#shut up Andrea

[daenays]

happy pride month y’all💕

I hope everyone going to any events has a fun and safe time

[mecachrome]

belated win doodles because i was too stressed out about game 7 to draw on sunday 😔

[lesharl-eclair]

hello they were insane??????

[graveltrapping]

Every time someone says Papaya in relation to McLaren I actually die inside a little. idk what it is but its like too long a word with to many syllables to be spewing over a foggy team radio and just dropping into a conversation, Idc if its their brand its just cringe and I don't like it a mixed with this forced family and 'buddy buddy' vibe they have it and it just sets me off like plz stop, you can just say team orders instead

[ilovecryoffearsm]

I hate it when people say things stfu and kill yourself

[howtosingit]

The silver lining to all the fandom bullshit, for me, is that I came out of 4x03 loving both TK and Carlos a whole helluva lot more than I ever have... and also seeing the ways, across 4x01 to 4x03, that they love so fiercely - both each other and others - with their whole fucking hearts... and knowing that loving that hard, that intensely, means that it’s never perfect because it’s so easy for emotions to make things messy and complicated when it consumes you like that... but I’ve always said that I could go through any angst with these two as long as the love is still there... and oh boy is it still there. 

I just really fucking love them both, warts and all.

[More under the cut because I have too many thoughts:]

I've analyzed both of their behaviors and I fully get them and appreciate them. I think what it boils down to is that they just have different priorities in 4x03 that aren't fully working in tandem at the moment and it's causing some tension... but it's actually really good tension because what couple has the same exact priorities every damn moment of their lives?? What are they, clones??

And if I'm thinking of only TK's emotions then I'm upset by Carlos's distance for sure... but I also think TK is a lot more than just upset. He's also feeling guilty (and he was before Carlos even knew about the visit, so that guilt was all his, Carlos did not put that on him initially) and concerned for Carlos because he's seeing Carlos behave erratically and that's new for him. Like, TK sees this change in Carlos and he is scared of it because he knows how far Carlos is willing to go for the people he loves, he’s seen Carlos do that for him before. He knows. So, I am reading TK's reactions as a lot more nuanced than just sad/upset - the man is feeling a lot... GIVE HIM A HUG PLEASE AND THANK YOU.

And as far as Carlos... our tragic, compartmentalizing Carlos... when Iris goes missing he pushes so much down just to focus on her - on finding her, on protecting her, on supporting her. He and TK have one argument and he does his best to not lash out... he buries it and shifts his focus. Full-on focus on finding Iris, finding answers. He gets right to work, he’s in detective/cop mode, just like Ronen said. And we know he has his own guilt driving him towards that, especially since he thinks that maybe coming back into her life like this, with the divorce and with TK, has fucked up her stability. He remains super focused on the s*x doll call because when he comes into the call it is literally in response to the missing person alert - unlike the 126, this call is tied to Iris from minute one for him... and then when he has Iris back he's still just focused on her because she is not doing well. But he's not ignoring TK completely this entire episode as I've seen so many people claim... he literally calls TK to give an update about Iris... he's concerned about Iris and he chooses to talk to TK about it... about whether or not he can believe her like he wants to when all the evidence says he shouldn't. It's the trusting his gut thing all over again... but this time it's trusting his gut to trust Iris... but he still calls TK to talk through that. And it’s not so that he can further blame TK for it either - that blame and guilt is still very much coming from TK himself, and if Carlos is doing anything wrong here it’s that he’s not reassuring TK that he’s blameless... and, like, I get that? Because Carlos also isn’t feeling blameless so maybe he’s thinking it’s both of their faults, that they did this to her. (Not correct, not rational, but understandable, at least to me.)

And then the final call that he makes... I love that the scene starts with his attention on the house... he clearly wants to go right in and get to work... but he pauses and calls TK... and sure he lies to him but that's because he's doing something he knows he shouldn't and he doesn't want to be convinced not to... which is understandable, too, I think. He would’ve lied to anyone in that moment. But he also doesn't want TK to worry when he doesn't come home so he calls and at least gives him a little bit of relief... and yes it's a lie but like... we knew Carlos was gonna be irrational this episode... he doesn't ALWAYS do the right thing. So it's a lie but it at least it gives him time to do what he wants to do AND it - in his mind, though he is wrong - will help settle TK worries.

I don't know... I'm just not mad about all of this. I actually think 4x03 was an incredibly strong episode (the Carlos plot only though). I mean those scenes with Iris... y'all I'm still losing my mind over them. Their friendship is so beautiful and you can clearly see how they were each other’s whole world at one point in time. I love seeing a Carlos that breaks the rules and does the wrong thing because my god I don't know a single person who doesn't fuck up every once in awhile... but he does it out of LOVE, he does it out of his NEED to help, to protect, to be there for the people he loves. Like, how the fuck am I supposed to hate him for that? (Spoiler alert: I’m not gonna and you can’t make me.)

I think if you’re THAT mad at Carlos, it’s because you’re not even trying to understand him in all of this... you’re seeing the POV that the show is giving us (which for the Tarlos of all of this is clearly TK, that’s why we got the talk with Tommy) and you’re not even trying to analyze the rest of the story. And, like, I’m not here to tell you you have to, but I think you’d find this a lot more enjoyable if you at least tried to see where all the characters are coming from. And you might still be frustrated with Carlos - he’s frustrating, hallelujah! - but you’d also realize he’s not the fucking devil. He’s just an imperfect man with a too-big heart stuck between a rock (tunnel) and a hard place (a shovel). And I’m so excited to see the LOVE that he and TK have for each other SAVE him (and them). IT’S. STILL. ALL. ABOUT. THEIR. LOVE.

