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wishing @irenereru a merry (late i鈥檓 so sorry 馃槶) Christmas!
This is my gift for the stobotnik secret santa 2023, thank you @panic-flavored for organizing the event
You asked for something soft and cute so I thought a lil domestic morning would do,let the villains enjoy the holidays
#rob is clingy only and exlusively in the morning#he needs his human heater ok?#since they sleep little because of work#they are very eepy once they relax#hope you enjoy#pretend you dont see that poor exuse of a background#stobotnik#agent stone#dr robotnik#sonic movie#jimbotnik
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This holiday season, I am BEGGING you guys to be aware of and kind to the guests at your house who are afraid of /uncomfortable around / allergic to animals.
#if you don't grow up with animals. having an animal in the space you're in (especially a poorly trained one that WILL jump on you when you#sit down) is a very uncomfortable experience and I'm tired of acting like I'm okay with it#my cousins actually brought their new puppy to thanksgiving and we had to explain to them that we can't have their dog out of his cage#because my mom's allergic to dog hair and can't have dog hair all over the not puppyproofed home she lives in#as the acting eldest daughter i've grown more accustomed to animals in defense of my siblings#since I'm more okay with dogs i have to hold the leash when my aunt brings her dog on a bus tour unannounced and i have to stand between a#four foot dog that is jumping and barking at us and my siblings#one night when we stopped on my way to college i didn't even sleep much because i had to make sure the cats that were in the room my littl#e brother and i were sleeping in didn't climb on him in the middle of the night#like this may seem like a 'oh just deal with it!' but you CANNOT 'just deal with' it. that's not how fear works.#i have more thoughts on this matter but i will keep them to myself unless asked#kazzy has opinions (rare)#kazzy rants in the tags#but i will also add that i very distinctly remember my three year old brother crying and shaking with fear as my grandpa and my uncle forced#him to pet a dog and wouldn't let go of him or let him down until he had pet the dog and it still makes me cry to this day
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Some (late) holiday photos of the boye~!
#cats#holiday#OUGHH....... barely could even get these edited and posted... my mysterious sickness flare up has been sooo bad the past few#days.. I didn't even go to the usual obligatory family christmas I was supposed to attend (!!! health issue/medical mention in tags below)#My stomach issues basically put me in a constant state of uncontrollable shivering/body shaking + nausea + sometimes rapid heart#rate. and when it happens at night that makes it like.. nearly impossible to sleep when you're violently shaking + you can feel your heart#so strong + you keep having to run to the bathroom every 5 minute to cough and gag#and throw up and so on and so forth. etc. So I went like 40 hours without any sleep almost for christmas eve and all of christmas day#last night I finally got maybe 2 hours of sleep in between the nausea and shaking and stuff. and then today I was able to get a few#hours of sleep in the afternoon. Today I tried taking an anxiety mediciation a doctor gave me in case it was anxiety related (it's apparent#ly used to relax people and works in the moment. rather than like Anxiety Mediciation that you have to take for weeks to see any effect#because I think this isn't actually acting on your brain chemistry it's judt like..a mild sedative or something.) but all that did was make#me dizzy and sweaty lol. I;m glad I slept a little but I'm just still frustrated that I don't feel normal. I started having these#'episodes' (with the stomach issues + shaking + heartrate + nausea etc.) like at the end of october. And usually it will happen for like a#few hours at a time. or i'll lose sleep one day and then be fine the next. but this has been like nearly 3 days of feeling weird. so is#getting kind of annoying... It's funny too because I was so so productive like.. literally the few days before. I was feeling much better#and I was working on my game and blah blah. But then.. random issue flare up out of nowhere of course.. yaayy.... happy holidays to meee lo#I did at least see two random ducks outside of my window in the yard area for christmas. and havent seen them since. So it's like.. hrmm..#pacing around my room nauseous and shakings and etc. but at least... hello.. two little ducks placed there just for me :3c#Now I get anxiety every night which I'm sure doesn't help/could exacerbate whatever underlying genuinely physical issues exist. But after#like 2 nights of 'I spend the night sleepless and incredibly uncomfortable just sitting in the dark sick' then bedtime is like.. dread...