#shit im going to be 19 in march.

[thosepoorsoulswhodwellinnight]

recent happenings reminded me i guess of other otps involving a character played by david tennant going canon as angsty as possible and it made me rewatch rose and

I don't have words to describe what season one of dw does to me

[tateshifts]

SLYTHERIN BOYS + pansy ⋆｡˚ ੈ✩‧₊˚ dr headcanons

this is going to be about my dr and how i know the boys and a little about their background.

✮ . . . quidditch; all the boys play quidditch except enzo (he’s protecting his face from flying balls).

mattheo is a beater, player 5. theo is the captain, he’s new from this year, he’s a chaser and he’s player 10. blaise is a chaser and he’s player 2. draco is a seeker and he’s player 15.

dracos been playing since second year, but blaise and theo have been playing since third whilst mattheo joined in 4th year. the other players are, adrian pucey (keeper), graham montage (chaser) and miles bletchley (beater).

✮ . . . were all 18 turning 19 this year. my dr is still hogwarts as a school, its just with all the school years aged up? i hope that makes sense lol

mattheo was born on january 7th 2005 (capricorn) theo was born on october 28th 2004 (scorpio) blaise was born on november 28th 2004 (sagittarius) enzo was born on march 2nd 2005 (pisces) draco was born on june 5th 2005 (gemini) pansy was born on july 7th 2005 (cancer)

✮ . . . draco is 6” blaise is 6”2 mattheo is 6”5 theo is 6”4 enzo is 6”2

im not sure why they’re all so tall??? i didn’t script this so it’s probably my subconscious wanting a height difference or something. but their parents aren’t tall either from what i’ve heard so it’s a mystery ? puberty did them good.

✮ . . . these guys are so built, they take their healths so seriously when it comes to food. they train so much for quidditch, enzo trains with them sometimes too just to keep his health up. their arms, their thighs, their abs. so toned and defined. literally hench

✮ . . . the only people who can see thestrals are theo and mattheo, this is because they both witnessed the death of theo’s mother. even though theo says he’s still processing the death of his mum, he can still see these thestrals. which can only been seen only after you have processed the death you have witnessed.

my dr background with the boys + pansy

✮ . . . we’ve all known eachother since forever as we all grew up together. our parents were all ‘friends’? they weren’t friends just accomplices i guess you could say. they are business partners and they invest in eachothers work. some of our parents know eachother from school or distant family.

✮ . . . we were all kind of passed around eachothers houses LMAO there was always some kind of shit going on so we had to spend a few nights in eachothers houses, i say few but it was A LOT of nights.

✮ . . . we’ve been together 24/7 since and we almost never spend time apart. which can be overwhelming so we of course have boundaries.

thanks for reading ❦｡･:*:･ﾟ. follows, likes & reblogs are appreciated x

[gxhaode]

To all the boys I’ve loved before

Pairing: Student!ChoiYeonjunxstudent!femreaderxchildhoodbestfriend!ChoiBeomgyu

Summary: Your romantic life was practically non-existent, only having crushed on a handful of guys which never went anywhere. All of this took a turn after Yunjin, your best friend, decided to mail your crushes the letters that you wrote for them during your crushing phases. What happens when one of the letters ends up at Choi Beomgyu door, your best friend since diapers or worse, your ex best friend's boyfriends, Choi Yeonjun? Will Yunjins tactic finally get you to find love or will it just lead to disaster?

Genre: Highschool au, social media au, love triangle, light angst, fluff, crack

Warnings: swearing(this is all I can think for now but if theres anything else that you notice and think should be a warning do let me know:) )

Features: Txt, lesserafim, aespa,enhypen

Start: 10th March 2023

End: 12th July 2023

Status: Completed

A/N: I am currently in my last year of school before I start university so A LOTTT of exams are coming up so my posting days might be a bit off due to that:’) but I’ll try my best to be organized and have everything ready for u guys in time:)

Taglist:OPEN

Profiles:

Moodboards:

Y/n, Yeonjun, Beomgyu

Socials:

y/n’s bullies | skateboardclub | thechadsquad

Chapters:

Monologue

Chapter 1: I hate it here

Chapter 2: im single BY CHOICE

Chapter 3: WHOS WE💀‼️

Chapter 4: this bouta be good🍿

Chapter 5: I AM A COWARD.

Chapter 6: Message from Unknown

Chapter 7: Jesus’s doorstep

Chapter 8: DO IT

Chapter 9: he dead.

