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kaerimichii · 1 month ago
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I'm Afraid I Love You
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Achilles Pelides is a superstar singer whose music is constantly flying off the charts. From hit singles to sold out concerts, the singer has garnered a huge fanbase who watches his every move. 
When Patroclus—an overworked nurse from a small town—attends Achilles’s concert one night, he is unexpectedly thrust into the singer’s world of fame.
As the two navigate the unique situation they find themselves in, the pair learn more about each other and themselves, and somehow manage to fall in love along the way.
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I was hangin’ with you and then I realized I didn't think it was true, I was surprised When I found out I've fallen for you Falling for U | Peachy! & mxmtoon
pairing: singer!Achilles x Patroclus
A/N: this is a bit of a beginning bonding part of the story for Achilles and Pat, but there will be more excitement coming in the next few parts after this!
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After Patroclus had agreed to create the illusion of a relationship with Achilles, the singer’s management team had thrown a lot of information at him. First, they went over some ground rules on how he was supposed to be acting whilst on the tour.
1. Do not answer any of the press’ questions unless specifically instructed to do so.
2. Do not venture anywhere without bringing sufficient security personnel.
3. Do not share your location on any form of social media.
4. Do not have any form of romantic relations with anyone else while linked to Mr. Pelides.
5. Do not catch feelings.
Their rules were logical, if a tad strict. Patroclus understood them well enough, feeling like he would have no problem following the majority of them. The last one though… 
Both Agamemnon and Thetis had emphasized it, reasoning that if feelings were involved then the inevitable breakup would be made messier than need be. They weren’t wrong, but the way they had looked so pointedly at him and Achilles had him thinking.
He was never one to fall for people super quickly, but he could definitely see himself developing feelings for the man who was the literal embodiment of beauty and sunshine. Maybe they wouldn’t even be spending that much time with each other outside public appearances though. Then Patroclus wouldn’t have to worry about violating the rule.
He didn’t have much time to dwell on it, however, as they then moved onto the itinerary for the tour. It wasn’t a huge tour as far as location goes, but the number of people who were said to be attending was exponential. Although Achilles’s recent behavior had caused him to lose a chunk of his fanbase, it seemed as though that didn’t stop the most devoted fans from traveling far and wide for a chance to see their favorite singer in concert. Along the way, there were several stops planned in which Achilles and Patroclus would showcase their adoring relationship. Although they both knew it would all be an act.
After going through some last logistics, Patroclus had been sent home to pack any belongings he would need for the duration of the tour. When he got home, he was met with a barrage of questions from Nikolaos and Briseis, who had been worried sick when he had not met them at the car as planned after the concert. 
Patroclus explained everything from his first meeting with Achilles to the deal he had stuck up with the singer’s management. He was met with excitement from Nikolaos and a great deal of skepticism from Briseis, both of which he had expected. He spent a good chunk of time recounting the details of the night before and his time at Mycenae Records, and promised profusely that he would leave if he ever felt uncomfortable with the situation. 
The next day, Patroclus found himself moving around his apartment tossing some last minute items into his bags before the car came to pick him up and take him to the tour bus.
Briseis and Nikolaos—who had slept overnight to see Patroclus off in the morning—watched him bustle from his room to the living room as he finished filling his bags. 
“Does this mean that you guys are gonna have to kiss a lot in public?” Nikolaos asked, waggling his eyebrows suggestively.
“Nikolaos!” Briseis sighed.
“What? It’s a valid question!” Nikolaos said, unable to stifle a laugh as he winked at Patroclus.
Patroclus was wide eyed and frozen in place as he stumbled over his words. “I— I don’t think— We haven’t really discussed specific… physical intimacy that we’re supposed to be displaying.” He mentally cringed at his choice of wording. “I think it’ll just be hand holding and… things like that.”
“Just ignore him, Pat,” Briseis said, swatting at Nikolaos who was cackling at how flustered he made his friend. “Just do things that you are comfortable with. No matter what.”
Patroclus nodded sheepishly as Nikolaos’s laughter died down. Just as he set the last of his things in one of the bags, the doorbell rang.
“I’ll get it,” Patroclus wandered over to open the apartment door. He had expected one of Achilles’s team members such as Ajax to be on the other side of the door, but instead he came face to face with the golden haired man himself.
Achilles beamed at him with a toothy grin. “Patroclus!” 
“Achilles,” Patroclus smiled back, surprised to see him but happy nonetheless, “It’s good to see you. Come in, you can meet my friends.” He opened the door wider and stepped inside to reveal Nikolaos and Briseis gaping at the celebrity. 
“Dude,” the former breathed out. He tore his attention away from the tall blonde who smiled indulgently. “Dude,” Nikolaos repeated, looking at Patroclus. “You did not tell us Achilles Pelides was going to be the one picking you up.”
“I didn’t know,” Patroclus replied, sharing a look of fond exasperation with Briseis.
“I hope me being here is alright,” Achilles said with a knowing grin.
“Of course it’s alright!” Nikolaos rushed out. “I’m a huge fan of yours, Achilles— Can I call you Achilles? You’re so talented and I have all of your songs memorized by heart. Wait, I have something—”
Before Achilles was able to thank him for the praise, Nikolaos moved over to his bag that was on the ground by the sofa. 
Patroclus couldn’t help but laugh as his friend pulled out a vinyl of one of Achilles’s most popular albums, Meraki. “Do you bring that everywhere, Nik?” he teased.
“No!” Nikolaos said defensively, the tips of his ears turning pink. “I just thought that since you’re going on tour with Achilles you would be able to have him sign this for me, but since he’s here…,” he trailed off, looking at the singer hopefully.
“I’d be happy to,” Achilles nodded, taking the marker offered to him and signing his name in big, swooping letters and ending it with a flourish.
Nikolaos thanked the man when he took the vinyl back, looking between him and the signature in awe.
“Okay,” Patroclus said, “now that that’s done, I should introduce these two properly. The fanboy—”
“Hey, I’m not—”
“—is Nikolaos, he works at the hospital with me. And Briseis,” Patroclus gestured to the woman in turn, “is my other best friend and my roommate.”
“It’s a pleasure to meet you both,” Achilles reached out to shake each of their hands.
Briseis hummed thoughtfully, regarding the blonde with a blazing stare. “I trust you will take care of Patroclus?” she said, although it sounded awfully like a warning.
Patroclus had come to be very familiar with the woman’s protectiveness over the years, especially regarding him. It was endearing and he knew Briseis always meant well, but at the moment he couldn’t help but feel bashful at his friend’s cautionary intonation.
“Of course,” Achilles assured without hesitation, “I promise he will be safe with me.”
“Good,” Briseis nodded, “Because if he’s hurt in any way…”
“Briseis,” Patroclus groaned, looking apologetically towards Achilles.
“It’s alright,” the blonde reassured him. “Patroclus will come to no harm under my watch,” he addressed Briseis sincerely. 
The woman nodded resolutely and turned to Patroclus, pulling him into a hug. “Call me if you need anything at all, and be safe,” she murmured into his ear. 
“I will,” Patroclus replied once he pulled away from the embrace. He kissed Briseis on the cheek and smiled at her once more before turning to Nikolaos. “Take care of yourself,” he said, giving the starstruck man a hug. “I’ll see you guys in a   couple months.”
Nikolaos sobered as he said goodbye to his friend. “You better give us tons of updates,” he said before dropping his voice to a lower tone only Patroclus could hear. “And have fun, get some dick—”
“Okay!” Patroclus exclaimed, pulling away suddenly. “We should get going!” His voice was higher than usual as he turned to Achilles, who looked on bemusedly at the man’s sudden change in demeanor.
With a last goodbye, Patroclus hurriedly dragged Achilles out of the apartment after snatching up his belongings before Nikolaos could share anymore embarrassing comments aloud.
It wasn’t long before the two men had settled in nicely on the tour bus as they waited for the drive ahead of them to the first city of the tour. Upon their arrival, they were informed that Odysseus, Ajax, and the rest of Achilles’s team would be meeting them later om, so they had the whole bus to themselves for the duration of the trip. 
The bus was surprisingly spacious and was even decked out with comfortable seating, a television, and a mini fridge full of snacks and beverages. 
Once Achilles and Patroclus had looked at all the amenities on the vehicle, they sat down on the sectional in the back area across from the TV and got comfortable as the bus pulled out of the parking lot and onto the road.
It was silent for a while as the two men watched the city go by through the window. Eventually, Patroclus cleared his throat, figuring he had better get to know Achilles more since they would be on tour together for the better part of three months.
���So,” Patroclus started, getting the man’s attention, “Are you excited for the tour?”
Achilles turned to face Patroclus. “Yeah, I really love performing and the fans are usually great for the most part,” he said, although Patroclus had a feeling there was something the singer wasn’t sharing.
“But?” he prompted gently.
There was visible hesitation in Achilles’s expression and Patroclus was about to backtrack and drop the subject altogether until the blonde spoke up. 
“Well,” he said with a dry chuckle, “I guess it just feels different this time. Back when I first started singing and making music it was so… raw, full of passion. My first album, Meraki—the one I signed for your friend—was exactly what the title means. It was the essence of myself. A labor of love I was able to put my whole soul into.”
There was a gleam in Achilles’s eyes, a certain reverie as he talked. Patroclus couldn’t help but smile as he observed the beauty in the way that he spoke. His tone was captivating and full of life, his dedication to his craft clear with every word.
“How is it different now?” Patroclus asked once Achilles finished speaking.
A bittersweet smile graced Achilles’s face. There was a shift in tone as he spoke now, his voice full of longing and despondency. “I… don’t have a lot of say in my music nowadays,” he sighed, leaning back on the sectional and staring at the ceiling. “For the past couple years I’ve been like Mycenae Records’ little puppet.”
Patroclus reached out to touch the man’s arm tentatively. “You don’t have to talk to me about it if you don’t want to, Achilles.”
Achilles looked back at him, eyes roving over him carefully. “No,” he shook his head. “It’s okay, I want to.” He was quiet for a moment, turning the words over in his head.
“Ever since my music became mainstream worldwide, my management has given me less and less control over the songs I write,” he sighed. “I still write the vast majority of my songs, but the ideas I pitch for the way I want my music to sound are usually shut down until I come up with something that fits their idea of a ‘hit’. It’s all about money and fame in their eyes. It’s no longer about the art of simply creating music.”
Patroclus shifted in his seat as he let Achilles’s words sink in. It was incredibly unfair that the singer was being robbed of his ability to freely express himself. No wonder he seemed so on edge during the concert the other night.
“I’m really sorry,” Patroclus frowned. “They should have more respect for you and your talent.”
Achilles shrugged, “It’s whatever. Not much I can do about it.”
“Is this why you seemed so angry during the concert?” Patroclus asked.
The blonde laughed at the question. “Was it that obvious?” he smiled sheepishly.
“No.” Patroclus shook his head. “It was just… something I noticed. I guess I could kind of tell from your facial expressions.”
“You’re very perceptive, Patroclus,” Achilles grinned, leaning closer to him. “You must’ve been watching me pretty closely to have noticed that.” 
Heat immediately enveloped Patroclus’s face and the tips of his ears. “I— You—,” he spluttered. “I wasn’t trying to, you just had a lot of closeups on the screens.”
Achilles’s laughter drowned out the brunette’s protests. “Relax,” he smirked. “I’m just teasing you.” He winked at the disgruntled Patroclus, who gave him a soft shove in return.
“You’re mean,” Patroclus complained, although his words held no malice.
“Am I?” the blonde hummed. “Well, you agreed to come on tour with me, so I guess you’re stuck with me.” 
Achilles nudged Patroclus’s shoulder with his own, and the latter sighed. “Oh no, whatever shall I do?” he gasped in mock despair, which caused the blonde to laugh again. Patroclus chuckled along with him, glad to be getting along so easily with the singer. 
After their laughter died down and there was a moment of silence between them, Patroclus voiced a question that had been in the back of his mind since the meeting with the singer’s management.
“Achilles, if you don’t mind me asking, who is Deidameia?”
Achilles stiffened at the question, causing Patroclus to regret erasing the pretty smile off of the blonde’s face. 
“She’s…,” Achilles trailed off, grimacing at the thought of her. “She’s a singer under a different label. She’s the one they were originally going to set me up with before I declared you were my boyfriend.”
“Oh.” Patroclus looked away in shame. Did Achilles wish he were here with this Deidameia woman instead?
Achilles watched a pout begin to form on the man’s face and he hastily eased his worries. “I much prefer you over her though,” he said. “They only wanted me to have a fake relationship with her for publicity sake. To tell you the truth, I can’t stand her.”
Patroclus felt himself relax, although he had no reason to feel tense in the first place. He and Achilles weren’t in a real relationship, after all.
“Why’s that?” he questioned.
Achilles leaned back in his seat. “We first met at the musician training agency before our careers really took off,” he began. “I was already having a rough time adjusting to the agency’s strict requirements. They pretty much controlled my entire schedule, what I ate, where I went, who I associated myself with. Anyway, Deidameia was also one of the new trainees there, and she quickly became obsessed with me, to say the least. She got this idea in her head that we were meant to be together even though I’ve repeatedly told her I’m not interested in a relationship with her. I understand having a crush, but her obsession with me has always gone further than what I’m comfortable with.”
Patroclus made a face at the thought of the woman. “That sounds awful. She should learn to respect your boundaries.”
“It’s okay, I don’t have to see her super often anyway. Well, now I guess I don’t have a choice. My management loves her—my mother especially—so of course they chose her to be my fake partner. Though she’s definitely talented, I’ll give her that.”
Patroclus placed a sympathetic hand on the blonde’s shoulder, causing Achilles to snap out of his train of thoughts. “Anyway,” he said, forcing a smile back onto his face. “Enough about me, let’s talk about you, Patroclus.”
“Oh.” Patroclus removed his hand from Achilles’s shoulder, startled by the sudden focus on himself. “Um, sure. What do you want to know?” 
He didn’t usually like to talk about himself, much preferring to listen to what others had to say. He never thought he was that interesting of a person to begin with anyway. 
But here was this beauty of a man with wide, eager eyes. Looking at Patroclus as if he were the most fascinating being in the world. Something about the way Achilles gave him his full attention had Patroclus thinking he could pour his whole soul out to the man.
“Well, how about you tell me why you decided to become a nurse?” Achilles suggested. 
A fond smile fell across Patroclus’s face. Nursing. That he could talk about. 
“It’s always been something I’ve been interested in,” he started. “I’ve always enjoyed the science behind health and the human body. But what I love most is the people. Ever since I was young, I’ve always loved being able to care for and help others. And through nursing, I’m able to do just that, plus I get to continue to learn about medicine and science.”
Patroclus finished his sentence and then caught a glimpse of Achilles’s expression. “W- Why are you looking at me like that?” he chuckled nervously, cheeks flushed. The blonde had such a fervent look on his face that it caught him off guard.
“No reason,” Achilles grinned. “That’s really cool, Patroclus. I’m glad that you’re following your passion with your career.”
Patroclus beamed back at him. Although he wasn’t used to this sort of attention, he felt warmth at the idea that someone genuinely cared about what he had to say, and what interested him. There weren’t many people who took the time to get to know him this way.
“Thanks, Achilles. I appreciate it.”
“Anytime,” Achilles replied easily. The blonde winked, chuckling at the way Patroclus’ eyes widened slightly at the gesture. “Anyway, do you want to play a game or something? I brought my Nintendo Switch to pass the time.”
Patroclus eyed the gaming console Achilles pulled out of his bag, grinning when he saw the selection of games on the device.
“Sure,” Patroclus said, “But you better be prepared to get your ass kicked in Mario Kart.”
“Oh, it’s on,” Achilles laughed, nudging him playfully.
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The time on the bus flew by quickly for Patroclus. Between playing games and just chatting with Achilles, it wasn’t long before the pair had arrived at the hotel they would be staying at for the first leg of the tour. 
“Here we are,” the singer said, setting the bags down as he fumbled for the room key. He had insisted on carrying Patroclus’s belongings, despite the latter’s protests that he was more than capable of doing it himself.
Patroclus looked around, frowning in confusion. “Only one room?”
Achilles gave him a sympathetic smile as he scanned the key card and opened the door. “Yeah, sorry I should have mentioned it earlier,” he said, picking up the bags again and holding the door open for him. “On the bright side, there’s two separate beds this time.”
Patroclus stepped into the room, this one just as lavish as the last. Eyeing the aforementioned queen sized beds, he felt relieved that at least no one would have to sleep on the sofa.
Achilles must have seen the uncertainty in Patroclus’s expression, as he set the bags down and rushed to say, “Agamemnon set it up like this because he’s concerned about us being seen sleeping separately, so to speak. But if you’re uncomfortable with this, I can talk to Odysseus about it and get it figured out. I am more than fine with disobeying Agamemnon’s orders, after all.”
Patroclus smiled softly at him. It was kind of Achilles to be mindful about how he might be feeling about the situation, even though he would be going against his boss’s wishes.
“It’s alright,” the brunette assured him. “I don’t mind at all.”
Within the next hour, the two had ordered room service, having not eaten in a while, and were lounging on one of the beds with the array of foods set out before them. The TV was turned on to some fast-paced cooking show as Achilles and Patroclus gave in depth commentary on the drama that unfolded throughout the episodes. 
Even after the food was finished and they had gotten ready for bed, they had returned to the same bed, not wanting to stop hanging out despite both of them being tired after a long day of travel. Before long, both of the mens’ words had begun to slur with exhaustion.
Patroclus had half a mind to get up and crawl into the bed not even three feet away, but the pillow his head was currently laying on was oh so soft. Achilles didn’t make any attempt to protest, his own eyes beginning to drift shut.
Surely one night in the same bed won’t change anything, Patroclus thought distantly. 
As he drifted off into a peaceful sleep, he faintly noticed the comforting scent of figs and honey that enveloped him.
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unwinthehart · 2 months ago
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Achille Lauro a "La Volta Buona" - Sanremo Dress Rehearsals (10.02.2025)
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sunmisbf · 3 months ago
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rpfshippingpolls · 6 months ago
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⚠️ DON’T START DISCOURSE ABOUT RPF IN THE NOTES!! YOU WILL BE BLOCKED IF YOU DO SO ⚠️
Do you ship it?
