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Fanfic prompt “ShunYuuto coffee shop AU” from @sailoranime =‘D
He didn’t know where friendship ended and love began, and as he wrapped his long fingers around Yuuto’s finer ones, he thought that maybe they had existed together from the very start.
One Day
All Shun had wanted was some extra spending money.
He was going to college next year, a top-rated pro dueling school with tuition fees to match. If he didn’t want to live off cup noodles for the next few years every bit of spare money had to go to his college fund. Shun accepted that, but it left him with little to buy cards or duel disk upgrades with, nor to spoil Ruri with her overly complicated coffee drink addiction. Which explained why he was tagging along with her on her after-school journey for refreshment. Apparently coffee shops were always hiring.
“Are you really sure the café industry is the best place for you?” she asked after he failed her quiz on the difference between lattes and cappuccinos for the third time.
“I’m just going to check it out,” he said. “If the pay is good and they hire high schoolers, why not?”
“Okay, but you know that customer service requires smiling, right?”
Shun scowled. “What’s that supposed to mean? I can smile.”
“Oh yeah? Let’s see one.”
He sighed and pulled his lips upward at the corners. Ruri took one look at him and burst into giggles. “Stop, stop, you look like some kind of serial killer.”
“I do not,” he sputtered.
“Maybe they can use you to scare off problem customers,” she teased. To Shun’s relief, up ahead he saw the sign for the café.
“Let’s just get this over with,” he said, and held the door for Ruri as she ducked under his arm and walked in ahead of him.
The shop was quiet at this time of day. Shun glanced around it as he entered. Not too bad of an atmosphere. The air smelled good, like coffee and baking bread. The uniforms were basic enough, black pants and solid colored button-downs, clothes that he would be able to use in the future if he quit.
Ruri caught his jacket by the sleeve. “Hey, I know him!”
“What?” Shun followed her gaze to the counter. As the customer there stepped away he saw a young man behind it, wearing a winning smile. The kind of smile Ruri must have been talking about, Shun thought dumbly, because he was pretty sure it could have sold just about anything.
“Shun? You listening?”
“Him what now?” he fumbled as Ruri raised her eyebrows.
“I know him. That’s Yuuto, he’s in my class.”
His heart sank. He couldn’t work with a schoolmate. It would take only one petty dispute over hours for Yuuto to report him to school for working. That smile certainly hadn’t looked like the sort to conceal a knife behind it, but you never knew.
“Forget it, I can’t work here,” he said. “Go get your coffee.”
“Don’t you want anything?”
“No, I’ll wait here,” he said, looking out the window…which happened to also reflect Yuuto’s image quite well. He pretended to study the menu taped by the door while watching Ruri get in line and place her order. She chatted with Yuuto for a minute, and Shun swore he thought he saw the boy’s eyes dart toward him curiously. Ruri said something and they both laughed.
“Were you talking about me?” he demanded a minute later when Ruri returned.
She breezed out the door. “You’re so paranoid.”
He followed sulkily, knowing that meant she had definitely said something about him.
- - -
Allen, one of Yuuto’s coworkers, popped out of the back to join him at the counter as Ruri left. “Who was that?”
“Ruri Kurosaki, she’s one of my classmates.” Yuuto was watching them leave too, but his eyes were on the tall boy next to her. Second and third years were kept apart at school; he hadn’t even known she had a sibling. Side by side, he could see the family resemblance.
“She’s cute,” Allen said, nudging him. Yuuto rolled his eyes. Allen commented on every pretty girl he saw, but Yuuto had never seen him actually go up and talk to one. “Who’s the scary guy?”
“Her brother.”
Allen groaned. “The cute ones always have scary brothers! Too bad for that, Yuuto. You might have had a chance.”
Yuuto just shook his head and went to go take more orders. He had only been at the job a few months and hadn’t yet decided if his coworkers needed to know about his sexuality. They freely gossiped about their boyfriends and girlfriends (or lack thereof), but even though the world had changed, sometimes it was better to keep quiet.
Didn’t mean he wasn’t allowed to indulge a few peeks here and there, especially at tall boys with intriguingly gold eyes.
One Week
By Saturday Shun had nearly forgotten about the coffee shop visit. He was not one to dwell on things, so the fact that his whim of working at the café had been shot down didn’t weigh on him. Besides, Ruri was right. Customer service was not for him.
They were walking home from morning classes when Ruri pointed at someone walking ahead of them. “Hey, it’s Yuuto. Yuuto! Wait up!”
“Ruri, don’t bother him,” Shun hissed, but it was too late. Up ahead the underclassman had already turned around and slowed to a stop.
“Hey Ruri. Hi…?”
“This is Shun. You didn’t get to meet the other day.” Ruri gave him a nudge forward.
“Nice to meet you,” Yuuto said, with all the politeness of a superior customer service employee. His smile wasn’t like the one he had at work, smaller and softer, but it looked genuine. Mindful of Ruri’s serial killer comparison, he didn’t try to force one back.
“Are you going to work?” Ruri asked.
He nodded. “I get better hours on the weekends.”