Chapter 10: Soobin the human shield🤩🛡️

Chapter 11: did that girl just faint? (Written)

Chapter 12: Man its only Tuesday

Chapter 13: Yuny/n era?🤭💗💗

Chapter 14: hes lost it😭😭

Chapter 15: oNe EyE oPen wHen YoUre SleEpinGggg

Chapter 16: r u gasslighting me rn?😀

Chapter 17: Hunting y/n for sports😍(Written)

Chapter 18: Are you mental?

Chapter 19: Get that dick y/n😩

Chapter 20: the contract

Chapter 21: just go knock?💀

Chapter 22: oh.

Chapter 23: text y/n

Chapter 24: its on

Chapter 25: you’re cute♡

Chapter 26: rebound shit😭

Chapter 27: oh bby…

Chapter 28: The scrunchie (written)

Chapter 29: no💞

Chapter 30: YOU JEALOUS BROTHA(Smau +written)

Chapter 31: its always Soobin(Smau + Written)

Chapter 32: im fine wdym

Chapter 33: wtf is going on😭

Chapter 34: Operation SS

Chapter 35: SS Shananigans

Chapter 36: Toxic Relationships(Written)

Chapter 37: Ill be here for you(Written)

Chapter 38: OH IM WORRYING

Chapter 39: Ski trip day🥳🏔️

Chapter 40: me and you<3(written+smau)

Chapter 41: never🤙🏻

Chapter 42: haters gonna hate.

Chapter 43: guys?😀

Chapter 44: Jacuzzi(Smau + Written)

Chapter 45: we need to talk (Written)

Chapter 46: preach🗣️

Chapter 47: no homo

Chapter 48: pull a y/n

Chapter 49:Endgame

Taglist: @ghostfacefricker6969 @yumilovesloona @il0vebeomgyu @curly-fr13s @blueishwoodz @kaewonie @uno7 @hyu-kas @daisyhwa @captivq @s00buwu @lixie-phoria

[xoxotaylynn]

daddy’s little girl

summary: chris is always there to help his girlfriend y/n when she needs especially when it comes to her family issues

warnings: family issues, no smut (SORRY) MAJOR FLUFF, crying, underage drinking, alcoholic dad, established relationship, abusive dad

growing up i’ve always been a daddy’s girl, my mom was always jealous. i think it stemmed from her childhood and her dad not being around much, my dad was my best friend but after my mom cheated on him he grew distant and started drinking. he didn’t leave cause apart of him will always love me like he did but he became an alcoholic, that’s when the abuse started. soon my mom left cause she could have an out but she left me with him and i resented her for that. i was in 7th grade when all this happned i didn’t know how to cope, so i stole my fathers drinks, he didn’t notice cause he thought he was just to drink to remember drinking them but i knew. then i went to high school, that’s when i met the triplets they are a year older than but we became best friends, now im 19 there going to be 20 i couldn’t move out right away when i turned 18 i had no money, so i got a job it doesn’t pay well so i’ve been saving i almost have enough to get an apartment, the triplets tried to help especially my boyfriend Chris but i wouldn’t allow it, Chris is the best thing that’s happened to me, we’ve been dating for 2 years now. i was coming home from a morning shift it was around 1:30 pm and i was in my room taking my hair out of my pony tail

“y/n! get your ass down here now!!” my dad yells. he’s drunk i could go down there but it wouldn’t end well, i could stay in here but he’ll probably come looking for me so i force myself down stairs

“hey dad what’s up!” i say not to happy not to mean or sad

“where the fuck have you been!” he yells

“i was at work dad” i have to be careful he’ll think im talking back

“DONT LIE TO ME!” he yells, i flinch “YOU ARE YOU FLINCHING YOU THINK IM GONNA HURT YOU HUH??”

“no i was just surprised by the yelling that’s all” i resisted him, stay calm

“YOU THINK IM GONNA HURT YOU?? OKAY LET ME SHOW YOU HURT” he grabs one of the empty beer cans on the coffee table that’s in the living room and chucks it at me before i can react it hits me in the face

“DAD STOP PLEASE” i beg my face hurts

“NO YOU WANT NE TO HURT YOU SO HURT” he’s marching over to me

“dad no please” i beg, he pushes me and i stumble to the ground

“you’re just a little bitch like you’re mother, A WORTHLESS PEICE OF SHIT AND A FUCKING LIAR” he kicks me in my stomach

“FUCK!” i yell “dad please it’s me you’re little girl!! i’m you’re best friend!!”

he throws his half full beer can at me and it shatters all over me

“clean this fucking mess up” he says before he walks away

i don’t cry not now that will only make things worse, i clean up the glass shards and make sure there’s no beer any where, then i go to the bathroom and clean myself up. i grab a change of clothes and change.

