#short term planning

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

got a worm nibbling my brain. can someone help me find a piece of obscure media?

webcomic/indie comic from the 2010s. basically a sci-fi short story about a young girl (with red hair?) who was being raised by scientists as part of an experiment. she receives a haircut/has her head shaved, in preparation for her annual brain scan/testing. it is revealed that while her body is human, her "brain" is artificial, made of computer implants throughout her skull and spine. at some point her biological mother (also a scientist on the same campus?) encounters her and is repulsed, viewing her as a machine who has murdered her daughter.

it was very poignant and it bruised my heart and i can NOT find it anywhere

[bunnieswithknives]

The sillies!! Might gonna change Demon Laios' design later and I still need a name for whatever this AU is

[dykedvonte]

RE: Your post on the AU of Jimmy being in the cockpit rather than Curly.

I think that Curly would think that Jimmy was reaping what he had sown, but in a way would feel a twisted sense of relief that Jimmy was brought down by his own actions rather than Curly himself having to be the "executioner" in the situation, so to speak.

With "taking responsibility" and the fix-it mentality that he and Jimmy share being the overarching theme, compounded with Jimmy flat out insinuating that all of his crimes on the Tulpar will be "Curly's tragedy" in that one scene, I think Curly would almost find comfort in the irony that the choice was forcibly taken away from him. Which in itself is messed up, but it might be a bit cathartic. There's an interesting polarizing dynamic within Curly's relationship to his own responsibility in that it's his greatest burden and the thing he, too, avoids the most.

I don't think Curly would find any relief in this actually. While Curly didn't/doesn't like the responsibility he had, he defiantly doesn't avoid it, he just goes about it in a weird way.

A thing I noticed is that its less about taking responsibility with Curly and really what that responsibility meant objectively and then subjectively to Curly. The leniency that he applies to Jimmy also applies a bit to the others as well. He thinks his responsibility is more towards keeping the peace and things in order more than dolling out punishment. He has even more choices to make and responsibilities as he literally has to make sure they survive/ration long enough to be saved. Or figure out how to save them himself. The correct issue with Curly and responsibility is the prioritization in his head. He sees the big picture and prioritizes that. He doesn't notice the little things that he should but it's not a active dismissal, perhaps not even conscious despite how dismissive he seemed. He takes too much responsibility, espcially in regards to Jimmy, and I think this situation is when he realizes that is also a bad thing as he can't "fix" all of his wrongs.

I think he'd regret not making a choice, because in the end this happened because he wouldn't directly choose who to comfort and help. He tried to help both and ended up doing nothing for either and letting Jimmy fuck them all over. In this scenario/au he's thinking about all the times he let Jimmy inadvertently make his choice, and how he chose to let it happen. He regrets all of it and would be so bitter that he was giving his choice up for so long. He chose wrong and it affected everyone. The only thing he'd find cathartic is the fucked up truth it will never happen again, not with Jimmy at least.

But he's not happy he's getting joy from that. I think it's a point not a single character other than Jimmy is depicted at deriving joy from another's pain. Even Swansea is being more sarcastic when he cheers on Curly about crashing the ship and ending his sobriety. He's happy Jimmy was forced to take responsibility, but this? He wanted him to learn a lesson and do something with himself, this is hollow in a way it's just embittering. Jimmy didn't get what he wanted, he can be happy about that but no one else did. This isn't justice or closure for Anya, he's stuck in a place he was so desperate to leave with even more pressure on his shoulders. Daisuke is just a kid and Swansea doesn't deserve this after all his year making himself a better man.

Like in his sections, Curly is preoccupied thinking about all the responsibilities he has, taking on things he shouldn't have to and trying to keep the peace when he doesn't have peace in his own mind.

[veerbles]

the end of ck is like, if you are a protagonist whose main character arc is being haunted by your dead brother and your friend has just recently developed powers allowing her to raise people from the dead, is it really a coincidence or is it just the doomed narrative coming for you?

[writterings]

hate when therapists get suspicious when you're well educated on mental health and/or are self aware. sir i live here. of course i'm going to be able to articulate myself well about my mental illness. that does not mean im making it up.

[teethands]

a brief demonstration of a mod i have been working on. rory's gargoyles; most gargoyles will serve both a decorative purpose and a utility purpose as shown

[icewindandboringhorror]

recent lounging babey images

[yasmindifference]

cheer up prompts

I need to cheer myself up so send me a number between 1 and 50 and I'll write you a five sentence fic*

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[waitingforsecretsouls]

This remains one of my favourite Traumerei moments and overall moves to date and it still makes me mad that despite this very scene I had to endure weeks of Traumerei slander about the existence of said tournament and how stupid Traumerei was for throwing it while the arc was ongoing💀

Traumerei canonically thought it was childish nonsense and immediately concocted a nearly fool-proof murder plot for every single participant other than his intended winners before it could even officially commence and yet still got blamed for SIU's choice to include it as a plot-point in the first place 😭

90% of Traumerei slander seems based on his role in the narrative as a seemingly immovable obstacle (that ultimately will have to be removed nonetheless of course) and the necessary pitfalls that come with it rather than his specific character as demonstrated in the story, and turning said necessary pitfalls into a personal failing of Traumerei's even while Traumerei himself is actively working against them and constantly choosing the most ruthless and direct options possible (as opposed to Gustang, who gets his wins handed to him by necessity of his narrative role, regardless of level of actually demonstrated ingenuity or intelligence, except no one cares about it in his case, and you can quote me on that!).