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“they've been friends since they were kids and have a very tight relationship, they make music together and have started kissing during shows a few years ago as a message of freedom or whatever, it's genuinely really cool, leads to them performing at sanremo (italy & europe's oldest music festival, very culturally important) and they gay kissed on that stage on national live tv many times making right wing conservative politicians shit themselves, making the italian queers very happy”
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seraserababy · 11 months ago
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just realised i never rlly made one of these so… hi welcome 2 my page… i’m 18 🫶
HERES SOME STUFF I LIKE
-fight club (soapship tragic gays)
-the venom franchise (symbrock underrated)
-tyler the creator
-lana del rey
-the notebook
-brokeback mountain
-ladybird
-saoirse ronan
-chapell roan (clearly)
-i LOVE musicals. FUCK
-florence and the machine
-marina and the diamonds
-daisy jones and the six
-kesha
-icp
-ride the cyclone omg
-THE SMITHS!
-fleabag
-this is going to hurt
-arctic monkeys
-mitski
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-rwrb
-fiona apple
-FNAF OMG
-paramore
-panic at the disco
-bojack horseman
-shameless
-scott pilgrim vs the world
-drag race. if u can’t tell i’m gay.
-song of achilles
-seven husbands of evelyn hugo
that will be all 4 now
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bellezzuomo · 1 year ago
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alias-disgraced · 2 years ago
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I wrote this song about Hannigram and Achilles and Patroclus and being lesbian and obsessive and sensitive and afraid and enamored with everything and death. I hope u like <333
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roychewtoy · 2 years ago
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supergiant games are 3 for 3 [sorry bastion..... i haven't played u bastion.....] to me. transistor, pyre and hades BEEEELOOOOOVEEEDDDD
#bastion regularly gets knocked down to like.. a quid on the playstation store. i should pick it up and play it at sum point..#but yes.... cant believe they are making their first sequel.. treading into new territory.. CANT WAIT😃#idk what my favourite of the three is.... very different flavours#with the throughline ofc being incorporating gameplay mechanics directly into the story.. Delicious#and jen zees art and darren korbs OSTs and LOGAN CUNNINGHAMS VOIIIIIICE YIPPEEEE#i think realising he voiced both hades and achilles was the most surprising to me just because how close together they are in the house#like...those r different guys. and i looooove him as the transistor itself😵‍💫ooooooouuuuuuuuuuuaaaaaahhh#really love that the original pitch for transistor was ->#greg kasavin and jen zee shooting the shit in a long car journey coming back from e3#fantasy world. unassuming women working as a singer in taverns falls in love with a travelling wizard#group of people come for the wizard and kill him with powerful demonic blade. blade is lost in the struggle. she finds it#and miraculously hears the guys voice coming from inside the sword. wields it herself. goes out for revenge#and they enjoyed the idea but accepted it was never the sorta game they were gonna make. then transistor development starts hitting a wall#wonderin why they arent making the story the wanna make. and greg goes..because a demonic rune sword doesnt work in a scifi setting#jen designs red and the transistor. nails it in one. like the original concept art is just.. how they look in the final game#RIGHT TRANSISTOR DEVELOPMENT TANGENT OVER#i love the fleshy..marble design of The Process... eating up the city....#LOOOVE sunkrish balas performance as royce. that third act with headphones on. he gave me chills. his intonation is soooo perfect and eerie#luv the ps4 controller lighting up when the transistor talks hehehehe#this became ramble city. Pyre. PYRE!!!!!!!! fire off points about pyre. go go go:#the Cast Of Characters😃....AUUUGH. the downside as a setting.. hello boundless purgatory.. endless plains and roiling seas to travel across#how TIED the gameplay of the rites is to the story of pyre. its kinda crazy how well integrated it is#pyre is soo Lore heavy. and most of it is optional. no voice acting in this badboy#only played it once but i fucking loooved reading all the entries in the book of rites...#its just so DENSE. I LOVE U HIGH FANTASY BASKETBALL SHOOTING HOOPS INTO FLAMES TO ASCEND FROM PURGATORY GAME <- greatly simplifying#it has fucking interactive music that changes depending on what team u are fighting against in the liberation rites COME ONNNN MAAAAAN#everybody and their nan knows how fucking good hades is. im running outta ramble space in these tags#tightest controls. weapon and boon combinations up the wazoo. drool worthy gameplay loop. just one more run: the game. pet doggy#i looooooooooove supergiant games i looooooooooooooove supergiant games. BOSH#chewtoy
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kaerimichii · 3 months ago
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I'm Afraid I Love You
series summary:
Achilles Pelides is a superstar singer whose music is constantly flying off the charts. From hit singles to sold out concerts, the singer has garnered a huge fanbase who watches his every move. 
When Patroclus—an overworked nurse from a small town—attends Achilles’s concert one night, he is unexpectedly thrust into the singer’s world of fame.
As the two navigate the unique situation they find themselves in, the pair learn more about each other and themselves, and somehow manage to fall in love along the way.
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I just wanna follow up And say that you mean everything to me But I'm still so scared to tell the truth I'm afraid I love you I’m Afraid I Love You | Adam Melchor
pairing: singer!Achilles x Patroclus
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“Singing Sensation Achilles Caught in Bar Fight With Troy Band Member, Hector”
“Spoiled or Successful? Achilles’s Reckless Actions Have Fans Questioning”
The article titles were projected onto the large screen in the dimly lit conference room. A click resounded in the otherwise quiet atmosphere and the slide changed to a selection of comments.
flowerfields23: Honestly not surprised. He always seemed to have too much of an ego.
troy4ever: that guy is so overrated. definitely needs to be knocked down a peg or two. i just hope hector isn’t hurt :( 
willowtree: he has an amazing voice and is super talented, but he’s been acting way too wildly lately
kaoriii: ^^ agreed! i miss the way he was at the start of his career… 
The screen shut off after a moment and the lights flicked back on, breaking the silence within the room. Achilles blinked as his eyes adjusted to the sudden brightness.
Before him sat two people, both of which had deep frowns set upon their faces. Achilles went to speak, but was cut off just as soon as he opened his mouth.
“Don’t,” one of them, a woman with long dark hair, hissed, causing Achilles to snap his mouth shut.
The other one in the room, an older bearded man, began to speak. “Achilles,” he started slowly, “I have had many musical talents come through Mycenae Records, all of which have gone on to have successful careers. As the founder and owner of this company, I have an esteemed reputation to uphold. One that your actions will not tarnish.”
“Agamemnon—” A sharp look caused Achilles to backtrack, resisting the urge to roll his eyes. “Sir, it wasn’t my fault. You know how Hector is.” He knew he sounded like a petulant child, but he was too frustrated to care.
“It doesn’t matter whose fault it was. You still should have handled yourself with more dignity,” the dark haired woman chimed in.
“Thetis is right,” Agamemnon said before Achilles had a chance to respond. “This isn’t the first instance of your rebellious outbursts either. You haven’t been showing up to practice and recording sessions, you haven’t written a new song in ages. You seem to favor going to nightclubs and raucous parties instead. You ought to be ashamed of yourself!” 
Achilles bristled at the words. “I come to enough practices, and it’s not like I’ve run out of talent. The fans still love me.”
“Do they? Because according to these comments, they’ve been having doubts. Sales of your music have been decreasing since you’ve been acting so recklessly. You have an upcoming tour, and it won’t do to have lost so many followers because of your mistakes.
“Because of this, your mother and I have worked out a plan to ensure your continued success,” Agamemnon continued speaking. “We believe that setting you up with a partner will ease peoples’ worries surrounding your career. If they see you as a caring and devoted boyfriend, then they will surely realize that you have turned a new leaf, and left your rebellious phase behind.”
“What?” the golden haired man turned to Thetis in shock. “Mother, is he serious? This is unnecessary.”
“Yes, Achilles. We believe that this will be the best course of action to undo the damage that you are causing.” The woman looked calm in the face of her son’s irritation. “We’ve discussed potential partners who would benefit us. The girl from the Scyros label, Deidameia, is a fantastic option. Both of our companies would benefit from the pairing.”
Achilles scoffed. His father would never have approved of this if he were still alive. Ever since his mother took over as one of Mycenae Records’ managers, both she and Agamemnon had been working him harder than ever before. Nevermind his own personal goals and happiness. 
“This is unbelievable,” Achilles muttered. “A fake relationship just to make the press happy? How cliché.”
“This topic is not under discussion. Our decision is final. We will arrange plans to launch the relationship before you begin your tour,” the bearded man said, gathering his papers together and beginning to stand.
With a huff, Achilles stood. Fists clenched, brows furrowed, he marched towards the exit. Without sparing the others in the room any last glance he left, the door slamming shut behind him.
He would not be making this easy for them.
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“Guess what?”
The front door to Patroclus’s apartment flew open and footsteps hurriedly approached Patroclus as he sprawled along the sofa, book in hand.
The man took a moment to finish the sentence he had been reading, eyes roaming the page for a moment before he marked his spot and looked up at the visitor. 
“Nikolaos,” Patroclus greeted his dark blonde haired friend. “What’s up?”
It was then that Patroclus’s roommate, Briseis, walked out, using a towel to dry her damp hair. “What’s going on?” she questioned as her eyes landed on the tall blonde. “Oh, hey Nikolaos.”
“Good! You’re both here,” their friend grinned, walking over to guide Briseis to the sofa. Nikolaos gently pushed Patroclus’s legs down so that he was in a sitting position to make room for Briseis to sit. 
A phone was thrust into the roommates’ faces. They exchanged a questioning look and then turned their attention to the screen in front of them. The page that Nikolaos had opened appeared to be a purchase confirmation for three concert tickets. Upon further inspection, the musician for the concert appeared to be—
“Achilles?” Briseis read aloud.
“Yep! It took ages waiting in the queue to get these, but I got one for me, you, and Patroclus!” 
Patroclus looked at his friend standing in front of him. He had heard a few of the musician’s songs and he had to admit the man had talent, but he didn’t consider himself a huge fan. He knew that Achilles is a very famous singer though, and Nikolaos was clearly ecstatic at having secured the tickets.
“I don’t know…,” Patroclus trailed off in thought. The concert scene was never really his forte.
“I’m really happy for you for getting these, Nik, but I’m not sure. I mean, I’ve heard Achilles has quite the ego, and that he’s been pretty unruly as of late,” Briseis said.
Nikolaos pouted, looking between the two seated in front of him. “C’mon guys, his music is great! And you shouldn’t believe everything you hear online.” He then turned to speak directly to Patroclus. “It’d be a nice break from the hospital too! You’ve been working way more shifts than I have, Pat. You deserve a break.”
Patroclus sighed, considering.
Briseis looked at her friend, biting her lip. Nikolaos was right, Patroclus had been working himself to death at his nursing job. Since he was newly out of university, it seemed like his superiors had been pawning off all of their dirty work onto him. She didn’t like seeing her best friend so exhausted nearly every day of the week.
“He’s right, Pat. Maybe it would be nice to get out and do something fun for once. Achilles does have pretty good music, and it's not like we’ll actually run into the guy.”
Patroclus was silent for a moment before nodding with a soft smile. “Alright… Let’s go.” They were right, he desperately needed a break and to have fun with his friends.
“Yes!” Nikolaos exclaimed, pumping his fist in the air in success. He pulled both of his friends into a hug, evoking an ‘Oomph!’ from Patroclus and a chuckle from Briseis. “I’ll pick you guys up around eight tonight!” 
Without waiting for a response, the blonde skipped out the apartment door, leaving his friends in anticipation for the night to come.
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By the time eight o’clock rolled around, Patroclus was dressed in black distressed skinny jeans and an oversized white tee shirt that showed off his collarbones. Normally this wasn’t his outfit of choice, but Briseis had convinced him to step out of his comfort zone. She even managed to put on a touch of eyeliner, making his eyes stand out beautifully.
It wasn’t long before Nikolaos drove up to their apartment and the three arrived at the concert venue. The entire stadium was packed, and the excitement was palpable as they made their way through the crowds and towards their seats. 
“By the way, Pat,” Briseis shouted over the noise once they reached their seats, “You look hot. Maybe Achilles will notice you.” She gave her friend a nudge and a teasing eyebrow wiggle, to which Patroclus looked away sheepishly. He was thankful that the dark lighting of the stadium concealed the heat that rose in his cheeks.
“Oh, shush,” he playfully swatted at Nikolaos who had started cackling at Briseis’s jest. “Hey, I think the concert is starting!”
He seemed to be right, as the lights darkened almost fully, and the buzz of excitement grew quieter throughout the venue as everyone turned to watch the stage in anticipation.
Right on cue, the opening beats of one of Achilles’s most popular songs—Chrysafénios—started to play softly, before increasing in volume. Cheers from the audience rang throughout the venue as the lights on stage flashed along with the beat. Before long, Achilles appeared from a platform that had been raised in the middle of the stage, causing the crowd to become even louder.
As the singer started singing the first few lines, the large screens to the sides of the stage zoomed in on his face.
Patroclus looked at the man on the screen and his eyes widened ever so slightly. He looked… angelic. Golden locks that fell delicately around his face, chiseled features, and eyes the color of sea glass. He looked as if he were sculpted by the gods themselves.
Patroclus had never paid much attention to the singer’s appearance before, only seeing the occasional picture or two in a news article. Admittedly, the man was gorgeous and Patroclus could understand how he has obtained such a devoted fanbase. 
Eventually, he managed to pull his gaze away from the closeup of Achilles and instead focus on the music.
Even the man’s voice is ethereal, seamlessly hitting every note. It almost sounded exactly the same as the studio recording of the song. Although, Patroclus couldn’t help but notice a certain… edge to his voice. Almost as if he was… angry?
Looking Achilles over on the screen again, Patroclus didn’t miss the subtle furrow of his eyebrows and the fire in his eyes. Maybe he was wrong and the man wasn’t actually irritated, but something still seemed off to him. After a minute of thought, Patroclus shrugged off the idea, chalking it up to theatrics for performance sake.
The time flew by quickly, and nearly two hours later, the concert ended with Achilles bowing and thanking the crowd for their continued support with a charming grin. He also mentioned his upcoming tour, which would start in a few days and be held over a few months. Patroclus recalled Nikolaos excitedly rambling about the tour when it was first announced, determined to snag seats to one of the shows. 
“Well,” Nikolaos said with a wide smile, “What’d you guys think? He’s great, huh?”
“He’s actually pretty good!” Briseis agreed.
“He’s very talented,” Patroclus added as they made their way out of their seats and towards the front of the stadium to leave. “I didn’t know that Achilles had such a variety of styles in his music.”
The setlist had contained songs from several genres ranging from pop, to fast paced rock, to soft indie ballads. The man sure had range. 
“Right? He’s amazing,” Nikolaos gushed. “Oh, crap!” As they rounded the corner his eyes landed on the merchandise booth that had been set up. “I forgot to stop by the merch table earlier, I was so excited! We have to get something.”
“You guys go ahead,” Patroclus said, eyeing the amount of people who were rushing to get their hands on Achilles memorabilia. “I’ll head outside and wait for you.” He wasn’t particularly excited to stand in a long queue with so many people for who knows how long.
“Ok!” the blonde responded, already pulling Briseis towards the merch line. “You want anything?”
Patroclus shook his head. As beautiful as the golden haired singer was, he would feel too embarrassed to wear a shirt with the man’s face on it in public. Nikolaos gave him a thumbs up and Briseis playfully rolled her eyes at his enthusiasm as she was led away.
Chuckling to himself, Patroclus began to look for an exit. Given that the exits at the front of the building were already packed, he elected to find a way out in the back.
After a few minutes of walking through somewhat empty hallways, Patroclus breathed a sigh of relief as he spotted a clear exit. It’d be nice to be able to leave without having to fight his way through throngs of passionate fans.
Just as he was about a foot away from the door, he gasped as someone crashed into him, dropping their phone in the process.
“Oh, I’m sorry!” the person exclaimed. “I wasn’t looking, got distracted.”
Patroclus immediately reached down to grab the stranger’s phone. “It’s okay! I wasn’t looking either, I—” He stopped in his profuse apology, mouth falling open at the sight in front of him.
Achilles.
If it was even possible, the man seemed even more radiant and gorgeous than before as he stood in front of him. The singer’s eyes were wide with concern, and his soft pink lips were parted ever so slightly. Once the golden haired man was sure that Patroclus wasn’t hurt at all by their clashing, his eyes softened and a pleasant smile graced his lips.
Wordlessly, Patroclus handed Achilles his phone. He blinked a few times, looking up at the golden haired man before him. He considered himself a relatively tall person, but the singer still managed to give him pause as he observed his stature.
A blush fell across Patroclus’s cheeks as he realized that he was staring. “Sorry,” he managed to say. “I’m going to go now.” His hand reached to the doorknob, beginning to turn it, when the blonde reached out and placed his own hand on top.
“Wait.”
Patroclus halted. Curious eyes roved over the blonde singer once more.
“What was your name again?” Patroclus hadn’t even given it in the first place.
“Patroclus,” the brunette choked out.
“Patroclus,” Achilles tested it out. Pa-tro-clus. The name rolled off his tongue easily, as if it were meant to be said by him, and him alone. “I’m Achilles.” His eyes wandered swiftly over the man before him. 
Patroclus nodded, looking to where the man’s hand sat atop his own. “I know who you are.”
Achilles removed his hand slowly. “A fan?” he asked, lips quirking up once more in a charming smile.
“No,” Patroclus said quickly, eyes widening when he realized how that sounded. “I mean, yes! Well, I’ve heard a few of your songs. I just came here with a couple of my friends. Not that I didn’t want to come to begin with!” His mouth snapped shut before he could continue babbling on. 
He wasn’t usually this talkative.
A laugh bubbled up from Achilles’s throat, and Patroclus absently thought it sounded almost as beautiful as the music he heard tonight.
“Patroclus.” Pa-tro-clus. “I understand. I appreciate your support.” His smile showed his teeth now, pearly white and without flaw.