“where the fuck is it!!” i whisper yell to myself, then i find it. my pink Whitney, i start to drink it and it’s about half way full, i set it down and grab my backpack full of things i need for the night already since this happens often and i leave.

as i’m walking down the street with my drink in hand i’m slowly getting drunk. i have no clue where im going just walking, and drinking.

i’ve been walking for what feels like 2 hours but it wasn’t, i check the time and it’s now 3:02 i check my surroundings and i’m near a gas station i go in and grab some more alcohol and some snacks, i finish my Whitney and open the new drink of vodka, i sit in the side of the road with my drink and snacks i eat a small bag of Dorito’s and put the rest of the snacks in my backpack.

“where should i go??” i ask myself checking to see if there’s any hotels near by, there’s one it’s kinda sketchy but it will do. i start walking there and i’m stumbling now, i’m way to drunk to even check in

“fuck what am i gonna do” i slur and laugh at myself “i’m just like my dad”

i sit on the side of the road again and think about the shitty things. i see cars drive by but one of them looks like the triplets car but i convince myself its not. i’m proved wrong when the car comes back and stops, im to drunk to do anything and in still drinking away at my vodka i see a worried chris jump out the car.

“y/n!” he yells i flinch

“stop!” i jump up “stay there” im scared i don’t know why, cause it’s chris i love chris.

“y/n baby please let me help you” he says calmly but worried

“chris..” i start tears are ready to spill out, he slowly makes his way towards me

“i know baby, i know” he wraps his arms around me and starts the rub my back.

“chris why can’t he just love me” im balling into his shoulder

“shhh it’s okay ma let it out” he’s still rubbing my back

“why can’t he just be my dad again” im shaking now with the how bad im crying

“come on let’s go to my house” he says leading me to the car “nick will you get in front”

“yeah” he jumps out and happily gets the car this makes me laugh

“nicks in heaven right now” i tell chris

“yea definitely” he laughs with me

we get into the back and i’m in Chris’s arms again and he’s rubbing my back, we make it to the triplets house in about 10 minutes and chris takes me to his room

“let’s get you cleaned up” he says softly, i nod

“thank you chris” i smile weakly at him

“anything for you baby” he smiles back at me “so tell me what happened”

“i had just gotten home from work and changed i was taking my hair out of my pony tail” i pause

“yea you had a morning shift, and i know how you get headaches when having you’re hair up to long” he adds

“mhm, he tells me for me to get downstairs and u knew it would’ve been worse if i didn’t go so i did.” i’m about to cry again “i shouldn’t have i should’ve hid” some tears spill out

“it’s not you’re fault, it never is” chris rubs my cheek

“then he starts asking me where i was, i told him the truth and he didn’t like that he thought i was lying so..” i pause

“shh take you’re time”

“so.” i pause and sniffle “he throws a beer bottle at my head” i cry

“my poor baby” he wraps his arms around my shoulders

“then he pushes me down and kicks me in my stomach. and lastly he threw another beer bottle at me but that one was half way full” i sob again

“next time don’t drink call me please” he asks me

“yes i will promise” i pull away ana smile at him “can we take a nap?”

“how about first you hop into the shower i’ll get you some clothes then we can nap” he asks

“yea i thinks a shower would be good” i go to start the shower and he gets me clean clothes.

“i got you my blue lyrical lemonade hoodie cause i know that’s you’re favorite, and some basketball shorts cause i know you can’t sleep in pants” he sets it on the counter

“i would be able to sleep in pants on you were a human heater” i laugh

“you know you love me” he kisses me “might wanna brush your teeth to” he laughs

“hey!” i swat his arm and laugh to

i strip my clothes and get into the shower, i have to use chris’s products which sucks but i try to get him good stuff so he’s not using 3 in 1. it was a quick shower because i was exhausted. i dry myself off and change into the clothes.

“babe can you scratch my back” i ask

“yea i guess” he jokes

“yay thank you” i get into bed and wrap my arms around chris so he’ll be able to scratch my back while we cuddle “thank you for everything chris it means a lot i love you” i tell him

“anything for you y/n i love you so much” he starts to scratch my back

“i love you to” i drift off to sleep

sorry this lowkey sucks i was rushing but lmk if u wanna be added to my tags list, hope you enjoyed, sorry i did fluff there’s just like no fluff images and i HATE the ones if wattpad so im trying in here but i have a smut in the makings its gonna be rlly good, better than this at least.

