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Throwback Thursday: Reflections on My Accidental Marriage Retreat
Throwback to when I accidentally joined a marriage retreat while single! It was awkward yet enlightening. I'm grateful for the experience and the time I spent bonding with my son. Here's to embracing life's surprises! #ThrowbackThursday #SingleLifeAdventu
Looking back at my accidental adventure into a marriage retreat while being single, I can’t help but laugh at some of the situations I found myself in. It’s funny now, but it was quite an experience at the time! Amused by My Single Adventures I am genuinely amused by the odd scenarios I encountered while single. Signing up for a singles retreat only to end up at a marriage retreat was both…
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#accidental marriage retreat#bonding with family#Johanny Ortega&039;s Blog#relationship insights#single life reflections#unexpected lessons
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Opalized Wood / Heart
#gw2#guild wars 2#gw2 oc#dragonheart#gw2 sylvari#my art#and admist the void... when everything was thought lost... a single spark comes back to life#an opal in a dark abyss#glowing brighter and brighter until the sky reflects only its light
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mentioned Ibe in the previous post so in case anyone doesn't know him he is a doctor who makes medical illustrations showing black people.
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#dengue one is personal yeah I got comments on how at least it doesn't look so bad on my skin#because lighskin as I am rash still looks more brown than bright pink on me. but we associate it with the bright pink spots#even if it's mainly pardas and black women catching it so yeah it changed something in me seeing a black man in the drawing#it's not by him I think the illustrator is a woman doctor even but his association does have a drawing of a black woman bit by a mosquito#which isn't something I expected myself to be so excited and emotional about but. yeah#my first contact with him was in one of my classes in college about publishing school materials#and fuck if it didn't solidify a lot of reflection about the images that go on textbooks#which yes. includes women only appearing if the condition is exclusively of the female sex in this#but fuck if his work didn't make me cry. I'm an educator and the daughter of a black healthcare professional. and I never thought about it#how every single anatomical drawing I had seen in my life and even photographs of medical conditions. had been of white people#I come from a predominantly black family with a history of skin cancer dammit. I had never questioned it. part of me was embarrassed of me
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the man who can light my torch any day
#the heat of that flame is nothing compared to the heat of my passion for him#maximus please have just a shred of mercy upon me#he is. so stunning here and for WHAT#make a baby with me maximus i am b e g g i n g you#give me this man and a private room and about eighteen hours and i will emerge a new person#his facial expressions here just kill me#the uncertainty the worry the keeping himself cool even though it’s a terrifying situation#that’s a face that needs to be covered in kisses#also hello arm muscles#he’s just so beautiful i could cry#or throw myself off a cliff#the roman style looks SO perfect on him i swear#the haircut the beard the tunics the firelight reflecting off his features#NO ONE looks as good in firelight as maximus#i took so many screencaps of this scene#couldn’t help it#my phone is running out of storage but what am i supposed to do??#delete the 28294055827239595 pictures i have of maximus???#as if i could be parted from a single picture of my beloved#his face is the wallpaper of my heart#i want to have a clandestine affair with him in the tunnels below the gladiator school#this set of caps is inspiring me#come back later maximus and i are making some passionate love on that stone staircase#i swear this man would be getting laid so hard by me every night#my love my life my ocean breeze my starry sky my everything my BELOVED HUSBAND#never getting over him as long as i live#gladiator#maximus decimus meridius#gladiator 2000#russell crowe
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#ts4 wip#getting the mirrors to reflect properly took way too much math#my single braincell was fighting for her life
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the more i learn about attachments styles and the more i understand the person that started me down this rabbit hole the more i realise i made the right decision to cut them out of my life
#you can only try to help an avoidant for so long#she made her decision#she didn’t want to put in the effort#and now she’s literally begging for my attention#she straight up said i can scream at her all i want just so long as it means we can talk again#like excuse me#that is not what i want#i want her to work on herself#reflect and put in the goddamn effort to be a better person#like screaming isn’t going to fix anything#and i don’t like doing that?#like every single decision was HER decision#i tried#i literally tried for years#i only have so much patience#and to try and make me seem like im insane constantly#like get the fuck out of here#just because you hate yourself and the life you created doesn’t mean you can take it out on me#and now that left she cares?#literally fuck you#you can’t choose your family#but you can goddamn well choose if they’re allowed access to you