“How do you manage to do that and still get our homework done?!”
“Sometimes I do it while I’m at work,” Yuuto admitted. “When it’s slow.”
Ruri’s eyes gleamed. “We should all study together! I bet it would go faster if we worked as a group, and we’ve even got a senior to help us out.” She elbowed Shun. Grinning at him the way she was, she missed it when a flash of discomfort crossed Yuuto’s face, but Shun saw it.
“I’m sorry,” Shun said. “You’re busier than either of us. Don’t feel like you have to say yes–”
“No, no. It…would be nice to study with someone for a change.” Yuuto smiled again. “Do you want to come by the café later? It can get busy on weekend nights, but I’ll save you a table.”
Ruri agreed enthusiastically, and Shun found himself dragged home to change and then back to the coffee shop, where Yuuto had saved them a booth near the kitchen. He apologized for the location. “This is the booth people usually don’t want, so the boss didn’t give me too hard of a time about reserving it,” he explained as he brought them their order. While Yuuto worked, Shun did his own homework, so he could help the other two when Yuuto finally took his apron off and joined them, sliding into the seat beside Ruri.
Not long after, Ruri announced she needed to go to the bathroom and left the two boys alone. Shun simmered, wondering why she couldn’t have decided to do that before Yuuto joined them. Already the silence at the table was awkward.
“Sorry,” Yuuto said suddenly.
“Huh? Why?”
“You didn’t look exactly thrilled when Ruri asked us to study together. If you want to go home, I can pretend my boss needs this table or something.”
“No, you don’t need to do that,” Shun blurted. Thinking that Yuuto had noticed his discomfort made him feel almost…ashamed. Just because he wasn’t social, he wasn’t out to hurt anyone, either. “It’s not that I hated the idea. I’m just…not as social as Ruri is. She says I’m better with duel monsters than I am with people.”
Yuuto chuckled. “One of my coworkers says the same thing about me.”
“Really? So, you’re at the School to become a duelist too?” Not only future duelists went to Heartland Duel School. Some went there intent on going into duel technology and manufacturing, others to become teachers or artists for the game.
Yuuto’s face split into a grin as he leaned his elbows on the table over his textbook. “You bet. I run Phantom Knights. What about you?”
His heart gave a childishly giddy jump. “Yeah? Those are really cool. My archetype is Raid Raptors.”
“Oh, I like them! Because there’s a lot of effects-”
“-that activate in the graveyard!” Shun finished at the same time, suddenly unable to stop grinning after an afternoon of forced levity.
“Those are my favorite combos. Your opponent thinks they wiped your field and then all of a sudden you show them all they did was set you up to summon your ace.”
“I love that moment. And then the crowd goes nuts, too.”
“That’s the most fun,” Yuuto agreed. “We should duel each other sometime. I bet you could show me some neat plays.”
This time, there wasn’t even a flicker of hesitation. “Only if you promise to show me some of yours,” Shun said, holding his fist across the table. Yuuto bumped it with his own.
The evening was more fun after that. Sure, once Ruri returned they had to stop talking about their favorite cards and return to homework, and she did most of the talking again, but now that he knew they had something in common, Shun was more interested in Yuuto’s answers to the assignment. Yuuto seemed more relaxed, too. An hour before they left, he offered to get them some drinks, and came back with cups labeled for himself and Ruri, but when Shun turned his own around he saw that instead of his name, Yuuto had drawn the Raid Raptors symbol. Ruri found it hilarious, cackling that Yuuto had found the one thing that summed her brother up better than a name.
“I like it,” Shun returned loftily, and the way Yuuto’s eyes lit up when he said it made all her teasing worth it.
One Month
For the first time in a long time, Yuuto’s life held something other than school, work and sleeping. Okay, yes all their study dates took place at work, and studying inevitably involved school – which, unfortunately, was not all dueling all the time – but they always made time to talk about other things. He had fun coming up with things to draw or write on their cups. Pictures, puns, messages, anything to make them smile when they saw it. Most of all, he loved dueling with them. Sometimes they would set up a three-way battle, other times two would team up against one and push them to see how long they could defend.
Ruri was talented and really nice, (and Allen spared no chance to tease him about the amount of time they were spending together) but it was teaming up with Shun that he enjoyed the most. Their decks seemed to work naturally together, with effects that both of them could use and play off of, and there was nothing more exciting than working out a new combo move.
It all made him realize what a hermit he’d really become over the last couple years. He’d forgotten what it was like to have friends.
The only thing to mar it was the amount of work it was starting to take to avoid the Kurosakis finding out about his parents. All he wanted was to bask in the fun they were having, while instead he had to come up with believable reasons why they should always meet at the café, and monitor every conversation for openings to dangerous questions. It was getting exhausting and one day, as they sat around a table in the park eating snacks from the vending machine between duels, he let his guard down.
They were talking about his job, what he’d thought was a perfectly safe subject. It was a really nice day, late-fall, sunny but cool enough for a jacket. He’d just finished jokingly drawing black flowers on Shun’s bottle of soda – a pun on his last name – when Ruri said: “How’d you get your parents to let you get a job anyway, Yuuto?”
