#shrooms in college

[ucannotkillmeinawaythatmatters]

I just wanna rant for a bit about how ableist the rhetoric around learning languages can be, especially as it relates to american colleges

so as part of my degree, I'm required to take two semesters of an upper level language. issue is, I'm hard of hearing and my college does not offer any type of sign language as an option

obviously trying to learn an AUDIO BASED language as a person who literally can't hear is a fucking challenge. and yeah sure, they have exemptions but I'm "not disabled enough" to qualify

first of all, that's fucking bullshit. a policy that I'm sure was written by abled ppl determining that I'm not disabled enough?? to be exempt from something made really fucking hard due to my disability?? bullshit

when I was a kid I literally had one of those speech language pathologists to help me speak ENGLISH correctly. I used to mispronounce words all the damn time cuz I wasn't hearing what it actually sounded like. certain syllables just aren't picked up by my brain so words like "computer" would get butchered into "come-cue-ter." getting hearing aids in addition to learning from the language lady I had helped with this problem a lot. I don't rly struggle with it anymore now that I'm older.

now that I'm learning Spanish, however, I'm having the exact same problems I had as a baby. this makes sense if you consider that I'm basically a one year old in Spanish knowledge. but in college, I don't get a speech language pathologist to help me understand pronunciations and syllables. and my hearing aids have been fucked up and are too expensive for me to afford replacing them rn. and in college I have to worry about grades and passing the class and shit. I've literally had actual breakdowns crying and sobbing over how much I'm struggling in the classes due to something I literally cannot control

so yes, the second I'm done with this semester, I will be giving up on learning Spanish and any audio based language. it's just really fucking exhausting to hear all the jokes about pathetic monolingual Americans who only know one language.

[coelakanths]

“broke up” with my situationship and two days later he made me a 3hr long playlist consisting mostly of the smiths and radiohead I love the digital age

[nowimhaunted]

Just remembered I have an emergency stash of shrooms that’s good for one trip….I know what I’m doing today to cope with the horrors

[wifegideonnav]

tbh when mitski said “you’re my best friend/now i’ve no one to tell/how i lost my best friend”

[skelejester]

hey chat i just wanted to hop on here and let you guys know that the new semester of uni is KICKING MY ASS!!!! i hope to post some of the work i make in class if it's not total dookie... but i won't really have time to make a lot of original works :(

stick around for more cool work sometime in february maybe idk

[bubbleanon]

don't do drugs kids. or do, i can't stop you

[girlboss-enthusiast]

Every now and then I make a brief foray into other social media platforms and it's terrifying. The vibes are off. The posts scream at me. Everything moves too fast. I don't understand the slang. People say horrible things and I can't tell if they're joking. I'm basically this guy

[fauxspirited]

it’s funny bc once upon a time i used to be a LITTLE judgy about people who were stoners. like, full day stoned, can’t function without it, etc… obv bc of how i’ve grown up to now being like “ok maybe not all drugs are bad…”

also like, realizing that some of the stuff ppl use are parts of medications used to treat ppl for anxiety and depression and whatnot is just another layer of it.

idk like, education is important. and exposure is important too but obv not at ages when people are young and stupid and consistently do stupid shit with it.

& also like, there are still actual bad drugs out there so, stay smart, kids.

[mxwhore]

hmm i need a new labcoat :(

[shadowsong26x]

image description: a tweet and reply/second tweet

tweet 1, from GHETTO QUEEN [grey/black heart] (@ Itsdiyahshalon)

Shrooms being trendy is so weird because it’s actually supposed to be very spiritual and self healing

tweet 2, from ninah (@ riaessam)

self healing? I SAW RUMPLESTILTSKIN

[ucannotkillmeinawaythatmatters]

ik this is a very small issue, but I don't have a green notebook for my science class and I low-key wanna scream. I have a green folder but not a green notebook fuck

why didn't I get a green one, now I have to use red and everything is shitty

[fakeangellsism9]

Shrooms was cool I really didn’t expect it to look like exactly like those trip vids on Instagram

Looking in the mirror was kinda crazy and I tried to avoid but wtv idk everything was like saturated my face was like all wavy and purply like warping around

Oh and We went for a walk to get screamers and that’s when it REALLY started kicking in

Kept seeing like patterns in the trees and it looked like the ground was like a big pattern that’s didn’t change like everything was the same idk patterns everywhere it was quite cool

I find that I’m also more social and socially aware when I’m on shrooms kinda funny

Also just this like inexplicable amount of joy I had I was just like cheesing the whole time bro

Yeah idk don’t do drugs and if you do don’t do em frequently everything is good in moderation fr

This prolly the last time I’ll realistically do shrooms I don’t have any desire to do anything harder than weed I might do em again in the future but it def won’t be frequent

[cow-shroom]

I just saw 8 WIP mass attacks from Team Seafoam what is going on.