“Of course,” Patroclus said, managing a gentle upturn of his lips in return. “I should go now. My friends will be waiting for me.” He knew that they were definitely still going through the merch line, but he couldn’t bear the awkwardness of the situation he’d found himself in. “It’s been great meeting you. I enjoyed your concert.”
“You have to leave so soon?” Achilles frowned, and Patroclus’s heart fluttered traitorously in his chest when he saw the puppy dog eyes the blonde was giving him. “Well, at least let me walk you out.”
Patroclus agreed, and allowed the singer to open the door he had tried to exit through earlier.
Immediately upon their exit, they were met with the flash of what felt like a thousand camera lights, and shouts that rang through Patroclus’s ears. Instantly, Achilles wrapped his arm around the other’s waist protectively. 
“Achilles!” one voice shouted. “How was the concert?”
“Achilles!” another one. “What do you have to say about your fight with Hector?”
Cameras clicked, lights flashed. As if in sync, the mob caught onto the other unfamiliar man alongside the singer. 
“Who is this with you, Achilles?”
Achilles’s grip tightened around Patroclus. A practiced grin met the cameras’ flashes. 
“This is my boyfriend,” the words fell out of the singer’s lips. 
Wait, Patroclus froze, What?!
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unwinthehart · 2 months ago
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pupmusebox · 29 days ago
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Tag dump 9/?
{ Platinum Ruler of Distortion - Giratina/Izael } { Lustrous Eon of Blue - Latios/Taylor } { Mistful Eon of Red - Latias/Quinn } { Emerald Dragon of the Skies - Rayquaza/Daven } { Ruby Master of the Land - Groudon/Reese } { Sapphire Master of the Seas - Kyogre/Kaiden } { Whimsical Wishmaker - Jirachi/Nova } { Otherworldly Being from the Cosmos - Deoxys/Alec } { Gratuitous Flowers - Shaymin/Sage } { Playful Sparks of Victory - Victini/Flynn } { Mystical Singer and Dancer - Meloetta/Wren } { Modernized Mystery Insect - Genesect/Briar } { Volcanic Steam Marvel - Volcanion/Rex } { Mechanical Majesty - Magearna/Cleo } { Jeweled Royalty - Diancie/Blair } { The Swift Hero - Achilles } { Brutal and Cold Chef - Vincent Charbonneau } { Self-Sacrificing and Devoted Waiter - Rody Lamoree } { Bright Starry Prideful Bird - Kuro } { Sweet Eldritch Terror - Hector } { Scattering Rose Petals - Ruby Rose } { Dark Feline of a Beauty - Blake Belladonna } { Hot Headed Brawler - Yang Xiao Long } { Odd Scientist and Criminal - Eli Pierce } { The Fullmetal Alchemist - Edward Elric } { Armored Alchemist - Alphonse Elric } { One Hell of Butler - Sebastian Michaelis } { Demonic Spider of a Butler - Claude Faustus } { Fire Breathing Hellhound and Protector - Cerberus } { Silver Tongued Salesman - Sampo Koski }
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arte-e-homoerotismo · 28 days ago
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John Singer Sargent
John Singer Sargent (12 de janeiro de 1856 - 14 de abril de 1925) foi um artista expatriado americano , considerado o "principal pintor de retratos de sua geração” por suas evocações do luxo da era eduardiana . Ele criou cerca de 900 pinturas a óleo e mais de 2.000 aquarelas, bem como inúmeros esboços e desenhos a carvão. Sua obra documenta viagens pelo mundo, de Veneza ao Tirol , Corfu , Capri , Espanha, Oriente Médio, Montana , Maine e Flórida .
Nascido em Florença, filho de pais americanos, ele foi treinado em Paris antes de se mudar para Londres, vivendo a maior parte de sua vida na Europa. Ele teve aclamação internacional como pintor de retratos. Uma submissão inicial ao Salão de Paris na década de 1880, seu Retrato de Madame X , pretendia consolidar sua posição como pintor da sociedade em Paris, mas, em vez disso, resultou em escândalo. Durante o ano seguinte ao escândalo, Sargent partiu para a Inglaterra, onde continuou uma carreira de sucesso como retratista.
Desde o início, o trabalho de Sargent é caracterizado por notável facilidade técnica, particularmente em sua habilidade de desenhar com um pincel, o que nos últimos anos inspirou admiração e crítica por sua suposta superficialidade. Seus trabalhos encomendados eram consistentes com a grande maneira de retrato, enquanto seus estudos informais e pinturas de paisagens demonstravam familiaridade com o impressionismo . Mais tarde na vida, Sargent expressou ambivalência sobre as restrições do trabalho formal de retrato e dedicou grande parte de sua energia à pintura mural e ao trabalho ao ar livre . Os historiadores da arte geralmente ignoravam artistas da sociedade como Sargent até o final do século XX. 
A exposição dos nus masculinos de Sargent, anteriormente escondidos, na década de 1980, serviu para desencadear uma reavaliação de sua vida e obra, e sua complexidade psicológica. Além da beleza, sensação e inovação de sua obra, seus interesses pelo mesmo sexo, amizades não convencionais com mulheres e envolvimento com raça, não conformidade de gênero e globalismo emergente são agora vistos como social e esteticamente progressivos e radicais. 
Relacionamentos e vida pessoal
Sargent foi um solteiro de longa data com um amplo círculo de amigos, incluindo Oscar Wilde (de quem foi vizinho por vários anos), a autora gay Violet Paget e seu provável amante Albert de Belleroche . Biógrafos o retrataram como sóbrio e reticente. No entanto, estudos recentes teorizaram que ele era um homem reservado, complexo e apaixonado, cuja identidade homossexual foi essencial para moldar sua arte. Essa visão é baseada em declarações de seus amigos e associados, o afastamento geral atraente de seus retratos, a maneira como suas obras desafiam as noções de diferença de gênero do século XIX, seus nus masculinos anteriormente ignorados e alguns retratos masculinos, incluindo os de Thomas McKeller , Bartholomy Maganosco, Olimpio Fusco, e o do artista aristocrático Albert de Belleroche , que estava pendurado em sua sala de jantar em Chelsea. Sargent teve uma longa amizade com Belleroche, a quem conheceu em 1882 e com quem viajava frequentemente. Um desenho sobrevivente sugere que Sargent pode tê-lo usado como modelo para Madame X , seguindo uma coincidência de datas para Sargent desenhar cada um deles separadamente na mesma época, e a pose delicada sugere mais os esboços de Sargent da forma masculina do que suas comissões muitas vezes rígidas.
Foi sugerido que a reputação de Sargent na década de 1890 como “o pintor dos judeus” pode ter sido devido à sua empatia e prazer cúmplice de sua mútua estranheza social. Uma dessas clientes judias, Betty Wertheimer, escreveu que quando estava em Veneza, Sargent “estava interessado apenas nos gondoleiros venezianos ”. O pintor Jacques-Émile Blanche , que foi um de seus primeiros modelos, disse após a morte de Sargent que sua vida sexual “era notória em Paris e, em Veneza, positivamente escandalosa. Ele era um sodomita frenético”.
Ele teve muitos relacionamentos com mulheres. Foi sugerido que aqueles com suas modelos Rosina Ferrara , Virginie Gautreau e Judith Gautier podem ter se apaixonado. Quando jovem, Sargent também cortejou Louise Burkhardt, a modelo de A Dama da Rosa . 
Os amigos e apoiadores de Sargent incluíam Henry James e Isabella Stewart Gardner , de quem ele pintou retratos, e Gardner também encomendou e comprou obras de Sargent e buscou seu conselho sobre outras aquisições. Eduardo VII e Paul César Helleu também eram amigos e apoiadores de Sargent. Suas associações também incluíam o príncipe Edmond de Polignac e o conde Robert de Montesquiou . Outros artistas com os quais Sargent se associou foram Dennis Miller Bunker , James Carroll Beckwith , Edwin Austin Abbey e John Elliott (que também trabalhou nos murais da Biblioteca Pública de Boston ), Francis David Millet , Joaquín Sorolla e Claude Monet , a quem Sargent retratou com a esposa de Monet “na beira de uma floresta”. Entre 1905 e 1914, os companheiros de viagem frequentes de Sargent eram o casal de artistas Wilfrid de Glehn e Jane Emmet de Glehn . O trio costumava passar os verões na França, Espanha ou Itália, e todos os três se retratavam em suas pinturas durante suas viagens. 
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Sketch for Chiron and Achilles John Singer Sargent (American; 1856–1925) 1922–24 Oil and graphite on canvas Museum of Fine Arts, Boston, Massachusetts
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pupmuseboxmovedarchive · 10 months ago
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Tag dump 9/?
{ Platinum Ruler of Distortion - Giratina/Izael } { Lustrous Eon of Blue - Latios/Taylor } { Mistful Eon of Red - Latias/Quinn } { Emerald Dragon of the Skies - Rayquaza/Daven } { Ruby Master of the Land - Groudon/Reese } { Sapphire Master of the Seas - Kyogre/Kaiden } { Whimsical Wishmaker - Jirachi/Nova } { Otherworldly Being from the Cosmos - Deoxys/Alec } { Gratuitous Flowers - Shaymin/Sage } { Playful Sparks of Victory - Victini/Flynn } { Mystical Singer and Dancer - Meloetta/Wren } { Modernized Mystery Insect - Genesect/Briar } { Volcanic Steam Marvel - Volcanion/Rex } { Mechanical Majesty - Magearna/Cleo } { Jeweled Royalty - Diancie/Blair } { The Swift Hero - Achilles } { Brutal and Cold Chef - Vincent Charbonneau } { Self-Sacrificing and Devoted Waiter - Rody Lamoree } { Bright Starry Prideful Bird - Kuro } { Sweet Eldritch Terror - Hector } { Scattering Rose Petals - Ruby Rose } { Dark Feline of a Beauty - Blake Belladonna } { Hot Headed Brawler - Yang Xiao Long } { Odd Scientist and Criminal - Eli Pierce } { The Fullmetal Alchemist - Edward Elric } { Armored Alchemist - Alphonse Elric } { One Hell of Butler - Sebastian Michaelis } { Demonic Spider of a Butler - Claude Faustus } { Fire Breathing Hellhound and Protector - Cerberus } { Silver Tongued Salesman - Sampo Koski }
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writing-with-emy · 2 months ago
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Series recommendations🤎
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A/N: Honestly I‘ve been a goner for series lately, and I want to recommend some to u.🫶🏻 And yes maybe, I am in Love with SMAU Fics at the moment, but every single Series on here is a 10/10 for me!!
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⤷ OUTER BANKS: → JJ MAYBANK › Gossip Girl: Outer Banks by @maybejj ▸ JJ x Pofue!Reader | Best friends to Lovers | SMAU › FRACTURED TIES by @maybejj ▸ JJ x Kook!Reader, Rafe x Kook!Sofia | Reader is Rafe's Best Friend, Rafe & JJ are brothers | forbidden Love | SMAU › Set Me Free by @maybejj ▸ JJ x Sarah's!twin!sister!reader | pogue/Kook relationship | SMAU › Kildare University by @papercranesandinkstains ▸ College!Football Player!JJ Maybank x College Student!Reader| Friends to Lovers | SMAU | Xou can choose your Endgame › What This Could Be by @edwardslvrr ▸ JJ Maybank x ex high school sweethearts!Cameron!Reader | Exes to Lovers | SMAU › Roomates by @thisismysafeescape ▸ JJ Maybank x Kook!Reader / ex!Rafe Cameron x Kook!Reader | Strangers To Lover or Exes to Lovers | Kook to Pogue!Reader | SMAU
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⤷ SPN: › Never Say Goodbye by @zepskies ▸Dean Winchester x F!Reader | Strangers to Lovers | Soulmate!AU
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⤷ SRANGER THINGS: › June Baby by @luveline ▸Eddie Munson x Teen Mom!Reader | Friends to Lovers | Slowburn
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⤷ 9-1-1: › Good luck charm by @achilles-rage ▸College!Football Player!buck x plus size!reader | College!AU | Strangers to Lovers | Slowburn | tiny bit enemies to Lovers
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13uswntimagines · 1 year ago
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13 Eras of Us (Taylor Swift x Morgan!R): Era 1 - We Were Both Young When I First Saw You
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Request: Taylor Swift x Alex morgan's little sister. They start off as friends and realize that there may be something more.
Chapter synopsis: 1 of 13: The era where everything begins. R and Taylor meet, and become friends. Composed of little moments between them, r and the Team and R and her sister.
Notes: Hey dudes, i'm really really stoked about this series, and i really hope you enjoy it. Let me know what you think.
July, 2015
We were both young when I first saw you
You sighed, gripping the rubber handles of your crutches, leaning more heavily onto the foam padding under your arms despite the ache it caused from the constant chafing. It was an annoying consequence of your injury. 
A secondary effect that the trainers hadn’t told you about when they convinced you that an Achilles tear wasn’t something you could walk off. When they swore up and down that the two other liniments in your ankle were holding on by threads and absolutely could not hold your weight for another 5 weeks. 
You still hadn’t gotten used to them, not that you really had the chance. 
They were a fairly new addition to your wardrobe, made necessary by one bad tackle only 20 minutes into your first game in Canada, effectively ruining your World Cup run (something you were still bummed about despite your team actually winning the World Cup- not that you would call yourself a World Cup Winner). 
You let out another breath, unable to stop the smile on your face as the lights shifted to highlight the woman on stage. 
She was absolutely mesmerizing in her shimmery silver dress, and it was nice to get to watch without the team lingering behind you. It was the only good thing about being injured. 
You didn’t have to go on the stage with them. 
Alas, you were lucky you got to come to the 1989 tour with the team at all. Taylor Swift had only invited the 2015 World Cup winners. 
It was one of the few benefits of being The Alex Morgan’s little sister you supposed. She sent a text and then you had been invited too. 
It strangely made you feel like a 10-year-old chasing after her and her new college friends, going to places where you just didn’t belong. But then again, you felt that way any time you spent more than an hour with your older sister since she left your sobbing form in the driveway as she headed off to Berkley. 
Things hadn’t been the same between you since, and all of her efforts just felt like a weird form of a twisted apology, even now. 
It was like you were her charity case or something, and that didn’t sit right with you. 
Still, you were grateful she had pulled the strings to get you backstage to one of your favorite singer’s shows. God knew you wouldn’t have survived well in the crowd, especially not now that you could barely stand on your own. 
“Pretty spectacular isn’t it?” 
You flinched at the voice, jerking away from the woman standing close enough to your left side to also be able to see the stage, but not too close. Just like she had been all night. 
She reached out a steadying hand as the crutches wobbled dangerously underneath you, an easy smile never leaving her features. 
You swallowed hard, trying to form words to say anything to Taylor’s mom. 
You weren’t big into fandom or social media, but you still knew who she was, and it felt weird meeting her (definitely not because you had a massive crush on her daughter- or the character her daughter pretended to be on stage). 
“She’s amazing,” You finally managed to force the words from your throat, turning back towards the flashing lights on stage and around the stadium.
Andrea hummed. “She is. You’re pretty amazing too,” 
She had heard about your… reputation but all she had seen from you tonight was a shy kid desperately searching for something. Exactly what that something was she couldn’t put her finger, but she suspected it had to do with the way you were watching your older sister interact all night. 
You shrugged, your shoulders collapsing in on you just a bit. “Right now I’m gimpy, and I couldn’t imagine having the control over an audience that she does,” 
Andrea made a low noise, thinking better than to argue with you. She didn’t know you well enough for a debate. 
She didn’t want to interrupt you any more than she had anyway. 
The way you were staring at the stage was a sight to behold, to say the least, your lip trapped between your teeth and your eyes filled with wonder. 
She had seen many fans in her days, but there was just something… different about how you watched the show. The tender adoration in your eyes was beautiful, and it made the mom in her wonder what the future would hold for you and her daughter. 
You let out a breath you didn’t know you were holding as style came to an end and your sister disappeared below the stage. 
You smiled towards Andrea. “I better go before they think I tried to escape,” 
She raised an eyebrow at you. “Is that something you’ve done before?” 
You shrugged again, your grin turning impish.
 “I don’t kiss and tell,” You winked as you started to maneuver yourself back towards where you knew Alex would be coming out, and Andreas' laugh sounded from behind you. 
That had been the point after all hadn't it? 
Still, you were slightly relieved when your sister stepped through the curtain that separated the stage from the backstage area. 
While Andrea and the stage managers had been as welcoming as they could be, you still hadn’t felt like you belonged. You hadn’t been the one invited after all. It also helped that you would be getting out of the noise until Taylor got off stage and was ready for the mini meet and greet the team planned. 
“How did that crowd feel?” You asked as Alex approached you, and the crowd at the front of the stage cheered again, painting an interested smile across your features. 
It felt electric from the audience, so you could only imagine what it felt like being on stage, 
“Really good,” Alex smiled widely, wiggling the trophy in her arms just a bit. “Like World Cup good,” 
“It’s insane how she can control a room like that,”
Alex’s eyebrows furrowed. You felt her slow down beside you and her eyes searched your face. “Don’t even think about it,” 
“What?” You asked, your tongue poking out of your mouth as you focused on keeping up with the team. 
“I know you and I know that look,” She said seriously.  “She’s my age, and you’re not 18 for another 10 days,” 
You shrugged. “So?” 
You hadn’t been planning on hitting on America's top superstar, but you would never miss an opportunity to mess with your older sister. Plus, you didn’t see the harm in flirting. 
It was a fundamental part of your personality after all. 
“Y/n I’m serious,” 
Your lips pulled into a playful smirk, glancing up at her as she held the door to a small room for you. “And I’m committed to not being serious,” 
It was no secret that your… extracurricular activities had picked up since your injury, and you had done little to mask your enjoyment of the league's hookup culture since you joined in lew of going to college. 
What annoyed Alex more was that no one in North Carolina would step up and help her stop you. 
“Y/n,” Alex let out a suffering sigh, catching the crutch before you could hobble away. 