“Um.” He capped the marker. “They…don’t really care if I work.”
“Really? That’s lucky.”
He knew there was no way she intended it badly, but he flinched all the same. Shun turned to look at him oddly, and he fidgeted with the marker.
“Are they going to come to Parents’ Day at school?” Ruri pursued.
“No. They’re not here.”
“That’s too bad, I really wanted to meet them. Do they travel for work?”
“Ruri…” Shun started to say. He hadn’t taken his eyes off Yuuto.
“No. They’re dead,” he said. Just as he’d known it would, an awful silence fell over the table.
Ruri spoke first. “I’m so sorry. Here I am, going on–”
“It’s okay. You didn’t know. I don’t want anyone treating me different, so…I just kind of avoided telling you.” He could hear the question they wanted to ask; what they were too polite to say, but they’d probably trade guesses about the minute he left. “My mom had cancer. My dad spent all his time taking care of her and mourning her that he didn’t take care of himself, and he had a heart attack. All our money went to medical bills, so…I got my job to pay tuition.”
“You live by yourself?” Shun asked.
“Yeah. It was that or move in with relatives, but I would have had to leave HDS. It’s not really that bad,” Yuuto said, because nobody wanted to be friends with someone who was lonely. He’d learned that when all his elementary school friends drifted away, one by one, all of them too awkward to hang out with the kid with the dying mom and devastated dad. Truthfully, he didn’t blame them. He hadn’t wanted to hang out with himself and his ghosts back then, either.
In a flash of sadness, he foresaw it all happening again. “I should get going if I’m going to close at the café tonight,” he said, before either of them could speak. Usually he said good-bye by saying ‘see you later’ or ‘I’ll meet you after school,’ but today he just got up and hurried away silently.
“Do you think I made him mad?” Ruri asked miserably a few minutes later.
Shun shook his head. “No.”
“But I pushed him about his parents. Aragh, why couldn’t I have just shut up?”
“It’s like he said, you didn’t know. I don’t think he blames you. Why don’t you head home, I’ll meet you there.”
“Where are you going?”
Shun reached across the table. “He left his marker. I’m going to drop it off.”
“You’ll tell him I’m sorry?”
Shun nodded. If that’s what he wants.
Maybe it came from being a loner most of his life. His sister had a heart as big as it was tough, and she had never struggled with loneliness or awkwardness. She had a brother who loved her and made friends as easily as breathing. So if she had hurt Yuuto’s feelings, of course she felt bad. What Shun felt, however, was understanding.
“I don’t want anyone treating me different.”
People like us are always going to be treated different.
Shun knew what it was like for stares and whispers to fall behind his back. He was aloof, driven and singular in his focus, and kids weren’t kind to people who didn’t fit in. None of it had truly touched him, though. He had a sister who loved him back, and something that unconditional created a protection nothing could breach.
What he didn’t know, and what he hurt to imagine, was what it would be like to bear it alone.
When he stepped into the coffee shop, Yuuto turned slightly pale. “Hey,” he said, a shaky timbre hiding in his voice. “Did…were we studying tonight?”
“No, you just left your marker. Thought you might need it.” Shun held it out.
“Oh. Thanks, sorry.”
“You all right?” Shun asked, before Yuuto could step away.
“I’m fine. You don’t need to apologize.”
“I’m not here to.” Yuuto shot him a confused look. “Well, Ruri wants me to, but that’s because she thinks she hurt your feelings.”
“She didn’t. I’m completely fine.”
“I know.” Shun put his hands in his pockets. “So, dueling tomorrow at one, like usual?”
He looked even more confused. One of the other employees called for someone to refill the milk steamer, but Yuuto stood rooted. “You guys still want to…?”
“Of course. You promised me next time we dueled we were going to try out that new combo we came up with. You think I’m letting you off the hook on that?”
Color flooded into Yuuto’s cheeks. He averted his stormy grey eyes toward the counter. “You know, you don’t have to be nice to me because of my parents.”
“The hell does that have to do with anything? We’re friends, aren’t we?”
Shun hated how fragile the sudden hope in Yuuto’s eyes was. It was such a raw mark of how much someone had hurt him once, and he planted himself firmly to the floor, prepared to stare Yuuto down until the younger boy believed him.
“I guess it’s just been awhile since I had a friend,” he finally said.
“Well you’ve got two who are counting on seeing you tomorrow. One o’clock?”
“For sure. Wait a second, Shun.” Yuuto quickly turned, poured a cup of coffee and labeled it. “Here. Take this with you. As an apology for running off on you.”
Shun didn’t tell him not to apologize, he just thanked him and took it. As he walked to the door, he turned the cup to see in Yuuto’s handwriting the small phrase: thank you.
One Season
It was Ruri who brought up the idea first. “We should invite Yuuto over for Christmas.”
Shun hunched his shoulders, burying himself deeper in his coat as they walked to school the last day before holiday break. It was going to snow any day now, and everyone was hoping for a white Christmas, but frankly he’d be glad to see the temperatures hold off going any lower. “I don’t know.”