It's frustrating because despite of this limitation I think SIU is doing a wonderful job of making Traumerei competent and intimidating whenever he's actually motivated to act, in ways that don't even rely on throwing the most shinsu around. Independent from whatever shenangians him and Zahard got up to back in the day, Traumerei started severly from the backfoot against Gustang in their present day conflict, who had millennia to plan and move basically unimpeded in the current matter, all the way back to preserving Enryu's Thorn and the inner Floor of Death to contain it. And despite this, he scores plenty of surprises and small to large scale wins against Gustang (the most lackluster aspect associatable with him are the independent moves and performances of the Branch Heads, whom Traumerei canonically never cared about and considered pathetic, so🤷‍♀️)!

But fandom at large often seems to ignore or downplay that to hell and back to hype Gustang and his nonexistent feats instead.

[cecilyacat]

Ah yes, we are finally back at the stage of "too many creative ideas too little time"

Which honestly I prefer to "no creative mojo at all" which was the case until a couple of weeks ago 😒

[starrysharks]

whos draculette bloodbelle ❓❓ i saw a post on her once and now im curious, is she a scratched character or is it something too spoiler-y? ❤️🧛

draculette's fate is actually up in the air right now haha - she was originally a one-off character from a planned chapter where she acts as octavia's rival and seduces onion, but i doubt she'll stay around as that chapter as it was planned doesn't really fit in well with the rest of reassass in terms of tone and characterisation. i might redesign her and try to fit her in somewhere though, but i can't confirm anything ^_^

[sakura-code]

So my brain has come up with an evil, evil AU idea for Rain Code because it’s spooky month, and I am prepare for the mob that is no doubt going to come after me after I shared it.

So what if Yuma had died in the sub explosion, and was ‘revived’ as a Homunculus by Makoto?☺️😈

[lunarscaled]

also I wanted to make a little memo: I'll be updating Lyric's age in real time from here out. So, starting as of last week, Lyric's age in their main verse will be adjusted to 20, and their story will progress in real time accordingly!

all other verses will remain starting at 19, and be open to Lyric aging as time passing is appropriate for the plot. there's a lot of verses/plots where Lyric would have had a birthday over the course of time ( ex. TWST, Genshin, Hellsing, TriMax, Hades, etc )

I'll also be updating more of the meat and potatoes details of their story in its seperate acts, since who knows when I'll finish the comic. this is to make Lyric's complete story more accessible to people to interact with.

[jonsaremembers]

I bought my parasocial social club shirt a size too large but that just means I'll be able to wear it forever even if I get pregnant again

[happyfeetfuryroad]

It's 100% pedantic and unnecessary on my part but I can't help but push back in my head when people analyze Ed and Stede's first time and say it was "the wrong decision"/"a bad idea"/"[something that] shouldn't have happened"

It may be because I'm an AuDHD trying to break free of the mind prison that is perfectionism, but I object to the idea that something that is good and wanted and needed in the moment is "the wrong idea" just because it has unwanted consequences afterwards. Delayed gratification is a nice idea in theory, but your brain just doesn't work like that sometimes. Sometimes your ability to be patient and work towards long term goals is nonexistent because you're too fucking stressed to handle that kind of work. To punish yourself for giving into short term pleasure is to deny the fact that you cannot bend your brain to arbitrary plans without accounting for your own needs.

Stede and Ed were always destined to fail to take things slow, one way or another. They're not in an environment where they're allowed to go at their own pace. External forces keep trying to pull them apart and end their lives. They got tortured along with their entire crew just when they thought they could relax and enjoy themselves for once. Stede killed a man in cold blood and broke down over it. Of course their plans to take things slow fell apart. They nearly lost each other and saw each other suffer in ways they hadn't before - of course they wanted, no, needed intimacy. Who wouldn't, in their place?

Yes, this does complicate things for them afterwards. Yes, Ed regrets it. But hindsight is 20/20. It's easy to fixate on one thing that didn't go according to plan and blame it for every problem you're having at the moment. The truth is that the problems they're having (Ed wanting to give up the pirate life while Stede leans more and more into it) would have surfaced eventually either way, and there's no guarantee that them not having sex would have made things any easier.

[pochapal]

clocks changed and now it's bright out at 7pm