[hockeylovincountrygirl16]

`Finding Out

december 2022

Luke's Pov) I was out with Ethan mark Seamus and Dylan when my phone rang and i saw my girlfriend Megann sent me a text and i opened it seeing a picture of a positive pregnancy test.

"holy shit" i said causing the guys to look at me

" Rusty you alright" ethan asked and i showed him my phone and he laughed slightly

" Lukey boy dang I thought you were taught to wrap it but congrats" Mark said and i scowled

" Fuck off Marcus" I said as i put my phone down

" what are you going to do you go to jersey in March" Seamus said and i groaned

"I got to talk to her" i said asmi got up

"well be here" ethan said as i walked to the door and left to meganns place

one i got thier i used my key and walked in

" Baby you here "I asked

"in the living room"

i walked into the living room and saw her sitting there with tears in her eyes

" what are we going to do Luke my parents are going to flip I'm going to law school not to mention that your going to the show in like six months"

"baby calm down ill take on everything if need be as for your parents we are 19 are we young fuck yes we are but we love eachother more than anything and i know little moose will be loved so much" i said and she laughed

"little moose? really." she said and i shrugged

"it sounded alot better in my head" i said and sheshook her head

"our little moose i love it"

" anyway how far along are you" i asked

" well if my calculations are right my period is three months late so three months at least"

"Jesus megs and you just barely figured it out"

"Well let's see the last time we slept together I had ran out of birth control three days prier and had yet to call, the pharmacy and you insisted on not wearing protection" she said and my face flushed

"Fair and now how to tell our families" I said as I kissed her stomach that was protruding from her tshirt

" we should do something "

" what"

"anytime were together you fit bump my bump until little moose is born" she said and i smiled as i bumped my fist to her small bump

"im so excited summers are gonna be so fun hell my whole life is about to change not only am i going to the show but im gonna be a dad " i said

" yea were gonna be parents" she said

[camp-queer-and-there]

lucille my old hag can you hit that

THIS SHIT LACED😭 im forreal a freak just lmk👀👅 ohio skibidi toilet oi oi oi😏 maxdesignpro WHAT!? HELP ME! HELP = 👍 fetus sebastian hes so ugly i cant would you rather have 1 million dollars or CANCER! art is lowkey so amazingly beautiful...gigachad sigma LET HIMM COOK!🗣️🗣️ uwu >_< anyone got anyone spongebob x reader👀 only in eastern latvia💀 ohio final boss grimace shake charlie the steak ishowspeed kai cenat the amazing digital circus pomni garten of banban caseoh gyatt super mogger looksmaxxing based and redpilled diabolical lick😈erm what the sigma oh! thats not!- getting my top surgery done at claires POV: youre ben shapiros mom and hes convincing to let him get gta5 i feel like calling you a slur.. what type of gay are you, since you dont have it in your bio... the european mind cannot comprehend this drew phillips: hello im drew phillips the ahh magic i finna be in the pit on cap. 123°!? gurrrll we are not thanksgiving turkeys😂and thats on period fahrenheit lankybox elisocray INSANE UNBOXING! gegagedigedagedago we can go gyatt for gyatt fuck that we can go rizz for rizz 19 bucks for the fortnite card double pump with the fanum tax THE BIG APPLE! drake vs kendrick beef p diddy dr disrespect annoying orange if garlic was a person my name is drake and im here to say.. kendrick lamar your disses arent okay! diss me diss me now you gotta kiss me quandale dingle mf doom dookie baby girl my pookie wubbleshmubble kins whats hurts more than being yelled at be skinned alive probably pov: i am your cashier during february (and i notice you are black) you look like tyler the creator if he was in my dreams ray william johnson sybrian dancing lady oh when the saints go marching in oh when the saints go marching in todoroki gives birth alone jumbo josh is lost in the zumb sauce lightskin touch the moon bozo cant im walking my fish why are frogs so stupid show me your griddy show me your griddy.... show me your... DOHHH THATS ONE WAY TO HIT THE GRIDDY. THATS ONE WAY TO HIT THE GRIDDY grwm to go to bath and body works temu workers getting ready to clock in day in the life of a twitch streamer your final challenge.. let yo bih go through your phone!... AH HELL NAW YO ASS TWEAKIN JIGSAW quavo stop thats the gayest shit ever amoeba sisters angst preppycon 2024 kart ride into spongebob youve been here before.. a weirdcore dreamcore kidcore clowncore playlist. my talking tom her body tea is insane😭 my aura is unmatched DO NOT PLAY CREEPY BATH GAME AT 3AM!!!!!!!! *THIS IS WHY* ALMOST DROWNED school isnt done but i am💀 omg u did call me baby.. maybe ..omg did he call her baby.. maybe.. im not okay..... bark for me. pov family dinner😭💀why u so pissed ...what me when i get mustard for christmas yall when i put on my dad fit "FREAKYbob" I AINT ANSWERING!! HELPP IM DEADDDD wait no im not maya winky boyfriend takes you out to eat but his opps slide on him [boyfriend asmr] mrbeast might ne TOO BIG to he cancelled squid games i hope someone dies and goes to hell today me staring at the sephora employee in the eye as i "sample" a $800 perfume cats when you cover their cage with a blanket blud thinks hes the main character💀 omg a rare gyatt sighting ninja fortnite sneako the ocky way new yorkian vermontian how 10 yr old me felt after putting "i dont speak tags" in an argument holy fricking smokes dude.. my cut is insane... shout out to my barber dawg! bro thinks hes the thinker waterless baked water what i would wear to my isis execution why did my dog just punch me😓 #STOPBULLYING💯

