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wishing @irenereru a merry (late i’m so sorry 😭) Christmas!
This is my gift for the stobotnik secret santa 2023, thank you @panic-flavored for organizing the event
You asked for something soft and cute so I thought a lil domestic morning would do,let the villains enjoy the holidays
#rob is clingy only and exlusively in the morning#he needs his human heater ok?#since they sleep little because of work#they are very eepy once they relax#hope you enjoy#pretend you dont see that poor exuse of a background#stobotnik#agent stone#dr robotnik#sonic movie#jimbotnik
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A little experiment with using different brushes for sketches and lineart a bit of thots under the cut
it all started again with thinking about wanting to improve art, most of my favorite artists tend to use textured bruh for lines (sometimes it applies only to lines, sometimes it applies to both lines and filling)
so i had to prove myself a point:
And glad I did! It reminded me why I stick to the way I draw (which is comfy and saves me from a lot of stress during drawing process)
But more importantly! I realized in which direction I actually want to move to improve (in current situation it's having steady shapes)
I still have no idea for the end goal tho, as well as I'm still debating textured brushes, which I don't use unless i'm writing text
But that's art journey for you, constant improvement and learning uwu
#little thingy#suo shut up#fnaf daycare attendant#fnaf sun#sundrop#fnaf dca#dca fandom#art thots#i hate lineart but i love lineart#it's complicated#i hate to do it because I lack the skill#but i love it and how it looks when well made#and textured brushes can look good#but i suck at using them#and i'm not sure if i want to learn to use them#since the process of using them isn't very fun to me#ough a lot of thought and i can't choose#i'm going to sleep#maybe once I wake up brain will work better
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This holiday season, I am BEGGING you guys to be aware of and kind to the guests at your house who are afraid of /uncomfortable around / allergic to animals.
#if you don't grow up with animals. having an animal in the space you're in (especially a poorly trained one that WILL jump on you when you#sit down) is a very uncomfortable experience and I'm tired of acting like I'm okay with it#my cousins actually brought their new puppy to thanksgiving and we had to explain to them that we can't have their dog out of his cage#because my mom's allergic to dog hair and can't have dog hair all over the not puppyproofed home she lives in#as the acting eldest daughter i've grown more accustomed to animals in defense of my siblings#since I'm more okay with dogs i have to hold the leash when my aunt brings her dog on a bus tour unannounced and i have to stand between a#four foot dog that is jumping and barking at us and my siblings#one night when we stopped on my way to college i didn't even sleep much because i had to make sure the cats that were in the room my littl#e brother and i were sleeping in didn't climb on him in the middle of the night#like this may seem like a 'oh just deal with it!' but you CANNOT 'just deal with' it. that's not how fear works.#i have more thoughts on this matter but i will keep them to myself unless asked#kazzy has opinions (rare)#kazzy rants in the tags#but i will also add that i very distinctly remember my three year old brother crying and shaking with fear as my grandpa and my uncle forced#him to pet a dog and wouldn't let go of him or let him down until he had pet the dog and it still makes me cry to this day
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I have said it before and I am saying it again: Ford should get to be a bit of a crybaby when regressed, as a threat 👏
He can unlearn the shame of crying better (speculation/hc since he's a man in his 60s--or late 50s if you want--that grew up in the 60s with a toxic father figure. I don't have a single doubt that Filbrick would've taught his children that. One way or another, even) when he's feeling small.
Plus, rather than supressing his fears, anxieties and etc he could just, let it out. It would be good for him, me thinks.
Yeah obviously it doesn't mean he would have a 180º change in attitude once he's done, and, hell, I think he would still try to supress it even when he's regressed and such, but I think the key difference is that he would struggle more to do so at that moment, and so he would end up in a puddle of his own tears.
And then later the shame comes since "boys don't cry", "men don't cry" and blah blah blah, but ya know, baby steps.
Or if he's with someone else he gets a nice hug and pets while he lets all the stress out.
He gets to be vulnerable, and soft, and to be the protected, as a threat.