Anyway... bring on 4x04, I’m so fucking READY.

[ravenkings]

The hope of the male Left is that the loss of abortion rights will drive women back into the ranks–even fear of losing might do that; and the male Left has done what it can to assure the loss. The Left has created a vacuum that the Right has expanded to fill–this the Left did by abandoning a just cause, by its decade of quietism, by its decade of sulking. But the Left has not just been an absence; it has been a presence, outraged at women's controlling their own bodies, outraged at women's organizing against sexual exploitation, which by definition means women also organizing against the sexual values of the Left. When feminist women have lost legal abortion altogether, leftist men expect them back–begging for help, properly chastened, ready to make a deal, ready to spread their legs again. On the Left, women will have abortion on male terms, as part of sexual liberation, or women will not have abortion except at risk of death.

–Andrea Dworkin, Right Wing Women

[aratakatism]

andreas was a Really crusty child btw

[imsosocold]

Grossyuckcreepy trans fem c!dream. She watches meat rot and cheese mold and milk curdle. She eats hives whole honey raw bees and all. She licks bugs off from the undersides of rocks. She spends hours looking for the perfect sticks and twigs to make nests out of them to put own knick knacks into before she sets them all on fire. She makes paper mache masks out of the dirty newspaper she uses as blankets.  She takes mud baths then makes pies out of it. She doesn’t wash her bras. If she got periods she would just let the blood drip down as she watched. She’s made out of mothballs and dust bunnies and moss and cobwebs and dried pigeon poop. She lives on hate and lexparo. She is forced feral but still flowery and festive with it. She turned Spirit’s leather into a leather jacket. She will never say anything directly to but she knows you. She acts into the preconceived biases and perceptions you have of her but will still  laugh at you for believing in them in the first place. She will play the blame game better than you can. She’s been through hell and back and even that won’t stop her. She bites and peels her nails and the skin around them until they’re infected but she still will claw your eyes out. She’ll eat you alive even if it makes her choke.“Fuck the system” when she was the one who created it even on accident.  She’s not sure if she hates you or herself more.  She’s fem coded through her rage. She’s fem coded through her caretaking. She’s fem coded in being dismissed. She’s fem coded in how she’s blamed for everything. She’s fem coded  in how  she’s disproportionately “ punished” yet it’s “justified.” She’s fem coded in the way people watched her spiral but did nothing to try to stop or help her. She’s fem coded in the way her flaws and actions are treated like unique independent evils. She’s fem coded in the way her words are used against her and applied to her in a way that doesn’t happen with other characters. She’s fem coded in the way everyone takes everyone else’s words on her rather than her own or even their own histories with her (including young teen boys words.) She’s fem coded in “ the discs are the only thing you even care about” vs “ the discs are worth more than you ever were.”  She’s fem coded in the way she is always watching her back waiting to be attacked. She’s fem coded in keeping things so close and yet so hidden to herself  that there’s no way they could ever end up being associated with her.  She’s fem coded with c!T in a codependent crushing mom sort of way. She’s fem coded in the way the sea angels that watch you sink are; both of you with open mouths in an attempt to survive with you trying to get air that’s not there and then trying to get something to eat. She’s not fem as female or feminine or femme but fem as in fuck you. 

Next is how c!Schlatt is is femcoded such as through girlbossing-

*gets hit with a squeaky sounding anvil* 

[randomshenaniganery]

My bastard colorful mercenary stripped of their finery

They got punched on the face and they're trying to play it cool and swag as well as attempting to rizz their opponent so that they don't get punched again

[shayera-the-magpie]

Me: *creates an lovechild of Bruce Wayne and Andrea Beaumont in my head*

Also me: In Earth-Two there was Helena Wayne who he had with Selena Kyle, and post-crisis there was Damian Wayne who he had with Talia al Ghul. Not to mention the ones who he took in. Why give Bruce another kid?

[daenays]

spoilers for unpacking if you haven’t played it

call me a baby but I got kinda emotional when I got to put her diploma back on the wall after two levels of hiding it under the bed

actually the whole last half of the game got me emotional seeing how she grew in her career, her relationships and herself as a person. the ending was really satisfying knowing that she is loved and happy🥺

[yourlocalegotisticalqueerishere]

Watched Supergirl 5x06 today and I'm not sure if they knew this but some of the specific wording about Lena and Andrea's friendship... Feel a little too intense for friendship

[cardsharksplayingames]

You know how in Japan they fix broken pottery with gold because it makes the cracks a part of the story and makes the pottery more beautiful? That’s what Eras is doing for Taylor. She’s healing cracks in her soul on that stage every single night but she’s not hiding the fact that they exist, she’s making something extremely beautiful out of them

[wintersportism]

thanks for checking in you may send flowers for my funeral

[zzztobi]

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welp, hello again!! i updated the band after ages god i feel awful but anyway, there's still 5 or 6 more chapters to come so pls wait for them ill try and update soon, hope you enjoy these ones in the meantime love ya <33