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accidentally took somewhat of a vc fandom break for a while and i come back and it’s almost vamptember lol oops
#i’m not back back but i’m lurking and trying to catch up hope you’re all good & thriving! <3#also being gone kind of made me reflect a lot on the state of vc fandom & sort of where i fit in & how i've changed since i started my blog#the good and bad yk it’s interesting to me to note where my meta thoughts#-have evolved or changed completely or remained exactly the same#and how i interact with fandom too bc i’ll be honest when my blog was peak active and i was answering several asks a day#-i was wired on stimulants *and* in school full-time#lbr that amount of activity requires a very specific sort of energy and a very specific sort of schedule#and thinking about things that i would do differently here if i could start over things i’ll be doing differently now#and things that i plan to keep doing!#anyway a lot changes in two years is what i’m trying to say#but dw i’m still thinking about armand and lestat every single day of my life that will never change <3#hekate.txt
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Welcome to the “they’re just like me fr (derogatory)” club featuring no color because I would rather die than draw Sif with color
#keese draws#isat#in stars and time#isat siffrin#jackie stern#oxygen not included#ignore how I made sif look comically tiny I didn’t mean to even if I’m right#also the (derogatory) mostly applies to just jackie but sif made me remember I have hashtag issues so he gets a lil too#I do deeply adore both of them I just like jackie more because she’s a terrible person#which in turn means I bully her harder#I wish I could imagine fun interactions between sif and her or olivia but alas I don’t think it’d be very interesting#jackie would not be interested in talking to sif and olivia as much as I love her isn’t a very interesting conversationalist lol#I’d still enjoy watching her and sif interact but I feel like sif would get kinda overwhelmed by her technical questions#same with jackie if she actually did talk to them but I think she’d be more keen to seek the scientists of their world#and then she’s like this time craft needing immense power thing is bullshit I did it and it generates infinite power all by itself#and then she blows up this planet too to prove her point or smth#but yeah there’s smth deeply wrong with these guys I think they should die horrifically over and over again#but alas that only happens to one of them 😔#I’d love to put jackie in a timeloop she’d actually probably be actively happy for the first maybe few months but once she starts to crack#she’d just spiral soooo bad and shes absolutely incapable of self reflecting so her ass is not escaping#rly the most interesting question of looping jackie to me is how long would it take her to even for a second think she might have done a#single thing wrong in her life lol#sif vc aw shit I just messed smth small up time to have a breakdown over it#jackie vc wtf why did the earth blow up this must be dr.techna’s fault
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The reality of being a survivor is that the person or people who hurt you might just get to live full, rich lives and leave you behind. It's a perverse feeling, and it's true that that is fucked up. It feels like they still control you even when they're out of your life, and you feel trapped. However, you still deserve to be happy, to be fulfilled. Your life hasn't ended because they stole parts of it. They will never truly be able to take the essence of who you are.
Remembering this has taken the edge off of this thought. I won't ever give my abusers that power over me ever again. They never fucking deserved that.
#recovery#abuse#abuse tw#abuse mention tw#you can ABSOLUTELY grieve and be furious. you are entitled to those emotions and i think you're right to feel that way#but don't for a second buy into the idea that you don't deserve a good life. you DO. they fucked up and that's no reflection on you#you deserve so many good things#like... i do wish i could sit down with my abusers and fucking lay into them. but that's not possible#they're living their lives without a single thought as to their actions. they probably don't care that they ruined my life#so i won't empower them further by letting their influence transcend their presence#and that's HARD to do. it take effort and it's a daunting task#i don't blame people if they find that hard to do or think about#but i want to remind you that one day it might be easier. you'll get to a good spot#i believe in your ability to heal however that looks for you
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maybe I'd be more into astrology if the signs weren't like:
You're the coolest person on the face of the planet with that sign! And THAT sign, you're so productive and stable! Oh, and this sign, everyone born during this time of year is unbelievably hot and has a great dumptruck. And this sign is the best friend you could ever ask for.