“Look, she’s out of my league, and it’s criminal to not tell a gorgeous woman how gorgeous she is,” 
“Kid’s got a point,” Kelley said, appearing at your other side and sending you a small wink. “Shooting my shot is how I landed you after all,”
“That’s true baby horse,” Cheney said, grabbing a coke off of the large catering table that dominated the room. “It’s also how Toby got Chris,” 
“How did we get roped into this?” Tobin groaned, her slightly red-rimmed eyes going wide, popping a grape in her mouth. 
Kelley snorted. “You got roped into this because you asked Chris out after you beat her in the college cup, while she was still on the field,” 
“You fucking proposed to Alex after your team beat her in a shootout,” Christen snickered, shaking her head. “You literally have no room to talk,” 
You chucked at Kelley’s blush, barely noticing the new body that had entered the room and was leaning up against the doorframe next to you. 
“Sounds like the field is a very active place for you guys,” The voice said, and you snapped your head to meet the most gorgeous blue eyes you had ever seen in your entire life. “Though your timing seems… questionable,” 
“Tay!” 
“That was an amazing show,”
“Dude, that crowd is nuts. It’s like they’re eating out of the palm of your hand,” 
Taylor smiled widely at the team, her eyes glimmering in the dressing room light. “Well thank you, it was an absolute pleasure to get to share the stage with you all tonight,” 
She pushed off of the wall, and your eyes followed her like she was a magnet. She looked so… graceful even in a pair of sweats.
“The pleasure was all ours,” Cheney grinned back at her. “it was a blast, thank you again for inviting us,”
“Anything to bring more visibility to what you guys do,” Taylor nodded, looking over the catering table and picking sparkling water from the selection. “It’s empowering to young girls everywhere,” 
You were drawn to her hands as they flexed around the bottle. To her lips as she timed her sips so she could continue her conversation with Cheney. She was so elegant. 
Even in your sexcapades, you had never been so… taken with someone. 
“This is my younger sister, Y/n,” You blinked away from Taylor and towards Alex, and back, feeling taken slightly off guard. You hadn’t realized you zoned out. 
The blonde singer nodded towards you, waving the bottle. “Hey. I’m Taylor,” 
“I’m Y/n,” Your lips quirked up, and you stuck your hand out for her to take, bringing it to your lips when she did. “And I’m your wildest dream,” 
“Very smooth,” Taylor chuckled, pulling her hand back, and you could have sworn she had a little bit of pink dusting her cheeks. 
“Smoother than a fresh jar of skippy,” You winked back, earning an ever louder giggle from the singer. 
The room erupted into laughter, and you sent a proud smirk toward your sister. 
She shook her head. “Don’t encourage her. She’s been practicing all week for this,” 
“Well I can’t practice soccer, so what did you expect?” You shrugged as much as you could over the crutches. “I need to use my talents for something,”
“I think it was amazing,” Taylor cut in, grinning. 
“See!” 
Alex rolled her eyes but didn’t argue. She had obviously been outvoted. It would be a fun story to tell your future significant other anyway. 
“It’s very nice to meet you Y/n,” Taylor said, sobering. “I was happy you could make it, even if you weren’t on the squad,” 
“It’s nice to meet you too,” You nodded, your dimples on full display. “Thanks for the invite,” 
“No way I would exclude one of my favorite players,” She hummed. “I was so sad when you got hurt,”
You felt heat in your cheeks, traveling up to your ears. Taylor knew who you were. She liked to watch you play. 
You swallowed hard. “I should be up and playing again within the next couple of months,”
Your PT promised you that as long as you followed the plan, you’d be back and playing by the end of the season. With the way Paul was pushing you, you knew you’d probably be back sooner. 
“Well, if you’re ever in New York let me know,” She said, pulling out her phone and opening the texting app before passing it to you. “I’d love to see a game,” 
You took the offered item, quickly typing in your number. “Yeah, I’m sure I can get you and the squad good seats,” 
She sent you one last smile before she turned back towards the team. “I’ve gotta go, but it was nice to see you all again,” 
You stared at her, as she waved and left, not actually believing what had just happened. 
Your bad pickup line had gotten you The Taylor Swift’s number, and she wanted to see a game. 
*****
September, 2015
We play dumb, but we know exactly what we’re doing
You never expect Taylor to actually text you. Hell, you weren’t convinced that the phone she let you text yourself from wasn’t a business phone. 
But as it turned out, Taylor did text you. 
First, it was a simple text asking about your recovery because a commentator had mentioned it. Then the conversation between the two of you just didn’t stop. 
And you realized very quickly that you never wanted it to stop. 
You found that Taylor was up at all of the weird hours you were and that no matter what she was doing, she was never too busy to say hello. Then texting turned into hanging out when you were in New York, Florida, or California, and before you knew it, it was a regular occurrence. 
“I fucking suck at this,” You groaned, letting go of the guitar strings and flopping onto your back. “And my fingers hurt now. I’m pretty sure they’re bleeding,” 
You held them up in the air pretending to examine them for the little flecks of red you were sure you would find there. 
“No, you just haven’t practiced enough to build calluses,” Taylor said, and you could hear the eye roll in her voice. 
“I got enough of them on my feet thank you,” You muttered, looking up at her through your eyelashes and wiggling your fingers at her.  “I don’t need guitar string scars on my hands too,” 
She caught your hand, smoothing it over her palm. “Don’t be overdramatic,” 
“Me!” You exclaimed indignantly, holding your hand to your chest in mock offense. 
“Yes,”  Taylor smirked. “This isn’t soccer where you can flop about,” 
You frowned. “I don’t flop,” 
She raised an eyebrow at you, and you pouted. “Fine. I don’t flop often, and not unless it’s necessary,” 
“Whatever you say,” She chuckled, shaking her head. “Sit up and I’ll help you,” 
You pouted but did as she asked, pushing yourself back to sit, crossing your legs so you could hold the guitar like she had shown you the first time you did this. 
Her lips ticked up at you, and she scooted so your knees were touching. 
“Alright so g,” She said, positioning her fingers on the string, waiting for you to copy her. 
You tried, moving each finger to the strings. “Like this?”
“Not quite,” She said, leaning forward and moving your pinky. “That one goes on the low e,” 
You nodded, trying not to blush at how close she was to you. So close that you could smell her coconut shampoo. 
“Now, strum slowly,” She said, leaning back and demonstrating. 
You did your best to copy her, slowly drawing the pick across each of the strings, but instead of making the beautiful chord she was, it made an off-key wamp. 
“I’m hopeless,” You said dramatically dropping your pick and flopping back on her fluffy carpet. “Worse than the whole Tom Sermanni debacle,” 
She sighed and took the guitar off, maneuvering so she was sitting next to you. “I didn’t know you were so easily discouraged. I thought with all the sports, you’d have some resiliency,” 
“I’m good at soccer,” You shrugged.  “My fingers aren’t long enough or sting enough for guitar,” 
“Were you good at soccer to begin with?” Taylor asked you softly. 
You scrunched your nose. The truth was that you had been playing soccer too long to remember when you started. It was always a part of your life. 
“No,” You said finally, biting your lip. “Alex absolutely destroyed me any time we practiced. She even stepped on my neck one time with her rain cleats and gave me a scar,” 
You pointed to the small dimple just below your chin. Sure it had been an accident, but it ultimately was the reason you were a midfielder instead of a forward. 
When you were young, Alex had always been better than you. More competitive, more ruthless, and she didn’t go easy on you in practice. It’s what made you such a good player. 
“But you still play?” Taylor pressed, and your eyes were drawn to how her lips formed a thin line. 
“Not as a forward,” You admitted easily.  “Mom got tired of all of the bickering,” 
Once you switched positions, you and Alex could work together instead of going head to head. It made you a lethal pair and let you both show off your talents. 
It also saved your mother’s sanity. 
“That’s not the point,” Taylor chuckled. “If you can change positions, you can play a chord on a guitar. You just need patience,”
“I wasn’t born with that,” You smirked. 
She rolled her eyes. “Try for me?” 
“Fine,” You sighed, pushing yourself to a sitting position yet again. 
It was kinda scary how easily she could bed you to her will. All she had to do was ask. 
“Put your fingers in position,” She said, leaning forward and checking to make sure they were on the right strings. “And then play each one individually,” 
You grabbed the pick from the floor beside you and very slowly brought it across the strings. All of the strings sounded right except for the pinky. 
“Press down a little harder,” She said, her tongue caught between her teeth as she reached over to help you. “And try again,” 
You did as she asked, and this time, the G chord sounded through her apartment. 
“Great job!” She cheered, and you felt heat rushing to your cheeks. 
“Thanks,” You cleared your throat and looked away.  “Couldn't have done it without you, literally, but um… can we be done with me playing? I think my fingers are going to fall off,” 
You turned towards her, not realizing how close you were, and nearly brushed her nose with yours. You pulled back, trying not to look at her lips, or her burning blue eyes, focusing on a very small freckle on her forehead because it felt like the safest option. 
The two of you hated a lingering breath, and the air between you felt electric. You would have sworn that her eyes flickered to your lips, just as her tongue poked out to wet her own. 
But she couldn’t be into you. 
She was America’s favorite pop star, she was a fully-fledged adult while you were still basically a kid, and most importantly, she was straight. 
“Yeah, we can do something else,” She hummed, reaching for the guitar and carefully pulling it over your head. 
“Can you play something for me?” You asked, scooping Meredith up and settling her in your lap when she nudged against your leg. 
For a cat that didn’t like being picked up and cuddled, she was very attached to you, except when you were playing the guitar. 
“Sure,” She nodded, grabbing her guitar and plucking out some chords. “Any requests?” 
You shook your head, smiling down at the cat as she kneaded her feet into your thighs and finally plopped down with a short purr. “Whatever you want,” 
“Now that’s no fun,” Her lips turned up, and her head ticked to the side and she reached over to scratch the cat's head. “Come on, what’s your dream surprise song?”
Your shoulders lifted and fell, and more red bled into your cheeks. “Um… I don’t suppose you have the 10-minute version of All Too Well available?”
She chuckled and shook her head, a playful smile pulling at her lips. “Unfortunately, it was a rant that I don’t currently have memorized,” 
“Hey, you asked for the dream song,” You held your hands up in defense, unable to stop yourself from laughing with her. “I think a lot of fans would agree to have that on their list,” 
She shrugged, half in agreement and half in amusement. “I just think it’s funny that it came from a line I said in an interview almost 4 years ago,” 
“Honestly, I think if a demo version of it did exist, it would have been leaked already. Some of your sleuthy fans are obsessed,” You said, your dimples popping out. “I couldn’t not ask for it,” 
She snorted “Trust me, I know. It was a good shot, and if it did exist, I’d totally play it for you. I trust you not to be secretly recording,” 
You hummed, trying not to think too hard about how she trusted you. How she would have played one of her most secret and tightly kept songs for you “But alas it does not,” 
“No, not in a playable form,” She shook her head, her blue eyes shining. “Pick a new one,”
You bit your lip, rolling through the list of songs in your head. “What about State of Grace,”
The piano version had always been one of your favorites, and you so often got the intro stuck in your head. 
“We can do that,” She smiled widely at you and began picking out the chords. “Only if you promise to sing along?”
Your nose scrunched. “You don’t want me to sing, I sound like a dying walrus, just ask Alex,” 
You knew Alex would agree, even if it wasn’t entirely true. You didn’t do music anymore. 
“Hum then,” She conceded, and you nodded. 
You could hum- just not in tune, but you didn’t have to be in tune with Taylor. 
You just had to be yourself, and you had never experienced that with anyone else. 
******
December 2015
Barefoot in the kitchen
Sacred new beginnings 
That became my religion, listen
You eyed the oven warily from across the island, leaning into the cool stone countertop as Taylor flitted around you, pulling out various ingredients. 
It wasn’t that you were afraid of the oven, it was just that you were not known for being a good cook. Actually, you were known for being a very not good cook. 
You were banned from making anything in any of your sister's kitchens, and you rarely ventured to make more than Dino nuggets (which you still burned) on your own. 
As long as you didn’t touch the controls, everything should be fine. 
“You alright?” Taylor asked, setting a stick of butter on the counter next to you, her hand landing gently on your forearm. “You’re staring at the stove,” 
“Yeah,” You blinked away from the copper appliance and towards Taylor, painting an easy smile across your lips. “I’ve just never made cookies before,”
She frowned. “Never ever?” 
You shook your head, biting your lip. You didn’t want to tell her that any time your sisters had tried, it ended in charcoal (and an oven fire… twice) instead of ooey, gooey deliciousness.
“We were more of sports people than baking people,” You explained with an easy shrug. “Plus after a hard game, the precut square ones always do the trick,” 
Her nose scrunched adorably. “But they don’t sell peanut butter chocolate chip cookies in the little squares,” 
“Kelley likes to bake. Jerry too. I’m not usually involved,” You answered with ease, taking the wooden spoon she passed you. “When Alex and I get together we usually get distracted trying new tactics and tricks,” 
You didn’t want to say that you were always banished from the kitchen, at least until the oven was off. 
A thoughtful look crossed her face.
This was the first time you had mentioned Alex by name and not followed it with a remark about something terrible she had done. The first time you hadn’t breezed by her existence in the greater context of the team. 
She wanted to pry, to ask why there was a strange tension between you and your older sister, but she wasn’t sure you would give her a straight answer. 
You were a master at spinning questions around (and running interviewers around in circles) when you wanted to, so the only way she would get the story was if you wanted to tell her. 
And she so desperately wanted you to want to let her into your personal life. 
 “Austin doesn’t like to cook either, but we usually chat while I get everything ready,” She said. 
“Alex and I talk better on the field,” Your head bobbed gently as you began to stir the ingredients in the bowl. “Soccer is our best communication method, and Kelley likes to feed us when we’re done,” 
She opened her mouth to ask more, to try and understand why the only place you really opened up was the field, but your phone buzzed obnoxiously on the counter. 
Your eyebrows furrowed as Emily’s contact photo popped up on your screen. 
“You can answer it,” Taylor hummed, grabbing the spoon and bowl from you and carefully measuring in more ingredients. 
You sighed. “It’s probably not important,” 
“But what if it is?” Taylor shrugged. She didn’t want you ignoring your other friends to hang out with her, even if she was slightly flattered that you always gave her your undivided attention (except when you watched movies). “Answer it,” 
“Sup loser,” Emily’s voice filled Taylor’s kitchen as your best friend’s face filled the screen, a wide smile showing off her dimples. 
You rolled your eyes. She would never let you live down how the thorns had beaten the red stars. Badly. Even if you had gotten a banger of a goal on her yourself. 
“Don’t rub it in,” You muttered, balancing the phone against a vase so you could keep stirring the batter, careful that you were the only person in the shot. “What do you want?” 
“Just figured I’d see if you’d seen the roster for January camp yet,” She hummed, shifting forward as if she was trying to see what you were doing, just as Taylor’s hands plopped a stick of butter into the bowl.  “Are you baking? Should I call the fire department?” 
You glowered at her, beginning to mix the thick batter, your tongue poking out the side of your cheek in concentration. 
You hadn’t had time to read your emails yet, not that you were worried. You just got so… distracted with Taylor. You wanted to be in the moment. You wanted to savor every second you got with the person slowly becoming your best friend. 
“No, yes, no,”  You said, eyes flickering towards Taylor and then back to the phone.“I’m supervised,” 
She raised an eyebrow at you. “You’re supervised? Are you clothed?” 
Red filled your cheeks at the implication, and you did your best to ignore Taylor’s raised eyebrow. 
She had heard about your reputation, but having one of your friends bring it up right in front of her still made you blush. You didn’t want her to think that you had some endgame. That you were playing her. 
You weren’t (even if the fluttering in your chest when you were with her made you want something… more). 
You cleared your throat. “I’m with a friend Sonnett,” 
It came out more biting than you meant for it to. More defensive. 
She rolled her eyes, holding her hands up in surrender. “Whatever you say, just be safe,” 
“Fuck off,” You bit back, your teeth clacking, even as Taylor dumped the chocolate chips into the bowl. 
“I love you too Y/n,” She cackled back, unphased by your sudden moodiness. She had seen it hundreds of times before when things in the pitch didn’t go your way. “See you in a few weeks,” 
“Bye loser,” You muttered, unable to resist returning her jab. 
A devilish smirk broke across her face, and you knew you would regret trying to tease her. “Bye y/n and y/n’s friend,” 
“Bye Sonnett,” Taylor added, as you clicked the end call button, and from Emily’s furrowed eyebrows just before the screen ended, you knew she didn’t know who had said goodbye to her. 
You anxiously rubbed the back of your neck, avoiding running your hand through your hair so you didn’t have to wash them… again. “Sorry about her,” 
“She’s charming,” Taylor hummed, taking the bowl of cookie dough from in front of you. “Is she always like that?” 
“No,”  You muttered, as she carefully scooped out a bit of dough with a spoon and transferred it to a baking sheet. “She can actually be pretty sweet when she wants to be. It’s why Rosie loves her so much,” 
Taylor’s head tilted to the side as she tried to follow your train of thought. Despite how much you talked about the team, you rarely ever mentioned the relationships within it. The team was intensely private in that way, and she respected that. Still, it didn’t mean she wasn’t curious… and you had technically mentioned it first. 
“Are they dating?” 
“No,” You snorted, shaking your head. They were two blind idiots in love, terrified of messing up a friendship. “They mostly just make moon eyes at each other right now. But hopefully winning a gold will give one of them the balls to finally make a move,” 
“Like she thought you had the balls to bake naked,”
She knew there had to be a story there, but getting you to actually tell her would be a bigger challenge. 
More red colored your cheeks, traveling up to your ears.
“It would be more likely for me to be naked, than for me to be baking,” you murmured, rubbing harder at the back of your neck. “That comment was probably more about the supervision. The last time she called I was sneaking out of a girl's apartment,”
Her eyebrow raised nearly to her hairline. “And you answered?” 
It was hard to wrap her head around how commonplace your hookups were. She didn’t like how casual you and everyone around you were about them, especially since you were so young.
“She wanted to check in,” You waved a hand dismissively. “We lost pretty badly,”
She didn’t quite know how those two pieces fit together. “But she asked if you needed the fire department,” 
You cleared your throat and looked away. “I… distracted a girl one time while she was cooking,” 
Taylor swallowed her grimace. She wasn’t allowed to be jealous. Not yet anyway. 
