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Burning Rotten Bridges
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#mianmian#nie mingjue#jin guangyao#JGY is nothing but outwardly calm and carrying on his duties as the chair for the meeting#but in that small pause after Nie Mingjue commemorates Mianmian for leaving...you can feel the tension.#Because Nie Mingjue comes from a place of privilege. He's always been in a position where his legitimacy and political standing-#-were never challenged. He didn't have to fight for respect. He was born into this world respected.#For people like Mianmian and JGY who clawed their way up from the bottom...this is a huge deal.#Truth be told I have a lot of things to say about what it means and feels to be in a position where leaving is messy.#There are times where the situation is bad but to leave means that those years of your life will have been for nothing.#That all the other suffering incurred will be fruitless. So you just *keep going*. Because it *has* to be worth it.#Because going back to what you were before is even more terrifying than the hell you are boiling in.#My concrete example for this is post-grad academia.#Because that cohort will have spent over a decade pursuing a goal and leaving means...well...it means throwing away those years.#It means losing (likely nearly all) your connections. It means going into debt you'll never pay off.#It means putting up with some pretty heinous abuse from your supervisor because what are you suppose to do? Leave?#Leaving is for those with the privilege to have options.#And even if you do have options...#Ultimately we would rather love the pain we know than risk the unknown. Hoping it's worth it one day.#With that mindset established; never say JGY should have just left like Mianmian. He couldn't. This was what he dedicated his life to.#He never had the option. Even if it seemed like he did - no he did not. He never conceived this ending ever happening for himself.
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Hello!! First of all, I just wanna say I absolutely ADORE your art it looks so yummy :3
Second, I had an art request! I would love to see a Christmas scenario of the tadc cast making cookies, I think it would be super chaotic and fun to see :)
Again, your art is amazing!!



I’m dearly sorry that it took this long to answer
so much so Christmas is over
I hope you’ll still see this tho anon:(
And thank you for liking my art!
#Again im so so sorry#You sent this on the 12th#Which is plenty of time for me to work with#Never too late to celebrate Christmas ig#To be fair it is more likely that hes (jesus) born in spring than winter anyways#Pardon me and my horrendous time management#I’ve just accepted that im really slow at this point#I’ll get around to all the requests eventually#eventually…#tadc fanart#tadc gangle#tadc ragatha#tadc pomni#Tadc kinger#tadc jax#tadc zooble#the amazing digital circus#gooseworx#tadc#glitch productions#tadc bubble#I totally forgot abt caine’s existence my bad#tadc art#tadc fandom#There should have been 2 more mini scenes but i didn’t have enough time#For reasons you'll soon find out later
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authority has only found me appealing because they've always known i'd make a great cog in the machine
#dandy's doodles#professor layton#henry ledore#the caption comes from one of the pages i wrote with my left hand a bit of a while back#the page begins saying 'henry scares me in that he is my future should my success continue into the capitalist hellscape of adulthood'#and i do think about henry a lot in terms of capitalism and anxiety and success/survival. and my dad#i'm very similar to my dad in a lot of ways. the page could've just as well said:#'my dad scares me in that he is my future should my success continue into the capitalist hellscape of adulthood'#he is so very responsible and organized and diligent and hardworking. and so very very stressed#all of which i know i'll have to be if i'm going to survive/be successful (which to me are the same thing)#henry is very similar to my dad for being all of those things. and similar to me for having the fear of having to be them#part of him just wants to be a little kid i think. he doesn't wanna grow up and work himself to death but he knows that's his destiny#to quote the page again: 'i was born to be perfect or die trying. natural selection will mean the certain extinction of my inner child'#he wants to be safe and loved. he doesn't wanna be an adult. but he's been forced to embody the pinnacle of adulthood#and thus he ends up proving everyone who enforced his obedience 'right'#he's been beaten and molded into the model adult#he was never taught to expect love so he learned to survive (and succeed) without it. which is very economical#in a strange way then henry is one of capitalism's most prized products isn't he?
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If yu ziyuan had been a character in a different story set when she was younger I'd be on here making posts about her like "she would NOT fucking have kids" because genuinely the worst thing you could do to that woman was make her a mother. Except in the story she's in she is a mother. And that's what's wrong with her.