As for you, you uh... (checks notes) cry constantly. And your moon sign is um. An overdramatic bitch. Sorry.
As for your GIRLFRIEND on the other hand! She's adventurous and fearless! Anyway your signs aren't compatible so u should probably break up 😘 crybaby
#astrology#zodiac signs#Zodiac#Horoscope#Hard to enjoy this stuff when no star chart or horoscope has ever accurately reflected a single facet of my life (:
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Fandom: Alias Relationships: Sark/Irina + Nadia/Elena, Nadia/Roberto, Nadia/Sloane Song: Would've, Could've, Should've by Taylor Swift Summary: Exploring some of the parallels between Sark and Nadia, by comparing Sark’s relationship with Irina to Nadia’s relationships with Sloane, Elena and Roberto. Content warnings: Character death, child abuse, needles, torture, violence, flashing lights
#aliasedit#alias#nadia santos#julian sark#elena x nadia#irina x sark#nadia x roberto#nadia x sark#nadia x sloane#isplus#nsplus#fanvid#myedit#expanding on my old theory that irina for sark is what roberto elena and sloane all put together are for nadia.#wonder what is worse to have multiple people trying to act as your guides in life while actively planning on harming you#or to have one single person in your life who made sure that you have no one but them; who replaced everyone in the world for you?#when she's your mother as in Mother. when she's your maker your creator your savior. your arsonist and your torturer.#and your sense of identity is tied to her so strongly that you can't remember the life before her. you had no life before her.#and then you wake up one day and you realize that you've been surrounding yourself with her doppelgangers for years.#that everyone in your life; EVERYONE you've ever been close to or wanted to be close to is a reflection of her in one way or another.#it's that when you're raised with an angry man in your house there will always be an angry man in your house;#you will find him even when he is not there quote. and sark very much can't live without irina in his house.#he'll find her even when she's not there. he'll find pieces of her in everyone he meets.#he'll surround himself with women who remind him of her. he's in a constant search of a god to pray to#because the god who made him; who gave him purpose; who taught him everything he knows; has abandoned him.#if sloane had been present in nadia's life from the very beginning he could have eclipsed everything and everyone for her in a similar way.#but nadia had a life before him. she had people who loved her before him. she had a chance to become her own person before him.#and while it didn't save her in the end it DID help to protect her from most of his influence. nadia KNEW who she was.#and knew who she didn't want to be. and if nadia hadn't run away from the orphanage; elena could have become her 'irina' too.#imagine sark and nadia meeting for the first time as the protegees of two derevko sisters? both shells of who they used to be.
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#frase#frasi#quote#quotes#citations#citation#citazione#citazioni#life#vita#self reflection#self care#self love#self improvement#take care#take care of myself#building myself#single lady
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the idea of a Gayest Player In The NHL bracket at all is already in poor taste to some degree bc i get everyone loves to make the “they’re so gay for each other fr” jokes but the condition of the actual league and its actions right now is like. you do understand why calling these people Gay Icons (Positive) for funny haha jokes is just. at best inappropriate timing, yes? but the idea of literally including one of the guys who got pride nights cancelled with his homophobia is just. can we take a minute to realize that hockey fandom doesn’t take place in a void completely unconnected to reality and see that this is just. a Really Bad Look. at best.