She was your friend. 
She scooped a small bit of batter with her finger and reached out to smear it on the very tip of your nose. “Sounds pretty dangerous,” 
Your eyes crossed as you tried to see the little blob, and Taylor laughed loudly at the expression. 
“You didn’t just do that,” 
Taylor sat back, smirking at you widely. “Oh, but I did. What are you going to do about it?”
You reached across the island, grabbing a small scoop of flour. 
“This,” You said, rubbing the flour into her cheek with a grin. “It’s a little lighter than your normal highlight, but it suits you,” 
She paused for a second before reaching for the flour container, dipping her hand inside. “Oh, it’s on now,” 
She didn’t give you time to duck as she tossed a handful of flour towards you, and you caught a stick of butter still out on the counter as you dove for cover. 
More flour powdered around you in a cloud as you peeked up from your hiding space, throwing a bit of soft butter towards her. It skidded across the counter, mixing with the sugar and flour smeared across the surface. 
It almost made you feel bad, but you would help her clean it up. 
“Missed me, loser,” 
Your nose scrunched at the name, and your eyebrows furrowed. 
You would not be a loser. 
You crawled towards your left, sneaking around the island until you saw her right foot, and a smile broke across your face. 
You dove for her, catching her around the waist, sending the bag of flour flying around you as you both fell, her peels of laughter echoing across the kitchen. 
“I don’t lose,” You chuckled into her neck as flour fell around you like snow. “Flour fights and otherwise,” 
Taylor rolled off of you, propping herself up on her elbow so she could look at you. “You’ve got a little bit of flour there,” 
She gestured towards your nose, and you lifted your shirt to wipe the area she indicated. You felt the way her eyes were immediately glued to your exposed abs, and you took an extra second to wipe your face so she could look. 
Her face was red when you dropped your shirt. 
“Thanks,” You winked, and the red bled from her cheeks down her neck. 
She snorted and shook her head. “That just made it worse,” 
You wiggled your eyebrows and licked your lips for good measure. “That’s ok, I’ve gotten way dirtier anyway,” 
“You’re too much,” She said, still giggling, watching your shoulder as she sat up. “Let’s get the cookies in the oven and we can clean up while they bake,”
You pouted dramatically. “What if I want to stay dirty?” 
She rolled her eyes, already pushing herself to her feet. “You don’t get cookies,” 
You wrinkled your nose. “Bummer,”
“Come on,” She held her hand out to you, and you took it, letting her pull you up. 
She stole a hug before she let you go, directing you towards where the broom was. 
And you couldn’t help the small smile pulled across your features, both at Taylor and the sight of the cats staring safely at you from the kitchen archway.
You would tolerate baking if it was with Taylor. 
*****
March, 2016
If you’ve got a girlfriend, I’m jealous of her. But if you’re single it’s honestly worse.
You were never good at sneaking. You hadn’t even tried in high school because you knew you would be caught, and after you moved out, there was no one to sneak from. 
Your North Carolina roommate didn’t care how late you were out. She barely even spoke to you at all. 
You were pretty sure she hated you, but which of your Courage teammates didn’t? 
Maybe the newfound freedom made you wreckless, or maybe you just didn’t care about changing your behavior when you were visiting your sister in Florida. 
But whatever the case, Alex was waiting for you when you stepped back into her house, her arms crossed and an annoyed look on her face. 
Part of you wondered if she had been standing there all night, or if she heard the door of your UBER shut and came down to greet you. You wondered if they turned the porch light on as soon as they got home, or if you just hadn’t noticed it when the car pulled up. 
“Where the fuck have you been?” 
You slowly turned towards her, kicking off your shoes, neatly placing them in the rack by the door, and pulling your sweatshirt over your head. “Out? Why?”
“It’s almost 2 am,” She grit out, her eyes flashing dangerously, but it did nothing to dissuade you. 
You shrugged, hanging your sweatshirt on the hook right next to her. “I got distracted” 
She scoffed, following you as you tried to brush past her. “You didn’t call or text, I was worried sick about you,”
You rolled your eyes. 
It wasn’t like you texted her often anyway. The two of you barely spoke as it was, nothing besides Hey how was your day messages and one-word responses on your end. 
It was weird to you that she was still trying to look after you. That she was still trying to be the protective older sister, when clearly your relationship had evolved. 
You weren’t the toddler crawling after her wherever she went, or the 4-year-old tripping over every soccer ball she passed you. 
You were a just barely adult trapped in the shadows of everyone’s expectation of you. 
“OK mom, chill out. I was just… busy,” You snarked, wiggling your fingers at her as you headed towards the kitchen. “I had my hands full,” 
She made a face at you. 
There had been a time when she was more like your mom than your mom was. A time when you were closer to her than anyone else. 
Now it felt like she barely knew you. 
“Just your hands? I thought you had more game than that,” Kelley said from the couch. 
“Trust me, I do,” You cackled, fist-bumping Kelley as you passed her, headed for the kitchen. 
“Don’t encourage her,” Alex grumbled, nudging her as they both followed after you. 
You again rolled your eyes, pulling out one of the stools at the island, settling into it, and running your hand through your wild curls. “Chill out Al, I made it here, ok?”
You didn’t like it when your hookups messed with your hair, but it seemed everyone was obsessed with it. 
“Good argument kid,” Kelley chortled, grabbing a plate of rock shaped objects from next to the stove and holding them out to you. “Cookie?” 
Your nose scrunched at the offered items, but you took one anyway, letting your shoulders relax as the tension between you and Alex mellowed. 
She had been acting as referee for the two of you for a very long time, almost as long as they had been dating, and she was an expert at this point. It helped that you would open up to her more than you ever would to Alex. 
You knew your sister and her girlfriend didn’t like your… relaxation method, but as long as your partner was into it and you were into it, you didn’t see a problem. It was better than some of the things you could be doing. 
“You know, eventually you’re going to have to stop this,” Alex muttered, sitting down at the counter beside you.
“Why?” You asked, examining the cookie. 
She laid her phone on the counter and slid it towards you, “Because the team aren’t the only people who have picked up on it now,”
You glanced down at the device. 
It was a Twitter feed of pictures of you and the girl you had just left. You reached out and scrolled, frowning when you saw all of the text tweets below it. 
@randomy/nfan: it’s unfair how ridiculously hot she is. 
@randomy/nfan2: no one needs to wipe their face that many times during a game
@randomy/nfan: Did you see how she stuck her tongue out each time she ran her hand through her hair? It should be criminal. 
@randomy/nfan3: she totally winked at me after she gave me her jersey. Too bad I wasn’t the one she took home after. 
@randomy/nfan5: can confirm she winked after she took her jersey off. She even flexed for the photo. 
@SoccerUpdates: Y/n Morgan spotted with Orlando rookie Sam Witterman after the game. 
“The fans need to mind their own fucking business,” You grumbled, sliding her phone back. “I didn’t flex for her either,”
Alex raised an eyebrow at you. “If it wasn’t for her, who was it for? Because Sam wasn’t even paying attention,”
You looked back at the cookie, using it to hide the sudden heat in your cheeks. “I’m an adult and I can do whoever or whatever I want,” 
You hadn’t been flexing for the fan. You had been flexing in case your favorite singer was watching the game like she said she would be. 
It was frustrating how obsessed the media was with you sometimes. The fans didn’t know the line between who you were on the field and in interviews and who you were off the field. They didn’t understand the concept of privacy.
“You can,” Kelley agreed, ignoring the glare Alex sent her way. “But aren’t you concerned that you give a part of yourself away each time you sleep with someone?” 
Your shoulders lifted and then fell. “It’s not like I receive,” 
“What?” Kelley frowned. 
“Half the time, I don’t even take my pants off. It’s not like they notice,” You mumbled, taking a bite of the cookie and wrinkling your nose at the crumbly texture of oats and coconut. “Why is everything in your house vegan?” 
“I never pegged you as a stone top,” Kelley breathed out, shaking her head. “And my cookies are vegan because your sister is vegan and enjoys being able to eat the things I make,” 
“You just don’t like that she won’t let you kiss her when you’ve had anything that actually tastes good,” You hummed, taking another bite of the too-dry cookie. “It’s just easier,” 
Alex’s eyebrows furrowed, a warning bell sounding in the back of her mind. “Easier?”
You nodded, swallowing the sand-like texture in your mouth. “It’s hard to find clothes in the dark without waking anyone up, and that makes sneaking out more difficult,”
“You don’t even stay long enough to say goodbye?” Alex grimaced. 
“No,” You said dismissively, reaching for another cookie and taking a bite. “Then they’d have a chance to try and get me to stay,”
Alex could only stare at you, wondering where the shy kid who had been terrified to ask your high school crush out went. When had you gone from sweet and reserved to a Fuck boy who didn’t even tell the person they were sleeping with goodbye?
 “Jesus,” She scoffed, running a palm across her face. “You’re only 18, you shouldn’t be participating in hookup culture,”
“Like you weren’t when you were at Berkeley,” Kelley chuckled. “Y/n is just having her frat boy era without a frat. Let the kid live,” 
“Yeah Alex, let me live,” You intoned, copying Kelley. 
Alex glared at the side of your head, much like she did when you were young and being a brat. “Fine then. Was she good?”
You tilted your chin toward her incredulously. “You really want to hear about my hookup?”
“Well you wanted me to let you live,” She sat back in her chair, crossing her arms. The stance that always made younger you cower. “So tell me, was she good? Did you enjoy yourself?”
You raised an eyebrow at her, staring for a long second before shrugging and taking another bite of your cookie. “She was fine, like the others,”
“Just fine?”
“Her nails were really long, so she gorged my back,” You said, turning and pulling the collar of your shirt down so she could see the angry red marks at the top of your back. “I was worried I was going to bleed all over my shirt,”
Alex’s eyebrows furrowed. You had to be the good one to get marks like that, and the idea that you were… talented in that area almost made her want to vomit. As did the notion that your… skills probably came from… practice. 
Lots of practice.
“So you ditched us for a just fine hookup?” Kelley asked, and it made the guilt bubble in your stomach. 
That was the only good part about playing Orlando… that you got to spend time with your sister (something that was rare after she left you for Berkeley).
It was the only real hope you saw at mending the bridge that covered the crater that her departure left in your relationship. 
And you sighed, sinking on the stool, your shoulders hunching. “I didn’t think I was going to be out as late as I was. I’m sorry,”
“Ok, but why go for a hookup anyway?” Alex asked, her hand finding your back and rubbing circles. 
You took another bite of your cookie, chewing it slowly and swallowing hard. 
You weren’t sure you wanted to open up. That you wanted to accept her comfort or her touch, but pushing her away felt… cruel. 
“Paul is trading me to Chicago. He said I’m not progressing, and I don’t fit his scheme. I went out because I needed to blow off some steam. I found out right before the game,”
The words felt like lead in your mouth. He hadn’t even had the guts to tell you himself. Instead, you found out from your manager, with his comments on your performance. 
“That sucks,” Kelley reached across the island to take your hand. 
“Paul is a fucking asshole,” Alex grit out, her hand falling from your back. “You’re better off honestly,” 
There was something else in her voice that you couldn’t quite place. 
“Chicago is going to be lethal with you and Chris,” Kelley hummed, squeezing you three times, before turning towards the cabinets and pulling out a plastic bag. “These have eggs and milk. I made them for you. You deserve it.” 
You instantly dropped the cookie in your hand and reached for the bag of peanut butter chocolate chip goodness. “Why didn’t you pull these out sooner?” 
“Because you snuck into our house at 1:30 am,” Kelley shrugged, leaning on the counter. “After ditching us,” 
“I wasn’t trying to ditch you,” You mumbled, pulling a cookie out of the bag and biting into it. Your eyes slid closed as the chocolaty peanut butter played across your tongue. 
They were nearly as good as the ones Taylor had made you the last time you saw her. 
“You were just trying to get laid so you could forget your problems,” Alex finished for you, frowning. You rolled your eyes, grabbing your phone out from your back pocket and snapping a picture of the cookies. 
Alex sighed heavily, reaching over and brushing a curl from in front of your eyes. “I just worry about you,” 
She promised your parents and older sisters she would look after you when you decided to forgo college and join the league(even if the 2 of you weren’t as close as you once were). She didn’t think letting you sleep your way through the teams was healthy, and she couldn’t help but wonder if it was a sign of something deeper going on with you. 
You were always so shy growing up. Even after you told them that you were into women, you had never been so… overt with your interactions. You were so sweet with the girl you took to your senior prom, so nervous around any girl you really liked. 
She wasn’t sure when that changed. 
“I’m doing fine,” You said, taking another bite of the cookie. “You’d be the first to know if I wasn’t,” 
“Promise?” She asked you, more softly. 
Every time she looked at you, she would see the tiny 4-year-old running after her, telling her you were fine after you skinned your knee or elbow. Or 7-year-old you swearing you were good to go after you broke your arm surfing a too-big wave. 
“With my pinky,” 
You held your finger up for good effect, and she linked hers with yours. 
“You guys are disgustingly adorable,” Kelley hummed, sliding you a glass of milk. “Now eat up, I want to actually sleep tonight,” 
OoOoOoO
Twitter wasn’t one of Taylor’s favorite social media apps. It was a pit of anxiety-inducing posts and hateful opinions, and she genuinely made an effort to stay away. 
But after watching your soccer game, she couldn’t help herself. 
It had been a humid night in Florida (according to the commentary team). You kept lifting your shirt to wipe the sweat out of your eyes, and your curls had been wild by the end of the second half. 
The grainy stream hadn’t been clear enough for her. It hadn’t done your abs justice so Taylor had relented to the bird app. To pictures taken by people who were actually at the stadium, and things spiraled from there. 
It should have made her feel… shameful that she was scrolling through photos of you, looking for one that showed the moment you lifted your shirt and maybe when you gave your jersey away. She should feel bad that she was looking for the moment you put your abs on full display. 
But she didn't. 
She had been slightly obsessed since you sent her a bathroom mirror picture after the game the US had played against Canada, your shirt pulled up to your chin to show off the perfect impression of a cleat on your skin. And getting to see them in person in her kitchen had only made things worse.
Maybe it was slightly more than slightly…
If you didn’t want her to look, you certainly wouldn’t have sent her the picture, but still. With the parade of women that always seemed to be surrounding you, she wasn’t sure that you had really given it that much thought. 
She sighed, scrolling through the feed, pausing on a picture that had been taken of you after the game. 
She really shouldn’t be this invested in you, not when your reputation was that of a player. 
She didn’t want to be played. Not again. 
But you were different with her. You weren’t the arrogant soccer player posing for photos, or winking at fans. You were sweet and charming and it took almost no effort to make you blush. 
And… she groaned, swiping to the next picture. 
Your arm was slung low across a girl's back as you guided her into a car, a wide smirk pulling at your lips. It left nothing of your plans to the imagination, but maybe that’s why you had done it. 
You wanted to world to think you were a fuck boy. You wanted them to believe that you had an impenetrable shell. 
She rolled her eyes. 
She knew differently. 
That didn’t mean that it didn’t send jealousy through her veins when she saw the pictures, even if she didn’t really have the right to be jealous. 
She sighed again, scrolling past the pictures. 
At least she knew that you were still technically single (though that might have actually been worse). 
Her phone buzzed in her hand, and she grabbed the message from the top of the screen. 
It was a picture of a bag of cookies.
Soccer Hottie: Kelley made me cookies. They weren’t as good as yours
She smiled at the screen, her jealousy melting. Though she was slightly disappointed a picture of your face hadn’t been included. 
I can make you more when you visit me
Soccer Hottie: I’d like that 😘. I’ll have to check my schedule. 
At least she got a part of you that none of your hookups did. She got to see the things you cared about. She got to see your likes and dislikes. 
That was more than any of your hookups would ever get, and that made it easier to be your friend. 
*****
June 2016
I watched from a distance as you Made life your own
“You know I hate this game,” You sighed, resting your chin on your hand and staring at the Scrabble board. 
It was the same expression you made when you stared at the stupid app Taylor made you download so you could play her, except no one was ever there to heckle you while you tried to figure out what your next move should be. 
She also didn’t rush you or set a timer so you couldn’t take all day. 
“It’s better than Monopoly,” Emily shrugged, extending her legs so her feet were resting in Rose’s lap. “Last time we played there was a fistfight,” 
Rose hummed, squeezing Emily’s foot and shifting the tiles on her little ledge. “That’s why we switched to monopoly deal,” 
Board games were a staple during the downtime at camp, and this one was no different. With Rose (and Emily by default since they started dating) as your roommate(s), you had been roped into a quick Scrabble game while you all waited for team bonding. 
She reached out and placed 4 of her pieces, forming the word Focus around your word Cracker.
You frowned. You had been planning to make the word cutter, but now your c was gone and there was no way for you to connect to Emily’s R on the other side (though you weren’t sure exactly what word she had created considering the two center letters kept flipping in your head). 
You liked Monopoly better. It didn’t make your head hurt so much. 
Plus it was one of the few games where you always kicked Alex’s ass. 
“I still think you two have an unfair advantage over me,” you muttered, puffing out your cheek and pulling out your phone. You smiled as you scrolled to a very familiar contact. 
Emily’s eyebrows furrowed. “What are you doing?” 
“Leveling the playing field,” You shot her a wide smirk, as the ringing of the FaceTime app stopped and the little boop that meant your favorite person had answered sounded through the room. “Hey Scrabble queen,”
“Hey, what’s up?” Her lips ticked up in a smile that she only used when she was with you, and you saw an unfamiliar painting and a microphone behind her.
She must be at the studio. 
You knew she was working on an album, though you’d been reluctant to hear any spoilers. You didn’t want to hear about a new… love interest. You didn’t think you could take it, and you needed to focus if the team was going to do well at the Olympics. 
“I need your help,” You pouted at the phone, making your eyes as big and innocent as you could. “Im shitty at scrabble and I don’t want to lose to Rosie and Emily,”
Taylor rolled her eyes at you. 