#mdzs#yu ziyuan#deeply cruel. never seen a woman who should NOT have had kids this badly.#like the jiang parents marriage specifically has a lot of problems and divorce being a good option in universe would have solved many thing#but yzy should not have had kids with ANYONE.#very thankful for the existence of the jiang siblings but unfortunately in a better world they would not have been born#sorry kiddos unfortunately you're stuck in a thought experiment about the non-identity problem
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quillkiller were described by dumbledore respectively as “enchantingly nasty” and “dear bellatrix who plays with her food before she eats it.” ⋆˚✿˖°* the new wave im on is that rita wrote that 900 page tell all on dumbledore bc they had history, she thought he didn’t help bellatrix when she needed it, idk, you don’t do that unless u hate someone’s guts. she basically spit on his grave lol
#quillkiller#it’s always ‘they were born evil to the wrong family’ and never ‘they were an eleven year old who spent the majority of the year at boardin#school and could and should have been helped by adults who were raising them especially if their parents sucked’#that book was the diss track she had been waiting years to release….her magnum opus
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thinking about haven, ruby sounding just like her mother and that being enough for raven to open a portal so cinder can shoot a fireball at ruby.
it's a grudge thing. both raven and cinder have a grudge against a rose.
a different kind, of course, and for different reasons, but at its core... it's there. and when i think about cinder, being told by salem to not kill ruby but finding ways to circumvent her orders, ultimately succeeding with ruby falling into a black void, something everyone thought meant death...
it wasn't, though. ruby is back on remnant, same as ever but also different, in a way. a process has happened, even if it's not outwardly apparent.
then there's summer's mission that raven was present for. taking into account summer's attitude towards raven before the mission had truly even began, the way she was framed during the scene, and the way raven views summer in the present, safe to say something went terribly wrong between the two; their friendship completely broken as the result.
it doesn't really matter who started it, but if these parallels are intentional, my gut says summer—just as cinder's grudge against ruby began at the top of the beacon tower, summer shot first; "if you're going to shoot me, shoot me. that was insulting."
the fight ends just as it did between cinder and ruby at the bridge, with summer hanging above a pool of darkness, with raven the opportunity to take the high road, to be the bigger person, only to be the cause for why summer ultimately fell.
and maybe, had raven stayed around for longer, she might have seen summer crawl her way back out from what everyone believes to be a certain death. of course, there's always the possibility that raven knew afterwards thanks to her semblance, but we haven't been given any strong reason to believe raven has a bond with summer, no confirmation of any kind despite there being opportunities to do so.
in a way, i would find it poetic if she didn't. raven's semblance is so tied to her 'one save' rule (no matter how bullshit it may or may not be when push comes to shove) that there's something about her saving those she's bonded with, but the one person she isn't gets the opposite.
#rwby#ruby rose#summer rose#cinder fall#raven branwen#maidens and silver-eyed warriors#“you should have never threatened me. and you... should have never been born.”#<- except it's said to one person not two
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twin aus are fun bc sukuna is sooooo ugly and yuuji is soooooooo pretty and beautiful and lovely <3 completely understand why sukuna ends up the deliquent loser twin bc why would anybody choose him when <3yuuji<3 is right there
#this is a sukuna hate post 😐 the first of many to come.#ive been hating on geto (and will.) but you all should know i dont fuck with that ugly ass BITCH either!!!!!#itadori twin au is so fun in my head bc not only is sukuna the ugly loser degenerate twin he's also Younger than yuuji (by like. and hour..#it was probably hard to birth his big ass head) but like. yuuji is born at 11 something pm one night and sukuna is at 12 am the next day#so they NEVER celebrate their birthdays together as they SHOULDNT! cant blame yuuji for that !!!!#see also: sukuna hates and claims he can beat up all of yuuji's friends except nobara#bc when they were 4 he was mean to her and she took a hammer to his shoulder and he has never forgotten it#he's all talk 🙄 fraud watch#see also: choso doesnt usually interfere with the twins arguing except when sukuna does too much and now he has to be all Big Brother#it's also extremely hilarious to imagine youre dating yuuji and you two stop by his house#and hes like ah fuck he's here.. he's not supposed to be here 🙄 lets go! and ur like wait who is here what's going on#and too late. sukuna comes out of his room and hes on his way out and ur like what. who. yuuji what the fuck just happened#and hes like that was my brother..#and ur like. u... have a brother.... a twin brother? and NOBODY told me?????#and yuujis like yeah in an ideal world i would have never needed to bring him up 🙄
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some recent avatars!
