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April 2, 2023 4:08 pm
You took my ring and the cash out of my wallet.
I'm so heart broken. We were supposed to get married tomorrow! Wasn't that important to you?! I'm so tired of this repeating cycle! I have treated people I hated better than you treat me!
I called your mom and she's tired of it too. She says it has to be a choice at this point, but if that's true, why would you choose to make everyone want to avoid you? You hate to be alone. I don't understand and I probably never will. I don't know where to go from here with you.
Your addiction to herion is not my fault, even if you try to convince me that it is. Today, you said you got high because I asked you last night if you were okay. I only asked because you were shaking your leg and biting your nails. It seems to me that the question itself wasn't the cause, but maybe the love behind it.
Do you dislike being loved? Is that your trigger?
No, I don't think that's right because you did herion long before I introduced my love to you. In fact, that's what you told me you were looking for: "I just need love, man. I swear, that's all it would take to get me off this shit. I try to fill the empty space with it, but it doesn't help. I just want to feel loved."
I wish I wasn't so naive.
#journals#heroin#diary#love and addiction#notebooks#courthouse wedding#mad at your addiction#shoot your local heroin dealer#advice please#opiod crisis#bender#loving an addict#hell on earth#satans playground#slow#love isnt enough#when to give up#is enough enough
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Fueudbsigj!;8/),72 this guy on Grindr sent me a face pic with them wearing a shirt that says Shoot your local heroin dealer?
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I had reached the point where I was shooting heroin at least 6 or 7 times a day, and ask any user just how much a habit you need 6 or 7 shots of a day costs. It doesn't matter if you're banging the cheapest drug you can find. A habit like that will always be expensive. In my case it was around $100-150 a day. I wasn't working, not in the normal sense I suppose. I was on a disability check but that never lasted long after I got it. My addiction had grown large enough to wipe out $1,000 in only a few days. The typical $50 sack of heroin was about 0.3 grams or 0.4 if your dealer was kind. More often than not though it was rare to see even a whole 0.3. Based on a daily habit of $100-$150 I was using about a gram a day. To any heroin addicts standards that is a significant amount especially if it's decent product. It got stepped on once in a while but generally it was pretty good. Another thing people tend to forget about heroin addiction is weight loss. I had been small and slim my whole life so slipping from 120lbs to 105 wasn't too noticeable except when you took the time to look at yourself in a mirror before getting in the shower. I had become emaciated bad. Not only had my drug addiction consumed every penny, the fact i was living in a trap house at the time with junkies, addicts, thieves, hookers, and lots of crazy people coming and going all day and all night, feeling any kind of security while you slept was nonexistent. I'd been woken up by U.S. Marshall's with a 12 gage shot gun in my face, I'd had the sheriff's department bust in a couple times, and the local pd and drug task force didn't even bother knocking when they came in, they were there so often that they just walked in whenever they wanted. It was not the kind of place anyone would be proud to live. Truthfully it was very embarrassing by any standard. But little did I know that my future had places much much worse in store for me, soon I'd be facing places no one ever wants to be.
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Grief is the price we pay for love. The harder the grief, the deeper the love.
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Don't get snowed in without some powder of your own 😉
#Heroin#Drugs#Drug stash#Drug stashes#Gun powder#pnw#pugetsound#Seattle#Tacoma#WA#nod squad#Junkie#Junkies#Dog poop#In nod we trust#Shoot your local heroin dealer#Drug dealer
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In October of 2020, my father overdosed in the bathtub and drowned.
In December of 2020, my little brother was taken by ambulance to the hospital for coughing up blood. What I was led to believe was it was a complication or something to do with the drugs that were in his system at the time, I will never know because my baby brother is now dead. His girlfriend at the time decided to find him a way home from the hospital, against doctor’s wishes, where he went home and finished the rest of the bag and died. My step dad found him on the floor of his bedroom.
Friday around 3pm, I left town for Tampa to visit with my friend for his birthday celebration. We all returned to his apartment around 3am, fed and ready for sleep.
Saturday morning, around 730
am, someone from work is calling my phone saying a manager of the location my mom works at is hysterically crying and she can’t understand the words she’s saying. I call, and she tells me that my mother overdosed and was taken to the hospital. They administered narcan to her and she regained consciousness before they took her away.
less than 36 hours before this incident, my mom spent 2 hours telling me how she’s not on drugs and how everyone at work is conspiring against her.
Now I’m left here, trying to make all these arrangements for my mother to go to rehab, and trying to figure out just how I can help her get herself and her life together.
and if i can’t make arrangements for her living, I’ll be left making the arrangements for her after she ends up dying.
alone.
in the funeral home.
an ophan.
because of heroin.