i mean.. i kind of ocd😁 you mean OBESity stop doing the golden freddy pose youre scaring the kids when a client wants to trauma dump first session when i dont have enough diamonds on episode so now i gotta shit in the school hallway in front of my crush phone and youtube video lobster activity someone shot trump in the ear he wouldnt have missed goku drip well my mother always said the best flowers get picked first dudes been waiting for his mcflurry since 1786 ladies ladies one at a time please😍 rio de janeiro the oppblock hazbin hotel boy rejoice creepy autism simulator my scary silent hill whos ivan mac n cheeks freak island home sweet home.. blud always looking at sum😭😭😭when face id acting up so you gotta LOCK IN fuck im washed WAIT IM GOATED why the mob isnt a fucking aesthetic: a thread this where the magic happens👅 style griddy👀

what

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[scream4ash]

tw 4 addiction, talks of self harm, talks of disordered eating, mental illness, self destructive tendencies, just overall me being a piece of shit.

hey, guys. ash here. i guess i wanna apologize for just dissapearing. when i had originally started posting, and decided i was going to be a writer i was sober, n in a better headspace. since then i have relapsed, n fallen into the cycle of addiction n destruction n just overall have not been in a good place.

i have struggled with substance abuse since i was around 13, mainly being alcohol or weed due to easy access. more recently in january of this year i had started abusing antihistamines. that way, i could tell myself it was just medicine, there was no harm in what i was doing. for those of you who don’t know, antihistamines are anti-allergy meds.

on march 17, i had overdosed. my girlfriend had found me on my bedroom floor seizing out. i was brought to the hospital via ambulance, n released the same day. i would love to say i stopped, n i realized the way im going would kill me, but i didnt. i had overdosed again 8 days later. this time when i was brought in to the er i was put on suicide watch. then i wouldve denied any attempts at harming myself, but deep down i didnt care the outcome. though im just now realizing i never really cared about what’d happen to me, but i think part of me always knew. i knew the consequences, i decided that god shall decide my fate.

i was then transferred from the er to a psychiatric unit where i was treated for depression n bipolar disorder.

when i was released a week later i decided it would be a new chapter. i had gotten a job, i was sober, n most importantly people saw me.

that lasted for around two months. the euphoria i felt had all come crashing down. i had slowly rejoined the forgotten, my own friends forgetting about me. i had fell back into isolation n self-hatred. i was fading out again, n no one noticed. no one noticed when i had started skipping meals, or the way my body physically could not allow itself to keep a single bite of food down, or the lack of sleep, even the empty look in my eyes. i have yet again fallen into the hand of addiction, seeking comfort from what i know is no longer there, what may have never been there in the first place. i have barely left my house, only going outside to walk my dog. i can no longer recognize who i see in the mirror. more recently i havent even been able to get out of bed to go to work.

i feel the need to clarify that i am 19 years old, the life i am living is not the life to live. i am actually all alone in the world. guys, if u, or a friend, or a parent, or a loved one, hell even ur worst enemy. if anyone u know, or may know of is struggling with addiction, let them know you are there. let them know that you havent gave up, youre still fighting for them. if ur thinking about trying drugs, or alcohol, hell even weed. don’t. take it from me. dont.

i havent been very active on here, n i am sorry. i am going to reopen my requests and start posting short works/blurbs. i will also get to the requests in my inbox, n those will be filled as blurbs. again, i’m sorry 4 bailing on you guys.

also so super sorry for the sob story, idk. kinda feels good to get this shit of my chest. idk, makes me feel like u guys know me kinda.