“Hey! Why do you get to phone a friend!?” Emily exclaimed, reaching for the phone, and the semi-familiar voice on the other end. “Is it the person who was with you last time I called?” 
You shrugged nonchalantly, shifting so she couldn’t steal your phone without looking at your tiles (thereby disqualifying her). “Because I’m dyslexic,” 
“You’re getting better actually. You got a triple word last week,” Taylor said, and your eyes darted back toward her. You hadn’t told her it was really Kelley who saw the triple word yet. “Can you show me the board and your letters please?” 
“You didn’t answer my question, is this mystery girl?” Emily cut back in, even as Rose held her foot so she didn’t try to tackle you to see who you had called. 
“She’s not a mystery,” You scrunched your nose and flipped the camera, giving Taylor a good view of the board. “She’s my friend,” 
Rose raised her eyebrow at you. “Then what’s her name, you know so we can call her something else?” 
“Taylor,” You answered with an easy shrug, not really thinking about it. 
You doubted they’d make the connection anyway. 
Not unless Taylor said something incriminating, and you doubted she would considering how careful she was. 
“Ok, I think I’ve got it. I’ll text you the next couple of moves,” Taylor said, looking sideways over the phone and nodding. “I’ll talk to you later, I’ve gotta go,” 
“Thank you!” You flipped the camera around and sent her a goofy smile.
“Anytime,” She mirrored your smile and blew you a little kiss. “Talk to you later babe,” 
You caught the kiss and waved, staring at the phone for a very long second even after it had gone back to your Lock Screen. 
It made your chest feel warm that even when she was busy, she answered your calls. That she always made time for you. 
“If she’s your friend, then you have one hell of a crush,” Emily said, drawing you back to the moment. 
You blinked back up at the pair, the warm feeling in your chest replaced with sudden anxiety. “What?” 
“She called you babe,” Rose supplied, her voice very soft like she was afraid to startle you. 
They all knew of your… reluctance to settle down, and she couldn’t help but feel like there was a deeper reason behind it that they were all overlooking. 
Emily snorted, not catching the hesitance in Rose's voice. “And you stared at the phone after you hung up for a solid 30 seconds,” 
Red immediately flooded your cheeks, and your hand clenched at your side. “We’re just friends,” 
Even if you enjoyed the flirting and your feelings were slowly surpassing the boundaries of friendship. She would never want someone like you. 
You were just a kid compared to her, bumbling your way through your career and fucking it up at every turn. 
Plus she was straight. 
It was too cliche for you to handle. 
“Ok,” Rose conceded, shooting Emily a very serious look to not push you more. 
It never turned out well when they pushed. 
“It’s still your turn,” Emily said, her voice also going soft, gesturing towards the scrabble board. “Let’s see how good the mystery Taylor really is,”
You hummed, pulling up the text, and ignoring the little Good luck 😜 that accompanied her instructions. 
Your tongue made its way between your teeth as you read the step-by-step text, each letter separated by a double space, and you slowly reached for the letter tiles and slid them into place, forming the word Resonate with the help of two of Emily’s words and one of Roses. 
“Ha, a quadrupole word,” You cheered, typing out a thank you text to Taylor as Emily groaned. 
Rose rolled her eyes, still smiling softly at you.“And let me guess, it’s the easiest one she sent you?” 
She hadn’t seen you this… engaged in a long time. She hadn’t seen you so… happy, not since you started playing at North Carolina, and she hadn’t seen you show more interest than a quick one-night stand. 
“Yep,” You popped the p and smiled wickedly at them. “read it and weep losers,”
“You’re only winning because of the mystery scrabble queen,” Emily pouted. “What, does she have an entire empire made of word blocks too?”
“She’s not a fucking mob boss. She’s just a friend, and I told you, it’s fair because it levels the playing field,” You shrugged, failing to mention that the butterflies Taylor sent swirling in your chest were much more than friendly. 
It wasn’t like they hadn’t beaten you each time you played this game before. “Now make your move before I sic the time turtle on you and you have to draw a wicked wango card,” 
Rose raised her eyebrow at you. “Since when did you watch Friends? 
“Yeah! I thought you hated anything remotely scripted besides superhero movies and Indiana Jones?” Emily added, crossing her arms indignantly. “It’s how you get out of literally every movie bonding night,” 
Your shoulders lifted and fell, and red bled into your cheeks. 
You hadn’t really minded the comedy eating kettle corn with Taylor in a massive pillow fort, though Meredith and Olivia pawing at your bowl while Taylor pouted at their adamant ignoral of her had made it all worth it (they had been very unhappy about the quick baths she made them take because they were covered in flour from your little food fight). 
Plus you thought that Bamboozled was probably the only game show that wouldn’t put you to sleep (you agreed with Joey that it wasn’t that complicated). 
“Friends doesn’t really have a plot,” You muttered, looking down at your phone and moving your tiles around so you didn’t have to think about your next move. “And it’s funny so it’s not so bad,” 
Rose made a low noise, poking Emily with her toes, telling her not to push.
She had a feeling that your sudden interest in the show had more to do with who you were watching it with than the comedy. And she wouldn’t be the one to meddle in what was your first real relationship. 
She wouldn’t let Emily either. 
The wrath that would meet them from all the vets and your older sister was not something she wanted to deal with. 
“Come on Sonny, make your move,”
******
July 2016
But I stay when you're lost, and I'm scared, and you're turning away
2016 was the summer of the apocalypse. 
There was no other way to put it. 
You never thought a singular PK could turn your team and the rest of the world against you. But it did. 
You only got to play the last 10 minutes of the game, and your only job was to make the penalty. 
But you missed it. Badly. 
Jill made it clear before you were even back in the locker room that you would need to earn your way back. Roary had benched you as soon as you returned to Chicago. But the worst was the media, and the slew of hate that had been unleashed on you the second your foot left the ball. 
It rivaled the hate Hope was getting, and that was saying something. 
You blew out a long breath, took another swig of your lukewarm beer and slowly kicked the ball back toward the PK spot. 
One of the few benefits to Chicago was that the high school soccer field was within walking distance from your shitty apartment. The other was that the high school soccer field stayed open all night and had good lighting. 
You took another swig before gently setting the bottle next to four of its already empty friends, and setting up for the kick. It should have concerned you that the ball was slightly blurry, or that you were a bit wobbly on your feet, but it didn’t.  
Not when you so clearly saw your path to regaining your future. 
You rolled your neck, squaring your shoulders and looking from the ball to the net. You could imagine the thousands of people screaming, and the keeper jockeying in her line, waiting for you. 
You took another breath, leaning forward. You shuffled your feet, starting the countdown in your head. 
5
4
3
2
But just before you got to 1, your phone buzzed in your pocket, pulling your focus from the upper right corner of the net just as you fell into step for the pk. The ball connected with your foot at the wrong angle, and was sent flying into the stands instead of towards goal. 
“Fuck,” You muttered, running a hand through your hair and pulling the offending device from your back pocket. 
Blondie👱🏻‍♀️🎤: Hey, you ok? They said you weren’t on the bench, but didn’t give a reason.
You couldn’t help the small smile that pulled at your lips when you saw Taylor’s contact on your Home Screen, even if you had to squint to make out her message. 
She was one of the only people who was still talking to you after the Olympics. One of your only friends who hadn’t ditched you. 
She liked you for you, and what you did on the pitch didn’t change that. Maybe that was why you were so drawn to her. Why the hangouts had gotten more frequent? 
Maybe you just liked hanging out with her.
You took three steps back towards your drinks, plopping down and grabbing your beer. 
I’m good. Cosch bwndnwd me bdcajwe hd thihls I zuck.
You swallowed the last of the sudsy liquid as you hit send, lining it up with the others and reaching for a new one as 3 little dots appeared. 
Blondie 👱🏻‍♀️🎤: ???
You sighed, cracking the bottle open with your cleat and typing out your response. Your fingers slipped across the screen, and it took you a second to find the send button. 
Hd said I’k not aolowed badk pn the vrncn until I deserve to bd a profrsakonal spcver player abIN/
The message instantly went to read, but the three little dots didn’t appear again. 
You shrugged, taking a long sip of your beer (nearly downing the entire thing) before you placed the bottle next to its partners and began to kick a new ball toward the penalty spot, your phone dangling dangerously between your fingers. 
You let out a long breath, lining up for the shot, your eyes lifting from the fuzzy ball to the equally fuzzy net. 
But your phone buzzed in your hand before you could step into the kick. You lazily held it up to your face, clicking the accept button when you saw the FaceTime logo. 
“Whad upp T-Swizzle,” You smiled dopily at Taylor’s face as she appeared on the screen, the stadium lights glinting off of your glassy eyes. 
“Hey, are you ok? Your texts were kinda crazy,” She asked, her eyebrows furrowing with worry at your slurred speech. 
“‘M great!” You cheered, spinning in place as if to show how great you were. 
Her frown deepened. “You sound drunk?”
You rapidly shook your head. “‘M nottt,” Your voice caught on the last t, and you quietly stared at her for a long second before your dopey smile was back.  “‘M practicin’ PKs. Wanna see?” 
“No, Y/n,” She said, trying to sound stern. But it was too late, you had already flipped the camera around to face the goal. 
“Those arrr the ones I made,” You slurred, the camera shaking violently as you tried to focus on each of the balls that had made it to the back of the net. 
The camera then suddenly jerked, panning towards the bleachers. “And those arr the ones I missed. I missed a lot. I suckkkk,” 
Several balls were haphazardly strewn across a set of rusting bleachers and lying by a dilapidated fence. But what really caught Taylor’s attention was a silver and gold cardboard box and a pile of empty bottles sitting at the gate.
She sighed, pinching the bridge of her nose. She knew that things had been difficult for you, but she never expected you to get drunk and go to a random field at night. Or to make your way through a case of beer like she was sure you had. “Y/n turn the camera around,”
It took you a second to flip the camera back around, but your now somber face met her when you finally got it. 
She tried not to think about how adorable your pout was (an expression you rarely ever used when you were sober). 
“How many beers have you had?” She asked you seriously. 
“Few?” you shrugged, squinting towards where the box was and biting your lip. “Almost gone,”
“I can see that,” She breathed out, trying to stay calm. “How big of a pack did you buy?” 
Your grin returned, and you threw your arms out wide, spinning in a circle. “The biggggest,”
“Y/n,” Taylor sighed again, waiting for you to get back in frame. “Where are you? I’m gonna send a car to pick you up,”
“No. I gotta clean up annd practice so I can play,” You said, looking away from the camera, biting your lip. “I gotta nooot suckkk,” 
“You don’t suck,” Taylor said, already pulling up her contacts. “Tell me where you are, and I will help you clean up before the car arrives,” 
The line went quiet for a long second, and she looked up to see your eyebrows furrowed. She wasn’t sure if you were just trying to think, or if you were trying not to cry (it was hard to tell with how red and glassy your eyes were). 
“Y/n?”
“I don’ suck?” Your bottom lip wobbled. 
She shook her head. 
“No. You missed a shot. It happens to everyone,” She repeated your own words back to you, ones she had heard you speak hundreds of times. Ones she meant with all of her heart. “Now tell me where you are. I’m worried about you,” 
You buzzed your lips. “The high school field by my apartment,” 
“Ok,” She said, feeling the knot in her chest loosen as she scrolled through her contacts and sent a frantic text to her security. Jason would send someone to get you. Someone who would keep you safe. “I have someone coming to get you,” 
“I gotta clean up,” You poked your bottom lip out, stumbling over to the ball bag and struggling to get it open one-handed. 
“I’ll stay on the line with you while you do,” Taylor said, keeping her voice soothing, and calm, even as she sent more frantic texts to her security and assistant moving her schedule around for the next few days. “And Tony will help once he gets there,” 
You paused, from where you were sloppily gathering up balls and looked at the camera with wide eyes. “Iron man?” 
Taylor resisted the urge to roll her eyes or coo at the adorable expression (though she did store it away in her memory bank for later recollection). “No, not the same Tony,” 
You frowned, stumbling towards the stands and using a foot using push the balls to the bottom so you could gather them. 
You tripped as you stepped up onto the silver seating, intent on getting the stray ball you had sailed to the top of the stands. “Nashatasha wass cuter anyway,” 
“Yeah,” Taylor said slowly,her eyes scrunching as you nearly tumbled down the open side of the bleachers. “Why don’t you sit down? Tony is almost there to help you anyway. He can get the rest of the balls,”
All she needed was for you to fall out of the stands and hurt yourself. 
Your tongue poked between your teeth like you were thinking before the phone shook violently as you plopped down onto the bleachers and rested your chin on your hand. “Kay,”
She blew out a breath as you blinked lazily at her. “Don’t worry, Tony will be there soon,” 
She said the words for herself as much as she said them for you. She didn’t like the idea of you being drunk and alone on a random high school field in the middle of the night. 
She needed you to be safe, and ok. It was a protective instinct that curled around her chest in a way that it had only for one other person. 
Tony would be there soon, and they would get you back to your apartment and she would be able to breathe again. 
OoOoOoOo
“Alright, I think I’ve got her all settled,” A salt and pepper-haired man said, as he tucked your Arsenal blanket under your chin as you snorted softly on the couch. His mirror-finish aviators hung from his v-neck shirt, something more casual than anything Taylor had ever seen him wear before. 
It was a testament to how quickly he had abandoned his vacation to help her (and you by extension), and for that, she would be forever grateful. 
“Thank you, Tony,” She said softly, keeping her voice down so she didn’t wake you. “Really,” 
“It’s no problem ma’am,” He waved her off, his southern drawl calming whatever worry was still left in her chest. “I was happy to help when Jason contacted me, and Ms. Morgan is a very cooperative drunk,” 
You had been incredibly well-behaved when Tony arrived, allowing him to guide you into the back of the SUV and then giving him your apartment address and your keys with no arguments. You didn’t even complain when he basically carried you up the stairs because you were too wobbly to walk. She wasn’t sure if it was because she was on the phone with you, or if you were just too tired to fight.
“Hopefully we don’t have more of these encounters to compare it against,” Taylor said, glancing at the text from her personal assistant. “Casey texted me, my plane is ready, so I should be there fairly soon,” 
Tony made a low noise of agreement, placing a glass of water and an Advil on the coffee table next to your sleeping form, and taking a few steps back to sit on one of the stools, shifting so he could check that the three distinct dog bowls below him also had water. 
The three huskies had refused to leave your side as soon as he got you laid down on the couch. 
“I’ll stay outside her door until you arrive in case there are any issues,” Tony said, looking around your tiny apartment yet again to make sure that there wasn’t anything else he could do so that you would be comfortable when you woke up. “Would you like to stay on the line?” 
Taylor nodded. “That would be great,” 
Even though he was there, she wanted to stay too. She needed to be present in case you woke up. She didn’t want you to feel alone, especially when it seemed your team had abandoned you. 
Tony stood, plugging in your phone and setting it up on the coffee table so that Taylor had a clear view of your sleeping face. 
“I’ll be just outside the door, and my phone is on in case you need me,” He said, squatting so he could look into the camera, and send her a small smile. “I’ll see you when you get here,” 
She sent him a wave as he disappeared, leaving the two of you alone (save for the gray huskie who had wiggled under your arm and the black one who was curled up behind your head). 
She let out a long breath, watching the slow rise and fall of the edge of your Arsenal blanket. 
You looked so young in your sleep.
You were young, she had to remind herself. You were barely 19, even if you wanted to act like you were so much older. Even if you had more responsibilities and people scrutinizing you than most other people your age. 
You shifted, pulling the blanket closer to your face, one eye sleepily blinking open. 
“Tay?” 
She hummed, keeping her voice soft. “Yeah, I’m still here,” 
You shifted, wrapping your arm tighter around the gray husky in your arms. 
“Don’t ever leave,” You murmured the words into the dog's fur so softly that Taylor almost didn’t hear them. “I like you too much. Even if I don’t deserve you,” 
“I like you too,” She smiled gently at the words that sent butterflies swirling in her chest. “Go back to sleep,”
She had liked you too for a very long time, even if she was still hesitant to admit it. 
“Noooo,” You pouted, forcing your eyes further open to look at her. They were breathtakingly blue, just like your older sisters. “I like you like Alex likes Kelley, but I’m not supposed to. You’re too good,” 
Her eyebrows furrowed. 
Why weren’t you supposed to like her? What did you mean that she was too good? 
“And you’re straight,” You added, shifting so your nose was hiding behind the dog in your arms. 
“You can like me Y/n,” She murmured, wanting nothing more than to reach out and brush your messy curls from in front of your sleepy eyes. “I like you too,”
It wouldn’t be worth it to argue with your assumption of her sexuality now anyway. You were too drunk to remember in the morning. 
Your eyes blinked open wider in an adorable doe-eyed expression. “Really?”
“Yes,” She nodded, her lips ticking up impossibly more at your adorableness. “Now sleep. I’ll see you soon,” 
You made a low noise, your eyes sliding closed as you snuggled your nose into the dog under your arm. 
She waited for your breathing to even out, (and several minutes after that) before she clicked off the call to catch her flight. She could watch your sleep for the rest of your lives, and still not get enough. 
She wondered if you were dreaming of her, or of soccer balls and shots that you didn’t miss. Or maybe you were dreaming of a world where one kick didn’t have your teammates and friends turning their backs on you. 
Maybe one day she would ask you. 
OoOoOoO
The first thing you noticed as you came into consciousness was that your mouth felt like it was full of cotton and your head felt like Ashlyn had used it as a ball during punting practice, or like Megan had used it to practice her perfect PKs.
You groaned, shifting on the couch, accidentally displacing the three dogs that had cuddled in around you at some point. 
You had no idea why you were sleeping on the couch, instead of in the king-sized bed you had purchased so the 4 of you had room. 
Come to think of it, you didn’t actually remember how you got here. 
The last thing you remembered was cracking open your 4th beer and gathering your balls so you could shoot more penalties. You didn’t exactly like how the sudsy liquid tasted, but it did an excellent job at dulling the ache in your chest that had settled as soon as you took that fucking PK. 
The ache that went ignored by your sister and your teammates who were too wrapped up in their own grief to even check on you. 