#trigger warning#addiciton#overdose#heroin#shoot your local heroin dealer#lost#alone#tired#scared#personal
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Celebrate life
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I'm really tired of people i know dying from overdose.
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Amidst all of this political unrest, at least we can all agree on two things: 1. Punch your local Nazi 2. Shoot your local heroin dealer
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@alexisstaytrill-blog i miss you miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you
i just want to hear your voice man FUCK
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You are SO smart & witty; you're funny with the most contagious laugh. Your eyes are made out of sunlight and your smile radiates how warm your heart is. You hold the stars, my love and they all shine for you. ♡
You deserve a better story than the one Heroin has you writing. It breaks my heart to see how tired you are. I just wish you could see you the way I do.
#diary#heroin#love and addiction#i love him#opiod crisis#shoot your local heroin dealer#soberity#dancing with the devil#sunshine#words#writing#journals#notebooks#love letter: my true feelings#i love you the moon
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Another wild thing I saw while at work today:
Got behind a dude in a Pickup Truck™️ who was clearly… y’know. Like That. And one of his stickers said “shoot your local heroin dealer” which. I mean, fair I guess? But the kicker on this was. On a chain around the hitch on the back of his truck were these two very big hex nuts. And it… took me a second to realize that. Like. They’re truck nuts. But they’re hex nuts. And. It was just. Hm.
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𝗗𝗼𝗽𝗲 𝗦𝘁𝗼𝗿𝗶𝗲𝘀 #3: NARCOPISOS Inc. /Barcelona narcopisos, a necessary evil
The 3rd episode of Dope Stories is the most in-depth investigation of the series, so much that it took me nearly 3 years to gain the trust and respect of my contacts and more importantly, to get relevant insights about the local drug market and its players to show, under a different angle than mainstream media, what’s happening behind the closed doors of the Ciutat Veilla’s narrow streets.
Playground 1 - Raval, Barcelona / 2018 / iPhone
“Drugs are ruining our neighborhood! “, “Narcopisos are disrupting the real estate market!” , “ We don’t feel safe!”…
Those are the slogans or headlines you see in the media or written on banners hanging from people’s balconies.
“Narcopisos are filthy and dangerous!”
But are they though?
FOREWORD
Before getting started, I wanted to write a few words about Barcelona. After living more than a decade in New York, my wife and I moved to Catalan capital for about 4 years. After reading this article you might think that I m not particularly fond of the town and its inhabitants. I won’t lie, we didn’t receive the warmest welcome, especially from Catalans. This said, the town and its vibe are unique and galvanizing. Very much like Marseille (my hometown), Barcelona is an harbor city with the port/marina right in the center, meaning: lots of traffics, smuggling, immigration, corruption, drugs etc… There is always “something going on”, if you catch my drift. Shady, nasty, funny, ugly, beautiful, vulgar, the cast of “pirate-like” characters gravitating around the city center is fascinating.
Occupied - Raval, Barcelona / 2017 / Nikon 3200
As far back as I can remember, I’ve always been drawn toward the forbidden, the danger, the illicit, the hidden, the bad... To my eyes, “ugly” has always been more interesting than “beautiful”. Barcelona is not a dangerous city but you need to keep your guard up: pick pockets roaming the subway, gypsies asking for money on La Rambla (the city’s most touristic avenue) while releasing your back pocket from your wallet, junkies selling stolen goods or begging for change for their next fix #nextfixandchill , black people selling fake airmax on the Barcelonetta marina, drunken street fights in the early hours of the morning... Tragicomic scenes are unravelling before your eyes in an surreal backdrop: Gaudi’s most beautiful “psychedelic” buildings (Sagrafa Familia, casa pedrera, Palau Guell...) in a jungle of gothic buildings ending on a fisherman village overseeing a beautiful beachfront promenade ending with the native “star’chitect” Bofill’s famous W...
Poolside - Barcelonetta, Barcelona / 2018 / iPhone
Ok, enough with the touristic tour, time to get real!
Stairway to Hell - Raval, Barcelona / 2017 / iPhone
Embark on a descend to the heroin inferno that became Raval. From the fields of Afghanistan to the bloodstreams of Spain...
