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The truth is that I miss you, Like I really fucking miss you. I keep reminding myself that you are dead, because somewhere in my mind you are still alive and this isn't reality.
#grief#grief journey#sibling loss#sister loss#grief diary#sibling grief#On this episode of things I wish I could say to my dead sister
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#sibling grief#tw grief#coping with grief#grief poetry#grief poem#my poem#poems and poetry#poetry#grief art#grief vent#vent#family trauma#trauma#sister loss#sibling loss
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29.12.2023
It's almost New Year's. Christmas came and went again. We spent it with T&F for the second year running; it was ok, but for me nothing replaces you. There's always an empty chair.
The more the years pass I'm starting to feel your absences more and more in things that never contained you. I miss you our kid. Always.
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Dear Alyssa,
It's been a long while since I've written. I'm sorry about that. Not that I haven't thought of you, and the world without your energy in it. So much has happened, that I know you see from your perfect spot, perched somewhere high up, taking in all the golden light.
It's not the same of course. The wanting of you here on the earth plane, the seeing what I'm doing, who I'm becoming, being able to meet wildflower, meet me for coffee, a facetime. It's still so strange that you will not appear somewhere saying hey, sorry I'm late. And it's even more strange that we are coming up on 12 years gone. That seems too long and then at the same time too short? Time is weird and it continues to remind me. No matter how far we are from this time in 2011, I still have the urge that I can outrun it.
Strong minded girls. The two of us. I just want you to know how much I miss you. How much I love you. How I wish you could be here, and I could be shopping for Christmas gifts or sending each other funny memes.
I love you sissie. Miss you even more.
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yes my sister is dead and I'll never see her again, but I have to go to work, and to school, and I have rehearsal, I have to keep going, I have to keep living, I have to cook, I have to take the cat to the vet, I have to comfort my parents.
I feel like I'm constantly telling myself "you'll grieve next month, when this assignment is done, when the play is done, when it's summertime and you'll have more time, when you are not busy. You have to endure one week more, one month more, one year more. You'll cry when you have time, because the world keeps spinning and it doesn't wait for you."
I feel that if I stop even for a moment I will be lost. If I sleep one day through the grief I will never get out of my bed again. If I skip one day of school I will stop going.
I always say goodbye to my friends and tell them that I love them, because I now know that everything and everyone dies. And people can die suddenly in their sleep even if they are seemingly healthy. When I watch the people I love, I know they are gonna die, and my heart already weep from their missing. I cry over the cat knowing there is a day when she'll have to go too.
grieving as an adult is so funny it's like. im sobbing my eyes out i'm laughing like a maniac im pondering the mortality of everything around me. ok glad thats out of my system because i have a dentist appointment in an hour
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Obsessed with characters who portray themselves as worse than they are. Who are lying to everyone including themselves about it. People generally assume if someone's lying about themselves they're trying to look better but sometimes they're trying to look worse. They attribute agency to where they had none, add intent to accidents, try to convince everyone that this is something they did instead of something that happened to them.
#this is about tenko bnha#but it is also about dahlia ace attorney#watch the nezumiVA videos on ace attorney trilogy they're great#anyway dahlia saying she (at like. 6 years old) apparently convinced her father to abandon her sister. hmmm#also everyone including herself thinking of her as the manipulator in control with terry when she was 14 dating a 20 y/o#anyway these characters both did do terrible things but feel the need to pile on more and remove nuance from where it exists#to convince themselves that this is what they really want. that they chose this.#it's about the loss of control it's about being a victim feeling worse than being a villain#at least if you were the bad guy you had autonomy#shimura tenko#shigaraki tomura#dahlia hawthorne
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Hummingbird
Messengers of happiness
Healers of the sick
Fierce, loyal, tenacious
That was you.
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Stephanie
I’m 28 and still on particularly snowy days my sister will call to question the magical properties of Narnia
She still shouts “I love you one time”
She’ll offer to buy Anna’s house because it reminds us of Russ and even though we’ll never say it those tables are too big, to empty
And we’ll sit and order coffee and eggs and though neither of us is particularly fond of their coffee it’s routine,
An unspoken secret shared by three sisters.
She’ll offer to bring me to the thrift store
And bitch about the way I drive
She’ll say I annoy her
And I’ll say she’s worse
But we both know without the other we couldn’t survive
My sisters love is quite
And ear shattering loud
She might blend in
But it’s always her I’m searching for in a crowd
#heartbreak quote#spilled heart#i love u#heartache#quoteoftheday#spilled emotions#spilled tears#spilled thoughts#spilled ink#spilled poem#sisterhood#sister#sister love#sister loss#grief/mourning#grief poetry#my poem#original poem#short poem#my poetry#sad poem#love poem#poem#poetic#poetry#poets on tumblr#writers and poets#poems and quotes#grief poem#poems on tumblr
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I love how over time kid xelqua has become less just baby grian and more grian's kid who he found in the woods/somehow created and now the kid represents all of grian's childhood trauma and Catholic guilt and grian is just trying to break the cycle bc there's this magic fucking baby who is the best thing in the world
JKAGJKD yes Exactly, see evo Grian has a lot of family issues, from being an orphan, to the Watchers, he has ISSUES, so raising a version of himself is..... definitely odd, but weirdly healing.. He sees how he was as a kid, he wasn't that bad, he was just a kid ! He didn't deserve to be abandoned or anything. He sees all of his ache in Xelqua, he's very much breaking the cycle.