as someone with the chronic struggle to conceptualize my own face i always find it interesting how i decide to depict myself in game (it usually boils down to whatever i think is 'cool' instead of whatever looks like 'me')
(im just really happy with the styling on the love nikki one)
#tomodachi life#mii#love nikki#style savvy#style savvy fashion forward#when i was in middle school i hated myself so much i stopped looking in mirrors#disgusted by my own visage#i stopped recognizing who was in the mirror due to misuse#i dont hate myself anymore#quite the opposite#but that weird uncanny feeling of looking in the mirror never went away#lol i wonder if its bc i should have been born a boy#who said that#i would LOVE to draw more love nikki outifts ive made but i HATE DRAWING DETAILED OUTFITS LEAVE ME ALONE
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your occasionally x-files posts I come across are tempting me to watch it for the first time.......I do not have time for that but I am thinking about it.....
u gottaaaa ... the episodes are all different cases so its very easy to watch one at a time. you could watch the pilot and thats it and you'd still have a good time.
#theyre very satisfying.. which is surprising bc like they almost always end on a 'well! guess we'll never know!'#lmao#ive been watching like 1 or 2 eps a day#its not really a show thats meant to be binged#BUT U SHOULD#its really good#its also really funny bc its like 30 years old#like wow guys have u heard of thsi show... (<- extremely popular before i was even born)#asks
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yes mutuals i am doing super well don't worry about me
#hastily covers sketchbook filled with drawings of jamie miller#as if drawing him enough will make me feel better.#as if drawing him enough will change some part of our shitty reality.#as if i can fix the problem with these doodles.#big weird long vent here ->#i see a lot of myself in jamie miller. i see him as a mirror of what i could've been if i was born AMAB.#i also grew up with not quite outright abusive; but neglectful parents#i grew up with a father with terrible anger issues and a mother who was emotionally neglectful with a facade of caring.#i grew up with not enough attachment to either of them.#i was never shown how to open up to adults. every time i was never valued or supported. and so i stopped.#i grew up not knowing how to talk to adults about my feelings. i coped by dumping all my things on my child friends.#things i really should have gone to adults about. things i should have gone to a counsellor about.#things i needed help for. many of my friends were in similar situations and thus did the same thing.#and when i was ostracised from irl social groups i too turned to online communities.#i didn't end up in the manosphere#but i did get abused multiple times. i did get myself into toxic places and mindsets. i stayed for longer than i should've.#i am a trans man#i want nothing more than to have been born AMAB#(my personal experience - not all trans men!)#but i wonder what i would be if i was. would i too be a murderer? would i become that?#i feel a certain fondness for Jamie that i can't describe.#he is no sociopath and he is no saint. i do not think he should be idolised or demonised.#i want to hold him and cry. for myself. for him. for Katie. for the real people this happens to. for his family. for my own.
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An Idea that is also admittedly OOC but wdyd is…
Kakashi actually tracking down Itachi immediately after the Uchiha Genocide ‘cause let’s face it, he’s that good of a tracker/shinobi (even if Itachi can completely kick his ass) and single-minded when in mission-mode and was clearly not one of the ANBU/Root or S-Rank jonin enlisted for this. (If he’s going rogue instead of bending the rules for a half-hearted sanctioned pursuit? Call it his Obito&Rin Guilt Complex + remaining guilt over not keeping a better eye on his “junior” when Minato literally dragged Kakashi out of that life for a time so he could recover a bit mentally.)
Anyway. Kakashi catches up to Itachi.
But instead of finding the tween prodigy hypervigilent in bloodlust and ready to engage him in a battle, he accidentally finds the kid mid-breakdown absolutely losing it in grief and guilt once Itachi presumed he was a good distance away from any Konoha or Atasuki pursuers.