La Ruta [Spanish for “the route”]
19,414 Pakistanis live in Barcelona, 6,600 of them are established in the neighborhood: El Raval (1) meaning more than 30% of the total community. El Raval has always been my favorite barrio in town. With 47% of immigrants (2) , the mosaic of faces, cultures and shops you encounter is dazzling . Going back to the Pakistani population, I used the word “established” for a specific reason: they actually own many of the businesses in Raval: barbershop, cheap bars and restaurants, wholesale shops, import/export businesses, money transfer services (Western Union, Moneygram), food and grocery shops... I’m not accusing here the Pakistani business owners of backing the drug traffic but they basically created a web of small businesses in a tight net community with their own language, making it hard for the authorities to see through this social fabric potentially sheltering illegal activities.
Why the Pakistani population is subject to speculation and doubt from the local authorities? The answer is simple: Afghanistan. Afghanistan is by far the biggest producer of opium in the world. According to the US military, 90% of the world's heroin is made from opium grown in Afghanistan. It makes up 95% of the market in Europe (3). The country has been the leader in opium poppy production since 2001. Based on the 2014 report from the UNODC (United Nation Office on Drugs and Crime), Afghanistan not only grow opium but also process heroin in several laboratory as well as morphine (easier to produce from raw opium by adding calcium oxide and ammonium chloride). From Afghanistan, several routes are used to smuggle their prime commodities: the Balkan route has been the primary route but things are changing and the Southern route has become more and more used. Afghanistan share 2,400km of border with Pakistan and over 50% of illicit afghan opiates are trafficked through Pakistan which enjoys a a strategic location making it a perfect dispatch zone with readily accessible by land, sea (Gwadar and Karachi seaport) and air ways .
The same UNODC report also indicates that the majority (37%) of the heroin seized in Pakistan was en-route for Europe..
*** Read and/or download the full report here ***
By the way, let’s not forget that Barcelona is also one of the Camorra’s stronghold. And with Russians and Albanian mafias also present on the territory, Spain -where no powerful local crime syndicate operates and laws on prostitution and gambling are “blurred” to say the least- has become one of organize crime’s favorite playgrounds for money laundering, drug smuggling, human trafficking, gambling and prostitution... Nothing really happens here without their “green light”, but that’s another story (5)
Back to our Southern route, once the product reaches Barcelona, it becomes very hard to pin point. Narcotics coming through the Balkan route also ends up in Barcelona but in different “retailers”’ hands: Romanian family-based clans, based mostly in Besos (a run-down project in the heart of Poblenou) and occupying one single narcopisos in Raval (they have moved 3 times over the 4-year period of my “investigation”) but known to have the purest and most processed Caballo sold in town.
El Caballo [Spanish for “the horse”, street name of heroin ]
[WARNING] Most of the photographs of this post are uncensored, quite graphic and… of poor quality…. my bad, I took them. But I had circumstances: hidden cellphone, no flash, illegal activities going on, indoor, with very little to no light… Shots are not the best (no pun intended) but you’ll step right into the infamous narcopisos you’ve heard of or read about. And not once they’ve been searched and trashed by the police like you’ve seen in the press but while they are in full operation. Raw, those images might be quite shocking to some of the readers, but take the emotion out of he equation and you’ll come to realized that, for lack a better choice, narcopisos are a necessary evil. My intention here is not to start a polemic nor come out as a provocateur but to shed light on a real issue, still happening, involving real people, slowly dying, failed by a syste unable -or unwilling- to help them.
Gears - Raval, Barcelona / 2017 / iPhone
El Raval
1989, US superstar Keith Harring is in Barcelona for his exhibition on La Rambla. After speaking with an old friend of him from New York living here for awhile, he decided to paint a mural, his way to to show his love for and connection with the town. The next day, Harring chose the wall in Plaça de Salvador Segui in Raval. He was warned that the area was one of the most dangerous areas in town. Back then, in the 80’s the Spanish government had the genius idea to decriminalize the use, but not the supply, of hard drugs and did not implement any proper treatments to sustain this measure... Spaniards have ignored the issue and it sparked a heroin addiction epidemic that saw HIV rates soar (2a).The artist was attracted to the neighborhood and decided it would offer the perfect canvas for his message about the dangers of drugs and AIDS. At first it was supposed to be a temporary mural but in the end, up to this day, you can still enjoy Harring’s mural behind the MACBA museum. Below is a photograph I took of what became now hot-spot for skateboarder and cool bars
Tricks - Raval, Barcelona / 2016 / Nikon 3200
Beside its bad reputation, Raval has always been a magnet for artists and “cool kids”, misfits and outcasts but more recently the new kid on the block is named gentrification… in other word: Fun is over. Well… not quite yet. In Barcelona, everything moves slowly, gentrification included. The result is a mix of fancy hotels, art galleries, designer boutiques... mixed with prostitutes and their lovely clientele, dealers, junkies, businessmen, families of tourists wandering the streets… a fascinating mix of characters with theatrical scenes playing before your eyes: hustlers trying to rip off tourists, white collars finding themselves buying bad cocaine from a kid in a narrow, sketchy alley… the show is in the street, but not only.