“Why not? We’ve got the guest mattress, and you know Mom and Dad wouldn’t mind a friend staying over. He can sleep in your room.”
His pulse shot up. “Why my room?”
“Because they’re not gonna let him sleep in mine, obviously. Come on Shun, it’ll be fun. Don’t you want to give him his present actually on Christmas?”
It was almost freezing out, and suddenly Shun felt extremely warm. “How do you know I got him a present?”
“You think I actually believe you were spending that much time in the store looking for something for Mom?” she teased. “Don’t worry, I got him something too. Please, let’s ask him, all right?”
“I don’t want to make him uncomfortable. You know. Because of his parents. He might think it’s charity.”
“No, he knows we wouldn’t treat him like that,” Ruri said, troubled. “He knows, right?”
Shun just shrugged. The road to hell was paved with statements just like that.
“Well, I’m going to make sure he knows,” she declared, and there was no standing in her way after that. As they fell into step toward the coffee shop after class, she brought it up. “Yuuto, can we ask you something?”
“Sure.”
“We were wondering if you’d like to come stay over at our house for Christmas.”
He missed a step. “What? Are- are you sure?”
“I wouldn’t ask if I wasn’t sure!”
“That’s…it’s really nice of you to ask, but you really don’t…”
“It’s not a feel-sorry-for-you thing,” Shun said, making Yuuto refocus his gaze on him before he could shut himself down. “I swear.”
Beside him, Ruri nodded eagerly. “Please Yuuto, say yes? It’ll be fun to give you your gifts on the holiday instead of at school.”
“You got me gifts?”
“Because we wanted to, they’re not a requirement,” Shun interjected, thinking that nobody should ever look that bright-eyed over Christmas gifts, especially not a boy who was going to be sharing his room.
“No, it’s okay, I have gifts for you, too. I…”
“Does that mean yes? You want to stay over?”
Yuuto gave her a shy, slightly flushed smile, and Shun suddenly wished he’d been the one who asked him. “I guess…if you’re sure your parents don’t mind, okay.”
“Yes!” Ruri slung her arms around both their necks, pulling them down to her. “This is going to be so much fun!”
That night they moved the guest mattress to his room, and the subject was brought up nearly every day, but somehow it didn’t feel real to Shun until Christmas Eve, when Yuuto arrived at their door. As he walked inside he looked around as if the sight of the decorated house was something rare and breathtaking.
Yuuto had always been real. From seeing him behind the coffee shop counter to doing homework together to dueling each other dozens of times in an afternoon, Shun knew he was real. Somehow, however, he had never been as real as he was that day in their house. Everything, down to the way the air moved differently with another person’s voice in it, made Shun aware of his presence. That evening he made them all hot chocolate using the coffee shop’s recipe, and turned completely red at the compliments from the whole family. His blush seemed to heat up the entire room, until Shun realized that every room Yuuto was in felt warmer.
When had that started?
Not wanting to waste the next day sleeping, they went to bed early. The house had been quiet for awhile and Shun was just getting used to hearing someone else’s breathing when Yuuto’s voice drifted through the darkness, up from the guest mattress laid out on his floor.
“It was fun today. Thanks again for inviting me.”
Shun turned on his side in his bed; he could see a little of the light from the window shining off Yuuto’s eyes. He wondered if he should say anything.
“It’s been awhile since I celebrated a real Christmas. I’m really happy.”
Something dug at Shun’s chest inside. He couldn’t stay silent to that, even if “I’m really happy too,” was all he could think of to say. He thought that whatever it was must be his nerves settling, now that he knew for sure that Yuuto was happy to be there; that he didn’t think they all just felt sorry for him. Except in the morning when he woke up and looked over the edge of his bed and saw his friend still sleeping, it came back, more powerful than before. A thudding that felt like his heart was sending more than blood through his veins.
He lost track of how long he laid there. Finally Yuuto stirred and stretched, and the way his eyelashes shaded his eyes under locks of messy hair told Shun something he didn’t want to believe. Something he’d been trying not to believe ever since Ruri had mentioned them sharing a room. Ever since he’d wanted Yuuto to understand that he wasn’t going anywhere, no matter what anyone else thought. Ever since he’d seen that first big smile in the coffee shop when they talked about their favorite cards and giddiness had filled him up inside.
Yuuto blinked at him sleepily. “Morning.”
“Hey.”
“Merry Christmas Shun.” The way he added his name on the end did nothing to help.
“Merry Christmas Yuuto,” he said quietly. Yuuto’s eyes widened a little as he looked up at him, and for a second Shun was seized with dread that Yuuto saw what he hadn’t identified yet. The second passed when Yuuto pointed to the window and said simply,
“Look. Snow.”
Before he could reply, the door crashed open and Ruri bounded in in her pajamas. “It’s snowing! Did you see? A white Christmas, how cool is that?”
“Feels more like cold to me,” Shun said, and Yuuto laughed.