You groaned, running a hand through your hair. At least you remembered to close the blinds, and put out Advil and water for yourself? 
You pushed yourself up, closing your eyes when your apartment spun around you, and pressing your fingers to the bridge of your nose. 
Three cold noses nudged your skin, and you slowly worked your eyes open and reached for the tall glass. 
“I’m ok guys,” You mumbled towards the three dogs sending you worried looks and took a large sip of the still-cool water. “It’s like when I give you guys too many treats,” 
The gray huskie on your left wined, butting her head into your arm. You reached over with your free hand to scratch behind her ear. “I’m ok Art, nothing a good cup of coffee can’t fix,” 
The red dog to your left also nudged you and you rolled your eyes, setting the glass down so you could scratch his head too, and you eyed the black dog still contently cuddled into your left leg. 
He was always the most chill of the floof pack, happy to just be in your presence. 
You would be happy to stay here all day. To let them love away the empty feeling that lingered after you like a bad cough. 
You blinked as a knock sounded at your door, the levity in your chest deflating like a popped balloon. 
It was probably one of your teammates coming to scold you for not sitting in the stands at last night's game. For ditching it instead of taking your punishment.  
The knock sounded again, and you blew out a long breath as you forced yourself to your feet. “I’m coming,” 
Artemis and Apollo trailed after you, stopping by the counter like they had been trained, and Orion stayed on the couch, watching over the living room like a centennial. 
You rolled your eyes at him, running a hand through your hair again, trying to at least pretend you were presentable, as you grabbed the door handle (barely even bothered that the deadbolt wasn’t latched)
You froze when you saw a head of blond hair and the bluest eyes you had ever seen instead of one of your teammates. 
“Taylor? What are you doing here?” You frowned, opening the door wider with one hand and rubbing your tired eyes with the other, hoping it would quell the dizziness that actually standing brought on. “Don’t you have a recording thing today?”
“I have a recording thing every day,” She said, stepping closer to the door. “You scared the shit out of me and I needed to come to check on you myself,” 
Your eyebrows furrowed. 
How had you scared her? Did you call her? 
“Sorry. I don’t really remember the details of last night,” You opened the door wider, your hand lingering in your curls. “Do you wanna come in?”
Taylor nodded, stepping closer to you. “I’d like that,” 
Took a step back, looking behind you towards the dogs. 
“The gray one is Artemis and the red one is Apollo. Orion is black and probably hiding out here somewhere, he’s not a big fan of meeting new people,” You gestured towards the husky’s two waiting for their release command. “Do you want to say hello? They won’t jump, but I know you’re more of a cat person,” 
She looked over your shoulder, nodding. “Yeah,” 
You turned towards the dogs, waving across your waist. “Vale, saluda,” 
Art sniffed at you as she pushed herself up and slowly waltzed past you, Apollo close on her tail as they made their way over to Taylor. 
She tensed like she expected them to tackle her, but they didn’t. Apollo politely sniffed at the hand she had extended as Art circled her twice before nudging gently against her leg, asking to be pet. 
“They’re so well-behaved,” Taylor said softly, her fingers winding their way into the soft fur of Art’s neck. 
“Thanks,” You said, watching carefully as Apollo pressed his into Taylor’s other leg, indicating he wanted to be pet too. “They’re pretty mellow for huskies, as long as they've had their exercise,”
Art paused as Taylor’s other hand began to scratch Apollo's back, and you sighed, pointing away from the two of you. “De,”
Yes, they were well-behaved, but their relationship was also similar to the one you shared with your sister. Apollo liked to rile his older sister up, just like you loved to get a rise out of Alex. 
You didn’t think that Taylor would appreciate a play fight breaking out. 
Art sniffed at you, but did as you asked, her nails tapping as she trotted off towards the living room with Apollo at her heels. 
Maybe they would go find Orion and show him the visitor wasn’t so scary. 
“Want a drink?” You asked, awkwardly scratching the back of your neck with one hand and gesturing to the small bar in your kitchen with the other. “I think I have coffee somewhere,”
It was mundane in comparison to Taylor’s full marble kitchen. Small and disheveled on all accounts. 
The linoleum blue counter had a crack running down the center and you knew that both wooden stools wobbled dangerously when they weren’t in the right spot. But Taylor didn’t complain as she followed you. 
“Coffee would be great,” She hummed, and the stools squeaked as she settled onto one and placed her bag on the other. “I think you could use some too after the night you had,”
You shrugged, turning your back on her, pulling the coffee out of the freezer, and settling up the coffee maker. “What happened last night?”
You didn’t turn to look at her, busying yourself in grabbing 2 coffee mugs and a glass and getting the milk and a carton of orange juice from the fridge. You would have offered her a glass too, but considering how often you drank directly from the carton, you didn’t think it was a good idea. 
“Well,” She drew out the word, and you felt her eyes on you as you moved through the kitchen. “I texted you because you weren’t on the bench, and you responded mostly with self-deprecating gibberish, so I called you,” 
You made a low noise in the back of your throat, grabbing your sugar jar and sliding it towards her, but not meeting her eyes. “I was probably a couple beers deep at that point,”
“Just a couple?” You could almost hear her raised eyebrows, and you finally turned to look at her, placing the coffee pot between you. 
You shrugged, smiling impishly as you poured yourself a cup of coffee. “A few more than a couple,”
“Try a 24-pack,” Taylor scoffed, pouring herself her own cup of coffee. “You’re lucky you didn’t get alcohol poisoning,”
You set your coffee on the counter, sucking all the warmth you could from your mug, your blasé mask cracking. 
“I didn’t drink it all last night,” You said, finally meeting her eyes. “I only had like 13 left,”
She sighed, reaching out and catching your hand. “Still,” 
You paused, blowing out a very long breath. “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to scare you, or make you fly all the way out here and waste a day,”
Her eyebrows furrowed at the end of your sentence. The rapid turn in conversation. 
“I’m not wasting anything,” She said slowly. “You obviously needed someone and I’m happy I could be here for you,”
You grimaced. You didn’t deserve to have someone there for you. 
You were the one who fucked up the team. The one who ruined everything. 
“Hey,” Taylor squeezed your hand again, drawing your eyes back to her, like she could read your thoughts. “No time I spend with you is a waste,”
Red flooded your cheeks, up to your ears, and you tried to hide it with a sip of your too-hot coffee. 
She smiled gently at you, looking at the microwave clock behind you. “But we can talk about that later. You have to get ready for practice,” 
“I’m not going,” You scoffed, taking another sip. “There’s no point,” 
“Y/n, avoiding practice isn’t going to fix what’s happening,” She said, her voice patient.  “It’ll only make it worse,” 
A dark look crossed your features. 
“It can’t get worse,” You said, your voice too calm. Too dangerous. “I’ve already been told I won’t be fielding for the rest of the season, and Mallory Pugh has been called into camp to replace me. My soccer career is over at the ripe old age of 19,” 
Despite your efforts to hide it, she could still hear the misery in your voice. The utter defeat. 
Her head tilted to the side, and she took a strategic sip of her coffee. “I thought you didn’t lose?” 
You shook your head. “This is different,” 
You couldn’t fight the system. Not when it was so dead set on driving you out. 
If only you could be like your perfect older sister. 
“Is it though?” She asked, too nonchalantly. “Prove them wrong. Show up and shove it in their faces,” 
You sighed. You knew exactly what she was doing. You always responded better to challenges than to comfort. 
Plus if you left, you weren’t sure Taylor would be here when you returned, and you preferred spending time with her over a useless practice anyway. 
“And I’ll be waiting here for you after practice,” She added as if sensing one of the reasons for your hesitation. “We can grab some dinner and hang out. But first, you need to go kick some ass. It’ll make you feel better anyway,”
You took another long sip of your coffee, before nodding begrudging. 
She was right. Skipping practice would only make things worse, even if going would suck anyway. 
OoOoOoO
“Rough night?” Christen smirked at you, bumping your shoulder as you jogged onto the practice field, fixing your practice jersey. 
You shrugged, sending the striker a half smile. “Something like that,”
She caught the collar of your practice jersey, peeking at the skin underneath it. “I don’t see any hickeys so it couldn’t have been too bad,” 
You batted her hand away, unable to stop the smile that accompanied your rolled eyes. “I don’t have any. I didn’t hook up last night,”
She raised her eyebrow at you. 
It was rare you skipped a team thing unless it was for a girl, even when you weren’t on the bench. She knew that you had been bedhopping more to cope with the loss at the Olympics and the tenuous situation with both the national team and Chicago that you found yourself in. 
She supposed it was a way for you to distract yourself, even if she didn’t think it was what was best for you. 
“Roary was pissed you weren’t at the game,” She said instead of pushing. You were an adult, and what you did off the field was really none of her business. 
“I know,” You mumbled, stepping into line behind Huerta, scratching the back of your neck, a strange look crossing your face. “I already had a meeting with him. It’s why I missed activation,” 
Christen frowned. “He wasn’t too hard on you, was he?” 
He had a reputation for being… abrasive, and Christen was aware of how many times he had been so with you. 
You shrugged again. It wasn’t like Christen could do something about how awful he was. Plus you knew Christen would report anything you said right back to Alex. 
“No more than usual,” You said, sounding uninterested.  “We actually talked about how I’ve improved since coming back from Rio,” 
While he had assigned you 8 laps after practice, overall the meeting hadn’t gone as badly as you feared. Considering how awful the Red Stars were performing with you not even allowed on the bench, you shouldn’t have been so surprised that he was sticking you back in the starting 11 for the midweek game. 
So despite his critique of your personality and playing style, he had conceded that Chicago scored more when you were on the field to service Christen. You would take it as a win. 
Christen’s eyebrows furrowed, not quite believing you. “That’s good I guess,” 
You made a low noise, watching Sofia run the drill so you knew what was happening. 
It was a simple give-and-go with the midfielders, and a shot on goal. 
It would be easy. 
And frankly, it was easy. 
Your fingers wiggled as you watched Sofia launch the ball just over the crossbar, waiting for the goalkeepers to swap so the striking coach would send you the ball. 
You let yourself sink into the drill, and just as he passed you the ball, it was like your brain turned off. You easily tapped it to Colaprico, skirting around Krueger and turning just in time to receive the through ball the midfielder sent back. 
It only took a little flick of your heel to get past Naeher, and send the ball into the back of the net, and head to the back of the other line with little fanfare. 
“Nice shot,” JJ reached out her hand for a low five as you passed her, and you tilted your chin at her as you passed, a smile playing on your lips. 
Taylor had been right, playing did make you feel better. 
And you didn’t have to think about the butterflies her presence sent flying in your stomach. 
“Maybe you have the Morgan gene after all,” Roary said gruffly, stepping onto the practice pitch, his hand landing heavily on your shoulder.
Your back went straight and the hint of a smile slid off your face. 
“I might be able to make an acceptable attacking midfielder of you yet,” He continued, oblivious to how rigid your posture was. 
Christen cleared her throat, casually stepping between the two of you and forcing him to let go. “That was a really good goal. I bet you and Al could make that work for the national team too,”
“Hm,” You made a low noise of agreement, looking away from her. 
You didn’t want to say that with your reputation, you doubted you would ever get a call up again. You were pretty sure Jill already blacklisted you anyway.
“We’ll have to see about that,” Roary chuckled, and his hand found your shoulder again, squeezing tightly. “A few extra film sessions could help,” 
A shiver ran down your spine. You hated film sessions, especially with Roary, but you nodded anyway. 
It wasn’t like you had a choice. Roary always got what he wanted.
He squeezed your shoulder one more time before heading off to harass someone else, but you knew he would be back. You were one of his favorite targets. 
“You know you don’t have to do sessions with him,” Christen said when he was out of earshot, and you looked away. 
She could never understand that you couldn’t say no to him. That your precariousness with both the Red Stars and the USWNT meant that you couldn’t piss off a coach. It meant that you were at his mercy, even if you didn’t want to admit it. 
“He’s an asshole, but he has some good insights,” You said, watching as JJ ran the opposite side of the drill with Huerta. 
Christen used a finger under your chin to force you to look back at her. “That’s not what I asked you,” 
“I know Chris,” You said with too much force, jerking away from her. “I can handle Dames. Right now, I need all the help I can get to show Jill that I deserve my fucking spot. If he wants to help, then so be it,” 
She paused, her hand still hovering in the air where your chin had been. 
“Ok,” She said slowly, her eyebrows furrowing while she tried to decipher your overreaction. “I just wanted to make sure,” 
You swallowed hard, moving up in line. “I know. Sorry, I snapped. I was up late,”
Her lips tilted into a teasing smirk. “Ah yes, you got fucked to get over how Roary fucked you out of your starting spot,”
You threw your head back and groaned, red coloring your cheeks as the line around you erupted in giggles. 
You would never outlive your… reputation, but that was ok because at least it stopped Christen from asking too many questions. Questions that would make their way back to your sister.
They would never believe that the girl who had distracted you wasn’t one you were currently sleeping with anyway. 
“Morgan, you’re up,” The striking coach said, his voice sobering your teammates. “Let’s see if you can do the other half of the drill as well as you did the first,” 
You easily stopped the ball he passed your way, winking towards McCaffrey. “I’ll do better. There’s a reason I’m a midfielder after all,” 
You would have to thank Taylor for making you practice. She was right, it did make you feel better, and you were on your way to proving why you were one of the best in the world.
OoOoOoO
“I can’t believe you’ve never had a burrito before,” You said, biting into your chicken and queso concoction. 
It had been an easy decision to grab Chipotle after practice, one you hadn’t really thought about until the text came through that Taylor didn’t know what to order. 
That she had never been to one of your favorite post-practice restaurants. 
“I’ve just never gotten around to it. They’re not common in Nashville,” She hummed, delicately biting into her own streak and bean creation. “How was practice,” 
You scrunched your nose but decided that pointing out that Chipotle was a national chain (and that you and Emily had eaten at one when you played Australia in Nashville) wasn’t worth it. You felt like there was something… off about her relationship with food, but you didn’t know if you were close enough to be able to bring it up. 
You honestly didn’t know if you were just friends, because the way she looked at you felt like you were edging on something more. 
“Fine,” Your shoulder lifted and fell as you took another bite and swallowed. You grabbed a chip from your bag, shoving it in the top of your burrito. “Apparently I’m starting tomorrow,”
Taylor frowned. “That feels like quite the jump from being left off the roster,” 
She wasn’t entirely sure how the whole selection process worked for roster and starting lineups (despite her recent research into the topic), but it felt very weird for you to go from essentially not on the team to one of the people who would carry it through the game. 
You made a low sound of agreement, swallowing. “I have a feeling it was ownership’s call,” 
Taylor raised an eyebrow at you, clearly asking for a more comprehensive explanation. 
“We lost like 6-0,” You explained. “And our media guy said that the attendance dropped by 40% because I wasn’t on the bench,” 
It was one of the few concessions that Roary made. The team hadn’t been able to break through North Carolina’s midfield without your creativity or ability to draw defenders. They hadn’t been able to supply the forwards or stop the line-breaking balls Zerboni kept sending through, and ultimately it led to a complete creaming of your team. 
They needed you on the field, no matter how loath he was to admit it. That’s why you assumed Armin had overridden the coach's judgment. 
The team brought in less money when they lost. 
Taylor nodded in understanding and the two of you lapsed into silence, slowly munching on your respective burritos. 
“I can’t believe you have a game 2 days apart,” She said after a few minutes. “Doesn’t seem to leave you a lot of time to recover,”
You tilted your head. “The league wants to squeeze in as many matches as they can before the international break,”
“That seems reasonable,” Taylor said, seemingly agreeing with you. 
It didn’t, but the league (and the owners) weren’t really concerned with your health. You were basically a trading card designed to bring them more money. 
You played with the foil around your burrito, biting your lip. “I um… I have an extra pass if you want to come watch,” 
She paused, her grin dipping into a frown. “I’m not sure that’s a good idea. Going out somewhere isn’t always easy,”
Not that she was sure anyone even knew she was in Chicago. So far, there hadn’t been any talk on social media of her impromptu trip, and she had no intention of that changing. 
She didn’t need the space in front of your apartment becoming a circus. Not with the horrible things the press had been saying about her. 
“The seat is in a box, so no one would see you if you decided you wanted to go, and you can use the player’s entrance,” You explained, trying to seem like you didn’t care what her answer would be. Trying to pretend like you wouldn’t care if she decided not to one. “No cameras are allowed in the tunnels,”
Her lips pressed very tightly together, seemingly seeing through your facade. “I just don’t want to take away from your game,” 
“You can’t distract from the match,” You shrugged. “There will already be crazy speculation because I’m on the roster, and the Camp call-ups haven’t been made public yet,” 
She hummed. She knew that the media that you dealt with was different, but still vicious nonetheless. 
Instead of picking apart your outfit choice or your performances on stage, they tore apart your play. They ripped your soccer skills apart and compared you to your sister at every turn. 
“I think it’s horrible that they’re focusing so much on one play,” 
It was still difficult for her to wrap her head around how a singular moment had seemingly derailed your entire career, but then again a single misconstrued phone call had derailed hers. 
You shrugged. It was nothing when compared to what Taylor was dealing with. “At least they’re attacking me for something I actually did. I ended my soccer career with a single kick. You’re being punished for a man’s lies,”
Taylor nodded slowly, taking another bite of her burrito. 
She didn’t think either circumstance was fair, but that was the position that you were both in. You were trapped by your coaches and she was trapped by perception. 
The only thing either of you could do was control the things you could, and enjoy the ride. Everything would even out eventually. 
“I’ll come to your game,” She said, not just because she knew it would make you happy, but also because she wasn’t ready to leave yet, and going to the game would mean spending more time with you. 
Plus, there was no way she would miss seeing you so in your element in person. Not when it was so ridiculously attractive on screen. 
Your whole face lit up. “Really?”
She couldn’t help but smile too. “Yeah, it should be fun,” 
Even if the paparazzi got wind of it, seeing you look so happy for the first time since you returned from Brazil would make it worth it. 