@calumikey @ashen-char @f4ngtooth @theactualqueenelizabeth @brittanysnowsgf @iheartambss @phorsphyn @spiderb00 @allsovls @jennaortegaswifey @liaisbaeee @xxxninjaxxx23 @chaejiberry @nohumanityhope @blakeroni @mm-myluv @amberfreemanmygirlfriend @lilahaga @mikeymisser @carolcunha7 @not-alesha @burninghotlava @shaunashipmanism @chaoticghosthoagiegoop @paigesbabymama @spidersareskrunkly @ghostampire @cursedashes @yveslish

tried to tag all of my followers, or as many that it’d tag. idk, i really want this to be seen.

[youngveinsworld]

the young veins at sxsw

On 19 March 2010, the Young Veins played a set at the Dirty Dog Bar in Austin, Texas, as a part of South By Southwest (SXSW) film and music festival.

^ Photograph by Flickr user roblynn529

Several old friends of Ryan and Jon were also playing at SXSW that year. Jon reconnected with his former 504 Plan bandmate Tom Conrad (more info about it in this post). Travie McCoy and Patrick stump also both played at the Dirty Dog bar on the same night that the Young Veins did. According to this website, the lineup was:

9:00pm - The Young Veins 9:45pm - Travie McCoy and the Lazarus Project 10:15pm - New Politics (a Danish band that was signed to Decaydance) 11:00pm - Patrick Stump 01:00am - Hole

Both Travie and Patrick were newly solo artists in March 2010, as both Gym Class Heroes and Fall Out Boy went on hiatus the year before in 2009. This SXSW show was Patrick's first performance as a solo artist, where he debuted some new songs that would go on to be on his 2011 solo album Soul Punk.

^ Travie and Patrick at SXSW 2010. Photographs by Dan Boczarski.

Pete Wentz did not attend the show but posted an explanation on his blog several days later, explaining that he had wanted to see Patrick and the Young Veins but had feared his presence overshadowing his friends' music:

Sucks that I feel like i even have to address this, but i have had so many people hitting me up about that i will. people saying i left austin before patricks show or was there and just didnt go. first off: i was in a completely different part of texas the night before last san padre (sp?) djing a spring break party (spring break wooo!) and then i flew to dallas to meet my family and fly home. i was in austin at south by southwest a week ago and flew home the night after i hosted an event. even if i had been in austin i would not have gone to the crush showcase. why? not because i wouldnt want to see all the bands (young veins and patrick included). but because i think the media would have scrutinized me being there- like i was still trying to steal patricks spotlight, like i was trying to make it about me (theres a reason im not sending this through twitter- this is for the fans). while all the shit going on with fall out boy is hard for me. i completely support the other guys musical endeavors. we were friends before the band and we will be after. i think its ridiculous that the media keep trying to pit us against each other. i got the chance to watch the show on cruddy youtube quality video and it still looked and sounded great to me. im okay being made out to be the villain. maybe i am even the villain. but dont make it seem like i hate one of my best friends.

^ Ryan at SXSW 2010 photographed by Dan Boczarski.

[imalsorettish]

Ive been processing materials all week trying to make clay. Heres how it went, ill add to this as the days go by. this is just a recap

Gathered clay from my folks backyard. The soil there has always been shit to grow things in because its so high in clay. And the clay sits directly at the surface as well, its not just a foot down or anything. the whole fucking thing is clay. Ive tried to do this once when i was much younger, less even paced, and far more impulsive. It wasnt successful for a number of reasons.

- Got the material wet before i could even attempt to refine it down to just clay, which then meant id have to pick thru sludge with my hands to remove rocks and other debris.

- I decided to let the bucket sit to dry out, and then i never picked it up again.

- Straight up didnt know what i was doing. Well, i knew the essentials. It was obvious we had clay. I knew it had to be wet. It occurs to me now that i might have had an easy time recogbizing what was there and what to do because my grest grandparents were potters. My Mémé (Great grandma, ik it says meme. whats truly hilarious is she married a guy called pepe.) was a BITTER and mean woman. She and my grandmother would let me play with clay while i visited them, but i dont have good memories of this. I didnt investigate the craft due to the discouragement i got from them both. i found it intensely frustrating and it really clashed w my adhd.

- Clay takes a LOT of patience to work with. Even more to source it yourself and fiddle with the consistencies and ratios so u can manipulate into an actual piece, and EVEN THEN its not guaranteed that it will work well at ALL. Pieces often crack, dry incorrectly, shrink up, and even explode esp in the kiln. I do not nor have ever had a pottery wheel or a kiln. My only goal to satisfy doing this, then, was just to make clay and do nothing with it at all. Just to try it, see what my capabilities were, etc. There was absolutely no plan.