Before long their mom arrived with hot apple cider to rouse them. They had told their parents about Yuuto before he came over, and the family had agreed to do their gift exchanging the next day, so that he wouldn’t have to feel awkward. Today would instead be all about eating and snowball fights and working on the annual Christmas jigsaw puzzle. After lunch, the teens slipped away to Shun’s room to exchange their own gifts.
Ruri went first, giving Yuuto duel monsters cards and homemade chocolates. Yuuto gave her a hairclip in the shape of bird wings, which she immediately used to pin up her ponytail and bask in compliments from them both. As Shun held out his gift to Yuuto he wished he’d gone with something as nice and friendly as cards and candy. There was something about those that felt like they couldn’t go wrong. But there was no going back now, and he dug his nails nervously into his palms as Yuuto tore off the paper and opened the box to lift out a necklace with a padlock charm.
He could almost feel Ruri’s thoughts as she watched him watch Yuuto. Jewelry, Shun? Really?
“Do you like it?” Shun asked, ignoring her mental judgment.
“Yeah!” Yuuto said. “I like necklaces. I’ve never seen a padlock as a charm before.”
“I thought it was kind of cool,” Shun said. Ruri hid a giggle.
Yuuto put the necklace on, and then held out a bulky package to Shun. It turned out to be a dark red knitted scarf. Shun ran his hand over the tiny stitches. “Thanks Yuuto.”
“I have to admit, I was afraid I wouldn’t finish it in time,” Yuuto said, playing with the lock on his necklace.
“Wha…you…you made this?” The siblings both stared at him and Yuuto began to turn as red as the yarn.
“Yeah. Is…is that weird?”
“No! It’s just, I didn’t know you knew how to make stuff like this.”
“After Mom got sick she spent a lot of time in bed, so she started knitting, and she taught me. It’s not cool for a boy to do I guess, but it’s actually kind of fun.”
“Don’t say that, it’s really cool,” Shun said, and the smile Yuuto gave him could have chased away any cold.
They spent the rest of the afternoon playing cards, until about an hour before dinner, when Yuuto suddenly disappeared into the kitchen. Following, Shun heard him ask: “is it okay if I go out for a little bit, Mrs. Kurosaki?”
“In this weather?” he heard his mother say uncertainly.
“I’m not going far. I’ll just be a little while, back in plenty of time for dinner.”
“I guess so, but you shouldn’t go out by yourself. Take Shun with you.” As if she somehow knew he was lurking on the other side of the wall she called, “Shun, go with Yuuto, it’s not smart to go out alone in the snow.”
He stepped around the corner in time to see Yuuto shoot an awkward look at him. It made him feel guilty, like he was barging in on something Yuuto had obviously planned on his own, and they’d barely made it a block before he said, “I’m sorry Yuuto, she’s really over-protective.”
“It’s okay.” Yuuto had his hands in his pockets, looking straight ahead. “She’s a mom.”
Shun swallowed under the new scarf around his neck. “So…where are you going?”
“Promise me you won’t say it’s morbid.”
He frowned. “I promise.”
“I’m going to visit my parents.” He pointed ahead, at a cross street. There was nothing down that street except…
The cemetery.
“I’m really sorry my mom made me come with you,” he found himself saying. “If you wanted to do this alone…I can just wait here, or…”
“Do you not want to come in?”
“No, it’s not that.” He responded before he could even think about it. “If you wanted privacy, though…”
“I don’t mind. Not if it’s you.”
With those words, Shun followed him silently inside, to a memorial stone. Both their names were on it, above the bundle of flowers the cemetery workers had placed on all the graves for the holiday.
Yuuto pulled off his right glove and reached out to brush his fingers over the engraving on the stone. It had to be freezing, but he didn’t show it. “Hi Mom, hi Dad. This is my friend Shun.”
He straightened up, both honored and nervous. What would Yuuto’s parents have thought of him in life, he wondered, and realized he was sad to think he’d never know. If they were anything like Yuuto, he’d probably have liked them.
“I’m okay. I miss you, but I’m okay.”
Then he was silent for a long time. Long enough for flakes of snow to start to speckle the sleeve of his windbreaker.
“Merry Christmas,” Yuuto whispered. His hand dropped. He didn’t put his glove back on, just stood there.
Shun didn’t think about what he did next. He didn’t need to think, not about something that came as primal and natural as the snow and the sun. He pulled off his own glove and stepped beside Yuuto, taking his cold hand, cupping it inside his own where he could keep it safe.
He didn’t know where friendship ended and love began, and as he wrapped his long fingers around Yuuto’s finer ones, he thought that maybe they had existed together from the very start.
One Second
“You’re telling me that not only did you spend the night at her house, but she made you chocolates, and you still didn’t ask her out?!”
“Gee Allen, I can’t tell at all what your opinion on this might be,” Yuuto said, focusing on the measurement of chocolate syrup he was adding to a customer’s drink. His hand shook slightly and he cursed it. His coworker draped himself over the counter.
“Yuuto, you were practically handed a situation any guy I know would die for.”