[mumbo: You alright mate, you have that look in your eyes. grian: no yeah--i'm good, i just.... its easy to raise him, y'know ? i mean, i know he's literally me, but.. it makes me wonder about my own parents--before the watchers, if i was anything like him, i don't know why they left] (-me)
#i was gonna go to bed but then i doodled this real quick ajgadjk#grian and family issues makes me go crazy#my art#ask#sketching#kidxelqua#grians already a big brother. pearls his younger sister ! he had to raise her since they're close in age.-#-and even tho you love someone. you can still ache for the loss of childhood. its not a kids responsibility to take care of another alone#pearl and grian were close in age so they were just kids together. they had a Us against Them dynamic#grian and xelqua have a struggle and adjustments to figure out#figure xelqua out. hes a kid. but not human(hermit-)#i like to imagine at first. grian would just stand to talk to xelqua. but later he starts crouching down to his height#<- IMPORTANT !! i did this a lot when working with kids and ur their best friend immediately WAHHH#i always draw aether crouching down to talk to xelqua#grian catching watcher baby fever hahahahaaha
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I'm listening to a lot of Maintenance Phase (bc I love it) and this comes up sometimes, so I'll just be sat here thinking about how common it is for little kids to grow up watching their moms and other women in their life jump from diet to diet. Just as ambient background noise in your childhood, the adults around you obsess over calories aloud, express guilt over eating enjoyable food, frame exercise as a form of punishment for eating, and so on.
#how crazy is that...#and no your mom or your aunt or sisters or whoever surely aren't thinking about this as modeling a type of behavior#but that's what happens#also particularly crazy for people I talk to where you're in the age group that also had The Biggest Loser airing on tv at the time LMAO#lots of stuff happening at once there huh. crazy#sergle.txt#also yes I am gendering this SPECIFICALLY not because EDs/weight stigma/eating disorders DON'T stretch across all genders#but because it WAS specifically almost always women doing this because the diet and weight loss industries specifically target women#and because we can all think of examples in our families or in those of our friends and ppl close to us#where one or all of the women will be taking part in this behavior and IN THE BACKGROUND. the men in the house usually aren't.#and that a lot of the time this isn't enforced on them either. or the mom will be cutting calories and the dad will be visibly making fun.#sometimes families with one or two people doing this diet shit will cause it to be The Whole House Goes On A Diet#but more often than not it's a splintered effort or just one person.
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I see people talking to their siblings, being able to message them, tell them about their day.
And here I am, talking to an empty room, just hoping that somehow she is able to hear me on the other side
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How can I live when my little sister is dead? How can I continue to walk this world alone knowing she is not here, knowing no matter how hard I look for her I'm never seeing her again? How can I go on, forever missing? I wasn't supposed to do this alone. What am I if not an older sister?
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yoo joonghyuk making lee jihye one of his companions because if he can't save his little sister then at least he can save this other kid...... and then he doesn't and he doesn't and he doesn't and he doesn't and he doesn't and he d
#orv.txt#fra.txt#lee jihye#yoo joonghyuk#i don't think joonghyuk is the type to care for someone just because they remind him of a loved one#but also i don't think he could even help himself#he can't help but be reminded of his baby sister when lee jihye looks up to him#and when she eats something he cooked after months of barely eating enough to survive because#the grief and guilt and loss of na bori wouldn't allow her anything more than that#and when she gets that determined fiery look in her eyes#and when she trusts him#and when she looks to him for safety#orv#yoo mia#<- not really but she's there just one more character haunting the narrative#yoo siblings#orv spoilers
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I'm gonna make this place your home
By @rocksibblingsau
Branch's drawings from them to now
It's also to represent his memories of his family that he had forgotten and unknown turama that shows up in nightmares
But also the joy of his big sister
#rocksibblingsau#trolls#branch trolls#abandoned branch#feral branch#own artwork#rock trolls#barb trolls#barb is best big sister#from Branch's pictures#she takes that picture with pride#turama#memory loss#au
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Everyone pray I've just asked my mom to let me captain Thanksgiving cooking so she doesn't have to do anything
#she probably doesn't trust me and she's probably (accurately) worried that my dad will pitch a fit if she's not helping him on the turkey#but i can spin it! two of my sisters have kitchens in town. i can coordinate with them. i actually LIKE coordinating#i will be honestly not stressed which is so much more than she can say#and i bet i can even persuade my dad to see it as a gift to her instead of a loss to him and then he'll have to say yes#if i'm gonna be the neutral safe emotional confidant for everyone in my feuding family i'm damn well going to harness that power for good#if i can coordinate details for a thousand person church and manage 150 volunteers? i can run one family thanksgiving#siblings
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