“It’ll be great. I’ll even make sure to score for you,” You said, wiggling excitedly as you cleaned up your burrito wrapper and held the bag up for her as Art and Apollo both sniffed at it (she was shocked they hadn’t even begged for scraps earlier). 
“If you do, you’ve gotta do the backflip celebration,” She chucked, tossing the aluminum wrapped from her burrito into the bag. “That one’s my favorite,” 
You paused, your grin morphing into a mischievous smirk at the mention of your very famous goal celebration. 
“For sure,” You said with your signature wink, and Taylor couldn’t help but burst into laughter. “I’ll do a double if I get a hat trick, just for you,” 
It took a second for her peels of laughter to dissolve into shorter giggles and for her to catch her breath. It was so strange to have the look you always sent fans directed at her. The look she was sure had landed you most of your famous hookups. 
Though it kind of melted her heart that you only used it on her in a comedic sense. That it shifted back to the look she liked to think you saved just for her as soon as her giggles filled the air. 
“Do you want to watch something before dinner?” You asked, sobering and shifting awkwardly on the couch. “The pups and I thought a pillow fort would be cool,” 
Taylor hummed, leaning her chin on her hand. “I think that sounds incredible,” 
The little fist pump you gave was adorable, as was the way the dogs hopped around you, and in that moment she knew. 
When she looked back on this moment, it would be the one she would point to as the moment she knew she was in love. 
OoOoOoO
Taylor had been to a lot of places in her life. She had played down the road from Seat Geek Stadium in Chicago many times. 
But she had never gotten to see this side of the city. 
She had never gotten to be normal and watch a game without hordes of people screaming for her attention. She hadn’t even needed to use the special player entrance. The stadium attendants had escorted them to the box with zero fanfare, and she felt safe sitting in the open area of the box with the promise that the cameras rarely panned it. 
She didn’t even regret not bringing extra security like she thought she would. 
Her heart also fluttered each time you glanced up at the box, smiling impossibly wider each time she waved.  
It was like the little lanyard pass you had given her (and Tony) was an invisibility cloak.
It was an addictive feeling to be so… free. To be hidden to the rest of the world but so visible to you. 
“She’s really on fire tonight,” Tony said, glancing over at the game clock. 
You had only been on the field for 15 minutes, and you had already scored twice. 
“She’s got a lot to prove,” Taylor hummed, leaning forward in her seat as you slotted another better ball between the two opposing team’s defenders. “This is the first time she’s gotten to play since the Olympics,” 
You had already told her that you probably wouldn’t get to play the full first half anyway. Your coach was stuck on the penalty you took in Brazil just like the rest of the world was, even if Taylor didn’t see a point in basing your playtime off of it. 
That meant you had limited minutes to prove to them that you deserved to be on the pitch. To make them regret not starting you in other games, 
Tony’s head tilted as number 23 played a quick pass back to you and the ball buried itself into the back of the net with just the tap of your toes for your 3rd goal of the evening. 
It looked easy. Fluid. Even when he knew it was anything but. 
You smiled as the crowd went absolutely wild, tipping an invisible hat towards the bench. 
“I think it has more to do with who’s here,” Tony countered, gesturing towards where you winking towards the player's box was replaying on the Jumbotron. 
She shrugged, ignoring the slight red creeping up her cheeks and his sideways glance. “The team has so much more energy when she’s on the field,” 
Even as the teams got ready to reset, you bounced on your toes, twisting your hips in a way that reminded her of the shake it off dance  and saying words Taylor couldn’t hear to your teammates. Words she was sure were organizing your offense. Words she knew would help you continue to shred your former team, even if she herself wouldn’t understand them (watching a game with you had been like listening to a foreign language as you yelled at the screen, unwilling to translate until it was over). 
“She’s the focal point of their offense,” Tony agreed, deciding not to comment further on Taylor’s blush. “But tonight she’s playing more flashy than she normally plays,” 
Taylor hummed. He was right. 
From what she had seen, you were not generally a selfish player. You liked to serve balls on a platter to make your team look good. You liked to pull defenders and set your strikers up. 
Tonight you hadn’t done that. 
Tonight you had taken the chances for yourself, putting them in the back of the net and making sure the league knew exactly what you were capable of. You wanted to show them how dangerous you could be. 
“She’s proving a point,” Taylor reiterated. 
“I don’t disagree,” Tony said as you slotted a very nice through pass past the first defender, and the second just barely poked it out for a corner kick. You glanced up towards the box as you took your position, a little smirk on your face. “I’m just not sold that she’s only proving a point to the coaching staff, her teammates and the reporters,” 
Taylor’s head tilted. 
It was true that while you didn’t play flashy, you did like to tease the fans (and whoever had caught your eye that week). You knew their obsession with you, and you never missed an opportunity to play it up. 
But this felt different. 
You hadn’t been winking at anyone on the field, or in the stands. The only place you kept looking was over towards the coaching staff and up at her. 
“She doesn’t have anything to prove to me,” She said, sitting back in her chair as your header landed in the keeper's hands. 
Tony smirked. “I know that and you know that,” 
Taylor made a low noise, her eyes flitting to the sideline where the 4th official was getting ready with the sub-board. “I think she knows that too,”
You trudged to the sideline when your number came up, using your jersey to wipe your mouth (flashing your abs to the crowd) and glancing up at the clock. 
Taylor followed your eyes, frowning at the large 25 on the screen. 
It was stupid to take you off when you were playing so well, and the booing from the crowd echoed her sentiment. The fans were about as happy as you looked about coming off, even if it was already expected. 
You ignored your replacement and brushed off the coach's hand, glaring at him as you took the pinny from one of the equipment managers. 
There was an odd friction between you and the man, one that brought out a fierceness and an anger that countered your normally sunny personality. But then again, your personality was much different when you were on the field anyway. 
There was a confidence and swagger about you that made butterflies erupt in her stomach. That made her want you in a way that should make her feel uncomfortable. 
But even now, the way you signed autographs for the fans behind the bench reminded her that you were still you. You were still the sweet and shy, not the cocky character you played on the field (even if she was rather sexy). 
This version of you was the one that melted her heart. 
“She might know that, but I think she wants to impress you anyway,” Tony said, drawing her attention back to him. “It’s cute,” 
Taylor raised an eyebrow at him, clearing her throat and trying to ignore the warmth that moved from her cheeks up to her ears. “Shut up,” 
He chuckled, settling back in his seat, ready for the rest of the game (even if it had considerably slowed down now that you weren’t playing). He had a feeling that he would get to witness many more of your interactions in the future and that he would get to see your insane footwork on the field again if the look on Taylor’s face was anything to go by. 
Getting to see the two of you actually interact together had to be just as adorable, and he was looking forward to it. 
OoOoOoO
You sighed, leaning back on the couch, scratching Orion’s head where he rested it in your lap, just above your air therapy boots, and changing the channel for the 30th time. 
You weren’t actually watching the television, but you thought that some background noise would help alleviate the odd emptiness that had overtaken your apartment. It was quiet in a way you hadn’t expected now that Taylor (and Tony) were gone, and it made you feel like there was a little piece of you missing. 
Post-game recovery was always your least favorite part of the process. It always gave you too much time to think and to worry. To dissect every movement you made on the field. 
But now it also gave you too much time to miss Taylor. 
You understood why she had to leave after a quick congratulations after the game. You knew she was busy and that she needed to be in New York to record. 
That didn’t mean that a part of you didn’t wish she had stayed. 
You shook your head, shifting on the couch (much to Orion's annoyance). 
You weren’t supposed to get attached to Taylor. To people in general, really. 
Experience taught you that they would all leave eventually, no matter what they said or how much they promised you they wouldn’t. 
Your parents forgot about your existence when Alex started getting called up to the U20 team. Alex left you for college and was too wrapped up in her new life to remember you existed either. Your friends all left when they realized that you weren’t worth the effort.
 And Taylor…
She would leave too when she found out about the feelings you harbored for her. 
She would write a song about how you ruined your friendship because you were too selfish to accept that she would never feel like you did. Even if she didn’t, she would leave once she saw how fucked up you really were. 
Still, the little voice in your brain fixated on the chemistry between the two of you. On the moments where you caught her staring at your abs during the game, or how you would swear she was staring at your lips when you met her in the tunnel afterward. 
But she couldn’t like you that way, and if she did it was something more than a sexual curiosity. 
You blew out another breath. 
It wasn’t that you hadn’t crossed that line with your friends before, you had, but you didn’t want it to be like that with Taylor. You didn’t want her to be a fuck buddy or a one night stand that she would regret later. 
You couldn’t cross that line without her leaving you, but you weren’t even sure if there was a line to cross. Hell, you had never had a real relationship so you weren’t even sure if you had already crossed it. 
Did friends do the things you and Taylor did? Did friends fly cross country to help? Did they cuddle in pillow forts? 
You were just… lost. 
You had never felt so… attached before. 
You let your head fall back on the couch with a low thump. You didn’t know what to do, and you couldn’t call the person you normally would (Kelley) because she would tell Alex. 
You grabbed your phone from the edge of the couch, scrolling through your contacts until you found one of the few who weren’t ignoring you for missing the PK. One of the few who you trusted (even if you would get the shit teased out of you). 
You paused, your finger hovering over Emily’s picture. 
She would know what to do. She always knew what to do. 
It took you another second to gain the courage to actually press the call button, and you worried your bottom lip as it started to ring. 
She was definitely going to make fun of you. 
“I need your help,” You said as soon as Emily’s face appeared on the screen. 
“Hello Emily, how are you? I’m fine, thank you so much for asking,” 
“Emily,” You sighed, pinching the bridge of your nose, but she just raised her eyebrows expectantly in response. Your shoulders sank. “Hello Emily, how are you?” 
“I’m doing great,” She smiled cheekily back at you. “Now what’s up?”
You ran a hand through your hair, rubbing over the short curls at the back of your neck, trying to mask how nervous you were. 
“I..-“ You stuttered, looking away. “There’s a girl, and I like her, but I have no clue what’s happening or what’s supposed to happen next,” 
She squinted at you. “Are you dating this girl?”
“No,” You breathed out, dragging your hand from your hair to press into your forehead. “I don’t think so. She’s my friend. She’s straight, but there’s all this weird tension, and I’m not sure if she would ever want to date me. I doubt it, cause like I said she’s straight. But she’s really really pretty and we cuddle and I like her a lot but i-“ 
“Y/n,” Emily said, cutting you off mid-ramble, a playful smile pulling at her lips. 
You blinked at her. “Yeah?”
“Let’s just start at the beginning,” She leaned forward, towards the phone, accentuating each syllable. “And talk at a pace where I can actually understand you,” 
“I…I got drunk and missed a game,” You swallowed down your blush and looked away from her raised eyebrow.  “She flew to Chicago to see me because she was worried, and I bought her her first burrito-,” 
“She’s never had a burrito before? What kind of person hasn’t had a burrito?” Emily snorted, and you felt the tension in your chest relax a little. 
You shrugged. “She said she never had one before. She liked it a lot,”
Emily’s head tilted in question, but she waved her hand. “Ok, carry on with your story,” 
You swallowed hard, focusing on how your fingers dug into the spot at the back of your neck“She came to check on me and convinced me to go to practice. I bought her a burrito, and we had Thai for dinner. 
“Did she sleep over?” She asked you, her pointer finger tapping her bottom lip. 
You nodded slowly. “Yeah. The huskies cuddled up with us in a pillow fort and we both fell asleep to survivor,” 
Emily sighed, sending you a pointed look. That wasn’t what she had been asking. “But you didn’t sleep together?” 
Red instantly colored your cheeks, and the pads of your fingers dug further into the muscles at the base of your skull. “Not in the um… traditional sense,” 
You looked away from her, unable to meet her eyes. You couldn’t have Taylor in that way. She didn’t want you. 
And if you crossed that boundary (like you had with only one other person who was a friend) then you knew you would lose her. 
You weren’t ready for that. 
But at the same time, you didn’t know how to not cross it. Not with the feelings still bubbling in your chest. 
Emily’s eyes narrowed. “Is she still there?” 
“No, she had to go back to New York after the game,” You shook your head. “And we’re going to meet up again while you all are at came because there’s a break,” 
Despite how much you didn’t want her to go, you understood that she had responsibilities and music to record, but that didn’t stop the way your chest ached now that she was gone. 
It didn’t stop the confusion racing around your brain. 
Emily stared at you like you had grown 3 heads. “A girl flew to Chicago for you, waited at your shitty apartment while you were at practice, let you bring her lunch and take her out to dinner, then attended a shitty Red Stars game and you still don’t know if she’s into you,” 
You sighed, weaving your fingers through the too-long curls at the base of your neck and tugging. 
“She’s my friend, Emily,” You grit out. 
She raised an eyebrow at you. “The same friend who answers every time you call her,” 
You tugged harder. “You don’t understand,”
Taylor was like that with all of her friends. She made everyone feel like they were the only person she could see. The only person who mattered when she was with them. 
“I understand just fine,” She snorted. “You’re such a dumbass,” 
You sent her a withering glare. “Emily be serious, please,”
She held her hand up in defense. “I am being serious. You’ve been on at least 2 dates, and she invited you to her place. All before the two of you have hooked up. If that doesn’t scream dating, or the desire to be dating, then I don’t know what will,”
You shook your head, dragging your fingers up through your hair and down your face. 
This was why you hadn’t wanted to call Emily. Why Kelley or Alex would have been a much better option. 
“This is not why I called you,” You mumbled. 
“Then what is?” She asked, sounding amused. 
“I…-“ You bit your lip and finally looked up at her, meeting her eyes through the phone. “I don’t know how any of this works, and I’m not sure what I’m supposed to do next,” 
“Well, at some point a conversation should happen where you define what you two are doing,” She said slowly, her voice turning soft but serious. “but other than that, I think you just go with it,”
You squinted. “Just go with it?”
What was her brilliant advice to your crisis? To just… let whatever was going to happen happen. 
“Yeah, if you’re into it and she’s into it, just be into it, together,” She shrugged. “It doesn’t have to be complicated,” 
Part of you wanted to yell that it already was complicated. That you couldn’t cross a line and lose her like you’d lost everyone else. But you didn’t. 
“Ok,” You said. “Thank you,” 
Emily smiled brilliantly back at you. “No problem, I’ll see you soon,”
You stared at the black screen of the phone as she ended the call. 
Maybe she was right. Maybe you just had to go with it and trust your gut. 
Maybe it would all be ok if you didn’t overthink it. That’s why you were good at hookups after all wasn’t it? 
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OMG I'M FINALLY FINDING A BLOG WHICH IS MY CUP OF TEA. YOU'RE AWESOMEEEEE
i have an idea but i can't write for shit, so i'll give it to my favorite tumblr writer (which is youuu)
smau where han messages the wrong number and it's some guy from like another country. and they become friends and then han comes to find out that his text pal is actually a celeb he fanboys over.
(bonus points if mn knows han as well)
OMG
A/N: Love that!! Thank you sm for requesting <3 (I can't title things for the life of me, so you can ask for a different title in the replies and I'll change it) French music makes writing so much more fun. warnings: slight swearing blue {} - han purple {} - Mn
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{Oh. How nice of this person to wish me a good practice session.
"Is he getting here anytime soon?" Minho's voice echoed through the practice room.
"I'll ask!"
When he opened his phone again to change the number, he saw a familiar figure in the random person's profile picture. Mn Ln. Finally, someone who he can rant about the Mn Ln. }
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{ Great. Got my hopes up for nothing }
{ Naturally, Mn wouldn't want his personal number leaked. So he lied. He was surprised at how smooth that was, but hey, it's text. He wanted to know more, though. Is that narcissistic?
He set his coffee mug down on his nightstand and looked a lot more like a contortionist as he continued to text, the risk of spilling coffee being gone now. }
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{ Being called the best vocalist ever was certainly not something he expected. He was great, sure, but the best? Not when Freddie Mercury has music out there. But he'll take that compliment.
He was impressed at the fan. 'Achilles, my love" was one of his more niche songs, having been written when he was only 15 when he got completely shattered after reading 'The Song of Achilles' and decided to pour his heart and soul into a song which he released years later.}
{They don't know Mn yet, but who wouldn't like him after listening to Achilles my love? The way Jisung made the members listen to Mn's music was like a little kid making their parents watch Frozen. But the members never complained, the music was really good. Would they roll their eyes when Jisung keeps sending Mn memes into the groupchat? Sure. Did they have certain parts of certain songs memorized because Jisung kept watching his edits on repeat? Oh yes. }
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{Mn didn't want his identity leaked. He had to think of a name quick. Chris, as in Bang Chan from Stray Kids was what came to mind. }
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At the Paris Fashion Week
{Jisung found a spot away from the cameras and was texting 'Chris'. After a few months of them being 'text pals', he was pretty fond of the random citizen. But despite the sheer amount of songs, pictures, and videos he's sent of Mn, 'Chris' was never as obsessed with him as Jisung was.}
{Holding a glass of champagne in his hand and dearly missing his coffee, Mn who was decked head to toe in Hermes, makes his way over to the figure he recognized as Han Jisung of Stray Kids. How he loved that band. He was listening to Han's song 'Volcano' on the way there. As he goes to talk to him, his eyes caught onto the rapper's phone screen. And by instinct, he accidentally read a few texts. Texts that were from him. He wanted to tell Jisung, but how?}
"Hi! Huge fan, Jisung.." Jisung's eyes widened as he shoved his phone into his pocket and extended his hand for a handshake. It was his first time seeing his favorite singer in real life.
"Oh my god...you..sorry, I'm just flustered all of a sudden. I'm your biggest fan, really."
"I appreciate it. We should collab someday." "Yes!!" Was that too loud? No, right?
Mn was endeared by the enthusiasm. He pulled out his phone from his pocket and unlocked it.
"Care for a selfie?"
"I'd love to.." Jisung tried keeping his voice from sounding too loud and excited as he smiled beautifully in the selfie he took with the singer. He took one on his phone as well, along with a photo of just Mn, not being able to resist the opportunity.
A/N: I'm ending so abruptly since I have really bad writer's block rn and I didn't even know how I posted this much. If you have any ideas on how Jisung finds out he's been texting Mn all this time, then let me know in the replies or send a DM.
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