Since then, I found myself thinking about clay periodically. Every few months or so id return back only to the idea, and then brush it off. But ive never quite shaken it. I was 19 then. I turn 24 this march. Its been 5 years. So im trying it again, because i want to, and because i found pottery that finally interested me and i think would be fun and challenging to make.

[angelicalbones]

March 5th 2024

I'm going to start actually posting real updates and mking it all aesthetic and shit as motivation. I currently am a tublord and do not look like i belong in the aethetics I enjoy so this is a way to remind myself daily what Im fighting for. There will be tagged #angelicalupdates for anyone who gets tired of em!

Goal Stats

Weight: 105 lb / 47 kg

Chest: 36 in / 92 cm

Waist: 26 in / 65 cm

Hip: 36 in / 92 cm

Thigh: 19 in / 53 cm

Current Monthly Stats

Weight: 218 lb / 98.8

Height: 5'3 / 160 cm

Chest: 50 in / 127 cm

Waist: 39 in / 99 cm

Hip: 47 in / 119 cm

Thigh: 23 in / 58 cm

Daily updates/plans

Today is the very first day back on my 48 hour fast 500 cal break. I saw great progress on it when i did it last month for nearly two straight weeks so we will see how it treats me thru the rest of the month. Thankfully my mother is also anorexic as fuck anbd my dad has diabetes he is controlling so neither of them eat and will not notice shit about me with how busy they are.

Plus that also means endless streams of protein shakes and shit which help me thru these long fasts like a charm and help boost my energy.

I cant drink energy drinks anymore bc they cause absolute havoc on my GERD so hopefully i can get my mother to buy matcha. love matcha lattes, they kill my appetite on first sip, and they actually give me energy unlie coffee or energy drinks which just fulfill my caffiene addiction needs.

Currently on hour 11.5 for 48 so fingers crossed.

also trying to bribe one of my siblings to let me steal their ps2 bc i hate working out unless its ddr and i can do that shit for HOURS and burn like 400+ calories like nothin'.

9:15 pm

got the ps2 w/o a powercord so thaats tomorrows problem. got some booze and its settled my brain so im not even hunry anymore which is spectacular. watchi g supersize v super skiny nd scrolling th!nsp0 to end my night.

hour 23/48

[maximuswolf]

Coffee felt like a meth high?

Coffee felt like a meth high? So I've had my fair share of coffee drinking. Some days 3 cups.. some days 1 cup. I have been on a carnivore diet the past month and a half (besides coffee haha) and took a whole week off from drinking coffee. Then after that week without it, I went back to drinking about 1 cup a day maybe 1.5 cups at most with some butter and salt for about a week. Here's when it got weird. Yesterday morning at around 4:30am ( only slept 10p-230a that night) I decided to run down to my local QT to grab a Medium cup of their Dark Roast. Everything was fine.. got home around 4:50am.. played some video games as I was drinking my coffee I suddenly felt a panic/anxiety sensation set it. I'm 28yo and have experience anxiety/panic, since I was 7yr old. But I've NEVER had this feeling from coffee. I have had my fair share of drug abuse from 16-23 on and off and have used cocaine and meth quite a bit. As this coffee was "setting in" it literally felt like a meth high/come down, just minus the intense euphoria if that makes sense? I drank the Medium cup of dark roast at 5am and it lasted until 12pm noon the same day, until I decided to take two tylenol PM's to calm me down. Hot chest... anxiety out the ass. Typical for a meth come down for me in the past. Has ANYONE ever felt anything like that from coffee? I legit feel the coffee was laced with something lol or was extra extra strong (I've had the same coffee from QT before and was fine). I really would like some answers or explanations. It felt like the coffee buzz was never going to stop bro.. shit was weird and im hesitant to drink coffee now LOL sheeeesh. Submitted March 19, 2023 at 07:55AM by Natural-Night6677 https://ift.tt/JnXgBOI via /r/Coffee

[bigmoneypastelhalloween]

0 hr - late jan edition

0 hr 1 - fanart credits

O hr 3 - call for fanart

0 hr 5 - vulgarity warning lol

O hr 6 - its his show, cant tiptoe all the time

0 hr 7 - merch link in description

0 hr 8 - its a catch-up program

0 hr 9 - doesnt think its going to be even an hour long

0 hr 10 - its been 12 years; "i cant believe it"

0 hr 11 - he's not in existential crisis over how time flies

0 hr 13 - as long as he has the drive and resources he'll be around

0 hr 14 - has contemplated quitting

0 hr 16 - hold or fold questions

0 hr 19 - positive feedback abounds for the work he does

0 hr 20 - having a meaningful impact on others never gets old

0 hr 23 - listeners have his gratitude

O hr 24 - giving shit a shot inspo memo

0 hr 26 - trying to make money is cursed, dont bother

0 h 28 - email addy, call for responses

0 hr 29 - resend emails he hasnt replied to

0 hr 31 - "you'll be credited however you want to be credited"

0 hr 32 - decline in fastfood quality

0 hr 34 - [nasty taco descrip] "...yknow, bon appetite. It was disgusting, it was horrible, it was disgusting" (but how was it?)