“I’ve always liked being different,” Yuuto said through forced lightheartedness, handing the drink over and sending the customer on their way.
“I don’t understand. Are you telling me you’re not interested in her?”
“I’m pretty sure I’ve been telling you that since the day she came in here.” The lightheartedness had turned into speaking through his teeth.
Allen’s voice continued to interrogate him, sending his blood pressure up.
“But she’s so pretty. I don’t know why you’re not interested. She made you chocolates. Even her scary brother approves of you. Why won’t you just ask her out? Why won’t you–”
“Because I’m gay, all right?” Yuuto finally hissed. His coworker stared dumbly at him. Enough time passed for regret to take root, and Yuuto leaned against the counter with a groan. He’d done it now. He was probably going to end up being shunned by half the staff once word got around.
“Oh. Then why don’t you ask out her brother?” Allen asked.
It was Yuuto’s turn to stare. The chain around his neck felt warm and heavy. His fingers on his right hand twitched, as if reacting to an unseen touch.
“I can’t,” he finally said, before having to hide from the sympathy in Allen’s eyes.
He didn’t see the Kurosakis that afternoon; the next day was New Years Eve, and they were all going to go to the shrine. But Allen’s question and his answer followed him around the rest of the day.
I can’t.
Alone in his house as night fell, Yuuto stared up at the ceiling while his hand rested over the charm on his chest. He hadn’t taken off his necklace since Shun had given it to him.
Shun. His friend, who seemed to understand him even if he didn’t say a word. With beautiful eyes and kind hands. Looking back, he wondered if there had ever been a point when falling for him wasn’t inevitable.
He could still feel Shun’s hand around his. He hadn’t thought about what it meant at that moment, standing at a grave. Shun had probably just wanted to comfort him, or keep him from getting frostbite. There were plenty of guys out there who wouldn’t even do that, though. They would never hold another boy’s hand, not for anything. Which meant, if nothing else, Shun probably wouldn’t call him sick and perverted if he knew the truth.
He had something even worse to fear. Former little gestures of affection that turned cold and sterile and never lasted as long. Invitations to go out and do things that were worded carefully, differently. All the breaking down and rotted places that came from the slow distancing of a friend who didn’t want to ‘give the wrong idea.’
I can’t tell him.
Shun hating him would hurt. Shun being afraid to hold his hand again because he didn’t want Yuuto thinking he loved him too much was what would kill him inside.
He buried his face in his pillow, clenching the little padlock in his fist over his heart. He knew how fast the world could fall apart. He just wanted to enjoy it now.
- - -
“Happy New Year Yuuto!” Ruri grabbed him in a hug, making him stagger to not spill the cups he was holding.
“Happy New Year,” he replied with a grin, handing her a latte with those very words written on the cup.
“Come on, we’d better get in line or we’ll be here until next year,” Shun grumbled. He was wearing the scarf he’d given him.
They joined the queue of people waiting to make their offerings, chatting about new years’ plans and hopes. After ringing the bell, they found a bench outside the shrine that hadn’t been claimed yet to rest on and wait for the fireworks.
“This has been a really good year,” Ruri said, hugging them both to her. Shun agreed, and Yuuto nodded. It really had been. True, the last year had been the worst of his life so this one hadn’t had to do much to beat it, but it had more than just topped it. It had been possibly the best year of his life, all because of the two people sitting beside him.
A group of girls waved to them and hurried over. Yuuto only recognized one of them, Sayaka, from a branch of Heartland Duel School to the south. She’d been at one of the inter-high dueling tournaments.
“We’re going to the girls’ only shrine before the fireworks,” Sayaka said as a couple of the others giggled. “Want to come?”
“Sure! Wait here guys, I’ll be back,” Ruri said, jumping up to follow them.
Shun leaned back against the bench and sighed. “A girls’ only shrine. Dad will have a fit if he finds out.”
“It’s not like she couldn’t pray for a boyfriend at this shrine,” Yuuto pointed out.
“Please don’t tell my parents that,” Shun said, and they both laughed.
The bells in the shrine chimed over and over as more offerings were left. Around them people milled in groups, chatting excitedly, calling out the time as midnight and the new year approached.
“I guess next year will be pretty exciting, huh?” Yuuto asked. “Ruri and I will be seniors…you’re going off to a Pro college…are you looking forward to it?”
“It’s always been my dream. It’s going to be different.”
“You mean like the coursework, and living in a dorm?”
“Yeah, and not seeing you…you know, you guys every day.”
Yuuto’s smile faltered. “Oh. I…I’m going to miss seeing you, too. But you’ll get us family seats to all your tournaments, right? Then next year Ruri and I will join you.”
His friend had grown quiet beside him. That wasn’t so unusual, but it was what Yuuto saw in his eyes that made him speak up in concern.
“Shun? Are you all right?”
Shun set his cup aside and put his gloved hand over top of Yuuto’s on the bench. “Yuuto…there’s something…”
Yuuto looked at him. Their breaths mingled in little white puffs between them. A voice in his head began to furiously whisper: this isn’t what I think it is. This isn’t what I think it is-
“I don’t want to mess anything up. I just…I can’t pretend to be friends and act like I don’t know what’s really there, and I can’t just go off and wait a year and a half without saying something.”