And well. This is awkward. And not at all what Kakashi expected.
Does this finally knock Kakashi a bit out of his avoidant apathy to take a more active interest in Sasuke’s and Naruto’s lives? Maybe? But well, it’s a start. Only trash abandon their comrades.
#naruto au#kakashi hatake#itachi uchiha#sasuke uchiha#naruto uzumaki#listen we got teased with this at times especially when sasuke first got his cursed seal#anyway. force the issue with this guy actually taking being a jonin sensei more seriously well before he officially becomes their sensei#(and obviously sakura isn’t even MORE neglected because I Say So)#(and actually gets the basics of genjutsu and elemental chakra molding taught to her before the chunin exams)#(because sure she will never have the chakra wells of either the uchiha or uzumaki clans)#(BUT neither does kakashi. and sakura could have been a prodigy in her own right if she weren’t a neglected civilian born shinobi)#(anyway. if kakashi had more of an emotional connection to the boys#(then he should have had a more practical one with sakura considering her potential skillset is extremely similar to his#(only with less chakra (only he had a head start she never had with his father training him + total war mentalities))#(and with far more precise control coming intuitively to her than it did to him)
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alright my review. they basically retold the story of season 3 but without the interesting characters and without the quality plot. that’s why it’s not great. the premise is very good but the overarching storyline? we have seen it before and actually executed better.
#wouldn’t have minded the return of Fisk if they actually explained it#I actually wouldn’t have minded the general repeating themes if they were explained.#part of matt’s (and to some extent all heroes that don’t kill) tragedy is that the fight never ends#so that’s something interesting to explore. so tell me why didn’t they? heather for example - completely unnecessary story to tell. when#you’re limited on time why add romance?#ntm the bank storyline or that one guy trying to take down Fisk#it’s just. could have been much better#as usual I should have been in charge#daredevil born again#daredevil#daredevil lb
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I'm so heavily anti-advertising that all pitches sound goofy silly to me/I can never take them seriously, so I have no idea how I'll manage to to advertise my game even if I do finally finish it soon-ish lol...
#Especially how so much modern media advertising is like... getting people excited about random tropes and stuff like#''Do you love enemies to lovers? Do you love sad stories that make you do a heckin CRY? Do you love big stupid dumbo muffin cake#sinnamon roll babies who are too good for this world? Have you ever wanted to read a blah blach blah" whatever stuff and it's like#... i cannot type that... I couldnt do it.. I couldn't even think of how to do it ghbjhbjh#I am such a literal person... Like I love when an advertisement is just like 'This product works well. Look at it. Buy it if you want. Ok'#You know what makes me want to read a book or watch a show or play a game? Reading a detailed plot synopsis or the full wiki page#for it and then deciding 'yeah I wouldnt mind sitting through seeing the events I just read about happen in more detail' lol#OR aesthetics. since I do often watch things JUST for the set/costume design. Sometimes I will watch stuff literally#just because I saw a picture of a costume in it that looked really cool and I want to sketch costume looks whilst watching#But aside from appearance like... little bullet point break downs of things that are in a story just ... do not do anything to me at all.#And i just hate 'selling' things to begin with. I don't want to have to convince people to like something.. they should just... like it...#LOL.. like.. just be born liking it. just like it automatically please. Dont make me beg to you like a weird little freak. So many commerci#als seem weirdly desperate and manipulative. Like those Truck/Car commercials that will have like a freaking dog crying and#a war vet in a wheelchair with the american flag in the background and a family hugging around a christmas tree or some shint and its#just like oh my GODDD... shut UPP.. you could literally not be MORE blantant about just trying to prey on peoples emotions to build#some sort of fabricated positive association with your product/brand.. begone.. Or brands having their own twitters where they post#~~relatable content~~ as a means of shallow audience endearment GGGRR..... ANYWAY.. hhrgh...................#Maybe that's something I can ask playtesters I guess like.. I feel like I don't know my own audience very well because I am not#much of a media person?? ironically.. Like I do enjoy MAKING media. But I've never been in a fandom. I've never read fanfiction. I've never#spent much time in those spaces. I've just never really had the inclination and don't personally derive much joy out of stuff like that#(since I'm already so focused on my OWN world and projects its like.. hard for me to even find the time and mental energy to expend on#others). Even when I finish a movie or game and really like it.. I just kind of like...move on? and don't really dwell on it much? At most#I will get into the worldbuilding of a piece of media and read the wiki for a while or watch Lore info or critical analysis videos. But I#never really care for or attach to the characters or the plot itself very much. So I feel like.. the way my brain works. I'm just not as#good at approaching things from that angle? Kind of like how if you're a lifelong vegetarian whos never eaten meat - you might#struggle to write an ad for fancy brand of steaks bc you'd be like... idk what meat eaters are even looking for? whats the selling point??#Which I'm not saying that I wouldn't play my own game. i AM definitely the audience for it. But it's more like.. I would play it for my own#very niche specific reasons that I think are different from what MOST people might want to play it for. So I need to somehow#tap into the minds of the Majority who play things for Normal Reasons than pure lore collection or whatever lol.