#gav gab#saw someone reblog the actual bracket intro post with among other things#‘mom come pick me up they’re calling tseguin a gay icon in 2023’ and like#LMFAO. YEAH. FOR REAL. YOUVE SEEN WHAT HE SAID ABOUT THE SEDINS YES?#anyways get outta here with that shit#people have gotten real confident with the ‘they’re about to fuck at centre ice’ thing and saying hockey is a Super Gay Sport#which is a fun joke to make with your friends online ig#as annoying as i find it generally#but you do understand this isn’t real yes#and i know the bracket is not making claims about reality#but what it IS doing is including players like eric fucking staal#in a bracket for Gayest NHL Player#and the real life actions of staal actively make the sport unsafe for queer athletes and queer fans#stop mistaking jokes about hockey players fucking each other or writing rpf about that as any kind of activism#or any kind of actual reflection of the nhl#how do you think this is an appropriate thing to do for so many reasons lmao how are you including some of these guys on this#even before you get into some of the other insane behaviour going on in this bracket existing#‘I didn’t pick the contestants!’ you did you. you’re in charge.#‘just hope they get voted out’ don’t include them at all what’s wrong with you#why do bracket creators always act like it’s some kind of mandatory moral imperative they include every single thing nominated/voted in#you have agency here lmao. use it. fucking spineless.#rpf for ts#adjacent enough anyway#homophobia cw#why would you do this#lmfao the brief scroll of that blog i took the amount of ‘propaganda’ that’s just ‘this guy has friends’#wild. genuinely wild.#one request id like to make to the liveblogs this year too on a vaguely tangentially related note is#reign in your blatant and unrepentant amatonormativity please#from your local aro
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it’s easy to get caught up in self doubt and criticism but sometimes you have to see yourself in a reflective surface in passing or try to view your work objectively and think about how child/teen you would be really really impressed with what you’ve done and how you’ve turned out. even if I’m not a billionaire yet 😃👍👍
#I don’t think I could even conceptualize looking the way I do now. even 5 years ago I couldn’t.#and if you told 15 year old me (who was writing vampire Mary sues) that I’d be 350k words into a single project just for fun for myself#I’d be floored that I’m capable of doing that.#and I think I would be really shocked at my art even if I (as a 30yr old) don’t think it’s super good or anything.#but I remember seeing art like mine as a kid and being so awed.#it’s really crazy trying to view yourself through the lens of your former child#can’t speak on work accomplishments because I’ve never seriously dreampt of dream jobs lol. other than being a vet when I was 8.#I think child me would frankly be shocked I have a degree in art. and religion. and anthropology. you can just do anything you want.#a day in the life of steeve#even if I’m not a man I think I’m still paying homage to my teenage bestie who died before they invented being transgender 🫡🫡🫡#girl if only you knew you can get testosterone for $5 at Walgreens in 2024#*reflecting on being 30 with a 401k and an apt and a paid off car like a real bona fida adult*#crazyyyyy that you wake up one day and you’re 30 somehow. time really does stop after 24. if you’re 24…. watch out.
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whyyy do people downplay you having any sort of mental illness, it's frustrating to deal with. This is why I like to stay in my bubble and not try to date, I guess I'm not meant for anybody..
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i promise i will calm down on the lyanna talk eventually, but -
the idea of twins and not knowing where one ends and the other begins; of being one in the same, to everyone else and to each other, and the blurring of lines between identity and autonomy. the way that benjen and lyanna are so intrinsically bound to one another, and the way that lyanna haunts the narrative and lingers in the lives of all of those whom she left after she dies, and the concept of not even benjen truly being alive - or real - once she is gone. benjen is forced to see her face every single time he sees his reflection, and ned and robert and everyone who knew her can't look at benjen without seeing lyanna, can't hear him laugh or see him smile because they are also hers. i do think this adds to his reasonings for leaving, for joining the night watch and going to the wall - it is the furthest he can get away from his sister (he will never forget her, never stop seeing her), and the only comfort he can give to his brother and those he knows, because their days will be haunted as is but he will certainly not help anyone to forget.
#* OUT OF CHARACTER.#sibling death /#benjen keeping ties with winterfell as a means of providing for the night watch#and benjen loving seeing his brother when he can. but also being So.#like sorryyyyyy. please do not point out the obvious thing that i have to live with every single day of my life and#is the reason i avoid my reflection. lets talk resources -
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