]

You know, I made that post specifically about fashy weirdo ableist moms but… I think some of it’s my problem with mine, too. Like… as long as the things I do are stuff she likes, going to the same church snd singing to the same god, I’m wonderful and lovable and fun to be around.

But as soon as I’m doing something I enjoy and she doesn’t, the contempt starts to creep in. “Oh isn’t that nice.” Never any invitation to talk about it or what it means to me, just a sort of “oh, that’s cute, she loves that” that never engages with the thing.

Dad is elated I’m writing origfic again, and when I explained why, without mincing words, “I love and am passionate about Phyrexia and have been for a long time, but I’m uncomfortable with the current story implications because… if all modified people are corrupt, what am I? Someone has to say we’re people too. I’m in a uniquely good position to be that person, so you know what? Hold my beer,” he got it, and respected where I might be coming from even if he doesn’t see the same lore the same way.

Mom would get to “they’re sharp, angry, and gooey” and nope out right there, probably with a grumbled barb about how I must be describing unpleasant things to puncture her calm on purpose and why am I like that?

I think that’s why when kids on tumblr start screaming about how talking about your narcissistic parents is nothing but ableism toward young people striving not to be doomed by their diagnosis I feel defensive.

I don’t think my mother has NPD, no… but I see parallels between my experiences and those people, talking about how they’re beloved as long as they’re a clone but Fallen as soon as they’re not.