[nesquikflavoredchapstick]

kinda wish i watched the hannibal as most of the people on this site bc the show was not nearly as interesting as some of y’all made it sound

[adreameratdawn]

this morning class is boring on the yellow lays level rescartame-

[futuremrscameron]

kook!jj

content warnings: drug use, mommy issues, sexual harassment, gun violence, classism, underage drinking, attempted murder, neglectful parents, light misogyny, jj being a jerk, manipulative behavior, jokes about incest, arguably cruel jj

born jackson junior genrette, after larissa’s father and called junior by chandler

really close to his mom because chandler often goes on “business trips” for long periods of time. hates being called a mama’s boy but knows it’s true not so deep down.

hates when chandler tries to buy his love but will use his deep pockets to his advantage (buying a new bike, weed, coke, etc.,)

acts out in school to get his father’s attention only to end up dropping out his junior year much to his mother’s chagrin. his feelings for chandler reach an all time low when he discovers that he’s not even his real father.

besties/rivals with rafe. they are the same yet so different, you see one the other is not far behind, just terrorizing pogues and taking secret sips from their flask to make it through stuffy events

kook!jj still has the peacekeeper™️. he found it (read: stole it from a pogue after he finished beating the shit out of him for threatening him with it) in the cut. he almost never uses it. almost. he whips it out from time to time to scare impress girls and show off to guys. he still practices on teddy bears but it’s actually used, the first time it’s used is by rafe at the tarmac. jj is so pissed he implicated him in the murder of the sheriff but helps him “take care of it”. rafe knows nothing jj does is out of the kindness of his heart, he scratched his back so he’ll scratch his

does coke instead of weed (he tried shrooms and molly once but after the incident™️ never again). rafe got adderrall from barry during his short stint at college and let jj try it. jj thought it didn’t work until he found himself applying for his ged and ordering the catering his mom asked him to order a week ago

a biker instead of a surfer. while canon!jj balances both worlds, kook!jj prefers to feel the wind in his hair while on the ground. he loves his baby, treats her better than actual women, and does not let anyone touch her. she’s a gift from his mother so he takes extra good care of her

throws the wildest parties, sometimes with rafe sometimes solo. if cops break up his party cause of a noise complaint, he pays them off (if it’s not shoupe) or runs

kook!jj and rafe allegedly share girls (and some boys). it’s not as likely as the rumors say though since they have different types

speaking of girls, kook!jj is a total creep to girls. at parties, he scans the crowd for his prey and descends like a hawk, following them around the whole time, playing up his harmless goofy persona, dragging them into drinking games so she can “loosen up”, offering to drive her home (if she came with friends, it’s a 50/50 chance they’ll let him take their girl home)

jj tends to gravitate towards pogue girls and says they’re “less trouble” than kook girls. he can do whatever he wants without having to worry about the girls running their mouths about it because they know they should be thanking him for even entertaining them

jj does not hate pogues as much as rafe; yeah, he thinks he's better than them, but he doesn't hate them. he will join in on whatever harassment bordering on crime rafe pulls, but only under two circumstances; if the act is interesting enough, he'll do it. if he's bored, he might do it

kook!jj has a morbid sense of humor, the type that makes people question if he’s joking or confessing a crime. it’s not edgelord shit and it doesn’t have the cadence of a joke; it’s just him saying something with a straight face and laughing at everyone’s reaction. he’s met with awkward chuckles, sighs of relief, and shoulder shoves, but they still don’t know if he was just fucking with them or sharing his dark thoughts

loves messing with rafe, though if you were to ask him, he would deny it. truthfully, he hates when rafe acts like the perfect kook king, it grinds his gears cause he knows that's not who he is and thinks he's shit at pretending to be that guy, especially in front of parents and some tourons (it's also a bonus that he gets to see him crash out)

a bunch of the boys are gathered around a mini bonfire well after the party's ended. jj suggested the game 'smash or pass' for seemingly no reason, but rafe knows better. nothing jj does is innocent or an afterthought.

jj takes a swig from their shared flask and passes it back to some guy he's already forgotten the name of. he claps, “okay, my turn, smash or pass… sarah.”

“dude what the fuck is wrong with you?”

“what? i’m just playing the game. plus i’m sure rafe’s dying to know which one of his friends wants to fuck his sister. isn’t that right raf-”

he’s sucker punched.

“jesus!” “fuck man!”

“fuck you jj.” he stomps off, ignoring topper’s calls for him to come back.

some guys he recognizes from his gym class help him up. he wipes the dirt off his legs, pushes his hair back, and grins.

“well that’s his answer. how ‘bout you fellas?”

does not get along with topper at all, thinks he’s slimy and pathetic. it’s why he loves to riling him up, whether it be flirting with sarah or calling him a punk ass bitch to his face

kook!jj is in a situationship (if you can even call it that) with figure eight’s resident outcast, weird girl!kook. they officially meet at midsummers; he snuck away to smoke and saw her smoking in his spot while sketching. he tried his usual technique on her, but she was very uninterested and didn't even try to keep the conversation flowing. he called her a 'bitch' and she laughed, he asked what she was sketching; she showed him a disturbingly accurate drawing of him no more than a couple minutes ago and the rest is history

kook!jj reacts better to the news of chandler not being his father than jj does to the news of luke not being his father. part of him always knew that chandler was too different, too cold, to be his father; he's more shocked that his mother had the balls to cheat on him

jj tries to kill chandler after finding out he tried to kill his mother when she found out she was pregnant with him

chandler tried to talk his way out of it, but jj was not having it; he knew who his father was—a conman, a liar, and a thief. he knew the man was just biding his time before jj got bored of entertaining his final words and pulled the trigger when he dropped the bomb of his true parentage on him. he uses jj's shock make his escape

kook!jj who pogues and kooks alike can agree is an agent of chaos