#ever cried so hard you suddenly feel like you can breathe again? yeah he would benefit from it me thinks#what would make him cry I don't know#or maybe since he's not in adult mode he could get a bit more overwhelmed with things too#like multiple nightmares in a row#there comes a point where you just want to scream because you want to sleep!!! fuck you brain!!!#and him being little might have a bit of a hard time processing/rationalizing it#if I think about him too much I will be the one crying ough#he should get to be soft and pampered and spoiled a little#he deserves it#I also thought Fiddleford could help him too?#like Fidds is like “it's okay to cry hun just let it out” and so and ough#that could be for another work#I kinda started a series I think so I'm slowly introducing stuff#like in the next one Ford finds out that Stanley knows about his regression and such#Fidds will appear in a future work and etc#agere#age regression#fandom agere#stanford pines#ford pines#gravity falls#gravity falls age regression#gravity falls little space
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Some (late) holiday photos of the boye~!
#cats#holiday#OUGHH....... barely could even get these edited and posted... my mysterious sickness flare up has been sooo bad the past few#days.. I didn't even go to the usual obligatory family christmas I was supposed to attend (!!! health issue/medical mention in tags below)#My stomach issues basically put me in a constant state of uncontrollable shivering/body shaking + nausea + sometimes rapid heart#rate. and when it happens at night that makes it like.. nearly impossible to sleep when you're violently shaking + you can feel your heart#so strong + you keep having to run to the bathroom every 5 minute to cough and gag#and throw up and so on and so forth. etc. So I went like 40 hours without any sleep almost for christmas eve and all of christmas day#last night I finally got maybe 2 hours of sleep in between the nausea and shaking and stuff. and then today I was able to get a few#hours of sleep in the afternoon. Today I tried taking an anxiety mediciation a doctor gave me in case it was anxiety related (it's apparent#ly used to relax people and works in the moment. rather than like Anxiety Mediciation that you have to take for weeks to see any effect#because I think this isn't actually acting on your brain chemistry it's judt like..a mild sedative or something.) but all that did was make#me dizzy and sweaty lol. I;m glad I slept a little but I'm just still frustrated that I don't feel normal. I started having these#'episodes' (with the stomach issues + shaking + heartrate + nausea etc.) like at the end of october. And usually it will happen for like a#few hours at a time. or i'll lose sleep one day and then be fine the next. but this has been like nearly 3 days of feeling weird. so is#getting kind of annoying... It's funny too because I was so so productive like.. literally the few days before. I was feeling much better#and I was working on my game and blah blah. But then.. random issue flare up out of nowhere of course.. yaayy.... happy holidays to meee lo#I did at least see two random ducks outside of my window in the yard area for christmas. and havent seen them since. So it's like.. hrmm..#pacing around my room nauseous and shakings and etc. but at least... hello.. two little ducks placed there just for me :3c#Now I get anxiety every night which I'm sure doesn't help/could exacerbate whatever underlying genuinely physical issues exist. But after#like 2 nights of 'I spend the night sleepless and incredibly uncomfortable just sitting in the dark sick' then bedtime is like.. dread...#I even was trying slapping myself in the face in desperation to see if somehow that could shock my body out of whatever the hell it was#doing lol.. up at 3am holding ice cubes in my hand and hitting myself in the head and crying from exhaustion and thowing up.. literally#ridiculous cartoon character feeling... AAANYWAY!!! At least I have baby boy pictures. and I have lots of doctors appointments so hopefully#whatever the issue is can be sorted out at some point. I don't know much about ibs but hopefully maybe something like that that I could pos#ibly take medication for and not something more seirous or anything. Maybe there's a food I'm secretly intolerant to or whatever.#And I did at least post a sims holday video actually timed for the holidays so that's something. I havent been productive really latrely#though obviously.. I can't even play games or small tasks when in that state since I'm just SO physically uncomfortable. Nausea and heart#stuff are THE hardest physical sensations to ignore.. BUT yeah... hoping I shall sleep at all tonight. hopeing to get like 3 productive#things done.. at some point... at least SOMETHING... lol..... *** *** ***
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im still pretty fresh out the psych ward so i have some pretty bad writers block as you can probably imagine however i have also been coping with my suicidal depression slash burn-out induced leave from work by watching shitty christmas romcoms. and im not at a point yet where i can Write the fic so bear with me while i just get the plot bunny hopping here. or whatever
so anyway im brainstorming all the sickening holiday tropes i can that i can feasibly put two guys who are in the most intense fake dating gay chicken relationship you can imagine before one of them breaks and goes ok you got me i actually liked it when you grabbed my ass and called me darling or whatever. obviously it’ll take a lot to get to that point because the pride is bigger than the ego or something like that so i’m open to suggestions here but. so far ive got