#I even was trying slapping myself in the face in desperation to see if somehow that could shock my body out of whatever the hell it was#doing lol.. up at 3am holding ice cubes in my hand and hitting myself in the head and crying from exhaustion and thowing up.. literally#ridiculous cartoon character feeling... AAANYWAY!!! At least I have baby boy pictures. and I have lots of doctors appointments so hopefully#whatever the issue is can be sorted out at some point. I don't know much about ibs but hopefully maybe something like that that I could pos#ibly take medication for and not something more seirous or anything. Maybe there's a food I'm secretly intolerant to or whatever.#And I did at least post a sims holday video actually timed for the holidays so that's something. I havent been productive really latrely#though obviously.. I can't even play games or small tasks when in that state since I'm just SO physically uncomfortable. Nausea and heart#stuff are THE hardest physical sensations to ignore.. BUT yeah... hoping I shall sleep at all tonight. hopeing to get like 3 productive#things done.. at some point... at least SOMETHING... lol..... *** *** ***
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im still pretty fresh out the psych ward so i have some pretty bad writers block as you can probably imagine however i have also been coping with my suicidal depression slash burn-out induced leave from work by watching shitty christmas romcoms. and im not at a point yet where i can Write the fic so bear with me while i just get the plot bunny hopping here. or whatever
so anyway im brainstorming all the sickening holiday tropes i can that i can feasibly put two guys who are in the most intense fake dating gay chicken relationship you can imagine before one of them breaks and goes ok you got me i actually liked it when you grabbed my ass and called me darling or whatever. obviously it鈥檒l take a lot to get to that point because the pride is bigger than the ego or something like that so i鈥檓 open to suggestions here but. so far ive got
ice skating. timeless classic. character a sucks and keeps falling on their ass and character b is, for some stupid reason, a total pro at this and is going to do all the waist-grabbing-slash-hand-holding-slash-laughing-at-character-a that that necessitates. probably pretty obvious who is the bitch who cannot skate and who is the one laughing at him. and also catching him when he falls and being a total jerk about it. because isn鈥檛 that just a wholesome mental image
the quintessential only one bed obviously. this has more to do with the circumstances of the plot in my head than it being christmastime specifically but the holiday rush factors in there somewhere. never mind the whole fake dating angle
the whole Thing is christmas parties and whats a christmas party without a) too much wine and b) some well-placed mistletoe. and yeah maybe c) some stupid matching ugly christmas sweaters. i will never get sick of that one
gingerbread house decorating. but theyre forced to be collaborative about it. someone dies. its the most godawful gingerbread house anyone has ever seen. but thats really damaging to their prides so they really get their shit together for a beautiful 15 or so minutes and kind of make it look better and still lose the competition anyway because 15 minutes of harmony does not negate 45 minutes of throwing candy at each other like bullets. with the very real intention of Causing Pain
some kind of excuse to have them walk around together with a group of people in the evening when its dark and they can admire the christmas lights. whether it鈥檚 some kind of holiday charity work or just seeing the christmas lights or, god forbid, carolling, there is something to be said about the experience of slipping on a patch of ice on a cold winters night and having the worst time of your life because your so-called boyfriend think its hilarious that you just ate total shit. thats romance babey
last-minute christmas shopping鈥lready a nightmare ordeal but now you have to do it because you and your fake boyfriend need to bring a joint gift to a christmas party but you cant agree on anything, ever. they are getting kicked out of no fewer than 5 stores guaranteed
ok i think im all out of holiday torture scenarios but well. i鈥檓 sure i鈥檒l be back. ideally with actual writing but everyone is telling me to take small steps so. we鈥檒l get there if we get there and if not then that鈥檚 ok too
#taylor.txt#tagging this as a wip would be generous but oh fuck it#wips#i didnt name any characters but they popped into your head didnt they鈥e honest#there are some beloved holidsy traditions i didnt include because they dont fit the Vibe (baking for example)#we could probably work a snowball fight or something in here tho#anyway im gonna try to sleep now because im back to work for the first time since friday 2 weeks ago tomorrow and im. feeling complicated#about it. hoping it will be a good thing for me but admittedly im a little fragile at the moment and am really only clinging to my sanity bc#my biggest responsibility lately has been like. loading the dishwasher or keeping an appointment with an OT#that being said though the fact that today i had the actual capacity to think about Blorbo from my Show is a good sign
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man i sure wish i had the energy to do anything at all!
okay well it's not entirely true that i haven't been doing anything. i'm cooking. trust.