Yuuto’s heart was in his throat. No, don’t…
“Nothing has to change,” Shun said, desperation in his deep voice. “I just want the truth out.”
But everything can only change.
Somehow, Shun had realized his secret. The world was ending, and Yuuto wasn’t ready. He shook his head, trying to clear the stinging in his eyes, but it just made everything blurry. Shun was saying something, but he couldn’t hear it through the blood in his ears. There was only one thing he could think. If this was it, then he wanted to be the one to pull the trigger.
He leaned up and kissed him.
This time the world wouldn’t take from him. This time he’d end it all himself, right here, right this second, with the parting of lips that tasted faintly of coffee.
Then, suddenly, Shun was kissing him back. Clumsily, ardently. His hand wasn’t just over Yuuto’s anymore, it was clinging to it.
Yuuto had never known the world could also be reborn just as quickly. That it could become so new and warm and terrifying in its potential as it was right then.
“What…what does this mean?” he whispered as they pulled apart.
“I’m not really sure.” But Shun was still holding his hand, and he was still close enough to feel his warm breath against his lips, and it took every ounce of control Yuuto had not to immediately close the gap and fall back into him again.
Yuuto took a shaky breath. He’d might as well be able to tell Allen something the next time he saw him. “I…don’t suppose…maybe you’d like to go out sometime?”
“I think I’d like that a lot.”
Behind the shrine, fireworks began to go off as people began counting down. The colors reflected off Shun’s eyes, a sparkling array that spoke of newness and anticipation for a future just being discovered.
Yuuto rested his hand against the soft scarf at Shun’s neck, and leaned in to kiss him again.
One Year
“Are they here yet?”
“Shut up Allen, you’re going to ruin it!”
“My legs are cramping.”
A cell phone dinged. “That’s Ruri’s signal,” Yuuto murmured. “Any minute now.”
“Why can’t I be the one who greets them?”
“Be quiet!”
The bell over the door jangled. Yuuto’s whole body was positively trembling as Ruri and Shun walked in. He met Shun’s eyes, and only the fact that he’d have tripped over two of his coworkers kept him from bolting from behind the counter into his arms.
“Yuuto? Where is everybody?” Shun asked. At that moment the entire staff of the coffee shop and several of their classmates burst out of their hiding places, a cacophony of party poppers deafening the room and sending confetti showering over Shun’s head.
“There’s our champ! Surprise!”
Shun started. “What the–”
“It’s a surprise party, for your first pro tournament win,” Ruri said, nudging him. “Yuuto and I set it up.”
Shun looked up at him again. “You guys…”
This time, Yuuto couldn’t hold back. He dodged the end of the counter, just as Shun suddenly strode forward and caught him in a tight embrace.
“I had to do something while I was missing you,” Yuuto murmured into his chest. He pulled back and happily let Shun slide his hand under his chin to lift his head into a kiss. Someone set off another party popper over their heads as his coworkers clapped and hooted.
Kitchen workers brought out plates of food and drinks, the cups of which were all decorated with messages of congratulations. The whole team had gotten together the night before to draw on them.
Shun half-grinned as he turned a cup between his fingers to read it. “How’d you get everyone to agree to this? As I recall your boss didn’t really like us taking up a booth.”
“Ever since my boss realized he could bring in the fan trade by advertising that you used to study here, he’s become a big fan. Our old booth is now the most popular one.”
“Who would have thought? Wait until you guys join me at college, he might have to expand the building.”
A rather feline smile stretched across Ruri’s face. “Speaking of our graduation…are you going to tell him now, Shun?”
“Tell me what?” Yuuto asked.
“You’re not the only person Ruri can help plan a surprise with,” Shun replied, reaching into his jacket pocket. He pulled out a folded envelope and held it out as Ruri leaned forward excitedly.
Yuuto peeled the envelope open and pulled out a packet of paper with Heartland’s Pro College logo at the top. It was addressed to Shun. Mr. Kurosaki, your request into our Tag Dueling Circuit has been accepted. Please ensure you and your partner have submitted your applications before the first of the new semester. A list of requirements for all teams is attached…
He flipped the page and found two applications, one that Shun had already filled out. The other was blank. A surge of excitement that he didn’t fully understand the source of yet went through his body. “Shun, what is this?”
“The Pro College is starting up a tag dueling circuit next semester. It’s experimental, but if people like it, they want to start up national and international tournaments. I thought, since you were starting then, you might…like to be my partner?”
Yuuto stared at him. Ever since he’d received his acceptance letter from the Pro College, he’d been excited. Finally he’d get to see Shun more often than over video chat and monthly visits. The mere thought that they’d get to have lunch together again was enough to give him butterflies. But this? Getting to not only join Shun at school, but to team up with him in duels in front of crowds and fight together?
“Are you kidding?” he squeaked, embarrassed at how high his voice went in its excitement. “I definitely would like to!”