ice skating. timeless classic. character a sucks and keeps falling on their ass and character b is, for some stupid reason, a total pro at this and is going to do all the waist-grabbing-slash-hand-holding-slash-laughing-at-character-a that that necessitates. probably pretty obvious who is the bitch who cannot skate and who is the one laughing at him. and also catching him when he falls and being a total jerk about it. because isn’t that just a wholesome mental image
the quintessential only one bed obviously. this has more to do with the circumstances of the plot in my head than it being christmastime specifically but the holiday rush factors in there somewhere. never mind the whole fake dating angle
the whole Thing is christmas parties and whats a christmas party without a) too much wine and b) some well-placed mistletoe. and yeah maybe c) some stupid matching ugly christmas sweaters. i will never get sick of that one
gingerbread house decorating. but theyre forced to be collaborative about it. someone dies. its the most godawful gingerbread house anyone has ever seen. but thats really damaging to their prides so they really get their shit together for a beautiful 15 or so minutes and kind of make it look better and still lose the competition anyway because 15 minutes of harmony does not negate 45 minutes of throwing candy at each other like bullets. with the very real intention of Causing Pain
some kind of excuse to have them walk around together with a group of people in the evening when its dark and they can admire the christmas lights. whether it’s some kind of holiday charity work or just seeing the christmas lights or, god forbid, carolling, there is something to be said about the experience of slipping on a patch of ice on a cold winters night and having the worst time of your life because your so-called boyfriend think its hilarious that you just ate total shit. thats romance babey
last-minute christmas shopping…already a nightmare ordeal but now you have to do it because you and your fake boyfriend need to bring a joint gift to a christmas party but you cant agree on anything, ever. they are getting kicked out of no fewer than 5 stores guaranteed
ok i think im all out of holiday torture scenarios but well. i’m sure i’ll be back. ideally with actual writing but everyone is telling me to take small steps so. we’ll get there if we get there and if not then that’s ok too
#taylor.txt#tagging this as a wip would be generous but oh fuck it#wips#i didnt name any characters but they popped into your head didnt they…be honest#there are some beloved holidsy traditions i didnt include because they dont fit the Vibe (baking for example)#we could probably work a snowball fight or something in here tho#anyway im gonna try to sleep now because im back to work for the first time since friday 2 weeks ago tomorrow and im. feeling complicated#about it. hoping it will be a good thing for me but admittedly im a little fragile at the moment and am really only clinging to my sanity bc#my biggest responsibility lately has been like. loading the dishwasher or keeping an appointment with an OT#that being said though the fact that today i had the actual capacity to think about Blorbo from my Show is a good sign
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Pets have to run around in the middle of the night, it’s very important (Patreon)
Bonus Sims screenshots ♥
#Doodles#Villainsona#Just Desserts#The Sims 2#WPTS2#WPVG#The Sims#I'd actually made Charm in the Sims 2 a bit back - I always want to make everyone in the Sims at all times haha#But I decided to try really settling in to play recently >:3c See if I could get some new ideas! And - lo and behold haha#Just little things mostly centered around Taffy but I like that quite a lot! I don't integrate Taffy in Charm's life enough honestly#Like when I drew her house I didn't include a pet bed anywhere! She needs somewhere to sleep! So now she has a couple#While playing she'd mostly get in and out of her pet bed downstairs to go chew - she's a dog not actually a sheep haha#I picked her up from ModTheSims actually - she's a Sheepoo lol#A lot of mods are present here actually now that I look at it - that wallpaper and the daybed and Charm's hair :0#I do love modded Sims 2...♥#Ahem but yeah so she'd get up to go chew or eat and then lay back down and be up and down all night#And since Charm's ''room'' isn't closed off from the main room - it's just a loft above - she could definitely hear her move around haha#She didn't bark thankfully because I think that Would have flagged Charm to wake up in-game but in reality Charm can be a light sleeper#Not always! But you do something often enough and it's bound to overlap once or twice#It's fun to draw sleepy Charm hehe#S'been a bit!#I do like the idea of them sleeping near each other :)#Charm's bed is too small for them to cuddle on it together but they have snuggled on the floor! Many sheepy hugs#Charm needs a pillow corner to doze in where she and Taffy can laze around in closer proximity#I haven't worked on floorplans in a bit :3c Might be fun ���
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man i sure wish i had the energy to do anything at all!
okay well it's not entirely true that i haven't been doing anything. i'm cooking. trust.