#meds make it so i can't really strongly differentiate between depressive episodes and regular depression#it's moreso a constant depression with random spurts of energy in between long periods of doing nothing but sleeping and working#but the art i HAVE managed to produce has gone pretty hard ngl.#i think it's also the current political climate here in america. it's hostile and i'm drifting away from my family because of it#and that's been pretty rough#it's been a gradual drift away that started in high school and has just intensified through adulthood#but i love my friends and my favs and cats and music#i think coming to terms with being disabled has been a punch to the gut since now my options SHOULD be open. but there's SO MUCH i can't do#things are looking up for me in the general sense. i'm in a good spot in my life right now but that doesn't stop the perpetual brainfog#nothing will ever really stop this everpresent depression but i'm generally stable and healthy so it is what it is#it feels good to love and be loved and that's what keeps me going#if i'm sad? sleep it off. go to work then sleep for 16 hrs a day on my days off. then work again. easy#the life of a productive little worker bee is great!#ress thinks#okay rant over. i'm not in a bad place rn dw! i just like to yap
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firehouse!au 馃殥馃 ships as:
*gets their order made slightly incorrectly and wasn't gonna say anything about it* - buck, croz, dougie, kenny
"excuse me, he asked for no pickles" - bucky, joe, everett, rosie
#things i'm doing at 2am instead of sleeping#whilst having a migraine#馃摑: firehouse!au#stipulations:#buck generally wouldn't care enough to complain unless it was something major/unavoidable#for bucky it's the principle of the thing especially because he *knows* buck won't say anything 99% of the time.#also he thinks it's funny to sort of embarrass him a bit#no stipulations for croz and bubbles i think it just makes sense. been this way since high school before they even started dating.#everyone thinks it would be doug that'd send something back because he's generally louder but nah#everett's particular and dougie's a little bit more laid back. ev will be suave and charming about it tho so it's rarely an issue#same with rosie. kenny's just too nice and will just make do but rosie will be super sweet to whoever's working.#make a bit of a joke out of it
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hello good fucking morning.
#MAN my body clocked has relapsed into oblivion HAAHAHAHHA.#anyway....wowerz!!! it's been a whole ass week since i last yapped on here!!!!!#ive been a little busy with org work as of late bwahahha and i still am which is tragic.#but i'm gonna write until sunlight this time bcs its currently 12am......and i have been asleep since 6pm HSUDHSJAJAKS.#and i have chinese language lessons in the morning so sleep is put at an awkward spot rn 馃挃馃挃.#mayhaps i will be finishing nabi this session HUAHSHSHA i reread what i wrote for part three so far the other day and i missed!!! gyu!! so!!#much!!!!#ive also been picking up my juldarigi wip again because i kept getting brain possessed by ideas.#i can't wait to release this mess into the wild too BWHAHAHAHA#anyway.....i need to eat dinner (it's 12am. time is an illusion) and ill answer some asks later!!!!#buhbye mwa
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#there's no way i could ever have another pet bc this has destroyed me in unimaginable ways#despite him being old and his health declining the past three or so years#we did everything we could to keep him around and healthy but his little body just couldn't do it anymore#i love him so much i hope he wasn't in pain#i regret not saying goodbye when my mom told me to before he went to the hospital friday but i was in denial#we held out all weekend to see if the treatment would work but he was just so weak my dad gave them the go-ahead to stop it today#idk if they've put him to sleep yet but we're assuming so since my dad is gonna go pick up his collar tomorrow#i cried so much last night because i just had a feeling today would be it#and then i woke up this morning and already had tears in my eyes#this is gonna be. another long grieving process and i'm already so tired from losing my sister last year#when does it fucking end lol like when do i get to the other side#i'm just exhausted. I'm mentally and emotionally exhausted#he's such a big extension of me like who tf am i without my dog i'm nothing he's all i had
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had my first real appointment with my new GP today (the time last month when I had to go in because of my middle ear infection doesn't count) - it was fine! not great, not bad, just fine. they had to take my blood too and surprisingly, the kinda rough nurse got a lot nicer once she realised how scared I was (usually they just tend to start talking to me like I'm a child).
then I saw that a package I was waiting for got delivered while I was at the appointment - to one of my neighbours. except it didn't say which one. there's 5 other families in this house, so that was a bit scary. I decided to just ask the people in the other ground floor apartment, and luckily they did have my package! the lady that opened the door was really nice. I'm glad I managed to do that - it was hard, tbh. really scary. but I just had the thought that I should at least ask those people and then basically ran out immediately so I wouldn't have time to think about it (and it worked).