The Narrows - Raval, Barcelona / 2016 / Nikon 3200
What businesses, in Barcelona, are open 24/7, have no vacancy, a steady stream of customers and a product that sells itself? The answer: Narcopisos Inc.
The phenomenon of the Narcopisos emerged in 2016 (a year after I moved to Barcelona) following Spain’s property crash. Foreclosed or unsold apartments, owned by banks and investment funds were left emptied, abandoned, in a country in full housing crisis... It wasn’t long before the vacant spaces started being squatted: some by respectable families, in need of a place to live, some by drug dealers using them as selling point and shooting gallery. A place where you can get a cheap fix in a relatively clean room.
Ritual - Raval, Barcelona / 2017 / iPhone
Helped - Raval, Barcelona / 2017 / iPhone
Thanks to my various contacts, I had access to different types of narcopisos, but from crack to dope houses, most of them were operating the same way: - a cctv video surveillance in place at the street level or someone looking out for the cops. - a room with junkies to confuse police upon arrival and make it look like they are actually squatting the place - 1 to 3 dealers serving customers one a the time. - An exit back door (if available) in case the police knocks on the front door. - One or two rooms for users. - Hourly cleaning of the premises to make the place look “decent” and “squatted” in case of a bust - Little quantity of drugs at the time, no more than 10 grams of each. - Open 24/7 - Re-up every hour or so - Single use paraphernalia available to the users - In some cases, Narcan at hand (medicine used to reverse the effect of an OD).
Cleaning Session - Career d’en Road 22, Raval, Barcelona / 2016 / iPhone
My connections in the Pakistani community took time to build but strengthen throughout the years to reached a level of trust where we came to split the bread at several occasions… no seriously, we actually got invited in their Halal “canteen” in Raval where only Pakistanis could enjoy their local cuisine, a unique experience… They also gave me access to two of their stash houses: located in legit apartments, in proper buildings, on the outskirt of Raval, close to Sant-Antoni, less prone to police check. No users there, only wholesalers, dispatching heroin to “representatives” of each narcopisos at below retail-price: between 20 and 40 euros the gram depending on the quantity purchased.
Going back to the narcopisos, some were run by junkies (where the product was often cut from the bash they were getting from the stash houses), some by pakistani or afghan immigrants, with decent quality product, some by Catalan families, living there for decades under stabilized rent and with their own connection and product of fluctuant quality. Last but not least, one narcopiso was occupied by the Romanian clan mentioned earlier. Below are some photos of one of their spot at 22 Carrer d’en Roig, later busted and walled by the Mossos d’esquadra (Catalan police)
Romanian at work - Career d’en Road 22, Raval, Barcelona / 2016 / iPhone
Boss - Career d’en Road 22, Raval, Barcelona / 2016 / iPhone
If narcopisos was selling both crack and heroin, two rooms were at the disposal of users, one for smoking their bottles or pipes and the other room to shoot up or smoke heroin on tiny pieces of foil.
Sterile hospital-like garbage disposal were available for discarding the used paraphernalia.
Bloodstream Hunt - Raval, Barcelona / 2017 / iPhone
#NextFixandChill - Raval, Barcelona / 2017 / iPhone
Everything is provided to avoid the spread of disease and the use of the drug in plain sight in the street therefore reduce public disorder.
Not that dealers became humanitarian all of a sudden, but kicking customers with their (illegal) purchase out in the street expose them to being ratted on or worst, having an overdose in plain sight attracting the police and paramedics... either way, it’s not good for business so narcopisos’ “managers” rather keep their clientele indoor until they’re done using and good to do.
Now, there is another type of business in Barcelona dealing with drug users and addiction: it’s called Centre de Dispensació de Metadona - Centre d'Atenció Primària Casc Antic (the methadone clinic in short....).
* They’re not open 24/7 but rather in the morning only * It can take up to 2 weeks to see a doctor in order to enroll in a Methadone Maintenance Treatment -MMT (true story...when a single day can be the last one for a heroin addict living in the street) * Last but not least, since the doctors and nurses’ work schedule is way more important tthan their patients’ care, some centers give up 3 to 4 days worth of supply of methadone at once to heroin users so the health workers can have their days and weekends off. The result of this amazing system: the methadone is sold in the street by users so they can buy their heroin and/or in certain case, the methadone is saved up (for rainy days) and the patient keeps using heroin instead. Yes, the patient: let’s not forget that those “filthy junkies” actually are patients (even if they’re hardly seen as such in those centers), suffering from a disease called addiction, or substance abuse disorder if you prefer the american way of calling it, and in need of medical care but what can I say... old habits die hard (both way...).