#meds make it so i can't really strongly differentiate between depressive episodes and regular depression#it's moreso a constant depression with random spurts of energy in between long periods of doing nothing but sleeping and working#but the art i HAVE managed to produce has gone pretty hard ngl.#i think it's also the current political climate here in america. it's hostile and i'm drifting away from my family because of it#and that's been pretty rough#it's been a gradual drift away that started in high school and has just intensified through adulthood#but i love my friends and my favs and cats and music#i think coming to terms with being disabled has been a punch to the gut since now my options SHOULD be open. but there's SO MUCH i can't do#things are looking up for me in the general sense. i'm in a good spot in my life right now but that doesn't stop the perpetual brainfog#nothing will ever really stop this everpresent depression but i'm generally stable and healthy so it is what it is#it feels good to love and be loved and that's what keeps me going#if i'm sad? sleep it off. go to work then sleep for 16 hrs a day on my days off. then work again. easy#the life of a productive little worker bee is great!#ress thinks#okay rant over. i'm not in a bad place rn dw! i just like to yap
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firehouse!au 🚒🥃 ships as:
*gets their order made slightly incorrectly and wasn't gonna say anything about it* - buck, croz, dougie, kenny
"excuse me, he asked for no pickles" - bucky, joe, everett, rosie
#things i'm doing at 2am instead of sleeping#whilst having a migraine#📝: firehouse!au#stipulations:#buck generally wouldn't care enough to complain unless it was something major/unavoidable#for bucky it's the principle of the thing especially because he *knows* buck won't say anything 99% of the time.#also he thinks it's funny to sort of embarrass him a bit#no stipulations for croz and bubbles i think it just makes sense. been this way since high school before they even started dating.#everyone thinks it would be doug that'd send something back because he's generally louder but nah#everett's particular and dougie's a little bit more laid back. ev will be suave and charming about it tho so it's rarely an issue#same with rosie. kenny's just too nice and will just make do but rosie will be super sweet to whoever's working.#make a bit of a joke out of it
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hello good fucking morning.
#MAN my body clocked has relapsed into oblivion HAAHAHAHHA.#anyway....wowerz!!! it's been a whole ass week since i last yapped on here!!!!!#ive been a little busy with org work as of late bwahahha and i still am which is tragic.#but i'm gonna write until sunlight this time bcs its currently 12am......and i have been asleep since 6pm HSUDHSJAJAKS.#and i have chinese language lessons in the morning so sleep is put at an awkward spot rn 💔💔.#mayhaps i will be finishing nabi this session HUAHSHSHA i reread what i wrote for part three so far the other day and i missed!!! gyu!! so!!#much!!!!#ive also been picking up my juldarigi wip again because i kept getting brain possessed by ideas.#i can't wait to release this mess into the wild too BWHAHAHAHA#anyway.....i need to eat dinner (it's 12am. time is an illusion) and ill answer some asks later!!!!#buhbye mwa
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#there's no way i could ever have another pet bc this has destroyed me in unimaginable ways#despite him being old and his health declining the past three or so years#we did everything we could to keep him around and healthy but his little body just couldn't do it anymore#i love him so much i hope he wasn't in pain#i regret not saying goodbye when my mom told me to before he went to the hospital friday but i was in denial#we held out all weekend to see if the treatment would work but he was just so weak my dad gave them the go-ahead to stop it today#idk if they've put him to sleep yet but we're assuming so since my dad is gonna go pick up his collar tomorrow#i cried so much last night because i just had a feeling today would be it#and then i woke up this morning and already had tears in my eyes#this is gonna be. another long grieving process and i'm already so tired from losing my sister last year#when does it fucking end lol like when do i get to the other side#i'm just exhausted. I'm mentally and emotionally exhausted#he's such a big extension of me like who tf am i without my dog i'm nothing he's all i had
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despite hating her ass i do feel like. so bad for my s*ster.
#she's done objectively cool + important preservation stuff for the gsa for like. not quite a decade yet but pretty much since she left#college. & for the past couple years she n her bestfriend have had a cute little farm that she loves a lot & she works remotely +#commutes in & sleeps over in the city a couple days a week. and i think now suddenly she cannot do any of that anymore!!!#idk what her decision was because i don't fucking talk to her & she also doesnt. talk to our parents or anyone LMAO. but. whatever. i hope#shit works out for her.#txt
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man considering i haven't actually done all that much this week I'm like exhausted.