we're getting closer to finishing our kitchen. just a couple things left now, like the hanging cabinets (that's the part that scares me a bit - I already don't trust those anyway, but if I know I'm the one who put them up... well that kinda makes it even scarier 馃槵). I'm excited for it to be done though - I really need to unpack the rest of our stuff before the chaos makes me go insane.
it seems that this period of having a slightly higher level of energy is over, unfortunately. I knew it wouldn't last, and it was like a month this time! that's impressive. but I'm still pretty upset about being back to having to sit on the couch most of the day. it's not great timing, there's so much to do still :( and I'm just permanently exhausted again, so it'll take forever.
#... and it scares me because I'm supposed to be looking for work too#I just... can't#can't do it. it's so hard#馃槶#I'm not sleeping well. I'm constantly tired. my eye has been twitching for like 3-4 weeks#it's do many little things that feel like they should be nothing#lol on the form I had to fill out for the doctors office I wrote that I'm always tired#so the GP asked how long it's been like that#and I was like 'a long time'. so he asked how long that is#I had to think for a moment but. yeah it's been ten years 馃檭#or like. 14. fucking ages#since I was like 18.#I don't even know what not being tired feels like anymore#anyway#I'm exhausted :)#personal
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not my rheumatologist cancelling on me AGAIN 馃槶 i got absolutely no sleep (like 2-3 hours) and woke up early for NOTHING bro 馃槶馃槶馃槶 and this is after having just finished super weekend at night job aka the very PEAK of peak (Christmas) season, which also means being in the middle of working 11 days straight (minus Christmas Day which we have off lol), with this last HUGELY busy weekend since it's one of The Big package shipping companies . Not necessarily complaining about THAT specifically given that I have no day job rn and the extra income from night job is the only thing that's gonna save me and let me have rent for next month fdhgdh but STILL lol, I NEED the rest man OTL
AT LEAST she opened up appts this Thurs for reschedules, instead of having to wait weeks this time, which I insanely appreciate. My initial qualm is not even necessarily being the cancelling itself, just that this is the second specialist to very recently reschedule on me 2 times back to back, and if you deal with medical specialists, you know the challenge of getting in tdghdrhdh
#luckily I'm not the type of person to be pissy about it especially to staff who are just doing their job#because having worked so much customer service and having also dealt with rescheduling veterinary appts#for a doctor who called out or had to leave and etc i know very well how much it fucking sucks#having to be the staff forced to deal with rescheduling people#since a lot of the clients get SO MAD AT YOU for it as if you specifically can control the doctors life lmao#and like yeah man even doctors get sick or have emergencies come up they're human too#LIKE WE ALL KNOW IT SUCKS SO SHHHHHH#like absolutely feel free to be upset about it and even express that to the staff like they understand#but there's no need to be an asshole Karen over it 馃ゴ#that's why i get to complain just a little bit just not to the nurses forced to reschedule the appointments lol and on tumblr.com instead 馃ぃ#okay idiot go back to bed it's been 2 hours now even tho SIGH now I'm gonna sleep the entire day until night job i just know it 馃様#chatterbox#delete later#since this is just my silly little getting my petty complaining out srfsrfdh
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alright we made it to noon
#i don't know what happened or why today is going this way#but since crying myself to sleep at 5am and waking up to work#i have been on the verge of tears this entire time#literally writing my stupid little notes while i cry#and i know it's grief mixed with stres/exhaustion of something new but it's still infuriating#because why?!?!#i need this to be over :(
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it's probably the sunnier weather that's doing stuff to my brain to make me more optimistic but it's so interesting having a brain that craves a lot of self-fulfillment to the point where I can move past some hang-ups around perfection by going "oh I really wanna do that though" and then I do it well because researching how to do it right is also a rewarding part of the process
#it comes with the double edged sword of dropping projects as soon as they become a bit more involved/difficult#or when they don't feel fulfilling#but maybe it's better to take a break and come back to something with new knowledge ?#maybe it's good that my brain has a built in 'if it sucks hit da bricks' function ?#i just wish that i had more stamina for these things when they start lacking intrinsic rewards#it just feels like compared to my other family members i lose steam very very quickly and since we all have the same disorder i should be-#- 'just as capable'... but honest to god my under-activity feels SO severe#it honestly feels like compared to others my threshold for mental exhaustion is half the normal benchmark it should be#you know how there were studies done that found that 4 hours is the maximum amount of time people can work before a decline in efficiency?