0 hr 35 - in/shrinkflation agenda truther

0 hr 36 - will people rise up against gouging, is it a conspiracy to get us to eat bugs (if so im well into letting them win)

0 hr 38 - what do listeners see fastfood turning into? Email repeat

0 hr 39 - turkey/syria earthquake news, he's rattled

0 hr 40 - no tsunami but thats the best you can say

0 hr 41 - attn listeners, have you ever been in an earthquake and if so whats the worst youve experienced? 2nd tsunami mention

0 hr 42 - segment shift, addressing feedback about covid tp hoarding

0 hr 44 - fanart transition

0 hr 45 - responding to first covid tp buyer, next email read

0 hr 46 - on reselling

0 hr 47 - "i got into the mask thing--I'll get in trouble for saying this but i dont care--i got into the mask thing back when they were telling you not to wear them"

0 hr 48 - honestly lowkey hysterical laughter about "they said not to wear one"

0 hr 49 - p sure "and thats a good thing" is the martha stewart cultural juggernaut at work

0 hr 51 - doomerism

0 hr 52 - more early mask adopter /vanguardist smugness, well deserved, somewhat cheerful relatively speaking

0 hr 55 - next email about the why of buying differently during the pandemic

0 hr 57 - its good to be prepared for natural disasters 🌠

0 hr 58 - listener email about their moms tp hoarding

0 hr 59 - j doesnt believe unity about issues is possible, "we're so disjointed these days"........holy war! Holy war! *banging on table*

1 hr - prepping is ideally a bit at a time endeavor, he's encouraging hacking away at it

1 hr 2 - next email; more abt manufactured demand and artificially driven shortage

1 hr 3 - if you'd told people a few years before covid that theyd be fighting over toilet paper theyd have said youre crazy but here we are...... Indeed.

1 hr 4 - next email, including excerpt from march 2020

1 hr 8 - responding

1 hr 10 - anything else to discuss? Covid origin headline

1 hr 13 - looking for travel vlog video abt bat viruses

1 hr 15 - discussion abt eating this bat

1 hr 16 - sounds like a lightening round of "will the honky eat it tho"/"he clearly wants to go for impact, so...."

1 hr 19 - notes abt next show

1 hr 20 - happy rest of feb & march as well

[mpathicoracle]

h a havent updated this in a hot while, took a break from it for a hot min but slowly working on the journey a bit more...still....not done with s1's journey yet im suffering with it. slow but steady ig

Total length of time from "Pinariv" to "End Appalachian Nomadic Trail": 81 days (2 months 19 days)

Total journey so far: 234 days (7 months 12 days) Vagabond spends appx 5 months 2 weeks in one place for Reasons(TM) haha spoilers

Plan is to have the entirety of the first season last one full yr it's... getting there. Slowly but surely. Just past Nashville will probably be the end of the 8th month, roughly.

Related, I did actually change up how their calendar would potentially look like. Scientifically, our years are technically getting longer, so I changed it from 365 days to 367, just for simplicity's sake. It's as follows:

January- 31 days February- 30 days March- 30 days April- 30 days May- 31 days June- 31 days July- 31 days August- 31 days September- 30 days October- 30 days November- 31 days December- 31 days

Makes more sense considering Winter and Summer are more commonly the "longer" parts of the year, as compared to Spring and Autumn. And cuz why not, and cuz it's easier for me to calculate the length of time for this shit asgfjksgkj

Anyway, this thing is going to take literal Ages and I'm suffering still. But it's worth it

-screams of agony echo in the distance-

[dirt-grub]

YO wait what if i asked to go to the city for christmas or smth.... i havent been in forever its been like three years i think (edit i cant bc covid duh but its a nice thought lol)

[han-solo-cant-dance]

A chiropractor in my hometown in Wisconsin, USA is handing these out in their practice and posting them up

[lvrboy-mlm]

hey there’s some sad stuff in the tags bc i’m yearning and not in the fun way so