The coffee shop – which had been eavesdropping from the minute he unfolded the letter – erupted in cheers.
One Lifetime
The three of them paused outside the coffee shop to admire the new decal on the window. Proud Sponsor of Team Phantom Falcon.
“Supposedly they even installed televisions, and host parties on the nights of our tournaments,” Yuuto said, reaching for the door.
“This place is becoming so popular, do you think we’ll be able to get a seat?” Shun asked.
“We’d better, with how much publicity we’ve done for them!” Ruri said.
“I’m pretty sure they can find room for us.” He opened the door.
They had deliberately not told anyone they were coming, anticipating being able to be the surprise this time. The customers in the café obviously hadn’t expected them, the way excited whispers followed them. One of Yuuto’s old coworkers threw his arm around him.
“Hey guys!” he said heartily. “We didn’t expect you! Come sit down, get comfy! You still like your usual? I’ll get it for you!” Shun found himself being positively ushered to a booth, seated across from Ruri and beside Yuuto.
“Do you get the feeling that they expected us after all?” he asked quietly.
“They probably knew we were on break,” Ruri figured. “Maybe they thought we would try to surprise them.”
Yuuto offered no suggestions. He’d been oddly quiet ever since that morning, when he’d suggested they stop in for a cup of coffee before going to visit the Kurosakis, after being away from Heartland on the International tag dueling circuit for almost two years.
Allen waved from behind the counter. “Your drinks!”
“I’ll get them. It’ll be like old times’ sake.” Yuuto got up before Shun could even offer. A moment later he returned and slid Shun’s and Ruri’s in front of them, setting his own at his place at the table, but remaining where he was.
“Aren’t you going to sit down?” Shun asked, bemused.
“In a minute.”
Shun narrowed his eyes at his boyfriend. “Okay…” Across the table, Ruri gasped, and he tore his eyes away to look at his sister instead. “What is it?”
“Nothing,” she said quickly, beaming at Yuuto and then at Shun.
Thoroughly confused and feeling like there was some kind of loop that he was being left out of, Shun reached for his coffee. There was something written on the cup, and what caught his attention was the fact that it was definitely Yuuto’s handwriting, but he’d watched Yuuto go collect their drinks and hadn’t seen him write anything.
Across the table, Ruri had her hands over her mouth.
Frowning, he turned the cup, and the words came into view.
Will you marry me?
The whole world slowed down as Shun braced his hand on the table and turned back to Yuuto, jaw going loose. He moved in time to see Yuuto dropping to one knee and oh god…oh god this was actually happening–
Yuuto’s hands were shaking as he held out a box. “This is where I first saw you. It’s weird…to think how things might have turned out if I never had. Last time we were here, you asked if I wanted to be your partner. I do. I want to always be your partner, on the field and off. So it’s my turn…I want to ask you to be my partner now. Forever?”
Ruri was squeaking, “Oh my god, oh my god!”
The whole coffee shop seemed to have come to a stop. No…he wasn’t imagining that, everyone had stopped. The ring was a braid of gold and silver, and Yuuto’s eyes were shining the same dark grey as the latter. There were probably people who thought it was a cold color, but not Shun. He’d never seen anything warmer.
“Yes,” he blurted, as Yuuto’s face lit up brighter than any stadium. “Yes!”
Allen whooped and punched the air, and it was like the signal of permission as everyone began clapping. Ruri let out a shriek before clapping her hands over her mouth again. Yuuto had to hold Shun’s hand with his own to slide the ring on, they were both trembling. The moment it was on, Shun reached out to hug him, just as Yuuto was doing the same, and they pulled each other together in a tangle on the bench.
“I love you, Yuuto,” Shun whispered, running his hand with the ring through Yuuto’s hair to push his bangs aside.
Yuuto clutched the back of his jacket in his fists, as if daring anyone to try to pull him away. “I love you too, Shun.”
“Kiss already!” Yuuto’s coworker yelled. “Or do we gotta write that on a cup for you too!”
Yuuto laughed, his nose brushing Shun’s. “I could, if you want?”
“Nah.” Shun turned his head and kissed him deeply. The truth was, there were no words that could be written to express what he wanted to say now. But by the way that Yuuto kissed him back, he knew he understood.
Notes: AYYYY IT’S ONLY BEEN LIKE 10 MONTHS HOW Y’ALL DOING.
I’ve owed @sailoranime this fanfic for way too long, so I tried to make up for it by at least making it kind of long and not just a quick jotted off flashfic. It’s so fluffy omg I want to cover my face too, Ruri.
It‘s an AU so to make the timeline work I aged Yuuto and Ruri up a grade xD;
Ironically, it was the death of my father, which actually lessened the amount of stress in my life (he was sick, we had a bad relationship, angsty backstory blah blah blah) that knocked me out of being able to write for a long time. Idk why. It’s been a good summer/fall on the whole for me. But I couldn’t bring myself to write. Then after the election, which was nothing but 100% stress, at 3 in the morning my brain decided I needed to write trashbagshipping fluff. I guess it figured we could all use some fluff.
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