Patients taking methadone to treat opioid dependance must receive the medication under the supervision of a practitioner. After a period of stability (based on progress and proven, consistent compliance with the medication dosage) and only then, patients may be allowed to take methadone at home between program visits... but not in Barcelona.
Methadone substitution as a treatment of opioid addiction does not function as much to curb addiction as to redirect it and maintain dependency on legal channels. Methadone has been designed that way, as a lifetime treatment whereas alternative palliatives such as Buprenorphine are not even considered by doctors when those therapies would be more efficient in certain cases: with users who do not shoot the drug for example, or with users wishing to quiet and get sober... but let's be honest here, sobriety has never been the objective of those methadone programs. The real goal of this public service is not to cure addiction, but to make sure junkies don’t use, steal, rob and/or commit act of violence in the streets to feed their habits
The patient here is not the users but the society. Those centers aren’t trying to help the user quit his habit, but to make sure the society doesn’t suffer from it. Good or bad, Narcopisos are curbing down the spread of diseases, cleaning up the streets from users as they offering temporary shelter to their customers and operate around the clock.. It seems to me that their function is almost... complementary if not necessary.
So before eradicating narcopisos from the face of Raval, let’s pause and look at the alternative: junkies buying and using drugs in the streets of the city center, in the worst sanitary condition possible with no regard for the residents around.
Mañana
So what’s next? Keeping those illegal activities going on? Certainly not.
But before jumping the gun and closing it all at once, better get ready for the alternative because drug addiction will not disappear with the narcopisos. In my last article, I speak about users stigmatization and how society still struggles to see addiction as a disease and not a will power issue, turning the blind eye to a sheer amount of studies and discoveries explaining how heroin addiction, over time, modify the pathway of your brain frontal lobe and affect your decisional power, making it hard -to not say impossible- to say “no”.
Don’t take me wrong. It would be naïve to think all users roaming the streets are here trying to quit and become their better self. Most of them have no intention to do so. I’m not here to judge nor take side. But in order to find a solution to the narcopiso situation, I would like to introduce Barcelona to his neighbor: Portugal.
Portugal had one of the worst heroin epidemic in Europe back in the 90′s and after the failed many “US war on drug”-type of approaches. They finally shift approach and started treated drug addicts as patients who needed help, not as criminals” says Goulao, the architect of Portugal drug policy. After the decriminalization and treatments, they planned to open “supervised drug consumption facilities” Naina Bajekal says in her 2018 article in the Time “where drug users can consume drugs in safer conditions with the assistance of trained staff. Such facilities have been running in Europe since 1986, when the first was opened in Berne, Switzerland.”(5)
The result? Evidence (6) shows these these type of sites save lives, reduce public disorder, and curb the spread of diseases.
Does that sound familiar? Yes, that's right, the first of the two businesses we spoke about: Narcopisos Inc.
Purgatory - Carrer d’en Roig 22, Raval, Barcelona / 2017 / iPhone
For No Face No Case: Dope Stories chapter 4, we’re going to Italy. Don’t worry, it won’t be another mafia-related article explaining how the N’Drangheta and Camorra became the most powerful crime syndicates in the world, you can watch that on TV. Called “Il Racconto dei Racconti” (Tales of Tales in english), the article will keep it real, street style: short stories from North to South: Torino, Milano, Genoa, Roma, Napoli... Stay tuned for some dope stories on how drugs are sold, used and abused in the Renaissance country
References (1) https://www.barcelona-metropolitan.com/featuresx/report-barcelona-pakistani-community/ (2) https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/El_Raval (3) https://www.bbc.com/news/world-us-canada-47861444 (4)https://english.elpais.com/elpais/2018/12/07/inenglish/1544171107_204329.html (5) https://time.com/longform/portugal-drug-use-decriminalization/ (6) https://www.cbc.ca/news2/interactives/portugal-heroin-decriminalization/
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I have never felt pain like this before. My heart is in a thousand pieces and my stomach is in knots. My head won’t stop pounding and I can’t eat, I can’t sleep, I can’t even sit still- I just wander around trying to clear the clouds from my head. If you love someone tell them, hug them, remind them how much they mean to you because you never know when the time comes that you won’t have the chance. I know he’s at peace but the rest of us are left here to try to put things back together again.
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Friendly reminder to shoot your local heroin dealer in the fucking chest.
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people with "shoot your local heroin dealer" stickers on their cars are braver than any US marine
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