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harry kim is not from south carolina. someone is lying.
that man is californian.
star trek, you can't just say that someone is from somewhere, okay. you have to show it!
garrett wang wasn’t selling it. he wasn't trying to sell it. i guessed he was from california, and i was right because harry kim comes off as very californian.
bones is from georgia. and he is a bonifide mint julep drinkin' georgia man. deforest kelley was from georgia and he knew what he was doing.
but harry kim?
as a south carolinian, no. just no.
it may work for other people (who aren't from south carolina ig), but when i saw he was supposed to be from south carolina, i was damn near offended.
i would have believed tom paris was from south carolina before harry kim.
#i can't get over it. he's not from here. even after a damn near apocalypse. he's not SC born and raised#harry kim#star trek: voyager#it may have not been considered an important aspect of his character but it SHOULD have been#where is my south carolinian rep? not here for sure.#robert duncan mcneill is from north carolina i just found out#i knew it wasn't quite south carolina but i'd've taken it#i know southerners.#and i am. for some damn reason. still proud to be southern#harry just don't talk right. the way he uses words. syntax. accent. vocabulary. inflection!#none of it south carolinian in any of south carolinas many variations#i can't even put it off as him being from metro greenville#not. even. greenville.#he doesn't go here!#that man has known excellent public transportation his entire life#has never learned how to deal with a gator and has never eaten one#he wouldn't survive in a swamp. not even hell hole swamp.#couldn't catch a catfish or prepare one#i've never been to california or really even left the east coast. so i can't really say what they do out there#but i have lived in the low country - midlands -and upstate of SC#lowcountry 🔛🔝#i'm not actually mad. they may have not even told the actor or decided kim was from south carolina when the show was airing#south carolina#star trek
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Some people in this fandom claim that they want complex characters, but they can't even handle Bellara.
"Why does Bellara, a Dalish elf, feel guilty over what her ancestors did?"
Like, do you understand that she says something like that in that one dialogue cutscene because she is falling apart under absolutely unimaginable circumstances, and people feel and say irrational things when they're in a crisis? Do you understand that sometimes people need to work through complicated emotions that aren't actually facts? Have you never experienced self-loathing thoughts based on where you live or where you come from?
#I keep seeing this one over and over and it's driving me crazy#maybe the devs should have utilized the notifications more - add explanations to all dialogue cutscenes explaining that#''hey this is not what we actually think but this character is going through some difficult shit right now''#then again last I've seen this take recently it was in the same post#that also says that you're automatically privileged in Tevinter just because you're born a mage#so they think Neve (?????) is also privileged and it is never addressed and that is bad etc.#like no shade (or maybe a little shade) but I really think some should go and replay the older games to refresh their memory#instead of just talking about the games and about how they remember them fondly#like#Dorian has a whole conversation in Inquisition#dedicated to explaining how you can be a mage and a slave or second class citizen because bloodlines and houses are everything in Tevinter#but I digress#fandom wank#fandom critical#I'm not saying sorry any more#I've been feeling like shit physically and mentally for weeks now (it's getting better I think)#and so maybe I'm a little irrational and emotional too#I've decided to be insufferable as a treat
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