#i swear to god when the activity is something i have no internal reward for it takes 1-2 hours for that decline to start. and my brain -#- crashes HARD. my eyes start to glaze over. i start forgetting how to speak. my brain starts acting like it's 2-3 am and that i need to -#- sleep. i don't push myself not because i coddle myself but because i perform WAY worse. my work becomes unintelligible#or if it's some other kind of task (such as cleaning) my brain desperately tries to take shortcuts in order to get it done#i am trying to avoid a situation where i have to fix up the shitty job i did after the fact!#it's just kind of crazy to me how this is viewed as laziness LOL 'you did a bad job!' because i was pushed past my limit!#not to mention... i get burned out for DAYS if i push myself too hard. i am trying to conserve my efficiency#if you want me to do a better job... i need more time. and trust me: i'll do an excellent job if you let me rest#i am a very smart and capable person who cares about doing a good job - and i have a fine eye for smaller details as well#the trade-off here is i'll need some time to find joy and fulfillment somewhere else for a little bit while i rest. let me excel ok?#idk where this high self esteem came from other than like. realizing i wrote an entire research proposal in such short time#while receiving positive feedback with very few notes for improvement. i just sat down an added another section today based on -#-feedback and realized like 'wait. i know what i'm doing and i probably care about this far more than the average classmate'#i've been having a lot of thoughts lately and i sort of want to get to the bottom of how i have a difficult time coping w/ burnout#and i also want to figure out how to offset the costs of the stuff i need to do... it's a process
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finally finished all of one character's entire quests/optional dialogue/questions/etc.... 100,000 words... .... aughhh
#Given some of it IS lines of code and stuff but like.. minus all that it's still probably at least 85 - 95k words hhhhhh#AND I have to do this for another 3 characters. Then a few partial quests for 3 others. THEN the other random misc stuff in the game#(like there are public areas in the city like a park and a forest that you can go and do a few things at. and chat with a few random#townsfolk that aren't actually full characters or anything. And there's a community board where you can#browse some of the random job advertisments or silly things that happen to be posted around#and also pick up a few odd jobs of your own to help earn coin to buy gifts for the npcs. etc. etc.)#Originally I was thinking like 'ah I'll make a short little game just to try it out! :3 It'll take maybe a few months!''#haha........................hee hee........................................hoho#Also evil that it would have been done already if I didn't totally drop itand stop working on it for like 5 years randomly#i could have made 5 years of steady slow progress gradually. instead of like 'one initial idea dump + about a month of art and writing'#...... 5 year break..... 'sudden mad dash to try to get probably 400.000 words written in a year or less' lol#I just really want to be done and have something out there already so it can lead to doing other things in my world..!!!!!! T o T#Like this can be an introduction and then maybe from that I can make other games. or short story anthologies. or other such things#But there needs to be some initially not very complex easy to interact with starting point first I guess... if that makes sense#That's part of why I stopped posting worldbuilding lore dump stuff as often because its' like.. massive walls of novella length#text are much more inacessible to engage with than like.. ooh a game! and there's characters! so its more approachable! and theres#visuals! oo! and the text is broken up in small bits line by line with other things in betwen! oo! etc. etc. lol#Not that THIS is even very accessible. I think dialogue heavy interactive fiction/visual novel type stuff is pretty niche and considered#boring or tedious compared to something with more ''gamplay'' like where you can actually move around in a world#and shoot things or whatever lol. But its an inbetween point. something SLIGHTLY#more accesible for now. Since i just dont have the budget or means or ability to make some skyrim type thing obviously LOL#Though maybe if theres any interest in the visual novel that could lead to making other things too. or at least I hope. I have a VERY cool#idea for a more ''gamey'' type of game that is a super fun concept and etc. but I would need to hire at least 2 people to make it.. ough..#I could do all the writing and probably half of the art. But I think I'd inevitably need a 3d artist and someone who can Code For Real hbjh#the system for ren'py (the thing I'm making a visual novel in) is not that complicated if you stick to just simple dialogue and stuff.#Making a whole moderately sized 3d game with minigames in it and a bunch of quest features and etc. would be out of my simplistic scope#''just learn it yourself!!' ... i barely manage to eat and sleep reliably every day lol... i do not function well enough to spend months#learning that many new skills. I already have a lot of of things I'm good at (not in a braggy way but just factually like.. i already have#a wide variety of different things under my belt).. at some point I have to just be happy with what i CAN already do and focus on that#and admit I need to get outside help sometimes ghjbh... NO more new skills/hobbies!!! ... ANYWAY
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I love how my unintentional excuse as to why Alestair and Idan never have to go to work is because they ran away and basically quit without notice.