#part of me is tempted to go to take a shower and go to bed a little early and just read for a bit#idk i've been like ready to sleep by 10p lately and i'm usually wide awake after 1a#wild what grief does to your body#what do you mean i physically couldn't eat for like 4 days just because i was so heartbroken???#what do you mean i'm like ready to pass out 4 hours before i usually go to bed???#i've been sleeping about the same as usual at least#and! i ate my first full meal since saturday. been just snacking all week cause my stomach was doing loops this whole time#i miss blue so much but i've been at least doing dishes and a load of laundry each day#even if i'm not working on the bigger stuff i had originally planned i'm still trying to keep to my routine#the routine helps a lot with this even though half that routine revolved around mom#also i got distracted mid sentence because someone cosplayed as lara croft ran by while i was crafting lol#i got all upset today watching the xbox stream cause the one game was one mom really wanted to check out#and the story is about a mom and daughter. so it immediately made me cry#yes i will be getting it after i get my budget figured out yes i will probably be a sobbing mess playing it for multiple reasons
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nah i just found out theyre considering me for a leadership position im never leaving the trenches
#its nice that they like me and value my work and see the effort i put in tho!!!!#comes with a raise..... obviously.......#i kinda like having less responsibility tho.... but also.. money.....#also i sleep so little now maybe working later in the day would save me#yapping#EVEN IF THEY DONT DECIDE TO GO W ME THO. IM STILL HAPPY TO SEE THAT THEY SEE THE AMOUNT OF WORK I PUT IN#cause this isnt smth im offerred yet but my manager told me as a heads up that theyre considering me for it... so who knows......#still nice to hear tho#daily reminder i got hired here against my will cause my depression got so bad that my dad forced me to apply against my will#hoping that the structure and paycheck and all that would be healthy for me#i got hired and because of my moral ocd im incapable of doing a bad job at any job ive ever had. my employers love it.#i keep getting raises and bonuses and praise. they are paying for my visa to go to the usa just so they can meet me irl for like a week#ceo comes here. loves me. i get better shifts and more responsibility. i show im good at it. i still want just to get by.#my only goal is to get by with the least amount of stress possible. i keep getting more responsibility since they can trust me with it more#i get to the point that in about a year and a half im considered for a leadership position. i am literally one of the newest employees.#god damn
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had my first real appointment with my new GP today (the time last month when I had to go in because of my middle ear infection doesn't count) - it was fine! not great, not bad, just fine. they had to take my blood too and surprisingly, the kinda rough nurse got a lot nicer once she realised how scared I was (usually they just tend to start talking to me like I'm a child).
then I saw that a package I was waiting for got delivered while I was at the appointment - to one of my neighbours. except it didn't say which one. there's 5 other families in this house, so that was a bit scary. I decided to just ask the people in the other ground floor apartment, and luckily they did have my package! the lady that opened the door was really nice. I'm glad I managed to do that - it was hard, tbh. really scary. but I just had the thought that I should at least ask those people and then basically ran out immediately so I wouldn't have time to think about it (and it worked).
we're getting closer to finishing our kitchen. just a couple things left now, like the hanging cabinets (that's the part that scares me a bit - I already don't trust those anyway, but if I know I'm the one who put them up... well that kinda makes it even scarier 😬). I'm excited for it to be done though - I really need to unpack the rest of our stuff before the chaos makes me go insane.
it seems that this period of having a slightly higher level of energy is over, unfortunately. I knew it wouldn't last, and it was like a month this time! that's impressive. but I'm still pretty upset about being back to having to sit on the couch most of the day. it's not great timing, there's so much to do still :( and I'm just permanently exhausted again, so it'll take forever.
#... and it scares me because I'm supposed to be looking for work too#I just... can't#can't do it. it's so hard#😭#I'm not sleeping well. I'm constantly tired. my eye has been twitching for like 3-4 weeks#it's do many little things that feel like they should be nothing#lol on the form I had to fill out for the doctors office I wrote that I'm always tired#so the GP asked how long it's been like that#and I was like 'a long time'. so he asked how long that is#I had to think for a moment but. yeah it's been ten years 🙃#or like. 14. fucking ages#since I was like 18.#I don't even know what not being tired feels like anymore#anyway#I'm exhausted :)#personal
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alright we made it to noon
#i don't know what happened or why today is going this way#but since crying myself to sleep at 5am and waking up to work#i have been on the verge of tears this entire time#literally writing my stupid little notes while i cry#and i know it's grief mixed with stres/exhaustion of something new but it's still infuriating#because why?!?!#i need this to be over :(
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