#this has always been a part of the story though as the first ever thing I wrote with Alestair involved what happened#but Idan stops working there because of that#Mara's job pays a LOT and is hire based so she can do whatever#Vilissa is like the only character that has to regularly work LMAO#but also Vi wouldn't let Alestair get a job when they were dating#as for Fae she's a sex worker so she does it whenever#Fritz and Jer are employed but they don't even get heavily involved in helping until Love and that is explained away (thanks Vi)#as for other stoires#the children in Sunshine are too young to work#the parents do work and leave regularly but aren't really heavily involved#and the adults just take care of themselves with the stuff they have or work if they want (like Norie)#there is no currently running school in the castle (but there used to be)#Barle is a con artist so he would sell junk he fixed up but after getting kidnapped by Shika he doesn't really worry about that anymore#Shika and Fria have disposable income as they are just looking for Barle (Shika the princess and Fria a royal bodyguard)#and Charlie is a bounty hunter so he has freelance (and later a courier)#Flick and Millie are child and Nick is jobless and he's a bird currently so he just needs to eat a little#Ebers is a fortune teller so she does that whenever#also since Millie doesn't care about school she skips out after Flick shows up#And Flick is basically kidnapped so she doesn't got to school as she can't even go there#Seth is homeless and gets things out of making deals with others which he sometimes sell expensive items to get money#Lia and Giles leave behind their lives to adventure but were previously self employed (small businesses)#Myrtle is a Princess so she has that responsibility and disposable income#Sylas is a hunter but there isn't really any work to be done if most of the kingdom is under a sleeping spell#Nym uses the stuff that Elysa left behind in death but he was a Farmer back home not that he can get back home#Pokey runs the train station and the venue but he also isn't getting a lot of business from the inner kingdom#that's just the main stories lolll#every story has some kinda excuse about not working while the story happens
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#anyways hahahahaha#i know i literally just got to meet phil#after a LIFETIME fixation#and have so much fun at the show#and i know it was HUGE and so wonderful and im so grateful that i got to be there at all muchless meet them#and everyone was so nice to me even tho i didnt have much energy to give them#and i know it sounds stupid and whiny#but god#i am so FUCKING BURNT OUT#ive been riding on fumes for weeks#really for years but im at an exceptionally thin spot rn#and i cant get thru an hour without crying for no reason#im shaking with exhaustion no matter how much i sleep#and lord i sleep a lot lately#all of my hobbies and interests are just kinda there peripherally#nothing interests me and the things that do interest me exhaust me to even think about doing#its been work home work home work home in an increasingly agonizing cycle for the last little bit#and hey man idk if i can keep doing it#ive been working fulltime for 13 years#the longest ive been unemployed was 5 months (?) and not even consecutively#and i was still doing side jobs then#everything is passing in a haze because I have no energy to extend to it#its everything i can do to get myself up in the morning and drag through my work day#i was at the show last night. that ive been wanting to go to since i was 8#i got to meet phil after 16 years#i got to hug them both#and see a lovely show#and the entire time i just felt numb and exhausted and was aching to just go home and sleep so i could shut off#not to kink post on main#but i used to heavily lean on dom/sub dynamics so that i could have someone else be in charge for at least ONE aspect of my fucking life
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Cosplaying as..... myself!
#LMAO im wearing my sona outfit to work today as a little treat :3#my body is Not used to getting up at 6 regularly asdffg i havent done this since high school 馃槶#i went to sleep at 9 like a little old lady last night asdffggh#so yeah i know its only thursday but its my treat for the week!!!#i designed the outfit because i had all the pieces but ive never worn it all together#plus i have my lanyard with my lab badge to complete it now!#(< dont let her lie to you she has 0 lab qualifications or access)#(ill be in the writing room this whole contract but ive visited a few before and i can dream 馃槀)#my queue will probably run out today but ill try and refill some tonight#i promise im not ignoring people!! every time i write out replies i sound half asleep rip#hope everyone has a wonderful day <3#rose rambles
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